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pookiepiastri Ā· 8 months ago
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The girlfriend effect is real and hereā€™s my proof
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litany-writes Ā· 3 months ago
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theyā€™re literally mom and dad. to me
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idolomantises Ā· 2 years ago
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ngl, the more I think about it, the more I feel conflicted over how people sexualize my characters.
On the one hand, it would be silly to deny that I don't go out of my way to create aesthetically pleasing/attractive characters because I love to draw what I enjoy, and I love it when people simp for them.
But on the other hand, sometimes it does bother me that people are so fixated on sex and their own arousal that they miss important lore/plot information that I get a bit frustrated
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padfootastic Ā· 2 years ago
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ā€œdonā€™t apologize.ā€ ā€œsorry.ā€ ā€œname.ā€ with jilypad, maybe? :0
oh, yes, i love this!! thank u for the ask <3
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The silence was thundering in the wake of Jamesā€™ words.
Lilyā€™s mortified gaze was fixed firmly on her feet as she replayed them in her mind.
ā€œIā€™ve seen the way you look at Sirius.ā€
Lily shouldā€™ve laughed it off. James didnā€™t even mean it as an accusation, had said it casual-as-you-please like they were discussing the weather, or perhaps their upcoming Charms assignment.
Hell, she couldā€™ve waved it off even if it was an accusation After all, Sirius Black was an exceptionally gorgeous human being and there wasnā€™t a human on Earth who could refute that. He attracted admirers like it was his job.
But no, sheā€™d frozen. Her reaction the biggest indicator of guilt she couldā€™ve given.
ā€œJamesā€”ā€œ she started, before realising she didnā€™t know what to say. There was an expression on Jamesā€™ face sheā€™d never seen before and it was scaring her a little.
ā€œJames, Iā€™m so sorry, I didnā€™t mean toā€”ā€œ
ā€œDonā€™t apologise, Lily,ā€ he tried to say but she wasnā€™t listening. All she could focus on was the tremble in her boyfriendā€™s frame and her own horror that sheā€™d driven him toā€”to tears.
ā€œSorry, James, Iā€™m soā€”ā€œ
ā€œLily.ā€ The sharpness in his voice brought her babbling to a sudden halt. Lily kept her mouth shut, but her mind was still racing. James doesnā€™tā€”heā€™s not crying, like sheā€™d thought.
Instead, there was a smile slowly taking over his entire face. Baffled, Lily watched as he burst out in giggles, wondering if sheā€™d entered an alternate dimension without realising it.
Sheā€™d just basically admitted she was crushing on his best friend and her boyfriend wasā€¦laughing?
ā€œLi-Lily,ā€ he said, hiccuping a little as this laughter tapers out. ā€œArenā€™t you wondering how I knew?ā€
She could only shake her head. That hadnā€™t even been close to the top five things sheā€™d been worried about.
ā€œI know how you look at Sirius because I look at him the same way.ā€
Oh.
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ā€œSo, Pads.ā€ Sirius stared suspiciously at his best mate trying to act nonchalant. He was, quite frankly, terrible at it. His fidgeting became even worse and he couldnā€™t maintain eye contact to save his life.
ā€œHm?ā€
ā€œLily and I wereā€¦talking.ā€
ā€œRight.ā€
ā€œAnd weā€¦resolved a few things.ā€
ā€œWhichā€”involves me how?ā€
ā€œEr, yeah, about thatā€¦,ā€ James trailed off, chewing on the corner of his lip. Sirius kind of wanted to do the same. He quickly averted his gaze lest he actually acted on his desire.
ā€œCome on, James, spit it out,ā€ he prompted, when nothing else came forth.
James gulped, and this was really getting too weird. Sirius hadnā€™t seen him this nervous in a long time, not sinceā€¦heā€™d beenā€¦tryingā€¦to ask Lily out.
Thatā€™s notā€”
He wouldnā€™tā€”
Nah, he mentally shook himself. Not Possible. Lily was standing right there, steadily biting down on her nails and staring between the two of them. It had to be something else.
ā€œWe were hoping you would give us a try?ā€
Sirius was ashamed to admit his mouth fell open at that. It was most undignified.
ā€œGiveā€¦youā€¦a try?ā€ And his voice came out embarrassingly high pitched. Wonderful.
ā€œWhat heā€™s trying to say,ā€ Lily finally cut in, exasperation taking over the previous nervousness, ā€œbut is finding it hard to because youā€™re entirely too distracting for your own good, is that we really like you and were hoping you might like us too.ā€
Siriusā€™ eyes bounced between her and James, who had turned a delicious shade of red that didnā€™t stop him from nodding vigorously at his girlfriendā€™s words.
He gave it a second of thought, just enough to consider the possibility that this might be a prank before promptly discarding it in the trash where it belonged. Even if Lily wanted to pull something like this, he knew James would never go along with it.
So it was only with the slightest bit of hesitance, of fear, that he nodded, still looking between the two people heā€™d previously considered out of his reach.
An excited whoop reached his ears just as he got picked up and twirled by James, deposited right in front of Lily who raised on her toes to press the sweetest kiss to his lips. Almost immediately, James wrapped himself around him from behind as Lily pressed into his front.
Sirius was helpless to do anything except close his eyes, letting himself melt into the embrace.
Send me a hesitant love prompt for any ship!
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meya-lily-writes Ā· 1 year ago
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And oops, I am already behind.
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rosyblooom Ā· 7 months ago
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love (to hate) u | ln4 smau
PAIRING: lando norris x fem!reader A/N: hey! love this idea sm!! hope it's as u imagined :)
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f1gossipofficial Y/N L/N was spotted today by fans attending the Australia Grand Prix alongside Oscar Piastri. Despite her and Lando Norris famously not getting along, it comes as quite a surprise to see her accompanying his teammate, especially considering their shared friend circles.
Who knows, maybe there's a relationship announcement on the horizon?šŸ‘€
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username Y/N 100% KNOWS WHAT SHE'S DOING LOOL
username she's so šŸ˜­ still gonna stan tho !!
username bruh they're literally friends
username oscar and y/n??? i would like to see it plsšŸ™‚ā€ā†•ļø
username imagine having ur number 1 opp not only in the paddock but also in ur fucking garage likešŸ’€
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username lord there y'all go again... username i want whatever the hell u're fucking smoking cause whatšŸ˜€
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yourusername alright fun's over, congrats bby xxx (happy now oscar?)
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oscarpiastri As you can all see, we are NOT dating
yourusername oscar i'm sryšŸ˜­šŸ˜­ oscarpiastri šŸ˜‘ username aw man...šŸ˜ž
username Y'ALL ARE GOING TO FUCKING JAIL
landonorris Us šŸ¤ the drama
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username WAIT WHAT? lemme move my bang and read this shit again cause wtf
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username s(he) be(lie)ve(d)šŸ˜“
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username I TRUSTED YOUšŸ˜­šŸ’”
username this whole time ppl were clowning me and i was right all along?šŸ§ā€ā™€ļøIVE BEEN SAYING THERE'S SEXUAL TENSION OMFG
username on behalf of literally everyone i'd like to apologise babe. shoulda never doubted you x username lando and y/n need to apologise to u cause they played us allšŸ¤”
username you guys are fake as shit, but ig you're cute or whateveršŸ™„
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flametrashiraarchive Ā· 1 year ago
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hi may I ask for
pussy drunk muzan pleaseā™”
Alright, look... I'm absolute trash for Muzan at the moment. I already thought he was hot and then that last Swordsmith Village episode just... ugh... I love him.
Anyway, I couldn't resist answering this right away. I've also done headcanons for human Muzan and demon Muzan because I'm a hussy for him.
NSFW below the cut.
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He may be wealthy, but Muzan's life is far from comfortable. He hurts; he's angry, frustrated, he resents the world. Physical activity is hard on his body but the man still has needs.
Human Muzan
You enter his room when summoned, hopeful that the doctor has given him good news this time.
"Of course not. That fraud only deals in disappointments."
"I'm sorry..."
"Keep your worthless pity. Just... come here."
You approach his futon and gently take his extended hand. His grip is weak and unsteady. "Yes my lord?"
He arches an eyebrow, knowing that you're aware of what he wants.
So you get into position, lying sideways across the top of his futon so your hip is resting where he would lay his head. You lift your skirt and open your legs so he can rest his head on your inner thigh as he lies on his side.
Muzan doesn't speak a word. He doesn't praise you, doesn't thank you. He just inches his head closer and begins to lick your pussy.
You bite your lip to keep from crying out. If you make too much noise he'll scold you and stop, so you do all you can to remain silent. Muzan Kibutsuji is the only man you've ever met who eats your pussy solely for his pleasure.
He tongues your hole, lapping at your essence as if it could cure him, his deep groans vibrating through you as he feasts. And when he's licked up every drop, only then does he turn his attention to your clit, slowly circling it with his tongue, enjoying the way it swells from his attention, stopping when he feels you're wet enough again and turning his attention back to your cunt.
He goes back and forth between the two motions, taking you to the edge of ecstasy again and again until you cum. His long, dark hair splays across your thighs as he fucks you with his tongue and palms his cock. He strokes himself slowly, setting a pace which isn't too strenuous for him, and all the while he continues licking your overstimulated clit in those long, slow circles, making your muscles tighten with every torturous lap.
He keeps going, his groans getting louder as he makes you cum once more and he keeps on stroking his cock.
"Mm-more," he moans, his deep, commanding voice cracking with desperation. "Nghh... give it... to me."
His composure breaks entirely as he shudders through his orgasm, his eyes squeezed shut as he sucks your clit, tonguing it to get you off one last time.
The doctors confirmed long ago that Muzan cannot produce heirs, but that doesn't stop him from fingering his cum into your pussy, making sure you take in every last drop of it before he lifts his head and says flatly. "I'm finished. You may leave."
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Demon Muzan.
Muzan appears accompanied by the sudden strum of a biwa, standing behind his work desk. "Get over here. Assume the position."
Thick veins throb in his forehead and his crimson eyes are murderous.
Either the upper moons have pissed him off again, or his latest experiment to reproduce the blue spider lily potion has gone awry. And when he's in a rage like this only one thing that can calm him.
You climb onto his desk on your hands and knees and put your chest down, sticking your ass in the air toward him.
"See? My requests are so simple and yet you are the only one who seems capable of obeying them." He slides a finger down your slit, spreading your growing wetness. "You bow for your king as you should."
"Because I-"
"Silence."
A low, primal growl rolls from the depths of his chest as he leans forward until his face is no more than an inch from your pussy. And then he inhales.
That's all the warning you get before he drags his tongue slowly from your clit down to your hole with a deep groan.
"Oh, you never disappoint me," he whispers, though whether he's speaking to you or that specific part of you, you aren't certain.
He starts with small, fluttering licks, teasing your sensitive flesh with the tip of his tongue. But before long he can't hold back, and his licks become frantic and sloppy, devouring you with fervent hunger.
Outside of this room he appears cold, calculating, elegant and distinguished, but you bring out an all together different sort of beast.
"Muzan!" You bite your knuckles to keep from crying out and incurring his wrath.
He grips the backs of your thighs and parts your folds with his thumbs, pushing his tongue deeper into you. His wanton moans fill the room as he drags his tongue over your flesh again and again. You can't hold back from crying out in pleasure as you cum, your pussy throbbing with ecstasy as he continues eating you.
As a demon, he has the strength to fuck you like he always wished he could as a human. At the sound of your desperate cry, the last remnant of his restraint snaps. He stands, licking your essence from his lips as he thrusts his cock inside you, shivering at the sensation before he starts to pump his hips back and forth.
His elegant fingers dig into your hips as he holds you in place, burying himself to the hilt inside you and fucking you with short, fast thrusts, keeping your cunt stuffed full of him.
"Oh... oh... yes..." he grunts beneath his breath.
He pulls out only to push two fingers into you, pumping them back and forth before he takes them out again and stuffs his cock back in. And as he fucks you harder, faster, he brings those fingers to his mouth and sucks the taste of you from them.
That's enough to send him over the edge; your exquisite taste accompanied by the sensation of your needy cunt squeezing his cock. His back arches as he cums, baring his teeth as he fills you.
His breath is hot and heavy as his lips graze your shoulder blades.
"Such a good and obedient servant," he whispers, his hair falling over his brow.
And then he straightens his back, regains his composure, and disappears once more, accompanied by the strum of a biwa.
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hamilando Ā· 2 months ago
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ą©ˆāœ© red, orange and white (smau) ą©ˆāœ©
pairing :carlos sainz x fem reader ( piastri best friend )
summary : the admin is confused whether to support red, orange or white
fc: Thylane LĆ©na-Rose Loubry Blondeau
a/n : This is a series, let me know if you want to be tagged in future parts ! it was requested anonymously, thank you for requesting it šŸ«¶šŸ»
Ā·:ļ½”ļ½„ļ¾Ÿļ¾Ÿļ½„ āœ© ļ½„ļ¾Ÿ ļ½„ļ¾ŸĀ·:ļ½”ļ½„ļ¾Ÿļ¾Ÿļ½„ ļ½„ļ¾ŸĀ·:ļ½”ļ½„ļ¾Ÿļ¾Ÿļ½„ āœ© ļ½„ļ¾Ÿ ļ½„ļ¾ŸĀ·:ļ½”ļ½„ļ¾Ÿļ¾Ÿļ½„ļ½„ļ¾ŸĀ·:ļ½”ļ½„ļ¾Ÿļ¾Ÿļ½„ āœ© ļ½„ļ¾Ÿ ļ½„ļ¾ŸĀ·:ļ½”ļ½„ļ¾Ÿļ¾Ÿ
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mclaren to have someone look at me like lando looks at the trophy, LANDO NORRIS WINS THE DUTCH GRAND PRIX 2024
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user1 the caption got real chat
user2 admin, we need to talk, YOU DO NOT EXPOSE ME LIFE LIKE THAT
mclaren oops šŸ˜¬
user3 LETS GO LANDO
user4 admin, can we get more pics of Lando and the trophy ?
mclaren anything for my fans ~ lando
user5 who is the admin!?
user6 @ mcynburger, itā€™s private tho
user7 the username šŸŒ
user8 the whole grid follows her šŸ—æ
user9 she is pretty popular with the fans as well, she joined the same year as Oscar, they are besties
user10 friend goals šŸ’ŖšŸ»
user11 admin, will you make your acct public ?
mclaren canā€™t take away all the attention from little lando and oscar
user12 WHA-
user13 I can smell tea ā˜•ļø
oscarpiastri Admin, this a professional account, meet me and I will show you whoā€™s little
mclaren chat, things got serious
user14 COMING TO HELP YOU ADMIN
landonorris arenā€™t you supposed to be Oscarā€™s best friend y/n?
mclaren who is that ? Itā€™s just admin here
user15 not lando exposing her
user16 I wonder how Zak feels after seeing his company account used for bestie fighting šŸ«¶šŸ»šŸ’€
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mcynburger mama @ lilyz and papa @ ospastry please buy brother a shirt
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norizz you are just jealous of my muscles
mcynburger shirtless picture coming up
ospastry Y/N NO! LANDO CAN YOU NOT !? Y/N STOP DOING SHIT THINGS AND NO NUDE PICTURES FOR GODS SAKE !
chillijr blonde really suits you !
mcynburger thank you so much Carlos šŸ§”šŸ«¶šŸ»
lordperceval lando, mate you just got lucky šŸ«·šŸ»
mcynburger YOU DID NOT JUST -
norizz bury your grave mate
lordperceval what-
mcynburger WE STAFF WORK SO HARD TO GET THE BEST CAR, AND YOU CALL IT LUCK !? THE engineers WORK THEIR BRAIN OFF, THE PRā€™S MANAGE ALL THE SPONSORS, THE finance TEAM MAINTAINS THE BUDGET AND THE SOCISL ADMINS ENSURE THAT THE FANS GET JOY AND YOU CALL IT LUCK !?
lordperceval o my lord, I am extremely sorry
mcynburger wait, till I post a Ferrari hate post in the official account
hamsandwich please donā€™t hate Ferrari šŸ‘
mcynburger only because the goat it going to Ferrari šŸ˜¤
chillijr my unemployment ?
albono hellooo!?
chillijr forgot I joined Williams
mcynburger itā€™s ok, I will post a william love post because Carlos is going there šŸ«¶šŸ»
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mcynburger hate the tifosi driver, not the tifosi red
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chillijr me too hermosa?
mcynburger YOU ARE NOT TIFOSI ANYMORE šŸ«¶šŸ»šŸ˜¤ I will never stop loving you šŸ’ŖšŸ»
ospastry can you like stop romancing him ?
mcynburger stawp, I need to find a date to go for yourā€™s and lilyā€™s wedding
lilyz aww, Oscar is all giggly now
mcynburger send pics * money on the way *
lilyz I would never - * sent *
ospastry I have said it hundred times, STOP STEALING LILY
mcynburger my ring finger is for lily, middle one is for you
norizz index for me ?
mcynburger how does the index even work ?
norizz number 1?
mcynburger number 1 what ?
maxtheax driver? No.
hamsandwich fashion sense ? No.
ospastry best friend ? HELL NO.
georgie British accent ? No.
chillijr romantic? No.
norizz I AM BRITISH šŸ™„
mcynburger ok stop, no one bullies norris and oscie if it ainā€™t me šŸ˜—
alexmieux you look hot
mcynburger out of context but not more than you
lordperceval my gf is the hottest
albono šŸ‘€
max1 šŸ‘€
mcynburger NOT ANOTHER FIGHT
mcynburger ALL GIRLIES ARE HOT, MEN ARE EW ( EXCEPT OSCIE AND CARLOS )
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mclaren the end of this season is sneaking up like the third pic šŸ˜®ā€šŸ’Ø 8 more races before the constructors šŸ§”
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user1 admin favours Oscar šŸ’€
user2 well, she is his best friend ?
user1 huh?
user2 he said in an interview, his best friend joined mclaren because of him
user3 a girl bestie ?
user4 RED FLAG OSCAR
user5 can you guys let one couple of friends stay sane ? not all men cheat with the girl bf
user6 I think Oscar should be the worried one because y/n is always after lily
user7 Zak will cut her salary after the last pic šŸ’€
mclaren I got a bonus šŸ§”
user8 ADMIN, MORE LANCAR CONTENT
mclaren done, your majesty šŸ«”
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short-yandere-stories Ā· 5 months ago
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I couldn't resist the brainworms that came from the small moment we got seeing Nakime and Muzan in the latest episode so have a short brainrot. Him sitting there on the chair,,,
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CW: yandere themes, infantilizing behavior, NSFW, Non-con, oral sex, cockwarming, slight vouyerism
This is a yandere work. Proceed with caution and please be mindful of your triggers.
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"Nakime, have a look over there," Muzan ordered, pointing at another area of the map he held in front of his lap. The demon who had just been raised to the rank of fourth among the Kizuki nodded, striking a note on her biwa.
Progress was being made on locating the rest of the Demon Slayer Corps. Nakime's enhanced abilities were exceptional when it came to searching and surveying vast areas in a short amount of time. If Muzan had fed her more blood to enhance her abilities sooner, maybe they would have found the Blue Spider Lily by now. Though, now that Nezuko had braved the sun, there was no need for the Spider Lily anymore. It was easier to search for one demon among the Demon Slayer Corps than a rare flower, and at this rate it was only a matter of time until they'd locate Ubuyashiki's manor as well.
Muzan was pleased with his current circumstance.
Especially so since his thick cock was resting deep inside your mouth.
You'd been sitting on your knees for the better part of an hour now, tears brimming in the corners of your eyes and jaw aching from the strain. It was embarrassing you to no end either, being used like this in front of someone else, even though Nakime's eyes were mostly elsewhere.
Muzan didn't care much for your feelings or embarrassment. If he wanted you to cockwarm him with your mouth, that is what you would do, no matter if it was in his private chambers, at his desk, or here, in front of Nakime.
You knew better than to defy him, even when he was in a good mood, so you remained on your knees, cheeks flushed in shame. At least it was only one of the Kizuki, one who was using her Demon Art to search areas far away. Yet you swore you could feel her eye staring at the back of your skull.
"There was no one there of interest, Lord Muzan," Nakime said, looking up at her master. He merely hummed, moving one slender finger to point at another area of the map.
"Search here."
"Yes, Lord Muzan."
With that, Nakime struck another note on her biwa. It always felt a little better the moments immediately after she played a chord, knowing that she definitely wasn't seeing you at that moment. Otherwise, you never knew when she was back before she spoke, and it was always a relief no matter how brief to not have her see you in this state.
You doubted she cared much for what she saw, but it didn't lessen the embarrassment you felt. You didn't even notice yourself slowly easing yourself away from Muzan's cock until you felt sharp nails scratching against your scalp, effortlessly sheathing himself fully inside your drooling mouth again.
"We're not done yet, pet," he chided, looking away from the map for a moment to stare down at your red, teary face. It was truly a sight to behold, and it felt impossible for him to get harder, but he did.
A low whine slipped past your lips, muffled by the girthy length inside your mouth, and Muzan chuckled, petting your head condescendingly.
"Seems like I haven't had you take me down your throat enough if an hour is where you reach your limit. We will have to do this more often."
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queerism1969 Ā· 4 months ago
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Notable transgender people from history
Here's the list I put together for when people on non-trans subreddits claim we didn't exist until recently:
AshurbanipalĀ (669-631BCE) - King of the Neo-Assryian empire, who according to Diodorus Siculus is reported to have dressed, behaved, and socialized as a woman.
ElagabalusĀ (204-222) - Roman Emperor who preferred to be called a lady and not a lord, presented as a woman, called herself her lover's queen and wife, and offered vast sums of money to any doctor able to make her anatomically female.
Kalonymus ben KalonymusĀ (1286-1328) - French Jewish philosopher who wrote poetry about longing to be a woman.
Eleanor RykenerĀ (14th century) - trans woman in London who was questioned under charges of sex work
[Thomas(ine) Hall](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thomas(ine)_Hall) - (1603-unknown) - English servant in colonial Virginia who alternated between presenting as a woman and presenting as a man, before a court ruled that they were both a man and a woman simultaneously, and were required to wear both men's and women's clothing simultaneously.
Chevalier d'EonĀ (1728-1810) - French diplomat, spy, freemason, and soldier who fought in the Seven Years' War, who transitioned at the age of 49 and lived the remaining 33 years of her life as a woman.
Public Universal FriendĀ (1752-1819) - Quaker religious leader in revolutionary era America who identified and lived as androgynous and genderless.
Surgeon James BarryĀ (1789-1865) - Trans man and military surgeon in the British army.
BerelĀ - a Jewish trans man who transitioned in a shtetel in Ukraine in the 1800's, and whose story was shared with the Jewish Daily Forward in a 1930 letter to the editor by Yeshaye Kotofsky, a Jewish immigrant in Brooklyn who knew Berel
Mary JonesĀ (1803-unknown) - trans woman in New York whose 1836 trial for stealing a man's wallet received much public attention
Albert CashierĀ (1843-1915) - Trans man who served in the US Civil War.
Harry AllenĀ (1882-1922) - Trans man who was the subject of sensationalistic newspaper coverage for his string of petty crimes.
Lucy Hicks AndersonĀ (1886ā€“1954) - socialite, chef and hostess in Oxnard California, whose family and doctors supported her transition at a young age.
Lili ElbeĀ (1882-1931) - Trans woman who underwent surgery in 1930 with Dr. Magnus Hirschfeld, who ran one of the first dedicated medical facilities for trans patients.
Karl M. BaerĀ (1885-1956) - Trans man who underwent reconstructive surgery (the details of which are not known) in 1906, and was legally recognized as male in Germany in 1907.
Dr. Alan HartĀ (1890-1962) - Groundbreaking radiologist who pioneered the use of x-ray photography in tuberculosis detection, and in 1917 he became one of the first trans men to undergo hysterectomy and gonadectomy in the US.
[Louise Lawrence](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Louise_Lawrence_(activist)) (1912ā€“1976) - trans activist, artist, writer and lecturer, who transitioned in the early 1940's. She struck up a correspondence with the groundbreaking sexologist Dr. Alfred Kinsey as he worked to understand sex and gender in a more expansive way. She wrote up life histories of her acquaintances for Kinsey, encouraged peers to do interviews with him, and sent him a collection of newspaper clippings, photographs, personal correspondences, etc.
Dr. Michael DillonĀ (1915-1962) - British physician who updated his birth certificate to Male in the early 1940's, and in 1946 became the first trans man to undergo phalloplasty.
Reed EricksonĀ (1917-1992) - trans man whose philanthropic work contributed millions of dollars to the early LGBTQ rights movement
Willmer "Little Ax" BroadnaxĀ (1916-1992) - early 20th century gospel quartet singer.
Peter AlexanderĀ (unknown, interview 1937) - trans man from New Zealand, discusses his transition in this interview from 1937
Christine JorgensenĀ (1926-1989) - The first widely known trans woman in the US in 1952, after her surgery attracted media attention.
Miss Major Griffin-GracyĀ (1940-present) - Feminist, trans rights and gay rights activist who came out and started transition in the late 1950's. She was at Stonewall, was injured and taken into custody, and had her jaw broken by police while in custody. She was the first Executive Director of the Transgender Gender Variant Intersex Justice Project, which works to end human rights abuses against trans/intersex/GNC people in the prison system.
Sylvia RiveraĀ (1951-2002) - Gay liberation and trans rights pioneer and community worker in NYC; co-founded STAR, a group dedicated to helping homeless young drag queens, gay youth, and trans women
Marsha P. JohnsonĀ (1945-1992) - Gay liberation and trans rights pioneer; co-founded STAR with Sylvia Rivera
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lurkinginnernarrator Ā· 3 months ago
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Yk what would be interesting?
Shen Yuan as a beast hunter.
Him taking into account SQQ's unstable cultivation, the fact that while he is a suitable actor he's not a perfect one, and promptly deciding on a course of action.
"Zhangmen-shixiong, Qing Jing is the scholarly peak. If we are not hunting down knowledge, and capturing it for the future generations, what kind of scholars would that make us? This master cannot allow such a thing to occur.
So this master will be setting an example for my disciples by going out myself on such an endeavor.
And not only is Qing Jing the peak of scholars, but we are cultivators as well. Is it not our duty to be intercessors between the spiritual and demonic things and the common people?"
Yue Qingyuan can do nothing but agree.
Cut to SY!SQQ hunting down rare and powerful beasts, his hunts taking months, as he stalks the beasts and observes their behaviors; compiling valuable information about countless beasts. He then cleanly kills the beasts, all the valuable parts go to Cang Qiong, usually to Mu Qingfang.
The rare beasts improve SQQ's cultivation base and level by leaps and bounds.
And! He doesn't have to navigate the original goods personal relationships because he's not at CQ! Being a poser is so much easier when you just have to be untouchable immortal.
Whenever SQQ comes back to CQMS it's to drop off a carcass or because he absolutely has to for peak lord business. Otherwise he's always out on some sort of quest.
The Qing Jing Peak Lord's skills shoot up by 100Ā²
His steps are silent, when he's not thinking about it he just fades into the background, continually being on hunts where silence is necessary, being less than a whisper becomes muscle memory.
His gaze isn't only scathing anymore, it's also piercing. He observes everything.
His movements are quick, graceful, full of power and yet incredibly calculated. You can't hit a Blood Blossoming Demonic Hummingbird too hard, or it'll crumple, but if you don't hit it hard enough you'll be an exsanguinated husk.
He also takes to wearing a fur mantle: it's from a Heavenly Moon Snake-Leopard, some poachers had been stalking the Snake-Leopard for months, driving it into madness. SQQ dealt with the poachers of course, but the Snake-Leopard was beyond saving. While unfortunate, the fur is so useful! Warm, water repellent, regenerative, acid resistant, and excellent camouflage! The Snake-Leopard also gifted SQQ its fangs for killing the poachers, and they make impressive daggers.
Qing Jing Peak cannot get enough of this cool badass Shizun who puts even the Liu Qingge to shame when it comes to beast hunting! And whenever he comes back to the peak he has lessons on his hunts! He even brings back specimens!!
Mu Qingfang appreciates Shen-Shixiong's newfound hobby immensely. Not to disparage Liu-Shixiong's contributions, but Shen-Shixiong brought him not one, but TWO intact Yellow Butterfly-Lizard carcasses, liver, wings AND tongue intact! The downside Shen-Shixiong hunting so much Liu Qingge has less to do, which unfortunately means more work Qian Cao, patching up Bai Zhan Disciples. And the Sect Leader seems... Depressed? MQF will have his Head Disciple drop off some Blue Lily of Uplifting tea for him.
Liu Qingge is upset at being benched and very confused???
Yue Qingyuan just smiles painfully. "As long as Xia-ā€” as long as Shen-Shidi is happy..."
(LBH is of course enamoured with his powerful and righteous Shizun)
And of course, SY!SQQ's skills do help him out quite a bit, his reaction time improved drastically, meaning no Without-A-Cure. And canon goes just a bit easier. Maybe.
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Taunts and Tension
Based on this request!
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Pairing: Azriel x Fem!Reader
Summary: Reader and Azriel go on a spy mission and come back a little more touchy than usual?
Warnings: Sexual tension | Briefest mention of a threesome | innuendo of oral (m receiving)
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ā€œYou have got to be kidding me,ā€ The Shadow Singer grumbled as the High Lord told him weā€™ve been partnered for his next mission.
ā€œUnfortunately, heā€™s not,ā€ I huff to the tall male, just as annoyed as him. ā€œRhys with all due respect, I work alone,ā€ Azriel contended and I scoff. ā€œDoes that apply to your love life too?ā€ I quip but they both ignore me. ā€œI know Az, but Eris likes her, heā€™s more likely to play by our rules if we use her as bait,ā€ Rhys says. ā€œItā€™s just a meeting, the both of you only have to get along for a few hours,ā€ He hums and I roll my eyes, I couldnā€™t refuse the offer, he was paying me double for this. ā€œFine,ā€ Azriel uttered, the fool agreed for free.
ā€œGood, you leave at sunset,ā€ The half-fae instructs then quickly dismisses the both of us when his mate comes into his office, a babbling Nyx in her arms. ā€œHi sweetie,ā€ I coo at the two-year-old as I pass Feyre on the way out. ā€œAuntie!ā€ He exclaims with a bright smile. The High Lady waved at me and I returned it. ā€œBe careful on your mission tonight,ā€ She advises and I brush her off. ā€œItā€™s just a meeting, nothing to be worried about.ā€ I smile. ā€œOh, I wasnā€™t referring to your assignment,ā€ Her eyes flick to Azriel and my lips form an ā€˜oā€™ shape in realization. She chuckled then gave me a wink as the Shadow Singer passed by me, muttering a curse under his breath. I return her smile then nod in a farewell and go the opposite direction down the hall.
The Spring Court was a lot duller than I had expected. Sure the flowers were in bloom and the sun still seeped through the trees but, there was no vibrancy to the colors. ā€œFeyre really did a number on this place,ā€ I hum, looking out at the deserted Court. It still held some beauty, the crystal clear lakes with lily pads floating heedlessly, the rolling hills, and flower fields.
ā€œI kind of feel bad for him,ā€ I mutter, bending down and plucking a daisy from a patch sprouting out the trunk of a maple tree. ā€œDonā€™t,ā€ Azriel huffed. We were on the border between Spring and Autumn so there was a weird merging between wildlife, the magnolia trees slowly shifting into maples, bunnies sectioned from foxes, and lush forests morphing into rustic woods.
ā€œAre we early or is he just trying to make an entrance?ā€ I sigh, already bored. ā€œEarly,ā€ He replies and my shoulders sag. ā€œCan you only respond with one-word answers?ā€ I narrow my eyes on the Shadow Singer. He smirks. ā€œNo,ā€ He says and I grit my teeth, looking down at the daisy in my hands.
We go silent for a moment. I stare out at the dusky sky, the last of the sun slipping below the hills. He seems content to continue staring at me, much to my dismay. I didnā€™t know what for, itā€™s not like he had to keep an eye on me, and there was nothing I could do that his shadows wouldnā€™t report back to him, they were often all over me, seemingly out of his control when I was around.
ā€œWhat?ā€ I snap my head back to him after only a minute, his stare becoming too physical, like I could feel the way his eyes traced my features. ā€œWhy are you dressed like that?ā€ He tilts his head. I look down at my gown with creased brows. It was a silk slip, a rich mocha color. I look at what heā€™s wearing, his usual leathers. ā€œItā€™s a meeting Azriel, weā€™re not battling warriors,ā€ I remark. ā€œIs it because weā€™re meeting with Eris?ā€ He tilts his head. I cross my arms. ā€œWhatā€™s that supposed to mean?ā€ I bite back. ā€œThat youā€™re trying to impress him,ā€ He surmises.
ā€œNuh-uh!ā€
ā€œNuh uh?ā€ He mocks. ā€œThatā€™s your defense?ā€ The brunette scoffs and my frown deepens, leaning against the tree at my back. ā€œI wore the dress ā€˜cause I didnā€™t wanna change, okay?ā€ I explain with narrowed brows. ā€œAnd itā€™s not my fault he admires me,ā€ I add. ā€œNot that you know the feeling,ā€ I murmur under my breath but of course, he heard it.
He takes a menacing step forward, shadows turning sporadic around him and I roll my eyes on the dramatics of itā€” anyone else wouldā€™ve been begging for forgiveness just by looking into the darkness of his eyes. ā€œWhat was that?ā€ His hand comes to my chin, forcing my head toward him. I jerk out of his hold with a grimace.
ā€œI said you donā€™t know what itā€™s like to be admired, or do you need a reminder that youā€™ve been chasing the same girl for five hundred years?ā€ This time I was the one to take a step forward, my chest nearly pressed to his. ā€œBecause newsflash Az, she doesnā€™t want youā€”ā€ I start but his hands come to my wrists and pull them up above my head, pinning me to the tree, his other hand on my hip so I canā€™t thrash.
His nostrils flared, eyes ablaze and I nearly laughed. ā€œYouā€™re constantly teetering on that edge huh? Canā€™t ever keep your temper in check?ā€ I arch a brow up at him, my smirk only widens as I watch him grit his teeth. He knew what I meant. Knew that he pounced on anyone who damaged his fragile ego, and talked down on his precious family, gods forbid I mention Morrigan. His hold moves from my waist to my neck, wrapping his large hand entirely around my throat, softly squeezing.
ā€œYouā€™re choking me,ā€ I whisper out and the sadistic fuck has a smile on his face. ā€œYou seem like the type to be into that,ā€ He presumes and he wouldnā€™t be far off if this was a different situation. I flush pink at the idea, itā€™d be a lie if I said I hadnā€™t imagined the Spymaster on top of me more than once. My cheeks were burning hot, I was beyond embarrassed, and slightly turned on.
ā€œNot so talkative now, are we?ā€ He was so close, so close his body was pressed to my own, our breath shared as his face hovered above mine, cauldron damn his height.
ā€œLet me go,ā€ I pull at my wrists but his grip is iron, and maybe my attempts were halfhearted because, in all honesty, I didnā€™t want to leave this position one bit. ā€œYou learn your lesson yet? Or are you gonna keep being a brat?ā€ He hums and arousal pools in my panties. I quickly glamour the scent, praying he didnā€™t recognize it before I got the chance. ā€œFuck you,ā€ I seethe, continuing my futile attempts to escape. ā€œSuch a filthy mouth, you wanna put it to better use?ā€ He asks and if I wasnā€™t red before I definitely was now. ā€œIn your dreams,ā€ I hiss. ā€œOh love, it is,ā€ He smirks, and my brain stutters. Whatā€™d he just say?
My pointed ears perk before I can reply, noticing an unfamiliar pair of footsteps. Not Eris.
ā€œSomeoneā€™s coming, kiss me,ā€ I say with a rushed tone. ā€œWhat?ā€ His hand loosened around my neck. ā€œJustā€”ā€ I donā€™t finish and interrupt myself by lifting onto my toes and crashing my lips against his.
He seems taken aback for a moment then to my surprise, leans into it. I melt at the feeling. He was tentative at first but once I showed him this was what I asked for he seemed almost, hungry. His hand slips from my throat and cups my jaw instead, calloused thumb pulling at my bottom lip and forcing them open. I canā€™t help but obey his silent command, parting my lips wider so he can capture me fully. His mouth seals over mine yet again and my stomach ties into knots, the thrumming sensation in my ribcage making me realize this was a point of no return.
His tongue explored my mouth like it was his and his alone, he was devouring me and I savored every moment. An energy buzzed between us, my wrists still pinned up by his hold, but I wasnā€™t any less greedy with my lips. I wanted him to taste me, to memorize me, and never forget the feel of his lips on mine, I wanted it to hurt when he had to pull away. Languid movements with his tongue turn into messy, impatient strokes, needing all of me right then and thereā€” and I wouldā€™ve given it to him if not for that pair of footsteps returning, so much closer this time.
ā€œWhatā€™s going on here?ā€ A gruff voice demands answers and Azriel hesitantly detaches, like he was unwilling.
It takes me a moment to even open my eyes, gods if heā€™s got me this paralyzed over just a kiss who knows how much more I could take? Azriel lets go of my wrists and I regain consciousness.
ā€œIā€™m sorry Officer,ā€ I put on my most innocent smile. The male in front of me was Autumn Court patrol, lower in rank based on the patches on his arms. ā€œWhatā€™s an Illyrian doing so far from home?ā€ He snarled the word like it was a curse. ā€œWeā€™re traveling sir,ā€ I say, intertwining my hand with Azrielā€™s. He stiffens at the action as if I didnā€™t just have his lips on mine. ā€œTravelinā€™?ā€ The officer scoffs. ā€œOut here?ā€ He hums. ā€œYes sir, itā€™s our honeymoon,ā€ I grin wildly, trying to capture the excitement of newlyweds as I hold our linked hands up.
The officer raises his brows a fraction, he was buying it. He was visibly older, you had to be ancient as a fae to start having wrinkles and this guy had plenty. ā€œYou know, I feel like I recognize you,ā€ He hums and I swallow thickly. It was more likely for Azriel to get recognized out of the two of us, so the Shadow Singer didnā€™t take his chances and stuffed his face into my neck, lining kisses from my shoulder to my jaw. My hand goes into his hair, weaving my fingers into his soft, dark locks as I continue carrying on the conversation.
ā€œReally? What from?ā€ I tilt my head, resting my luck. ā€œNot quite sureā€¦ā€ He thinks for a moment. ā€œAh, forget it probably just confusing you with my granddaughter, sheā€™s lovely like you,ā€ He says and I giggle light-heartedly. ā€œThatā€™s sweet to hear,ā€ I smile. ā€œAlright you kids be safe, perhaps find an inn somewhere,ā€ He starts his trek once more. ā€œThank you, officer!ā€ I call to him and he gives me a wave.
I nearly cackle as Azriel pulls away from my neck, my lipgloss smeared along his lips. I reach up and wipe it away with a teasing smile. ā€œNot much of a spymaster if Iā€™m the one saving you, hm?ā€ I say, hands cupping his cheeks. ā€œYou were the one distracting me in the first place,ā€ He defended, crossing his arms and I snicker. ā€œAwh, poor Illyrian baby is pouting 'cause Iā€™m better at his job,ā€ I taunt, his gaze on my lips as I talk.
ā€œWell, that was quite the show,ā€ A familiar, smooth voice intones from a short distance away and I whip my head towards the figure, leaning against a tree with an unmistakable foxlike smirk on his face. ā€œHow long have you been standing there?ā€ Azriel questions and it seems like the Heir might laugh. ā€œItā€™s truly a wonder how your shadows didnā€™t find me, though I suppose theyā€™re preoccupied at the moment,ā€ He gestures to the ground beneath me where they were pooling at my feet, flicking up and twining at my ankle every now and again, completely forgetting what their job was in my presence.
The meeting went smoothly, Azriel was a bit on edge with the lack of his Shadows but other than that Eris complied easily, he seemed to have something up his sleeve but weā€™d worry about that at a later date, we were only ensuring his loyalty was still with us.
He updated us on some information including his father, the two males briefing over a plan to take down Beron, and as I stood there I realized I was just for show, a shiny jewel for Eris to look at, keep his attention before he got the idea that he could survive on his own. Not that I minded being looked at by the Heir, he was quite prettyā€” hel, Iā€™d be lying if I said I havenā€™t dreamed about both the males in front of me, at once, more than once.
Azriel shadow-walked us back to the House of Wind when we were finished, or rather when he was finished. I probably couldā€™ve stayed a few more minutes just to admire Eris in the pale moonlight, but my plans just had to be foiled by the Shadow Singer.
Az flew me the rest of the way into the house bridal styleā€” since you couldnā€™t winnow straight in due to the wards. His hold on me felt more familiar than usual, and when he put me down he didnā€™t step away so neither did I.
ā€œHey,ā€ Cassian said from the dining table, a mouthful of food muffling his voice. We both swivel towards the male, sat next to Nesta who couldnā€™t be bothered to look up from her book to greet us. ā€œHowā€™d the mission go?ā€ The brunette at the table said once he swallowed his food. We both stiffen, the memory of that kiss has been replaying in my head over and over since it ended and yet it felt odd for anyone else to bring it up.
ā€œUh, went niceā€¦ā€ I shrug. Nesta looks up from her page, eyes piercing as they read me like the chapters in her book. ā€œReally?ā€ She intervenes and I nod. ā€œYup, just, so normal,ā€ Azriel blurts out, and for a Spymaster, he was awfully bad at lying. Cassian creased his brows, clearly concerned for his brother. ā€œWhy are you acting so weird, then?ā€ Nesta interrogates and the male and I share a look. ā€œI donā€™t think heā€™s acting weird,ā€ I scoff. ā€œDo you think youā€™re acting weird?ā€ My words are fast like I only have one breath to finish my sentence. ā€œPshh, never,ā€ He shakes his head, looking down at his feet then back up to Lady Death.
ā€œRight, well, man am I exhausted,ā€ I stretch, feigning a yawn. ā€œYeah, the mission really wore me out,ā€ He sighs, rolling his shoulders like thereā€™s a weight off of them, following me up the stairs towards the bedrooms.
Nesta looks to her mate, a small smirk on her lips. ā€œWhat?ā€ The lord of bloodshed says cluelessly. ā€œTheyā€™re totally going to fuck,ā€ She hums, sinking into her chair a little and picking her book back up.
Azriel and I split off into our respective bedrooms, just across the hall from each other.
I paced beside my closed door, wondering what the fuck was I thinking when I let him kiss me. Sure Iā€™ve always thought he was pretty but that was always a stupid fantasy, not something I would ever pursueā€¦ until now. Fuck, I am so finished. I repeatedly hit my palm against my forehead as I racked my head for any thought that didnā€™t immediately trace back to him. I couldnā€™t even look at my own hands without thinking about his hands, how they held my jawā€” no. I wasnā€™t going to let myself romanticize this, it was just a mission. Nothing more. Just a kiss. A yearning, passion-filled kiss that fed all my cravings and somehow created new ones.
I groaned, deciding that this was the finest form of torture. I now stand still in front of my door, hoping that if I stare hard enough at it, heā€™ll come knocking and kiss me again because, fuck, I do want him.
I canā€™t sit here and wait for him to come rescue me from my own torment so I do it myself, hand coming to the doorknob and before I can psych myself out, I fling the door open.
To my shock, Iā€™m immediately met with Azrielā€™s figure, his hand up like he was just about to knock.
ā€œYou couldnā€™t even let me make an entrance?ā€ He tilts his head and I roll my eyes. ā€œShut up and kiss me already,ā€ I grab him by the collar of his leathers and pull him in, the door closing behind him as his lips crash onto mine yet again.
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marlenesluv Ā· 1 year ago
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Keep It Private. Part 2. (DR)
summary: just some more of you and daniel not being able to keep it in your pants on instagram
warnings: suggestive content
note: i wasnā€™t gonna make a part 2, but my posts have been getting a lot of love (thank you sm) and you guys seemed to rly like this one! <3 (still trying to reply to comments, but j know i see them all!)
masterlist here -> masterlist link
^ check my list for part 1! ^
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danielricciardo: big win today in the australian grand prix race. thank you to my team, my fans, my friends, family, and pit crew. but i couldnā€™t have done it without my wife @y/n.ricciardo. i will be giving you so many orgasms later, and many reasons to have you not stand straight. i love you, my lucky charmā¤ļø
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oscarpiastri: omg daniel, seriously?
|> danielricciardo: yeahšŸ˜Š
f1fanpage: do i say that they are cute? or disgusting for the pda?ā€¦.
wagsoff1: congratulations, daniel!!
|> y/nanddanfp: youā€™re skipping over the whole last partā€¦?
|> wagsoff1: trying to pretend i didnā€™t read it
maxverstappen1: congratulations, daniel!!
|> danielricciardo: thank you! šŸ˜
y/n.ricciardo: daniel omg my mom follows you nowšŸ˜³
|> danielricciardo: i blocked her, she follows my family one though. its okayšŸ˜Š
|> y/n.ricciardo: oh okay. i love youuu
|> danielricciardo: i love you toooā¤ļø
|> landonorris: itā€™s almost like you guys donā€™t have messages to say this to each other?
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y/n.ricciardo: workout or workout..?šŸ¤­
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francisca.cgomes: you look stunning!šŸ’“šŸ«¶
|> y/n.ricciardo: thank you kikašŸ„¹šŸ«¶
f1wags: GOOD LORD THE CAPTION Y/N
danielricciardo: i prefer the second one
|> y/n.ricciardo: what a coincidence! me too!!
|> danielricciardo: im coming home so we can workout rn
|> y/n.ricciardo: YAY
f1updates: you GUYSšŸ˜³
georgerussell63: the only couple i know without a filter
|> carmenmmundt: they make it work, theyā€™re hot
|> y/n.ricciardo: ily carmen
|> carmenmmundt: ily too babe
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Daniels BeReal (friends/grid only):
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Caption: How mad would she be if i ate her out even tho sheā€™s working?
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Lando Norris -> dudeā€¦.
Charles Leclerc -> on the plane??
|> Daniel Ricciardo -> yeah? so?
|> Charles Leclerc -> seems a bit unsanitary
Carlos Sainz -> what the fuck
Pierre Gasly -> get it, daniel!
|> Daniel Ricciardo -> pierreeeeee
Max Verstappen -> iā€™m not sure what to say.
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y/n.ricciardo: congratulations, baby. p1 in australia, our beautiful home country. couldnā€™t have asked for a better way to celebrate your win ā¤ļø
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lilymhe: such an adorable couple, congrats daniel!
|> pierregasly: congratulations, daniel !!!
|> danielricciardo: thank you lily, and thank you pierre! congrats on p2 my man
|> pierregasly: YEAHHHH thanks daniel šŸ™
f1wags: my couple goals and inspo
danielricciardo: the real win was making you my wife ā¤ļø
|> y/n.ricciardo: damn straight it was
|> danielricciardo: excuse me? youā€™re gonna regret that miss
|> y/n.ricciardo: WAIT JK JK
|> danielricciardo: mhmm
formula1updates: congratulations on p1, daniel!!!
y/n.fans: parents are slaying tonight
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danielricciardo: happy anniversary to the love of my life, my partner, and my favorite person in the world. i donā€™t know how i would live without you. i love you, and i cant wait to spend the rest of our lives togetherā¤ļø
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charles_leclerc: happy anniversary, guys!
|> danielricciardo: thank you, charles!
fanpage.f1: awwwww, happy anniversaryšŸ„¹
landonorris: happy anniversary, mom and dadā˜ŗļø
|> y/n.ricciardo: landošŸ™ƒšŸ™ƒ
|> danielricciardo: donā€™t give her baby fever
|> y/n.ricciardo: too late
|> danielricciardo: wanna make one?
*liked by y/n.ricciardo*
georgerussell63: happy anniversary, you two!
|> danielricciardo: thank you!
f1fan: i cant believe you guys have been together for four years already
|> wagsof.f1: four married and eight total with their dating šŸ„¹šŸ„¹
y/n.ricciardo: i love you so muchā¤ļøā¤ļø
|> danielricciardo: i love you so much tooā¤ļøā¤ļø
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y/n.ricciardo: four years ago, you proposed to me while we were at dinner with your friendsā€¦translation: four years ago, you made me the happiest, luckiest, and the most loved person in the universe. i cant believe that iā€™m able to say youā€™re mine. and now i present my lockscreen for these past four years. i love you more than words can explain, my loveā¤ļø
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pierregasly: i remember that
|> maxverstappen1: yeah, never thought he would propose
|> carlossainz55: it did take him a while
y/nsfans: the lockscreen picturešŸ„¹ we finally know what it is. i can now live in peace
wagsf1: you guys donā€™t get it, im obsessed with this couple
lilymhe: congratulations!! you guys are perfect for each otheršŸ’“
|> y/n.ricciardo: thank you, lilyšŸ„¹šŸ’“
danielricciardo: i love you so much, thank you for sticking by my side
|> y/n.ricciardo: šŸ„¹šŸ„¹šŸ„¹
|> danielricciardo: donā€™t cry, we havenā€™t had sex yet you canā€™t cry
|> oscarpiastri: they canā€™t even stop on anniversary pictures
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ellecdc Ā· 8 months ago
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Hiii, so i got really excited about all the new ships and i wondering if i could request a poly!prongsfoot x female reader where maybe the reader completely matches their energy and its like a college au and the boys bring reader to meet all their friends for the first time and everybody is likeā€¦ woahā€¦ now theres 3 of them. Just some super energetic cutesy fluff if you dont mind, thank you for considering this i really appreciate it!!! Hope your doing amazingšŸ«¶šŸ»
omg so I saw a post the other day and there's another ship name for Sirius x James = starbucks!! How cute? Thanks for your request and your patience - it took me some time to flush this out (I think any new ships likely will take me longer!)
poly!prongsfoot x fem!reader who's just like them
Remus doesnā€™t think heā€™s ever seen his two best friends as excited as they currently were, sitting and waiting (rather impatiently) for your arrival.Ā 
Peter, Mary, and Lily were sitting on the booth against the wall, with Remus and Regulus sat together to the right of them, with Sirius and James toĀ theirĀ right.
Sirius and James had been talking about thisĀ ā€˜perfect girlā€™Ā they met in their psych 101 class last semester, likely since the very day they met you if Remus assumed correctly.Ā 
ā€œSheā€™s so pretty, Moons! Iā€™ve never seen eyes as beautiful as hers.ā€
ā€œSheā€™s so funny! You should have heard her snarking the frat boys behind us in yesterdayā€™s lecture.ā€
ā€œSheā€™s brilliant! She helped us study and I got 88% on our last exam!ā€
And now, a whole semester and a half later, theyā€™d finally convinced you to meet their friends.
Lord knows how two of the most hyperactive and mischievous people Remus has ever had the pleasure of knowing managed to trick another person to put up with them voluntarily, but he did really like seeing them so happy and excited in life; both so deserving for different reasons.Ā 
James deserved all the love that he so openly and willingly shared with others, and Sirius had worked so hard to become the man he is and deserved to be celebrated for it.
So, if what made them happy was a cute girl from their intro to psychology course? Well, Remus couldnā€™t argue with them.Ā 
ā€œI canā€™t wait until she gets here; youā€™re all going to love her.ā€ James declared, shifting closer to Sirius in his excitement who quickly threw his arm over his boyfriendā€™s shoulders.Ā 
ā€œSo, donā€™t embarrass us, alright? We want to keep her around.ā€ Sirius added, placing a chaste kiss to James' shoulder as James practically vibrated in his seat.
ā€œI assure you, Sirius, you do not need our help embarrassing you.ā€ Regulus drawled, not bothering to look up from the drinkā€™s menu in his hand.
ā€œOi! You take that back!ā€ Sirius barked as he flicked the menu up into Regulusā€™ face.Ā 
Remus had to quickly grip his boyfriendā€™s shoulder to hold him in his seat as he looked like he was about to crawl over the table to strangle his brother.
ā€œEasy, babe.ā€ Remus commented teasingly, ā€œI doubt Pete, Lily, or Mary will bother calling 999 if you kill him, but their new girl may not be as understanding.ā€
Sirius harrumphed earning him a conciliatory kiss from James as Pete and the girls just snickered.Ā 
Regulusā€™ muttering was interrupted by a commotion at the door as a group sitting near the entrance cheered at a new arrival.
ā€œYay! Are you finally joining us for a pub night, Y/N?!ā€ someone shouted, causing both James and Siriusā€™ head to snap to attention; Remus was sure if they were dogs, their tails would be wagging and their ears would have perked up.Ā 
ā€œGod no! I wouldnā€™t dream of it!ā€ You called back teasingly, pulling away from someone who had stood to give you a hug.Ā 
ā€œFoul!ā€ The person called back as their friend group laughed.
ā€œNext time!ā€ You promised as you moved through the crowd, face lighting up somehow even brighter when you spotted James and Sirius.
James was up on his feet the second you made eye contact with him and he all but carried you over to the group.
ā€œHi angel! Iā€™m so glad you could make it!ā€ He cheered at you as he kissed your cheek.Ā 
ā€œOf course, Jamie. I was looking forward to it.ā€ You responded as you beamed at Sirius who stood as well to give you a proper hug.
ā€œHiya, dollface! How was your day?ā€ Sirius asked as he held you to his chest.
ā€œGood! Good, Iā€™m looking forward to a drink, though.ā€ You laughed, shucking your jacket off which James was quick to take from you to hang it on the hook attached to the booth.Ā 
ā€œEveryone; this is Y/N! Y/N, that there is our best mate Remus, thatā€™s his boyfriend and less importantly my brother Regulus,ā€ Sirius introduced, causing Regulus to scowl and Remus to chuckle as he consolingly squeezed Regulusā€™ knee. ā€œAnd that there is our other best mate Peter, and these beauties here are Lily and Mary.ā€
You enthusiastically exchanged handshakes with those you could reach and no less enthusiastic waves with those who you couldnā€™t.
ā€œItā€™s so nice to meet you all! Iā€™ve heard so much about you.ā€
ā€œWhich is concerning, considering you guys met in class?ā€ Regulus commented, earning him a booming laugh from you.
ā€œI was doing too well in that class anyways; itā€™s good to keep your GPA well rounded.ā€ You responded in jest, gently nudging a furiously blushing James with your elbow as Sirius beamed at the two of you from your other side.Ā 
As the group of you spoke, Remus noticed a number of people coming up to clap James or Sirius on the shoulders who knew them from their classes or various extracurriculars., though that wasnā€™t all that unusual when attending a pub night near campus. What Remus found to be quite phenomenal was how many people happened to come up toĀ youĀ to do the same.
Remus supposed it made sense for his two social and quite popular friends to find a kindred spirit, but he couldnā€™t believe that there were three of you who appeared to be so universallyĀ liked.
Well, Remus was sure some of Siriusā€™ notoriety was less from hisĀ likeabilityĀ and more for his flirty nature.Ā 
Mary had a lot of fun talking to you about her Instagram feed and your TikTok, which was full of videos of you, Sirius, and James doing trendy dances to various degrees of success.Ā 
You were eager to discuss your latest reads with Remus, Regulus, and Lily, and you all laughed at the furious blush that took over Regulusā€™ face when the three of you started discussing the erotic books youā€™d enjoyed recently.Ā 
ā€œI mean, really; is that appropriate to be discussing in such a public setting?ā€ Regulus had muttered as he looked over his shoulder to ensure other patrons hadnā€™t heard the scandalous books the three of you had read.
ā€œOh, donā€™t be such aĀ prude, Reggie. Iā€™ve seen the love bites youā€™ve left on my mate; youā€™re no saint.ā€ Sirius had drawled, causing the blush to migrate all the way down Regulusā€™ neck.
You even joined in with some of Peter's quick-witted jests at the boys' expense.
In the end, it was the way you fell easily into the friendly banter with the group as if youā€™d been part of it all along that really won Remus over, had his friendsā€™ lovesick smiles not already thoroughly convinced him of your worth.Ā 
ā€œI really like Y/N.ā€ He commented to Regulus as he finished flossing his teeth that night. Regulus scoffed without lifting his head from the book heā€™d been reading already comfortable in bed.
ā€œYou would.ā€
Remus furrowed his brow as he turned the bathroom light off and climbed into bed.
ā€œWhatā€™s that supposed to mean?ā€
ā€œSheā€™s exactly your type.ā€
Remus barked a laugh and pulled Regulus (quite rudely, if youā€™d asked Regulus) into his side, forcing him to lay the book flat on the bed lest he lose his place for good.
ā€œIā€™d argue thatā€™s not the case, seeing asĀ youā€™reĀ my type.ā€ He murmured into his boyfriendā€™s neck.
Regulus rolled his eyes though his face betrayed the fondness he felt for Remus. ā€œThatā€™s not what I meant, tosser.ā€
ā€œWhatā€™d you mean then?ā€ He asked, trailing kisses along Regulusā€™ collarbone.
ā€œIĀ meanĀ sheā€™s bubbly, sheā€™s bold and outgoing, sheā€™s mischievous, and she seemed to put up with the lot of you quite well.ā€
Remus lifted his head to look at Regulus bemusedly.
ā€œSheā€™s a carbon copy of two of your best friends, sheā€™s basically Sirius and James.ā€ Regulus clarified, looking smug as Remusā€™ face fell in understand.
ā€œOh my God...ā€ Remus whispered in horror. ā€œThereā€™sĀ three of them.ā€Ā 
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Hello! This is the Frankenstein anon back with more praise and another prompt that you might like. Again you are amazing and everyone you come out with stuff, I weep for joy! Please continue what you are doing because it is absolute artāœØ
Okay onto the prompt. So lately tiktok has been putting onto this telenova drama called Hilda FurcĆ£o which is pretty much this priest and prostitute fall in love but due to societal pressures, cannot be together. The YEARNING in this show is amazing and I canā€™t help but think of Priest Konig in this situation. Imagine he falls in love with reader who works at a brothel but because heā€™s a churchly man, heā€™s fighting demons in his head (and down yonder) cuz he YEARNS for her but the lord says nošŸ„“
Please keep doing what youā€™re doing and Iā€™m constantly cheering you on with your work! ā¤ļø
In the Arms of Flowers
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content/warnings: 18+. minors do not interact. pining, lots of talk of religion/silly metaphors, fluff, ridiculous attempts at courtship from both, dark (if you squint), implied cyber stalking, violence/murder, minor character death, some angst, sexual violence (not done by Kƶnig), Kƶnig becomes horribly obsessed and reader is fine with it, virgin!Kƶnig-> oral (both receiving) piv smut.
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Thereā€™s a garden in the churchyard, one thatā€™s always been, even before his vows were taken and the cassock was pulled around his shoulders.
Itā€™s the very place that the arching den window in the clergy house faces out towards, and the very place that an angel descends from Heaven to stalk through night after night.
Even when the thunder clamors and rolls to light up the sky above, the pretty thing is there, kneeling amongst the blooming lilies. A listless sort of purity swallows over her, bathes her in the white of petals and the bright illumination of each bolt of lightning above, arcs a halo over her head like a proper mirage.
The whole town knows these doors remain open, but never does she even look toward the church or the home of holy men at all: only the flowers. The lilies and carnations seemed to be her favorite to haunt, weaving through the petals as they sway for her in breezes like whispers from the pouting lips of cherubim.
Heā€™s prayed for this lost soul many times already; clutched the rosary between his fingers and whispered to the Lord to protect her, to heal whatever aches, to bring her wandering feet into the chapel one of these days. But as most lilies, this oneā€™s beauty is gone away by mid-morning.
Tonight, he wills himself to bring her in for prayer and refuge from the coming rain. Its been a long time coming, and regrettably heā€™s hesitated at every other opportunity. Nothingā€™s changed, the scene was so commonplace even the others have commented on it prior.
Maybe he hallucinates her holiness; the halo has become made up of fallen petals now as they arch over the crown of her head where sheā€™s found sprawled out amongst them. She raises herself to sit upright, dusts the dirt from her knees and offers a wary glance with each step he takes until his soles halt in soil that would soon be mire.
ā€œIā€™m sorry. Iā€™ll leave,ā€ the angel breathes out with her eyes darting from his collar down to rest at the expanse of short blades of grass between them. ā€œI donā€™t mean to cause you any trouble.ā€
She doesnā€™t meet the concern in his eyes, and Kƶnig is no stranger to sin. To the shame and grief that heā€™s absolved from far worse than her in the stuffy wooden confessional.
ā€œYouā€™re welcome to stay.ā€ A silent prayer rests there in his breath ā€” please stay, though even he wasnā€™t certain as to why thereā€™s a demand stirring in the pit of his stomach for this woman clad in a dirtied white dress.
She smiles then, gazes right up at him in such a way that immediately sparks something misplaced, something tucked away beneath studying scripture and kneeling before the wooden altar. A sin of the flesh, a heated poker jabbing at both his heart and his loins.
ā€œNo, Iā€™m okay,ā€ she assures with a slight dip of her head, already taking steps back to dart away, back to whichever gilded little nest of baubles and starlight she took flight from. ā€œI was just heading home.ā€
And thatā€™s it. He doesnā€™t plead for her to come inside, the offer has been laid out already. Itā€™s not his job to force a belief that one doesnā€™t want, only lend a kindness and a cushioned pew, advice for the lost and a choir for bleating lambs.
He bids her goodbye and walks back to the clergy house, ignoring the strange looks of his peers as they all prepare to bed down after a nightly prayer. Itā€™s rare to smile here, when sacred words are passed from the wrinkled, cracked lips of his seniors. But Kƶnig does smile, the grin is as bright as the seconds of white lighting up the sky in intervals as he silently thanks God for such a sweet vision amidst such darkness.
The fixation does not falter for the following three nights. She doesnā€™t return to the churchyard to whisper secrets to the blooms, but the angel weighs on his mind so heavily that Kƶnig finds himself convinced that she must have been his calling, a soul that he would assuredly save.
His sermons now lack their passion. The parishioners come to him with weighty hearts and misery in their eyes, but bless him all the same, even when heā€™s distant. Away with the fairies, some would say. He canā€™t help but wonder when one such service rolls to a closing prayer if whoever conjured such words had also been in the presence of a seraph.
ā€œDo you need prayer?,ā€ one of his fellow priests asks as the flock trickles out, worry clear in the wrinkles laden beneath this eyes and the way his lips draw down before pressing thin. ā€œYou donā€™t seem to be sleeping well.ā€
And Kƶnig regrets the words he speaks next, when he describes the woman from the flowers in detail greater than necessary: how her eyes seemed so soft, her smile fragile, and her body language more docile than that of even a lamb. He mentions the dirty dress, the way she seemed to be trying to escape something yet refused the shelter he offered.
The other priest nods and sighs, his eyes squeezing shut in thought, and though Kƶnig has not feared a scolding since he abandoned home nearly two decades prior, the way the ordinarily calm priest seems so frustrated by this sends a swell of fluttering anxiety beneath his ribcage.
ā€œThe woman you describe is a temptress,ā€ his elder explains coldly. His sharp, dark eyes rest on Kƶnigā€™s face as though the disparity in their height does not exist at all. ā€œBest to let her be, she does not want our help. Leave it alone.ā€
ā€œJa. Verstanden.ā€
The warning is enough to dull the buzzing in his chest, the mush thatā€™s been made up of his head until he sees her again.
The bakery in town regularly makes donations of pastries and thick loaves of bread for church goingson. It isnā€™t regular that heā€™s been asked to pick them up; the eldest of the priests usually does so, some blood relation to the owners that Kƶnig has never cared enough to ask about. The old man never did well in the summer months, though, far too frail now to bear the heat snaking over his pale skin and leaving burns.
With the mistake of rambling onward about this perturbing fascination still grating at his mind, he doesnā€™t hesitate to volunteer, to take the old truck and step away from the stained glass and crucifixes for a brief outing. A moment of respite.
Thereā€™s a complimentary mug of coffee presented across the expanse of the counter when the cashier greets him with a smile so broad it seems faked.
Kƶnigā€™s fingers twitch when he grasps at the handle; the uncertainty was something he had sworn he would outgrow one day with Godā€™s healing, but it never seemed to stray far from him. It rests over the back of his neck like a feeding vampire when he takes his first sip, one that burns his tongue and stings at his eyes when he notices the woman seated at a table in the corner.
Itā€™s her: temptation and fate packaged up in a loose fitting sweater that covers the pulse in her neck and a short skirt.
She holds her phone, not the mug stationed before her, staring down at the thing with the most somber expression heā€™s ever seen on a lady before. She taps her thumbs at the screen, talking to someone, but thereā€™s a loneliness in her expression apparent like the rust on the old truck parked outside.
Poor little thing.
She glances up when his staring is detected, confusion stripped bare upon her with a pinched brow and a slack jaw. Then, follows realization and she offers the same smile she did that night, some seventy or so hours prior.
ā€œMorning, Father.ā€
Thereā€™s not a fractal within Kƶnig that wants to make the sweet spirit uncomfortable, but each step he takes towards her table seems to make her shoulders tense. She knows that he knows, sees that sympathetic look in his eye and hates it.
Maybe even hates him for the divinity he wears in the sable cloth pulled over his shoulders.
That doesnā€™t stop his approach.
Kƶnig sits across from her with shaking hands and a forced smile like the one the cashier wears, drops his mug onto the table and offers her his hand. Fingers bending to graze the palm as though beckoning a frightened animal when itā€™s he who feels most afraid.
The angel merely eyes him cautiously for a moment before she takes the cup into both of her hands and gives him a fragile huff, dismissing his attempt to pray for her soul. Again. Yet, the sting he feels is not from a lack of a starved savior complex being satisfied, onlyā€¦ that he has yet to touch her somehow. That sudden thought stifles him in full.
But angels are nothing if not merciful and loving; she picks up on his dejection and speaks again in his place.
ā€œHow are the carnations?ā€
ā€œHm?ā€
ā€œThe flowers in the gardenā€¦ the red ones,ā€ she elaborates with a soft laugh, hides it behind the rim of her cup when itā€™s raised for her to take a sip. Her mouth looks soft, compelling, and heā€™s staring again. ā€œI like them the most.ā€
He knows he should stop this, that whatā€™s become of an innocent meeting has left him feeling anything but. Thereā€™s a howling chasm in place of the heart of a worthy devotee. Sheā€™s nothing like the women who frequent the church ā€” the only other women he sees. Brighter at best and alluring at the worst.
ā€œI thought the lilies were your favoriteā€¦ā€ Itā€™s unsuited for a priest and a man so tall and broad to sound so breakable, but his voice only comes in an hurried breath, embarrassed and small.
She shakes her head, tousles her hair in the process. ā€œI like all of them. The ones at your church grow prettiest.ā€
ā€œI seeā€¦ā€
The woman gives him an expectant look, as if prompting him to speak more, before her phone chimes and the air seems to shift from tentative yet sweet to something vast and cold. She doesnā€™t seem eager to be interrupted in such a way, either; her expression falls from that subtle playfulness to something akin to a regretful acceptance.
She stands from her seat abruptly and takes a step towards the door. ā€œI have something I need to take care of.ā€
God gives and takes away.
ā€œI can bring you some,ā€ he offers, winding in the too-small wooden chair to face her. Too late to reel in the flirtatious nature of such an offering, too late to bite his tongue and remember the vows he had taken. The burden upon his heart seems far more pressing than any words from an old book. ā€œCarnations and liliesā€¦ some of the others, too.ā€
The woman almost seems shy when she glances over her shoulder and offers him the most imperceptible nod. ā€œYeah, sureā€¦ Iā€™ll see you around.ā€
His angel leaves him to rot in thought at that lonely table, in this tiny bakery. He does not think to repent for the way his temperature and pulse spiked in her presence, for the way he takes her empty cup and stuffs it into one of the boxes of baked goods to collect later.
Riding back to the church is dreadful, because sheā€™s already fastened to his heart like a ribbon on a pretty bouquet. Heā€™ll ask the sisters from the cloister to clip flowers for him, tie them up in a lace that will leave her face warmed and lips pouting.
When the people in the church have their fill of sweets and bread, Kƶnig tells a lie, maybe several.
He claims he doesnā€™t know why that innocuous porcelain thing is resting where food once had, doesnā€™t know why the baker would have stuffed that in there too. He takes it to his room and claims that he would return it come morning.
The bed has always felt far too small for him alone, but he pictures her there with him, sat upon his lap when he brings the cup up to his lips with his eyes closed.
Itā€™s cold and hard, difficult to imagine it to be a kiss at all, but he pretends her lips are upon him, eager and willing. It takes only rolling his tongue back to flick over itself, envisioning it being her own, for him to feel his trousers grow too tight. He doesnā€™t touch himself. He canā€™t bear the thought of it, not with the cross staring down at him from the far wall.
And finally, regret comes.
Shame, too, because Kƶnig is aware heā€™s become a bit of a creep; enchanting himself with second hand kisses whilst his angel takes another man to bed. A man undeserving, butā€¦ he could be. He was deserving enough to become a holy man, surely she could see he was worthy of her as well.
The bed is too small even when he curls into himself and pulls the blanket up passed his eyes. Sleep is too skittish to come for him, even when he prays in a whisper to be absolved of his lust.
The dreams are only filled with images of an angel trapped in a rose bush, the thorns sinking into her wings until blood is drawn, but still she smiles. She reaches toward him with shaky limbs, whispers something so dreadfully mournful he knows to his very soul that she is his purpose alone.
Itā€™s what wakes him in a fit, compels him to venture out through the yard with a heart set on seeking guidance. There are moonbeams above and animal calls from the surrounding trees. All of Godā€™s creations are in perfect, dreamy harmony.
Why couldnā€™t he be the same? Always the outsider in one way or another; always the sore thumb rather than the loving green. Desolation is an art, a skill heā€™s learned to hide back: clenched teeth to still a wrathful tongue and a layer of muscle to guard that wounded thing in his chest.
There is no better peace than the quiet of the church in the late hour. Moonlight through stained glass and empty, antique seats that would make the worldly whip out their phones to snap pictures in a heartbeat. The doors are always open, for the sinners and the devoted alike, though the confessional is rarely touched when there would be no saint awake set on absolving.
Perhaps thatā€™s why he takes to the booth he needs to make himself smaller to fit into: one shoulder and one foot first, then the next set. Heā€™s never cared for it, left it to the better and smaller. The sound just past the thin partition rattles him. It isnā€™t the creaking of wood below his feet, but something softer. A weak sniffle. A cry from the other side.
ā€œIā€™ll leave in a moment,ā€ comes a voice, broken from tears and so horribly sad that the usual script entirely fails him. He recognizes the voice, though a bit warbled now. The voice that would make the choir pause, an angelā€™s sweet tone.
ā€œWaitā€¦ no. You can stay. Iā€™m hiding, too.ā€ A breathy laugh comes forced and misplaced. Priest or not, Kƶnig has never been the best at consoling anyone, let alone one so far above him.
ā€œIā€™m not hiding,ā€ she tries to sound braver now. He can imagine her chin tilted forward and that sweet smile trying itā€™s damndest to paint its way across her face. ā€œButā€¦ why are you?ā€
ā€œDonā€™t know.ā€
ā€œWho are you?ā€ The crying seems to have ceased entirely for now. Clearly whatever seemed to ail her could be remedied by her own curiosity. A cute, unorthodox little thing.
ā€œKƶnig.ā€ It served well enough as a confirmation name when he could not settle on one of the saints. King of them all, one of the other saved men had said in jest. Ironic, now.
ā€œI like your voice, Kƶnig,ā€ she murmurs, deliberately testing the pronunciation on her tongue in such an alluring way that a small shiver runs its way down his spine.
ā€œDankeā€¦ and you?ā€
God forgive him, he doesnā€™t even try. Doesnā€™t try to bring shame or guilt, read her scripture or pray for her soul. He only listens in silence when she tells him her name, beautiful and charming as he had expected it to be. The woman then tells him of her work, of the motel she ventures to at nightā€¦ the troubles with money and even vaguely, some of the men she suffers through. This had been a bad night. Strange how a singular hour could have broken someone down to such a desperation to open up, to grasp for what small comfort they could receive.
But she came for him.
She must have hoped to see him.
He thanks his god for that.
ā€” ā€” ā€”
ā€œI bought a phone.ā€
ā€œI see that.ā€ Her fingers graze over the stems of the flowers, cleanly cut by hands more patient and stable than Kƶnigā€™s own.
The angel isnā€™t looking up at him, not this time. There isnā€™t even a smile on her face when she cradles the bouquet close to her chest, petting over it where she sits upon the motel bed wearing nothing but some strappy, barely-there lingerie. Pure white with pink lace over the cups of her bra where her breasts swell with each shaky intake of breath.
In this week apart, heā€™s kept the device hidden in a loose pocket and spent many a night scouring the seediest websites looking for a hint of a body that may belong to her in this very area. Only one seemed to match. The messages exchanged were about hours and pricing, establishing a location, and terms he didnā€™t quite understand. He didnā€™t harp on the small details, but finding her messages to be so rigid and dry did surprise him. There were no cute hearts or winking emojis, it all felt horribly transactional.
Priests donā€™t make a lot of money, it all goes back to the church, but heā€™s thieved enough from the offering bowls to have a night with her alone. As disheartening as the lack of flirtations seemed, he hoped not to squander whatever opportunity this outing proved to be.
The balaclava covering his face wasnā€™t purchased with the intention of making her nervous, onlyā€¦ shielding himself from curious stares. The whole town knows his face, his name, the words he speaks so resolutely to his flock. Just as well as they know of who she is, what she does.
Even this knitted shield couldnā€™t hide himself from her, though. The very moment he entered this drab, modestly decorated room with flowers in hand she had only looked further lost.
ā€œYou look very pretty,ā€ he tries as he removes the mask and drops it to the floor, kneels just a hair from where her feet dangle from the bed. ā€œIā€™m glad that I found you.ā€
ā€œThank you.ā€
The flowers are placed on the side table, petals falling down to the thin carpet below. A cascade of red like blood and white like doves feathers. Purity and a wound in one.
The poor thing looks scorned when she does give him a glance then, but she forces herself into a position that stokes a hellish, unnatural flame within him. Her thighs part as her hands rest on the cups of her bra, pushing the thin fabric down to reveal areola, her soft nipples, sights that he had never seen before.
ā€œYou shouldnā€™t even be here, Kƶnig,ā€ the lady warns when his gaze sweeps over the innocent flesh laid bare before him. The angel isnā€™t even wet. Her panties are pristine over her womanhood, and it dawns on him thatā€¦ she wouldnā€™t risk what he was even for the generous donation he had given.
ā€œI donā€™t want to ruin you.ā€
But she should. Crumble him into salt, cast him away with the wind. Should.
She sees something holy in him tooā€¦ albeit, not in the way that he would like for her to.
He swallows hard as he rises to his feet and sits next to her. The hands that were so accustomed to being joined in prayer find her breasts now with tentative touches, a curious squeeze, until he wills himself to readjust the fabric and conceal her properly.
ā€œJa, butā€¦ I just wanted to visit you.ā€
ā€œYou donā€™t need to pay me just to see me.ā€
The tension in the room finally begins to dissolve. Not by much, but when she sighs something that sounds like amusement, the restless throbbing of his heart does begin to settle.
As much as he would like to take her like some beast in rut, lay some claim to her in bursts of white seed, he doesnā€™t even know where to begin. Each curve of her body looks as though it would feel like a miracle beneath his palm, under his tongue.
Itā€™s just that nothing is going to happen, not here, not now that heā€™s brought a prostitute flowers and revealed who he was to her. She sees something pitiful, where he only sees someone to love.
He canā€™t tell her that he dreams of her, that he views her in the same way he views his god. That would only scare her away, lead her to believe heā€™s a lunatic rather than a man only just now having his first taste of love.
ā€œThen could I see you every night? So that you donā€™t have toā€¦ā€ His head dips, because no matter how he tries he knows any word he says is foolish.
This isnā€™t something sheā€™s doing because it is fun for her; itā€™s a job just like his own. Flesh or words spokenā€¦ did it even matter? And yet, Kƶnig could feel a malicious, gnawing envy at the thought of a bolder man taking his place tomorrow evening. That man wouldnā€™t hesitate to peel away her pretty lingerie and fuck her, shove his tongue into her mouth while his cock sat between her legs as if it belonged there.
ā€œKƶnig,ā€ she sighs next to him, pityingly.
His jaw tenses as his fingers curl into his palms. The hopelessness of it all crashes down around him as though sung out from the loudest of the choir. He hardly notices when she presses her head against his shoulder, only realizes how close sheā€™s come to him when her hand curls over one of his own.
ā€œYouā€™re the strangest man Iā€™ve ever met.ā€ Itā€™s not a compliment but it feels like one when she laughs like that, airy and soft. ā€œThe sweetest one, too.ā€
He smells her perfume from this close, something scented like fruit or maybe maple, sap-sticky and saccharine. All of her flesh feels warm against the plain t-shirt he wears, a warmth he would give anything to dive into, but not without her explicit command. A powerful seraph in the form of one painfully cute, gentle lady. If anyone could see what he saw now, they too would forsake those holy books and eat from her open palm instead.
ā€œI donā€™t know what to do,ā€ he confesses, a peculiar bitterness hanging on his tongue.
ā€œHow about a walk?ā€
He pulls the balaclava over his face again when they make their way out into the quiet, darkened street. Hand in hand. Itā€™s not from shame, but a necessity, perhaps, because his pale face has only flowered into a lasting pink since laying eyes upon her on that mattress, sprawled out and waiting. The blush only deepens with every squeeze she blesses him with, every hushed word spoken as she tells him about her favorite places.
Sheā€™s dressed in the same white dress they had initially met in, now clean of the dirt from flower beds. Somehow even more radiant at this close, too.
The churchyard and the clergy house are nothing in comparison to the way the rest of the town feels when the moon rises. Itā€™s a world all their own, a place where no one looks at her as if she were a simple harlot, but a queen amongst chipping wood and tarmac. Thereā€™s even a skip in her step as she walks ahead of him, her hips swaying beneath her skirt. All because thereā€™s no one here but she and her most loyal and only acolyte.
He wills himself out of her grasp when they cross the threshold into the cemetery. The darkness there is enough to pull him back to earth; thoughts of how easily swayed heā€™s been linger in the back of his mind. The want doesnā€™t even begin to reel back its claws, but the guilt does sink its pearly fangs in alongside it.
ā€œI get it. You donā€™t want to be seen with me,ā€ she says a small step away, drawing her hand up to her chest. Itā€™s the saddest sheā€™s ever looked, and he doesnā€™t have the words to further explain that he has no god damn idea what heā€™s doing: here, with her, in the midst of something that feels so normal even though it should not.
ā€œNein! Thatā€™s notā€”ā€œ
ā€œYou donā€™t want to touch me. You barely talkā€¦ā€
Because the words donā€™t come easy. Because heā€™s never felt such an overbearing devotion to anyone, anything apart from what he prays to. How could sheā€¦ this woman that shared in such loneliness with him not see him for what he was, not see him in the way that he sees her?
ā€œYouā€™re misunderstanding.ā€
ā€œYou just want toā€¦ to convert me, is that right?,ā€ she hisses, sounding more shaken up than he had ever hoped to hear.
All hesitation had to be swallowed back.
There was no other option. He could feel her slipping away, a pain he wasnā€™t prepared to face.
God gives and takes away, but Kƶnig refuses to let go.
His eyes narrow, his breath halts entirely, and he cups her face in his hands as gently as he can. The distance between them feels like miles as he lowers his head to kiss her through the knit barrier. Itā€™s flighty and petrifying on his sideā€¦ he feels cold sweat wet his brow when the warmth of her pulls through.
She could hit him, spit her curses like a proper witch, and he would only fall to her feet and kiss her heels. Butā€¦ she does none of those things. Whatever pain was brewing here is ripped away with the night breeze.
Her hands peel away the balaclava, discard it somewhere into the tall grass where it wouldnā€™t be found, and she grants him his first, proper kiss.
With only the cracked headstones and cemetery angels watching, what once was tentative becomes a full indulgence. Kƶnig samples from her mouth as though it weeps honey when the gentle peck graduates to a parting of lips. His hands run down the length of her sides as she grasps at his shirt, they pull her in close until her chest meets his own and two pairs of eyelids flutter.
She feels more heavenly than his imagination could have prepared him for, her tongue hotter and her soundsā€¦ the soft sighs and shaky murmurs of approval that fill him with both a maddening love and an urge to burn everything away if only it would keep her safe and near.
The world ceases to be entirely, cast down with Lucifer to the sulfur and smoke. Her lips remain parted when they break apart, a haze over her eyes reflecting the veil clouding his own irises.
Was a kiss really forsaking his vows? Was that really such a painful treachery? Noā€¦ no it shouldnā€™t be. The issue remains that he can not see her as just some woman. Something as small as this could consume him entirely.
The night is spent with an abundance of those shared kisses when they return to the motel. Tentative touches, too. Heā€™s never held a woman, not in the way he gets to hold her then. She presses tightly to him, her back to his chest with her hand keeping his own in place over her middle. Sheā€™s so soft, swans down plush and smooth as silk ribbon.
There is mint lingering on her breath each time she speaks. No talk of her work, onlyā€¦ she confesses how she had feared him so initially, how she worried that a holy man stepping into her life would only be further condemnation: an angel terrified by a devil that does not exist at all.
He knows heā€™s lost a part of himself here when he tells her he wishes to meet with her again, that if the church is no longer the place she fancies to walk, heā€™ll meet her amongst the dead again and again when the old clergymen sleep. Those promises he had reserved solely for God turn on themselves now, when he reveres the idol he shares this bed with.
Though her hips press back against his groin when his fingers crawl up to her sternum, and the desire strikes up within him, his cock remains untouched here. He doesnā€™t whisper a prayer for forgiveness into her hair when he grows hard, just tucks her in closer and smiles where his head rests atop her own.
Itā€™s the closest to bliss heā€™s ever felt.
ā€” ā€” ā€”
ā€œYou werenā€™t here for morning prayer.ā€ The voice isnā€™t accusatory, just observant. The nightly prayers were missed too, though a reprieve is granted by way of those remaining unmentioned.
But the guilt does eat at Kƶnig when he sees the concern in this manā€™s eyes, splinters at his very soul until he asks in a fragile voice if he can speak to the old priest in the confessional.
Everything here feels much too small and the booth is more or less the same. The wood closes in around him, bathes him in a blackness that even the glow of candlelight within these walls can not reach. The partition separating them does not help bolster courage, it only leaves him feeling more alone.
The clergyman listens in silence as Kƶnig confesses that he has become weak. He does not mention the lady of the night, but thereā€™s no need to at all: finding himself so captivated with a woman that he considered breaking every promise to the higher power was bad enough. He does not mention how heā€™s considered pleasuring himself, touching her tooā€¦ only that they shared a night together embraced, counts the kisses that were exchanged with each digit of his hands.
Thereā€™s a pitying sigh from the other side before the man begins a lengthy prayer that Kƶnig does join him in. With the ā€œAmenā€ that follows, heā€™s told only to rid himself of those thoughts, to bury them with fasting and prayer. No more visits with this temptress, remain on the right path. The very, very simple things he must do to receive Godā€™s forgiveness and favor once more.
ā€œYou are not a disappointment,ā€ his elder reminds him with a small pat to his cheek and a smile. Itā€™s more fatherly than the sparse affection he received from his own flesh and blood before coming here.
ā€œDankeā€¦ thank you,ā€ he breathes when his eyes bear the burden of tears.
God loves him and so do the sainted men.
But to never see her again would be worse than flagellation.
He chokes down the pain with more water when his stomach roars with hunger, hides the broken heart with smiles and prayer. Holy clothes feel heavier now. The money he stole to spend that night with her is returned to the collection pool in a week's time. The smartphone he had purchased is tossed out with the rest of the garbage in the bins. Even the cup is returned to the bakery after being rinsed in the sink.
Still not a part of him feels absolved from this torturous puppet show.
He thinks of her more than he ponders over his fear of Hell itself. God feels like an old memory as the days pass. He counts them in his daybook, an ā€˜Xā€™ next to the dates he had gone without seeing her. Ten becomes twenty, and it becomes no less agonizing.
The prayers come easier, at least. He joins with his fellow men, kneels with his hands clasped before him, speaks such heartfelt words now that on more than one occasion heā€™s shared a healing tear or two with the other clergymen.
God is an old friend, yes, but that title is just a placeholder for the one his prayers are truly for. The little angel of the garden, the woman who has given him nothing at all but stole his heart all the same. Was she not the same as God from that aspect?
After a month, heā€™s finally given the privilege to stand before the altar and preach to the parishioners again. His sermon is directed by the other clergymen, a subtle admission of his own misdeeds as he guides the flock away from the sins of lust, of worldly pleasures that would steer them away from the right path.
Amidst the men and women crowding the pews sits a new face. She wears a hat, looking uncertain and skittish as a bunny amidst a pack of starved hounds beneath its curved brim. Her coat is tugged tightly around her where her hands grip to keep it closed and snug. No one is out to get her, not here, but thereā€™s a purplish bruise on her neck. A sad stare trails up to meet his gaze when he stammers through the words of scripture.
Then, she smiles and his heart only feels full.
The sermon ends clumsily enough, but she waits for him in the center pew. He ensures the others have cleared out before he takes rigid steps toward her, where he sits a foot or so away on the bench; the feigned friendliness is only a front for the rapid beating of his heart and the way the blush upon his face paints up to his ears.
ā€œI waited to walk with youā€¦ like you promised we would,ā€ she says in place of a greeting. Thereā€™s no chiding in her tone, just curiosity. Gentle, like sheā€™s speaking to a wounded bird, and perhaps thatā€™s what heā€™s become: some big, ugly vulture. Holy in its love of everything from the sky to the rot down below.
ā€œIā€™m sorry. I..,ā€ he laments, grasping for an explanation that does not come.
ā€œNo, I understand. Itā€™s alright, Kƶnig.ā€
He knows he doesnā€™t deserve the gift of her redemption with how easily he turned away from her, from the blooming ofā€¦ something. It was best not to use that word anymore.
ā€œI just didnā€™t want to wait any longer. I missed you,ā€ she huffs when the silence extends between them, breaks up the tension in the air but not what creeps over her own shoulders.
ā€œYour bruise..ā€ He wants to tell her of his sleepless nights, of how he pictures her in place of any old deity upon a throne in heaven, but settles for where his eyes linger on her neck.
No explanation is provided, but she lets him bring his fingers to it, ghost over where the purple melds to yellow in the shape of thick fingerprints. Add wrath to the ever growing list of his sins, because itā€™s all he feels amidst the envy and love.
His fingers dig into the plain back trousers when they rest upon his lap again, something foreign buzzes beneath his skin. The thought that any man would be brazen enough to lay hands upon his very own angel.. Itā€™s unbelievable, unforgivable. His thoughts spiral so quickly itā€™s frightening. Timid things can become vicious, too, when backed into corners.
She manages to keep this growing storm in check when she stands and smooths her skirt, and offers to tidy up the church in an act of ā€˜repentanceā€™.
The chores are simple and the sisters that linger far past service seem grateful to have her here as she takes up the broom and sweeps away at the dusty floor. They chatter away with her, take her hat and rest their hands over her shoulders when the cleaning winds to an end. His angel closes her eyes in prayer, doesnā€™t so much as open them to send him a knowing glance when they pray for her to find a good husband, someone who deserves such a lovely, godly woman.
She shares a meal with them while Kƶnig keeps to himself with scripture in hand, mindlessly roving over the words even when his thoughts drift to the night of their first kiss.
He reasons that itā€™s only natural when she gives him such a display of acceptance too. It only solidifies what he knows already: this woman is no succubusā€” she has not crawled from the depths of Hell to drag him back with her, sheā€™s only heavensent. An angel with a broken wing or a gaping wound somewhereā€¦ something to care for.
Sheā€™s encouraged to return by several fond voices. A few of the women even offer to walk her home, the daylight is dying and itā€™s dangerous for a lone lady out at night. The angel smiles at him then, sharing in the knowledge that she prefers the dark. Not the wicked things, but the peace and the beauty of the moon.
And she returns when he abstains from her.
She confides in him after each sermon that she does long to see him more often, but she likes the way he speaks of Mary Magdalene and the other women in scripture, pokes fun at the lilt to his voice when he notices her amidst the crowd of others. She says she likes him a lot before they part ways in the evenings, but she doesnā€™t tempt him with pouts or trailing fingers.
He thanks her for respecting his faith each time - despite being the one who crossed several boundaries initially. Though he keeps his hands to himself now, the looks he gives to her are pleading and soft. If she would pull him into a kiss now, he would let her have all of him. They could run away together, from the church, from her clientsā€¦
Itā€™s on one of those cloudy Sundays that he does ask her if sheā€™s stopped. He braves the look she gives him when his question comes as a hushed stutter. The comfort between them no longer feels tentative. Itā€™s just there. Ever-present as the sky above.
ā€œWell, you havenā€™t,ā€ she whispers in response, propping her elbow up on the back of the pew. Itā€™s as if she believes it could be so simple, but itā€™s not. Not for either of them.
The spiels of Heaven and Hell wonā€™t reach her, so he doesnā€™t bother with those. She offers him an invitation with her words and the way she remains so open that itā€™s difficult not to take.
Itā€™s been months since he touched her last and the love has only seemed to have grown. Strange. Perhaps he is as odd as sheā€™s imagined him to be. There have been weddings in this very church, talks of long years of courtship, and even then what those men must have felt for their brides had to have paled in comparison to this. It had to.
ā€œTell me how to,ā€ he breathes without any underlying thought. Saints donā€™t question their gods, they only serve them.
ā€œYouā€™re actually considering itā€¦?ā€
ā€œI might.ā€
The silence crowds around the bench while her fingers brush over the pages of a hymnal in repetition and his only inch closer to her clothed knee.
ā€œYou could meet me at the cemetery tonightā€¦ We could talk more there.ā€
ā€œAt night is probably not the best time.ā€
ā€œWell, weā€™re friends, arenā€™t we?ā€
Friends donā€™t kiss. Friends donā€™t feel the way he feels now, or how heā€™s felt for the past few months. Platonic arrangements donā€™t require repentance. But, he bites his tongue and tilts his head back, lets it roll off the shoulder when his hand draws back to his lap. Another time.
Not where the Heavenly Father could see, if he were even watching any longer.
ā€œā€¦ Tomorrow morning would be better.ā€
ā€œThen Iā€™ll come get you. Donā€™t you dare try and get out of it,ā€ she chirps with the wildest glint of mirth alight in her eyes.
Stay.
If the church caught fire now and the rafters came to sink into the earth not a part of him would or could even care as long as she were just here. But he watches her go without a word of opposition, watches her nod toward the sisters standing out in the yard and clasp her hands in front of her, smiling to herself as though the world were made for just the two of them.
It stings during nightly prayer, and it burns when he lies in bed to wait for the morning. There are cicadas singing and footsteps on old wooden boards to remind him that he isnā€™t entirely alone, the scent of tobacco drifting from his window when another plaster saint hides beyond the veil of night to smoke. He doesnā€™t sleep, his eyes remain fixed upon the ceiling until the darkness of the room drifts to a dull gray with the sunā€™s slow rise.
And Kƶnig does not wait for her to fetch him. Morning prayer dissolves into a mournful cry because there is no part of him that can fathom or interpret any of this. A trial should not feel like a blessing when heā€™s faced with it. God must be playing the stupidest game imaginable to test him with someone so lovable, so charming. Where the church leaves him feeling filthy with remorse, she purifies him with only a curl of her lips and starlight dancing in her eyes.
None of it is fair.
The guilt must be something obligatory, summoned up like puffs of dust from the floorboards. Worshiping idols is a sin, but itā€™s not the angel that feels like one, itā€™s the attention he pays to the cloud in his head that does. Thatā€™s the one that should go.
He grits through prayer with the other men, doesnā€™t chime in with unnecessary words of devotion this time. The coffee burns his tongue when he downs the mug and forgoes breakfast. There are dark rings beneath his eyes when he ventured to the washroom to brush his teeth, and there are whispers in the halls that the young priest must be either coming under a possession or God is preparing him for something. Something big and exciting. He ignores those and the stern glances from the little nuns in their robes, huffs something of a joke about a momentary sabbatical when he lumbers out of the walls of the church.
There are no new bruises this time, but Kƶnig has the memory of the last ones stuck in his skull. A clear image of four small marks on the side of her neck, another on its opposite. Larger, more pronounced. Five marks from a hand that never belonged there. Kerosene and a match are what the thoughts running rampant in his head would look like to an outsider.
She tells him on the thin picnic blanket that sheā€™s got a new client, that he gives her enough to where she doesnā€™t have to consider any others now. The man has a much stranger set of interests, ones she hadnā€™t delved into before him, but sheā€™s merciful enough to withhold the details that would lead Kƶnig to make the crucifixion seem a gentle affair.
She tells him because she wants him to be proud that itā€™s only one now. That sheā€™s making some sort of progress for him. None of it is fair, and he knows without asking that she feels more akin to the way that he does than any of the holy men.
And still he canā€™t help but ask, ā€œDo you love him?ā€
ā€œOf course not,ā€ comes her immediate response, and thereā€™s a near imperceptible glare there, judging by the fire in her eyes. Itā€™s cuteā€¦ and he feels the world's ugliest fool for daring to ask for reassurance as though this relationship was any sort of normal. If it were even a relationship at all.
Their hands touch, reaching for the same flaky pastry in the basket she brought along and Heavenā€™s bells ring out in his ears when her gaze sweeps over him. Everything is sugared dough and right again. She offers him her lap in place of a pillow for his head when the clouds grow thick and gray above, feeds him from her own hand and runs her fingers across his face with the other.
ā€œHow did you get the sky in your eyes?,ā€ she asks him, makes him blush so easily his heart stutters within his chest. He feels like a boy in her presence, and in a way, to her, maybe he even is just some inexperienced whelp nipping at her heels.
The angel does not judge, she softly rakes her nails behind his ear and neck until he shivers in her hold. His hair is next, a victim to her comfort as she tousles it between her fingers, strokes him like the smallest of kittens when he feels anything but.
ā€œI donā€™t know what you mean,ā€ he mutters, raising a hand to brush at her cheek. Warm as he expected, yet softer. Thereā€™s nothing wicked here, only a woman. A woman who loves him as he loves her.
ā€œYour eyes are prettyā€¦ sad. I love them,ā€ comes the sweet reply that reduces him to nothing but scattered feathers and a howling ache.
Did he even exist before now? Before her? This woman has filled him with such purpose, breathed new life into a stagnant soul. The church was a safe place for a man scorned by the rest of the world, but that blanket felt unnecessary now. He wanted to feel her hands move over him like this, smell the petals in her perfume, hear her voice speak to him, all of it. Forever.
ā€œI think that I lose myself when Iā€™m with you.ā€
ā€œDoes that hurt you?ā€
ā€œNeinā€¦ Iā€™m happier like this.ā€ Itā€™s the closest to a confession he can whisper.
And he returns to her, morning after morning Kƶnig rushes through paying his dues to God and his men to return to her like this.
When the graveyard is silent and the dew still sticks to the blades of grass, her voice sounds sweeter somehow beneath the glow of the rising sun. The birds sing around them and often she pushes wildflowers into his hair, clasps her hands around his neck and teaches him to kiss.
Her tongue moves with grace, his is only a thing of greed. Each chaste peck is met with a hunger from somewhere so foggy and forgotten it never had a home at all, not before now. The angel neednā€™t show him where to rest his hands, they pry at every part of her: gentle brushes against her cheek and neck, kneading at her shoulders, further, further until he does finally starve off any lingering thought of what is good or evil to explore the curve of her lower back.
Most of the time words come in afterthought, once lips are wet and plush from this gentle devouring, after she steels herself from running her hands any further down than his stomach. He tells her in truth that he prays to her, not for. Not anymore.
The shadows cast from the aspens keep them tucked far away from sight, from God and his people alike. A temple for two without four walls to close them in. The only place on this earth that heā€™s ever found himself in perfect solace.
ā€œI want to try something,ā€ she breathes just when heā€™s prepared himself to leave. The tree at his back, knees parted, where she remains sat across from him. Thereā€™s nervousness there, not the fretful way she looks after a long night, nor the way she looked to him upon their first meetings. ā€œDo you trust me?ā€
ā€œJaā€¦ more than anyone,ā€ he reassures in a soft tone of voice, tipping her chin up with the tips of two fingers to further accentuate it. Her beauty and her uncertainty always strike a chord within him, a fire that never dwindles. When her eyes search his own, his breath catches.
He doesnā€™t say a word when she peels away the robes from the front of his trousers. Her hands linger on at the waistband for a moment, takes enough time to offer the gentlest peck to the side of his neck before continuing. Itā€™s another first, being exposed to a woman like this when she lowers the band and has him shimmy backward to free his cock from his pants. Soft with shame or embarrassment, a concoction of other things he could not name, but the moment she looks up at him with pure delight he feels himself grow stiff.
ā€œWowā€¦ Youā€™ve got a perfect cock,ā€ she assesses with a laugh, finger running up the length of it as it twitches to life under her touch.
Scheisse.
He strokes her cheek with reverence as she bends down before him, watching him carefully through her eyelashes. Her warm breath drifts over his manhood and heā€™s already horribly aware that this would not last long. Another lesson, like the kisses, maybe. She could mold him any way that she likes and he would be pleased to play the role of her Adam.
The tongue isnā€™t what he anticipated. She flattens it against the tip, breathes a laugh when a keening whine is pulled from his throat. To see such an ugly, vulgar thing pressed to the beautiful mouth heā€™s kissed a dozen times now. It feels wrong. Thereā€™s no hesitation when her lips wrap around him. And then all of itā€” everything is just right. Every moment spent in this hazy, loving glow with her is right. If Hell were to come from this, then let it.
He canā€™t tear his eyes away from her, canā€™t bring himself to speak when he feels the way his cock hits the back of her throat, feels her swallow around him and make such a pleased noise as she wraps her fingers around the expanse she can not take.
Its pitiful, the way he must look: mouth agape, eyes lidded and heavyā€¦ He brings a hand to her hair, and runs his fingers through it as if she isnā€™t letting him fuck her mouth, but rather in the midst of something far holier, softer. Sacrilegious or divine. If God weā€™re watching, let him.
She pulls back a little, an obscene, wet sound in answer when her mouth is drawn back enough to merely press a kiss the tip, puffy lips glossy with drool. ā€œIs this okayā€¦? Not too much?ā€
ā€œYou are so prettyā€¦ it feelsā€¦ just keep going.ā€ His voice no longer possesses any feigned confidence, it begs like a wounded thing, chanting, ā€œBitte. Pleaseā€¦ā€
His hips tilt up when she parts her lips again, all trepidation be damned. This is something, something heā€™s aches for and never had the chance to feel. All of the ache, the longing to be diminished, to unite with the angel who fled Heaven for him. The cock pushes at her open mouth, smears thick beads of precum over her cheek, before she takes him in again with a delighted, muffled sound. Her soft mouth, the tongue that thoroughly laps at his shaft and follows her movements to wrap and suck at the head. Otherworldly, andā€¦ unfathomably bittersweet.
Her lips suction around him, the movements of her wrist only increasing, and with the second roll of his hips he feels his stomach begin to tense as pure heat rolls its way through him. A gentle coursing becomes a blinding inferno in mere seconds, and regrettably, instinctively, that hand so gently combing through her hair comes to snare it instead and force her down further.
His soft grunts and low pleading morph to something choked and almost agonized. Itā€™s the purest rapture, a pleasure so absolute his eyes prick as he bows lower to cover over her as she swallows his devotion by mouth. The angel pants breathlessly when she pulls away with saliva and semen still stringing them together, cleansed by his thumb tracing over her lips, replaced so swiftly by his own mouth. The kiss is so chaste it feels misplaced here, but she nuzzles against him in this comedown from ecstasy, doesnā€™t even chastise how he lasted a mere two minutes.
And he vows, vows in the sweetness of her comfort and love that no one else will ever have this again.
ā€” ā€” ā€”
Abstaining from meals during a fast is a struggle in and of itself; abstaining from her is some long-forgotten circle of Hell.
Itā€™s not avoidance, but a necessity.
To think that his first sexual encounter would provoke days of concern, a wistful daydream about a future he never would have thought to have had otherwise. There was a desperate, starving desire to repent when he first arrived home after that, but nothing that a bottle of communion wine and a cold shower could not wash away. Repentance has lost its merit to him.
And after seven days, heā€™s perfectly aware of what he must do. To absolve them both from things where atonement seems far from a necessity at all. He folds his holy robes and leaves them on the bed in the room too small, set neatly next to his Bible. The rosary was the one thing that Kƶnig could not bear to part with. The beads, red and shimmery, were chosen and strung together with him in mind. Itā€™s slipped into the pocket of his jeans after the plain, black t-shirt is pulled over his head.
Thereā€™s a hammer in his gloved hand, and he doesnā€™t recall where he found it. Lying with its head rusted in the churchyard, perhaps half buried beneath the soil. Some of the other clergymen are talented at fixing things, but Kƶnigā€™s never been very good with that. His first rosary was broken with a careless slip of his fingers, and heā€™s shattered more porcelain than he could count on accident.
Even communion wine can be a bit too strong, sometimes. Or maybe thatā€™s only when the bottleā€™s been entirely downed. Heā€™ll blame one of his betters when the stock is counted and one turns up missing, if they bother to come seek him out again at all.
The motel is dead at this hour, so late into the night. The few normal visitors have already been accounted for with watchful eyes, and the angel waits in one of the rooms on the second floor. He imagines the laces on her lingerie, the healing bruises on her throat, and that sweet expression upon her face. Or maybe that one was reserved solely for him. He prayedā€¦ no, he hoped so.
After tonight, there would be no more mercies for him. Or perhaps there would be an abundance, blessings from the vultures and the wolves and the maggots he would feed. New gods that were still far lesser than the angel who suffers men in sheets, but only looks to him with love.
And he doesnā€™t have to wait long, because the demon finds his way here with haste. Does he come here every night looking as proud as he does now? His attire even resonates with death, black with those white details, a costume that seems so fitting for one about to meet the very face he wears.
Killing someone isnā€™t so easy. Cain murdered his brother with a rock, described in such loose detail that one would think a playful throw led to Abelā€™s end. But itā€™s not so, not when the victim is hellbent on living.
The demon is smaller, but strong. Heā€™s been in situations like this before, doesnā€™t have to spit the words to tell Kƶnig so. Theyā€™re felt with each blow, with the sharp edge of the knife this bastard manages to dig into his side. Just barely, before itā€™s jerked out of his hand and thrown several paces away. The skittering across the tarmac is enough to chant doom.
Thereā€™s blood. More with the first strike of the hammer. It seemed so much easier in thought rather than practice. In his imaginings, the head would split with the first fall like an overripe apple, crumple in and the breath would leave the demon in an instant. Instead, itā€™s dozens. Blow after blow while the smaller man struggles below him.
A strange catharsis comes over him when his soul grows murky, when his hands are slick and the struggle comes to an abrupt end. The sobering only comes when heā€™s spent an hour driving down the most forested roads to find a place to dump the body. Thereā€™s no tact to it, laying a man to rest in shrubbery and dirt. With a head so collapsed itā€™s hard to think of this as a man at all. A corpse, something no longer simply human.
Kƶnig does not pray for him when he rests the hammer in the deceasedā€™s hands. Does not offer it more than a passing thought when he peels away back toward home. The deed is done and heā€™s free of those horrid burdens tainting his heart, keeping him held back on a short leash to divinity.
Like fate, sheā€™s found out in the garden again after the bloodied shirt and stained gloves are discarded. The wound is patched with what he could find available, a hastily tied strip of gauze covers his side. A week or so at best until the gash would heal into an ugly, jagged scar. It seemed even a bastard devilā€™s blade couldn't be sharp enough to fell a Goliath when heā€™s caught by surprise and horny.
He feigns merely emptying the garbage into an outside bin, plays off the sting of the gash with a humble, lumbering gait. She beams up at him through lines of tears running down the sides of her face like small, silver streams beneath the darkened sky above.
Heā€™s not a saint anymore, noā€¦ a guardian angel. The archangel Michael with his sword set ablaze and divinity scrawled into every scale of his chest plate. Something holy and glowing, unsullied and beautiful.
Like her.
ā€œYouā€™re cryingā€¦ā€
ā€œSorryā€¦ bad night. Client just ghosted me.ā€
No. This was good, couldnā€™t she see that? All the sleepless nights, the prayer and the constant, overwhelming longing. Everything he had suffered for her, and still she only comes to him with the thought of that horrible thing in mind.
ā€œHeā€™s dead.ā€ Maybe it was just the fear of a loss of money. He had enough saved up someplace, and the collection pool would be beneficial enough to pivot them towards a new life. No church. No lonely motel. He had to test it, give her a trial and hope that she did not simply break.
The look that crosses her face is one of confusionā€¦ Then comes a strange twist of relief. Her mouth falls slightly agape and her arms squeeze slightly around his middle.
ā€œWe just spoke a few hours ago. Howā€¦?ā€ Finally, suspicion.
Maybe heā€™s too drunk on playing God now to care, to realize this isnā€™t how a good man would have handled things. The only thing that holds any weight, that resonated with him any at all is the thought that he loves her, that he will protect her until his dying breath, pray at her feet and anything else she might ask.
Thatā€™s what pulls him to press her down against the bed of the truck, to kiss her with every lesson sheā€™s blessed him with in mind. Tongue and teeth, fire and spit, she accepts all of it. She doesnā€™t beg him for an answer: sheā€™s seen the worst of men, taken cocks far less deserving. Her hands find his hair as they drift away here, gives the strands a sharp tug to usher him closer, roll her tongue against his own.
The sheer tights she wears beneath her skirt are ripped at the seam between her legs by large hands, panties pushed to the side before she finally presses against the broad chest against her to gain some space. Her breath is shallow, face warmed and hair a mess, still the loveliest thing heā€™s ever laid his eyes upon.
ā€œAre you afraid?ā€ He tilts his head to the side, curious, as if there were no reason for her deny him of this now after he had just *killed for her*. After he forsook what once was all he knew all for her. He would do it again without question, with no gain at all, but the sting of rejection was not something he could entirely choke back.
But his angel never runs out of mercies, it seems.
ā€œNoā€¦ just give me a second.ā€
She slips her hand down between her parted legs, demonstrates for him just how to prepare a woman. He watches, mesmerized, as she circles the bud above her slit, dips her finger downward to spread wetness along her flesh. Dew over petals. A finger slips inside of her, and all at once is shoved aside.
ā€œLet me,ā€ he pleads, already pressing both hands to her inner thighs, tilting her hips upward as his head sinks between them.
ā€œYou donā€™t have to,ā€ she whispers, but grants him his wish with feverish nods that betray her words, allows him to kiss her sex as he shifts himself into a better position.
Thereā€™s nothing to go off of but her sounds, the cries of pleasure when his tongue lolls out to lick at the nub where most of her reactions stem from. He mutters against her about her taste, something so ethereal he could not even begin to place. Her scent envelopes him in full, and heā€™s never felt closer to anything prior. She allows his clumsy licking, moans louder for him when he canā€™t stifle his own groaning. The pants are too tight around him, and patience is another virtue he finds that he lacks.
She doesnā€™t reach some fantastical height of pleasure when he presses a finger into her cunt, but her body seems to fit even that like a glove, squeezing around him as he lazily circles her bud with his tongue. She doesnā€™t come, but she tugs him by the hair to usher him back into another kiss, hands roving down his abdomen to free his manhood from the barriers of fabric. And finallyā€¦ finally heā€™s granted entrance to Heaven.
The first thrust leaves him spiraling, lost into a world of silk and honey. And the angel does not give him any time to recover, she writhes beneath him, shifting her hips to pull him in deeper, muffles each whine and groan from his lips with her tongue hungrily lapping over his own.
Heā€™s thought about having a woman many times, but never imagined it could feel this good. To be so complete, every woe or fear cast aside in the act of mindless pleasure.
He doesnā€™t know where to put his hands, to keep his eyes shut or gaze down at her and cease this assault on his mouth to tell her that he loves her, that she feels like pure fucking paradise and heā€™s already on the verge of coming undone. He settles for moving, dragging himself in and out of her in slow movements, turning his face away to bite down on her shoulder when the feeling of her walls cinching him like a vise threatens to spur him into finishing on the spot.
ā€œThatā€™s justā€¦ godā€¦ youā€™re good at this,ā€ she gasps when a hand is sunk between their bodies, flicking at her clit as he spears her open. Her hands find his back, raking her fingernails down past his shoulder blades. Itā€™s agonizing, trying to fight back the urge to breed her full, watch his come spill out from her perfect cunt until he finds himself hard again. The very thought makes him gasp, grind himself deeper inside of her as her nails dig into his back.
ā€œMeinā€¦ this isā€¦ you understandā€¦,ā€ heā€™s babbling, hardly coherent, and she only seems to accept it. The angel chants her agreement amidst the beginning of her rapture.
She cries out for him when she comes, her sex pulsing around him as she shivers that all restraint is immediately lost. She hugs him so tightly, squirms as she hisses a curse into his ear.
Itā€™s a miracle heā€™s even lasted this long. He halts his pace for a mere second to prop himself up, gaze down at her in absolute reverence before that fire swallows him whole. Itā€™s unceremonious when he comes: a growl and a wail as he buries he face into her neck and pumps every last drop of his seed into her pussy.
He doesnā€™t want to pull out, doesnā€™t want to leave such a complete embrace. The world has already ended for him, a long time ago on the very night they met. Thereā€™s no need to drag out their ruin with whatever else occurs when sheā€™s out of his grasp.
She strokes over the marks sheā€™s made, gentle, tickling touches of her fingertips and shy giggles when their eyes meet again.
ā€œI thought I would never get to do this with you,ā€ she admits, quiet when her hands drift to cup his jaw instead. ā€œYouā€™re perfect, you know thatā€¦?ā€
He wants to cry, wants to fuck all of his woes away, kneel before her and beg that she find a place where they can never be apart. Steal her away to some cabin up in the Alps, where flowers grow in thick patches on the hillsides, a wild garden of her very own.
ā€œā€¦ You should stay with me,ā€ he huffs into her ear, fingers dimpling the flesh of her hips as he tries desperately to force himself closer to her.
ā€œYou canā€™t mean the church,ā€ she giggles. ā€œSo where should we go?ā€
ā€œWe can figure that out in the morning, hm?ā€
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šŸŒ… Lucifer Deity Guide šŸŒ…
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Note: This is inspired by both my own experiences with Lucifer and the information I read on @scarletarosa's blog and her devotional guide to him. Please go read that one too!!
The divine rebel, Lucifer is the light of truth and divine wisdom; an ancient light which shines through the darkness, representing illumination. He is the driving force of innovation, liberation and transformation. According to Scarletarosa, who actively works with Lucifer and was told this by him, he was the first-born god of the Universe created by the supreme deity, the Source. He is so incredibly ancient and beautiful. Lilith was created to be his counterpart, the Queen of Heaven. However, Jehovah took the throne of heaven from Lucifer and cast him and his followers into hell. Most of them lost their connection to heaven and their energy became dark and intense. Jehovah claimed the throne of heaven and set himself up as the one true god, manipulating humans into betraying their original deities. Thus, Lucifer became the King of Hell and has been scorned by Christians for millenia.Ā 
God of: Illumination, Light, Darkness, Change, Rebirth, Challenges, Innovation, Logic, Truth, Knowledge, Wisdom, Strategy, Persuasion, Revolution, Luxury, Pleasure, Freedom, The Arts and The Morning Star (ā€œMorning Starā€ is another name for the planet Venus)
Symbols: Sigil of Lucifer, The Morning Star, Violins and Fiddles (instruments traditionally associated with him)
Plants and Trees: Rose, Belladonna, Mulberry, Patchouli, Myrrh, Min, Tobacco, Marigold, Lilies, Hyacinth, Sage
Crystals: Amethyst, Black Obsidian, Onyx, Garnet, Selenite, Rose Quartz
Animals: Black Animals in general, Dragons, Snakes, Owls, Eagles, Ravens, Crows, Rams, Foxes, Pigs,Ā  Bats, Rats, Moths, Swans
Incense: Rose, Frankincense, Patchouli, Myrrh
Colors: Black, Red, Silver, Emerald Green, Gold
Tarot: The Devil
Planets: The Morning Star, Venus
Day: Monday and Friday
Consort: Lilith
Children: Naema, Aetherea and many others
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How was he traditionally worshipped?
There is not much to say about how Lucifer was historically worshiped seeing as he wasnā€™t worshiped at all for a large chunk of human history. He seems to have been worked with in some capacity according to the Gesta Treverorum, written in 1231, which is where we first see the term Luciferian being used to refer to his worship. This was by a woman named Lucardis for a religious circle, who was said to lament to Lucifer in private and prayed to him. However, the term Luciferians was later applied to basically any groups Christians didnā€™t like and wanted to fight, as one might expect. However, the modern Luciferian movement also sheds light on how Lucifer is worshiped. For Luciferians, enlightenment is the ultimate goal. Their basic principles highlight truth, freedom of will and fulfilling oneā€™s ultimate potential, and encourage the same in all of us. Traditional dogma is shunned because Luciferians believe that humans do not need deities or the threat of eternal punishment to know what is good and the right thing to do. All ideas are to be tested before being accepted, and even then one should remain critical because knowledge is fluid and ever-changing. Regardless of whether Luciferians view Lucifer as a deity or an archetype, he is a representation of ultimate illumination and exploration in the name of personal growth.Ā 
Epithets
Phanes
The Morning Star
Light-bringer
The First-born
Prince of Darkness
Son of Morning
The Glory of Morning
Lord of the Lunar Sphere
The First Light
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Offerings
Red Wine, Whiskey (especially Jack Daniels), Champagne, Pomegranate Juice, Black Tea (especially earl grey), Chocolate (especially dark chocolate), Cooked Goat Meat, Venison, Apples, Pomegranates, Honey, Good Quality Cigars, Tobacco, Daggers and Swords, Silver Rings, Emeralds and Emerald Jewelry, Goat Horns, Black Feathers, Seductive Colognes, Red Roses, Dead Roses, Crow Skulls, Bone Dice, Devotional Poetry and Artwork, Classical Music (especially violin)
Devotional Acts
Acts of self-improvement, spiritual awakening and evolution, knowledge-seeking and dedication to spirituality ; Shadow Work ; Working to overcome your ego to become wiser ; Defending those in need ; Working to better yourself without being too self critical ; Fighting against tyranny and bigotry whenever you encounter it
Altar Decorations
Black or Red Candles, Snake and Dragon Figurines, His sigil, Roses, Fancy Chess Boards and Playing Cards, Silver Jewlery and ornaments, Black feathers, Goat horns
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Appearance
For me Lucifer usually appears as a tall light-skinned man with long fiery red hair (so red it looks like itā€™s been dyed), a sophisticated face with a killer jawline, passionate eyes and dressed in a fancy black suit. From all my experiences with him and what Iā€™ve heard from other followers, it seems Lucifer and most demons dress in full suits and tuxedos.Ā 
Personality
Lucifer is nothing if not charming. Heā€™s a protector first and foremost - one that always works to help you better yourself, but a protector nonetheless. He feels like a protective older brother taking care of you while your parents are away. He is a very complex entity, deeply wise and eloquent. He is more serious than one might expect for a demon given their popular depictions in our culture as chaotic forces of evil, but Lucifer is full of courage and love. I often feel him with me even when Iā€™m not doing things related to him. He is proud of his followerā€™s accomplishments and congratulates them on a job well done, though he also reminds them that the job is never truly over. Growth is constant. Lucifer is the epitome of growth, blunt and gentle at the same time, telling you what you need to do and giving you space to figure out how to do it.Ā 
Lucifer values resilience, the pursuit of self-betterment, intellectualism, courage, open-mindedness and responsibility in individuals and wants to see his followers develop these qualities. He is constantly rooting for you to reach your full potential. He wonā€™t hold your hand the entire way, but he will help you take steps in the right direction. Lucifer, like all deities, is different for everyone and will adjust his approach depending on your needs.
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^ The Sigil of Lucifer
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