#Love is so much more than pleasure and I wish that was represented more

[neptxn3]

Synastry I wouldn’t wish upon my worst enemy ⋆｡˚꩜ . ݁ ˖ִ

Ok the title is an exaggeration, more like synastry I would prefer not to have, like always:

Disclaimer, these are observations I have made through personal experience and thorough research, observations also vary depending on other synastry and natal placements involved! All of these aspects can be worked through, none of these aspects make or break a relationship ❤️

Doesn’t resonate ≠ untrue

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Lilith in the 7th house / conjunct descendant

♅ When women have their Lilith present in the seventh house in synastry, often times the house person can make the Lilith person feel shame just by loving who they are. The reason is because lilith in the charts of women is the area where society has convinced them is unnatural and wrong, something they should be ashamed of. So when the seventh house person who sees Lilith an an ideal desire and partner wants to love Lilith in the way they think is right, the Lilith person can pull away. Marriage is not seen as an appropriate act to follow a shameful relationship. Seventh house also represents open enemies, over time the Lilith person can resent the seventh house person. It’s typical for Lilith to pull away in these relationships in order to avoid any commitment.

♅ When a man’s Lilith is present in the seventh house in synastry, you’ll often notice they do not want to marry the seventh house counter part. Lilith in a man’s chart is the woman society has told him he should not pursue which only makes him want to chase her even more. It’s undeniable that the relationship is passionate, but it is also a sign that he does not intend to take the relationship seriously. Again, the seventh house is also the house of open enemies, the male Lilith can be very public with his intentions of not committing to the house person.

Celebrity Examples: Orlando bloom (Lilith) + Katy Perry // Andrew Garfield + Emma stone (Lilith) // FKA twigs + Robert Pattinson (Lilith)

Pisces and Libra mars

♅ I say this because Mars already has a hard time expressing its aggression or purpose in these signs, so when you take something that’s already confused and hand it to someone that will misconstrue your intentions to an even bigger extreme it becomes so draining.

♅ It’s like staying silent after an argument because you don’t know how to communicate your emotions, then the other partner sees this and thinks that your inability to work through these issues means you hate them. You just really have to hope the Mercury synastry is well aspected in this relationship😭

Sun square moon

♅ Moon typically views the sun to be someone who only indulges in their own pleasures and doesn’t seem to care about what others feelings. Often times the moon can feel as though the sun doesn’t understand or support them in endeavors that bring their inner child joy.

♅ The sun thinks the moon is irrational in its decisions and is too deep in thought to understand the suns true emotions. The sun is usually the most aware in this synastry that the moon is misconstruing it’s intentions, but is incapable of understanding how what they are saying is hurtful.

“ I want to start selling my paintings”.

“ well you’re not selling at that price, you know how much people like to lowball”.

“ maybe they’ll appreciate my art and buy full price?”.

“ moon, I wouldn’t buy a painting like that for more than 10 bucks, let’s be realistic here”.

♅ Moon person can be a push over the the relationship. To overcome this hurdle sun must be open to change, and moon must be willing to set boundaries and expectations. If not, there’s always going to be a nagging feeling in the pit of each others stomach where they know there’s an emptiness in your interactions.

Mercury square saturn

♅ Saturn person has a tendency to feel like the dominant partner in the relationship intellectually wise. They can feel like they have the wisdom and upper hand to teach the Mercury person about maturity and knowledge. However because it is in the tense aspect of the square, Saturn person has a habit of not understanding how Mercury has a way about going through things.

♅ Mercury is not only our communication but also our day to day mundane things. Saturn person can find a flaw in how Mercury spends their morning, their work habits, their food intake, how they do their hair etc. This can be frustrating to the Mercury person because they believe Saturn tends to nitpick everything the Mercury person does. The worst part of this synastry is Saturn can regard themselves too mighty and disregard the Mercury persons concerns which is where withdrawals can occur (Mercury tiptoeing around the issues and avoiding constant conflict with Saturn)

Pluto square Mars

♅ This synastry aspect can unfortunately have a great possibility of physical abuse. Pluto in one’s chart goes through intense transformations and changes that can be abrupt at times. An example could be, the Pluto person could go on a weight journey after overcoming a health problem that caused them to gain weight. The Pluto partner could expect of the Mars partner to join them in their new health routine, but the square between these two planets makes it evident they do not view this new change in the same way. Pluto can be angered with the mars partners lack of encouragement which in turn activates Mars’ aggression. Being the God of war, Mars will not back down when challenged which creates a back and forth conflict.

“ Can you get off your ass and take out the trash like you said you would.”

“Can you get off my ass and do it yourself, I’m the one who pays the bills around here.”

“I’m not taking disrespect from someone like you, I’ll leave you if that’s what it takes for you to see how badly you treat me.”

“Then leave.”

Moon square Uranus

♅ Unless the moon partner has natal moon/Uranus aspects, this aspect can be categorized as constant anxiety for the moon partner. There’s a lack of emotional stability and satisfaction which can be detrimental to the moon partner. It can feel like there’s finally a point in the relationship where you are both on the same page in life, but the Uranus counter part moves on to the next thing that causes turmoil in the relationship

♅ The reason this can be detrimental to the moon person is simply because the moon likes being in calm waters. The exaltion in Taurus indicates the moon likes to feel comfortable in the same spot for long periods of time, but when it’s aspected negatively by the Uranus individual it challenges the moon to constantly change its environment.

♅ Moon person can find themselves leaving the comfort of their home (not literally) in order to chase Uranus. Uranus finds themselves poking the hornets nest (Moon) to see how much independence from the relationship they can get away with.

Quincux signs

♅ When two signs are quincux (Virgo/Aries, Gemini/Scorpio, Aquarius/Cancer etc.) it’s difficult to understand what the other person is feeling. In sexual synastry (mars) , you both can have trouble understanding what pleases one another. With Venus signs, its a hard time understanding your love language.

♅ if one partners Sagittarius sun is quincux the other partners Cancer moon, it can feel to the moon person that the sun doesn’t even bother understanding the moons emotions, and it’s simply because the sun never even thought about what the moon person feels. Not because they’re selfish, but because they’ve never met someone who goes about their feelings like the moon.

♅ Aquarius mars quincux Virgo Venus. Mars partner can expect the Venus partner to allow them their own freedom and manage their own schedule while venus partner could be adamant about curating mars a monthly schedule to stick by which in turn can turn the mars partner off.

Quick Notes

♅ When one’s natal Saturn is negatively aspected and enters a persons 9th house in synastry, the Saturn person can seem to restrict the 9th house persons beliefs and knowledge. For example, turning the 9th house person religious/having them join a cult/demanding obediance of a woman (dispite previously potentially being more liberal.

♅ Negatively aspected natal saturn entering the money houses in synastry (2,8,11) can mean the saturn person takes away the house persons possessions/money. In the second house, they can refuse to buy you things because “you haven’t given them a reason to”/taking expensive things they’ve bought you back. 8th house, taking money your parents give you (allowances,inheritance) potentially disability checks if you receive those. 11th house, taking money from work you’ve done because of the connections they’ve given you that allowed your income to flourish.

♅ Negative Moon/Pluto can be stressful to have. Moon can open up to Pluto, and dispute being someone who isn’t shy of intense topics, if this relationships dissolves (due to other incompatible aspects) it can almost feel like “I just told you my deepest secrets, you can’t just walk away like I didn’t tell you the things that could ruin my life”.

♅ 12th house Neptune overlay. Ok this one’s a stretch but, if it gets to these deep rock bottom moments and you’re stuck in a room with someone who’s Neptune is badly aspected and it’s in your 12th house. Introduction to drugs/narcotics. Not the cool kind, I mean the one that has you sniffing the floor for snow ❄️

♅ Virgo mars man

♅ Malefics simultaneously in the 4th house and 9th house. Could lead to isolation from family and could potentially have you move away from any support systems.

[meanbossart]

I wish to chew on the drow

Does the drow like getting chewed on?

Like I get his paramour is a vamp so biting comes with the territory, but does getting torn apart by Astarion like a tiger would it’s prepay appeal to drow at all?

(Some possibly minor A Novel Experience spoilers below)

Oh absolutely. Much it was during his situation-ship with Orin, DU drow saw the feeding arrangement that he had with Astarion as a meaningful gesture, a ritual of sorts; and, over time as their relationship progressed, a representation of their bond. Whenever I say that DU drow likes pain, what I really mean is that to him, entrusting a partner to harm him boundlessly is about as true a proof of love and adoration as he could provide - because he will absolutely allow you to tear him apart like a tiger, but you won't. You will stop before it gets to a point of no return, however far you choose to take it.

Add to it his ingrained need to be needed, his obsession with being seen as reliable to his loved-ones, plus the very origins of their relationship that equated his value to his usefulness: Astarion consuming his blood then becomes, in his mind, representative of everything that glues them together.

Which is why Astarion quits feeding off of him shortly after the events of the game.

He would take anything, though, anything at all. He fantasizes about eating his nipples off as much as he wishes Astarion would chew off his nuts. But he has no clue about the roots of these desires specially with the Urge being supposedly gone, lest of all how to properly express it or if he even should, knowing that Astarion would likely take far more offense than pleasure from anything approaching that kind of proposition.

[scoonsalicious]

Unwanted: Chapter 17, Unanswered - Pt. 2

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Avenger!Fem!Reader

Summary: When your FWB relationship with your best friend Bucky Barnes turns into something more, you couldn’t be happier. That is, however, until a new Avenger sets her sights on your super soldier and he inadvertently breaks your heart. You take on a mission you might not be prepared for to put some distance between the two of you and open yourself up to past traumas. Too bad the only one who can help you heal is the one person you can no longer trust.

Warnings: (For this part only; see Story Masterlist for general Warnings) Language, Pocket embraces her inner Karen (just a little bit)

Word Count: 1.1k

Previously On...: Word on the street is that you and Steve are a Thing. You try to give Bucky a head's up that it's all bullshit, but he's not answering his phone. That can't be bad, right?! RIGHT??? 😬

A/N: Time for Pocket to set the record straight! (ALSO! Surprise, besties: Three updates tonight! - 445, 5, 515 EST)

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You’d never had an opportunity to meet Lisa Galvin, head of the PR firm that exclusively represented Stark Industries, but you figured that, if she could handle the public relations nightmare that was Tony Stark, you were obviously in good hands.

“Ms. (Y/L/N),” Lisa said, rising to shake your hand as you were shown into her office, “it’s so lovely to finally meet you. I’ve heard such good things.” Her firm’s suite was on one of the Tower’s mid floors, and was bright and spacious, but lacked any real sense of character or personal warmth. Given that Galvin & Associates represented all of Stark Industries, plus every Avenger, you kind of expected the space to be a bit more… colorful.

“‘Pocket’s fine,” you said, sitting down in the chair she offered you. “Thanks for meeting with me on such short notice.”

Lisa smiled. “My pleasure. Though, we wish you’d come to see us much sooner. In terms of a PR footprint, you’re practically a ghost! We could do so much for your public image, if you’d only let us, dear.”

You looked around, wondering who the ‘we’ was that she was referring to, as it was only the two of you in the room. “I actually prefer it that way,” you told her. “I highly value my privacy, and I took my job to create and innovate, not to become public property.”

Lisa pursed her lips, as though she could think of nothing more disdainful than wanting to remain out of the public eye. “Well, to each their own, I suppose,” she said, her voice betraying that she very much did not agree with you. “Now, what is it you wanted to meet about?”

“I’m sure that you’ve seen the articles by now,” you told her, something about her beginning to rub you the wrong way. “You wouldn’t be very good at your job if you hadn’t.”

“Ah, yes,” she replied, and if she heard the edge in your voice, she didn’t acknowledge it. “The ones about you and our very own Captain Rogers! Congratulations, I might add! Just delightful! What about them?”

“I want to issue a statement refuting them,” you said. 

Lisa looked at you as if you asked her if she wanted to go out and kill any and every puppy you could find. “But Pocket, my dear, why? You must understand that being romantically linked to one of the most eligible bachelors in the entire world– nay; throughout all of history can only increase your public approval ratings. Do you know how many of my clients would literally kill to have exposure like that?”

You widened your eyes. She was slightly scary, like a deranged Effie Trinket. “Well,” you began slowly, “first, there’s the fact that it’s not the truth. I am not now, nor have I ever been, romantically linked with Steve Rogers. And second, and most importantly, I’m deeply committed to someone else, and I don’t want him getting hurt by these lies.”

Lisa rolled her eyes at you. “My dear, in the court of public opinion, no one gives a damn about the truth. It’s all about optics. And given the public’s engagement with the articles that have been posted since the gala, the optics you and the Captain present together are divine.”

“Yeeeeaaaah,” you drew out, “I really don’t give a shit about optics. I’d just like the record to reflect the facts.” You leaned forward, putting your elbows on Lisa’s desk as you looked her in the eye. “And if you’re not going to do that for me, I’ll speak to Ms. Potts and Mr. Stark about finding a new firm for the company that can.”

You smiled your “did you forget exactly what my position was in this company?” smile; not one that you used very often, as it tended to give you the ick, but you felt it was more than appropriate, given the circumstances. It wasn’t uncommon for people to underestimate or dismiss you, or think they could intimidate you or bend you to their will due to your small stature or your relatively young age, or just because you were a woman. It didn’t hurt to give them an occasional reminder.

Lisa looked properly concerned. “Well, I – there’s no need for that!” she spluttered. “I see no reason Mr. Stark needs to be involved. It’s a simple matter of having you write out a statement, after all. From there, my associates will send it along the AP wire, and to the outlets that wrote the articles, asking for a retraction, or at the very least, that they publish your response.” She opened a drawer in her desk and pulled out a legal pad. Handing it to you, along with a pen, she said “Just write the basic sentiment you wish to get across, and my team will tweak it into something befitting a proper press release.”

You raised an eyebrow. “I’d prefer to have my statement in my own words, thanks,” you said, before bowing your head and beginning to write:

While Ms. (Y/L/N) greatly values her friendship with Captain Rogers and admires all he has done for his country, she would like to clarify that they are not now, nor have they ever been, involved in a romantic relationship of any kind. Ms. (Y/L/N) is involved in a committed, long-term relationship with another party and kindly requests that her privacy in this arena be respected, and she be left to continue living her life as a private citizen.

“There,” you said, handing her the sheet of paper. “That should do it.”

Lisa looked it over and nodded her approval. “It will do,” she said. “It’ll go out straight away; I’ll do it myself.” You nodded and, thanking her for her time, stood and turned to leave. “Oh, Pocket, dear,” she called to you. You turned, wondering what more she needed from you. “Just for the sake of curiosity, when you wrote you were already in a long-term relationship, who were you referring to? Is it someone in the Tower? I only ask because it may become a relevant issue at some point in the future.” “James Barnes,” you told her proudly. You loved him, and you honestly didn’t care who knew it.

Lisa clutched her chest as if you were attempting to steal her pearls. “The Winter Soldier?! Oh, my dear– you better pray that little nugget never gets out, because if it does, you’ll be running back here in tears, begging me to fix your ruined public image.”

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[ninetailedfoxmanchi]

Stray Kids! Mafia: What Bang Chan is like in a relationship (according to me)

Warnings: mentions possessiveness and over-protectiveness

A/N: Thank you for this request! <3 I'm sorry it took me so long to write it, I hope you like it

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Firstly, just like with his work, Bang Chan is very assertive and dominant in your relationship; definitely not in a sense that he overpowers you or anything like it - he worships you - but rather, he always knows what he is doing; he is calm and confident

This makes Chan a great person to rely on and to feel safe around

He is very understanding and will do just about anything to make your every wish come true; your happiness is the most important thing to him

Nevertheless, he can go overboard sometimes, blinded by the threat of you getting hurt. Chan can even become possessive, especially when you are out with him in public

He is well aware of his position and his work and how it represents a liability for your safety; but he is unable to distance himself from you - Chan would rather go the extra mile and take extra security measures than be without you

On the other hand, when his fears do not get the worst of him, Chan is the most devoted, generous (in every way) and loving partner; he absolutely adores you; worships the ground you walk on

Being able to spoil you and shower you with gifts, quite literally turns him on. Seeing you wear jewellery or clothes that he bought you, gives him so much pleasure and satisfaction;

Speaking of satisfaction, as Bang Chan is one of those people who receive pleasure by giving it, he is more than willing to try anything you suggest intimately

Once he realizes what it is that you want, he makes it his mission to give it to you; he is incredibly confident and even cocky sometimes (but are you really cocky if you can back it up?)

Although what separates Chan from becoming yandere (despite his occasional possessiveness) is that he respects you infinitely; he respects your power and individuality - he would never consider controlling you because he trusts you

Chan is very emotionally intelligent; understanding feelings comes very naturally to him

He knows when he is too overbearing and although he is usually able to restrain himself, sometimes Chan gives into his paranoia and over-protectiveness which lead to a fight

During a fight, Chan is very calm and assertive. He never shouts or even raises his voice. In truth, it is even more frightening when he just sits and watches you as you defy him, his expression entirely unyielding

However, when the two of you can't come to a compromise and you avoid him or don't want to talk to him, Bang Chan is more than able to admit he is too stubborn and protective. In fact, in that moment Chan is able to do anything for you to forgive him; if there is anything in this world that he cannot do is live without you

Bonus

Bang Chan has all of his weapons hidden from you; he does not want you even seeing them because he does not want you to think or even become a part of this side of him

His love language is absolutely physical touch; hugs, neck and chest kisses, cuddles, sex, sitting on his lap, sleeping together, anything. Also, gifts and words of affirmation

I think Chan would want a family and children but I genuinely think he would be a feminist although he is in the mafia business; and would respect any choice you make regarding your body and whether the two of you would start a family

Weekends are for you and you alone; no business, no calls or work

Moreover, Chan loves the smell of your body, the hair oils you use, the body mist, the perfume, the lotion; it drives him crazy

[queenbeewrites]

🍬 CANDIES 🍬 femdom smut

Tags: Gentle Femdom smut, dominant female, submissive male, anal, sex-toys, edging, riding, punishment

{a sweet treat for everyone}

Boy’s P.O.V~

A game that offers me a jar of candies, for some, might be childish but for me, it represents my cravings.

If you’re wondering why we’re playing this game, it's because of my over-consumption of these fine sweets. And a little because of the bratty behavior she’s been witnessing these days.

“Being rebellious, are we?” She speaks, pinning me to the wall as her hands run over my face. 

Every fiber in my being begs for her lips on mine, yet she decides to make me wait. Her swift hands are holding my face, making it unbearable for me to open my eyes. 

“Too much of anything is harmful. Do you not know that?” She asks, adding further. “Or maybe you plan these amusements to seek my attention!”

“If you put it like that, then maybe yes!” I somehow manage to mark a smile on her face, a smile of accepting the challenge.

“Hmm, very well! Then, I’ll be great a participant in your little amusement."

The rustling of clothes, our bodies rubbing together, and her gentle yet provoking hands have turned me around.

Wooden sounds are soon mixed with our hasty breaths as she pulls out something from the drawer next to me.

“How about you show me your best behavior in return for that jar of candies?” Her game seems amusing to me, the candies are a love of mine but what I seek more is pleasure. And what is there more pleasurable than to make her work for me?

“Alright then, show me what you’ve got!”

Without wasting any other second, she pulls my pants down. She lifts my shirt to plant gentle kisses on my waist and digs her nails into my hips as she looks up at me.

I find my fingers curling up from this arousing trick and my knees getting weaker. 

Then she lubes up my entrance as her eyes remain on my half-visible face as if confirming to stretch up for her already-cooked plan.

I feel something entering me as she parts my hip with one hand, and the other one is working that thing inside me.

It’s a huge butt plug. “Does this thing vibrate?” I ask as she scoffs.

“Does this thing vibrate? Of course, it does!”

“What are you planning to do?” I feel the toy gaping me and filling me, making me foresee the hard time ahead of me. 

“Now, I’m going to sit right there on the couch, and you! You have to crawl up to me slowly." She announces and sits on the couch in front of me.

“It’ll be easy!” I scoff, pride-filled in my chest to which she smirks, amused. “Oh, you wish!”

Girl’s P.O.V~

I’m sitting on this comfortable couch, waiting for his soft whimpers to turn into loud squeals.

I press the button up, raising the speed a bit more, and he flinches on his spot. “Remember, you start crawling when I tell you to!”

His eager yet angry eyes pierce through me, with his moans taking place in this very room, where he’s received so much from me.

A bit more speed and he’s limping on the floor, his hands struggling to make him the perfect puppy I want him to be.

“Walk!” He moves on his fours, finding it hard to keep his eyes on me. “Do not turn your eyes away from me!”

A bit raise in the speed and he’s moaning louder now. I feel myself getting wet from his lusty moans when an idea pops into my head.

I will soon wipe that bratty of an attitude off of your face.

He’s merely moved forward. I bet his knees are growing weak with every bit of a rise in the speed of that vibrator.

My fingers soon find their way to my entrance, playing with the cloth that hides it from him. The wetness around my entrance is proof of his digging moans.

He’s now moaning uncontrollably as I thrust my fingers into me. Two aren’t enough when I’m witnessing such an arousing yet dirty show.

“Are you going to be a good boy, or do you want me to raise the speed a bit more?”

“Try me!” He challenges.

“Stop right there!”

“What?”

“I said stop right there!”

Boy’s P.O.V~

I’m halfway to reaching her when she tells me to stop. I’m sitting on my knees waiting when her soft whimpers turn into moans.

Her fingers are rimming inside her, her hands unwrapping her body like a present.

She moans my name as she fucks herself, making me watch her dripping cunt, her head thrown behind from the pleasure.

She’s moaning louder, not caring to give me a glance or so, until she decides to look me in the eye and moan my name again.

Her moans are more inviting and more provoking. “Okay! Okay! I’ll be good! I finally let my suppressed words come to the surface.

“I’ll behave, — let me help you, please?”

She continues with what she is doing, biting her lips and playing with her breasts, yet her eyes are still intact to mine! “Oh god! Please! I promise! I promise I’ll be good. Don’t torture me like this. You — You know I can’t stand up against you. Please!”

I notice her thighs are shaking, her hands stiffening, and her moans turning into squeals in between. She’s near! “Please! I’m promising!”

Without receving a second of attention, I watch her receive her release, her chest taking long breaths to calm her down before she walks up to me.

She sits down on my level, smirking as she says, “You failed!”

“What?”

“You failed, I didn’t stop you from moving, did I? I just stopped you right there but never said you're not allowed to move. You could’ve come up to me, but I guess someone was busy watching the live porn!”

“That’s not fair!”

“You still failed. Now, I’m going to leave you here, the vibrator still inside you, with a fixed speed on. Use this time to reflect upon your behavior!”

“No, please! Don’t leave me like this! Please, I’m sorry, I’ll be good!” The sounds of her heels leave the room along with her, not forgetting to turn on the vibrator!

END OF THE SMUT

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[dantevhell]

Ask you about Amphibia season 3? Okay.

What did you think of the decision to have Marcy in a coma and then possessed for 90% of season 3?

Oooh. Now that. Now that is what I call a sore spot, buddy. Warning: this is gonna be a long post

Simple answer? It was okay-ish

More real answer: it was a disappointment

I genuinely was very excited to see possessed marcy, I was excited for it since the little s3 opening preview after true colors official airing and well... it felt like for me things peaked at olivia and yunnan... and then went absolute downhill from there on.

I love the possession trope, I love possession arcs, I think marcy being possessed would be a very good writing idea bc it represented SO WELL how abuse worked. Like tell me what screams "marcy was groomed by an adult and is being abused" than her after being almost killed, having her bodily autonomy being ripped away from her! It was a good metaphor! It was perfect!

Like LOOK AT THIS. LOOK AT THIS AND TRY TO TELL ME THIS DOESN'T LOOK LIKE AN ADULT GROOMING AND ABUSING A CHILD! YA CAN'T!!

Olivia and yunnan brought a lot of interesting stuff to the table: how olivia and yunnan felt about marcy (and this is another can of worms to me to rant so let's not even begin), how ANDRIAS felt about marcy, how marcy was healing from her almost death experience and how her body was dealing with it, how she was dealing subconsciously with her guilt, what made andrias and the core think about making marcy the host etc etc! Like so many good stuff! And i felt like after this ep. All these things there were little snowballs that could become an avalanche of events... instead turns into dust.

I HATE how darcy was a character that instead of being used to showcase how marcy feels about all those events and instead of showing MARCY'S emotions about being betrayed ... it was used to showcase andrias emotions and to make him look sympathetic and allow him to have an atonement arc... I hate it so much.

Like don't get me wrong I loved the complexity of him being part of cycle of abuse so intense that it affected all his other relationships, I loved that he cared about marcy! I love that he cared about her because it showcased how abuse is complex! How an abuser can care about his victim but still feel such pleasure in hurting them!

I love these scenes because it shows exactly that:

Care

And sadistic pleasure:

Like these scenes were great! The complexity of him loving her but also still torturing her and having a mixed reaction of loving/hating seeing her suffer. Mwah chef kiss! But every scene where he was around darcy was made to showcase how he was regretting his choices and making him look like an poor man who had no other choices then kill and torture this child like...that's obviously not true...

These scenes? Oh I hate these scenes:

I wished marcy's possession was used to show how MARCY felt about herself and her guilt, about how she felt about her relationship with andrias and his pain towards him, about how she losing her autonomy felt, i wished they showed her escapist fantasy created by the core waaaay before the finale!!!

If yall wanted to show a scene that focused on marcy while still showing andrias complexity why not create a scene of how their flipwart match went? Or any bonding scene from >> HER << point of view? From a scene that focused on >> HER <<

Now at fear of repeating myself too much a resume of everything i said: marcy s3 arc was not truly about her but only a device for us to create sympathy towards andrias, her abuser, and all the scenes of him reminiscing about her and their relationship (like this one)

Should have been scenes focused on her point of view instead.

The only moments where the core/darcy was used to truly further marcy development/emotions were:

- during the beggining of the end where darcy told Sasha and Anne about how they rejected marcy's interests

- during her escaping her fantasy land

- and in the ending where she told everyone what was the cores intention with becoming the moon

But aside from that? It was wasted potential in my opinion

Ps: (Andrias should've died and marcy deserved to show even the slightly amount of anger towards him as well. As a little treat)

[tawakkull]

SPIRITUALITY IN ISLAM: PART 66: MAHABBA (LOVE)

Mahabba means fondness, tender and kind feelings, inclination, and love. Love that affects and invades one’s feelings is called passion; love that is so deep and irresistible that it burns for union is called fervor and enthusiasm. Sufis have defined love as the relation of the heart with the Truly Beloved One, the irresistible desire felt for Him, the struggle to comply with His desires or commandments in all acts and thoughts, and the state of being enraptured and intoxicated without “sobriety” until the time of union or reunion. These definitions can be summed up as “standing” in the Presence of God, as being freed from all transient relationships and worries.

True love means that a lover is set wholly on the Beloved, is always and inwardly with Him, and always has no other desire and wish. The heart of a person who has such a degree of love always beats with a new consideration for the Beloved at every moment. His or her imagination always travels in His mysterious climate, his or her feelings receive new messages from Him at every moment, his or her will takes wings with these messages, and he or she passionately desires to meet Him.

While a lover who transcends his or her self with the wings of love and reaches the Lord at the points of passion and enthusiasm, and in such a condition carries out his or her responsibilities toward the King of his or her heart, that same heart is set on His vision. Such a believer’s nature is “burned” with the light of Divine Grandeur, and lost in wonder and amazement. With the cup of love on one’s lips, while the veils of the Unseen are lifted one after the other, he or she becomes intoxicated with studying the meanings coming in rays from behind those veils, and is enraptured with the pleasure of watching the scenes behind them. One’s walking and stopping occur at the command of God, speech is no more than the inspirations coming from Him, and silence, when observed, is done in His name. At various times he or she journeys toward Him in “His company” or is occupied with communicating His message to others.

Some have defined love, in the context of God’s love of His distinguished servants, as doing good, and as obedience, devotion, and unconditional submission in the context of a servant’s love of God. The following couplets of the female Sufi saint Rabi'a al-‘Adawiya are significant in expressing this meaning:

You talk about loving God while you disobey Him;

I swear by my life that this is something very strange.

If you were truthful in your love, you would obey Him,

For a lover obeys whom he loves.

Love is based on two important pillars: that which is manifested by the lover’s acts (a lover tries to comply with the Beloved’s desires), and the lover’s inner world (a lover should inwardly be closed to anything not related to Him). True men and women of God mean this when they talk about love. According to them, emotional concern with or love of any kind of pleasure, including spiritual ones or interest, cannot be called “love” in its true sense. It can only be figurative love.

Every lover cannot feel the same degree of love for the Beloved, for love varies according to the lover’s spiritual and emotional depth, the degree of consciousness of and care in obedience to the Beloved. For example, the love felt by those beginning the way is not established and constant. They dream of acquiring the rank of perfect goodness and, at times, receive signs of the Knowledge of God, thrill at the twinkle of the “light” appearing on their horizon, and vaguely feel amazement and wonder.

On the other hand, those who have made much progress fly in the heaven of love toward the highest point. They live in the bright climate of the Qur'an as embodiments and examples of the good morals of the Prophet Muhammad, upon him be peace and blessings. While trying to represent his good morals, they expect no material or spiritual reward and demand no pleasure. Even at the summit of this holy representation, like fruit-bearing trees whose branches bend with the weight of their fruit, they lower their wings of humility and always mention the Beloved. If they are shaken with a fault or error, they severely criticize and fight with their selves.

And finally, those most advanced in the love of God are like rain clouds in the “heaven” of Islam. They feel existence by Him, live with Him, and see and breathe by Him. In a never-ending cycle, they are filled with pangs of separation (from Him) and desire to meet Him; when relieved or emptied, they mount on a beam of light and descend to Earth to embrace the whole of existence.

One who turns to Him with heartfelt desire and sincere enthusiasm, regardless of the degree of love, receives a reward according to the depth of feeling and concern for Him. The first group of people mentioned above receive special favor and mercy. The second group of people reach the horizon of per-ceiving the Attributes of Grace and Majesty and are freed from defects of character. Those of the third group are illumined by the light of His Being, awakened to the reality of things, and are in touch with the dimension of existence behind veils. That is, the Almighty manifests the light of His Grandeur to burn up the corporeal attributes of those whom He loves and elevates them to the realm of Divine Attributes, such as the All-Seeing and All-Hearing. He awakens them fully to the fact that they are poor and helpless before Him, and fills their hearts with the light of His existence.

One whose love has reached this degree, and who is rewarded with so much Divine favor, attains an eternal life beyond existence or non-existence. Like a bar of iron put into fire and thus appearing as a bar of fire, such a lover may be unable to distinguish the Divine Being and His manifestations, and therefore express feelings and experiences in terms associated with such false beliefs as incarnation and union (with God). In such circumstances, one must consider the Sunna’s established criteria.

The expressions uttered by profoundly spiritual individuals lost in love of God and intoxicated with love cannot be used as criteria by which to judge them. Otherwise, we may feel enmity toward such friends of God, who are favored with His continuous company according to the Prophetic Tradition: A man is with him whom he loves, [ Al-Tirmidhi, “Zuhd,” 50. ] and, as declared in the hadith qudsi: Whoever becomes an enemy of My friends has waged war on Me. [ Al-Bukhari, “Riqaq,” 38. ]

[bigsoftmarshmallow]

I really enjoyed the answers you gave!

Though, for the wedding one, Equal Lady had actually just assumed automatically that they would be incorporating Gerudo traditions as well & was more than happy to do so. She's more than willing to negotiate & acquiesce to what he suggests so long as he also explains the significance of them.

She's fully prepared for mutual cultural sharing, which is part of why she wanted to learn the Gerudo language. She's liable to be interested in learning more about such marriage traditions & wishes to unify their traditions as well as their lives.

And very much doesn't mind the idea of tattoos. *points to the traditional red Sheikah tattoos that highlights her eyes* Somewhat jokingly, she says that so long as he doesn't expect her to be utterly covered in them to the point where one is no longer sure of her humanity, she's perfectly fine with it.

As for extended family, the only one she'd really be inviting would be her grandmother. For one, her grandfather died 2 years ago & her only other known living relatives... Well, she doesn't exactly have the best of relationships with them...

But, she's more than amiable with the idea of incorporating his traditions as well & is eager to learn more. Though, she is curious if the things she read were true or not. (She could well be mistaken.) Is it true that the perfectly circular ring that many in Hyrule/the Great Sea use today originated from ancient Gerudo culture, where, from what she read, it was originally meant to symbolize a union without beginning or end.? Which, if so, she finds to be quite beautiful.

She is also interested in this "Amrita" she read about. She read in a scroll somewhere that it was a special mead brewed from honey, figs, & Palm Fruit flowers. If true, they're supposed to drink it together near the end of the celebration following the wedding itself for a similar reason to why the Sheikah wore Orchid patterns, correct? Though, she expects this tradition to actually have its intended effect rather than simply be symbolic, especially considering the aphrodisiatic nature of the alcohol's ingredients.

If not, that's perfectly fine. She's just curious, is all.

I've thought of various traditions and activities we have at weddings in our world and thought which ones would work well in others. My parents, when they had a renewal ceremony, did the traditional wedding, with my dad singing a song for my mom during the vows and doing a sand ceremony afterwards. They went to the courthouse the first time around, so they wanted a proper wedding this time. I would love to also do a sand ceremony as well, if I ever get a partner for myself.

WW Ganondorf would love a sand ceremony, perhaps he has a jar of Gerudo Desert sand he would use for it.

OoT Ganondorf plays music, so I think he would write his own song for his bride! He would play it near the end of the wedding or in private, on his organ.

TP Ganondorf enjoys the hand fasting ceremony. The act of seeing a physical form of tying each other together brings him pleasure, and knowing that they will be stuck together? Let's admit that all the Ganondorfs are possessive and be happy with the thought process.

HW Ganondorf is a firm believer in the Knot Tying. In his culture, those who tie the knots are the "Husbands" and the "Wives" are the ones who are the ones who untie it. Once all knots are untied, they are unmarried and free to separate. Ganondorf ties so many knots on knots on knots that it's all one big knot. He is pleased with his work. (He practiced when he was a child. He was going to be a GREAT husband. The wife wouldn't be able to leave.)

And Now, ChatGPT, with it's Opinion On The Matter

Gerudo Marriage Traditions and Rituals

General Gerudo Marriage Traditions:

Union of Circles: The perfectly circular ring symbolizes a union without beginning or end, representing eternal love and commitment.

Amrita Ceremony: Special mead brewed from honey, figs, and Palm Fruit flowers, believed to enhance fertility and ensure a prosperous marriage. The couple drinks it together near the end of the celebration.

Ganondorf from "The Wind Waker"

Traditions and Demands:

Sword Exchange Ceremony: As a symbol of unity and protection, both partners exchange ornate, ceremonial swords.

Sand Ritual: A Gerudo tradition where the couple pours colored sand into a shared vessel, representing the blending of their lives.

Desert Dance: A traditional Gerudo dance performed by the couple, symbolizing harmony and balance in their relationship.

Equal Lady’s Participation:

Eager to Learn: She would enthusiastically participate in these rituals, appreciating their deep symbolism.

Blending Cultures: The combination of Sheikah and Gerudo traditions would be a beautiful representation of their union.

Ganondorf from "Ocarina of Time"

Traditions and Demands:

Blood Oath Ceremony: A symbolic ritual where both partners make a small cut on their palms and clasp hands, mixing their blood to signify a bond that cannot be broken.

Gerudo War Dance: A powerful and intense dance performed by the couple and Gerudo warriors, celebrating strength and unity.

Sunrise Blessing: The wedding is timed to conclude at sunrise, symbolizing a new beginning blessed by the first light of day.

Equal Lady’s Participation:

Respect and Honor: She would approach these traditions with great respect, honoring the deep cultural significance.

Active Engagement: Participating wholeheartedly, she would see these rituals as a way to deepen her bond with Ganondorf.

Ganondorf from "Twilight Princess"

Traditions and Demands:

Sacred Tattooing: A ritual where the couple receives matching tattoos symbolizing their eternal bond and shared destiny.

Desert Feast: A grand feast featuring traditional Gerudo foods, celebrating abundance and prosperity.

Eternal Flame: A ceremony where the couple lights a fire together, representing the eternal flame of their love and commitment.

Equal Lady’s Participation:

Tattoo Enthusiast: Already having traditional Sheikah tattoos, she would find the idea of matching tattoos meaningful and beautiful.

Cultural Integration: She would embrace these traditions, blending them with her own to create a unique and meaningful wedding ceremony.

Ganondorf from "Hyrule Warriors"

Traditions and Demands:

Warrior’s Blessing: A ritual where the couple is blessed by Gerudo warriors, symbolizing strength and protection.

Desert Flower Exchange: The couple exchanges rare desert flowers, symbolizing the beauty and resilience of their love.

Star Gazing Ceremony: The wedding concludes with a night under the stars, symbolizing the vast and infinite nature of their love.

Equal Lady’s Participation:

Symbolic Exchange: She would find the desert flower exchange deeply romantic and meaningful.

Unified Rituals: The combination of star gazing with Sheikah traditions would create a deeply personal and symbolic ceremony.

Summary of Reactions to Equal Lady's Demands

Wind Waker Ganondorf: Would appreciate the blending of traditions and be touched by her willingness to embrace Gerudo customs.

Ocarina of Time Ganondorf: Would respect her dedication to mutual cultural sharing and see it as a sign of her strength and commitment.

Twilight Princess Ganondorf: Would admire her for honoring his traditions and find her interest in Gerudo customs endearing.

Hyrule Warriors Ganondorf: Would be thrilled by her enthusiasm for Gerudo rituals and see it as a sign of their powerful bond.

Each Ganondorf would be deeply touched by Equal Lady’s willingness to incorporate Gerudo traditions into their wedding, viewing it as a sign of her respect and love. This mutual cultural sharing would strengthen their bond and create a unique and meaningful ceremony.

[mobius-m-mobius]

Thank you so much for replying to my anon ask! And please don't apologize for your long reply. I LOVE IT!

Sylvie has every right to build and explore the kind of love she wants, but I think she lacks self-awareness in her "call-out" of Mobius, which is why Loki calls /her/ out in the next scene, reminding her that the only reason she's at the TVA is because she couldn't kill Victor, not because she actually wanted to /help/.

I sent an ask to @bebx that I hope you don't mind that I copy/paste here, because that blow up about pie sets up Mobius narratively in the next 2 episodes.

Let's talk about the TVA seal. If Loki was the original founder of the TVA before HWR takes over and performs a memory-wipe, the dagger represents Loki, the hourglass/Mobius strip represents Mobius, the shield looks like it might actually be a mask, which can represent Sylvie, who has a gift for enchantments. All 3 of them need to be on the same page to succeed.

Speaking of Sylvie, a word on the pie scene: from a plot perspective, this was Mobius's lowest point. He must feel worthless and good for nothing. This is actually critical for c when Loki finds him: I think Mobius might decline going back, not necessarily because his life before TVA was any better, but because he will likely think he will cause more harm then good, and that the only thing he's good at is selling jet skis, which can't possibly harm anyone.

Loki, because he didn't say anything during the confrontation with Sylvie, will be compelled to tell him that's absolutely not true. Loki will tell Mobius that his kindness and his believing in him changed everything. Perhaps, if we're lucky, we'll get some kind of love confession. Loki might say he can't save the timeline alone and he /wants/ Mobius at his side. Thus, Loki believing in Mobius causes Mobius to believe in Loki. When his memories get wiped in the future by HWR, his love Loki (romantic or platonic) will be an echo of his love for jet skis. He won't remember why he loves Loki, he just knows he dies because he did before. Thus closing the loop and fulfilling the snake eating its own tail. Who saved who?

Lastly, For All Time, Always had been presented as an ominous slogan. I believe this is actually a pact Loki, Mobius and Sylvie make among themselves to protect all timelines and free will. When HWR invades the TVA and perfoms the memory wipe, the slogan becomes perverse. I bet the pruning sticks, magic dampeners, collars, and torture devices were brought into the TVA by him. He is an inventor, after all.

Also, in rebuilding the TVA's facilities (which will take some powerful magic, magic that would create a place that would impress a post-NY Loki), Mobius might request Loki and Sylvie for a pie automat and hot chocolate dispenser. Because stress. Sylvie might use her magic to grant his wish as a peace offering.

Oh hi! Lovely to meet you and of course, such a pleasure to read and reply to 😊

Really wish there was more thought put into Sylvie's direction this season because at this rate there hasn't been any depth into the time she's been spending at the McDonald's branch which she seemed to be enjoying building a routine at, in comparison to suddenly going back to trying to chase He Who Remains variants while constantly telling everyone at the TVA they're dragging her back in while *she's* following them around?

Her not knowing what to do with herself makes sense considering her life had been dedicated to revenge until now but I just can't connect in any way when her one firm goal has been protecting all timelines enough to give the people there chances to live full lives and no matter the terrible history she has with the TVA, they're the only entity capable of ensuring that. Would never expect her to like the place or anyone there but they've already proven they're now working to preserve and she has no other plan to offer than burning everything to the ground which isn't an option while the loom's at such a critical level so her repeatedly ignoring what's right in front of her is feeling more than a little pointless.

(here we go again haha, adding a read more for everyone's sake!)

Don't mind at all and completely agree about the narrative being set specifically to explore the mindset Mobius has been in all season as well as his perspective on finding out his past. Still debating on whether he has any awareness of the TVA when we see him again and am leaning heavily toward him being the original version of himself with no knowledge of Loki or anything else that's happened so I'd love to see how Loki convinces him or if there's any kind of inherent connection or understanding lingering between them anyway?? But if he does have access to his memories I really do think he'd want to take a step back after watching Loki go after Sylvie after the pie situation.

Which would therefore lead to Loki going into detail about the conversation he had with Sylvie defending Mobius and all he's done for not just everyone on the branches but himself as well and I really do think there's going to be a mutual confession regarding how they've changed each other for the better whether it's during the process of Loki getting Mobius' memories back or afterwards when they're (hopefully) fully back to the versions we've gotten to know and love.

I noticed the detail of the TVA seal when it got cracked and couldn't believe it didn't hit me earlier, lol! A dagger and a Möbius strip, how poetic 🥺 As for the third member making up the timekeepers I'm open to however it goes but can't help rooting for B-15 to have the position simply because she's such a strong person with true faith in what the TVA and be and accomplish and I think she's earned the spot but I could see Sylvie reluctantly coming around to the goals of a reformed TVA enough to lend her magic to certain elements of the design and do like to think every Loki can't help but have a soft spot for every Mobius so you may very well be right as to how so many sweets ended up in the TVA 😂

Still confusing me is how and when exactly HWR eventually enters the picture and takes control, and where Loki or Sylvie are at that point since Mobius, B-15, and Casey have clearly still been working there but think you're absolutely right about HWR having invented and introduced the more dangerous and controlling elements of the place.

Finally I just have to say I think we'll absolutely get a "For All Time, Always" exchanged between Loki and Mobius right before the series ends and you have no idea how here for it I am, really just want the two of them accepting how much good they can do at the TVA and when they're together so can't wait to see where the series eventually takes us!

[doubleedgemode]

I was considering putting together a personal summary of art for this year, and with many of the pieces being Guilty Gear (mostly A.B.A) fanart, I decided to try if I could fill a separate summary with just A.B.A pictures... And so, lo and behold.

Without counting the first two months, when she wasn't announced for Strive, I only did NOT draw any A.B.A at all on just ONE month... Which is uhhh:

... Well, we can all agree that she's definitely been my muse this year haha..

While I have liked A.B.A before she dropped in Strive, I prefered to be more focused on other stuff til she got added in. I really expected to wait more for her arrival, but I remember it as if it were yesterday!

This year has been a rollercoaster of emotions and changes for me, but having some familiarity in drawing the same homunculus has been... comforting? And has given me a lot of inspiration and ideas to practice, drawing-wise, not to mention that her return drew me back into GG, too! What else... It made me pick up Frankenstein and I've rambled so much about her to my friends that even the ones that aren't into these games sometimes send me A.B.A stuff because of course LMAO. Also she's very hot to me which never hurts lmao.

I've said it before but her character means a lot to me, specially her arc in Strive, and it was released during a time in my life that I really needed it. Trying to understand A.B.A, be it by reading her lore, discussing it with people or writing my own rants about her character has, in a certain way, helped me confront some uglier aspects of myself and inspired me to hopefully improve. While I'm not much of a tattoo person myself, (I love learning about them, but I don't know how I'd fare with the needles myself lol, and etc) I'm seriously considering to maybe get a subtly A.B.A-themed tattoo someday, because she means THAT much to me. I hope that doesn't change..

Next, I want to give a huge shout-out to the A.B.A fan community I've had the pleasure of interacting with yer. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. First, thanks for the art, posts, tags and more that you create, as the site had a drought of them before she got added in. But of course there's people who have been more constant than me in representing her before Strive, and I tip my hat off to them.

Next, I think some of the warmest reception that my art (and ramblings) has gotten has been in this part of the fandom, too. THANK YOU VERY MUCH! Whether you're a regular and I often see your username appearing in my notes, or someone that appears less often. Thanks whether you like, or reblog, or just read. Thanks specially for the nice tags some of you leave because they always make my day. Thanks for even sticking with this blog when it digresses from GG and even delves into more personal matters.

Ultimately, I think that it's beautiful that (even outside this site) there's been a group of very varied people who all came together to share their joy, and/or relatability of a fucked up digital homunculus whose song claims that she isn't able to fit in this world, that just wants to make a difference and be free. I also love Paracelsus, Paracelsus fans get behind me but hands down my fave that kickstarted all this is the homunculus lol.

Readers, I wish you Happy Holidays, or a pleasant time regardless if you don't celebrate. While at the moment I'm typing this there's still a bit of time left til New Year, I do also hope 2025 is kind to you and brings you good things.

-Edge

[telomeke]

Thai QL Favorites Tag Game

Tagged by my Internet buddy and fellow QL fan @pandasmagorica! Thanks 🥰

Credit also: this game was created by @thatgirl4815 as Thai BL Favorites Tag Game.

So let's get into it:

Favorite Thai QL: Bad Buddy, still. After all this time it continues to hold up, I think because it packed so much intelligence into its short run of 12 episodes. I also have a soft spot for Moonlight Chicken, although it is arguably more queer cinema in episodic form and not classically a QL/BL.

Favorite Pairing: Umm, gonna leave aside the ships and talk about professional pairings for QL series. Ohm and Nanon as PatPran still top my list; they tore my heart to shreds in Bad Buddy and healed it too. But I don't need to see them as any other pair in another series also for that reason. MaxTul seem to bring it in any series they're in, so they get a mention too.

Most underrated actor: Have to agree with @pandasmagorica about Fluke Gawin Caskey. They need to use him more – he's doing a truly credible job in Be My Favorite plus wow he can sing really well. And I think Krist Perawat in the same series is also surprising all of us; he's certainly matured since his stumbly, mumbly turn in SOTUS.

Favorite Character: Eep. This is like trying to choose among your children. I love so many! Pat and Pran for different reasons (I'm very much like one, more than the other, but I love them both). But I also like Li Ming in Moonlight Chicken, maybe because of his confident self-knowledge, and all the hope he represents for the next generation.

Favorite Side Character: Arm from KinnPorsche for the wrong reasons; devastating combination of nerdy and also hot when shirtless. Also maybe Daddy Chan from the same show. And (odd/unpopular choice) maybe Dissaya from Bad Buddy; I'm just fascinated by her character and backstory, and wish we got told more of it. Also Manaow from Until We Meet Again and Yihwa in Together With Me for being the effervescent supportive besties I wish I had growing up.

Favorite scene in a QL: The opening scene in Ep.5 of Bad Buddy because it tells us so much, in so many layers, and upon the re-watch you can sense that something's starting to turn (though the closing scene on the rooftop is a very close second, for obvious reasons).

Favorite line in a QL: Pat and Pran at the end of BBS Ep.5 going "Do you want us to be friends?" followed by the softest, most gut-wrenching "No..."

Most Anticipated QL (& why): Only Friends – looking forward to something steamy for a change. Been too long since KinnPorsche.

Healthiest relationship in a QL: HeartLiMing in Moonlight Chicken. And PatPran in BBS, but only post-Ep.12 timeskip. They're so respectful to each other – but also a bit boring, so I'm not sure I'd want to watch them in another show because a drama with no drama wouldn't be a drama, now then would it?

Most toxic relationship in a QL: VegasPete in KinnPorsche? I'm still divided about their dynamic. Or TharnType in TharnType perhaps. That was just badly written.

Guilty pleasure series: KinnPorsche. Nuff said.

Most underrated series: He's Coming to Me really needs more love. Production values not the strongest but themes, acting, storyline are all top-notch (with some minor points only that I might want to quibble about). One of the earliest to deal with cultural themes in Thai QL and it was fascinating.

Tagging @airenyah, @dribs-and-drabbles, @waitmyturtles, @bengiyo, @twig-tea, @colourme-feral, @miscellar, @ranchthoughts, @chickenstrangers, @dudeyuri, @inventedfangirling, @dimplesandfierceeyes, @wen-kexing-apologist, @starryalpacasstuff, @kattahj, @lurkingshan, @neuroticbookworm...

...@theheightofdishonor, @dimpledpran, @silvercrystal1, @mineonmain, @sharingfandoms and anybody else I might have missed, feel free to play (or not!).

[sweetness-pop]

Helloya! 💗💋🍓🌸Sweetness*POP🌈🍭💀🌟 here!

So remember my post about an idea for a PlayStation-Verse crossover PS5 or PS6 game starring Talwyn Apogee of Ratchet & Clank, Keira Hagai of Jak & Daxter, and Carmelita Fox of Sly Cooper as the 3 main heroines?

Well, I've been thinking of what would be a good title for this game.

PlayStation Move Heroines would definitely be out of the question! 😅

At first, I was thinking what if Talwyn, Keira and Carmelita were to be the PlayStation Femme Fatales? 💋🕶🔥👙💥🔫🗡

However, I recently have been thinking about this title while doing research on fitting and positive words to describe a woman who's not only beautiful, attractive and sexy, but also strong, dangerous and empowering.

So instead, I came up with this idea, the sweetest title for Talwyn's, Keira's and Carmelita's ideal crossover game relating to PlayStationVerse could be this:

PlayStation Venus 3

This idea pop up in my mind when I was researching on Venus.

In mythology, Venus is the Roman goddess of love, beauty, desire, sex, fertility, prosperity and victory.

While in astrology, Venus is a planet of not only love and beauty, but also pleasure, money, arts and harmony.

Therefore, Venus is like a symbolism for such deep emotions like obviously love, attraction, value, and connections.

Venus is a very precious way of expressing your affections. What you truly value and desire.

Venus represents not what you need, but what you want.

I thought of all this when trying to compare Talwyn, Keira and Carmelita with Venus.

I'm just using 4 examples:

Love: The 3 female characters have their love interests: Ratchet (Talwyn), Jak (Keira) and Sly (Carmelita). They all have these romantic feelings going on. Even if off-screen (most likely in the case of Talwyn x Ratchet 😓), there could be more than what we see in just cutscenes. Talwyn, she's the canon girlfriend of Ratchet. Same goes with Keira as she's Jak's. While there is a deep, fiery and passionate love complication that Carmelita has with Sly. Imagine someday in future games (plz Sony make more J&D and Sly games), Talwyn, Keira and Carmelita will be shown to be even more in love with the PlayStation Hero Trio. And that unbreakable love shall be explored more in video games and be seen in the light!

Beauty: Talwyn, Keira and Carmelita are indeed beautiful characters in their physical appearances. They've always been blessed with such natural, beautiful and slender bodies to kill for with lovely curves and well-endowed bosoms. However, their beauty is also of their inner strength. Beauty is not only about how you look, but also the way to represent beauty like your inner strength. I'm now wondering about a good headcanon being about TKC (Talwyn, Keira and Carmelita) all not knowing or even thought of themselves being beautiful both inside and outside.

Desire: TKC all desire to have something that will achieve. The strongest desire could be about being seen as a woman who can be as someone to rely on, to be seen as an equal, and be treated with the respect that she deserves as a person. But most of all, the one desire that Talwyn, Keira and Carmelita all wish for......is to be someone's or their worlds' hero.....

Victory: The 3 PS ladies would strive to achieve something even greater no matter how much they'd have to endure, and that is victory! Whatever will come to their ways, they will do their very best into proving that they are more than just love interests or even damsel-in-distresses! With the burning passion for victory, someday Talwyn, Keira and Carmelita will surprise not only other characters from the franchises they're from, but also surprise us gamers by proving that the 3 heroines can be strong, passionate and determined women with a mind of a warrior, and their wills filled with POWER! (I was thinking of Mirio Togata/Lemillion from My Hero Academia just now 😁)

Now, imagine the symbol especially when attempting to picture the logo in your minds.

And this will be a symbol for PSV3:

The Venus symbol's cross ♀ with a six-pointed star. ✴ (Yes, I know this is an eight-pointed star emoji like Venus' morning/evening star 😅) that has a heart ❤ in the center. Plus, this symbol would definitely be seen in the 3 colors that should mainly represent the 3 main heroines in their together PS crossover game. Talwyn-Yellow 💛♀✴. Keira-Pink 🩷♀✴. Carmelita-Light Blue 🩵♀✴.

And in addition, with a brand new change of voice actresses for PSV3! Dream voice cast aka 3 star voice leads being Amanda Lee (aka AmaLee) in English and Marina Inoue in Japanese for Talwyn, Erica Lindbeck in English and Rie Takahashi in Japanese for Keira, and Cristina Valenzuela (aka Cristina Vee) in English and Yoko Hikasa in Japanese for Carmelita.

Talwyn Apogee of Ratchet & Clank, Keira Hagai of Jak & Daxter, and Carmelita Fox of Sly Cooper........the upcoming 3 main heroines of PLAYSTATION VENUS 3!

So what are your thoughts on this title idea for an upcoming PlayStation-exclusive crossover game? I'd love to read your thoughts and opinions in either your comments or reblogs.

Thank you and have a good day!💛♀✴🚀🪐🔫🩷♀✴💥🛩🔧🩵♀✴🚔🦊🔗

[winwinwrites]

I just can't listen anymore

Pairings: c!Fundy & c!Wilbur

Word count: 590

Summary:

Fundy loved his father. But he couldn't love someone that just left him alone, someone who stopped caring. A cruel reminder of better times are Wilbur's songs.

Tags: Fundy-centric; Angst; No comfort; Bad Parent Wilbur; Self-Esteem Issues; Self-Hatred; Self-Worth Issues

TW: None

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Fundy loved his father.

The man in his life that brought him to this world, carried him around when he couldn't walk, calmed him down when he couldn't sleep. He felt loved and cared about.

Wilburs musical talents were nothing new, even since a baby there hasn't been a single memory that he can recall that doesn't have a melody representing it. Fascinating how his father can calm the angry oceans that could be Fundy with just a simple melody. How he could make crowds cry for the first time in months.

Fundy loved his father and his musical talents.

There is something cruel about Fundy, Wilburs son, not being able to listen to his fathers songs anymore. Not because the foxes hated for his distant father, even after all he did to him, all this neglect of not caring enough, babying him and just not seeing Fundy as who he was, but because it just hurt too much. The pleasant memories long gone being brought back, opening up old wounds in the process.

Most of the time Fundy wanted to do nothing more than to be able to get lost in those precious melodies, which would drown out the annoying voices reminding him of how much of a failure he is, what a pain in anyone life he is. Fundy wants to relish whatever Wilbur was willing to offer, but he just couldn't bring himself to do it. It is as if he wasn't permitted to even escape to his little bubble of safety that were Wilburs songs.

It was a cruel joke that was dealt by his own brain.

When Fundy tries to listen to certain songs from his father he is hit with a fight or flight response. The songs are good, the best he has ever had the pleasure of hearing, but in his brain a loud alarm was begging him to turn it off and run away before it can hurt you.

Scary it was thinking about the reason why.

How could something so peaceful be so cruel? When he was merely a little kit his father would sing him those exact tunes to sleep, but now it brought nothing but misery and distress and he hated himself for it. Because as much as he wants to blame yet another thing on his father, it was his fault, he was fucked up.

He felt jealous of Wilbur and the feeling of uselessness was there to worsen this feeling. Fundy felt like he wouldn't even come close to achieving the greatness which his fathers songs are, he could never compose anything that could bend the feelings of People at his whim. Fundy could never be like Wilbur. Never able to make a song for himself.

Fundy would never achieve anything.

He was useless.

He was a nobody.

And he couldn't even listen to a normal song.

Even though he was satisfied with his life as it is, in his anonymity, in his bubble of being able to do what he wants and not directly be seen and observed at every move he made like many others, but he couldn't stop and be jealous of Wilbur.

The thought of wishing that Will was never born so he could have been him, playing in his mind guilty. Fundy hated it. Hated everything that some Wilburs songs brought with them, as if they were mocking him and laughing at him in his face.

Fundy loved his father, but jealousy, pain and self hatred didn't make it easy to forgive.

[madameducyberversailles]

A Glimpse of Simon Riley

(Gif credit to @sweeetestcurse​)

Here’s some headcanons I have about Ghost before he was actually Ghost, meaning before the traumatic events that led to him making himself Lieutenant Ghost. This is coming from his backstory in the Modern Warfare remake last year and my own thoughts, enjoy the foolery with a sprinkle of sociological analysis 

Simon Riley is someone who is low-maintenance. Like seriously he could just use bar soap and look good. Genetics is a lottery this man absolutely won. 

That being said, anything anyone does for him that is self-care related makes him want to turn into a grateful puddle, but he also feels like he needs to pay it back somehow. The man’s traumatic past with his childhood means his brain needs time to process that he is deserving of good things...please be patient with our neurodivergent sweetheart.

Is bi. I don’t make the rules. Is very, VERY much bisexual. 

Because of his upbringing though, it’s likely he wasn’t given the freedom or acceptance to explore his sexuality but going to the military helped him overcome the internalized shame in himself and he slowly opened up a bit more to the idea. He’s also pan or demi-romantic. 

Simon Riley is build like a weapon but the core of his steel is forged with love. The altruistic love he has for people clashes with the violent upbringing and terrible traumatic disposition he has acquired from it, therefore since he views himself as a dangerous near inhumane thing, he decided that he would do whatever he could to defend people. Basically the trope of ‘monster is hated by people in the past and believes he deserves it and can’t see himself as other than an abomination but wants to protect humanity just in the tiny sliver of hope that there is something worth defending’. 

Simon Riley is a jokester from childhood. Humor was his escape from awkward silences, from rejection by peers, from his family’s hurt...he joked to cope, to make friends, to connect through humor, to give himself and others some joy and maybe revel in the love that joy brought. He wanted to be the reason people smiled, because it made him feel worthy. 

He is a provider at heart. Not the toxic kind, NEVER that Manosphere nonsense; he believes that those who are able to provide should provide, and from seeing how his family and he suffered from having the most absentee and abusive patriarchal provider he swore he would not only provide for himself but also provide for others. The world is his oyster and he made it his duty to protect and provide for the vulnerable because he knows the pain of not having that and wishes it on NO ONE. He has brought soup to sick friends before, and offered candy and food too. Provider that makes you want to get married immediately. 

He loves flowers. He absolutely appreciates them. The flowers on the street make him the happiest, as they represent growth in hardship and resilience. He smiles at flowers that grow in concrete. When he’s happy and feeling it enough, he’ll take a small flower and put it on his pocket or a buttonhole on a shirt, wherever he can. They also deeply remind him of his mother and her unwavering goodness, even to those that didn’t deserve it. He also treads softly on grass, even when he’s over 235 pounds of muscle. His favourite flower is a sunflower. 

Sleeps heavier than the world on Atlas’ shoulders before the incident; loves his sleep. As a child he didn’t get much sleep so now his adult body is making up for lost time and waking up without loud sounds and horrible gestures makes him so happy. 

He read romance books back in the day (as a teen and early into his career). Very guilty pleasure, he just really loved the vicarious feeling of meeting someone and nurturing a relationship with them. Loved the ones where one of them has kids and the love interest is active and attentive to the kids too. The stories help him heal in multiple ways but he also uses them as an instruction booklet. (Yes he read Twilight and he cringes to Hell whenever its mentioned). 

Has a diary. Rarely opens it up or uses it, but it has notes of what he hears in passing that make him laugh, make him think, some jokes he practises in his book (the amount of scribbles in the margins is astronomical), and a few entries from the first few times he tried to journal from a therapist/counsellor’s advice but it never really went through. Has a few affirmations in them. He also has some drawings in them, and in a hidden section, photographs of his mother and brother. His earliest tattoo designs and ideas were on it too. He also has in it, written the names of all those he truly cares about and keeps a list of friends and enemies. 

Soft guitar music, maybe some country? But mostly just soft and mellow music that calms the mind but touches the soul. Older generation artists, coming from his mother’s and brother’s tastes, honestly. He only likes a few pop artists, but has been spotted by Price humming a song or two that the other guys (read: Gaz and Soap) sing around the base for whatever and then cursing himself for getting ‘infected’ by those songs. If you tell him to listen to a song and ask his opinion the next day you’ll be surprised to find out he’s actually listened to it. 

His favourite weather is a soft rain, or those sunny days where there’s a lot of clouds dotting the sky and infrequent sunlight. Perfect sleeping weather. And rain of course is common for his home country so he does like it, and can’t do too well with excessive heat (the man wears all black in the desert like why). 

He loves affection but of course, has to act nonchalant about it and doesn’t know how to ask for it. Again, because of his past, affection is something rare and if he asks for it it was likely to go wrong, with only his mother giving him some affection and his brother having rare moments of brotherly affirmation and physical touch. He sees the camaraderie of other soldiers and sometimes, when he’s alone and in his own head, he’s envious of them and the ways they can casually dispense and request affection without fear of it being rejected, wishing that he could have something like that. 

Is a good listener, and appreciates it himself when others listen to him and keep track of things he says, even the little ones. He says what he means (unless he’s in a heightened, agitated state of emotion) and to have people speak earnestly, and even kindly about him never leave his mind. He also lives for doing a good thing as he is a bit of a perfectionist with himself, so hearing some sincere praise from others strokes his ego so much oh my god you don’t even know-

He is a shit driver. Well, technically he passed all his classes but by the sheer power of intimidation as he did do the basic stuff right. He can drive well enough but usually it involves high speed and borderline road rage. Price was relieved when Gaz told him he could drive. Simon Riley only gets the keys if no one else is there. The only worse driver is Soap because he wants to stop and see every dog that walks by and pet it and had to swerve a few times. Plus Soap is a passenger princess (you all know he is. You all do.)

That’s all I got right now, maybe I’ll make more but for now this is it! There may be more coming up but I would enjoy conversing with you guys about it too! 

[royal-wren]

For today I'd like to put the spotlight on Hermaphroditos' half-sibling (by Hermes) Palaistra, the nonbinary daimona of wrestling. I think it'd be nice to give her some attention too today instead of other figures that are more popular and come to mind before her.

"The place is Arkadia, the most beautiful part of Arkadia and that in which Zeus takes most delight--we call it Olympia--and as yet there is no prize for wrestling nor even any love of wrestling, but there will be. For Palaistra, the daughter of Hermes, who has just come to womanhood in Arkadia, has discovered the art, and the earth seems to rejoice at the discovery, since iron as an instrument of war will be laid aside by men during the truce, and the stadium will seem to them more delightful than armed camps, and with naked bodies they will content with each other. The kinds of wrestling are represented as children. For they leap sportively around Palaistra, bending towards her in one wrestler's posture after another; and they may be sprung from the earth, for the maiden shows by her manly aspect that she would neither marry any man willingly nor bear children. The kinds of wrestling differ from one another; indeed, the best is the one combined with boxing.

The figure of Palaistra, if it be compared with a boy, will be that of a girl; but if it be taken for a girl, it will seem to be a boy. For her hair is too short even to be twisted into a knot; the eye might be that of either sex; and the brow indicates disdain for both lovers and wrestlers; for she claims that she is able to resist both the one and the other and that not even in a wrestling bout could anyone touch her breasts, so much does she excel in the art. And the breasts themselves, as in a boy of tender years, show but slight signs of beginning fullness. She cares for nothing feminine; hence she does not even wish to have white arms, and apparently even disapproves of the Dryades because they stay in the shade to keep their skin fair; nay, as one who lives in the vales of Arkadia, she begs Helios (the Sun) for color, and he brings it to her like a flower and reddens the girl with moderate heat. It shows the skill of the painter, my boy, that the maiden is sitting, for there are most shadows on seated figures, and the seated position is distinctly becoming to her; the branch of olive on her bare bosom is also becoming her. Palaistra apparently delights in this tree, since its oil is useful in wrestling and men find great pleasure in it."

Philostratus the Elder, Imagines 2. 32 (trans. Fairbanks) (Greek rhetorician C3rd A.D.) *source

If you have any lesser-known figures you want to be highlighted feel free to reblog and make any additions. It would be really cool to see others added.

[saiyanlpkwife2013]

Midnight Siren

Chapter Two: Hazy Daydreams

Romantic relationship: Hitoshi Shinso x y/n (female/AFAB)

Chapter warnings: Mild cursing, Mineta being himself, mentions of bullying (if you squint), mentions of headaches.

MINORS: DO NOT INTERACT BELOW THE "KEEP READING" BREAK.

This shit is OVERWHELMING.

Another bus has just pulled up and out come barreling 40 other students and even a few teachers.

Immediately your mind is a buzz with various voices.

Ah, no way! Is that the new chick that’s going to be starting with our class soon?

She’s a real cutie.

Oh, dude! Look! There’s Shinso! I haven’t really seen him since the sport’s festival. 

I wonder what techniques they are working on. I’m not even sure what the new girl’s quirk is.

Aww!! She looks so nice! I can’t wait until she moves into the dorms with us! We need some more girl power with all of the testosterone up in that place.

The noise continued, gradually getting even louder as the students made their way over to the area you were standing with Aizawa. Your mind going from a light buzzing to an intense amalgamation of voices you weren’t familiar with and were unable to sort out. 

You looked at your teacher, waiting for instructions while shifting your weight from foot to foot as you realize just how many eyes are on you.

“Alright students, we brought you here for a very specific objective today. You will be assisting Y/N; however, I will not be explaining her quirk. The less you know, the more likely you will be able to help her improve. That will be the only rule as you mingle together: Do not ask her what her quirk is. Other than that, stay together within this parameter.” Aizawa gestured to the outline that had previously been drawn as what may have been considered a volleyball court or something of the like. “You are free to visit with each other. The more you talk and think, the better. Use this time wisely. And remember: You are here to assist a classmate. I will intervene if necessary.” Aizawa steps towards the other teachers that have just shown up on the same bus as the students. You see Present Mic, Midnight, Vlad King, and the one and only All Might off in the distance. Past them, you see a somewhat confused Shinso who was not able to hear what all the fuss was about. He didn’t seem to care, then refocusing his attention to his task at hand. You eventually see Aizawa join him in what you can only assume will be a very different looking training session than the one you are currently engaged in.

“OHMYGOODNESS, I’m so pumped to meet you! My name is Mina and we are so stoked to have another girl join our class!” The pink girl jumping up and down as she grabbed your arm and dragged you over to meet more of the class that you would soon be calling friends.

“It is a great pleasure to meet you, Y/N. We know that you will be a wonderful addition to our class. Please allow me to introduce myself: My name is Iida and I am 1A’s class representative. If you need ANYTHING, please do not hesitate to reach out!” Iida punctuates his statements by chopping the air, his mind speaking with the same sincerity and intensity as his actual words. Still, there were others buzzing in your mind. A LOT more buzzing.

Tch, freaking extra. I had to come all the way out here to help some chick I don’t even know. If she’s such great hero material, then why the fuck did she not just start with the hero program in the first place?! Waste of time.

You recognized that voice from the spikey blond, the same one who came in first place at the sports festival. Hey, I’ve heard worse thoughts about me. You shrug to yourself, laughing at his little internal tantrum.

Oh, no way!! I’m so excited to meet this girl! I wish I could ask about her quirk. I would love to know what kind of hero she wants to be, what some of her techniques are and what her fighting style is like, and how she plans on improving. I’m sure she has to be pretty strong to have Mr. Aizawa take an interest in her. I’m sure there’s so much I could learn…

You look in the direction of the mental word vomit and recognize the green mop of hair as none other than Izuku Midoriya whose thoughts are racing a mile a minute. 

He extends out an eager hand and rushes out with, “I’m so excited to meet you, Y/N! I look forward to having you join our class and working together to become the next generation of heroes!” 

You smile warmly and shake his hand in response.

Dude, she’s hot. I might just have to ask her out!

You change the direction of your focus and you see another blond boy. I think that’s Kaminari. Proud of yourself for remembering his name even though you’ve never been formally introduced. 

Heheheh. S-she’s got such nice titties. I bet I could get really close to her with all of these people around...She won’t even know it’s me if I pinch her ass.

Immediately, you whip around and see a rather short boy with purple balls on his head slithering his way to you. He stops as soon as he realizes your eyes are on him.

“Excuse me? You were saying?” You said to the pipsqueak as his eyes looked as though they were about to pop out of his head. 

Whoa, whoa. Did I say that out loud?! Not that I’ve never done THAT before but I could’ve sworn...

The lisp in your mind starts to really grate on your nerves, you turn away from him, mentally daring him to give you an excuse to punt him into next week.

That was part of the delicate balance of your quirk. Over the years, you had to perfect different reactions to people when you overheard their thoughts. Not everything thought “at” you or about you was as nice as what you were receiving at this moment (minus grape boy) and over the years, you have had to develop some pretty thick skin. And you couldn’t just ACT on whatever you had the displeasure of overhearing. I mean, people are entitled to their private thoughts. 

But the second someone actually laid a hand on you, it’s game over.

~*~

The rest of the training exercise consisted of officially meeting all of the students in classes 1A and 1B. Overall, you were excited to be accepted by them so quickly and relieved at the thought of actually having met them BEFORE you had to move into the dorms. That squashed that little anxiety you were having prior to officially arriving at the training camp.

Still, the more time spent around the massive group of people, the more your mind started to pound. Overstimulation to the MAX at this point and you weren’t sure how much longer you could handle all of the voices bouncing through the air and back at you. 

You looked over at Aizawa and he indicated that you still needed to work on focusing your mind on specific people so that you could improve your skill. What if you are in a crowded room and it’s dependent on you to locate the villain with your quirk? Sifting through the crowd so that you could easily track the target? If you allow yourself to get swept up in the mundane chatter, your quirk will not be useful to a hero agency.

You nod in his direction, indicating that you understood his instructions and worked on focusing on specific classmates to amplify and drown out.

This is going to take a while.

~*~

Your brain felt numb.

Classes 1A and 1B had spent the entire day mingling amongst themselves and with you under the instruction of assisting you with training. As a result, your mind pounded from the constant chatter, both internal and external. I just want to rest. I just want to go to my room and be by myself. Please, God, I just need some silence.

Of course, it wasn’t all bad. It was nice getting to know your new classmates. The group was very different from the support course students you previously shared classes with during your initial studies. Most of the support students would keep to themselves, working on their own projects as though it might be the next big thing and they didn’t want to risk the chance of having any other student get a similar idea for an invention. After all, the more you produced and the more effective the equipment, the higher chance you had for a company to take you on as an employee after graduation.

And it wasn’t like you were anti-social. You enjoyed being around people, the same as people enjoyed being around you. It probably helps that you are easy-going and likable. (Not to mention if tensions got high, you were able to help alter the mood and bring everyone back to center with Vibe.) But it did get overwhelming when you didn’t have a chance to decompress from the innermost thoughts of others.

“Dinner time!” Pixie-Bob exclaimed down the hallway. “Please meet in the dining hall as soon as possible!”

Your stomach rumbles. You hadn’t even had a chance to realize how hungry you were having just spent the last SEVERAL hours sifting through the minds of your new classmates unbeknownst to them. Now that the other students have left to return to campus, you turn towards the dining hall, hoping that with a full stomach, your headache might dissipate a little more than it was at the current moment.

Upon entering the dining hall, you see that Mr. Aizawa and Shinso have already sat down at the table. Walking forward, you take the available chair to Mr. Aizawa’s left, sitting directly across from Shinso.

The spread looked DELICIOUS. Various dishes ranging from ramen to cooked salmon, with vegetables and rice also available. The smells wafting through the air in the dining hall make your stomach rumble again, causing you to blush a little at the possibility that the men you are sitting with heard you.

You take a long drink of hot tea which warms your throat and travels all the way down to your toes. I can only imagine how nice a dip in the spring will feel later this evening.

You look across the table and make eye contact for what feels like the first time since you’ve joined Shinso at this training camp. It’s not like you have had ample opportunity, really only having spent time with him during the bus ride to camp, during which you found it best to doze off. Besides, with the heavy bags under his eyes, it didn’t take a mind-reader to figure he probably didn’t want to be bothered with small talk at the time.

You don’t look away, taking in the dark purple irises that seem to be holding an entire world within them, noting the flecks of violet that are sprinkled throughout. Interestingly, he doesn’t hurry to look away either (something that Aizawa notices).

“Alright, eat up. We have training early in the morning and it would be wise for the both of you to get some rest. While today may not have been physically draining in the traditional sense, mental exhaustion will not be your friend either. And one more thing…” He paused long enough to take a sip from his own drink. “What kind of teacher would I be if I didn’t assign homework?” Aizawa posed, not really looking for an answer.

Wonderful. More work to do. I can’t say I’m surprised. But at least I’m not going through his strenuous training by myself here. 

You can’t help but smile to yourself which Aizawa takes as your appreciation for his dry humor. 

“You will both need to strategize the best way you can use your quirks in a combat setting. While we might not necessarily be starting with hand to hand combat tomorrow, I trust that you are both aware of how far behind you are compared to your classmates. As a result, I expect major strides in improving your quirks as it relates to hero work in a short amount of time. You both are bright students with strong abilities so I don’t foresee any issues when it comes to completing the objectives. Otherwise, I would have never agreed to take you on.”

You both nod silently, understanding the weight of responsibility of living up to Aizawa’s words. He’s not one to hand out compliments, so the pressure is on to impress.

I’m still not entirely clear on what her quirk is. I know I’m not supposed to ask but how am I supposed to know what I might be up against if he won’t tell me? I’m not sure why all of the hero course students were here today...but he said it was something to do with her training specifically...Does she have some sort of stockpiling quirk where she relies on the energy of others? How would that make us somewhat similar?...

You listen to his mind drone on feeling somewhat guilty that you don’t disclose your power to him. It’s a catch 22 situation. While it would be nice to have more people of your quirk, oftentimes it can cause them to avoid you for fear of what you might overhear. I learned that the hard way.

Over the years, you felt it best to just pass off half of your quirk as your “full quirk.” Vibe is a decent enough power on its own, allowing you to really set the mood in social settings. This in and of itself can help put people at ease which you enjoy more so than having them feel awkward or nervous around you. As far as thoughts go, nothing really surprises you anymore. You’ve literally heard it all which probably helps you maintain a decent poker face. If nothing can phase you, then there’s really no genuine reaction you have to hide. 

From a hero stand point, if villains knew that you could read minds, they may consider passing false information for the sake of throwing you off their trail. It would be better overall for as few people to know about the true extent of your quirk as possible, which is something that Aizawa agreed with.

You, Aizawa, and Shinso settle into a comfortable silence while enjoying your meal together. It was interesting how at ease you felt around the two of them. Of course you always admired the stealth hero as he seemed to enjoy his role in the background compared to other more prominent heroes like All Might. You valued that kind of humility and quiet strength.

Plus, he was just a badass.

Maneuvering your chopsticks through your food, you find yourself lost in thought, your OWN thoughts this time.

You had a very difficult childhood growing up. To put it mildly, your parents didn’t exactly get along and being the oldest child, you often found yourself trying to shield your little brother from the negativity that seeped in through the walls of your family home. Your parents were so wrapped up within themselves, constant bickering never ceasing and the accusations thrown couldn’t be ignored. And even if they weren’t intentionally involving you, you really had no way to escape their intrusive thoughts about each other...Or the screaming matches that echoed through your home late at night.

On more than one occasion, you “heard” them discussing the difficulties of remaining a family. How things were different before kids, better. How they would rather become villains than remain a family. You heard the disparaging comments they thought towards one another.

And even towards you.

The saddest part was that they KNEW about your full quirk, not just the part that you present in present day. They were fully aware that they truly did not have private thoughts within their own home which only caused the cavern between your nuclear family to grow.

You wanted nothing more than to give your quirk away.

It was so hard not to blame yourself the day of the accident. 

Immediately thereafter, you moved to have yourself separated from your family entirely, to live on your own. Something they didn’t fight you on, which made it hurt even more.

School wasn’t much easier. Kids are mean out loud, sure, but they’re brutal in the safety of their minds. This was something that pushed you to join the support course once you left for college. You hoped that you might be able to develop your own equipment that could shut off the droning thoughts of others, even if just for a little while.

Aizawa notices that you are lost in thought. He clears his throat.

“If you both are done with dinner, I suggest you start on your assignment.”

“Yes sir.” You and Shinso say in unison, standing at the same time to assist with dinner clean up.

“Don’t worry about this tonight. I know you both have had a long day. Just know, I didn’t come here as the cleaning service so you will be expected to help going forward.”

“Of course, sir.” Again, repeating each other verbatim. 

You hear him audibly sigh and you smile inwardly to yourself. His thoughts feel like those of a father. Well, not of MY father, but one I would imagine cares deeply for his children.

He looks at you with a cocked eyebrow, almost daring you to reveal how tender his feelings are for his newest students. You don’t take the dare.

Both you and Shinso exit the dining hall, parting to walk towards your respective sides of the training facility. Before walking away, you pause, thinking something is being said to you.

“I didn’t catch that, sorry.” You say, turning around to look at the indigo haired man.

“I didn’t say anything.” He looks at you puzzled, placing his left hand on the back of his neck with his right hand in his pocket.

“Oh.” Quick to brush it off. Shit. I must’ve heard him thinking. I’ve got to be more mindful of that. Making a mental note to chastise yourself later for your screw up, sure that the exhaustion from the day’s training has you a little off of your game. “I must have imagined it then.” You laugh lightly, trying to ease the awkwardness in the air. “Well, good night, Shinso.”

“G’night and sleep well. I’m sure we’ll need it.” 

You nod your head in agreement as you turn to walk away.