#OOC: This cosplay is amazing wow!!

[wqk-k]

Obey Me Brother react to an idol!MC

 hi this is my first set of headcanons for the brothers  👉👈 i apologize if the brothers are ooc in this, though i tried my best jksajdufhj. i hope you enjoy!

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Warning(s): Cursing

Reader Pronouns: They/Them (4A)

Background: MC is a very popular idol in their world, best known for their impressive singing skills, music and the amount of rewards they have recieved because of their talents. Surprisingly, they aren’t only popular in their world, but in the Devildom and Celestial Realm as well.

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Lucifer

since lucifer didnt actually read who you were on the paper that had blown to his feet, he had no idea you were an idol at first

but after couple days at RAD, he noticed that random demons kept coming up to you in between classes and didnt leave until the next class started

most of them had come up to you with a pen and some paper asking for your autograph

he was just like ??? 

after a while of this happening luci decided to just ask you straight up why they were coming up to you like that and you had told him you were an idol back in the human realm

that explains it

he honestly doesnt mind

if people start hating on you in public, he’ll honestly just shoot them a death glare and it works

so damn well

he got too much pride to deal with those underlings

if you start working on music/mv projects that you left off on in the human realm (like shooting mv or singing) he will absolutely rent you a recording booth or fuck, even a whole ass theatre if you needed it

sometimes he likes to sit in the recording booth and listen to you sing for a bit before returning to his stacks of mammon’s bills 

v proud of you dont get him wrong

but he will make sure you’ve done all your homework first LMAO 🛌

Mammon

when mammon first found out you were an idol he started digging through boxes that had been in his closet

after what seemed like hours he finally found the box he was looking for and he started to dig through it

he pulled out an old camera that levi gave him a couple hundred years ago bc he said he didnt need it

mammon had the best idea ever, he could sell pictures of you to your fans for at least 10,000 grimm each.

surprisingly it worked

like really well

so well that you found out

you confronted him about it, saying that you find hella uncomfy with him snapping pictures of you at random times. not only that but it was an invasion of your privacy

despite him earning so much grimm, he agrees to stop but keeps some of the pictures to himself to look at when he misses you 

if you get hate in public he’ll turn into his demon form and scare the person away, maybe scaring you in the procees but apologizes right away if he does

if you start working on music/mv projects he’ll offer to help you shoot mvs or record you singing if you need the help

just make sure he gets some credit for helping you

but he genuinely thinks you look amazing in anything, like anything

you could be wearing a big bird cosplay and he’ll think you look breathtaking

gets you to model w him sometimes

Leviathan

wait you look really familiar

really really familiar

you almost look and sound like that one really popular human idol that hes simped for time and time again

wait

oh shit

v embarrassed when he finds out it is actually you and gets really nervous when hes talking to you

is the demon asking for your autograph

but you have no idea how much power you have over this man

you could tell him to come out of his room and he’d come out with ease, no protesting, no nothing

may ask you to record a ringtone for him for when he wakes up

even after months of you two knowing each other, he still gets flustered when you start talking to him with your stupid cute ass eyes and your perfect hair and your perfect voice and your perfect-

yeah you get the point AKJSDKLASFBG

if you get hate in public he will deadass growl at the person before escorting you to your favorite ice cream place

if you start working on music/mv projects he will be by your side 24/7

he wants to see the god/ess themselves at work

hes like your personal butler for the time youre working on the projects and its adorable

hes bby

Satan

when he finds out youre an idol he will 100% voulenteer to help you write lyrics for your next song

but besides that, like luci, he really doesnt mind

he hears some other demons talking shit about you after art class and he’ll be angy as usual, but after stomping off and accidentally bumping into you he just

turned into puddy??

idk what it was but it was something abt they way your hair was a lil messed up and looking at him like that wish a small embarrassed look

just wow

every ounce of anger just evaporated while you apologized over and over again because the face he was making made him look like he was angry for some reason 

when he snaps back into reality he says its cool but then asks if youd like to go to the library w him because honestly youre his safe haven now

sometimes he asks you to hum a tune for him when hes reading

if the demons start hating again, you may need to hold him back KJASNDJFG 

if you start working on music/mv projects, again, will voulenteer for helping with lyrics

if you already have the lyrics down he’ll review them and give constructive critisisim if needed

or he’ll just write every lyric himself and you can judge it after hes done

Asmodeus

is not surprised at all

hes actually heard some of your songs and damn id he doesnt have them on his “on repeat” playlist on devilfy

he thinks you have an outstanding voice, not only that but youre a gorgeous lookin thing

asmo likes to hit on you a lot because he likes to see that flustered look on your face but he would never over your boundaries

he wouldnt want to be over the internet bc he made one of the most praised artists in devildom (thats not even a demon) angry

asmo doesnt want to be cancelled yet JKSJKDGFUA

but seriously, he thinks youre amazing

like really amazing

there like no lust involved in his admiration for you he just geniunely thinks youre cool

but he does think you look amazing 24/7

will ask you to model things for him for devilgram

if you get hate in public, he’ll hold your hands and shower you with compliments and tells you to ignore them

if you start working on music/mv project he will insist on doing backup vocals or being a backup dancer

or like the head backup dancer or whatever theyre called

is like your personal stylist wherever you go as well

along with that he can also help you come up with a beat for your song if you need one, he is more than happy to help someone like you

Beelzebub

he honestly thinks youre really cool

asmo showed him one of your songs before and thought it sounded really catchy

not only that, you sounded beautiful, almost like you were actually from the celestial realm, consider him a fan

so when you showed up for the new exchange program he was surprised but got really giddy

was one of the demons who asked for your autograph

you gave him a sweet smile after he asked and he just- melted

man down man down

will want to spend lost of time with you and take you to ristorante six on fridays as his treat

you usually end up paying though which he feels really guilty about but you tell him its fine

youre an idol who is loaded to the chest, youve got nothing to lose KLSKADJHF

if you get hate in public he’s also the type to death glare but people dont really hate on you in public when youre w him bc he has a naturally scary aura

lowkey thought you wouldnt like him at first :(

if you start working on mv/music projects he’ll start cooking you meal and making sure you get enough water

will absolutely cook your favorite meal- or any meal in fact- if you request it

if you dont request anything he’ll just wing it and make something he think you’ll like kjskdhsf

Belphegor

couldnt care less  🧍

he thinks your voice is pretty nice tho

hears beel listening to your music once and agrees w him on you having a really nice voice

lowkey sing him to sleep

like its super cute

plus he thinks youre gorgeous?? like wow you rlly pretty

once tried rubbing your face bc he thought you were wearing makeup but when nothing came up on his thumb he muttered a small “wow” and hugged you

it was the cutest thing ever ohmy god KJSJDSIF

ever since that day hes obtained a habit of rubbing your face when he finds you stunning or at random moments

if you get hate in public he will literally murder the person?? but in like an alleyway or something

he’ll say something like “wait here” and walks toward a dark area to do his thang

when he comes back he’s covered in this red shit and you worry for him but he just glosses over it and takes you into a pillow shop LMAO

he is v protective over you

if you start working on mv/music projects he’ll occasionally help out but most of the time he’s sleeping so he doesnt really care 

sometimes he’ll give beat/lyric suggestions or help flim the mv but thats it  🧍  

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[warwaged-archive]

𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐓,  𝐃𝐎𝐍'𝐓 𝐑𝐄𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐆 !

name :   melissa

nickname :    mel is actually the nickname akdnfkjsdnfkjn

age :    24

faceclaim :    it mai from atla

pronouns :    she/her

height :    165cm

birthday :    november 12

aesthetics :    black cats, warm fluffy blankets, gray days, piles of books, too big hoodies, videogames, changing hair color as often as possible, singing in the car while driving, bitten nails, the smell of rain, comfortable silence, staying up all night talking with friends, clothes that are either black or cute and colorful, the smell of coffee in the morning, walking through the woods, old teddy bears and even older scribbled pages, superhero movie shirts, scattered pieces of unfinished cosplays, the feeling of walking on grass barefoot

favorite muse you’ve written :   many of them are so special to me in different ways, and I feel like you’d get a different answer for this depending on the day and who I’m feeling more strongly... I don’t write her anymore but myrcella was the first character to stuck with me for years. I wrote other muses sometimes before her but none that stuck like she did, and although I have had others after she’s just deeply special and dearly loved by me, and always will be. I feel very strongly about tyrande whisperwind as well, and out of the thousands of characters from wow I picked up along the way she will always be my favorite and most beloved. I didn’t grow up with warcraft, I’m relatively new to it in fact, but I really love the world and the characters, though tyrande was my first love and what drew me to it in the first place. morrigan is my favorite dragon age character and dragon age is my favorite video game franchise ever, so she is very important to me and a character I connect in some ways that are either because we’re similar or because we’re really different on some aspects and I don’t know, I guess I wish I had some of how she is sometimes. with each of them I also interacted with amazing people, some I still write with and talk to, and that makes them all the more special to me. I could list reasons why each of my muses is dear to me, but since this is about picking favorites, let me stick to just these three.

what inspired you to take on your current muse(s) :   who knows??? I certainly can’t see the pattern. there are a few I had this moment of ‘ah yes that’s exactly my type’ but they are actually few, and for the most part they just stick with me until I decide to add them, regardless of how long that takes. it’s just the immediately being drawn to that character for some reason, and never letting go, even if I don’t immediately begin writing them or if I try to ignore it or if I stop for a time and come back to them later. I have very very different muses, though usually it’s women, and they are strong, though not necessarily physically. my strong-kind-soft  girls are as important to me as the fighty or stabby or just goddess level of powerful. male muses are usually harder, which is why I only have four and they’re all from warcraft. I think when it comes to them the common factor is tragic backstory and not being an entirely good person ig sdnfkasndfksadnf

what are your favorite aspects of your current muse(s) :    there are so many of them and so much I love about each! but to choose something more general, my favorite aspect is usually what they are beneath how they present themselves and others see them. it’s the vulnerability in characters that don’t present themselves that way, or the steely strength in the ones who are sunshine type of people. it’s heroes that are flawed and feel fear and aren’t heroic because they’re trying to, and villains that are cruel and petty and violent but have a stunning capacity for love and loyalty. this is the type of thing I usually love the most about them.

what’s your biggest inspiration when it comes to writing :    interacting with the canon content in general like, playing the games or watching things or rereading things. talking about it, interacting with people, seeing that there is interest in how I portray that specific muse. songs I might connect to them, talking about them and their relationships with others ooc, revisiting canon to pick apart every little thing they do and try to understand them better. I don’t know, all of it helps.

favorite types of threads :    developing characters and relationships is always my favorite part -- not necessarily romantic relationships, just relationships in general. I also like filling blanks in canon or exploring canon things more deeply, specially with characters or scenes that weren’t really allowed that. I like AUs, though generally if they’re less entirely new universe and more what if x thing changed in canon or just something related to canon in some way. I usually like to write anything that lets me explore a character’s feelings towards something or develop them in some way skdnfksjndf but I really really like when the muses get some struggle and hardship and suffering. fluffy things are nice too though, variety is always the best option imo.

biggest struggle in regards to your current muse(s) :    with the wow muses, I think it’s keeping the muse alive given the lack of content and my general displeasure with some story choices aisudhfisuhf as well as the rpc being generally less active. all of that ends up impacting my muses and I in turn write them less. meanwhile with others, specially newer ones such as shadowheart or the league of legends ones, I feel very anxious about approaching people in these fandoms I’m not as familiar with as I was with my previous ones. the league ones in particular make me so anxious I struggle to try to reach out to people and write them because I constantly feel my portrayal of them isn’t good. so it’s mostly my own anxiety aushdfuashidfh being new to a rpc or not being as knowledgeable about the lore make me put a lot of pressure in myself, and I often don’t pick up muses because of that, or drop them fairly fast, but when I do choose to write them it’s a problem I always have to deal with. I also struggle a bit with anxiety due to english not being my first language. but actually muse specific as in, an aspect of a muse I struggle with... I can’t think of anything like that. maybe when it comes to balance making interaction possible and the muses that are like, more evil or violent, while staying true to them.

tagged: @sicsemper​ thank you! ♥ tagging: I don’t know who to tag! steal and say I tagged you so I can see the answers asidhfisudfh 👀

[phlipshea]

Positivity for blow-up-the-school?

send me urls for me to kiss your ass because you’re worth it

@blow-up-the-school

lmao  i  was  so  fucking  intimidated  by  this  mun  because  i  thought  they  were  #ActualJD -- like  when  i  broke  “the fourth wall”  and  messaged  them  i  was  ... sweating ...  not  sure  if  they  would  reply  or  not  like  you  guys  are  intimidating  af  because  you’re  Just That Good ------- im  incapable  of  being  100%  Ic ....  but  like  the  times  u  do  OOC   you  post  ur  cosplay?? which  is  fucking on-point  and  wow.  Goals.  Anyway,  when  they  write  I  read  in J.D.’s  voice  and  i’m  just  lol  blown away  by  it.   Like  word  choice  is   just  on  point  and  well  phrased.  They’re  also  really  nice  like  jokes  on  you  im  not  intimidated  anymore  bc  ur  a  dork  but  still  amazing  and  i  love  these  dumb  plots  with  this  mess  of  a  muse

[goddamnitlady]

OOC // super long post of me talking at myself, trying to make sense of my behaviour.

I need to put this chaos of thoughts down on the page. Or else they might claw my skull open from the inside out. This text is so super personal it would fit better in my diary. This is me talking at me.

So no obligation to you to read this!!!

I realise I’m so shaken, that in the below text, I will be (re-)constructing my own narrative about myself. I’ll do that right here. 

I will use this narrative to review what I learnt about my behaviour, re-interpret my past and then frame my current social reality. If I use kinder language, perhaps I'll think kinder of myself? Gotta try that. This is my unstructured train of thought, me talking at me. If you want to read about me talking at you, scroll down.

Enjoy some nude TMI. It’s long.

INTRO - BEHAVIOUR 

Yesterday I went to A.DHD Central to get tested and maybe a diagno.sis and surprise, I have it! I saw it coming and I'm okay with this. It explains why... 

why I'm always so easily distracted

why it's almost painful to be bored

why it's almost to do difficult tasks 

why I've got social periods that can last days or month and then suddenly get asocial periods

why I forget something 3 seconds after you said it

why I can't remember more than 3 instructions

why I don't have one train of thought, but 3 or 4. And I need to jump from train to train to keep up with them.

Okay so that's that.

The OTHER thing that I cannot stop thinking about now is just as important. The old man said it very casually, like: "oh btw on such an intense diagnosis day our team of trained specialist always finds other mental difficulties people developed too. AD.HD comes with friends. We see you have (traits of) avoi.dant personality disor.der okay continuing on, your computer test showed..."

And today I'm at home. I picked up my me.ds this morning and I've started dosing. I started thinking, wait what did they say yesterday about that other thing? So I read through Wikipedia.

ME TALKING @ ME. ^That new info about my behaviour changes my interpretation of my past.   

Yesterday a professional told me that 50% of the kids with ADH.D leave primary school feeling like an outcast so it's not weird I was bullied too.

On primary school I was dia.gnosed with dyslexia and dyscalculia. It means that letters and numbers magic to me. They tremble and swap places or vanish. The classes Maths and Languages were awful to me. Biology and History were better and more fun but they also make use of numbers (dates/calculations). Art class (with my hands or brain) was the one thing I could actually do. I could do presentations and discussions as well.

But I felt different from my peers because they could learn things so EASILY compared to me. I wasn't dumb, I understood, but then the explanation was gone and I'd forgotten it again(AD.HD). So I needed lots of repetition to learn. And then once I understood it the letters/numbers kept moving without my consent! (dyslexia/dyscalucia) Stupid letters/numbers.

I moved houses and thus switched schools. On the new school became bullied by being socially exluded, ignored, and critisized.

That bullying made me feel like I could be 'attacked' in class all the time. In hindsight I was sensitive to stimuli. Everyone has a filter on their mind that ignores certain things (like the fact you are breathing. congratulations, you are now aware that you are breathing) and lets other things through (such as the honk of a car when you're jaywalking). Child!me must have been working super hard to 

pay attention to class 

filter stimuli 

categorise high-speed which stimuli are hostile 

muffle intense emotional reactions 

consider which version of reply would create least conflict/emotion 

A lack of sleep (from reading books until late) make me sleepy during the day thus less sensitive to (negative) stimuli. 

So I became from age 10 onward very much an outcast/ anxious/ nervous/ shy/ avoidant-of-confrontations-where-I-could-be-rejected. 

I was bullied on secondary school too. Jackpot.

I worked harder than average but my grades were lower than average. I felt inadequate. Inferior. My self reflection went into overdrive. I started to think things like... if I can't do maths or language and don't like people, what sort of career could I do? What value did I have to humanity?  Was I not just taking up resources? I felt guilt and shame that my parents had to waste(!) money on me. No economic equation could justify having me around. I was a useless human being. My only good trait is that I'm kind to people, showing kindness always -- even if they don't deserve it. Because I know what it’s like to be hurt and I don’t want to do that to anyone. 

(I feel so fucking lucky that I grew up in a loving family because holy shit teenage!me sounded like the textbook perfect victim for types of abuse.)

I worked hard in all my classes and it paid off. I went to the above-medium level of education for secondary school. Finally away from my bullies at age 15,5! I think that ended my de.pression too. I switched schools to above-medium, it was a normal period on that secondary school.  Two more years after that went fine. Made my long-term school friends and cosplay friends in that time and since. Yay!

After that, I studied graphic design on adult education medium level, then for Teacher of English As A Foreign Language on above-medium level, now I'm this(!) close to finishing Literature Studies on university (highest) level. Take that, insecurity. I'm not stupid. My specialities (creativity) just lay elsewhere than the standard measurement.

I read somewhere that AD.HD people don't have normal emotions but that one emotion TIMES TEN. So a small mention of rejecton from another person causes a feeling of REJECTION TIMES TEN in me. I can easily say that I have joy times TEN, fear times TEN, and enthusiasm times TEN too, which can make me a very charming person?

I initially thought this strong emotional fear of rejection was the AD.HD-only symptom called RSD, rejection-sensitive dys.phoria. What makes it into a personality diso.rder?

Answer: Persistent malfunctioning in society. 

ME TALKING @ ME. Re-framing my social reality and examining my behaviours.

I malfunction as follows: I experience extreme shyness in certain moments, feel anxious before or during new social situations, don't want to go to the kitchen if my housemates are there, have a fear of emailing/calling people, or approaching groups. Fear of asking money back (I feel like "I'm not worth even a euro"). I have a GIANT fear of being rejected by others. Giant fear of being ridiculed. Cast out.

This leads to a behavior pattern where I avoid conflict. I'm just too scared to do them. Critique freaks me out (because me emotions will skyrocket times ten). And it's the worst when I'm doing a project with people (such as preparing a presentation with a group/making cosplay costume with a friend/travelling home by train and someone needs to pick me up). People are the worst. I feel I always let them down.

So then anticipate on being inadequate, take longer to do it perfect, get ill from thinking up a thousand stressful could-be's, then fiiiiiinally reach out, and hear "you should have done X" or "why didn't you call me earlier?! Now I have to deal with this escalated mess!"

HOW I RESPOND TO ONLINE STIMULI

When friends send me a message online, I get scared. I ALWAYS have fear of opening them. I always think "what did I do wrong this time?" I always anticipate an attack. This is why it's good I have both friends AND other people on whatsapp. Sometimes this emotional anticipation or reaction is so strong that it can dominate my mood for hours.

Sometimes (when I'm most afraid) I open the message to get rid of the notification and don't actually read it. 

Sometimes (when I'm fearful brave) I take a deep breath and read it and take an hour to deal with the stressful emotional reaction. I want to reply but 1)I need to think of the perfect reply to type up so the negative situation will be quelled or/or followed by 2) my AD.HD forgets it.

Sometimes (when I'm happy) I can respond immediately. I'm functional!!!

Sometimes (when I'm happy) I respond immediately and them too and it's fun! And I have a blast! Wow, talking to friends is so much fun!!! I'm charming. I'm fast. I'm celebrating.

Nowadays I have a lot of friends. At least twenty five! They're divided into four groups: hometown, student life, online, cosplay. These are "friends without obligation" MEANING that my presence is a addition and not a requirement. They will never guilt me for cancelling on them. We can only hang out once a year and have a blast without talking at all during the rest of the year, and we will still conciser each other friends.           I consider them friends if I can message/call them up at 2 a.m. and cry about a boyfriend or needing a place to sleep. Which is a huge deal to me, me-who-feels-guilty-for-taking-up-resources.)          It don’t always function. I can hide for weeks, avoiding social contact. Then I can be super functional for weeks. Ups and downs.          I function best around friends without obligations. 

ME @ TUMBLR FRIENDS.

I suppose I want my tumblr friends to know that...

I 'squish' on a person. I use the word here in the meaning of 'plantonic crushing' and 'wanting to have an emotional bond with them as friend'. I sometimes stalk/bombard a person with messages/like every post/am super invested in everything they do. Usual reason: because I think they are a fantastic content creator. This makes me feel like they are inspiring and amazing and sometimes 'socially higher ranked' than me.          To battle my inferiority, I want them to acknowledge me. I want to 'have' them. I hate to admit it, but the words "notice me senpai" sum it up badly. A better way of describing it is “proving my inferiority complex as wrong and my internalised social hierarchy as false as fast as I can”.         The resolution is often hanging out in chat and writing a thread together. It will make me realise that we're both humans. Often, once the person gives me attention, I very quickly normalise them and am able to stop bad thoughts.        I really dislike the senpai/kohai dynamic and want to get rid of it asap. Giving me attention helps! I've experienced this squishing in class/ social/ work/ online/ cosplay environments. If I am 'squishing' on you, just pat my head, okay? 

I feel compelled to admit have had squishes on but then normalised as equal Sky.e, Ni.kki, Ju.lia, E.su, Ham.my, J, Cel.este, Va.na, and various others who I don’t need to mention because I never became friends with them. My squishes on these people were on the creative person as future friend, not(!!!) on the muses. I still have a ton of respect for these people.

People I'm in the process of normalising are Surfi and Jana. I'm doing well. I’m not that bad. When Hammy appears I still want a pat on the head though.

One person I'm squishing on quite much right now is Nami. I want all their attention. Nami, if you're reading this, I hope it doesn't drive you crazy (not as mad as it drives me). So I'm sorry that I post a reply 0.3 seconds after you post and seem to be online 24/7. 

And if anyone else is reading this, sorry I’m paying less attention to you.

I hate it when partners drop threads unannounced because I'll be waiting by the front door like a labrador waiting for a dead owner to come home.

Its fine if you tell me you want to drop a thread, no problem, no feeling of rejection here.

It's fine if you take 2 years to reply to a thread. Literally.

I forget thread posts. Feel free to poke me when I take longer than a month.

Me not replying to your roleplay request is because I'm imagining that my rejection of your request will hurt you as much as it would hurt me. I'm imagining your pain and emphasize with my fantasy to the point that I leave your request in my inbox for months. And then it hurts that I didn't reply.

Me not posting your submission/ask message is because I'm always feeling inferior. I don't feel worthy of your attention. I don't feel worthy of your text/art/time, so when I get it I feel THRILLED. Like, "WOW they like me!! Take that inferiority complex!!" I feel thrilled. I have to give you the perfect reply that will show you exactly how thrilled I am. Or give you a perfect drabble as reply.

Me not replying to your chat messages is not me intentionally disrespecting you. You are important. Goddamnit I want to keep you as a friend. It's me being EMOTIONAL AS FUCK AND I'M PREPARING A REPLY or I FORGOT ABOUT IT.

I only give myself permission to delete those after 6 months of struggling.

Me roleplaying super intensely with you and then suddenly not at all, is because the following happened: 

I  squished on you back then,

we wrote and for a while my days centerend around your online hours, 

I normalised you and I found tranquillity (good ending) OR 

I was called away because I had ignored real life and it became on fire. (bad ending, very much at risk of uncontrolled squishing on you again!!!)  

(I want to continue to enjoy being friends with you Super Duper Much, I respect your distaste for my silences, I’m sorry, and I feel bad TIMES TEN that I put you in this mood.) (I then feel worthless. Then inferior and wow hello devil on my shoulder that tells me bad things. Hey devil if you’re here do you pay rent?  And I begin to avoid you which makes you even unhappier. Then I avoid you and - etc. etc. Goddamn I just want to be friends and write rp WHY am I like this! Why am I so fearful? It doesn’t make any sense!)  

The thought of writing with you makes me excited times ten. I respect you. And because we didn't RP and you're worried and I feel I let you down... I want to "make it up to you by being perfect and worthy".        It catapults me right back into the mindset/habits from where I used to squish on you, and my day will center around you again. I know I don't /want/ that mindset to ambush me. It'll control me.         So I either postpone engagement with you, OR I ask/agree a day where we can write together. Then my intense emotions and refresh-the-page obsession and "OH MY GOD THIS RP IS SO GOOD U R SUCH AN AWESOME CONTENT CREATOR WE HAVE SO MUCH FUN" thoughts can be limited to that day.         During the next days (I usually need days), I can cool down from the hype and try to continue with my life and productively avoid the bad squish. This may come across as cold. But I assure you, my mind is constantly on you. And when I’m settled, I’ll be easier to approach for casual RP again. 

I find it extremely hard to deal with users who see me as their senpai. When I feel that you idolise me as senpai, want my attention and affection, want to be my friend, I get really uncomfortable. I usually search for ways to calm you down and make you realize I'm human. But if I do not feel equal, (because of IM chat/because writing styles clash) I can’t hang out with you. That’s not you, that’s me. Feeling inferior is something I’m trained in now and know how to go to ‘equals’ level fast, I’m not trained at all to feel superior. I screw up wayyy to much to accept that role. I will fear hurting you. I wouldn’t know how to try to become equals. So then I dash away. I’m sorry.

I'm not good at IM messaging in chat on tumblr or other social media online because I'll 1)get scared of the messages or 2) really really want to write with you. So I generally don't want to chat at all, except to plot roleplays. I find it difficult to send friends regular 'hi how are you' messages because I want a "friendship-without-obligations" that I described earlier.

Wow this list must scare you. I'm sorry.

It scares me. Wow, what a manual. I'm so complicated.

I'm worried now about whether I should post this. I sound like such a... a crazy online person that has a ton of things wrong in the head and should be avoided at all cost. ......... No, let me rephrase that. I’m a self-reflective person. I am a critical analyst of my mind and it's unique I can put it into words. 

DEAR TUMBLR FRIENDS...

- You don't want my squishing + I don't want my squishing. Let's work together so this bad mindset doesn't thrive, OK?

- You don't want to be ignored + I don't want my ‘conflict avoiding anxiety’ that makes me ignore you. Let's continue to communicate!! Please sandwich your critique in kindness. Kind-critical-kind. Then I'll reply faster!

- I am worth as much as every one of you. I am NOT your kohai and if you start seeing me as such I'll feel offended. I'm worth as much as any of you. (My mind cannot be trusted.)

- You cannot control what emotions I feel, nor the intensity. Anything(!) could spark me to go into a different mindset.

ROLEPLAY I suppose I have a 'type' of muse. 

I like writing confident-arrogant muses who never hesitate about being better than others. They used their unique traits that set them apart to excel (not fall), and are so fearless of social rejections that they boldly abandoned social-mediocority to craft a setting they thrive in.       Its because their growth/conquer mindsets appeal to me. I want to continue training myself to think like that. It helps battle my fears.       I identify with them.       Reasons: I worked hard and rose from being bullied at primary school and medium education level to upper-middle level. Now I'm at highest level of education (university) despite my flaws. I channelled my traits of creativity + kindness + hard work and made a ton of friends. I am now struggling with my university bachelor thesis. I have to finish it asap, but damn, I'm amazing, I never thought I'd get this far?? I'm in my world of my own making. My loving supporting surrounding friends/family/teachers help me function.  

IN CONCLUSION....

So in conclusion, I can only ask for your friendship, your kindness to forgive me when I mess up, and to please occasionally pet my head.

In return, I will generously offer friendship for however long you want me, will bravely engage in struggles to reply to your messages in time, and I offer you lots of FEELS from my muses.

I'm going to make sure that the time we hang out and write together, will be the MOST AMAZING EXPERIENCE.

Excerpt from my thoughts to show you how it goes: Small bad thought in my head: "don't abandon me, please accept this RP service I offer, because you won't hang out with me for my personality due to my bad attention/communication skills. I can see why you like my Orochimaru/muses but can hardly see why you could like me." Louder good thought in my head: "Shut up you're a feeling from the AD.HD or conflict-avoident-personality-type part of my brain and you can't be trusted. LA LA LA I'M NOT LISTENING. I'M GREAT." Small thought: "...Keep telling yourself that." Louder thought: "Ouch. I mean. LA LA LA. POSITIVE SELF-DECEPTION  AGAINST BAD THOUGHTS UNTIL IT'S AN INTERNALISED TRUTH IS AN EMPOWERING METHOD THAT WORKS. LA LA LA." So that’s how it works. Sometimes I cannot differ which of the thoughts is bad and which one is the good one. 

EPILOGUE, I’m done.

Okay. I think I have figured myself out. I’ve re-evaluated my past. 

The urgent mess of thoughts in my brain has calmed down. I no longer feel like my head will explode. 

I’ve said all the things I wanted to say to myself, and I’ve said the things I want to say to tumblr friends. 

I’m going to pretend nooooo oneeee took the time to read this big post... so no one will be angry (something which I fear for no logical reason) ... and I’ll be able to sleep right now. 

[bubblyacidqueen]

A 400 FOLLOWER FOREVER YALL!!! THANKS FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT THROUGHOUT THIS BLOG I DIDN’T KNOW I’D END UP THIS POPULAR!

@sweeticedemon: We have been through so much together? You’re my best friend and we have known each other for the past ten or so years. You’re the one who actually egged me on to make this blog! We were in a MHA group chat before this even started up due to our constant roleplays on shamchat and I’m so happy you convinced me to do this! I hope we continue talking and writing together for the rest of our nerdy lives!

@cutsharp: We haven’t spoken recently, but you were one of the first few people I actually spoke to and continued to speak to with in this tumblr fandom! Like, my first MHA tumblr friend! I love the bakusquad headcanons you had and honestly you mean so much to me because of everything, thank you!

@viciousfangglory / @impuramortem: Deth??????/ I’m love you???? So much?? You were one of the first few blogs I had followed and I enjoyed watching you from afar and seeing the tumblr drama about being a furry Bakugo got into, and then our muses got into some wall drama which made me end up shipping baku/mina more than ever, honestly. You have beautiful writing that honestly makes me want to cry sometimes because it’s so good, and I enjoy that we have a lot of fun together, OOC or IC with game nights or shows.

@hyakumcn: Wow. What a nerd. A nerd just standing in the middle of the sidewalk. Gosh. Pft. Anyways.... I really love how you portray Mirio, and it makes me happy that my girl can be a filthy memer with him while they mess around and goof off whatever the situation may be. I enjoy drawing you crappy art even if I really can’t draw Mirio all too well, and you accept it with open arms which makes me feel even better. Thanks for putting up with my 5AM sleepy shenanigans talk.

@strongtailxstrongwill / @phatabsorption: AhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHH EDEN! YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME! Oh gosh your writing is so beautiful and I know you might not think that but really, it is. You’re such a dork, I love the fact that sometimes you will stay up just to talk to people, you stayed up listening to me and Sin ramble on all night while we worked on cosplay. You’re such a good person? I’m lucky to have you as a friend it means so much to me.

@manifesttamaki: Look at this sweet child. This child means a lot to me tbh, I love staying up all night and chatting with them about anything and everything. They are like, my favorite Tamaki too? I love the headcanons and the backgrounds you give to this character and also the fact that he’s just a cute lil bean. You are a presh bean and so are your muses!

@spoopyhopper: NOW WOULD YOU LOOK AT THIS FINE GLASS OF WATER, HOO BOI! You’re a good nerd, I respect this nerd so much, this nerd means so much to me and I am happy to have this nerd in my life? Someone always nice to talk to, fun to do replies with, and overall just an amazing person. I am so lucky to have you as a friend my dood!

@iceangelofdeath: We haven’t spoken in forever but you still mean so much to me! I’m happy with all our interactions and seeing you on my dash all the time. I love reading your posts and I laugh a lot at them, your writing is so beautiful and so is your portrayal for a character that lacks screen time. You’ve got a ton of talent.

@gravityborn: You know, we haven’t been friends for too long, but I’m really happy you came up to me at the con. I really want to get some roleplays in with you in the future, I also want to hang out more irl if we can find the chances to do so. Thanks for being my new friend!

@scspooky: My favorite glitter dealer with the best portrayal of Aoyama I have ever seen in all my life! Oh my gosh! I love talking to you OOC! YOU inspired me to put glitter on my cosplay because of our interactions! I love the headcanons and the theories we come up with and oh my gosh you’re a perfect!

@the-smile-hero: Mina Mom!!! Yall!!! Emi does not get enough love in the fandom and this pure bean gives her so much love it’s great and makes me happy! I’m so glad we started interacting and having a good time I wish I got to message you more often I love talking to you! It’s always fun!

@presentcockatoomic: Your blog makes me so happy! I love the way you portray Mic and his levels of emotions! It makes me so happy that you always want to interact even though I’m terrible at keeping threads! Thank you so much!

@hxllxwbxmber: Wow look at this dork! Nah, they are amazing! I love roleplaying with them and it’s so different interacting with a character from a villain verse especially with how scary it can be from Bakugos eyes and how confusing his world view must be. You’re super fun to roleplay with and our conversations are always super interesting!

@nxcturnalhero: I had no idea which blog to tag you into, so I just tagged this one for now. We haven’t really interacted together much with your other blogs, but I still wanted to mention you for all of our silly OOC talks and the groups we’ve been in. Your art is so beautiful and always makes me smile when I see it!

Some other shoutouts: @viscousquxxn @erasureeyes @deadeyeaim @riotboii @mei-and-dabi @tenyacious @midoriyafright @oni-kiri @iimperium @stunbolts @faultcircuit @vinehair @hauntbeatist @cellophxne @icy-hot-hero @charredeyes @lxrcener @berserkerbuzzard @coldtempered @powersurged @thehandcrusher @kaerohero @delawaresmash @carrionfeigned

[wot-an-idiot]

Hey!! I recently found your blog from your cup song, Hogwarts remix and can I just say that it was one of the cutest and purest video I've ever watched? You're so brave to cosplay (I would never show my face in front of a camera) and you have such an amazing voice? I literally got chills from hearing you sing. And you're really pretty and smart + talented to come up with those lyrics. I'm sorry if I sound like a fangirl, you're just such a cool person and I'm really glad I found your blog!! :))

((OOC: Hi! Welcome to my blog, let me take this time to apologize for the nonsense that i may post. Tank yu so much for all the lovely compliments, it means so much to me, truly. 

And as far as the whole “being brave to cosplay” thing, I’ve always had a hard time with my confidence issues. I, too, was one that didn’t like to show my face on camera. I took a selfie once every, like, three years. I still don’t take very many selfies. It’s all about faking it til you make it, trust me. Act confident, and you will become confident, and people will take notice. (An example being yourself). 

My advice to you is to just not give a fuck. Do what you what you want. Look in the mirror and say “Wow, look how gorgeous I am, I am going to go out and rule the world today!” And then just do it

…I believe in you))

[localmagicalboi]

this url! this one! right here!

             ✨ @oraculideluna for SEND UR URL AND I’LL JUST BABBLE ON WITH SOME POORLY WORDED THOUGHTS TBH! still accepting.

✨ My Opinion on…

Character in general: loooooove luna n jecht! luna is such a soft, but strong moonbeam of a woman and jecht is… Jecht lol. Jecht Is Jecht and i wouldn’t have him any other way. vi loves them both for very different reasons. he loves luna because of the strength she carries and he loves jecht because he’s just so annoying that it’s almost an INFECTIOUS kind of charm. you bring both muses to life with your writing and headcanons. you put a lot of love and thought into them and it shows. i think when it comes to jecht it’s easy to get caught up in making him almost a cartoony douchebag kind of person but he strikes such a good balance between Athlete Douche™ and a repentant person that just wants to make amends for everything he’s done in life that isn’t so great.

How they play them: continuing from the last ask. luna’s this gentle strength kind of character. i’ve never played the game she’s from but you make her attractive in personality even for people that have never witnessed her in the game she’s from. that’s a skill. and i just,,,, bruh, let me speak up for my son. vi looks up to her so much like ‘:O WOW SHE’S SO PRETTY AND AMAZING. ♥’ i think he’s awestruck by her existence as a human and it’S SO CUTE???? she really is like the moon. just like. quiet but looming and strong in presence. it’s amazing!!!!! as far as jecht goes… im so glad u arent an apologist for his behavior??? because man i’ve met a lot of jecht apologists in terms of how he treated tidus throughout his childhood. it’s not cool. what IS cool is how you acknowledge his old, nasty ways. and how you’re building him to be a better person. THAT’S cool. THAT’S THAT SHIT I LIKE. you play two very different muses. you do it well. things never get muddied and you know your shit on the both of them. ur writing is excellent and you bring them to life with it.

The Mun: 💖💞💞💗💝💖💖💖💖💗💗💞💘💕💘💝💝💝💝💗💖💕💞💖💞💗💘💖💞💞💖💕💞💗💖💖💘💘💝💖💘 WHAT A WONDERFUL PRESENCE ON MY DASH and a delight in private!!! u know sur shit about sun signs considering they hc’d jecht as a leo. honestly……. Same. love seein ur ooc posts on my dash. never negative, always such a good vibe no matter what. been sick and miserable af with it and still so??? such an angel???? jecht cosplay….. on point…. 10/10. *mariah carey voice* great concept.

✨ Do I…

RP with them: YES????? YES.

Want to RP with them: ALWAYS!!!!!!

✨ What is my…

Overall Opinion: we’ve been mutuals since i first opened this account for my anxious little weirdo of a son and i do not regret @ all like if anyone wants to fight me over how wonderful u are that’s fine i’ve been in handcuffs before CALL THE COPS IDC. i hope we continue being mutuals cuz man ur the Beez Kneez. also vi thinks jecht is super handsome and doesn’t know how to say it so he’ll just keep saying ‘u suk u tall ass Tree’ forever until he figures out how to say words. he thinks luna is pretty and will scream it for DAYS. don’t even try him on it cuz he will. and ill scream about how great u r. cops chasing me or not tbh,,,,,,

[portectorisms-a]

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for every ‘@’ sent (anon or not) I WILL mention and post some positivity about a fellow tumblr user.Accepting || @jobikilled​ ||

@wolfscldier​ -We’re gonna start this off with this perfect beauty right here.Kay means so much to me, like it’s not funny. I love this personso fucking much. Not because they’re my wife or because wetalk so much, nor the fact that they make me feel beyond comfortableand are constantly there(and I’m there in return) but becausetheir soul is breathtakingly beautiful. Their mind is amazing andcreative. Their writing is perfection. They’re such a positive forcein this life and it’s honestly amazing. I made a post earlier aboutthem and how I think people should follow and yeah, they should.If you’re looking for quality and an amazingly well done OC, thisis where you should go. I’ll stop myself before I write a book though.

@jockantagonist -Maddie. This girl right here was one of the very first peopleto ever welcome me into this fandom when I first made Bellamy.They were so opening and so caring and they still are. They'vechanged blogs and have made so many beautiful muses that I cannotlist them all, despite wanting to. They're writing is perfectionand they encompass each of their muses so well and I love readingtheir stuff. Maddie is really sweet ooc as well. Always there whenpeople need someone. Never afraid to give advice or anythingand honestly, I hope everyone has a Maddie when they enter a fandombecause I'm pretty sure if it wasn't for their kindness, I wouldhave given up in s3.

@antagxnized -Katie and Ward. Katie got me into AOS in the beginning. I wasactually pretty not interested when I first saw the commercialsfor it. I was into marvel but not much at the time. Then herecomes this amazingly done Grant Ward and talking about the showand how it worked and I binged the first two seasons in a week.I agree with her characterization so much and she puts so muchwork into who he is as a person. Writing? Wow. I also love seeingher cosplay journey and knowing where she started to where sheis and how she's still growing. If you're not following her? Youshould hit that button right now.

[demonicheadcanons]

RFA and V and Saeran at the Movies/Cinema with MC

(AN: Slowly running out of ideas but I’m stuck in bed all day due to a leg injury (and probably tomorrow too at this rate) so I really want to write something ;; This is how the RFA, V, and Saeran would be like at the movies with MC. As always, I’m still getting used to writing these lovely characters, so I apologise if any of these are OOC. Enjoy! If you have any requests drop them into my inbox and I’ll complete them ASAP ^^ As long as they’re SFW, that is ;;)

Zen

Takes you to see something cute and romantic. If you suggest a horror movie or something like that he’ll totally check it out too

But he’s secretly a little bit scared

Gets really involved, whispering things to you (the people behind you get a little frustrated) about how they should do this or that or whatever

If you ever watch drama shows with him be prepared to comfort him because this boy is emotional af

He’ll put his arm around you and pull you close to him. Hope you like PDA. Holds your other hand in his and just enjoys being close to you

Eventually he’ll stop talking because he’s focusing on you and your reactions to the movie, rather than actually on the movie itself

You’re so cute that he takes you out regularly to the movies now, just so he can watch your face as you react to things. The tiny little subtle changes are what get him the most; the tiny crinkles that form on your nose when something disgusting happens, or the way your eyes widen slightly when there is a lot going on

One day he just leans over and kisses your cheek quietly and gently and you turn to look at him, blushing, and he just shrugs and goes, “You’re so cute, I just had to!”

If your reaction is particularly adorable he’ll immediately buy the movie on DVD when it comes out

Buys a huge bucket of popcorn between the two of you every time, but you never finish it so he brings it with you and lets you eat the rest of it at the house

Just a real sweetheart who loves you so much

Yoosung

You... you want to watch a horror movie? Okay... that’s cool! Yeah sure, he can’t wait, let’s go watch a horror movie!

Holds your hand, as if he’s trying to tell you he’s there for you if you get scared, but in reality he needs an anchor so he doesn’t cry

Tucks his feet up and curls up in a ball at one point because he can’t handle this why is it so scary why would you choose this

He’s one of the three people that scream at the jump scare

Your fingers are broken by the end of it, he’s gripping on to your hand so much

When you leave he’s sweating and his eyes are wide open, and he just looks terrified

Gives you a hug and whispers to you asking if you can maybe never do that again

Kiss him and he’ll feel a bit better and smile, saying that well, maybe it wasn’t so bad

He prefers action movies or movies like Lego Batman and stuff. Not a huge romance fan because it makes him feel like he’s not being romantic enough

Has the most adorable reactions to everything in action films, seems to be in awe the entire time. Gets emotional easily

Also, he loves popcorn and sweets so you guys just have a junk-food feast

He can’t go too often because the cinema is expensive and he’s a student/working to pay off his student loans, but he really cherishes the times he can go with you

Jaehee

Zen stars in a movie and it comes on in the cinemas and so she finds time to get off work and go with you to watch it

You both get drinks and some popcorn, which Jaehee barely eats. She is so hyper before the movie, and you don’t think you’ve ever seen her so excited. She’s normally so tense but she seems so relaxed and content right now (like she is when you cuddle aww) and you can’t keep your eyes off her

She might even get a bit daring, she’s so hyper, and just as the movie is starting she leans over and kisses you on the cheek before turning back to face the screen and acting like it didn’t happen, a small smirk on her face

She’s so cute, paying such close attention to every little detail, and after she is explaining to you all these little tiny details you missed and you have no idea how she saw them all or how she remembers everything

She can even quote things from the movie and you’re just in awe

She won’t get that involved with any other film, unless Zen is in it. So any time Zen is in a film, even just if he has a tiny role in it, you take her to go see it

She’s adorable and deserves more love tbh

Jumin

He doesn’t really like the cinema, it’s too stuffy and there are too many people and he has to dress casually? What? Does he even have casual clothes? (He does and he looks amazing in them RIP MC)

You both get odd looks because everyone knows who he is, and also because you turn up in the company limo (you were not letting him drive there)

If you want something, he’ll get it for you. Tells you to go on in with the tickets and get your seats whilst he gets the drinks and stuff. He comes in with far too many sweets, because he wasn’t sure what you wanted so he just got like basically everything. He doesn’t eat any himself, because he wants to keep his diet meticulous, but he doesn’t mind spoiling you every here and there, knowing you’ll take care of yourself and that you will both return to eating normally anyway at the penthouse, so this won’t have any real affect

You have to remind him that when the movie is playing, he can’t talk or people will get annoyed

Sits silently for the entire film, staring at the screen, his arms crossed. That isn’t what MC meant, Jumin

Next time he rents out the entire room so that it’s just you two so that he can talk to you during the film, and also so he can relax a bit and be a bit affectionate with you during the film

Tbh he doesn’t give a single shit about the film that’s playing. He puts an arm around you and leans his head on yours and he might fall asleep depending on how bored he is. Otherwise, he’ll just sit and blankly stare at the screen and make slight comments about the film. If he doesn’t like it he will gladly say so. I hope you don’t actually like the movie because he will ruin it for you

Asks questions here and there because he just doesn’t get some things. This boy rarely watches movies or TV or anything like that. You have to explain a lot why movies appeal to people

You won’t force him to go to the movies again, because he just doesn’t seem to enjoy it, but in reality he just likes being able to relax with you. He’ll even start offering to take you to see movies and stuff just so he can be with you away from home and from everyone he knows – he loves it being just the two of you. The movies become an escape for you both, and after a while he’ll even start enjoying some of them

He likes more complex films with a deep plot to them that requires him to think about the story

Seven/Saeyoung

Space movies are his jam, unless they’re inaccurate, and then he fucking hates them with a passion and will rant about them when you are still sitting in the cinema watching the movie

You both get asked to leave multiple films because of this, and he’ll just laugh and leave but then he’ll apologise to you later in case you were actually enjoying the movie

He adores animated movies. Cries when something bad happens in them, especially when it involves animals. He sobbed when watching Bambi. Protect this boy

Will stand up and cheer at the end of a movie if he really enjoyed it. He’s really cute

Loves it when you, him, Yoosung, and Saeran all go to see movies (it takes Saeran some convincing though) because you’re all very important to him, you all mean more to him than anyone else in the world (you especially, he’ll remind you)

Drags you and Yoosung to see horror films, and he’s mostly alright with them (doesn’t understand the appeal of too much blood or gore though, wrinkles his nose at it and says it’s pointless and disgusting). He just sits there laughing at Yoosung’s reactions the entire time

If one of you is having a bad day and you go to the movies to relax, he’ll put an arm around your shoulder and just sit cuddled up to you happily, not giving a shit as to what anyone else thinks

 V/Jihyun Kim

You have to wait until after his eyes get fixed, but then he wants to go see every movie he can with you

He likes the cinema, he finds the atmosphere relaxing. Everyone’s sitting down to watch this film together as a huge group

You hear him go “wow” a few times, when the cinematography in the film is excellent. He doesn’t really care so much about the movie itself – a nice plot is always great though – and rather tends to focus on the scene setting and the backgrounds and such

If there is a particularly beautiful shot you can just see his eyes light up

Like some of the others, he loves to sit with his arm around your shoulder. This boy loves just being close to you. He’ll get you anything you want to drink and eat, because he just can’t deny you anything. He won’t eat too much in the cinema himself other than maybe some chocolate sweets (HC he loves chocolate, I don’t know why)

If they have one of those boards that you take pictures by, he’ll take the most artistic and beautiful photos of you by it, or if they have people in cosplaying he’ll take photos of you with them

He totally has a scrapbook of photos of you doing cute things that he gives you as an anniversary gift at some point

Unknown/Saeran

You get the oddest looks at the cinema when he takes you to see this adorable animated film, wearing his leather jacket, the white and pink dye still somewhat in his hair (his ginger roots are growing through though, one more haircut and the dye will be gone), and a glare permanently on his face (except when he looks at you and gives you a tiny reassuring smile to show he’s okay – he’s not the best in public situations, but he’s getting there)

Protectively slings an arm around you, even though he’s not big on PDA. Death glares at anyone who looks at either of you

But if you find a lost child or a kid gets hurt or something he’s fucking over by their side in the blink of an eye, helping them because no child deserves to suffer in any way okay? He won’t let that happen

And kids just love him. They’re curious about him and how he looks and such and when he takes off his jacket, with his short sleeved top making the tattoo clear, he gets so many questions from little kids about it. He’s really good with them

Anyway getting to the movie he’ll watch basically anything. Finds super sweet romancy films a little bit sickening, but if you enjoy them he’ll go watch one with you and pretend he liked it

Not much of a talker anyway so he doesn’t really say anything during the film, and he doesn’t have many comments on it, but the second part is due to the fact that he was actually just watching you the entire time instead of focusing on the film. This is why he blushes slightly and mumbles when you ask him what he thought of it (Saeyoung calls him out on it later and you have to drag Saeran away to keep Saeyoung alive)

Doesn’t really like the sweets and stuff, they make him feel sick, but he always gets ice cream when you go to the cinema. Aside from getting to spend time with you and such, this is his main reason for going there

(AN: So I’m not having a great day and this literally took me around 4 hours to write because of it, I’m so sorry, I struggled to put myself in the situations this time and because of that this is probably horrible. I hope it’s okay enough for you guys, I really am sorry. Also, instead of saying Jumin looked amazing, I was just gonna say he looked adorable but apparently non-ace people don’t normally describe people like that so welp

Take care!)