#OUGH implodes my au

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[petrifiedperi-au]

how's Irep dealing with everything? I feel like he's deep in denial about this being his fault (bro thinks peri should have just not died or smth) i dunno, it just seems in character for him

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HONESTLY, YEAH. I ramble a bit about Irep in this post, actually! BUT... BUT... YEAH. IT BLAMING PERI IS VERY IN CHARACTER. I still have to think more about him outside of, "he fucking HATES this..." BECAUSE... THERE IS SO MUCH TO THINK ABOUT. Like how it thinks the ghost form is THE MOST INCONVENIENT THING EVER! AND ALSO... ABOUT... DEATH REACTIONS.

SINCE... ANTI-COSMO AND ANTI-WANDA SEE IREP DIE. I'VE BEEN... THINKING. ABOUT THAT. AND HOW THEY MIGHT REACT. THOUGHTS BELOW THE CUT!!!

THE THOUGHTS ON THIS ARE... REALLY VAGUE AND NONSPECIFIC. Since I'm still trying to figure out their characterization, BUT BUT BUT BUT!!! My daydreams have been, like...

Ough, how do I word this... IMAGINE AW BEING CLOSER TO IREP. WHEN HE IMPLODES. AND SO AC PULLS HER BACK... IN LIKE A HUG WAY? BUT ALSO IN A VERY AC-TYPE WAY. And the very VERY vivid mental image of AW, in her typical southern accent, just going, "did our son just implode?" [HONESTLY I WISH I COULD JUST BEAM THE THOUGHT OF HOW SHE SAYS THIS INTO YOUR GUYS' BRAINS. BECAUSE IT'S SO FUNNY TO ME OH MY GOD. I NEED YOU GUYS TO HEAR IT HOW I'M HEARING IT.]

ANYWAY. ANYWAY ANYWAY. AC HAVING A MOMENT... Probably. Feeling Things. AW is too, but I can't imagine either of them would react as vocally as C&W would? BUT. BUT. SOME INTERNAL FEELINGS THERE. And AC just being like [paraphrasing], "well. That only means one thing." AND... LOOKING AROUND FOR PERI. WHICH... IS FOLLOWED BY HIM GOING TO DEV?

Because... Dev is right where Peri was. And I imagine AC saying... SOMETHING. I've had a thought or two about it before but I lost them and never wrote them down, BUT him making some kind of not-super-but-kind-of-ominous comment or sentence or something about all of this. And then just leaving him completely fucking alone. OR... SOMETHING LIKE THAT??? BUT... HEAR ME OUT. IT MAKES DEV FEEL WORSE/ADDS TO HIS WHOLE... FEELING GUILTY THING AND ALL. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?

ANYWAY. [I say that word a lot...]

THESE AREN'T FULLY DECIDED YET AND THEY'RE JUST... VAGUE THOUGHTS RIGHT NOW. BUT THEY'RE THOUGHTS. And they're big enough thoughts to share! :3

[neallo]

what are your headcanons for how mello and near first met? who was at wammy’s first? did mello hate near immediately or was that not till later?

oh omg hi this is one of the only semi-general questions you could've asked that i have a blanket answer for. i'm sure some of my older works diverge from this -- and probably some new ones will continue to, just because i like to switch it up -- but i do have a sorta standard history i like to work from. standard disclaimer: these are my preferences for my own writing, and i think a really wide range of headcanons can work quite well here :3c

in my mind, mello was at wammy's first, and was the top student in his age / ability category. when near arrived, he was not immediately placed at mello's level; not only was he younger and newer, but the headcanons i have about near's background also generally mean he didn't know english when he first arrived at wammy's, so at least some of his time each day would've been devoted to learning that, & perhaps to help him catch / keep up he would have a tutor in his native language until he understood english well enough to be in one of the general classes. perhaps there are even small groups of ESL students for different languages.

i don't know. whatever. the point is that near is not in mello's class to start with, and mello feels some amount of pity towards near. not because of the ESL thing lmao (i imagine mello had to learn english when he first arrived as well) but because of all near's near-ish traits. honestly, i don't tend to think of mello as having been a particularly nice child to the other orphans, even pre-rivalry, but near's scrawniness + health problems + social isolation i think on some level prompts a small protective streak in mello. he's this small, sad-looking, lonesome child, and mello is the first and only person he likes and trusts. in an unpublished bury us both companion piece i have their first meeting occur while near is hiding from roger and mello lies on her behalf, then shows her another hiding place. actually. damn i should post that. can't remember why i haven't.

i vary somewhat on how close they were as children depending on what dynamic i want to go for, but i tend to think there was at least some care & friendship there. the basis of their friendship, i imagine, is that mello feels older and wiser and cooler and stronger than near, and gains a sense of importance and security from near relying on him. this implodes horribly when near is moved up into his class level and starts besting him in every subject. so begins the rivalry. so ends their friendship. i do tend to imagine mello would intervene on near's behalf if he were ever being physically bullied / threatened, but they're never close like they were before again, because mello leaves before they can both mature and grow enough to sort anything out. except in AUs where that doesn't happen, which are my roman empire.

there are a few reasons i like this general sort of setup best for my own works. for one, having mello arrive first means that he got to experience, for however long or short a time period, being the golden child of his class. i think having this sense of specialness and accomplishment would make near beating him all the more painful. i could get way into mello's self-worth problems here but instead i'll just say: mello believes himself worthless and needs to be The Best in order to prove to himself that he's good enough at all. which has never actually worked for him, but, you know. i also like them having been friends prior to the rivalry because it resonates better for the sorts of dynamics i like best, and twists the knife a little from near's side. mello cared for him and looked after him, once, but now he sees near as his enemy. ough.

wow they make me bonkers!

[hiemaldesirae]

Swap AU:

No one knows that Alastor can possess his Shadow, not even Vox. Vox himself is more comfortable around the Shadow because it didn't join Alastor against Vox in there fight. He's still terrified of it, but not as terrified as he is of Alastor himself.

Before Husk and Vox joined the Hotel crew, it looked like canon, but now it's starting to look like it's on a busy street (and the hotel itself isn't ramshackle!)

Angel Dust is the Vees spy, and Sir Pentious joined the hotel because his Favorite Vee was there!

Vox got the Geotia's soul during the 7 years he was gone. He was running from the Vees (mostly Alastor) and ran into Vox. Get eaten or live as Vox's contracted Soul. The Geotia attempted (many, many times mind you) to get Vox active before he was ready. Since he's very young by geotia standards, him taking a sabbatical for a few years wasn't unusual.

And there is a happy ending! For one of them. I mean, in the one you write you could totally give them a happy ending. =)

oh.... ough.,. hole punched through my heart im imagining (and this is solely bc ive read Top fucking Tier fanfics where vox and als shadow are friends) vox just trembling in fear looking at als shadow, who he once loved to be around because it was so much more affectionate than his former friend but now everytime he looks at it he can only remember alastor looking down on him before he struck that killing blow, calling him pathetic and all the other insults that piled up in his head-

coughs. anyway. i see!! husk and vox platonic power couple so true <- said in a weird ass family qpr dynamic. dont fucking ask me anything about my thought process or so help me god ill implode on the spot guts and all. okay okay so angels the vees spy? so they sent him there to make sure vox was okay??? im actually awwing rn irl this is adorable actually. i love the idea of them sending him over to take care of their friend when they cant.. family!vees hc save me

blinks. so, hear me out, younger stola- (i am shot thirty times in the back and the rcmp declares my death a clear suicide)

oh.. nonny.... youre breaking my heart................ rughd....f.................. if i explode tomorrow it will be because of you trust

[unlikelytrashcreation]

ima go ahead here and say you are absolutely one of my top favorite artists on here, and definitely in my top favorites for zadr/iz in general. when you were on hiatus, I talked about you to poop and how i missed your art. and when you started posting again, i was real happy.. and then i nearly pissed myself when you posted iitm-au shit from me and poop and just OUGH trash your work is iconic. ceo zim is burned into my brain and is def in my top 3 fav zims this fandom has ever produced

*snifs* ok ok ok SO. I COULD HONESTLY SAY THE SAME TO YOU. I littraly started making a high pitched sound and weeping when you drew that response to my iitm fan comic I was so happy I thought I would implode! I'm so ungodly happy that someone likes my art LET ALONE Simone who got me to start posting in the first place. You and poop were honest to God the reason any of my iz art ended up out of my notebook and in the world. THANK YOU SO MUCH for your art. And for your support. And your TOP 3 holly shit. I am honored!!!! And this is mushy. But the fact that you missed me means so goddamn much. I can be a bit bad in the head and when I vanish it's usually cause I don't think I matter I feel like an imposter or a fraud. But the fact that you care so much about what I have to put out is really really important to me. This may be oversharing a bit but I was raised in a situation with heavy information controll this is my first ever active fandome and social midia experience. And you are one of if not THE reason I no longer think the things I once did abouth it.

As a token of my gratitude and cause you and poop were peeking at the boss bugs scars hear

Have a picture from dibs sweaty collection

Oh also if you ever wanna see me draw something my asks are always open :)!

[petrifiedperi-au]

BEEN THINKING ABOUT IREP IMPLODING AND WHAT ANTI-FAIRIES IMPLODE INTO. I have REALLY latched onto the idea of them imploding into butterflies and/or flowers WITH a mix of ash and metal shavings...

IT'S REALLY SPECIFIC??? BUT IT'S SITTING IN MY BRAIN AND I LOOOOVVVVEEEEE THE IDEA SO MUCH. It's neat, I think... ough... ough I love it...

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[petrifiedperi-au]

I AM ALIVE AND I'VE BEEN HAVING SO MANY THOUGHTS LATELY ABOUT PETRIFIED!IREP AND ITS DEATH. Y'ALL HAVE NO IDEA... IDEAS AND THOUGHTS ARE SPINNING IN MY BRAIN MICROWAVE. OUGH...

HIM CLINGING TO ANTI-COSMO IN SOME OF HIS LAST MOMENTS BEFORE IMPLODING. It's been sitting in a specific spot in my brain for half an hour now and I NEED to subject you guys to this. MORE IN DEPTH BELOW THE CUT!!!

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While Peri wasn't able to comprehend the fact that they were dying and going to explode, Irep was fully aware that he was dying the moment he felt it. A pit forming in his stomach that follows him feeling sick, which THEN follows his skin starting to burn and sizzle, AND THEN IT SETS IN. THAT HE'S DYING.

Imagine. IMAGINE. IMAGINE. The absolute PANIC and other rush of emotions that flood his mind when he REALIZES. PERI DIED. AND NOW IT'S DYING. AND IT DOES HURT. A LOT. AC is right there, of course, and so he gets to SEE all of this... [AND AW, of course!]

ANYWAY. ANYWAY. ANYWAY. IREP'S MIND BEING FLOODED WITH PANIC AND FEAR. And THEN he CLINGS to his dad! Because he's FUCKING DYING! And his dad clinging back... and also AW getting involved in the hug... AND THEN WHEN IREP IMPLODES, SHE FLOATS BACK A BIT AND JUST STARES, BEFORE AC GRABS ONTO HER AND PULLS HER CLOSER TO HIM IN A HUG-LIKE WAY BUT ALSO A VERY ANTI-COSMO LIKE WAY... JUST LIKE I MENTIONED IN THIS POST HERE!

ANYWAY. YES. This ADDS to why AC is fucking PISSED AT DEV! Not only did his son die, BUT IT WAS CLINGING TO HIM! Wing hug, even... wing hugs. MAYHAPS... SOME ASH AND METAL SHAVINGS AND A FEW BUTTERFLIES LAND ON/FLY AROUND HIM... AS A FUN SILLY LITTLE TREAT. He is PISSED!!! As he SHOULD be.

AHOSYSSISUD ANYWAY!!! I HOPE THESE RAMBLES MAKE SENSE!!! I need to beam EVERY daydream I've had about this into yall's brains. You NEED to see them how I'm seeing them OUGH... /silly