#OKAY THE REASON I GOT OUT MY DM CARDS IS BC I WAS LIKE

[chicicherrycola]

i finally figured out who laois reminds me of

[im-still-a-robot]

No level up but that's fine because its cosmic horror time <33

Everyone hope for a level up tonight, my bard still has 9 charisma

[nothanks98765]

I've been recently thinking about the last ask I sent about my upcoming year and it left me both perplexed and excited.

I'm not sure if you're open to a second tarot ask but I wanted to ask about my future career. I always bounce around different ideas in my head for what I want my occupation to be however I don't know where to start my journey and what it will entail. I feel at (the ripe old) age 20 that i'm being super stagnant but I also have the whole world ahead of me. Any advice?

I do have some questions to get to know the person behind the cards better too.

1. What is your dream occupation and why?

2. Which would you rather be a Fairy, mermaid, dragon, or a magical princess?

((don't feel obligated to answer this you can delete it if wanted))

Hello hello darling 💕

thank you for your follow up questions!!

I want to first apologize that this took so long. Thank you for patience 🩷 I love reading tarot and I want to make sure I give readings my full attention so if it takes me a while it’s just bc I am making sure i can be fully present 💫

I absolutely adore follow ups, please feel free to ask / dm questions whenever you like. I am so lucky to have mutuals who have trusted me with giving readings for them over time (for years even!!), i love hearing how situations work out, and i also love building a relationship and being able to go deeper in readings.

I’m going to answer the personal q’s about me first then jump into your reading 🫶 I’d love to share more about myself thank you for asking :)

The person behind the cards:

I absolutely adore tarot. I have a handful of experiences where I got messages from loved ones who have passed. It doesn’t happen often but i had experiences that were undeniable to me, and I pursued ways to better interpret messages from spirit. I’m a forever student at heart and tarot appealed to me based on the density of the theories behind it and the philosophy of the interpretation. I have an amazing mentor and have been doing tarot as a vocation for 5 years now. It makes me feel like I’m honoring the divine when I do tarot and for that reason I will never charge for tarot readings.

Thanks for listening to my little soap box moment 💃🏻💋

1.) My dream occupation: I actually am working my dream job 💫🫶 I am an environmental scientist. i specialize in water quality! I work in oil spill prevention and response. It’s such a great job. I get to do a bit of everything, field work, lab work, emergency response, policy, leadership. Its wonderful. My dream job was always going to be the intersection of environmental science snd public health. I feel so passionately about it. I have family members who grew sick because of pesticides. I grew up where over time a creek i lived by become to polluted to play in. What drew me to this field was everyone in my family knew why we were sick, knew when the kids couldnt play in the water anymore, or couldnt run through the fields. Everyone knew it was poison and pesticides got sprayed anyways. Hazardous waste got dumped into the creek anyways. I love that the work I do works to prevenr major pollution events.

2.) I literally love fantasy shit sm this has me TORN 😫😫😫

okay insane family lore- i’m american, but my family is from ireland. i was raised to believe fairies were real. (and NOT TO FUCK W THEM) the part of ireland my grandma was from had leprechauns and she spoke of them tricking people into curses that lasted generations. I dont remember everything she said, she passed when I was young, i wish i remember more and i wish i learned the irish she tried to teach me, but i do remember faeries scared me, they can’t go to heaven, live underground and have a lot of rules lmao so mad respect to them but i will not dabble in anything fairy related.

Being a mermaid seems sooo different. i’m a land creature. maybe a nympth of some sort i could do. A river nympth. Being underwater all the time sounds freaky so also no ❌

magical princess SEEMS cool but dont princesses have to marry or rule? nahhhhh. Like i WISH- but i dont believe in monarchy so I’d have to be the peoples princess and redistribute the crowns wealth and give the land back to the people and i fear i’d be assassinated by my late fathers most trusted advisor so i will also pass.

dragon is the way to go it seems. I love that I could fly. Hopefully maybe have a lil egg dragon baby. Maybe burn down a army. Sounds good to me.

Okay!!! So you’re reading:

I made a spread for you based on your questions and what you shared about your career. I will dm you a pic if you want to see the imagery of the cards. The placement is as follows: North: Represents you during this time in respect to your career. South: A field you would do well im. West: your talent East: A skill you need to keep developing. I also pulled a card for advice on your career path, but we will get to that in the end.

So- right away you have some heavy hitters coming up in this spread. In the north placement you have the high priestess reversed. You have good instincts, an aptitude for scholarship and research, editing and procedures. Upright there is lots of room for complex situations, balancing competing ideas. In reverse we see you haven’t mastered that balancing act ⚖️You may be wanting things to be more concrete than they are. Tap into your intuition, especially your faith in yourself and your ideas. make room for the complicated. 🕊️

your talent: ten of swords reversed. interesting because i looked back on your previous reading and this card exactly, even reversed, was your good news. we see it again for your talent. So interesting. For this to be your talent is incredible- it shows resiliency. if you get knocked down 9 times you’ll get up 10. you always have your eyes on the horizon, looking for whats next. Your ability to move on from mishaps and failure is going to be key to your success. It seems you wont even entertain the idea of not succeeding- you have the drive to find a way. The fact that this card showed up for you again tells me you are dealing with a situation that is apart of a pattern. use your talents. learn from it and keep going.

The skill you should develop more: 3 of cups.

Your work should be fun! aspire to be inspired. play with it. you are not locked in to any one thing. your goal should be about building that resume- write down everything you learned and make connections! for future references but also as a networking tool- maybe a old coworker can recommend you for your dream job.

The field you would do well in: The Lovers

VERY interesting. a couple things i like to clarify about the lovers: it so often gets reduced to romantic relationships or marriage. it is a blessed or “favorable union” Its ruled by mercury and correlates with gemini. it symbolizes balance between two dichotomies , represented by the feminine and masculine (this exists within ourselves and is not necessarily gender specific)

The field you would do well in involves unifying two parties for a common goal. Community organizing, politics. With mercury i see you doing well in a communication setting. Working with immigrants perhaps, based on the mercury element. The field has to include unifying something. bringing harmony and safety to a situation. It will inevitably have front facing duties and then things you have to do on the back end. balance will be key. but it you will thrive in impactful work.

Advice Card (for career reversed)

Temperance reversed

My question to you based on this card is this: What resources do you have that you aren’t using? Now is the time to take advantage of all advice offered to you, all opportunities. Literally say yes to everything (career specific). You are in a very prosperous spot and time but not utilizing it fully. This card can also show up when there is some extreme behavior throwing the balance off. Dont drink too much, sleep to much, or do too much of a vice, its distracting you from opportunities.

Overall, you sharing your age, you are in such s great spot purely based on your mindset. seriously!!!! work on trusting your gut- find a few likeminded friends so you can push each other. Most importantly- play around snd have fun. Fail, succeed, learn. meet a mentor, learn what you like what you don’t. your instincts are strong snd will guide you. don’t forget to use the tools you have.

Best of luck friend 🎉 You have a bright future 💛

[sneezefiction]

soft seijoh sleepover

Seijoh x Reader - Sleepover Headcanons

a/n: the next team in my soft team sleepover series is Aoba Johsai! :,)) this one gave me so many feels. enjoy many hugs, sweet gestures, and fluffy feels @ a sleepover with our beloved, turquoise-wearing boys

warnings: none!

wc: 940

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you’d been managing the Aoba Johsai volleyball team since you were a 1st year, so you’ve had the pleasure (and horror) of getting super close with the Seijoh boys

back in the day, Iwa and Oikawa shared several classes with you & had somehow convinced you that you would be a perfect manager for their hectic team

and you actually believed them :O

but it was SO worth it. you have so many terrifying photos and videos, a nickname for each of the boys, and you’ve received hugs every school day since you started working w/ them

however, now that you’re a 3rd year, you’ve been searching for a way to show your care for the team before you inevitably part with them

which is heartbreaking to say the least… but you’ve figured out a way to leave them on a sweeter note

a ★Goodbye I Love You All So Much★ sleepover at your house

you’ve got stacks of DVD’s out on your coffee table instead of using N*tflix just to make Hanamaki and Kunimi mad

you also managed to set up several bowls of the boys fav snacks which consist of m&m’s, popcorn, chips, sour gummies (bc for some reason i hc that Kunimi likes those), and a sneaky milk bread just for Oikawa

and the boys arrive one by one

each one giving you their signature hugs:

Hanamaki’s is short, but sweet, wrapping his arms around you in a tight squeeze

Yahaba’s hug lingers as he makes some flirty comment about how nice you smell, but you just laugh and push him off of you

you’re engulfed in a wholesome hug from Watari and it was all precious and sweet like: (⊃•́‿•̀｡)⊃━✿✿✿✿✿✿

Mattsun’s is a Whole Embrace mixed with some goofy one-liners that makes you chuckle into his warm, fuzzy jacket - he always found a way to make you feel at ease & humor usually worked

HOWEVER the whole vibe is changed as Kyoutani grumpily makes his way inside, side-eyeing everyone in the process

Kyo simply looks at you, nods, and hands you a bag of store-bought cookies. to you this has been a successful interaction

but once Iwaizumi arrives, you literally have to look away to keep tears from welling up in your eyes. 

he just stares at his feet with a somber, blushy expression on his face until he realizes that you’re not gonna be able to initiate the hug bc Emotions™

his hug is l o n g. and warm. and several tears are shed into his well-worn, denim jacket while he cradles your head

tears are wiped away only for Kindaichi to stumble through the door with a card and flowers in his hand bc he wants you to know how much he’ll miss you.

Kindaichi’s hug is short, but it’s intentionally that way because he doesn’t feel like crying into your hair and almost fails

You can breathe a sigh of relief when Kunimi saunters into your home bc you know he isn’t gonna get all soft on you

he literally just side hugs you and honestly you couldn’t be more grateful for the chill interaction

but the relief is short-lived, because THE Oikawa Tooru is the last to dramatically make his way through the door

Tooru has his most precious smile on, just how you remembered it from your first year, and envelopes you in a hug that all but m e l t s you

you don’t usually let him use all of his charms on you, but you make an exception since this is one of the last times you’ll get to hold him this closely

besides Iwaizumi, Oikawa is undeniably one of the best hug-givers because he naturally soothes you, letting you lean into his chest and rest your chin on his shoulders. 

he’s definitely tracing small circles on your back and smiling into your hair which makes you entirely forget that there’s a room full of boys lounging around, watching this hug fiasco go down

“Get a room, you two!” You hear Hanamaki call out

Ah, yes, people are here

“Shhh! We were having a moment!” Oikawa whines, but you pull away from him anyways, rolling your eyes at the rest of the team

and thus the movie watching marathon begins

“Aliens” (by Tooru’s request) is first, then “The Greatest Showman,” followed by “Pacific Rim,” since you didn’t have any of the original Godzilla movies that Iwaizumi had requested

4 people pile onto the couch, squishing each other and getting a bit tangled

basically, you’re sandwiched between Iwa and Kindaichi (much to Oikawa dismay, bc he wanted to sit next to you)

everyone else is spread out on the carpet, in bean bags, across sleeping bags & pillows… whatever they find most comfortable

but the films weren’t exactly the focus

instead, almost everyone is making snide remarks, narrating, and sending memes throughout each movie while Iwaizumi is practically begging (threatening) all of them to just, “Shut up and watch!”

and because Iwa is literally about to punch one of them, you grab him by the shoulders and tilt his body until this head is laying in your lap & you’re softly brushing your fingers through his hair

you learn a lot about their film theories & gamer terms which only reaffirms your belief that they’re all just a bunch of nerdy, volleyball obsessed kids (even though they all want you to think they’re super cool and attractive)

but alas, it’s this goofiness that makes you so fond of them: the teasing and prodding, the illogical banter, and the casual & often untimely flirting from each of the boys periodically…

none of you get any sleep, but it’s okay because you’re cozied up next to your favs and they make sure to tease and love on you as much as possible, because you are just so special to them

you will miss every. single. one. of. them.

but to your credit, they are going to miss you so much more <3

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soft team sleepover series

soft shiratorizawa sleepover

soft karasuno sleepover

soft nekoma sleepover

soft fukurodani sleepover (in progress)

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[trifoliate-undergrowth]

Episode 5: The Incredibly Brief Life of Mif Mifterson

As we’re waiting to start and admiring the ship model of Blindsider that the DM has created since session 4.2, we move our character icons around. Grif’s appears at the ship’s gunning position. 

H: So, how edgy is Grif today? :) 

M, laughing: GUN 

M also said at one point “ah, Grif, that poor little stringbean.” To which H replies “Stringbean? Why stringbean? I mean, all humans are stringbeans to Rralwarr...” 

As we start the session, M brings up something we’d been discussing in the group chat in between sessions. I had looked again at the anonymous threatening transmission again, in the process of typing of Episode 4. “You have taken our property” is one of the first things mentioned. What property? After us all throwing some (wildly inaccurate) theories around in the group chat I had a realization and approached the DM about it. He confirmed my suspicions. He’d also mentioned it to the other players, so they knew, but their characters didn’t in-game, and I hadn’t quite explained it yet either. So M asked me about it. 

I said Taveau was staring at the transmission again and invited him to start the conversation. Taveau is... even less forthcoming than usual, and asks Grif what he thinks, first. 

Grif: Well I mean that’s a good question. Is it the ship? 

Rralwarr: Maybe they’re being absolutely massive jerks and it’s actually the tracking device. 

Taveau: No... I don’t think so. 

Grif: Well, why not? Do you think you know what it is, then? 

Taveau: ... I hope I’m wrong, but. I’ve got an idea. It might be me. 

Grif: You? Why would it be you? 

Taveau: I used to be a member of Death Watch. I hoped they’d thought I was dead, but if not... they probably have... a special death planned for me. 

Rralwarr is growling menacingly. Taveau fidgets. 

Taveau: I--alright. Rralwarr? Did you choose to become a bodyguard, or is that just what you were raised to do? 

Rralwarr hesitates for a moment before replying (and Grif translates): 

Rralwarr: I... I did, yes. There was a conscious choice. 

Taveau: That must be nice. I probably had a choice somewhere in there, but I didn’t realize it until it was too late. 

Rralwarr: ? 

Taveau: My parents raised me with the expectation that I’d join Death Watch as soon as I was old enough. By the time I was 15 I was having second thoughts, but I didn’t see an easy way to get out of it. 

H: Rralwarr stops growling and moves away from you. He stands with his back to you. He’s obviously not happy, but he’s not threatening you. 

It could be worse. It takes a certain amount of trust to turn your back on someone, at least, even if it’s to visibly sulk at them. 

Grif: Why are we talking about the past? We need to find a place to land. 

Taveau, with relief: You, I like you. Tell me where to land, I don’t know this planet. 

Grif: Well, let’s think about this. If we land too close to home it’ll be too obvious. I think if we head for the capital we have a better chance of blending in with all the traffic. And we should land at a middle-class spaceport, it’ll be busy, and not the kind of place we’d usually go. 

Rralwarr: Yeah, that’s going to be difficult. We still look like us. 

Grif: But there’s not much we can do about that right now, we’ll just have to hope no one recognizes us. 

Taveau: ...So are you guys, like, royalty? 

Grif: Not exactly, no. I mean, we’re well-known in our city, but we’re not exactly big intergalactic stuff. If you live on the other side of Alderaan you might know our name. 

Me: M, you said “not exactly” and Taveau heard “so basically kind of yes”. 

We discuss trying to disguise Rralwarr and give it up as an impossible task, for the moment at least. Taveau takes off his armor and poncho, folds the armor up inside his poncho and carries it under his arm like a bag. 

Decisions made, we head down towards the planet and are contacted from the ground by space-air traffic control. 

Ground: Transport Blindsider, identify yourself. Please note that security measures have been heightened in wake of the recent assassination. 

Grif, in an excellent imitation of a complete idiot: Assassination?! Wot!! 

Ground: Yes, a member of Alderaan’s most prominent families has been killed under mysterious circumstances. (Taveau quietly reinforces his belief that the Welkonnas are some kind of royalty. He’s not 100% clear on how this works on other planets but everyone knows them so obviously...) ...Transport Blindsider, do you copy? 

Grif: YES. AH. SORRY, TECHNICAL DIFFICULTIES--*turns to Rralwarr* what do I do? 

Rralwarr: *I don’t know noise* Wrahh? 

Grif:--whoops there we go just had to fix something ANYWAY, YES HELLO, MY NAME IS MIF MIFTERSON. (ridiculously high deception roll) 

M, OOC: Haha Mif, bc I’m very miffed

Ground: Understood, Mr. Mifterson. I’m seeing you have two other lifeforms on your ship? 

Grif/Mif: YES, um, I have my friend... Chewbacca, 

Rralwarr: What

Grif: And, uhhh Tyrone Fireside. 

Taveau: *slightly disappointed look* ok whatever

DM: I mean, with that roll, you could’ve said anything and they would’ve believed you. 

Ground: Alright. Transport Blindsider, you’ve been cleared for landing in docking bay 94. 

(We take a moment to appreciate the reference, which one party member recognized; I needed to be told that that was the same number as the docking bay in which the original Star Wars party found the Millennium Falcon way back in A New Hope.) 

Ground: Enjoy your stay in Alderaan! 

Grif the Mif: Thanks! 

We land safely and get out of the ship. We are immediately greeted with Alderaanian customs officers. Grif, trying to feel out how much he needs to lie to these people, asks “So, hey, do any of you know the guy from space traffic control?” 

The DM asks him to make a deception roll for these new people and he crit fails it. 

Customs officer: Sir we have reason to believe you lied about your identity on the way in. Put your hands up and step away from the ship.

Grif: Oh... uh... Okay. 

Taveau drops his poncho bundle, which makes a VERY SUSPICIOUSLY LOUD metallic clonk. Naturally that’s the first thing they investigate. 

Customs officer: Battle armor, huh? 

Taveau: *stands very, very still* 

Rralwarr, meanwhile, tries to hand his ID card one of the officers and is requested to STOP MOVING, drop the card and lower his arms in front of him. He’s put in binder cuffs. 

M, responding to “nobody move” : the only thing moving is me/Grif, and that’s just my mouth. 

Me: THAT’S BAD ENOUGH. 

Grif: OK guys, listen up. I’ll admit it, I lied, and I’ll tell you why, I’m Grif Welkonna, I’m worried about what happened and I didn’t want to talk about my name over unsecure channels. You can find my ID in the bag there, this is my bodyguard Rralwarr, and this is our pilot Taveau.

Taveau: *small voice* hi

Customs officer: Check their IDs. ...OK. That was an idiotic way of trying to protect yourself, Mr. Welkonna, but I imagine you’re a bit shook up, so we’ll forgive it this time. We’ll take you to see the chief of police, he’s conducting an investigation into the murder. 

Taveau: ...Can I lower my hands now? 

Customs: yes. 

Taveau: Thank you. *does so very slowly* 

Rralwarr: Hey guys? I’m still handcuffed over here. 

That is remedied. 

DM: The customs people hand you over to a regular police escort who then take you in a police speeder. It’s fairly roomy. It’ll be about a 20-minute trip. 

Rralwarr: *whisper-messages something to Grif that I can’t see* 

Grif: *shakes his head* 

Me: *concern* 

H: Rralwarr’s a little confused about what’s exactly going on. He’s usually a little confused. 

Grif asks the officers with us if any of them were involved with the investigation. The answer is no, that’s being handled by forensics. There’s a moment of silence. 

Taveau: ...Hey, Rralwarr. 

H: He doesn’t really respond, but he’s listening. 

Taveau: I... understand if you don’t want to trust me, but just for the record, I hate these guys at least as much as you do. They left me to die in an arena on Geonosis. 

H: Rralwarr doesn’t say anything, not even a grunt. But he’s thinking of the enslaved Wookiees, and he sees it as a point of connection. 

We arrive, the officers escort us into a turbolift (yes, the DM tells H, Rralwarr does fit), and to the police chief’s office. 

DM: He’s sitting behind a large, ornate hardwood desk. Because of course, what else do police chiefs sit behind. The escorts leave, the chief gets up and comes around his desk to shake Grif’s hand. 

PC: Mr. Welkonna, my sincere condolences. I want you to know we have our best men working on it.

Grif: Thank you police chief, it’s very nice to hear you see that.

PC: It’s only my duty. Currently your family is in a safehouse on the other side of the planet. Would you like a police escort? I understand your father is anxiously awaiting your return.

M, OOC: Grif is going to ask what the name of the house is, like, the name the family used when talking about it, to see if this guy’s legit. 

DM: And what is the name? 

M: 

M:.... Fluffyplace.

The Party: what

DM: Acceptable

The Party: WHAT

PC, responding to Grif: it’s.. oh what was it... something to do with... pillows? No. Cloud... oh, fluffy. 

H: Rralwarr is disappoint. 

Taveau: ??? 

Grif: Ah yes fluffyplace, that’s it :) 

M: Grif’s face is utterly straight as he says fluffyplace.

H: Rralwarr does not know how you do this, he questions whether you are or ever were mentally stable. 

Taveau already feels out of his depth enough that he just accepts it as another weird alien thing, but he is wondering who picks the names in this family. 

PC: Alright. I guess you’ll be wanting to leave immediately? I’ll send you down with a couple officers, they’ll take you in an unmarked, armor speeder. So far we’ve had very few leads. Would you like us to send you whatever files we have?

Grif: Yeah that’d be good, Rralwarr might be able to assist. He knows the place where it happened very well. 

We go get in another speeder and prepared for another, much longer ride. The DM suggests we stop here, because he’s been sick and hasn’t been able to prepare as far ahead as he’d planned to, so he doesn’t feel ready to proceed any farther with the story. But before we break up officially, we have some more speeder talks. 

H: After the Geonosis talk, Rralwarr expresses interest in talking to Taveau. Can he assist you in learning Shyriiwook? 

Me: Oh please do. 

(roll of 19) Taveau now understands some basic words and phrases in Shyriiwook. And he is no longer misinterpreting everything he hears. 

H: Rralwarr has significantly calmed down. He’s been considering Taveau’s past actions and also your comment about Geonosis, and he thinks: you have not posed a threat to him or to Grif, so he has no reason to distrust you. That’s what he keeps telling himself, anyway. 

[masterpost]

[robotlesbianjavert]

cybersix, yugioh, friday the 13th

good & sexy choices

CYBERSIX

3 characters i like: basically all of them but let’s go lori, lucas, jose (listen sometimes you are 12 and you’re only into small & evil characters and you tell yourself “i’m going to love them for the rest of my life” and you gotta mean it otherwise you’re a coward). only reason c6/adrian isn’t here is bc she’s the title character and that matters to me.3 characters i dislike: von reichter. that one dude who bossed julian around. goblins just fuck em.an OTP: ummmm i died for c6/lucas. but also grizelda/c6 cuz cuz i’m a tragic bitch.a NOTP: i guess lori/adrian??my favorite scene/chapter/quest/etc: okay i’m gonna cheat, cuz there’s actually a lot. okay the very last scene, with jose and the recording of von reichter, mostly bc it HAUNTS me i want to know what the fuck it was supposed to set up and i will NEVER know how messed up is that. second the c6/lucas scene where lucas and cybersix are talking in the apartment about the coppers looking for her and lucas is like “let me help!!!!” and grabs her hand and she just smiles and leaves anyways. imagine the slowburn if we had even more episodes.......incredible. that scene i really liked the idk the atmosphere? shading?my overall opinion: listen sometimes you are 12, and you watch this cartoon and you’re fascinated and you hit “the final confrontation” for the first time and you go wow!!!! can’t wait to see what happens next!!!!! and then the next day dutifully you watch the show but it’s the first episode again, and you’re confused but you go with it, and before you know it you’ve watched through the series innumerable times and your sisters just want to watch smart guy on family instead for once but you refuse. and when you go to your dad’s you pick up so much dog shit and do so many dishes to earn computer time and you spend all of that computer time desperately googling the show and learning anything you can and going over the same bunch of sites that don’t even exist anymore and your stepbrother has to do a check on google images for you and goes “okay be careful on page five there’s a hinky pic there” and you’re a good kid so you dutifully avoid the hinky pics, even tho you’re a little bit curious, and you cried when you first heard that it was getting a dvd release. anyways it’s all right.

YUGIOH

5 characters i like: most of them especially now that i’ve read most of the manga (characters like jounouchi/anzu/honda/ryou i appreciate a lot more now) but it’ll still be like. kaiba, mai..........rex mako weevil i’m beggin you sue me5 characters i dislike: that fucking baby you know the one he accounts for all five characters i despise. the baby should have died. kaiba could have killed the baby and everyone would have agreed with him.3 OTPs: yami|atem/kaiba fucking duh. mai/ishizu but it’s gotta be like, mai goes up to ishizu at some point like “hey i like your future reading scam” and ishizu refuses to talk to her until the slowburn kicks in, that’s the ideal! joey/rex but i’m valid and ten years old and no one can ever criticize me. shout out to gx’s jaden/chazz tho3 NOTPs: i can’t think of anything that’s visceral tbh. i think there’s a bit too much joey/kaiba but i’d still read it if the characterization was intriguing enough.my favorite installment: dm by default (the only other anime installment i’ve kinda seen was gx when it was sometimes on, i know a bit about zexal cuz i’ve followed ppl who loved it), but the pre-duelist kingdom part of the manga holds a fiercely special part in my heart now. luv your recaps btw took me the longest time to realise that was you!!!!!!!my overall opinion: when i was small me & my sisters would watch it all the time (i might have instigated most of that?) to the point where a) mother bought us all these toy duel disks for christmas once and we had a handful of cards we might have bummed off a stepbrother and i might have cheated against my sisters when i made them play with me b) mum had actually memorized the basic rules of the game, bless her soul she had to put up with a lot. i’m wicked glad i had the passing thought to check out the manga and got back into it again.

F13

5 characters i like: jason fucking duh, pamela who i am married to, reggie the reckless of p5, megan from p6, julius from p8, shout out to chewie from the reboot. actually also shout out to martin the cemetery man bc there are no ask meme cops to stop me.5 characters i dislike: that one psychiatrist fuck from p7. whoever that one supernatural guy played in the reboot he was boring as shit. tbh too many of the characters are forgettable i can’t fill this up.3 OTPs: don’t fucking tell anyone but there’s this comic i’ve never been able to read cuz it’s hard to find and also expensive when you do, but jason and leatherface bond and it ends tragically and there’s a rose involved and just reading about it sounds sweet. pamela/me we co-mom. i guess i’m fond enough megan/tommy cuz of the part where tommy is like “don’t do anything stupid :(” after she’s shoved his head in her lap and is speeding away from the police.3 NOTPs: mmmmmm jason/that bitch freddy i guessmy favorite installment: the final chapter is best if you’re looking for a classic slasher but part 6, jason lives is the first one i ever saw and is also just overall the strongest i would stake my life on it. the reboot and freddy vs jason get shout outs for the good jason content.my overall opinion: i love trash and i’m grateful to all my followers who didn’t follow me for f13, you all put up with a lot.

[daintyzzz]

gosh, sorry i haven’t posted food logs the past two days. i’ve had so much family (and friend) stuff going on it’s literally insane.

since this is like my safe space i’m going to rant so *tw* (ironic bc this is an ed blog) for like drugs, verbal & emotional abuse, rape, financial issues.

so i’ll just start with what happened with my friend and i bc it’s not as big as my family issues. basically she posted this thing on her spam account (don’t you just love how social media starts problems) with a caption saying “i wouldn’t mind being raped as long as the killer was disease free and attractive.”

now, i’ve been friends with this girl for almost 4 years now & she knows just about everything about me. one of things being that when i was 9 i was raped by my stepbrother. so when i read that, something that i never thought could come out of her mouth, i cried. i cried so fucking hard for like an hour. like, this isn’t the first time she’s said offensive things, but she’s never gone as far to talk about rape in such a light and playful way considering i’m not the only one of her friends who’s been sexually assaulted/raped (for fucks sake, she’s been harassed before).

anyway, it took me a while to finally confront her, because, i mean, i could barely fucking look at her. i started being kinda short. sending one word responses, not opening dms. i just didn’t know how to bring it up bc, trust me, she is the most insensitive person i have ever been friends with (not to get anything wrong, i love her to death but god).

well, i finally confronted her after she said something about how she’s “too clean for stds” (obviously not if ur gross enough to say you’re okay w being raped), but, uh, she responded just the way i figured she was going to. saying things like “i don’t get what you’re so upset about” and “i say it all the time.”

i left her on opened, not really feeling up to defending my point anymore and just wanted to let it all blow over, but half an hour later she texted me again asking why i “didn’t bring it up sooner” if i was “so upset about it.” and i told her that it was because i knew she’d respond just the way she did. this prompted her to wait a whole hour until she responded again saying she “never meant to hurt me” and that me “being short and aggy isn’t solving anything” (even though every time we get into an argument she posts an indirect about me on her spam).

idk i asked someone else about the situation and like they just kinda told me that we should try distancing ourselves from one another for a little while and while i was all for the idea i knew it’d happen because i have horrible attachment issues (my bpd causing me to have a fp). so immediately when i was gonna start doing that she messaged this like thoughtful message & one of those soft reaction meme pictures and whatever. and i tried to just go about with what i was going but of course i just hearted the message and texted her back & i mean, i guess we’re okay. idk. i still the post was gross.

onto family shit i guess lol.

so my dad (he’s a single parent, it’s just him and i) just lost his job. and like it’s his third one this year (job; he quit one and the other two he’s been fired from). it has been so fucking frustrating because we’ve been struggling to pay rent and buy groceries (which i’m not necessarily that upset about because it gives me reason to not be eating, but you guys get it. we’re broke).

and like, i should technically have $250 of my own money on my card but half of it my dad had to use to pay for shit and the other half i had to use to pay for my own contacts which my mom (who lives 2000 miles away & is a literal crackhead) said she’d pay back. well guess who hasn’t gotten any of that money back!! me!! which i understand the money from my dad obviously because we have literally nothing rn, but my mom just spends all of her fucking money on crack and pills and when i try and get my dad to message her about paying me back she just screams about how she’s poor and has no food and i just want to scream that it’s because she keeps fucking up her life. my mom has literally gone to jail like 3 times in the past 2 and a half years. for stabbing her ex-boyfriend (which she adamantly claims didn’t happen), for having drugs on her (this wasn’t specified in the report, but i’m guessing it was just weed because she was away for very long), and another time for stabbing this one girl (which she got out of because apparently there wasn’t enough proof that she actually did it or something i don’t even know at this point.

anyway, she finally said she’d try and send it next friday after i sent her a long ass message (that she didn’t even fucking READ. and I KNOW SHE DIDN’T READ IT BECAUSE HER RESPONSE WASA TOTALLY FUCKING IRRELEVANT AND IGNORANT). the only reason i really care about having that money is because i need $150 to go on a field trip for my government club and she’s literally the only person i have the possibility of getting it from unless i start prostituting myself or something (which i’ve heavily considered btw).

oh, and!! my dad has horrible fucking panic attacks!!!! all the fucking time!!!!! he’s had them since i was in 7th grade (which, lol, this is a whole other story, but i think it’s because he started doing crack & poppers and shit because i’ve found all types of drugs in his bedroom) but they stopped when we moved in with my best friend and his mom (our parents were dating at the time so it made sense) and like she’s super helpful but it’s not like we can just ask her to pay our rent until my dad fucking gets over himself (ugh my dad is so fucked up because this leads me into another reason of why he has panic attacks and shit).

my dad is literally the biggest liar and the most unloyal person ever. i am so disgusted to be related to him sometimes because he has no fucking morals. he fucking cheated on the one woman who actually cared about him and cared about me (my past step moms have been both physically and emotionally abusive). and then lied about it. over and over again. like this kind fucking lady actually tried giving him another chance after he lost his job the first time and like my dad pays her back by continuing to see the woman he claims to be a “psycho bitch” (she is) behind her back. 

idk there is so much fucking more, but if i were to type it all we’d be here all fucking day. i know no one’s going to read this but holy fuck i am just having the worst family life and i just want a nice, normal, middle-class family to adopt me.

[royalblurryfacedbastard]

Today was p okay-ish. I didn’t sleep last night so it was sorta hard for me mentally and also kinda physically. I’m obviously not feeling very well after a night of staying awake.

Coding class went p okay, we didn’t get much done as usual but I talked a lot w JJ and AS and also EL. We made a mascot for the game we’re gonna make and he’s just a Russian meerkat. Named Konstantin. Beautiful stuff.

Anyway, I gave Z a hug before English class and I actually wrote some things on my literature assignment during the class. I got kinda super tired after a while though and bleh. I sat w my face resting on my hand and was half-asleep for like 20 minutes before we got to go to lunch.

I was lucky enough to actually run into our social studies teacher right as English class ended and I talked to him and told him I was gonna go home early and not attend his class. He told me I’ll catch up (it was more in a way that meant I won’t fall behind for going home tho) and that really eased my anxiety about going home. Ever since I got my ADD diagnosis I’ve been near panicky anxious about missing out on school and classes and all that so it’s always been hard for me to actually go home when I’m feeling unwell. I didn’t feel that unwell today though but my anxiety got rly fucking bad when I realized I’d get home at 5:30 if I went to social studies. So that’s the reason I left. I think another reason it’s hard for me to stay home or leave school early is bc I’m seriously terrified of falling back into my old habits (as in never going to school and fall behind and all that, the way I was before my diagnosis and before I got help) and the way my brain works is if I stay home a day or two I’m back in my old habits. Even if I go to school after staying home. Even if it’s just one day my anxiety goes thru the roof bc in the back of my mind im thinking “I’ve failed, I’ve fallen back, I’ve relapsed”. Even if that’s not at all what’s happening. That’s how terrified I am of ‘relapsing’.

On a more positive note, I know the rules for the older Swedish D&D games pretty well now after my not-sleeping last night. That’s gonna be useful tomorrow since we’re most likely gonna continue the adventure we started yesterday then.

And I looked through some Pathfinder rulebook w AS today during coding class and we argued a bit about which race is the best and then we both got fuckin Amazed at these other races that you don’t see in D&D for example. The art was really amazing and both he and I thought this one character w antlers was super cool.

I’m also gonna order a D&D starter set and probably a Pathfinder starter set too tomorrow which I’m p excited about. I mean, I don’t mind reading rulebooks and whatnot online and finding adventures online to play w my friends, but I’m really hyped up about getting physical books w adventures and rules and all that fun stuff. And more dice ofc. I love dice. I got a lil starter kit w dice from dad’s friend yesterday and I love em. They’re cool and purple and smooth (the d20s I bought the other day are much more harsh in texture and although they have fuckin nice-ass colors they don’t roll very well) but I’m also super excited about getting More of Them. Pls don’t judge me rn okay I’m rly excited about my new interest. Even tho I’m having a rough time understanding some of the rules I’ve read about. I’ll learn tho. And then I’ll be thE GREATEST DM EVER. Or at least a decent one.

But yeah I went home. Took the 1 pm bus home. Waited in the town an hour from my hometown bc I promised ES to ride the bus w her and when I changed my mind bc I’m tired she got kinda mad and I felt bad so I waited. For an hour. Yes. I shouldn’t have promised to begin with bc I always regret stuff and change my mind back and forth and blah blah blah. But oh well.

It wasn’t that bad tbh, I mean I got to hang out w ES after all. What was bad tho was that my fuckin card stopped working so I couldn’t ride the bus, but luckily ES payed my ticket and all was well.

I’m home now and I’m p exhausted so I’m just gonna eat, watch some vids and then sleep.

[geleixi]

arc-v is ending in like A DAY and i am STILL not caught up so i’m dedicating tonight to binge watching as many episodes as i can. i took a nap earlier so hopefully i won’t get tired. can i watch eight episodes in a night? probably not but i can try!!

ep140

kinda creepy, reiji, tbh

i don’t really get how yuuya moved reiji. reiji isn’t cold and aloof anymore and he actually talks now, but i never really saw that as a product of yuuya’s doing

so like, i don’t get why HE’S the one who gets to face zarc one on one either

the writing in this show has been like REIJI IS IMPORTANT for a while, but i’m always like........ how?

oooooh hosts and vessels, like in dm :O

yeah tbh reira seems more important and better developed than reiji

YES finally someone managed to do damage jfc

you’d think they’d all have more cards that could negate spell effects?

so zarc just changed the rules of the game bc he’s a petty sore loser

TSUKIKAGE!!!!!!! IS!!!!!!! BACK!!!!!!!!!!!

THE MOST IMPORTANT CHARACTER IN THIS SERIES

“damn you’re cheap tricks” okay hold on a second there, zarc......

oh hey a splitscreen with reiji’s parents

also i’m still weirded out with how his mom calls him ‘reiji-san’??

log with a scarf lmao

YES REIRA YES!!!! BE THE HERO THAT YOUR BROTHER COULDN’T BE

or. yeah. ray. whatever.

POINT IS reiji isn’t the hero

REIRA HAS HAIR?????????????

THIS IS A FINN FROM ADVENTURE TIME MOMENT

HE LOOKS LIKE BABY BAKURA???????

wait but if ray didn’t get revived then what happened to the bracelet girls

the cards were already in her graveyard?

BRACELETS

YUZU

oh so the whole point is that yuuya and zarc are literally opposites

zarc just didn’t want to be a commodified showpony so he....... tried to destroy the universe, multiple times

i’m v uncomfortable with the implied nudity of only the female characters, who aren’t even actually there in the flesh

yuuya’s eyes!!

but like what about the souls of the other yuus lmao, and the other bracelet girls

ahh bc zarc is all about bringing the fear, but yuushou always told yuuya to not give into fear

welp. yuuya just jumped back into it lmao

reira :c

oh okay so yuuya gets implied nudity too but STILL i’m upset that not a single girl was actually physically present throughout all this

ep141

ACTION DUEL OPENING?

ah it’s weird seeing that without hearing biri, biri, biribiribiri buddles afterwards

is this, like, the beginning of an epilogue where it looks like the series COULD start over again, except without all the zarc bullshit? what happened to reira?

THE SLICE OF LIFE MUSIC!! THE STRIPPER POLE AND ROCK CLIMBING WALL!! THE DOGS AND CATS!!!!

oh but he still has his heelys

FUCK NO DOES YUZU NOT EXIST? :c

plain plain :c that was the action field that they used when yuzu first dueled yuuya :c

ah but pendulum summoning still exists

uggghhhhhhhhhh what’s happening i just want yuzu to be back and happy :c

EVEN THE RECYCLED ANIMATION FROM THE BEGINNING OF THE SERIES

AH okay so this is the pendulum dimension now, and pendulum summoning has always just been a thing

BABY REIRA???

i missed yuuya being a goofball :c it feels like that just dropped out of his characterization after the first 20 episodes

they already know shingo?

i’m just as confused about this tournament as nico smiley??????/

this is........ so unnecessary tho, like is it meant to jog their memories?? did reiji really have to organize a whole tournament in a day?

then again, unnecessary is reiji’s modus operandi, so

tsukikage is the fourth duelist? but also what happened to his brother, weren’t they a duo? shouldn’t he have been revived?

IT’S A YUZU :c

so tsukikage remembers, and reiji remembers. why do they remember and not anyone else?

but suddenly everyone does remember

AH OKAY HIKAGE IS BACK

WHY IS REIRA A CREEPY BABY AND WHY CAN’T HE SMILE

yuushou is here!!

“you’ll have to give up on reira’s smile” jesus christ

also i never really got the impression that their mother really ever gave a shit about reira? but okay i’m glad she does

ep142

“i saw that child as nothing more than a tool for my revenge against akaba leo” okay so i was right she didn’t give a shit about reira

BUT WHY IS HE A BABY

shingo you piece of shit

odd-eyes still exists

HE EQUIPS HIS DRAGON TO HIS LIL HIPPO THAT’S SO CUTE

noooooo shuuzou :c

BABY YUZU

why was she crying in that one picture :c

LMAO SHUUZOU HOW DID YOU GET HERE

wow everyone must feel like a piece of shit for having forgotten yuzu

but especially yuuya

this reminds of dm, when mai was losing her memories of all of her friends :c

so reira was just.. reborn. like no more explanation for him being a baby than that

okay so.... yuuya remembers. now what.

what was the purpose of him losing his memories in the first place

ep143

oh so.... it was the cards that turned reira into a baby

so are baby yuuto/yuugo/yuuri roaming around somewhere? why isn’t yuuya a baby?

THE BRACELET GIRLS ARE BABIES?

oh shit that really fucks up fruitshipping. it’s like in parks and rec when andy was talking about how old he was when april was born

oh lmao reiji was talking about the last time the dimensions split, not this one

that..... seems like a really simple solution to get rid of an apocalyptic demon for good

jeez, no pressure, yuuya

but also that sucks for shingo and gongenzaka, bc now they know they’re not supposed to win the tournament

“when did he become such a cheeky brat” jfc youko don’t talk about your son like that

“i’ll defeat you and become a pro” gongenzaka, the universe is at stake, you’re kind of the bad guy in this situation

why is the audience rooting for gongenzaka WHEN THE UNIVERSE IS AT STAKE

“i want to save reira and yuzu, who have both saved me” ohhhhhhh yuuuuuuuuuyaaaaaaa

LMAO YOUKO

aww they’re running through all the action fields

reiji arrives from a helicopter, kaiba style

wait so is the purpose of this to make yuuya a pro so he’ll have a larger platform for his entermate dueling?

aahh fuck it’s crustyass dennis. i guess he did have to come back

ep144

shun doesn’t give a shit

he continues not to give a shit about anything reiji does ever

same

the animation in this episode is really nice and i’m salty about it because i don’t give a shit about dennis

“let me entertain you OR ELSE” dennis macfield 2017

GRACE IS SO CUTE <3

at least she and edo are here in this episode too

oh so they’re trying to show that dueling can be good

wait but isn’t dennis still a bad guy? i don’t even know

but like...... forcing ppl with ptsd to watch duels is probably Not the way to go

dennis is using xyz summons? so i guess that means he’s helping to rebuild heartland?? but literally when did he turn good again??????? i’m getting the same confusion as i did with sora because they keep flipflopping without any compelling reason and their allegiances aren’t consistent

that card straight up has a picture of yuuya on it

those cards*

no backseat dueling, reiji

KAITO WAS THERE but he didn’t have any lines :c

i dislike dennis and i’m confused by his characterization but THIS WAS A REALLY CUTE EPISODE and i appreciate that the show is tying up loose ends with all the characters it’s introduced

i think i’m gonna end it here, on a good note. i got through more than i thought i’d be able to! i can definitely watch the next three episodes tomorrow night, and then i’ll watch the finale whenever subs are out for it!!!!