#Like I refuse at this point in my life to watch anime that is 12 episodes or less
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Desperately need to find another currently ongoing podcast to listen to. I have nothing in my feed that releases new episodes except for MBMBAM and that's not nearly as exciting as I'd like it to be haha
PLEASE REC ME YOUR FAVORITE PODCASTS, PREFERABLY ONES STILL ONGOING OR WITH LOTS OF EPISODES!!!
Blease 😭😭😭😭
#Podcasts#podcast recommendation#Blease I keep getting recommended stuff that ended five years ago#Or only has like half a dozen episodes#Like I refuse at this point in my life to watch anime that is 12 episodes or less#Bc you just don't get enough substance#I'm very sure all these short podcasts are fun lil tidbits of comedy and horror and stuff#But I need something I can really sink my teeth into if you get me#Like my perfect ideal podcast is as follows#Ongoing with a full catalogue of previous episodes plus supplementary episodes or side stories that offer context#I need something to look forward to but also something to listen to right now#Camp here and there has been interesting but it's only 34 episodes and I'm literally about to finish the entire series#I don't feel satisfied when I finish something I feel empty which I'm sure could be psychoanalyzed to mean lots of bad stuff#So yes anyways lol I struggle to finish things that are short or have been finished for years#I can't bring myself to finish wolf 359 or the am Archives#For two drastically different reasons but still#The Amelia Project I was excited to csthc up on and now I'm excited for next season#Same with Victoriocity and the white Vault#But every other podcast I've listened to is completely finished and for one podcast I'm just not interested in the sequel#So yea... Please. Rec me something long and ongoing.... Blease.
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Could I request from your prompt list:
4.) "My heart belongs to you, I'll adore anything you do to it."
And/or
12.) "You were never meant to see that! Oh, what have I done...."
With Overwatch's Cole Cassidy. Preferably with a darling they've been living with in a surprisingly normal life with up until this point? He's managed to hide his yandere tendencies and live a totally normal life with them up until now?
Thank you,
~♠️
I can try, sure! Here's you catching Cole Cassidy red handed in some dark acts :) Wasn't entirely sure about plot so I hope this works-
Yandere! Cole Cassidy Prompts 4 + 12
"My heart belongs to you, I'll adore anything you do to it."
"You were never meant to see that! Oh, what have I done...."
Pairing: Romantic
Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Obsession, Stalking, Violence, Manipulation, Jealousy, Murder mentioned, Coercion, General yandere themes, Secret picture taking, Possible OOC Cole, Consensual relationship turned forced.
Cole had been doing his best to hide his... behavior ever since he scored you as his. You were his little darling partner and he was determined to keep things that way. He told himself he'd behave once he got you as his.
Well... He lied to himself... and you.
Cole still seemed to keep his stalking habit. He still seemed to seethe with jealousy when some guy came up to you. With you being his... he thought he could stop.
Yet no matter how much he distracted himself with your sweet touch and smell, he still felt dangerous. When you weren't looking, he still beat up those too close to you. He still used his gun to get rid of the more troublesome issues and he did it all while lying to you.
Perhaps he could stop himself, maybe he really is just another monster. Yet he managed to tell himself that he could hide it and that everything would be okay. He convinced himself he can continue with this because you loved him now.
You haven't found out anything yet...
Until now.
"Shoot... Honey, please listen to me!" Cole panics when he sees your distraught face. In your hands are a select few items he was hoping to keep hidden. Photos of you... newspapers on crimes he's committed... the belongings of those who got in his way... trophies..
"What the hell is all of this!?" You yell, fear in your voice as you stare down at the mess of incriminating evidence. Cole watches as you drop the items on the floor before trying to approach. He couldn't keep it hidden forever, could he?
"You were never meant to see that! Oh, what have I done...."Cole mutters to himself, pinching the bridge of his nose in annoyance. You poor thing... you looked all scared of him and it was all his fault. He could've improved....
He really should've burned those items while he still could.
"You are not the man I've met and fell in love with!" You cry, tears streaming down your face as you back away. Cole notices you back off and steps closer. There's no way he's losing you now.
"Oh baby... Of course I'm the man you fell in love with!" Cole comforts, stepping closer like approaching a scared animal. "My heart belongs to you, I'll adore anything you do to it."
"Get away from me!" You growl, Cole's gaze darkening in response.
"Afraid I can't do that, Darlin'." Cole sighs before cornering you against a wall. You squeal a bit as he pulls you against his chest.
"You have no idea how hard I had to work to get you..." Cole whispers in your ear. "However, now you're mine. You'll ALWAYS be mine... I just wish you didn't have to learn the truth."
Cole chuckles when he sees you struggle. It's a shame, really. You two could've been perfect together. Now he has to work even harder to keep you to himself.
"Now... you and I are going to pretend this never happened, alright?" Cole continues, gaze never leaving yours as he stares you down. "I'll burn those items you dropped and we can be happy, okay?"
You want to refuse... yet you force yourself to nod when Cole frowns in anger.
"Good..." Cole praises, kissing your forehead softly.
"I knew you'd come around for me, Darlin'."
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Anime I've Seen in 2024 (New and Old)
New
Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba Hashira Training arc - 5/10: Too short and over too quickly, really wished they could’ve added more.
My Hero Academia season 7 - 6/10: Tiring at this point, I actually don't care anymore.
Date a Live V - 7/10: It didn't shocked me like everyone else, I've seen heavier shit then this. Still, it's an appropriate finale. I've heard there's like two light novels left in the series. Maybe one day for season 6.
Sand Land - 7/10: The main story is fantastic and a great stand alone series. The second arc is okay. It's good but completely unnecessary.
Bocchi the Rock! movie - 8/10: Cramming a whole season into a two part movie is surprisingly good. Saw it in theaters and I had a good time. So... when season 2?
Bleach: Thousand-Year Blood War - The Conflict - 8/10: So far, it's still great. It's very intense.
Dragon Ball Daima - 8/10: Great story, great characters, great world building, and great animation. The pacing though... cocktease.
Old
Dragon Ball - 10/10: Revisited as myself paying tribute to the late Akira Toriyama, who pass away this year. This series is still amazing and charming. Please watch it and ignore the fandom who hated it for no reason. Your life will change forever.
Dragon Ball Z - 9/10: This was the first time I watched it in the original Japanese version. A completely different experience. I had a ton of fun going through the whole thing again.
Lucky Star - 7/10: At first, I really love how these girls just sit around and talk endlessly. But then... it kept going. Then it got super annoying. And then it got to be not fun anymore. By the time I got to ep. 12, I remember saying to myself," WE GOT 12 MORE EPISODES OF THIS SHIT?" The ending was cringing, I'm sorry, I did not like it. I give it some time and... it wasn't that bad in retrospect, I was just not in the right mood. I'll give it another chance one day.
K-ON! - 10/10: I read the manga a year ago and I greatly enjoy it, so I was looking forward for the adaptation. Unfortunately, an unexpected moment occurred in my life that made me delayed my binge watch. Once I felt better, I finally watched it and... it was what I desperately want: comfort. The characters were great, the music is pretty catchy, and the overall experience was enjoyable. When it was over, I felt sad, sad that it was over. But it did heal my soul.
The Melancholy of Haruchi Suzumiya - 4/10: Surprised I didn't receive hate mail from my opinion of this anime. Why did I really hated it? Haruchi Suzumiya herself. Fuck! That! BITCH! I hated everything about her, she gave me flasbacks to Asuka from Evangalion, who is also GODAWFUL! This anime reminded me why I hated tsunderes, I never felt so much anger in my life. If there's any silver lining, it gave me Yuki Nagato, and Mikuru Asahina is cute. I know there's a movie, but I refuse to watch it.
The Disappearance of Nagato Yuki-chan - 7/10: I got nothing to say about this spin-off, but I like this better then the main one.
Berserk (1997) - 8/10: Finally started watching this classic and, wow, this was not what I expect it to be. I was really into the story and the battle scenes were gory. The ending? Still haven’t recover from that dramatic experience.
Hidamari Sketch - 10/10: You know why I started watching this? I watch the second presidential debate, and it was a total shit show. To get away from politics, I put this on, not expecting what I was going to get. And what did I get? Possibly one of the cutest, comforting, fun shows I've seen in awhile. The girls were great, the animation was abstract, and it was pretty relaxing. I was a bit bother by the ecchi scenes, glad Madoka didn't had that treatment. By the end, you feel like you made friends with them. Or better yet, you became family with them. This is another show that heal my soul.
Miss Kobayashi's Dragon Maid - 8/10: This one has been on my watch list for awhile, but I'm glad I saw it. Another relaxing show that just happens to have plenty of scenes that goes TOO HARD! Like whole, was not expecting them to throw at me. Everything else is great too.
Yuru Yuri - 8/10: I thought I wasn't going to like this because of how mean spirited it can be. But... not only was this shit funny, but it's also heartwarming. This was a lot a fun.
What to expect next year?
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Apparently when Aang was depressed and suggested that maybe they should abandon hope, he was actually ordering/Forcing The pregnant Couple to accept air nomad beliefs.
Also Aang apparently Regularly disrespects and refuses to learn from other cultures and Aang actually isn’t even a good airbender because somehow even though he regularly airbends, we don’t see him practicing at all.
Finally even though Aang allowed Katara to take Appa and acknowledged that she believes that she needs to go on the journey to Yon rha, Aang was forcing Katara to murder Yon Rha.
What show were Aang’s detractors watching?
I love the implication that somethings as simple as "having hope" is considered "Air-nomad exclusive belief", when that's a big theme throught the whole show and we have IROH telling Zuko not to give into despair, and explaining to the crew on "The Storm" that Zuko is so obsessed with capturing the Avatar because that mission allows him to hope he can come home and fix things with his dad.
They REALLY think that "pacifist" (which IS an air-nomad thing) MUST mean "hopeful, optimistic and cheery" like Aang - like we didn't see the air-nomads clearly freaking out so bad that they tell Aang he is the Avatar four years ahead of time, getting pissed whenever he is having any fun, and even want to separate him from his "father" because they knew something bad was gonna happen. Aka, they gave into despair.
As for him "forcing" the couple to give that name to their child
Husband: What should we name her?
Wife: I want our daughter's name to be unique. I want it to mean something.
Aang: I've been going through a really hard time lately. But you've made me ... hopeful again.
Wife: I know what I want to name our baby now. Hope.
Husband: That's a perfect name. Hope.
That was a suggestion at most. Not an order, not intimidating them into doing what he wanted them to, and surely not forcing them to accept "air-nomad beliefs."
"The guy who spent the whole series traveling around to learn from different people, and was so understanding he was even sympathetic to the nation that killed everyone he knew and loved, did not respect other cultures" Bruh.
Literally the only two "disrespectful" things I remember Aang doing were:
1 - That bitter comment about "dead animals" towards Bato - which he only made because he was feeling left out of the conversation since his friends were so excited about being with someone from their tribe that they were completely ignoring him. Not cool, but totally understanding considering he's 12.
2 - Snapping at Pakku for not wanting to train Katara/trying to teach her what he was taught behind his back (even though the second one is on shaky ground since, even though that was a bit of a "cheat code" to make Pakku train Katara indirectly, he doesn't have the right to demand Aang never share his knowledge with someone he doesn't approve of)
And both of these, on top of being understandable, also have the disclaimer of "You can disagree with someone's beliefs/cultural habits without looking down on them" - hell, Katara full on says Gran-Gran left because she wouldn't let the Northern Water Tribes stupid customs ruin her life. Not to mention, the Fire Nation's culture for at least 100 years has been "fuck everyone else, only our way of living is the correct one" and the whole point of the show is "This belief is not only wrong and hurting the other nation, it is harming the Fire Nation itself"
"It's my culture" is a neutral statement. It does not shield said culture from criticism, and Aang disagreeing with someone's beliefs - be it that hunting/eating meat is okay, or that women can't be fighters, or that not all life is sacred - is not the same as him being disrespectful. He owes people basic human decency, not blind agreement with anything and everything they believe in.
So yeah, these people need to keep. Aang's. Name. OUT. THEIR. FUCKING. MOUTH.
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jealousy hcs for 4town⭐️?
pls and thank uu
Gen ;; Kinda-Angst-if-You-Squint-Hard-Enough+ Fluff - Headcanons
Warnings ;; Jealousy (it's insanely mild lmao)
Proofread + Edited ;; falalala
Auth. Note ;; Only took me like 12 decades to finish this.. my bad.
As I said in my A-Z headcanons for each member I don't think they get jealous easily as they trust their partner but emotions happen sometimes yk
For each of these the context is they just came back from a world tour without you and want to spend time catching up,, hcs will differ from here
Enjoy !! <3
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Aaron T - Koala Mode Activated
Ordinarily T doesn't feel jealous
His biggest competitor for your attention would probably be the internet, or cute animals, or cute animals on the internet, so he's never felt that threatened
Every now and again though ??
Something just makes his hair stand on end
T doesn't like feeling jealous in any capacity
So how does he deal with it ??
By literally smothering himself in your love
No actually though
You though he was clingy before ??
Mans is a whole ass koala from here on out
You are the tree
This is your life now
Welcome and get used to it
T had only recently gotten back from the band's biggest tour yet
Amazing experience, 10/10 he assures you, but what he really wants now is to relax with you until you both become a part of the furniture
It's a little bit hard to do that when you're at a friends house and he's at home
T's happy that you're having a good time but not now when you're supposed to be relaxing in your pajamas, watching shitty horror movies with him
Does he feel like a bit of an asshole ?? Yeah.. but he misses you..
And well,, he'd hoped you'd missed him too..
So when you text him asking him to come pick you up ?? Mans is breaking that speed limit like its a god damn challenge
Ain't no such worry as tickets when hugs are on the line,, yknow ??
The moment, and I meant the moment, T sees you ??
Octopus
Immediately
You know those mukbang videos with the live squid (poor babies TT^TT) ??
They're actually doing and impression of T,, not the other way around
The more you know..
So whether its slight, harmless jealously or T's genuinely upset ??
Octopus
Ain't no way anyone can even try it on you if T's wrapped around you like a second skin..
Jesse - Height Has Its Advantages
Look man,, Jesse's tall as shit there ain't no way he doesn't use that fully to his advantage
Like,, you're just living life, getting flirted with like the mega chad you are or whateva
Suddenly there's this huge shadow over your shoulder and your conversation partner has suddenly decided to take up running..
Weird..
If you look over to Jesse he'll start with the innocent whistling act whilst refusing to look at you
Look man,, when you have legs long enough that people confuse them for stilts why tf wouldn't you use them for intimidation purposes ??
I mean,, it's just friendly flirting
At least to you it is,, and Jesse knows that
Hey,, he partakes in a fair bit of it himself so that not the issue
No,, it's the other person taking it seriously
And Jesse isn't about to scrap some rando behind some building
But he will become the very essence of the standing man emoji
That's his only line of defence
Kinda pathetic ngl because if the subject of intimidation is ready to throw hands.. well.. Jesse's fucked
But most of the time, if not all, the height scares those serious flirters away
Mans is literally giving spooky stilts lmaoo
Like spooky spoon but spooky stilts.. don't think anyone will get that but I think it's funny lmao
Anyways but like he'll literally watch you watch the flirter run away with their tail between their legs and then just give the silliest "Are you feeling wooed ??" type look
Dumbass
Aaron Z - It's Home Time
Z's a simple man
He's also a tired,, he just got back from a tour..
There's just literally no need to play mental gymnastics
The quickest way to get from point A to point B is a straight ass line so why tf would he go in a circle,, ya feel ??
Talking around things is tiring and ends in arguments that lead nowhere
What's the point,, yknow ??
If Z's not feeling it,, he's gonna tell you
You guys are out on a low-key date type thing
And since Z feels too jetlagged to function, you've organised it just to his tastes
A small tea shop where you two can just talk and relax
It's literally perfect
If only the waiter would stop staring you down like a carnival prize they really want to win
Yeah,, Z isn't a fan of that look
He especially isn't a fan of when the waiter takes it upon himself to hand you their number alongside your drink
Mans has seen good customer service..
This shit ain't it..
So Z taps the table to get your attentions and simply asks to leave
Simple
Once you agree,, Z goes up to pay and you both skedaddle on out of there
But not before Z sneaks in a small, teeny tiny complaint about the work ethic of some the staff
After all, he'd never want such a fine establishment to gain a reputation
It's all for the good of the company
And if Z sticks his tongue at them as you both leave, well there's certainly no evidence
Robaire - Smiling on the Outside, Plotting a Murder On the Inside
The definition of unsubtle, yknow ??
Like,, Robaire will just flirt with you until the cause of his jealousy just disappears
Pet names,, light touches,, complete eye contact with you to the point of ignoring everyone and everything else
That's the strategy
And if that ain't working ??
Prepare to be wooed,, he's coming in hot,, okay ??
You thought he was flirting before ?? Man is flirting aggressively now lmao
No,, literally prepare yourself, you're not ready
Robaire isn't playing games,, he will proceed to make out with you right here, right now if that is what it comes to
Ro just wanted some down time with you after touring for however long
And he refuses to let your unbearably clingy friend ruin your time together
He will, however, ruin their time with you
Hey man,, he's the partner,, he has right of way lmao
Ro's simply not vibing with the way your friend is clutching onto your arm
Almost as if they've been away on a world tour for lord knows how many months
Huh...
Funny that..
So I mean,, if you don't mind getting attacked with affection Ro's definitely your guy lmao
Mans thinks he's slick too..
Comes over and just aggressively flirts with you, all the while he's sending death glares at his nemesis
Please be advised that Ro is currently going through Google maps in his mind to figure out the perfect place to hide the body
He's so silly goofy like that
Tae Young - Aggressively Passive
Tae is the type of make fun of stereotypically jealous people and mock them then immediately get all sulky the moment their partner interacts with someone else
It's a glorious thing to witness every single time
Truly
Literally Tae will laugh at some dude trying to intimidate other guys but will turn the puppy eyes on you as soon as your attention is elsewhere
And to the stealer of your attention ??
Only the pettiest of exchanges are deserved
Tae will go out of his way to make them uncomfortable around him
He will put on the sweetest, most upbeat persona and proceed to shit on and backhand compliment this poor person with the biggest smile on his face
You'd feel bad if it wasn't kinda funny to witness lmao
And it is !!
It's really funny to just watch people get overwhelmed with the mixed signals that are Tae
Yknow ??
Like,, the sweet persona is so good that people believe that he's being super nice until they actually listen to the words falling from his lips
AND THIS CAN TAKE SO LONG
People have had full ass conversations, finished them and only realised laying in bed at home that Tae was fucking with them
IT'S SO GOOD
Definitely feels super proud of himself after every encounter
Like,, fuck yeah he just showed them who's boss
He did not, in fact, show them who's boss - they think he's the sweetest thing since apple strudel
Oh well, at least they're not stealing you away anymore 🤷♀️
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Hope you enjoyed !! <3
#4town headcanons#4town#4town x reader#4town jesse#4town jesse x reader#4town aaron t#4town aaron t x reader#4town aaron z#4town aaron z x reader#4town robaire#4town robaire x reader#4town tae young#4town tae young x reader#turning red 4town#turning red
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Every time a dog person explains why he likes dogs over cats, he just explains a cat.
Seriously though, if you ask a person why they like a dog they always explain things dogs don't like or don't do but cats do naturally.
"I want a animal that snuggles and loves me!"
If my cat does not get his nightly snuggle he dies inside. If he's not around you 24/7 he just hides under the bed. All the cats I grew up with thrived off of pets and love and the one who didn't was a weirdo barn cat who absolutely did but just wanted to be pet in places where he didn't have scars/ trauma from his past life.
You look at dogs and even the most friendly ones don't like being fawned over. They don't like their heads pet (cats love that, that's how they spread their scent). They don't like being hugged (cats live for that). They don't like being manhandled (cats love being held upside down and dangled and messed with ((gently of course))).
Like every time they bring this up they will mention their dog and it is whale eyeing, panting, appeasement smiling and visibly very very uncomfortable.
"I don't want a animal that pees everywhere."
Literally clean their cat boxes daily and it stops. If you can't or your cat is like Taz and demands an every 12-hour schedule, affirm pay an automatic catbox like I did. Problem disappears. I would also like to point out, if you aren't at your dog's beck and call to let them out, they pee and poo everywhere! I had many dogs over my life and like it was the single most problematic part of them (Aside from the eating the drywall). You had to let them out CONSTANTLY or there was a biohazard in the foyer.
"I want an animal that won't eat me when I am dead."
Neither will eat you unless you are dead for days and they are starving, and statistically speaking, your dog is much more likely to eat you than your cat. Have you ever seen a cat after someone they love dies? They nearly go cationic, they are far more likely to starve to death trying to wake you up, but also lets be real, if you are dying alone and going unnoticed to the point that you're eaten... baby in the nicest way possible you probably shouldn't have pets. You have bigger problems.
"I want an animal I can do anything to without being bit"
Then get a fish. You can't "do anything to your dog without being bit". Often people train the vocal warning signs out of dogs while refusing to learn any sort of doggish body language. You CAN'T do anything to your dog, you may not have been bit yet, but you will be if you have this mentality. This is the reason why so many small breed dogs bite and are violent, not because they are by nature, but because a considerable amount of dog owners think they can and should do whatever they like without repercussions and it is easier to ignore and belittle a animal when it is small.
But also if you're looking at tolerance to bullshit cats are where it's at. My cats have their claws, and they don't like being picked up, none the less if I decide to annoy them and pick them up and give them belly kisses and shove my face in theirs they just fix me with a resigned "god you're stupid" look. If I did that to my non-traumatized dog he would lose his mind. If I did it to my rescue, I'd lose my nose, and it would be completely on me.
Tolerance for handling depends on size, breed, animal, temperament, and treatment and I hate to break it to you, dogs have a significantly lower tolerance for it than cats. A lot of you abuse your dogs through your negligence to learn their behaviour. Literally just watch "It's me or the dog" and 99% of the time it's "leave him alone, stop stressing him tf out, you don't need your whole body on him all the waking day."
"I want an animal I can train"
You clearly have never had a cat. They are incredibly smart and comparing training my cats to training my lab is night and day. Dude is 10 years old and still cycles through everything before he gets to "sit" (he does it on purpose looking for more treats.) You can train cats to do literally everything a dog can do. I mean I've never taken my cats hunting or anything but watch them with a mouse and I figure they'd do well. The thing is if you never try to do something, you can't say it's impossible. I've never tried meth, yet I'm sure it still exists.
I mean I could go on but it's every time they explain why they prefer dogs, it's just a cat in a different form.
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The Reason Why Raeliana Ended up at the Duke's Mansion Anime Review
Includes Spoilers
I'm really glad I took the time to watch this honestly I did because I had seen someone do a sweet video on the duke and Raeliana however I had no clue what it was about until now. It took me less than a day to watch this I was all in the moment I started. So first off I love the idea of murder mysteries especially if you add romance to it. So this story is about a girl who in the real world is pushed off a building her death to be thrown in to a novel that she knows into a girls life called Raeliana. Come to find out who she is supposed to be engaged to he is trying to kill her so she turns to the duke to make a contract with him by blackmailing him into being her fiancé so that she can get away from her current fiancé so she can live another day.
What seemed like a cute cat and mouse game between Noah and Raeliana it wasn't hard to realize he was falling for her so hard and fast. Of course she spent the whole time trying to the main protagonist Beatrice with Noah yet she couldn't find her. She was to be with Noah after Raeliana was murdered but she shifted everything when she stayed alive. Instead of thinking about what she has in front of her she is too busy trying to fix the original story. She has yet to realize its too late his heart is hers. Even after the black mail fell through he still tells his brother he refuses to end their engagement. He even tells her at one point that he wants her to stay by his side forever he doesn't want to see life with out her. When she almost dies several times you can see how it effects him it shakes him up so bad.
I love Noah he is a sweet man to her, and the love he shows in his eyes when he looks at her is unmistakable everyone sees it. He has never showed interest in any woman until her and she even on the last episode as she has been drinking she starts confessing how she feels for him then he kisses her. Honestly this needs another season or I'm gonna go insane, guess this will be a manga series I need to read. I did watch the English version because I loved the English actors voice that did Noah and OMG he is another one that says good girl after Raeliana is caught watching him sleep. Another sexy man that is Kabedon although he didn't per say hit the wall behind her he still leaned into her the same and omg my heart melted.
I literally watched this in less than a day I was hooked from the first episode and couldn't stop and OMG there is some other hotties in this show granted I still love me some Noah more though and their connection beats the rest but look at these hotties.
It really is worth the 12 episodes that are out and hope you give it a chance. Its full of mystery and love and watching them fall for each other. It just came out this summer hopefully we get a second season for this.
#raeliana mcmillan#noah wynknight#shoujo#anime#shoujo anime#The Reason Why Raeliana Ended up at the Duke's Mansion#anime review#reviews#review
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I saw your reblog about being scared as a child of Elmo in Grouchland. As someone who loved the movie as a kid, what scared you and why? I’m just curious so if you’re uncomfortable feel free to ignore me.
So I was a Blanket* kid. I was joined to that thing at the hip. So since the plot of the movie hinges on Elmo fighting with Zoe over his blanket, and then losing that blanket, down Oscar's scary trash can portal into a scary grouchland world? I wasn't just in tears, like I said in my reblog, I was in hysterics. Maybe if we'd been watching at home on the vcr it would've been fine, but this was also 3 year old me's first time in a movie theater. Big, dark room, loud speakers, big bright screen, lots of strangers? In retrospect, I think I was in sensory overload and then was presented with something that was to my 3yo brain very personally upsetting on top of it, so I'm not surprised I couldn't stand it.
Fun fact, I still adored sesame street my entire childhood, and Elmo remained tied with Big Bird as my favorite sesame street monster. The movie didn't ruin that for me. What it did ruin was theaters themselves, I absolutely hated movie theaters with a burning passion and I staunchly refused to go along with any plans to go to the movies, to the point that my mother had to physically drag me into the theater to watch Finding Nemo on release. I was not cured of this until I was 12 years old and I grudgingly agreed to go see the Lindsey Lohan Herbie remake and I realized afterwards that I had no reason to despise the movie theater anymore.
*I stimmed with that thing near constantly, and then when I was six, right around the point where the blanket was disintegrating past recognition, I was by chance given a stuffed animal that felt and smelled exactly the same to me. I promptly switched to stimming with it instead, and continued to do so literally my entire life, to the point where when that started disintegrating beyond recognition, I spent my Real Adult Money on buying a replacement of the exact same 20 year old Ty product, which is my stimming buddy now.
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Found at Skatepark
I adopted my dog Harvey from the Burbank Animal Shelter on February 12, 2012. At the time, he was nameless, and the card on his cage only had three words written on it: "Found at skatepark." He was filthy and scared, but he walked right up to me and put his two paws up on the bars so that I could scratch his belly, and that was it. I bought him for $70 and took him home the next day. Your life can change that quickly.
Things I want to remember: barking at me every time I'd come through the front door, His deep desire to roll on dead bugs, napping with him in the crook of my arm.
At the time, I was working two minimum-wage jobs, was obsessed with my sketch team, and had a roommate who would later be charged with money laundering. I had no business taking care of myself, let alone a dog. But I wanted so desperately to feel a sense of home— some version of family that I was so completely starved of. At this point in my life, I had no idea how to express that love was something I wanted so deeply and yet completely feared. When you're broke in your twenties, you don't always have the tools to examine your childhood and your parental models; sometimes, you just have to buy a dog and hope that it helps.
Things didn't go smoothly; he suffered from horrible separation anxiety, and when I would leave to go to work, he would bark so loudly and for so long that my neighbor finally slid a handwritten note under my door that simply stated, "Your dog's bark is so shrill and frantic -- it's like nothing I've ever heard before." Not helpful, but a valid observation.
He was one of the most stubborn creatures I've ever met. He refused to be housebroken for much of his early life. I gotta be honest; he never really locked that in -- he was 90% housebroken at best. He would steal food if given any opportunity. Once, when I was painting an accent wall, he rolled in the paint tray for presumably no other reason other than he decided he wanted to. Our lives seemed to mirror each other at the time, and since he never judged me for over-drafting my bank account or stumbling in drunk, who was I to judge him for going through the garbage?
Things I want to remember: His insistence on following me into the bathroom, patiently watching me pee and poop, sleeping on the bathmat as I showered.
It's not that he didn't know the difference between right and wrong. He knew the rules, would assess the situation and then proceed accordingly. If I was out and he needed to pee, why should he hold it? If a sandwich was left unattended, why should he not eat it? Philosophically he raised questions that my young mind was not capable of debating.
Some may call this asshole behavior, myself included. But Harvey also possessed a kindness and ease with people that I envied. I imagined him as a proud young man on the day of his bar mitzvah, happily introducing himself and encouraging you to check out the dessert bar, "We have cake in pop form and by the slice! Please help yourselves!" He never met a stranger in his life; encouraging or demanding pets from anyone. Literally anyone, he was not picky. I loved to watch him happily trot up to people at the dog park, wagging his tail and waiting expectantly until they obliged.
Things I want to remember: My favorite compliment I ever received for Harvey, "He's perfectly proportional, a lot of little dogs aren't like that."
I loved to watch people melt in front of him: a living teddy bear with oversized ears. He indiscriminately trusted everybody and wanted to sit on every lap. Somehow, people would instinctively hold him like a baby, and he would stay in that space for as long as he was permitted.
I did not have the same effect on people.
As we got older, I finally started making money; we moved to New York and experienced snow for the first time (we did not care for it).
Things I want to remember: Landing at Laguardia at 5 AM and traveling to my new apartment. My furniture hadn't arrived yet so I slept on the clothes from my suitcase with Harvey in my arms.
He took everything in stride and quelled the loneliness of a new city. For much of my time on the east coast, he felt like my only friend.
Things I want to remember: Coming home early from work to find Harvey and my dog walker asleep on the couch.
I started a relationship that was abusive. When he would yell at me, Harvey would hide, and I worried about his safety long before I considered my own. When I eventually fled back to Los Angeles, it felt like we'd both aged several decades.
We entered our 30s at roughly the same time, and Harvey really came into his own. His food theft reached new heights of creativity. On a vacation, I made the mistake of leaving a room service tray in the room with Harvey while I went to lay out at the pool. When I came back, he had pulled some of my clothes out of my bag. I didn't think much of it, but when we got home the next day, he quietly waited for me to unpack before retrieving a room service dinner roll that he'd stashed away in there. The art of it. The patience. He had become a master.
Things I want to remember: Holding him when I was sad, him generously allowing my tears to fall on his fur.
Another breakup or two, another six months of crying into Harvey's fur before Covid hit. For a good part of 2020, he was the only thing I touched. Outside of logging onto Zoom for work, he was my only purpose. At nine, he had become a reasonable man. Still capable of zoomies, not above destruction or scampery in the name of food, but a calmness had settled over him and eventually me as well.
I fostered a puppy during the pandemic, just like everybody else, and I decided to adopt him. An unforgivable betrayal in Harvey's eyes. The new calm of our house was now loudly disrupted by the idiocy of a puppy. I'll always wonder if he felt replaced. He wasn't. He could never be. We were just adding to our family.
I eventually emerged from my Covid bunker to go on a date with the man who recently became my fiancé. When he first met Harvey, he said, "he really likes me!" I didn't have the heart to tell him that he was just another guest at Harv's unending bar mitzvah; he'd eventually realize it on his own. My family became the four of us, and we became The Unit. Man, I fucking love The Unit. I didn't realize that coming home could be the most exciting part of my day.
Harvey continued to age; he thickened around his middle, and little things started to go wrong. He developed a limp that was eventually fixed with anti-inflammatories, and he developed allergies. But he always bounced back. He seemed indestructible. Looking at him, you would never know he was almost 11. His white fur hid any signs of grey, and he still had the bouncy gait of a children's cartoon character. He had his final act of chaos that Thanksgiving. When we set him down without a leash and he took off after a pitbull (this is not an indictment on pitbulls — I only mention it because of the size difference and sheer lunacy of it — Harvey is an asshole, don’t forget that part). Harv ran after this dog faster than I'd seen him move in years. All four feet off the ground, a fluffy bullet on his way for vengeance. In one simple move, the pitbull took Harvey's head in his mouth and flung him a few feet into the grass. It all happened in a second. When I reached him, he was lying on the ground, stunned. It wasn't until I picked him up that I saw the massive gash on the left side of his head as blood started to spill out. I will never understand why he did that. He decided he wanted to, I guess.
Even that was no big deal for him. Antibiotics and a cone for a couple of weeks and he was back to normal. He really seemed indestructible.
Then, about a year ago, Harvey got really sick and was diagnosed with diabetes -- a disease I didn't think dogs could get. And again, he bounced right back once we figured out his insulin dosage. It became my morning routine. Feed the dogs, shake the insulin, inject, dispose of the needle, repeat at dinner. I almost enjoyed it. The ritual of it. Just a small dose of translucent liquid, and he was functional. He was my buddy, just like he'd always been.
Then, he unceremoniously went blind, a common complication of the disease. He took it in stride, learning the layout of our place and confidently patrolling the dog park. He still went on walks and still played occasionally. And I really thought that this would just be the new normal for the next couple of years, at least.
Things I want to remember: After he went blind, we would often lose him in the house, asleep in tiny spaces or little nooks, watching him quietly stare at a blank wall while his nose was inches away.
Then a week ago, he stopped eating. For a few days I was able to bribe him with turkey and rice but he eventually refused that as well. We went to the vet the next morning, he could no longer stand on his own. Of course I thought that this might be the end, I also had seen him defy Death at least twice and I had no reason to think he would get Harvey this time.
The vet took X-rays that revealed an evil black mass had taken over his whole belly; I finally realized that we weren't going to wiggle out of this one. I was brought into a second room by a woman who is best described as Kate Mckinnon's character from the Barbie movie. She had sparkly nail polish, although I can't remember the color, just the sparkles. She started by telling me not to cry, and I wondered to myself what exactly constituted crying, if not this exact situation. I Facetimed my fiancé, who is working out of the country. Weird Barbie returned with my dog, my best friend of 12 years. He could no longer support his head on his own. I held him like a baby -- like I'd done thousands of times before.
"There are so many puppies that need good homes in the shelters." I looked at Harvey for backup, I think in earlier years, he would've given me a look that meant, "Can you believe this lady? She is NOT invited to my bar mitzvah." I didn't acknowledge the comment, and she followed up by saying, "Do you want me to stay with you?"
"No," I answered without thinking, and she disappeared out of the room and back into her rightful place at the bottom of a toybox. I won't go into the next part because it's too hard. To sum it up, he died in my arms. The vet held up a stethoscope to his chest and whispered quietly, "And he has passed." I felt everything in my chest -- lungs, heart, guts -- all ripped out in one moment. It was, by far, the most painful moment of my life.
Things I want to remember: Holding him after he died.
And then he pooped on me. Just a little bit, but he got one more joke in, and I respect him for it.
--- In the nights since he passed I find myself wondering if he knew that I loved him and if I loved him enough. I'm afraid the answer is no. How can you ever love something enough? How can one 11-pound dog ever know what he meant to me?
I didn't. I couldn't. But he did it so effortlessly.
He was my constant and my family when I didn't have any, a beacon of kindness, and also the funniest person I've ever known. So goodbye, my sweet Harv, my grandpa baby, and my fuzz. You will always be the co-founding member of The Unit. I love you.
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i don't know your characters yet, but i want to, sooo... 9, 12, 26, 30, 35, 42, 48, 50 and 57 for both ezra and theodore! hopefully it's not too much... 😅
Awww ty so much!! No ask is too much so never worry ab it! I'll answer under the read more bc I talk alot~
Starting off with dear ol Ezra Woodburn because he's a bit more down to earth than Teddy
[9] What is their love language?
His love language is physical affection, if he initiates it with you then you are sure to be his favourite person in the whole world because he despises being touched. That was how his husband discovered that "oh shit there may be something more than friendship here" when Ezra randomly cuddled next to him while watching movies on the couch.
[12] How high is their self-esteem?
Ezra's self esteem is so low it migot as well be in the center of earth XD
He was never able to accept anything about himself and always felt like a mistake that shouldn't have been born, but still, he makes it to over 50.
[26] Do they have any physical or mental ilness, how do they handle it and how open they are about it?
He has both, he has chronic joint pain and fatigue that he has been struggling with since childhood, he also suffers from terrible social anxiety, depression and autism but he never got diagnosed because he refuses to go to a psychiatrist. His family is a very conservative "pull yourself by your bootstraps" kinda family so he was raised to feel immense shame at his disabilities and so he is only open about them with his husband, but it isn't too difficult for people around him to guess given his behaviour.
[30] What are their most healthy and most unhealthy coping mechanisms?
The healthiest is definitely writing and spending quality time with his husband and cat, the unhealthy is sh and smoking :|
[35] Do they like their own appearance, and what do they do, if anything, to alter it in any way?
He really really doesn't, if he is given the chance to look like anyone else he would take it in a heartbeat. He got both top and bottom surgery to ease the dysphoria of being born in the wrong body and he has thought about going to the gym to lose some weight but his pain immediately flares up, but he is getting slightly better at accepting himself given how many kisses his husband gives the areas he considers flawed.
[42] What is their idea of a perfect friendly hangout and/or romantic date?
Going out to the library or a picnic in nature, maybe even a trip to the shelter so he can pet all the animals and coo at them and beg you for seven more cats, three birds, a turtle and a snake.
[48] Are they, or were they at some point in their life, a part of any subculture?
He experimented with the leather goth subculture in his 20s but he immediately discovered that he doesn't have the energy to melt in the summer, so for now it is only a winter and bedroom subculture XD
[50] What are they really good and really bad at?
He's good at cooking, writing, organizing, cleaning and giving orders, he sucks at teamwork, asking for help, singing and knowing when to take a break (and socializing, my man has 0 friends outside of the ones his husband introduced him to)
[57] What was the most stupid or dangerous thing they have ever done?
The most stupidly dangerous thing was to let a stranger that ten years before was his bully at summer camp into his home because he (The bully) had all his money stolen and had nowhere to stay, it ended well for him tho.
The most dangerous thing is probably having 7 attempts at his own life before he turned 25. He eventually met a guy in the psych ward who was fostering a mother cat and her kittens and that is how he got his little angel cat Pumpkin (the guy at the psych ward was Theodore)
Now for Theodore Malik!
[9] What is their love language?
Giving gifts and acts of survice, he will cook for you and make you the best outfits you've ever seen all for the small price of tolerating his existence and listening to him ramble about Batman for way waaaay too long. On the more extreme end he will kill for the people he cares about ♡
[12] How high is their self-esteem?
It fluctuates between I am a gift from god blessing you with my mere existence to I am the worst thing to ever happen to this planet and if i don't stop existing right now the whole world will explode.
[26] Do they have any physical or mental ilness, how do they handle it and how open they are about it?
He is immortal and has otherworldly physical strength and immunity but you will find him with very sever injuries more times than not, mentally he has a little cocktail that consists of depression, general anxiety, bipolar, ptsd and some psychotic hallucinations. He is very open about everything and you WILL know when he is upset because nothing on God's green earth will stop this man from complaining.
[30] What are their most healthy and most unhealthy coping mechanisms?
The healthy ones are cooking, embroidery and chatting with his friends, the unhealthy ones are smoking, drinking, driving off of cliffs and other destructive actions
[35] Do they like their own appearance, and what do they do, if anything, to alter it in any way?
He is obsessed with his appearance, narcissus levels of self love, all except his eyes, they are blue like his mother but he would very much prefer if he had inherited the warm brown of his father's.
[42] What is their idea of a perfect friendly hangout and/or romantic date?
Theodore's perfect date would be going to the club, getting wasted and forgetting about everything the next day, but if you're not a fan of that he would settle to going to a convention with you.
[48] Are they, or were they at some point in their life, a part of any subculture?
Punk goth, from the 60s till now, before that he just dressed in frilly dressed with floral patterns
[50] What are they really good and really bad at?
He is good at listening, taking care of people, cooking, making and fixing clothes, making friends, and making enemies, he's terrible and mainting a healthy long term relationship, taking care of himself, cleaning, and making good life decisions
[57] What was the most stupid or dangerous thing they have ever done?
Every choice he has ever done is stupid and dangerous, the honorable mentions being running away from home at 16 to go live with the man who stalked him, didn't end well at all. Attempting to kill his ex's abusive ex but he is the most powerful vampire so the only damage Theodore managed to do was burning half of that man's face (and getting himself on a hitlist) and having a thing for mafia bosses which isn't that good when you date two people from opposing sides at the same time :)
#ask answered#thank you so much for asking#my boys are both massive messed but i love them#theodore malik#ezra woodburn#messes**
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mami tomoe for the character ask hehehe
First impression: The first time watching PMMM was ages ago and I didn't watch it all the way through then but one thing I do remember about that time was legitimately not believing Mami was dead. Like I thought the show was faking me out bc I didn't think they would kill off a character from the intro three eps in (it's important to know here that I didn't realize that PMMM was only 12 eps total; I thought there were more and Netflix just had the first season or smth. The only other anime I'd been into before that was BNHA and FMAB so I kind of thought all animes were long)
Impression now: All the PMMM characters are tragic in their own ways but in Mami's case what gets me is how she was just starting to open up at the time of her death. Most of the time she tries so hard to seem like the mature, responsible one who others can lean on, but in reality she's literally just a 9th grader whose life is in danger on a daily basis. She's so scared of burdening others but then she finally does admit to Madoka that she needs help, and then immediately gets fucking. chomped. The futility of it all messes with me
Favorite moment: Her confession to Madoka always and forever. The "I don't deserve [your admiration]; you should find a better role model" bit is soooo telling about her self esteem. And what's so ironic here is that Mami was very clearly afraid that admitting weakness to Madoka would make Madoka feel obligated to help her out as a magical girl even if she didn't want to (the fate Mami was already stuck with). But in opening up to Madoka is Mami's actually giving Madoka more autonomy, bc with more information Madoka can make a more informed choice about whether she wants to be a magical girl! The "refusing to accept help when you need it actually hurts the people you're trying to help" theme that's later prevalent with Sayaka is also very visible here. (On a very different note, my second fave Mami moment is her gunfight with Homura in Rebellion purely bc it was sick)
Idea for a story: I would say I want to see her interact more with Kyoko but I am aware that that literally happens at some point in the manga that I haven't read (set in one of Homuras other timelines iirc) so
Unpopular opinion: I feel like people underestimate Mami's importance on Sayaka's arc? Ik I've talked abt this before but it still stands. Sayaka not being there during aforementioned scene with Madoka and thus unquestionably believing Mami to be this virtuously selfless platonic ideal of a magical girl is soooo crucial. I think this combined with her survivor's guilt about Mami's death is a huge part of why Sayaka's Like That. IMHO Sayaka's way more like Mami than she thinks, it's just that neither of them are much like the idealized version of Mami that Sayaka thought was real (and also clearly had issues with guilt)
Favorite relationship: Sayaka but I've already talked about that so, Mami and Homura! I think I said to you once awhile back that what I find really tragic about them is that in another world without Madoka coming between the two they'd be friends, but they can't be here bc of their competing needs for companionship make them butt heads over her. And I don't remember if you ended up watching Rebellion so to say this in a way that avoids spoilers as much as possible, I feel like their portrayal there really confirms this interpretation. I wonder a lot how they interacted in early timelines when Homura wasn't so focused on solely Madoka
Favorite headcanon: If there is anything in canon that actually contradicts this ah well but I hc that she's not actually big on tea and has more just learned to tolerate it. Both bc it feels like it would be thematically fitting with her "wanting to appear mature even when it makes her miserable" thing and bc I'm a flavor of autistic wherein I don't like tea
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Hi! If you're still taking matchups, I'd love to have one! I have a lot of info here but I suppose that makes it easier to pick and choose HAHA as for genre/flavor of match i dont really care if it's more fluffy or smutty, i'm in my 20s
personality traits: introverted (distant, little interest in getting close to many people), extremely independent (often refuses to rely on others), confident (arrogant), straightforward (blunt, sometimes tactless), decisive, even-tempered, good sense of humor, playful, teasing, mischievous, realist that leans optimistic, curious (nosey), a bit of a troublemaker/rulebreaker, does not shy away from conflict.
hobbies: video games, watching anime, drawing (digital), painting (watercolor, acrylic), baking (but NOT cooking), reading, cosplay, thrill-seeking activities.
likes: cats, sweets, good food, winter, cool weather, lattes, traveling, piercings (i have 12), tattoos, puns (!), lazy days, learning foreign languages, cleaning, new experiences, trying new foods, trying new skills, people with a good sense of humor (quite subjective), people who are flexible and open-minded.
dislikes: dogs, spiders, bitter foods, hot weather, strong scents, pessimism, rigidity (in personality or environment), feeling restricted, possessiveness, conformity, having to be responsible for other people, boredom, when people don't stand up for themselves (i tend to look down on/clash with people who are overly insecure).
types / categories: intj-a ; 7w8 (yes i know type 7 is super uncommon for intj) ; love languages: physical touch, quality time (least likely to use/appreciate acts of service)
misc.: clumsy ; accidentally misuses slang or phrases bc i can never remember how they go (e.g. "let's bust this popsicle stand" instead of "blow this popsicle stand") ; able to pick up new skills relatively quickly ; studied french, korean, and latin in university ; prone to being a bit directionless in life but is go-with-the-flow enough that it typically isn't an issue ; prone to bad luck but tries to find the humor in most situations ; life approach: to have fun and be happy, to live a life of varied experiences, to not take life too seriously, to not force meaning into life
Your life is about to get a whole lot more interesting… your match is Nishinoya Yuu
Sometimes like calls to like, and your chaotic energy and puns (not to mention the baked goods) brought Nishinoya rolling into your path. Nishinoya finds your bluntness to be hilarious, though he sometimes gets offended when it’s directed towards him. Don’t worry, though, he takes what you say to heart only in the sense that constructive criticism and a new challenge are something he is always up for; and he has no problem issuing such challenges and criticisms to you as well. Though there may be a bit of an argument over who is going to be hitting to who in practice, you both help each other grow in your shared team position. He finally pulls you aside after spending some time together and agrees to teach you his Rolling Thunder move. You’ll share your special moves with him, too, right?
As an adult, Nishinoya spends his time traveling and reveling in new experiences, and he is sure you drag– bring– you along for the ride. Though there are times when travels lead you into hotter climates, he makes sure there are plenty of pools and oceans and lakes and cool places to make up for it. He buys you lots of ice cream. He promises to take you somewhere cooler with lots of snow in between the hotter places. While you are traveling, he points out every stray cat he sees and makes sure that before you leave, you both try some of the local sweets.
“Don’t you worry, I’m very flexible.” Winks.
Both of you get into plenty of mischief together, but he knows when to be serious and responsible. There may be a problem with who of the two of you will kill the spiders in the relationship. (“Really, we should just burn the hotel down, it’s the only responsible thing to do.”) But that’s okay, at least there will never be a dull moment. It might be hard to convince Nishinoya to slow down long enough for a lazy day, but if you bake some goodies, he’ll play video games with you and watch anime. (“I’m definitely going to beat you this time.”)
“Don’t forget, it’s okay to rely on others sometimes. That’s why volleyball is played with a team. It’s about connection and relying on each other to keep it going. We’ll rely on each other, okay?”
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04/17
Arai- Wild Child; Shin Sekai no Yori EP 1, 2, 4, 12
The last assigned anime from our professor before the class choice animes will be featured next week. Also, I remembered to read the assigned reading, so I have something to talk about.
Reading "Wild Child" after watching the episodes was really eye-opening. I'm not familiar with the history of psychology (actually just history in general), so I don't know when mental health resources focusing on childhood development really became popular, but the 1990s sounds right.
Watching EP 12 in particular and connecting it with the timeline at the time and the incidents in "Wild Child" shows there have been growing concerns with violent behaviors in children. Theories to pinpoint the cause point to multiple sources, from the home, the school, the people the children find themselves with (including the above), some innate "monster" within the person, or some external source. The anime says that the spontaneous emergence led to society regressing into peaceful primitive villages (we see modern skyscrapers and the peak of collapse in 2011 Gregorian/modern year). Obviously, the children are shocked, and they refuse to believe the society they live in now is built from generations of conflicts and pain. I don't think the cause of the Cantus/PK was ever revealed, but simply that what was a rare anomaly became larger in numbers (0.3% times 7 billion = about 21 million people) before society collapsed. I think this was to show how unchecked violence in even the tiniest number can collapse society.
Weirdly enough, it is not the "good" within the people with powers but the non-powered scientists who "save" humanity. However, we see the need for stability and balance outweighs the need to solve the problem: why do the Fiends and Karma demons actually manifest? Just like "Wild Child" it's a complete mystery why child school shooters and killers do what they do. I know the first scene might be a reference to the actual murders in real life. Like Shonen A, it could be that society didn't think to check on the obvious signs. Or, maybe when it was found, no one thought to care for the person. Even the doctor who I can't tell was trying to kill the boy or treat him couldn't actually do anything and got killed. The point is, that the mystery to find out why doesn't actually lead to any solutions or action to find solutions.
And about the queerats: we don't know who or what they are, but episode 4 (I think?) confirms my theory that they are humans, or came from them. It could be an illusion, that queerats look more human than they are shown because of the unreliable perspective the human characters see them as. Or, they are altered or punished and have taken on the form we see. Or, the death feedback that the bodies undergo that typically kills the person instead changes their body to look like the queerats. They can be the missing students who have been conditioned and had their bodies changed or souls transferred so they can't rebel while still not killing them (as the people in charge I don't think can actually kill people either) and using them for the good of society. Who knows?
I'm sure there was some 10 year gap between episode 4 and 12, but seems irrelevant now. Looks like the MC (girl on far right) is becoming the Giver (reference to my past, did you get it?)
-04/16/24
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6/26/23~ 5000 question survey(401-500) {CXX}
401. Some say that high school is the best time of your life. Was that true for you?
~hmmm i wouldn’t necessarily say it was the best part of my life but i definitely see where people get that from. i liked high school a lot and overall i look back on it with fond memories
402. What do you find yourself encouraging others to try?
~styles i think would fit them. there are a lot of people that refuse to wear certain things because they think they look bad in it but honestly, i see the opposite; i think trying new clothing is really cool
403. Which is better: Mel Brooks or Woody Allen?
~i’m not super familiar with either
404. When was the last time you were up all night?
~i rarely stay up all night but a few weeks ago i stayed up late watching movies
405. __ is life. The rest is just details. Fill in the blank.
~that is a lot for me to wrap my head around lmmfao
406. Are people too complex and different to be categorized?
~yes; also morally i don’t agree with that
407. Is it good to have pride in your own race or does that separate people from each other because it makes them think of everyone else as 'outsiders'?
~you can be proud of who you are and still love people who are different than you. i really wish people would grasp that concept. we are literally all humans and no one is better than anyone else
408. What fictional story would you like to live through?
~i watch and read such dark shit i don’t think i would ever choose something that i’m super into. but going to hogwarts would be pretty cool
409. Are cats or dogs smarter?
~depends on the task at hand
410. Have you ever guessed someone's password and broken into their diary?
~yes but like not to look in it. when i was a kid everyone’s password diary password was their crush's birthdate LMMFAO so it was really just to see if i was right
411. What teacher, if any, has effected you the most in your life?
~i think one reason i never like hated school was because i had a lot of good teachers throughout it. i had the same english teacher for junior and senior year and i adored her. i also loved my sophomore history teacher and my 7th grade english teacher. all of those people wrote my teacher recommendations for college and wrote me like super sweet messages in my yearbooks
412. Are you more easily bored or excited?
~excited haha
413. What's the bravest or most daring thing you have ever done?
~this was the first thing to come to my mind lmao; when i went to summer camp when i was like 12 i volunteered to climb the super super high out door rock climbing wall that was in the woods; it had just opened and I was the first girl to make it to the top :) that made me feel really good
414. "What's the point of robbery when nothing is worth taking?" (- Adam Ant)
~the thrill?
415. If your man or woman served you breakfast in bed as a treat what would you want?
~hmmm chocolate chip waffles and iced coffee
416. What do you do only when you are upset?
~hug a stuffed animal lol lol
417. What's the oddest CD in your collection?
~i don’t really think i have CD collection anymore
418. What's the best diary name you ever saw?
~hmm idk
419. What would your friends be surprised to learn about you?
~i actually like having some alone time lmao
420. Who owes you an apology?
~i don’t wanna go there LMAO
421. Who deserves an apology from you?
~i hope no one right now
422. How would you like to treat your kids differently from the way your parents treated you?
~yes and no; i love my parents but i don’t feel like i can be open with them about things. i want my kids to feel like if something is ever wrong they can come to me. i never felt like i could depend on my mom ever so i definitely want my kids to feel like they can depend on me
423. Which do you like best: 60's, 70's or 80's fashion?
~ooooh alll of it but the 70′s especially
424. What is the worst pick up line ever used on you?
~idk i haven’t experienced that in a long time
425. Of the following, which word best describes you: inventive, kinetic (energetic), light-hearted, mature
~mature
426. Do you own a record player? Do you use it?
~my dad does and i use his when i’m at home but i don’t own one personally
427. How easily do you make friends?
~pretty easy i guess but i keep my circle small and tight so i find that a lot of people don’t really wanna get to that point
428. What is the difference between having character and being a character?
~having character is being unique and having a good personality overall where as i think being a character means you’re funny
429. Are there any animals you flat out refuse to touch?
~a poisonous dart frog :) or a great white shark
430. Do you care about your weight?
~only mine and i obsess over it
431. Did you/will you go to the prom?
~nooooooo plz don’t get me started I was a covid highschool victim :(((((((((( i have vowed to give my children the most for prom one day just so i can vicariously live through them LMAO
432. Have you ever wanted to date twins?
~lol no
433. What one thing would you change about high school if you could?
~i would have embraced who i really was more; i was trying to be someone i wasn’t for sooooo long. i also would have tried harder my senior year
434. If you came with a warning label, what would it say?
~will attach to you if too close
435. Are you artistic and creative?
~eh
436. What were you (probably) doing on this date last year?
~i cheated and looked at my snapchat memories. i went to tj.maxx with my best friend
437. What are you obsessed with?
~my boyfriend
438. What was the last compliment you received?
~”you’re gonna be a great mom one day”
439. Do you have any brothers or sisters?
~i have one sister
440. Who would you like to be alone with right now?
~my boyfriend LMAO
441. Do you push people away when you really want them to come closer?
~not usually
442. Is a prenuptial agreement necessary or does it take the romance and trust out of marriage?
~i think that is a choice that others shouldn’t have an opinion on LOL. if for example i married jacob i trust him and know he is good with money so i wouldn’t get one. but i don’t think it takes the romance out of a relationship if you choose to get one
443. Do you lie your way out of things?
~not usually
444. Are you better at talking or listening?
~i’ve been told i’m a good listener
445. What will only happen to you once in this lifetime?
~graduating highschool
446. Know of any conspiracy theories you think might be credible?
~the government LMAO not tryna be that person but like i know there is so much bs
447 What are the most beautiful words that have ever been spoken to you?
~anything my grandma has said
448. If it were legal would you own a human slave (race unimportant)?
~LMAO NO!
449. Have you ever read your own writing at a poetry reading?
~i have not
450. What is one simple thing that gives you the happy shivers?
~thinking about future plans i have
451. What do you do for exercise?
~depends on the day. tomorrow i want to do some core exercises so i’ll just use the machines at the gym that help with that and do some yoga mat workouts
452. Would you rather have a strict teacher with a sense of humor or a lenient teacher that doesn't teach?
~strict teacher with a sense of humor; anything is better than a teacher that doesn't teach
453. If you ever have a baby what might you want to name it?
~depends! i have a whole list of baby names LMAO. but my top for boy names is ryder and for girls juliette.
454. If you won free tickets to a concert from a radio show and had to choose between Inxs, Poison, Blondie and Moby, which would you choose?
~blondie is the only one of those i’m familiar with
455. Are you a good cook?
~i’m ok ig
456. Do you prefer when things come with no assembly required, even if they are a bit more expensive?
~i guess so
457. Start a sentence with the words: what if
~what if i was rich
458. Are you more spontaneous and unpredictable or loyal and routine?
~i think you can be spontaneous and loyal LMAO
459. What is the highest number you can count to in your head?
~maybe a million
460. How do you go about losing weight?
~i workout :) i try to eat healthy but that doesn’t happen often lol
461. Do you have street smarts?
~probably not
462. Do you have a lot of common sense?
~i’d like to think so
463. What is your favorite flavor of ice cream?
~strawberry or cookie dough or reeces
464. What's your favorite movie that involves dancing?
~dirty dancing
465. Would you ever want to become a guest on a talk show? If yes what would the show's theme be?
~if i had an interesting enough life to warrant being on one lmao
466. Do you like the way you look naked?
~i’m fine with it LMAO
467. Have you ever dissected an animal?
~at school :/
468. Who do you know who is brilliant?
~quite a few. jacob’s mom is super smart
469. Who do you know who is dull?
~i can’t think of someone specifically
470. Do you ever think about time travel?
~yes! i would love to do it
471. What is one interesting fact you know?
~i can’t really think of one rn
472. Do you talk to yourself?
~oh my god all the time
Do you talk to your pets?
~^
473. Do you believe that humankind has a future in space (will we live there some day)?
~i think so
474. Would you rather wear clothes that you don’t mind getting dirty or more delicate outfits?
~i don’t tend to get my clothes too dirty. so i’m good with either. i like wearing delicate things to bed because it makes me feel cute
475. How do you 'live life to the fullest'?
~i’m working on that LMAO
476. Are you sloppy or a neat freak?
~i’m pretty neat
477. Would you rather have a trunk full of nickels or half a trunk full of dimes?
~dimes
478. What is the worst mistake you've ever made?
~i try to not dwell on that and frankly idek what i would say
479. Are you in good health?
~yes
\ 480. Are you patriotic?
~yes :)
Let's play fact or crap. Is it a fact? Or is it crap?: 481-500 481.
The greenhouse effect is bad for your health~ fact
482. There are about as many molecules of air in one breath as there are hairs on your head~ fact
483. The Miss America pageant started out as a contest in which people decorated wheel chairs and one chair was judged the prettiest~ crap
484. To remove a tattoo a physician can place a small balloon under the skin, which is inflated so that the tattooed skin gradually stretches. Then they cut the stretched skin away~ i feel like crap but i wouldn’t be surprised if it was true
485. Cock fighting is a sexual sport~ crap
486. It is the warmest time of the day during the hour that the sun is the highest in the sky~ fact
487. Certain scientists specialize in studying cow farts~ fact; aren’t they bad for the planet
488. The brilliant colors (reds, oranges, yellows) across the sky that we get from sunsets are caused mainly by pollution~ i feel like that’s fact :(
489. In Grimm's original fairy tale, Rapunzel is pregnant~ fact?
490. Dracula was the first movie about a vampire~ fact
491. The inventors of Corn Flakes, the Kellogg brothers, ran a school for delinquent youth~ fact; that is one of those things that is so random that i remember hearing in a documentary
492. "Kemo Sabe" means "soggy shrub" in Navajo~ crap
493. Sir Thomas Crapper invented the toilet~ crap haha
494. The Earl of Sandwich invented the Sandwich~ fact.
495. Some Chinese alchemists were trying to invent an immortality medicine and accidentally invented gunpowder instead~ that sounds right
496. The human body is made of about 99% water~ i don’t think it’s that much so crap
497. Bubble gum contains rubber~ crap
498 This survey to the zero power = 0~ fact
499. Most lipstick contains fish scales~ crap
500. There are 86401 seconds in day~ fact
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LILLIAN V. ORCHARD TAKES AND MOMENTS THAT LIVE RENT FREE IN MY MIND (IN A BAD WAY)
a sex scene cannot be relevant to a given plot and claiming it is is just sad coomer copium
"friends to lovers is better than enemies to lovers every time"
adventure fantasy elements in children's shows are bad and the result of weaboo pandering because apparently 6-12 year olds NEVER enjoy big adventures and flashy fight scenes. kids shows should all be slice of life smalltown debacles about what to do when someone isn't being very niceys :)
she got into a new show and threw a youtube temper tantrum over RUMORS it would get a bit more serious perious later on
star vs the forces of evil is annoying because it was tainted by the mass influence of madoka magica and 2 internationally banned japanese porn games she somehow knows about
hazbjn hotel is a pretty good show :)
morally grey villains in stories do not exist because these 2 specific Disney property villains aren't morally grey and someone once said they are
regarding the previous point, she acknowledged the "guy stealing bread to feed his family" thing but somehow decided it's about stealing bread from BIG MONEY SUPERMARKET so it doesn't count because fuck capitalism
whatever the fuck is going on with her SU takes
her policy that if someone recommends a show to her she'll refuse to watch it
death note is an "anime that weebs like" while hamtaro and kingdom hearts are "actually good"
Luz from owl house going through some kind of mental distress în the last season (idk I didn't watch it) is bad and part of the trend of "fetishized suffering of brown women" in children's cartoons or something
that time she did a gay rep (in children's cartoons) rating and only included lesbian couples. in a later video she acknowledged a very good gay male cartoon relationship but went "oh I didn't cover that in my video because the show is boringgg"
her least favorite trope of all time is "the dark side will make you forget", again based only on 2 disney-owned media pieces she thought weren't that good. because of them she claims that absolutely every single media ever can only be made worse by it
her use of tv tropes jargon in the modern years in general is kind of dubious
that time she decided to make an "open discussion" video on morality in fiction and the only given media to guide the open discussion was her own star wars fanfic and how one(1) guy in her comments didn't agree with her "morally unobjectionable protagonist" who kills billionaires
in that same video when she claimed that a lottt of people are so up their ass with never doing a bad thing that they respond to do nothing in the trolley problem
as an ex watcher of lily orchard I've got to she has the most fascinating media takes like. they're all stupid don't get me wrong but they're so mismatched and weirdly specific that it's kind of amazing to think some random woman in canada is holding all these cartoon discourse opinions in her head at once
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as sweet as strawberry pancakes
pairing: joshua hong x reader ft. appearances from the other members! word count: 6.2k genre: fluff, humor (?), slice of life, college au, non idol warning(s): food mentions, mentions of drinking, mingyu sucks at hygiene but i love him
summary: ethics is a pain in the ass, thank god sweetheart joshua hong is here (aka joshua is just.. so whipped for reader lol almost as whipped as the whipped cream on pancakes)
note: i’m failing ethics irl so this is just my way of coping lol (i hate kant so much)
You curse the gods that placed you in your current predicament. Actually, no, you curse Kim Mingyu for never sneezing into his arm as any sane person would do. If it weren’t for him and his gross habit of sneezing in whatever direction, you wouldn’t have come face to face with a disgusting amount of snot, wouldn’t have gotten a cold, and wouldn’t be absent for your Fundamentals in Ethics class.
While he did feel bad and give you some of his homemade chicken noodle soup (which almost made you forgive him, that man was like a Korean Gordon Ramsay) the tasty broth wouldn’t be enough for the situation that it landed you in.
See, you absolutely sucked at Ethics. No matter how many hours you put into the subject, all of your tests came back with an almost insulting red mark. 12 out of 30, 5 out of 15… damn you Kant, and your stupid ideologies. It’s not like you didn’t study or anything, the quizzes just kept beating your ass.
The only way to save yourself from retaking the class would be the upcoming final group presentation. You knew this and prepared in advance by thinking of who you’d ask to be grouped with. The roster of high-achieving students that you’ve got to know throughout the semester repeated in your head like a chant: Jihoon, Namjoon, Eunwoo, Intak. You were ready to speed into class and tell your professor those exact names.
But of course, the universe just loved to screw you over. No matter how hard you tried to argue with your roommate that your cold wasn’t even that bad, she refused to let you out, in fear of “killing half the campus” with your damned cold. Thanks to that, you were stuck with the unwanted members of the class: a girl that spent the entire session scrolling through dating apps, a couple that was way too invested in each other to learn anything, and a guy that hid his phone under his desk to play Solitaire.
Solitaire. Not even a fun game. You might be a bit too harsh on your unfortunate group, but you really needed to ace this project. Knowing that the five of you would end up nowhere unless someone took lead, you became the makeshift leader, adding them all into a group chat that was often left with your messages never seen.
Luckily, the others finally saw your most recent message asking to meet up in the campus library to discuss your presentation. Unluckily, none of them prepared for it. You were stuck rambling on about your proposed topic, while the other four just stared at you.
“How about we discuss the Valley of Sorrow dilemma? You know, the one where a doctor has to choose between breaking his confidentiality contract or releasing data about a cure? I think it would be a great way to compare a deontological approach versus a utilitarian approach”, you say, inwardly groaning at how the couple in front of you continue to play footsie under the table. At one point, you felt the girl stroke your leg. You really should’ve worn jeans today.
“Sounds good to me”, the Solitaire boy says while checking his watch. “But uh, I think I’ll have to head out early. Sorry guys, the gamers club needs me right now.”
Bullshit. Your friend Wonwoo’s the president of the club, and you know they never meet on Friday (Wonwoo likes to volunteer at the animal shelter near your dorms). But, you let him go anyway. It’s not like he was giving any useful output anyways. The others soon follow, with the dating app girl rushing off to find her “special man” for the night, and the couple leaving for whatever stupid excuse they gave. You didn’t even bother listening to them, knowing that they’ll most likely head to an apartment and get laid. Good for them, I guess.
Stuck on your own, you get to work on your laptop. Screw you Kim Mingyu. (You don’t know it, but across the campus, the poor boy feels as if the universe is calling him out in the middle of a volleyball game. He gets hit with a ball square on the head. He’s stuck with the ball’s logo branded on his forehead for a while.) As an hour passes, you decide you’ve done enough work for now, getting up and groaning at the soreness of your back. It takes you a while to finally stand up straight, and you decide to give your dead legs a wake up by walking through the library. You might’ve looked like a senior citizen with your back hunched over, but that was far from your worries. This paper is beating your ass, and your groupmates have proven to be useless. Maybe you could find some sources for the presentation in the library while you take your walk. That’s not what you find, however, finishing going through a row of bookshelves. Feeling tired and defeated, you groan a bit too loudly for a library.
“Stupid Kant. Why can’t I just live with my own ways of thinking? It’s better than going with what a dead white man thinks”, you say out loud to no one in particular.
“Bad day?”, shocked to find someone else, you turn around to look at a familiar face.
“Joshua? Hey! Long time no see!”
It’s a common greeting indeed, but it’s true. The last time you saw the guy was months ago, at a party your friend Seungkwan dragged you to. He bribed you with the promise of Mcdonald’s after staying for a while, and who were you if not a starving student to say no to a Big Mac? You spent that night being dragged around by your friend, introducing you to every person at the party. While most people’s names left your mind right after meeting them, Joshua Hong was different. He already caught your interest when Seungkwan introduced him as the “gentleman of all gentlemen”, which was far from your dating history that left much to be desired. Deciding it was safe for you to stay with him, Seungkwan bounced off to some of his friends that were taking shots.
You and Josh were honestly were vibing hard, talking about how the two of you were dragged to the party by friends, and how the hell Seungkwan knows everyone and their mothers. You finally felt at ease at the party, away from the grinding and sweaty bodies of college students that wanted to forget their asshole professors for the night. Unfortunately, the easygoing pattern of the conversation was ripped from you quickly, with Joshua explaining that his friend Vernon was dragged into a seven minutes in heaven game that he absolutely did not want to join. You giggled and waved him away, knowing that his poor friend needed his attention more than you. With how sudden he had to leave, you never got to get his number. You would’ve asked Seungkwan for it, but you knew that it would lead to him suggestively wiggling his eyebrows and offering to set the two of you up together. Ever since the two of you became friends, he’s told you that getting laid could make you a happier, way less stressed person.
That was months ago, and you haven’t seen Joshua since. Despite your campus being rather small, you just chalked it up to him being busy. At the party, you learned that he was active in a lot of clubs and extracurriculars, being part of all the different organizations, ranging from jewelry making to glee club. He was a hardworking guy, and you realized he had another responsibility as you stared at his outfit, seeing a lanyard in your university’s school colors with the bold text “volunteer librarian” on it.
“Hey to you too, ___. The last time I saw you, you were holding Seungkwan back from hogging the karaoke machine”, he says, putting some books onto the shelf from his little cart.
You groan at the memory, recalling how your friend shouted at everyone that no one could top his rendition of Beyonce’s Love On Top. Seungkwan was way too hammered to even take you to a Mcdonald’s, and you ended that night helping him puke his guts out. So much for a Big Mac.
“Oh God, don’t remind me”, you shudder. “All he did on the way home was belt high notes and talk about how Beyonce saved his life. And yeah, it’s been a pretty bad day. Got stuck with some awful group mates for an already awful subject. God, I hate ethics”, you say, rolling your eyes at the mere mention of the terrible ordeal you’re stuck in.
He lets out a sympathetic sigh, “Ethics, huh? What’re you guys learning?”
You sigh, “Deontology. Still have no fucking clue what I’m doing though, and I have a paper due in a week and no one is helping out.” He gives you an empathetic smile and puts a book back into the shelf before he replies.
“I think I took that last semester. I have some notes I could give you. Don’t have them on me right now, but… if you’d be willing to stop by here tomorrow then I’d be glad to give ‘em to you.”
You almost shed a tear at the boy’s generosity. In this dark and seemingly hopeless situation filled with terrible groupmates, shameful grades, and some ideology you haven’t fully understood, Joshua Hong is like the light at the end of a tunnel.
“Really? Oh my god, that sounds amazing, thank you! This really means a lot. I can stop by tomorrow around the same time maybe?” You want to hug the kind boy in front of you, chant thank you over and over again. But your mind decides against it, reminding yourself that you’ve talked to him only twice so far.
“Of course!”, he chuckles, “anything for you.” You blush at the sweet sentiment, and leave him to his work while you head back to your laptop.
“Joshua Hong, I think you just made this terrible day a little bit better.”
The next day comes, and you excitedly walk into the library, with a bag of pastries and some coffee in tow. The guy’s gonna be your saving grace, might as well thank him with some sweet treats and a little caffeine pick-me-up. You wander around for a while, finally finding him in the fiction corner. As you approach him, he looks up and smiles.
“Oh! Hey! I have the notes in my bag, let me go get ‘em.” He sets down the books he’s holding, and before he can run off to get your lifesaving notes, you wave your chocolate eclair in his face.
“You got me snacks? God, I feel like you’re saving my life more than I’m saving your own. I’ve had like three hours of sleep, I was so close to faceplanting into the wall earlier” he yawns, emphasizing his statement.
“Yeah, anything for someone that’ll save me from failing this class. Guessing college is kicking your ass too?”
He hums, “Something like that. I’ll go get your notes, just stay here.”
As he goes off to get his notes, you spend the time going through the books he’s organizing, recognizing some of the books as the ones you’ve read as a kid. Alice in Wonderland, Matilda, Charlotte’s Web… maybe you should visit the library more often to reread them. Stuck in your thoughts, you don’t even hear the boy come up to you.
“Hey! Here, I made sure they were extra neat for you.” He reaches his hand out to give it to you, and you probably look like a child in a candy store with how happy you look at the bundled sheets of grid paper.
“Woah, thanks. And can I say, our handwriting’s crazy nice! Mine’s like chicken scratch, honestly”, he laughs, setting the papers in your hands. As you turn to leave after thanking him, he calls out your name. You look back at him, confused.
“Oh! I just wanted to ask if you wanted to exchange numbers. That way I could help you if you’re struggling with some stuff, maybe?” he looks at you hopefully, and you smile back at him.
“Yeah, of course! Thanks for saving me from a big fat ‘F’, really.”
Joshua Hong’s notes are your lifesaver. From the ten-page bundle, you’ve finished over half of your paper. However, you’ve come to a pause as you stare at the huge inkblot at the bottom of the page. It’s been fifteen minutes, and you have no idea what it’s supposed to say. Giving up on the hopes of the ink magically forming into legible words, you pull out your phone to text Joshua.
__: hey josh!! hope u aren’t busy or anything, just wanted to ask what this says
__: [image attached]
You wait for his response, checking as the time passes by. An excruciating fifteen minutes pass, and you come to the conclusion that he might not respond any time soon. As you’re about to give up on the inkblot, you get a notification from him.
josh aka lifesaver: oh hey!! sorry, my pen decided to puke all over itself :p its “formula of the kingdom of ends”!!
__: tysm!! <3
You set down your phone, gracious for his kindness and eventual reply. Before you can get back to your laptop, you feel your phone vibrate next to you.
josh aka lifesaver: alsoooooo, it’s like 2 am
josh aka lifesaver: you should sleep soon :(
God he’s even cute through text. You look at your phone’s digital clock to verify the time. Groaning, you realize you’ve been at this paper for six hours. Maybe if you had better groupmates you could’ve been done hours ago. Alas, the four are nowhere to be found. Looks like you’ll be doing this entire thing on your own.
__: oh shoot!! didn’t even realize the time, been slaving over this paper for hours :// groupmates r mia yet again :p
josh aka lifesaver: did you eat dinner yet?
__: …. yes?
josh aka lifesaver: haha, very believable. there’s this awesome diner by 4th street, wanna come with? been craving their pancakes and you need to fill that empty stomach of yours
And that’s how you find yourself in a diner’s booth at 3 am, dressed in your pyjamas since you were way too tired to even change. You regret this decision though, as you see Joshua enter in a clean button-down and jeans. He looks way too good at ass crack o’clock. His eyes eventually connect with yours and he smiles, walking up to your booth.
“Hey, busy bee. You ready to try the best pancakes of your life? I’ve been going here since I was a freshman, and nothing compares to the god-like fluffy goodness that are their strawberry pancakes”
“Psh, I don’t think anything’ll top the ones my mom makes.”
He grins at you, “You’re about to be proven so so wrong, __.” He waves over at a waitress clad in the '50s-themed neon yellow uniform, and she comes over with a notepad in hand. Recognizing him, she smiles.
“Josh! Welcome back. It’s first time I’ve seen you come in here with someone that isn’t your roommate, is she someone special? She’s a real sight for sore eyes too”, she looks over to you, and you blush. Looking over at your companion, he’s beet red too, but waves away her question.
“Just someone who needed to discover the greatest pancakes on earth. I’ll have the usual strawberry pancakes, and extra powdered sugar, please. Oh! And some OJ too. How about you, __?”.
You forgot to check the menu, but you decide to trust his faith in the diner and go with the same dish.
“I’ll just have the same. But, can I have it with like, your biggest cup of coffee? College’s making me out to be a zombie at this point”. The waitress, whose name is Minnie as proven by her pinned name tag, writes down your orders and walks off, not before letting the both of you know that it’ll take around fifteen minutes for the food. Once she’s gone off to talk to the cook, Joshua turns to you and looks like a giddy little boy.
“I’m serious when I say their pancakes are amazing. The first time I came here was with my roommate Jeonghan, and I’m proud to say they’ve changed my life. That day, I think I had five servings. Even tried making my own version at home, but nothing compares to the original”, he grins even wider, and you feel your stomach rumble from how excited you are for the food to come. Luckily, he doesn’t laugh or anything, he just smiles at you, albeit a bit worried that you haven’t eaten in hours. Minnie comes back with your drinks, and the two of you thank her before she leaves to serve another table.
“How’s Seungkwan, by the way?”, he says, toying with the salt packets by the table. “Haven’t seen or heard from him since his little performance at the party.”
“Same old diva we’ve learned to love. He got into an argument with some kid at the mall because the kid said he should be more quiet in a bookstore. Had to hold him back so the mom wouldn’t come and fight him too. Aside from that though, he’s been doing alright. Just been pestering me to go on dates with his friends since he thinks I’m ‘sweeter when I have a sweetie’”, Joshua laughs, rolling his eyes at Seungkwan’s usual dramatic antics.
“So”, he starts, picking up a sugar packet, “how are the dates going?”
“Oh, I’ve turned down all of them. As much as I love him, I’d rather not be part of one of his little matchmaking schemes. You remember that disastrous date your friend Vernon went on with the girl from the track team?”
He laughs at the memory, “I remember that. She wanted to go on a jogging date and he passed out after like ten minutes of running. Had to pick him up and apologize to the poor girl. Vernon ended up sore for days.”
Laughing, you take a sip of your coffee. “Yep, that’s exactly why I don’t trust Seungkwan’s choice in dates for me.” You take another sip of your coffee.
“So, that means you’re single?” You choke on your drink, coughing on its bitter taste. God, this is embarrassing, you’ve got it dribbling down your chin. Joshua looks at you sympathetically, offering you a sip of water to calm yourself down. Once you’ve settled down, you reply, “sorry about that, but yeah. Why’d you ask?”
He gives you a cheeky grin, then shrugs. “Just wanted to know. How’s the paper going, by the way?’
You groan, “wayyy worse than expected. Groupmates have gone full M.I.A and I’ve decided I’m writing it on my own. Telling my teacher on Monday that I’ll be working solo. Hopefully I can pull out a paper that saves me from retaking the class.”
He hums in response, pausing before he replies. “Well, I’m sure you can do it. You’re a smart person, I believe in you.” He smiles, and you feel your chest warm up. His smile feels like it lit up the entire room. It may be 3 am, and you should be dead asleep from all your work, but there’s something about his support that gives you a refreshing feeling. Before you can continue your conversation, Minnie comes back with your dinner-slash-midnight snack-slash-early breakfast.
“Here’s your order! Even told our chef to hurry it up, since you guys look like you really need something sweet. Looks like Josh’s smile is the only sweet thing you needed, though.” She winks at you and sets down the food before Joshua can even retort. As much as you’d love to keep talking with your (cute) companion, these pancakes look divine, and you’re way too excited to finally fill your belly. It’s fine though, as you look up and he’s already taken a huge bite out of his stack. You laugh at the powdered sugar on the corner of his mouth and finally dig into your food.
Holy shit.
He was right. The pancakes were amazing, undoubtedly better than the ones your mom makes. Sure, she made them with a premade mix and even the school cafeteria’s pancakes would taste better than hers, but your food was, in Joshua’s words, absolutely god-like. Your eyes widen as you feel the flavors dance around on your tongue; the insanely fluffy pancakes, with the thick cream and powdered sugar, all topped with the sweet and slightly tart strawberries. Everything tastes amazing, and you chow down like a man starved. At this moment, it’s just you and your pancakes, until Joshua laughs and catches your attention. You look up at him, and he’s proudly smiling.
“Told you they were good.”
Two more orders of pancakes later, the two of you finally call out for the bill. Watching him bring out his wallet, you shake your head and let him know you’ll pay. He refuses, but you insist.
“Come on, I owe you big time. You saved my ass from ethics, and you saved it again from dying of starvation. Let me pay”, you plead, but he still refuses.
“Hey, it’s a gentleman’s move to pay. Plus, you got me those eclairs, and I’m sure those were overpriced. The cafe’s around school cost an arm and a leg to order from.” He’s right, the eclairs took a pretty painful dent in your broke college student’s wallet, but he doesn’t need to know that.
“Josh, seriously I–”
“Nope! I got this. You can just pay the next time we go out.”
Next time? You get giddy at the thought of meeting up with someone so cute another time. You really thought this would be a one time thing, but luckily he thought otherwise. Knowing he won’t let up on paying for your meal, you give in.
“Fine, but! I’ll hold you to that next time.” He puts out a couple of bills and victoriously grins, passing the receipt to Minnie. Once he gets back his change, he stands and offers you a hand.
“Now come on, I’ll walk you home, it’s too late for you to go back to your dorm on your own.”
God, he really is living up to that gentleman title.
The walk home is full of cool air and random conversations. Even with the silent pauses from trying to find new topics, you feel at ease walking next to him. You eventually reach the entrance of your dorm, and you bid each other goodbye and separate ways. Joshua Hong has officially become your lifesaver twice, first with the notes and now with those amazing pancakes. You’ll probably be thinking of them in your sleep. Finally settling in for bed, you feel your phone vibrate.
josh aka lifesaver: you made it home safe?
__: josh
__: you literally dropped me off at the door like ten minutes ago
josh aka lifesaver: hey, who knows? what if there was a psycho killer in the elevator
__: haha very funny. thanks for tonight, btw :) get home safe!
Without waiting for his reply, you finally fall victim to your fluffy bed. It was a long day, and you’re incredibly grateful that it ended with a boy that feels like sunshine.
josh aka lifesaver: no, thank you, __
josh aka lifesaver: i really enjoyed spending time with you :)
josh aka lifesaver: btw, you looked really cute with strawberry sauce on your cheek. i would’ve told you to wipe it off but you just looked so happy
josh aka lifesaver: ahh i’m probably rambling and you’ve already fallen asleep :p good night, __.
It’s been two weeks since you woke up to those messages and giggled like a crazed schoolgirl into your pillow, and eventually, the two of you became constant texting buddies. Even if you completed your presentation for ethics (got a 100 by the way! your ex-groupmates, on the other hand, got the longest lecture of their lives and had to retake the class), the two of you continued to talk. This led to the two of you getting closer, and your feelings growing even bigger. At this point, you weren’t sure what exactly the two of you were, because you clearly weren’t just friends with how often flirtatious comments were thrown into the conversations, but you weren’t dating either. It was an awkward and undiscussed grey area, and you were way too shy to ask him. Regardless, you enjoyed your conversations with him, and they made your days a bit better. Plus, you guys went to the diner more often. Those pancakes really are life changing, and at this point, you have whipped cream flowing in your blood. Minnie even makes sure to have your usual booth open at night because she knows the two of you like to come at that time.
The two of you would talk about anything under the sun, ranging from complaining about the painful life of a university student, down to the mundane moments in your days. Even now, as you’re waiting for your food at a cafe with Seungkwan (it’s his apology for not treating you to Mcdonald’s after that party), you’re still updating Josh on your life.
__: at a cafe w seungkwan rn, we’re meeting up with one of his friends
josh aka lifesaver: he isn’t setting you up with someone again, is he?
__: nope, he’s just given up on it completely. he just wanted me to come with him as an “i’m sorry for belting love on top and puking on your favorite top”
josh aka lifesaver: ok good
josh aka lifesaver: tell him i say hi !!
“Josh says hi”, you say, much too engrossed with your phone to look at your friend. What’d he mean by “good”? Was he happy that you weren’t getting set up with one of Seungkwan’s friends? You seriously need to figure out what’s going on with the two of you, and soon.
“Well hello to him too”, an unfamiliar voice says, and you realize Seungkwan’s friend has arrived. Looking at the boy, you realize you’ve seen him somewhere before. You’ve never interacted him, but there’s something about him that seems familiar. Trying to rack your brain of where you’ve seen this stranger before, the realization suddenly dawns on you. Isn’t this Joshua’s roommate, Jeonghan? You’ve seen pictures of him from Josh, and you realize it really is him. He may not have the blonde hair like in Josh’s photos, replaced with a burgundy shade of red, but it is him.
“Sorry about __, she’s been on her phone 24/7 talking to your roommate”, Seungkwan says with a roll of his eyes. “She even faceplanted into the wall the other day since she was too distracted with his ranking of all the Studio Ghibli movies. Absolutely whipped, I tell you.” Blushing, you try your hardest to defend yourself and have the slightest shred of dignity left in front of Seungkwan’s friend.
“Hey!”, you exclaim, “I wasn’t distracted by his texts, I was distracted by your loud ass trying to hold a high note competition with Seokmin. Thought a dolphin went loose or something.” As hard as you try to refute Seungkwan’s claims, you only fall on deaf ears.
Jeonghan laughs, “oh please, Josh’s been way worse. __, if you think you’re bad, you should see him plan the messages he sends you. Don’t tell him I told you this, but it took him like twenty minutes to send you a message after your cute little diner date.” At this, you hear Seungkwan hum in interest.
Damn it, you were keeping your little pancake run a secret from him, knowing that the teasing you got from him would multiply tenfold, since he’d jump to conclusions and assume the diner trip was romantic in nature. And to be completely honest, you weren’t sure if it was.
“Ooooh, is my little __ going on dates?”, he coos, and you wish your seat could eat you whole right now. Looking over at Jeonghan for help, you realize it’s useless as he begins to put in his own ooohs and ahhs to heighten Seungkwan’s teasing. You can feel your face burn into a crimson red, and you tell them to shush before anyone else can hear your conversation. It’s probably too late for that though, since sometimes it feels like Seungkwan was born with a megaphone in his throat.
“Listen, you crazed cupids”, you say with a hushed tone, hoping your company could quiet down, “he just wanted someone to come with him to his favorite diner. I was already texting him before that about the notes he gave me for my ethics class. It was just an in-the-moment situation, you know?” At that, Jeonghan furrows his brows.
“__, okay, first of all, I was awake and with him at that time, and I’ve been his original diner buddy since we enrolled in college. He refuses to bring anyone else because he gatekeeps those pancakes from everyone, our other close friends included. The diner’s off limits, even to Vernon. That means he thinks you’re special enough to bring to his favorite place”, he teases with smug look. “Second, and more confusing, where the hell did he get notes for ethics? I’ve memorized all of his class schedules like the back of my hand, and he’s never taken any ethics class.”
Tilting your head like a confused puppy, you dig into the topic further. “But, he told me he took it last semester. He even taught me some stuff I didn’t get. Are you sure he never took ethics?”
Shrugging, Jeonghan is confident his roommate never took the class. “Trust me, he’s literally a computer science major. Why would he need to learn about ethics?”
… Huh.
Now that you think of it, why the hell would a science major take ethics? Where’d he even get those notes from, and why would he lie to you? He said he took the class, and with his knowledge on the subject, it was believable. Before you could continue your little interrogation, you realize the two boys with you have moved past the conversation, talking about their plans for the week.
You jump in, but the thought of Joshua lying to you stays in the back of your head. You’ll deal with this later. In the meantime, you listen to Jeonghan rant about the pains of being an environmental science student (“I had a bug jump straight into my mouth last Tuesday. Jeonghan - 0, nature - 1”).
It’s 10pm now, and you’re home from brunch with the two boys. What Jeonghan said still lingers in your mind, and it’s time to get down to why the hell Joshua lied to you about taking ethics. Taking out your phone, you smile at your lockscreen. It’s a selfie you and Joshua took at the diner, and he’s got whipped cream on the tip of his nose. You remember teasing him about it before wiping it off with your finger and swiping it into your mouth. What followed was his face a shocking red, stuttering from your actions. You look back at that memory as one of your most favorite ones with him. Once you got your phone unlocked, you go straight to messaging him
__: hey josh!!
__: wanna go to the diner tonight? my treat :D just wanted to ask you about smth
josh aka lifesaver: dont even care about what you’re gonna ask me, you could ask me to kill seungkwan and i’d do it with no hesitation if it means free strawberry pancakes
Shaking your head at his adorable excitement, you put on your jacket to head out.
Arriving at the diner, you find him in your usual booth, with the two familiar stacks of pancakes on the table. You smile at Minnie on the way before taking your seat. Once sat down, Joshua grins at you.
“Hey, __. Is everything okay? You look like you’ve got a lot up in your head.” As usual, Joshua is ever the gentleman. Even if he has a smudge of whipped cream on his mouth, you still find yourself swooning at how sweet he is for immediately noticing that you’ve been bothered by your thoughts (even if he caused said thoughts).
“Hey Josh. Thanks for ordering for us. I just wanted to ask you something…”, you trail off. You have no idea how to ask him about his lie. You’re stuck awkwardly fumbling with what to say next, unsure how to go about this. Suddenly, his eyes widen. Setting down his fork, he looks at you worriedly.
“Oh my god, __. Do you…”, he lowers his voice, “do you actually want me to kill Seungkwan? I was joking about the whole ‘no hesitation’ thing! I know he can be a bit much but I don’t think we can kill him.”
The poor boy looks so scared, and you shake your head with confusion.
“What? No!” Josh sighs in relief.
“Oh thank god, I thought he did something.” You shake your head. “So, what’d you want to ask me then? As much as I love going on these pancake dinners with you, I’m getting a bit worried on why you called me over.”
Here it goes, time to ask him why he lied about taking Ethics. Taking a deep breath, you start.
“So, it turns out Seungkwan’s friend that we met up with earlier was your roommate, Jeonghan.” He attentively looks at you, nodding as a queue for you to continue.
“We were talking about how I got to know you, and I brought up ethics and how you saved my ass from that awful final presentation, and Jeonghan told me you never took ethics. Care to explain?” As you speak, his face gradually becomes violently red.
“Oh… cat’s out of the bag, I guess”, he admits. Still confused, you let him continue.
“It’s just”, he starts, “I found you so cute during that party and if it wasn’t for Vernon being too drunk to not notice his name was put into that seven minutes in heaven game, I would’ve asked you out.” Blushing at his confession, you’re still confused. What did that have to do with him lying about taking up Ethics? Realizing you’re still lost, he continues with a rushed tone.
“Okay, so, when I got back from helping Vernon, you were already on your way out with Seungkwan and I never got to ask for your number. I asked everyone else at the party if they had your number but they all said I should just ask Seungkwan for it but I’d rather die because he would do that weird eyebrow wiggle thing and try to set us up but I really wanted to ask you out myself”, gasping for air for a second, he continues.
“So when I saw you looking all stressed over your paper in Ethics – you looked super cute by the way, I thought ‘oh! this is my chance to ask for your number.’ But then I thought, ‘shoot, I never took ethics’ but I know my friend Seungcheol did so after you left I had to beg him for his notes but when he gave them to me they were super messy and I didn’t want you to get his scribbled, unreadable mess, so I spent that night rewriting all of his notes and that was so hard because I really couldn’t read most of it, which is why there was a huge ink scribble on the notes. I couldn’t understand what he wrote so I just put that, but then you asked me the next day about what it said so I had to call him for help. It took us forever to get it but we did, and that’s pretty much it. It was worth it in the end, though, because I got your number and we got to know each other better and now what I’m trying to say is that I’ve come to really like you, and I hope you aren’t mad at me for lying to you”, he finishes, looking like a big flustered mess with how much he’s blushing and gasping for air after that long spiel.
You laugh, and he worriedly looks at you.
“Josh, you mean to tell me… you went through all that just to get my number?” He looks at you, embarrassed and with a sheepish smile.
“Yes…?” He says with a shrug, still beet red.
Joshua Hong, you really are the cutest person I’ve ever met.
You laugh again, thinking about how much this poor boy did just so he could talk to you. It’s flattering, honestly. He takes your laughter as something wrong, however, and begins to panic.
“__, I’m so sorry for lying and if that means you want to stop talking to me then–”
“No!”, you interject, “no, I was just laughing at how cute you were and how obscene this entire situation is. I’m not mad, I swear. If anything, I think what you did made me like you even more.” He looks at you as if you just grew two heads, and upon your words dawning upon him, he dons a smile that stretches from ear to ear.
“Oh thank god. But also, you like me?” Oops, looks like you let your tongue slip a bit. “Because I like you too, if that’s not obvious yet. I really, really like you”, he says, making sure to add extra emphasis on the “really”. At this point, the two of you are blushing hard, and it’s too late to take back what you said. Anyway, it’s not like you don’t like him. It’s far from that, actually.
“Yes, I know you like me, you told me earlier”, you joke, “and yes, I do like you, Joshua Hong.” You thought the boy couldn’t get any redder, but here he is, rivaling the bright strawberries on your plates. He’s smiling even wider than before, and to your confusion, he suddenly calls over Minnie.
“Minnie, please tell everyone here that I’ll be paying for their meals. I’m celebrating me and __ getting together. Oh! And one more order of pancakes for us, please. Is there any way you guys could write ‘congrats on achieving your ultimate dream’ on the plate? I think this is the best day of my life.”
Shaking your head, you smile at him. Even with how intense he is right now, this is the best day of your life, too. Who knew that the worst subject on earth would lead you to where to dating a boy as sweet as those god-like strawberry pancakes?
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