#OH I WANT TO TRY CUSTOM POSES THO

[noxtivagus]

just gna share some pics i took earlier while testing out some stuff ( and admiring my wol 🥺 )

[thislovintime]

Photo 4 by Henry Diltz.

A look at some specific books mentioned by Peter over the years...

- How To Play the Five-String Banjo: "Pete Seeger’s book was very, very good. He’s a lively writer as well as a very good musician, a good teacher, good, very enthusiastic kind of all around person. So it was very good to learn from his book. And I recommend the book highly if anybody ever wanted to learn how to play folk-style five-string banjo, his is the book to learn from.” - Peter, Headquarters radio, 1989 (x)

- Naked Lunch: “In Melbourne last night Peter Tork said that Sydney airport Customs officers had seized from his bag the banned book ‘The Naked Lunch,’ by William Burroughs. A Customs officer had taken one look at the book and said, ‘I’ll have that. It’s banned here.’ […] ‘It is a good book,’ Tork said. 'I was just getting interested it. It’s sold out everywhere back home. I didn’t know it was banned here.’” - The Sydney Morning Herald, September 17, 1968 (x)

- Letters to a Young Poet: One question posed to Peter for the Ask Peter Tork column in 2008 was, “Do you think [becoming a writer is] worth a try, or do you suggest I 'keep my day job'?” From Peter's reply: “What writers I know of say is, if you want to be a writer, you’re probably not going to do very well. If you must write, then write! Do you see the difference? Rainer Marie Rilke wrote 'Letters to a Young Poet,' which I recommend on this point. (It’s a small book, and cheap at the bookstore, and free at your library.)”

 -Why Do I Say Yes When I Need To Say No?: Escaping The Trap Of Temptation by Michelle McKinney Hammond: “Some years ago there was a movement afoot to separate assertiveness from aggressiveness, which I heartily endorse to this day. 'Why Do I Say Yes When I Mean No,' is, I believe the name of one book that tackles this subject.” - Peter, Ask Peter Tork, 2008

- Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind: “I recommend sitting in Zen meditation. The best book I know for that is Zen Mind, Beginner’s Mind, by Shunryu Suzuki. It’s all about watching your own mind rather than obeying it as tho’ it were the infallible voice of the truth.” - Peter, Ask Peter Tork, 2008

- The Sayings of Buddha: “The Sayings of Buddha (a small, inexpensive book you can find in almost any book store) always rests on the night-table beside my bed. I find that ancient wisdom, meditation and contemplation puts my mind in order and brings me great serenity. These things also broaden my scope of understanding.” - Peter, 16, September 1968

- Stranger in a Strange Land: “One of my favorite books now is Stranger in a Strange Land by Robert Heinlein. It’s about the orphan child of the first Martian explorers. He grows to twenty-one years of age before he’s discovered by the second expedition to Mars which rescues him. He comes back to Earth, having been raised by the Martians — really fascinating!" - Peter, Fave, March 1968

- More Than Human: “Another writer I dig is Theodore Sturgeon, one of the greatest science fiction writers alive today. He visited our set one day and we were all very thrilled. He’s a visionary and a mystic, really one of the giant talents of the day. I hope everybody reads him. He wrote a book called More Than Human and a lot of other novels and short stories.” - Peter, Fave, March 1968

Q: "You read a book a day. Of all the books you have read, which three are your favorites and why?" A: "No, I don’t read a book a day. I sometimes spend weeks on a book. Of all the books I’ve read, my favorites are 'The Book Of [Tao],' 'Stranger In A Strange Land' and oh, I don’t know, a whole mess of other books, because they turn me on—they get to me." - Monkee Spectacular, January 1968

- The Book of Tao: “Peter also reads The Book of the Tao… all about an ancient Chinese nature philosophy with some simple, beautiful and meaningful messages in it. He studies all kinds of different religions, too. Peter has now figured out his own religion, what seems closest to Truth for him. It’s the result of much studying, thinking and sorting out. Peter was also influenced by the Oriental philosophies Zen. ‘Zen Buddhism believes in the theory of sudden enlightenment or sudden awakening. This idea is Japanese. I believe that Truth can just come to you in a sudden flash and you’ll know where it’s all at, if you prepare yourself to receive it. ‘Zen also teaches that you should just go along and live your life as best you can from minute to minute, always living in the present. You’re already there and there’s nothing else. If you can make the most of each day, accomplish and learn all you can now, you’ll get so much more done in your lifetime than if you sit around waiting for tomorrow to come. Because when tomorrow gets here it’s just another today. You end up just waiting and putting things off and nothing ever gets done. So, try to make each minute count!’” - Fave, March 1968

- Upanishads: "[Peter] starts clowning around [on set], but after a bit he settles down and starts reading a book. He sees you looking and explains, ‘This is a book of some of the excerpts of the Upanishads. Actually, these are excerpts from ancient Hindu writings. I guess you could say that in a sense they are like the Bible, only they were written many centuries before the old testament.’ Peter stops speaking for a moment. ‘Am I boring you?’ he asks gently. After you assure him that he is not boring anyone, he continues, ‘Well, the Upanishads are simply but beautifully written. I mean, they are quite easy to understand. You can buy the Mentor pocket edition for about 50 cents —′ Just about that time, Peter becomes aware of 16’s camera focusing on him. He promptly becomes a clown again, laughing and joking and holding his book myopically up to his eyes. You realize that you have just had a glimpse of the real Peter Tork — the sensitive, sincere young man who hides behind the veneer of a silly-funny Monkee. And it makes you feel very warm that for a brief moment you have glimpsed Peter Tork’s secret self." - 16, February 1968

- Autobiography of a Yogi: As Henry Diltz recalled (in Laurel Canyon: A Place In Time), “I remember giving one to Peter on The Monkees set. I did a group shot of them sitting on a couch and he was reading the Yogananda book. I always felt so good about that.”

[rapid-as-sass-in-nation-team]

It was time for some presents! For Striker; Fizz had send him two letters. One had card which was shaped like a cowboy hat, on the other side was somewhat heart waming thank you letter for him to kidnap the jester, and still bringing him and Blitz back together. The other letter was bit more thicker. It did contain a gift. If you opened it, it turned out to be a glitter bomb mixed up with itching powder. For Chaz; Fizz had never seen the guy, but had some random gifts at his house he decided to deliver in a random address just for fun. There was a letter that said this was from 'Secret Santa'. There was a box which had a small plastic bag with battery inside and a note that said 'Gift not included'. There were also a water bottle and the etiquette said "Melted Snowman". There were also small box of home made gingerbread hearts in the gift box. Too bad those were made by Fizz so they didn't taste as good as they looked. For Robo Fizz; For his robot counterpart Fizz had bought a custom made jester outfit to wear. Not only the outfit but few new pairs of heart shaped shades and a card that said "Merry Sinsmas, hope your next year will be as epic as this one" For Ozzie; This was a gift he had to give him face to face. Fizz was holding a self wrapped package in his hands, with a wide grin on his face. "Merry Sinsmas Ozzie! Hope you like it, if not I'll throw myself out of this building" he was joking tho.. maybe. The gift included custom made bathrobe that were purpleish-blue colored. Ozzie's name was embroided on the back of the bathrobe. There were also some different sented fizzy bathbombs in there.

Striker

The cowboy was quite surprised he got anything from someone who he pointed a gun to last time they saw eachother, and while the cowboy hat shape was a bit on the nose, he supposed it was a thank you either way, which he appreciated despite the odd circumstances of it. With the other letter he felt it over and the powdery contents made him suspicious so the moment he pulled the letter open he covered it with his hat, thankfully saving most of him from the blast, but also covering his favorite hat in glitter and itching powder "SATAN DAMNITT HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO WASH THIS NOW!? THIS ISN'T FUNNY!!!"Everyone around him heavily disagreed.

Chaz

Chaz was pleasantly surprised at the random package, chuckling a bit at the battery one, getting the joke and the battery itself came in handy for the TV remote, so he didn't need to stop posing sexily on the couch to change stuff. The water he downed quickly due to his constant need for fluids, not even noticing the label, and same with the Gingerbread cookies, which he quickly regretted not having water right there to wash them down, so he did get up after all.

Robofizz

The moment he was alone he happily twirled with the outfit held to their chest, giggling, smiling at the letter, quickly trying the outfit to his further pleasure, adjusting them to his likes before putting some of the shades on, doing a selfie with the letter with a grin and posting it with the caption "Right back at you Handsome!" Making sure to at Fizz. Overall a present he really liked., Totally something he will wear a lot.

Ozzie

"I really do wish you wouldn't joke like that Fizzy, but I'll see it, I'm sure I'll love it anyway". The sin opens the package and unfurls the robe, jaw dropping before he giggles in happiness, slinging it on over his clothes with a smile "Oh this is beautiful Fizzy! You really do spoil me"Ozzie says, spinning around to see how it twirls, chuckling cause he loves it so much, before noticing the Fizzy bath bombs in the package, chuckling before he smirks, tossing one up and grabbing it mid air "Fizzy Bathbombs, cute~ But there's one kind of Fizz I'd want in the bath with me even more, I think you know him~"The sin said, bending down to cup Fizz's face with a warm smile, though with a bit of lewdness to it to. Sin of Lust and all.

[honey-milk-depresso]

Just had a crack idea for twisted wonderland- their s/o(mc/reader) using the knowledge from their world and T poses to assert dominance over the boys: ruggie,riddle, Epel, jade & floyd, separated & headcanon format bc it's easier I think (?) KDKDJDJDJDJ help idk why I thought of this-

I think I heard of this before, welp I still T pose to make my friends fear me when it comes to gimme 10 cents I gotta buy the tissues >:3 Jk jk but I still need those tissues- hope you enjoy! Sorry I couldn’t do Riddle tho-

TWST T-pose in front of them

Ruggie Bucchi

He’s constantly working.

Being Vice Dorm leader ain’t easy,

especially when the dorm leader is Leona.

He has to go the extra mile to do Leona’s work, his work and find some way to get his lunch money

sighs

And you’ve been noticing.

And while you appreciate he’s trying NOT to scheme and trick others to helping him, or stealing things,

you can’t help but feel sorry,

and that he’s overworking himself far too much,

he did not take breakfast either, ate some cookie for lunch? And is back to work again now in the middle of the night.

So, you did the one thing needed in this situation.

“S/o, wtf are you doing?”

“I am asserting my dominance with this T pose, and as the dominant one of this relationship between us, I demand you eat the dinner I made for you, drop Leona’s work, and sleep.”

Ruggie stared at you, before he chuckled softly, and ruffled your hair.

“Shishishi~ Alright, alright, dominant one.”

His eyes softened as he kissed your forehead.

Dominant one you are.

Epel Felmier

Big bruh-

He’s really tired of putting on so much make up and performing and rehearsing with VIL

And to top it off, Vil overblotted,

and then they’re back to performing again.

But Epel still had schoolwork,

but tomorrow’s a frickin’ Saturday???

What???

Epel baby, no-

so 

basically

this action you have learnt and acquired in your world that you’ll do it to him NOW-

“S/o, w-what are you doing..?”

“I am asserting my dominance with this T-pose. And since I am the dominant one, I demand you abandon your work and sleep. Do your schoolwork tomorrow.”

Epel’s eyes softened, before he chuckled lightly.

“Alright, alright, I’ll do it tomorrow.”

He went over to his bed and yawned.

“Today was a long day, wasn’t it?”

Jade Leech

Like Ruggie, being a vice dorm leader is difficult

and tiring

and it’s even more tiring when he’s working at Monstro Lounge 

Managing pesky trouble makers,

going after table to table,

serving after serving all the customers

it really is tiring.

He still needs to tackle schoolwork and after school activities.. sort of-

And not only that, many people ask him for help on a daily basis,

really is tiring.

So, like the rest of this headcanon,

you are the most smartest person,

you have acquired

the knowledge of getting Jade to listen to you

“Oya? S/o, what type of strange pose are you doing? Is this suppose to be a prank?”

“No, it is not, my eel lover. I am T-posing to assert my dominance. And because I have more dominance than you in this relationship we have build healthily, I demand you got to bed with me, and also drink the hot tea I made for you.”

Jade blinked, before he grinned, and snorted, patting your head.

“Usually, you’re the one I take care of, but.. I don’t mind if we switch roles today oh dominant s/o,” he smiled,

gently caressing your cheek before placing a gentle kiss on it.

Usually he’s the dominant one,

but he doesn’t mind you being the one today~

Floyd Leech

Floyd’s a special case

it’s more rather you assert your dominance not because he’s tired,

but more rather you don’t want him to skip classes.

You’re worried about him, because he’s getting on his teachers’ nerves,

and you don’t want him to show up so moody.

So after he finished his shift,

you appeared right in front of him with a determined face.

“Hm?”

And then you unleashed the knowledge you’ve acquired from your world.

“Eh~ Koebi chan, what are you doing?”

You looked up at Floyd.

“I am asserting dominance with a T-pose. And as the more dominant one, I demand you not to skip classes. I do not want you, my eel lover, to be moody and feel down. I must see you genuinely happy, otherwise I will not be happy to see you unhappy.”

He blinked once.

Twice.

Before he broke into a grin, laughing.

“Ehehehe!~ Koebi chan is being so cute and funny today!”

He hugged you on the spot, 

almost making you lose your balance.

“Okay!~ I won’t, but only if you hug me everyday!~”

He thinks you’re so adorable,

and now he’s T-posing to assert his dominance to other students, but I guess it’s more likely to scare them than care for them.

Azul is so done-

[blxetsi]

HIIIII!! can i get a pieck finger dating headcanons if that’s alright with you of course? your stuff makes me soft, stay safe!

yuh ‼️ tysm for your request

pieck finger dating headcanons (modern au)

pieck finger x gn!reader

warnings: literal fluff, no angst or anything i love pieck

- bc pieck is assumed to be like 23-26 this wont be a uni au or anything

- idk i rlly think you guys wouldve met in a mundane way

- like you bump into her on the sidewalk and try to the really awkward "oh im so sorry i didnt see you there- no really it was my fault- are you sure youre okay ?- okay great- no im not hurt- yeah- okay have a good day and again im so sorry !!" thing with her

- and then maybe you guys see each other again at a coffee place, youre there with your friends and shes there with hers, and you dont wanna talk to her obv bc that would be awkward

- then ur friend makes u go and order another coffee for them, and while youre waiting for your order pieck comes and stands beside you

- and shes very observant yknow ?? if she sees a face its very hard for her to forget it

- so she immediately recognizes you and blurts out "its you !"

- and you have to be like "oh yeah ! it is me ! its you too"

- she finds it quite cute and giggles about it

- a very laidback person but also a very blunt person

- she doesnt find any harm in asking "can i get your instagram @" look she doesnt wanna be a creep and ask for ur number right at the start

- and it gives her a chance to find out what kind of person you are

- it would absolutely suck for her if such a cute face was posting fishing pictures and alt right propaganda yknow ??

- so you two do and then both of your orders come so you two give awkward goodbyes before going back to your groups

- her instagram is very pretty, nice themes

- she posted a couple of hours ago, with her and her friends in a park, taking a couple of posed photos while some looking like they were natural

- shes adorable and you cant help but feel your cheeks go warm as you basically stalk her page

- she dms you and says "are you too busy looking at my feed that you havent followed me yet ?" and you see this mf staring at you across the room like 👁️👁️

- okay nosy lets calm down now 🙄🤚

- you try to defend urself but ur typing so quick you keep making errors in your writing, she ends up saying something else

"you know, i was doing the exact same thing. youre beautiful you know"

- thank you pieck 🥰

- over the next couple of weeks thats how you two communicate. she'll send you instagram memes and edits of her favourite shows, movies, games etc. and you find yourself having a lot in common w her

- you check her story so frequently it becomes one of the first accounts on the top of your homepage

- and FINALLY, when she feels she can see you as a friend and not just some pretty stranger she met on the street she asks you out

- it was a simple thing, just to the movies, and she even let you pick which one !! (imagine its pre covid idfk)

- you two go and its an awkward hug before you both head inside

- you pay for your tickets and she gets an extra large popcorn and a drink

- you assume shes just v hungry but before you can order yourself something shes like "what are you doing i got this for us !!"

- rlly cute bitch omfg

- during the movies, after she eats literally most of the fucking popcorn, she pulls your hand out of your lap and holds it with her buttery one 🥰🤚

- this bitch had crumbs and didnt even think to wipe them off

- you still held her hand tho anyways

- after that night you parted ways in front of the theater after making sure you two would be getting home safe

- and that became routine for a couple of weeks, not going to the movies obviously bc thats expensive but watching movies together !! youd go over to her apartment or she would come over to yours

- one thing about pieck is that shes very touchy

- one way or another she will end up cuddled with you on the couch

- it doesnt matter if its you being forcefully pulled on top of her body or her draping herself over you like shes a blanket, you two WILL be cuddling and you WILL enjoy it

- but finally, as if the gods gave you mercy, she finally kissed you

- it felt so nice, her lips were soft and sticky from her lip gloss and she tasted like the swedish berries you had gotten for her to munch on

- and the rest of the movie you two just sat there, kissing each other and giggling like teens

- she ended up staying the night, and complimented your bedsheets

- your relationship moved pretty fast after that

- she had already told all of her friends about you, they werent very surprised

- when you got officially introduced her friends zeke and porco tried to do that whole "if you hurt her.." speech before she slapped them and had marcel pull you away to safety

- other than that the night was very fun, you got to talking about your career, why you moved to the city, and other mundane topics

- pieck is actually a graphic designer, and everytime she comes to sleep over she just HAS to bring her laptop with her

- its basically just her laying in between your legs while she types away, youll pet her hair and lay soft kisses on her neck, and occasionally ask what shes doing

- she likes to tell you, has no problem in answering the questions you have, even if you think theyre stupid ones, shes very soft with you

- also a bit of a trickster

- for your first april fools together she slept over, you didnt have anything planned for her bc youre a good person and wont hurt the ones you love

- she stuffed your breakfast muffin with mustard 😁👍

- you gave her the cold shoulder for the rest of the day until she apologized by getting you a new muffin

- now she always dropped the l bomb to you, but she never needed you to say it

- thats why, when you were helping her cook dinner at her place you softly said "see ? and thats why i love you" she kind of,,, stopped what she was doing

- you realized why she wasnt washing the knife she used to cut your vegetables and tried to backtrack, but it was too late, she was already tackling you into a hug and taking you down onto the floor

- she just gave you kisses while repeating "i love you i love you i love you" over and over again

- bc of her you burnt ur fucking chicken smh

- you spent that night eating junk food and watching movies

- piecks a very observant person, so she always knows when youre sad too

- when you give that little huff when you come home to your (new !) shared apartment she knows something is up

- she'll slowly trail behind you as you walk to your bedroom, stripping to your underwear and changing into your pajamas

- you crawl into bed just wanting a nap to forget about the day, and she'll crawl in with you and hold you

- you never like to cry but youre so frustrated and upset at your coworkers, at that rude customer, at those deadlines, that you just breakdown

- and she lets you, she lets you almost suffocate yourself in her chest with how much your pushing your head into it, she strokes your hair while you choke on your own cries and hands you tissues when you need to blow your nose

- "what do you need my love ?" "i just need you" "okay baby"

- communication is a big thing in the relationship, and because shes been so open and honest from the beginning, talking about how you feel has never been easier

- in fact, you like talking about how you feel about your relationship, or how you didnt like what pieck said to your friends the other day, this and that, you feel comfortable and safe with pieck no matter what, which makes talking about even the most hardest things seem so simple and natural

- all in all, even when she wakes you up with spontaneous ice cream dates or asks that you put raisins in the popcorn during movie night, even with the fights and the crying and the exhaustion the next day, life would be much duller without her, and you only have to thank your clumsy self

uhh i feel like this is very short but yeah ❤️ requests are open so go crazy mfs ‼️

[yanderecandystore]

Can I have headcanons of how the bullies react to s/o that works in a cat maid cafe? Like they could be trying the new cat maid cafe that opened up recently to just see s/o wearing a maid outfit with cat ears and a cat tail bowing saying ‘welcome back master!’ Not realizing it’s the twins. What would they do?

I appreciate your thinking very much, as I myself really enjoy the maid x master trope 👀 (don't tell anyone else tho- lol). This sounds so much like an anime, God, I love it??

TW/Tags: this is kinda short, yet I would love to go off on how much I like the idea tho 👀 // mentions of possible blackmail/manipulation

🍭꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡🍮꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡🍰꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡🍮꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖🍭

Fortunate accident [Yandere!Bully OC x Reader - Headcanon]:

→ Alexandra Coldwell:

Oh boy, ain't this the most fortunate accident to ever happen in her life?? Oh dearest, this is rich! And to think she was almost going to miss you wearing that only because she thought "well, there can't be something too special about maid cafes, right?"

Your face while noticing what you just said, and to who you just said, was absolutely incredible! Red as a rose.

"- Oh- Uh-Uhn-" You were struggling to keep the character up, geez, why did she need to be here! This is terrible!

"- W-Welcome in mi-mistress!" You tried making a little cat pose, it didn't go well since you were embarrassed knowing exactly what Alexandra was thinking.

"- Geez, pathetic!" She whispered so only you could hear it, while giggling at how stupidly cute you look. She can't tell if she thinks you look ridiculous or if you look absolutely adorable greeting her like that. It does suit you a lot tho, the outfit, the greeting, the "mistress" coming out of your lips.

So fitting. She was going to enjoy every second of this.

You took her to her table, trembling as you took her order. Well, at least she is alone, wait!-

"- Oh, don't worry, I won't show anyone this video… Well, not yet at least." She took her phone out of her purse while you were taking her order. She decided to film you in your cutesy little outfit.

The video wasn't for anyone else but her, yet she decided to use it as a way to make you anxious. If you slip up or not do what she asks, she will show it to literally every single person in the academy.

Even the teachers. Even the principal.

You, of course, felt terrified. Making sure to take her order to the kitchen so she wouldn't wait too long. Maybe she would even leave sooner, right?

While you bowed down saying "I'll be back soon, mistress!" Trying to give her a smile even though she can tell her presence had shaken you. How sweet!

But, then she started to wonder- Were you like this to all people in this place? All the creeps that are here to see girls in tiny maid outfits bowing to them, were receiving this same treatment from you?

She doesn't think they deserve it. No, they don't deserve any of this at all. And how daring of you, to work in a place such as this. Did you enjoy it as much as the wondering eyes glued to these creeps faces? Maybe the job paid you really well for you to be wandering around in a miniskirt.

"- Hmpf! Unbelievable…." Well, it seems like this sweet occasion was starting to become sour. Alexandra is thinking about how every single person in this place has the privilege of being able to see you like this everyday after classes. How absurd!

When you come back with her order you notice her angry face. Oh well, here it comes-

"- Here it is, mistress!" You said while placing the cappuccino and a strawberry tart she had ordered. You expected her to laugh at you or even scold you for taking "too long".

Yet she only scoffed at you, as she was getting more and more irritated by the ideas clouding her mind. She didn't say anything to you or even looked at you to be honest, which caused you to think you did something wrong to make her this pissed off.

Although her mood was almost destroyed by her own jealousy, the rest of the day wasn't so bad, actually, it only got better from that. Seeing you act like that helped her ego a lot, this is exactly how you're supposed to treat her… And only her.

If all she needs to do to see you treating her with this amount of respect is to come see you in your job everyday after classes then she will totally do it. Unless you get yourself fired so you don't have to deal with her.

If that outcome ever happens, you know she could still use the videos and photos she took of you to blackmail you into doing what she wants, right? She could totally use a little kitty like you serving her stuff.

It would even be a lot more appropriate in her point of view. Having a private maid, away from all the prying eyes of the creeps around that place.

Can you imagine? Being in her room, treating her like the true princess that she is? Hell, she would even give you a little outfit to go with it, something a little more classy than the miniskirt you're wearing.

"- I could get used to this, how about you?"

→ Adrien Coldwell:

Oh. Ooooh, so this is where you work at?? This is probably the luckiest coincidence to ever happen to him. He wasn't all that interested in eating at this cafe to be perfectly honest, he thought it was a place for degenerates and weirdos.

But this?? This is absolutely delightful! God, there aren't many words in human vocabulary to express how much he enjoyed this situation.

Although his stoic face may hide his excitement, don't you dare believe for a second that he'll leave you alone after witnessing you in a tiny cat maid outfit.

He'll make sure to take your attention every second of the job. Ordering or saying how his orders are wrong, make you go back and bring something else for him.

He did it because A: it meant you would spend time with him, and B: because he hated how other customers were looking at you like you're a piece of meat.

How dare these imbeciles look at you in such a revolting way, when he is the only one that should be able to witness such a view?

Urgh, sometimes you really piss him off, you should know better than to be around smiling and saying "meow" to these creeps. What, you enjoyed this? Was the money really that good for you to place yourself so beneath?

"- Honestly, if money it's what you need, I'm pretty sure you could find something better and less ``'tacky ``. We do need a new maid in my house if you're so desperate." He scoffed at you. God, you look amazing, yet- How is he supposed to feel good about sharing your grace with strangers??

"- What-" The idea may have sounded foreign to you. Hell, it may even have sounded ridiculous! Can you imagine? Working for the Coldwells as a real maid?? Even though he bullies you constantly??!!

"- I-I not looking for a new job, master." You wanted to keep the character, but you're so taken back by his odd offer, that you almost vomited at the idea of calling him master again!

He would still dismiss your statement. Really? You wanted to continue your work here? Geez, you're so annoying…

I guess he should use a more convincing tool to make you see his point of view. He'll take pictures and videos of you serving other customers, doing the whole ``nyah`` thing you're doing. This is the best material for running someone's reputation that he ever got, honestly.

Who would've guessed? Little [Y/N] works as a cat maid at a cafe far away from the academy's area. He is surprised he was the only rich student to actually consider going out of their way to enter such a low ranked establishment.

Can you hear the jokes about furries? The constant looks of all the other students? Can you hear them whispering to each other? Can you hear people calling you "kitten" constantly?

Don't worry, because if you can't hear it, he sure can. Oooh, and how does he hear it! Two clicks and the evidence of you working at such a bizarre place will be all over his social media.

How about you put your training in practice and treat him with the utmost respect? Be sweet with your words and go get him one of those cheesecakes, because he'll be here throughout your whole shift, if not every single day after classes.

Unless, you accept his kind offer to work at a comfy mansion where no one else will see you working as a maid, ya know, choices! Life is all about choices, so take your time to consider them, dearest.

Honestly, he is already looking at the best maid costumes he can find. Maybe he should ask someone to make one for you, with the right proportions and class that a Coldwell maid deserves.

You fit the role so perfectly, you probably won't even notice a difference.

Although, of course, when he said serving the Coldwells, he in reality only meant him, so, ya know.

Don't be so surprised if you actually accept his offer, and all that you do all day is do his bidding.

"- I could get used to this, how about you?"

🍭꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡🍮꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡🍰꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡🍮꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖🍭

[common-blackbird]

Started!

This is my Inquisitor (so overjoyed you can be a qunari), her name is the default Herah and I decided I’m going to approach this game by staying true to a character and not looking to do everything and be on everyone’s good side u_u

I want to make a good background for her so i’m not telling anything. Yet. I’ll just say she’s a qunari mercenary and prefers using two-handed weapons.

Highlights from today:

Studying history does pay off! This was a reference to the famous book in environmental history - Guns, Germs and Steel by Jared Diamond. So proud i recognised it x)

Also i don’t have a good shot of solas but he cracks me up so much.. The guy has a posture of the typical retired grandpa (the only thing missing is to have him walk with his hands on his back). And there’s a scene where the party sees the rift and there’s the inquisitor facing it, cassandra bracing herself and solas... just standing like an old man

On a side note, Cassandra is so gorgeous and good and i already love her, i just keep taking shots of her TAT

As for varric, it’s so different than from da2, this is so much more “official” and you can see he’s the same as ever, but you’re not hawke, hawke’s not here, the gang’s not here and there’s nothing casual about the whole situation T-T

And lastly, my inquisitor has a horse now, i didn’t know that was possible in the game ;__;

played some more...

Let  me start with.... The advisors! (+ cassandra... or is she also an advisor too?)

What a bunch. I love Cassandra’s and Leliana’s faith having a crisis bc they believe that Inquisitor is the Herald of Andraste and the way they deal with it. It’s really interesting. Leliana is completely opposite than what she was in origins and i’m surprised it doesn’t bother me at all! I love seeing this whole darker side that was only hinted at in origins, though it’s also sad when i think how she used to be. I wonder how she’s gonna overcome her doubting of faith. 

Josephine is a delight. I keep using her for almost every war table mission for now. She radiates capability. She reminds me of those bureaucrats that are super nice and helpful and chill and even if you’re doing everything wrong she’ll just smile and say “it’s ok, we can fix it” and then goes and fixes everything herself (and you feel this insane amount of gratitude you send a whole separate email to thank her for her patience and help )

As for Cullen... It’s interesting... I got impression from what i saw in the fandom that he’s supposed to have had his allegiance changed and him rejecting the templars should have been him ultimately siding with the mages (or at least being anti-templar(?)), and that turning point that could have been a great way to show his character development during the game. Which i agree, only... i did not get that impression from the game so far at all. I mean, so far everything that i can remember him saying is totally smth he’d say in da2... He didn’t leave kirkwall bc of his disappointment with the templar order, he doesn’t seem to have any issues with the templars except those who go full war mode instead of trying to balance the situation. And it’s a really chaotic situtation, i love how they did it.

This line was amazing, i wish there was a special cutscene for that.

I’m loving the way they made this huge religious organisation in crisis have a complete collapse with the death of a key figure. I love the concept of inquisition and problems that it poses. I love you can see everyone’s reasoning and doubts reflect their background, but also see why inquisition can be understood as another power-grasping organisation trying to topple the templars, the mages and the chantry. Everything is divided. We got templars leaving the chantry, seekers leaving the chantry(?), rebel mages, loyal mages, rebel mages gone rouge, templars gone rouge, and suddenly there’s another organisation forming that you can totally believe is just another powerhungry force trying to get the piece of the cake by taking advantage of the power vacuum left by the sudden lack of the religious authority. (and only we know we’re The Good Guys). I love that we have characters who need to believe in the greater plan, characters who question the greater plan, and characters who want to utilise the power of belief and characters who don’t care for divine plans. The chaos is real and it feels real. I love that the centre figure of the whole holy business is a heretic of another culture. For the chantry this is the lose-lose situation (unless the inquisitor becomes religious by the end of the game). Which is why this line works so well. 

Ok, now shorter updates:

Red Jenny! I know it’s not her actual name but it is in my head. Where’s that box i delivered ages ago >_> Anyways, she makes my brain work on 150% capacity. I can understand what she means only after i go over it for 5 times.

Forgive me but oh my god, i can’t believe that i can recognise one voice actor and now i have another mental image whenever he speaks. Like, he’s really good at bringing out a new character, but when he gets more casual he sounds like kanan jarrus from star wars rebels and i’m just “what are you doing here, space dad” ;__; Hopefully it’ll get old and i’ll be enjoying more iron bull. he seems nice...

Vivienne on the other hand is like a reverse Josephine(?) She seems insanely capable but hates customer service, however somehow she likes you very much and will do everything you need for reasons you can’t fathom. Have a screenshot. So classy. I already feel humbled.

and lastly, BREAKING NEWS: aveline finally hired carver ;__;

Tbh Kirkwall is still a mystery and i have so many questions but i don’t think i’ll get any answers... If a powervacuum of the divine cause this much chaos, how’s kirkwall faring without a new viscount? Like, yeah, aveline can keep in check, but umm it’s in a very vulnerable state which makes it a good target for any invasion... didn’t sebastian promise bloodshed?

That’s all for now, bc otherwise i’ll start writing an essay on cassandra.

We befriended a bear in the hinterlands!

lets start with this cool shot

so, i have been to the mages and to the templars and... i sided with the templars.... First i was all for mages since they offered negotiations while the seeker just walked away, but then it turned out that was a trap, there’s also tevinter mages there (which is a red flag for my inquisitor) and then there’s some time magic involved (which is a big no for me), and i just walked out. Felt bad for the mages but my inquisitor comes from a culture where mages have their tongues cut so...

Also this guy deserves a medal for putting up with corrupted superiors and annoying nobles.

And i met cole ;__; Where are Rhys and Evangeline ;___;

the templar mission was ok i guess... I was surprised that red lyrium was apparently circulating around for some time, not sure if that means since meredith or even before. I love the stories of corruption tho and to imagine what it’s like to be trapped in this organisation that just keeps breaking everything it stands for

As for the important mages, i’ve Dorian twice since i bailed out on him in Redcliffe :I I love the guy, he seems arrogant yet so kind (like, no one would have carried that annoying priest and yet he did, after he ran from his own people to warn us after i ditched him in Redcliffe? man ;A;) Every time i go with “ok the inquisitor fears tevinter and distrusts this rando who just popped in” i am marinating in guilt.

and then we fight some mages and die several times but we succeed and we meet the bad guy...

Is it an unpopular opinion to say that i like him as a villain so far? i saw so many jokes on his incompetency. Idk, i like that part where he said that he reached the fade in someone’s name, it makes me think he’s not just power-hungry person(?) who’s just evil,but was originally serving someone, and he said that the gods were either gone or corrupted and he spent hundreds of years thinking what to do with whatever happened so he seems like he knows what he’s doing and maybe(!just maybe) he is trying to fix things that are wrong but we can’t see that? And of course he hates the inquisitor, he has to redo his stuff all over again, i’d hate the inquisitor too. im probably looking too much into it. My wish is that, if he’s evil, he became so gradually, but originally had good intentions? Or there’s more to things going on that we just don’t know and he does... Maybe this was his tragic attempt to fix things but he would ultimately fail and be branded as a villain etc etc. I’m getting carried away

If it turns out he’s just evil for the sake of being evil then feel free to tell me so now so i don’t embarrass myself further with plotting myself lol.

A side note, is he the Architect? Or the same? In DA2 he says he’s a tevinter magister, right? and he ceased to be a human. Also in DA2 it seemed like he was the boss, and here he said he reached in the name of someone (probably more important than him). But what is the Architect then?

And with that we reach the skyhold.

in skyhold

I didn’t know you meet hawke so soon ;__; i thought that was like, somewere more to the end of the game, since the big decision and all. But the mission is already opened and i am going to procrastinate on it until i finish every side mission :<

Also he is so sad ;__; i understand, but at the same time... all that humour now bitter sarcasm :’(

(also, very shallow remark, but i really really prefer his looks in da2 than here... it’s like they softened him. He’s more...oh god idk bearish(???) than hawkish(????) you know what i mean? the nose isn’t as sharp anymore, the beard is... what is it with the beard... anyways i get the game has its limits so it’s fine. it’s fine! fine.)

then there was the fight that i remember since twitter >:D

It’s what made me want to play dragon age and i finally reached it T-T so good! I love how you can see the both sides and everything they say is true but they’re so angry at themselves they’re taking it out on each other TAT

Cassandra later says Hawke probably wouldn’t have joined the inquisition even if she found him, and i wonder now if that’s true... At first i thought, nah, Hawke has too much of a hero complex, he would feel too responsible to just say no. Besides, he’s with the inquisition now (tho i can’t find him anywhere anymore!). But at the same time, the way da2 ends was such an iconic walking away from everything, and not taking into account the hocus-pocus rift stuff, i can imagine him refusing, especially seeing how bitter he is now. It’s also a question of how much would have cassandra told him i guess. idk, what do you think? Would he lead or nah?

another person i want to find but can’t in skyhold are the templars with ser barris. i can use them on war table missions but otherwise they’re non-existant? i forgot to talk to him back in haven but now i wonder if it was even possible and if he was even available there, since he isn’t here. I spent hours just running around skyhold looking for the guy :(

and then everything becomes unimportant bc aaaaa!! she! is the arcanist! Dagna! im so happy and proud(?) she went and reached her goals x)

anyways that’s all for now, laters

some random updates:

so i did the halamshiral and gave up to my “stick to the character” mode, and nothing went my way, but that’s life. Met morrigan! i almost forgot she appears lol. And, despite also jumping on the wagon of give-morrigan-better-clothes train, i have to admit seeing her in her old clothes was a relief after that dress at the ball. It’s not the way the dressed looked, but the way she moved in it... god im shallow

i also initially didn’t like morrigan being at orlais court of all places, but after the conversation that’s supposed to explain why she’s there i’m kinda ok with it. I mean, i still need some more info. Wouldn’t Tevinter be better? she’d practically become a magister overnight if she got this good in the game so fast. It’s also unconvincing how everyone knows everything in orlais but somehow nobody connected that the random kid that has no bakcground whatsoever with morrigan who keeps checking on him? But at skyhold she’s just “hey i have a kid, he’s no trouble, right?”  but hey, it’s morrigan. She can do anything. I’ll just have another story idea in my head.

Then there was news of the new divine that could be either cassandra or leliana and i don’t honestly know whom to choose. I’d prefer leliana over cassandra simply bc cassandra is more of a military mind, while the position of the divine would be more political. But lately every mission with leliana was spy spy, kill kill... Do we really want that for a religious leader? On the other hand, it would nicely round up her story from origins to inquisition... But cassandra is more of a public figure than leliana is...

when cassandra said:

“I want to respect the tradition, but not fear change. I want to right the past wrongs, but not avenge them. And I have no idea if wanting any of them makes them right.”

great moment. She’s usually so convinced and rash, i forget she’s more doubtful and open minded than what she looks like. Everything about cassandra is different from the impression she gives ;__; I love her so so so so much. (when she says she considers the inquisitor her friend i melted, next time varric pulls up the “seeker has no friends” joke, my heart will no longer be breaking).

I did a bunch of personal missions. Some were cool, some were ????. Also there were war table missions with zevran, that was cool. Also i love the codex entries in skyhold. The archery competition with varric banned? Dancing lessons failing bc lace harding is on the move all the time? Perfect.

And i met chargers, i like them, and aaah that staff-bow from the trailer is such a cool idea ;A;

What i don’t get with bull’s chargers is - they’re a mercenary group right? But isn’t swordselling seen as the complete misunderstanding of the qun? I get only bull is qunari, but he’s the leader of them? How is that not frowned upon?

And lastly, i don’t think i’ve said this, but i love that they added codex entries in the loading screens. love it.

update

After months of procrastination, i have faced my fears and have met alistair. it was very anticlimatic beating 11 level monsters when i was level 21...

but.. ALISTAIR TAT He’s changed... but not changed... but changed! Like, his personality is the same, but he’s more serious, doesn’t run from responsibilities, isn’t as bitter as hawke (also, why do i get impression that i am supposed to get the impression that they’re friends? they’ve met like, once, and talked for less than a minute.. whatevs. let’s pretend they’ve met again when on the run), i really love the inquisition alistair ;;__;;

Also, i managed to get that awkward demon baby family reunion :D

 know that morrigan says the vaguest generic thing “i told him his father was a good man” bc of various world states, but i also think she’s come a long way not to mock alistair, and then when he notices that she didn’t use the opportunity he mentions that the kid changed her and she’s like “pfft, yea right, you wish”....

... when she was the one who said that in the first place ;;__;;

Awwww :> I love that they bicker but softly. Kids have grown up :’) Anyways, when will alistair start paying alimony

The only weird one is Leliana bc when morrigan was introduced she was like “danger danger” (smth i’d sooner think alistair would do), and when alistair is (supposedly) in skyhold, Leli doesn’t even mention him, only hawke.  bruh, what were they to you, you almost died together ;;__;;

oh i also slayed a dragon.  I didn’t even want to fight that dragon. It was a hillarious feat of inquisitor, solas, cole and blackwall, all on level 21, having to chug all the health potions right at the beginning while fighting a dragon that was... level 13, after which i just let go of controls and suddenly everyone was hella good at fighting and slayed it (only cole needed revival several times).  

And, befitting the wild-dream feel that it had, when i got back to skyhold and visited companions, suddenly i was drinking pelin with iron bull, and he’s reminiscing on that fight with the dragon and i’m like

it was awful and you weren’t even there.

i forgot to update

but last time i was playing i finished the hawke/alistair sacrifice and all the torture i went through with deciding whom to sacrifice vanished bc frankly, at one moment, i wanted to sacrifice both of them, but in the end it was much more easier to sacrifice hawke bc inquisition hawke just didn’t feel like hawke to me, while alistair improved since the origins!

and now i remembered why i didn’t update, in the same day cassandra rejected me so i was sad and didn’t continue playing since then (i think last time i played it was around easter?)

new update

BLACKWALL!! or should i say Thom Rainier? Wow, what an arc! It was also so fun bc i was all strict mode, picking the third option, telling him his life is in inquisitor’s hands and all that, but in the end i set him free. He’s so good, a true knight T-T

Also i romanced sera. we’ll see how that goes.

Also, fave point in the game so far, i wanted, for so long, to sit at that val roeayoux (can’t spell) cafe and finally did it with cole’s personal mission. THANK YOU COLE YOU TRULY CAN READ PEOPLE’S MINDS.

another interesting thing was that after specialising as a reaver, cassandra said that drinking dragon blood makes you grow scales and become mad. Iron Bull said that inquisitor smells better bc dragon blood and that qunari generally smell better than humans. So i’m guessing qunari have fractions of dragon in them? ok...

and now i started that mission with morrigan and the puzzles are killing me lol, i am this 👌 close to just go chase calpernia and give up on a well of sorrows.

[ziracona]

THE OFFICIAL DBD STORE SELLS A HUNTRESS (and shirtless david) BODY PILLOW AND IM 👀👀👀👀👀👀👌👌👌👌

Keep ‘em comin’ lads

(Haha. I do gotta say tho Anon, if you want a body pillow for DbD, please consider getting a custom one instead. I think you’d actually like it much better! The rest was meant to be under a cut but tumblr is the dumbest shit site coding wise & I made this on mobile, which will not allow you to add read mores anymore. In past this has been no problem bc I can just save as a draft & edit + post on my laptop or edit the second I post & throw in a read-more but apparently now if you make a post on mobile you can never edit it in desktop again. : ) I love that. So fucking much! But this is going to be long now & I physically cannot fix that bc it also won’t let me swap it to html now it’s posted : ) : ) : ) fuck this site : ) —anyway! On a brighter note, here’s my pitch:

Okay! So to start.

First up. Let’s look at what the devs are offering you.

Here are the official body pillows. Now, these aren’t the worst pictures of Anna and David I’ve ever seen, but they’re not great. David’s in his default queue pose, I got no idea wtf Anna’s doing, and neither of them have interesting, good, or attractive poses, lighting, expressions, or detail. Considering this is decently funded company with multiple artists on staff and full body 3D adjustable rendered models of Anna & David on every computer there, it’s lazy as hell. It’s not even as good art as their official sketches or character renders or promo art. They know how to do the work:

They’re just being lazy.

Okay, though, but you really want a body pillow, so what to do? Well, maybe it’ll be cheap enough you don’t care about the quality too much. So, how much will this cost you? For me to ship to myself in the us with the cheapest shipping option, Anna would cost me $80.

Okay, so. That sucks. But you really want this and what else can you do? There’s nothing else to pick.

OH WAIT. Yes there is! So here’s some actually good news for ya 💪

If you want a custom body pillow, you have two options: 1, buy a custom pillow case and a pillow separately, or 2, buy a custom pillow with the image on the pillow print itself. Now, you can get the second option, but it is exponentially more expensive. I’ve seen maybe 60something-70 as the cheapest option for this, although I didn’t spend a ton of time looking. Still, if you want to go full hog, it’s possible. If you don’t mind a pillowcase/the cheaper option, though, (and many pillow cases are custom to the exact specified pillow size and aren’t really noticeable at all), it’s a good deal. For example: A body pillow can be bought at many stores for about 15 bucks. There is some variance in pricing for size, shape, and material, but here I’d like to add the official DbD site doesn’t even list dimensions for their body pillow, let alone material. So, for me to get what I want if I wanted this, I could buy a $15 pillow at a store, and then a pillowcase from a place that I could get it custom made & delivered, IE price + shipping is $30 from here https://www.etsy.com/listing/653983430/custom-21-x-60-zipper-body-pillowcase?ga_order=most_relevant&ga_search_type=all&ga_view_type=gallery&ga_search_query=custom+body+pillow&ref=sr_gallery-1-1&bes=1

So we’re at about $45 right now. (eBay offers cheaper custom pillowcase options but I didn’t want to try to vet sellers for quality & reliability making this post & this is a good price).

This leaves about $35 to commission an artist for something to put on the pillow case. Now, price for commission varies greatly from artist to artist, and full body is the most expensive base option for a single subject, but there’s definitely people offering really freaking incredible commissions at this price, and sometimes even lower. Even though their art should really be worth more than that. Unfortunately, we artists gotta eat. And a lot of the people who buy commissions are also young adults who gotta eat and don’t have a ton of cash. 🤷🏻‍♀️ So there’s a lot of people who’d be genuinely very happy to be paid for that commission even though it kinda sucks we be there. And if you want to commission someone more expensive, sure you’ll be spending more on the body pillow than DbD officials $80ish. But uh. Would you rather give the same devs who picked the most racist Claudette design they could put into the game for the most recent costume contest $80 for one of these:

Or

Spend $37 for a David of @eggchef ‘s lookin this kinda fine:

https://eggchef.tumblr.com/post/190185302972/david-and-jake-are-both-just-rich-kids-who-said

$40 for a full body Anna of @guud-night ‘s in the style they did this: https://guud-night.tumblr.com/post/185148722468/summer

Or $42 for a full body Anna like this one by @sleazy-art https://sleazy-art.tumblr.com/post/169548091038

or $70 for a full body of @guud-night ‘s in the style of this Anna seen here https://guud-night.tumblr.com/post/165476621798/the-huntress

The fan artists do better work—I mean think of how amazing a pillow could look if your heart cries for one. Vs the low-grade renders the devs be offering. They do so much better it’s like a “Look at your body pillow. Now look at the body pillow the devs told you not to worry about” meme it truly is. TBH, you could screenshot a DbD store screen with Anna or David, edit out the BG in photoshop, and already have a better 3D image than the official offering. 😂 And with an artist? 👌 Mmmmm. Anyway, haha. There was my in-depth pitch to buy from fans instead of official. I was just very motivated to *Robin Williams Genie voice* Illuminate the possibilities! I hope it may have given you inspiration for something even more beautiful than what you thought your heart desired :’-)

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #285

"do you have the time to listen to me whine about nothing and everything all at once?”

What does your car smell like? You assume I have a car. Would you ever let anybody else drive your car? ^ Have you ever met someone in person who you first met on the internet? Do you have plans to do that anytime soon? Yes, Sara. I want to visit her again, but right now I have no clue when that will happen. I have another friend that wants me to shoot her wedding that was planned for this year, but it was delayed to an unknown date, so. What was the last thing you used a blender for? A margarita. Have you ever got into an argument with a stranger on social media? Do you remember what it was about? Yep. There's been a couple. Has COVID had any impact on your Christmas plans this year? What’s going to change or be different to normal? Yes. Mom and I aren't coming while Ashley's inlaws are there at her house, and then I think we're going to my other sister's since she wants to cook? I've only really overheard Mom over the phone, I'm not 100%. I'm just. Going with it. What’s your favourite flavor of cake? Are you any good at making that kind of cake? Probably red velvet, or just double chocolate. I dunno. I love cake. I don't cook, though. Are you currently under any COVID-related restrictions where you live? Are people generally following the rules? Well, you're SUPPOSED to wear a fucking mask, but "it's a hoax" and "you can't make me" fuckheads don't listen, and it's poorly-enforced. You see people without them all the time. Do you still watch cartoons? I'm not opposed, I just don't watch television. Is anyone else in the same room as you right now? What is that person up to? No. Do you use Pinterest? Ha, I get most of my (unedited) avatars from there. It also gives me some pose ideas for photography. Are you wearing earrings? Ugh, no. I absolutely hate how the first holes stretched from heavy earrings. I need to get a proper tapering set if I want to actually use gauges (mind you, very small) so they look even semi-good again. I don't wear any in the second/upper holes because I think it just looks weird with nothing in the first. Do you know any sign language? Not anymore. In elementary school, we did do a play however where in one of the songs, we signed the lyrics. I remember zero. Have you ever gone on a service trip to an underprivileged country? No. Which breed of dog do you find most scary? None. Ever been to a pottery class? Not particularly, no. I've made pottery in normal art classes multiple times, though. When you were young, did you ever pretend to “marry” somebody? I have no idea. I don't have a specific memory. Don’t you just find it annoying when people get too much plastic surgery? Oh, fuck off. Is it your body? Is it there to boost YOUR confidence? Then your opinion doesn't fuckin matter. Are you the type who usually plays it safe? Yep. Who do you think about most? It's certainly not willingly, but Jason. PTSD kinda engraved his presence in my brain. How’s your grandmother? Both are dead. What’s your favourite type of cloud? Big, tall, and poofy cumulonimbus ones. Do you have a birthmark? Where? Does it look like anything? Yeah, a slightly darker brown blotch on the side of my right forearm, near the elbow. If you were blind for the rest of your life… what would you miss seeing the most? Probably people smiling. My nieces' and nephew's came to mind first. What is your most disappointing moment in life? I've been living it for years now. I'm not who I wanted or thought I would be at all. What is the best reward anyone can give you? Validation lmao. What is your favorite animal? List three adjectives to explain your choice. Meerkats, always. God, I can barely boil it down to three words. Loyal, complex, and brave will have to do. What is your favorite color? List three adjectives to explain your choice. Pink. Soft, pretty, gentle. What do you consider to be the most valuable thing you own: when you were a child/teenager/now? As a child, my big plastic crocodile named Marlin (yes, after the Finding Nemo character) that was the "main character" in my games of make-believe. As a teen, probably Rebel, the stuffed meerkat Jason gave me. Now, it's absolutely the pebble I got upon "graduation" from my partial hospitalization program. What’s the kindest act you have ever seen done? I'm not sure; I've seen a good deal. Thinking of only the ones I've seen in-person, uhhhh... wait. A couple days before my overdose, in desperation, I called Jason's house in the middle of the night wanting to talk to him. His mom answered, and she talked to me for hours with such patience and kindness to try and calm me down. I miss her a lot. Is Frozen one of your favorite Disney movies? No, I never really liked it. If you were an explorer, would you rather explore the Arctic Circle, Antarctica, or Alaska? Ohhh, Alaska. It's gorgeous and at least not absolutely frigid everywhere. How many blankets do you sleep with in the winter? I usually just have my usual thick comforter, but if I'm seriously cold, I'll grab another smaller one to wrap myself in underneath the big one. Do you know of anyone who was in labor or gave birth to a baby during a major snowstorm? HAHA my mama w/ me. Do you enjoy eggnog during the winter - with or without alcohol? EW. Do you dress any of your pets in seasonal/holiday apparel? No; I really dislike the concept of dressing your animals unless it's truly for their own benefit/warmth. Who was the last person to give you a gift? What was the reason for it? Uhhhhh. I have no idea. Are you a good cook? If so, who taught you? What’s your favourite thing to cook? NOOOOOOO. When was the last time something in your house broke? Did you manage to fix it or did you need to buy a replacement? Ugh, my laptop is fucked up. It's either the charger port, charger itself, or Mom thinks perhaps the battery. Her friend's husband is gonna look at it after Christmas. Is any part of your body hurting right now? What caused that pain? For once my legs aren't hurting. They almost always do from either muscle atrophy or them having been still for too long. The last time you made a sandwich, what did you put in there? It was just a normal 'ole peanut butter sandwich. What’s your favorite time of day? What’s your favorite thing to do at that time? First thing in the morning, because it feels like a new start. I like watching the sky change from pinkish to blue while I'm just sitting in bed checking everything. Where did you go the last time you left your house? I rode with Mom to her doctor's appointment. I didn't go in w/ her for obvious reasons, I just wanted to go on a ride and listen to music. If you eat steak, how do you like it cooked? What sauces or sides do you like to go with it? It has to be medium well. Idk what sauces are cooked into it that I like, because I don't make it. I like fries with steak, and probably Sara's mom's mashed potatoes would go well, haha. Do you prefer sweet or savory pancakes? What toppings do you have on them? I can't imagine me liking savory pancakes... I just like the usual: butter (not mandatory tho) and syrup. Are you someone who cracks their joints a lot? Which one(s) do you tend to crack and click the most? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NO NO NO, I HATE THE NOISE SO MUCH. My lower spine pops a lot, though. Some fingers occasionally, too. Have you ever taken medication or tablets to help you sleep? Is this something you do on a regular basis? Yeah, I was taking Melatonin to fight insomnia for quite a while. I only stopped it because my mom was theorizing that it may have been making my nightmares worse, because her dad had AWFUL nightmares on it. I don't know if it did or didn't foor me, honestly. For you, what’s the worst thing about getting up in the morning? What about the worst thing about going to bed tonight? Knowing in the back of my mind that despite my hope, today's going to be the same as yesterday. I dread most nights the process of lying down and actually falling asleep, because it can take hours. Do you prefer regular or diet soft drinks? Not only do I think diet sodas taste bad, but the artificial sweetener gives me awful headaches, anyway. What do you tend to wear if you’re just hanging about the house for the day? I'm only always in my pjs. When was the last time you dyed your hair? Did you do it yourself or get it done at a hairdresser? Ugh... it's been a very, very long time. It was done by a hairdresser, but per usual, the color didn't stick well. I am DYING to bleach my hair so I can dye it pastel pink, light silver, or like a creamsicle orange. I edited some pictures of myself to "try" these colors on, and omg I loved them all. Does having to wear a mask stop you doing things? Is this because you struggle wearing one or you just don’t like it? Not really, no. I barely go anywhere at all though, so I have Have you ever witnessed a car accident? Or have you perhaps been involved in one yourself? Were you at fault? Yes; yes; no. How many books do you read in a year? Do you enjoy reading or do you have to really force yourself to sit down and read? VERY few. I've only just gotten back into semi-regularly reading since Sara got me into Wings of Fire. I have one friend though that is an INCREDIBLE bookworm; she keeps track of how many books she's read in a year, and she's already beyond one a day. It's incredible. If you have pets, where did they come from? A breeder, a rescue or maybe a friend who bred their pet? Roman came from Ashley's inlaws'. They have like an infestation of cats needing to be spayed, so they didn't at all mind letting me have one because I'd been wanting a cat for a long time. I love my baby boy so much. Venus came from The Gourmet Rodent, a snake breeding (and F/T rat provider, as the name suggests) business from Florida. I highly recommend them. Their customer service was fantastic when I was worried about Venus not eating. They even checked up with me a few months following my emails to ensure she was doing well. Have you ever seen an episode of My 600lb Life? No. I absolutely NEVER could. As an obese person who's been fighting her fucking ass off to lose weight for years, I don't want to be further depressed. Do you feel bad when someone asks you to hang out and you say no? Oh yes I do. Ngl, if I don't want to hang for whatever reason, I'm the kind that makes up an excuse to not seem *as* "rude" (quotations bc it's technically not rude at all, anxiety just tells me it is). When was the last time you turned down plans with someone? What did you decide to do instead? Ummmm I'm not sure. Have you ever had any “unusual” or exotic pets? If you could own any animal, what would it be and why? Do you consider iguanas or Chinese water dragons as "exotic/unusual?" Nothing stranger than that, really. I would never, ever own a truly exotic animal that wouldn't do well in captivity. I do however pretty desperately want to rescue an opposum one day, though. I positively adore them; they're my second-favorite animal. How often do you wash your hair? I don't even have a regular schedule for that anymore, honestly... I have to every time I shower because my hair gets oily FAST, but I try to put off showers as long as I can handle now because of how bad my selfcare has been for multiple reasons... What have you found the hardest about the current pandemic? Not seeing an end in sight because people are fucking dumb. Shit's not going to get better unless things drastically change. And what about the easiest? Has anything improved in your life because of what’s happened? Certainly nothing has improved. Not much has changed for me, considering I barely ever left the house to begin with. If you have multiple pets, do they get along with each other? Are they related or even the same species? They ignore each other, really. Surprisingly, even. Roman will sit on my bed and watch Venus slither about occasionally if she's out, even meerkat pose haha, and playful as he is, it's unexpected that he *does* mostly ignore her. What was the last meal you ate? Did you have anything good? Breakfast; I had Special K cereal. I've finally started to get back on track with eating okay. Do you live somewhere where strangers say hi to you in the street? Would you like to live somewhere like that? Where we live now, if you pass someone outside in the car, it's normal and really expected to give a little wave. That's very normal here in the South though, really; you don't just have to be in your own neighborhood. Have you ever tried any of those meal replacement shakes? The chocolate Equate ones are normal in my diet, actually. They're really not bad at all and played a big role in me losing ~60lbs before. Funnily enough, I haven't found a popular name brand I like, though. Cheap stuff isn't always bad. Do you make up silly nicknames for your pets or family members? "Silly" ones, not really, besides Roman. I call him "weirdo" and "crazy" a lot, but nothing truly unique. What’s your favorite thing to take photographs of? Are you actually any good at photography? Nature or boudoir (only shot it once, but I love it and the confidence it gives people). Being as modest as possible, I honestly do think I'm pretty good at it. Do you have anything interesting planned for the rest of the day? How about for tomorrow or the weekend? I haven't had anything interesting planned in eons, it seems like. Are you going to take the vaccine for COVID once it becomes available? Once it proves to be reliable and safe, hell yes. I'm doing my goddamn part in ending this shit. How much housework have you done lately? Is this more or less than usual? A bit more than usual since I haven't finished decorating my room since moving... I've been doing it very slowly and gradually. I need to just finish it already, I'm just so unmotivated. What gifts are you hoping to get for your next birthday (or Christmas, whichever one is coming up next)? I'm fucking dying to get my tat redone/improved. Been waiting since LAST Christmas when I didn't get to use my own gifted money. Do you suffer from any form of motion sickness? No. Do you contribute regularly to any Facebook groups at all? "I’m a member of plenty, but hardly ever post." <<<< Same. I react to posts a lot, though. Just don't really make my own. When was the last time you weighed yourself? Were you happy with the numbers you saw? Ugh... when I went to the doctor I think last week. I knew it'd be bad, but the verification fucking sucked. Since moving, I've gained ~30lbs. Have you got any chronic health issues? What do you do to try and manage them as best you can? YIKES I am a CATASTROPHE. I've got a dictionary of mental health issues that I'm not gonna go through individually, but I deal with them via prescription medications and therapy and sheer will. Who taught you how to drive? My driver's ed teacher. It was mandatory in HS. What was your high school mascot? A firebird. Did you go to your senior prom? Yes. What did you do after graduation? I very briefly went to a community college. What was your first job? GameStop sales associate. If my social anxiety wasn't fucking shit, I probably would have liked it. What did you want to be when you grew up? Somewhat in order: paleontologist, vet, movie director, game designer, animal biologist, video editor (VERY brief), and photographer. Writer, poet, and artist were always something I wanted to do in my free time OR full time if I was lucky. Do you remember the first time you drank a beer? I've never tried beer and don't want to. It smells fucking awful, and because my dad is a recovered alcoholic who was addicted to that in specific, I just want nothing to do with it. Did you ever try cigarettes? No. I have absolutely never understood the appeal, but with a very addictive personality and wild anxiety, I never wanted to risk it, anyway. How did you spend your summers growing up? LOADS of swimming in the pool, jumping on the trampoline, and just playing outside in general. If you could change anything from your teenage years, would you? I'd absolutely change how I found happiness only in Jason. Do you remember your first time? No, because at that time, I didn't really realize it was sex. I know that sounds weird, like "how would you not know?", but just trust me. I don't feel like retrospecting on it. I do remember our first *kiss*-kiss, though. How much did you make per hour at your first job? I don't recall. Favorite home-cooked meal growing up? I looooved spaghetti. Favorite place to eat out growing up? McDonald's, duh, lol. Did your parents live in a different country before you were born? No. They were from different states, though. Do you have a preferred coffee brand? Don't like coffee. Have you ever dated someone who was terrible with money? No. How often do you paint your nails? Never. Do you know anyone who's related to a current or former world leader? Not that I know of. Do you do your own taxes, or do you hire a professional? I don't pay taxes because I'm unemployed. What is something you don't have any natural talent for? Speaking. At all. What is something you frequently forget? "Numbers." <<<< BIG fat same. How do you feel about your body? How much I hate it is on my mind literally every waking moment of my life to some degree. Who is someone you would like to get to know better? So I have this Facebook friend Courtlynn who seems very similar to me, and I'd love to get to know her better. We interact via posts here and there, but have never seriously talked. What's your opinion on assisted suicide? I am very much for it when a person is in serious pain and recovery is not possible. Like one of my greatest nightmares is being paralyzed from the neck down, and I stg I would spite whichever fucker had jurisdiction over me living. That would be absolute torture for me. At what point do you consider a relationship to be "long-term?" A year, so long as you were consistently together. Stable. What jobs did your parents have when you were growing up? My dad's been a mailman my entire life, and he had a second job at Lowe's for a while as a carpenter. He hated it. Mom worked with computer data at the hospital when I was very young, and then she was an assitant and special needs teacher for a long time. Do they still have these jobs? Or different jobs? Or have they retired? ^ about Dad. It's his only job now. Mom is currently on disability. Do you have a cell contract plan, or are you on a pre-paid plan? Would you believe me if I said I'm unsure? Haha. I use a Tracfone, and my mom takes care of whatever plan comes with that, so idk. Would your parents be okay with you dating someone of another race? Mom, absolutely. I'm unsure about Dad. I mean he wouldn't *seriously* care so long as they were good to me, but I think he might still be kinda racist. Or he just jokes about it a lot (which should not be joked about, btw). Do you like when friends stop by unexpectedly? "No way lol. I’m very much of a loner and want to be “prepared” to spend time with people." <<<< Absolutely this. How strong are your feelings for the last person you kissed? I love her very, very much. What was the last thing someone else bought for you? Food, I'm sure. Are you attracted to the last person you exchanged numbers with? I haven't seen a picture of her in years, so I have no idea. I remember she was beautiful, though. Is music a daily part of your life? Not daily, no. Some days I only watch YT videos instead of listen to music. What do you think of country music? Not a fan at all. It's ironic considering it was my favorite genre as a little kid. There's the occasional country song I like (mostly ones from my childhood, though), but those are few and far between. Tim McGraw, now, I love. Did you go to your high school’s graduation? Yeah, even though I didn't want to. I didn't care enough about the actual ceremony. Who was the last person to message you on Facebook? What would you do if that person told you they have feelings for you? That would be the woman I took family pictures for. She's married and we barely know each other, so I can assure you she doesn't. When you apply your make-up, do you do it in a specific order? On the very rare occasion I wore makeup, yes. Eyeliner, usually eyeshadow, mascara, and most rarely, black lipstick. Does it matter to you if your significant other smokes? Yes. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Mom, I think. Do you like where you are in life right now? HA. Is your mom overbearing? No.

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False pretenses

Pairing: Kim Jongdae (Chen) x Reader ft. Kim Minseok Genre: Angst, Historical!AU Word Count: 8.372 words Warnings: Death, Violence Note: The photo’s from Chen’s website. I deleted the chapters I uploaded here and decided to stick everything into a finished one shot instead. HAHA Idk why but this fic has caused me great stress because of how unorganized I was and how loose I think everything is hahaha. Tried my best to fix it tho, hope you enjoy! 🌸🌸

A rough hand holds your chin and tilts your face to the side, exposing the blooming dark bruise on your left cheek and causing it to sting.

“Your insolence will be your downfall,” Minseok says as he clicks his tongue, blatantly expressing his disapproval towards your misdemeanor.

“Your Majesty,” you stare at him as you remove his hand lightly, “if you may.”

He releases your face but his sharp eyes stay rooted to yours. “See? Insolent.”

The warm golden light from outside shines through the open window and Minseok turns to soak in it, his face blank as he loops his arms behind him.

To an outsider, the scene might look like a peaceful one but that can’t be further from the truth. The tension is palpable as everyone inside the quarters await for his next words and after what felt like hours, Minseok waves his right arm to dismiss all the servants present.

Soft steps quickly pad towards the doorway as the sock-clad hand-maids rush to flee the room.

“If I may ask,” you start as you move to stand beside him. “Did something unfortunate happen before I moved here?”

You relish the soft touch of the wind on your face and continue, “I have only been here for a few months, but I have noticed how terrified and on edge the people seem to be.”

Glancing at him, you think you see a slight crease form between his brows, but it’s gone before you can dwell on it.

In response, he angles his face to you and lets a smirk fall on his lips. “I think you are missing the point here...”

“You have only been here for a few months, but your impudence is unlike any other I have witnessed before.” He shifts slightly towards you and raises a brow, “it is rather unbecoming, Princess.”

Heat crawls up your neck upon embarrassment from his words and you look down to break eye contact. Subconsciously, your hand goes up to touch the bruise on your face.

It wasn’t an easy task for you to get your bearings in Silla. Having grown from an entirely different kingdom, there were customs and practices you’ve grown habitual to that were not, in any way, acceptable in your new home.

With the recent happenings in Baekje the year prior because of the invasion, you were forced to go to Silla to negotiate and appeal for the monarchy to protect your people. So many were killed when your kingdom was attacked, but you know you had to protect those that were left. That meant setting aside any of your dreams, wants and needs.

For a princess like you, you know your personal desires do not matter. Nothing matters except for the safety of the remaining people of your kingdom. It was your ultimate duty to protect your people, after all, first and foremost.

That meant hours of working to know the practices and culture of your new home, and appealing to the royal family.

Back in your hometown, you were allowed to mingle with the commoners. In fact, those of royal descent were encouraged to do so to be able to foster strong and genuine unity among the residents under your jurisdiction.

That way, it was easier to implement laws and prevent crimes. In your opinion, it was also delightful to live in harmonious relationship with the people, not just for yourself, but for political reasons as well.

With that system in place in Baekje, there were never any successful attempts at overthrowing the royal family because the people were with the heads of the kingdom.

Which was why you were caught off-guard when the King himself rose from his throne and struck your face when you softly suggested asking the residents of Silla about their living conditions under the current monarchy.

The King and his magistrates were all in shock of your apparently preposterous proposal that there came a chorus of audible gasps around the hall as soon as you uttered those words.

Next thing you know, you were down on the ground, with your left cheek throbbing in pain.

You didn’t know how to react to what happened. You couldn’t understand the murmurs around you, and just barely registered your lady in waiting assisting you by the arm and leading you towards the Prince’s chambers.

You’ve only somewhat processed what happened when you arrived in Minseok’s room and he grabbed your chin.

“I sincerely apologize for what I propositioned in the congregation earlier,” you say, looking abashed, “I honestly had no idea that it was frowned upon here in Silla.”

“Well, I am sure by now you understand that we royals do not wish to stain our hands in dealing with commoners,” the Prince comments in obvious fashion.

Your head snap towards his direction, the disbelief apparent on your face as you never knew Silla to be as disconnected to their people as they are showing right now.

“But, Your Highness, they are your people!” comes your abrupt and almost offended response.

The next second, all you can see is Minseok’s palm near your face. 

You are too stunned about the sudden movement that you only start breathing again after realizing he didn’t hit you.

“You see, Princess,” Minseok says your title so condescendingly that it makes goosebumps erupt on your skin. The hand that once posed to hit you move to caress your cheek in a false comforting manner instead.

“May I remind you that even if you were of high stature in Baekje, you are nobody here if not for my family’s deal with your remaining kin.”

He grabs your shoulders and briskly turns you to look outside, “You see those people?” he says as he guides you to look at passing citizens. “They know nothing about you except for the fact that you failed to protect your kingdom.”

A shiver runs down your spine at Minseok’s proximity and you can feel his breath on your neck with how he is standing behind you. But more than anything, the harsh reminder of the reality of your failure causes pain to bloom in your chest.

Steeling yourself to not let the Prince see your watery eyes, you try to excuse yourself from his presence.

You open your mouth but fail to produce any sound as images of your people being killed flash through your mind. Tears start to form on your eyes, but you bite your lower lip to prevent any sobs from escaping.

Minseok immediately picks up on the shudder in your breath and turns you gently to face him.

“Do not worry, my future Queen,” he says mockingly as he wipes the few stray tears on your cheeks.

He kisses your forehead and looks at you, “I will make sure you will be happy here.”

You swear you have never seen eyes more blank than Minseok has when he smiles at you.

...

Outside, hiding in the shadows, stands a young man with gentle features bearing witness to the exchange. He balls his hands into fists and descends down the alley away from the palace.

——

The day was a serene one, what with the wind gently rustling the leaves in the landscape that surround you. A vibrant blue hovers over you, littered with enough scattered clouds that allow just the right amount of sunlight to grace your skin.

‘What a pleasant day,’ you note… if not for the boisterous laughter coming from the men standing in the archery range.

If there is one thing you are thankful for the etiquette classes you’ve attended since you can remember, it would be the skill you acquired in schooling your features into a neutral look to prevent unsightly expressions from overtaking your face.

You want to frown so bad at the things happening around you.

Sitting as still as a rock, you keep your blank face pointed straight towards the loud men supposed to be of some of the highest blood lines.

Inside, you’re wondering how those men were treated growing up.

Tinkling giggles snap you out of your momentary stupor and you realize you have just unknowingly spaced out. You turn towards the noblewomen watching and follow their gazes fixated on the practicing men.

Years of strict etiquette classes couldn’t have prevented the frown that immediately settles on your face upon seeing the ruckus on the field.

A servant is down on the floor clutching his stomach. The noblemen are obviously ganging up on the smaller man and you grimace when you see the tallest one, Lord Chanyeol from House Park, land a rather strong kick towards the man’s side.

You whip your head to look at the Prince beside you, awaiting any orders you’re sure he would bark out to stop the servant from getting beaten up, but the air is almost knocked out from your lungs when you see him sitting at ease, an amused smirk dancing on his lips.

Indignation rises from within you and you walk determinedly towards the men.

When you are within earshot, you stop and clear your throat. Keeping your chin up, you look at the three as they stop their assault.

“My lords,” you say with a surprisingly stable voice.

The youngest was the first to turn to you. Lord Sehun from House Oh. How can you forget when his family is easily one of the most powerful and most ruthless in Silla?

He stands up straight and stares you down, his height serving as an intimidation on its own as he lets an inscrutable expression fall on his face. After a few seconds of looking at you, he bows and offers his hand. Placing yours on his, you have to suppress the shiver that goes down your spine the moment his warm lips touch the back of your hand.

As if possible, he towers even more over you as he straightens back up.

“Princess [Y/N],” you look at the voice that addressed you and you try to smile at him -- Lord Jongin, one of the Prince’s closest cousins. You have met him once when you just arrived in Silla. He seemed kind back then, which made you realize first impressions really were often incorrect since you can never erase from your mind the image of him beheading one of his poor servants who tried to steal bread for his famished daughter.

He greets you as Sehun did, and Chanyeol follows after.

The three stand tall in front of you, shoulders squared and backs straight in what is supposed to be a posture of giving proper respect to those of royal blood, but it only serves to remind you of how low they actually think of you behind the formalities they impose when you face them.

The action rather intimidates you, but you have to steel your nerves for the servant on the ground who is already coughing up blood.

“I was watching you,” you clear your throat, “and I couldn’t help but be curious.”

“Pray tell, may you, what did the lowly servant do to warrant the punishment you have just given him?” you almost blanch at the horrible thing that left your mouth, but you know you have to appeal to their good side.

A glimmer of approval seems to appear in the eyes of Chanyeol and Sehun, but Jongin outright smirks at your agreeable countenance.

Chanyeol toes the head of the servant and angles it towards you. “This dimwitted lowlife thought he could waste our time with his slow services.”

“And as if that is not foolish enough, he even stepped on my foot,” Sehun spat.

Your hands involuntarily ball into fists at their shallow reasons and you almost hit Chanyeol’s face if only it doesn’t spell death for you if you actually pushed through. Good thing your hands are hidden under the sleeves of your hanbok.

“I see,” you glance at the beaten man on the floor. “Let’s not waste our energy on a servant. Please continue on with your training, we’ll see to it that he gets what he deserves.”

You wave two of your personal guards over and instruct them to take the servant away. As discreetly as you can, you whisper to the one closest to you to take care of the beaten man.

When the servant is dragged away, you turn towards the noblemen and bid them luck and safety with their archery.

Going back to your place beside Minseok, you lock eyes with him and you almost stop. He is looking at you as if he knows exactly what you did, a cold and calculating glimmer present in his eyes.

“Fraternizing with the royalty, aren’t you?” he follows you with his gaze until you settle on your seat. “Make sure you do not get caught when you do something foolish.”

You breathe deeply to calm your racing heart, but it almost immediately picks up speed with what he says next. “You would not want your people to suffer because of your idiocy, would you?”

He fixes you with another piercing stare and all you can do is look at him and nod.

In a rare burst of confidence, you place your right hand above his left, “I would not do anything against your will, or the will of Silla, my Prince.”

His expression remains unreadable as he intertwines his fingers with yours.

“I have grown quite fond of you, Princess,” Minseok is already looking straight ahead as he speaks. It would be an understatement to say you are surprised by his words, but you know better than to relax around him. You almost want to, but he continues speaking.

“…and I would not want you to find out what happens to those who go behind my back.”

——

That night, you sneak out of your room, disguised as a commoner and wearing your lady-in-waiting’s clothes. You perfectly know you cannot trust anyone in Silla, but if you are to name exceptions, they would be your two personal guards and your personal servant.

Yerim is a young woman assigned to you when you arrived at the palace. She just recently became an adult but already has the sense of responsibility and discipline as that of the older servants. She helps you dress in her clothes and walks with you to the stables where you were informed you could find the man from earlier that day.

A gasp fights its way out of your mouth when you see the state he is in.

Seated on the ground with a mere thin stack of hay acting as a cushion for him, you can see his face bloodied and bruised badly to the point where he seems like he just got out of a fight.

You kneel in front of him and grasp his face gently. Slowly bringing your right hand to his face, it feels like cold water was doused over you when he flinches from your touch.

He thought you were going to hit him…

A grim realization washes over you. You claim to abhor the apathy of the royal family, but in the end, are you any different than them? It has almost been a year since you arrived, but have you done anything for the people there?

All you are thinking about is Baekje, and you feel shame over the harsh reality that you have been turning a blind eye to the struggles of the people of Silla.

You place your hand gently on his cheek, bringing him to face you. It is dark inside the stables with only a few torches lit, but you can see with the faint light that his eyes still hold traces of tears.

“I am so sorry for what they did to you,” you say in a quiet, ashamed voice.

The man raises his eyes to meet yours, albeit shyly and a little scared.

“There is nothing for you to apologize about, My Lady,” he speaks in an equally hushed tone.

You bring your gaze down, not being able to look at him anymore because of how you failed to protect someone yet again, but still, you try to face him.

“May I know your name?”

Mild shock paints his features at your request, but he answers nonetheless. “Chen, Your Majesty. My name is Chen.”

You will yourself to smile, conveying at least a bit of comfort for his pain-riddled body as you bring out the small bag of coins you took with you to give to him.

“Please use this to buy supplies so you can have your bruises and wounds properly treated.” He seems to want to give it back but you enclose his hand with both of yours and push it gently towards him.

“I am sorry if this is all the help I can give for now,” you apologize earnestly. “But I swear I will take care of the people of Silla. I will help all those who need help.”

You gaze at him but this time, he diverts his eyes from you and stays quiet, not at all saying anything back. With his quietness, you guess you have overstayed your welcome so you stand up to leave.

As you are about to exit the stables, you hear him speak faintly. “Thank you,” he says so quietly, you almost don’t hear him.

You turn around and let out a tender smile. “You’re always welcome,” you say truthfully.

——

The coldness of the night makes its presence known, sending goosebumps to erupt on your arms and legs even with the thick clothing wrapped around your body.

Black paints the night sky and is littered with a few stars here and there, twinkling as if the light they have can’t be contained just within their vessels. As if there was so much light in them that they have to share it with the world.

That thought puts a small smile on your face. 

Glancing upwards, you gaze at the stars in the sky and you thank whatever gods are alive that at least someone or something, from somewhere in the world still want to share their light with you.

The smile falls fast from your lips, however, and your eyes divert from above towards the lands in full view from your place atop one of the upper floors of the castle.

Standing on the balcony connected to your chambers, you admire the few people going about and preparing for the night. There isn’t much to see, honestly, since the citizens of the capital tend to keep to themselves, as you have noticed.

Most of the nobles do not like you anyway, so you guess there aren’t any problems not seeing them more often. Well, the people don’t like you, noble or not.

Longing and frustration can only begin to describe what you have been feeling as of late.

Your heart yearns to be back in Baekje where your friends and family are, where your people are. You perfectly understand why you have to be in Silla and of course, you aren’t going to just up and leave to run back to those who care about you. 

But you just can’t fight the loneliness you always feel.

In all your time in your new home, you have seen nothing but cruelty and felt nothing but negative emotions. You always have to be strong in front of the others so the wolves they call nobles won’t tear you to pieces.

It feels like everyone is just waiting for you to snap and give up, to be the downfall of your own kingdom. You feel like they’re predators just waiting for you, the weak little prey, to make the mistake of getting out of your protective shell and into their domain.

The pressure is always so intense and ever-present, especially when you’re with the Crown Prince. You will be wed to him, tied to him for the rest of your life, all for the protection that Silla can provide for your people. You need to marry him and your feelings do not at all matter, especially in the grand scheme of things.

You know that… but sometimes he can be so, so cruel. 

Members of Minseok’s royal guard discovered spies disguised as servants and they didn’t hesitate to make them known to the public. They chained them to poles on the capital grounds and burned them to death.

You sat beside the Crown Prince throughout the whole ordeal and while you couldn’t even get yourself to spare a glance at the suspects out of sheer horror of what’s happening, you found that the situation wasn’t the same with him. The smile that he wore was so cold, so unaffected and so self-assured. 

He was amused by the spectacle in front of him.

Later that day, you accompanied the prince to honor Lord Chanyeol and Lord Sehun, the highest-ranking elite nobles from the royal guard. They discovered the spies and proposed the punishment they thought fit for those who committed treason.

You weren’t keen on seeing them again after you’ve just witnessed them terrorize an innocent servant a couple of weeks back, but there you were beside Minseok, fake-smiling and bestowing honor to them for successfully protecting the kingdom from perpetrators.

The enthusiasm was proper, and you agreed. After all, the kingdom was saved from what could have possibly been a catastrophic event. However, you didn’t concur with the way they treated the men. They were the enemy, but that did not mean that they should die a horrible death. However, it seemed like the people of the kingdom were all too happy to assert their dominance over their enemies.

Especially the Prince. 

The same one you were supposed to entrust your life to.

A choked sob makes its way up your throat and you don’t even try to fight it.

Nobody will hear you because you are alone anyway, always have been since you moved to Silla. Usually, your lady-in-waiting is there with you, but you sent her free for the night. Even though it is her duty to attend to you, deep inside you feel that she wouldn’t want to if she was given the option.

You heave a deep sigh and walk towards the hallway, wanting to get out and take a walk. Sliding the door open as you wipe your tears, you are surprised to find an equally startled man standing outside your chambers, eyes wide and mouth a bit open.

He quickly falls to his knees and pushes his head to the ground in a low bow. In your shock, you bend down and grasp his arms to pull him up from his kneeling position.

“Chen?” you call his name when you get a good look at his face, recognizing the servant you helped a few weeks ago.

“Princess…” he says in a quiet, unsure voice. He looks visibly flustered because of the proximity so you quickly let go of your hold on him.

Clearing your throat, you begin to ask him. “What are you doing here?”

He hesitates for a moment and averts his eyes from you before meeting your stare again with his own meek one. “I was passing through the corridors for my final duties of the night…”

“I heard somebody crying and looked for the source. I wanted to see if I could be of some help.”

Your heart skips a beat and a tear runs down your cheek.

Is this how deprived you are of kindness? That one act like that almost sends you bawling with relief in the discovery that there is, in fact, at least one kind person in Silla?

All rational thoughts escape your mind and you hold his cheeks with your palms. In an instant, your lips are on his, your eyes closed while his are wide open.

Just as fast as you held him, you immediately release him upon the realization of what you’ve done.

Air escapes your lungs when you fall on the floor in your haste to back away from him and your shocked and pained expression is enough to spur Chen to set aside his own surprise in favor of helping you stand from the floor instead.

Reason seems to have found its way back to your head and you frantically look at both ends of the corridor to see if anyone saw what just transpired.

Suddenly, Chen bows straight in front of you as he almost shouts out an apology.

“Forgive me, my Lady!” you’re stunned by him, his voice shaking and he looks as frightened as a hare corned by wolves.

“What… why…” guilt starts to eat at you from the inside. “Don’t… why are you the one apologizing?” You ask him in a shaky voice.

He stands up from his bow and is surprised to see you looking at him like he just did something wrong.

“Why are you apologizing when clearly I’m the one who just– just attacked you like that out of nowhere?” It is clear that you are getting frantic, guilt and anger brewing an unpleasant mix from within you.

“Had anyone witnessed what I did, you would be sentenced to death, no questions asked!”

Chen’s panic is rising with every word that comes out of your mouth and he whips his head around to see if anyone is passing by.

“Or maybe…” you look at your shaking hands, your breath shallow. The next words that come out of your mouth are said so quietly, it almost looks like the words are for you, and only you.

“Maybe you should tell the Prince that I forced you so he could gladly sentence me to death… after all I deserve such punishment for putting your life on the line--”

The arms that immediately engulf you are warm and you belatedly realize that Chen is already holding you close to his chest. You can’t fight it anymore, the pent up emotions all come rushing out like water from a broken dam.

The anger, the loneliness, the frustration, the sadness.

Everything just breaks free from you the moment you start crying.

It doesn’t even occur to you that you’re already sobbing until you hear Chen whisper words of comfort in your ears, telling you that it’s difficult but it’s all going to be okay and that he understands... That he understands very well.

When your crying has subsided, Chen leads you inside your room again and guides you to lie down. Grabbing the quilt, he drapes it over you until up to your chest, wishing you a peaceful sleep for the night.

He stands up, prepared to leave your chambers, but you grab his hand to stop him.

“Please,” you whimper. “Please don’t leave me alone.”

He looks at your face for a few seconds, causing you to almost take back what you said. You are about to apologize when Chen lifts the quilt and lays beside you.

There’s a significant space between the two of you but you’re just glad he’s there to be with you.  Even with the distance between your bodies, it’s the first time in a long time that you feel you’re not alone and just that is enough reason for you to be deeply grateful.

“Thank you,” you say with a low voice. Laying there side by side, sleep almost claims you fast with how much you’ve cried that night alone. You’re so tired of crying, so tired of feeling helpless and even more of being powerless to stop it.

With your eyes closed and your consciousness already dripping by the edge, rest is being yearned by your body and you almost succumb to the lull of darkness but not before you feel him hold your hand.

Just before you fall asleep, you hear Chen whisper.

“I understand.”

——

At first you thought the days that would follow the incident would be miserable, but now sitting beside Chen, hands intertwined and with only the moon and the stars as your witnesses, you couldn’t be happier.

Somewhere in the back of your mind, you think what you’re doing is dangerous, and you know it is, but the experience of comfort and companionship veils you from the real risks at hand.

The feeling of Chen rubbing soothing circles on your hand brings you out of the momentary daze you are in. Turning towards him, you meet his stare, loving how his gentle features bring you ease no matter the circumstances.

In your calmness, you fail to notice the slight crease between his eyebrows.

——

Darkness covers the skies, preventing any semblance of light from shining through as if the heavy clouds in your heart aren’t enough on its own.

Struggling to keep your panic inside, you breathe slowly as you try your best to ignore the way the Crown Prince’s hand on yours seems to burn your skin. Your hand shakes a little and it does not go unnoticed by him judging by how he spares a quick side glance your way.

The gathering seems to go on longer, each passing moment increasing the dread you are feeling. You do not pay attention to the people speaking, choosing to ignore for as long as you can the reality they are bringing to life with their words.

Despite the widespread dislike for you, the important people in the hall cannot contain their eagerness for the wedding, excited for once about the prospect of formally accepting you into the kingdom because it would mean Silla’s official subjugation of Baekje.

After some time, the nobles and the royals file out of the throne room, leaving only you and Minseok alone.

He turns towards you and takes you in his cold embrace, pulling your body impossibly snug against his.

“I cannot wait for tomorrow,” he says lowly in your ear. “The ceremony, and especially for what happens after… how I can finally claim you as mine.”

The Prince shifts his hold to your waist and moves so he can look directly into your eyes. “Tomorrow, I can have your all at last. Mind…” he leans closer as his hands travel higher.

“Body.” A kiss on the edge of your lips.

“Soul.”

He finishes as he plants a full kiss on your lips.

You tense upon the contact but Minseok doesn’t seem to care. He slowly pulls away and you almost recoil when you see nothing but amusement and anticipation dancing in his eyes. Licking his bottom lip, he lets you go and orders your lady in waiting to take you back to your private quarters.

With a bowed head, Yerim rushes to you and you all but run from the hall once Minseok dismisses you.

You can’t think straight so you let your feet take you to wherever, the young servant right on your heels worriedly urging you to go back to where the Prince ordered you to.

“Your Highness, we should go back,” Yerim says pleadingly but almost admonishingly, no doubt scared of the consequences, but you don’t listen to her. Turning towards another corridor, you’re surprised to find yourself face to face with Chen, his brows furrowed in concern upon seeing you in tears-- tears you don’t even notice.

“[Y/N],” he rushes towards you and he wipes the tears on your cheeks with his thumbs. “What’s wrong? What happened?”

A gasp sounds from behind you and when you turn around, you meet Yerim’s shocked face. She just saw Chen holding you with familiarity and speaking your name as if he is of same standing.

His eyes widen as he registers the presence of another person, not at all prepared for such an encounter.

Your servant hurries away and Chen turns to run after her, but you stop him with a hand on his arm. He looks at you and decides that your well-being is more important at the moment.

Taking your hand in his, he guides you along the corridors to your room, preferring to console you in private and away from prying eyes.

The moment the doors slide close, you loop your arms around his torso and sob on his chest.

It was unfair.

Why is the world just so unfair?

The past few weeks you spent with Chen have been the best you’ve had since you moved to the new kingdom. You were so caught up in the safety net that is him that you almost forgot the reason why you were in Silla in the first place. So good were you in pushing your worries to the back of your mind that you did start to forget your true purpose.

With only a day away from your marriage to the Crown Prince, all your worries rush back to your mind, overwhelming you and drowning you in their torrential waves.

Along with the reality that you will be tied to Minseok starting the next day, you cry harder upon the realization that you will have to stop meeting with Chen after the ceremony. Not only will it be dangerous not just for him, but for you as well, but it will also be unfair for Chen.

He is nothing but a kind soul and you know you can never be unfair to him.

You will not do that, no, and he doesn’t deserve to be treated like that. With all the courage you can muster, you detach yourself from his hold, still tearful and sniffling.

“Chen…” you look into his eyes, certain that it might be the last time you can openly do so.

He calls your name in a quiet voice and you can do nothing but let your body do what it yearns to do.

Your lips are on his before you can register it and your hands raise to caress his soft cheeks. He holds your jaw with one hand while the other finds purchase on your waist. All you can do is feel Chen and relish the time you can spend with him like this.

It doesn’t matter if you want him. Your choices never matter after all, but this time, you really feel the hurt from not having your emotions be put into consideration.

Even if you don’t want to, you know you will have to stop seeking comfort from the one and only person you consider your home away from your real home. You will have to part, and never will you be able to hold him like this again.

For reasons you cannot fully accept, you resign yourself to your fate and let yourself cry harder.

Chen feels your body shake from your sobs and he tries his best to convey comfort through the arms that hold you tight. You both know there’s no going around the destiny that awaits you so he simply guides you to lie down on your bed, engulfs you in his warm embrace and lets you cry your heart out. 

——

You wake up with a start, disoriented and with eyes still heavy from crying as well as your abrupt awakening.

However, sleep is instantly wiped from you when you see Chen hovering over you, a knife in his hand, poised and ready to be brought down on you.

The moment you lock eyes with him, his own widen and his hand starts to shake.

An interruption from your door startles the both of you and you turn to see the Crown Prince himself entering the room, a cold and almost blank look on his face but a small satisfied smirk on his lips.

Baekhyun and Kyungsoo, your personal guards, immediately enter the room and tackle Chen, holding him flat on the ground. His struggling does nothing to deter the two men holding him down, taking the knife from him and throwing it somewhere unreachable.

Before you can fully register what’s happening, Minseok speaks.

“This went on even better than I expected,” he says as he looks at Chen. “Back then, I knew I recognized you from somewhere and I wasn’t wrong.”

Glancing around the room, you still don’t know what is happening and it causes the frustration to seep from you. The Prince diverts his attention to you and your heart stops at the sight of his disapproving but all too amused stare.

“I thought I had warned you well not to let me find out about your foolishness, Princess,” he sees the confusion on your face and lets his smirk widen. As if on cue, Yerim emerges from behind him, wearing an expression you can only describe as a look of satisfaction.

You don’t understand! 

You thought Yerim was on your side-- that she would at least be willing to give you a chance to explain what she saw earlier but it seems you’re wrong and now it’s too late.

“--what… --I do not..,” you try to speak but find that you can’t form your thoughts into sentences. You move your gaze back and forth from Minseok to Chen, fear gripping your heart from what grim consequences are sure to await you and him upon being discovered by Minseok, but the Prince seems to know more than he lets on.

“Oh,” he chuckles as he raises a brow. “The Princess is worried about you, Kim Jongdae. Do you mean to tell me she does not know of your true identity?”

You frown at the unfamiliar name and snap your head towards Chen, seeing a semblance of guilt fall on his face. He averts his gaze from you and looks at Minseok instead, his lips curl into a snarl, daring the Prince to continue speaking.

Minseok isn’t deterred one bit. He bellows out a loud, harsh laugh and sweeps his hands in a grand gesture. “Imagine, you try to kill the next Queen of this kingdom and she does not even know who you are and what you were planning to do to her all along.”

Not caring about formalities, you grasp for clarity. “Chen!” you shout desperately. “What is he saying!”

The Prince walks towards you and pulls you up with a tight grip on your arm, making you cry out in pain. He brings you closer to him, holding your back flat against his chest with an arm around your waist while his other hand goes to hold your chin to force you to look at Chen… --at Jongdae.

“You see, Princess, Jongdae wanted to kill you,” he says, mirth obvious in his voice. “But you know I will not let that happen.”

“But do not tell me there is no recognition in you at all when you look at his face?” he mocks. “No recollection of any Kim Jongdae? Perhaps from your younger years?”

“Or maybe you do not know him… but you know of someone, a rather beautiful woman if I may say so, who for some reason is related to this scum who tried to end your life?”

You flinch at the reminder, not at all ready to wrap your head around the truth of Jongdae’s attempt on your life, but as you blink and stare at the man before you…

A sharp inhale is all you can muster at the moment. “That’s… that’s why you looked familiar… because I have seen you before,” you say, your voice barely a whisper. “--you’re Taeyeon’s younger brother…”

Jongdae lunges forward at the mention of his sister’s name. “You do no’t get to talk about her as if you ever cared about her!” he shouts, voice riddled with pure unadulterated anger and pain. He almost successfully breaks free from the guards’ hold on him but they pull him back, hitting his body and forcing him to kneel in front of you and the Prince.

Minseok releases his hold on you and pushes you forward, causing you to fall on directly in front of Jongdae. “Go on, tell her the truth, you mongrel.”

“Chen… Jongdae,” gulping, you lift your head to look at him. “Please look at me.” You raise your hand to his cheek, willing him to tell you the truth but he avoids your touch altogether. He looks off to the side, choosing to fume silently in anger.

“Oh, you do not wish to speak?” the Prince says with a chuckle. “Let me do the honor then.”

He walks closer to Jongdae and lands a firm kick on his stomach, causing him to double over in pain.

“No! Stop!” you scramble to stop the Prince but he hits your face with the back of his hand, causing you to fall back curled on a heap on the floor.

“You do not know the truth yet, so stop trying to protect him, you fool,” Minseok says in a growl. “He wanted to end your life so he can prevent me from getting what I wanted - which is to rule over your kingdom. With you gone, Baekje can easily back off from their plea,” he clicks his tongue.

“No problem there but I would rather save the resources we will need to mobilize if we try to take your kingdom by force,” he looks at you then, reading the confusion clear on your face. “But why does he abhor me, you ask? Well, because I killed the pathetic little spy he calls his precious sister.”

Jongdae struggles again, wanting nothing more than to strangle the Prince with his bare hands, but the guards hold him down. 

“So you did not care about me the whole time…?” you try to say, your breath seemingly getting more shallow the longer you stay in the room.

Minseok picks up the discarded knife and presses the pointed tip on Jongdae’s neck. “Tell her, servant,” he urges, drawing a little amount of blood from Jongdae. “Tell her you do not care, even now. Tell her that the only intent you had when you showed her kindness was to create a ploy to take something important from me - to take revenge on me the only way you know how because you know you will never get the opportunity to kill me.”

“Well, you failed. Miserably. Just like your incompetent sibling.”

You sit helpless on the floor, eyes locked with Jongdae’s and you almost cry from the emotions that flit on his beautiful face.

Anger. Resentment. Betrayal. 

But among them, you also see something else.

Worry. Guilt. 

Regret.

Remorse.

... Love.

Memories from years back flood your mind and you remember personally selecting Taeyeon to be part of the emissaries to be sent to Silla for a special mission.

She was one of your personal guards, one of the best in the whole army, and you proudly endorsed her for it, not knowing that the task entailed spying on Silla.

After some time, you got word of her unexpected and unfortunate death, but you didn’t know it was because of the mission.

The first tear drop falls from your eyes… followed by another, and another. And you find your vision blurring from the onslaught of tears.

Jongdae’s breathing is also picking up, unfiltered negative feelings about his sister’s demise taking over his entire person. He doesn’t even attempt to stop it and just lets them cascade down his cheeks.

“Please don’t-- just…-- don’t pretend to care about her when you were the one who sent her to her death,” he chokes out, voice thick with sorrow.

You shake your head vehemently, “You don’t understand-- Jongdae, I did not know,” you sob. “I did not… if I knew then I would not have-- no…” you cover your face with your hands, desperate to get rid of the guilt and the blame for something you did not know. “She was my friend.”

“This brings me such great amusement,” Minseok laughs in glee. “Now that we have those misunderstandings out of the way, I want you fools to reflect on what happened so you can both feel more miserable. I should end your lives for treason and infidelity, no?”

He draws his own sword and points it at you. “Should I kill you first, Princess?”

Jongdae surprises everyone in the room with how he breaks free from the guards and tackles Minseok to the ground. He lands a solid blow to the Prince’s jaw before the panicked men drag him away, beating him up to make him stop.

“Do not lay your hands on her!” he growls out while struggling. “I will kill you if you so much as touch her!”

You stay still in shock and you feel yourself tense even more when Minseok lets out a full-blown laugh. “You dare threaten to kill me if I endanger her life when moments ago, she would have died by your own hands had I not interrupted?”

Jongdae lets shame wash over his face, draining the fight from him and preventing him from so much as glancing at you.

The Prince stands up from his place on the floor, laughing and clutching his stomach for reasons incomprehensible to you and Jongdae. “Will you look at that?” he says in between bouts of laughter.

Shaking his head, he straightens his posture and picks up his discarded sword. To your shock, he sheathes it back and looks at you. “So he does feel even a little for you even though you are foremost the reason why his beloved sibling is dead.”

“I will not kill you. Instead, I will make your lives miserable.” With the smirk still on his face, he walks towards the door, stopping just before he fully exits.

“And I will see to it that you see each other suffer throughout that misery, left wondering each passing day how much hurt you caused one another.”

——

Baekje was always pleasant.

Sure, it wasn’t perfect, but it was your home - a true home. It was one where you had a personal servant whom you treated like a sibling, and who treated you the same way.

You guess Yerim’s loyalty was never yours to claim in the first place.

Back where you came from, you grew up with with your people including the royal guards, the maids, the citizens. You knew just about everyone, but more so your personal guards Junmyeon and Yixing. You know they’d protect you and anyone you loved from any harm that came your way, and not even because of their sworn duty, but more from how they sincerely care about your wellbeing.

You guess it was foolish of you to mistake Kyungsoo and Baekhyun’s kindness to mean they will come to your aid no matter the circumstance. After all, who are you compared the the Prince -- the future King of their own kingdom.

As wishful as it is, you used to think you will be wed to the love of your life - someone you haven’t met back then yet, but who your father and mother assured you that you will get to marry. It was peaceful back then, so peaceful that the royal heads of the kingdom did not see the need to send you to marry a man you did not even know.

You guess you should not question the Prince’s intentions, for after all, isn’t it him who is granting you a wish when he agreed to marry you? Isn’t it him who will provide the safety you so prayed for your kingdom? Does his cruelty really matter? Should you not be thankful?

As much you loved your own kingdom, you had to leave it, for it was that exact love that pushed you to get the help your people needed. It was not an easy task, not in any way, but you thank the gods for blessing you with a person who serves as a beacon of light in a place filled with nothing but darkness. A person who serves as your warmth where there only was coldness. A home away from home, and a home you are eternally grateful for.

You guess you should have questioned it, but when you think deeply about what happened, you believe in the depths of your heart that you got to meet the real Chen -- the real Kim Jongdae. That despite him having a plan against you, you know he understands your plight. You know he did things out of love for his sister. You know that despite claiming to have just pretended to gain your trust, in the end, Kim Jongdae started caring for you… started loving you.

You saw it in the way he wasn’t able to bring the knife down.

You saw it in the way he protected you even in the face of a ruthless prince who can easily end both of your lives.

You saw it in the way he cared for you -- still cares for you.

And now, you see it in the way he looks into your eyes.

As you enter the hall to meet the Crown Prince, you steel yourself and your heart, finally accepting with grim resignation the fate that you tried so hard to evade.

Never will you trust anyone in the kingdom ever again.

Never will you put your faith on any of the people.

Never will you disobey the Prince lest you compromise the safety of your people.

And perhaps most important of all…

Never will you put Kim Jongdae’s life in danger ever again.

How will you be able to suppress your conflicting feelings for him when the Prince had so mercilessly ordered Jongdae to personally attend to you for the rest of your life?

To be forced to spend every waking moment with you when you had both been crushed by the unfortunate circumstances you’ve been tangled in?

What you had was truth founded on lies. You had come to love him and you know he had come to love you too, only to meet a destiny more painful than rejection. And as you engrave into your heart all of these promises you made, you wonder, how will your broken and crushed heart be able to handle Jongdae being by your side in the coming days?

Maybe-- maybe in another life, you can meet each other again.

And maybe in another life you can love without the pain, the anger and the sorrow that fill your current ill-fated lives.

[rosyerim]

cafe au | haechan

“yeah, welcome to our cafe and please don’t ask for our “secret” menu because we don’t have one.”

»»————-　♡　————-««

lee donghyuck, or haechan as everybody else calls him is cafe angel’s resident grumpy boy

can be found either clinging onto mark whilst whining or chilling on the bean bags meant for the customers

but does anybody tell him to move? yes, but does he? nope

unless its doyoung or ten telling him off then he moves and “works”

until they find him sitting in the backroom with jisung instead of working 

sometimes sits by jaemin whose working the cash register and judges his flirting skills

“did you really say she doesn’t need sugar because shes already sweet? lameee”

“haechan aren’t you meant to be working?”

“jaemin, you’re not working either, you’re flirting”

cue doyoung shouting at them to attend to the customers

he’s pretty good at raking in the tips mostly because the customers always have good banter with him as he is very sassy

rolls his eyes when he asks “for here or take away?” and they say “here  but in a to go cup”

he will legit fight the next customer who asks for  “secret” menu option

“this isn’t starbucks our only menu is the one on the wall!!”

likes to doodle on the to go coffee cups and gives away the ones with hearts on them to nice customers but gives ones w angry clouds on them to cheeky customers

renjun highkey judging his art skills in the corner

despite his lazy rep, haechan can make a mean hot chocolate and always makes it look pretty

half of his ig feed is him uploading pics of his hot chocolates with colour coordinated captions

claims only he can make good hot chocolates and doesn’t let anybody else make them when he works

he won’t tell anybody but he’s super satisfied when he see’s a customer smiling after they drink his hot chocolate

“...haechan why are you smiling so intently at that little kid”

“because he reminds me of an elf fuck off mark”

during his breaks catch him extending them from 15 minutes to an hour and chilling on the bean bags but with a blanket tucked up all around him

if he ends up falling asleep he will not budge so good luck moving him

chenle takes this opportunity to draw on his face but his dolphin laughs wakes him up every single time

groans when rush hour starts and always tries to get out of it but mark keeps on iron grip on him

even though he seems he doesn’t like his job, haechan will not go to any other cafe and will square up to anybody who shit talks cafe angel

once, his sister came home with pastries from starbucks and haechan wouldn’t talk to her for a week 

he loves it when it rains mainly because he can watch people getting splashed by cars on the sidewalk and laugh at them 

he’s stuck with the customers in a bad mood tho but then he turns on his full sun mode and the customers leaves with an extra large coffee and two pastries they didn’t know they wanted

which is how he met you

it was an extremely rainy Sunday evening and you were in a bad mood having fought with your best friend & your guardians at home, you went for a walk to cool off 

and of course it started pouring rain and you were umbrella less

the to top it off you were splashed by a damn lorry just as you were about to head into a cafe called angel for shelter from the downpour

you dejectedly had walked into the cafe which was surprisingly busy and waited in the queue, feeling so done with how your day was ending up 

the pink haired cashier asked for your order and you just mumbled out “a large black coffee with 4 extra shots of espresso”

jaemin titled his head lowkey concerned cause thats a lot of caffeine but an orders an order 

you paid him and picked an empty booth to sit in by yourself after grabbing the warm drink 

you didn’t even make a face when you sipped the drink you were feeling so bleak

but little did you know an angel was going to brighten up your day

you were lost in your thoughts when a sudden flurry of moment caught your eye and next thing you know theres a smiley boy sitting across from you and a plate of two muffins next to your coffee

before you could even say anything he stuck his hand out and introduced himself

“hello my name is haechan and I noticed that you seemed down so I'm here to lift you up!”

you shook his hand and introduced yourself back a little surprised 

“it’s very nice to meet you y/n”

you smiled politely at him not really in the mood to talk to this very bubbly person but he was insistent asking you how old you were, where you went to school, etc until you ended up in a deep conversation about Michael Jackson and his best song

haechan was so close to busting out a moonwalk just to prove he was right until doyoung interrupted to tell you it was closing time

two hours had passed without you two realising and you awkwardly brought our your wallet to pay for the muffins which were very nice

you bought two again the next time you came

haechan just waved you off for paying

“don’t worry its on the house”

“ah no I have to give you something in return for the muffins”

you could literally see haechan’s lips curl into a smug grin

“okay! give me your phone number then”

very smooth donghyuck

you gave it to him slightly giddy at the prospect of him wanting to actually become friends or more with you

but before you left you thanked him for making your day better and he just smiled bashfully 

“anytime, you know they named this cafe after me because I'm an actual angel and I could be your guardian angel ;)”

you just giggled at him before quickly pecking his cheek and walking out,  your face probably a tomato 

yet the second you left haechan was tackled by mark and jaemin as his face flushed the brightest red, doyoung rolling his eyes behind the counter

“damn hyuck since when did you get so slick?”

“wow lee donghyuck talking to a customer no, flirting with a customer?!”

he just pushed them off and whipped out his phone staring at your contact name looking back up at him

he smiled happily to himself as he changed your name slightly and waddled over to the bean bags, debating what to text you first

[to] y/n♡

hey, its your guardian angel ;) sent 10:02pm

you almost dropped your phone when you read the text, feeling your face grow warm

then you received another text from him and it was a selfie of him wrapped in a blanket, a peace sign held up by his grin 

hooo the softest boy I LOVE

your fingers hovered over the screen, racking your mind for a smart reply 

[from] y/n♡

oh? I didn’t know my guardian angel was so cute sent 10:04pm

then you sent him a selfie of yourself back, doing the same pose as him

sadly, you didn’t get to see haechan blush as he read your message then scream as he saw your selfie, running around the cafe to try and express how his heart felt

“donghyuck, you’re getting the floor dirty, I just fucking mopped it!” 

“okay mark if you had someone as pretty as y/n sending you selfies, your dumbass would do the same!!”

cue doyoung rolling his eyes again and hitting haechan with a towel, urging him to help clean up but deep down he was happy for haechan finally finding someone for himself 

thus, began your love story with the one and only lee donghyuck ♡

a/n: get well soon fullsun ♡

[robogenko]

OC Interview

Nobody Asked me, but I’m going to do this anyway.   If you want to do it, you should do it too.  You can tell everyone I tagged you. Do it.

1. What is your name?

“Uhm, like my... real name? It’s Ken Gorski, I guess... But uh, I go by ‘Genko’ these days, so.... ”

2. How old are you?

“That is a bit of a difficult question... Easiest answer, chronologically, you could say I am  242 years old... sorta.... I feel like I’m still in my 30s though....  ”

3. What do you look like?

*Smiles and winks while framing his face with his hands* “yo”

4. Where are you from? Where do you live now?

“huh, another weird question for me. I was born in California though, spent most of my life before the war there, in fact.  Me and the wife moved to Boston for her job...  She, and the job, are long gone now, but uh, I’m still here.”

5. What was your childhood like?

“Well, you know... Some good. Some bad.... But it was a long time ago, you don’t want to hear about all that. ” *he shrugs, but gets a far away look in his eyes that says to leave it at that*

6. What groups are you friendly with? Are you allied with any factions?

“Do you have a Geiger counter??  Anyway, the Minutemen seem like an okay group of folks, trying to do some good out here. I can respect that.  I think Preston would make a better General than he thinks he would. A damn shame, that. ”

7. Tell me about your best friend.

“Hmm.. living, or dead?  It’s hard to pick just one good friend, but Nicky’s been a big help in coming to terms with being a synth, you know? Having someone to talk to about it has really helped us both I think, at least I hope. I mean, we were even involved in the same damn experiment back before the war.  And, even though he’s a former cop, I don’t hold that against him too much.  He’s a kind dude, with a noble sense of justice. A rarity for any time period. “

8. Do you have a family? Tell me about them!

“Almost all of my family members are deceased, I’m pretty sure.  Shaun is out there somewhere... but I couldn’t tell you what he’s like if I tried... Maybe some of my family out west did survive. Maybe I have distant descendants, or maybe they became ghouls. I don’t know. Maybe I never will.  But uh, you know, Zeke and the Atom Cats took me in when I first came to out here.  They didn’t shoot me on sight, even with my damn eyes giving me away.  They taught me how to get along out here, and I paid them back in custom paint jobs for their power armor, and more than a few odd jobs around the junkyard. They’re kinda like a  family, in a way.”

9. What about a partner or partners?

“Hah, what could I tell you about John Hancock that he wouldn’t tell you himself??  Perhaps what a softy he really is.  I’ll admit, my first impressions of him were mixed... I think 'Scareroused’ is a nice way to put it??? But getting to know him better... I couldn’t imagine wanting to spend my time with anyone else.  His cunning, his ideals of freedom and justice, his strength, his sense of humor... No one can make me laugh quite like he can.  Hah, plus like... have you seen him? have you heard his voice? Hmmmm.... “

10. Who are your enemies, and why?

“oh boy...  I would say the Institute and The Brotherhood of Steel pose the largest threat to me and the people I love. But, on a more personal level?  I try to make more friends than enemies, but uh, there’s this raider guy who I am very sure would like to put my head on a pike in a very personal way.... ”

11. Have you ever heard of The Brotherhood of Steel? What do you think about them?

"Uhhhh yeah. Honestly, they seem like a militarized death cult to me.  I do NOT trust them.”

12. What about The Enclave?

“Eh? Never heard of ‘em.”

13. How do you feel about Super Mutants?

“Poor bastards.”

14. What’s the craziest fight you’ve ever been in?

“Hah who knows??? Probably that time Hancock and I got jumped by raiders shortly after picking off some of those damn mirelurks that like to jump outta the mud.  Ended up killing one of ‘em with a claw arm I shot off onea ‘them ‘lurks. That was pretty funny actually... ”

15. Have you ever fought a Deathclaw?

“For sure!”

16. Do you like fighting?

“Mehhh.” *non-committal wavey hand gesture* “You gotta do whatcha gotta do, tho, right? ”

17. What’s your weapon of choice?

“That’d be my rifle. Oh! And this rad knife I found that is DEFINITELY haunted!” *This is followed by impish manic laughter as he pulls out Kremvh’s tooth and starts waving it around.*

18. How do you survive? Your wits, your charm, your skills, brute force, some combination? (a.k.a. what’s your S.P.E.C.I.A.L?)

“I mostly get by on my wits and my charm. I mean, they don’t call me “Charmer” for nothing, ya know?  Buuut, if that fails, I can always fall back on my keen perception.  Don’t think you’re safe just ‘cause you can’t see me.”

19. Have you ever been in a vault? What do you think about them?

*his nose wrinkles as if he just smelled something unpleasant* “Eugh, they remind me of the old world, and not in a good way.  Plus, most of them are full of dicks anyway.”

20. How do you beat all the radiation around here? Has it affected you?

“being a synth I didn’t think it’d be a big deal, but I guess I’m more organic than I thought.  I’ve had to stock up on rad-x and radaway since I got here. And uh, don’t tell anyone this, but I have, more than once, strongly considered if it’s possible for a synth to go ghoul; but I’m KIND of inclined to doubt it... ”

21. What’s your favorite wasteland critter?

“Boy! It sure is great that dogs are still a thing. Am I right???”

22. What’s your least favorite wasteland critter?

“EVERY. SINGLE. LAST. BUG. >8[ “

23. How do you feel about robots?

“They’re pretty neat! I’ve actually learned a lot more about robotics since I’ve come to the commonwealth than I knew before the war.  Plus, ya just can’t replace ol' ‘Codsy’ over there.”

24. How many caps do you have on you right now?

“...Enough???”

25. Nuka Cola or Sunset Sarsaparilla?

“Nuka Cola I guess.  Man, I miss Nuka Cola Quartz though, I think I’ve just about exhausted what I found at Nuka world... ”

26. Do you do chems?

*he just laughs for a full minute* “oh man... yeah.”

27. Do you ever think about the Pre-War world?

“It’s hard not to.  I’m surrounded by reminders.”

28. What’s your deepest regret? What would you do differently?

“I wish I had been true to myself before the war, instead of living in a safe lie.”

29. What’s your biggest achievement? Or what do you hope to achieve?

“Someday, I’m going to put a stop to the institute’s shady meddling, and free as many synths as I can in the process.”

30. What do you want for the future? For yourself? Your friends? The world?

“I think I’ve already answered that. ”

[wildmomodoesart]

Here we are again. Another year down, another year on the horizon. I look forward to this picture every year, and I really love reflecting on the whole year. Don’t be afraid to look back and see your changes or be afraid of wanting to change for the better. It’s called growth, and if you look around, a lot of people could use it. Our world is getting ugly and I think we really need to try to be better. This year for sure has definitely dragged on. There have been many new adventures and many new challenges. So let’s start at the beginning. 

In February I became an Aunt. I want to become more close with my sister and definitely get to know my niece. That’s one goal for the upcoming year. Be more social and put forth more effort with my personal connections. I’ve been really slacking and hiding in my introvert shell, but I want to try and break out of that.

At the beginning of the year, I was a framer at Michael’s. I really liked that job. It was fun, and I got to meet interesting people and see their artwork or what ever else they wanted to get framed. Framing is not cheap, so to see someone really wanting to preserve treasured items was really nice. Michael’s was a fun job, one that I will treasure for a lifetime. I got to meet awesome coworkers, make friends, and even learn a lot more crafting things. Like felting. Stabbing to make little shapes, animals and what not, what’s not to like? But even that job was not gonna last. New store manager, new BS. Every job has their own little bit of drama, and it’s up to you to decide what it is that you’re going to put up with. I for one, wouldn’t put up with much stress for long. Going home and going straight to bed because of how exhausted I was? Getting sick for 2-3 weeks and not getting to go to the er one night was the last straw for me. So I left, no game plan, just left. I’d figure it out. 

That was scary. I’ve never really done that before. I wasn’t in school, I didn’t have a back up job. I just needed time. I thought of becoming a teacher, but decided I wanted to take another risk. Pursue my passion of photography and make my own business. I’m going to a very specialized school that helps with the business side of photography and I should be able to see how to make it all work soon. 

I finally went to Vegas this year. It was a fun filled friends trip that I wouldn’t trade for the world. Between the sights, the attractions and the garlic knots, I will always treasure that trip. And you know what they say, what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas. Oh! I also got to go to my first out of state convention in Phoenix! How neat!

I came out as Bi-sexual in June. I never really felt pressured to do so, nor do I think it came as a surprise to literally anyone. I will always appreciate my loving family and the fact that they don’t treat me any different. I know how lucky I am, and I thank the stars above that I don’t have to worry about it. But there you go. Life event. Plus I got to take cute photos with my Bobo. 

During my time off of working, I got to do some very deep soul searching and after starting this photography business journey I found a job in my field. Now I want to state that I love what I do. I like taking pictures and making children laugh and I love seeing people’s reactions to their photos. It makes me feel good. (The Baby Shark song will haunt me in my dreams tho). What I don’t like is how much Bertha (the company printer) wants to die and kill any good customer service that we could have. I also don’t like the crazy people who do come in and literally curse, complain and shout about itty bitty details, like a hat.. or complain about how much they don’t like the way they look. It did give me some good practice in posing and knowing just what and who I want to take pictures of when I start on my own. 

Mary- I always appreciate being able to look out of the office and see you, or just to generally hang out with you after a long day. I hope this new year brings new adventures for us.

Chris- My love, I cant properly articulate how much I appreciate you and how thankful I am for your love and support. You always listen to me and let me just unload on you. You are my recharge and I know the next year will be just as amazing, if not better, than this one. 

Ally- I’m glad we still talk after all this time. I really love our silly conversations and head cannons. They keep me sane. I wish the best for you and hope you have an amazing new year. 

Tonya- I know I haven’t been doing a lot to keep in touch aside from simple Facebook likes and comments here and there. My goal is to change that and get to know you and Miss Lilianne on a deeper level. 

Miss Carla- In the few months that I’ve known you, I know you are a really good soul. You give your whole 120% at everything and I’m so thankful that we met. Here’s to a good new year, (and hoping that Bertha doesn’t burst into flames just yet) and I wish you an amazing year here in Texas. 

Megan- I know you have always wanted to be on this, and I want you to know I didn’t just put you in here because you said. I really do appreciate how close we have become and though we don’t talk every day, I like our deep conversations and that we check in on each other from time to time. You are an amazing person and don’t let anyone else ever tell you different. Thank you for being such an amazing friend and model.  

Spike- Again, I’m so glad we’re friends again. Like your wife, I know we don’t talk every day, but I am glad for those conversations that we do have. From the meme wtf moments to the deep ones. Thank you for always being there and for making me laugh. 

Cindi- ‘I sticky my leggie out real far.’ You are so amazing and I’m so happy to have met you and gotten to know you a bit better. Don’t ever stop being the unique amazing human being that I know you are. I can’t wait for more adventures. 

Animals- You’re very taxing, but I love each and every one of you. I never knew how someone could love more than one child. But I know now how you can. From my fur babies inside to my strays that I love on outside. I wish my loves long love filled lives, especially my strays. 

My goals for this upcoming year is about 3-4 things.

1. Learn Spanish.

2. Become more social and keep good ties with friends and family.

3. Work out and actually commit

4. Start my own business.

So here’s to 2019, hit me with your best shot, I’ll get back up and swing twice as hard.

[shazrystyles]

hey I loved your wedding art so much I was gonna take a look at your commission post(even tho I know I don't have any money lmao) but I just saw they are closed now oof but anyways thought I would let you know your art is amazing and keep it up!!! Also, I just saw that you're a self taught artist and I've been trying to get into it too so can you maybe guide me a bit? like any resources that helped you and anything you think will help me learn on my own?

Hey there lovely anon! Awww… thank you thank you thank you!!! You’re an amazing Nonnie too XD Sorry I have to close it since the list of commission are getting quite long, and since I’m back in Uni, I’ll get busy with studying a bit. Right now I’m still trying to do my best on finishing all of the commissions while I still have some free time.

Wow! Ganbatte Nonnie! You’re gonna be great artist. I know you can! Mmmm..the tips that I’m about to share is a bit long. heee… I hope you’ll find this useful XD

Great Effort and Practice, Practice, Practice! I hope you’re not getting sick with the word ‘Practice’, but that’s the reality. Nobody can just ace in something without a tonnes of practice. Try to draw something daily, even if it’s just some messy doodle in class, it still count as practice.

Watch YouTube tutorials. There’s actually many tutorials that you can found on YouTube. Seriously, they are ALL AMAZING! I don’t have any YouTuber preferences, cuz I tend to watch randomly, just any vids that I think interesting. When I was still noobies with digital art, YT vids are the most helpful thing in my life! I actually learn how to use layers, tricks, drawing hacks  and etc. from YT.

Referencesssssss…. for startup, this is the most important thing. You may be able to envision on what to draw in your mind, but somehow, when you want to start drawing, it just turns out blank cuz you don’t know how to do it. Drawing doesn’t have to just be about drawing whatever you imagine and tadaaa it’s done, sometimes you need references. In the past, I just referred from comic books, and some art magazine. There’s no Internet at my house at the time lol. I try to draw like in the comic, something like same pose but different hair or outfit. Well, now it is much easier. Everything is on the Internet. OH! I found this one amazing website which have great references if you want to practice on figure drawing, just click here! You can customize the settings whether u want to practice on facial expression, or hands, or body poses, or even animals. (WARNING: There’s nudity in there, but you can switch it off on the setting) It’s totally AWESOME!!!

Take a break in awhile. There will be times that you feel like you’re not making any progress. Your drawing sucks. It’s ugly. Why you can’t make it beautiful like his/her drawing? Why people kept criticizing your arts but exactly all you wanna do is make them happy. You can’t draw anything cuz you’re having the artist block. You starting to feel down and you want to give up. Yeah, I’ve been there. and still do. But don’t worry, it will pass. If you feel like things are getting pretty stressed up, just take a break. Try to do other things. Well, I prefer to just watch some movies, or blast some songs and sing my heart out, talk to someone I’m close to, or just go to sleep. Sometimes, all you need is just rest. Or maybe a hiatus to clear your mind. But don’t make it too long, cuz it could took quite some time to gain back your drawing skills (I learn it from my hiatus a while ago..I kindof  forgot how to draw faces, but it came back after a while hehe ^^).

Make a Personal Sketch Book. Sketchbook is like a necessity to me. It’s more like for doodles and some gibberish stuff I make up in there, but still it’s where I pour out everything I hold inside of me. If you’re creative enough, you can decorate it with stickers and washi tape etc. But I prefer mine to be just as it is. This book totally helpful if you want to look back on your old drawing or doodles, and even improving your art style. Any book that you’re comfortable to draw in it is cool. So far, I have three sketchbooks in my collection. Seriously, you will be super impress when you look back on your old sketchbook ^^ It’s FUN! 

I think that’s all I can think of. I would love to hear more from you, Nonnie!💕💕💕

[deeisace]

Strange dreams

Series of them, warning for uh for unreality, stabbing, and zombies, and bugs (and cucumber ice cream?)

First, in pub singsong car home with people and home is big Elizabethan hall with a decapitated guy in the uhhh lobby and one guy is still like lalala everything is lovely and another guy is like here's a knife to stick in your leg it'll wake you up from this trap and keep zombies?? away cs this isn't heaven or anywhere like that

Felt all floaty and fine but seeing dead guy made me realise oh this is a dream and knife in leg stopped me succumbing and woke me up

Went to electronic shop with knife guy and scared girl (same pub singsong car crash there was a car crash, i’m not sure how alive we are - she did not have a knife, and kept wandering off, I had to keep an eye on her) find out where we are

Australia????

Shop assistant is like I can only see one person here and they have a knife in their leg (in my left knee, tho everything worked when i wasn’t looking at it and sometimes i had to twist it to wake myself up again) talking to the air this is bad™ and I'm like nah we're surrounded by uhhhh demons you have to do what we say and knife guy lifted them off the ground as proof he was there shop assistant O_O help. Okay what dyou want - a GPS thing we shouldn't even be in this hemisphere

And then dream changed to one where I was uhhh trying on lingerie in a combination lingerie/bed shop and accidentally made eyes at a girl while uhhh while in bed in a sexy bra unthinkingly doing a pose maybe??? Realised and said to another customer oh no what did I just do and she's like hey I think she liked you and I'm like noooo this is too embarrassing I didn't mean that

Then I was in a caravan with mum, not her boat, and someone was skulking around outside so I was like loud voice hey! The fuck you want! and it turned out that they had a carrier bag full of photos to give us, and then my basically an aunt C like came round the corner like hello!! hugs

And then I was home, woken up and there was a talking donkey trying to get in through my bathroom window and I had to beat him away with a broom and shouting but every time I tried to close the window then he'd have a hand a hoof in the way

And then (last one) I was late to work I got there on time but I had to go out again down the high street cs we were going away?? it was the annoying cover guy but he was fine for once and I went and got sliced tomatoes done up with oil and pepper, and cucumber ice cream to go with - and walking back to work there was filming on the street and the annoying cover guy and someone else sweeping soapy water out the shop/off the street with huge brooms like some kinda 1920s double act, and I was only 15 minutes late and I went upstairs to clock in and woke up

Okay wait this is the last one (fell asleep again) - earwigs! Earwigs falling from the ceiling into my drink!!

This one is sorta based in truth - what actually happens like every summer (or at least this and last, and maybe the one before I can't remember - wait then was horrible little grub things with legs) is tiny black and yellow ladybird looking things. Everywhere. Not loads of them - oh here's one on my pillow, gross

The photos shit but that's my thumb and they are black and yellow kind of checkerboard-y with wings

Tbh I just kill them whenever I find them, but they have fallen from the ceiling before

But the dream was giant earwigs (at my dad’s house, I collected them and went downstairs to show him and my stepmum and she screamed), and that might be cs I found an earwig in the nasturtiums yesterday (how? How? That window hasn't been open, how'd the fucker get in?)

Very gross all round, bleh

I would like a different waking-up dream please

[knitspecibus]

Chelsea’s Bizarre Tendency to Do Battle??

I finished Phantom Blood off screen! It was good! Jonathan was a good boy and he will be missed but now it’s time for a new JoJo to enter the scene!

Episode 10?

No, sorry, new arc, who dis

OH. SPEEDWAGON. I WAS A FOOL, MY APOLOGIES. how you holdin up dude

(okay, it’s been several days since i last jojo’d, am i supposed to recognize these hamon guys?)

man, how old is he tho, im just askin

okay they’re talking about straizo like he’s an old friend, i gotta look him up

ohh, that dude. okay.

aw yis, hittin up that good Aztec? shit the mask is from

 weren’t there like. bodies in this cave or something? yeah, i think that’ll be pretty chilling.

oh, okay not bodies. masks! lots and lots of them! that’s not safe!

listen. listen. am i supposed to know who the guy in gold is? because they...either act like its something shocking or something mysterious and i dont know which so far!

aw yeah, a tourist. easy pick pocketings

is the triangle buying the coke our new jo?

...i dont know why but like, the coke peddler being like “hey! that guy took your wallet, you should chase him!” bothers me? maybe im more used to the response of yelling to everyone around like hey! stop that youth!! idk

wow that is an. unfortunate looking cop

jesus thats a lot of blood for hitting him with a fuckin billy club

lock him up? at this rate theyre gonna just kill him!

i mean that is fair, he did only steal a wallet and its not like he’s even resisting at this point. stop ruffin’ him and start cuffin’ him

holy shit the cops hand is the size of the kid’s head

i don’t. i think you can keep his wallet? I. dude. just give it up at this point, pretend youre an upstanding enforcer of the law ruffing up this hooligan and give the dude his wallet??

oh. he’s pretty.

what is it with joestars being like, way too nice. well i guess he could see the kid was getting roughed up unrightfully and wanted to step in.

wh...wh...picking his nose....

a) i dont think you can just arrest people for nothing? b) wHY ARE YOU THREATENING HIM WITH A BOOGER, STOP.

EWWW

*sigh* thank you, new jo. that was exactly what i was hoping would happen

oooo he got that HAMON

i love how much the finger breaking animates while everything else is still

look at him chug that coke. i love him.

well, it DOES seem you’ve caused a ruckus. might wanna grab your wallet (so they can’t fuckin ID YOU.) and split

granny Erina...ha...cute...

YEAH BECAUSE HE’S A GOOD BOY

oh he got that NATURAL, i-just-kinda-did-it-without-thinking-about-it hamon talent

yer a wizard, jojo

i think they sad the pick-pocket’s name was smokey? is he gonna be the new jojo’s speedwagon

love that fuckin! gotta do a pose to say your name!!!

PART 2. BATTLE TENDENCY

meanwhile, back in the mask cave

oh im sorry, THATS NOT A CARVING???

man, how long ago was jojo 13 because speedwagon looks like, twenty years younger

awwww, what an adorable young lad. he got his grandad’s bow tie :3

i love, how the planes being hijacked and he’s still just reading his comic

this has to be an act, but just. imagine. being this casual about this. “listen, im just minding my bidness, leave me alone.”

okay maybe speedwagon dosn’t look that much younger looking at him again, idk

awww, he lob his grandma :3

jojo. joesph did you just kill a man.

JO THIS WAS A BAD PLAN.

You’re a loose cannon, joestar!!

UUUUHHHHMMMM

WAIT IS HE REALLY DIO OR SOMETHING IN DISGUISE

WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING ALSO  speedwagon noooooooo D:

okay not dio but...idk one of dio’s thralls or whatever?? im too tired for this shit

oh okay he’s just a fuckin dio fanboy. awesome, great, what a fuckin shit

“he was powerful, ***beautiful***....and imortal. and VERY. beautiful.”

:|

i love jojo’s hair

i mean. this dude in the car could SEE jo, right? see this fuckin, enormous young man and decided to tell him to lick a dog butt, which is a weird thing to say to someone?

aw, look at my girl erina, all ripened

pfffffft “hey, granny, speedwagon was grandpa’s friend, right? like. was that all or. we’re they “special” friends?”

seriously tho whats jo asking here???

also seriously....jojo is very pretty

ahh, trying to play matchmaker i see, jo you sly dog

yeah, that probably was a rude thing to ask about tho

wait. erina’s son and the baby girl she saved. who probably grew up as siblings. got married and had joesph.....

oh god

dude have you looked in a mirror lately? asking for a friend

is this guy being racist. this feels racist. he;s probably being racist

jo who taught you to pose like that. was it speedwagon or erina

HEY ERINA RACISM IS NOT A TOLERABLE OPINION

i love their dynamic. “granny, permission to ruin this man?” “well he is very rude. just be mindful of the other customers”

i love. how jo said that he would say it, he sad it anyway, and he was still shocked.

alright, we’re throwing in a dash of that good ole Sherlock Observationalism

fascinating appraisal jo. now just kick some ass

love how everyone else in this restaurant is like, god damn it. not again. we can;t go anywhere in this city for a nice meal without two gents getting into a scrap

AAAAA GROSS

THEYRE FUCKING CLAPPING. i guess everyone else wanted to see this freak get his ass beat too

how. could you know that. straizo killed everyone concious in that room. and the point was so no one...well he did say he wanted the joestars to hate him i guess?

Thank you, Informational Mob Boss NPC

jo you gotta stop doing this parlor trick

okay if you believe him why do you got him by the collar jo

ah i see, hes offended Granny, and we can;t have that!

......joesph. joestar.

oh shiiiiiiiiiit

jo please dont do something dumb

why? would he need fangs if the vampites in this just drink from their fuckin fingers

oh. well. that was unexpected its not gonna kill him but it was unexpected!

JO!!! DONT SHOOT INTO THE DAMN BAR YOURE GONNA KILL SOMEONE!!

oh i thought roundabout was just for phantom blood, sweet

Wow!!! that was a long liveblog, im very tired. i guess this is just gon be one episode for now