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So I had a mental breakdown today.
Like one of those involving snot, tears, the overwhelming urge to do something that might hurt yourself, not being able to breath...
That shit.
Let's not forget the cramping my body tends to do in these situations...
Or the intense shivering which makes me look like an utter idiot.
In the middle of class.
I wanna bury myself now and never return?
Please?
I just need to rant about this now because I'll just suppress everything if I don't which will make me feel worse probably :::)
#ranting#Atelophobia and Atychiphobia don't pare well with my anxiety#And everything else#No art this time#rant post#mentally fucked#Woohoo#Why can't I stop embarassing myself?#I'm still on the verge of bawling my eyes out after like three hours#you wanna know why it happened?#Sure#It's pathetic but yeah#I couldn't get something right in a Programm and everyone else did and me being the person who usually gets things extremely fast and is the#One esplaining it to others of course got increasingly frustrated because it just wouldn't work although I did every step the way it had to#Be done. It just didn't work and I searched for a way to solve it for over an hour while everyone else had it and me being me of course#Doesn't get the teacher because I'm just insufferable like that and once everyone was like wth did you do with that I kinda spiraled#So that's that#Fucking fear of failure and imperfection#I should probably remove any sharp things from my room...#And I should probably delete this later#Or I'll forget about it#Hashtag ranting
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"consuming media" is such an overstatement. at best I'm sipping it
#not *savoring* it#just sipping it#slowly and lackadaisically and absently mindedly taking a bit here a bit there#no rush. I'll watch one or two episodes now. and finish the season circa 2029#(it might even have a whole new season by then)#listen my goal is not to get “caught up”#my goal is to get through 15% of the narrative and enjoy it! it's fun! it's good stuff! i really like where this is going!#and then i firget about it for 2 years and have to rewatch everything I've seen#and then i get to the 30% point and yeah wow! this is fun! i enjoyed that! time for a little break#and then another 2 years pass and i forget about it and have to rewatch from the b
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i miss them so much it's not even funny anymore chat
the designs are @y0gurtfae 's!!! please go check out their peak art <3
#art#digital art#artwork#my art#hermitcraft#life series#wild life smp#wild life fanart#ldshadowlady#solidaritygaming#goodtimeswithscar fanart#boat boys bad boys and BAM i love you so dearly it's not even funny#i keep saying i'll draw things in the tags and then i forget about it#so just. i'll probably draw my other fav life series pairups sometime. maybe. at some point LMAOO
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#vampire hunter d#vhd#art#illustration#I think I like best how it's a recall of klimt's figures but in contrast D is alone - an emphasis of his solitude#The gold surrounding him a symbol of his status and how above it all he his - looking past us to something we can't even imagine#Don't forget to check out the VHD Zine ! P-O opened yesterday ( can't believe Saiko of all people is in it omg )#also yeah ~ I'll be making prints of it~#I have to get things into order but do keep an eye out if you're interested!#I think it'd be cool to look into gold foil too ooh ꒰´͈ 0 ॣ`͈⌗꒱💖#Hmm ~ but yes the motif I had going into this drawing was the “horseman of death”#makes me think about the brothers and which ones they would symbolize of the the remaining horsemen....#anyways have a wonderful day ! (❀ •̀ᴗ•́ )っ♡#and now onto the next D drawing🌚
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i'm really so curious how deeply tbhx is gonna go with its whole premise of "heroes are made and gain powers based on trust" because i really wasn't anticipating that
1) moon/xiao yueqing has teleportation-based powers but because everyone wants her and nice to stick together, her teleportation leads back to nice which was INSANE to me
and
2) lin ling is becoming increasingly more worried about being clean and perfect which is a side effect of nice's image of perfection which is indicating that this whole trust system can have mental effects??? and that's horrifying to me???
we are 2 episodes in, how deep is this gonna go
#pj talks#y'know this kinda makes how moon didn't rly fight during the first ep fight make a little more sense#'cause like if her only thing is being able to tp to nice and they're kinda in a very enclosed space#where the termination letters are getting shot out and all then she can't do much#also moon's entire job kinda being planned from the start even from when she started travel-blogging.......#we're probably never gonna see moon again after that episode and thank GOD for that go get your life back queen#but thank you for the bits of your life you did tell us#i'm eating this shit up#eh y'know what#to be hero x#need to see other ppl speculate on how bad this could get#also need other ppl to be rly deeply worried about the mental side effects thing w me#bc i was considering that#before the episode#is it possible for ppl to believe so hard in lin ling being nice that lin ling starts to just forget who he is#but i was like. pshhhhhh no right.#that couldn't happen right?? you can't literally affect his brain and sense of self right??#um well. i'll be the first to say i was Wrong
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whoops it's been a year and a half and i finally made references for all my tavs
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#tav#durge#usually i don't put a lot of detail in but i wanted full refs for tattoos/scars/freckles etc#cyra looking like a regency painting of a haunted doll is so important to me#dorian is always 90% sweater so i forget he's a farm boy and he's fucking BUILT#ashe has glass bones and paper skin#i am beating the same face syndrome allegations one day at a time#one day i'll make a comic about how long hair wash day takes for cyra because wow
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drawings from paleo expedition to dagestan, done right on the trip. sometimes messy when it was cold and rainy, but i won't correct it. i think it's cool to leave it just the way it was done, and not retouch it after. there will be more drawings later, but those will be done from home
#i need to draw for 2 museums at least to then send it to them as a gift cuz people there were so nice???? AAAA#and yeah im definitely doing back#maybe in autumn... who knows#barghestland#art#artists on tumblr#and#paleoart#???#in a way it is i guess#also i usually don't share things from my sketchbook. but these drawings hold so many nice memories#of clouds that hide top of the mountains#of sitting on a rock#drawing and seeing a scorpion vibing next to u (tiny friend!)#of leaning on a big cow and almost falling asleep on a field with her after the rain#of... forgetting the pain too#of not wanting to even talk about the wonderful time i've had. because it was only for me to remember#so much happened up in the mountains that i'll never forget#thank u big rocks and soil and grass and apricot trees i love you#...#paleoland#fieldbook_barghest_land
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This wine tastes like pigs blood!
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan wangji#jin zixun#wei wuxian#su she#(Su She needs to have his carrie moment before he can have his Carrie Moment.#Which means he needs to exist as a punching bag before he can hit 'em with the rebound).#My first draft of this comic had WWX slurping LWJ's wine per actual scene canon#As it really is a great scene of how WWX is willing to absorb the scandal and harm that befalls others.#It had a lot less to do with it being LWJ and more so that WWX just happens to be the kind of person who refuses to turn a blind eye.#It could have been any Lan who was being pressured (inappropriately) to drink (do not pressure anyone to drink irl PLEASE).#Because this is a romance plot it of course *is* LWJ. But don't forget that in this moment they aren't on great terms.#It's not a knight in shining armor moment - it's a 'you were being treated unjustly and I have the power to absolve you from that.'#And as we are very soon about to see - WWX certainly cannot turn away from those who need aid he can provide.#And like Jin Guangyao; that kindness is also his downfall.#By the way - that you all for the amazing community commentary on the last comic. I really loved reading everyone's thoughts!#Suyao shippers...I get it now. You had me at 'wen ning and WWX parallels'. I'll be back with a treat for you soon.#And yes 'everyone' does include the ironically named tumblr user jin zixun.#Who blocked me right before the character makes his pd-mdzs debut.#I hope you are well. You seem like you were having a real bad time yesterday.
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having the mando feels again how r we doing today chat 🫠
#i miss them sm u don't understand#u think i'll ever forget about them? naurrr even when everyone moves on i'll still be here#din djarin#grogu#the mandalorian#mando#baby yoda#pedro pascal#clan mudhorn#star wars#my art
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Welcome to the reverse verse! This is part 1 of 2 of a commission for @i-am-as-normal-as-you-are and I can't wait to tell you all about it, because I'm incapable of being normal and chill about these concepts, so I ran with it.
Charles Rowland was born in 1900, his mum was from India and moved to the UK after marrying Charles' dad, a soldier who was not... very loving. Charles' heritage gave him some problems, but none as bad as that one time in 1916 when he was sacrificed to a demon and spent the next 7 decades in Hell. He doesn't like to talk about it, except when it can get him what he wants. He was always an angry boy, or so he thought, but after his time spent in Hell, it became so much worse. He's explosive and unpredictable, and so he mostly avoids conflict. He doesn't need to fight anyone, as his charming personality and sweet smile (plus a few smart calculations) always seem to be enough to convince people to give him what he asks for. And when the fight is inevitable... well, he has Edwin for that!
Edwin Payne grew up very sheltered, in a deeply religious home, and he is proud of that. Don't try to argue with him, because he surely has a Bible verse that will help him win (and if not, he is not above using his croquet mallet now that he has someone to keep safe). Unfortunately for him, he realized at a quite young age that he felt attraction towards other boys. Even worse, somehow other people could tell as well, including those peers that ended up killing him for it (the rumour spread throughout school was that he had died due to AIDS, and most people just accepted it). He never acted on those unnatural urges of his, but when he met this ghost who had just escaped Hell... he decided not to risk eternal damnation, and to stay here with Charles, instead. Edwin has no interest in the supernatural or in magic, and sort of looks down on them, but luckily his friend's got that covered.
#dead boy detectives#dbda#payneland#edwin x charles#reverse verse#honestly the fact that i was given so much freedom to plan this universe is insane to me i am so thankful#i feel like this version of them is a bit darker#that wasn't intentional but oh well#guess that comes with having a charles who is kind of manipulative#and an edwin who is the annoying kind of catholic#(i am allowed to say that i come from a catholic family... not very catholic mind you my mom didn't actually care)#cw homophobia#can't forget that one#i'll post the next part probably tomorrow or the day after!#that's the crossover so wait for it#just to make it clear yes this edwin is in love with his charles but in denial#and this charles adores his edwin and doesn't think much about it#universal constant etc etc
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i love my middle-aged romance (i'm aging them up because i have free will and a refined taste in romance dynamics)
i'm kinda surprised how much the WoF fandom has slept on Fathom and Indigo's relationship and story, like,,, it's probably the most well-written romance in the whole story (from what i can remember, which is not as much as i'd like so dont quote me on that, i'm already on the corkboard enough as is alread), so i kinda expected more people to jump on board. not that i mind, of course, it only gives me more satisfaction to expound on them :]<
oh also i took inspiration from @mothpawbs seawing armor headcanon that they made that one time for Indigo's helmet, hope that's alright :3c
#i'm not that satisfied with indigo's sail#since i want it to show a little more wear-and-tear from her years in the army#i'm gonna make her so repressed and sad and grieve so much over the person she used to be that she sacrificed for the army#so that she could forget about fathom and how much she loves him because she cant be with him she cant do that to him#there are so many layers that i'll expound upon later#but anyway. middle aged dragons in love my beloveds#wings of fire#wings of fire au#wof fathom#wof indigo#fathdigo#seawings#fiendish illos
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Truce is going well
#UTDR#UTMV#My Art#Killer Sans#Dream Sans#Truce AU#Haven't used that one in a while lol#What does it say about me that I spend like 2 hours trying to play with light and colour to make something look interesting#And I still like the lil 2 second doodle better lol#It's an idea I've had for a while and never got around to drawing#Because I feel like Dream has a hard time getting on good terms with these guys at the beginning of the truce#Not because he's necessarily intimidated by them but like#He's outnumbered and he really badly wants this to work and he doesn't know how to talk to these guys and also they're not trying#This was him going to try and talk to Killer and immediately deciding to start somewhere else lol#I should be remaking the truce au tbh I have better ideas for it now#Maybe I'll try stuff while I work on this blanket#This isn't the thing from my drafts by the way I forgot to post it again lol#Art with curse of forgetting on it
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phil’s sci-fi project forever in my heart (1, 2)
#i'm once again saying. glitch/interactive/scifi phil project plsplsplsplspls. like the whole game was soo glitch theory coded i lost my mind#can't believe i forgot about the swwtty moment when making my big phil project comp sdjds like that stereo literally happened on my bday#and i was so excited cause not Only was joint content such a huge gift. but them talking about phil projects?? literally a dream come true?#anyways. literally the biggest crime for me to forget about that and i'll never forget about it again </3#dan and phil#phan#amazingphil#phil lester#daniel howell#danisnotonfire#dpgdaily#dnp gifs#my gifs#Dan and Phil are SPLITTING - Split Fiction#Something we want to tell you!
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double ?? upload ???? yeaaaahh i've gotten FASTERRrr for whatever that's worth so complementary blyla because guess what i miss them too (nobody was surprised by that)
#star wars#clone wars#star wars the clone wars#blyla#artists on tumblr#listen i just have a thing for jedi + clones it seems and we cannot forget dartain the ogs (i will draw that tonight + tomorrow not now)#tcw made aayla so cool bro i love her#can you tell i've been on a mellon_soup kick !! i love her references so much bro#one day i will draw foxiyo. that day may be tomorrow i don't know#prequel-era ships are elite sorry everything else is Lame except for han/leia rebelcaptain and kanera (reylo's fine ig)#tcw is also the only thing that salvages anidala for me however! this is not an anidala post i am getting so off-topic whoa#i am unmedicated.#anyway yayyyy double upload#by the way in my head the accelerated aging thing just straight-up doesn't exist#cuz it's one of the dumbest things star wars has ever done i think it just doesn't make sense#anyway ^^)b#listen i'm not ALWAYS gonna go the cheap route and do the gradient thing instead of color i just don't wannaaaa. too much work#“jedi can't have attachments!!!!” and you can't have fun apparently#besides attachment and .-+ love +-. are different things and the jedi USED to know that before they contracted stupid disease#aayla secura#commander bly#would've drawn bly's armor cause it's cool but friiiick dude i already did it for rex and I AIN'T DOIN' IT AGAIN#(will do it again for darman because i'm a masochist)#hey. he's a commando it's different#at least i finally get to throw my etain headcanons into the ring#why am i talking about other ships on a blyla post. whatever#i'll color something eventually. sketching is just significantly easier and more fun#actually scratch that heck y'all i'll do what i wanna do#(affectionate dw)#my art
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Was doodling + made an attempt to figure this guy out in a more "realistic" style. idk
+ bonus fidds doodles below
#gravity falls#fiddleford mcguckett#fanart#i love when people don't forget his weak chin + soft jaw#i dont think i put enough emphasis on his shit posture#but you understand this about him right#the guy ever#very fun to draw#i'm pretty pleased with the hands in this tbh#lol i'll probably look back on this with different opinions but that's life rip
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hes literally so handsome 🥰
#my art#doodles#one piece#op#one piece jinbei#jinbei#op jinbei#i keep forgetting to post shit im done with or wont finish :(#i'll try and be better about that
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