#Not me reliving my trauma for a tumblr post

[palossssssand]

Reconciliation

Old dome squadmates Trito and Kinoga get together at Trito’s place to catch up after years apart and a meeting by chance on the surface.

⚠️Warning for suggestive content below + implied chest trauma

After several weeks of chipping away at this, the comic is finally done! Very happy to have rendered a full 7 pages of oc stuff. Please give it a read!!

read the full 7 page comic on twitter! <-please do not click if you are a minor and view at your own discretion, this link contains explicit 18+ content. Thank you!

For the lore, includes stuff from splatoon Octo Expansion: Trito and Kinoga were a part of an octarian military squad living in the domes, Kinoga being their squad leader that many looked up to and admired. There were 6 of them who considered each other to be their closest friends. Upon hearing about the tests from Kamabo Co. and the allure of the Promised Land, Kinoga wished to seek it out in order to find a better life for their squadmates. A difficult decision, since it meant leaving them all behind, promising to come back and take them there.

Kinoga enters the metro trials and soon realizes that the Promised Land isn’t what they expected, their hope crumbling when they encounter one of their sanitized squadmates Agara, who followed suit to the metros soon after. Kinoga narrowly escapes, eventually making a break for the surface, carrying the shame of unwilling to return for their squadmates with them (it’s justified, of course, there might not be an easy way in, they might get caught again, Agara is gone)

Trito enters the Metro not too long after Kinoga does, wanting to catch up to them, and an accident that occurs in a test early on results in Trito’s near sanitization, giving him his scar. Terrified, and realizing what happens to his fellow octolings, Trito is unable to return to his squadmates, not wanting to break the news of their loved ones’ untimely fates. He hides away on the Metro until the events of OE happen and Agent 8 dismantles Kamabo, opening an opportunity to escape to the surface. Unwilling to face the possibilities of going back, Trito takes his chance to leave, starting a new life and feeling that it’s for the best if he doesn’t acknowledge it, though he missed his friends dearly.

Years later, Trito and Kinoga run into each other on the streets of Splatsville by chance, and the implications of them both being on the surface and alive hit them, having to carry the burden of leaving their loved ones behind and finding out the truth, knowing the other felt exactly the same, not knowing the fate of their squadmates and not wanting to think about the possibility of them being gone. They have a tearful reunion about it, and set up a meet later, to sit down and really talk, and get into a brief argument when the topic of returning to the domes comes up. Trito’s in disbelief that Kinoga never went back down to check on the rest of their squad, wanting them to have been a better person than him, who was too cowardly to do so. Eventually they do reconcile, and end up at Trito’s place to hook up, where the above comic takes place :]

[little-emerald-snake]

Any chance we can pretty please get a spice level 1000 smut with ominis and mc?

You write so well and atm all im seeing on tumblr is seb.

Im an omi girl and im starving lol

If your current circumstances permit, could you delve into your deepest darkest smut mind and give us a golden heap of descriptive and intricate filth? Haha xxx

We all love you.

I squeal whenever you post. Xxxxx

Hope youre doing well

Did you just come from the Undercroft!? - Ominis Gaunt X F!MC

🔥 NSFW 🔞 MDNI

Ohhh boy this one is wayyyy better than my last Doninis request so I apologize. But holy heck…this came from the dark fucked up recesses of my brain so enjoy that 🤣 Thanks for reading love, I’m doing much better after cutting back how much I’ve been writing, I feel rejuvenated and have much better inspiration (ignore the fact I’m posting twice a week again 🙄) 🫶🏻

Warnings: reliving the trauma of Ominis yelling at you for coming out of the Undercroft, Dominis, degradation, name calling (seriously I did not hold back), spitting, spit swallowing, clit/pussy spanking, rough fingering, squirting, spanking thighs and ass, unprotected rough sex, marking, threats of impregnation, threats of defamation, gaslighting, so much use of the word slut, overstimulation, crying during sex, degradation, oral m receiving, cum swallowing, no aftercare (hang in there loves, it’s a tough one)

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She carefully stepped out from the undercroft, glancing around to see the coast was clear before stepping out. Much to her surprise the familiar blonde Slytherin stood there almost as if he was headed there himself. “Hello Sebastian. Wait.”

Her heart began to race in her chest and she momentarily debated making a run for it or staying absolutely silent and pretending she wasn’t there at all. “You there. I can hear you.”

Well there went that plan. The blind Slytherin wasn’t to be trifled with. That much she knew. No sense in hiding if he already knew that she was in fact there and it wasn’t in fact his best friend. “Oh, hello Ominis, isn’t it? I believe we have a few classes together, right?”

The blonde's brows rose and he looked momentarily puzzled before standing a bit straighter. “I recognize that voice. Heard you talking to Garreth Weasley in Potions class. You’re the new fifth-year.”

She was about to cheerily agree but a scowl met his features and her stomach sunk. He looked absolutely furious. “Did you just come from the Undercroft? How did you get in there?”

She swallowed nervously, deciding in that moment that she wouldn’t rat out Sebastian after he’d taken the fall for her in the library. “Oh? That room’s called ‘the Undercroft?’ Ah. Well, I was exploring and suddenly found myself in a strange passageway-“

He frowned deeply, interrupting her with a cutting tone. “Don’t lie to me. No one ‘stumbles’ upon that room. Sebastian told you, didn’t he?”

He suddenly shifted closer to her, nearly pinning her against the clock decorated door to the Undercroft and she swallowed again. “I can’t risk you telling anyone about this place, you know. Sebastian’s going to get an earful about this. He gets into enough trouble as it is and doesn’t need your help in doing so. Come with me.”

He stepped away from her, bringing his wand up to guide him before grabbing her arm and yanking her away from the opening. He carefully opened the passageway to the Undercroft and shoved her inside, stepping in after her and gripping her arm again.

She stumbled as he easily guided her to the couch and tossed her down roughly. She debated getting up and making a run for it but he stood right in front of her, blocking her exit unless she jumped over the back of the sofa. “I’m going to punish you for lying on behalf of Sebastian. I bet he only showed you this place so he wouldn’t be interrupted while taking your sweet pussy. He should know better. This is my hideout. He shouldn’t be bringing his mischievous romps down here anyway.”

She stuttered over her words, anxious as Ominis’ body language changed and his words lost their proper tone and changed to a different, more demanding tone. “I-I…we weren’t doing anything like that. H-he simply was showing me a place to work on my magic since I’m behind. I-I swore I wouldn’t tell anyone about it and I meant that. I-I’d never-“

He tsked her, placing a finger under her chin and tipping her head up to look at him. “You’re loyal to Sebastian. Not me. Therefore I can’t trust you. As for Sebastian, he’s showing you the Dark Arts isn't he? You’re learning the curses with him aren’t you? You will not sully my Undercroft with Dark Magic or your vile sexual acts.”

She pressed herself against the back of the couch, heartbeat thundering behind her ribs all the way down between her legs. She couldn’t explain why his anger was working her up but it was.

He chuckled, wand blinking in his hand. “My my, your heart sure is beating away. Partially because you're scared but there’s something more isn’t there? What? Sebastian teaching you the Dark Arts is riling you up is it? Are you greedy for power? You do realize I’m a Gaunt, right? Sallow is a pureblood wizard but I’m a direct pureblooded descendant of Salazar himself. My blood runs thicker with tragedy than any other wizarding family known to the wizarding world.”

Her mouth went dry. That wasn’t what she was about at all. It had nothing to do with power or learning the Dark Arts which she actually feared. But the way he was speaking to her, boasting himself up and almost trying to compete with Sebastian for her attention had her going. This was a very different side to Ominis.

He snickered, tucking his wand away and lowering himself to kneel on the couch with his hands on the tips of the cushions behind her and his knee between her legs. Her body went rigid when hot breath ghosted across her neck and a hand caressed her stomach, slowly adding pressure and moving downwards. “That’s right. I know you’re a pureblood. I could easily fill you with a Gaunt heir and you would very quickly become an important witch. Your name would be in everyone’s mouth.”

His hand now lifted the hem of her skirt and she nearly choked when a devious smirk decorated Ominis’ features. Shame burned through her. “No bloomers on. You filthy slut. Now I’m sure of it. You were down here trying to fuck Sebastian weren’t you. He’s ever the playboy you know. He’ll stick his cock in anything. You aren’t special.”

Her heart raced, squirming as his fingers traced up her inner thigh to find her soaking wet pussy. He groaned, yanking her skirt up and moving her knees apart a bit to spit directly onto her sex. The action caught her off guard but he flattened his palm, rubbing her pussy with his flattened fingers by starting slow and getting rougher.

She held back whimpers and moans but this only made him angrier. She gasped as his free hand moved off the cushions and squeezed her cheeks. The action forced her lips to open and that was when he spit inside her mouth, fingers still roughly rubbing against her sensitive sex.

She hesitated, freezing with his spit in her mouth now and unsure what to do. He chuckled darkly, seeming to sense her dilemma. “Swallow it. Filthy slut. You better consider this an honor.”

She swallowed. It felt wrong but that didn’t stop her body from responding with hot electric tingles spreading down her body. He chuckled, finding her clit with the ball of his palm and rubbing aggressively. The sensation it caused danced on the line of torture and pleasure. The pressure was too much but that didn’t stop her hips from canting upwards.

This was all too much. She was careening toward an orgasm, hips bucking and moving to try and wring pleasure from the overstimulating torture. In a moment of relief he pulled his hand away, spitting down on her pussy again, releasing her jaw and caging her in with his arm. She thought the torturous pleasure would be done but that’s when his palm reunited with her sex in a loud slap.

The sound got her more than anything but the intense heat that burned from the sensation of the spank caused her to whine. He only grinned spanking a few more times in quick succession.

She reached down to grip his wrist and pull him away but he only chuckled, overpowering her with strength and shoving two fingers inside. She lost her battle, still holding his wrist but no longer pushing him away as he began a brutal pace, finger fucking her rather agressively. “This is how you learn, useless slut.”

It was intense but she couldn’t deny it had her hips lifting in pleasure again. Especially when those long slender fingers curled, hammering directly against her g spot and dragging her closer to the edge her body was teetering on. “Ah! Oh Ominis! I-I’m gonna-!”

He kept up the brutal pace, laughing at her pitiful behavior below him as he kneeled over her and drove her to the brink. She gave a sharp cry, body arching upwards as a pressure she’d never felt before took over. “You’re not supposed to like this, greedy little slut.”

When the pressure faded and the high of her orgasm faded she floated back to reality, ears still lightly ringing. She could hear Ominis’ condescending tone trying to break through.

After a moment she finally registered when he was saying. “How dare you make a mess of the furniture in my Undercroft. Look at this fucking mess. Are you listening to me!? Your pleasure should be irrelevant to me.”

She opened her eyes, glancing down between her legs where Ominis had pulled his now dripping fingers away to motion at the damp cushions below her. Luckily for him, he’d managed to dive away before getting splashed with her mess as his clothes were dry. His hand and the furniture below her had no such luck.

She had hot tears welling in her eyes. She’d never squirted before and now from something so rough. How could this have happened? She didn’t have long to process before Ominis’ hand landed on her parted thigh with a slap that echoed through the stone walls of the room.

She gasped, the heat that blossomed to the top of her skin, making it red and sensitive, surprising her. He spanked her again just a bit higher and she snapped her legs shut, causing him to laugh. “What? Can’t take a punishment properly? You shouldn’t have lied to me then, you stupid girl.”

She whimpered and he took her hand, helping her up. She sighed a breath of relief. It was short lived though as he flipped her over and positioned her on her hands and knees in front of him, yanking her skirt up to leave her bare before him.

His palm came down hard on the round cheek of her ass, causing her to gasp and lurch forward in surprise. “That’s for making a such a fucking mess.”

She peered over her shoulder, swallowing harshly as she heard the zipper of his trousers and felt the blunt tip of him against her entrance. She didn’t have time to deny him as he shoved into her, slamming his hips forward and burying himself inside her wet warmth.

She gasped, biting into her lip at the slight sting of such a quick intrusion. He filled her so completely full she’d never felt anything like it. She gasped when he moved, dragging himself back out and grunting as he stuffed himself right back in.

He held her hips in a firm grasp, fucking into her agressively. With every slam of his hips it became just a bit clearer that this fucking was meant as a punishment. Yes it felt incredible but his pace was brutal, rough and quick and meant to get a point across.

Just as she was beginning to fall into pleasure and tighten around him he was pulling out of her and flipping her onto her back. He wasted little time slamming back into her and resuming the animalistic pace of fucking her.

He leant down over her, baring his teeth against her neck and scraping against her delicate skin. He fucked her faster, biting and suckling bruises into her soft skin.

The pleasure was driving her closer and closer to the edge but she knew people would surely question her about the hickeys he was leaving. She attempted to shove him off, causing a snarl to rise from his throat and he released her abused flesh and growled against her ear. “If you tell anyone it was me who marked you, I’ll deny it. I’ll tell everyone you’re a filthy little liar and that you are nowhere near my league. I’ll publically humiliate you. Is that what you want?”

She pitifully shook her head and tears bubbled up to the surface. She was moaning and crying, pain, pleasure and emotional whiplash being the cause. But her body shook and she experienced a soul shredding orgasm. Fat hot tears rolled down her cheeks as she rippled around him, whimpering and crying out as she came.

He growled in frustration, pulling out of her and falling back against the couch, pulling her with and seating her in his lap. “How dare you cum on my cock without my permission. You’re going to fucking earn it this time, you hear that slut? Ride me to get your pleasure since you’re such a greedy cock slut.”

She was so lost in the pleasure and the chaos that she did, placed her hands on his shoulders and rolled her hips on his, riding him and whimpering. “That’s right. Take my cock. Forget all about dallying with Sebastian. Enabling him like a naughty little bitch behind my back. Stupid girl, playing with the Dark Arts.”

She cried, overwhelmed from how good it felt to fuck him and how hot it was to be degraded by him but his words did cut deep. She hadn’t slept with Sebastian at all but the idea that Ominis wanted to fuck Sebastian out of her system lit a fire inside of her. He laughed heartily at her tears. “Are you overwhelmed silly slut? Can’t take being told what a useless and dumb little hole you are? Thats alright. I’m done with your pussy. Get on the floor where sluts belong. This filthy pussy isn’t good enough to be bred by a Gaunt. Your mouth will have to do.”

He practically shoved her off, more or less tossing her to the floor before sliding forward on the seat and gripping a fistful of her hair and using her mouth. She watched through watery eyes as he fucked her mouth, pumping her mouth full of thick, hot, salty cum.

She immediately wanted to spit it out but he pinched her nose and pulled his cock out, forcing her head back and brushing down the front of her throat till she swallowed his essence. He laughed meanly, tapping her cheek. “That’s right. You’re a good slut. Even if you are an absolute shit liar.”

He stood up, straightening himself out and putting himself back together before pulling his wand from his robe pocket and sauntering towards the door. “No more encouraging Sebastian to get into trouble? You hear me? If he comes up with some ‘brilliant plan’ you bring it to me immediately. Now, go clean up and go to bed…although, I must admit you are prettier when you’re overstimulated. And remember what I said. You tell anyone anything about this and I’ll have this entire school pitted against you. I’m not afraid to exploit my father being friends with Headmaster Black if I need to.”

Without another word he left her, tears streaming, throat raw, and pussy aching from the roughness.

[be-the-glenn-to-my-maggie]

I don’t know why I’m here but you gotta know about it. TW mentions of child abuse

There is an actual dead dove poster in the Spider tags now 💀 posting creepy shit and doing it openly on a platform with a shit ton of minors. I saw only one before filtering the tag out but it was a Spider x Quaritch post where they discussed how people "sleep on their dynamic" and "imagine the Stockholm syndrome"

I sent them an ask and said that they should perhaps keep that to themselves or at least out of the general tags bc surprise surprise! Users don’t want relive their past trauma while scrolling through fucking tumblr and hey legit laughed and mocked me in their response. The worst part is it’s an actual 33 year old and despite the fact that they’re apparently ace I just can’t understand what fucked up morbid curiosity can drive a person to become, and I quote, a “dead dove connoisseur” and enjoy reading about sexual child abuse? Make it make sense.

It’s not even a preference thing. It’s basic human decency. What part of “don’t post about how you love fictional child abuse when there are kids looking through the tags and some people can get triggered by it” is so hard to understand? Anyway, this is just a heads up that you might see their post one day, so now you know.

Don't be shy anon drop the @.

You are absolutely right, a preference for writing about child abuse/incest is super not okay, and it's always in young fandoms and around characters like Quaritch. Despite there being whatever proper tags people think are there, I really don't think that content needs to exist. People STILL don't know what they are getting into. Case in point: I know we all stalk the Avatar a03 and we all unfortunately saw the newest gross Quaritch/Spider fic posted. Well, I clicked on that shit, because my dumb ass thought maybe it would be comfort focused enough we could skip around that bc Quaritch was already dead in the fic. When I tell you I have been so uncomfy for the last twelve hours, I cannot scrub that shit from my brain. I wish it had never been written! I wish I was dead! There are very few things that can still make me feel genuinely bad on the internet, and that managed it. I feel icky.

Anyways this just became about me resenting my decisions, I will definitely be reporting anything I see like that and I hope my followers do the same. Thank you for warning us. Tumblr is not always the safest place for minors, but hopefully we can make sure this community is.

[multiplicity-positivity]

Hii im a newly discovered system and I cant see into headspace clearly yet so would you happen to have any advice on how to see headspace?

Hey. We’re also a “newly” discovered system (if you count knowing about our system for around 2 years to be new), and the way our headspace works is really complicated. I feel like it can vary from system to system. Also we’re a DID system, so if you’re not trauma-formed, our headspaces may work totally differently. Still, we’ll talk a bit about how we see our headspace.

First of all, I say “we” but I’m the only one in the system who doesn’t have even partial access to the headspace. I’ve seen it once or twice, when a few members of my system worked hard to describe/show it to me, but I don’t really ever exist there. When I’m not fronting, I tend to be suspended in stasis until I front again. That’s just how our system works. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to visit the headspace.

Our headspace consists of a few areas. There is one area which has existed for nearly our whole life. It made up of a pair of houses (the ones we grew up in) and we had no hand in creating it or bringing it about. I guess it works as a visualization tool, but we have lots of parts who are stranded or trapped there, reliving trauma memories and unable to access the rest of us. Through treatment we’re working on understanding this area of our headspace and reaching out to the parts who are stuck there.

The rest of our headspace was consciously created by a few members of our system. It exists as a place outside of the homes we were abused in, so that those of us who are able to communicate with each other can have a space to exist inside that isn’t re-traumatizing. Again, I don’t really go there, but I know enough about it from existing in my system for a while haha.

It was made using visualization tools and imagination. It’s a fantasy, made up of things my alters think about. We don’t view our headspace as a physical place, but to my alters, it still feels like a physical place when they’re there. We’ve always had a very active imagination, so it never really took much work or focus for my alters to put up a headspace.

From what I understand, it started by Kiki and Toby just… imagining what a safe space would be like for us. The more times they imagined the same thing, the easier it was to picture it. Eventually, an area would just stick around, even when they weren’t actively thinking about it. At that point, the imagined idea became a part of the headspace.

Some systems just don’t have headspaces. Some systems have always had a headspace. Some systems have to consciously work to make a headspace. Some systems have a vague or partial headspace, and have to do visualizing and imagining to fill it out. Every system is different, so seeing into the headspace may be a very personal thing for your system.

There used to be a blog on Tumblr that posted headspace inspiration. I really don’t know the @ or else I’d tag them. Using Pinterest and searching for inspiration online can be a great way to figure out what you’d like in a headspace. Then it’s just a matter of spending some time focusing on it, imagining it, and fleshing it out inside. I’m sorry we don’t have any resources on helping you achieve this… but we wish you luck nevertheless!

💫 Parker

[wiispywitch]

My Boundaries🖤

Hi, my loves! I mostly am making this for myself to link to my pinned oost and add a little bit more so I don't have to edit my pinned post constantly; I'm not so great at setting boundaries so I'm gonna try to work on changing that for my mental health^^ {psst this also isn't meant to come off as a call out post to anyone, I hope it doesn't come off as that I'm sorry I'm an ✨overthinker✨}~

♡ Minors, DO NOT follow/interact with this account! I make zero exceptions to this boundary as I am really not comfortable with minors following my content regardless of what I reblog or the fandoms I'm in, because I also dont really have filter. I'm sorry to be harsh, but I'm an adult and I don't want to filter what I post about on my blog. Plus I really hate it when minors try to purposely interact in adult spaces {seriously do not do this shit, you're putting yourself and others in danger}. Ignoring this boundary will warrant an immediate permanent block.

♡ Fanart is more than welcomed, no need to ask permission! I will treat that like the goddamn Mona Lisa and appreciate the fuck out of it. All I ask is to not feel obligated to do so and to please tag me🩷 I'll ask if I can post your art to my ToyHouse with credit {you have every right to decline if you're uncomfortable, I won't be upset and will respect your decision!} Lastly all I ask is please safe for work only and not sexualize my characters^^

♡ You can take heavy inspiration or heavily reference my art and my OCs for your own, however please don't outright repost my art or fics especially without permission. I would rather be asked first if you want to repost one of my drawings but please don't automatically assume I'll say yes otherwise I will ask the post to be removed. For commissions, you don't have to ask permission to repost, you can post to whatever platform you'd like!

♡ Don't remove/edit my signature and Ko-Fi watermark from my commissions please

♡ I don't roleplay and would prefer my OCs not be used in roleplay. I'm sorry!

♡ No shipping discourse of any kind. I don't care what you ship as long as it's legal, but I'm not here to engage with any discourse revolving around pairings of fictional characters. This account is not a safe space for people who support minor x adult ships, incest/stepcest, bestiality, or glorifying SA.

♡ Please don't ship my OCs with other characters besides the one they're paired with or other OCs {I only do this with my partner's characters}

♡ Idk if this is a problem on Tumblr but I cannot stress this enough please please please do not add me into random group chats especially without asking me first, I will just end up leaving without saying anything. I'm sorry to be rude, I have major social anxiety and the last time this happened was not a good experience that I don't want to relive.

♡ I'm okay with nicknames with mutuals except for babe/baby/anything that sounds flirty {I'm married and it makes me uncomfy 🫥}

♡Just because I simp for certain characters who are villains doesn't me I agree with their actions {Eren, Shiggy, sweeties, I'm looking at you two}. Truthfully, I love villains, I like fucked up and morally questionable characters, I think I can fix them {no I can't}, however I have limits yes but sometimes the crazies are where it's at~

♡ I do write about certain heavy topics as a means to cope with trauma I personally endured {ex. I write about alcohol abuse and the toll it can take on others}. This does not mean I condone what is in my writing, it's just telling a story that will be properly tagged.

♡ I have zero tolerance for hate against anyone's sexuality, race, body type, gender, or religion. This account is a safe space for LGBTQ+ and is run by a demi-lesbian pagan witch🩷 {This account is NOT a safe space for MAPs/predators or zoophiles}

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That's about it! I'll add more and edit later when it needs some adjusting^^ Thank you for taking the time to read!

[a-dotrivenitupontop]

why you should vote for david brittlesbee in the @epicdivorcemantournament. a powerpoint presentation (tumblr post) by me:

•in just the pilot episode of mythic quest david gets excluded from company meetings, has his assistant abandon him for another guy and calls one of his workers ‘mom’

•he’s the boss at a video game company but the divorce fucked him up so badly no one accepts that he’s even a boss (this kinda shifts in s3 but eh. spoilers)

•oh yeah his parents also got divorced. so. y’know double whammy innit. just one divorce after another for this poor little meow meow

•“are we at your divorce trial right now? because i just watched a hot asian chick rip out your heart”

-brad bakshi, s1 e10

•my man CONSTANTLY uses divorce to project onto his workplace. whenever the main characters fight david always draws comparisons to his divorce (especially in s2)

•to score david a date the aforementioned brad had to train him to talk to women using a simulator called ‘divorcee dance party’

•he did score a date though. only he forgot her name and the relationship lasted like six episodes. the reason they broke up? he got down on TWO knees and BEGGED for marriage. slay queen

•also before using the dating sim david used pictures of his wedding day on his dating app profile. and a video of him reviewing bikes. that’s a crucial piece of information too

•his ex wife kicked him out of his own home forcing him to live in motherfucking cerritos (op in br*tish and has no idea what a cerritos is but assumes it’s something to describe as ‘motherfucking’)

•“you know who didn’t have trouble finding a man? your ex-wife”

-poppy li, s1 e2

•in an episode where each character got given a workplace animal personality thing david got wolf and spent the episode bragging about it. only he did the test the wrong way and turned to be a butterfly. this isn’t directly related to divorce but i do think it’s pathetic of david

•when two of his employees (amongst a couple others but they’re irreverent rn) quit to work at a new company in the basement david was so fucked up by this that he was implied to have almost attempted suicide. we stan a depression-ridden mess who would rather kill himself than lose his found family and relive the trauma of his divorce. heart emoticon

•anyways here’s a compilation of david being Pathetic for your entertainment

[rayssion]

I haven't really posted anything since February guys, because naturally, my interests shifted.

Soooooooo, appearantly I'm into danmei now (I'm kinda mad that no one ever thought of telling that there's this whole section of literature dedicated only to gay Chinese men doing their little gay shits–) I've read mxtx's books and got a new favourite in svsss!!

I even re-read it lol,

And now I'm reading qjj (boss level yeah).

I also watched link click some time in the past two months, it was my fourth donghua after the mxtx book adaptations and now I'm rewatching it with my friend and reliving the trauma all over again,

I watched the case study of vanitas too.

And lastly bungou stray dogs, which ngl, I became kinda obsessed with (not my fault there are sO many good soukoku fics!)

The point is, I don't think I'm gonna post anything pjo related any soon, if I'm to fall back into my Tumblr phase then I'd probably post about previously mentioned fandoms.

Just a heads-up if you were following me only for pjo incorrects :)

[phoenixwrites]

I have a genuine question. Feel free to ignore it if you're not comfortable answering.

You've frequently brought up being a CSA survivor and stated that as a CSA survivor you don't see fiction involving underage sex to be child pornography. This queenimmadolla person stated that they are also a CSA survivor and that they DO view the above as child pornography. So my question is why is it so wrong for people to have a difference of opinion on the matter? Are you just mad that she's calling you a p*do or are you also mad she's trying to censor fiction? Because I've seen you post more things about censorship during all this than the p*do stuff and it's making me curious.

Again this is a genuine question and I would love your take on this but I understand if you don't want to answer.

I mean the answer is because she is actively trying to kick me off Tumblr and AO3. I cannot offer the “we just have a difference of opinion” towards people who are genuinely trying to drive me away or harass me off a social media platform. She had not given me the option to say “it’s just a difference of opinion, let’s block each other to keep both of ourselves safe”, she has instead encouraged people to attack, harass, and report my blog for something I did not do.

This probably is a genuine question, but it’s a little frustrating to me who is getting consistently attacked by people who read this person’s stupid callout post and thought it was true—to get an anon saying, “why can’t you guys just have a difference of opinion on it?” I mean, it’s a little like suggesting that the pilgrim town and the free-spirited woman just have a difference of opinion, why can’t you leave it at that, while this person is actively trying to set me on fire. Do you see the frustration on that?

I am a CSA victim and a lot of these accusations are genuinely triggering to me. So yes, I have been talking a lot about censorship because I don’t want to relive my trauma in order to “prove” that I’m a victim to my detractors. That never goes well for the survivor.

I don’t send anons. I don’t ask people to attack others. I have asked for “callout” blogs to be reported because I think they’re incredibly dangerous and are going to lead to someone killing themselves eventually. So why are you framing this as “we just have a difference of opinion” rather than “this person is actively calling for me to die and encouraging others to attack and harass me whereas I have asked people not to retaliate and to please just leave me alone”? That is also a genuine question.

I don’t want to be the poster child of CSA survivor advocacy. I want to write fic and that is exactly what I’m going to do. And I will not be dictated on what I write by anyone.

[hematomes]

Jesus Christ, I go on Tumblr to entertain myself, only to see so many people getting livid and calling the Traveller a hypocrite for being buddy-buddy with Childe but being cold towards Lyney and Lynette.

Another argument I saw was that they're allowed to befriend Raiden Shogun and Wanderer but get snippy with Lyney who's got a good reason to lie is straight up shitty behavior.

Listen, I love Childe. I really do. But if anyone did to me what he did to the Traveller back in Liyue, I'd be very wary at best and downright hostile at worst.

And don't get me wrong, Lyney is a good guy. But I would be mad if somebody chose to withhold important information from me.

On a lighter note, imagine if Mihoyo saw the butthurt fans' rants and did a "Take That, Audience!" moment in the game just to throw a jab at them.

damn im really protecting my peace on tumblr bc i managed to avoid all of these takes and only came across it on tiktok (which prompted yesterday's post lol)

i won't repeat myself but you got the gist of it anyway so agreed, and i hope we stay in that coherent stuff. i can't really defend raiden's case bc i thought this whole thing was dogshit, but the writing in inazuma before the DLCs was... lacking at best, so there's that

also i doubt they actually befriended wanderer, it's still kind of hostile. i think the main reason is that he's genuinely (and ironically) changed, and also that, well, the traveler literally got to live wanderer's life so it's a different case altogether. it's an understandable bond, when you consider that the traveler was present and there for him (mostly as a witness, but still) when he had to relive and process around 500 years of trauma, abuse and his own misdirected decisions. but that's another topic and i can't go too deep in it or ill start rambling about it for the equivalent of a 20 pages word document

[writingwithfolklore]

Hello! I’m new to tumblr and am not entirely sure how this works, but this is my response to your post asking about PTSD, I’m not sure if I should send it to you or the person who asked the question, so I’m sorry if I get it wrong.

I have diagnosed PTSD from both individual events and from prolonged trauma. During flashbacks, internally I will recall the memory but against my will, and it literally ‘flashes’ through my mind. My eyes will unfocus and I will be trapped not quite reliving the memory but still experiencing it — I’ll feel phantom hands if there was anything physical in the event, or I’ll hear the voices, feel the emotions I felt and witness the emotions others showed. Different parts of the event will stick out more in flashbacks — usually I only remember the worst words that were said, but sometimes I don’t remember any words and they jumble together, but I clearly remember emotions. For instance, I’ll recall the anger in someone’s voice and especially their volume, and I’ll remember the fear I felt, or I’ll remember their hands on me, but I don’t often remember words. The worst parts of the event will repeat at the forefront of my mind, sometimes even the same few seconds, while other parts of what happened occur sequentially and quieter/more distant in the background, like a montage of some sort, overwhelming me. Outwardly, my eyes are always unfocused, expression always blank, I’m always tense and I sometimes rock back and forth. (I’m autistic and rock back and forth subconsciously in response to any distress). It usually takes a few tries to snap me out of it as I won’t ‘hear’ someone saying my name the first few times, but if they touch me it snaps me out of it immediately and I shrink away from them. I’ve been told I usually appear dazed once snapped out of it, sometimes breathing hard and other times taking a moment to breathe at all. If I have a flashback around people, I immediately remove myself from the situation and find a place to be alone so I can calm myself down before a full blown panic attack, but more often than not if I have flashbacks while awake, I’ll dissociate and show signs of that in my interactions with people. If I have a nightmare about specific events I have flashbacks to, I’ll almost always wake up right before or in the middle of a panic attack (usually in the middle as I will often recognize I’m having a nightmare but be unable to wake myself up). In my flashbacks, I’m always the ‘current me’ even if I experienced the event many years ago, as a child even. The flashback will even adjust to accommodate that such as physical things being done to my current body and eye contact being made higher to accommodate how I’ve grown in height. However, my voice will stay the same as it was during the event if I talk in the flashbacks, but I very rarely talk in them even if I talked during the actual event — the flashbacks are always what was done to me or around me and how I physically responded to it, not how I verbally responded to it. I’m sorry this is so long, but I hope it helps! :)

(From our Research Game, question by @z-mizcellaneous-z)

This is perfect, thank you!

[maddytheintrovert]

Mmmmmmmmmm. Ok so owl house s3 spoilers below so like heads up besties plz don’t continue reading if u don’t want em spoilers

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OK BESTIES

What tHE EVERLOVING FUCK DID I JUST WATCH

like uni life here do be like guess I have to watch the ep in 4 parts over YouTube bc I don’t have cable and it’s not on Disney plus yet but oh my gawd FUCK. First off, Hunter. Sad baby boi what the tears behind the owl mask and omg noooo noooo of course he’s alone and he discovers the Belos goo and then Belos goo possesses him and flapjack and the “he’s not moving” and flapjack pt 2 and all those new scars and Luzs mom diving into the fucking water after him and bestie I can’t deal anymore. And now they know he’s a grimwalker, and omg that sorry time was V helpful but also I was like noooo poor babies reliving trauma in human realm bc of course grimwalker is scary story u tell your kids of fuck. And luZ don’t even get me started on how badly I want her to get all the hugs, like bestie feels so guilty and we love amity being like is ok about the grimwalker shit and hunter being like it is not ur fault he used u, he is a piece of shit and Luz’s mom ready to go thru a portal after some seeing demon Belos and omg her staying up at night trying to figure out how to care for kids from the demon realm and also her nightmare about Luz. And wow I know this post is just me rambling but like I have no friends who watch this show so tumblr you be getting my thoughts. Also can we take a sec to talk about that like part time staff at the morgue? Where were they idk? But bestie’s nail polish, hello non-binary character that is super cool wtf YES. Ok anyways if anyone knows anything about when this is getting released on Disney plus plz tell me because I need to rewatch it asap. Ok time to go let this shit soak in bc AHHH. Gn peeps!!

[irlnara]

My JoJo OC, Lynne Malina

Stand Name: 「 Pray For The Wicked 」

FINALLY!!! With the help of an amazing friend on Discord, I was finally able to bring my boy, Lynne Malina, to life *I needed their help cuz I can’t draw to save my life 🥲😅*

This boy originally came from a rp I was in with my boyfriend *now my ex* that I’m half tempted to just overhaul it just to spite…but idk. I’ve been wanting to make an OC for this fandom for a while but just over got around to it, but, he’s here. I have more info on him which I may post down below *probably*.

I haven’t yet gotten PFTW beyond the Picrew stage but hopefully I can get art of them too

Again, MASSIVE thanks and credit to my friend *I'll have to look if they have a Tumblr or not* who went through a lot with me to help create this art of him and put it on paper(?). Thank you 😊

@fashion4standusers

Name: Lynne Malina 

Stand Name: 「Pray For The Wicked」

Age: 21

Birthday: June 7

Height: 5’ 3”

Gender: Male *Trans FtM*

Sexuality: Bisexual

About: Not much is known about Lynne’s life before Passione or how he got his Stand, though he has let it slip he got it through... unconventional means through a former partner. Giorno found him after hearing he was causing trouble, and in the memory of his late mentor, he welcomed Lynne into Passione but it was muddled with the intent of using him for his Stand, 「Pray For The Wicked」, to bring the others back. Lynne was also given a star-Moonstone necklace as a bribe/gift from Giorno for joining.

Personality: Narancia mixed with a dose of upbeat nihilism. He can come off as childlike in certain situations, but most of the time he tries to give off a calmer and reserved aura like Giorno. He gets serious quickly; very protective of friends and family with guard dog levels of loyalty. This boy is a trickster; one way he gets better at his Stand Energy abilities is through pranks and jokes he pulls with his Stand *appearing as others and spooking people*. Can be a bit dramatic, learned most of it from his first ex, always puts on a show. Can appear elegant and put together one moment and then completely unhinged the next. Has strokes of upbeat nihilism because come on, he’s starred in the face of death multiple times, he’s definitely got some screws loose. Will play the part of the sophisticated upperclassmen and can because of training, but would rather be the guy raring for a good time.

Habits, Addictions, Traumas: Hand tapping/flapping; deep aversion to dead bodies due to handling of a deceased family member; attachment issues due to abandonment in childhood; anxiety from past trauma; internalized self hatred due to gender dysphoria, slight alcohol problem due to his breakup with Damien...

Stand Abilities: Lynne is a versatile asset in Passione’s ranks. ⸢Pray For The Wicked⸥’s Stand energy manipulation ability can be used in a variety of ways from healing, tiring out an enemy, travel *turning into small wisps*, and even copying other people and Stands. This all hinges on energy levels; healing and wisp travel require little to no energy whereas copying a person requires energy from both Lynne and the person he’s copying. This is why his ultimate ability, ⸢Dying in L.A.⸥, is so exhausting. Lynne’s ⸢Dying in L.A.⸥ ability allows him to bring people back from the dead, but through a very...scarring process; he relives the deceased’s final moments and giving up some of his energy to bring them back. Besides the psychological aspect, it’s physically taxing and draining, so he can’t be bringing people back one after the other. Also, the Stand is visually kind of...disturbing with the image of a shrouded corpse-like Spector with wings.

[leeminholinoing]

I'm a bit or a lot late to bounce back on something you posted. On stopping pretending that we didn't think that in 2023 things would evolve on them publicly together etc etc.

Thanks for saying it, today to see people write long text saying "I just want to see them happy, I don't know if they're together... Their current situations are great"...

It chills me and I just understand that the tide has really turned… That today we didn't know anything like back then but back then we had hope.

Yes professional career level there is nothing to reproach, they vibrate with pleasure and as long as they feel it I am happy for them.

but god what did i miss when larries had so much hope of seeing them live a life without being imprisoned in the false guises

We did not ask for details on their private lives but just that the two could live freely what we always believed to be an exceptional and pure love story despite the toxic environment that surrounded them.

I can't remember where the larries stopped hoping or the new larries make up proofs/codes to try to relive an era that's already resolved…

They haven't communicated with us for a long time… They've been a long time abandoned us after needing us.

It's been a long time since they redefined things while many person think they're still trying to fight against the tide.

In 2015, I would never have thought that today we would have had images that we had in the Louis documentary or that we would have had such a sickening stunt with Harry.

I just know that in 2015 we were absorbed in hope and today we have just become orphans.

But everyone is right as long as they are happy that is the most important thing.

I love their music and their shows and it ends there for me now.

I may be sad for a time gone by.

I agree people trying to relive the past are so annoying, that is why twitter larries used to get on my nerves but now I see tumblr larries doing the same. I have lost all hope for this fandom. did you see that post that was like "if they came out we wouldn't have the content we have now!?!?" and they thought it was a good argument? They have both become insipid products, I don't know how people can like what they are giving us right now.

Like I'd be so very happy if they disappeared and were able to live their lives away from this mess. I am not scared to say that I believe them coming out would be the best thing that could happen to them and their mental health. I have no money in the game anymore, I'm finally free.

I don't believe they are as happy as this fandom likes to pretend they are. But hey as long as they keep twirling on stage and making music without going to therapy and working through their trauma I guess everything is fine and dandy in tumblr larrie land. At least they get the content they want 🤪

They have both disappointed me way too hard in the past three years for me to keep stanning them. I wish them well with their solo stans, you only deserve the stans that you have encouraged and rewarded with your ugly strategies. Call me in three years when they've lost everyone bc the next best thing will have come on the scene and they won't have the fans who grew up with them anymore cause they treated them like shit.

[messenger-of-stupidity]

Redacted Drama

Redacted Masterlist

Okay.. first off, this is just my opinion on Redacted drama. If you're not interested or don’t wanna hear it, that's perfect fine, keep scrolling and I hope you have a wonderful day/night

That being said...

CW: SA, mentions of patreon exclusive audios (nsfw ones)

Also, if you are going to read this, there’s more information in the replies that is important. Thank you @/dontpreceiveeve for adding that! :)

I don’t personally have Redacted’s patreon because bitches be broke. And I don’t really involve myself in drama that has nothing to do with me and I only have one side of the story. But I’m home sick today and bored out of my mind while I wait for some inspo for fics.

For those who don’t know, I recommend trying to find out more information through other blogs, there’s people talking about it. It just popped up on my home screen for tumblr today so what can i say.

But essentially there’s a patreon exclusive video that has to do with Ivan and his listener where consent isn’t really present (?). So it’s obviously raising a lot of controversy about it. 

I’m not trying to downplay how important and sensitive issue sexual assault/non con intimate acts are. I’m really not. It’s an ongoing issue and a disgusting one done by the aggressors at that. If you or anyone you know has experienced that I’m so so sorry that happened to you.

But considering the audio in question is an nsfw one, preferences have to be taken into consideration. If Erik didn’t post any warnings for the audio (I don’t know if he did or not.) then that is certainly on him. There should be warnings for everything that may contain triggering topics because trauma is a horrid thing to have to relive through. 

But this is also Ivan we’re talking about. Post-Vega inference, we know consent isn’t that important to him. He kidnapped one of his listeners after all. 

And some people are into that whole non-con scene for whatever reasons. it could be their way of coping with whatever happened to them, or just a kink of theirs. Kinkshaming is a pretty shitty thing to do because it disregards preferences and can make them feel guilty for something that can be out of their control. Some people might be into the more softer side of things, while others are into the more hard side of things. Both are okay. 

As for the whole “hiding behind a paywall and profiting off sexual assault”, that paywall also acts as a deterrent. He can’t control if minors access his content on Youtube, but there is some more distance between minors and patreon content, which is why the more graphic content is posted there. I don’t think it’s all about profiting off sexual assault as much as trying to cater to an often ignored audience while making sure it’s harder for minors to access content that could lead to Erik unintentionally getting in legal trouble.

Like I said, this is just my two cents and I don’t have the whole story. If someone wants to fill me in, feel free and if I’m wrong I’ll gladly take this down. I just think that people jumping to quick assumptions without considering everything can be damaging. I know I might be jumping to assumptions, but I’m very much on “innocent until proven guilty” sides of things. A lot of ASMRtists are removing their content because of accusations like these. Some of them have been proven true, and for those it has been I’m glad their content is gone and they aren’t causing more harm to people. But for when it’s false I feel bad for them.

If you’re still reading this, thanks for listening to my rant. :) 

[wahrhelt]

THE TRUTH THEOREM

RP blog for Reshiram (including gijinka form), written by Necro.

Necro | it/its pronouns only | 25+

Read the fucking pages pweaseeee

Mun | Muse

Rules underneath.

Blog is a wip as of now.

Absolutely no ooc drama. Unless someone actively abuses other people or writes illegal content, I do not want to hear it.

This also goes for proship/anti ship talk. I simply do not care. So long as every muse involved is legal and able to consent, as well as human intelligence and the ability to communicate consent, it's fine to me.

Please do not softblock me. Always hard block me. If you softblock me, I will likely think tumblr made a mistake and refollow. I'd rather not force my way into spaces where I'm not wanted.

I do not send in passwords.

I will not follow back if I'm not interested or see too much ooc drama on your blog.

This blog is a hobby. Roleplay is a hobby. I'm not here to have every flaw of mine scrutinized. I will be liberal with the block button if I feel the need to.

I will generally send a reminder if we have a thread going if you haven't replied in two days or longer. If you want to drop a thread, please just tell me. I will not be mad. I just want to know, otherwise the anxiety will drive me insane.

Let me know if you need anything specific tagged. - Triggers are otherwise tagged as #Trigger/ - Please tag trypophobia, eye gore, mouth gore, and pregnancy for me.

Shipping is only done via chemistry. One sided insta crushes on your muses end are permitted, but don't force a ship on me.

I will not interact if I cannot see our muses interact for a longer period of time.

Blog will contain a LOT OF CRACK sometimes. It's the best way for me to cope with heavier thread topics. If you don't like that, you can blacklist the #Crack.; tag.

I'm too old for dumb fights over who's right and who isn't. Don't come into my inbox expecting to change my mind on drama. It will only get you blocked. - This goes both ways. I myself don't engage in pros.hip and never will, but I tolerate them on my blog so long as what they write isn't fucking illegal. But should any pros.hip person try to force their disposition on me, they will also be blocked. - If you don't like that, leave. The door exists. It's called the un/follow button.

Once again, with feeling this time: This is a hobby. Not a moral or ideological crusade.

I'm an abuse survivor, stalking survivor, grooming and child sexual harassment survivor. If you even so much as fucking dare to insinuate that I support any of that shit because I don't give a fuck if someone is pros.hip in my vague vicinity, you will get the block and never return button.

I cannot believe how many of these rules have to be about pros.hip and antis.hip, but apparently this is the world we live in now.

I know these rules sound really harsh and aggro, but I really want to make sure people understand where I stand. I've dealt with enough trauma from this website and its bullshittery, please don't make me relive it.

I promise beyond that I am a very kind and patient person. It just fucking sucks I have to be so aggressive about enforcing my rules because we can't have nice things on this hellsite.

I will never be mad if you block or unfollow me because something I write makes you uncomfortable, but if you need to talk to me about literally anything oocly (and it doesn't violate an abovementioned rule), you can always DM me. I don't bite and just want to be friends and write.

I have several mental health problems, please be patient with me.

If I like and unlike your post several times, it's not me trying to force your attention. It's me having to follow an OCD impulse. I apologize in advance.

[serene-sun]

About the vent, I'm sorry if you didn't really want anyone to respond to it, you absolutely do not have to read this if you don't feel comfortable. Going on anon as well, hope that's alright.

It's always hard to deal with those feelings, like even when you know that people understand you still feel so alone with it all. You are so much more than what happened, it doesn't make you dirty, or impure, it isn't something that defines you.

It's hard to move on, especially when people ask about it, but you don't always owe an explanation for everything. And when you make the decision whether or not to not press charges, that is because it's the decision that feels safest for you. You are an amazing person to talk to, whether or not you have that trauma, and I would never second guess my opinion of you because of something you can't control. You seem like an amazing, and caring person and friend, and that is what matters. Your passion for the things you enjoy, the way that you express your love for everyone close to you, your creativity, THOSE are the things that make people love you, and they shouldn't be ignored because of your past. I'm happy to have met you, both as an author and as a friend, our talks are always enjoyable and I hate to see you so upset about something. I really hope that you feel a bit better, make sure to stay safe, and take care of yourself as best as you can. You're so deserving of love, and compassion, and all that you give to those around you, remember to give the same to yourself. :)

-🌙

TW: sexual assault

No it’s ok! I wouldn’t of posted it if I didn’t want any replies.

Thank you, I think just the emotions are forcing me to relive it all and all of the times it did happen. Idk if I will press charges, I really don’t want to hurt anyone. But it sucks bc what if he did it to more people? After me? I always end up defending him in some way, I think he’s a terrible person, but I’ll always feel like it’s my fault. But he doesn’t deserve to get away with it and hurting more people, but in the end he did know what he was doing.

I’m glad I mean something to someone on here, thanks for that. I try my best to be the better person, and make people happy. But sometimes I get to ahead of myself, and I usually forget to make myself happy. I don’t want to be negative Nancy on here, but I don’t where else I should talk at. It’s either irl or on here. And like I said before, I like being invisible and untouchable, I like disappearing hours on end to tumblr. Because nobody can hurt me on here so that makes me feel better, I don’t have anybody to press charges on here on tumblr. So I’m sorry for the negative stuff!