#Morg derails a post

[amplexadversary]

#Chibodee behavior <- prev

Yes. And then the Kasshus see him get Domon with it and I think they'd absolutely be the kinds of nerds to take it as a challenge.

The colonies almost certainly have ample sustainable recycling facilities (because, you know, space, they can't just dispose of material,) which means they'd get to go full engineer.

Chibodee has no idea what he's wrought for like a year. I think he would have gotten Domon clothes wrapped into the shape of a training dummy btw (because someone has to be buying him the designer clothes he wears in all those promo images ;)

So christmas is a romantic holiday in Japan - I'm assuming everyone is getting One thing for their significant other. Which also means we're in AU territory (also, I wanted to come up with one for Mikino, because with the field I headcanon as having been her specialty, I think she'd manage to make the thing *smaller* than it should be)

Mikino would probably somehow be able to fit the parts required to build a desktop computer (sans the tower) into a package the size and shape of a large textbook. But she'd opt for a small/medium ''potted plant'' instead (about the smallest size you'd want to carry with two hands rather than one).

Raizo is an engineer and a dad, so he'd probably make something big and stupidly-shaped like that ''ladder''. I think he'd work some of those magnifying goggles (the kind that a watchmaker might use when handling tiny parts) into the ''shade'' of a standing lamp, somehow without it crumpling to the ground.

A younger Kyoji might go for sending Andrew something that is shaped disturbingly like a whole spawning salmon.

Conceivably, Kyoji might instead troll a date with a fake sword. He had to have thought of the idea to use the rusted sword to mess with Domon in canon - who's to say he wouldn't think of something similar for this purpose?

I could honestly picture him getting a date of his a big roll of parafilm, because he finds it extremely useful for miscellaneous applications,* unspooling it, and re-rolling it into an elongated, more sword-proportioned tube (you've probably seen wrapping paper do this - it looks kind of like one of those toy lightsabers when it happens?)

(*such as anything that has an opening and needs a temporary seal, for gardening, holding glued objects in place while they set (it stretches to fit) (... that is totally not just because that's *my* opinion. Anyway))

Domon makes Kyoji and Mikino help him. They re-package one of those ''movie'' gift baskets, the kind with the microwave popcorn and the snacks, and some choice films, you've seen them, very american, into something that looks like a new pair of boxing gloves.

Chibodee thinks he's going to have to let them down kindly on why you can't really buy sports equipment for someone else until he realizes he has been HAD.

[amplexadversary]

I agree with OP, and honestly what needs to happen is for sites other than Ao3 (who is doing amazing) to implement better search functions. And for art sites to implement the tagging system the boorus have.

Sometimes I just want to look for a variety, a grab bag of works. See if something stands out and catches my interest to ooh and ahh at. Say, robot fucking. I go onto Ao3 and search for it. Huh. 90% of what comes up is Transformers fic. I have nothing against Transformers fic I enjoy it when I'm in the mood, but I wanted a bunch of different options within this category to choose from. I put "Transformers" into Ao3's "exclude" field, then the next two most popular fandoms in that category, and then get exactly what I want. I see a nice saucy anime fic and read it.

I go over to Reddit to view some art. I go to a robotfucker subreddit. 90% of it is conventionally cute girl robots, and I want to see what artists with different tastes are up to. I try to click on one of the flairs the subreddit uses. It returns no results, despite the fact that I have seen posts that use it. I try to use the search bar. I get a tiny selection of ''masc'' robots because very few people tag their posts with keywords. I can't figure out how to display older, "archived" posts, because there isn't an obvious "advanced search" function.

I go to Tumblr. The search feature doesn't work, and half the time the site won't show me "adult" tags even though I have told it I am okay with seeing that kind of post. I check Deviantart. Its search used to be okay but now returns less and less of what I ask it for, and many artists have fled due to policy changes. I check the various booru sites. Very little has been added this month, despite there being countless artists online posting work. Twitter gives me the finger when I so much as look at its search bar.

I've noticed that the only time I get frustrated with 90% of [art category] being [specific idea] is when there isn't a decent search/filter function available where I'm looking, and I imagine most of the people complaining about the "fic market" don't realize there's a better way to describe/solve their problem.

Which they should figure out, both for the peace of mind of the artists, and because the more people demand better search, the more pressure there is for various website staff to make it. Which we know can be done because it has been accomplished before.

ok, because i just saw a terrible take, i feel compelled to say that there is no "fic market" to "oversaturate" in fandom. good gravy.

[mortuarywriting]

*slides you a snack of your choosing* tell me more about turkeys. i’m deeply curious

- @pfhwrittes

Snackies are always appreciated!! And hell, have some fun Morg lore

Look, I'm from a Very Rural Area, like I'd say I'm just a jerk from a small town but the house I consider the one I grew up in? The "town" didn't constitute as a town because we didn't have our own post office. There were more cows than people in the two towns we were squeezed between and we weren't a cattle farming dominant area!!! Our agg priorities were different!! Cows just helped with the fields!

All this to say: we had family friends who had a farm that we would visit somewhat regularly because their kids were my parents godkids and they've been family friends for A Hot Minute. Good people but it was a farm so yanno there's only so much to do.

They always had a fun spread of chickens because they wanted some neat breeds (I know they had the polish fancy ones, but I dont remember the breed they had that laid eggs that were just slithtly pastel kinda easter colors. They were neat), a handful of ducks, and turkeys. Maybe a goose or two? They had a bit of everything tbh. Dunno what it is about turkeys that I've gotten so fond of em but they're so fuckin silly!!

Really they try to be big and impressive but I meant what I said when they just deflate and go back to vibing if you pet down their back. While they don't lay quite as often as chickens turkey eggs? Much larger in comparison!

You can get 2-3 eggs worth for a single turkey egg. Ducks and geese also have eggs that are larger than chicken eggs. It's neat stuff and they're pretty good!

We had a lot of chicken raising in the area I'm from and that's where the 4H kids would take field trips to, and after they'd interacted with the chicks the chicks couldn't be reintroduced to the rest of the flock because they've been introduced to outside germs and sickness and if they got sick could infect the lot. It's easier to count the chicks as losses because the American poultry system is. Not pretty. And casualties among the flock happen. I would not recommend looking this up.

ANYWAY there were always kids who were like "no ill take the chicks home with me!" And then there were chicks running around the highschool because it was a school trip during school hours. High schoolers are known to be so responsible, so naturally a giant shock when people weren't paying attention and lost em. Chicks would just kinda wander until someone else scoops em up and finds who they belonged to.

From a teacher who wound up with one of these chicks they uh. Don't ever really develop properly in the sense of acclimating properly to becoming a free range chicken after the conditions they were raised in initially. Commercial chicken raising is, again, a nightmare in the states and from what little I've mentioned to my friends in the UK it wouldn't be acceptable practice there. So that's nice.

Anyway the chicken wire comment is exactly what it says on the tin: chicken chicks are like the perfect size to be an owl's lynch if they can get into the area you're keeping the babies in. Nature and circle of life and all that, but chicken wire for the most part will keep em away from the babs. Turkey chicks are a bit bigger but I still wouldn't put it past a hungry owl tbh. I also personally call turkey chicks turklets. They're very cute to me and I always love seeing wild turkey moms with like 6-7 of em.

So yeah. Turkeys are neat and funny and I absolutely derailed this to talk about chickens whoops. Fun turkey story we have from some family friend or another- he was at a bar, was supposed to be home by 10, rocked up at home after midnight, couldn't get in, it was below freezing, so he just. Went in with the turkeys, grabbed and held one, and just slept in with them. If you're their people they're fine with you in with them, I think it's neat.

Have a wild turkey fact people don't think about: these bitches do fly. That is a thing they do. They also sleep in trees! Somewhere on my phone I have a picture of a turkey hanging out at the top of a tree to stay out of the rain. I wouldn't wanna get out of bed for a dreary day either.

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[gradual medium decay] - I needed something short and poetic and I'm going to change it lay off

[amplexadversary]

I kind of operate on a similar, but not completely overlapping view that, given different media have different strengths and weaknesses, selecting one with such that your project can take the fullest advantage of is a key component of being a skilled artist, when one has control over that kind of thing.

Which, taken to extremes, marks an artistic choice that takes advantage of a unique or mostly-unique feature of the work's medium as a highly desirable one, even if it makes the work hard to adapt, or forces an adaptation to drop the feature of the work that the medium enabled (though, to be honest, I think more of those themselves can be worked around than people tend to strictly assume.)

What's the fancy theory term for the belief that the virtue of a medium is in the things that distinguish it from other media, and the most successful pieces of art qua (film, novels, video games) are specifically those impossible to present in any other way?

Anyway I don't wholly endorse it, but on some instinctive level I do think art created by people who do is more, like, aesthetically virtuous than stuff you can adapt without destroying the whole point of it.

[icaruskey]

can I just ask something?

i feel like really dumb for this but the host has been following morg on our other blog and has seen their side and everything and believes them but has been getting really distressed with everything going on but I feel like morg is weaponizing the hate and harassment he gets to manipulate people to stay on his side, the way that he is encouraging harassment and everything is really distressing to the host but the host believes everything that morg is saying but I want the full story so that if morg actually is the one in the wrong about things I can protect our host

I don't know whats actually happening from both sides

what happened with vaspider and him and the cripplepunk movement and transgetlemanluke and him and with you and him? why does he think he is justified with harassment? from what he has said he is justified with anger but not harassment ever

can you explain it like im a child? im afraid the host is being manipulated/gaslit by morg into belieivng morg is innocent and its causing a lot of distress especially when morg gets suicidal

so like do you have an account of everything that has happened?

im really sorry if this seems dumb

Don't feel dumb, okay? I've talked more at length here, but I'm going to try and make this a short, sweet, simple version to the best of my ability.

Basically, Morg gets a lot of hate and derailment because of his personality. It's abrasive and outspoken and unapologetic, so it draws as much anger as it does positivity. Some of this anger towards him came when people with mental illness started derailing his posts about physical illness. I was following him until he went from attacking people who attacked him to attacking all people with mental disabilities.

I made a post that was untagged that got picked up. I ended up blocking Morg for my mental health. I was sidetracked personally into the cripplepunk debate because of the idea that cripple is a slur only used against the physically disabled. It's not, though it's most common.

The cripplepunk stuff is a mess, but Spider's part in it is that Morg has more or less erased Spider's own physical disabilities and mobility issues in order to spin the narrative that Spider is profiting off the movement. People are believing him because they don't like Spider talking about how the brain is part of the body and therefor mental illness is also physical illness and they can and do affect each other. So in this case in particular, Morg is absolutely lying.

Morg sent some people asks telling them that he was going to kill himself, so they won. He's also been lying about this. The night (for me) that it was happening, he was going back and forth about no one being able to affect him that much to blaming people like Spider for his current ideation.

I made a post talking about his behavior, and he reblogged a screenshot of it with a bottle of pills. After I learned he had survived and had gone offline for his mental health, I made a video talking about my experiences and how what he was doing wasn't right and unhealthy for him.

Recently, he has found the video and is upset I made it. So from what I can tell, he's mixing genuine pain with anger and lies. He has purposefully told people to send me hatemail. I do not encourage and in fact have berated anons coming into my askbox previously crowing about his self harm.

I have made mistakes. I included his url in the video. I accidentally misgendered him, which I then corrected as soon as it was pointed out. I poked the bear a bit when he was block, unblock, reblog, blocking me. But I do believe that Morg is the one being harmful here, to himself and others.

I hope this helps. And even if your host still sides with him, it's okay. It may be best, and you can try to talk to them about this, to try and temporarily unfollow for a week or two. It'll die down soon.

[icaruskey]

I don't agree with you about morg but I also really really don't agree with whate he's encouraging

and to be honest I don't think I even have the full story from both sides from morg has said it does sound like you are in the wrong but he should not be encouraging harassment and I just don't know

I'm really sorry that you are being harassed and I really hope that you aren't being worn down from this

Here's my side/version of events as simply as I can put them. It's not to will you to my side or anything, just a way to show how I've seen things devolve:

Morg has always been a bit controversial, drawing negative and positive attention from how he acts. I'd been following him for a bit, through one suicide attempt, but I stopped following him as he turned his anger against neurodivergent individuals derailing his posts and sending him harmful messages and towards nd and mentally ill people in general.

After I unfollowed him, I made a post that was untagged and not directed to anything or anyone in particular about how the mental/physical disability divide feels a lot like the transandrophobia discourse recycled. That got noticed, drawing Morg into an argument with me. I blocked him for my own sanity as I tend to constantly dig if I get obsessive.

I do not know if he blocked me. After I blocked him, I ignored his blog entirely because I know he also has a tendency to beat an idea to death and how he likes to talk. I continue the discourse, giving my own opinions.

Spider receives an ask from Morg stating that they have "won". Spider points out that this is manipulative behavior and I personally recognize the wording for exactly what it is. I was following him during a previous suicide attempt, and I click over to check and yes, he is talking about being suicidal. Alternating between everyone hating him and how he won't kill himself because of people disliking him.

At no point did I ever encourage, insinuate, or say that he is unjustified in his anger about the derailments or that his pain isn't real or even that he's doing this manipulation on purpose. There was poor wording where I said "apparent suicide" meaning obvious, but I know it can be and was taken poorly. I have only wished him to get help, at most stating he needs to go offline for awhile to get away from the hate and to protect his followers.

I write up a post about how this is manipulative behavior and isn't healthy for him or his followers. Someone must've told him because he later posts a screenshot of the post and reblogs it with a photo of him holding a bottle of pills. I had been checking his blog a couple of times to see what he was doing and that affected me. I stopped checking his blog.

During this time I was starting to receive an uptick in hatemail myself. Something that only has happened before when my baeddel video got picked up and spread around or sometimes if a TERF decides they want to scratch an itch. The hatemail was pretty obviously tied to my statements on Morg's behavior.

I also lost a mutual (Kirin) who cares about Morg, and at some point they heard from an anon that I had apparently called them white. This was not true, as I'd started talking with Kirin through a DM discussion on if the pink triangle can be reclaimed by gentiles. Through the conversation, they explained that they have access to older Jewish communities that don't share their opinions online, and I picked up that they are not from the US and not white. After that conversation, I stopped discussing the pink triangle altogether out of respect for this new information.

This mistake was pointed out and they unblocked me long enough to apologize, deleted the angry posts they had made regarding the situation, then blocked me again.

I'm only mentioning this because this week Kirin has made a post alleging that we had an anti-semitic argument and that I called them white several times. It's not true, and if I had access to our old DMs I could prove it.

An anonymous person, presumably one of the people who regularly send him hatemail, started messaging me. I turned anon off for about four days after I told this individual that they're a hateful person and are going against everything I believe.

I checked his blog periodically until a mutual friend took over and let everyone know that he was all right and focusing on his mental health. Relieved, I left it alone, assuming he would be offline and glad he has a support system irl.

After all this happened, I waited a couple days and made a video discussing the situation and how it affected me. How it reminded me of my previous behavior and how seeing it play out, I can understand better how badly I hurt people in my past. I also talk about how liveblogging your suicide is harmful by talking about 13 Reasons Why and how not all people can "just unfollow" a person they care about. I published this to my youtube channel and then linked it here as a sort of summation and concluding thoughts of the events.

Earlier this week, Spider received a series of asks with scat fetish porn. They assumed it was linked to their public donation of any profit they've made off cripplepunk merch and tied to Morg in some way. I made a post groaning that Morg was still doing this before checking his blog and continuing to complain at seeing that he was indeed back and still doing the same shit.

Someone asked me if they wanted to know who Morg is. I linked the video since it sorta broke down everything that happened before. Here again, I'd like to tell you that the video had 39 views. This post I made got picked up by Morg, drawing us into this current drama. I chose to unblock him since he had screenshotted me in the past and that had affected me a lot more than I was letting on here on tumblr.

There is an argument, and he reblogs the post with the video link. He starts a series of block, unblock, reblog, block in a petty way to get to my posts directly without fear of reprisal. I block him in turn and laugh at his antics publicly. Meanwhile, the post with the video link is being spread around (when logged in I can only see half of the notes so it's not even by people 'on my side'), filling my notifications. I'm starting to get harassed by anons again -- tying neatly into the theory that these people are coming from his blog as the level of harassment I get becomes a thing when he talks about me. And at least the TERFs make it obvious they're TERFs. A lot of this is either about the video or insults about my appearance, age, and intelligence.

This is where I start tagging posts with his name "morg". I avoided cockdealer or cock-dealer because I've had to abandon believed blog names due to my bullshit and idk if morg is a nickname or w/e. It's the name he goes by online. I wanted to make sure people could block the drama if they wanted.

One anon suggests I unlist the video since I use his name and mention is blog. I agree because these were mistakes I made, and it is still currently unlisted. I disagree with deleting it because I stand by the points I've made in it. I have since limited my talk about this to publishing asks I get as well as asking for screenshots of certain actions.

Idk everything Morg is doing, but I know he's stated an intent to sue me, has openly told his followers to send me hatemail, stated I doxxed him by using information he has publicly published, constantly made fun of me for being 29, encouraged people to send me porn, and believes that people leaked his posts to me prior to all of this happening. I know he's openly lied about things I've said and he's erased Spider's physical disability to fit his narrative, so I wouldn't be surprised if he's erased mine as well, especially as I'm a small blog (300 followers) who does not care to disclose in a pinned post his medical history.

So that's everything that I can think of. I'm sure someone will let me know if I've forgotten anything. I hope even this biased summary kinda helps clarify the drama going down.

[icaruskey]

So, as y’all know, back at the start of April, I made a video talking about a situation that I was involved with that including some incredibly uncomfortable topics that, for lack of a better word, triggered memories of when I was an absolute piece of shit to people. 

Since then, the video has been seen by the instigator of the whole kerfuffle that led me to that situation to start with. He reblogged a link to the video that, even when I unlisted it due to being told that I had included his url, was spread around his supporters. 

This little nothing video that had 39 views ballooned to nearly 300 after it was unlisted.

It was a 20 minute video, so of course I don’t expect many people to have listened all the way through. So I decided after I gave it a listen through and learned I had not actually mentioned his URL or done the other things he claimed I did, that I would transcribe the video and eventually release the transcription if I deemed it appropriate. 

Well, Morg decided he wanted to claim it was because of him that Luke has left tumblr for the foreseeable future. And he continues to make baseless claims that other people were involved in the video or support me in any way because of the video. 

So here’s the transcript on a Google Doc.

And here’s the transcript under a cut as well, just for people who don’t like clicking off. It’s a little under 3000 words long, and I tried to maintain the cadence as much as I could through word. I did not include cat or dog noises or my own laughter regarding said noises. 

And yes, I’m adding this to the same tag I’ve been compiling since mid-May.

Hello everyone and welcome back to my channel. Yes, I am actually back this time, not trying to record one handed while trying to take off a respirator. Nettle’s mad because I took her toy. Um… there’s so much to update you all on. It’s been crazy; the entire month of March felt like it went by in a flash. And now I’m 29. But… I will do that on a different date. Today I wanted to talk about some stuff that went down on tumblr, and how it affected me a lot more than I thought it would.

So… to start with y’all know that I talk about transandrophobia a lot, and it’s a conversation that happens – it’s a conversation that happens oftentimes on tumblr. Because reddit is its own hellhole and twitter I’m not touching with a 50 foot pole. For now, at least. Let me get used to tumblr again. So we have that, and I followed a bunch of people. And there’s one person in particular who is called Morg, and he has very interesting ways of expressing himself. It’s very harsh, violent, kinda not what I’m wanting to do, and I’ll get into that later. That sort of thing. And he would get anons who would criticize him, and he would get reblogs derailing his posts and that sort of thing. And he’s also crippled. So he spends a lot of time talking about crippled people and transmasculine people and crippled transmascs, that sort of thing.

And people would derail his posts with neurodivergency, and he would get salty about that and lash out at anons coming into his space talking about how, uh… physically disabled people are a lot more seen versus mental disabled people. And all that is super understandable. It’s his blog, his space, he’s allowed to react to how he wants to.

Where I started getting uncomfortable is he would start haras – not harassing, but he started making posts about this sort of thing where he started blaming all mentally disabled people and neurodivergent people for the behavior of a very select few. And he was being very violent about it, which made me uncomfortable and eventually followed. And I made my own post – and I need to mention: he did not follow me, I did not tag this, any of that – where I just talked about how this was making me uncomfortable and seeing a physically and mentally disabled person disparaging mentally disabled just harms the disabled community as a whole.

Very, very much like how the trans women versus trans men dis – debacle ends up hurting the community as a whole instead of uniting us. So… it felt very relevant to me, and that post surprisingly blew up a bit with a lot of pushback. A lot of people basically saying what I was saying but they didn’t like the way I framed it so… They did not want to acknowledge that we were speaking the same language. And this blew up really, really big. A lot of people going back and forth; it started bringing into question the word cripple itself and the cripplepunk movement. I’ll talk about that in a moment. [I don’t] And it ended with Morg going into someone else’s asks and someone else’s DMs – multiple people – saying I hope you’re happy you won.

And I need to mention: I unfollowed him, and I made this post, and I did not look at his blog again until I saw him post this sorta suicide bait ask in someone else’s ask box. And I did that because I followed him long enough to see him go through a suicide attempt and get put into psychiatric care for about 18 days. I knew his personality enough that I knew that whatever he was posting that it’d be hurtful. I didn’t want to make anymore posts that were even vaguely about him. I’d already gotten into an argument with someone and got called a racist because there was a huge misunderstanding, and they ended up apologizing but we’re still not following each other for a variety of reasons.

But… the suicide baiting ask, and I was like. Great. I know exactly what that is. And this is where I’m going to leave for a bit and talk about myself because… that behavior that I saw in the behavior I saw him displaying afterwards is basically textbook what I did to my friend Sam. And I essentially gave Sam PTSD because there’s still times to this day where he reacts and he thinks I’m gonna do something when I do not.

And that – it is basically a maladaptive coping mechanism where you are being passive aggressive, and you are in pain and it’s very valid pain, be it physical, mental, some combination of both. But you feel like you are alone, and you are lashing out at people because you can’t win. And… everything feels like it was up against you it was your last thing and now you’re just. Cool. Fuck myself, I’m going to kill myself, and I hope all of you regret it.

And this is important to me to talk about because… like I said. I did that. Um… but also, it kinda feeds into some of this pop culture stuff we’ve talked about like 13 Reasons Why. There was a huge hubbub about how in 13 Reasons Why they showed the suicide, that sort of thing. I read the book. I didn’t watch the series because by the time the series came out I had realized that the book was not that great, but it did bring out a lot of discourse that I feel like is important around the idea of suicide.

That being mostly – and this ties back into Morg I swear to god… Um… how you depict suicide is very important. When you have a character who is suicidal and they commit suicide and afterwards, like in 13 Reasons Why, she makes… Okay

If you don’t know what 13 Reasons Why is, it was originally a book, then turned into a Netflix series We’re going to ignore the Netflix series. The book, the character Hannah Baker kills herself, and she leaves 13 tapes behind to be delivered to 13 different people that she blames for her suicide. And this book sorta shows Hannah getting her comeuppance to these people that hurt her.

Why is this a bad thing? Because this book was written for teens, and the Netflix series came out and it was mostly directed towards teens. And there is an established: the more suicide is depicted in a certain way the higher rate of suicide there is. Especially with teens who are very gullible – I apologize. Dory is now acting weird.

Um… and… In 13 Reasons Why in particular because it’s showing Hannah sort of getting her comeuppance, you kinda can instill the idea in people’s brains that “hey if I die I’m going to be able to hurt the people that have been hurting me. And show them that they’re the ones at fault.” Which is not true. What happens if you do commit suicide is you hurt the people that loved you and no one else gives a shit. That’s it.

And… the people that love you may not even grieve as much as you want them to. Or it may not affect them the way you want it to because you can’t control how other people react in their grief. They may not care. They may then go on to hurt themselves. The people that you don’t want to hurt get hurt.

And this ties back into Morg’s behavior because um… after he sent the DMs and the asks I did go onto his blog to see what was going on, to see if he was actually – if he was okay. And he was liveblogging his suicide to a, I assume, semi-substantial number of followers. Because he’s constantly getting engagement, that sort of thing. And me having 300 people following me, I get sorta constant engagement but not nearly as much as he does. He’s a much bigger name in the game so – basically.

And… so he’s liveblogging his suicide and he’s getting people like “oh my god why are you doing this,” he’s getting suicide baiting anons telling him to do it. All of this stuff, and he’s… play – it – not – I don’t think it’s intentional. Because when I was doing it, it was not intentional. But he is aiming to hurt people, and he’s hurting the people that love him the most while the people that have already distanced themselves from him. Are… a lot of them are emotionally mature enough to realize that what he’s going through is not their fault and…

So he’s not hurting the people he wants to hurt. The people that he’s saying “hey you won,” they’re concerned, they don’t want this to happen, but it’s not in their control. And it doesn’t change their opinions on what they were saying.

He survived that attempt, and he then blew up at a lot of people who were openly concerned about him. They did not want him to do this, they thought that maybe he should take a break because it was clear that the people on tumblr were affecting him, and I wholeheartedly agree with them that… this was affecting him. And what he did, he then went and put down the people that were saying “I love you but please you have to take care of yourself. This is not healthy, this is manipulative. I know you’re not meaning to do it in this way but you are. Please take care of yourself.” And he said they never cared about him, “you wouldn’t care if I was gone,” that sort of thing.

It’s… it’s textbook manipulation. And I hate saying that sort of thing because again. I don’t think he’s doing this knowingly, rubbing his little greasy palms together and being like “hahaha, I’m going to make everyone hurt as much as I am. I think he’s just lashing out.

So… when I saw that behavior, I made a post. And he saw it. I didn’t use the correct wording. I said “apparent suicide” meaning “obvious suicide attempt.” But people can easily mistake that for “supposed” or “alleged.” I… own that. However, he then screenshotted that with pills, and that affected me very badly. To the point that I couldn’t sleep without my medication which, yes, I realize I struggle sleeping without my medication anyway, but I’m in the middle of a depressive episode. So… I should be able to sleep. Um, but I did not.

Because I couldn’t stop thinking about the fact that this person is in such pain, and even though I don’t agree with how he’s handling things, I understand where he’s coming from. Because I am a person with anger issues – I have a very strong anger temper problem that I am actively working on. A big part of my not wanting to wish harm onto people, even people who wish harm to me is… me trying to control the anger that just. Bubbles up naturally.

I actually very badly hurt my sister a couple times as a teenager because of my anger problems. So – I’m working on it. I’m getting a lot better. I feel like I am, but seeing my screenshot with my blog and seeing those pills affected me a lot, and I had started making this video before. But I stopped. When that happened, I deleted everything and left it to the side because I didn’t want to talk about him explicitly.

And he was offline for an entire day. I was getting anons crowing about it, to the point where I turned off anon because it really was affecting me mentally. Even though I was not showing it online. I’m getting a lot better about kinda distancing myself from my online responses, which is good. You kinda need to do that. But I had to turn off anon because I was checking his blog too many times and nothing was changing and it was making me really concerned. And thankfully, a couple of days later, a friend of his came online and said “He’s alive. He’s focusing on his mental health,” and I cannot be more happy.

I have not looked at his blog since. I am assuming he’s still taking care of himself, and I’m hoping that he’s able to recover and realize how harmful his actions are as well as perhaps take a little more responsibility for his actions online. Because… the… liveblogging your suicidality, the outright lying about what other people are saying about you, the gaslighting of your own audience, to say “If you’re claiming that I need to go offline and get help in some shape or form, then you have never cared about me,” that sort of thing.

All of that… it’s toxic, it’s manipulative, it’s gaslighting – it’s like textbook. Not the gaslighting of “oh someone lied to me” or “oh…” whatever. You know. The terms gaslighting, triggered, that sort of thing is being taken way out of context to the point it doesn’t mean anything, but… he legitimately gaslit someone because the anon that I’m referring to mostly later on entered my ask box and was like “Thank you so much for what you said because he had convinced me that I was genuinely in the wrong and I was a bad person.”

Hi Puppy. She’s still upset I took her unicorn.

So that’s what I have to say about that. It’s just – I have a lot of mixed thoughts on stuff like Thirteen Reasons Why and how it does more harm than good. I also have mixed thoughts on the guideline to how show/talk about suicidality. Because I don’t think it is completely right. It kinda gives a very sanitized version and sometimes things are messy and things are difficult and you –

I wanna see that sort of stuff being reflected in the world and our pop culture. I also just want to see people with suicidality not necessarily winning at the end – or losing. I don’t necessarily want them to die. But I want to see that they are just like the rest of us where they are here, they are still here. They are struggling, and they found a person or a group of people that are helping or they have their dog or their plant – I’d love to see that sort of thing. But I definitely don’t think Thirteen Reasons Why is a good way of doing it, nor do I think Morg’s um way of handling his own depression and suicidality, as valid as it is, as valid as that pain is. I don’t think the way he’s using his platform is helpful to him or anyone else that’s following him.

And I know you can be like, “Well, you can just unfollow him” like I did. I ended up blocking him so, thankfully, I avoided any potential “Hey you won. I hope you’re happy” cause that would’ve fucked me up, but um�� it’s not so easy for everyone. Because Morg is a person that a lot people care about, there’s a parasocial relationship there, and even I was subjected to it at some point because with his February attempt I did actually try to find out where he was. So that I could see if I could help get him resources or go there and just like physically be there because there’s never been any indication before this that he has a social circle outside of online that can help him.

Thankfully, the friend exists, so I am hoping that they keep ahold of the blog for awhile and he is really able to focus on centering himself.

Yeah, I have been wanting to talk about this for a bit anyway because it’s been on my mind and… I missed y’all. So why not start off with some stuff that could make people very angry with me? Or agree with me, as everything goes. That’s pretty much my life.

Um, but yeah. That’s about it from me. I am going to be trying to upload three days a week like I was planning on before March happened, and I will update y’all. I just read chapter 8 of Whipping Girl. It’s not as bad as the last chapter, I’ll give it for – I’ll give that to it. But… that’s it. If you’re wondering what’s happening in the background that’s Brier playing uh Pokemon Ar-kay-us, Ark-e-us, I don’t know. They’ve been wanting it for awhile and they got a bonus, so we were like “okay. Now buy the game”.

But yeah. Alright. That’s going to be it from me. No more waffling. I’ll talk to y’all later. Bye.

[amplexadversary]

The bee catching scenario has me wanting to introduce Domon Kasshu to Dunmeshi XD

I think he'd find it validating. (And he'd really like Senshi. Older guy, mentor type, rough living, manly af (by human standards)? Let's just say he already has positive associations.)

Rain might also find it validating for other, less enthusiastic reasons (Marcille sympathies)

Okay, headcanons and speculation time...

If Rain is as bad at cooking as Domon makes it sound*, WHY is she the one who cooks for them during the Survival Eleven?? ���

The obvious answer would of course be "because Domon is even worse at it."

But, that doesn't lend itself to explaining why he would tease Rain about her skills (except for, I mean to be fair, he would do that). But also, growing up in the jungle, you'd think cooking is one of the basic survival skills he'd be forced to learn pretty competently, right?

Another answer could be "because Rain enjoys cooking and insists on it and/or doesn't realize how bad she is."

But... that seems unlikely, as she literally never mentions it that I'm aware of.

Anyways, I think the more interesting answer, or rather question, is...

... What if Domon doesn't suck at cooking? What if he's even pretty decent at it?

... BUT... what if... after growing up in the wilderness of the Guyana Highlands, the literal only things he knows how to cook are really weird?

Like, really weird to the average person of most cultures (and certainly literally anyone from the Colonies)...

Like... something that Bear Grylls would eat.

It ends up something like:

Rain is working on the Shining one evening, in an area with sparse resources and no bodies of water to fish or anything. She's like "Hey Domon, can you handle dinner tonight?"

He's like "Yeah, of course."

What Rain is thinking: ... the boxes of rations and preserved food are *right there.* He'll use that, it's not even a question.

Domon: *goes out and catches a bunch of bees*

Rain surfaces from making her repairs and sees him grilling them; is overtaken by horror.

Rain: "UUUHMMMM ACTUALLY, why don't you let me cook tonight? And y'know what, I'll also do it tomorrow. And the day after that."

*I can't remember whether it's mentioned more than that one time in the anime, when Domon suggests a small child could teach Rain how to cook and she is, of course, offended. But in the side story Tenchi Tengaku, Domon says that Rain almost always was the one to cook during the Survival Eleven, and that as a result he hasn't eaten a "decent meal" in forever. So anyways... this has been something I've been pondering. 😂

[icaruskey]

Damn I missed a lot. I came back into tumblr recently and refound your blog; tf happened to morg?? (Don’t feel the need to explain everything if you don’t have the mental energy, of course)

I'll try to keep it simple.

Basically -- around the middle/end of March Morg went from targeting ND and mentally ill people derailing his posts or coming into his askbox to ND and mentally ill people in general. I unfollowed, made an untagged post talking about how dividing physical and mental disability is a lot like dividing trans men and trans women and that got pulled into this whole cripplepunk, cripple, physical vs. mental illness thing.

I blocked Morg because I mean. We know how he reacts when people don't agree with him and paid him no further attention until he sent Spider a sui bait ask that immediately pinged in me memories of when I pulled similar shit. And since I'd been following him through his last suicide attempt, I knew what to expect when I checked his blog.

I made a post about the situation and he ended up reblogging a screenshot with his pills. Afterwards, it came out he survived and was back online.

Recently, Spider received a series of fetish pictures, presumably in response to Spider posting about their donation of all cripplepunk related merch profits. Because Morg has erased Spider's physical disability to make it sound like they're profiting off a movement they're not a part of. By all definitions, Spider is a member of cripplepunk so he's being incredibly obvious in his hate.

Spider assumed it was from Morg, so I went to his blog and made a post about how he was up to his old bullshit. Someone asked who Morg is and I made a post talking about the March experience, including a link to a video I had made after knowing he had survived his suicide attempt about the situation and how it affected me and all that. And here's where I made a mistake.

Because he had screengrabbed my blog before, I unblocked him and told him if he liked looking at my blog so much he can just talk to me directly. He saw the post and video and reblogged it to his own blog and started a cycle of block, unblock, reblog, block on some of my posts. He also started saying the my video doxxed him and released private medical information to a series of right wing conservatives. That he was going to sue me, send a DMCA takedown, etc etc.

I need to stop to point out that until he reblogged the post there were 39 views. Total. I posted the video 20 days ago. Everything in the video? Publicly posted information. The name he uses online. Nothing from any password protections or anything.

I end up unlisting it because someone pointed out I used his blog name, and I agreed that was a bit too far. I also stop talking about him outside of asks. In return, he continues to spread lies about myself, everything from erasing my own disabilities, lying about things I've been saying or have said, etc. Usual bullshit.

Except he's also encouraged a harassment campaign against me as well as people sending me sexually explicit art. And he's continuing to lie, saying that I'm claiming that he's sending the messages and send my followers after him, falsely attributing this influx of hate to him, again, the usual.

I'm getting fed up because I've discovered he's also poking apart some posts I made referencing a romance movie about autoimmune disorders vs my mom and sister's scoliosis or saying that I've been harassing him "for months" and now throwing shit said by fucking transandrophobes. And this is a pattern for him. He's harassed people before.

[icaruskey]

Completely okay if you just wanna leave this unanswered, I just need to say this out loud because I've been dwelling on it, but the thing that shut me off on taking anything Morg said in good faith was when he made a derisive remark about people who "only" have a bad knee talking about physical disability. The comment was like an eye opener like. OH. It's not about "physical vs mental" disabilities. It's not even about "people with zero physical symptoms derailing posts about physical symptoms". It's about "anyone who doesn't have it as bad as me does not matter".

(By the way I can't cite where that comment happened or the context for it, I just remember seeing it and feeling suckerpunched because I've only recently gotten to the point where I'm almost willing to consider my fucky knee that makes it hard for me to stand up for long periods of time or walk any kind of distance or manage more than maybe one flight of stairs and can keep me up all night in pain if I do put in those kinds of things too much in a day /might/ qualify as a disability, maybe, so having anyone be so casually dismissive of that idea hit hard and stayed with me.)

Knees are tricky things, you know? Fortunately for me it's my ankles that like to flop over like useless things if I'm having a bad day, but my spouse has a really bad knee.

Have you tried looking at braces? They put it off for so so long because the whole mental block that is oh so common, especially with them, but they finally got one and it was a night and day difference for them. They literally were able to spend like three days walking around Disney with surprisingly low knee pain.

I really should wear my wrist brace more often lmao.

Just take care of that knee. Look at braces and perhaps canes to take the pressure off of it as well. I'm not a cane user myself, but there's tons of people and videos out there, so you have a plethora of layman advice on how to best find what works for you.

Like I said, they're tricky things. So many moving parts and bits of bone and cartilage. And humans have evolved to the point where most of us make babies and then our bodies are done so. Yeah. Be kind to yourself

[icaruskey]

stop telling morg he cant call out people being actively fucking ableist to him. jesus christ this is why nobody likes you

Sorry I can't hear you over how wrong you are.

Where did I say morg isn't allowed to call people out being actively shitty to him?

Wasn't here.

Or here.

Notice again I point out I don't disagree about reacting extremely negatively to people invading others' spaces or derailing posts.

Must be this post then.

First off, you have no fucking idea if I'm talking to addi or morg or both here (I'll give you a hint: it's both. I didn't notice addi's reblog at first).

Secondly, I'm fucking defending morg here. Interpret it how you want, but that's what my original intent was.

Take the body of evidence I've given you and come to your own conclusions now.

[icaruskey]

How did this discourse start? What triggered it? It's hard for me to form an opinion when "both sides" seem to be arguing for and against different things but generally agreeing lol

Okay, so on my end, I've been following a plethora of different people and subreddits. Some of the people I follow here including a man who goes by morg have been consistently harassed and belittled by anons and people derailing their posts. Specifically posts about physical disabilities. They'd claim that physical disabilities get more care than mental disabilities.

In return, I've seen people then go on to insinuate that people with mental disabilities are not actually disabled, etc etc. But all of this is piled upon stuff I've seen for a very long time, where people will act as though mental disorders are stickers to collect, or people claiming absolute non-disabling phenomena like aphantasia (inability to see mental images, can go so far as not even having an internal voice, and guess who has that too lol) is a disability.

It's gotten very frustrating to me to see how things get pushed and pulled around so much and it's really, really similar to how the trans community treats itself, splitting hairs over terms like transandrophobia. And since my physical disabilities are kinda... well. New to me, let alone valid (because hello circles), I framed it with the conceit I've see most recently on tumblr in the circles I'm in -- going above and beyond to belittle and attack people with mental disabilities.

Mind you, from what I can tell, these attacks are towards "able-bodied mentally disabled folks" which is... a lot like binary trans or asexual exclusionary talk. You know? Cause it's absolutely forgetting that mental disorders have physical sources or manifestations. And of course we know that physical disabilities often come hand in hand with mental disorders.

Well, people don't like how I framed it. So even though we ultimately agree -- that people who are disabled have unique and different needs, that there's a lot of overlap, etc -- people don't like how I worded things.

There's also a lot of "crippled people vs neurodivergent people" discourse that was absolutely never the focus of my posts? Which I just don't understand.