#OFCOURSE BODY IN THIS WAY. WATER. AND EVEN A MOUNTAIN. AND GOING TO A PLACE OR PERSON

[unloneliest]

taboo iv the homecoming fans you are so right. doing research for my water/transpo essay and you're literally so right.

[shadyteacup]

Hey can i have a request where Fyodor, dazai, and Chuuya comfort the reader after their dog dies? My 14 year old dog is being put down on Thursday and i am NOT okay

Hey, there.. I'm so sorry.. I know that this is really hard and painful, but I need you to be strong, okay? All my love to you♡

I'm done with Dazai and Chuuya, decided to post then first.. I will post the Fyodor req very soon..

Stay Strong, My Love

Dazai

Dazai had rushed home the moment he had received your text. He was worried about you, and also immensely sad. He hadn't expected this to happen. He found you lying on the couch, hugging a pillow. He noticed the tiny shakes of of your form, a result of crying.

He approached you slowly, and gently weaved his hand through you locks.

"Hey, honey.", he said, kissing your head.

You stiffened at his voice, not having noticed him come in.

"Osamu?", you whispered.

"Yes, love. It's me."

You turned to face him; your eyes were red and your face showed signs of exhaustion.

He wiped your tears with the pad of his thumb and gave you a warm, reassuring smile.

"Come, let's take care of you."

He picked you up, and took you to the bed, placing you on the edge while he created a soft wall of pillows for you to rest your back on. The position you were in on the couch when he found you must have hurt your back and neck. What you needed right now was a soft yet firm backrest. After placing the pillows, he helped you scoot over and rest your back. He rushed to the kitchen to fetch you a glass of water.

"Drink up."

He had stopped to buy your favourite ice-cream on the way home. He wanted to help you feel better.

"Look what I got!"

You smile at the tub of your favorite ice-cream in his hands.

"Thanks."

You both ate in silence. A lot was going on in your head, and Dazai knew that those thoughts and memories only made you sadder. But death was a natural process. It was unavoidable. One must embrace it, and in a way, celebrate it. For death signifies freedom. In many cultures, death is termed as the beginning, and not the end. The soul is believed to move on, and attain peace. He believes in this, too. As someone who has wanted to die for a long time until now, he has always found his body to be tiresome burden. Death would release him from his physical shackles, and he envies anyone who has attained that level of peace.

Death shouldn't be feared or considered as a sad occurrence. A person who has lost someone close to them, must come to terms with it. They must accept it and move on in life. And to do so, one must mourn. Mourning helps us to experience all of feelings and emotions, and allows our mind to feel free and clear afterwards. It's like the feeling of satisfaction one gets after screaming their fears from the top of a cliff, or writing a diary. One must mourn properly to release all their pent up sadness and feelings.

So, even though Dazai knew that your thoughts would only make you feel sad, he wouldn't try to distract you from them. You need to experience the pain, to emerge as an even stronger individual.

"I feel like crying again.. I just.. miss...so much... it pains..."

You whispered, eyes tearing up again, and voice breaking.

He hugged you, and rocked you as you cried, whispering sweet nothings in your ear.

"I know, love.. It will pain, but you must stay strong, okay?"

When you had calmed down a little, you both talked about the many memories you had made. You both laughed over the little things. You both knew whom to blame when snacks would go missing from the table, or when slippers couldn't be found. You both fought over which of you was the most loved. You won, ofcourse.

Remembering all those memories made you smile, and appreciate the time you had spent together. The 14 years you had with each other were well spent, and you wouldn't trade those years for anything in this world.

Chuuya

Chuuya couldn't believe his eyes when he read, then re-read your message. He felt immensely sad, and worried. He knew how much you loved your dog, hell, he hadn't even spent a long time with him/her, but he was still emotionally attached.

He tries to hold in his tears, and decided to rush home.

You opened the door to find your redheaded boyfriend at the door. He noticed your red eyes and the dark circles under them. You must have completely neglected yourself these past couple of hours. He knew you get when you feel sad. You don't take care of yourself at all.

"Chuuya..."

You say, hugging him tightly. He hugged you back, his strong arms caging you in. His eyes started tearing up. Your body shook with your sobs as you held onto him. You both stayed at the door like that until your sobs had reduced to soft sniffs.

Chuuya reached inside to grab the keys and your coat.

He pulled you out, helping you into your boots.

"Where are we going?", you asked.

He led you to his car, a hand on the small of your back. Opening the passenger side door for you, he helped you climb in.

Seating himself on the driver's seat, he pressed the ignition button, and the car roared to life.

You loved his collection of luxury cars, but also knew how much he loved his bike.

"You didn't use the bike today?"

"No. I needed to carry something with me today."

He smiled at you, before leaning back to grab something from the back seat.

Handing you a box, he asked you to open it.

It contained pictures of you and your dog. You were smiling in those pictures. You could spot Chuuya in quite a few o them too. All three of you looked so happy. Most of the pictures were from trips that you three had been on. You three loved adventures, and often found yourselves on mountain tops, hills, scenic valleys and grasslands.

You tried to hold in your sobs, and smiled at the fond memories.

"I'm taking you to these places."

You looked at him, wide eyed.

"I don't think I can take it.. I can't go there now.. not without..."

Chuuya held your hand in his, and kissed your knuckles.

"I don't want you to associate these memories with sadness. I want you to remember these places, these pictures, and think of happiness. Let's create more memories. Happy memories. That way, whenever you think about your dog, you'll remember these places, and your heart will be filled with warm memories of mirth and laughter."

It was difficult to do what he said, since making more memories without your dog didn't feel right. But you understood why he asked you to do this. This would help you to move on, without forgetting the amazing times you spent together. Many times our brains tend to blur the times of sadness to help us stay happy. This results in the person grfually forgetting they ever had any sad times. The only fault in this system was that one tended to forget everything related to that sadness. And you didn't want to forget your best friend of 14 years. So you had to create more memories, memories that would help you hold onto the sad times, and cherish your bond.

You both spent the rest of day laughing and smiling, remembering your lost friend, and cherishing all the amazing times you three had spent.

[2jaeh]

Misadventures | Mark Lee

Genre: Fluff, humor, happy ending

Slight nudity (underwear as bathing suits),

Shy!Mark, best friend! Jungwoo

You are partnered up on camp with two of the worst campers in the group - Mark Lee and Kim Jungwoo. Your only goal was to finish the scavenger hunt while Marks goal was to tell you how he really felt about you.

Jungwoo also has ulterior motives to help his best friend Ofcourse.

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“Do you have my cap ? I know you do give it back!”

“Why the hell would I have your cap Mark Lee ?”

“Jungwoo, don’t annoy me I swear I’ll-“

The two bickering boys were interrupted by their camp counselor opening their cabin door and shook his head in disappointment.

“Fighting again ?” The counselor asked as he kicked the clothes that had been lying all over the floor to the side.

Jungwoo smiled Angelically and shook his head as Mark scowled at him finally grabbing the desired cap from Jungwoos hands.

“Well you guys were late for the scavenger meeting and we have already sorted the teams” The counselor explained and handed them the scavenger list “you’re teaming up with y/n and I expect you to behave, you guys aren’t kids.”

“He started it” Mark groaned until he registered what the camp counselor had just said to him. “Did you just say o-our partner is y/n ?”

The camp counselor just chuckled and made his way out of the cabin.

Jungwoo peeped over Marks shoulder as he read through the scavenger list. This was what your university department decided on doing for your orientation. No small games in the lecture room or trust exercises on the soccer field, instead they dragged you all to the middle of the woods to sing around a campfire.

“How are we gonna do an hour long scavenger hunt with y/n when you can’t even say more than three words to her?” Jungwoo burst into a fit of laughter while Mark felt his throat dry up.

“I-I can talk to her” he finally spoke up and placed his baseball cap on his head, low enough for the brim to touch his spectacles.

Jungwoo threw his arm around his best friend as they exited the cabin.

“Well if you don’t make her a move on her today I will”

Before Mark could shove Jungwoo into the nearest bush he noticed you walking toward them looking quite uninterested in the task at hand.

“Hey” you simply said as you adjusted the backpack on your shoulder and shared glances with both of the boys.

“H-heyy what’s up” Mark said as he did an awkward wave he immediately regretted.

“Hey y/n would you like me to carry your bag ? It might tire you out as we walk” Jungwoo asked enthusiastically knowing very well Mark was shooting him a glare.

“Nah” you replied and handed your bag to Mark “Mark can carry it and Jungwoo you do the checklist.”

You handed him the notebook the camp counselor gave you earlier and took the scavenger list from Jungwoo.

“Closest thing on the list is a pinecone, there’s a bunch of them over at the lunch area”

Mark and Jungwoo both nodded and followed you over to the building while playfully shoving each other as usual.

You picked up the fresh pinecone and tossed it over to Mark. His reflexes acted quickly, proud of himself that he was able to keep it cool around you these days.

Mark had liked you since first year. He would try absolutely anything and everything to sit near you during lectures, try to join your group projects and even bought you a gift for your birthday - that he was too scared to give to you in the end.

“Pinecone down, next is a palm tree leaf - What? Why ?” You frowned and Mark couldn’t help but smile at your cute reaction.

“I saw palm trees at the little waterfall just up that path” Jungwoo pointed to the tiny trail that disappeared into the woods.

“A-are you sure ?” Mark quizzed and noticed that no students were in that direction.

“I’m sure ! Let’s go!” Jungwoo skipped over to the path as his blond hair bounced along to the rhythm.

The three of you walked along the path in silence except for the occasional humming that eminated from Jungwoo. Eventually you reached a clearing and a waterfall that cascaded slowly against the small mountain side and down to the pool of water.

“Jungwoo I don’t see palm trees here” you looked around while walking over to the pool.

“Yeah I lied about that”

“What??” Mark and You spoke in unison and shared a glance.

“What do you mean you lied ? Dude ?” Mark sighed and removed his cap.

“This whole scavenger thing is stupid why are we even doing this ? We’re engineering students! “ Jungwoo groaned and threw the notebook onto the slightly wet grass.

You threw your head back and closed your eyes in annoyance. All you wanted was this trip to be over and you had to get paired with a guy who never talks and one that never shuts up.

“I brought you guys here because this is where I hid during those math games and I got away with it!” Jungwoo placed his arms around both you and Mark,

“Let’s just forget this stupid scavenger hunt and have fun huh ?”

You and Mark watched as Jungwoo kicked off his shoes and ripped off his shirt eventually slipping out of his shorts and now just sporting a pair of black boxers.

Jungwoo threw up a peace sign and you watched as he proceeded to fling his body into the pool.

“He’s f*cking crazy....” Mark mumbled.

“If you can’t beat him join him right ?” You winked and Mark gulped as he watched you walk over to the edge of the pool and unbutton your jeans.

His eyes darted to the floor, to Jungwoo to wherever he could look that wouldn’t allow him to panic. But he couldn’t help but watch how you freely got undressed to your sports bra and matching underwear.

He felt his palms become sweaty and his cheeks heat up as you looked back at him.

“Are you not going to come in ?”

“Uhm y-yeah yeah” was all he could reply and watched as you jumped into the pool and resurfaced beautifully.

Mark fiddled with his glasses before finally mustering up the courage to drop the backpack and remove his shirt. He felt the cool breeze hit his skin and the faint laughter of you and Jungwoo immediately making him feel insecure again.

“Hurry up will you ?” Jungwoo groaned and splashed a bit of water on Mark.

“Hey! You’re gonna get my clothes wet man” Mark complained and took a step back.

“Mark we will close our eyes we won’t peak” he heard you giggle and watched as you covered your eyes.

Sighing he finally took off his jeans and breathed in deeply before jumping into the turquoise water.

When he finally surfaced he noticed that he was facing you and he immediately looked away and crossed his arms over his body shyly.

All you wanted to do was make him feel comfortable around you so you decided to splash him playfully to which he responded back.

The three of you went to war with water and Mark was finally brave enough to get closer to you, teaming up as you took on Jungwoo.

“ok ok time out I’m need to go the bathroom” Jungwoo yelled and threw his hands in the air.

“Well you better not do it in here” you raised an eyebrow.

“Y/n I’m not a savage okay and besides I want to grab my speaker from my cabin anyways, I’ll take the scavenger list just in case the feds catch me.”

Jungwoo shot the two of you a dashing smirk and quickly used his jersey to dry himself off and put on the rest of his clothes, making his way back down the path.

“What a psychopath” Mark shook his head.

“He’s your best friend” you chuckled, “that says a lot about you too.”

Mark shook his head shyly and pushed his wet hair out of his eyes.

“Why are you so shy of me Mark Lee ?” You smirked.

“Me ? Uh I’m uh not shy of you”

“Sure youre not” you playfully rolled your eyes and floated on your back around him.

Mark watched as you closed your eyes and smiled cutely as your body moved around him, swaying along with the small waves.

“Well because I’ve liked you for the longest time” Mark spoke quietly still watching you float “you’re always so carefree and busy that I felt I was way too out of your league you know.”

Your eyes fluttered open and you stood up to face Mark, close enough to hear him gulp at your sudden movement.

You caressed his cheek and kissed his lips softly, smiling into it as his body stood frozen at your touch. Pulling away you looked up at his bright, innocent eyes and felt his arms finally find the small of your back and bring you back into the kiss.

He moved his lips slowly against yours, allowing you to lead the kiss as you reached up to throw your arms around his neck and twirl his hair with your fingertips.

Despite his shyness you were surprised when he softly bit your lip and smirked into the kiss as your tongues danced with one another.

It finally happened. The shy boy you always noticed in class that you thought just wasn’t interested in you , actually felt the same way you did.

“I can’t believe I have a crush on Mark Lee” you chuckled.

“Hey it’s not that bad” Mark whined cutely as he moved your hair back into place.

“It is pretty bad actually” you heard a voice say from behind and looked up as Jungwoo pulled the most disgusted face as the two of you laughed.

[jbinbcn]

Mallorca caves

19-20.07.2019

As you know from Palma post, I visited Mallorca last summer (2019). It was short, only the weekend but very intensive and of course with some adventures. In this post I'd like to write about the caves we saw those days because as you could read, Palma - nothing interesting to be there more than 1 day, buuut Mallorca is known for the mountains and the beaches. Because of caravan we couldn't go to the mountain side (west part) so we decided to move a little bit to the south and to the east. 

Our first goal was - Cala del Moro

We left the caravan in the public parking (there were already so many cars!) and then we had to walk more or less 20 min, first on the street (there were signs) and later there was a wild route.

In Mallorca there are strange houses... 

The view was already amazing!

Look at the water! 

And here we are!

The cave is on the right. 

To go down coast me a lot but wow wow wow. WORTH! The worst was to cross with the people from the other direction... -.- 

And then...paradise!

To touch the water you have to survive. There is a steep descent and with sandals it’s quite difficult (recommendation: have some good shoes for walking, and then on the beach change to the water shoes - because of the rocks). 

And the beach wasn’t the true beach, it was just a hole between two hills, no sand, only sharp rocks, so not for sunbathing. And the place was full of people...omg, hate that crowd. 

How clear is the water....wooooow

I swam to the cave - a little bit, I respect my life. I swam there and there and took some photos but then... what can I do? Booooorriiiing. Especially that you can’t lay down to do siesta because there is no space and if there is, it’s not comfortable. So I decided to climb and check the rest of this place. 

It was a perfect idea! 😍

My blog my photos, sorry hehe xD

100% introvert house. 

And then I decided to walk more and I found this!

Wooow another house and those cute stairs to the sea…. 😍

I was in love!

And of course another cave. And less people! 

Raffa, look, it's not a yacht… buuuut ;)

Of course I had prepared my nails for this trip!

I went down, again I swam a little bit and then I climbed to see the other side. And I was admiring people jumping to the water from those rocks. #FearLevelHard

And then was time to come back. The plan was to go to the city, eat dinner and then find a perfect place to park to wake up with a beautiful sunrise. 

We went to Porto Cristo.

When people were taking shower, i didn't want to wait for my turn doing nothing so I went to see the city during the last hour of the sun. 

Souvenir from Mallorca? Choose the best one!

I think it could be a nice idea to have some small trip to see the island from the other side, all the coast - woow! Next time!

This is my retirement life. 

It looks red, but wasn’t painful, #morenita ;) 

There was some small festival, music, people dancing, etc. In one moment they said that they are dancing POLKA but wtf… Unfortunately I didn't have anyone (from Moszczenica) to show them how to dance true polka…

Tumblr hates my gifs sometimes so here you have the links:

https://gfycat.com/inbornshinyleafhopper

and mallorquín dance: 

https://gfycat.com/inbornshinyleafhopper

Then we went to eat. Mallorca is quite expensive but you can also survive with some “pizza”. 

Or be more fancy at least one night!

More or less the prices:

And then romantic walk with Fede and the ice cream. 

Finally I could see the stars in Spain!!!!! ❤

Then we took a car to go to one perfect sunrise spot -  Torre del Serral dels Falcons. The parking is free and quite big, there are also some tables and benches so perfect for barbecue. 

Wine, stars, moon on the coast... couldn’t be better! 

And this view from the window: 

IN LOOOOVE! Take me there again please! 

Maybe I’ve told you already but! Perfect moment of the sunrise is before the sunrise! 

So have it in mind to wake up 20 min before to enjoy those colors. 

Imagine to live here during the quarantine... please yes!

Then we had a loooong photo session ;) 

When you need 5 min to stop laughing. 

I was so tan...omg I miss it! 

And then the breakfast with those views! And let's go to discover more caves! 

We decided to go to Cala Varques. The problem was to arrive there. Recommendation, follow the street signs, Google sometimes doesn't have the information if the road is open for everyone. It's better to walk 15 min more than get a fine or be stuck in nowhere. And also there are people on the motorbikes showing the way to their parking xd paid one but wasn't that expensive. 

So yes, we had to walk like 20min on the road, but not a problem. Later was through the forest but no worries, there were many people walking with us. 

The place was a little bit less amazing but still woooow.

And again, swimming! That day the waves were so high and strong! Not for bambini hahaha but we enjoyed a lot, papallonas! But yeah, would be easier with special shoes because of the rocks. The sun was quite strong so we went to the forest to chill in the shadow and there we found many groups of travelers (tents, backpacks, wild life). I needed some siesta, so chilling omg. 

Well... my hair got crazy xD

Then we went to visit the coast, first to the right. At the end there were ruins of some house but the most incredible thing - the steps down to the sea… Woow! #respect 

And again photoshooting ;) 

Then we decided to find more caves! This time Fede wanted to go with me. She trusted me #hehe. 

And here we have THE BEST ADVENTURE. 

First we found reached the cave which we saw from the beach. There were only few people, mostly to take a photo and that's all, we also did that #ofCourse. 

But we were also observing people climbing on the other side. One of them was a girl in flip-flops (góralu czy Ci nie żal patrzeć na turystki w sandałkach?). And she did it without any problems so we were more convinced to do it as well. We asked also guys who came from there and they said that it's ok. So I just checked on the map if there is some other way, because I could climb but I didn't want to go back the same way #FearOfHeights. And there was! OK, decided, we go there! 

OMG. 

My whole life passed in front of my eyes. Wtf how this girl in flip-flops could have done it without problems. It was climbing 100%. #neverAgain

I was sure I would not come back the same way. 

And then we were on the top! So beautiful view! 

We started following some couples with a hope that they knew the way. But they was walking so fast in this dry grass and suddenly they disappeared. Great. There was some path in this stupid painful grass but sometimes was disappearing. Then we reached the end of the coast and as a map was saying, we should reach the other coast and then there should be a road. 

Ok. We went down, was quite easy, then up, more difficult but now like first time and then… No path xD Great. So we just moved along, more or less, the problem was high dry grass.

On the other side we realized that 30 min before we were standing on the cave. #fuckMyLife #stillScared

Suddenly in this grass, on small bush I saw a skull of some goat. I was thinking if I should say it to Fede (she was already so scared) but my mouth was faster xD and when I said it I saw that it's full body, I mean, full skeleton. Poor goat probably stuck in this bush and couldn't move…. We run away. And Fede started thinking about helicopters which would come to save us. She was terrified, I tried to keep calmness. She didn't want to talk to me… moments of silence. 

And then we found the road! The strange thing was that on the right side was a big closed gate… But, whatever, we had to go to the left so… Then we were walking and walking between 2 fences. On the right potatoes and goats, on the left looked like military area because of the spines. And then we found an info that it's private CAZA. I thought that it's in mallorquín - casa (house), but Fede had her theory. Later I checked on the internet - hunting place XDDD

And then... our road was blocked. Blocked by 3 m height gate. Impossible to jump. We are bambini! Come back? fuck no. So what now?  Think JB, think. Because od the fear we didn’t notice that before on the fence on the left was a hole. Let’s try. And then we walked on some path and at the end there was a wall like 1,5 m and a plastic garden chair! We are safe! We could use the chair to jump <3 

Fun fact: I said to Fede “put the chair on the other side of the wall because on this one we have a rock”. She did it, but the chair felt down xDD #goodJob Fortunately there was some man walking so we asked him to put the chair back, hahahaha imagine xD He did it <3 We jumped. and then we were on the right road to the caravan. 

INFO: later we read that this cave is private but people had made a whole and nobody cares. 

To help you imagine the adventure I’ve made a video, enjoy! (there are English subtitles ;) )

So yes. that’s all! We came back to Palma to spend the evening and night there (because of the flight at 5 am).

Soon I’ll put here the recommendations from mallorquín people about other caves and beaches! 

[autowrite]

Ardennes Trip Journal - 28.07.19 - 10.08.19

Day 1

23:15 The adventure continues. So much to say and only 14 minutes to do it in. The accommodation is pretty crappy. An old youth hostel converted into something..maybe not even converted. I arrived with 2 woman who couldn’t find their way here with a GPS. Right now I feel like I’ve let myself down a bit. I promised myself I would be authentic, I feel like Im hiding, crawling back into my shell. I promise myself that I will do what it takes to be authentic here, even if I don’t totally know what it means. I think it has to do with flow, carefree ness. There are a few girls here that I’m attracted to, one of them is the lady in charge of the volunteers. She doesn’t have a pretty face but she wears tight clothing and she has a nice body. I like tight clothing on a nice body. I feel like I underestimated the amount of work I’ll have to do here. It seems like mostly work with a bit of free time over. I would like to see more of the surroundings but I’m not sure what, I’m not even sure how curious I am to be honest. The meals are vegetarian and don’t seem to be enough, I have a feeling I won’t be able to fall asleep quickly because I’m kinda hungry. My mind has been hijacked by Mara. I keep thinking about having a little fling with Hanna. I gave her a hug earlier when we were alone in the bathroom. Damn, how did I manage that? The truth is I’m just using her. Lust is toxic, it’s toxic. But the pull toward her is strong. If I go down this road it will lead to another and then another and then another. It doesn’t stop until I put an end to it. Until I make the decision to not engage. The people that work here are rather nice. Bert and Wim and Carlos. There are very cute and friendly young little cats here. This evening I saw the mommy cat run into the garden, frantically lookin*for one of her young ones, and then she gave her a little mice she caught to  play with. It was so adorable. I would like to use my time here to also be able to relax and read and go for walks and bloom socially.

14:00 I’m on a train. It takes almost 4 hours to get there and the time is flying. I’ve read some google reviews of the place and a lot of people say the inside looks kind of shitty and that the food is too vegan. Mixed responses. But then they also say it’s isurroinded by beautiful nature in the middle of nowhere, I’m curious about that! I think it’s going to be pretty cool. I’m tried right now, I need some sleep. I hope I get along with my colleagues, I hope that I can flip the switch and be open, spontaneous and helpful. Wild, adventurous, authentic. Funny af.  I guess all I’m looking for is a nice place to wake up in, with fresh air, some structure, a place to read and relax, a place to push myself a little in terms of social interactions! I’m glad I thought of journaling, I’ll write in this thing every day. They say that phones and WiFi doesn’t park very well there, not sire of this is a good or bad thing but I’m leaning more to it being a good thing. I’m a little worried that I’ll be my usual, rather serious, seldom-able-to-genuinely-smile self, that I’ll close up and all my (perfectly acceptable and even good) ideas will remain ideas in my head, that I might not have the courage to act on ‘em? Maybe? Perhaps? We’ll see. I got a lot of books with me, I’m happy about that. They have a piano there, playing piano is a very meditative practice (even kinda spiritual). I’m also a tad concerned that everyone will be ‘nice’ in an annoying way, like super-friendly, heart-on-their-sleeves millennials there to confront me with how old and uptight I am :-) I’m actually just a big kid inside, but showing that side takes a lot of guts, requires a lot of freedom (giving myself permission to be free), requires a certain amount of trust ofcourse. But I want just that. Carefreeism. Feeling the fear and doing it anyway. Ain’t no one, NO one going to give you permission to put on that hat, that’s a decision you make on your own..Writing this I feel a bit like the main character from a Michael hollebeqs ‘Whatever’. A guy who’s very aware of everything, has a fair amount of emotional intelligence, but is a little dead inside. Desperately in need of using his imagination, spontaneity. Fuck it i don’t want that! I reckon the people there will be hippy types with loose, comfortable clothing. Some dreadlock types that I will kind of look down on but they’ll be too busy living there lives (like I should be doing) to care. Fuck, when did this become a novel? I’m writing this as though someone is going to read it, someone like Lisa and I’m trying my best to be all insightful and clevah. Fuck that, this is my journal and I’ll be as daft and incoherent as I want. Meanwhile small Wallonian towns zip past me under overcast weather from this train. This little spot here is my comfort zone but also a creative abs therapeutic space. Fuck this train announce speak is loud and just above me. I’m hungry. I’m concerned abou this strict vegan policy they have there, that I’ll be hungry all the time, and won’t be able to sleep. I’m enthusiastic about apply Radical Acceptance techniques to this experience. To take the time to recognise how I feel, to ‘paise’ and offer myself some compassion perhaps. It’s okay, whatever happens: it’s okay. Showing up as you is ok. Feeling afraid and unsafe is okay. Being jouuous and free is okay. Doing you is ok. Not doing you is ok. Not having a good time is ok. You’re ok. I DON’T want to use this journal as a place to hide. A place to observe the world on the other side of some glass. Day 2

9:50 I slept ok, not great. The beds were ok. I have 10 minutes to write this and it all feels a bit rushed. I got laundry to do coz my shit is filthy. The weather is really nice and there is a really pretty courtyard with flowers and birds and little cats. Breakfast was pretty good, lots of oatmeal and things to choose from. I’m really bummed abiut the fact that our shifts here are split up in 2, through out the day, making it hard to leave the premise. I’m sitting here in the kitchen and there’s a world out there that I’d like to discover. The water for the shower is warm as opposed to hot. I’m tired but I’m so used to it that I hardly notice it anymore. I don’t feel much like talking, and others seem to want to talk. I don’t mind that much I guess, but I also want to not feel obligated to chat. But when I’m on my own i also feel a bit restless. I’m bothered by the stains on my shorts which look a bit gross. Worried that ill be limited to only the kitchen and the immediate surroundings while I’m here. The ‘sugar’ I put in my coffee is unrefined and tastes kind of gross. I have a feeling I’m going to get annoyed by the work here. I came here to work but also enjoy the surroundings. Damn. 22:30 I’m super tired right now, o feel o should have gotten more rest. They make us work a lot over here, it’s testing my laziness. I went for a walk and it was quite nice. I’m giving this experience a 6 out of 10 so far. I feel like a kid at times. I saw a horse that was blind in one eye, I stroked his face and his hit vs,r off on my finger. He seemed very ol and quite sad. I would have done more for him if I knew what he wanted. I have this feeling that I’m missing something. This afternoon I sat in front of the piano and I could lose myself in the notes. It was meditativive and restorative. It felt like something spiritual, I enjoyed it. I, tore, did I mention I was tired. I also feel a bit floppy and like...not a whole person. I’m worried that I’ll be stuck in arrested development forever, I feel so immature at times. I know that reliving the pain would fix it all but you can’t force these kind of things. Anyway, the weather is good, the people are nice and I’m happy to call it a night. I feel like I can do a lot more though.

Day 3 

22:50 I woke up today in a really bad mood. Not enough sleep, bad sleep. We eat vegan food here all day long, maybe that’s effecting it. I have quite a lot of wind, but that’s ok. I worked today, it’s 5 or 6 hours but it feels like all day. I’m happy to be here. I socialise all day too, and it’s fine. Sometimes not fine, sometimes I’m gripped with self-consciousness every time I open my damn mouth. Sometimes it feels like every single interaction is awkward, I know what is required is to let go but I probably put too much  pressure into it. Letting go is actaully effortless really, want an idea.  Anyway, I ended things with Katya today and i think this is for the best. I’m smoking too much and I think it’s for the best. I think about Carlos quite a bit, he’s quite a special dude. And Wim is leaving tomorrow and I’m sorry about that, I’m gonna miss him a little. His brother Bert is a nice guy, such an open and friendly person, with a big heart. I find it hard to make eye contact with himi, in a way. The ladies love him. Speaking of ladies I went with a walk with Hanne and I made tons of moves to the point she felt uncomfortable. When I returned I felt guilty and empty. I’d like to relax more here. I’m looking into doing something similar to this in a place with an ocean. This whole experience has been good. The work grounds me, puts things into perspective, but I have to admit I was expecting something a little better than this. I now know that my idea of farming or working in this way was merely a romantic one. Actually I want to be around creative people. People like me who want to make things, get lost in things, I’m just not yet sure what that ‘thing’ is.

Day 4 

22:40 Sitting here in the back of my corvette. Sitting here in the mountains of Spain, not claiming to know anything anymore. And so the journey begins.. Day 4. I keep asking Hanne for hugs. I worked in the garden today, I wasnt feeling it very much at  all. But I should be greatful, my teenage years were really tough, said the talk show host. I’m greatly out of touch with my center today, I could meditate on this though, embrace it, use it, it feels good to be alone. 12 minutes every single day. I’m waiting for the American cook. Hanna is leaving tomorrow for holiday in Schotland, I feel sad abiut that. And Wim left today. It was really nice getting to know him. He told me a lot about his travelling through South America. He’s got this crazy look in his eyes, he looks a bit like he took some bad acid, he also looks like someone who might be an alcoholic. I feel like I’m not capable of getting close to anyone at times, and they can sense it. I want to though, maybe they don’t notice it. Hanne is a work horse, but obviously has her own issues. She is cute though. Jeff is also cool of course. I feel like I scare people. I got a nice compliment from Carlos who said I should do stand up comedy. Where the heck is Lorenzo at? He said that to me 2 once. I get my energy by losing myself in creativity, making jokes. I get my creativity from a lot of things. Right now I’m in bed, nothing to be said. Right now I live like there’s a tomorrow, a red car racing. Like MJ and codependency. I called Lisa, she sounded enthusiastic and happy to hear from me. Latisha is doing well and is her cute self, miss her. I saw someone take one of the little cats away today and I cried just a little. I’m sure she  will be loved in her new home.

Day 5

21:50 Day 5 in Orval. I like it here, it’s peaceful. The grass is green, the birds sing and there’s cats around. I worked in the kitchen today and then then the garden. Enough to fill the day and I’m tired and ready for bed. Hanna left for Schotland today, I fooled around with her in her bedroom, but she held me at bay and I wasn’t interested in treating her like a sex object. She’s sweet and deserves a lot better. Carols was up to his usual tricks, conspiracy theories and what not. We found out today that I weigh twice as much as him. I’m actually gaining weight here, crazy. I’m saving money while being here, and doing the right thing. One of my goals being here is to show up authentically every single day. I’m kind of doing that, but sometimes I’m not sure what that means. I think it involves using my body. My work ethic has become a bit of a joke, I’m the guy that breaks away from the kitchen to play piano, it has crossed my mind that I like it when people are talking about me, even f it’s negative, even if it’s laughing. I think i night want constant reassurance, but deep down I want something more real than that, you know? Meditate on that. I’m not meditating, but enough about me. Wim is returning tomorrow, that’s cool. Not sure if I have a half day off tomorrow or not. The good is great. I haven’t eaten a single animal product in 5 days. I feel fine, I don’t feel amazing though, like the early days of changing my diet. Worked with Jeff in the garden, the sun was shining real pretty like, I posed as a Mexican drug cartel worker, it was silly. I thought I lost my kindle, but I didn’t.  I want to make plans to go on more walks, do some excercise, get up early. I would like to make kale smoothies too. I had an amazing insigh today, often when people talk to me, I feel a lot of tightening up around the heart. Construction of the heart. It’s clear in a way. That’s when I decide to relax and look the person right in the eye, and I feel the wall, the constricting melt a little. Other times I feel the opposite way, other times I feel my heart opening up, and I feel love and I honestly feel like giving the people around me a big big. There are people here that have stayed for 5 months. You can save money by being here. Don’t got back to Hurtsville. Your time here is good.

Day 6 

23:10 Day 6 in bold. They make us work too much over here. I did some weeding today, fuck, never doing that again. I lasted an entire hour. I think I’d lose my mind if I were a farmer, I need people too much. Need em to reassure me, tell me I’m alive. It’s been a long day, we work about 32 hours/week here. That’s almost a full time job, what a crappy candle. The highlight of my day might have been my meditation. Sitting under a tree with a horsefly that I killed,  it very Buddha like. The meditation helped me become more grounded. Later I went on Facebook. What the help are we doing with our lives? My her is Conan, what a silly name. How does this guy come up with so many jokes, he’s so damn funny. ‘My riff-gun was jammed’ Patton Oswald. I need a plan or a goal while I’m here. I’m stuck on this island and I’m not alone. More walks please, more excercise. Wim returned and that’s cool.

Day 7

22:40 Carlos the little monkey with the conspiracy theories. I’m getting back into using my phone again, and a little bit of porn too. It was very tiring day today. Wim and I went for a walk, we went to the abdij where Orval beer is made but we didn’t go in. We got personal, talked about heavy, personal stuff. I can’t say that it did much for me. I still feel like a sense of self, or bottom or ground is missing, and that’s ok, that’s just the kind of guy I am. We worked a lot and I felt so lazy, so tired. We are working something like 35 hours a week. I haven’t worked this much in a long time, it’s more work than I expected obviously. The weather was good, new groups have arrived and I find myself eyeing the ladies. I make a lot of jokes and everyone laughs at them it’s almost too easy. Acceptance. Nature. Hide away, dancing. 5 rhythm dancing. Dance to Maastricht. I don’t know, I don’t know. I don’t know. Bert used to live in Costa Rica. He’s so at ease with himself it’s crazy. He says it’s all about being in the body, and dancing and yoga and some meditation. Wim must feel overshadowed a little, I still really enjoy playing the piano, I still feel the need to be an entertainer or performer of some kind. Do your best forget the rest, thanks for coming.

Day 8

00:15 Im beat, what a day. I feel tired and immature. The asshole social worker. We cleaned today, the entire kitchen. It was a time of laziness, and work and seriousness. I, getting fatter over here. The American cook showed up. And a very young couple. And the bosss and his hens. The American cook is called Mark or Marc and he comes acrosss like a healthy and capable man with an eye for the ladies. His wife or girlfriend also seems nice. I met a very nice girl today called Sophie, me and Wim had a drink with her. It’s good to be here, good to be in the real world. On Tuesday I get my day off, I guess the only thing I’m planning to do is rest. Wim and I are getting closer, lots of laughs and stuff. I feel small and inadequate right now and it’s uncomfortable, but I’ll breathe into it, accept it,  have it down the whole. I think you can do a lot with it but maybe never fully get used to it. Or something? I coughed a lot, I have a slight hangover now. I’m still impressed with this Sophie girl I just met. She seems so nice. I feel fat. Stick to your principals.

Day 9 

00:05 Camp fire singing. I should count my blessings. I feel a bit like a coward but I guess I should be proud that I sang. I lost my center, but that’s ok, everything is ok. Lots of laughs with Wim, I’m going to miss that dude. Staring at Melissa’s legs a lot. Cooking in the kitchen, with Mark and his pleasant wife. Mark is not a Buddhist, but he respects them. I felt intense shame while trying my best to play guitar. I want to frame it differently though, I want to quantify it coz I want to pass through it. Pass through the eye of the storm, it’s so nice on the other side, I’m sure of it. Sophie is so nice, I haven’t met a girl that nice in a while. Feels like I keep holding back, but beating myself up over it doesn’t make it better, doesn’t change anything. I woke up late and missed most of breakfast. I was in a lousy mood. Wim offered to do my dishes. There are so many people here, it’s non-stop interaction, at times it gets a bit much. I took a nap today and passed out almost immediately. I feel embarrassed by my weight. A new volunteer arrived in heels. Katy the 19 year old girl stood very close to me when i did something on my phone. Marks music is a bit boring in the kitchen. Wim and I shared many laughs, he’s a good guy. He cracks me up, I’m lucky to have him here. It’s good to be random, it’s good to not make sense, it’s a way to shake it all off. Inside of me is a child that wants to be let out. It wants light and air and to be seen, but he doesn’t feel safe. He’s embarrassed and ashamed and doesn’t feel good enough, but it’s the closest to something real I’ll ever feel. Jeff is a really nice, sincere, honest dude. I like him. But I gotto be real, if I don’t care I don’t care. Life I can be tough, so confusing at times. But I’m here, I’m doing this, I’m a alive, I laugh a lot, I accept.

Day 10

23:15 The skies were gray today. Wim left for the second time and he took Thomas with him. I was having a bad day until I took a nap and did some journaling. I walked down the road by myself and sat some of the crappy but charming neighbourhood housing. I’m eating less and less and I feel great right now. All this vegan food, no meat for almost 2 weeks. I feel looser today, happy to be around Wim and Jeff, happy to talk bullshit, more in a flow. Out there the air is thick with rain air, and tents are scattered across the grass bellow me. Mark is a nice guy but I notice we all get a bit more serious when he’s around us. It’s interesting to note that. I’ve been travelling with my dick in my pocket, I made a move on one of the girls here and I plan on subtly making moves on Katy, or whatever her name is, which is kind of gross of me. I should be ashamed of myself.. but enough about me, I was just following my dick. It feels good to be here though, I’m going to miss it. I’m glad I met Wim and plan to see him when I get back to Antwerp to talk more bullshit, etc etc. ALl these interactions can get a bit much. Melissa is so serious. The energy is good here.

Day 11

00:50 Nothings wrong I don’t get it. Hootchie girl, tease, this is. It going as planned. I strummed my guitar like a beast, leaflets on the floor. Better tomorrow. This is silly. This is silly, I care and I don’t care because I do t know what the heck I’m doing. I just want to stand for something in life. That’s all she said, the importance of being strong and saying something. I’m welcome back anytime. The bird is here, on the roof, performing for god knows who. Unable to break through, because no one ever gave him permission to. That’s sad but dead, gotto get the scream out of my system. I’m glad for you but not excited, we want the same things only different. Artists inside,  but vague in what we want. You’re tall, I’m tall, let’s make babies, let’s quit smoking. I lied to you actually. I’m not hurt, not going in some direction. Taking the piles a day at a time. William Prine, bathroom break. Big butt girl called Anoek, soft eyes, another girl under my belt, I feel gross about it , leaning into the fear is like leaning into the sun. we sat around a fire today, we played songs. Sophie leaned against me until our backs became uncomfortable. The smoke in my hair, the smoke in all of ours. I tried to be brave, I was brave, I sang the best I could. Now is not the time, my defence mechanism is cunning and baffling, I relate to it. I would rather have nothing that be a shaky leaf trying to ‘score’, I feel embarrassed and ashamed and I seek re-assurance. It’s ok toadman, see you at the breakfast table. DAY 13

4:00 I don’t understand what happened. Caily contacted me and told me she was raped by Mark. The American cook I liked. I don’t understand. I don’t feel much, just inklings of some confusion. I’m unable to let this idea sink in property. Raped?? Mark the guy I spent 5 days with raped a 19 year old girl?? Threatened her with a knife?? I don’t understand, this doesn’t compute with me. Caily is a wonderful person, sweet, real, authentic. She contacted me, we chatted for hours. I hope she’s ok, even though I don’t know what to feel. I tired to just keep her company, be there for her. I’m trying to think what I would do if I saw him. He might have ruined a 19 year old girls life.. she’s numb right now and traumatised. This is the world we live in. People who are innocent and real get preyed on by predators it seems. They have their innocence taken away. Caily is one of the most innocent and authentic girls I’ve ever met. So incredibly naive in a way. This man preyed on that if this really happened. I hope she’s ok. I hope she’s able to live fully again. I hope she’s able to process all this, to trust again.

Day 14 conclusions and shit

T’was a perfectly imperfect trip. The conclusion rests in the balance of: I had a really enjoyable time, I’m glad that I went there. As I sit in black shorts and shoes with holes in them on a bench in Antwerp, Orval seems pretty far away already. But it’s cool. I’m not yet sure what to  make about the ending though. A girl might have been raped. I think she was raped because she’s at the police right now. On the last day we did a big clean of the kitchen, the 2nd one during my stay. Sofie was with is helping in the kitchen, chopping onions and doing a splendid job. I was tired from the night before, the third night of building a camp fire and playing sharades and some songs. We gathered the fire wood ourselves, firewood that spat and crackled and carried a few ticks. Caily was with us. We had so much fun. And Jef. Oh how I remeber that night, it was like it was yesterday, or the day before yesterday, which it was. A little sprinkler water to cool us off, we dragged Melissa through the snow, coughing and spitting and giggling like a happy school child. We did good and we did her good

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GB Mountain Running Champs

I have struggled with my running since the ON Snowdonia Trail Marathon. It was probably the best opportunity for me to qualify to run for GB, but I blew it. I wrote an honest blog about it (read here), hoping it would give me closure, and it kind of did. But also kind of didn’t. I had gone into a deep dark place up on Mount Doom (Snowdon) that day. I had to wring my brain that day. I promised myself all kinds of things to just finish that race. I called myself all kinds of names. I had to bend my will and my body to just keep going, rather than just give up, collapse and transform into a blob of steaming hot dung. I got off the mountain, uninjured, unhurt, my family still loved me, the sun was shining. But as my muscle soreness healed, my mind soreness didn’t. I found it hard to commit to training, hard to withstand any sort of pain. I dropped out of Ladywell 10,000m cos it was hurting a bit. My training was sporadic and quite unfocused. I had tried to pick myself up, get motivated, YES! I am back! Then I would sleep-in the next morning. I get the email confirming I have been selected to run for Wales in the GB Mountain Running Championships, I am scared to do it. I had poured my heart into the Trail Marathon, and wound up 10th. Here is a race I hadn’t been training for at all, against the best mountain runners in the country, I could really embarrass myself. The race is in Snowdonia, I have done the course before, it is a stunning route. I moved here to do races like this. To be running for Wales, injury and illness free, it should be the most amazing opportunity ever. I can’t turn this down due to fear. I resolve not to think about it. Not to focus on it, just to roll with it.

Race day is beautiful sunshine, not a cloud in the sky. I’m not that nervous, training has been going a bit more consistently, and although I haven’t done anything on the mountains, I am looking forward to it. It is a hot day, and windy. Watching the juniors finish is like something out of Apocalypse Now. One lad falls on his bum and can’t make it 10 meters to the finish. Runners are lying in the field crying, and some have collapsed with heat exhaustion on the mountain. The seniors line up. We are told that the top 2 are picked automatically for the World Champs in Argentina, with 2 more discretionary places. We set off. I am feeling pretty bad almost immediately. I hang on with the 2nd group, but it’s hurting and we haven’t even left the tarmac yet. By the time we get up onto the fells, I am all wrong. I have to really practise my ascending, it does not come naturally. I have not been practising. It is NOT coming naturally.

  The climb up to the first peak, Eilio, is a long hard slog. I am hurting. Every time someone overtakes me, it feels like I gain a stone in weight. I had been secretly hoping to come in the top 10 here, and be first Welsh Man home. I am now slipping down into the 20s, and am the 4th Welsh man, the field pulling away with every step. I have totally lost my head. I want to quit. I am trying to think of an excuse. I can’t. I am in a Welsh vest. I already quit my last race. I have given myself total permission to just go out and enjoy this one. There are no excuses here. Then Emma Collinge comes past. A very fast woman who I saw finish 2nd in the World Championships a few years ago. It shocks me. I am angry with myself. I want to quit again. How can I compete with the fastest men if I can’t beat the fastest women?

It’s a bad day. So what am I going to do? Drop out because it’s hurting? Because I’m getting beaten by a woman? Let's draw the line now. No more talk of dropping out. Finish the fucking race. I manage to tag onto Emma, and, gradually, sort my head out. The pain subsides and I get my breathing back. It is windy and Emma tries to wave me infront to take some of the load. I refuse. I am giving Emma my total respect here, and therefore we are in a race against each other and I’m not interested in helping her one bit. I wouldn’t shield a guy from the wind either. I stay behind, I can feel myself coming out of the hole. I know that once I get to the top of Eilio, everything should swing in my favour. I just have to believe it. That’s exactly what happens. I launch off just before the top, and am instantly gaining on the field. The visibility is perfect and I can see everyone stretched out infront of me. From thinking ‘when will this ever end?’, to now ‘I hope I have enough time’. The ridge is a wonderful rollercoaster of ups and downs. I’m flying past people on the downs, and grinding past them on the ups. Two guys in front of me stop for a second to get some water off a spectator, I forgo the water so I can pass them both cleanly. Dyfed at Track Tuesday, has advised me to jump one particular stile instead of the next, I do it, it gets me past Max Nichols (excellent mountain runner), Dyfed is right there cheering! My confidence is soaring. I have pulled myself near to top 10, and am now the 2nd Welsh man. I have so much support on the mountain it is brilliant. Everyone roaring that I am looking better than the guys in front. A few guys even shout that I could make it onto the plane. I just focus on the next guy, and the next guy. We leave the ridge and now there is just one long gentle downhill all the way home. It is perfect running for me and I am trying trying trying. I zoom past runners like they are not moving. I’m getting hot, my thighs are burning, my feet are on fire, I don’t care, I wish there was more road. I can see flashes of Math Robert’s red vest impossibly far ahead. I am closing him down, meter by meter, he is looking behind, I am about 10 seconds away. I can’t get there. I finish 8th. I am enormously happy with that. Maybe my best ever performance on the mountains. I beat lots of excellent mountain and road runners. Ofcourse now I wish I had specialised a bit more, done a few more hill sessions. But, more than the result, I’m thrilled with my awesome self for clawing out of a hole. I turned the momentum around and got a very unlikely result, top 10 in the country.

Great run from Math and a royal battle. We are having the rematch next weekend at Newborough parkrun if anyone fancies a go! Thanks loads to everyone who came out to support, Welsh Athletics and the team, and to Arwel for picking me! Great photos as always from the guys at SportPictures.Cymru 16/09/2019 AM PM Monday 10 REST Drive to Wales Tuesday REST 2 miles in 10.50. 5 laps, 4 laps, 3 laps, 2 laps, 1 lap, 200m, 100m (lap jog rest). 6.05, 4.47, 3.33, 2.19, 65. 10 miles total perfect weather for track and great group Wednesday 5tm 10 Thursday 5tm 10min @20kmph tm. 8 miles road. 10 miles total 10min effort feels good, doable! Friday REST 5tm Saturday 5 @7min miling GB Mountain Running Champs. 10 miles total 8th place. Very happy Sunday 18 miles @6.10min miling. 23 miles total REST morning run with Tom and Cal Rawlinson, great little long run TOTAL: 93 miles tm = treadmill Non-Running Related Highlight of the Month Straight after Mountain Race on Saturday, knock back a chocolate milk and walk up Moelwyn Mawr with my dad. Epic day.

Thing I’m Digging This Week: Just love Lana Del Rey. This music video, the effortlessly cool style, the lyrics; “Fuck it, I Love You” – genius. Best Thing On The Internet This Week: Latest episode as Kipchoge trains to break 2hr marathon. A gold mine of useful stuff here. Love the way he finishes mammoth track session, few high fives, and chill on infield, no yelling, no prostrating on the track, no theatre. Job done, go home. Read the full article

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AURORA is pleased to introduce Alexious Maximilian DeAndre known as Alex, a Very Rare Wind Dragon not affiliated to AURORA. He is 114 years old, but looks around his mid twenties. Currently working as an Author, he likes Discipline, Charisma, Strong personalities, Writing, Protecting those who can’t protect themselves and The sense of freedom but is not very fond of Stubbornness, manipulative beings or ideas, being judged, bullies, mistrust. Wanna know more about him, make sure to pay a visit !!

–GENERAL

name: His Highness the Prince, Alexious Maximilian DeAndre alias: Alex DeAndre used commonly during ‘human’ interactions. Alex is also used among people in his close circle. age: 114 + appears to be in his early to mid-twenties affiliated: yes or no if yes, headquarter: - years they have been part of AURORA: – are they a mentor within the headquarter they belong to: – race: Wind Dragon

race description: Wind Dragons specifically reside within high rising and ragged mountains. The extent to where their homes reach know no real limit, liking it better the closer they are to the sky. Wind Dragon much generally all look the same, apparently formed by an amalgamation of clouds, mist or what seems to be smoke. They have glowing blue eyes, more piercing than the sun rays and instead of a horn, have long, flexible ears, spikes go along their long necks and end upon their reptilian shaped body.

Their usual age span is 500-800 years, depending on their living circumstances and environment. Wind is their friend as well as their ultimate weapon, the skies their home . The more powerful and skilled the dragon, the more ways it can manipulate wind, even being able to create full blown storms for the wind to wreck everything in its path. An angry Wind Dragon is as lethal as any natural disaster.

Wind Dragons as unpredictable, much like the sporadic nature of wind itself, each Dragon has its own specific characteristics. Generally laid back and genuine they have a great love for adventure, to explore and greatly adore everything that shines.

occupation: Author of thriller crime series with a strong presence of the supernatural world that some humans consider purely ‘fictional’. Blending in with the humans comes easily, given that he’s been trained since an early age by his royal dragon parents how to maintain his human state by the help of ‘tattoo’ like Runes drawn into his skin, they were enchanted by several Witches and Warlocks and every so often he needs the enchanted Runes refreshed. Some of the Runes on his body act as protective and detective Runes while the rest help him change into Hybrid form swiftly and for a decent amount of time without necessarily wearing him out.

unique features: In his human form, exquisite ‘tattoos’ ( which are actually runes) of different shapes are scattered over his entire body, some on his arms, one on the side of his neck expanding down to his collar bone and the rest mark his torso. In his Hybrid-form his hands enlarge and grow into dragon – like hands. Claw, ragged scales creating a natural armor all in white while his eyes glue a bright Azure and his hair turns from dark brown to ashen white. His true form reveals a gigantic beast, as if formed by tremendous clouds and white smoke. His wings are wide and thin in texture, so thin that the sunlight passes through them since his full form is made in a way that he can easily 'hide’ among the clouds and have the sunrays pass right through him, rendering him 'camouflaged’ in a sense till it’s he’s upon his oppressors or enemies and it’s too late to flee. This gives him a stealth and tactical advantage which ofcourse gets taken away somewhat when the sky is dark and clear of clouds or mist.

class: Very Rare

–POWERS & WEAKNESSES:

main power: Elemental Dragon Physiology

magical abilities: He can transform into an Elemental Dragon. The full form differs from the “Hybrid form”, his normal or 'hybrid’ form where he is made of both the element and normal flesh, and “Full form”, a form where they are completely formed by the element in which case he seems to be formed by clouds and white smoke. As explained earlier the Hybrid form enables him to turn his hands into large dragon claws, scaled and white. This ability of either going Hybrid or Full form allows him to use the ever present wind as his main weapon, which then becomes the application of his main power: Elemental Dragon Physiology. While in Hybrid form he is only half as strong compared to his full form, his Hybrid form enables him to create violent gusts of the wind, sharp and swift like swords being flung forth While in his full form he is able to create an entire hurricane. And ofcoure the extended claws themselves are fatal to anyone wth whom they come in contact with.

non-magical abilities: In his human form, he is trained in hand-to-hand combat and long-range shooting, his weapons of choice: Bow&arrows. Skilled in several different forms of combat due to a number of mentors he had from different parts of the world to learn how to always hit his mark with precision and speed.

weaknesses: As Elements go, one element may defy the other. Water & fire, for example, cancel each other out. For the Wind element, abilities based on light, dust and paper manipulation are what render him 'weak’ so he is easily detectable and loses his 'stealth’ advantage. His hybrid form is only half as powerful as his full form. Moreover due to the impracticality or showing his hybrid form–and successfully exposing himself as a 'freak’ to any surrounding humans– he needs to be careful where and when he transforms.  Since in his Hybrid form he’s only half as strong as his full-on form and going full on dragon may not always be convenient, which leaves him to working with his hybrid form so naturally, limited amount of time to stay hybrid and keep using his wind manips because his stamina is running out– for 20 minutes or an hour to be more precise, it’s all going to depend on whether he went hybrid for the first time in the day, which means his stamina wasnt used up before hand and if he’s gone hybrid multiple time during the day that obviously drains him out faster.  Not only does he need to hold his hybrid form, he needs to make attacks/defenses count. With that is related is the quality of his wind manipulation, less time, lower stamina leads to weaker blows or shaky defenses.

–PERSONALITY:

likes: Discipline, Charisma, Strong personalities, Writing, Protecting those who can’t protect themselves and The sense of freedom. dislikes: Stubbornness, manipulative beings or ideas, being judged, bullies, mistrust positive traits: Kind-hearted, protective, courageous, pro-change, open-minded neutral traits: Brooding, unclear loyalties, secretive, negative traits: rebellious, moody, strong fear of being misunderstood, mental state: Ambiguphobia, a fear of being misunderstood

personality description: wind is light and pleasing to the senses when cool but feels heavy and exhausting and thick when it is hot and humid, likewise, he has his different moods, ever changing and easily affected by the atmosphere he would be present in.

He grows to trust people over time. His friendship and frankness are earned over time as well. Even though he considers himself a social being with an open heart and mind he at times finds it hard to warm up to certain individuals. In his case, the first impression isn’t necessarily the last impression. He would know, to meet Alexious for the first time is different, by the third time the entire experience changes.

He has a reserved and formal way of speaking, when it comes to courtship and actually having ‘fun’, the Prince might feel out of his comfort zone but still pushes on. Not entirely incapable of getting playful, he does know how to have fun. Several average human things still fascinate him from time to time so he is learning, adapting and grows into a new individual every day. Due to the history of his family, the legacy of Dragons hunting dragons for the sake of jewels and favors, Alexious is afraid of being misunderstood to be ‘one of them’. He believes every living creature has the right to live. Every innocent life needs protection and every villainous presence needs to be checked upon and taken actions against. He for one, is not a cold-hearted bounty hunter. He is not like his Father and most certainly not the pride of his Father’s eyes.

–BIOGRAPHY:

place/realm of birth: New York City date/year of birth: 1903 if half-breed, parents: Both parents are Wind Dragons if water being, nature: –

biography description: It was as if he was born to become that man who seemed to be on a mission to go against every law established by his Kingdom, by the King his very own Father. Alexious still wonders if he was born to the wrong kind of Wind Element Dragon family. His father and the entire Kingdom seemed to have lost their way at some point. While news of the war was brewing in different realms, His misguided and vicious Father had taken up ‘dragon hunting’.

As the saying goes, to hunt wolves you need wolves. Wind and certain other Elemental Dragons joined forces in these endeavors, ofcourse this gained the entire Kingdom a bad image. Other beings had every right to intently watch the Kingdom while certain hunters, human and non-human began to associate themselves with this Kingdom of dragons that even hunted their own kind—for what? The thrill of it, the’ favors’ it would bring upon them. Worst of all no one seemed to thnk this was entirely wrong.

Except for the young Prince, Alexious, a young man his Father had wished to groom into their mightiest Dragon Hunter. However, Alexious had no desire to do so, it was as if he wasn’t even his father’s son. His morality s different from the King’s that it earned him the displeasure of his Father. At his own home—the Palace atop rugged and treacherous mountain ranges of the Wind realm—he was suddenly a stranger, an outsider with new ideas and opinions that either fellow Dragons gawked at or glared at him for. After all one day this very Prince would be king? Was he even fit for the throne and to carry on the legacy of his Father? Perhaps if someone had asked him whether he wished to be King of such a Kingdom he might have answered ‘No’. T

hen again if a change was to be brought about, he knew one day he would need to take charge and set things right. Things that several Wind Dragons knew as tradition, as their established way of life. Alexious, still a young Dragon had no idea how to bring about a change that would quite literally shift several lives upside down. The Dragons needed to live in unity, no matter their elemental differences, they were one. Branches of the same tree, disunity meant the doom of their kind. The dragon hunting practices were leading to an unreasonable number of fatalities, the Kingdom had acquired more enemies than friends. The Palace began feeling like it stood of shaky basis, ready to crumble into dust.

Then there was the matter of the war, humans had grown notorious and the creatures of all kinds were defending their kin. War was in the air his father refused to send out any troops. They were to fend for themselves first, the knights and hunters and scouts were all to carry on as commanded. Delegates came to visit in peace, from independent peace organizations converse with the King, the Prince and the court of advisors and senators along with the High Knights. The King did not heed. The Prince felt a burning passion to change things. If the King was not going to help protect a world that was crumbling fast, a war that was spreading like wildfire then he Alexious would take matters into his own hands. So he does something drastic. Something similar to what a traitor’s action would seem like. Taking a handful of Knights, scouts, warriors and hunters loyal purely to him he spreads his wings and leads numbers of Dragons into the battle field, pushing away at the human battalions and continue to defend the win realm, much to the surprise to some who had thought the King didn’t mind fellow dragons being killed as long as his precious palace was kept out of it. Even though he knew humans from outside the Wind realm would not give him any favors, those, of course, he would kill. The King was blinded by pride and ambition but Alexious’s actions made the King and those loyal to him furious.

Alexious gets the news on his way back from the battlefield, he had a few brave Dragons back there and was in mourning when he hears of the attack on the Palace, his home. Rushing back in time to barely save his father he sends a clear message to the human kind: He won’t stand still nor continue alliances with those who wish to harm his family, home or anyone of the other creatures that existed. A rather ‘new’ statement from a kingdom so focused on earning golds, jewels and favors by killing their own kin. The King was ill but he would live. The atmosphere in the Palace clearly marked how it was not fit for Alexious to continue living there but he would still very much be calling the shots, still, the Prince had experienced the brutalities or war and it had changed him in ways. Humans could not be trusted. Humans still wanted them gone. Alexious travels back to the country and then the city of his birth—New York City where a whole other love story had begun.

His father and mother had met there, fallen in love and out of that love came Alexious. His father knew his little Dragon would become the pride of his eyes, young Alexious was Kept in NY for several years, the small family made trips around the world. Even though he was a child, his perceptive mind absorbs the details of different cultures of the different countries he visits. Cities like Seoul, Tokyo and London make great impressions on his growing, inquisitive mind. His last trip is int the Wind realm where he continues to live and train as the only son of the King. He doesn’t truly understand what for, but he along with the common knights receive intense and extensive training. He learns different languages, learns different arts, he paints at sunset and clashes swords at sunrise. Archery became a passion and magic, a fascination. His Father called upon different mentors from different parts of the world to educate and enlighten his son, Knowledge was the true power—after Alexious’s mighty combat skills. Allied Witches were called upon to enchant and burn ‘Runes’ into the milky white skin, each Rune granting him abilities.

Alexious grows, too wrapped up in his studies and training that it’s not till he’s a young adult when he truly learns of what an actual Monster his father was. Alexious now resides in New York, somewhere in a lavish loft by the suburbs he is watched over by his hand selected guards—royalty it seemed needed to be watched and protected no matter where he went—Writing, one of his passions become a ‘career’. He was fascinated by many mundane things humans did and so he writes, from being a ‘new author’ to becoming somewhat well known he wrote thriller crime series, a strong presence of the super natural creatures present there. He was cherished by the writing community and his fans for his vast imagination yet…little do they know, his writings were not all entirely fiction. Presently he has begun working out ways to reach Aurora, an organization he truly respects and appreciates. With a number of enemies his father gained for the entire Kingdom, it would do Alexious well to gain a larger number of allies.

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10 Best Resorts To Stay In Pittman Center Tennessee – Top Hotel Reviews

Pittman Center Tennessee is beautiful and has lots of resorts. Ofcourse we are only looking for the best resorts in Pittman Center Tennessee. It’s important to compare them because there are so many places to stay in Pittman Center Tennessee. You’re probably wondering where to stay in Pittman Center Tennessee. To see which resort sounds better than the other, we created a top 10 list. The list will make it a lot easier for you to make a great decision. We know you only want the best resort and preferably something with a reasonable price.

Our list contains 10 resorts of which we think are the best resorts in Pittman Center Tennessee right now. Still, some of you are more interested in the most popular resorts in Pittman Center Tennessee with the best reviews, and that’s completely normal! You can check out the link below.

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10 Best Resorts In Pittman Center Tennessee:

Gatlinburg Town Square by Exploria Resorts

Description:

One of our top picks in Gatlinburg.Featuring free WiFi, a seasonal outdoor pool and a barbecue, Gatlinburg Town Square by Exploria Resorts offers accommodations in Gatlinburg, just 6 miles from Pigeon Forge.Every room at this resort is air conditioned and is fitted with a TV. Certain rooms include a sitting area where you can relax. Each room is equipped with a private bathroom.There is a 24-hour front desk at the property.Cherokee is 20 miles from Gatlinburg Town Sq Resort, and Knoxville is 29 miles from the property. The nearest airport is McGhee Tyson Airport, 27 miles from the property.

Reviews:

Room was very clean. We had the two bedroom suite with two baths, was very spacious, would stay again

The room was beautiful, however, a little extra detailing was needed to our room. Overall, we were not in the room much so it was great for the purpose of having somewhere to sleep. I would recommend this room to someone on a budget as it was a decent place to stay.

It was a clean place to stay at within walking distance of a lot of stuff.

I think that I would have liked the indoor poor if it were open.. they tried to make up for it say that “well we opened the outdoor one and put the heater in it way high so it’s like a bath” but you can’t swim in the rain outside and it’s so cold when you’d get out it’d just not be the same as an indoor pool. They should have put on their info it was “down for renovations” :/

The amenities were great, perfect location, the kids areas and variety of available pools is great.

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Bluegreen Vacations MountainLoft

Description:

Situated at the foot of the Smoky Mountains, this Gatlinburg property features indoor and outdoor pools, 4 outdoor hot bathtubs, and fully furnished apartments. Dollywood Theme Park is 20 minutes away.MountainLoft Resort offers apartments and townhouses, each equipped with a private balcony, washing machine/dryer, full kitchen and a living room with a fireplace. Cable TV is included and most have a spa bathtub in the main bedroom.Guests at MountainLoft can relax in the sauna or use the gym. A Kid’s Club is available along with a game room offering arcade games and pool tables. The concierge desk can arrange reservations and tickets.The Gatlinburg Convention Center is a 5-minute drive from this resort and the Gatlinburg Sky Lift Space Needle is just 10 minutes away. Great Smoky Mountains National Park is also 10 minutes away by car.

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RiverStone Resort & Spa

Description:

One of our top picks in Pigeon Forge.In Pigeon Forge, Tennessee, this resort features a full-service spa and an indoor/outdoor pool complex with a lazy river. It is steps from the Gatlinburg Golf and Country Club.RiverStone Resort & Spa features fully furnished condos each with a master bathroom with spa tub. Full kitchen facilities are included with a dining area and the living room has a flat-screen cable TV.The luxury spa at RiverStone offers massage therapy and body treatments. Manicures and facials as well as other beauty treatments are also available.A game room and a children’s playground are on site. RiverStone Resort also includes laundry facilities for added convenience.Dollywood is 2 miles from the resort. Ripley’s Aquarium is 9.2 miles from RiverStone Spa and Resort.

Reviews:

Loveeeeeed the condo !! It was way more then I expected !!! Will be returning this summer !

Beautiful condo! So quiet and relaxing. Beds were great. Enjoyed the pool and hot tub.

There was plenty for our children to do when we were not out and about. Very quiet. Very clean. Staff was polite and helpful. Loved our stay!

Condo was absolutely beautiful and large Coffee and cookies in lobby were delicious Very quiet and peaceful location

Very please can’t wait to go back kids were super impressed as well

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Dollywood’s DreamMore Resort

Description:

One of our top picks in Pigeon Forge.Featuring free WiFi, a hot tub and a seasonal outdoor pool, Dollywood’s DreamMore Resort offers accommodations in Pigeon Forge. The resort has a terrace and fitness center, and guests can enjoy a meal at the restaurant. Free private parking is available on site.Each room at this resort is air conditioned and is equipped with a flat-screen TV with cable channels. Some accommodations include a sitting area for your convenience. You will find a coffee machine in the room. Every room is fitted with a private bathroom. For your comfort, you will find free toiletries and a hairdryer.There is a 24-hour front desk and gift shop at the property.The nearest airport is McGhee Tyson Airport, 25 miles from the property.

Reviews:

The resort was fantastic and we enjoyed our stay big time!

The restaurant was great and so was food. The room and entire property was very clean.

We loved how friendly the people that works there was ! They have all kinds of different activities for everyone ! It was wonderful

The bed was amazingly soft. Towels provided at the pool area for drying off, was great. Little touches like Apple cider made us feel so welcome! Thanks for an amazing experience. We will be back.

Beautiful. My wife and I didn’t get to look around like we wanted to because it rained everyday. Short trip also. We plan on staying there again but longer stay.

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The Resort at Governor’s Crossing

Description:

An indoor water park and a seasonal outdoor water park are featured at this resort. It is conveniently located near Pigeon Forge and Highway 441, just 1 miles from Nascar Speed Park. Spacious accommodation includes a full kitchen.A 32-inch flat-screen TV and free Wi-Fi are provided in every accommodation at The Resort @ Governor’s Crossing. Relax in the living room while watching a DVD. Most units offer a washer and dryer.High-speed water slides, a 250-foot lazy river and 5 pools are just a sample of the facilities offered at the Governor’s Crossing water parks. A fitness center is also available.Dollywood and Splash Country are 3.3 miles from this resort. Tanger Outlet Center and Titanic Museum are less than a 5-minute drive away.

Reviews:

The rooms are large and the beds and pillows are super nice. This makes 4 or 5 times and am never dissatisfied! We will be back again soon!

Rooms were nice and big and new furniture. The water park was amazing, the kids loved it. It was close to everything in Pigeon Forge and the parking was plentiful. I would highly recommend this place to families.

The location was excellent. The indoor water park was superb. The kids were highly entertained. Staff was extremely nice and willing to help with anything you needed. Will definitely be back.

It was nice plenty of for kids to do. Centrally located for the most part.

I loved how the room offered you everything,just like home

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Laurel Point Resort

Description:

Showcasing a playground and sun terrace, Laurel Point Resort is located in Gatlinburg in the region of Tennessee.Every room at this resort is air conditioned and has a TV and DVD player. Some units feature a sitting area where you can relax. All rooms have a private bathroom. For your comfort, you will find free toiletries and a hairdryer.You will find ticket service at the property.Pigeon Forge is 6 miles from Laurel Point Resort, and Cherokee is 20 miles from the property. The nearest airport is McGhee Tyson Airport, 27 miles from the property.

Reviews:

Location was great! Very convenient to downtown Gatlinburg. Yet far enough up Ski Mountain to be scenic. The elevator makes it so much easier to move your luggage back and forth from vehicle to condo. Extremely quiet and peaceful. Granted, construction is going on because of the 2016 fire, however, they do not work on weekends or late evening. The staff is very friendly and helpful.

The size of the condo was great! We loved the view, it was beautiful!!! The beds were comfortable. having the full kitchen was the main item that we requested and it was fully equipped. I’m so glad that we had a broom and dust pan in the condo! Thank you

The rooms was very clean and very nice. Loved the patio too.

Staff very friendly and helpful. Condo was very clean and all items in condo were stocked well. Very quiet and peaceful.

The room was able to fit the needs of our big family. Nice mountain views.

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Deer Ridge Mountain Resort

Description:

Offering views of the Smoky Mountains, this mountaintop resort is located just 12 miles from Gatlinburg city centre. It features indoor and outdoor pools, a hot tub, and suites with kitchens.A fireplace and a private balcony are included in each suite at Deer Ridge Mountain Resort. They are equipped with cable TV and a DVD player. The kitchen is complete with an oven, full-size refrigerator, and a microwave.Guests can enjoy pizza, burgers, sandwiches, beer and wine at the property’s on-site restaurant.A tennis court, sun terrace, and sauna with adjacent steam room are a part of this Gatlinburg Deer Ridge Mountain Resort. A children’s playground and barbecue facilities are available. Towels can be exchanged at the front desk.Dollywood Amusement Park is 21 miles from Deer Ridge Resort. Ripley’s Aquarium of the Smokies is a 20 minutes’ drive away.

Reviews:

It was absolutely amazing….the views are breath taking and the staff is awesome!

Beautiful view, wonderful staff, and very cozy place to stay.

Need clearer direction directions to enter and to exit without using GPS

Wonderful location, excellent conditions beautiful nature

Everything. A fabulous place with views you have to see to believe.

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Bent Creek Golf Village By Diamond Resorts

Description:

Featuring free WiFi and a seasonal outdoor pool, Bent Creek Golf Village By Diamond Resorts offers accommodations in Pittman Center, just 10 miles from Gatlinburg. Free private parking is available on site.Certain units include a sitting area to relax in after a busy day. A balcony or patio are featured in certain rooms. Every room comes with a private bathroom.Pigeon Forge is 12 miles from Bent Creek Golf Village , and Cherokee is 20 miles away. McGhee Tyson Airport is 37 miles from the property.

Reviews:

The room was very spacious and activities on property were in excellent condition. Staff were very nice

We couldn’t check in until 3 or 4 in the afternoon and we had to check out by 10 the next morning….not convenient.

Beautiful stay at this resort, with a lovely condo layout. They even left a hand written welcome card for us on arrival. The condo had everything you could need or want.

It was quiet and secluded while not being too far from Gatlinburg or the Great Smoky Mountains. There was an awful wind storm and the staff did a great job cleaning up and making repairs.

Clean, secluded apt style room 15 min drive away from DT Glatinburg (good thing). Wonderful amenitie; we spent $20 on breakfast for the week

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The Love Cove

Description:

One of our best sellers in Gatlinburg! Featuring free WiFi and a hot tub, The Love Cove offers accommodations in Gatlinburg. Free private parking is available on site.The rooms come with a flat-screen TV. Certain rooms have views of the mountains or garden. For your comfort, you will find bathrobes and a hairdryer.Pigeon Forge is 5 miles from The Love Cove, and Cherokee is 21 miles from the property. The nearest airport is McGhee Tyson Airport, 29 miles from The Love Cove.

Reviews:

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Margaritaville Resort Gatlinburg

Description:

Showcasing an outdoor pool and hot tub, Margaritaville Resort Gatlinburg is located in Gatlinburg in the region of Tennessee, just 6 miles from Pigeon Forge. The resort has a fitness center and indoor pool, and guests can enjoy a drink at the bar. Free private parking is available on site.Each room at this resort is air conditioned and has a TV. Some units include a sitting area where you can relax. Each room includes a private bathroom equipped with a bathtub or shower. For your comfort, you will find free toiletries and a hairdryer.You will find a 24-hour front desk at the property.Cherokee is 20 miles from Margaritaville Resort Gatlinburg, and Knoxville is 29 miles from the property. The nearest airport is McGhee Tyson Airport, 28 miles from Margaritaville Resort Gatlinburg.

Reviews:

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Top Resorts In Pittman Center Tennessee Conclusion:

The above is a top selection of the best resorts to stay in Pittman Center Tennessee to help you with your search. We know it’s not that easy to find the best resort because there are just so many places to stay in Pittman Center Tennessee but we hope that the above-mentioned tips have helped you make a good decision.

We also hope that you enjoyed our top ten list of the best resorts in Pittman Center Tennessee. And we wish you all the best with your future stay!

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