#MercyDream

[tv-channel-x]

New oc time!!

Basically just a trio that stalk sans. Love the <3

Be warned a lot of these are violet banquet ocs!

[humunanunga]

more Dreamtale AUs have been made in the Violet Banquet server

So I posted before about Dreamtale Harmony featuring Dawn and Psyche. Dawn's creator @tv-channel-x is also making an AU aside from Harmony.

Attached under the readmore will be screencaps of the full lore so far, but in summary, this is an alternate timeline (or two) that answers Dream's question: could he have saved Nightmare if he'd just acted soon enough? If he knew what to do, what to say, how to help? If he'd just tried harder?

There are two versions of Mercydream so far in which he could have. In one, the tragedy was averted entirely, letting the twins grow up and go on adventures together. In the other, which we're calling Melted Mercydream for now, Dream still couldn't stop him, but Nightmare's will wasn't overtaken during the transformation and he kept the purple where he would've turned teal. Like a role-reversal of Molten Dreams.

[mercydreaming]

I want and I want and I want and I continue wanting even when there is no time to want even when there is nothing to want

and I wonder if that thing I want has a name if it has a place or a story

if what I want is something I hunger for except, when I consume, try to fill that hunger I realize that hunger is not that name for this Hunger I can ignore, and hunger I can write about in a way that makes sense

this feeling it isn’t something I want to make sense it doesn’t; it can’t

it is endless chanting in my head at the tips of my fingers buzzing and clinging

ringing as I bang my head against my hands and just want as I try to get it to shut up even though it wont

the wanting it wont no stopping no needing or craving or hunger or anything I can pretend to know

All I feel is this want and I can’t get it to fucking stop. it’s become all I know and I wonder if I could stop wanting, stop just fucking wanting, could that be any better?

I used to pray and cry and scream as I tore myself apart I used to want to be pretty, be smart, be kind, be enough, I used to want to be happy more than anything

and now

I just want.

[mercydreaming]

today

These days everyone is asking me what I plan on doing for the rest of my life. What job I am planning on taking. what major I've settled in. What life I wanna make for myself. and im tired of it.

There’s just something about being asked everyday what I plan on doing with myself that makes me dread the next day and the next conversation and the next five minutes of quiet time. It’s inevitable, the questions

Two times I’ve considered just telling them all the truth. Tell them what I truly want to do is infeasible so I’m just moving along as well as I can. I won't be brave enough to tell them that about ochem (I would lie about passing it to get them off my case; use the failed grade as incentive to finally change my major; and maybe try to make something of myself; but I passed and am still in biology. how fun)

tomorrow I say, tomorrow I’ll figure out what to say, and how to say it, and whom to say it to. But today, today im just gonna pretend its all alright now