#Multifaceted

[thatmultifandomchick]

Sometimes I forget that people don’t think of me as feminine, or even as a girl.

My mom and sister were going out for girls night, and when I asked why I wasn’t invited, they said I wasn’t a girl. Even though I refer to myself as such, even though I use She/Her, even though I’m AFAB.

“But I thought you went by They/Them?” I do. We’ve had this conversation before. I am a girl. I am also genderqueer. I use She/Her. I also use They/Them and sometimes He/Him. I am still a girl.

Sometimes, it’s less invalidating of my gender identity and more based on careless assumptions.

I got on a Zoom call with my therapist. She saw that my room was pink and thought my parents had picked out the color, because never in a million years would I have done that. “No,” I said, “Pink is my favorite color.”

“But you never wear pink?” What do you expect me to do, find exact replicas of of the ten items that I can both wear comfortably and that have emotional significance, but in pink? Beggars can’t be choosers when you have sensory issues and strong hyperfixation tendencies. I still like pink.

“But you like X Y Z so I assumed you wouldn’t like girly stuff?” Yes, I'm super into Tim Burton and Goosebumps and Tusk and Spider-Man, but I also love Disney and Barbie and Ever After High and My Little Pony. I typically dress like I do stage crew but I own a strawberry dress that I like to wear on special occasions. I like flower arranging and doll making and stuffed animals.

Why is it that embracing the genderqueer and masculine parts of my identity means giving up my femininity and my identity as a girl?

[emmedoesntdomath]

mav, facedown into a pillow: I hate him

goose, reading next to him: I thought you wanted to have his children?

mav: I can be multifaceted!

[skyrim-forever]

That feel of having ocs where you have really deep, intricate thoughts about them and how they view the world, how their experiences has shaped them

and then it's like haha put 'em in a dumb t-shirt

[howifeltabouthim]

'What can he be really like?' she thought confusedly; 'Which of them is he?'

L. P. Hartley, from My Fellow Devils

[dream-in-hearts]

Dressing My Wounded Pride

Maybe I lack some self-accountability

Someone screaming at or scolding me leads to

Screaming at myself inside my mind

Takeaways from therapy a constant cycle

Because why do I keep shit bottled up

Still to this day?

Whenever it feels like I’m living a nightmare,

My dreams remind me to stay lucid.

Getting close to a decade

Of being clean from self-harming

That doesn’t mean the urge completely went away

I’ve had several close calls

Inherently good, yet flawed

Inherently pure, yet scarred

Full of love even when I feel empty or numb

And deep down, knowing that I am loved

That must be what’s keeping me alive

What’s keeping the lights on

Whenever I feel ready to kill them

Hit me straight in the feelings

That I’ve been trying to run away from

Could I have handled it better?

Yes, but I still handled it

Could I have given up?

Yes, but I still tried and tried again

Climbing all the way up from rock bottom

To taste the sun

And I swear I’m taking you with me

[ampresandian]

I feel like some of my posts make it sound like I don't like Poseidon and that's not true. I think he's one of the better gods probably--he certainly seems less selfish throughout the series (though Percy is an unreliable narrator and he clearly does like and respect his father so who knows bc he's v selfish in tlo), and he makes many efforts to connect with Percy that we neither see nor hear about the other gods doing. But I think the point of the series is that everyone has flaws and can (and should) work to do better, and I think Poseidon clearly has flaws. It's not that he doesn't have Percy's best interests at heart when he speaks to him or helps him, or that he doesn't love/respect Sally, or that he's a liar. It's just that there's clearly a lot at play, and I think it would be a mistake to boil any decision or statement down to just one reason.

For any of the characters.

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

[kathrynalexao3]

What fuels you?

Daily: Chaos, Coffee, & Memes

Weekly: Reading Fanfiction, Writing, Painting, My Found Family

Monthly: Having an abundance of food in the house (life seems so much harder when I don’t have this)

Yearly: Personal growth towards the who I really want to be, not who I think society wants me to be.

Inspired by @holly-rose12

[mymusicbias]

[ebonyseuphoriatarot]

[joyxande]

[00l6]

The word of the day: Multifaceted

[racoonwithastache]

Hello there!

Im reviving this blog!

Heads up:I wlll be posting a bunch of old art in bulk over the next few days! After the last two years hiding my art and not really being able to work on it without constant panic and/or doubts I'll be sharing work again.

Partly because I can't really decide on what I wanna share I made three lil blogs - this one is dedicated to visdev and game dev work.

The other two are completely dedicated to my hobbies and interests outside of game development such as crafting and modelbuilding. I don't really know how I'll go about sharing those things cause I don't really follow an art style when making miniatures or other crafts. I'll just go with the flow and hope to connect with fellow crafters! So there's no plan for those two. Feel free to connect!

This one however is meant to be a little bit of an unserious portfolio. Mind you I still work fulltime in a non-dev/non-art job so I won't be posting super regularly.

I am glad to be back 💫

[prettyangelito]

First post, this will be my comfort zone, I'm kind of tired of ig

[phregnancy]

phil’s fake acting voice would be good for presenting on a childrens program and nothing else

[sistercara]

ive decided my new gender / sexuality label is "protean"

im a swiss army bitch