#Monday is death atm

[emilyomily]

Ugggh I wish I could WFH on Mondays

[mistydeyes]

𝔀𝓮𝓵𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓶𝓪𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓵𝓲𝓼𝓽!

i’m currently not active atm but feel free to pursue my previous works <3

here's a short lil explanation as to where i am lol

click me for asks + requests :)

requests: closed atm!

pairings status: closed atm!

rules for requests - i love when you send things 💌

note - message me or comment on any one of my works if you want to be added to a tag list :)

I usually post on mondays, wednesdays, and fridays

izzie's fic recommendations - updated daily!

some things about me :)

the basics: 22, she/her, from the us :)

i'm a third year pharmacy student! also minoring in justice, law, and society

along with writing, i also intern at a retail pharmacy during the summer and a psychiatric hospital during the school year

so naturally my pharmacist series is my absolute favorite to write and research!

𝓶𝔀𝓲𝓲 𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓷𝓽 - the full masterlist

don't know where to start? here's a few readers' favorites :) ❤️ - izzie’s favorites

💌 if you want to peek at all of my writings

S E R I E S

"your prescription is ready for pick-up" - 141 x pharmacist!reader

all of my works and our pharmacist reader

a panacea❤️ - 141 meets the cure to all their ailments

sick day visit - you prided yourself on never getting sick but the day has finally come. as you’re resting in your quarters, a certain group pays you a visit :)

fake hypochondriac ghost x reader (sequel to “a panacea”) - ghost goes to extreme lengths to see his favorite pharmacist

pain-killer fueled thoughts price x reader (sequel to “a panacea”) - price landed himself in the medic tent and his pain killers are making him tell the pharmacist his feelings.

keep your weapons hot and bodies hotter (18+) - stripper!141 x fem!reader (codename: Phoenix)❤️

hunk-o-mania 141 edition - feast your eyes on Delilah's Den's newest male dancers

playboy bunny phoenix edition - an unforeseen guest complicates the mission, now you have to get ready to act as the distraction on stage

the joys of civilian life - 141 x civilian!fem!reader

opposite occupations - while on leave, the boys each meet a civilian that makes their time deployed and defending their country worth it

family moments - 141 x fem!reader

little moments and little voices - precious moments you spend in your home with your husband and children :)

oh, darling, don’t you ever grow up - your husband leaves this world too early and now you have to pick up the pieces with your children

secrets and pointed fingers (requested!)❤️ - simon "ghost" riley

behind locked doors - when the 141 thinks you're the mole, they make sure to extract the information in whatever way possible

empty apologies and avoiding glances - when you return back to base, everything is far from normal

half empty glasses and unchanging perspectives - you try to run away from the trauma at the pub but with a glass in hand, simon finds you

O N E - S H O T S

odd hobbies - 141 x reader everyone has their own hobbies, yours are just unique to 141’s perspective

butterfly effect - 141 x fem!reader they say "a butterfly flaps its wings in the amazonian jungle, and subsequently a storm ravages half of europe." what once was a silly quote now has implications as one action leads to your death.

opposite of a meet cute❤️ - 141 x civilian!reader most people have a cute story as to how they met their significant other but yours is a little more eccentric

V I S U A L S + R A N D O M

random things in pockets and bags❤️ SERIES - what does the 141 carry on them when they’re on leave?

pt i- kyle “gaz” garrick

pt ii - simon "ghost" riley

pt iii - johnny "soap" mactavish

pt iv - john price

E X P L A I N S my series of explaining the various timeline's of the games and characters

simon "ghost" riley's backstory

which modern warfare game should i play first?

some writings from the inbox

medication mixup - the medic unknowingly prescribing you a penicillin has disastrous results due to your allergy

141’s dossier - see what the dossiers laswell gets at the end of mw 2019 looks like! + template

ghost’s doppelgänger - how does the 141 and los vaqueros react to you joining the team? their reactions are even better when you share an uncanny resemblance with ghost

running mascara - 141 x fem!reader harsh words are said and you try your best to run away from the cause. however, everyone needs to face the issue eventually and now the 141 is left to pick up the pieces. initially part of my 1k celebration but i added a sequel as it was highly requested! PART I and PART II

mw2 x reader - my ongoing series of pairing y'all up and writing a short lil blurb about how you met and your relationship

izzie’s 1K celebration! - closed now :) but feel free to look and see some of the prompts + how i answered them

𝓪𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓽𝓲𝓬 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓴𝓼

[elleafun]

I started this before watching Act 3, so no bob for Sevika.

Sevika would wreck Big Mama, change my mind.

After this mini comic is a vent about all that's gone down recently that I mentioned in previous posts, so just look at my silly picture if you're not interested.

I was going to try fancy coloring this, but I'm tired.

Warning: The following vent includes pet injury, death, drug use, and probably other things I'm not thinking of because I'm quite spent.

I'll start off by saying my half-uncle was not a good person. He was a violent alcoholic junkie who stole and threatened my grandma while leaching off of her for 50+ years when she survives solely on social security. So, when I heard he died a month ago, I was honestly relieved. Nobody felt they could visit my grandma, because he would be there. I do feel bad for my grandma, she loved him no matter what. (Taking a quick moment to mention that I do not believe you have to love family just because you're related. See my half-uncle as an example as to why.) Anyway, it was rough on her and I did what I do best to show I care and started fixing things around her house. (More Elle lore: I'm bad at comforting emotionally. I show care with gifts and by fixing/taking care of things.) As someone who is very much into their routine, though I love my grandma, this did put a little extra stress on me mentally, as I got way less quiet time. Her other son, who is back in prison atm, became a hoarder and stuffed her house full of stuff. She also contributed, so I've spent some time decluttering her house.

Two Fridays ago, I spent about 5 hours trying to set up my grandma's new internet. I'm not sure what was happening that day, but it was issue after issue. I ended up chatting with 3 different agents and she still did not have internet access by the time I gave up. This incident wasn't that big of a deal, but it sucked that something that should have taken an hour at most took most of my day.

7:30 AM the following morning, I got a call that my grandma's dogs were being attacked by her neighbor's dog. Her dogs were a tiny chihuahua and pomeranian. The chihuahua was dead by the time I arrived and the pomeranian severely injured. After attempting to chase the attacking dog off, I gave up and went inside to check on the pom my grandma had managed to drag inside. My mother arrived soon after, so I rushed Mags to the emergency vet while mom waited for the cops. The poor dog scared me a few times as I sped to the e-vet, closing her eyes and sitting very still only to shift and whine moments later.

Mags was admitted immediately and carefully shaved to see the extent of her injuries. I haven't counted her stitches or staples, but there are many plus two drainage tubes. She stayed the weekend at the emergency vet, but was still in intense pain and not eating. I ended up having to transfer her from the emergency vet to her primary vet before and after work, so she could get continuous care. She became stable enough to stay at her primary vet overnight, but we were very concerned not only about the tears, deep bruising and reluctance to eat, but that she did not want to walk on her hind legs. She'd use her front legs to scoot forward and readjust, but didn't want to lift her hind quarters. We were worried about spinal or nerve damage.

After her swelling went down, we were able to do more x-rays and determined both of her hips had been ripped out of place. A femoral head ostectomy (FHO) on both hips was concluded as being the best option to fix her. I ended up transferring Mags last Friday night over an hour away to an emergency clinic that is paired with a specialist able to fix her hips. The specialist took her on Monday and her FHO surgery was successfully completed on Tuesday. Over 320 miles and nearly $12k later (thank everything the attacking dog's owners' insurance will cover this), I was able to take her to my house this morning. I've got 4 alarms set to remember her meds, must clean her tubes 3 times a day, help her eat, and do physical therapy with her several times a day in the hopes we can get her walking again in 6 or so weeks. I've only had her since 10 this morning, but I've already gotten her to attempt walking forward with support. Mags is still in pain, but less so than before her surgery and she's eating on her own!

Though it's fantastic that Mags appears to finally be on her way to recovery, my great uncle passed away two days ago. He was the same grandma's older brother. I'll be attending his viewing tomorrow morning and his funeral on Saturday. He was a good man, and it is a shame I didn't get to see him this year.

It feels wrong to complain. My grandma has had it much rougher since she's closer to the events than me. I'm still angry and tired though. It's exausting having one thing after another pile up.

Anyway, thanks for reading if you did. Hope I didn't bum anyone out.

[drowningwavez]

Maybe I’ll start my ect journal on here.

Saw my psychologist and we think maybe there’s both ‘psychotic’ voices and disssociative voices. That my dr diagnosed me with major depression with psychosis. But I need to tell him and idk if he realises that my voices are still there when I’m ‘well’. They’re always there…it’s not just when I’m unwell. They’re a lot louder and stronger when unwell but they’re still there 24/7 I’m just stronger at other times to not let them overwhelm me.

But said my long term goal is to be well enough to start the parts work and trauma work safely. As my life it’s been we start trauma work I get unwell and triggered then end up in hosp and we go back to crisis management and repeat.

I’m seeing the hosp psychologist today to find a way to make ect less triggering…. I’m also waiting to see the other dr for my second opinion. I hope it happened today and I can just start it tomorrow instead of Monday.

Im going to sit and record what I remember re my mum going into hosp and her death so if I forget I have something to remind me and I’m not constantly asking my sister what happened.

Im currently listening to the audio book “No Bad Parts” by Richard Schwartz. And going to bring the book in I think it’s called ‘Coping with trauma related dissociation’.

My cousin said she might come take me out this afternoon I hope so. We’ve meant to catch up all week but stuff has gotten in the way.

I’m anxious and still unsure re ect but atm I’m like what we’re doing re meds isn’t obviously working… and atm it is life or death I’m on the verge of leaving and making another attempt so ect is worth trying. And I just hope my mum would approve of my decision. I keep going to call her and talk it all over 😭😭😭😭

I found this heart breaking video of her last night. It was me and my. Brother coming 3 hours to surprise her and seeing her excitement and joy seeing me and my brother she was crying she was so happy to have all 3 of us kids together 😭😭😭😭 she loved us so much. I know she wasn’t the best mum but I feel she did her best with the circumstances she had😭😭😭😭

[deeisace]

Absolutely nothing to do with the tree I'm doing atm, but it's always very fun to see the occasional cause of death

1871, Dorset -

William Joseph Newell. Accidentally killed by a fall from his bedroom window at Pelham House on the night of Sunday-Monday July 9-10 -- Inquest.

George Rabbetts, drowned at Parkstone Pottery (Poole Harbour).

Then there was a page in '65 where 7/8 of the people were kids who died of diphtheria :(

And sometimes you get a little note of where they were buried -

Or a fun little note just for me~

^ This kid had 3 middle names and no service, poor love, cs he hadn't been baptised. And then Henry, "died suddenly out Bournemouth" and we don't know anything about him or even his age apart from "not a teenager".

"Death by fall down a well while repairing it", oh dear

Then once you get to 1900, the vicars' handwriting gets a lot better but you get faaaar less interesting notes, so I'm gonna go back to doing actual work now, byeee

[b-blushes]

chronic illness/illness/illness grief (in general, nothing new has happened to me!)

i'm watching this show atm and it was like a big reveal that one of the characters was seriously acutely ill (definitely in the past, not sure if they're having a recurrence now) and hid it from their closest friends and their family, and how hurt their loved ones were by the hiding, and it's making me think about chronic illness things. NOT putting acute or lifethreatening vs chronic but livable illnesses in a hierarchy or a comparison of severity, the suffering olympics or whatever helps no-one. just the experience of this scene shone a light onto the parallels that it could have and could not have for me (chronically ill). just rotating in my mind 'diagnosis' and how i don't remember, but idk if i was heartbroken or experienced the like Moment Of Sobbing that i see in this show and imagine in real life (the only acute illness i can remember getting was hospitalised for concussion and i was out of it in a foreign country then. also with colleagues only, so mostly alone). i guess like, making space for the absolute heartbreak of it when you've been sick for a while and dismissed or not taken seriously. and you find out what it is and it's not going to be life threatening in terms of alive, but it will in terms of 'your daily life' if that makes sense. not that this can't happen for acute/lifethreatening illnesses. it's still a diagnosis and has a meteoric impact. but i don't remember meteoric impact scenes. idk where i'm going with this. i guess like it just really made me think do i ever lose my shit about things and get comforted for it and feel better. why. why not. is this how i think things should be. do i feel like i should do things differently? how much do friends and family want to know. what and how should i tell them. it's just kind of wild to have a perspective moment, though it was for a parallel but not exact situation, of like. someone getting crushed by the news and bawling their eyes out about it and being consoled. and being like hmm i don't feel like that's maybe something i've ever experienced. do i feel like i want to have experienced that? i am (despite my frequent sopping wet cardboard box blogging) typically quite 'glib' about things for various reasons, including 'as an autistic person, when i am experiencing strong emotions i do not want to be managing the emotions of those around me particularly, so i would prefer not to make a scene' reasons, and i'm thinking about like. going into meeting with 2 new consultants in the next 6 weeks, where i'm not going to get life or death news but i'm definitely going to get SOME news, whether i'd like things to be different. and how on earth i would make that happen. and idk how much these kind of situations come up, as a chronically but not life-threatening ill person who is to a lesser or greater but always present degree, ill every day and not expected to be 'cured'. these situations being like 'how do you feel about this' and 'how would you like to feel about this' kind of thing i guess? idk! was not expecting to have A Moment while i am watching my shows on a monday afternoon but here we are :P much to consider!

[dinosaurcharcuterie]

Would like to add: minimum days means employers, unions and/or other laws can add more.

What does that look like?

Here in Germany, with a minimum of 20, I've got 10 extra atm because of contract stuff (11.5 at my previous job; most people I know get at least 5 added to the minimum 20), but I can trade in half my union negotiated summer bonus for 5 extra vacation days.

If I were legally recognized as (equivalent to or more than) 50% impaired, my employer would have to give me 5 extra vacation days on top of that. Which isn't too-too hard. e.g. needing storebought insulin would be enough to qualify. (The fines employers face for not having enough impaired employees far outweigh the costs of those extra vacation days. That same legal recognition also comes with special protections from termination.)

Someone working a full time, typical office job at our company could theoretically but relatively easily have

- 40 paid days off. You must legally plan some of them so at least 14 consecutive calendar days are not spent sick or at work, to assure you're actually getting rest from at least some of your vacation days.

- 11 federal/state/county holidays. It ranges from 10-14 depending on where your place of work is.

- 2 union negotiated set holidays; Christmas Eve and NYE, in our case.

- weekends off. Usually 2-3 of the aforementioned holidays fall on a weekend. It's not illegal to work Saturdays, but our particular contract runs Monday to Friday, and our employee representatives' council is pretty good at blocking requests for "voluntary" overtime "opportunities" on Saturday from our employer.

Which brings us to a total of about 100 days a year spent not working.

Of course, this scenario means this person most likely has some health conditions that add sick leave to those days. There's no hard limit to it, but pay starts getting lowered after 6 uninterrupted weeks' absence for the same diagnosis. If they're sick too often, an employer can try to argue it's hurting their profits, but they risk being spanked in the wallet governmentally and also getting bad press. As mentioned before, legal recognition of impairment adds protection from termination, making this even less likely for my hypothetical coworker.

If they're a parent, they also get (limited) parental sick leave when kiddo is sick. Because a kid deserves to be looked after when ill or hurt, and schoolchildren deserve to not be infected because some parents can't find childcare on short notice.

Should my hypothetical coworker have more than 8 overhours, those have to get paid out eventually... Unless they opt to have them traded in as extra days off.

And that's a standard year, without exceptional events like deaths in the family (union rule iirc, bereavement leave is 1-5 days depending on family relations), their own wedding (union rule, 1 day, must be on or adjacent to day of ceremony) moving house (union rule, 0-3 days depending on distance, must be on or adjacent to moving day), employment anniversaries (contractual, 1-3 extra vacation days for the year, depending on time spent at the company, iirc), giving birth/having a stillbirth/adopting a child (legal absolute minimum of 8 weeks starting at delivery/adoption date; usually more) or parental/family care leave (legality, several months, with a slight pay cut).

tl;dr: dear Americans, there's PTO you can't even imagine and the pretty statistics maps are showing you less than half of it.

I think adults need summer vacation. Like let's just close down all our jobs for three months and play outside. Please. I'm so tired.

[mint-moon25]

Sanrio Vitality Peach Paradise Blind Box FULL SET | Kawaii UnboxingI

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11 STATES - I'M - APPROVED YES

$5 MILLION - MONEY - BY ZELLE

REALLY - AGE 59

LIKE - SEHUN - EXO - AND

ANN MILLER - REAL BIRTHDAY

SUNDAY - 12 APRIL 1964

CHINESE - YEAR - OF - THIS

2024 - NEW YEAR - 10 FEB

WOOD - DRAGON - ME

FUTURE - CAILEY BAILEY

LOVE - MARTIAL - ARTS

NOT - SEDUCTIVE - LIKE

PHILIPPINE - BABY - THEY

MURDERED - BECAUSE LOTS

OF - COMPLEMENTS

DECEASED - NATURALIZED

NEW YORK - IVCF - CHRISTIANS

UNIVERSITY - OF - PHILIPPINE

EVE COPELAND - BURIED UNDER

FRAUD - NAME - BY - 2ND & 3RD

PHILIPPINE - DAUGHTERS

INCEST - PHILIPPINES - USA

PARENTS - THEM - INCEST

ALL - 4 - OF - THEM

NATURALIZED - NEW YORK

FIRST - BORN - THEY

STRANGLED - 2 - DEATH

WENT - ALL - THE - WAY - SHE

GAVE - BLOW JOBS - VAGINAL

HE - ENTERED - BY - FINGERS

THEN - WITH - HIS - PEE PEE

SAMUEL RAMIREZ BAUTISTA

JR - LAST - NAME - CHANGED

BOTE - BOTTLES - PAPAYA AT

NUEVA ECIJA - RICE CAPITAL

PHILIPPINES - A - MARTIAL

ARTS - WEIRDO - ONE KICK

REMOVED - BEDROOM DOOR

SAW - ME - NAKED - PERVERTS

TRIED - 2 - RAPE - ME

ROOSEVELT ISLAND - NY

2 - KNOCK - UP

THEY - SHOWERED BABY AFTER

PLACED - NAKED - FRONT - OF

MANILA - CEMENT TOMBSTONE

HUGE - WITH - STORAGE INSIDE

LAST - CENTURY

BIRTH - BECOMES - BLACK

CERTIFICATES - PERSON DIED

HER - BIRTHDAY - THEY - GAVE

ME - CHINESE - YEAR OF SNAKE

SEDUCTIVE - 2 - GIRLS - & BOYS

MONDAY - 05 APRIL 1965

I - WAS - KEPT - 1 YEAR MORE

SO - ACTUALLY - WENT - 2 USC

AS - AGE 17 - NOT - AGE 16 - YES

SO - FIFTH - THIRD - BANK

11 STATES - ATM - $5 ALSO

FREE - WITHDRAWAL - GAVE

INFO - 2 - AMAZON - PRIME

MALE - JORDAN B

GAVE - 5 STARS - EMAIL SURVEY

YES - HE - SOLVED - DILEMMA

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2024 - HAPPY NEW - YEAR

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[sleepingdeath-light]

Hi Death! Do you plan on posting any crk fics this week?

As I’m gonna be busy until Monday I don’t really have the time to be posting anything atm — sorry! ^^

[crimechannels]

By • Olalekan Fagbade Trial of Naira Marley at Federal High Court stalled The trial of Nigerian singer Azeez Fashola a.k.a Naira Marley charged with cyber crime, was on Monday, stalled before a Federal Court Lagos, as the court did not sit. The trial judge, Justice Nicholas Owiebo is said to be attending a judges’ conference.. The News Agency of Nigeria (NAN) reports that the Economic and Financial Crimes Commission (EFCC) is prosecuting the defendant on charges bordering on cyber crime. IThe anti-graft agency preferred the charges on May 14, 2019 Fashola, who sang the popular song: “Am I a yahoo boy”, was consequently, arraigned on May 20, 2019 before Justice Nicholas Oweibo, but he pleaded not guilty. The court had accordingly, granted him bail in the sum of two million naira, with two sureties in like sum. Trial has since commenced in the case and still ongoing. On Oct. 6, Justice Oweibo had issued a warrant for production of the defendant, following his absence from trial on the last date . Oweibo’s order, followed an application for production warrant by the prosecution, Mrs Bilikisu Buhari. NAN recalls that the police in Lagos had detained Naira Marley and his associate, Sam Larry, in connection with death of Nigerian artiste, Oladimeji Aloba, popularly known as “Mohbad”. At the last adjourned date on Oct. 30, defence counsel, Mr Olalekan Ojo (SAN) had informed the court that the defendant was still clearly absent from court inspite of the court’s order for his production. The court had consequently, adjourned the case until Nov. 13 and 30 for cintinaution of trial Trial will now continue on the next date Nov. 30. According to the EFCC, the defendant committed the offences on different dates between Nov. 26, 2018 and Dec.11, 2018, as well as May 10, 2019. The commission alleged that Fashola and his accomplices conspired to use different Access Bank ATM cards to defraud their victims. It alleged that the defendant used a bank credit card issued to another person, in a bid to obtain fraudulent financial gains. The EFCC also said that the defendant possessed counterfeit credit cards belonging to different people, with intent to defraud which amounted to theft. The alleged offences contravene the provisions of Sections 1 23 (1) (b), 27 (1) and 33(9) of Cyber Crime (Prohibition) Prevention Act, 2015. (NAN)

[yuuana]

Music Monday #230: xikers - Tricky House release: March 2023 genre: Kpop cw: a lot of bright flashing lights, magic and mayhem

Are there more recent releases I could be featuring? Of course, but it's Halloween Eve and who doesn't love a good themed release! XD Between the Western tradition of Halloween being a night for mischief and the Korean tradition of dokaebbi as mischievous spirits, how could I resist?

What are dokaebbi, you ask? Despite a convention of translating the word into English as "goblins," it would be more accurate to call them trickster spirits similar to the Japanese class of youkai known as tsukumogami, or objects which have grown into spiritual entities through age and use, something we don't really have an easy analog for here in the English-speaking West. Between the inaccuracy of the comparison and the tendency for "goblin" to come pre-loaded with antisemitic baggage, this is one of those instances where trying to translate a term is counterproductive, so dokaebbi it is.

Musically, "Tricky House" is an up-tempo dance track with several playful rap breaks and a range meant to really show off the members' abilities. It starts off high energy and never backs down, having both familiar Edenary fingerprints and a sound that's uniquely xikers. For those with a musical ear, you can hear the way this is a cousin to their pirate seniors ATEEZ while still being distinct. It may be a little jarring on first listen, but on the other hand that slightly unsettling reedy instrument in the background feels like an ideal fit for a song about dokkaebi playing games.

The video is full of bright flashing light effects and shot through with the xikers' lore of, if that ending shot is to be believed, the antics of ten brooms that have come alive as dokkaebi. The majority of the runtime involves the ten of them playing games with a hapless solo traveling businessman, casting enchantments and talking him into doing things he probably wouldn't have if left alone. How much is real and how much is just dokkaebi illusion? It's hard to say; the line translated into English as "if the bat hits, what will it become" is actually talking about the dokkaebi's bangmangi, which might be better translated as magic wand or focus (despite sometimes being depicted as a type of warrior's club) and the tool through which dokkaebbi do their magic. Certainly our hapless businessman gets from the subway to an empty parking lot somehow, but whether he really knocked over an ATM or had a joyride in a Ferrari is debatable. Maybe he did, but for his sake, let's hope he didn't.

Stage versions of Tricky House (such as this dance practice for KCON 2023 Thailand) further prove this is a dance number for the young - even at just a little over three minutes, the energy needed to keep moving the way they do is no small amount. Still moving even when ostensibly standing still, the rolling inversion move that is the signature move for this song is tricky enough with just a couple dancers, never mind a full team of ten. One suspects there were several accidents during the learning phase.

Both their debut EP, House of Tricky: Doorbell Ringing, and their recent comeback, House of Tricky: How to Play, are out now for purchase or streaming, wherever you prefer to do these things. They are also currently in LA to wrap up their US tour with shows in Los Angeles on Wednesday and San Francisco on Saturday!

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[lolosrollercoaster]

so - back on an I need to write this out to process it and I guess im sharing it mood.

So ... been looking for a job since April, took a bit of a break in May but was supposed to be back in it by now but I'm just. exhausted. the depression has come back full force and I'm now lk desperate and financially stressed af.

So anyways, all of these months I kept just mass applying when I could get myself to with the full resume I had - no changes. no tailoring it to an application etc. and then I decided to apply again to this one place in sept - even though last year when I applied I hadn't had much luck, but this time around there was a position very similar to my last one - and I was lk fuck it I gotta do it.

in the mean time I've kinda been going to a psychiatrist since lk august to be evaluated bc I think I might also have ADHD. But anyways she thinks that I need to leave my house, see ppl and rejoin life in order to see if my problems are from lack of doing anything and so my mental health is fucked bc im lk stuck at home feeling useless or if its because of something else - lk idk something is inherently wrong with me lol. I think she'd shit on me if I said that out loud to her. she's kinda cool - lk intimidating cool but not in a bad way. she's just such a no nonsense person and she'll read you lk you're an open book you cant get much past her.

my mom had to go in to share what she'd seen happening with me (aka lk the outsiders perspective of what changes can be seen in me since Ive been mentally fucked) and she was so nervous ahahaha and then in the end she was lk wait do I want an appointment with her for myself? my mom is a whole character. if only y'all knew.

anyways back to the job thing, so she told me to apply to anything, I just needed to get a routine going again. so I applied to a bunch of things. and then I got a message about a grocery store job on indeed and tried to reply but I couldn't help but feel a bit sad bc I thought man I finally got a grown up job and now I'm back to my OG job roots, back to the grocery store life. And honestly I think a lot of my extended family has fucked me up on that bc they're so snobbish about these jobs. ANYWAYS so I didnt hear anything back after I answered them 🤷🏻‍♀️ so I thought ok . and around that time I had stopped applying.

fast forward to the past 2 weeks - my dog got sick, I got sick - we had the worst flu, I've had the worst period of the last few years, ive been out of it, my mom has been out of it, my dog has been out of it - also right - my grandmas death etc. (truly Oct is kinda dead to me now. so yay on that 😭 one less thing to look forward to which is sad when you didn't have much left) but yeah so then I see this email late Friday evening - which shit I usually check my email daily but this time I had forgotten bc id been sick - it was an email from Wednesday from that job I'd applied in sept that was a lot lk the one I'd left earlier in the year. and they wanted to interview me this week - Wednesday or Thursday. I managed to reply as soon as I saw it. and then I got a confirmation that Monday for it - it was an in person interview today.

I tried to prep for it as best as I could while physically dying a bit - bc lk I said been experiencing the period from hell. And yknow what that means? I'm so fucking emotionally wrecked atm- so anyways my dad drove me I somehow managed to be there, I was early, dressed professionally and everything - had even practiced some answers ... and then idk man - I think I fucked it up. They asked follow ups or clarifications of my answers but by the end I wasn't sure how to feel except man definitely didn't get that. they told me they'd make a decision by next week and let me know either way.

and the worse or weirdest part is I've spent the past few days since I found out about it trying to downplay it - lk its fine, you don't need this, if it's for you then it will be for you and if it isn't then it isn't. but I felt so sad walking out - lk idk I just got that feeling that they didn't like me. so now I'm all sad - even if all I've felt recently is that idgaf anymore and I'm ok with just dying - bc yup I got that passive suic*dal ideation down to a routine now. anyways - if anyone has any words of encouragement I'll take them but yeah I am sad .... and I have little to nothing left to give. it's been draining to say the least. and the worst part is I know my parents are just going to be encouraging and even my psychiatrist -she told me that I would get a job and it wouldn't matter who and if for some reason I didn't get something I should just think of it "well they weren't capable of seeing how great you are and what an asset you'd be to their team and that's fine because that just means it is not the job for you" but it still makes me sad know? I have trouble letting go of things and I'm way too hard on myself so it's just - A LOT.

anyways thats my life update.

[h0lygh0stlings]

Enjoy this mega-dump on my Max and Gus thoughts because I'm dying rn💀✌🏻

There's something about Max Arciniega as a character, as a whole that I love soso S O much honestly and i don't know what it is. There is so much to him, and so much about him yet he's the character who everyone knows n o t h I n g about, and barely has any screentime. He's on screen and next to Gus in one scene, and that has been enough for years for the fandom as a whole to flesh him out more, and to talk more about him. I absolutely love everything the Breaking Bad fandom has put towards Max as a character, and I'm so glad everyone not only appreciates him more but appreciates Gus more. He is s o alive for a character that is beyond dead, and in a way that's exactly how Max is, and how he's used during and throughout the series. He's a symbol of revenge, not just Gus' but revenge in general, and he's a symbol of love [in some ways.] Devotion. There is such an amount of, well--everything that goes into him, and makes him such a character. Maximino truly, and all in all was everything Gus wasn't, and in the end he loved Gus.

The cartel took that away. If it weren't for Max, its honestly the truth that Gustavo wouldn't be where he is now, that everything wouldn't be where it all is now; both during Breaking Bad a n d Better Call Saul ss of current. Walt,,and Jesse? They're simply there and a part of a bigger, much larger plan that he's determined to do everything, and anything to accomplish, for Max. He is the reason why Gus the way he is, and in some ways, the reason why Gustavo dies. His death is the reason for everything, also. The reason for so many deaths, so much chaos. It gave Gus a motive, and in a way took away the last human bits of him that were left. I say that very loosely, because as true as it is I mean mainly the last bits of him that remained when he was with Max. The difference in his smile, t h a t photo etc. There is n o way in the end that Max would've supported Gus' revenge and all he did to get to that point, and there's also no way in the end that, anything done differently, would've changed what happened or how Gus ended up.

With Max dead, he basically became a rabid animal. A monster, consumed by agony and once again, Devotion. If you think Gus is greedy, or a psychopath even-- you're beyond wrong, and not seeing the point of him as a character. In a way-- it's haunting, just as it is tragic, with the reason behind his death at the end of the series/season and his udmost fatal being love-- and all his love for Max. Through blood and bone, thick and thin, and throughout god knows how many pounds of methamphetamine, everything he did for Max was out of love, and for the sake of making sure the Salamancas didn't harm or kill anyone without purpose ever again. No more normalized cruelty, that could ever lead to another 'Max', another tragedy happening ever again.

[beardedmrbean]

TOPEKA, Kan. (AP) — The U.S. Supreme Court refused Monday to hear the appeals of two brothers who were sentenced to death for four fatal shootings on a Kansas soccer field in December 2000 known as “the Wichita massacre.”

Former Kansas Attorney General Derek Schmidt said the high court's decision means Jonathan and Reginald Carr no longer have any direct appeals of their death sentences. However, he said they can still file lawsuits in state and federal courts to try to prevent their executions by lethal injection.

The U.S. Supreme Court's action came a little less than a year after the Kansas Supreme Court ruled that the two brothers had received fair trials and upheld their death sentences. Kansas has nine men on death row, but the state has not executed anyone since the murderous duo James Latham and George York were hanged on the same day in June 1965.

“The slow but steady march toward justice continues,” Schmidt said in a statement Monday.

The U.S. Supreme Court's decision came just hours before Schmidt stepped down as Kansas attorney general after 12 years in office, having lost the governor's race in November. The new attorney general is Kris Kobach, a fellow Republican.

Clayton Perkins, an attorney representing Jonathan Carr in his appeals, declined to comment. Reginald Carr’s attorney for his appeals, Debra Wilson, did not immediately respond to phone and email messages seeking comment.

Prosecutors said the brothers broke into a home in December 2000 and forced the three men and two women there to have sex with one another and later to withdraw money from ATMs. Jonathan Carr was 20 and Reginald Carr was 23 when the murders occurred; they are now 42 and 45 and both are incarcerated at the state's maximum-security prison in El Dorado, about 30 miles (48 kilometers) northeast of Wichita.

According to authorities, the women were raped repeatedly before all five victims were taken to a soccer field and shot. Four of them died: Aaron Sander, 29; Brad Heyka, 27; Jason Befort, 26; and Heather Muller, 25. The woman who survived testified against the Carr brothers. They were also convicted of killing another person in a separate attack.

Each of the brothers accused the other of carrying out the crimes.

The Kansas court upheld their convictions in 2014 but overturned their death sentences, concluding that not having separate hearings violated the U.S. Constitution. The U.S. Supreme Court reversed that decision in 2016, returning the case to the Kansas Supreme Court.

The Kansas court's ruling in 2014 led crime victims' friends and families to campaign for the ouster of four of the court's seven justices in the November 2016 election. Although that effort was unsuccessful and the four justices prevailed in statewide yes-or-no votes on whether they should stay on the bench, it was by smaller than normal margins.

When the Kansas Supreme Court took up the brothers' cases again, their attorneys raised questions about how their cases weren’t conducted separately when jurors were considering whether the death penalty was warranted. Other issues they raised included the instructions that were given to jurors and how closing arguments were conducted.

The Kansas court's majority concluded that while the lower-court judge and prosecutors made errors, those errors did not warrant overturning their death sentences again.

[valeriianz]

Hi, @chaosheadspace here. (Anon cause sideblog and stuff).

I have a question regarding your playlist for the playlist you made for your Dreamling band AU. (Which is very good, btw. I'm looking for new music atm and was elated being greeted with someone saying "I want to skin you alive". Glorious.)

Did you choose the songs you think they might have played or did you choose songs that embodied the characters and the setting for you? Please feel free to ramble at length.

Hello! Oh goodness... I'm so happy to receive this ask. I've never thought much about music while writing fics (I don't even listen to music while I'm writing, I find it very distracting) but given this is a BAND au, it was almost inevitable (90% of the songs on the playlist were added before I even published the fic). Allow me to ramble, since you've given me permission haha.

All of these songs already exist somewhere on my Spotify, I listen to a lot of indie and alt rock and remember coming up with the idea for Bolt in the Blue and daydreaming A LOT about Endless as a band and what they might sound like. So, while I was commuting to work, cleaning my apartment, doing laundry, I had my Spotify on a constant shuffle and every time a song popped up that made me think about Endless, I tossed it into a playlist. A lot of edits were made before I decided to publish the final draft lol.

So while this did start out as what I imagined Endless would sound like, I also started to think about what each member might contribute to said playlist. I thought of it like... when you're at a show and music is playing through the speakers while you wait in the crowd and the stage is being set up. I could picture the whole band making a playlist and contributing equally.

I tell you, and myself, that it's not that deep. It's music that gives me vibes for the band only, and doesn't reflect the fic at all. Well, except one song. Mile Deep Hollow by IAMX is such a Dream song to Hob that it makes me vibrate while listening to it now:

So thank you You need to know That you dragged me out Of a mile deep hollow And I love you You brought me home 'Cause you dragged me out Of a mile deep hollow

I mean... no explanation needed. Hob is Dream's light and is the one who inspires him and drags him up from a deep darkness (kind of spoiler but eh, I like to think I'm pretty predictable and we could all see that happening from a mile away).

But the other tracks? Eh... I mean some definitely give off vibes but I wouldn't connect any of them to the fic itself. Even the fic title, Bolt in the Blue, while obviously taken from the LPX song, is not indicative of the story at all (that's a separate post though, it's all a metaphor lmao). Which is why, secret's out, I'm currently building a new playlist that will go along with the fic chapter by chapter lol. But that won't be ready until Bolt in the Blue is finished. I kind of realized, very recently, that I wanted a proper playlist to go along with the themes and characters in the fic.

So, while Endless' Personal Playlist is exactly that- just songs that one: I imagine the band could actually write and perform but also two: all made together and music they'd all rock out to in their tour bus... this new playlist I'm making will accurately describe and emulate the plot. I'm having a fucking blast building it and can't wait to share it with everyone :)

And just for fun, here's who I think added what track to the Endless playlist (as I've stated in the past, music is subjective and who you connect each song to is up to interpretation. And here's mine, and yes, there are some repeats):

Dream:

Poison by Alice Cooper Mile Deep Hollow & The Great Shipwreck of Life by IAMX Nothing Personal by Night Riots Don't You Forget About Me by Billy Idol

Death:

Bolt in the Blue & Slide by LPX Stone Cold Crazy by Queen Shout by Placebo Holy Mother by Starbenders

Despair:

Human & High by Anavae Blue Monday by Orgy Everything Black by Unlike Pluto Stone Cold Crazy by Queen

Desire: High by Avavae Youth Gone Wild by Skid Row Shout by Placebo Modern Day Cain by IDKHBTFM Hang on to Yourself & Massacre, The New American Dream by Palaye Royale

Delirium:

Maniac by Carpenter Brut Youth Gone Wild by Skid Row Call Me a Saint by YOKANA Don't You Forget About Me & Mony Mony by Billy Idol

Alright, I'm finished lol THANK YOU for letting me ramble!! I hope everyone reading enjoys the rock n roll or at the very least discovers something new from the playlist :D

[alucior]

people i want to get to know better

@aether-biome probably but who doesn't like more breadcrubs of small things to know about eachother :p

1. three ships:

atm its probably like Wenclair from wednesday cause they are a vibe and I'm having fun writing for them. I'm having some fun with it.

Then we also have like Smugbug but that's less of a ship more two charaters I'm lowkey obsessed with and while Lisa wouldn't be caught death in any kinda relationship they work well together. it also helps that my fave fic of this ship she spends most of the time inside of taylors head and dreams. it's kidna odd but you know, I'm obsessed so we have it at that.

and last maybe like Bellice, cause bella definantly could do better than the discoball of sadness she ended up with. and honestly Alice got two hands for her and Jasper. it be fun if bella's power also made her kinda invisible to her future vision and it can just be highjinks

2. first ever ship:

I can't really remember back to like the late 00's but I think that I started out with Fleurmione all they way back then. Even now like who doesn't like two smart as fuck witches compete and then work together later on. like also while the french on most works is just accented english but it's kinda funny so I'm also taking that.

fanfic definantly made most of that ship work as the cannon even then was rather lacking and upon reflection fucked up.

3. last song:

on my phone it would have been "Out Of The Frying Pan And Into The Fire" from the bat out of hell musical. I watched it live a couple years ago live and got nostaligc about it earlier today.

4. last movie:

I think it was like the seventh fast & furious movie, maybe the sixth. it's pretty fun if you turn off any critical thinking and just take it as they serve it.

5. currently reading:

For book it would be Gideon the 9th but I've been on that for a while and my focus doesn't seem to be allowing me to finish it but I'm trying! for fanfic it's something from ted lasso between him and Trent cause I binged that show in a week and they also live in my head now.

6. currently watching:

C3E53 of critical role, aka post-applebee solstice day two. chetney getting reaquaninted with his ex and shits still fucked on exandria.

7. currently consuming:

that, and also like hermitcraft content from a couple of the folk there, including cleo's feverdream of a limited life episode which was quite fun. and like a couple podcasts cause they release on monday instead of wednesday like all the other ones for some reason.

8. currently craving:

pizza, like on a deep level I want to put a billion slices in my mouth. or like any bread in a warm form with some cheese like give it to me I'mma eat it all.

tagging @wolf-thecontradictorysentence (cause to be honest your pfp made me aware of gideon in the first place and opend up the internet to some wild shit that is entertaining as fuck) @always-undermining (dog! they seem nice) and @shut-up-cupcake (still reminds me of carmilla and that was a good time)