#NCT female additon

[misunhye]

THE KANG-AHN FAMILY TREE

as of january 23, 2024

LEFT TO RIGHT Kang Misun, Kang Sumin, Ahn Jaesun, Ahn Jiho, Ahn Jaesuk, Kim Moonsun, Kang Wonhae, and Shin Yejin.

tw grooming, infidelity, power imbalance, illegal relationship, age gap, brief mention of miscarriage

In 1992, Kang Sumin was a freshly debuted idol when she met Ahn Jaesun. She was sixteen and he was twenty-three. He was one of YG’s music producers. In 1994, she was eighteen and pregnant with Ahn Jaesun’s first child. Shortly after, her pregnancy was announced and netizens were appalled that she was unwed and a teen mother.

This did not deter her. She wanted to continue her career as an idol, and she wouldn’t stop until she was able to. She went to far as to sending her newborn son, Ahn Jiho, to Texas with her parents. When YG dismissed her, putting her on an indefinite hiatus, she went back to Jaesun, leaving Jiho in Texas.

Sumin’s second son, Ahn Jaesuk, was born in 1997, and he, too, was sent to Texas.

Two years after Jaesuk’s birth in 1999, it was announced she’d be making a comeback. In a drunken high, she had an affair with one of her backup dancers.

One year later in 2000, she gave birth to her first daughter and final child, Kang Sunhye.

In 2009, it was widely accused across South Korea that Sumin’s daughter was the result of her affair and that her biological father being one of Sumin’s backup dancers. Anything she had left of a career was killed. Sumin and Jaesun battled in court over custody over their children, Jaesun even having Sunhye take a DNA test. The media was right, Sumin had an affair and it resulted in Sunhye. The court would rule in Sumin’s favor, saying a child should never be without their mother.

In 2011, Sumin and Jaesun divorced and their three children lived with Sumin, having visits to Jaesun ever so often until they all turned nineteen.

It is noted that Sumin and her children, especially her daughter, do not have the best relationship.

The rest of Sumin’s future is incomplete.

BIRTH NAME Kang Sumin

BIRTHDAY November 29, 1976

OCCUPATION Idol formerly Unemployed currently

FACECLAIM Yunjin Kim

Ahn Jaesun married eighteen-year-old pregnant Kang Sumin when he was twenty-five. As he worked at YG as one of their music producers, he met sweet Kang Sumin when she debuted. While he was overjoyed at their children’s birth, he noticed she wasn’t. He wanted their children to live with them, but her word was final.

Jaesun filed for divorce in 2009 and fought for custody over all three of his children— DNA be damned. The cases took two years to come to a ruling. When the court ruled in Sumin’s favor in 2011, giving him only a few visits per year, he was devastated and dived headfirst into his work. This in turn slightly damaged his relationships with his children but constantly tries to make up for it ever since 2019.

He is one of YG’s best producers, his most prominent works being for 2NE1, Big Bang, and Epik High. When his sons individually turned nineteen, they lived with him until they got settled on their feet. Misun was an idol by the time she turned nineteen.

In October 2019, he met model and crowned Miss Korea 2015 Shin Yejin, who was twenty-seven at the time. A month later in November, they were dating. They have been dating ever since, and many question when he will propose to her.

It is noted that even though he is constantly trying to be a better father, his children and him have a strained relationship.

The rest of Jaesun’s future is incomplete.

BIRTH NAME Ahn Jaesun

BIRTHDAY March 7, 1969

OCCUPATION Music producer currently

FACECLAIM Choi Wonyoung

Ahn Jiho is an actor and got his popularity from Reply 1988 in 2015. As a child, it was very obvious to him that he was the odd man out in the family. He was the only one to not go into music, his name wasn’t close to either of his parents’ like Sunhye and Jaesuk’s were. He felt rather ignored in the family, and that’s what he was. His father loved him, but he loved work and Sumin more.

Jiho was closed off from his siblings, preferring to be in his room alone. If he had the choice of riding home in the car with his family or walking home in the rain, he’d choose walking in the rain. He had a warped impression of them, thinking they thought he was strange for not liking the same things they all did.

Jiho was always interested in film and literature, finding the universes people could create fascinating. He found that while he couldn’t write a story for anything, he was rather strangely good at lying. The thought unsettled him, but he was determined to be apart of people’s versions of their favorite character. He put the lying to use, being in theater in school and begging his grandparents to put him in acting classes.

When his mother’s affair was revealed, he was relieved but then distraught. His mother had made a mistake, she wasn’t one of them. But Misun wasn’t one of them, either— not completely, anyway. Yet she also was one of them. And he wasn’t.

His first major acting role was in Reply 1988 as Jang Minki. His popularity and fans quickly grew, earning him more offered roles. He has won Best New Actor and Best Supporting Actor for his role in Reply 1988.

He has since starred in notable shows like While You Were Sleeping, Squid Games, Sweet Home, and recently known for his role as the main male lead in My Demon. He is currently filming for the American horror movie, The Name Game.

It is noted that Jiho is not as close to Misun as Jaesuk is, but he’s also not close to Jaesuk. Jiho thinks of himself as the black sheep in the family and avoids them.

BIRTH NAME Ahn Jiho

BIRTHDAY September 2, 1995

OCCUPATION Actor currently

FACECLAIM Yoon Dowoon

Ahn Jaesuk is a songwriter and has most likely taken part in writing the lyrics to your favorite song. He has notable achievements for both Korean and American music, such as multiple SHINee and The Weeknd and Harry Styles songs.

As the middle child, he’s always tried to maintain a balance with his siblings and parents and grandparents. He hated conflict, and always tried to avoid it. He tried protecting Misun as best as he could, until he could no longer bare Misun hurt at the hands of Sumin. He was rather relieved when Sumin’s affair was revealed and their parents were divorced, but never once thought differently of Misun.

Long before their divorce, he was twelve when he realized his parents weren’t the parents you see in movies. He was hurt, and angry, but soon that turned into emptiness. It was more of an expectation than anything. He felt nothing when they divorced.

Jaesuk started his career in 2018 with his father at YG Entertainment, his relationship to his father being a helping hand. He has since wrote songs for BLACKPINK, Big Bang, Winner, and TREASURE. He has also wrote songs for other groups such as SHINee, NCT, aespa, TXT, IVE, and more.

It is noted that Jaesuk and Misun are the closest within the family, as their other family are all estranged to one another.

BIRTH NAME Ahn Jaesuk

BIRTHDAY April 9, 1997

OCCUPATION Songwriter currently

FACECLAIM Yoo Taeyang

Kim Sunhee, better known as Moonsun, is a retired South Korean soprano opera actress. When she was twenty-one, she met Kang Wonhae and would later marry him in 1973. Three years later, after multiple attempts to have a child and having two miscarriages, she had her daughter, Sumin.

After having not slept for six days with various attempts to hurt herself or Sumin with Wonhae stopping her, she checked herself into a mental hospital where she was soon diagnosed with postpartum depression. She went on a three year hiatus with her career in order to get better and take care of her daughter. However, as she got back into her career, her relationship with her daughter worsened as she was always busy.

Sunhee is part of the reason Sumin was able to debut and have a comeback after her hiatus, as she knows ‘important people’. She was disappointed when she got pregnant the first time, swearing to cut her off but never did. She never understood why Sumin kept doing it to herself.

It feels like Sumin’s children are more of her own, especially considering she was the one who raised them. She has a strange, polite relationship with Jiho, a relationship where she knows she can trust Jaesuk, and Misun is the baby of the family. She’s much more coddled than the other two as she’s the youngest and only girl.

Besides a three year long hiatus, Sunhee is well known to older citizens for her voice and variety personality.

It is noted that Sunhee and Misun had a good relationship, but lately Misun’s backed away due to some realizations.

BIRTH NAME Kim Sunhee

BIRTHDAY November 1, 1950

OCCUPATION Opera Singer formerly

FACECLAIM Nam Giae

Kang Wonhae is a retired piano and music teacher. He met Kim Sunhee while teaching her youngest sister how to play the piano, and they would soon marry and have a daughter, Sumin.

Wonhae was disappointed Sumin had a child early, but he was the reason Sunhee never kicked her out or cut her off financially. He was the one who took care of his grandchildren first, he was the second person to hold Misun. He was polite with Ahn Jaesun, took him in like a son.

Wonhae always tried to involve Jiho, but he would always refuse. He’d always calm Sunhee down when she got too angry, but sometimes things were so damning, he’d lose his mind. Wonhae willingly took Jaesuk to his ball games, and was always there for each one. He encouraged Misun to audition for entertainment companies.

In 2002, he would retire early from his job as a teacher to focus taking care of his grandchildren. When they would move in with their mother after the divorce, he would soon pick up piano again and play the piano for their church.

It is noted that there is no dislike between Wonhae and Misun. She knows he is there for her.

BIRTH NAME Kang Wonhae

BIRTHDAY July 19, 1950

OCCUPATION Piano teacher formerly Music teacher formerly

FACECLAIM Kim Sunhee

Shin Yejin is a model and was crowned Miss Korea 2015. In 2019, she was twenty-seven when she met fifty-year-old Ahn Jaesun. He would ask her out and by the next month, they were dating.

Not much is known about Shin Yejin. She has been on the cover of Vogue Korea, W Korea, and more. She was one of the female love interest in Big Bang’s Let’s Not Fall In Love music video.

It is noted that Misun and Yejin don’t have much of a relationship, due to her busy schedule. Yejin tries to have a relationship, though.

BIRTH NAME Shin Yejin

BIRTHDAY February 26, 1992

OCCUPATION Model currently

FACECLAIM Jo Jihyun

[nct-perrie]

The Choice - Part 1 The News

Summary: Perrie gets devastating news about her mother and grandmother. When she goes back to France, Perrie finally has time to think about what she wants in the future. Will it be to leave SM and stay home or will she go back?

Warnings: Mention of family death, mention of domestic and verbal abuse, negative thoughts, insecurities, personality disorder, implied eating disorder, implied depression, and anxiety. 

MCountdown studio, NCT 127 dressing room, March 3rd, 2018, 7:37am

Perrie was sat in the makeup chair, her stylist re-applying eyeliner to her eyes. Perrie figured it wasn’t easy for her stylist considering the fact that her head kept swaying side to side as a result of her tiredness from earlier rehearsals. On her sides, she could hear some laugher from her members and some snoring from others. 

They had to go on stage in about two and half hours but they had just finished pre-rehearsal and after that, exhaustion had hit Perrie at full force. However, she pushed through it in order to re-watch the rehearsal.

While many idols rewatched their performances, Perrie did it almost obsessively. Not because she thought she was good but because she needed to do better. Anytime she watched herself all she could see were her mistakes and where she could do better. To her, her expressions weren’t good enough, her moves weren’t smooth enough, her voice sounded odd, and many other things. All of these things ended up frustrating Perrie to no end. 

Being in NCT was a dream to Perrie, especially in the beginning. But, she didn’t realize just how hard people would come after her in every aspect of her life. Whether it was about her performance or just her regular off stage self. People just found anything to criticize. These thoughts kept her up all night, her mind running non-stop on what she could do to improve. It wasn’t the healthiest, Perrie knew that in the back of her mind, but she didn’t care. 

Even with these feelings, Perrie kept them to herself. She didn’t want to bother the people around her with her insecurities, no matter how bad they got. In her mind, they were her problem and she shouldn’t burden those around her with her problems. This mindset was drilled into her by a young age without her fully realizing it. 

However, despite her thinking this, she tends to forget just how well her members knew her. They knew it wasn’t easy being the only female in a male-dominated group and that people watched her every move just to point something negative out. It was like that with every idol, but seemed to be even worse for her. They also knew that it was affecting her more than she was letting on. She barely slept, had to be reminded to eat and sometimes the members had to watch her eat just to make sure she wasn’t lying and was actually consuming the food. Other times, she would spend hours in the studio, dancing herself ragged until someone - usually Johnny or Yuta - would have to drag her home. 

They would try to talk to her about it, but Perrie would either get very defensive or she would just brush it off and say she was fine. Other times, if they kept pushing, she would get overwhelmed and it would lead to her completely shutting down or going into a full blown panic attack. Therefore, they tried to help her as much as possible without being obvious. 

Now as Perrie was watching the rehearsal for the fourth time - or was it the fifth, Perrie had lost count - she was able to point out another mistake. She didn’t stop watching, until the phone was ripped out of her hands. 

“Yah, what are you doing?” Perrie turned her head around to face the culprit who was none other than Doyoung. 

“Yah? Is that the way to talk to someone who saved you your favorite sandwich?” Doyoung did in fact, in his hands, have a ham and cheese sandwich that he was holding out to her. 

Even with the food in front of her, she held her gaze on him. Her eyes glaring holes into his. Doyoung however, didn’t let up and basically forced the sandwich into her hands. 

“I’m not - “ Perrie started to speaking but Doyoung beat her to it. 

“Not hungry? You haven’t eaten at all today and barely ate anything yesterday.”

Doyoung noticed Perrie was about to interrupt him and quickly start to talk again. 

“You look lethargic okay. You need to eat something and before you say that you shouldn’t eat before going on stage. We still have two hours for it to settle - which it will. So eat.” 

Doyoung wasn’t lying either when he said she looked lethargic. Even with the makeup on, she still looked unnaturally pale, her eye bags still stood out, and she just looked completely exhausted. 

Perrie let out a sigh and glanced down at the food in her hand. Despite wanting to keep insisting she wasn’t hungry, her stomach made it very obvious once it let out a growl loud enough for both of them to hear. This lead to Doyoung raising an eyebrow and motion towards to sandwich. 

Perrie finally relented and started to unwrap the sandwich. She was thinking of eating a few bites and then throwing out the rest but Doyoung had pulled up a chair next to her and sat down, refusing to move until she finished it. 

Honestly speaking, Perrie understood why they did this, but it still pissed her off because it made her feel like a child who couldn’t take care of herself. If she didn’t want to eat the whole thing, she shouldn’t have to. That was what she thought. 

But with him right by her side, she slowly ate the whole thing piece by piece. Once she finished, Doyoung took the wrapped and patted her head. He then left and Perrie let her face drop. Even with that small sandwich, her stomach already started to act weird and she was starting to feel nauseous. Part of her just wanted to throw up because she knew that feeling would go away then but she decided just to sit there and hope that the feeling passes before she has to go on stage. 

It took about an hour of her just sitting there, for her queasiness to go away for the most part. By then, she had about another hour or so before heading to the stage. 

Perrie had moved to one of the couches in the waiting room and was going through her phone, which she had to basically beg Doyoung for it back and the only reason he gave it back was if she promised not to watch the pre-rehearsal again. So instead, she was going through social media. Usually she would play games with Haechan and Jungwoo but right now she just did not feel the need to interact with anyone - even her closest friends. 

While scrolling through her phone, their manager had entered the room with a somber expression on his face. He headed towards Perrie and asked for her to follow him. This was a bit odd because usually he spoke to all the members at once, but it wasn’t a huge difference that had the members noticing something was really wrong.

 Her manager had led her out to a private section in the hallway. She didn’t think much of it at first until she caught the solemn expression on his face. His eyes held a mixture of grief and pity. 

“Perrie, your grandfather called,” Was how he began and Perrie immediately became worried thinking something happened to him. 

“What? Why? Is he okay?”

Her manager just shook his head. 

“Your grandfather is fine, he called me to inform you about your mother and grandmother.” 

There was an instant dread that filled her. She knew her grandmother was battling cancer so her first thought was that something serious had happened. This was correct, but for the wrong reasons. 

Her manager continued. “There was an accident. Your grandmother didn’t make it and your mother,” he had to clear his throat. “your mother is in bad condition at the hospital. From what your grandfather told me, they aren’t sure she is going to last long.” 

Perrie remained silent. In a way, she heard what he said, but she couldn’t process it. It felt like it flowed into one ear than out the other. She could physically see her manager looking at her waiting for her to say something, but she couldn’t formulate an answer. 

Instead of focusing on her emotions, she pushed the more negative ones in the back so that she could at least try and get some words out. 

“Did.. did my grandfather say anything else?” Her words came out monotoned and Perrie felt like she was in a daze. 

Her manager nodded. “He said he’s looking for a ticket back to France for the two of you...” Her manager had stopped talking but Perrie could tell there was something lingering on the tip of his tongue. 

“but?” Perrie questioned. 

“You’re performance is in less than an hour -” 

Her manager kept a firm look on her face in order to catch any changes but there were none. 

“ - There isn’t any time to fix everything. We have to be one stage in about 35 minutes and we cannot change the choreography or give your parts to someone else. At least not without prerecording backup vocals.” 

Perrie knew she should be pissed that they were forcing her to perform but honestly, she didn’t really feel anything at that moment. In the end, all she did was nod. 

“After the performance, we can get you a ride to your grandfather and figure out what your schedule will be afterwards. But, just get through this next half an hour, okay?” 

Again, Perrie just nodded.

Her manager seemed to since she wanted to be alone so he rested a hand on her shoulder and then went to pass. Before he left, Perrie reached out for him. 

“Don’t tell the others. At least not now.”

In all honesty, Perrie knew she should lean on those who would support her. But all she can think about is the pity and the looks she would receive and that was the last thing she wanted to deal with. Getting those looks and words of comfort would make it feel real to Perrie and she didn’t want to feel those things - at least not yet. 

The next 30 minutes, Perrie didn’t even realize they passed. The whole time all she did was stand in the hallways and then the next moment she was being ushered to the stage where she was getting her mic pack put on. The stylist was also going around and touching up everyone’s makeup. 

“Are you okay? Your eyes are a bit red?” Her stylist was the one to bring her attention back to the present. 

Perrie just let out a hum and then turned and looked at the small mirror the stylist was holding up. Her eyes were in fact red and Perrie didn’t realize that this entire time she was holding back tears until she saw them gloss up. 

However, instead of crying, she forced these feelings down and just walked away. It wasn’t a nice thing to do but she wasn’t thinking about that, all she was thinking about was getting through these next few minutes and then going to her grandfather. More than anything, he was the only one Perrie wanted to be around right now. 

After the countdown to the performance ended, Perrie was the first one off the stage. She didn’t stop to talk to the other members like she usually did. All she did was head straight to her manager so that she could get away from this place and go to where she was actually needed. 

The whole time she was on stage, she was wishing she was anywhere else. Even though no one except a few of people knew about what happened, she felt like all the eyes on her were filled with pity. 

Before she could get to her manager a staff member stopped her. If she was thinking straight, she would have realized that he was just stopping her in order to get her mic and mic pack but during that moment all Perrie could see was someone in her way and someone who was stopping her from being where she needed to be. 

Perrie didn’t mean to snap at the person nor did she mean to basically toss the mic headset at the poor guy, but like previously stated, she did not care about any of this and she wasn’t thinking straight. She didn’t even hear Johnny call for her or his apology on her behalf to the staff member. 

Before anyone else could stop her or try and talk to her, she managed to make it away from where the majority of everyone was. She found her manager and instead of him saying anything to her, he just motioned for her to follow him. Perrie realized that the path he was leading her down was to the outside and where all the cars were parked.

On the way down there, when they were finally alone, he had told her that they managed to get a flight booked to France that leaves in about 2 hours. She was going to meet her grandfather at the airport and then they would both leave from there. He made sure to try and keep it as low key as possible to lessen the chance of people spotting them and bombarding them at the airport but they both knew that these precautions will most likely fly out the window once people knew that Perrie was at the airport. 

The next hour to the airport was completely silent. Perrie didn’t do anything except look outside the window. About five minutes into the car ride, her phone started going off and instead of looking at whoever was messaging her, she just shut it off. 

When she got to the airport it was relatively quiet. She was given a cap and a mask but they are not a fool proof plan to prevent people from recognizing her. Eventually one person noticed her, then one turned into two, two into three, and so on. In less than 20 minutes, it was on the internet that she was at the airport. By the time the airport started getting crowded, she managed to find her grandfather which was a good thing because he was the only one who was able to prevent her from saying some rude things to the people around them. 

Time wasn’t something that was apparent to Perrie, everything seemed to have stopped the second she got the message earlier this morning. The next thing she knew was that her grandfather was ushering her into the seat next to him on the plane and he had sat down next to her. 

[taejeonie]

markhee on knowing bros

MARKHEE ON KNOWING BROS YAYAYAYAYAY

but literally i want nct to appear on knowing bros p l e a s e

hmm i think by the time of their guesting, the public already knew of their relationship

but tbh hypothetically speaking,,people really wouldn’t know the boys are dating someone until they’re like old or something...i think they’d hide it pretty well :>> BUT FOR THE SAKE OF ME AND ANON WANTING MARKHEE TO APPEAR ON A VARIETY SHOW HERE U GO

the announcement was made about two and a half years into their relationship,,,a staff member ratted them out ://

most of them were supportive ofc!!!

minority of the people weren’t supportive of them mostly bc they don’t want them dating but then again we’re not talking about them ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ

most of the comments were like

“MARKHEE YAY <333” “I KNEW THEY WERE DATING!!!” “they look so cute together 🥺” “i can tell they would really last for a long time” “i hope sm wouldn’t break them up >:((“ “ahh young love...this is too cute >.<“

what amazed most of them were how professional they were for the past years,,esp bc they were group mates

this is probably one of the reasons why sm was kinda chill about the situation

but then a lot of people worried about this also

like what if they fought?? or had a misunderstanding??

but i think they’re both in the correct minds to not mix work with your personal life :)) bc that’s a no-no !!

okay back to knowing bros

sm probably did it for publicity but it gave markhee stans content anyways

markhee were asked what show they would want to appear on and they both thought knowing bros would be a nice option :>

so now here they are!!!

they heard knocking from the classroom door and when they turned around they see taehee’s head popping out of the door frame

“hellooo!! (*^▽^*)”

“TAEHEE!!!”

“WOAH”

“jEOn TaEhEE”

“what brings you here?,” janghoon asked

“(〃ω〃) i brought my boyfriend-“

“WOAH REALLY?”

“THIS IS OUR SECOND TIME”

youngchul spoke up, “wait she’s younger than hyuna and edawn, right?”

“yes ,,, :>>” then taehee smiled out of shyness until her dimples were showing

“the last time i saw you, you were this small!!!,” heechul said while putting his arm up to his waist

then taehee made a cute whine and you could hear mark laugh in the background

“noooo,,,i’m older now!!”

“is this your first time appearing on a show together?”

“yeah..we picked this one :>>”

“oh really? thank you (*^ω^*),” heechul says

“alright, bring him in,” and then they were all just holding their smiles until mark comes out

taehee walked in the classroom dragging mark in with his hand

which made the guys gush at them,,especially heechul and hodong

“MARK LEE”

“THEY’RE HOLDING HANDS”

you know when mark’s like embarrassed he tries to cover his face with his hand? yeah he was doing that when walking in

so taehee just laughs at the commotion they caused

they transferred from “if you’re envious, you lose” high school

after they introduced themselves, heechul raised from his seat

“the last time i’ve been on a show with mark, we were drinking together...but now he’s with his girlfriend!! it’s like i’m witnessing his milestones-“

“HAHAHAHAH”

“this is amazing, wow” then he claps

“the last time i was on a show with them was when i was an mc for ‘weekly idol’ and they were with dream,,,” sangmin chimes in

“when did you start dating?”

“mm, about 2 and a half years ago..”

“ahh” then it suddenly goes silent in the studio bc all of their focus is on markhee

so they both laugh bc of the attention

“wHY ARE YOU LOOKING AT US LIKE THAT”

“IT’S BC IT’S REFRESHING TO LOOK AT A YOUNG COUPLE LIKE YOU!! THAT’S WHY”

“actually this is the only time we’re gonna talk about our relationship like this since we promised each other we’d keep things like,,proffessional”

“woah this is like the most mark has spoken at the start of the show,” heechul blurts out causing the set to laugh

“bc he usually doesn’t talk at much first, am i right”

“yes, you are right”

“ah cute~” one of them says

mark lee keeps on captivating other people it’s hIS CHARM!!

“when did you two meet? since predebut?”

“since predebut.”

“wait before we start,,we should ask questions properly unlike lAST TIME!! we got too excited,” soogeun cut in

taehee was the one who answered, “actually, we arrived in the company on the same day and we became friends from there”

“woah it’s like destiny? are you soulmates?,” the question makes the couple laugh

“who liked who first?,” kyunghoon asks

taehee’s eyes widen and she mentions that this is the first time they’re talking about their relationship like this with each other

“oh wow this is gets more interesting!!”

“real reactions”

“so taehee when did you like mark?”

“hmm i think during promotions for ‘kick it’?”

“woah then i liked you first”

you know that face mark makes when he’s like amazed about discovering something new and his eyes are wide and his cheekbones pop out HE’S SO CUTE AT THIS MOMENT BC HE’S MAKING THAT FACE

“oh really???”

“mark when did you like taehee?”

“when we were in the states promoting ‘superhuman’,,,so like,,a year before her”

and then taehee makes this 🥺 face and her hands were above her chest

she’s just so soft in that moment

“wait mark, so that was,,how many years after debut?”

“3 years!”

“then why during that period of time and not when you were trainees”

“hmm honestly i think it’s bc we’ve been focusing on debuting so we weren’t paying attention to each other that much,,in that way. i feel like she stood out to me the most during the time we were promoting in the states, so i paid a lot of attention to her and caught,,,feelings from there”

“the way he spoke,,you can tell he’s really sincere about what he’s saying,” janghoon says so mark becomes more shy aND IT’S JUST CUTE

“was there anything specific taehee did that made your heart skip a beat?”

mark seems to think for a moment until taehee claps her hands together and all the attention goes to her

and she’s really excited like she’s a kid in preschool who just discovered something new and is excited to tell her parents bC THAT’S WHAT TAEHEE’S FEELING RIGHT NOW

“aH!! i think i know what this is!! (＾ν＾)”

��what is it?”

“during ‘superhuman’ era right?,” mark nods, “okay so there’s this part of our dance-“

“oHH I KNOW WHAT THIS IS,” mark shouts and it makes taehee smile wider

“where we stand really close to each other like this,” when she showed them how close they stood to each other the bros were like :OO

“yeah, i think that’s it. you fell for me, right?,” taehee directs the last statement at mark

“oh but that’s really close though,” hodong says

“we did it bc the fans seemed to like it,,,mark just ended up liking it more than he should,” she said it like she was bragging about it which made the people in the studio laugh and mark collapsing to the floor out of embarrassment

“was that it mark? was that the reason?”

mark’s still laughing, “maybe it’s one of the reasons-“

“HAHAHA”

“but we spent a lot of time together when we were in the states so i think that’s the reason too”

“did you notice, taehee? that mark had a crush on you?”

taehee shakes her head, “no,,,”

“why not?”

“mark doesn’t like affection from the members in general so i thought that was why he was acting like he was at that time”

“how did he act at that time?”

then you see mark like internally sweating bc he KNOWS he’s gonna get clowned for it

“ah i’m one of the members who tend to be quite affectionate with others,,and i joke a lot too”

“she tells a lot of pick up lines”

“pick up lines?,” sangmin repeats

“yeah,,,at first i was used to it but then when i started liking her i got flustered a lot”

“i tend to get clingy with the members too like i hold their arm like this or lean on them but when i did it with mark he got shy”

while taehee was demonstrating with mark the bros were like “awww (*´◒`*)”

“does mark get jealous when you act like that towards other members?”

mark tries to hold back his laugh before saying, “a little bit” in a sMALL VOICE THAT’S WHY HE’S CUTE :((

“I ACT LIKE THAT AROUND YOU BUT YOU GET SHY!! WHY WOULD YOU GET JEALOUS?”

“no i’m not jealous of that person it’s like i wish i didn’t get flustered so easily to the point that i would shy away from you...something similar to that”

“ahh mark’s good with his words..do you write lyrics?,” youngchul asks

“we both do :>>”

“so are you each other’s muses? is it like that?”

then the other guys start teasing them causing markhee to smile and giggle ;((

“i guess you could say it like that,,”

“THAT’S WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT!,” then heechul stands up to give mark a high five

“are you two the same age?”

“yes!! but i’m older by four months,” then mark holds up four fingers

“wait then taehee must be really oblivious since mark liked her for a year until they got together”

“well if you put it that way...”

“honestly, i really did not think that she would like me back...that’s why i tried so hard to hide it”

“wow really?”

mark nods, “there was this one time we were in the practice room. we were preparing for a year end stage for gayo daejun,,and taehee was explaining to the camera how she hurt her head at that time”

“aww taehee hurt her head?”

“yeah :<< and he was laughing at me!!,” her pout made the other boys laugh

“that’s bc he likes you taehee”

“oh correct!! i just laughed bc of that reason!,” when mark said that it made them laugh even more bc he was so transparent about his feelings

i mean this is the only time they would talk about it why not as well go all out right?

“but then she said something like, ‘this is how your best friends treat you! you get hurt and then they laugh!’”

“ahh you got friend zoned?”

“yeah i did”

“wait hold on this is making me feel bad- i’m sorry :<<“

then taehee clings onto mark’s arm and looks at him with puppy eyes iT’S SICKENING IT MAKES YOU WANT LOVE TOO

then the guys gush at them some more, “does she often do aegyo with you?”

“i only do it to make him cringe bc it’s funny!! he’s also cute when he’s flustered”

then when she hears soogeun agree with her she becomes soft again and pouts

she goes to punch mark’s cheek

then the bros looked amused like their watching a drama or something

“taehee do you take care of mark like this? like who takes care of who?”

they’re basically asking who tops in the relationship

“i think we’re both,,,like equal in that sense”

“i’m only like this sometimes but mark really really is considerate and so careful”

“what did he do to make you say that?”

taehee clasps her hands together and she opens her mouth to say something but then she looks at the camera and says, “i forgot we were filming this for a moment”

some of them chuckled

“uHhH before he,,dOEs,,things he always asks me like ‘oh is this okay?’ ‘can i do this?’ things like that and it really melts my heart. he’s really considerate”

“ahh mark really is a gentleman”

“i agree,,”

“MARK!! how did you ask taehee out?”

“oh i didn’t ask her out”

“OH SO IT WAS TAEHEE???”

“WOAH”

“HEY GIRLS CAN DO THAT TOO” taehee has an angry pout on which made mark’s heart go boom boom

“wait we didn’t even ask taehee how she liked mark-“

“oKAY TAEHEE!! how did you like mark and how did you ask him out”

“ah i tend to overthink a lot-“

“oh isn’t that bad though?,” heechul says

“but when you get used to it it’s hard to stop,” janghoon tells him, “it just depends how you’re going to react to it”

“okay taehee continue”

“a lot of fans were saying we should date so i thought about it for a loooong time. and then i started paying more attention to mark like how he’s so dedicated and determined,,how he’s cute when he’s shy,,and how he’s like really helpful to those around him— i think that’s what captured me the most (*´ω｀*)”

“aww cute :((,” they say at her

“so how did you ask him out?”

“the only person who knew about my feelings back then was haechan,,so i asked him how should i do it. he said to just confess but i was also kinda ‘shy’ about it so i was like ‘nonono,,i won’t do that’”

kyunghoon asks, “did he know about mark’s feelings,” and mark nods at him

“so what did you do?”

“i,,(//∇//),,i tried flirting with him-“

“HAHAHAHAHAHA”

“AHH CUTE!!”

“i tried flirting with him but it won’t work bc he’s so dense also!,” then taehee hits mark on the shoulder

“really mark? you didn’t even once think that taehee liked you also?”

“like i was saying,,i tried to hide and push away my feelings. and she’s usually like that around other members so i thought she was just being her usual self with me”

“so what pushed taehee to confess?”

“actually, it’s ‘who’”

“was it haechan?”

“CORRECT!! i got into a bet- like a game,,with him the day before i confessed and i lost. his condition was that if i lost, i would confess to mark and he really really really made sure of that”

“how cute :((“

“this is like a kdrama HAHAHA”

“so i told him another pickup line that day-“

“TAEHEE!!,” heechul snorts

his reaction makes another whine come out from taehee and she’s like, “what am i supposed to do? i wasn’t ready!!!”

“does mark still remember the pickup line?”

“hmm it was in english,,it was- aH! ‘do you like haikyuu?’,,haikyuu is an anime,,’bc i laikyuu’”

“THAT’S SO CORNY HAHAHA”

“BUT IT’S GOOD THOUGH!!”

then heechul stands up again to give taehee a high five

“but when i told him that he still denied it!! he told me to go to yuta oppa and tell that to him!!”

“awww”

“so i was like,,’listen, i really really like you and if you don’t get that through your head i wouldn’t know what to do anymore’

“YOU SOUND LIKE YOU’RE THREATENING HIM”

“HAHAHAHAHAHHA”

then taehee got shy and hid her face in mark’s shoulder

“i just noticed the whole time they were standing really close to each other,,you can’t even see the space in between them”

then they gush over them for like the 92849294 time

“do you guys fight a lot?”

“as friends we fought a few times,,but i think now we understand each other more so i think i can say that we don’t really fight with each other anymore”

“ahhh”

“what were the members’ reactions when they found out you were dating?”

“they were really supportive!! they teased us from time to time but they’re really like,,fond of our relationship,,”

“how do you guys date?”

“at that time we tried to limit our like,,outings,,so we just stayed in our room for most of the time watching movies and eating”

“oH yOu gUyS sHArE a ROoM?”

some of them had like knowing looks on their faces and then mark’s like “NO DON’T THINK OF OTHER THINGS”

“HEY WE WEREN’T EVEN SAYING ANYTHING”

“HAHAHAHAHAHA”

“NO IT’S NOT LIKE THAT!!,” taehee chimes in, “we just like staying indoors and keep to ourselves”

“wait i also noticed something,” sangmin raises his hand

“what is it?”

“whenever taehee talks mark has a look in his eyes,,it’s very obvious that he loves her”

then taehee gets shy and spares a glance at mark and there IS a look in his eyes

like you know those times where mark’s eyes sparkle?? like there are stars in his eyes like 🥺

taehee just falls for him even more :((

“taehee give me five things you like about mark”

“he’s hardworking, he’s kind, he’s a great singer and he plays the guitar for me!! he’s reliable and i really like how he’s different offstage and onstage,,like he’s cute but when he’s onstage he’s like a different person”

“how bout you mark?”

“uhh taehee is considerate,,she puts others before herself,,she’s dedicated,,she treats her family well,,hmm and she dances really well!!”

ace couple

“taehee can you dance for us? then mark you play the guitar after :>>”

and then you see mark get really excited bc he’s gonna play the guitar meanwhile taehee’s like, “of cOURSE!!”

“her engergy- she’s so cute!!!!”

then they all stand off to the side while taehee dances

when she started they were like “OIIII” “WOAHH” “WAHH AMAZING”

they were really hyping her up!!

and you could easily tell how her passion is dancing

the way she flowed with every movement but still manages to hit all the points

her confidence

facial expressions,,,

i would fall for her too mark <//3

“she really is good,” janghoon mutters

“she is,” aND MARK LOOKS SO PROUD KDKAKFKSKF

markhee is cute no cap

then when she’s finished you can see heechul whisper something to mark then mark gets really flustered but just laughs it off

now it’s mark’s turn to play the guitar!!

he strums a few chords earning a few reactions from the bros + taehee!!

then he starts to play the song

and they sway to the melody

you see taehee’s cheeks get pink bc mark’s looking at her from time to time

which made the others get excited at what they’re witnessing

“ah this is so cute (*^▽^*)”

“i would marry mark,” soogeun blurts out which made taehee giggle

by the end of the song the guys clap for mark,,

and then there’s taehee at the side pressing her hands to her cheeks bc yes they’re warm and it’s bc of mark lee <//3

then they fist bump each other :>>

profile time!!

taehee wrote that ‘shouting in silence’ was one of her strengths just so that they could play the game 

so taehee played with heechul 

so off it was funny it’s hEECHUL + TAEHEE GUYS 

heechul would find every opportunity to tease tf out of taehee offscreen and onscreen 

one of the words that heechul had to guess were ‘mark’

so taehee kept shouting “MY BOYFRIEND!! MY BOYFRIEND!!”

it was so cute honestly :((

mark kept smiling and giggling and the other people were like ‘awwww’

when it was mark’s turn to play they kept teasing him cause he kept on making passes

he’s still cute so it’s aight <33

taehee won with a score of 4-2

the next game they were playing was a couple game!!

so person a had to feed person b but they're both blindfolded and they weren't allowed to touch/guide each other 

first one to finish the bowl of 자장면 wins!!!

so markhee vs hodong and soogeun

taehee would be the one to feed mark

they kept laughing all through out 

meanwhile hodong was like -.- bc soogeun kept on laughing 

anyways,,markhee won!! they're an ace couple what do you expect 

but mark got 자장면 all over his face so taehee was wiping it off with a tissue the staff gave her 

so the bros were like “아이구!! 아이구 아이구!!” 

so moving on to the q&a thingy 

taehee was so excited bc she's been wanting to use the hammer like this ever since she watched the show 

“we’ll not answer so you don't get to use it” - kim heechul

he gets hit anyways 

“okay so,,i get flustered whenever mark does this”

“kisses you suddenly!”

“hugs you in front of the members!”

“wrong!!! (*¯︶¯*)”

kyunghoon calls mark and asks him if he knows the answer but he shakes his head no 

“taehee mentioned awhile ago that mark plays the guitar,,so is it when he plays for you?”

“mmm that’s not the answer i'm looking for :>>”

“when he holds your hand!!,” she shakes her head again

“gIvE uS A cLuEEeEe”

“it’s something that he says,,,”

you see mark whisper to himself,,“something that i say?”

“i love you?”

“okay one last clue,,he says this when he's asking for attention,,,”

“joanie?” mark looks at her 

“who’s joanie?”

“my english name,” taehee says while heechul answers “여보?”

“자기”

then youngchul becomes smart again and mentions that mark and taehee speak to other english often,,”so perhaps...something like ‘baby’?”

he said baby in english so taehee was like “CORRECT!!”

and mark laughs while he claps his hands bc he’s lowkey shy now (っ˘ω˘ς )

“he doesn't call me that all the time but when he does my heart flutters”

and the whole sets uwuing all over again

“like when he’s waking me up for example and i can't get up,,,he’s gonna hug me and say ‘babyyyy, wake uppp’ (she said that in english)”

“AAAAAAAAA”

“아이구 아이구!”

“CUTE!!”

she laughs at their reactions, “IT’S NICE RIGHT??? (♡´ ω `)”

meanwhile mark was a MESS

shy baby uwu

“when was the last time he called you ‘baby’?”

taehee seems to think for a moment before she gets all jittery and flustered making the guys more interested in what she has to say 

“he was teaching me how to play a new song on the guitar,,,but instead of just telling me what the chords were he really like went behind me and put my hands in place (─‿─)”

midway through her story heechul, soogeun, and sangmin were already up and about on their seats 

“AHH MARK LEE!!”

“SUCH A SWEET BOYFRIEND”

“AHH CUTEEEE!!”

every scream intensified the more this episode progressed 

mark got even more shy so he was hiding his head on the table 

so taehee went over to him while laughing and ruffled his hair 

oKAYY MARK’S TURN!!

mark couldn't really think of a question

so since hyuck and johnny were in the waiting rooms with them before the show 

hyuck was the one to write down the question for him 

so as soon as mark read the question out loud he and taehee,,and the rest of the set burst out laughing 

“i get jealous of the other members when- HAECHAN WROTE THIS NOT ME”

“HAHAHA”

“AW CUTE”

“but i don't get jealous that often!!,” he defends himself 

“how bout when taehee cooks for the other members,,”

“she cooks for me too...”

“when she plays games on the computer when you guys are about to sleep,,so you go ‘babyyy’,” heechul’s imitation makes the rest laugh once again 

cue uwu shy mark lee

they give a few more guesses until mark back tracks and says that her playing games with the other members does make him a teensy tinsy bit jealous 

“but there was this one time she stayed beside me while playing games and i fell asleep,,( ◡‿◡ ). honestly,,i don't have any reason to get jealous of the other members since i know teehee’s mine anyways”

“OOOOOO MARK LEE”

“AA CUTE”

this time taehee was the flustered one,,,up to the point her face was getting hot and that she had to take a sip from her bottle 

“they’re so domestic,,” janghoon comments 

yes they are!!

markhee stans after watching the episode: WHEN’S THE WEDDING

anyways,,sadly the episode is coming to an end 

we got so much markhee content bc of this episode 

you've really seen the trust and adoration they have for each other :((

they won't say it out loud,,but the whole set of knowing bros feel like they're one of the idols who will get married and grow old together 

THEN BABY MARHEE IS GONNA BE PART OF DREAM :OO

that’s all for this episode!! you’ll get to see more markhee content (dating or not dating) in my following posts!!

have a nice day!! - markhee <33

[jeontaehui]

How does Taehee react to sasaengs? Did she ever have a bad experience witht them?

tw // threats, panic attacks

just going to dive deeper from the things mentioned in this post !!! put a whole timeline of things and a bit of taehee’s perspective :(

some of the things i will be talking about are from this post also, so just a heads up!

2016 she got hate from the media since she was the only girl in the group. some of them even had to beg sm to not debut her since she’ll “ruin the image of boy groups”. she managed to pull off 7th sense, firetruck, and chewing gum all in the same year which caused the ruckus to die down, but that doesn’t mean that they’ve completely stopped.

2017 people started wondering how taehee got into the company, even more so into the group. they started saying inappropriate things about her and spread baseless rumors (stuff like she paid them, she had special relationships, did those kinds of stuff, etc.). taehee then got super nervous before performing in music shows or award shows. fans noticed how she’s really clammy with her hands, how she tries to calm herself down with her breaths, or how she tightly held onto a member’s arm in fear that she’d break down any moment. her eyes were literally shaking :( it had gotten so bad to the point that the company announced that they will take legal actions against anyone who tried to defame her or the group, including a part that explained how she got into the company and how the decision to put her in nct was made.

an issue about favoritism came up later in the year but taehee never knew about it. apart from the fact that it was short-lived, she tried to stay away from social media at that time as much as possible. she couldn’t bring herself to be okay knowing the things they said about her online, so just to avoid all that negativity, she stayed away from it.

2018 taehee seemed to be doing better than in the previous year, but then a news publisher released an article about the possibility of her dating an exo member which brought a lot of attention to other media outlets. nctzens and exols went by lengths to bring the articles down, so the company nor taehee ever heard of it. the hate was unavoidable though, especially from the toxic fans.

this was the time they promoted during empathy era — during a fansign, a few of them either straight up ignored taehee or threatened her to never go near their biases, implying that she had some malicious intent towards them and that they didn’t want them getting “hurt”. someone’s fancam caught sight of taehee’s mood during the whole fansign. she tried not to show that she was affected when they told her these kinds of stuff, and every time the next person came and greeted her, she immediately goes back to her happy self as if nothing had happened. later, when the whole group was standing in front of the fans saying their ending ments, taehee placed herself in the far end as to not draw too much attention to herself. she looked off and bothered that it worried the fans near her :( but taehee would give them a simple smile in hopes of reassuring them that she was okay.

taehee still tried to put on a front even when there were no more cameras. the members thought she was all fine until she just suddenly broke down in the waiting room, crying and gasping for air. it took time before doyoung and taeyong were able to calm her down, even more to get her to tell them about it (besides them and two of their managers, johnny, mark, ten, jeno, haechan, and taeil were also in the room). they were the only ones who knew at the time why she’d lock herself in her room even after looking so energetic on camera.

she started feeling better when 127 went to the states for their regular promotions.

2019 after the incident wherein one of their ssg’s pulled her away from the members in the airport, taehee started having panic attacks again. fans saw how she covered herself with her hood or a cap and held tightly onto one of the member’s jackets as her knuckles turned white.

during these times, taehee tried to focus on completing the lyrics to one of their songs as a way to ground herself and distract her from the media, even if that sounded way too impossible with how they were talking over one another and pushing themselves closer to them.

it’s noticeable how she got really shaky as each of them entered the car, taeyong making sure she’d be one of the members who got in first so she didn’t have to stress herself any longer. once they’re moving, taeyong would go, “do you need any water?” and it pained him to see the tears threatening to spill from her eyes as she shook her head. he’d pull her to his shoulder and gently caress his hand over her hair, whispering soothing words, “it’s okay— you’re okay now. you’re safe now.”

these incidents started to get less and less as the year went by, and taehee was feeling better again before the next year could come.

2020 she’s starting to learn how to handle these situations really well (which is a proud moment for her so yay).

around punch promotions, one of her ssg’s followed her and her manager the whole day. taehee even approached them and politely told them to stop since it was getting really uncomfortable. they were dumbfounded (which was ironic) and even went on social media to rant about how rude she was in real life, but no one actually paid any attention to them since they were aware that she wasn’t the one at fault anyways.

she also got a bunch of calls from one of the boys’ ssg’s which no doubt bothered her, but she didn’t answer knowing that she might not like what she’ll hear from the other end of the line. thankfully, they stopped before resonance era came rolling around.

she talked about the issue with the ssg’s staying outside their dorm in a live later in the year (like what taeyong and haechan did). she was really thoughtful with her words, even mentioning how it could affect their safety in the midst of a pandemic. she knew she might receive some hate for it after, but she’s glad to have spoken up on the issue.

not much has happened this year — thankfully !!! but yeah, lots of things went on when taehee started out. she’s getting stronger but there’s still that fear that lingers in her, and the thought that things may go back to the way it was before just scares her :(

[snspice-archive]

✰ || THE BAKERY is the fourth mini album by SNS, released by SM Entertainment on March 29th, 2021. It is available both physically and digitally, and features six songs, with “Apple Pie” being its title track. SNS promoted “Apple Pie” from March 30th to April 17th, also holding special stages for b-side tracks “Cherry on top” and “Stupid Cupid”. The girls were able to bring home 6 music show wins over the promotional period. They appeared on multiple variety shows and advertising campaigns, held four virtual fansigns, and held an online concert called “SUGAR DELIGHT”.

ALBUM PREVIEW // COLOR CODED LYRICS

✰ || TRACKLIST

APPLE PIE

STUPID CUPID

GIRLS LIKE US

BLUE

CREME

CHERRY ON TOP

✰ || ALBUM CONTENT

one disc + photobook (72 pages) + two random photocards out of eight + one out of six random member folded poster + one unfolder poster with tube + one out six random circle card + one out of six random recipes by yuri + one out of six random receipts with a message by a member 

✰ || SALES + ACHIEVEMENTS

this album was such a fun and fresh start to spring

critics and the public ate up the concept and overall presentation of the album

some people had strong opinions on the title track and thought it shouldn’t been switched with one of the b-sides

but overall it was a hit

Apple Pie” debuted at number 1 on korean music charts, it stayed in the top 3 until the end of their promotion cycle

“Cherry on top” debuted at number 5 on korean music charts, it stayed in the top 10 until the end of their promotion cycle

“Stupid Cupid” peaked at number 9 on melon

“Girls like us” peaked at number 12 on melon

“Blue ” peaked at number 27 on melon

“Creme’ peaked at number 43 on melon

the “Apple Pie” mv got 19.5 million views in the first 24 hours

"Apple Pie” received 6 music show wins 

✰ || PRODUCTION

"Apple Pie” was written and produced by sm’s in house production team, with only the smallest bit on input from mika

“Stupid Cupid”, “Cherry on top”, and “Girls like us” were all produced and heavily written by mika under the pseudonym m.ka

"Blue” was completely written and produced by piper. it was originally going to be released on her soundcloud but she decided to lend it to the mini

“Creme” was produced by m.ka and partially written by yuki

✰ || APPLE PIE STYLING

the outfits were so quirky and cute, very different from their previous concepts

not a single outfit ever feature pants, they were always in dresses or skirts

the addition of aprons were the most popular accessory options and were featured in over half of the outfits

if they weren’t in apron based dresses, they had sweets covering their body or looked like they worked in a candy shop 

aprons, big bows, fluffy tutu/skirts, bright pastel colors, stockings, etc were the most prominent accessories 

the girls were usually wearing their designated color in some way

all the girls had different shades and styles of blonde hair for both the mv and most of their first week of promotions

yuki bleached her hair for the first time ever in her life and got rid of her signature thick bangs, rocking a ashy blonde to pink ombre

mika and josie cut their hair short for the first time in their careers, as well as cutting cute whispy bangs

yuki was the first member to dye their hair, going a pretty shade of pink and debuting it on the 3rd

mika was next, showing off a vibrant orange bang look on the 5th

yuri went a mint green on the 7th and josie went a heavy blue on the 9th

piper dyed her hair a dark vibrant purple that featured magenta thick highlights on the 12th

soyee was the last one to dye her hair, going ashy blonde that faded into a multitude of rainbow colors on the 14th

✰ || ERA HIGHLIGHTS

first mini under sm!!

fans had a lot of anticipation for this mini considering it had to be pushed back due to piper’s injuries

she was good to go physically by their comeback stage but that didn’t stop sugar babies from showering her in love and concern

the concept and styling for this comeback had similar vibes to red velvet’s red side, orange caramel, and wjsn chocome, which a lot of fans from each group enjoyed

the comeback stage was decorated to look like a huge cupcake factory, it was so extravagant for no reason we love it

the merch for this omg!!!

they release cute little aprons that were color coordinated with each girls and featured their signature along the ribbon tie 

they also dropped baking starter kits that were designed around the girls and the mv :( it was so cute :(

sm gave them their first solo online concert!!

the girls had so much fun performing and interacting with fans, even if it was through a screen

they can’t wait to go on a world tour once the pandemic is settled and over :(

mika kept up her youtube channel show called ‘sugar plum slumber party!’. this time featuring members of wayv, exo, suju, and snsd

their vlive channel was heavily active, each girl was live basically everday they had so much fun

yuri got her own vlive+ show called “yuri! let’s bake!” and it was the cutest weekly baking show known to man. a sns member guest starred each week and they all had so much fun :(

yuki and piper once again had major tension which caused a lot of concerns with fans

piper avoided the topic at all cost when it was brought up and yuki just shrugged it off by blaming it on “roommate drama”

sm created a pop up “bakery truck” outside of the sm building that sold sweets and treats that the girls love

every once and a while, the girls would work a short shift within the food truck and meet with fans :(

overall a good era concept and chart wise but a lot of tension could be felt behind the scenes

[taliel-strykidz]

Ending!

It’s finally here, I’m sorry for the long ass wait :( It’s not great but here you guys go!

Huannie couldn’t understand why it felt like there was something over her eyes making it difficult to open them, but she fought the urge to succumb back to the darkness and wrench them open, she felt like she hadn’t done that in a while.  Her whole body ached upon trying to move and everything from physically and mentally felt foggy. 

Feeling something wet on her cheek she brought her hand up to wipe it only to feel something tug in her arm, looking down she saw something plastic feeding into her veign, although everything was foggy she was well aware that the distinct shape of the the plastic thing on her arm was an IV. 

She glances upward, her mouth pursed but slightly open and loose. Her eyes are fixed as if she’s looking at something a yard away, but in reality she was staring at the ECG machiene mimicking her distressed state. Finally she launched herself up into a sitting position and observed where she was. She was in the hospital room the managers would usually request when an Idol was needing medical attention, but it looked different. There were piles of letters stacked on the armchair, boxes of plushies scattered on the desk and alot of overnight duffle bags shoved into the corner.

“Hello?” She called out weakly, a few minutes pass and no one had answered. Throwing the dozen blankets off the bed in agitated disorientation she rubbed her eyes furiously. “Mom? Taeyong?” She called again, her voice cracking like she hadn’t used it her whole life. 

There were scrambling footsteps outside of the door in the hall sprinting over to her door, speaking of the door it almost got ripped off its hinges as the nurse came inside to assess who was talking. This person Huannie had never seen before in her life. Although the brown haired nurse in front of her look unfamilliar there was a slight nagging in the back of her brain that she knew this woman. Her chocolate brown hair was in a beautiful messy bun; her doe brown eyes looked absolutely bewildered. 

“Annyeonghaseyo... Um could you please tell me where my family is?” Huannie asked matching the womans terrifyed eyes, the woman still stares at the Idol with wide eyes, her mouth opening and closing, not being able to find the words to properly explain to the woman sitting in the bed what situation she was actually in. 

“They- They should be due to arrive like usual- They’ll be here soon.” She managed to get out, the nurse stood at the door trying to remember what her senior told her about coma patients that just woke up. The nurse bows to take her leave but Huannie tried to get out of the bed to stop her/ 

“Who are you?” Huannie burst out with brimming eyes, the nurse turned to look at her with a tembling lip but only grabs her hand. 

“They’ll be here soon, okay.” 

Huannie couldn’t believe what was going on, she didn’t think she wanted to anyway. The last thing she remembered was telling Heechul to tie the belt around his leg, but it seemed alot longer had passed with such a reaction from the nurse.  She forced her knees up, hugging them to her chest. Her hand working back and forth over what seemed like healed scars on her legs, all while feeling the irregular box like shape in her chest area. If she didn’t get some answers soon she had a feeling she would vomit, already she could feel the bile in her throat. 

She saw the door opening slowly, revealing Park Jinyoung, standing at the door looking like he would vomit himself. Huannie assumed he was the one who was nearby considering he was alone, soon a worn out Na Jaemin entered behind him. 

“Jagi? What’s going on- Why are you crying?” She asked worriedly watching as his knee buckled ever so slightly hearing her voice after four months of only hearing his own breathing. “Oppa?” Her voice cracked under the immense confusion circling around in her head, a scared tear slipping out of her eye. 

“Jaeminnie? Tell me, what’s going on?” She asked the younger boy hoping that he would be of help, the teenager only stared at her with his beautiful eyes watering, but he at least had a relieved smile. 

“You’re scaring me,” She voiced, only she wasn’t sure who it was directed at whether it was at the two standing in the room or at herself who couldn’t come up to an answer to any of her own questions. 

It felt like a lifetime of sorrowful tears before one of them spoke. 

“You’re awake.” Jinyoung says, slowly walking over to the armchair next ti her with Jaemin following quietly. 

“Yeah.. I’m awake?”

“Angel, you’ve been- you were- you were in a coma.” He mumbled quietly, staring down at the hand he’d grabbed instinctively as he sat down. She stared back at him in pure loss for words as he stared back at her with an expressionless face. 

Her heart leaped as she took in the faces of the boys, first trying to figure out if this was some kind of joke, but judging by their shaking hands and non stop tears her own hands seemed to trembled as she tried to remember what happened after the crash. “For how long? Like a week?” She asked desperately trying to get at least one answer out of the million that were drowning in her mind. 

The two looked at eachother as if they didn’t know if they should tell her, for their own sake because they didn’t want have to talk about the events of what’s happened throughout the time she was lay in pain. But Jaemin spoke anyway. 

“It’s been four and a half months Noona.” The teen whispered painfully as he grabbed her hand to steady his racing heart. 

Huannie’s already dry mouth felt as if it had been sucked of any remaining water and threatened her tongue to smash into tiny little pieces. She shook her head in denial as she furiously wiped the tears rolling down her cheeks with her palm. 

“This is a joke.” She snipped and laughed without any ounce of amusement. “It not a funny one, but some twisted joke right?” Anguish could be seen on her face as she desperately pleaded with Jinyoung’s eyes to tell her it was all a joke or a dream, but Jinyoung only shook his head. 

“No, Angel it’s not a joke.” He replied placing his his head in his hand to rub away his tears. 

“No, it’s not possible. It can’t be. I was with Heechul yesterday, singing in the car and then-”

Huannie cried as if her brain was being shredded from the inside out, emotional and physical pain flowed out of her every pore. From her mouth came a cry so raw that even the eyes of the people walking past the hospital room were suddenly wet with tears. She grabbed onto the two boys hands so that her violent shaking wouldn’t make her fall off the bed and from her eyes came a thicker flow of tears than she had cried for her own mother two years ago. We don’t really think about death, but when you find out you were close to it it unerves you. 

Upon seeing her right in front of him, brick by brick, Jinyoung’s walls came tumbling down. As she clutched onto his hand the tears in his eyes turned into a hurricane. He just broke down as the nurse guided a soft smiling Jaemin out of the room. When they cried there was a rawness to it, like the pain of four months ago was still an open wound. They both clasped onto eachothers hands for support, anything that would tell eachother that the other was there, and then their bodies would shake. Jinyoungs sobs were stifled at first as he first panned to comfort the woman, but realising that she was there crying with him the wave of emotions hit and he broke down entirely. 

“Jinyoungie?” She finally spoke. “Who was playing the piano? The one that Jonghyun was singing to?” She asked desperately looking into his eyes. 

“Chenle played the piano last month, but no one was sing-” 

“Jonghyun sang it in the meadow, he sang it to me.” She corrected him. 

“Angel are you sure it wasn’t a dream?” Jinyoung replied. Huannie refused to believe it, she saw he late bestfriend playing the piano in the meadow she was sure of it. 

After a minute of Jinyoung realising eaxactly what she was meaning he sat softly on the bed next to her and brough the crying woman into his embrace. 

“Has it really been four months?” 

He gave her a weak smile and squeezed her closer to his chest. 

“Longest four months of our life Angel.” 

[ace-angel-judas]

Defence

Pairing; Sophia/Taeyong

Series; NCT Additonal Unit

Rating: None

Synopsis; Sophia’s just a protective person

Sophia liked to believe she was a good judge of character, given that she had moved from the small city of Idaho to a whole new country and had managed to not die. Although, being one of the older trainees, she had a sense of looking after those younger than herself.

This hadn’t changed even when she debuted.

She knew of this particular manager, all of the female trainees did. You never went anywhere alone with him and always made sure you had a friend. He was overly nice to the female trainees and idols, but his eyes always lingered too long on places it shoulden’t. Although he’d never technically did anything wrong, so he was allowed to stay.

Put the treatment of the males under his care was questionable, he grew too angry with them too quickly, sharp retorts made and ushered them along. But the exact opposite when dealing with females.

The manager was a creep. At least in Sophia’s books.

There usual manager was sick, making all the boys upset once they were told. Sophia’s stomach sunk when she saw the creep manager walk through the doors for the day.

“The um..,” Sophia was trying to find her words, herself and Taeyong had quickly popped onto one of the computers before they needed to shoot off to their next schedule, “I don’t know what it’s called, the thingy there,”

She pointed to the bar on screen, Taeyong chuckling, “The synchroniser?”

“Yes,” Sophia nodded.

The manager was stood at the door as the two were quickly typing and clicking away at the computer, an annoyed look on his face. Taeyong stopped completely, his hands away from the computer as he was in thought.

Sophia on the other hand was clicking a few buttons.

“Can you hurry up!” The manager spoke up, startling the leader, “Your such a slow...,”

He mumbled something under his breath, Sophia’s face twisting. Taeyong looked shaken up, clearing his throat and typing again. Only he was hit at another cross roads, Sophia touching his shoulder softly.

“Don’t push it,” She whispered, “We can come back later,”

“Turn it off,” The manager suddenly spoke, “Your being so slow and we don’t have time for this-“

“Can you shut up?” Sophia suddenly looked up, her last nerve struck, “We have half an hour before we have to leave, get out and shut the door,”

The manager was taken back by her sudden outburst, Sophia staring at him. He mumbled something again, before turning and walking out, shutting the door behind him. Taeyong looked at her.

“Thank you,” He whispered.

“He’s so..,” Sophia shivered, “I don’t like him,”

Smiling, Taeyong patted her head softly before they turned back to the computers.

[misunhye]

📱… MISUNHYE JUST POSTED TO INSTAGRAM!

MISUNHYE

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misunhye lol i love this color

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note … i just realized but i had to share that in all the comments from idols theyre mostly all in korean i just dont wanna google trans and look dumb. but for like mark and other english speakers its all mostly in english lol. ALSO imagine this was posted when jaemins blonde hair came back i was just lazy

[misunhye]

📱… MISUN has changed their profile picture and nickname.

📱… [MISUN, THE MOST THANKFUL] Message is here! 💭

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[1:43am] wahhh… 😩 i still really cant believe this😭😭 (name)…

[1:44am] it’s still all so surreal… let me get my thoughts together

[1:46am] i still feel like that sixteen year old that debuted while she was still a baby with equally baby friends. i look back to those days and think ‘wow, if only she knew’. three-four years ago, i would’ve never thought i’d be here today. standing on stage with my seven most favorite people on earth. if it weren’t for you, czennies, i wouldn’t be here. it’s all thanks to you that we’re eight. as long as you are here, we’re still here, too. i’m sorry i got a bit emotional earlier but !!! at least i didn’t full on cry. i will work harder on not putting my burdens on you and to not let you down.

[1:47am] lol now you may go to sleep~ thank you again, sweet dreams, i love you💚 (name)

[misunhye]

Mama’s Girl

characters kang sunhye/misun, kang sumin … brief mention of ahn jaesun & ahn jiho, brief appearance of ahn jaesuk, brief appearance of misun’s unnamed grandparents

words 2.6k

warning(s) grooming, illegal relationship, power imbalance, age gap, infidelity, & brief mention of religion

Still, there is this terrible desire to be loved. Still, there is this horror at being left behind.

There were two things Kang Sunhye knew before the age of thirteen. One, she wanted to be nothing like her mother. Two, she was everything like her mother.

Here is how it starts, years before she is even born: Kang Sumin was a freshly debuted idol at the age of sixteen. Ahn Jaesun was twenty three and one of YG’s music producers, most importantly, he was Sumin’s. It was only two years later in 1994, on Sumin’s eighteenth birthday, that she fell pregnant with their first child, Ahn Jiho.

The announcement only a few months later when she couldn’t hide it anymore still remains one of the biggest scandals in history.

Still, she persevered. She tried everything she could to get back on track after Jiho’s birth; she even sent him far away to her parents in Texas, but YG dismissed her, effectively putting her on indefinite hiatus. She was a mother now, not an idol, Kang Sumin would bitterly repeat Yang Hyunsuk’s words years later in a drunken rant to her daughter about how her children ruined her life.

Kang Sumin was not supposed to be just a mother or a wife. She was not one to be tied down.

A year later, she had her second and last child with Ahn Jaesun. For someone who was adamant on her children ruining her life, she sure did continue on having them.

What was that saying? Misery loves company.

Two years after Jaesuk’s birth, two years since she abandoned her second child with her parents, Sumin was having a comeback. She had finally got what she had wanted, yet the day before the release, everything came crumbling down for the third time.

In an adrenaline high, tipsy from the cheap beer her manager bought for her and her team of staff and backup dancers, Kang Sumin made the worst mistake of her life. In a family bathroom of the YG building, she closed her eyes and ignored the sense of impending doom as she kissed one of her backup dancers while her husband was on the other side of the building and her children across the world.

A year later, her third and final child’s birth was different from the others. It was grueling, time consuming. It took thirty-six hours, much longer compared to the measly ten and seven hours respectively. Instead of a natural birth like her first two, the doctors had to resort to a C-Section. Her once perfect, flawless body that she had worked so hard for after childbirth was carved into; scarred forever.

Sumin refused to hold her only daughter, too distraught with her new reality. Jaesun was the one to name her.

Kang Sunhye came into this world crying and screaming and never stopped.

Sunhye was in church when she found out.

Like the good girl she was, she followed in her grandparents’ and brothers’ footsteps, believing in an all-powerful-being. She prayed every meal, every night before bed, she sang in the church choir with the rest of the kids, and she went every Sunday.

It started as any other Sunday, she’d put on her nice church dress, ironed neatly, her black Mary-Janes that were polished and shiny, with her hair in a half updo and a pretty bow tied at the top. She sang with the choir, smiling every time her family and her met eyes. She ignored the feeling when she saw the two empty seats next to her grandparents. It was always like that.

Sunhye missed the exchange of looks between her brothers, phones hidden in their hands with an article from Naver on the screen. She only noticed something was wrong when her grandparents were no longer paying attention, instead hunched over in their seats with their eyes on the pair of cellphones. She finished singing the last verse, watching her family tear their eyes away from the devices and clap, less enthusiastically than the other parents.

She remained quiet as she made her way back to the church pew, sitting in between her brothers like she always did. Her brothers avoided her gaze as her grandparents beckoned for them to stand up and leave. She could feel the confused eyes of the other families on them as they left, her ears burning. They never left early, they were usually one of the last to leave, helping the Pastor clean up.

The car ride was silent, no matter how much she begged for them to answer her.

Sunhye was not expecting her mother to be in her home when they arrived. The last time she saw her was a few months ago at Christmas. Her parents usually stayed in South Korea, where they were from. She couldn’t remember what they did for a career.

She didn’t even get a chance to greet her before her grandparents started yelling, startling the nine-year-old. It was a mix of Korean and English, the confused girl watching the three like it was a tennis match as Jiho went to his room, slamming the door behind him. It didn’t pause the yelling.

“— An affair? Are you kidding me, Sumin?”

“It’s all lies, you know how they—”

“If it were a lie, you wouldn’t have ran away,” her grandfather’s words made the room go silent.

Sunhye was not stupid. She was at a ninth grade reading level in the fourth grade. She had read things like this. But she never expected it to happen to her. She stared blankly at her mother, her beautiful, perfect mother who could do no wrong. But she did do wrong.

Jaesuk laid a hand on her shoulder, making her flinch in surprise. Sumin started to say something to defend herself, but her grandmother spat back, “Adultery is a sin, you know this. He would be so disappointed in you.” Sumin stared back, jaw clenching. Jaesuk tugged Sunhye to the staircase, gently pulling her up and to her room.

Once the door clicked behind them, Sunhye turned and asked with tears brimming, “Is it true?”

Jaesuk swallowed, eyes darting around. If there was anyone who loved their parents with their entire being, it was Sunhye. She loved and trusted them so much, she’d choose them over anyone else any day. She believed in them wholeheartedly, despite the fact that neither were hardly in her life. The dance recitals, church choir, science fairs, her grandparents and her brothers were the ones there. Not them. Yet they were her idols.

He didn’t want to tell her the truth. But he didn’t want to lie, either. No matter what he did, he knew it would change her view on them forever. He briefly thought, with some sick sense of relief and selfishness, that maybe it would be better off for her to not blindlessly love them so much.

“It happens,” the words fell out of Jaesuk’s mouth. “Maybe they fell out of love, and are separated without telling us. That wouldn’t be cheating,” he didn’t even believe in his words. He stared at her, studying her expression. She didn’t believe his words, either.

“I don’t get it,” she murmured, breaking eye contact, “I thought they were in love.”

“One thing about you is that you see life through rose tinted glasses,” Jaesuk sighed, deciding he wouldn’t try to protect her anymore. Maybe it was time for her to grow up. She blinked, remembering the phrase from a book she read before. “You see what you want to believe. You love them so much, you ignore all their flaws. Your first reaction is to love and defend them, no matter what.” Sunhye’s mouth parted to defend their parents, before closing. He gave her a gentle look, “It’s not your fault. Every kid wants to believe their parents are perfect. It was only a matter of time before you realized it. Better now than never.”

Jaesuk had decided that was enough for the day, pressing a kiss on her head and going to his own room. She could still hear the voices of her grandparents and mother downstairs.

When did her brothers stop believing in their parents? What did they see that she couldn’t?

Silently, she took off her dress and switched it for her lounge clothes, placing everything back where it belonged. She listened to the muffled yelling of her grandparents, briefly wondering how long this could go on for before she sat in her desk chair and powered on her laptop.

Each of the siblings had their own laptop after their grandparents got tired of listening to them fight over it. Of course, it was restricted and they were always carefully monitored. Except for this time, they were too busy yelling at her mother.

Once it was loaded, she started typing Kang Sumin into the search bar. The first article that popped up was recent, from one hour ago. She clicked it, and began reading.

Rumors of Kang Sumin’s Affairs

Source: Dispatch

‘A’ is alleging that Kang Sumin had an affair with a backup dancer.

On March 11th, ‘A’ posted screenshots of text messages from a man who reportedly used to be a backup dancer of Kang Sumin’s. The messages reported that on the night before Sumin’s comeback after having her first two children, the two were seeing each other romantically in private. The man states that he is not proud of the person he used to be, and that he can’t go on any longer when he still sees Kang Sumin’s husband, Ahn Jaesun, around the company halls.

He then provides proof, sending multiple photos of love letters from Sumin, detailing their times together and ending with a love confession and her signature.

Netizens are speculating that this would’ve happened right before Sumin’s comeback in 1999, right before the final time Sumin would get pregnant with her daughter.

[+3,038, -138] Does this mean her daughter isn’t actually Jaesun’s? T_T I thought they were true love.

[+2,939, -93] I always knew she was a […]. Of course she was, when she first got pregnant at eighteen.

[+2,458, -44] What a joke LOL.

[+2,193, -308] Isn’t this too cruel? It’s really none of our business. She has children, all old enough to be able to see this. What if they did?

[+1,982, -183] Their relationship was weird, anyway. He was 23 when they met and she was 16. Good for her.

[+1,779, -22] Imagine holding guilt for almost ten years that it’s a possibility that your senior’s daughter is yours. And you have to see her husband every time you go into work.

[+1,632, -2] What are they waiting for? Get the DNA test done already!!!

Her throat had started to itch long before she finished reading the rest of the comments, tears streaming down her cheeks as loud, ugly sobs threatened to crawl out. She hiccuped with every other breath, gasping for air as she pressed a hand to keep her cries in. She pushed herself away from her desk, throwing her body into her bed and screaming into her pillow.

Sunhye didn’t know how long she was crying for, she didn’t hear the click of her bedroom door opening and her mother’s sigh. She only recognized that someone else was in the room with her when a hand rested on her back gently.

“My sweet girl, why are you crying?” Her mother hummed melodically, raking her fingernails through her soft hair. When was the last time her mother talked to her like this? “You’re far too young to be sad.”

She hated when people said that. You’re too young to be acting like this. You’re too young to be sad. You’re too young to be like this. And then— you’re too old to be crying like a baby. You’re too old to play with dolls. You’re too old to watch cartoons. She was nine. She hadn’t even reached double digits yet.

She sniffled, deciding to keep her mouth shut as she squeezed her eyes shut tightly, hoping that if she continued to ignore her, she’d go away. Sunhye was stubborn, and she’d continue for as long as she had to.

Unfortunately, like mother, like daughter.

Sumin sat on the edge of her bed, a manicured hand on the back of her neck firmly, “Don’t ignore me, Sunhye. What’s the matter?” Her voice was stern, no longer the soft voice she had been using before. Sunhye’s head lifted up, not wanting to make her mad. Her head turned, resting on her pillow as her puffy, red face stared back at the face that mirrored hers. Their lips, their eye shape, the same slope of their noses— it was all too similar. She had gotten almost entirely everything from her mother.

“Good girl,” Sumin murmured, going back to raking her nails through her hair gently. Her voice was back to being soft. Sunhye thought she could’ve imagined it. Her mother rarely spoke to her this way. “Now, what’s got you so upset, my love?” She never used sweet names, either.

Sunhye didn’t beat around the bush. That was all her father in her. “Did you really cheat on dad?”

Sumin paused, not expecting the question to come from her. Her parents, yes, her sons, yes, and certainly her husband, too. But never her sweet daughter who yearned for her mother’s love, who never spoke out of turn, who always did what she asked. Her mini-me.

She sighed, looking away to the pink walls of her room and scanning the posters of American celebrities and Korean idols alike. A Girls’ Generation poster was right above her bed. A sting of irritation ran through her. That should’ve been her. She looked up, almost not catching it. A poster of sixteen-year-old Sumin stared back at her, a bright grin on her face. She gaped momentarily before catching herself, looking back down at Sunhye. She didn’t ask about it. She would never know that Sunhye always stood on the tip of her toes to press a kiss to her mother’s face in her frequent absence. If she looked to the right, a picture of her parents would stand proudly on her bedside table. She would never know that Sunhye would wish she was standing there next to them.

“It’s complicated,” Sumin said at last. “I was … so excited to get back into doing what I loved; singing and dancing on stage in front of hundreds. I … It started off so innocently, we were just friends and then …” She laughed bashfully, “I guess I am just so irresistible, like yourself.” She winked playfully at the girl, aiming to get a giggle. She succeeded. A sense of triumph blossomed in her chest. “One thing led to another and … Yes. But it was only one time.”

Sunhye didn’t tell her that she read the article and saw the text messages. Why would she, when she wholeheartedly believed in her mother and her words? Her mother would never lie to her. She knew, from books, that this was what the media did— they lied to get attention.

She was reminded of the comment that asked if her father was actually the backup dancer. She dismissed the thought a second later. Her mother may have made a mistake, but she never would have lied to her husband and children about something as important as this.

Sunhye was Ahn Jaesun’s daughter. She firmly believed in this with all her heart.

A soft touch to her cheek made her look back at her mother, watching her stare back down at her with something she didn’t recognize in her eyes. Her mother brushed her tears away, “Sweet girl, you believe me, don’t you?”

It was no question. She nodded her head, “Of course. I love you.”

Her mother smiled, tilting her head. “And you forgive me, yes?”

“Of course, I love you,” she repeated.

Sumin’s smile brightened, “And I love you, darling.”

And just like that, Sunhye forgave her mother like she always did. Dogs are like that. They’d do anything to keep you happy. So blindly loyal.

[misunhye]

jealousy, jealousy, brutal, enough for you and traitor from the recent ask game 🙈

jealousy, jealousy: what advice would you give to your younger self about social media?

“stay off of it,” misun nods, “i think that’s the advice anyone would give.” she laughs, “but uh, yeah. i’ve seen some pretty messed up shit on there so i would not recommend.”

brutal: how would describe your teenage years?

“i guess i’d describe it as the best and worst times of my life?” misun tilts her head, “i’ve had some bad times but also really good times that i wouldn’t trade anything for.”

enough for you: haver you ever changed something about yourself to impress others?

“i think every idol has,” misun shrugs, “i’ve become more outgoing or at least i pretend to be. i’m much more sweeter to fans and strangers than i actually am. physical … probably my body. i work really hard for my body to be …” she tilts her head again, looking for the right word, “appealing,” her smile is grim, “to others.”

traitor: what's the worst way someone can break your trust?

“expose something i told them in confidence,” misun sighs, expression tired as she recounts, “as an idol, i keep a lot of things to myself or to just my members— it’s too dangerous not to. i don’t want others knowing or some things are too personal.”

ask game

[misunhye]

bae i heard you and yeri played rock paper scissors for the spot in red velvet and yeri won 😭

“oh my god,” misun’s mouth drops open in surprise as she smacks her hand to her mouth to cover it and try to muffle her giggles. “i can’t believe i just read that. that is so foul.” she shakes her head in amusement.

send in a rumor for misun’s reaction!

[misunhye]

people are saying that you and haechan physically fought as trainees and drew blood … thoughts?

misun burst into laughter after reading the ask, taking a minute to calm down before she answered. her effort was fruitless as giggles still escaped when she said, “look— all of us can agree that haechan was not easy to get along with. it’s natural for not everyone to get along, but i swear we only verbally fought.” she shakes her head, “that’s a funny image, though. obviously, i’d win.” she winks.

send in a rumor for misun’s reaction!

[misunhye]

i heard that your mom got you into sm and nct

“well, whoever told you that is a liar,” misun’s not surprised at the rumor, blinking emotionlessly at the camera. “this has been ongoing for seven years now, aren’t you guys tired? my mother has never done anything good for me.”

send in a rumor for misun’s reaction!

[misunhye]

9 for dig a lil deeper

9. does your oc portray an image of themself on camera? how do they feel about that version of themself? is it difficult to keep up?

“When we first debuted, I was told to act shy and innocent, like I was some helpless little girl,” she blinks at the camera, forcing a smile. “As you can see, I am not some helpless little girl. Anyways … I hated it, obviously. I was and still am kind of shy, but that wasn’t my main problem. I just hated acting like someone I wasn’t. It was difficult to keep up, because I remember slipping up at times with the guys and the punishment was just … yeah.”

luckily she got out of that entire act when renjun did lmao she saw her chance and ran with it

[nct-perrie]

Perrie’s Dating History

❈Dating Overview ❈  ― Perrie never really had a hard time admitting she could have feelings for both genders. Luckily, she came from a very accepting home, so she never really felt nervous about telling them. Growing up, she had crushes on both men and women but she never drew any attention towards gender and she realized that she would be open to date anyone regardless of what they identify as. However, being in a relationship is very complicated for her because she knows she can be a lot to handle and not everyone will be comfortable with the way she acts - which she completely understands. So, she is usually very scared to get in relationships because she hates getting close to someone and then them leaving because her personality was too much or to hard to understand. 

𝓚𝓲𝓶 𝓙𝓲𝓷 𝓐𝓮

Duration: May 2017 - April 2018

Reason for break up: Perrie had to go home for personal reasons, so she broke up with Jin Ae because a relationship was too much for her. 

Current Status: They’re supportive of each other and would still consider one another friends. 

Song about relationship: Can We Just Be Happy Now by Jake Scott and Josie Dunne

Kim Jin Ae was born December 5, 1998 and she was under SM as a model trainee. The two of them met a few times when Perrie was a trainee and they kept in contact. As the years went by the developed a close friendship. In 2017, Perrie was having a really hard time and Jin Ae was the one she would lean on because she did not want to worry her members - or make them more worried than they already were. As a result, the two ended up admitting their feelings for one another. 

Their relationship was a prime example of puppy love or first loves. Neither of them ever dated anyone so everything was a learning curve. For Perrie, she had a hard time at the beginning of the relationship because of her BPD, it caused a lot of inner and outer turmoil, that wasn’t exactly healthy. However, Perrie did not realize that until years later. Jin Ae knew Perrie had a personality disorder and that not everything she did was on purpose so she tried to remind herself that in order to lessen whenever Perrie hurt her feelings accidently. 

Perrie kept this relationship a secret - even from the members - not because she was embarrassed, but because she felt much more comfortable with knowing that the relationship was just between the two of them. However, her members found out through the Dreamies who found out secretly which also ended up with Perrie getting upset and disappointed at them for a while. 

Overall, despite the few problems, they both would say that they don’t regret the relationship. They acted the way they both believe people in love would act. After they met up after their breakup and Perrie came back to SM, they thought about trying it again, but Perrie soon realized that a relationship would not be good for her during that time. 

𝓘𝓶 𝓒𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓰𝓴𝔂𝓾𝓷

Duration: April 2019 - February 2020

Reason for break up: The relationship wasn’t the best. It wasn’t exactly toxic but the both of them were too different and wanted different things inside the relationship. 

Current Status: Supportive but awkward. There are no negative feelings because both recognize they made mistakes. 

Song of the relationship: Arms around you by Jamie Grey

Perrie met Changkyun in early 2019 because she actually took part in his Horizon mixtape. While preparing, the two spent quite some time together and they both really enjoyed being around each other. It was a few months later that Changkyun asked her out. Perrie was hesitant at first because she was nervous that he would leave after they got closer together. It wasn’t until she talked to some of her members, who convinced her to go on at least one date and see. 

The first few months of the relationship were very easy. After the first few dates and after confirming that they are in a relationship, they both got really busy. Therefore, Perrie could hide her more negative traits of when her BPD was acting up more than usual. However, since they were getting more comfortable with one another, they unintentionally did things that hurt the other. 

Changkyun was someone who liked his alone time and liked the push-and-pull game. While the rational part of Perrie could understand him needing his own time, the other part of her got insecure and scared. The whole push-and-pull game he did, while he truly meant no harm, made it worse for Perrie. However, Perrie also caused some problems, she wasn’t as open with him and tended to get very sharp and unintentionally say some things rude when he pushed a bit to far. This all led up to a very big fight where both said some insensitive words. They managed to get over it, but the fight was lingering in both of their minds. 

The following few months they dated, it went from being very sweet and cute to a lot of tensions and toxicity. Perrie ended up feeling stressed whenever they got together and couldn’t wait until she got home. There were many nights where she was second guessing herself and crying. The two did not exactly get together to call it off, the both just knew that this was not a good relationship. There was still tension but they ended up getting past it when he called her when he learned she was in the hospital. He still cared a lot about her and worried about her so he felt like he needed to call. This call smoothened a lot of things out for them and eased any negative feelings they might have harbored. 

In this relationship, Perrie learned a lot, she got hurt a lot, there was a lot of drama and damage, but despite all this it taught her a lot. She learned what she needed in a relationship and what she needed to work on. She knew she had stuff she needed to work on and this relationship pointed it out. Overall, it taught her lessons about love and made her stronger for the future.