#Natt overthinks

[belafu]

[sauvechouris]

Tagged by @demoiselledefortune, thank you ^^ I... may have started this last monday and procrastinated to the point i had to edit some of the answers, oops.

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fave colour: green, blue, and purple

currently reading: Si nous étions adultes / Even though we’re adults / Otona ni natte mo by Takako Shimura. I’ve just finished volume 4 (as of today-today not last monday), in time for volume 5 this month. It’s maybe not for everyone since the premise is about adultery, but i’m enjoying the way it shows many sides of a messy situation. (One of the protagonists got married pretty much just to not be unmarried anymore because christmas cake, she’s been ignoring/repressing her attraction to women since at least high school, and when suddenly, one evening where her husband isn’t there, a pretty lady chats her up at a bar, it unlocks some stuff for her. That’s valid, it’s sympathetic, but it’s also completely unfair to her husband and the lady who’s got it bad for her, and they all know it - including all her in-laws.) Plus, as the title says, the main characters are adults (35), which is not the most common thing in yuri, so i appreciate it.

Technically i’m also 3/4th of the way into a book about H.PI and hy.persensibility (that curiously makes very little mention of a.dh.d despite titling itself with and overusing the word “hyper”) but i paused it and now can’t make myself get back to it.

 ...and at the same time, i’ve slowly (because it’s mostly very short chapters, so it’s easy to pick up and put down) been reading S€x Education 120%, which sounds like a po/rn title (and being published by Taifu (/Ototo) doesn’t help), but is, in fact, about sex ed for girls, and pretty modern about it? constantly amused by that :D (wlw-inclusive too, + no chapter about it yet but they’ve namedropped asexuality, so i’m hoping for something in volume 3.) And i’ve been slowly getting Les c@rnets de l’apothicaire after reading a friend’s copies, so i’m rereading these as i buy them (and having a lot of fun with them, love the protag’s mix of being observant but mostly uninterested and unimpressed with her courtly environment, very down to earth, but a bit of a gremlin for poisonous stuff - even the slow setting up of the eventual m/f romance is fun, it’d been a while since that happened for me!), and i randomly picked up the last Fitz trilogy again, by the middle to reread specific bits of it, but i’ve reread them now and i keep going back to it anyway. j’arrête quand je veux etc

So, a bit all over the place. Plus some fic. Meanwhile, my actual to-read pile is staring in judgement from its undisturbed corner.

last song: (last monday:) Shin jidai wa kono mirai da sekaijuu zenbu kaeteshimaebaaaa 🎶 (thanks to @soveryanon who shared Ado’s songs in the latest OP movie, i’ve been stuck on them since because w o w (even though i know pretty much nothing about OP, it’s not even a “real” proxy fandom that i watch pass by and wave at when it does, stop making it sound appealing when i can’t stand the artstyle...))

As of today : the Keiko and Am@Lee covers of Synchronicity, thanks to this art yesterday.

last series: ...I’m. not very good at watching series. at all. But if the question means the last one i watched in its entirety, that’s the first cour of Spy family, if it means one i’m following it’s the current Pokémon anime (loosely), and if it means the last i watched an episode of, that’s Pokémon too but a different era of it. (I do want to watch the Man me a sand show, it’s just a matter of making myself believe there are enough hours in a day to watch one (1) episode and then executing the function.)

last movie: a rewatch of PMMM Rebellion story, i think? if rewatches don’t count, that’d be... the red panda movie...? i’m not a big movie watcher either

currently working on: making a character from a friend’s rp. I’ve never done that and have spent a good few days overthinking, even though, from what i understand, what we have to do is not complex by rp standards. ^^”” Finally found a name (last monday), now i need some more setting info from her, and to decide if i want to be practical or Mustang-on-a-rainy-day level of comically inefficient when it comes to abilities. (Still the case today.)

Also trying to see if i can trick google into letting me buy the FEH sparks, which is very frustrating both because i don’t like wanting to give money to the gacha, even if at least it’s for something guaranteed, and because it’s not working. (which is for the better, but ugh, unfair practices.)

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share 10 different favorite characters from ten different pieces of media in no particular order, then tag 10 people 🎥🎬📺

1. Fitz 😔 (L’Assassin royal) - disaster, life ruiner, still the best example i’ve seen so far of how real first-person pov can feel and how saying that Literature is differencied from genre fiction by ‘having something to say about human nature’ is bullshit

2. Tohru (Fruba) - I can’t not pick her, and i can’t be objective about it. But in my heart i’m also picking Yuki and an armful of others (and nodding at you for Shigure).

3. Soren (FE) - He’s a very empathetic young man a bitch, he’s gay, he has a Fruba-level backstory that ripped my heart out even though i still don’t have the confirmation that what’s going on is going on, he’s a tactician who thought that spitting racist slurs at a giant (and very sweet) tiger unprovoked was a sound idea, I love him and want to read all the fic about him but first i have to actually finish his games

4. NHS (MDZS) - a bitch too, very pretty, and characters being more clever or capable than they appear works well on me. Plus i read mdzs fresh off of Berseria and he did a brother revenge, who else was i supposed to fixate on.

5. Homura (PMMM) - /*lies down* Rebellion... episode 10 too of course but Rebellion...........

6. Velvet (Tales.of Berseria) - /*points at the mess that is her handling of her grief, trauma and revenge* she has so many problems, and the story slaps her in the face with all of them (and sometimes it makes for the best moments /*puts on True will*). single-handedly responsible for my pick of mdzs fave because she’d given me many emotions about characters out for revenge for their family, while doing character work about it that mdzs didn’t have the space (or interest) to do with a last-chapter twist reveal. also i’m gay

7. Haruko Daichi (Shimanami Tasogare / Eclat(s) d’âmes) - many emotions: happy&wlw edition. One of the emotions is that time she punched a wall hard enough that it left a mark in it and her wife framed it. Also everything else with walls, walls are good for metaphors in this manga ;v;

8. Tomoyo (CCS) - I forget who called her the cutest little lesbian who ever did lesbian, but they were right, + positive unrequited crushes are a direct ticket to my heart. May we all have it together like she does when dealing with that and may we all have a fraction of her productivity, holy shit

9. i refuse to choose between members of the original (= pre-Tokyo) TRC family

10. not going to choose between Gilbert (blorbo, direct call-out for me) and Oz (very good character writing) either (Pandora Hearts)

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I never know who to tag either, but since this one mainly has questions where the answer must have changed even if one has done it before, it’s fine maybe : @autheane, @potahun, @sazandorable, @ezzoh, @runawaycarouselhorse, @littleragondin, and i already tagged Cass earlier - only if you want to, of course.

[kimonobeat]

RIRI Lyrics: Forever feat. Shimizu Shota

English translation and romanization below the cut.

ENGLISH

Promise me just one thing Don’t disappear and leave me all alone Without saying a word While I’m feeling profoundly sad

No matter how hard things may seem We’ll stand up and face it together Baby I love you   So I’m sure we’ll be just fine

I’ll just keep laying eyes on you To keep the world you and I live in Shining forever and ever There’s nothing else I need

All you need Is one single thing to believe in You showed me what love was You’re everything to me

I guess I’m overthinking it If I ever got lost In a world where you didn’t exist...

...Do you think I’d find you again? Those are kind of dreams I’ve been having Even with you here beside me

I’ll just keep laying eyes on you To keep the world you and I live in Shining forever and ever There’s nothing else I need

All you need Is one single thing to believe in You showed me what love was You’re everything to me

Everything that has a form Will disappear in the end, no doubt But the feelings we share won’t I bet you they’ll repeat over and over again No matter what tomorrow may bring Forever more

I’ll just keep laying eyes on you To keep the world you and I live in Shining forever and ever There’s nothing else I need

All you need Is one single thing to believe in You showed me what love was You’re everything to me

ROMAJI

hitotsu dake chikatte fukai kanashimi no naka de nanimo iwazu hitori de inaku natte shinaide

donna ni muzukashiku omoeru koto demo issho ni tachimukau kara Baby I love you kitto daijoubu

futari no sumu sekai ga zutto kagayaku you ni tada, kimi wo mitsumete’ru hoka ni nanimo iranai

shinjite’ru mono nante hitotsu areba sore de ii ai wo oshiete kureta kimi ga subete dakara

kangae-sugi kana moshi kimi no inai sekai ni mayoikonda nara

chanto, mou ichido kimi wo mitsukeru kana? sonna yume wo mite’ru kimi ga tonari ni itemo

futari no sumu sekai ga zutto kagayaku you ni tada, kimi wo mitsumete’ru hoka ni nanimo iranai

shinjite’ru mono nante hitotsu areba sore de ii ai wo oshiete kureta kimi ga subete dakara

katachi aru mono wa kanarazu saigo ni wa kiete shimau dakedo futari kasaneta omoi wa kienai kitto kurikaesu donna asu demo Forever more

futari no sumu sekai ga zutto kagayaku you ni tada, kimi wo mitsumete’ru hoka ni nanimo iranai

shinjite’ru mono nante hitotsu areba sore de ii ai wo oshiete kureta kimi ga subete dakara

[demonsgold]

Nathan to Natt

I am well aware Natt has a large repository of skill sets, and he can come across as OP or Mary Sue. I’ve talked about this status in other posts, so I won’t elaborate further here.

Nathan, the human who Natt was before he served Pitch, does not have all these skills and deep pools of knowledge. They are the same origin, but not the same entity, not anymore.

Nathan liked to doodle, in the margins of his notes or on note pads during phone calls. He didn’t pursue it farther than a casual hobby and a way to not fidget.

Natt has worked to learn how to draw properly, using proportions and illustrating people and places. He’s not the best, but he’s not the worst. Most often, Natt draws his friends in various outfits from every day expected to ridiculous and out of character.

Nathan wasn’t exactly clumsy, but he was no Fred Astaire. Some of this was anxiety and shyness, and frankly, he saw no reason to pursue it when he had no friends and no interest in being on stage.

Natt has watched videos, worked with people, practiced on his own to learn to dance. He actually enjoys it a lot now that his anxiety has lessened enough for him to stop overthinking. Natt’s better dancing by himself, or with a partner who’s not very close. He gets nervous and too focused on not knocking into the other person when they’re closer.

Nathan didn’t really sing, but then again, he didn’t really speak much either. He and his mother would sing with the radio sometimes, as you do, but they didn’t have any particular skill, it was just fun.

Natt is still prone to bouts of quietness, and doesn’t sing much. He cares less if he’s overheard, because living long enough does that to you, but really is more of a hummer most days.

The answer to a lot of these things is that Natt has less anxiety and shyness in a lot of situations, though they aren’t gone. With nothing specific to do but spread nightmares, he needed things to take up his time. Nathan and Natt both are voracious readers, and that’s gone a long way in both Natt knowing so many random things, as well as teaching himself new skills.

Is Natt OP? Maybe, but it’s because he’s a lonely boy with a lot of time on his hands.

[belafu]

If you know, you know.