#NBK 2

[bromfieldhall]

NEVER BEEN KISSED - A Polin Fic

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Rating: General

Chapter: 1, 3

Summary: Colin finds out that Penelope has never been kissed at midnight on New Year's Eve and resolves to ensure that doesn't happen again.

Pairing: Colin Bridgerton/Penelope Featherington

NEVER BEEN KISSED

Chapter Two

“You look amazing!”

Penelope turned her head and smiled when she saw Eloise standing there with her boyfriend, Phillip. She gave her friend a quick glance up and down, taking in the exquisite dark blue fitted gown with its plunging neckline and halter neck she wore.

“Thank you. So do you,” she replied sincerely, raising her voice a little to be heard over the loud music.

Phillip offered to get both ladies a drink and headed off leaving them alone. Eloise sidled up a bit closer to her and shook her head.

“Can’t believe it’s another year nearly over. Where’s the time gone?”

Beside her, Penelope shrugged her shoulders. The past year had dragged for her. Her life felt as though it had stagnated. Her work, her book. She’d had the most agonising writer’s block when it came to that. Her family, her love life. Another failed relationship that she knew was mainly down to her. How could she truly commit when her heart wasn’t remotely in it? It had been fun, she supposed, for a while and it would have been nice to be with someone over the festive season but she didn’t miss him now that they’d split up.

And then there was Colin. He’d been working non-stop it seemed. So much so that he’d hardly kept in contact, even less when she’d started seeing her ex. She’d convinced herself that he must have met someone too, although Eloise had told her that wasn’t the case. Still, it was odd. She couldn’t think of anything she’d done and wasn’t brave enough to outright ask him about it – just in case Eloise was wrong.

Not even writing her Whistledown blog had helped. Usually, it was a catharsis. Everything pouring out of her under a cloak of anonymity. All it had succeeded in doing this year, however, was bring her to the very stark conclusion that she’d always be alone. Romantically, anyway.

Considering she’d spent most of the year with one man while thinking of another, it wasn’t really that much of a shock to her. She’d just never consciously made the decision that that would be her life.

Until now.

The truth was, she didn’t want to go through the motions with someone just for the sake of it anymore. It was tiring. The only person that pressured her about meeting someone was her mother anyway, and she was just going to have to get used to the fact that Penelope was done.

Phillip came back with their drinks and she stood and chatted with the couple for a little while before they headed onto the dance floor. She watched them with a wistful smile as they swayed together, seemingly lost in each other, completely oblivious to their surroundings.

She never thought she’d see the day that Eloise would fall in love, but there she was, and Penelope was so, so happy for her friend.

Tearing her gaze away, she turned and walked around the edges of the ballroom at Aubrey Hall stopping every now and then to chat with friends and the other members of the family.

“Are you having a nice time, dear?” Violet asked at one point, placing a gentle hand on her arm.

“I am. You’ve truly outdone yourself this year,” Penelope replied warmly.

She loved the Bridgerton matriarch. The older woman was the complete opposite of her own mother and she’d often gone to her for advice when growing up.

“Well, it’s mainly down to Kate now, of course,” she’d demurred lightly, gesturing to her daughter-in-law who stood beside her, “I just helped out when I was needed.”

“It was a joint effort and I am always grateful for any help,” Kate remarked graciously before turning back to Penelope. “And have you settled in okay?”

“Oh, yes, thank you,” she replied, feeling herself grow a little warm at the thought of her room.

Well, his room.

She had travelled down to Kent, and Aubrey Hall, that afternoon. It had taken far longer than expected because for the last two days, the south of England had been shrouded in fog so thick it would’ve put old Victorian London of the infamous Jack the Ripper days to shame.

As usual, she was going to stay a couple of nights before heading back home. She’d been doing it for years, but this was the first time that she hadn’t been given a guest room.

No, because as more people wanted to stay and as she was such a close friend of the family, Kate had asked if she would mind having Colin’s room this year. It would be doing them a huge favour and he was away working, so...

What the hell could she say to that?

It would be churlish to say no, that it felt like a violation of his privacy, because Kate didn’t know how she felt about Colin. None of them did.

And so, she’d simply smiled and told her that she understood. That it was fine, oh, so very fine and she’d gone upstairs to drop off her suitcase.

She’d been in his room before, obviously. When they were all younger – her, Eloise and Colin - and she’d stayed with them for a week or two during school holidays. Listening to music or just chatting together. All three of them had been inseparable back then.

They still were to a degree, whenever he was back from whatever foreign climes he’d been visiting. Sadly, those instances were few and far between now.

But this was going to be different. Staying in his room and sleeping in his bed, it just felt…wrong, somehow. Especially as he didn’t even know.

“That is good and thank you again for being so understanding,” said Kate, bringing her back to the present, “it really has got us out of a bind.”

Penelope merely nodded at that. They chatted for a while longer and then she was on the move again. She danced a couple of times with Hyacinth and her friends. Chatted to Benedict and Francesca and their spouses, Sophie and John. Sat with a heavily pregnant Daphne while her husband, Simon, checked in on their children, then hit the dance floor again when the youngest male sibling, Gregory, grabbed her hand and pulled her up.

She needed a drink after his exuberant dancing and let out a sigh of relief when she could fade into a corner of the ballroom and have a modicum of peace.

Time ticked on and at around half past eleven she decided that it would be a good time to head over to one of the Hall’s balcony’s so that she might slip out when the time came and see the in the new year in solitude.

She was almost there when she heard her name being called and turned to see Eloise and Phillip heading her way.

“You’re not leaving already?” Eloise accused with mock severity. She made a show of looking at her wrist, checking an imaginary watch. “There’s still half an hour to go before midnight.”

“Just getting into position,” Penelope quipped. “Can’t get caught in here when the countdown starts, I might turn into a pumpkin.”

“The fact that you equate yourself with a carriage is a little disturbing,” Eloise joked back.

“Seemed apt. I don’t want to be a mouse, I have no glass slippers and definitely no Prince – hence the pumpkin.”

“No Prince yet,” her friend corrected. “Look at me, even I found one.”

Phillip preened a little under her unexpected praise and Penelope smiled.

“We can’t all be as lucky as you, Eloise.”

“I believe I’m the lucky one,” Phillip cut in, giving his girlfriend a loving look.

In the face of such adoration, Penelope looked away, annoyed with herself at the dart of envy that shot through her system. It wasn’t about them really, it was more about herself, but it still didn’t sit well.

“You’re right, you are,” Eloise deadpanned, then turned to Penelope and grinned.

The red head couldn’t help but let out a grin back in response and took a sip of her drink. She glanced around the ballroom then back at the couple beside her and saw that Eloise was still looking at her, a contemplative expression on her face.

“What?” she asked curiously.

The brunette shrugged.

“You just seem a bit quieter than normal this evening. Not missing your ex, are you?”

Penelope’s eyes widened in horror.

“God no!” she exclaimed.

Eloise seemed to relax a little at that and nodded.

“Good. He always came across as a bit of a…a…”

She was obviously trying to be pleasant, but Penelope had no such qualms.

“Dickhead?” she supplied helpfully.

“I was going to say pretentious twat, but that works just as well.”

Penelope let out a laugh at that. Eloise wasn’t wrong. Not for the first time did she wonder why on earth she stayed with him for so long. Had she really been that lonely? That desperate?

Yes, of course she had – because sitting around and waiting for Colin Bridgerton to notice her was decidedly worse.

And now she was thinking about him again. Not that he ever really left her thoughts. He was always there, sitting at the fringes ready to pop up at the most unexpected times.

There was one thought in particular that had kept nudging at her brain the last few days and, unable to stop herself any longer, she finally asked Eloise.

“Have you heard from Colin?”

Apart from a meagre, ‘Merry Christmas, Pen,” on Christmas Day, Penelope hadn’t heard from him at all in the last week and she couldn’t help but be curious if it was just with her or everybody.

“Yes, a couple of days ago. He was in Sicily.”

Just her, then. Her heart ached a little at that knowledge.

“And is he doing okay?” she queried, trying for nonchalance. “We haven’t been in touch much recently.”

“He’s fine. Working hard.”

Penelope nodded, hating herself for what she was going to ask next, but she couldn’t help it.

“Did he have a good Christmas? Must have been difficult for him being all alone over there, gorgeous though it must be,” she clarified with a slightly forced laugh. “Or did he have some…some company or something? Because, you know, I’d hate to think of him being alone like that, but since he didn’t come home, I just wondered…”

Her friend looked at her with a frown as she trailed off, then turned to Phillip and said something she couldn’t hear. He glanced at Penelope then back to Eloise and gave a nod.

“I’ve just seen friend of mine,” he announced, rather obviously. “I’ll nip over and have a quick chat.”

Penelope watched him walk off and her stomach plummeted. Clearly her friend wanted to speak to her alone. Did she have news about Colin that she wasn’t going to like to hear? Had she been too obvious in her feelings by keeping on asking after him? Although she didn’t think she’d asked that much, had she?

“Come with me,” Eloise ordered and grabbed her hand to lead her over into a far corner so they could talk undisturbed.

Penelope’s trepidation rose with each step as she steeled herself for whatever the brunette was going to say.

When they came to a stop, Eloise turned to face her and looked at her with something akin to sympathy.

Oh no. It must be bad. Maybe he hadn’t just met someone, maybe he was engaged…married even! He had been gone a year, after all. But surely someone would’ve told her by now or perhaps they only just found out themselves…

“Have you ever thought about telling my brother how you feel about him?”

Penelope was so surprised by the question that she stared back at Eloise blankly for a moment then uttered stupidly, “Which one?”

The brunette gazed back at her like she was quite mad and chuckled in amusement.

“Well, considering two are married, one is far too young for you, and we were just talking about Colin, I think you know which brother.”

She did. Of course she did. She laughed nervously and shrugged.

“There’s nothing to tell,” she denied, her voice a little higher pitched than normal.

“Isn’t there?” Eloise questioned pointedly. When Penelope shook her head, the brunette sighed and revealed something that sent her reeling. “I know about your blog,” she told her, then after a pause clarified, “The Whistledown Diaries.”

The red head stared at her in shock. That had been the last thing she’d expected to hear.

“What?”

Even in the slightly dimmed lights of the hotel ballroom they were in, Elosie could see the colour drain from her friend’s face.

“You left your laptop open one time when I popped in to see you,” she elaborated. “It was a couple of months ago. Your page was just sitting there. I think you thought you’d shut the tab down, but you hadn’t, so…I did it for you.”

Penelope felt her stomach churn a little.

“Oh God.”

“Pen, it’s okay…”

“So, you’ve read it?” she broke in abruptly, needing her to say it. Her friend looked back at her apologetically. “Have you read it, Eloise?” she repeated tersely.

A guilty expression flickered across her face and she nodded. “Some of it,” she admitted then reached out to place her hand on her arm, but Penelope took a step back.

“Don’t.”

 She could feel the panic swirling around in her gut laced with a healthy dose of mortification.

How much was ‘some of it’? Had she told anyone else? Phillip? Her family?

Colin?

She took another step back, her breathing becoming more laboured as the enormity of what she’d said really started to set in.

“I’m sorry.”

She was sincere, Penelope could tell that even through the alarm that was shooting through her body at a frightening pace. It was nauseating.

“You shouldn’t have read any of it, Eloise,” she burst out suddenly. “It’s private.”

“It’s a public blog,” the brunette pointed out reasonably, “I could have stumbled upon it any time.”

“Yes, but you wouldn’t have known it was me,” Penelope retorted unhappily, tears starting to gather in her eyes. “It’s anonymous for a reason. You probably would have carried on scrolling; but for me…it’s my safe space, Eloise, can’t you see that? A place where I can just be me. Where I can get out all those feelings that I have to keep locked down tight inside because if they were out there it would ruin everything.”

“I’m sorry,” Eloise said again, her own eyes starting to look shiny. “I didn’t mean to…”

“Who else knows?” Penelope cut in abruptly, not looking at her friend as she tried to keep her emotions under control. Her silence was damning. Closing her eyes, she shook her head. “Please, just tell me you didn’t tell Colin,” she pleaded shakily.

“I didn’t…tell him as such,” Eloise muttered awkwardly.

Penelope’s eyes shot open and met her friend’s sheepish gaze. It was rare that the brunette looked uncomfortable, but she did now and the red head’s heart sank.

“I don’t even want to know what that means,” she replied flatly.

She really would have preferred to hear that he was married.

The DJ suddenly announced that midnight was just ten minutes away and people should get their drinks to see in the New Year. She took that as her cue and turned away from her friend to head hurriedly over to the balcony. Eloise called after her, but she ignored it and kept on going. She needed some space.

Once outside, she sagged back against the door she’d closed behind her and huffed out a shuddering sigh. Her hot breath floated in the chilly air a moment before dissipating into the ether. Slowly, she walked over to the ornate balustrade and looked out over the gardens. They were heavily shrouded in thick fog and she welcomed the unearthly stillness that enveloped her as she rested her hands on the cold, stone handrail.

Behind her the muffled sounds of the party continued on, while she felt as though part of her life had just ended.

She was going to have to take the blog down now. She couldn’t leave it up knowing that Colin had read it. Because she was sure that he had, despite Eloise’s cryptic answer and now he knew of her feelings for him. She’d been so obvious. All her love laid bare in black and white for all the world to see.

Lord, he must just feel so embarrassed.

That was probably why he hadn’t been in contact.

Thank God he was away. Far away. It was bad enough that she had to face the rest of the family because she was pretty certain that Eloise had told them as well. Every interaction she had with them tonight and over the past couple of months left her cringing inwardly.

Did they pity her, she wondered now? She didn’t recall ever feeling like that thankfully, but putting her up in Colin’s room suddenly felt even more inappropriate.

Hot tears began to trickle down her cheeks and she absently brushed them away then took in a deep bracing breath. She couldn’t breakdown. Not now. Not here. She had to go back in soon. Pretend that everything was okay while she wished everyone a happy New Year and tried to ignore the fact that they all knew her personal business.

She would have to leave tomorrow, she decided, there was no other option. She’d go now if she thought she’d be able to get a cab, but she doubted many would be running in this weather and certainly not back to London.

A shiver ran through her body and she wrapped her arms around herself as the cold started to seep into her bones. Her dress was nowhere near warm enough to be out there and she’d been so desperate to get away that she’d forgotten to grab her shawl. She really should have just gone straight to her…his room instead of going outside. She could have easily feigned a headache.

The DJ shouted out another time announcement. Five minutes to go.

She rubbed her arms a little trying to get some warmth back into them when she suddenly heard the door creak open behind her. Music blared briefly, then quietened again when the door squeaked closed. Penelope’s mouth tightened in annoyance. She’d hoped that Eloise would leave her be.

“Shouldn’t you be inside with Phillip?” she asked curtly without turning around.  

“No,” came a familiar, slightly breathless, male voice that had her freezing in shock, “I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.”

She slowly turned around, the cold forgotten as heat flooded through her veins when she saw him standing there in a t-shirt, jeans and brown jacket. Breathing heavy, cheeks red, hair dishevelled – he looked as though he’d just run a marathon.

“Colin?” she gasped out in surprise.

He smiled.

“Hello, Pen.”

[wolfieskies-25]

Rediscovered a bunch of art from a phase I had and completely forgot about; Nanbaka 2nd Gen XD I remember being obsessed with these fankids. (And poor Liu- my Liang X Upa kid- had a whole arc of a near death experience during the Hachiman fight, my poor baby boi) I should draw more of them sometime,, I miss them

[angelhummel]

i know everyone loves s2 bc Gay but damn there are already so many episodes im dreading alksjfdlskfs like honestly with s1 there was only one episode i was really dreading but in s2 its like damn how much do i have to suffer thru for an ounce of joy???

[jin-zixun]

the desire to write glee s6 au fic

vs

the desire to not watch glee s6 which would be an implicit requirement to properly writing s6 au fic

[receivedhope]

More Kurt clothing discussion please

i'm gonna break out my personal notes/observations of kurt's fashion sense for you:

knee-length shorts combined with knee high boots/socks is a very common combination for him, mostly in season 1-2

layers! it's a fun ongoing joke because it's ever so true (for the first four seasons...) if you want to make your fanart kurt outfit more kurt-ish, just keep dressing him up. and if you want to make a fanart kurt outfit that he would wear in season 6, just imagine literally any guy ever walking down the street that blends into his surroundings.

aside from the one line of knee between the knee high socks/boots and knee length shorts and the occassional unbuttoned shirt that may let you peek at his collarbones, the most naked he will get is showing off his forearm (but he does wear a very short short in a katy or a gaga with ankle length doc martens... i'm pretty sure that's the most he has shown of his skin in an outfit)

there is always some concept behind his outfits, most of the time it's a theme, but there are ones where its unified by texture/color or the contrast between them.

in his dalton arc, he tries very hard to match/mirror blaine

death imagery is a recurring theme, which is almost expected for a character who is so defined by death

he rarely if ever wears women's clothing that is meant to look flattering only on feminine bodies, so nothing that would enhance curves, for example.

the most unconventional and feminine piece of clothing he wears in earnest is the skirt in britney/brittany but that seems to be worn over pants as well (maybe leggings?) and he does seem interested in the pumps sue got for unique in saturday nigh glee-ver, though i'm not sure if he would want to wear it himself or just have it in his possession, since he is very crow-like with his affinity for collecting whatever sparks interest like the white suit from the same episode.

i desperately want to see the corset he allegedly wore to second period in acafellas... but i kind of assume it's actually a shirt with a lace up back, similar to the vest in i am unicorn in the scene where he first sees the campaign posters designed by brittany

the only kind of headpiece he usually wears are hats, so no hair pins or headbands like rachel's, but he does wear sweatbands when working out. he also wore a bandana a couple times as well, like in wheels.

i don't know where else to put this, but i love his little yellow coat + rainboots from nbk, especially because it does look like an outfit for the rain, which fits well with the overall theme of that episode and the need to survive it like a rainy day... idk... i like it...

[dylcalvodka]

Here's my my Immortal inspired fic featuring Eric and Dylan

It wuz a dark n stormy nite (cuz duh) n I wuz sittin on my bed, blastin Three Cheers 4 Sweet Revenge on my shitty CD playr while starin at my posters of MCR n slipknot. Da only light in da room wuz my black candle (it smelled like sadness n Hot Topic lmao) n da glow of my laptop where I wuz reading on Tumblr. My eyeliner wuz extra smudged 2day (on purpose obvs) n my hair wuz straightened to PERFECTION w my racoon tails dyed purple n pink.

Then I hurd it… a knock on da door. My heart stopd. NOT LITERALLY (or mayb it did idk lol) but like… I FROZE. Who cud it be?? My mom?? (ew no) A ghost??? Omg it wuz prob a ghost lmao. I opened da door slowly n—

IT WUZ ERIC N DYLAN.

I GASPED SO LOUD I ALMOST DIED. There they wuz, standin there all cool n mysterious like they were an anime protagonist. Eric had his arms crossd n smirked like he wuz in a music video n Dylan wuz just… there. He didnt even look at me, just sipped his Monster n sighed like life wuz too much.

Eric looked me up n down, nodding. "Hmmm... not bad," he said like a villian. “We wuzn’t sure if u wud actually clean up in time.”

Dylan took a long sip of Monster (prob da blue one) n finaly looked at me. “We wuz thinkin abt invitin u 2 NBK…” he said, voice dead inside. “But if ur room wuz cringe we wuda left u behind.”

MY SOUL LEFT MY BODY. This wuz da moment I had waited 4 my whole life (or at least da last 3 hours while I cleaned my room like a maniac fueled by Red Bull n dread). I moved aside, tryin 2 act cool like them even tho I wuz internally screaming n throwin up.

Eric sat on my bed, kickin his feet up like he own da place. Dylan leaned against my book shelf, judgin my posters. “U pass… for now,” Eric said, smirkin like a villian. “But we gotta make sure ur not… a poser.”

I gasped. “IM NOT A POSER!!!” I shrieked, my voice full of angst.

Dylan just stared. “Then prove it.”

Eric reached into his trench coat n pulled out somethin HORRIFYING. It wuz… A PINK HOLISTER HOODIE.

“If ur really one of us,” he said, voice dark n serious, “u gotta wear this. In public.”

I felt my whole world shatter. My vision blurred. My hands shook like a badly animated MMD model. Could I do it?? Could I risk my entire emo goth reputation for this??? I looked at Eric’s cold evil eyes, then at Dylan’s deadpan stare, n I KNEW… I HAD NO CHOICE.

My hands trembled as I took da hoodie. It felt wrong like it wuz burnin my soul (not literally but like SPIRITUALLY). I swallowed hard. “Fine,” I whispered. “I’ll do it.”

Eric smirked. Dylan sipped his Monster. The storm raged on outside. My fate wuz sealed.

2 BE CONTINUED….?????

[klaineccfanficlibrary]

Hello!! Do you know of any fics that have to do with the Karofsky situation

So, when I saw your ask, I immediately thought of season 6 - but it's probably season 2 you mean? But I have included here references to season 2, and 3. If it's season 6 you want, I can do a separate ask for it, if you let me know. ~Jen

For season 2 reaction fics, some au, or pre the episodes! It's best to look at the old fanfic site, lovejournal. Here are some:

The Aftermath of the Karofsky Kiss by- iliketowriteaboutklaine (rebeldawgspirategirl)

Once Kurt got over the shock of Karofsky kissing him in the locker room, he had to tell the one person who would understand, at least a little bit. So, Blaine comes over.

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Pancakes and the simple life by rainjoyswritings

Set the morning after Prom Queen. Warnings: Seriously, somehow I ended up in Karofsky's head. Because he's obsessed with Kurt Hummel too? Look, basically, deals with some of the intensely creepy shit going on in his head between NBK and Furt and if you don't want to know then that's cool, I didn't really either.

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Truth and Consequences by rainjoyswritings (AU)

How To Survive parts one, two and three and And Dance, a big pile of angst. Azimio pushes Karofsky too hard against himself and specifically against Kurt, and the fallout reverberates through everyone's lives, including his own. The whole verse can also be downloaded as a PDF at Klaineficspdfs <3

Warnings: The aftermath of violence and a suicide attempt, so it could be pretty triggery. Also just like angsty as all fuck. Nothing past Original Song, but set sometime after S2.

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And the truth shall set you free by @slayerkitty

Author's Note: This fic ate my brain. No, really. It was supposed to be just a short one-shot based on a prompt from foreverfaith101 , in which Kurt transfers back to Mckinley, and on his first day back is cornered by Karofsky in the boys locker room. Karofsky tries to apologize (and based on 2.12, I didn't find that too out of character), but the entire thing is broadcast in the gym during a pep rally (Jacob Ben Israel, I'm looking at you), and the truth about the kiss comes out. It's...not so short, lol. Written pre 2.18

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Coffeespills by elanorelle

"Come on, I'll buy you lunch." Kurt and Blaine after the second Karofsky confrontation in Never Been Kissed.

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3X14 tab - our library tab relating to On My Way season 3.

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There But For the Grace of…  by flamingmuse

By the time the front door opens, Burt is sitting in his favorite spot on the couch, pretending to watch TV.

set during 3x14 ("On My Way")

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Being Born is the Hardest Thing  By @wowbright

Blaine is sleeping in Kurt’s bed while the rest of the family is home because, this week, no one has the energy for pretense. Feelings, with hope. 

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Looking For White Buffalo  by @wowbright

Burt wants to make sure that Kurt is doing things for the right reasons. Visiting your former bully in the hospital? Maybe that’s not such a good idea.

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Visitations by etmuse 

David Karofsky receives two unexpected visitors. Set after 3x14

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[spaceorphan18]

14 years since Never Been Kissed aired. Did you watch it live? Where were you? Did you think it would be the start of something major - one of your favorite ever ships?

Ohh, interesting question!

It's kind of funny to try to remember details of something that did happen nearly fifteen years ago. the tl:dr version of how I started watching Glee was that I wasn't in a great place in Mar of 2010, and a friend of mine had given me the DVD of Glee S1 Part 1 (because that's a thing that happened back then.

And I watched it and I was, meh, it was fine. I mean, DSB gave me literal chills. But I didn't really connect with any of the characters (and omg did I find Terri and Ken annoying). And it's funny, Kurt I had a hard time with -- not at all because of the gay thing, but because his crush on Finn hit a little too close to home and I was still a little sensitive about how I was during high school.

Anyway, the same friend said we should start watching the show together - so I started going over to watch it with her. We watched the rest of Season 1 together. And maybe the first half of Season 2? I definitely watched the first four-ish episodes with her. I think (?) I must have watched NBK with her.

The ONLY thing I remember from my first time watching was the forced kiss between Kurt and Karofsky. It was THAT shocking. Like, WHOA what is happening???

The only real thing I remember about Blaine was that my friend had told me that Kurt was supposed to be getting a boyfriend, and we all wondered if it was going to be Sam (because Duets did give that tiny-ish set-up). And when Blaine showed up, it was one of those - oh, is it this dude? type things.

I did not like Season 2 when it was first airing, Nonny. I'll be honest with you about it. The thing I've since learned about RM and his shows, he often fills them with a lot of unlikable characters who are often ridiculously dramatic. And it just wasn't my thing. But also remember, the show focused hard on Rachel, Finn, Quinn, Puck, Sue, and Will (and Emma). Like -- not my favorite characters. At all.

It's one reason I appreciate the later seasons, because characters I like got more focus, and it just became super weird and super queer and that's just more to my taste.

But anyway -- I kind of only watched sporadically after the first few weeks. I caught Silly Love Songs - because I remember thinking after Kurt and Blaine have their When Harry Met Sally convo, oh yeah, they'll get these two together.

I have zero memory of watching Original Song for the first time. Which I just have, because I knew Klaine was together after that point. But I did miss most of the second half of Season 2.

No, I had zero idea I'd love Klaine as hard as I did (do). I can tell you I remember the exact moment I fell in love with Klaine, though. I decided to catch up on Season 3 because I missed the first half (and hilariously - I was actually enjoying Season 3 more than Season 2 at the time, wild right?) and it was The First Time, and it was the auditorium scene, and it was this moment.

And really, just Kurt saying -- I'm just a silly romantic, and Blaine saying it wasn't silly, and just kissing him. And, my god nonny, it made my cold, dead heart come alive. It took my breath away.

And then, I mean, I rewatched the full series again, and really got into the Klaine of it, and got into fandom, and as much as fandom was a headache -- and my god it was a headache -- I think that's why I stayed with Glee for so long? It was something to have fun with and explore and write about and talk to people about and there was the insanity of week to week, and it was wild - I mean really wild, but it's what made the show fun. Because, I mean, I love the show - but it's a mess.

And I'm constantly amazed new people come in for it, because sometimes it feels like there's a -- you had to be there -- to get it, lol.

But, I mean, did I think I'd be here, fifteen years later, still talking about how it impacted me? Not even a little bit. :)

[misanthropic-lovers]

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E & D possible bpd disorder (part 1 D)

Okay so for those who don't know I'm a psychology student (yeah that's exactly what you read, now focus)so I gonna bring so reason why we can,and can not say Eric and Dylan may have had BPD, basically I gonna use their behavior, tapes transcriptions,drawing and their journal as a base for this.

Okay so for star BPD is a short for Boderline personality disorder,which is.....exactly a personality disorder wow.... unexpected,okay but what that means? different from a depression or a anxiety which is cause by yours hormones and can be treated with medicines Boderline is not cause by hormonal changes or brain chemistry like those two,which it means that medicate someone with BPD pretty much not gonna help in most of their behavior since is something on their personality and not on their chemicals.

Around 5 million people in the US have been diagnosed with PBD,okay now for Dylan and Eric and why most of the psychologist analysis of them could have been wrong even after years and years after.

1- one of the principal symptoms of BPD is the fear of a abandonment which Dylan demonstrate A LOT in his handwriting, especially after (apparently Zach Heckler) has found a girlfriend, Dylan felt that the world was conspiring against him trying to take the people he love away from him, Dylan saw Zach's behavior as him trying to abandone him after all they had lived together.

2-intense or unstable relationships,Dylan had a back and forth a couple times with Eric, asking his mom to backup him when Eric called and asking her to talk out loud with him so he could give a excuse to not be around Eric for a while,they both had a pretty intense relationship between them,BUT...let not forget Dylan dream girls,which him used to see them as a true love and then notice they didn't care about him at all (according to the man itself) Dylan was desperate to experience a true love like the ones in his fantasy and reading to his journal we can feel how left out of the whole relationship thing he felt,how he felt that he would never be loved back.

3- quick changes in self aspect, D used to have those low and high on his self esteem ever now and then,he would be 'Mr cutter' in a second and hate his nose,and feel complete godlike in another,he would have those up and downs most I think to protect himself in situations that he felt under pressure like around the jocks in school,or in the tape while he was trying to act tough in front of the camera

4- Impulsive and risky behavior is also a very common sign of Boderline,Dylan would scratch a locker, hack school computer with his friends to get the school lockers combo,he would break into a van and apparently even stole credit card passwords,he put himself in danger endless time(honor mention for him pointing a gun to his stomach while reloading it)

5-periods of paranoid,not let me get started it every time Dylan though people was conspiring against him,in a McDonald's as Sue mention on her book,Dylan even write about it on his journal

He mention a couple time felt that people was trying to fuck his life in a almost Godly way, trying to get his Alcyone away from him with all those human feeling's and thoughts and confusion,after a while Dylan started to see NBK as a way to get away from this reality to a whole new one with his love (he is a romantic let him be happy,let the kid dream)

6-Threats of suicide or self-injury, Dylan would very openly talk about his suicide thoughts on his journal,about blowing his head off with a pipe bomb or even shot a poor SOB person(someone is needing to understand his social class)

He discuss about his self harm and about how he felt depressed and with nothing left to live.

7-long feeling of emptiness,well well well look where we got,this sunshine boy is full of that,this feeling could be caused by triggers I think in Dylan case is most about his shyness,he was a very social anxious person, Devon once said he wouldn't go to her party cause some people he doesn't like would come over,so I guess most of his feeling of emptiness was caused by creating those paranoias that people was trying laughing at him.

8-Inappropriate, strong anger, losing temper often, being sarcastic or bitter, or physically fighting. Well I couldn't find anything about Dylan in fact physically fighting,I meant....Brooks on 4th grade doesn't count I guess,once he hit at his co-worker shoulder when she told him about a work Infraction....so yeah,he was know by many person as scary cause he would just be here and stare at them,or bounce at girls in the gym making them fell on the ground, calling Doddy a bitch,and being a asshole with his french teacher slamming doors and whatever at class,he would threat a special student Adam Kyler to kill him if he showed up for class,and he confess being mean to people at his journal,well at being sarcastic....

This men is my favorite sassy machine,he was know for being sarcastic,the whole voodoo thing on Devon birthday card, the way he act at the video he Brooks and Zach made for Mrs Caruthers.

The thing here is, boderline almost never comes alone most people ended up having a 2 or more mental health problems, boderline is more diagnosed on girl's and it didn't have a cure as I said before BUT have some great sources of treatment,the thing is psychology didn't came to a conclusion about how it develope BUT they think is a combination with genetic, environment,and social factors or huge trauma.

SO WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY IS: D in fact suffered with some sort of mental health problem,and analysing the case for 7 years now I guess we can pretty much see him trough a LOT of angles, searching in the DSM (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Health Disorders) a couple hundred times in the last 3 years I tried to comprehend Dylan actions and behavior,and I pretty much can see him getting a diagnostic of BPD,so this is the thread basically hope you guys enjoy,I gonna do a part 2 for Eric:)

[gleetournaments]

Well if we’re thinking of Rumours v 2009 - as someone said many fans just haven’t made it to season 6 or watched 2009 more than once. It’s an enjoyable episode, the main fascination being Kurt’s story and his glow up, but this tournament has all other ships and stans voting. Is there any britanna in there? Season 2 remains popular. Rumours is popular for Songbird especially plus other extra songs plus the Britanna Artie plot, plus the Sam of it all - the story is cute. Klainers love to laugh at the stupidity of people thinking Kurt is cheating on Blaine.

Nbk v hos - well someone pointed out in comments only good thing about Nbk is Klaine meeting. And theres been a lot of anti Blaine stuff around this week on twitter so that’s changed again. The beiste plot is horrible and puck is an ass, and it’s not really Britanna focussed. hos is a competition episode which people tend to enjoy and you’ve got one of the sancedes mashups in there too.

I think, and I mean no disrespect to you, but we do know ultimately there’s a handful of episodes which will be in the top 4. Pq and Os have been long term fan faves and have won many times over the years, I’m not convinced it’ll change now. I’m interested to see what fills in the spaces 3-28 or whatever.

But I love you doing this. It’s fun. It’s not to be taken too seriously. It’s interesting to hear PoV even if they’re wrong (I jest) . I’m not commenting or reblogging because people can be so rude or shoot people down for having a different opinion.

I don’t want you to stop it. Plus you’ve worked hard on it.

Hi Nonny!

Sorry - I am finally getting around to addressing all of this.

First of all, I just want to say, even if I'll campaign passionately on my own blog, I completely understand that this blog's intention is to service the wider glee fandom, and not one particular corner of it, therefore the opinions are going to be different. That is usually part of the fun of it.

What isn't fun is when there's an obvious bout of cheating going on and all of sudden those numbers get skewed in a really wonky way. And as I said before, I know there's always some form of cheating going on in these things -- especially in polls that reach a huge audience. But this particular blog really only gets out to 200-ish people, so when someone spams it with an 100 extra votes it feels really noticeable.

And, at the moment I discovered it - it felt... idk violating in a way? It's like someone did it intentionally to make some sort of statement?

Most of the polls they did it on, the episode in question was already winning. So, why even bother?

That said - I do agree that we're hurdling towards a pre-determined endgame. I've ran this particular poll maybe four times over the course of the years, and it's always ended the same way. But the real fun is getting there, and seeing where everything else shakes out.

I'm glad you are having fun, and I think overall, most people are, too. As of now, things seem to be normal again, so I'm continuing on with the tournament. But if things seem suspicious again, I may decide to pull the plug then.

As an aside -

I’m not commenting or reblogging because people can be so rude or shoot people down for having a different opinion.

I'm sorry to hear this, and this is a good moment to remind people that everyone is entitled to have their own opinion. No one is dumb or stupid or whatever if they like something else. It's a TV show, and subjective to each person. Someone not liking your favorite isn't going to hurt you, and people should feel safe to state opinions without getting ridiculed. I realize this is the internet, and the anonymity makes that hard. But c'mon. This is so not worth getting into it with people over.

Thanks for dropping a line! I do appreciate hearing from you guys. <3

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i’m actually a huge fan and believer of the blaine is obscenely rich headcanon and i’m unfortunately not capable of staying short and sweet with my glee ramblings so under the read more are my reasonings

1. it is loosely implied by canon in NBK + Movin Out: he implies that while not many people can afford the steep dalton tuition price, he can and HE BUYS A PIANO UNPROMPTED AS A “THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME STAY FOR THE WEEKEND” GIFT. i tried to find out if anyone knew what brand and type it was but i was unsuccessful. since im woefully unequipped to say, i can only assume what i already know: it still cost a lot.

1.a) while i cannot (and don’t really desire to) attach a number to the dalton tuition fee, it’s also hard to say conclusively if we are talking about relatively expensive or actually expensive, since the hummels’ economical standing is also unclear. however there are some canon moments where you can kinda ballpark it:

- while kurt is known to sew/alter/thrift most of his clothes, he does have a few designer pieces, like a new marc jacobs jacket in pilot (sidenote: the jacket debuted in the fall of 2008. it really may have been fresh off the runway at the time of filming, which i think is a nice touch for kurt)

- an expensive car is used as a bargaining chip so that kurt would stop wearing his sweaters

- in theatricality, carole remarks that the hummels’ house is twice as big as theirs

based on those mostly, i assumed the hummels are comfortably middle class in canon, however in pre-canon, i can easily see them struggling more after kurt’s mom’s death. burt and kurt only really seem to have each other and burt was grieving, plus funerals are expensive, so i can see why burt would say in BTW that they’re “spending money they don’t have [on tuition]” or why they’d need to use the honeymoon money at all. i’m fairly confident those years of struggling left a huge mark on burt, to the point where he would consider a savings account necessary and only for emergencies - maybe the dalton tuition is not considered as such (yet?)

(i’m extremely kind so i’m pretending the glee writers gave a fuck about this LOL)

b) we do not know how much was the honeymoon money or how much of the semester the tuition fee covered (since kurt transferred around november-ish) but i don’t think we necessarily need to - it’s enough money that the comfortably living hummels find it an outrageous amount.

2. i think it makes his transfer mean that much more. if he is forced to transfer due to money troubles - which i already don’t believe because of TPPP’s lima bean scene and for “i did this for me”/“i changed schools for [kurt]” being actual lines he says lol - it removes his autonomy and makes him seem that much more opportunistic/manipulative by presenting it to kurt as a romantic gesture and him being willing to grow. one of the very first things he says is that he regrets running away to dalton. you have to keep in mind that dalton is presented as a safe haven for klaine but it ultimately doesn’t challenge them so they cannot grow there. blaine taking this step of his own volition is meaningful for him as a character, boyfriend and person.

3. i like the idea that him being well off contributed to burt eventually giving his blessing when blaine asked for kurts hand. despite all the (very, very valid) reservations he has against them marrying so young, i do think that he likes blaine and sees the upside of the stability he can give to kurt, as any parent would. (and if anyone knows how expensive kurt is to keep happy, its him)

4. it’s fun! this is one of those headcanons i am so attached to despite the lack of concerete canon evidence because it just adds a layer to my enjoyment of blaine.

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