#P0l_anka rambles

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Okay I'm gonna cry, I'm going to see my Queen Hwaryun again, welp 😭

Okay for everyone confused with me simping over the Queen, TOG is coming back mid-november

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Me : Searching a missing person documentary film-

Youtube : "Would you like to see exploding whales instead?" 👀

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Bitch, I ran from my bed going to the shower cz the two cats opened the shower again,and they got spooked, so they dragged the aluminum shelves with the shampoos and bodywash down the floor.

Ending, I strained my back.

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Imagine ff me for proper TOG contents but will realize I post too much Khunbam angst

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I've been living in my apartment for three years now and I cannot remember anyone's name, even the landlord, so I just call everyone Ma'am and Sir because I'd rather die than ask again their name?

It’s been 14 years and I still don’t know my neighbor’s name

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My mood always consists of me throwing around hundreds of prompts without breaking a sweat, to just glaring at my drafts and getting food to eat until I forget the drafts.

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Tower of God Rambles

Where Khun is the notorious disciplinary president who doesn't give shit and gives punishment to students no matter how small the breaking of rules is. Rules is rules, his motto.

Then one day at the start of the new semester, his secretary reported to him that the new transfer student, Bam, was late which he personally requested for to be brought to him for questions, much to his secretary 's mortification and awe when he told Bam to go back to his class- unscathed. No disciplinary action or whatsoever.

His secretary didn't saw the band aid with flower print on his finger.

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Forcing dozens of teens and young adults to go sleep on their bedtime will get me grey hair at this point.

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Writing smut makes me lose one braincell per minute.

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Im feeling so burn out with everything.

I'm burn out with work. I want to resign so badly and just retire from my career. I don't want to resign, shift and re-apply just to change and relocate office. I want to stop doing architecture and design permanently. I want another work away from it, I don't care if it's a low paying job like a barista or what. I want to stop going back and forth to other countries and to leave my two cats every single time. Im tired of it. I want to stop the whole day drawing and designing and meeting, and pretending to smile and enjoying the company of the clients. I'm sick of it.

I want to go back to writing and I'm trying for a few months now just to produce and complete even just one of my dozens of wips. And none is working. The wip is progressing, and i managed to finished one rough draft but i don't have an emotional attachment on it. I've been slumped in writer's block for a few months now and it's taking a toll on the pressure I'm feeling to create.

I just need that one story. I need that emotional connection like my previous works. I just want to write and create but i don't feel like im doing a good job on it. That all my wip is trash so I'm resorting to deleting the whole draft just to rewrite it again, and repeat the cycle of delete - rewrite again and again and again.

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My mother everytime i say 10 curse words in one sentence

In my defense, i was left unsupervised in the construction site, with burly guys who curses like a sailor xD

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I know someone out there hates me, its ur chance

Anonymously tell me how you feel about me. I can't reply, I just have to read it and post it.

Pleaseeee

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Me: How can people be so careless with their things?

Also me: losing the notebook that has the complete draft for the next chapter of Pens and Papers.

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Great. I'm on zoom presentation call with my boss and all the stake holders, and my cat jumped on my other laptop, which is open on spotify and Slump of Stray Kids is on pause. And it suddenly played on full volume on chorus. And everyone just went quiet.

Just fucking kill me

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Good morning everyone, a kind reminder that it's okay if you cannot handle everything today, It's okay if you need to take long breaks,

It's okay if you feel a lack of motivation.

We are thankful you are here. Be gentle to yourself.

Eat, rest and hydrate, happy weekend!

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Me 🤝 my 300+ tabs of few months old Khunbam, Todomido and Momojirou fics