#Mentally i am here 🫶🏻❤️

[its-de]

- "Do you not like people touching you?"

- Rafayel: "No."

- Also him:

[sunrizef1]

big reputation pt 3

Pairing: Logan Sargeant x fem!reader

Warnings: Kelly piquet? Slight violence, canon divergent (Logan has a seat lmfao)

Authors Note: from now on every fic I post will be considered a period piece because I am NOT taking Logan out of that seat.

Pt1 Pt2

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📍Cardiff, Wales

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yourusername Cardiff, you were wonderful!!!!! We had never played a show in Wales before but we will definitely be back again! We all had a great time ✨ Thank you so much for coming out and having the night of your lives with me, I'm so grateful for every single one of you! 🖤 I’ll see you soon, Edinburgh…📸

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user1 I love you queen

user2 guys… I miss the drivers

user3 they miss one show like every two weeks and y'all say this every time 😭😭😭

user3 and they'll probably be back next week in Hungary anyway! 😭

user2 but that's like only one or two drivers or just their girlfriends or just f1-related people, its not the same 😭 I need them all together again 😭🙏

user4 my show 🥰

user5 we need more shows in wales…

yourusername ...✌️

user5 TWO??? AS IN LEG 2??? MORE CARDIFF SHOWS NEXT YEAR???

user6 RATATATATATATATATATATATA

user7 the camera emoji after Edinburgh??? And the dots?? …Ready for it? Music video announcement in Edinburgh???

charles_leclerc ✨🖤

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user8 Logan going out of his way to make it to Cardiff... Not beating the boyfriend allegations

user9 THIS WAS MY SHOWWWWW

fernandoaloofficial Very good!!! 👍 🖤

yourusername thank you, Nando 🫶🏻

user10 🐍🐍🐍

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oscarpiastri

damn he really is down bad

I'm assuming you mentioned the flowers once and he immediately bought them for you?

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That would be correct, yes

oscarpiastri

thought so 🙂‍↕️

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📍Antwerp, Belgium

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yourusername Antwerp!!! This was one of the greatest shows of my life, the crowd was absolutely electric!!! We also got a rain show, which are always my favorites ☔ We also introduced my new favourite idea, mashing-up surprise songs, which is something I am so excited to continue and you all seemed very excited so I am thrilled!! 🫶

Next up, Amsterdam ☝️ 🇳🇱🇳🇱

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user11 WOOOOOOO

user12 I was there 🙂‍↕️🙏

landonorris ✨

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user13 guyssss I got mine x stay stay stay!!!! We won! 🥰

user14 I 🫶 rain shows

user15 guys notice how there's three exclamation marks… twice… 3… 3… 33… max’s old number… and then the ☝️ emoji… its a 1… max’s current number… Netherlands is next… she uses two exclamation marks at the end… two Dutch flags… Logans number is two…

user16 are you mentally okay

user15 no

user17 no drivers… what if I kms

user18 but we got the wags!!! 🥰

user17 and if I said y/n was the one true wag

user17 what then

user18 you would be correct 🙂‍↕️ 2️⃣🇺🇸

user19 wait the surprise song thing is so cute!!!!

user20 she's so prettyyyyy

lilymhe 💋💋💋

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user21 I was here!!! When I tell you everyone gasped so hard when she started singing stay stay stay in the middle of mine, we were all screaming!!!

user22 LOOK WHAT YOU MADE ME DO

alexandrasaintmleux ❤️

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user23 girl I did not know mash-ups were an option 😭

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alexandrasaintmleux

The best trio 🥰

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Correct 🤭🙂‍↕️

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lilymhe

I'm so glad you're here 😭😭😭

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Me too 😭😭😭

lilymhe

I need you back in Williams ☹️

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Soon…🤭

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Repping Ferrari today….

Betrayal doesnt look cute on you

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you'll be okay darling 💋

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No ☹️

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fernandoalo_official

Stay safe mija

you're going behind enemy lines

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Lol, thanks Nando

I'll be safe

fernandoalo_official

Just look out for anyone in orange….

They're a suspicious bunch

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I will 🫡

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Good 👍

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📍Amsterdam, Netherlands

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yourusername Amsterdam, you were so lovely!!! I'll admit I was a little nervous for these two shows but you all showed me so much kindness and these crowds will definitely go down as two of my favourites of all time 🫶 I had a really great time and I really felt so connected to every person in that stadium, I can't thank you enough for everything 🤍

But these shows made me realize how much we've grown this past year. Reputation was such a scary project for me and the reception from you all was so much better than I expected. Its been a year of love and I'm so thankful that you've stuck by me, you don't know how much it means 🤍🫶

So thank you to the drivers, to my friends and family, to the crew, to Jack, to Lewis, Charles and Logan and, most of all, to you, the fans. I love you 🤍

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user24 wait night one was wild

user25 as someone who was night one, the atmosphere when people found max was crazy 😭😭😭 so much yelling 😭

user26 RIGHT like I was upper bowl and had no idea what everyone was yelling about 😭

user27 IS THAT LAST PICTURE HER BF

user27 FOLLOW UP QUESTION: IS THAT LOGAN

user28 LMAO the middle finger in the last picture, she really hates max 😭

user29 why did she talk about love so much during the show and then in the caption…

user30 conspiracy theory: its their anniversary

lilymhe 💋💋💋

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user31 that second pic is so cute 🥹

lewishamilton thanks for the shoutout 😎

yourusername thank YOU for everything lew 🤍

user32 out of all the drivers she chose to name three specifically: Lewis (who featured on the album and also has producer credits), Charles (who featured and has all the piano credits), and Logan, (who…. Was the muse for the album???)🫣

user33 wait why is no one talking about how crazy the max thing is

user34 yeah every ones talking about Logan but the m*x appearance is actually insane behaviour

user35 girl I read jack and fully thought she meant doohan 😭

user36 WAIT who did she mean??? I also thought she meant doohan 😭😭😭

user35 jack antonoff girl 😭

fernandoalo_official proud of you mija ❤️

yourusername thank you Nando 🤍

user36 I adore them 😭

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📍Las Vegas, Nevadaa

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yourusername about a year and a half ago, I thought my life was over. I was betrayed by the very same people I thought were my forever.

But, after months of hiding, I ran into you at a dive bar deep in the city of Miami and suddenly my forever was you. You were in your buzzcut phase and I had just bleached my hair. You recognized me, of course. We'd met a couple of times and I'd always thought kindly of you. We started to talk and hours passed without us even noticing. I'm not sure where your friends had gone but looking back at it now, I'm glad they left because I can't imagine the conversation we had being joined by other people. It was already vaguely awkward enough.

I wasn't exactly lighting up the room that night. It had been a rough couple of months and I'd only gone out in hopes of finding a sliver of happiness. Thank god I did because it brought me to now, where I'm the happiest I've ever been. It brought me to you.

You, my love, are so wonderful and beautiful and talented and I honestly can't believe you're mine. Thank you so much for sticking beside me and becoming my forever muse. I could go on and on about the lyrics I've written about you but I think I'll just keep that for the next album 🫣

We went from hiding out in hotel rooms, curtains drawn tightly so paparazzi couldn't see and taking back roads to the studio to avoid anyone who might recognize us to you coming to every single show and me getting to sing to you and every single night.

From the new years parties in New York to the bouquets in Dublin and to the rings in Las Vegas 💍, I love you forever, Lo 🤍

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user37 AWWWWWWWWWW

user38 THIS IS INSANEEEEE

user39 the hardest of hard launches!!! 🥰

user40 WAIT WHAT

lilymhe congratulations love! No one deserves this happiness more than you 🤍🥰

yourusername lilyyyy 🥹🫶

user41 IM SOBBING MY PARENTSSSSSS

user42 THE CLIP OF CHARLES CRYING AFTER SHE SHOWS THE RING?????? MEEEEE

charles_leclerc congrats ange, so happy for you ❤️

yourusername forever grateful for your super secret spy work last year, none of this could’ve happened without you 🤍

charles_leclerc 🫡

user42 OHHHHH Charles was digging for info on max that’s why he was friends with him last year 😭

lancestroll 🥳🥳🥳

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user43 this is adorable 🥹

alexandrasaintmleux me and Lily are planning the bachelorette party as we speak 🥳🎉

yourusername as long as you guys are there it will be perfect 🥹🤍

user44 AWWWWWWW OMG

carlossainz congrats!! 😎💍

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landonorris LETS GOOOOO

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oscarpiastri now that you're engaged I can finally yell you that he's legit had a crush on you for years. I couldnt get away from the sound of him playing Fearless over and over and over again

yourusername he's adorable. And it sounds like you're… complaining????

oscarpiastri nope ofc not, fearless is great, aoty for a reason, best country album of all time, I'd never complain 🙂‍↔️🫡

yourusername thanks osc 🤍

alex_albon did u like ur proposal…? 😽

yourusername I've been informed of your involvement and am pleased to tell you that the proposal was wonderful. Thank you Alex 🫶

alex_albon well flowers can't arrange themselves 🫡 congrats y/n

alex_albon we’re grateful to have you in the Williams family 🤍

user45 my forever muse 😭

user46 the parallels between this caption and the five year one for m*x 😭

logansargeant you’re the love of my life and I’m so grateful for the time we’ve had together 🤍 I love you so much darling and I’m so proud to get the honor of calling you my wife 🤍🤍🤍 😊

yourusername love you lo 🤍🥹

user47 oh my god they’re so in love, I’m so happy that y/n got to have this relationship after everything with max 🥹🤍

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My forever boy 💍

logansargeant

I love you baby 🤍😊

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I love you too 🤍🥹

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[hemmingsleclerc]

Charles proposing to us (we’re a super famous singer so also the public’s reactions). But overall how he’d do it, his family’s reactions, the grids reactions, etc. If you’d be up for it, maybe x male reader - but if you’re not female reader is fine :)

Happy ending ┃charles leclerc

pairing(s): charles leclerc x male!reader

fc: jonathan bailey

a/n:such a cute request, just fluff and cried while writing it, hope u like it 🤍🫶🏻🫧🐚🌊

Charles had been planning this moment for months. Ever since he met Y/N, he knew that he was the one he wanted to spend the rest of his life with.

Y/N, a world famous singer, had stolen his heart with his kind soul and the way he made him laugh and completely understood him. That night, at his concert, he was going to propose.

The lights went down in the arena and the crowd went wild as Y/N took the stage. Many celebrities were there to see the concert as well. Charles was backstage, pacing nervously, holding the small velvet box that contained the ring and mentally repeating the speech he had prepared while his heart pounded in his chest.

Halfway through the set, Y/N paused to catch his breath and address the audience. "Thank you all for being here tonight. This next song is very special to me and I hope you enjoy it." The first notes of the piano filled the air and as Y/N began to sing, Charles walked to the side of the stage.

When the song ended, Y/N looked at the audience without realizing that Charles was walking right towards him, with a microphone in hand, a little nervous as the audience went crazy for his presence..

"Hello, everyone," Charles said, his voice shaking as he laughed nervously. "I'm sorry to interrupt this incredible moment, but I have something very important to ask." He turned to Y/N, his eyes filled with love and adoration. "From the moment I met you, I knew my life would never be the same. You are my best friend and the love of my life. I can't imagine spending another day without you by my side." While Charles was saying all this, Y/N couldn't believe it.

He then knelt down as he pulled the small box out of his suit pocket and the crowd erupted in cheers, feeling lucky to witness this live. Y/N covered his mouth in shock. "Will you marry me?" Charles asked, opening the box to reveal a stunning diamond ring.

Y/N answered yes happily, unable to speak, he stood him up and kissed him passionately and hugged him lovingly. The crowd went crazy.

Backstage, Charles's family watched the proposal on a monitor. Pascale, his mother, was in tears, hugging Arthur and Lorenzo tightly. "I'm so happy for him," she said, her voice choked with emotion. "They are perfect for each other, I am happy that he never listened to those comments and decided to be happy for who he is, love is love, and no one has to forbid it.''

On the grid, news of the proposal spread quickly. Lando couldn't contain his excitement, jumping up and down and shouting, "Yes! Finally!" Max smiled hugely and quickly congratulated Charles. Pierre was smiling from ear to ear and clapping his hands vigorously on the verge of shedding a few tears, he just was so happy for his best friend.

And then there was Sebastian, who had always been like a father to Charles. He called to congratulate him personally. "I always told you to follow your heart, Charles. You deserve all the happiness in the world, no one can tell you what to do or who to be, love is for everyone and I am deeply proud and happy that you have found your person."

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charles_leclerc finally I married my best friend, love you endlessly 🤍🤍🤍

ynln 🤍❗️💍

zendaya so happy for both 🥹👏🏻

blakelively 😍❤️❤️

taylorswift I ADORE YOU!!! CONGRATULATIONS 💕💕

landonorris I’m sobbing, love you guys

pierregasly so proud of you charles, you really found your other half 👏🏻

arianagrande OH MY GOD!!!! I can’t even express how proud, happy and enchanted I am for u two, you’re truly made for one another 💕🫧🫶🏻 I love you both so dearly and wish you the very best 💐🌈💌

[hitomisuzuya]

PLS IGNORE MY ASK UNTIL U FEEL LIKE ANSWERING SUZUUU!

Valentines is rolling around so! Headcanon of what Kazuha, Venti Xiao and Kuni would do for you on valentines? SFW ❤️❤️❤️ (Tomorrow where I am its valentines day 🥱🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻)

a/n: Hello dear and Happy Valentine's Day! I hope you enjoy❤️ I hate that I can't really find gifs of Kuni😔

Kazuha x fem!reader Venti x fem!reader Xiao x fem!reader Kunikuzushi x fem!reader Headcanons for what they would do for the reader on Valentine's Day. Fluffy fluff fluff. A little suggestive in Kazuha's part but not really.

Kazuha went all out on Valentine's Days . Flowers. Dinner. Dancing. A walk under the moonlight. You got it all.

When you asked him what he wanted for Valentine's Day, here is what this sweetie said: "All I want is you. But, you could wear a certain outfit for me when we go to dinner."

Be ready for him to trail off when he was talking to you just to admire you when you smiled or laughed at something he said during dinner. He couldn't help himself you just looked so beautiful tonight.

You would cuddle together after your walk on the beach with him.

Much like Kazuha, Venti would go all out on Valentine's Day.

He would write you poetry and songs. Give you big bouquet of Windwheel Asters.

He would serenade you in the street in front of a crowd of people. You were his muse. You deserved nothing less to be serenaded while he played his Lyre.

Venti would take you on a ride through the clouds on Dvalin's back, telling you the night sky paled in comparison to your beauty.

"Look, y/n, even the stars want to shine brighter for you!"

Xiao went to Zhongli for advice on what he should for you on Valentine's Day. Next to you, he was that one that Xiao trusted the most.

He would buy you a bracelet that had a small chunk of Cor Lapis in the leather of the bracelet. He'd always thought the color of the stone made your skin look even prettier than it already was. Please wear it everyday. It would mean a lot to him.

Zhongli would take care of his duties in protecting Liyue on Valentine's Day. Xiao had told him that it wasn't necessary, but Zhongli told him that it was important that he spend the whole day and evening together with you.

You were important to him. He loves you and he wanted to make you happy.

He would pick out a quiet spot to take you stargazing.

Xiao would rest his cheek on top of your head while you were cuddled up against him. All he wanted was to be with you, whether it be on Valentine's Day or not.

Kunikuzushi would would find a small piece of steel and pound it into the shape of a heart at Niwa's blacksmithing table.

"Here, I made this for you," he would say somewhat shyly when he gave it to you. Since he didn't have a human heart, it was his own way of giving his heart to you.

Bless his soul, even though he didn't like sweet things, he would try and hand make chocolates for you. (It took several attempts).

He would take you to a spot in Inazuma that constantly had Electro crystalflies flying around in it.

Kuni would watch you, his expression soft and endearing as crystalflies landed on your fingertips, immediately drawn to you. They reminded him of himself and the way he was drawn to you.

It was a mental image he would keep in his head forever.

[etfrin]

I think you’re one of the best Coryo writers on here tbh, like I’m so captivated by all of your series and I haven’t been this obsessed with a series in so long. Souls to Crush and the arranged marriage series are superior, I love the way that you don’t make MC feed into a “weak, damsel in distress” stereotype and even if she isn’t physically strong, she is mentally and she’s intelligent (big slytherin vibes) She always seems to be at least three steps ahead of Coryo, even when he thinks he’s better than her. Ugh it’s just such wonderful writing omg and don’t even get me started on the Ethan fics 🫶🏻🥹

-🌺 anon (can I name my anon?? Is that annoying? Idk)

Thank you doesn't seem adequate enough to reply this ask, but thank you for your kind words, thank you for liking my work, it means a lot to me.

honestly, i was fed up with weak, damsel in distress mcs, like no offense they're good just not for me, especially when it's dark romance, it's just boring for me, i like my couples to be equally insane and that's exactly why Reader is like that

I think she would be a Slytherin along with Coriolanus! Personally I am a Ravenclaw, and it's actually really fun to write the FL like this, a bit unhinged , really smart, I don't see it as much as I would like too, so I took the matters in my own hands

And YES you can name your anon! ❤️ and it's definitely not annoying

ps. I can't believe you have read my Ethan fics as well, ily <33

ps². can you give me your pronouns if u don't mind? thank you

[ghostfanwriter]

Hiiiii! I hope you’re thriving rn and experiencing only pleasant things ❤️ I just wanted to check in since it’s been a while but this is in no way an attempt to get an explanation or to force you to come back (or even respond at all). I really love you’re fics and I think you’re extremely talented! Dirty Hands is my fave fic out there and I’m so greateful to you for writing it! You should feel so proud of yourself for your works and creativity. Many people loved them but what’s most important is that you loved them as well! I hope you’re ok and I’m sending you peace and love 😘

- 🐰

It seriously aches so bad when one of you sends me a message about how much you miss my stories... But in a good way, I promise!!! 😭🩷

I've been struggling with a few personal issues, stuff like changing jobs (looking for one, fingers crossed 🤞🏻) and my mental health for the past few months. Mentally it's been a little dreading, with depression and anxiety, but I'm working hard to make progress and having you all checking in (so many of you sent me messages, ily all so much 😭) makes it all so much better and makes me feel really special and loved.

Anxiety made writing hard, though. I love Dirty Hands with all my heart and the idea of writing something for it that wasn't as good as I hoped made me run away from it and let it sit back in my drafts for months. I've made progress and have been writing more lately, but again, I put a lot of pressure on myself to make it as good as I can.

But having you all asking about it and saying so many kind things about my stories makes me melt and quite literally, wanna cry. It shows me that, even if in this microcosm of Tumblr, my stories have meaning to someone. And reading comments, reblogs and messages about it always makes my day just a little bit brighter.

All that to say... I am writing, and I know you're all super kind and overly patient with me, but I'm feeling better now, and I'm ready to trust myself again and get back to writing.

Hopefully the eighth part of Dirty Hands will be coming this weekend, and I'll try to also (as I do some reading to prevent plot holes) edit and fix some stuff on the previous parts. So I'll be reblogging them as I edit 🫶🏻

Maybe this whole sentimental journey doesn't make sense to some of you, "Dude it's literally just fanfiction!". But you all are just so kind and so extremely sweet that I can't help but really see each and every single one of you as my friends, who are always there to cheer me up when I post something. So thank you all, really. You have no idea how actually meaningful (and quite lifesaving) it is to read your words of encouragement, I can really feel the love from here 🥹

Becoming a writer is a big, huge dream of mine, and having my little friends from over here being so nice gives me the courage I need to pursue it professionally 🩷

I love you all and I can't wait to share more with you, see you soon!

Love, Ghost 🩷🫶🏻

[firsttarotreader]

Hi Mami. This is not about Pedro. But I am going to Med School 😭 I have been crying from happiness since this morning. I found this account in February when my exams were terrible, and I was so bad mentally. I also read the conversations and the interviews and was a newbie in the fandom; Pedro is an inspiring person. This blog felt like a friend group; I feel safe here. Even the notifications made me feel relaxed. So, I wanted to share this news with you🩷 : I am going to be a doctor (well, I need six years first🙃)

Congratulations, anon! 🥳🥳🏥🩺🩻⚕️💉💊

And thanks for the love! ❤️🫶🏻

[edenesth]

Hello! I'm your anon from a while back. I gave you some encouragement and you tagged the posts with '#shaking crying sobbing'.

Just wanted to preface this by saying, I've really missed you. I wanted to come on here to give you some more words of encouragement. Alas, life has been busy, but I'm back, just for you.

Let me ask you this question. What is a perfect writer?

Once you've thought about, I've got your answer. A perfect writer is... Someone... Who doesn't exist. There is no such thing as a perfect writer.

As a writer, you have aspirations. In those aspirations, always stay true to you. Cause you are beautiful. Whoever you look up to, it's acceptable to gain inspiration from them, but never shift your writing to be just like them. Because truth is, they have insecurities in their creativity, too.

They feel like crap, too. They get knocked down, too. They get writer's block, too. They hate their first drafts, too. They wanna throw their computers, too. They cry, they sweat, they give up, they ponder 'what the hell am I doing'/'I'm in the wrong profession', too.

But they get back up. They dust themselves off. They put their minds to it. They put their all into their work and they get it done. And I encourage you to do the same, with whatever avenue you choose to pursue, it doesn't have to be a creative one.

I also want to remind you, to take breaks. If you're tired, take a nap. If you're hungry, go eat. Go for a walk. Go on a vacation. Don't resist your urges too much. Yes stick to deadlines, but it's okay if you, physically/mentally/spiritually/psychologically, can't.

Remember to drink your water, have your cheat meals, and stay blessed. I'm rooting for you, not just in this creative venture, but in life. Be blessed. And as always, I hope this put a pretty smile, on your pretty face♡♡

(If you ever wanna talk, lemme know. I'll reach out to you, just call for your #shaking crying sobbing anon ;))

Hello, my loveliest!❤️

I've missed you too, you really are the sweetest!😭 I wholeheartedly agree with you, I believe there is no perfect writer. Thank you for your continuous words of encouragement! I appreciate it because you have no need to write me such touching words, but the fact that you still put your heart into doing it really means a lot🫂

Yes, this definitely put the biggest smile on my face! You never fail to do so🥹💓 I'll keep that in mind, my darling!🫶🏻

[clatoera]

I’m really curious to know how you became interested in Clato… they’re such minor characters I never gave them much thought

LOL bestie I wish I knew. My initial response was just “i’m mentally ill 🫶🏻” (and the other clove girlies will tell you that too). But in reality this interest can be traced back to being 14 when the movie came out. I liked to look at them so that helped.

But my like… thing?… was the “bad guys”. In everything I did/watched/read I liked the bad guy, I wanted to humanize them, I wanted to like justify them and whatever their stories were. That can be directly correlated to my obsession with Wicked which made me start saying “everyone is so misunderstood and arent bad!!” Which at the least is correct with the careers who are literally children. So I already had this thing for humanizing and justifying the bad guys so that was part of it.

The other part is the book, when Clove dies. That never screamed Platonic to me. It could have been but my childhood brain said nope ❤️. It stood out that Katniss, who has spent the whole book literally describing him as a monster, pause to note this was happening and I think it shocked her as much as anyone else? Like THAT was his humanizing moment in the book, not his speech on the cornucopia (which, I also do like!). But yeah. In the book we don’t see him as a teenage boy with feelings until, instead of following Katniss or the person who stole what they desperately needed, he kneels beside this dying girl and begs her to stay with him. And naturally my little girl brain latched onto it.

Thirdly was fandom space which is probably the MOST important. I think I was reading everlark fic that had Clato in the background and I was like..curious about it? And I then dug through that archive and got latched on and hooked on Clato. Truly. It was the fans and the fanfic archive that gave them life and depth and pulled me in. I can actually still remember the exact fic it was that hooked me good, and my own clato fics from like 2012-2014 are still out there in the ether (which i do not claim). So the largest thing was for sure fandom spaces and fic!

And yeah! So here I am. 25. Writing and reading about Clato still. I think more so now I realize what children they really were, and how at the end of the day literally all the careers were just kids who were trained to be the best and wanted to make people proud. Thats deeply relatable to me, too, even more so now. When I read the Hunger Games at that age I didn’t really pick up the depth of the horror either. I just liked them and thought they were cool, and thought katniss and peeta were endgame. Now, at 25, the horror actually strikes me. Thats why I actually have tended to write these kids older and older too- so as their brains develop they also start to see it.

Thank you!! This was weirdly fun to reflect on.

[sunlightfeeling]

can i just say, your blog is doing something to my brain ?? LMAO i actually feel a kimutaku fixation coming on- 😭

I feel so honored that I/my blog act as a harbinger 🥹 LOL

…the harbinger of kimutaku 🤔 …new title?

Fun fact: Y’all may have noticed but I don’t actually call him “kimutaku” or tag him as such. The reason why is because he doesn’t really like the name. I read about it here…I’ll reblog it soon ; I think I know where it is reblogged, post right after this one. There’s a different nickname he has, “ Captain” and you’ve probably seen it if you’ve seen Instagram profiles or whatever with “C&C” or “Captain&Crew”. That goes all the way back to his first radio show, and I think that’s what his fan club is called now(?) I refuse to call him that; just…I’m not that type of fan lol.

ew…I derailed I’m so sorry 😭😭

I’m always available if you need to vent/gush/etc etc about him (actually goes for anyone reading!) 🫶🏻. It’s so easy to get thrown down a void with him considering there are so many things to watch, read, etc. It’s honestly both a blessing and a curse.

He’s like a worm, though. Like, for me, the initial fixation snuck up on me and embedded itself LOL. I didn’t expect that it was a full-on fixation until it was too late and had dropped down a bit of a drama rabbit hole. I think I watched like 4 or 5 of his dramas/movies before I realized that he was something.

…at least now he’s typically at baseline (unless I watch a con apparently…🙃). But it’s a lot of mental work to try to keep him there, unfortunately. I really wish I could enjoy him just as a special interest, lol. Because hyperfixating amplifies the intensity way too much and it isn’t even fun because I’m “enjoying” content at a surface level…like only caring about his ✨aesthetics✨ and not the actual content.

SO, I totally totally understand if it ever becomes intense/overwhelming/even unwanted. I have been there and am still there sometimes. ❤️ I’M HERE FOR Y’ALL!!

#kimutaku support group

I AM SO SO SORRY THAT I KIND OF DERAILED THIS ASK 🙇🏻‍♀️

[aris-ink]

Me at the fact you suddenly can't read

JKDKDKLDK I couldn't resist

But anyways 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

It really is awful, though! I'm sorry you've had nightmares since you were a kid, and it sucks about the insomnia being recent. Mine appeared when I was in secondary school, so I feel you about it being recent. It sucks 😩. It's always the case when you try a variety of things, but nothing works. I'm really glad you mentioned this to your psychiatrist, though. That's fantastic! And that he gave you the sleeping pills to help you 💞. For me, it was the reverse (depression, then insomnia 🤗) JDKKDKD, and that's incredible that you got a good night's rest after trying that out! I feel you about the grandma thing (because same), back aches, and the likes on my end + other pain, so I can only imagine with fibromyalgia 🥺

What's the truth? Sorry KSKDKDK, I'm having a hard time keeping up because I'm stupid, and my brain is slow today ASHDJFK. But I couldn't have said it better myself, it really is horrible when you can't rest at night because of nightmares and it really is difficult to deal with, especially the detrimental effects on your mental health 🥺💕. Also that they don't typically start for no reason, too. But you're okay, my love! You don't have to apologise. It's just something I'll have to manage 💖 but yes! I am too 💚 and hopefully that's the case for you too — soon enough 🫂 I'm returning the hug and love right back ♡

You're welcome 💚💚 I'm glad you're talking about it! I'm here anytime you need to talk. My DMs are open 🥺🤗 and especially as someone who has gone through a similar thing — I really do understand, and I could easily say the same about you being wonderful and sweet 💕

Also — don't worry about oversharing. You need an outlet on some scale! kskdkdkd

oh look, I suddenly gained back my ability to read 💖 sdhagwgdgs I love you <3

thank you my love, that means a lot to me... ❤️ and honestly all of this taught me that asking for help is important! I didn't have to struggle on my own for so long. no one ever should. 🫂 aw don't worry about that 😭 I'm really tired so my brain is super mushy as well. I meant that what I said about you and this topic is the truth - it takes a lot of strength to get through things like that, and you are very strong. and so kind too, which can be difficult when everything around you sucks, so 😭 that takes strength as well.

I am so sorry though, no one should have to go through such experiences, I wish no one had to 🥹 gimmie all your nightmares, pain and bad moods angels idc I'm used to a lot of things, but not to seeing people suffer, I will never get used to that, I hate it so much 😩 I truly hope your depression got a little better as well, I hope that you appreciate yourself and your strength always and see how much light you bring into the world ❤️

thank you so much sweetheart, mine are always open for you as well, for anything ❤️

I'll try 🥺 sorry to the people who are here for the smut and now have to see me rambling lmao ❤️

[findingnemosworld]

the only thing i want to say about the game is that its almost embarrassing how tottenham celebrated like be for real you needed an own goal to win against 9 people and it was last minute its not like you completely owned them the entire time like ... i get that their happy but whatever

also while i am here just wanna say that i love your writing ❤️

small club mentality, same way atletico celebrated the derby win ( I love azpilicueta but still ) come on now, they didn't do shit yet they're acting like they did something, anyways I still love our boys even if they were all over the place 🥹

awww thank you 😭 its my only way to cope with anxiety and depression so I'm so happy to hear that you love it 🫶🏻

[ffriluftslivv]

hello my love❤️

here for the monthly check-in ehehe

honestly I have not been so good🥲, I am the most anxious I have ever been, insecure as ever and constantly have stomach issues so yeah I'm just grateful school is almost over (isn't that amazing??😩🎉)

sorry that was unexpectedly kinda sad ahahah I'm gonna be okay. You have exams this year right? Of course I don't want to add any more pressure to the one you're already under right now so best of luck with that, you're gonna do amazing!!🪄❣️

what's going on with you?? tell me about the good things that have been filling up your days

have the best days sunshine💗💓💜

-toothless👻

hello darling❣️❣️ im so sorry it took me so long to reply, but here i am🤲🏻

oh im sorry you were going thru that, I hope you're doing better now💖💖

school is actually over now I can't believe it honestly!!! it felt so liberating, I literally hate most of my classmates😁

yeah, the unfortunate part is that I have exams and I'm still not mentally ready to face these upcoming weeks, it feels so surreal that I'll have to study till the end of june😭

thank you so much!! honestly, I'll try my best, but I just want all of this to be over so that I'll finally be fucking freeeeeee😫😫😫

you know, these past few months have been kinda depressing, ngl, but I got lucky on one thing: I've got a boyfriend now🫣🫣. It happened all kinda fast but he's helping me to make these weeks a little bit lighter💖

spero che tu abbia finito la scuola senza preoccupazioni e che ti possa godere l'estate!!!

bacetti🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

[whoreforharleezy03]

Hiiii you don’t have to reply to this if you’re not comfortable but did you delete some of the submissions about our opinions on Neelam? Noticed they weren’t there anymore I hope you’re doing okay and in good spirits ❤️❤️

Heyy🫶🏻

Yes i did remove it. I put a lot of tags under it and since I’m still kind of new on here I didn’t know what would happen and people got really mad at me so I removed them to not cause any trouble.

I am not doing amazing, my mental health has been going downwards so I think I will take a break from here, thanks for the check in though❤️

[sebastiansluts]

Roseee I appreciate that you’ll write my idea but like it’s rlly ok if you don’t cause I don’t want you to burn out (your mental health should and always come first), but also mean dark bucky is everything 😩 he can can punch me, kick me, pull my hair, I am a-ok being stabbed, biting and scratching are on the table, he can use fire. But srsly he can humiliate me and I’ll be saying thank you (the hold this man has on me) also wanna ask do you read monster fics? If you do what’s ur fav monster bucky? I used to love werewolf bucky (still do but not as much)but ever since I read orc bucky that’s all I’ve been thinking cause size kink🙌🏻

P.s just an idea but if you do write bully!bucky can you add like public humiliation like he flips her skirt in front of everypne or pulls on her clothes and randomly slaps her (face and boobs) or gives wedgies etc and a super fluff aftercare cause obsessed and soft dark bucky is also everything 🤧

Another p.s I wish I could just pc you but tumblr won’t let me send messages to anyone and it’s so frustrating and I’m sorry if I send this shit too much and annoys you I just don’t know who else to talk so yea just tell me if I annoys you 😭🫶🏻 anyway as always hope you have a great day

~ one and only beluga

I love you so much, thank you for watching out for me!! I promise I'll keep my mental health first, but I am 100% writing some mean bucky!!! I am already thinking of things to write, because I'm high af rn and my brain is whirring. But yes I do read some monster fics! more a/b/o if any, but i'm having a weird thing lately for vampire!bucky 🥴🧛‍♂️ i'm always here for size kink!!

yes of course I will add that!! I'm thinking it's gonna be a tower fic but like anti-avengers or something idk. like on the boys, everyone thinks they're good but they're actually horrible. but then bucky always makes her feel better in the end because he's gotta make his girl feel good. *edit* OR 1940s bucky!!!!!

also I totally understand that frustration!! That's what happened to me when I was shadowbanned, I couldn't message anyone :/ Don't apologize, I love these messages!! They make me so happy every time I see them, I always try to make sure I can answer them properly! You never annoy me! ❤️

[kpophubb]

Hi precious 💌 gm ☀️

I’m so happy for you <3 congratulations from the bottom of my heart 🙈❤️ such a good news ! Ah:) I hope your dreams won’t stop coming true 🌈 🫧 what are you gonna study ? And where is your dream uni? Is it in 🇰🇷? (Ofc if u wanna talk about )

ah it’s gonna be a long letter ^^ I was thinking on taking some courses or maybe also going to uni, but I want to study law and it’s a very expensive..there’s actually lots of things I’m interested in , but have to save some money on 🙈 and I’m saving some money for my rent Ah , you literally have to be a billionaire 😅😂💸

I’m sorry for such a delayed reply I literally was thinking to reply yesterday but I got sick 🤒 and today it’s even worse 😂🤧 I literally cannot talk and my throat is in pain :/ drinking hot water 🍵 and vitamin c .. hope it helps 🤧 🤞🏻 

The book thing is very interesting .. 📚 I don’t have any friends who would like reading books and I don’t know anyone esp teenagers and personally I also don’t read , but I think it’s really interesting..I remember when I was a kid and a bit younger I was going to the library every single week:) oh now I know why your writing is so amazing ^^ you read a lot 👏🏻

Ah I can’t stop thinking about your exams and uni:) you might be very exited and happy 😃 I wish I could take you out for an 🍦 or smth^^^

As for me I’m mentally better.. weirdly enough 🙈😅 I’m starting new job training this Monday and I’m getting bit tense and nervous since Monday is approaching.. trying not to think about it, but you know I’m in such a place in my life when I don’t have anything going on / not busy I’m getting aphetic and extremely depressed and anxious.. so maybe this is good .. I hope so , busy things even tho I am in smth and busy doing something they distract me so much and in some kind of weird way they give me feeling of being alive .. I don’t have time to enjoy the day but it feels like I’m on a quest you know 😂 like in 💻 games and my goal is do the most in a day ..i don’t know how healthy is it on any levels but 🤷🏻‍♀️

I’m thinking about the song recommendation .. and

I just saw MV today , to be honest I was a little bit sceptical because when I saw this on my new realised list on Spotify I did not actually like it at first but today when I watched I really like her as a singer 😻she’s like so amazing , her voice is literally so amazing and then after I watched it I literally saved it to my current favourites 😹 let me know how do you find it :)

~ 🐁 nonnie

Hi my beloved beloved beloved 🐁 anonie 🥺❤️

first of all come here. Let me give you a tight warm hug for your hard work <3 from your late reply I could understand you were busy or having a rough week so I couldn’t help but wish you were healthy and alright <3 Ah I wish my uni was in 🇰🇷 tho haha😂 but nah, I’ll be studying in Malaysia 🇲🇾🫶🏻 I like the country and visited it twice and since all the living expenses and courses are in my favour, I decided to go to uni there. 💫 I’ll be studying Bachelors of Medicine and surgery! 🤩 as you can tell, I really want to help people around me and care for people hence the medical course is a DREAM for me🥺 I took some time tho, instead of leaving next month (which will be a big rush) I decided to go in next jan. So I can relax, rest, spend time with all my friends who I’ll be apart from :(( and get mental preparation of being independent and away from my family! Law? Wow law seems like a really GREAT but hard occupation bubs I know because my older brother studied law and bar from UWE- London. True that it’s REALLY expensive ;;-;; 😓 aww🥺 yes indeed I am very happy! However, there’s still a big risky step left (results) and a hell lot of preparations so I’ll let you know once I receive the official acceptance letter and visa <3 and about your work! Ah! It’s okay *pats your shoulder* we all feel nervous before doing something new for the first time. I’m sure you will do great! Deep breaths my love ❤️ you got this. Sleep properly and just try not to think too much about it. And ikr?? Staying at home doing nothing, being unproductive makes you sooo bored😫 I literally have nothing to do now so I set up a few goals. I workout 🏋️ (haha which I’m very new to) and do a lot of skincare/body care just to pass time!! Yes keep drinking water, ginger tea and take vitamin C tablets, and I pray you recover faster than you know <3 take life easy. Go at your own pace and do your best and I’m sure great things await you. 💓 as for the song recommendation and mv, I’ll be sure to check it out and leave my comments in our next ask. Mwuah 💖🫶🏻 I never really went to a library THATS SHOCKING RIGHT? Considering how much I love books. Not many libraries around where I live but it’s a bucket list item for me to one day visit a dark academia vintage library! Haha