#Nicole Pagan

[luegootravez]

Natalia Roth by © Nicole Pagán

[dylansansarette]

Dylan Sarette

My Love I miss you. My dear Dylan I love you!

[nudesnoises]

Nicole Pagan

[blackangelism]

i’ve been locked inside your heart-shaped box for weeks.

my instagram / ao3 / pinterest / spotify.

welcome to the bloody heaven of this hellsite.

angel dust / rabeya.

deranged teenage girl;

pseudo-poet, wanna-be writer.

free-use maternal figure.

professional dead slut.

no. 1 it girl ... guardian angel.

seven-headed eater: tumblrina;

natural born loser.

simply forever trying to not die:

blackangel; pagan.

pansexual; demigirl; afab.

taken by the prettiest boy to ever be - @xxinsanex-x.

indian.

4teen, in 361 days.

scorpio sol; aries luna; pisces ascendant.

literature, art, history, architecture, sculpture, cinema, anatomy, true crime, psychology, theology, angelology, mythology, music;

tumblr, hole, mayhem, lolita, ethel cain, nirvana, kiki rockwell, solya, elita, nicole dollanganger, the cure, the virgin suicides, lilya 4-ever, fyodor dostoyevsky, edwardia, type o negative, pearl, black swan.

notorious cutter; plagued by bpd, autism, adhd, chronic depression, gad, madd, insomnia.. all undiagnosed.

superiority-inferiority complex, occasional bouts of god complex.

askbox and dms are forever open for vents, rants, advice, comfort, images, opinions, literature, art: whatever.

fun fact: i'm ethel cain's #1 yt music listener.

@demxlxverx / @dollmaxxxing / @kirkwahmmett / @th3-c0ld-n0v3mb3r-r4in / @multipleheartbreakhotels / @casiotone-nati0n - my angels.

capitalists, endo systems, bigots of any sort, terfs, mdni blogs, zionists, trumpies - d.n.i.

p.s. i let my followers call me mother as a coping mechanism because i have severe mommy issues and i most likely will not live so long that i have children. to those who already are my children, you loves are called daughters of dust.

[nbwriteschaos]

writeblr re-re-intro...

...about hello again!! allow me to re-introduce myself. my name is grace, pen name nicole blue! whatever name you decide to associate me with, i'm still the same 21 year old pink haired caffeine drinking writer with a passion for all things strange, spicy and queer :) i've been writing over ten plus years and have finally found the courage to embrace my interests and be who i want to be as a future published author. so join me on my adventure of self-discovery and chaos!!! ...my writing my favorites are almost always changing, but i mainly enjoy writing/reading queer fantasy fiction. my goal is to get a little more spicy and mature with my work rather than stay in my comfort zone built up of young adult content. i tend to stick to mm and ff romances and don't intend to branch much farther out than that, but i will always stay diverse in regards to sexuality, race, gender, etc. there is no place for bigotry in my stories ever!!!! almost all of my stories will be created with the intention of representing the parts of life that a lot of people don't talk about. that includes mental and physical health. there is nothing more that i want than for my readers to relate to my writing and my characters, even if it's just one small thing. some of my favorite tropes and random things in stories are enemies to lovers, hurt/comfort, angst, fantasy creatures and monsters (especially fae!!), actual witchcraft/pagan rules and beliefs implemented into magic concepts, overly detailed descriptions, and sooo much more. this is a lot of stuff that will be a common theme in my stories and blog!! i also enjoy writing reviews from time to time, so i'll be posting those around here too. ((most of my writing will probably contain with darker themes and angst, so i will always leave detailed trigger warnings beforehand and of course advise readers to be 18+))

...my goals - eventually i want to actually finish a wip - i want to leave lots of book reviews and get in touch with indie authors to review their books for free!! - i would love to launch a blog of some sort soon - do more commissions!! other stuff: commissions info | goodreads | original posts/rambles/reviews | open to tag games and lists from anyone <3

[jennifernicolejewelry]

[orphanheirs]

Intro Post!💀🦇🕸🕯

Hey there! Figured I'd finally make one of these in case anyone who stumbles on this blog wonders what it's all about.

As it says in my blog description, this is an online space where I can compile and organize imagery, info, and anything else that inspires me related to the novel I'm developing. At least that was the original motivation for making this, but I'm definitely wanting to post some original content surrounding the story and the characters in it soon! This imaginary world has been obsessing me for a few years now, and I'm honestly chomping at the bit to share it with others.

What you'll see on here:

Images related to: gothic lit, the regency period in Europe/Britain, the late 16th/early 17th century, some earlier 18th century, ancient and prehistoric cultures, paganism, the occult, witchcraft, fairies, folklore, the countryside/forests, autumn, Halloween, demons/devils, romantic fashion, screenshots and gifs from films, illustrations/other artists' art that inspires me, and any other random pic that speaks to me or that gives me an idea even vaguely related to the story.

Text posts relating to: all the same subjects above, plus quotes from poetry and literature, other stories that inspire me, and writing advice posts/memes.

Hopefully soon: posts introducing my characters and sharing concept art, ideas, research I've done, who knows what else??

***Content warning for some imagery that may be disturbing (as can be expected, I guess, from a horror aesthetic/theme).***

What the novel's about:

It's [going to be] a gothic/dark fantasy/folk horror/historical fiction novel set in regency Britain and centering around the concept of Halloween and its origins/meaning. Think Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell meets Over the Garden Wall. Kinda. Characters include a bratty aspiring sorcerer, a demonic changeling who wants to be human, a witch, a sin eater, and a handsome devil. Over the course of the plot the question of whether the spirit realm(s) and mortal world should be kept separate will be a source of conflict.

I've had some aspects of this story/characters in my head since I was 14, so it's super special to me!

About me:

I'm an artist, writer, and musician. This is my first time trying to write anything as involved as a novel. I'm having loads of fun with it, though. I love music and reading and history, particularly fashion history, and anything related to the supernatural. The title of my blog is a reference to a song by Echo & the Bunnymen (though I think it's actually an inaccurate lyric :P ).

Ficton books I've been reading lately: Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell by Susanna Clarke, The Shadow of the Wind by Carlos Ruiz Zafón, Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles books, Edgar Allan Poe short stories

Nonfiction books I've been reading: The Devil and All His Works by Dennis Wheatley, Celtic Mythology by Philip Freeman, The Making of Victorian Values by Ben Wilson, Occult Features of Anarchism by Erica Lagalisse, Halloween by Lesley Pratt Bannatyne

Some musical artists I'm into recently: Cranes, Kate Bush, The The, The Smiths, Fiona Apple, Alex G, Caroline Polachek, Imogen Heap, Depeche Mode, Fad Gadget, Pinback, Steeleye Span, The Cleaners From Venus, Suzanne Vega, The Garden, Jessica Pratt

Visual Artists I've been thinking about lately: Edward Gorey, Aubrey Beardsley, Nicole Rodrigues, Francisco de Goya, Leonora Carrington, Brian Froud, Wendy Froud, Willam Blake, Edvard Munch, Harry Clarke

Some of my favorite films: The Witch, Valerie and Her Week of Wonders, The Wicker Man (original), Meshes of the Afternoon, Days of Heaven, The Thief and the Cobbler, The Masque of the Red Death

Regardless of why you're here, I sincerely hope you enjoy browsing around, and feel free to say hi! :) I would love to link up with other writers on here and make some new pals. Also feel free to like this post and I'll give you a follow!

WIP INTRO POST

~I love tag games and ask games! I may be slow to respond though. -

[centipedelamb]

୨୧intro post!!!୨୧

hi! i’m vivica but i go by viv or vivi!! :3

TW!!!!

i like medical gore and gore, nicole dollanganger, morute, and sensitive symbolism. if any of this is a trigger then DNI!!!!

anyways,

୨୧ 18 (almost 19)

୨୧ September Virgo

୨୧ I don't label my sexuality but I like everyone with a preference for men, and my pronouns are she/they/it (cis)

୨୧ I like creepy cute/morute fashion, dark fantasy, horror games and dark fantasy games (resi evil, silent hill, fatal frame, dark souls, Zelda, alice: madness returns, rule of rose), creepypasta, etc.

୨୧ I like doom metal, goregrind, nu metal, emo, grunge, experimental, riotgrrl/kinderwhore, and some indie music. I also listen to Nicole Dollanganger and Ethel Cain

୨୧ I'm a socialist/communist and pro Palestinian

୨୧ I'm a witch!! I primarily practice Nordic paganism but im starting to dip my toes in Celtic paganism

DNI IF:

Homophobic, racist, transphobic, sexist, self proclaimed "femcel", proana, prosh, 4chan user lol, under 16 (preferably minors DNI), conservative

[mariacallous]

[leam1983]

The Only War we Shouldn't Care About

You know what time it is. December's a few short weeks away, most stores are starting to freak about Christmas, I've already covered my shopping for Walt and Sarah - all that's left is for the seasonal classics to settle in. There's just one classic I don't want to deal with.

Up here in Montreal, the War on Christmas is this absurd Conservative bugaboo we look at derisively, as we tend to wish one another Happy Holidays. Legally, whether you celebrate or not, no matter if you're Jewish, Muslim, Sikh or Buddhist, you'll get a certain amount of time off from your employer, between mid-December and early January. That's all it is to us - time off. If you don't celebrate, your only recourse is to not decorate and, well, maybe show an ounce of patience for TV networks who won't have gotten the message. They obviously won't have; the Western-dominant culture practically demands its yearly re-appropriation of Pagan elements like the effective transformation of a tree into what's effectively a votive symbol, even if you do it from an Atheist perspective. We ask of the right to cling to memories of the last Season of Plenty, as that's what our ornaments are - the brief presentation of an evergreen tree into the affected appearance of a fruit-bearing tree - and I can definitely see how that can be overbearing.

Add to that the more overtly religious aspects - what actually gets the Kirk Camerons of this world crowing about persecution in the most laughable way imaginable; and it's easy to get the sense that for several people, Christmas Season can be, well, too much.

It explains the seasonal blues, the way some workplaces cut the Gordian knot and simply ban seasonal decorations altogether or the way others default to a neutral "Happy Holidays", up here. It's fair of some people to expect the legally-provided time off with no further requirements.

The thing is, some of my remote colleagues are very Christian. Not in the sense you might be familiar with if you're American; they're still a lot more into tolerance and general goodwill than what you might consider the norm for these types - and for them, Christmas isn't quite religious enough, as strange as it might seem. They're not pushing it into Cromwellian excess, but they do get the sense that this is a holiday meant to celebrate renewed hope, spiritually speaking - and I've seen Nicole's WFH office setup start to feature both a Santa Claus figure and a small Nativity diorama. Nicole is the sweetest Compliance Officer you'll ever meet, she's technically retired from the industry but joined us to round out her pension - and she's a hardcore believer, coming from first-generation Sicilian immigrants to Canada.

On the one hand, she's a "good" Theist, in that she isn't overbearing in her spirituality, the same way we avoid discussion topics like war and politics in our workplace-focused Slack channels. On the other, when she says "God bless you", she means it. It's always a bit of a shock, when you're used to everyone and their mother tossing that offhandedly. It makes the less tolerant Theists - usually Evangelicals - that we'll run into while shopping around town, sort of stand out like a sore thumb.

I try and conflate Christmas Season, considering all this, into a time where all of us are allowed to be openly spiritual in the broadest sense possible. If you don't practice anything and are a hardlining Atheist, you could say it's a great time for self-reflection and for preparation. It's a great time to focus on the more holistic aspects of existence, as even Skeptics like me could agree that meeting people can be good for the soul. Putting more time down at the soup kitchen isn't a question of racking up more Redemption Points or whatever, it's about meeting people at a time where my potential assistance will be most useful. Nights are getting cold, warm meals are starting to require some investment of time and resources, and if you have no warm place and no kitchen to work in, you're not going to get that. That's pretty much the extent of my spirituality. Unsurprisingly, it's gotten surprised looks out of some colleagues during our Zoom meetings.

"You're not worried? I mean, you lost people, haven't you? Don't you think you have a soul?"

The fact is I just don't know. Considering, why bother imposing my beliefs on anyone else? Why bother trying to pay lip service to anyone else's belief or lack thereof? We'll decorate the condo because Walt and Sarah love that stuff, but I've been the exact time to forget to pull out the boxes of decorations until December 20th. It'll look pretty for a week or two, then we'll pack it all back in - same as Halloween.

Maybe there is an afterlife, but it's not worth any respect if my accession to it depends on my putting the right little Caucasian Porcelain Baby in my Nativity scene made up of equally whitewashed characters in someone else's distorted story of Middle-Eastern displacement.

So, maybe consider putting your chips down on all the other seasonal symbols, instead: the clean smell of the first few snowfalls, the way cold air always feels cleaner than anything hanging in summertime urban haze, the taste of a good cup of hot cocoa after some exposure to the elements, the return of Sweater Weather, the way the season's blithe consumerism always intersects with your younger relatives getting "the best Christmas ever" every single year as their eyes light up at the sight of the One Thing They Wanted - or the way it all translates to base thoughtfulness between adults.

Kindness. Brotherly love. Friendship. The giving of oneself, really. Things anyone of any culture or religious background could agree on.

That, to me, seems essential. Far, far more than anything related to Christianity.

[luegootravez]

Natalia Roth by © Nicole Pagán

[dylansansarette]

Dylan Sarette

I am in love with you Dylan.

[nudesnoises]

Nicole Pagan

[woundedsaint]

tagged by @west-rivers to post my top ten songs of the month ♡🎧

my darling true - nicole dollanganger

bug like an angel - mitski

hard times - ethel cain

to someone from a warm climate (uiscefhuaraithe) - hozier

faceshopping - sophie

funtimes in babylon - father john misty

pitseleh - elliott smith

pagan poetry - björk

two headed mother - ethel cain

antidote - orion sun

tagging @lesbianjudasiscariot @youngestdaughtersyndrome @brigittefitzgerald @minotaurmutual

[jennifernicolejewelry]

[me-myself-and-my-fos]

Thinking about my ship with Gabriel and just,,,,,

Me being named Sigyn when we first meet, me thinking he’s Loki, and just slowly falling for each other as time goes on before he reveals his true identity. Us getting married and choosing to spend eternity together and somewhere along the way I adopt the name Nicole

But if we’re with any of the pagans he still calls me Sigyn until he’s revealed as an Archangel. And then he just openly calls me Nic. Sometimes to be a tease he calls me Sigyn but I think it’s cute