#No I always fucking think of this scene when I start depression editing the discord messages.
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#THIS ONES FOR THE VENOM HEADS THAT DIDNT LEAVE WHEN I WOKE UP ONE DAY AND BECAME A PEACEMAKER BLOG-#No I always fucking think of this scene when I start depression editing the discord messages.#This is further proof Eddie Brocks a BPD icon
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Dewey Finn x Youtuber!Reader Headcanons
Iām in love with the whole youtuber auās atm so here. Have another. I tried. I really really did.
Some notes: Pre SOR the musical, and also Dewey moved out of his apartment and into yours because it was nicer and closer to places he could perform gigs at.
You started up your Youtube channel after a car accident left you unable to continue working at your job
It hit you pretty hard to be completely dependant on one income, but Dewey did his best to make sure the two of you had food on the table and a roof over your heads
Sometimes you had no power, but you made do
You ended up needing to move apartments, having found somewhere cheaper that gave Dewey a little more wiggle room when it came to finances
When you were packing (Dewey insisted you only did light work, even though your back injury had healed as much as possible and you were able to do almost as much as you could before as long as you rested) when you found your old camera
Dewey didnāt know that you knew the stress he was under because of your lack of ability to work. He never blamed you, after all it wasnāt your fault this happened, but you could see that the stress was getting to him
He also didnāt know about your depression, the feeling of being a burden to him and being unable to help even prepare dinner left you feeling useless
Dewey also didnāt know that after you moved apartment, you started a vlog to yourself, documenting all your feelings onto the camera every day when he was at work
It was a good way to let out all your feelings without burdening someone else with them
Which is secretly what you needed
Eventually, your rants and rambles became more structured, you spoke to the camera as if it was an audience and spoke about how having chronic pain controlled every aspect of your life
The fear that came along with it - would you have a flare up in a place where you couldnāt get help? What if you went to the hospital and they didnāt believe you? What if Dewey realised that you were more trouble than you were worth? What if he realised that you were never getting better and you were stuck like this? What if, what if, what if?
You spoke about how you struggle to even sit upright for long periods of time, making it impossible for you to even do desk work
You spoke about the times that you felt like committing suicide because the pain was to much
But most of all, you spoke about your love for Dewey and how well he was doing to help support you in any way he can.
Each entry was deleted after you recorded it, you didnāt have much space on your ancient camera
But eventually, you decided that, to pass time, you wanted to run a Youtube channel, if anything just to pass the time
You told Dewey one afternoon after work when the two of you were laying on the bed, him exhausted after a shift at work
His whole face lit up
āThatās an awesome idea babes! What sort of videos were you thinking?ā
Even in his exhaustion, the guy canāt help but vibrate with excitement, hands moving about as you discuss details
You spoke about possibly doing song covers, but you didnāt feel secure enough to do that on the reg and you preferred to talk, not sing.
You decided to start off, youād do one video a week talking about weird conspiracy theories that you had heard
As time went on, you started making up your own outlandish conspiracy theories, clearly making fun of the main ones that you had already covered
You had a lot of time on your hands to come up with some truly bizarre ones
It wasnāt until a crack vid about how all video games are designed to convince children that the President of the United States is actually a lizard man (Dewey helped with that one) did your channel take off
Someone did a reaction video of different conspiracy theory youtubers and you were on that list
And your channel took off fast
Soon, you started dipping your toes into other genres, started playing video games and talking smack as you did so
You made sure to pick the video games you were horrendous at for comedic value
You spoke openly and plainly about your problems with chronic pain, and how it affected your mental health
As time went on, more people with mental health started to follow and leave comments about how your videos helped them get through the day
That just having someone else saying that they have the same problems as them was enough to make them feel less alone
You decided to take this a bit more seriously after that
It wasnāt about just having fun and wasting your time anymore, you wanted to make this a career
You set up a schedule, videos went up three days a week on a two week rotation
Mondays were Conspiracy Theory and Supernatural Video days, Wednesdays were True Crime and Stupid Story days, Fridays were Real Talk with Video Games and Internet Challenge and Questions days
It was stressful, but you thrive under that stress, each video was perfectly planned and organised and Dewey helped as much as he could
The boy is practically a walking sound board, a lot of your background sounds came from him
Totally makes a theme song for your channel and you snag that up the second he plays it for you for the first time
People always want to see Dewey on camera, but you always filmed when he was at work and he was content to help behind the scenes
When you get Patreons, you feel so happy that you are just able to provide some sort of financial contribution for the first time in over two years
Little did you know that Dewey put that money aside to get you a better quality camera for your birthday
Eventually, you start live streaming on Twitch on your days off, just having a chat during your downtime. You get a Discord and with all of that, you get a few mods to help you out, having a video chat every Saturday afternoon to organise the following week
Whenever Dewey is home, heās on you like an octopus so they get to see him lounging all over you, playing on his phone as you talk to your mods, occasionally asking for a kiss or if you need anything
They all think its cute as heck and beg you to do at least one video with him
So you do a special for Challenge and Questions day. Both you and Dewey do a bunch of couples challenges, live streaming it for your patreons and edit out the funny bits for the video. You also sing a song together, which made everyone go mental in the comments section
Eventually, Dewey becomes a semi-regular on your Friday videos.
When he starts at Horace Green, he doesnāt tell you anything about it. Just that its a new job
You are confused but trust him to do the right thing
When it all comes to light, you arenāt impressed
You refrain from saying anything, but the whole idea was stupid as fuck, did he really not think heād get caught?
You are more angry at the lies, however, rather than the fact that he did such a stupid ass thing
When it all blows over, and he starts working there legally, you settle down
Visit him at work sometimes to see how heās going
Turns out, some of his students are fans because now he can be more open, he wonāt shut up about you and has brought up some of your less intense vids for everyone to watch
You decide to make a separate channel that is more kid friendly becauseĀ āDewey, you canāt show the kids the episode where I called someone a cunt.ā
He forgot about that part
Basically, very supportive, your biggest fan and likes to help in the background as well as appear in some videos because it makes you happy and you both get to jam on camera together
Is also very kissy all the time and each video has to contain at least four instances of him randomly kissing and hugging you, itās in his contract thank you very much.
#ama writes#ama's stuff#dewey finn#dewey finn/reader#dewey finn x reader#dewey finn headcanons#dewey finn/reader headcanons#dewey finn x reader headcanons#school of rock#school of rock the musical#school of rock musical#school of rock headcanons#school of rock the musical headcanons#school of rock musical headcanons#ama answers#ama responds#ama replies
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Fic 1: Take Me Out to the Ballgame Tentative Title: (not the title) take me out to the ballgame Pairing(s): Jon Favreau / Tommy Vietor Characters: Ā Jon Favreau, Tommy Vietor Ao3 Rating: E Warnings: No archive warnings apply Additional Tags: Baseball AU ; Coming Out ; Bisexual Characters ; Dating ; Alternate Universe - Different Meeting Summary: Jon and Tommy meet playing baseball in high school and start to fall for each other, then Tommy moves away. Their epic love story continues when they end up on the same Minor League baseball team. The big question is, will they end up with a World Series ring or an engagement ring? Fic 2: Spirits that Iāve Cited Tentative Title: Spirits that I've cited Ā Pairing(s): Tommy/Lovett; background Emily/Jon, Alyssa/Erin Characters: Tommy, Lovett, Favs, Emily, Alyssa, Erin, Dan Ao3 Rating: tentative M (for psychological horror and possible sex) Warnings: a non-consensual kiss under the influence of possession might happen, this scene is not yet written Additional Tags: paranormal investigators, slow burn, reluctant colleagues to friends to lovers, mutual pining, angst, hurt/comfort, accidental internet stars, bed-sharing, coming-out, road trips, witches getting married, demonic possession, ghosts, mythical creatures, Monster of the Week, psychological but non-graphical horror, slightly unreliable narrator, intoxication, magical mind control, themes of bodily and mental autonomy, (past) abusive relationships (not between main characters), possession induced mental health problems, worldbuilding, happy ending Summary: Ā Itās a cold day in November when Tommy meets Lovett and his life turns upside down. Which shouldnāt be the worst thing, looking at it objectively.Ā
Because, objectively, Tommyās life already sucks. He is lonely, depressed, and Crooked Medium, the agency for paranormal investigations he co-owns with his ex-boyfriend Jared, is falling apart. Besides the shitty fact that he and Jared broke up, they constantly operate in the red, despite their best efforts. And itās just the garbage cherry on top of the dumpster sundae that Jared and their only other core member, Jon, hate each otherās guts. Jon is Tommy's friend, but more importantly, he is Crooked Medium's exorcist par excellence, and for a former priest Tommy thought he might be better at the whole 'turn the other cheek' thing. He supposes that probably explains the 'former' part. So of course he panics when Jon unexpectedly buys out Jaredās shares in the company and offers Lovett a one-year apprenticeship as a medium and buys Jared shares of the agency. Suddenly Tommyās faced with training a person who is not familiar with magic in one of the most dangerous jobs in the world, instead of relying on the experience Jared had. Despite the help from magical professors Alyssa and Dan, witch and shop-owner Erin, and their whole teamāto Tommy it feels like Lovettās credentialing next November is ages away. However, after a bonding experience involving ghost mice, Tommy slowly but surely discovers that Lovett isnāt an inconvenience at all. He is charming, attractive, hilarious, and way more talented than Tommy originally anticipated. Even their business improves, especially when they become an overnight internet sensation due to a malfunction. Instead of operating only in Boston, people across the country are now booking them to handle their mystical and paranormal problems. With each new case, Lovett learns moreāand Tommy learns more about Lovett. This is unfortunate, given that Lovett is technically Tommy's intern, and the last thing Tommy needs is a harassment scandal. Tommy, naturally good at ignoring things, decides to ignore it. Which works out fine, thank you very much. At least up until Alyssa and Erinās magical wedding in the woods. Or up until Lovett has a life-changing experience with a mirror. Or maybe even up until Lovett (plus Lovett's friend/household spirit Spencer) moves in. And just when Tommy thinks falling in love with his employee is his biggest problem, it turns out much more nefarious forces are at work. Fic #3: The gentle outline of the country we are building Tentative Title: The gentle outline of the country we are buildingĀ Pairing(s): Jon Favreau/Jon Lovett/Tommy Vietor, Jon Favreau/Jon Lovett, Jon Favreau/Tommy Vietor, Jon Lovett/Tommy Vietor Characters: Jon Favreau, Jon Lovett, Tommy Vietor, Dan Pfeiffer, Alyssa Mastromonaco, Cody Keenan, Michael O' Neill, Spencer Wong, Andy Favreau, Tanya Somanader, Travis Helwig Ao3 Rating: E Warnings: No archive warnings apply Additional Tags: DC era, LA era, pining, wrong number AU, polyamory, threesomes, jealousy, slow burn, friends with benefits, angst with a happy ending, getting together, smut, fluff, blowjobs, anal sex, rimming, dirty talk, sexting, drinking, marijuana, sex under mild influence of alcohol, friends to lovers.Ā AO3 (working) Summary: It takes spending the night in one room with a king-sized bed for Jon, Lovett, and Tommy to finally get it right after nearly a decade of trying. Ā AKA A story about Jon, Tommy, and Lovett getting together, aided and abetted by Jonās technological ineptitude, misunderstandings, love, friendship, and longing. Ā Expanded summary: Jon and Lovett embark on a charged, text-based flirtation without knowing the other after Jon texts the wrong number during the 2008 general election campaign. It feels like a summer fling that wouldnāt end, just like those times Jon had slept with Tommy back in Chicago. But both of them do end, but at least Jonās going to the White House with a new speechwriter and his best friend in tow. Jon thinks, not the right time then with Tommy, not the right time now with you, Lovett. Ā They write speeches and policies and learn lessons on how to build a country and a friendship. The first summer at the White House, Tommy starts taking Lovett to bed almost every night. Two years later, he stops, because Lovett knocks on his door one day and says, āI am leaving.ā Not quite the right time for you and me. Ā Lovett spends his days in LA writing things very different from what he used to but thinking thoughts about Jon and Tommy that arenāt all that different. Jon and Tommy skype him from Chicago when his show gets canceled, and Lovett thinks about how right they look together on the screen, like they belong to each other. Jon comes to LA and doesnāt leave. Tommy moves closer, but not close enough. They lose everything when November 2016 dawns and then build an empire from the ruins, and over the next few months, they think, maybe it wasnāt the right time then, and maybe we did not do this before because we were always meant to do this together. All of us. Ā Fic 4: Loving Him was Red - Azure Title: loving him was red - azure Pairing(s): Jon Favreau/Dan Pfeiffer, background Michael/Elijah Characters: Jon, Dan, Tommy, Lovett, Alyssa, Michael, Elijah Rating: E Warnings: No major warnings apply Additional tags: alternate universe, actors, hollywood, tabloids, love at first sight, BDSM, like lots of BDSM, spanking, flogging, humiliation, painplay, safeword use, failed scene, alcohol, alcohol abuse, drug use and abuse, divorce, bad at communication Summary: Rising star Dan Pfeiffer meets grown-up child actor Jon Favreau on the set of the movie that just might be their big break. It's a good old-fashioned Hollywood story. Boy meets Boy. Boy falls head over heels at first sight. Boy marries Boy. Boy ties Boy up and fucks him til he screams. But the Hollywood lights hit every dark shadow too and as the tabloids stir up gossip; as Jon spends more and more time at the club; and as Dan starts to wonder what comes next, the faultlines widen and their marriage falls into the abyss This is the first of a three fic arc chronicling the beginning, end, and re-beginning of an epic love story. Fic 5: Invisible String
Tentative Title: Ā Invisible String Pairing(s): Jon Favreau / Tommy Vietor Characters: Jon Favreau, Tommy Vietor Ao3 Rating: Explicit Warnings: NO WARNINGS Ā Additional Tags: affection, holding hands, chase sequence, shaving (face), mention of pod sponsors, wills & estates, cartoon villains, clothes sharing, Boston, plane flights, current day/LA era,Summary: Human boatshoe Tommy Vietor discovers he can claim a huge inheritance if he can prove he is married. If he does not, the $40 million fortune will go to the National Rifle Association. Best friend Jon Favreau steps up to help Tommy out. The NRA hires investigators to find information in order to break the will, chasing our boys all over Boston at one point.Ā
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about me as a writer
I was tagged by @oiivkawa <3 Thanks so much, this was super fun!
Tagging: @emeraldwaves @ivyfics @calmgeyama @ohoholyshit @yatatsukki and?? anyone else who wants to I guess lol, I feel like most ppl I know how been tagged ^^Ā
Iām putting my responses under the cut as well bc I know myself lmao, my responses can be long af ^^āā
1. How did you come up with your username and what does it mean? bleh I have two usernames, and both stories are embarrassing LOL Iāll go with my actual ao3 name though I guess?? When I was in middle (?) school I used to watch the anime HOTD, which is like...awful first off. Itās borderline hentai, shitty fanservice, the whole thing (donāt ask me why I watched it, bc who knows, the music was A+) but my favorite characterās name was Saya, and her servants would call her ladysaya, so thatās the explanation for that ha. I put the x in front because I used to be obsessed with x men and all the marvel/dc animated series, so it felt appropriate pft. Man, even talking about this brings back so many cringe worthy memories lmao forgive me.Ā
2. Which fanfic of yours has the most feedback? (Bookmarks/ Subscriptions/ Hits/ Kudos) for Haikyuu!! itās definitely Slipping Underneath, and for K Project itās There You Are <3Ā
3. What is your AO3 profile icon and why did you choose it? Itās Semi! The reasoning for this is because I have 3 fav Haikyuu!! characters: Tsukishima, Oikawa, and Semi. So I just try to distribute my love evenly tbh lol. I have a Tsukki icon on here and discord, Semi for AO3, and Oikawa is on my phone case ^^Ā
4. Do you have any regular/favourite commenters? ahhh I have several but Iām not aware if many of them have tumblr?? A lot of people who comment on every chapter of my multichapters are very special to me, I love them all! Ofc on here thereās @emeraldwaves @ivyfics @momomirasaki124 @uselessvalshit @starjem and then I have my other fav supporters @serviceace @caelestisxyz and @urikawa-miyukiĀ <3Ā
5. Is there a fanfic you keep going back to read again and again? Ah damn there are so many lmfao, I have a lot of fav fics and I donāt want to make this post super long. Please check out the rec posts Iāve done here and here ! Or also message me for specific types of fics <3 I will say though, one fic I always go back to read even though itās been YEARS is a kyoukao fic by potionwine!Ā
6. How many stories are you subscribed to? How many do you have bookmarked? I consider myself pretty picky, but I do read a LOT of fic, so I have a decent amount of both ^^ About 187 bookmarks, and 16 fic/author subscriptions!Ā
7. Which AU do you find yourself writing the most? Probably college?? even though I know thatās super broad, and all kinds of different AUs can be based in college but thatās how it is lol. I think thatās because I honestly donāt like redoing AUs?? I like experimenting and making up really weird shit and original scenarios as much as possible. Though, Iām sure you can find apparent trends across all my fics ^^Ā
8. How many people are subscribed and bookmarked to you in total?Ā haha...I have 76 user subscriptions, 436 general fic subscriptions, and 792 bookmarks. I donāt even know how thatās real lmao I feel so blessed that so many people enjoy my writing <3Ā
9. Is there something youād like to write about but are afraid of people judging you for it? (Feeling brave? If so, share it!) not really honestly, if I have an embarrassing or indulgent idea at this point, I just write it lmao idc but there are lots of types of fics I am scared to write just bc I donāt know if I could do them justice heh....
10. Is there anything youād like to be better at? Writing certain scenes or genres, replying to comments, updating better, etc.Ā yes lmao updating better would be something Iād LOVE to improve on ; ; Also writing action scenes too fff fuck action scenes
11. Do you write rarepairs or popular ships more often? Uhhh Iāve dabbled in both but yeah, more often than not I stick to more popular pairs just because I need content to motivate me pftt
12. How many stories have you posted on AO3 to this day? 50!Ā
13. How many stories do you have saved in/ with your writing program? Like WIPs? ffff WIPs...maybe like 4 or 5 at this point, including multichapters, and wow thatās actually not a lot, usually I have a ton and Iām drowning in them loool
14. Do you write down story ideas or just keep them in your head? Both...I usually just keep things in my head, but if a fic starts giving me issues, I like to plot it out
15. Have you ever co- authored a story? Nope, but Iād really love to at some point with a friend!Ā
16. How did you discover AO3? Uh I honestly donāt remember loool I think one day I sorta just saw that no one was using ff anymore and I was likeĀ āaightāĀ
17. Do you consider yourself to be a popular or famous author in your fandom(s) on AO3?Ā Not really lmao, I mean...my siren au does pretty well, but otherwise my fics get kinda slept on -shrug- it is what it isĀ
18. Do you have a nickname or fandom name for your readers? lol i do not
19. Was there an author who inspired or encouraged you to write? Well Iāve always loved to write so no, but @brynne-lagaao is a big reason I started writing sarumi fics back when I was in K fandom! And nowadays in the hq fandom, a lot of amazing authors really push me to keep writing ^^Ā
20. What writing advice would you give to a beginning author? donāt be afraid to write and write whatever you want basically lmao I know it can be daunting if you think your writing skills arenāt matching up with other authors, but the best thing you can do is practice, practice, and eventually you will see results! Also read a lot, reading other pplās stories really helps, and above all, just have fun with it!Ā
21. Do you plot out your stories or do you just figure it out as you go?Ā I try to have a basic plot (beginning, middle, end) because I used to just DIVE IN to stories and it was awful lmao I need some sort of guideline, even if itās small
22. Have you ever gotten a bad comment on a story? If so, what did you do? yes ofc, but I honestly try not to dwell on them because theyāre not worth it. I either ignore or delete in most cases
23. Is there a certain type of scene that you have a hard time writing? (Action, smut, etc)Ā action and smut are never easy for me lol
24. What story(s) are you working on now? well right now Iām working on two secret santa fics for iwaoi, as well as my two kurotsuki multichapters! I am also trying to write kacchako as a x-mas present for a friend lol
25. Do you plan your new projects before you finish your current ongoing story(s)?Ā ha yeah, itās a bad habit but I have no self-control
26. Do you have a daily writing goal set for yourself? I do not! I just try to write at least a little bit each day if I can, but thereās never a word minimum I try to reach ^^Ā
27. Do you think youāve improved as a writer since you first started? oh 100% lmao comparing some of my old fics from even a year ago to my fics now is eye openingĀ
28. What is your favourite story that you have written? Shaking in My Skull for sarumi, itās also the longest fic Iāve ever written and it holds a special place in my heart ; ; For kurotsuki itās gotta be Let My LoveĀ
29. What is your least favourite story that you have written? fuck me, Pencils and Paper LOL it was an earlier sarumi fic of mine and I just...hate it. Iām not even gonna link it LOLĀ
30. Where do you see yourself (as a writer) in 5 years? Still writing fanfic most likely, maybe some original stuff (I hope!)
31. Whatās the easiest part about writing? lmao nothing, writing is super hard work, sometimes even just thinking up ideas can be difficult, then thereās actually writing and making the ideas come to life, and donāt get me started on editing lmaooo writers are my heroesĀ
32. What is the hardest part about writing? Finding the motivation, at least for me. I struggle sometimes with it because Iāll have the time and inspiration but depression just kicks my ass every time fff
33. Why do you write? For me itās super therapeutic, I love the satisfaction of putting hard work into an idea you love and finishing it, and the high that comes with that. Plus sharing the story with others and getting positive feedback is a feeling that canāt be beat. Iāve always loved writing, I love how the possibilities are endless, and I hope I never stop <3Ā
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