#MY HEART IS THROWING A FIT OF UWUS AGAIN

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🎶 for all your Raph muses tbe music meme give me all the songs bich you can delete the post but that ain’t gonna stop meeeeeeeeeeed

| Send me "🎶🎶🎶" and I will share with you 1-3 music tracks that I associate my muse(s) with!

*Considering I have playlists for them all I just had to pick three songs XD Keep in mind a lot of these choices are solely based on events in rp on the blog at least stuff that has enough development for me to comment on in terms of songs. Or goes into my protryal of Raphael over all.

We didn't start the fire

Is this love that i'm feeling

Beat It

*When it comes to all my 80's playlists I try so hard to keep the songs in that time frame but I have broken that over time XD but mainly it is still a good 80's mix. Anyway when picking his songs I tried to stick to his time frame. Can't say i'll be as dedicated on the others pft. Anyway time for my pop tart boy.

We didn't start the fire: I picked because it seems like a song reference he would make when it comes to how often him and his brothers wind up roped into situations he doesn't fully believe are their problem to deal with. But end up being their problem anyway. Like don't get him wrong when he feels it is their issue Raph's attitude is different like in the first season when it came to Splinter.

Is this love that im feeling: yes course this gonna be about Casey. Raphael just thought he had no real interest in romance why would he after all? He is a mutant turtle? maybe if there was a female mutant turtle? But even then he had doubts. The only time he kind of liked a girl was when he was hit with a love potion after all. He didn't seem to like girls so he wondered if he liked well men instead? based off his own comments he thought were just jokes. Then in came Casey Jones. Who he fell for pretty quick sure at first he found them nuts but he was attacking his brothers. And it didn't stop him from fighting Casey again later. But didn't keep Raph once they had a more friendship going on to wonder what was there. Turns out it was love its why he changed his tune to like Casey clearly. I also just like it for when he and Casey date. Sure loving someone is enough to date them but dating is how you see if you continue to love them. And that what Raph figured out. Also I like to think this is a song Raph would sign towards Casey uwu

Beat it: I find it funny and clear proof others don't watch the 87's series. Cause they have this weird outlook of Raph not lighting ti fight or being a fighter. And I agree he isn't looking to pick a fight but he is fucking petty and will start a fight. Raph is a very "I didn't start it but i'll finish" it type of fighter in this series. So a good song about throwing down to fight seems fitting for Raph's rude behavior.

*Normally I put 03/07 together but I feel some songs will fit better for some themes in 07 story plots.

1. Hercules

2. Brother

3. I'll be good

+4. Bonus song My best friends Ex

Hercules: Generally I love this song because it really works to dip into Raph's need to protect. It's not just in a physical way either Raph despite calling himself a lone wolf is someone who really just looks out and cares for others. He comes off selfish and uncaring but then you see how he is quick to put others before himself. Down plays anything going on with him but will put more worry into it for others. He loves to have space but is quick to try and reach out to someone else if he feels they need it. His stubborn ass is what makes him so loyal he has so much faith in others. He really will shield others from harm when they can't themself.

Brother: I love this song for TMNT in generally because a brotherhood is just such a strong theming for the series. BUT I'm directing this to his brothers. Raph's heart is one of four, his brothers are his whole world. Anything happens to one of them? and best look out he will die if it meat protecting his brother or getting revenge for them. Raph can seem harsh and distract but in the moments that matter most? he is the one by his brothers sides first. When need be he will step up into leader role so to make sure the rest are safe if Leo isn't around like when Leo left to see the Ancient one and they got attacked by Karai. One thing you don't get between is Raph and his brothers even when Raph distances himself them he knows they have him and he knows they know he has them. Why they count on him and will call out for him when needed especially Donnie.

I'll be good: It's not secret that Raph is his own worst critic. It's why I feel Splinter never got on Raph's case as much as he dose Leo during Leo's emo arc. Splinter will step in if Raph's going to far and offer advice but he knows no amount of scolding is anywhere as bad or deep hitting as what. It's hard for Raph to understand where his anger comes from. He wants to protect his family and it scares him to see how big the world is out there if they stayed in a much smaller area easier to maintain it be easier to protect them. Raphael just feels like he can't do right he fears being the one to hurt his brothers why he has nightmares of him being the shredder. He regrets any fight he has with Leo, the times he went to far with Mikey hell he got regrets with Donnie too. He wants to be good he wants to be more positive like Mikey can be but he just can't he feels something wrong he feels if he could cut into himself deep enough maybe just maybe he can find what it is and take it out.

My best friends ex: I couldn't give up the last three for this song but didn't wanna leave it out XD. Raph and Von's friendship in 03 verse is just so damn good to me I love it I love them being besties so much. It's funny cause I feel you wouldn't see these two being so close. But I think Von just not caring to fall for the image Raph sets up allowed her to get close to Raph. Maybe cause of her background who knows. Just in my mind if Von ever dated anyone outside Donnie they knew/or knew about Raph that friend thats hates them funnier if Raph don't know them he hates them uwu.

Danger to myself

Wannabe

Killing me

Danger to myself: For sure where Raph was at just after Leo had taken off. There was just a lot going on. Raphael hated that they were told they couldn't basically go on with their lives with Leo gone. Raph lost a good source of his distractions because of that and struggled with things going on with himself. Slowly he started to make things worse shut out his family, and pushing away those who he needed most. Donnie someone who always makes him feel a bit more grounded. But Raph lost his footing. Casey someone who always made him feel loved and needed. But Raph didn't love himself or feel he was needed. Night Watcher was so easy for him to hide anyway into. If he was the Night Watcher he didn't need to be anything more.

wannabe: Why this song? how do a spice girl song fit Raph. I feel like each of the adults have had moments where they are watch both Summer and Ariel on their own. Raph's soft for the two on their own as is. When they are together? He might as well be a floor mat for them. Just image them in a classic moment of the girls finding a way to rope Raph into thier antic and feel one is singing along to songs well messing around. Raph can act like he dont wanna be part of thier sleep over antics but I feel Casey walked in and found Raph singing along to the Spice girls with his daughters. XD basically it more a song that just makes me think of Raph in a parental route.

Killing me: May seem a bit misleading on how Im gonna be using this song but this is more meant for when Casey is going though his mid life crisis. You think Summer felt her dad just left? Oh trust Raphael felt the same way. But where Summer can speak on that and express how she feels Raphael will not. No different from how with his own family Raph seeing Casey going through what he was he in part knew that Casey needed to be allowed to. Raph had to go through his own stupid shit for a time. He saw Leo have to as well and even Donnie. But it wasn't easy, Raph had to keep things in home well in order. Had to make sure Summer was taken care of. Seeing Casey not in the right state. In truth I feel Raph reached out to April A LOT during this time. If he could swing it with disguises he of course takes Summer to practice himself. Raph didn't really have a support when he fell apart (he pushed them away that why) so he wanna try and give Casey the room to fall apart too and show Raph is there to help pull him back together like Casey has for him. But even Raph dose feel Casey's absence and it's killing him uwu

Lost

Sharks

Fine

Lost: Some of my favorite scenes dealing with Raph are when they see Splinter get thrown down into the sewers. And in his fit of rage Mikey hugs him to snap him out of it. And again during the space arc when one the angry planet Raph once more snaps and Leo hugs him. What snapped him out of it? Love uwu. Raphael is someone seen as uncaring he is quick to say he don't like ti deal with certain emotions. He is meant to be big bad tough Raphael. Yet, he is full of pain and a feeling of being just lost. Where he should be aware he is loved and needed sometimes he needs that assurance because Raph sees the worst in himself. Raph is hurting deep down and it come out in his anger and he wishes he knew better how to handle it to even understand why it's there so sometimes a bit of affection paid his way helps. Raph isn't bad a kid hes just very unheard. It shows that he can be heard by some and it should make Raph look weak that he dose need that at times. But to him dose. He just lost in the storm always in his mind. Sometimes he just needs to grab on to someone a moment.

Sharks: It's funny how often you can mirror Raph with some of the villains. You got of course his often foil in 2012 Fish face, the more obvious Slash before he was redeemed even being shown like a worse case for what Raph could become. And of course, there is the fact he and Leo are like a new generation of Yoshi and Saki. Often I feel why Splinter is how he can when it comes to Raph's anger and complaints on Raph likes to think he is better because hes good so he should be better he wouldn't sink to their levels. But he has he can even Slash alone showed what would happen if Raph let his anger consume him too much the beast he could become if he didn't have his brothers around? Raph would become so much worse. If he didn't have family he loves and looks out for than what would he have to keep him grounded?

Fine: Raph is the stereotypical character who talks shit about love and romance. Act like he so above his brothers who more open to showing they would like to fall in love. Raph very much that person who just can't understand someone loving him because of his own self hate. And he sort of projects that on the him and his brothers Who would love them. And yet? He wants it he wants to be stupid over someone, he and try and deny how he felt for hockey playing idiots all he wants but he don't want that he wants to also turn and say he's an idiot and he feels those things too. Cause deep down Raph is just a sappy romantic. He wanna just embrace those things too given the chance. So why not go ahead and show he might have intrest in his best friend just a bit uwu

Can't take me down

chills

I like it heavey

Can't take me Down: This is just a feel good song for Raph in general he is very much got this I can't be stopped mind set (boy do I look forward to him getting humbled or shown other wise that he isn't strong enough >:3) This is very much a how I carry myself kind of song. Despite how clearly everyone around him seems to look at him and see him needing some help professional level even or any time someone remarks on him going a bit too far? Raph will either defend it with a look of 'what do you mean?" or blow it off. He goes in loud with out a second thought. You can't take him down and much as they all hoped he thinks that's what will get people to love him uwu

Chills: I just like this for our rasey for mm with your take on MM casey uwu Since we always tend to give Casey the theming of ice. But it also just fits because Raph never been in love before not really something he thought of only to make fun of Leo over. The. Comes Casey someone who gives him litteralt chills uwu

l like it heavey: someone thar is a mutant? Yeah, this start of the song dots alone as is. But Raph himself? Someone who dose have a bit a different taste in well everything from his more violent tendencies to his love for wrestling even to point if hiw he wants to present considering he uses protine powders to help muscle growth. Even his sens of style? Some like it pretty, but Raph likes it heavey. Slightly to play into the sing above this jsut plays into why Raph himself don't think he goes to far or maybe even need help (he dose u_u) he just himself and wants someone who gets that who he is.

1. Hot n' cold

2. Chateu

3. The phoenix

Hot n' Cold: I'm sorry but not sorry hot n' cold os just Raoh generally over all. He can really just shift through his moods swings fast enough to give someone whiplash. Raoh has his moments where he can be sweet and caring and those moments should really speak the loudest to others. But other times? He's a oranry bitch. And he's pretty up front about it.

Chateu: since Raphs known casey the longest in this verse, i feel these two have had a lot of time to be all fuck this place mind set over time. Between Raphs family drama and Casey own. Raph has had Casey in his corner from day one. This is just a very nice song for Casey and Raph in general I feel ;3; they need each other, they make eachnothers hearts bear. Course, there's a reason it took them time to get together, but they been able to give up on some things thiwr hangs up and such cause they got the other ;3;

The phoenix: in truth this song I played on repeat often well playing the game it self xD It just fits!!! Anyway in universe I would say it's because Raphael is pretty goal set in the game. He feel long as they stay together as brothers they will get Splinter back because well he needs to or he will get hopless himself. So he talks uo loving the fights and such and enjoys when they get to certien maps in the game. Honestly the most break in this is when they are looking for Casey he gose from. But he picks himself back up after every loss or miss chance to get thier Dad back. Raphael isn't someone to get knocked down too easily like his fiery rage this turtle will rise back up like. Phoenix

[dreamyggukkie]

*ehem* I LOVE KIM TETE AND HE IS A WHOLE LOAF OF BREAD AND MY PRECIOUS LIL BABIE 🍞💞

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# I REALISED- IVE NEVER- for Yeoshin if you're still taking these? :33333 LOVE YOU

@mythvoiced ♚ from x.

what your muse’s name is in mine’s phone:

내 사랑  (My Love) 

what your muse’s picture is in mine’s phone:

Right now it’s this one: 

But I’m pretty sure he changes it often because he can’t decide which one to choose (he has so many in his gallery) so he ‘rotates’ between pictures #ShinSimp

what your muse’s ringtone is in mine’s phone

Epitone Project’s SPRING DAY, CHERRY BLOSSOMS & YOU (봄날, 벚꽃 그리고 너). 

my muse’s last text to your muse

[✉️ 7:03AM] : I have a busy day today. Would you like to see my ‘To-Do’ List for the morning and afternoon? [✉️ 7:03AM] : IMAGE ATTACHMENT [✉️ 7:03AM] : And this one is my ‘To-Do’ List for the evening [✉️ 7:04AM] : IMAGE ATTACHMENT [✉️ 7:04AM] : 😌

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Stabbing your hearth while I cry // Harry Hook.

Harry Hook x male!reader.

Please reblog uwu.

A/n: while I was doing (y/n)'s outfit I just thought about the winter soldier sorry not sorry, so yeah (y/n)'s D3 outfit is the Winter soldier fit without the glasses and the metal arm ofc.

Angst angst angst, hella long too!, This isn't following the canon obviously, blood, guns, knife, death, um idk this got dark and went crazy and I made it in a night and fix it the next day, smut but no, ummm torture.

Harry felt so depressed after Uma left and you knew that, they are best friends is understandable that he feels that way, but it is not an excuse for his behavior at this point.

"Harry, you've been distant—again" you said, getting closer from behind, he was sitting in the desk that once was Uma's, you put your hands on his shoulders.

"I miss her" He said softly,his eyes looking at nothing, you sighed and snatched away your hands.

"Harold, you don't love me anymore" you said cold, Harry looks at you confused, angry even.

"I do, darlin'" He said.

"No you don't, If you did, you wouldn't—"

"Stop it—"

"You wouldn't talk about her every fucking second!" You shouted, your voice braking and the tears starting to roll down your cheeks, Harry got up clearly angry, so many emotions he didn't thought about what to say.

"She's my everything, she is a goddess, you are just a fucking useless murderer!" He screamed, you flinched and he quickly realized what he said.

Harry tried to get closer to you but you only pulled away.

"I'm sorry, love, please" he kneeled infront of you, you didn't react, you only snatched the necklace he gave you a couple of years ago and throw it on the floor, you turn around and got outside the cabin, Harry got up.

"No, please, ye everything I have!" He shouted and you rolled your eyes.

"I thought Uma was your everything! Go look for her!—I'm pretty sure you would go the bottom of the ocean for her!—Not for me no, you wouldn't leave the fucking cabin for me, you dickhead!" You shouted and left the ship, Harry got inside the cabin and fell on the floor, he began to cry.

You got to your home, got into your room and sat in the desk, you started to make some artifacts for your dad to keep your mind distracted.

"Hi dad" you said forcing a smile, he looked at you up and down.

You heard a knocking and got up you opened the door, it was your father.

He wasn't a villain no, he was just a mercenary, he got payed to kill King Beast, failed and then got tossed into the isle, now he just do any work that would give him some adrenaline.

"your boy toy broke your heart?" He said entering, he took off his bloody mask and tossed his bag inside, he got into the sink and cleaned the blood out of his pocket knifes.

"Y-yes" you said sobbing, he looked at you.

"I told—"

"Dad please, telling me that you were right all the time won't help me" you said putting your hands on your face, your dad got closer.

"I'm sorry, child, I know how you feel right know, what if we throw some knifes? That always cheer you up as a kid" he said patting your side.

"What a weird ass kid" you joked, he chuckled.

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"That's my son!" Your father screamed proudly from the distance, you chuckled and keep throwing your knifes, your dad was being more kind with you witch is weird but you need love right now.

The next day you and your dad were outside on the garden, you were throwing the knife and everytime you hited bulls eye.

Your dad knew that you needed a little kick to unleash your whole potential, to be the assassin you are ment to be, a murderer, a machine, you were to much to be some wannabe pirate's assistant.

"I want to ask you something" your dad got closer, you stoped and looked at him.

"Don't you wanna go out for a day and work with me?" He asks, you freezed.

"Don't worry, we won't kill anyone, just rob some rich folks" he said, you sigh in relief, you thought for a cople of seconds.

"Well that's sound right" you said with a nervous smile.

"Huh" Your dad said looking at you.

The night came quickly than you thought.

Your dad gives you a bag with some knifes, he handles you a mask a little bit like his, it was black it covered your nose and mouth, he give you a black outfit, a long sleeve shirt and some military pants and combat boots, you grabbed a pair of black leather gloves and a harness for your legs, you put some knifes in there.

"I'm a mini you" you said with a little smile, he chuckled and put on his mask, you did the same.

"Are you ready? It might get really freaky" he warned you.

"I was born ready, papa" you said confident, your dad opened the door and off you go.

You finally got outside the people you were going to rob, you got a hook gun and pointed to the ceiling, you climbed and you kinda understood your dad, it was exiting do all this, it made you feel alive.

"there's a door, papa" you whispered, your dad nod and both got closer to the door, he kneeled and unlock the door.

Click

"Uff" you said with a smile, though your dad can't see it, you shaked your nerves away.

"Stay behind me, pumpkin" he whispered you nod and he entered, you got downstairs, he pointed to what it seem to be the owner's room, you grabbed a chair that was near and put it on the handle, your dad and you inspected the home.

You got some jewelry and some old paintings, you left in silence, like you were never there in the first place.

"Wanna do this tomorrow, kid?" He asked you patting your back, you nod exited.

"Great, welcome to the family business, now we have to get all this to my client" he said proudly.

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You didn't have to obey anyone anymore.

It's been a year and you felt great.

Being a pirate felt alright, it was fun, but whatever the fuck you were doing with your dad was way better, you could be in the market robbing some apples and then someone would talk about how the night before they got robbed, you would just smile and enjoy in silence your art.

Now your dad trust you way more, enough to do your own missions and go completely alone, and you thought it would never happen but know you trust your dad, he seem to be the only sane person in that dammed island.

You saw Harry a couple of times in school, he seem miserable, great.

Gil was friendly as always but in all those years of knowing him you knew he wasn't having a good time either, you stoped attending school because Gil would try to talk to you, he was worried but you weren't ready to talk about what you been up to and talk about Harry.

One night you were being chased down an alley, you never shoot or stab unless they did it first, no end, you turned around and they cut you in your arm, you grabbed one of your knifes and start fighting, another man shows up with a gun, he shoot you on the side, you miraculously won the fight and started running to your home, you opened the door and your dad run to help you.

"I need some updates in my suit" you said before passing out.

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Harry and the whole crew were worried about you, you just left that night and never got near the ship again, Gil knew what you were doing lately, he saw you one night with your dad, he knew it was you because your mask got knocked out by someone.

Gil and Harry were robbing from an enemy ship, they got out and started to run, you look at them from the ceiling.

"Ten grand, jewelry and a bag full of fairy dust" That's what Captain Hook said he was going to pay you, he wanted to talk to his son but Harry never goes to his father's ship, you were having a debate while you jumped from home to home, they never really like you anyway, you thought.

It was true, everyone began to be nice to you because you were Harry's weekly toy, you jumped and landed right infront of the two pirates.

"This is enough" He said, Harry freezed, you groaned and rolled your eyes.

"Your dad told me to bring you to his ship" you said pointing to Harry, he immediately grabbed his sword, he didn't recognize your voice because of your mask.

Gil sighed and called your name.

"Why are you doing this?" Gil asked getting closer to you, you could see the worry in his eyes.

She's my everything, she is a goddess, you are just a fucking useless murderer.

You'll show him, you'll show them all.

You shake you head and began to run towards Harry, he was impressed, you weren't a good fighter before, but now you were faster and stronger.

"This is my job, silly" you answered Gil's question, you got apart from Harry.

"Let it go, dude , I don't want to hurt you" the blonde boy said with a worried the, you groaned.

"It's not so different from yours, I'm a thieve too, but I do it better" you said, Harry was already tired at this point, he couldn't believe that was you.

Gil sigh and began to fight with you, he had a similar harness with knifes, he grabbed one and so did you, he was taller and stronger than you but you successfully blocked his attacks.

"I never fail my missions" you said serious, Harry swallowed hard, missions? Like the ones your dad does?.

You can't fail your missions.

Your dad will be mad.

You don't want to disappoint him.

He would punish you if you did.

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Gil sigh and made a cut in your arm , he picks you up and throws you to the floor, he looks at you, your head started to hurt, you groaned.

Harry gets to his side, he's shaking, Gil looks at him and tells him to go away.

One night he finds you.

Three months passed by and Harry was basically trying to get himself killed.

He would stay up late and go out to see if he could find you at your 'work' Harry wanted to apologize, at this point you were gone but he would try to bring you back, he knew about your dad's attitude.

"he probably brainwashed him with all his assassin crap and all tha'" he thought, it reminds him of his own dad, how he would tell him about being a copy of him and that's how he would gain his love and pride.

He called you, you were on a corner eating an apple, you ignored him and he got closer.

"I want to talk to ye" he said, he extended his arms revealing that he didn't have any swords or guns, you sighed.

"Speak then—" you order with a cold tone.

"Please come back" He said with a shaky voice, you look at him, completely unamused at his words.

"I'm sorry, I never wanted to say those things, ye know tha', I'm sorry, I was an idiot" he said getting closer, you automatically pulled out your knife.

"Ye would never hurt me" he said those blue eyes looking straight at you, you started to shake.

"I'm pretty sure he would, right?" Your dad appears from the shadows, you look at him and lifted the knife.

"C'mon, little one, make me proud" he said, Harry grabbed a knife out of his boot and throw it at your dad and ran away.

When you got to your home you help your dad with his injury, you looked at him.

"He's a liar" He said.

"He just wants you to be his little fuck toy and to make you do his piraty dirty ass job" He said raising his voice, you looked down, he is your dad, he would never lie to you, he loves you.

"I don't want you near pirate bay" he smacked your face against the wall.

"Yes, sir" you said.

"Go to your room and rest, you have a target for tomorrow" He said.

"b—but I don't kill" you looked up, meeting his gaze.

"You will know, don't disappoint me more, you've been messing up lately, you should be grateful I didn't fucking punch you, you are a murderer, not just a thieve" He said firmly.

"I have to be emotionless—" you said.

"Exactly—"

You woke up, inmediatly got nervous but block it out, you put on your suit, you've been working in the day sometimes, you wanted to do the job as fast as possible, you grabbed your things, you sigh and put in your mask.

You don't feel the emotion and joy anymore, you just do your missions and that's all, sometimes the praise your father gave you make you feel something, but you don't have to feel.

"Let's go!, We are going to be free" he said, you hesitated, you have to obey your dad, but he wouldn't hurt you if your out of the isle, you weren't sure what was happening but Harry was dragging you and you jumped out of the isle.

Everyone was looking at you, some would recognize you from the thieves, nobody knew your identity and that's good, you were walking to your target's home when you spotted Mal and her gang, right, days ago that purple thing return to the isle to recruit another 4 VK's, you got closer.

Then you saw Harry and Gil, you were sure that they would jump before the barrier closed, but Harry looked at you and mouthed something.

"We're free!" The boys hugged eachother, you just stay apart from them, the four core where looking at you, confused.

"Um hi guys, we are just going for a little visit" Harry said with his crazy tone, but got pushed by Carlos, Jay pushed you and you inmediatly reacted, you grabbed him and threw him on the ground, you were about to grab a knife when the rock Mal had falls into the water, but it's catch by a familiar tentacle.

"Did you drop something?" She said, the boys got closer to see, you stay there, you didn't hate her of course, she is your best friend but you didn't wanted to see her.

"Uma!?" they said.

"That's my name" She smirks and got back into the water, she got on top of the bridge, everyone looks at her, Harry is the one to get closer to her, obviously, you thought, she looks at you, the pirates and the malsie gang were discussing something, you weren't paying attention, you only see how Harry looked at Uma.

Your dad was right.

"This is a job for pirates!" Uma said, you were standing awkwardly there, just seeing how much fun they have just the three of them, Evie looked at you at times, trying to read your mind and know what expression is behind that mask.

You crossed the bridge, finally, you were observing the real world, you were supposed to be happy but you were having a internal breakdown, your dad taught you that any emotion is weakness, other parents say that love is weakness but father knows best.

Uma gets closer to Gil and Harry while you were seeing the unconscious students, why are they like this? You tried to remember what Mal said before or was it Evie?, Harry analyzed you, he felt horrible, he wanted you back, he needs you.

"Who's that?" Uma asked to the boys, Gil looks at Harry, he seems lost in your soulless eyes, observing how you passed the sleep students like dead bodies.

"That's (y/n)" Gil said, Uma gasped.

"What happened to him?" She asks, she felt her heart sink when she sees how you react to Jay just accidentally hitting you while he walked, you pointed your knife at him.

"Um, hey dude I'm sorry" Jay said.

"His dad happ-"

"I fucked up, heavy, i-its me fault" Harry said.

"Now I need a clear version, what did his father do and what does it have to do with you?" She asks.

You are in a house now, you weren't paying attention half of the time, it was like your body moved on it's own, now you are with Uma and Mal and they are eating some cake, Mal passed you a piece with a friendly smile, she apologized to Uma early or that's what your mind remembers, you sigh and take off your mask.

"Oh shit, (y/n)?" Mal asks, apparently nobody knew it was you all this time, Mal looks at you, you have changed a lot.

"Hm" you nod in agreement and eat the cake, Uma and Mal look at you waiting for a reaction, but you just didn't did or say anything, you finished the cake and inmediatly put your mask on.

"You know, we now know it's you, I don't see the point of wearing that" Mal said, you ignored her and look outside, the purple haired girl looks at the captain, she sighs.

Something something Evie's kiss and now you are trapped, but luckily Uma and Mal did their magical thing, King Ben got back and so did Gil and Harry, Uma goes to hug them and Gil hugs you, you didn't know how to react, you haven't had soft touches in a year and a half, you just corresponde the hug.

"See? (y/n) is still himself" Gil said optimistic while patting your back, Uma and Harry gave you a smile.

Blank blank a fight with some knights, Mal lied and the barrier would be closed forever and know you are with Harry and Uma walking, you were carrying your gun just in case something or someone gets in the way.

Uma stops and Harry grabs your arm, you looked at him with deadly eyes.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have left, I did it out of rage" Uma says you could feel the honesty on her words, she feels bad because she not only left Harry, she left you and Gil too, her best friends, you nod and she just assumed that you accept her apology, Uma walks away a little and you and Harry are left alone.

"Hook let go of my arm or you will have no hand" you treated, he sighs and let's you go.

"What did he do to you?" He asks, you didn't look at him at all.

"It's not your fault, I lived with him, it was going to happen one of this days, he fixed me, that's all" you said without hesitation, it seem almost robotic.

"Fixed what? You were perfect already"

"No I wasn't"

"Why do ye think tha'?" He said.

Before you respond Mal is taking to Uma, Harry goes to help her, you decide to go too.

Dragon and flashy lights, while Uma was helping Mal, Harry keep checking on you, he knows you too well, you were panicking apparently Mal won but something went wrong.

While they waited for Hades, a certain pirate drags you out of the room.

"What now?" You asked him clearly frustrated, he puts one arm besides you head.

"Why do ye suddenly think ye need fixin'?" He asks, you finally look at him, his blue eyes fixated in you, your eyes seem tired and sad.

"I was too emotional and weak and and-" you explained, he knew that he wasn't going to believe a single word, you didn't even know what to say, you only repeated what your dad told you.

"You said it yourself, I was a useless murderer, now I'm a murder machine, my dad was right this whole time, I should joined him earlier" you said, Harry froze, you were smart enough to know when his emotions get out of control, it wasn't the first time he did something like that, you always return and forgave him, also, you never liked your dad.

"He's a liar" he said.

"You sound like him" you said a little uncomfortable, like you kinda break out.

"I'm sorry" he softened his voice, he grabbed your hand, you didn't flinch, but you started to shake, your dad would grab your hand and treating of break it.

"Ye need to come to yer senses, (y/n) ye don't like killin' for money or stealin', ye don't even like stealin' an apple!" Harry said frustrated, his hand was touching yours softly.

"I love you, please love, I miss you" He said with tears on his eyes, he cupped your face, you flinched.

"My dad would never lie to me" you said, Harry shake his head.

"He would, he always has! That's why ye were with me on the ship, he took advantage that you were hurt that day to shove his shity believes in you"

"B-but he loves me" you said, with tears in your eyes.

"he made ye steal and was going to make ye kill innocents eventually! That's not love" He said, you shrugged at the memory of the night before, you decided to not keep up with the discussion and you got away from Harry, he sigh, he doesn't give up easily, and when is about you he never will.

Uma decided to go back to the isle, so did Harry.

"I'm going too, I have something to do" you finally spoke, everyone stare at you in shook that you could talk.

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"Where ye goin'?" Harry asks, you looked at him.

"I have to talk with my dad" you said, Harry sigh, he got closer to you, he grabbed you by the waist and give you a kiss on the lips.

"I love ye so much" He said hopeless at this point, he was begging to Calypso that you would come back, he saw that you were having an internal battle on the way back you were probably still there, you looked at him and give him a little smile.

"I love you too, I-I-I will return to the ship, and we have to talk" you said, Harry nod and you started to walk to your home, Harry sighed in relief.

Your mind was a mess, it finally hit you that you've been tortured all this time.

You entered your home but your dad wasn't in, you sigh and tried to calm yourself down, an hour passed by and you heard the door open.

"Where have you been!? I saw your target walking peacefully down the street!" He screams at you from the door

"I go out of the isle" you said, he get closer and slaps you.

"And I help the VK's" another slap.

"You are a killer! Your evil, cruel-"

"No I'm not" you interrupted.

"I know that you would brake, I didn't do enough to make you a cold blooded assassin" he said while grabbing a knife.

"You are useless now" he attack you, you quickly block the attack and grabbed a knife, your fight back, you got the lead when you kicks you in the stomach, he grabs a gun, but you got up and started to run, you heard the gunshot behind you, you hide in the hall, you loaded your gun and you waited for him.

He is getting closer.

Now.

"AH YOU SON OF A FUCK!" Your dad shouts in pain, you pointed the gun against his head.

"You won't cause any trouble now" you said, he laughed at you.

"Kill me now, but better hurry Hook payed me a lot of money for the boy" He said, you freezed and pulled the trigger.

You changed your hole outfit, you are now wearing your old pirate clothes, plus the mask and you added your leg harness, you grabbed your sword and one of your old guns.

You were in the ceiling of a building Infront of the ship, you inspected the deck and almost nobody was there, you heard a scream from below deck, then Captain Hook comes out.

"Stop screaming!" He shouted, you didn't know if you should rescue Harry then kill Hook or first Hook then Harry, you jumped from the roof and got into the ship without the captain noticing, you got below deck to check on Harry, there was no one there either, you found Harry on the floor bleeding.

"No please, no more" he begged, his back was full of cuts and his stomach had a couple too.

"Don't worry, Harry, It's me" you said, he look at you and immediately hug you, he whined at the pain.

"He-Help me, luv" he sob.

"I will Harry, but I need you to be very quiet" you whispered, he nod and you carefully put him down, you stod up and search for bandages and something to clean his wounds, you find a couple of old bandages but it was enough while you got back to the ship, you turned back and kneeled Infront of Harry.

"I-I though I was the one who w-would rescue ye" he said laughing a little but it inmediatly hurt him, you gave him a soft smile and you keep curing his cuts.

"I'm your knight in shining armor" you said, he nod and give you a smirk, you finished with him.

"Now Harry, I need you to stay here while I go on deck" you explained, he whined.

"No, no please don't leave me, please" He began to cry, he grabbed your arm and got closer to your face.

"Shhhh, I will come back, Harry"

"I'm sorry" He said.

"I was an asshole with ye" He cry, you shush him.

"It's alright, Harry" you said whispering.

"Now I have to take care of your dad" you give him a kiss on the lips and got on deck.

"How did you got into my ship?" The captain calls you, you face him.

"I came for my man" you said grabbing you sword.

"tsk, Harry ain't a man" He said.

"This isn't any of your business, you fag, he owns me money, I raised him and his pay is abandone me, he will pay for being such a shitty son" He shouts, you were losing your patience.

"I'm going to kill you" You said, the captain pulls out his sword.

"You are good with your little knife, I've know you long enough to know that you are not pirate material" The captain said, you groaned and began to attack, Harry was trying to get up but everything hurts so much.

"You fucking bitch" Hook groans from the cut you made on his arm.

"I thought you were a gentleman, sir, this isn't a proper way to talk to your opponent" you said confident, the captain pulls all his strength in the next movement, swords clashing together.

"Huh, you are rusty" you said after a year your experience with a sword was still in you, you made a deeper cut on his shoulder, he fell on his knees.

"what if I cut the other hand?" You said, making the captain look at you with the point of your sword.

"Or I could cut all your limbs, or maybe poke your eyes out, what if I feed you to good ol' tick tock?" you said with a laugh passing your sword making a couple of cuts in his body, you heard a clash below deck.

Harry.

You got back to reality and made a cut in the captain's chest, then you rushed below deck.

"Harry?" You called him, he was on the floor again, he was still trying to get up.

"C'mon, let's get to the ship and forget about all this" you said and help him stand up, you pun one of his arms around your shoulders.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You put Harry in bed, now properly cured, you talk with him better about that night, he apologized and you apologized too, you hurt eachother and now you will change and be better.

"(y/n), wake up, love, we are free" Harry shake you, you opened your eyes and suddenly there was more light in the room than ever.

"Wh-what?" You said still sleepy.

"The barrier, it's gone" He said, you opened your eyes in surprise.

"We are finally free, ouch" he said, you looked outside and everything seem brighter, you sat down and tried to swallow that you are free and the events of yesterday, Harry sat at your side, he grabbed your hand and kiss it.

"We have another chance" He said, you looked at him and give him a smile.

"And what do you wanna do first?" You asked him.

"The ship needs a lot of fixing so sailing would be latter" he got closer to you.

"Maybe we should celebrate" he said with a smirk, he was getting so close that you lay in the bed and he was on top you.

"You are injured, you are going to open your stitches if we celebrate" you said, he kissed you on the lips.

"Who said I was going to do the job?" He buried his face in your neck, he kissed you a couple of times, your cheeks started to burn, you pull his hair and he moaned.

"Hmm I need you" he looks at you with lust full eyes.

"I could just lay on bed and be your good boy" he said with a heavy breath, you looked at him.

"Fine, you still need to prove that your mine" you said, he nod exited.

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A/n: buenas tardes My fellow homosexuals, hope you liked this long ass fic, i didn't wanted to make another chapter and another chapter, I know i went crazy with the story but I thought of it and couldn't get it of my mind, I'm too tired I will fix the spelling errors other day.

[2-cute-4-school]

𝘕𝘊𝘛 𝘋𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘭𝘢𝘱 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺'𝘳𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘷𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘰 𝘨𝘢𝘮𝘦𝘴

Mark Lee

so we all know mark is a quite expressive person with his emotions

and come on when playing video games we all rage and throw fits so emotions are running especially high ‎(ﾉಥ益ಥ）ﾉ ┻━┻

what i’m trying to say is that mark is yelling, banging fists against his desk, laughing his ass off and pissing you off

i mean mark’s laugh is very cute and ENTIRE BLESSING TO HEAR but ♡ sleep ♡ is also precious 

but mark can’t hear your exaggerated sighs nor see your ever-lasting pout

so you lift your tired self from the bed and plop down on his lap

mark : “hUH??¿¿ B-BABE?!¿¿” （＊〇□〇）……！

haechan, audible through the headphones: mark, not in front of the boys, you wild beast (๑⁍᷄౪⁍᷅๑)

mark opens his mouth to shout in protest but you bury your head in his shoulder and let out a soft whine and mark.just.COMBUSTS!!!

he grumbles something about how haechan is due for a good beating and nuzzles the side of his face against the top of your head  ♡(.◜ω◝.)♡

whenever he has a break and doesn’t need both hands to play, he brings one arm around you, cuddling you closer to himself and running his hand along the length of your spine

or just LAYS HIS HAND ON YOUR THIGH askfafwsr- ya know (˵ ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡°˵)

doesn’t have the heart to break the atmsophere even after he shuts down his computer and just cocoons you in his warm arms and hums a song softly as you doze off intertwined together UwU

Huang Renjun

you’re just trying to be cute and create a romantic enviroment as you cuddle up to your boyfriend who is immersed in his game

“y/n?” his voice is soft, almost a hush and it could almost lull you to sleep

“yeah?” ෆ╹ .̮ ╹ෆ

“i can’t see because of your head”

FIRST HIT HOME but you didn’t give up of course, just flattened your cheek against his shoulder to accomodate his complaint 

just as you settle downs drowsily, glued to his frint, he covers his mic to grumble to you again  ಠ╭╮ಠ

“it’s getting hot” 

SECOND HIT HOME and you’re starting to get discouraged as you scoot a little further away from his body and loosen the grip of your hands around his neck (๑′°︿°๑)

but of course ever grumpy renjun still had complaints karen who

“my legs are falling asleep” 

*SIGH* “eye roll* *definetely not pouting* you start pulling yourself away from him and trudge defeatedly and bury yourself under a ton of blankets

but he just chickles, has the AUDACITY to chuckle, and brings you back on his lap, squeezing the life out of you  (≧д≦ヾ)

“i was just kidding babe don’t leave me!!” says renjun as he sways you kinda violently may i add from side to side and rubs his cheek against yours cuz he’s a kitty and adorable confirmed  ε=(｡♡ˇд ˇ♡｡）

rough love you have other there as you can see

Lee Jeno

jeno is GENTLE GIANT （ﾉ｡≧◇≦）ﾉ

gentle loving giant in this case actually so even better

so we all know how the dreamies exposed this boy TWICE for playing video games 25/8 and he got scolded by his mum lol so i’m thinking

you’re trying to get him to go to sleep or at least rest his eyes he’s already blind enough i WONDER WHY damn

all this started when you settled in front of his computer to block his view

and as he argued with you he decided enough is enough and pulled you into his lap, traping you against his chest (╬ Ò ‸ Ó)

“jeno it’s 3 am!!” :<

“ just one more round baby” of video games ya nasties...no? only me?ok

he tries to give you a *smooch* but you move your face away and refuse to turn around and let him kiss you

and that’s where jeno draws the line (; ･`д･´)​

kithes are something that can’t berefused between you two, an unspoken rule you apparenly weren’t aware of

so with a ‘eep!!!’ from you, he simly stands up from his seat with you latched onto him like a koala like (＾ω＾ ≡ °д°)

“jeno put me down!!!11!!1! NOW!!” 

“kiss first” (.◜ ᵕ ◝.)  

“are you nuts??!!!?” *exaggerated smooch* “now put me down!!”

needless to say he’s not letting go anytime soon, he just plops into bed and you cuddle until you fall asleep you’ve been scammed

Lee Donghyuck

haechan is a very VERY petty brat person ಠ_ಠ

so guess what... fights with him are a national competition of petty acts

and you know what his ultimate move in your most recent fight is? *drum rolls* turning off the central heating really original hyuck i applaud you

and this kid knows exactly what he’s doing when he sits down in his gaming chair with a shit-eating grin  (ง ͠ ͠° ل͜ °)

he hears you stumble around the house in your dora the explorer exploration in the search of a blanket

but guess what? they’re all under his flat cake  ( ✧≖ ͜ʖ≖)

so when you bardge in the room and find him hogging all the warmth you hope to intimidate him with your  ✨ highly horrific glare ✨

but he pretends to be too busy to notice you so you just defeatedly settle on his lap and under the blankets

“well well well look who’s crawling back with their tail between their legs”

“i might just cut off your front microscopic tail” (눈_눈)

but i just know he’s gonna cuddle you until you sweat your ass off under that mountain of blankets

and even when he can’t hold you, he’ll press his lips against your forehead, lingering there as his warm breath fanned across your skin

he also made a deal with you to which you didn’t necessarily agree with but that’s a minor detail am i rite

if he wins the round he gets a kiss as a reward (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧

if he loses, he gets 2 kisses as a consolation (ฅ⁍̴̀◊⁍̴́)و ̑̑

you’re getting suspicious of his 4 consecutive losses

Na Jaemin

he’s a fluff ball we all know it, we all love it

he’d DIG THAT KIND OF SHIT  ٩̋(ˊ•͈ ꇴ •͈ˋ)و

and he babies you to the end of earth

99.8% chance that he’s gonna stop playing just to cradle you against his chest properly because YOU’RE. HIS. BABY!!! periodt.

cue yelling from his teammates for abadoning them in the middle of the game but that’s inevitable

“na jaemin you SIMP!!!!” 

but jaemin is too busy making puppy eyes at you (●♡∀♡))ヾ☆*。

he’d kiss you everywhere he could reach and then scoop your hands in his and bring them to his lips for another shower of kithes  (*'､^*)chu

and if you kiss him back??  

this man will literally COMUST with uwus istg

like just imagine you brush your lips against his neck and then you gently nuzzle against him??

jaemin would melt in your embrace ♡(｡- ω -)

even if he did eventually go back to playing, he’d press kises anywhere in reach periodically cuz he’s soft like that

would also LOVE feeling your breath fan his neck he gets a unique feeling of comfort knowing that he has you so close to him  (๑˃ᴗ˂)

“even if you were the impostor i’d still vote myself out for you”

the romanticism of this decade 

Zhong Chenle

this boi is ruthless when playing video games

god frobid you’re in his way cuz you’re getting SQUASHED (｢⊙Д⊙)｢

 he obvioulsy LOVES winning

but ya know what he loves more than winning???

𝓨𝓞𝓤  ♡(㋭ ਊ ㋲)♡

so chenle is all (｡+･`ω･´)

“you waste of space move along!!!!”  “shoot that gun straight dammit or i’ll shove it up yo- oh hey baby°˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°“

the moment you plop down on his lap and curl yourself up with your head tucked under his chin, his blazing eyes soften so cutely

and so raging kid chenle turns into best babyboi chenle (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑

he M E L T S like he just leans into your touch and continues gaming  A LOT more silently and just smiles absent-mindedly the entire time

“yo chenle you dead????” most likely jisung on the other side of the headphones

“no?” ｢(ﾟ<ﾟ)ﾞ??

“... guys he’s plotting something, reatreat!! i repeat, RETREAT!!!”

“what?? no, what do you mean by that !??!!!”

you stir as his voice rises in volume and chenle immediately settles down again and shushes you while patting your heah and threading his fingers through your hair carefully (*-ω-)

goes straight for jisung after that teammate or not rip jisung you’ll be missed but also bad choice to annoy a soft-for-only-my-baby chenle

Park Jisung

a bit flustered but just couldn’t refuse you when you cutely asked him with wide puppy eyes if you could sit in his lap to watch him play

probably short circuited for a good 2 minutes before he could produce and intelligible answer (ง ´͈౪`͈)ว

and that’s how you found yourself perched on his lap, facing the screen with curious eyes as jisung struggled as if his LIFE depended on it

“how do you jump?” (,Ծ_Ծ,)

“you can’t jump”

“what do you mean you can’t jump?? gravity doesn’t work like that” Σ(･ิ¬･ิ)

you’re like 2 newborn babies running wild and unsupervised

“jisung, that character looks like you when you’re constipated” (๑꒪▿꒪)*

cue cackling from the devil spawns on the other side

he’s gonna keep in mind this betrayal UNTIL THE END OF TIME beware

if you catch sight of one of his hands not working away i bet my allowance you’ll have this uncontrollable urge to hold it in yours DO IT I NEED MY ALLOWANCE DON’T BE SHY

of course he’ll automatically intertwine your fingers together and bring them up for a chaste kiss  ～(^з^)-♡

and i know for sure that he won’t have the heart to let go of it even when he needs it to play sigh jisung you SIMP

he’s gonna get scolded and teased by the other later but ya know

at least he ain’t no touch starved coward ¯\(°_o)/¯

he gets grounded for that by jaemin

[whorefordazai]

you said there’s so much to say about dazai and his relationship with women...care to share? I’d love to hear your thoughts 👀

dazai and his relationship with women

warnings: mentions of sexual assault and sexualization

// note: a few of you wanted to hear my thoughts on it, which is surprising 😅 but sure! I’d love to talk about it, especially since it’s been on my mind for a while <3

TABLE OF CONTENTS

// scenes in the anime/manga

// port mafia backstory

// sexualization/hyper sexuality

// yozo in no longer human

// conclusion

ps. I’m sorry if this seems messy and all over the place. I have a lot of thoughts on this topic and it’s really interesting to me. If you have anything to say, I’d love to hear it !!

scenes in the anime/manga

In the manga and anime, Dazai is portrayed as a womanizer and big flirt who uses his good looks and charms to manipulate women into getting what he wants. This can be seen in multiple different occasions—such as with Higuchi, the cafe barista (although it doesn’t really work 😅) and most importantly, the nurse.

It wasn’t shown in the anime, but in the manga it’s pretty clear that the author was hinting of some sort of sexual contact between Dazai and the nurse. My guess is that he seduced the nurse into giving him his phone.

“Perhaps if I’m in the mood”—I don’t think he was in the mood again lol.

Now, this is a pretty popular trait of his—using things to his advantage. Especially when it comes to flirting and sexualizing himself. He never attempts to get close with any of these women, or commits to relationships with them. Maybe he feels it wouldn’t be meaningful enough. Dazai doesn’t really do things if he finds no value in them.

port mafia backstory

As we know, Mori used Dazai’s intelligence and talents to get want he wanted and help the mafia in numerous ways. This involved killing, torturing, and other things. Dazai was taught to be strategic, efficient, and use opportunities to his advantage (just like Mori). But I feel like, along the way, there was also some sort of sexualization hidden there.

For example, when Atsushi and Kyouka started her first task at the agency to deliver this envelope, it gets delayed due to security stopping them. Kyouka’s first thought is to use her “womanly charms” and seduce the security guard to distract him and get past. She says that she learned these tactics from the Mafia.

She’s fourteen? Womanly charms?

I’m not saying it’s the most popular tactic in the Mafia besides torture/killing, but the Mafia does use its opportunities. There’s nothing morally right about the place, so I wouldn’t be surprised if Kyouka was taught about such things.

Since Dazai was Mori’s prodigy, I wouldn’t be surprised either if he learned a few tricks from him. However, Dazai does observe his surroundings so maybe he decided to utilize his good looks as advantage all on his own.

Chuuya describes Dazai as an “enemy to all women” and when they first partner up after years of not seeing each other, Chuuya threatens to give Dazai’s address to all the women’s hearts he’s left broken.

This can hint that he’s had multiple relations with women back in his Mafia days—meaning he’s been using these tactics since he was a young teen.

sexualization/hyper sexuality

Sexualization: a person’s value comes only from his or her sexual appeal or behavior, to the exclusion of other characteristics;

Sexualization is linked to sexual objectification. Obviously there are countless other ways to put this and definitions—but I think using the word “object” really fits Dazai. Early sexualization can lead to dehumanizing thoughts, which can be seen in Dazai.

Dehumanizing thoughts can lead to not caring about your well being or using your body however you’d like with barely any concern (either drugs, sex, etc). At one point in being in the Mafia, he lacked so much empathy for others and that definitely tied into having empathy for himself. To be kind to himself.

Him being manipulated into using these advantages is possible. Even though moments like these are played off as jokes, Dazai and Kyouka could’ve been exploited in such ways.

I do wanna mention hyper sexuality (that I saw in the irl Osamu Dazai when I read the book) but I’ll bring that up later.

yozo in no longer human

As I was reading the book, I noticed a lot about Yozo’s character. It is heavily implied that at a young age, he was sexually assaulted by the maids (men and women) in his house (I was unsure about that, but found out it was canon in the manga adaption by Junji Ito)

“Already by that time I had been taught a lamentable thing by the maids and menservants; I was being corrupted. I now think that to perpetrate such a thing on a small child is the ugliest, vilest, cruelest crime a human being can commit.”

“But I endured it. I even felt as if it enabled me to see one more particular aspect of human beings. I smiled in my weakness.”

— page 35

The first time I read it and processed it, I got chills. Now I’m not saying this has anything to do with bsd Dazai, but it does explain a lot of things.

“Women found me in a man who could keep a love secret.”

Due to the sexual abuse in his childhood, Yozo grew up to be a huge “lady’s man.” This caused him to be hyper sexual, practically using his charms to get whatever he wanted from women. He formed many different relationships with them (that he found no value in) just for all of them to never work out. He made the same mistakes with women over and over again (it was pretty painful watching him get hurt and hurt others so much).

It was an endless cycle of seducing women, using them for either drugs or sex, forming some kind of meaningless relationship, getting hurt, and then doing it all over again. He was stuck.

He was afraid of women.

But maybe breaking their hearts has something to do with his past trauma. In some way, it’s taking back the control and innocence he was stripped of from his childhood.

In the manga adaptation, I was able to clearly see how he treated women. Sometimes even throwing himself onto them, randomly initiating sexual contact, etc.

Yozo’s relationship with women is so incredibly sad and heartbreaking.

conclusion

It was said in this post that Dazai would never be faithful or form a real relationship with a woman unless it was someone like Oda. And I agree. Women, to Dazai, aren’t necessarily objects but they really aren’t something he needs or wants in life.

He can be nice to them, make them feel good, form relationships, but at the end of the day it’s like there’s this huge avoid of empty space between him and the “female species.” So much uncertainty and words that will never be spoken because he cannot form a bond with another human being.

All I can say, fictional or not—he was just a child who was stuck in a terrible situation.

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[dreamyggukkie]

AH HE'S SO CUTE ;-;

still can’t stop laughing at the way Tae was showing off the boiled eggs

[hawnks]

Party Attire 

Bakugou Katsuki x Reader

r18 (mdni)

wordcount: 1,600

my drabble for the valentines day exchange uwu. for @some-kindofgnome hope i did your wants justice. smooch. 

warnings: dom/sub undertones, oral s** (giving & receiving), edging, spit, size kink

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He’d warned you about that skirt. 

In the hall outside the bathroom of the four star restaurant his parents invited you to. Crowding you against the posh wallpaper. Fingers digging into the skin just below your hemline. Admittedly, it was pushing the boundary between business chic and let me get railed on my five break and then meet you back here to talk about the budget requests. A cute, pink pleated number you’d thrifted a few months back. The weather had just turned right to wear it with some knee socks. It was fun and flirty, you thought. A little daring, sure, but not enough to draw any attention that was too salacious.

Katsuki had other opinions. 

“We get home, I’m fucking you so hard you won’t be able to form a coherent thought for days.” 

He made good on his word. And after pampering you a little bit (no thinking required with your boyfriend literally carrying you wherever you needed to go), Katsuki passed his final judgement on your dinner attire. 

“No.”

You put on your best pout, waggling the (now very stained) skirt at him. He slapped your hands out of his face, but you didn’t miss the way his eyes followed the swish of the fabric, or how they fell to the marks he left on your thighs. 

“Throw that shit out,” he groused. 

You know he would never actually dare to tell you what you can and can’t wear. You also know he had a soft (and inexplicable) spot for that particular outfit. So you don’t feel bad about tucking it away for a rainy day -- after a very thorough washing, at least. 

Now seems like the perfect occasion to break it out again. 

Your boyfriend hasn’t been home in three days. The two of you keep up a constant back and forth over text, but you could tell the stress is beginning to wear on him, his responses getting pricklier and shorter the longer he’s away.

Finally, you get the message you’ve been waiting for. Home in ten.

Just enough time to get ready. 

You hear Katsuki pull into the garage. He likes his cars fast and loud, which has never bothered you -- but the sound of the motor cutting out has your heart thundering in your chest. You’re seated on the plush couch in the den. You’re not sure if you should arrange yourself pleasingly or just plant yourself. You try several poses before you hear the front door open and shut, and Katsuki appears in the doorway, peering at you through the dimmed lighting as you struggle with one leg on the floor and one off. 

It’s an uncomfortable position, and you can’t extract yourself without doing a bit of an awkward shimmy, which you suspect is endearing but not exactly seductive. Finally you end up with your legs hugged against your chest, your eyes trailing over to your boyfriend as he watches you, not moved from his spot by the entrance.

He’s in civilian clothing, sweats and a dark t-shirt, both perfectly fitted. It’s the first time he’d changed from his hero uniform in days, and the loungewear feels strange on his skin. Unnatural. 

He leaves his coat on the floor in a heap, forgotten as he finally starts stalking toward you. His expression is bland, impassive -- but you catch a glimpse of interest in his eyes before your gaze darts, landing on his thighs. They’re massive, just like the rest of him. Sometimes you catch yourself watching him on slow days, as he leans over the stove, or grabs something from the top shelf from you, just marveling at the sheer size, the strength of him. It’s like he was designed with you in mind. Like he was made to make you feel small. 

You can feel the divine heat of him as he stops before you, knuckles brushing your chin up until you meet his gaze. “Cute.”

You lean into his touch, and he cups your cheek, thumb petting the soft skin. “Missed you,” you say.

“Oh, yeah?” He stares at you for a second, the arches and slopes of your face. His thumb continues stoking, moving ever so slightly until he’s rubbing your bottom lip, dragging it down until he can see the dark color of the delicate inner skin. His forefinger creeps in, prodding against the soft point of your canine before finding your tongue. He presses down, a gentle pressure, but one that won’t let you ignore it. “Prove it.”

Your tongue presses back against his finger, licking around it, sucking. You do all of this without modesty, groaning when he presses back, gagging when his finger sinks deeper, edging toward your throat. 

Katuski has big hands. You know that -- how could you ever forget that every part of him is a mountain -- but it’s moments like these that remind you just how big. How much bigger than you. How well he can fill you, in any way he chooses.

Your teeth are held open against his knuckle, and strings of drool begin to trail down your cheeks, land on your chest. Katsuki takes all of this, you, in with red eyes hooded, his other hand clenched at his side until he can’t hold himself back any longer.

With one arm he picks you up by the waist and repositions you, laying on your back beneath him as he straddles your midriff. He wipes the spit from his index finger off on your cheek, peering down at you as you let out another low whine.

“Impatient, huh?” he murmurs. At your eager nod, he grins, all teeth. “Guess I gotta show you who’s in charge here.” 

One hand on the arm of the couch, the other cradling your chin, he crawls up your body until his hips are hovering over your face. 

He lets go of you for just long enough to rip down his sweats, cock hard enough to tap his stomach, just from playing with your tongue, then his fingers are back on you, teasing open your mouth. He grits his teeth as you so willingly let him tap himself against your tongue, a dab of precum already budding at the tip. 

You’re caged in by him from all directions, his thick thighs framing your temples, his hand stroking his cock in slow jerks just above your face. You should feel smothered—instead you feel intoxicated, drowned in his and his domination, and your lips continue to part further and further as he teases you, until you’re gaping and he’s grinning down at you. 

“That’s it baby,” he hisses, nudging his cock in (finally in) to the warm cavern of your mouth. 

He’s too big for you to take all of him like this, laying down, his legs splayed over you, but he continues to prod at the back of your tongue, his hips rolling in a firm, shallow rhythm. He edges himself in your mouth, pulling out and letting his cock smack gently against your cheek, smearing precum and your own spit across your skin. 

“Yeah,” he says, voice worn thin, self control fraying. “So goddamn cute.”

Twice more pulls out just before cumming, smearing your face with your combined slick, groaning as his hips jerk against your jaw. 

With a hiss he crawls off you, goes to his knees on the floor. In less than a second he’s manhandled you into the position he wants, hips hung off the couch, your whole body supported by his strong arms. With a wicked growl he flicks your skirt up, then he lowers his face. 

Nothing Katsuki does could ever be considered sloppy. He’s perfect, sometimes maddeningly so. When he’s between your thighs he does things with a brutal finesse, one that you appreciate to the fullest extent. But what’s happening right now can only be described as messy. 

He still knows how to treat you right, the exact pressure to make you buck, the spot inside to stroke with his index and middle finger while his other hand squeezes the meat of your thigh just this side of painful. But all of that is interspersed with split seconds of ravenous mindlessness. There are moments you don’t know what’s happening because it’s all so much, before he pulls you back in with a perfectly timed tweak of your clit, a particularly firm thrust. 

And when he pulls back, just before you reach your peak, once, twice, three times, his praise is gravely and soft, his eyes have that mean glint that you hate love. 

“Too soon, princess?” he says. 

Or, “I told you to be fucking patient.” 

Or, “Look at you, so fucking fucked. Just let me take care of things baby, I got you. Fuck that look on your face. So good for me—“

And when he finally (finally) let’s you cum on his tongue, he’s quick to follow after. You didn’t even know he’d been jerking off while he was eating you out, but you watch him rise up onto his feet, keeled over as he spends right on your pretty pink skirt. 

He takes a moment to just look at it, you, all fucked out, a loopy smile on your face. He doesn’t think about what does it for him, how he likes how delicate you are compared to him, or how sometimes he just wants to fuck you up a little, how the urge lives closer to the surface when he’s stressed. Like today. 

He runs an index finger through the cooling puddle caught in a pleat of your skirt, brings his wet finger up to paint your swollen bottom lip. 

He says, “Was thinking about Italian for dinner tonight.” 

[i-need-air]

Hey it's me again ❤️

I'm just gonna whisper something in your mind (is that even possible?)

Having a baby with Hybrid Katsuki.

Just that. Imagine girl. Perfection.

Ok, real talk here. Every time I see a request from you I uwu a little bit bc I know for a fact whatever you're requesting will make me get so immersed and involved and I'm gonna 💕💞AAAAAA💕💞 while writing AND [lemmecatchmybreath] it happened once again skdjdkfkf Hope you enjoy and sorry it took longer than normal~

Word count: 1.8k

× listen 🥺 I already started and I'm melting, ok?

× when he finds out you're having a smol baby together?

× he freezes and looks at you in a whole different light

× if you're getting pregnant, he will definitely smell the change in your scent and will know even before you do; he'd be instantly by your side with a bewitched expression on his face, taking your cheeks into his palms to just soak everything in yet he's shaking slightly

× and even if you adopt [hopefully a smol hybrid], something deep inside of Katsuki, burried and long forgotten surfaces

× this is the life he always wanted, he always craved even in his darker moments

× this happiness, this fulfillment, this joy

× I absolutely believe he will diligently read and learn everything about the baby to come; will educate himself like no other, deciding to be the very best father he could ever be

× his life was rough and he was stolen away from his biological family, he will now have a chance to have his own and he will not fail you or the baby

× when you hold the little bundle of sunshine in your hands, head down admiring the beauty of a new life, he will stand there, again in shock, again soaking this moment in... so beautiful, so perfect

× will he ever tell you that? of course not; angry ass wild pomeranian—

× but his face gives him away every single time and when you tilt yourself to hand him his new son or daughter, he falls in love for the second time in his life;

× he burries his nose in the soft and fragile skin of the baby's head and breathes in, his instinct kicking in to defend, protect, care, look out for...

× watch carefully because once the baby makes a noise, he'll still, unsure of what to do, but smile so softly as the baby coos in his arms securely; that right there is the best image you can have of soft Katsuki.

× the first few weeks are actually horrible, sorry to break it to everyone aksjskdj not because he doesn't know what to do or does not want to help; on the contrary, he is so incredibly attentive but he also recites the books he learned by memory at this point and it's getting absolutely infuriating;

× although understand him, please; he wants to prove he's a good dad 🥺 except you wanna smack him bc he scoffs if you suggest something he isn't sure about.

× you will find him standing by the baby's crib as it sleeps; he's just???? making sure this is not a dream????? don't question anything though

× can we hc Bakugou with a daughter too? [ already established in the Hybrid!Kiri hcs that Kiri'd have daughter bUT i just really really like beefy men with tiny daughters;;; my heartttt;;; ]

× his little angel, no discussion, no argument, his daughter can do NO WRONG!

× he's very down to earth though, don't get me wrong, he just absolutely adores spoiling her

× speaks softly into her ear, the lowest you'd hear from him

× gruff, raspy, gutural voice ofter overused to scream now low and soft as he holds her into his chest; doesn't do baby-voices or anything like that, but calls her his angel then smirks at you if you're watching;;; then starts softly complaining and bitching about you to the baby 💀 all while rubbing her back

× omfg his hand is as big as her tiny back; guys, call an ambulance, I'm—

× Katsuki would be the type of little shit to pull what I just said then grab you and glue you to his chest too; he'd look down at you both, eyes shining in such adoration he'd take your breath away just before he continues his ranting about you;

× once the baby starts being more interactive, her giggles specially the ones induced by her daddy will make him melt; absolute diminute baby with a small wiggling tail clapping her chubby hands at her dad? his eyes would widen suddently, ears snapping high in surprise and he's taken back by the emotions overtaking him

× he's gone, man; she has him wrapped around her tiny little finger and you can't do anything about it

× instantly acts all in denial if someone is around though; scoffs to hide is obvious smile, placing a palm on his mouth to further block it out and tickles her with the other, earning another fit of giggles

× please, don't tell him his whole tail is waving from side to side

× the only clear giveaway apart from his ears and it's;;; a d o r a b l e;;;

× specially when your daughter also starts wagging her tail in response whenever he does it;

× "Hey, come see what the dumbass is doing!" or "Look at what she did" while showing you a video; proud pappa 🥺

× we're bringing back Proud Bakugou bc hIS DAUGHTER iS tHe BeSt; no, seriously, his kid is the mf best in the world and he will start this presentation with—

× now sit down with me and accept this: the baby; yes, your sweet daughter; mhm, that adorable screeching angel; mhm;;; she'll talk so early it's disturbing.

× at 6 months or so she's already saying mamma, dadda, kitty, woof-woof

× seriously terrifying how sharp she is and how she cannot shut up; for the love of gOd, Katsuki, this is all your fault... it doesn't matter, he just smirks as he has another reason to brag to anyone about his child

× did that street vendor look at him funny? "I'M GONNA FUCKING TELL YOU ABOUT MY DAUGHTER—"

× super-protective of her and fucking hates with a burning passion if anyone dares to do that thing where they match up babies saying "Maybe they'll get married when they grow up"

× hands down, no filter, he just looks deep down in whoever had the audacity and says "Like fucking shit they'd deserve her."

× drag him away before he throws fists

× he will definitely if you don't drag him away and you know it, they know it, the baby knows it and cheers for pappa, the whole world knows it at this point and they're buying tickets to watch the shitshow

× chest carrier and walks around with the kid like a boss

× man has shit to do, don't even dare to judge him;

× handles fits really well, he's impressive to say at least

× she's spoiled, yes and always has new toys, coloring books, whatever she wants but the moment she throws fits, he puts his foot down

× baby would be smol angery bb all adorable in all her Bakugou genetics anger and he'd just stare, tapping his foot

× literally waits in place until she calms and looks up at him with big, round eyes, puffy red cheeks and ears lowered

× mission accomplished; he nods then picks her up;

× and you're there amazed??????

× "The fuck you lookin' at?" lil shit still has a foul mouth tho, but make him get just as pouty and embarrassed as the child in his arms by saying something cheesy like "How amazing you are as a dad 💕"

× all rainbows and unicorns until she starts repeating insults and fr tho, Katsu almost shits his pants, fearing your reaction. Will, hands down, chill out with the insults even if he meant no damage with them; he has this unreadable expression on, a mix of shame and fluster, dread too? he's sorry, ok????

× loves, loves, loves cooking for you both and once the kiddo has her own special chair to sit at the dining table together, that's when he sees it: his dream

× you, wiping some food off her cheek with a loving expression, talking about your day casually, baby giggling while she moves her face away playfully; he loves you both so much.

× has these rare moments where, at the end of the day once you're settled in bed, he'd hug you tight and thank you in his mind for... for this... all of it...

× once she starts walking they're both a disaster

× seriously, do not expect the household to be silent ever again [ well, that dream was gone long ago anyway lol ]

× "Where the fuck do you think you're goin'?"

× rapid giggle running around from place to place

× "Oh, for fucks—"

× "Katsuki." you only need to say, catching him in his insults

× 😳 ... "Kid, come back, we're goin' to the park." Skdjkdfkl

× sudden adorable tiny fast steps approach him bc they're going for walkies!

× he is very careful with her and teaches her about stranger danger; also teaches her how to growl and even if her attempt is a total failure, small rawr leaving her lips, he's like "Yes. Good job. Now give it more heart."

× he growls as an example

× she growls back, sounding like a cute lil pup 🥺💕

× as she grows up, she obviously acts more like her father yet he knows when to stop the bad behaviors and it only takes a warning growl from him to get her to cease

× yet somehow you're the strict parent at the end of the day??????? tf????????? who made the rules??????

× starts calling her brat, squirt, lil shit 💕lovingly💕

× "your child" if she did something bad

× "Your fucking child kicked the ball into the vase and broke it." Aha, nice one, Katsuki. Good job.

× not to brag but her puppy eyes don't work on him but yours do; the problem is her puppy eyes do work on you bc she's the light of your life so if she wants something; she'll puppy-eye you knowing you'll get it for her bc daddy loves you very much 💕💞

× literally evil mastermind; didn't I tell you she's sharp? pft, she's playing you both so hard

× every day he comes back from work she runs to him at the door, tail wiggling happily behind her as she stretches her arms to be picked up and he always does, without a doubt, then proceeds to kiss the top of her head

× come out to greet him too? the whole loving routine is his absolute thing and wants to see you, have you kiss his cheek; he complains but adores it soooooo much!

× you have a family night; BONDING WITH MOODY POMERANIANS. Yes, plural, and it sounds perfect~

× even if it's just one of those animated movies he hates so much, he'll watch through all of it and make sarcastic comments just to make you both laugh; will grin satisfied asf if he manages to do so bc he's the best.

× will definitely want another kid, so how about maybe a boy??? hmm???

× asks you if you're up for the idea and if you agree, he'll roll his eyes and crack his shoulders, acting so very uninterested and purely exhausted yet his smirk would give him away:

× "Knew you'd torture me with another devil"

× throw him out, istg— 💀

[just-a-creep-babe]

I am craving soft Candy Pop.

Maybe him baking care of his S/O that's sick. (Though he's bad at it and asks the other Creeps how to help) 👀👀

Thanks for requesting, hope you enjoy uwu

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You grip the sheets tighter between ice-cold fingertips and close your eyes

Everything hurts

You’re miserable

You’re just on the brink of feeling sorry for yourself when a sharply clawed finger pokes at your cheek

You groan

“(Y/n)?”

His voice is uncertain, questioning—something rare for the blue-haired demon

“Mmh...” you sigh in response

A frown flashes over his usually brightly animated features

“Are you... dying?” he hesitates

“...”

You push your face into the pillow, trying to muffle the sound you make because you feel bad for laughing at him

But he still hears your weak giggles despite your best efforts to cover it, and it has him making that annoyed sound he makes whenever he’s, well, annoyed

“I-I’m sorry, Pop, I don’t mean to laugh at you,” you apologize, still chuckling. “I’m just a bit sick, that’s all. I’m not dying. I’ll probably get better in a few days, really”

He tilts his head, the bells at the ends of his hair jingling slightly

“Sick? Have you been cursed? Poisoned? Did someone do this to you?”

Magenta eyes widen in worry

You don’t bother hiding you chuckle this time—except it’s cut short by a cough raking it’s way through your chest

“No, s’nothing like that,” you eventually answer after your coughing fit. “It’s a human thing, it happens”

You don’t quite have the energy to explain basic human biology to him, so you hope that your brief simplification is enough to satiate his curiosity

But judging by the look on his face, it, unfortunately, doesn’t seem to be enough

His frown deepens

“So you’re just stuck like this?”

“Mhm”

“And it’ll just go away on its own in a few days?”

“Mhm”

“But you’re not going to die?”

“Nope”

He pauses for a moment, thinking

You appreciate how pretty he looks when he’s lost in thought out of concern for your well-being

“…Is there anything I can do to make it better?”

The question admittedly catches you off guard

As sweet of a lover as Candy Pop is (no pun intended), he isn’t always the best with being attentive to your needs

To put it bluntly, he could act like a spoiled brat at times

You still love him despite that, of course, but it’s rare that his attention is so adamantly focused on you instead of himself

“Mmh...” you hum, considering his offer. “I dunno. I’m tired, but I can’t fall asleep. My head hurts and I feel a little nauseous, but I’m not sure there’s anything you can do about any of that...”

Though you didn’t know whether or not it was possible, his frown deepens even further

“What do humans usually do when you get sick? Surely, you have some kind of remedies available”

He prods at your cheek again, as if his knife-like fingertips could poke some health and vitality back into you

“Uhm... we have soup”

He pauses

“...Soup?”

A smile quirks at your lips

“Mhm, soup”

You have to stifle your weak laughter again at the sight of the puzzled look on his face

“Well... if that’s what you need, then I’ll go bring some. You better not move until I get back, my sweet~”

You shake your head, nuzzling deeper into your sheets, trying to find some semblance of warmth and comfort in your sickly state

“Don’t worry, I won’t, Pop. I’ll be right here when you get back,” you promise

You watch him head out the room, listening to the jingling of his bells get fainter and fainter as he leaves

You wait a few minutes, then a few more minutes, and a few minutes more

What feels like at least a good half hour passes, and your clown lover still shows no sign of returning

You wonder if he really decided to make a soup from scratch instead of just heating up one of the pre-made cans you no doubt have in the pantry

The thought of him trying to cook for you is simultaneously very amusing and very worrisome

Still, he told you not to move, and it’s not like you have the energy to do so anyways, so you stay nice and snug in bed

Your eyelids eventually grow heavy and you begin teetering along the edge of unconsciousness

Right as you’re on the cusp of falling asleep, welcoming a sweet respite from your cold, you hear the jingling of bells as he returns

“Soup!”

You’re jolted awake from your half-asleep state, and as soon as you look up, a warm bowl of... something is thrusted into your lap

“Oh”

Looking down at the contents in the bowl, you suddenly decide that maybe soup was, after all, a bad thing to put him in charge of

“Pop, I, ah...” you hesitantly trail off

You glance up at his hopeful grin, then back down at the questionable... food? he placed onto your lap

“I’m uh… I’m not entirely certain this... soup is edible. For humans, I mean”

He blinks

“Why not? It has all the essentials—syrup, milk, coco powder, sugar and a hint of nutmeg for that spicy flavor”

You stomach flips

So that’s what those brown clumps are

“Uhm... soup isn’t... it’s not supposed to be sweet, usually. And those ingredients combined definitely don’t make a meal. I was thinking something more along the lines of vegetables and a good broth, and maybe some kind of meat like chicken or something, you know?”

He blinks again

You move the bowl to your nightstand

And just as you’re about to open your mouth to speak, another cough grates up your throat

You feel dizzy and nauseous, and the pain has you forgetting what you wanted to say

So instead, you let yourself sink back into your sheets, groaning through the soreness rolling through your stiff muscles

“(Y/n)?”

Concern laces his features as he mutters your name

He seems to want to reach out to touch you, but at the same time, he looks too scared of hurting you to go through with it

You offer a small smile through your discomfort

“M’fine. Don’t worry, it’s ok”

He nervously chews on his bottom lip

You don’t know if you’ve ever seen him so openly afraid like this

His concern warms your heart

“Ok, ok. Stay here, I promise I’ll be back and I’ll make things better”

He’s spinning on his heels and heading back out your bedroom door before you can muster the strength to call out to him

It isn’t long for him to return the second time around

After only a few minutes, he returns with another bowl in his hands, a large grin on his face, and E.J. trailing in behind him

You breathe a sigh of relief when Candy Pop places the bowl on your lap and the contents inside look edible

Hell, it even smells good

“We had some leftovers, so I helped him reheat them,” Jack explains. “How long have you been sick?”

You shrug, picking up the spoon and tasting the broth

It’s delicious, and your appetite immediately roars to life in response

“A day or two maybe?” you answer after swallowing, “I think it’s just a cold”

“Just a cold?” Candy Pop interjects. “They haven’t even been able to get out of bed. This is much more serious than they’re letting on!”

Jack ignores his worried outburst, and address you again

“Have you been throwing up? Feeling feverish? Any heart palpitations?”

“I might’ve been a bit feverish earlier, but not much. That’s about it”

He nods, then turns to finally speak to Pop

“If you get worried for them, you can come get me. But if they tell you they’re fine, there’s probably no need to worry”

He gives him a reassuring pat on the shoulder as he turns to take his leave

“If you want to be helpful, you can cuddle up with them. It’s not like you can get sick too, so you’ll be fine. And I’m sure they’d appreciate it”

“Thanks, Jack,” you call out to him as he leaves

He waves his hand in a “don’t mention it” motion, and you’re left alone with your boyfriend in your room

Candy Pop looks down at you, still frowning

You scoot over to one side of the bed, patting at the empty space next to you

He gets in, wrapping his arms around your form as you curl up on his chest, welcoming his solid warmth

A quiet moment passes before he tentatively breaks the silence

“...You promise you won’t die?”

You chuckle

“Yeah, Pop, I promise”

[wildsunscorpion]

How Bum Geon Woo communicates through his body language (Plus how he's actually giving the special treatment Eui Joon's been yearning for)

I reread DCS for, like, the tenth time now. Yes, I'm obsessed ohmygod! I'm liking how these two characters are written so far. I originally wanted to break down just Chapters 20-24 of DCS because the first time I read it I got just a little annoyed with how Geon Woo (a.k.a. Ahjussi) was, let's say, just kind of pushing Euijoon's limits. But I ended up doing more than just Chapters 20-24. Dios mio.

I was just a little tired of seeing the same trend with guys in manhwa. They always seem to be domineering, especially if their partner is the "sweet and naive" archetype. (Eui Joon, I think, does not really fit into this mold.) Of course, that's usually because they're dealing with their own issues, and I don't really blame them.

But I like DCS because it justified that kind of behavior in Geon Woo when he was having sex with Eui Joon (in Chapters 20-24, particularly). Lol I'm probably the only one who realized this later than I should have ehehe. I'm still posting this tho.

WARNING: SPOILERS AHEAD‼️‼️

His antics speak volumes. It's amazing how I missed all those details just because the sex scenes were. Steamy. As. Fuck. Good lordy! Geon Woo is definitely a man of few words (He once said Eui Joon makes him talk like he would for a whole year, haha!), so it would make sense to communicate whatever's going through his mind in a situation through body language.

I also want to add the times that he makes the effort to hold a conversation with Eui Joon. Geon Woo doesn't really talk when he doesn't need to, so it's important to pay attention to his actions.

☙ ☙ ☙ ☙ ☙

Chapters 0-12

The first time we get a glimpse of Geon Woo's side of the story was when Eui Joon finally confesses to the person who's been his crush for 3 effing years, Hyeon Woo. Eui Joon is inexplicably happy when Hyeon Woo says he'll consider and comes to the convenience store in good spirits. Geon Woo, keen as always, notices, and when Eui Joon tells him what happened this is what we get:

It's the way it was framed. How we see his reaction from behind rather than from the front. He turns away, seeming to go inward and brood once again.

Afterwards, another gangster comes. The guy challenges Geon Woo for taking too long at the front of the line. Geon Woo asks Eui Joon if he smokes, and when he replies that he doesn't, Geon Woo "borrows" the lighter on the countertop and uses that to throw a stronger punch to the man behind him, who temporarily falls unconscious. Geon Woo turns back to Eui Joon, seeming to have something else to say. But he sees the frightened look on Eui Joon's face and decides to keep it to himself before leaving through the door.

"And..." He pauses, turning to Eui Joon. "... Never mind. Good work."

JUST WHAT WAS HE ABOUT TO SAY?!?!?!

In the succeeding panel, Eui Joon is nonplussed. He wonders out loud, "What is happening?" Couldn't have said it better, girl. Geon Woo was just taking out his frustration and he had the perfect opportunity at the moment.

The second time was when Geon Woo invites Eui Joon to drink after the incident with Hyeon Woo (who basically asks Eui Joon to cheat with him and inebriates him—probably with the intention to take advantage of him). From the side stories, we learn that Geon Woo has taken an interest in Eui Joon after seeing him for the second time, and when he comes by through the hallway—finally discovering they were neighbors—and witnesses the two, he sees it as a chance with Eui Joon.

He invites Eui Joon out to drink, after Eui Joon's suggestion for a dinner at 2 in the morning fails to entice him. Eui Joon rambles his questions away, wanting to get to know him better, but Geon Woo doesn't immediately answer and catches him off guard when he "casually" inquires after his sexuality. Not the smoothest move there, lol, but in the side stories we see that wasn't really his intention.

"Damn it, why did I ask that question? It just slipped out..."

He answers Eui Joon's questions afterwards, surprising Eui Joon with the fact that he's actually been listening to what he's been saying for the past minute. We're starting to see just what kind of a person he is (Listening skills are always a plus in my book).

A little later, we see them on their way back to the apartment. Eui Joon asks Geon Woo to tell him anything interesting because he's been the one talking all night. Geon Woo acquiesces, asking a question that may have been part in consideration of Eui Joon's vulnerable state, and perhaps also part due to the possibility that he worried about him.

"Come to think of it... School has already started. Isn't it tiring to work 'til dawn? Aren't you working too much?"

Geon Woo's face is a little hard to read. So every subtle change in his expression says something. If you read the manhwa, you'll see the slightest bit of concern in his eyes. It's hard to catch until you've read the side stories (at least for me, haha).

One more thing I like about Geon Woo is that he doesn't meddle when it's not his business. He knows the state of Eui Joon's family—their inability to afford his college tuition, his hospitalized brother—and he knows he can help. I mean, I don't know how wealthy and powerful he is as a gangster but he probably has the means to. But he rarely opens the topic to Eui Joon.

Aaaand onto Chapter 8! Just before the first sex scene in the entire series. Eui Joon is crying because he had a shitty day both at school and at work, poor thing—all because of Hyeon Woo. He cries even more when he notices that Geon Woo, who came to the store every day, didn't come to the store that day. When he encounters him outside, he breaks down, catching Geon Woo off guard.

Geon Woo tells his lackey to leave and asks Eui Joon to stay. Eui Joon tells him he was fine and proceeds to go back to his room, but Geon Woo frightens him when he says he was already being nice. And then we get this:

"Ah, I don't mean it that way... Just a while."

That gentle tug is honestly so uncharacteristic of the usual ruffian behavior we often see from Geon Woo. It's a nice sweet detail that proves what he says in Chapter 26 (when he finally confesses) that he treats Eui Joon differently from others.

Eui Joon cries his heart out to Geon Woo, and Geon Woo just lets him. Afterwards, Eui Joon resolves to forget about Hyeon Woo. By finding someone, hmm, more physically endowed.

"I must find someone more good-looking than him. With a nicer body... And a bigger dick!"

Clueless guy basically described the man beside him.

To that, Geon Woo says:

"How long have you known me? You really dare to say anything like that in front of me?"

Which comes off as slightly hostile at first. The next panel shows a dark aura surrounding Geon Woo, which Eui Joon interprets as distress from his implications of doing it with him—whose sexual preference so far remains ambiguous (In the side stories, we learn that Geon Woo himself struggles with figuring this out.). But then, he surprises Eui Joon when he slowly leans in to kiss him.

CUE SEX SCENE! I pitied Eui Joon a little because he wasn't really in the best state when Geon Woo offered this. In Geon Woo's defense, though, from the moment he found out that Eui Joon was gay he saw doors opening. When Eui Joon said something like that, I think his attraction to Eui Joon finally caught up to him and he couldn't resist the opportunity. He definitely wasn’t distressed by the implication of Eui Joon’s words; he was distressed by the decision he had to make—to go through that door or not. Because he knew he wanted it, even though he was constantly denying it from the start.

“This dirty thought wasn’t something that I have planned from the beginning.”

The day after, Eui Joon is a little rattled. He doesn’t know how to treat Geon Woo after that—not when he realized that sex could be that hot and satisfying (uwu). Geon Woo appears to be unaffected while Eui Jon’s brain is in knots about everything. But the questions Geon Woo asks tell us that he’s beginning to show Eui Joon a little emotion. He asks to see Eui Joon’s face to inspect the healing bruise he got yesterday (the one that Geon Woo covered with a bandaid—which was so sweet, huhu). And then, he asks if he was tired after school.

“Let me see your face.”

“School classes. Are you tired after taking them?”

From my perspective, he wasn’t just asking for the sake of being nice to the person he slept with. The story still hasn’t covered much of Geon Woo’s history to know whether he had been like this with his previous partners. Although there was a moment in Chapter 27 during one of their conversations when he gave us a little glimpse:

Geon Woo: It's normal to cry over pathetic things at your age. Eui Joon: Have you cried like that before too? Geon Woo: No. Eui Joon: Then how do you know that? Geon Woo: I just... know. Because there was a guy like that around.

From the time Geon Woo invited him out to drink, I think Geon Woo was genuinely concerned when he asked how Eui Joon was doing.

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Chapters 13-26

Geon Woo's love language, I think, is his actions. He fights off the gangsters that bully Eui Joon into giving them discounts or even paying for them from his own pockets so they won't have to. He gives Eui Joon food and medicine when he finds out he was sick (the morning after having sex with him in the car for hours, lol). He likes taking care of the person he likes. So in Chapter 26, when he "confesses" to Eui Joon, that was Geon Woo pointing out that he's been doing the same thing all along.

"I mean, look at me just once... What kind of person I am. How I treat you. Take a good look at it. If you think that I'm good, then pick me. If not, you can throw me aside." "But. Before you do, you should understand this. Until then, I don't intend to let you get away."

This "non-confession" (he actually tells Eui Joon it wasn't a confession) actually says a lot about Geon Woo. His attitude towards their relationship is very blunt and straightforward. Once he's made a decision, he stops listening to his doubts and stands by it. I don't really know when Geon Woo decided that he liked Eui Joon. It was more slow-growing. In the side stories though, we see him considering this big-time when this thought crosses his mind:

"There's the common phrase of having the opportunity to meet your fateful love. If there's a sign for it, would it be possible to stay vigilant?"

AHJUSSI YOU SOFT-HEARTED ROMANTIC I CAN'T T^T He becomes more bold with Eui Joon afterwards, but he's still a little prickly. He's constantly weighing his options, trying to figure out in what way will doing the things he does for Eui Joon benefit him, if at all. In Chapter 13, when a customer comes inside the store and forces Eui Joon to pay for what he bought, he's on the scales. But then the memory of that morning flashes through his mind, and he remembers how the simple act of Eui Joon giving him his number had made him smile like an idiot. He beats the customer for him, taking the money he owed, and gives it back to Eui Joon. He even manages to casually ask him out on a date. The guy can be smooth as fuck.

Eui Joon: Are you saying... we should eat together? Geon Woo: Sure. I guess I've done something worth compensating. Will you give me my reward?

Take notes, people! At this point, Eui Joon has gotten him wrapped around his finger, and he didn't even know it! Of course, Eui Joon still thinks their relationship is only purely sexual, but then Geon Woo begins doing these uncharacteristically tender gestures that Eui Joon initially interprets as Geon Woo giving him special treatment.

"Let me see your face." "School classes. Are you tired after them" "I'm thinking that... You'll look good in short hair, too."

And Geon Woo even tries to initiate a conversation with Eui Joon when he feels like Eui Joon couldn't take the awkwardness. A good example was when Geon Woo treats him dinner at the restaurant.

"...." "Is this your first time coming to this kind of place?"

Somehow, these things he does still feel kind of forced, like he was genuinely annoyed at Eui Joon and everything he did. Even when he asks to do it with him again and Eui Joon refuses because he was still sore, there was a moment of frustration that shone through.

It was a sign that Geon Woo was still confused about the things he was feeling towards Eui Joon. He knew he wanted him physically, but then he doesn't take up the woman's offer that evening after Eui Joon refuses him. It wasn't actually written on paper, but knowing Geon Woo's character he might have felt uneasy about going through with it. Not particularly on Eui Joon's behalf, but it may have been unconscious because of his budding feelings.

His feelings were something that rattled him, and he was usually undeterred in any kind of situation. What rattled him more was that Eui Joon didn't know anything about what he was going through.

"Being naturally attracted to you, and going through unfamiliar emotions. This feeling should only be felt at an adolescent age."

We're seeing him from behind again. The use of this perspective in manhwas / mangas / comics usually makes you feel like can't tell what the character's thinking about, but most importantly that they're most likely about to go do or SAY SOMETHING DAMN IMPORTANT. Like, maybe, telling their feelings to the person they like!?!?!

"Eui Joon-Ah. I like you."

ASDFGHJKL DID ANYONE SEE THAT COMING?!?!?!

That actually surprised me hella lot. I'd originally thought Geon Woo was the tsundere type, but he was more honest with his feelings than I believed. However, he hadn't been completely convinced by these feelings until Eui Joon had offered to break it off. Suddenly there was an exit to his situation, but he didn't really feel happy about it. He was frustrated at not being able to properly understand what his words made him feel. Because the truth was he didn't want to break things off. He just wouldn't admit to himself at the time that the reason was he actually wanted Eui Joon.

We could see him debating it himself, poor thing:

"I didn't expect myself to be in a situation where I couldn't even understand my own feelings. I should've figured it out the moment I couldn't understand my sexual preference. I'm not that young anymore... What is this?" "No... It could also be a spur of the moment... It doesn't seem to be like that. It might also be due to pride, but I feel it's not necessary for these kinds of feelings to affect my pride... But even when it's like this, I still want to..."

Geon Woo decides to "have a little fun" before conceding to Eui Joon's request to "end their entanglement". But I've noticed that whenever something bothers Geon Woo too much, he takes a smoke. When Eui Joon makes the suggestion, Geon Woo does just that.

The slightly rough way in which Geon Woo treats him afterwards shows his frustration. He grabs his arm roughly and pulls him towards the car, but he doesn't realize he was hurting Eui Joon's wrist with his own watch until Eui Joon whines in pain—at which point Geon Woo just laces his hand through his instead. Which I thought was so sweet T^T

When Eui Joon freaks out about doing it at the school where he studies and asks Geon Woo to consider it for him, Geon Woo says, "Do I have to consider that for you too?" And when Eui Joon asks for him to do that, Geon Woo replies, "I guess I've been too nice to you." THE MAN WAS FREAKING FRUSTRATED!!! Geon Woo even challenges him to stay quiet, telling him no one will hear them if he does. Throughout the whole thing, Geon Woo wanted to dominate him, daring him to take what pleasure he could give him, but with an aggression that bespeaks the storm in his heart and mind. Reading it back, I realized just how damn hot that scene was. I mean, goddamn. After Geon Woo admits his feelings, there's a serenity about him afterwards. He no longer has to second-guess taking care of Eui Joon or expressing what he felt towards him. He gives him food and medicine the next day since he caught a fever. He "invites himself" to watch a movie with him since they both had nothing to do for the rest of the day. The guy was basically courting Eui Joon, haha. Not a confession, my ass XD

And then, when Eui Joon opens up about how he rejected Hyeon Woo, Geon Woo tells him he'll also wait for him for around three years T^T

MY HEART I CAN'T T ^ T ☙ ☙ ☙ ☙ ☙ So that's kiiind of a long breakdown. I included as little pictures as possible. Copyright and all that. I just really like this series so far. I want to be able to read the original someday. Hopefully I'd be able to learn Korean T^T. If you like this as much as I do, chat me up =D would love to hear other thoughts.

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loki’s lessons

thor odinson x reader

warnings: mob!thor, softie thor uwu, loki means well, knives, choking (not like that and not the reader), idk not much warnings in this one

word count: 888

an: im seeing a pattern on my fics 🤧 (little!reader), this is kinda in the same universe in “All it takes” but you don’t have to read that to be able to understand this one.

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“Just like that, Y/N. My brother would be so proud of you!” Loki smirks at you as he watches you sharpen the knife that he’s given you as a ‘gift’. He’s currently teaching you how to defend yourself with a knife so that you could help Thor whenever he needs the help because you hated how Thor’s always the one protecting you and taking care of you. And Loki is more than willing to teach you how to use a knife like the professional he is.

After throwing a knife on the wooden board shaped like a person that was a few feet away from the both of you, the knife landed on the chest area of the dummy making both Loki and yourself squeal in excitement. You looked at Loki, who was uncharacteristically excited for you, with bright and proud eyes before pointing at the dummy. “I did it!”

Thor, who was standing a few feet behind the two, lets out a quiet chuckle at the sight of you being so proud of yourself. It took all of him to stop himself from beating his younger brother up for even letting you hold a dangerous weapon. Let alone use it and throw it. But the sight of you enjoying yourself warmed his heart. How will he be able to deprive you of that when you’re smiling like that?

“You did it!” Loki’s lips curl up into a big smile before raising an eyebrow at you. “Now what about when someone attacks you with a knife?” You let out a gasp when you’re suddenly turned around, a knife pressed lightly onto your neck while Loki’s arm is trapping you against his body.

“LOKI!” 

A booming loud voice fills the room and Loki is quick to let go of you as you catch Thor’s furious face looking back at his brother when you looked for the owner of the loud angry voice.

You’re slightly pushed backward when Thor lunged for Loki, fisting his collar and shoving him back until the back of his legs hit the table with a bunch of knives laid on it. “Brother!” Loki chokes out his words while maintaining his grin that only infuriates his brother more. Thor retaliates by choking his brother more, earning a coughing fit from Loki who started tapping on Thor’s hard forearms.

Loki was only able to breathe again when you started pulling on Thor’s thick arms and begging him to stop, eyes starting to water at the sight of Thor so hostile towards his brother. Loki smirked at the couple while coughing here and there, trying to catch his breath. Loki flinched when Thor tried to lunge back at him only to be stopped by your shaking hands.

“Don’t hurt Loki! He was only trying to teach me… things.” 

Thor looks at you in disbelief before hearing Loki snickering beside him. “Yeah, brother. I was merely giving her one of my lessons—” 

“—BY PRESSING A KNIFE AGAINST HER NECK?!” Thor shouts at Loki before pushing and shoving at him until they’re by the door while you could only watch the brothers from your spot. You hear a loud thud when Thor shoves Loki out the door before shutting the door with a loud bang. “I dare you to touch her again! I’ll make sure there’s not a finger left on your hands, brother.” Thor growls at the door before looking back at you, his frown leaving his face and a concerned look taking over it.

Thor is on you in no time, gigantic hands prodding at your neck and checking for any signs of injury. “Are you hurt, little one?” Failing to find anything on your neck, his hands move towards your face, cradling it with care. “Loki can be so dumb at times”, he lets out a sigh before smiling at you when you laugh at his words. Your hand reaches his arms before squeezing them reassuringly. “I’m fine, Thor. Loki was really just teaching me how to fight back just in case…” 

“Just in case what? You don’t have to do any of that because I’ll always be here to protect you, you know that right?” His face sports a sad frown and you reach for his face, rubbing on the lines caused by his frown.

“I know that. I swear I know that and I’m really thankful for that. I just… I wanna be able to protect you as well! What if bad things happen because you’re always surrounded by bad people… What if you get hurt and there’s nobody else to protect you? I can help you… And Loki! I just wanna protect you like you protect me…” You bite on your bottom lip while Thor continues to stare at you, your words still processing in his mind.

“Oh, little one…” Thor pulls your face into his chest, arms wrapping around your body in protectiveness and with affection. 

“You know, if you really wanna learn how to do all that, I can teach you. You don’t have to learn from Loki.” He scoffs and you laugh against his chest before nodding eagerly. 

“No more of Loki’s lessons. I promise”, you mumbled against his chest before beaming when you feel him pressing kisses on your head.

Thor nods in agreement. 

“No more of Loki’s lessons.”

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an: ahh poor loki :(

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Friday I’m In Love

commissioned by @xaki

A/N: no, the fic has nothing to do with the song it just so happens that it fits in the most literal sense lmao much thanks to xaki who gave me my first commission and my friend for helping me out when my brain was going all sorts of illogical directions uwu

Pairing: Kuroo Tetsurou x f!reader

Description: You saw Kuroo Tetsurou once every week, where you tried your best to not let the fact that he was your high school crush distract you too much.

Warning: unprotected sex, spanking, dirty talk, slight degradation

Word count: 5052

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You saw Kuroo Tetsurou once every week, during the single Wednesday morning lecture you shared.

You had allowed yourself the luxury of stealing a few glances his way during that one occasion, but never do more than just looking from afar.

Actually, it was ironic that you had gotten to the point of limiting yourself from even looking at him when there was a time you would see him nearly every day.

Getting into the same high school was a pure coincidence, but you had also noticed early on that no matter where he was, your gaze was following his figure before you even realised it. Who could blame you, really. Who wouldn’t want to spare even just a few more seconds looking at the boy who was taller than the rest of his peers even in his first year, only growing more and more breathtaking as he ditched the boyishness and slowly gained the edge on his face and the hint of maturity in his eyes.

You were far from being the only one that harboured a bit of a schoolgirl crush on the eventual volleyball club captain. In the few years where you shared the same class, you had witnessed him being called out of the classroom by blushing pupils more times than you could count. It always brought a bitter taste to your mouth but what could you do about it? At least they had the guts to confess. 

You liked to believe that it was not a cowardly move for you to hide your affections all throughout your high school years. It was just that as early as you had noticed your budding feelings, you also realised that you two belong with two seperate groups of people with very different interests, and the chances that he would opt for you was slimmer than slim. So you never did much to try and win him over, maintaining a friendly distance where you only interact in class and nothing outside of it. 

At least it could be a nice memory to look back on when you were way past the age to be conflicted over things like this.

You were just as shocked as any other person when you learned that he did not go the pro-athlete route everyone thought he would go, nearly as shocked when you walked into your first lecture of the semester to see him sitting right at the very front.

He seemed to have noticed you too, giving you a slight nod after his eyes widened. You returned the polite gesture, before heading straight to the very back of the lecture hall without a hint of hesitation.

You could deal with one more semester of friendly distance. Couldn’t be that hard, right?

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It was Wednesday morning again, and you sinked into the seat at the very back of the lecture hall you tactfully occupied with a yawn.

It was from pure bad luck that you managed to register the one 8:30 lecture available in the course. Everywhere around you, people were either half asleep or laid down on the table at the very least. From the corner of your eye, you even spotted someone catching up on the latest episodes of the new tv series that just aired with subtitles on.

You sighed, leaning your jaw on your palm. You wanted to say that this was a bit too much even for a lecture but who were you to judge when your soul was starting to escape your body to somewhere more interesting than the lecture hall anyway.

The amount of people who were actually paying attention to the lecture could probably be counted with one hand, let along the ones that seemed to be genuinely enjoying it. You thought to yourself, your glances floating to the boy who blocked even more of your view with his roaster head on top of his existing height.

He was probably the only one who still had the strength to chuckle when the lecturer tried to liven up the dying atmosphere with unfunny gags.

“...for the upcoming event, students who volunteered as committee members would receive bonus marks based on their performance,” you perked up at the distant call of ‘bonus score’ from far away, “the form will be placed by the door, Please fill in your name before you leave if you are interested.”

Your mind was occupied by numbers and calculations of your gpa for the rest of your class, even as you lined up mindlessly behind your other classmates after the lecture was dismissed. Another thing about morning lessons was that the amount of effort you were willing to put in was also diminished by the limits on your mind and soul, meaning that any chance at a higher grade was worth trying. You had decided that free labour in exchange for that good grade was a decent enough bargain.

“Hey.”

You snapped out of your trance when it was your turn at the form only to feel your heart skipping a beat when you looked up to see the familiar handsome face you stared at as your recharge every morning.

You blinked, trying hard to maintain a calm front even though your mind went haywired at the rare direct interaction you had with Kuroo.

“Do you need the pen?” he asked, holding out the thin ball pen he was gripping in his hand to you.

“Oh,” your eyes widened, putting on a polite smile as you took it from him, “oh yes. Um, thank you.”

It was only a while later when you put down your name right below his that it finally hit you that you two had signed up for the same event. It took even longer for you to realise that the strange tingle you felt at the back of your hand was from his fingertips brushing past yours as he let go of the pen, but by then he was gone and it would be a few days later when you saw him again.

-

You now see Kuroo Tetsurou two times every week. Once during the dreadful morning lecture on Wednesday and on Friday evening where you were stuck in the committee meeting together.

But unlike the stolen glances on Wednesday, you were forced to acknowledge Kuroo as more than just a distant being you were merely acquaintances with in those few hours.

It was very inconvenient for you, considering how each time you felt smaller and smaller under his concentrated gaze as he listened to your input on whatever topic of discussion it was. In fact, you felt rather resentful that you couldn’t quite stand as firm as you did on your stance that you wanted to keep what was clear to be a admiration from being known under your own free will instead of a lack of self-assurance.

You had no choice but to be reminded that he was smart and brilliant on top of just being good-looking. He always knew what to say when the rest of the room was stuck, moving the agenda forward with each valuable input. He was easy to work with, reliable and always efficient.You found that you genuinely liked working with him, crush or not. He listened intently to what other people had to say and never said anything less than constructive.

Worst of all, you were starting to have the illusion that he had started paying more attention to you too. When you looked around the room as you were about to speak up each time, you would always lock your eyes with him at some point, even before you started talking like he already anticipated that you would have something to say.

Maybe it was a mistake, you thought to yourself as you stared outside the pitch black windows of the bus that was rocking steadily, feeling your mind drifting away after using up all your energy in the meeting, maybe those few bonus marks were not worth all this inner conflict.

“Hi, um,” you looked to the side, your mind going blank like you just got caught doing something guilty when you saw the exact person you were thinking about standing by. You cursed the uncontrollable heat that raised on your face, “can I sit here?”

It wasn’t like you could say no. “Sure,” you said as you picked up your bag to clear out the seat for him, flashing a cordial smile of someone who did not have a reason to be nervous when you could already feel the beating in your chest speeding up, “of course.”

“Thanks,” he said with a relieved sigh, throwing himself on the empty chair with a soft thump. You tried to pretend that you did not secretly really care about how close he was to you now, looking back out of the window again. Kuroo looked at you, pondering if he should say something first.

“So…”

“Hm?” you turned around to face him at the dragged out note of his voice.

“Have you gone back to Nekoma after graduation?”

You sighed and gave a light shake of your head, "No. Just surviving college is hard enough, who has time to think about going back?”

You tried to dismiss the knot in your stomach when he replied with a light chuckle and the corner of your lips curling up against your will when he leaned back. “Makes sense," he said, running his hand through his unruly hair before swiftly carrying on to ask you about what you were up to now.

It would have been easier if it was awkward or uncomfortable but sadly, Kuroo was also very easy to talk to and by the time you regained your senses, you were already at the door of your apartment with him walking you there the whole way after getting off the bus at the same stop.

Next Friday, he came up to you with a grinning face when you packed up your stuff after the meeting. “We go the same direction, right?” he had said, walking next to you casually as you headed out the meeting room. He started the conversation before you could say anything, and like last time, he walked you back to your apartment, claiming that he lived nearby anyways.

You saw him twice every week. Once during the morning lecture that was starting to feel less painful to endure and the Friday committee meeting, where he naturally walked you home without fail each week. At some point, he started saving you the seat next to him before each meeting and there was less and less of a reason for you to not take it when he was already leaving with you anyways. All of the above had reminded you once again why you were so hellbent on staying away from him in the first place.

He was far too easy to like, even more so now that you were somewhat friends by the end of the series of meetings.

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The voice of your instructor was distant as you stared at the clock, the sound of Kuroo’s pencil tapping against the table keeping you in touch with what was going on. It was the last meeting you had to attend and quite frankly there was nothing interesting going on at this point. You glanced to the side, before pulling out your phone that has been buzzing in your pocket since the meeting started.

You tried to conceal the irritation rising in your chest as you looked at the glowing screen underneath the table. Your old friends had been bombing you with questions ever since they learnt that after years of looking on, you somehow had a leaping development with your crush on accident after graduation. It was a mistake on your part, given how the topic of their heated discussion was sitting right next to you. 

“(y/l/n)?”

The sudden mention of your name startled you, and you threw your phone down almost a bit too hard. “Yes?”

“Can you help hand these out?”

You let out a relieved sigh that you were not being called out for not paying attention as you stood up, pushing the conversation that was no doubt still ongoing in your group chat to the back of your head. “Of course.”

Kuroo watched as you got out, taking the stack of minutes from the instructor. After today, he would go back to only seeing you when you walked into the morning lecture hall. He felt the nerves building in his stomach, wondering if he should bear his teeth and threw his shot in changing that.

‘So you’re just going to do nothing?’

The screen of your phone that was laying on the table lit up as the speech bubble appeared. His curiosity got the better of him when the next message popped in before he could look away.

‘You have liked Kuroo for years and you’re just going to let this chance slip?’

He froze in place when he read his own name. You liked him? His eyes flicked to you, his heart in his throat at the realisation that he had just learnt something he was not supposed to know. 

But despite the slight guilt of overstepping his boundaries, it took all the fiber in his body to stop himself from grinning ear to ear when you returned to your seat next to him.

“What?” you asked with an amused quirk of your eyebrows at how stiffly he was sitting.

“Nothing,” Kuroo replied, feeling the muscle around his mouth going sore as he bit the inside of his cheeks, “nothing.”

The ride home felt so much longer with him next to you, knowing that this was to be the last. He did not say anything even as you got off, only walking in silence like he was deep in thought. You wondered what it was that made him so quiet today, he was usually the more chatty one out of you two.

Kuroo felt the tension building up in his head as you got closer and closer to your door. 

“Can I tell you something?”

You snapped around, your hand on the handle of your doorknob when he suddenly spoke up for the first time since you left the meeting that day. “Yeah?”

“My place is at the opposite side of the neighbourhood.”

“What?” your voice came out as a whisper. Your breath hitch at the back of your throat when he took one step closer to you before leaning down. His face was right in front of yours, his defined features dangerously close to you.

“I said,” you could feel his breath fanning on your face as he spoke and the pounding in your ear was thundering as you held your breath, “I’m only here because I want to be around you.”

Kuroo watched intently as your eyes widened, your jaw clenching as you gulped. His gaze flickered between your eyes and your lips, almost like he was waiting for you to show him any hint of rejection before he made the irreversible move. 

When your hand slowly crept onto his shoulder and stayed there, he latched onto you. You were taken back by his force, his tongue evading your mouth at your moment of lowered alert. His kiss was demanding, stealing away the oxygen in your lungs bit by bit as he held you close. 

You were panting when he pulled away after his initial outburst, your pupils dilated as your lips swollen up. You paused, before gathering the courage that had surged in your chest.

“Do you want to come in?”

Kuroo did not waste another second when the door clicked, his hand getting rougher now that you were within the privacy of your home. Your arms hung around his neck as you desperately held yourself up, your toes barely touching the floor as he demandingly kissed down the side of your neck. He lost patience at your struggling, lifting you up with his arm under your hips before pulling you down onto him with a stumbling step to the cramped couch.

“Help me strip.” He whispered in your ear, adjusting your position on his lap as he brought your hand to the opened collar of his shirt. You gulped when he gave an encouraging knead on your upper thigh, far too consumed by the want of seeing more of him to feel bashful by his bold request.

His gaze burned on your skin as he stared at you, not moving away even for a second while you tear apart the row of buttons to reveal more and more of his toned body. You felt like your fingers were not listening to your commands, a clumsy stiffness in your joints as he unhooked each button. The subconscious way you darted your tongue out to wet your lips at the rise and fall of his chest did not go unnoticed under his attentive stare, his much larger hands guiding you to palm his tend over the firm material of his jeans as your finger grazed past the cold metal of the zipper.

Kuroo’s stomach tensed up when you pulled down the fly, pushing your hips against his legs as you pushed away the heavy jeans. He held you down as he sat up, drinking in your soft moan with an open mouthed kiss. Your hand ran down from his shoulder to the firm pecs adoring his abdomen, each mound rippling under the tip of your fingers. His circled one arm around your waist while the other fumbled to pull his aching cock out of its refines. You felt the vibration of his chest as he groaned into your mouth when you allowed your hand to wander down his body, cupping his balls as he fisted his own length.

You let out a shaky sigh when he slid his palm down the elastic band of your panties, groping the soft flesh of your ass as he peeled off the thin piece of cotton with a push down the small of your back to have you arching for him.  He chuckled when he felt the wetness that was seeping through the fabric, earning a glare from you that looked more like a kitten pretending to be defensive out of embarrassment than truly threatening to him with your heated face and slightly swollen lips from his earlier nibbling when you pulled away. A thin strand of silver connected your lips, looking all the more erotic now that you were both half bare and exposed to each other’s hungry eyes.

Your finger dug into the muscle of his arms when he lifted you up from his lap with ease, much thanks to the firm grasp of your thighs in his warm palms. Your lips fell agape but no sound came out when you felt the hardness prodding at your entrance. He looked shamelessly at where your bodies met, not bothering to hide the grin on his face when he felt the pain of your nails against his arm as he brushed his tip along your slit. You whined at the friction that was barely there, not able to sink down with him holding you back but your legs were starting to go weak with each push of his length against your clit. He took his time, spreading the leaking pre-cum across your folds and watching the mixture of your arousal slowly coated his cock.

“Kuroo…” you called out for him, hoping that it would be enough for him to give you what you wanted.

“Aw... What’s with this formality?” his arm flexed under your touch as he tilted his head to the side, lowering you down just a little, “What should you call me when I’m about to fuck your brains out, hm?”

You bite onto the inside of your cheeks when you felt him barely dipping in, his tip just positioned at your pussy.

“Tetsurou-” 

his own name felt foreign as it rolled off the tip of your tongue and he let out an approving hum. “Good girl,” he purred, placing a chaste kiss on your trembling lips. 

His grip on your legs tightened as he leaned closer to you, pushing his cock just a little deeper. Your brows locked together as he stretched out your entrance, clawing at his arm for more. You thought he was finally going to show some mercy on you, but the beating in your heart skipped a beat when you felt his hot breath fanning across your lips instead.

“You’re in love with me, aren’t you?”

Your eyes snapped open, his handsome face right in front of yours. “Wha- mph!”

You yelped at the sudden drop of your hips onto his lap, your nails scratching down his arm as he hilted inside of you with one motion. Your head threw back at the waves of shocking pleasure that sparked down your spine, your juicings running down the base of your thighs as your walls tried to accustomed to his thickness and length.

“What is it? Did you just say yes?” his laugh was wolfish as he took in your expression, a mixture of infuriated and primal desire.

“You-” he did not give you the time to bite back, thrusting up with a lift of your hips and turning whatever you wanted to say into nothing but incoherent moans.

Your body did not feel like it was under your control as he guided you to grind on his cock, the slaps of your soft flesh against his thighs taking over your senses. Your toes curled at how deep he could reach inside you each time he pulled you up and bottomed out of you. His hands were fondling your ass roughly as he bounced you on his cock, reducing you to nothing but a panting mess laying weakly on his chest.

“How does it feel to have the man of your dreams stretching out your tight cunt, hm?” he emphasised each word with a thrust, grinning ear to ear when you made a frugal attempt at slapping his arm you were holding onto. You buried your face into his chest, your muffled moans coming out as hot breath on his skin. He looked down from above you, watching as your ass jiggled under each thrust and your spine arching from the pleasure. 

A loud smack echoed in the room and he groaned at the feeling of your walls clenching around him at the slap of his palm against your ass cheek. He gave the flesh a firm knead, rubbing at the area that had heated up from the spank before pulling his hand away to give the other side the same treatment. You felt the numbness on your skin as your skin burned, the pain making every hair on your back stood up. 

“You like it when I get rough with you? You are squeezing down on my cock so hard,” his voice came as gravel from his chest. Your mind was in a frenzy, not even thinking straight as you nodded feverishly. “You’re such a slut for me, it’s really inflating my ego,” his filthy words made your stomach tighten as he continued, “bet this is what you have been thinking about whenever you check me out.”

You felt your face burning up. He knew all along?

Your surprise came out in the form of a squeal when he stood up, still holding you up. Your panting got more rapid as your only leverage from falling was the frantic clawing at his arm, having nothing but his strength to trust as he bounced you on his cock while marching down the hallway.

He hissed at the sharp pain on his back when your hands scratched down, kicking the door open with a hasty shove at the door with his heel before throwing you down the mattress. He did not waste another second as he perched on top of you, hooking your legs around his waist before rolling his hips to completely take over the pace of his cock pistoning at the spongy spot that made your mind foggy with nothing but his name and the overwhelming feeling of being towered over in your head.

The squelching got louder and louder as he ruthlessly snapped against you. You felt the knot in your stomach tightened up as he leaned down, sucking on the sweet spot at the side of your neck. His hand roamed all over your body, kneading your tits that bounced under his force. 

He could not get over the fact that you were actually here, folded beneath him right now, and that it was his name you were moaning out. 

“I’m-” your legs clasped around him as every muscle on your limbs tensed up, “I’m close-”

“Yeah? Tell me what you want,” he growled in your ear, his thrusts starting to get sloppy as your walls spasmed around his cock, “what does my girl want?”

You had imagined what it would be like if Kuroo Tetsurou ever set his eyes on you, if he had wanted you the same way you had absentmindedly started wanting him despite your best efforts to convince yourself that you knew that would not happen. But nothing could stop the heat that exploded in your chest and spread all through your body at how natural it came out of his mouth.

His girl. You were his girl now.

You let out a choked mewl when he switched from erratic plowing to slowly dragging his cock along your walls. The sudden drop from your near high seeped into your senses, tingling down from your core all the way to the tip of your toes. 

“Tetsu-” your back arched off the mattress when he pulled out all the way only to halt in you with a sudden thrust, “want you to make me cum- ah!”

The shocks that sparked through your body when he set his sight on making you fall apart underneath him with his vigorous thrusts had your toe pointing stiffly and curling under the pleasure. The fist in the pit of your stomach curled and unfolded as he gripped your chin roughly, turning your head to look right into his eyes.

“Fuck, you wanna cum?” he hissed, feeling the shivers on his own back as he got closer and closer to his own high, “Then look at me, look at me as you cum on my cock-”

You felt your body shuddering as waves of pleasure crashed over you. His eyes were all you could focus on as you succumbed to the weakening of your limbs, the pounding in your ear gradually returned to a regular pace with Kuroo’s languish strokes allowing you to ride out your high. 

You were sure you could never forget how the defined arch of his brows knitted together as he pulled out of you, his head throwing back just a little with his lips slightly parted. A sinful moan leaking out as spurts of white painted across your lower stomach. 

Your vision was hazed over with a veil of fog as you blinked, collecting your breaths before focusing on the roof of your room that suddenly felt so unfamiliar. The claminess on your skin and the smell of sweat slowly took over. You felt the weight on your chest, breathing out a heavy exhale.

You really did just have sex with your crush, huh?

As if noticing your train of thought, Kuroo leaned over and placed a quick kiss on your jaw, his grin reaching his eyes as he stared at you. Much unlike his earlier dominance, the lazy curl of each syllable on his lips sounded more so like he was trying to play cute.

"Wait here,” he said, adding another peck on your lips, “I’ll grab you a towel.”

“The bathroom is the one right outside…” you muttered, feeling the dent on the mattress sprung back as he climbed off of you.

Your tensed muscles slowly relaxed as he moved you to lean against his broad chest, his hand gently caressing your skin as he dabbed the wet towel on you. His lips ghosted along your ear as he cleaned up the marks and trails left from your earlier passions, trying hard to conceal his satisfaction when you whined as he brushed past the bruises on your thighs.

“You should start getting used to it from now on, plenty more chances for us to- ouch, ouch.. ok, I’m sorry…”

The corner of your lips lifted up, burying your face into his chest as you tried to get comfortable, “I was right, you are way more attractive without opening your mouth.”

“Awe, don’t say that,” he pouted but the wolfish grin on his face told you he was not apologetic at all.

Kuroo watched as you slowly leaned onto him more and more, until your eyelids closed up with a flutter. If you had stayed awake for just a little longer, you would know that he could not be any more careful when he tucked you under the blanket before slipping in next to you. On this rare occasion where he would not get caught, he allowed himself to stare at your serene expression as he dozed off to sleep with a content smile on his face.

You did not need to know that his grade for the one course you shared was high enough already and he signed up for the committee purely because you were signing up too. He certainly would not let you know that he had always noticed your lingering gaze on him or that he secretly enjoyed it, even back when he saw you more than twice a week. That and the fact that he was overjoyed when he saw you appearing from the door of the lecture hall that Wednesday morning, followed by the ever growing frustration that he couldn’t find an excuse to talk to you when you were literally in the same class.

Whatever. Kuroo thought to himself as he gently threw his arm over your waist, burying his face into the crook of your neck as he inhaled your sweet scent. At least he didn’t have to go all the way from your apartment complex back to his place every Friday anymore.

[earthnashes]

If you already have the basis for a character(backstory, personality, beliefs, place of birth, family, setting, etc. etc.), how do you narrow down traits to express through the design? Personally I've tried for literal years to design this one character and I am never satisfied, yet you're posting new content all the time. I'm so envious!

Keep in mind that while the character's design should clue a person into what their overall story is (or throw you off what the character's truly about, depending on what you're thinking), that doesn't necessarily mean it should be a walking advertisement for every little detail about the character. The design is a summary, not the entire picture.

As such I suggest you figure exactly what core elements make that character them. For my own personal sanity I always focus on the actual personality first, because the first thing you're gonna know about the character is who they are as a person, not what they've been through and how they got there.

Is your character friendly? Outgoing? Standoffish? Are they perpetually angry, or shy, or charismatic? Do they wear their hearts on their sleeve, or are they sneaky, hard to read? These are things you need to know about your character full stop because they can help dictate one of the most important aspects of the character: their silhouette. After you come up with one, then you can begin focusing on finer details of their design, such as the outfit they wear, or the scars borne to their bodies, their hairstyles, so on.

Character design is literally building the character. While you can sometimes do it in one fell swoop it all follows steps of starting from the ground up. And that process is almost always:

-Research/inspiration: ya need to know what the hell you're drawing before you draw it, even if it's to design a character. What I typically do for the research part is in three parts, which is : A) find characters that fit the vibe I want for inspiration, B) Find outfits or photos that fit what I want the character to possibly wear, and C) color palettes I think would fit. There is no finalization, this is just me gathering things to spur my head into thinking "okay, what does this character look like". I usually find a minimum of 3-5 inspiration pieces.

-Rough stage: explore the character's base silhouette/design. Highly recommend doing thumbnail sketches or ruff drawings; the point is to explore their look, not make a pretty drawing)

-Exploration 1: You got their base look figured out. Now it's time to dig a little deeper into it. This is usually with more exploration, but with a direction. What sort of close do they wear? their hairstyle? How do they carry themselves, what does their face actually look like? Finer details are starting to be shown here but the point is still the exploration of the design

-Exploration 2: You have something that feels like it could be the final design. Time to move on to the colors. Once again, exploration. By this time you might have a good idea of the colors you want but it's never a bad idea to play around with what you have in your head by thinking outside of that box. You might find something you like better.

Finalizing: You have a clear picture of what the character looks like. Time to-- guess what?-- explore further as you finalize their design. For me that typically means fine-tuning their design, whether that be adding scars, or tweaking their body shape a bit, or adding (or subtracting) elements from their outfits. Whatever it may be, don't be afraid to fiddle around with the design a tad before you say it's completed.

This is all easier said than done in practice. Character design is never easy, I personally just enjoy the fuckin' hell out of it so it's part of why I can churn out a design so quickly.

As for how long it's taking you to build a character? Don't fret too much over it. For OCs in particular, it could take a long while before you reach a point where you're fully satisfied with their design. It took me a full year and some change before I reached a point of complete satisfaction with my own OCs, but it does help to know what you're after when you're designing them instead of just shooting in the dark. That's why quick, sketchy exploration is so helpful (at least to me); gives you an idea of what they could look like before you fully commit to an idea.

Hope this helps. uwu

[cloversdreams]

Piggyback ride w kagihira? uwu

these two are way too cute T_T. hope you enjoy X3

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“Look up there, Kagi-kun.”

Kagiura tilted his head upward to glance at the branches above. There was a really pretty bird sitting there. It was the same alluring blue as Hirano’s eyes, wow. He hadn’t even realized birds like that even lived around here. Neat. 

“You’ve got great eyesight, Hirano-san,” Kagiura hummed. He shut his eyes and smiled from ear to ear as the two of them continued along the dirt path. This little impromptu nature walk of theirs was super relaxing, just like Hirano said it’d be. He was so smart and amazing and wonderful and–

“Whoa!”

Kagiura stopped walking to look down at the blond. What had he even tripped over just now? He offered Hirano his hand and asked, “What happened? Are you all right?”

“Yeah, there was a vine sticking out in the path and I didn’t see it,” Hirano grumbled. He accepted the offered hand and let himself be pulled to his feet. As soon as he attempted to stand on his own, he hissed and nearly fell again. Kagiura reached out and caught him before that could happen.

“Shit.” Hirano swore under his breath. His right foot hovered just above the ground as he muttered, “It might be sprained. I can’t put weight on it.”

“Oh no! Don’t die, Hirano-san!” Kagiura cried.

“Shut up.” Hirano flicked his forehead in response. “I ain’t dyin’.”

“Right. It probably just needs some ice and rest.” Kagiura agreed with a nod. An idea struck him then he chirped, “I know! I’ll carry you back!”

“No way.” Hirano made an x with his arms. He shook his head and added, “The last thing I need is you holding me like some damsel in distress. I’ll just... hop or something.”

Kagiura pouted as he watched the blond attempt to do just that. He made it three jumps before he almost fell and needed to be caught again. “You’ll hurt yourself even more doing something silly like that, Hirano-san.”

Hirano couldn’t deny it so he simply frowned instead.

Kagiura did so as well while he considered the problem. If the issue was that he didn’t want to be carried a certain way, that was easily solved. He could always toss the blond over his shoulder but that might actually be worse. Hirano would most likely have a fit. It’d never end well. Then an idea struck him.

Kagiura blinked at him and asked, “What about piggyback?”

[snip...]

“Hah?”

“Yeah! I’ll carry you back on my back! You won’t make your injury worse that way!” Kagiura exclaimed, a little too enthusiastically. He crouched down with his back to the other boy then said, “Hop on!”

“Absolutely not.” Hirano shook his head. He reached out for a nearby tree to use as support.

Kagiura couldn’t help but pout as he admitted, “You constantly go out of your way to help me though, so I want to do the same for you.”

“It’s not about that,” Hirano grunted. He rubbed the back of his head then explained, “If you get hurt while trying to help me you’ll end up benched until you’re fully healed and I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I caused that.”

The reasoning was as logical as could be. And yet, Kagiura’s silly little heart still skipped a beat. Hirano cared so much. He’d never met anyone else half as kindhearted. The fact that the guy would rather suffer than risk anything bad happening to him made Kagiura want to cry happy tears. 

However, it wasn’t like he was made of glass or anything. Not to mention he worked out all the time and was stronger than he looked. This really was no big deal. Also, the sooner they got Hirano checked out by the school nurse the better.

Kagiura smiled reassuringly and he said, “I’ll be fine, promise.” His gaze never left the blue eyes fixed upon him as he added, “Please rely on me just a bit, Hirano-san.”

Hirano’s brow knitted together with his frown. His cheeks were dusted with the faintest hint of blush as he replied, “Fine, but you can’t blame me if you end up throwing out your back or something.”

“You’d nurse me back to health if I did ‘cause you’re a big softie!” Kagiura laughed. He continued to grin as the blond ruffled his hair. 

After that, Hirano gave in and climbed onto his back. He was so warm. And Kagiura was extremely aware of just how perfectly his arms fit around his neck. But no time to focus on that right now. He stood and started to head back towards the school with his very own blond koala. 

After a few moments Kagiura turned his head to look at Hirano over his shoulder and hummed, “This is even easier than I thought. You’re not any heavier than my teammates and I carry them like this all the time.”

Hirano pinched the other boy’s cheek and grumbled, “Just what kind of weird things do you guys get up to, huh?”

Kagiura tried his best to respond though his cheek was being pulled. “Not weiwd! It’s wha fwends do! Like us, wight?”

Hirano released him and rested his chin upon his shoulder. “Yeah...”

“All right, now that I know I can handle it, time to speed things up! Hang on, Hirano-san!” Kagiura exclaimed.

“Wait what?” Hirano didn’t even have time to yelp before the other boy took off at a full sprint. It was all he could do to squeeze him and not fall off. “Kagi-kunnn be careful!”

Kagiura laughed loudly. If this was the only way he could get his crush to cling to him he’d take it. For now!

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bingo prompts (x)

[sleepysnk]

Hey love! Ur fav requester here! Jk XD Anyways I thought of a cool request idea but how about a Levi x female reader where the reader is in Levi's squad and both Levi and reader have feelings for another. But they end up getting in some kind of argument and reader runs away outside when it's storming to go cry. Some people heard the argument and go and help find her uwu Plus that good TLC maybe where reader wears Levi's clothes too. Thank you sm for dealing with my requests 😭 love u!

AH YES MY TOP REQUESTER IS HERE 😭. don't hesitate to ever send me one! i enjoy your requests! i hope you enjoy this! ♡

Levi x Fem!Reader: The Storm

Warnings: None

"Will you just stop complaining (Y/N)? I already told you no" Levi said and crossed his arms.

She narrowed her eyes at him. "I'm not complaining! I'm just saying what is the obvious" she replied.

Levi and (Y/N) were having a heated argument about something that occurred during the day. She was not happy about what was going on, and she was trying to point it out to him. Levi thought she was just complaining.

Truth is, Levi and (Y/N) both had strong feelings for one another, but both were too scared to admit it. People noticed it, and even pointed it out, but the two of them would just shrug it off.

"Ugh! (Y/N) just shut the hell up already! You complain too much and it's so annoying" Levi snapped and looked at her.

She went silent.

What he said kind of made her upset. She never thought she was annoying before, she didn't really know what to say to him now.

The cracking of thunder broke her out of her thoughts. "Oh... well I'm gonna go now" she said and stood up.

Levi noticed her tone and the way her whole mood changed. "Wait (Y/N)..." he said.

She didn't listen and slammed the door to his office. Levi rolled his eyes at how stupid he sounded, he really said that to her. He didn't mean to call her annoying, it sort of slipped out, he was upset.

The loud claps of thunder and the sound of pounding rain was making it difficult for him to focus. Levi hated storms for very specific reasons, and it bothered him to the point where he couldn't do his paperwork. He was also very worried about (Y/N). He cared a lot about her ever since she was promoted to his squad months ago.

Levi decided to go and find her to talk. He didn't want her going to bed upset. He exited his office and was faced with Hanji.

"What do you want?" Levi asked and crossed his arms.

She nodded. "Um.. I wanted to check in with you. I heard you arguing with (Y/N), and so did the others" she replied.

He sighed. "It was nothing huge... did you see where she went?" he asked and nodded.

Hanji looked at him. "She went somewhere, I didn't see her. Most likely to her room, but I don't know Levi, that sounded really harsh" she replied and shrugged.

He looked back at Hanji. "I'll find her and make sure she's fine" he said and walked away.

He began to make his way to her room. She most likely was in there, hopefully no one would think he was a weirdo. He was just making sure she was in her room safe.

He opened the door and looked around. It was dark except for the lightning that would frequently flash across the sky.

"(Y/N)" Levi whispered and waited for a response.

It was silent.

He nodded. "(Y/N)!" he whispered this time a little louder.

He was super confused and decided to go by her bed. That's when to his surprise, she wasn't in her bed. The lightning made this clear now, she wasn't in her room, and his anxiety began to spike.

Where the hell did she go?

Levi quickly exited her room, and went to go and find Hanji. If (Y/N) wandered off somewhere, he wanted to know where.

"Hey Levi, did you-" Hanji was cut off by him.

"Where the hell is (Y/N)?! She's not in her room, and I don't know where she could be" Levi said and looked up at her.

She nodded. "She's not there? Oh God... she probably went outside. She has a tendency to wander off there when she is upset" she replied and rubbed her head.

"Come with me to find her! Gather my squad" Levi said and went to grab his cloak.

He hated going outside in the rain. He had his reasons, but he wanted to make sure she was safe. Being out in a storm isn't ideal, and it's super dangerous.

Hanji got his squad together to go and search for her. "Everyone is ready Levi" she said.

He nodded. "Alright... let's move out, she can be anywhere. Check absolutely every corner" he replied and began to make his way outside.

The lightning shot across the sky, and thunder crashed above him. The rain hit him quickly making it difficult to see.

"Oluo and Petra! You two go together, Eld and Gunther, you two stay together as well. I'll be on my own! If you find anything meet back here" Levi said and began to ride his horse around.

The rain made it hard for him to see. Levi hated storms, and being out in one made his anxiety spike through the roof. He silently prayed (Y/N) was fine, and she was just sitting somewhere safe. He didn't want her wandering around in the rain.

"(Y/N)! Where are you?" Levi yelled and waited for a response.

Nothing.

Shit. He kept thinking to himself she wandered very far. If she did that'd be bad, he'd spend all night looking for her. He wasn't going to give up so easily on her.

(Y/N) was under a tree crying as the rain came over her. No one knew she was there, but it wasn't the safest. Being under a tree during a thunderstorm was not a good idea. She was cold, and wet which wasn't good either.

That's when she saw a figure in the distance. "(Y/N)!?" a voice called.

She recognized it to be her Captain's voice. Did he figure out she went outside? Levi hated storms, so why would he be out looking for her?

(Y/N) stood up and looked around. Levi saw someone near a tree, and decided to make his way over there. With the lantern light, he knew it was (Y/N).

"(Y/N)! Are you alright?" he asked as he got off his horse.

She sniffed. "Yeah.. I'm fine. I'm going to go" she said and tried to walk away from him.

He grabbed her arm. "No. Why the hell are you out here? It's dangerous, you should know better. You had everyone worried" he said and looked at her with seriousness.

She crossed her arms. "I just wanted to clear my mind" she replied and tried to walk off.

Levi didn't let her go so easily. "Look (Y/N), you're a shitty liar. I know you're upset with me, and I'm sorry for making you upset. You're cold and wet, so come with me" he said and held his hand out to her.

She felt a blush spread across her cheeks as she took his hand. He guided her onto his horse, and lead it back to the stables. The rain was still pouring down. (Y/N) was shivering on the horse.

"Captain!" Petra called as she saw him return with (Y/N).

He looked at her. "I got (Y/N), you guys can head back to bed. Thank you once again" he said and hopped off his horse.

The rest of his squad left, and Levi took her back to his room. They both were drenched as water dripped off of them, and (Y/N) felt extremely cold and uncomfortable in her wet clothes.

"Don't just stand there... here" Levi said and tossed her a towel.

(Y/N) took it and began to dry herself off. "I-I'm cold" she said and looked at him.

He nodded. "I can tell... here take these" he replied and gave her some clothes.

They were his clothes, she had not much of a choice but to change out of hers. Levi began to dry his hair which was also wet from the rain.

"Where should I change?" she asked and stood up.

Levi looked over at her. "In the bathroom obviously, I'm not gonna force you to strip in front of me, unless you want to" he replied and crossed his arms.

She began to blush at his words. "Uhh..." she said and quickly went to the bathroom.

(Y/N) began to remove the wet clothes that clung to her body. She put them in the bathtub, because she knew Levi would throw an absolute fit if she left them on the ground. His clothes actually fit her pretty well, so she wasn't really uncomfortable.

She exited the bathroom and saw Levi standing in his room. "Huh... they fit" he said and eyed her form.

She looked at him and blushed. "Y-Yeah.. they do" she replied and stood there.

Levi came up to her. "You know... I was worried about you. Being out in the rain isn't a smart thing, so don't do it again" he said.

She nodded. "I'm sorry.. I didn't mean to cause trouble" she replied.

"I may never get the opportunity to say this, but (Y/N)... I have feelings for you. As much as you may be a brat, I still care a lot for you" he said and looked down at her.

(Y/N) felt herself blush, and her heart beginning to race. He actually liked her back? She never really thought he would.

"I like you too Levi" she said and smiled a bit.

His eyes were wide and he was speechless. "Ah, so you must have ran out there on purpose, so I would save you" Levi said and smirked.

She hit his arm and rolled her eyes. "I did not!" she said.

He found amusement in her cuteness. "I'm messing with you... but seriously, never do that again" he said and pulled her into a hug.

She buried her face into his chest. "I promise" she said and smiled.