#Lauren Jauregui colors

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Fifth Harmony - outgrown (A.I.)

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Fifth Harmony x Maluma - Señorita (A.I.)

[pinkwright]

my fave genre is when they sound like they were borderline in tears in the studio

[pat-patrii]

@laurenJauregui no se olviden de hacer stream a PRELUDE🌜☀️😍

No te pierdas de escuchar al talento y maravillosa voz con  melodias que expresan emociones profundas

[i-am-aprl]

Lauren Jauregui interview with Middle East Eye

Lauren also speaks about what she’s seen in the music industry and how people, especially people of color, have been cancelled and dropped for speaking out.

Full interview: https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=4gjj3lODxno

[mazes-and-the-madness]

IN BETWEEN: A Camren Analysis

I. Introduction

Nearly two years after she released her debut EP PRELUDE in 2021, Lauren Jauregui brings us a second one: In Between. She explores a variety of themes, some of which were also on PRELUDE (i.e. relationships, personal growth, her emotions). Without further ado, here’s my Camren analysis of In Between. As always, there’s the disclaimer that I’m not saying certain songs are definitely 100 percent about Camila: just that if they are, here’s a plausible explanation as to why. Oh, and Lauren, if you happen to come across this, just keep scrolling - absolutely nothing to see here.

II. Track-by-Track Analysis

1. In Between

Much like she did with Colors on PRELUDE, Lauren opens with a piece that’s part song, part spoken word. The title track In Between is about self-reflection, growing as a person, and ascending to one’s higher self. Lauren says, “love me in the in between… for me and the future we,” which could refer to becoming a better person for not only herself, but also a future romantic partner. “A dream that comes to tell me of the path that lies ahead // the things that I must leave behind instead of me for dead” could refer to leaving behind her immature past self, or a toxic partner, for her to reach her full potential. Lauren also mentions being “hung up on all the potential instead of the truth.” Even if the relationship was good at one point, this is no longer the case. It’s too far gone, and I hate to say it, but this could be about Camren. A key message of In Between is that no matter how much healing you’ve done, there’s always more self-discovery to do. When Lauren says, “I wade in the waters of the in between // until I’m born again, anew and renewed,” this is yet another parallel to PRELUDE, specifically the cover art where her face is ever so slightly lifted from the water. You know how the one thing everyone remembers from science class is, “The mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell?” The English literature (and songwriting) equivalent is “water = rebirth.”

Other Thoughts:

Can we take a second to appreciate how “a dream that comes to tell me of the path that lies ahead // the things that I must leave behind instead of me for dead” is written in perfect iambic heptameter? If you have no idea what that means, don’t worry about it - just my inner English professor nerding out about Shakespearean poetic structures.

I know we’re all mad at Taylor Swift right now (and if you’re not, you should be), but “meet me in the in between” is giving “meet me at midnight.”

2. Em(oceans)

This song summarized in one sentence: Lauren feels too much, and wishes that she didn’t because her heightened sense of empathy enables people to take advantage of her. Her plea of “do you even notice? (are you even noticing all this emotion?)” could be directed at a partner, specifically Camila. The lyric “I never know what to say // so I try to push it away” is interesting because it alludes to communication issues from Lauren’s side. Communication has historically been a major obstacle for Camren, but the problems usually seem to stem from Camila’s side, as we know from Lauren songs like Expectations, Let Me Know, NADA, and the unreleased XO (I Don’t Miss You). Em(oceans) directly parallels other songs on the EP, specifically In Between and Trust Issues which also allude to other people using Lauren for their own ulterior motives.

3. All in My Feelings

This song reads very much like it takes place after Camila left Fifth Harmony (and by extension, Lauren). Camila now has more self-respect, and will no longer drop everything just because Lauren wants her to. Lauren expresses frustration that Camila is ignoring her, saying, “I just wanted to have sex // I’m too used to getting my way now.” By doing so, Lauren confirms what Camila writes about her in My Oh My (“they say he likes a good time,” “insatiable habits,” “he’s only here for one thing”). While Camila was previously quick to give in to Lauren’s demands, now she’s moved on and this is no longer the case. 

One interesting lyric is “this might be some past life shit, thе way you got me waitin' 'round for ya // to answer me whenever you do you ya, the upper hand was always mine.” The term “past life” has a clever double meaning: Lauren could be saying that she and Camila’s connection means they were together in a past life, OR that she’s now paying for how poorly she treated Camila all those years ago. Plus, we know from both of their songs that Lauren had the upper hand over Camila (She Loves Control, This Love, Señorita, Back to Me, Sorry). Lauren knows her past behavior is no longer going to fly, as she worries, “I'm afraid (oh, I'm afraid) of what it could mean when I've lost the control and I don't want it to mean anythin.' ” This is a good time to remember that Camila literally has a song called She Loves Control about how much of a control freak Lauren is. 

Lauren also says, “I like my wall up to keep from fallin', keep from fallin' // keep my walls up to keep from fallin', can't be fallin.' ” As I’ve stated in previous analyses, Lauren has written multiple songs about her struggles to open up to others (On Guard, Trust Issues), and Camila has written about desperately wanting her partner to do exactly that (Inside Out, In the Dark, Shameless, Boys Don't Cry). Lauren ends All in My Feelings with, “now he answers my texts as I'm writing a song about him // man, fuck that dude.” I don’t know about you all, but I laughed out loud when I first heard this. While she seems to be talking about a man, I wouldn’t be surprised if this song is actually about Camila, who has used he/him pronouns to describe Lauren in multiple songs (most notably, Havana and My Oh My.)

Other Thoughts: 

This song also parallels Em(oceans), specifically the idea of feeling too much and wanting to push these thoughts aside. This is most apparent with the lyrics “uh, trust me, I'd like to turn off my feelings // why the fuck am I feelin' any type of feeling?” and “anyway, anyway // usually I run away, run away.”

4. The One

Along with All in My Feelings and Always Love, The One is one of the most Camila-coded songs on the EP. The first verse is about an on-off relationship, apparent by the lyric “been here a few times, don't know what I'm fightin' for anymore.” Camren is THE on-off relationship, as we know from songs like This Love, Señorita, Back to Me, Sorry, and the unreleased Don’t Need This (I’ll stop there before listing out their entire discographies). In The One, Lauren questions her partner’s commitment to her, doubting that their actions match their words. She says, “you say that I’m the one, yeah yeah // so show me that you love me, yeah yeah.” Camila has written multiple songs about how Lauren is the only one for her (Anyone, Taxi, Easy, and arguably, First Man). Lauren is unimpressed by her partner’s wealth, saying, “don’t need your money, nah nah // that ain’t the way you keep me, my love.” No shade, just facts: as the most commercially successful member of Fifth Harmony, Camila is wealthier than Lauren, boasting a net worth of nearly $20 million vs. $4 million. Plus, Camila totally seems like the type to spoil her girlfriends with all her money. Lauren also questions, “why you gotta be insecure? ... I can’t really do this no more if every time I speak, you take it that I’m starting war.” Camila has bared her insecurities in several songs, including Easy, psychofreak, No Doubt, and Hasta Los Dientes. Until Camila can prove her commitment to Lauren, Lauren scoffs, “you can keep your money, yeah yeah // I’m doin’ just fine on my own.”

5. Trust Issues

At the request of @/missmebaby2017, I first analyzed this song when Lauren officially released it in March of this year. As I said back then, Trust Issues fits right in with other songs we've gotten from both girls about Lauren’s struggle to open up and the volatile, on-off nature of their relationship. As a result, it makes sense that Lauren would have “trust issues” before trying again with Camila, or starting a new relationship with anyone else. Now that we have the context of the full EP, we also see that Trust Issues fits thematically with songs like In Between, Em(oceans), and All in My Feelings.

6. Always Love

Lauren first performed this song in July 2019, shortly after Camila tweeted “for me, it was always going to be about love.” Always Love is about a relationship that’s long gone, but you still have love for the other person. Like All in My Feelings, this song could take place after Camila first left Fifth Harmony to pursue a solo career. The lyric “nobody talks about walking away when there’s still love // feeling so far after being so close is a mindfuck” would fit with this theory, since the Havana music video hints that this breakup was amicable. The on-off themes surface once again as Lauren reflects, “even though we didn’t work, it’s always love, always love // and even though we hurt each other more than once, it was love, always love.” As for “for all those times that we locked eyes // when I was yours and you were mine,” there are tons of compilations of “Camren staring at each other” on YouTube and TikTok. If “intense eye contact” was an Olympic sport, they’d take home more gold medals than Michael Phelps. But my favorite lyric in the whole song is, “you helped me grow into me, so I couldn’t help but change.” Camila was there for Lauren during a highly formative period in her life, her mid-to-late adolescent years in the band. Because of Camila, Lauren could no longer deny her sexuality and finally accepted who she really was, giving so many of her fans the courage to do the same (myself included). Overall, Always Love is very much giving “sapphic first love” vibes, and I will never not cry when listening to this song.

7. Wolves (ft. Ty Dolla $ign and RUSS)

This song details all three artists’ struggles in the music industry. Because there’s so much to unpack here, I’ll do more of a close reading, line-by-line analysis with this one.

“I've been runnin' with the wolves and I made it alright

Searchin' for my purpose and I'm learnin'

That we don't really get a lot of time

So I've got to go and get mine while I'm alive

Yeah, I'll be runnin' with the wolves all through the night”

Lauren started in the music industry at age 16. She’s now stayed in it for over ten years and done a lot of learning, growing up, and self-discovery in the process. The word choice of “wolves” is rather pointed; I mean, she doesn’t say “runnin’ with the butterflies.” The wolves are the cutthroat music industry executives who don’t care about the artists and will exploit, abuse, and overwork them to rake in as much money as possible. Remember Lauren’s advice for young people aspiring to a music career? “Read your contracts.” All artists have an expiration date, especially women and those from manufactured bands. As a member of both groups, Lauren has to work extra hard to make the most of her time in the spotlight for as long as the wolves allow her to do so.

Now we get to Ty Dolla $ign’s part:

“I lost so many to the system // only two ways out, dead or in prison” … “I know there’s gotta be a better way // out here runnin’ with the wolves tryna get away”

The music industry often exploits newly signed artists, especially those from working-class backgrounds. As I said in my analysis of Familia, this was the case for nearly all the Fifth Harmony girls. Simon Cowell was able to get them to sign those unjust, restrictive, inhumane recording contracts because he knew it was practically their only chance at a better life.

“clock tickin', plot and stop bitchin' (uh, oh yeah) // lot of fake stars, but I ain't 'bout to stop wishin' … every time my gut talks, I try to just listen ”

This lyric goes back to artists having a shelf life, and also includes some clever wordplay. We all know the idea of wishing on a star to make your dreams come true, but here Ty means that a lot of artists aren’t “real” with their fans because they’re heavily manufactured by the industry for (what else?) financial gain. Still, he refuses to let this stop him from making the most of this opportunity and striving to be an artist on his own terms.

“a millionaire on hamster wheels, I'm hopin' that this can't be real”

Even for those lucky artists that become super wealthy doing what they love, they may be trapped because of these brutal contracts. The word choice of “hamster wheels” is especially telling: artists are hustling all the time, but ultimately remain stuck in the same place.

That brings us to RUSS’ part:

“I'm scraped up, got some scratches, got some war wounds

I'm tryna reach the people as if I ain't 'bout to tour soon

I might need a therapist, maybe a support group

Yeah, I went from dorm rooms to courtrooms to board rooms, ah”

The industry hurts artists both mentally and physically. “Reach the people” could mean multiple things, such as artists helping others through their music or making them aware of the harsh behind-the-scenes reality. The mention of touring could refer to artists’ grueling schedules often determined by industry executives. Members of Fifth Harmony and One Direction have spoken about how the nonstop album-tour-album-tour cycles were harmful to their physical and mental health. For example, Niall Horan wasn’t even allowed to get much-needed knee surgery while he was on tour, and Ally Brooke writes in her 2020 memoir Finding Your Harmony that she only took one or two sick days during her entire time in the band (2012-2016). Today, artists are more comfortable speaking about mental health issues, like Demi Lovato and Miley Cyrus declaring that they’re no longer going to be touring as part of their careers. Finally, why is Lauren also singing the “dorm room” part when she’s never even been to college? I’m sure it’s not that deep; I just find it funny.

Now we’re back to Lauren with the outro.

“runnin', runnin', we keep runnin', runnin', runnin' ”

Although this line of work is by no means easy, all three artists stick with it and continue breaking their backs to keep the wolves happy. That is, until the wolves discard the artists for fresh meat, thus perpetuating the cycle of abuse and exploitation in the music industry.

III. Conclusion

Lauren, you’ve done it again. In Between is thoughtful, reflective, and self-aware, and you’ve proven your growth as an artist from not only your Fifth Harmony days, but also throughout your solo career. Though I loved both of your EPs, I have to ask: when are we getting your debut album? I know there’s probably all sorts of behind-the-scenes stuff we’ll never know; it just feels like we’ve been waiting forever. Either way, as long as I keep vibing with your music, I will continue to support you as an artist whatever you decide.

If anyone has questions or comments on anything I’ve said, my asks are always open (I trust you all to keep things civil). And if you haven’t already read my analyses for PRELUDE and Familia, what are you doing? No seriously, I’d encourage you to do that as well. I’ll be back for the next major music release from either Lauren or Camila, but until then, stream In Between.

Final Rating: 7/10

Final Ranking:

7. Trust Issues

6. Em(oceans)

5. In Between

4. Wolves

3. The One

2. Always Love

1. All in My Feelings

[isuckatwritingsobenice]

For all things holy can you PLEASE write a Toradeen smut fic? Specifically G3 characters?

It’s Clawdeen x Toralei. Clawdeen is too (obviously lol) and Toralei the mega bottom she is.

and basically just. Include all the kinks you listed in the kink section for Toralei nsfw alphabet? OO! Pls have her cry too. She definitely cries during sex.

Clawdeen I feel can get off to little stimulation, and more on like. The power play and imbalance. Like she gets off on controlling Toraleis orgasm and see her fall apart. But I’m much less versed on her side. You can write whatever you want for her in terms of climax. I’m not picky towards her. Free canvas you could say!

but yeah! Just any smut fic where Clawdeen absolutely wrails the attitude out of Toralei and does all those kinks you listed.

thank you!!!! So much!!! (And oooo am I allowed to request more than one prompt? Sorry. Your just one of the very first people I’ve found who’s willing to write Toradeen smut and I’m a little trigger happy)

A/n: Tsym for your request!! This is actually the first time I'm writing a character x character, so thank you sm for this, but I'm glad we're expanding on the fact that Clawdeen is most definitely gay, even in G1. I love these two sm!

Warnings: Aged Up characters (18)!, Edging, Toralei's a crybaby, secret relationship trope, Clawd is just a sweetheart big brother, power play / imbalance, orgasm control, clothed sex, Dom/Sub themes, degradation, slight exhibitionism, Girl x girl, Toralei and Clawdeen are a mix of their G1 & G3 selves, personality wise. G3 looks though! Characters are all in College so kind of like frat house setting!

Songs you can listen too while reading: Stranger by Halsey and Lauren jauregui, You Right by Doja Cat & The Weekend, A Night to Remember by Beabadoobee and Laufey, Do I wanna know by Arctic Monkeys

Navigation!! // Masterlist!!

NSFW Under the cut!

PARTYGIRL

It was supposed to be a regular party. That was what Toralei was trying to tell herself. A normal party with her friends. Simple.

Except it was far from that. Far from simple. It was Clawd's idea to throw the Halloween party, Draculara and Frankie had gone all around campus inviting people and reminding everyone to wear costumes, and somewhere along the way she found herself slipping more and more from a costume to just a regular skimpy outfit. She did need some sort of traction.

"Are you almost done?" Purrsephone asks, putting her eyeliner down. She's in all black with a white star on her left eye. Meowlody laughs and shakes her head, she's laying on Toralei's bed.

"Please, she's gonna take forever. Especially since Clawde-"

"Can you not?" Toralei asks, rolling her eyes. She puts red in her waterline before standing up, rubbing her lips together to smooth out the purple lipstick she'd put on. The two girls gave each other a look before Purrsephone laughs.

"Oh look, she posted. She's with a guy." Purrsephone says, holding her Icoffin to Toralei and Meowlody. Meowlody purrs and gets closer to the screen, running her tongue over her teeth.

"Wow, she moves on fast." Meowlody says. Toralei stays quiet, choosing peace over idiocy. A month ago at a party, Toralei and Clawdeen had gotten into an argument in front of people. It was seven minutes in heaven, and Toralei had made a comment about how she 'refused' to go into some closet with Clawdeen. The two argued in the closet for a whole three minutes before giving up. It took another seven to actually get them out of the closet, and by the looks of the two they definitely weren't just arguing. It'd been a running joke among the Hissfits girls.

"Oh please, it was a stupid game." Toralei says, walking over to her closet to get her jacket. She was in a red dress, with black fur heels. The dress stopped mid thigh, but was tight nonetheless. She had gone with inspiration from a normie singer, David Bowie, but changing the colors to red and purple instead of red and blue.

Meowlody grabbed her car keys and walked past Toralei, leaving the room to start the car.

"Just so you know," Purrsephone says, slinging her purse over her shoulder, " You won't be able to focus with her there." She says, walking out of the room. Toralei doesn't answer, instead she opts for staying silent and pulling her phone out of her coat pocket.

Clawdeen: Should I do a purple jacket or a black one? 20 minutes ago

Clawdeen was gonna kill her.

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"Take another shot sis, c'mon." Clawd said. It was loud, and Clawdeen was surrounded by red cups and people. The drinking game had been going on for ten minutes but it felt like twenty, and she still wasn't here.

"Fine fine, gimmie something stronger." Clawdeen said, giggling as Draculara clung to her.

" You know your brother's gonna get you wasted right?" She asked, and Clawdeen just laughed, leaning in Draculara.

"Oh hell yeah, but I need this." She said, just as he slid a cup over to her. She lifted the cup to her lips, attempting to take it all in one shot, when she saw Toralei walk in. She felt her chest tighten, her throat went dry despite the alcohol flooding through her.

She forced herself to finish the drink, slamming the cup onto the counter. Everyone around her cheered as Clawd lifted his drink to try and outdo her. Clawdeen peeled Draculara off her, handing her the cup. "Play for me." Clawdeen said, and Draculara just nodded to her. Clawdeen pushed her way out of the crowd of people, trying to make her way over to Toralei.

"Hey T-"

"Clawdeen!" Frankie called, waving at Clawdeen. Clawdeen sighed, and looked at Toralei who just smiled to her. "I'm so glad you could make it." Frankie said, pulling Clawdeen into a hug.

"Uh, Hey Frankie I was just-"

" Oh don't worry, I saw you drinking and wow you can really drink a lot." Frankie said, and Toralei just laughed. Frankie was dressed as their mom, black and white hair sticking back in curls with a long white dress.

"Yeah Frankie that's great and all but I kinda need to talk to Toralei." Clawdeen said, and Frankie's eyes went wide, now realizing how much they'd intruded.

"Oh right right, sorry, I'll let you two be." Frankie said, awkwardly smiling and pushing Clawdeen and Toralei together.

"So, what are you supposed to-"

"Meet me upstairs, five minutes, last door to the right." Clawdeen said, and Toralei felt her stomach do backflips. She knew that tone, she knew what it meant.

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She doesn't know how long she's been in this room. It felt like hours but it was really on a few minutes. Toralei had forgotten how rough Clawdeen was when she was upset about something; upset with her.

"Ah...clawdeen, please just, c-calm down." Toralei said, feeling Clawdeens teeth lighting nip at her throat.

"Calm down? You got some nerve." She said her thumbs digging into Toralei's hips, lighting grinding into her. Clawdeen spoke against her skin, trailing her kisses lower. "You don't answer more for an hour, show up in this, and you want me to calm down?" She asks against her collarbone, pushing the jacket Toralei had been wear farther down her arms.

"W-well it's not like you were exactly alone." Toralei quipped back, causing Clawdeen to stop. She pulled back, looking down at her.

"What's that supposed to mean?" Clawdeen asked, and Toralei swallowed nervously.

"Well, Draculara was all over you..." She trailed off, hoping Clawdeen had gotten the hint, and oh she had.

Her hands traveled further down Toralei's torso, moving to the hem of her dress and pushing her legs apart.

"So someone's jealous." Clawdeen says, her hands pushing up her thighs.

"No, I'm not-" Toralei stops, her hand moving to cover her mouth once she feels Clawdeens fingers rubbing over the panties, which are now almost entirley soaked through.

"Mmm, maybe you're not, but you're definitely enjoying this." She said, sliding the fabric to the side to slip her fingers in, which didn't take much effort either. Toralei arches into her, a silent beg for more only Clawdeen knows how to read, and she gives in, letting the palm of her hand bump just right against her.

"Clawdeen..." The whine is muffled by her hand, and Clawdeen contemplates forcing her to move it, but decides against it. She doesn't want to get caught, not yet at least.

"You did this to yourself,” She said, pulling her fingers back. Toralei removed her hand from her mouth, panting a bit. “ I mean, you did hurt my feelings, really bad.” Clawdeen said. Only then was when Toralei had noticed it. Clawdeen was wearing a choker, and right in the middle was a letter T, in silver.

“I’m sorry.” She said, and she meant it. Clawdeen stared at her for a minute, almost letting the words sink in.

“I’m sure you are.” She said before leaning down to kiss her. It was hot, and there were so many emotions Toralei couldn’t wrap her mind around it.

They weren’t together, not officially. So she shouldn’t really be feeling this way about Clawdeen. But when she gets like this, how could she not? Clawdeen pulls away, her lips are plumper? his lipstick is gone, mixed with Toralei’s. Toralei moves to reach forward, but Clawdeen pushes her hand away.

"You stay right there, and don't move." Clawdeen says. Toralei's body shakes as she feels Clawdeen lean forward, her lips ghosting over her neck, her breath fanning across the skin. Toralei releases quiet whimpers, fighting the urge to mesh her legs together. There's a tingling sensation running down her spine, her excitement getting the best of her when she arches slowly into Clawdeen's kiss on her collarbone. Clawdeen notices, but doesn't pull away from her. Clawdeen's hands run up her sides, cupping her breasts. Toralei sighs, leaning into her touch, wanting more, craving more. But the dress doesn't come off, and that makes Toralei frustrated.

"Take it off." Toralei says, moving to pull her dress up, but Clawdeen stops her.

"Didn't I say not to move?" Clawdeen reminds, and Toralei ignores her, pulling her dress of her thighs and up to rest on her waist, now bunched up. Clawdeen inhales quickly, taking in the sight, before pushing her up the bed. Clawdeen kisses her neck firmly before settling herself between her legs. An involuntary moan left Toralei's throat, feeling Clawdeen's hands run down her sides to her legs, where she promptly rested her hands on her thighs. Clawdeens hand's move up her inner thighs, taking her time to feel around her panties, noticing how wet they are. She pushes the material to the side, sliding her fingers through her folds and into her. The pace is quick, a contrast to the previous pace Clawdeen had set.

"Clawdeen- I- wait-" She's stuttering, the sounds are filthy and her face is heating up in embarrassment. Toralei's hands move to rest on Clawdeen's shoulders, eyes nearly rolling back from her actions, despite Clawdeen being as 'gentle' as she could be. She knew Toralei was overly sensitive from before.

"Mmh...Clawdeen please!" Toralei moaned, digging her fingers into her shoulders for some sort of support. Clawdeen smiled down at her, only quickening her pace. Toralei's eyes shut, feeling her body tense. She was almost there. So close.

Until Clawdeen retracted her hand quickly. Toralei whines, looking at Clawdeen desperately.

"I told you not to move." Clawdeen said, moving off of her. She straightens her clothes, now standing at the foot of the bed, fixing her outfit and hair.

"W-wait, so you're just gonna leave me like this?" Toralei asks sitting up, and Clawdeen thinks for a moment.

"I got any reason not too?" She asks. Toralei doesn't answer, instead she stands from the bed, stepping closer to Clawdeen before kissing her. This time, Clawdeen brings her closer, her hands on her waist. It's hotter than before, and the more Clawdeen pulls away the more Toralei chases her, quick kisses turning into making out.

"Please don't leave me like this." Toralei says, kissing her again, more desperate. "Please, I missed you." She says, but Clawdeen doesn't answer. Instead she kisses her harder, teeth clashing and lips parted. Clawdeen keeps her hands around Toralei as she moves back to sit on the bed, this time leaving Toralei standing.

"Then do it yourself." Clawdeen says pulling away. She leans back, taking her jacket off and throwing it behind her, leaning back on her hands to let Toralei straddle her.

"Really..?" Toralei asks. Clawdeen grins, looking at her. Toralei sighs and does as such, her hands finding resolve on Clawdeen's shoulders. Clawdeen moves her dress up her thighs, the dress now bunched at her waist too. It's then Toralei see's she's wearing no panties at all. "Did you plan this?" Toralei asks, and Clawdeen shrugs.

"Just wanted to be prepared." Clawdeen says. Toralei grinds down, her hips rolling against Clawdeens.

"Finally." Toralei sighs, leaning onto her. Clawdeen rests her hand on Toralei's hips, guiding her.

"Slow down, you'll get what you want." Clawdeen says, trying to sound calm, but Toralei knows she wants this too. But Toralei does as such, slowing down. "Y'know, you're such a slut." Clawdeen whispers to her. Toralei pants, trying not to move too quick.

"N-no I'm not." She responds, and Clawdeen shakes her head,one of her hands moving to rest between them, only slightly bumping Toralei's sensitive clit.

"But you are. Sluts don't do this, especially not at a party. Anyone could walk in you know. You didn't lock the door remember?" Clawdeen reminds, and Toralei bites her lip to stop the moan that forms when Clawdeen slides her fingers into her. She had been so focused on her talking she hadn't even felt her fingers slip past her panties.

There are tears brimming her eyes, this is probably the second time she's been edged, her feelings are only slightly hurt by Clawdeens tone, and she's insanely worked up to the point she knows she needs a release.

"Do sluts get to cum? Do you deserve to cum?" Clawdeen asks, and Toralei nods.

"Please Clawdeen please, I apologized about e-earlier." Toralei begs, riding her fingers.

"You gonna make a mess for me? Gonna cum on my fingers?" Clawdeen asks, her fingers curling. Toralei nods, crying her lap and moving her hips faster, desperate. "Go ahead, cum for me." Clawdeen kisses her, swallowing her noises and equally shutting her up. Toralei's tears fall on Clawdeen's arm, her pase quickening as she finally reaches her high.

"F-fuck, Clawdeen! Cumming!" She moans, her hips going from messy circles to a slow stop as she finally calms down. Clawdeen is soft with her, pulling her fingers out. Toralei leans her head on Clawdeen's shoulder, panting. Her eyes are heavy, and Clawdeen slowly shifts her weight to the bed, letting Toralei lay there for a bit to calm herself down.

"So, about that game."

[naturesapphic]

Lauren x reader where Lauren is on tour (so like rn) and we sit front row instead of backstage and she basically dances in front of reader the entire time and then comes off stage and dances on her

Dance dance

Lauren jauregui x fem!reader

Warnings: fluff and some suggestive stuff ;)

The screams of people were filling up the whole stadium and around you. You were in the front row of your girlfriends concert and people recognized you instantly. They asked to take pictures with you and you said sure because why the hell not? The lights suddenly dimmed and everyone started screaming louder and chanting your girlfriends name. The lights went back on and there was two people dressed up in some type of see through cloaks. They were walking in circles with one another and slowly dancing. Then on the side of the stage was your Lauren walking up the steps slowly.

When she got on the stage, more dancers appeared and they started dancing along with the music and Lauren followed their moves. Lauren looked down and met your eyes and gave you a quick wink which made your cheeks go red. They kept moving together in a synchronizing way and then two of them helped Lauren take off her cape like thing off her shoulders and when it happened, the light went out again. Then colors started playing and the lights went back on revealing your girlfriend again. Watching your girlfriend sing her heart out to colors was so mesmerizing and truly enchanted you to see her this vulnerable and truly being herself on stage.

The lights went out again and scattered started playing and Lauren was on her knees this time when the lights came back on and she started singing. Everytime she moved on the stage floor she kept coming closer and closer to you and as she sang, she was looking deep in your eyes and you felt yourself being in a trance. That’s what Lauren’s green eyes always does to you. Lauren knew the affect she had on you whenever she looks at you or dances for you. It always makes you melt and weak in the knees and she’s cocky about it.

There was one more song left before the concert ended and Lauren told you it would be expectations. You were there when she made the music video for it and she teased you like there was no tomorrow. You’re pretty sure that teasing you was Lauren’s favorite pass time. The lights went out again and the fans were screaming “Lauren! Lauren! Lauren!” Over and over until the music for expectations started playing and the fans got even louder which made you wince slightly. The music came back on and there was Lauren sitting on a chair in the middle of the stage, singing. As she was singing she got up from the chair and started dancing on it and around it which made you stare at her bewildered. You wish you were that damn chair…

Well your wish came true because as the electric guitar solo came on, Lauren went down the steps to you and started dancing on you to the beat. Everyone was losing their shit and your face got tomato red as every time she turned around to face you, she would look deep into your eyes. She got in front of you again and suddenly bent down so her ass was pressed up against you and she slowly went back up as she looked over her shoulder to meet your eyes. She smirked and when the lyrics came back on and strutted away from you but not before giving you a quick kiss to your lips which made you almost fall over from pleasure.

She walked back up on the stage and finished expectations as you kept watching her with adoration in your eyes. After the song ended Lauren waved to everyone and told them that they loved them and suddenly she did this. “And give it up for my beautiful, amazing, kind girlfriend y/f/n (your full name)! I love you babygirl and thank you for always supporting me and my dreams. I couldn’t have done it without you chicken! I love y’all goodnight! Drive home safe!” Lauren said into the mic and she went off the stage into the back. One of Lauren’s bodyguards came to you and escorted you to the back were Lauren was and you immediately ran to her and hugged her.

“You did so good tonight Lolo! Everyone loved it and so do I!” You exclaimed as you looked up from her chest and smiled at her. She smiled back at you and leaned down to kiss you on your forehead. “Thank you chicken! I’m glad everyone enjoyed it.” She confessed and you pulled back from the hug but laced your fingers with hers. “They did baby. You worked so hard to put this concert on for everyone and I know they appreciate it.” You said and she relaxed at that statement which made you pout. “Speaking of working hard. You need to rest now. I bet you’re exhausted princess.” You spoke and she nodded her head as she leads you outside to where the bus is. “I am but I will feel better once I’m out of these clothes and you are in my arms.” She cheekily said and you blushed once more. She giggled and punched your cheeks slightly “you are too cute!” She confessed and you looked down. “Nuh uh…” you pouted and she shook her head at you playfully. “Mhmmm okay.” Lauren said teasingly as y’all went into the bus and got ready for the night and went on to bed.

A/n: I hope the anon who requested this enjoys it and I hope that the rest of y’all enjoy it too! Remember to stay hydrated and to rest! I love y’all! :)

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NCIS: Los Angeles Season 14 Rewatch:  “Shame”

The basics:  Kensi, Deeks, Fatima and Rountree investigate the death of a sailor on the Allegiance.  Callen is with Anna and their possible wedding planner while Sam is spending the day with Kam.

Written by:   Written by: Sam Block & Jamil Akim O’Quinn.  This is the first episode as writers for both Sam Block and Jamil Akim O'Quinn.  Since season 13, Sam Block was an assistant to the executive producer.  Jamil Akim O'Quinn was a writers production assistant for "Of Value" earlier this season.

Directed by:   Daniela Ruah directed “Russia, Russia, Russia”, “Lost Sailor Down”, “Pandora’s Box”, “Live Free or Die Standing” and "Flesh & Blood". 

Guest stars of note:  Kayla Smith as Kam Hanna is back from season 12’s “Can’t Take My Eyes Off Of You”.  Bar Paly returns from “Flesh & Blood” earlier in the season.  Kavi Ramachandran Ladnier as Shyla Dahr is back from “A Long Time Coming” crossover episode,  Duncan Campbell is back “In the Name of Honor” as Agent Castor, Joy McElveen as Chief Petty Officer Kemi Adebayo, Heather Grace Hancock as Robin Wassner, Rosanna Pansino as Tara Walker, David Figlioli as Rondel Fryer, Marco Antonio Martinez as Command Master Chief Petty Officer Jalen Hughes, Justice Gamble as Chief Petty Officer Dennis Bradshaw.

Our heroes:   Are siloed like a COVID episode.

What important things did we learn about:

Callen:  Wants serious security at his wedding after Kensi and Deeks’s nuptials.  Sam:  Good father whose compassion isn't conditional Kensi:  Fill-in Agent Afloating with Fatima. Deeks:  Good at noticing handwriting differences. Fatima:  Fill-in Agent Afloating with Kensi. Rountree:  Training with Sam to improve his chase times. Kilbride:  Worried about clusters of suicides.

What not so important things did we learn about:

Callen:  Quoting “The Deer Hunter” while planning a wedding. Sam:  Wanted to make Michelle’s meatloaf, had it made for him instead. Kensi:  Fishing for a wedding invite from Fatima. Deeks:  Left for a deposition. Fatima:  Going on long walks with Akhil Rountree:  Jokingly weirded out by Deeks. Kilbride: Proud of Gen Z for being open to who people truly are.

Where in the world is Henrietta Lange?  Not a mention.

Who's down with OTP:   Kensi and Deeks are Kensi and Deeks.  Wedding plans yield arguments between Callen and Anna and also so quality time on the couch.  Fatima seems to be having a good time Ali.  Kam broke up with Josh and is dating Riley.

Who's down with BrOTP:  Sam is training Rountree. Kensi is looking for wedding invites for Fatima. 

Fashion review:    Callen wore a dark blue button down shirt for the wedding planner appointment.  An eggplant colored long-sleeve tee for Sam.  Lightweight beige pullover sweater for Kensi.  Dark grey long-sleeve tee for Deeks.  Fatima wore a long-sleeve dark brown turtleneck.  Both Kensi and Fatima wore NCIS jackets on the Allegiance.  Rountree started the day in a Nike light grey athletic long-sleeve tee and later was in a light grey, long-sleeve tee-shirt (no swoosh).  Blue three-piece suit, light blue dress shirt and medium blue tie for the Admiral.

Music:  “Falling” by Lauren Jauregui is playing in Kam’s Air Pods as Sam returns home.  “Modelle” by Bruno Nicolai plays at the wedding planner’s office.

Any notable cut scene:  Not today.

Quote:  Sam:  “You know, I had always hoped that me and your Mom created an empathetic environment for you and Aiden.  Wanted to make sure you never felt like our compassion was conditional.” Kam:  “Yeah, of course.”

Sam Hanna – good father.

Anything else:  On an aircraft carrier, Chief Petty Officer Kemi Adebayo notices Petty Officer Eli Wassner is missing from his station.  She starts to search for him only to find a note in his bunk.  Going deeper into the carrier, she finds him hanging from a pipe in a hold.  He’s dead.

Rountree is running through a park area, doing some parkour as he runs.  Sam is timing him.  1-minute, 17-seconds.  Sam is shooting for 1:10.  Rountree expects “a Sam Hanna lesson” and is not disappointed.  Sam tells Rountree it is all about his mentality, keep setting goals and resetting them higher, “no comfort in greatness.”  Rountree notes Sam looks pretty comfortable.  Flattery will get Rountree nowhere with Sam.  Rountree is looking for a ride to the office.  Sam has the day off so it is Uber for Rountree who was driven to the park by Sam.

Sam shows up at home with some fancy coffee for a studying Kam.  With Raymond hanging out with Arkady, it is daddy-daughter time for Sam and Kam.  Kam tells Sam he didn’t have to bring her coffee and goes back to writing her paper.  Sam offers to help but the reading material includes “Teen Women’s Sexuality and Politics: A Case Study of the Adolescent Female Body”.  Sam thinks Kam’s got this.

Sam does, however, want Kam ready for her favorite sandwich at a local eatery.  Kam brings up Hanna House Rules number 17 – schoolwork comes first.  Kam picks up her coffee but the lid isn’t on right.  The coffee spills on Kam.  Running off to protect her Berkley sweatshirt and get the hot coffee off her jeans, Kam leaves Sam to save her computer.  As he keeps it from the coffee puddle, Kam gets an IM from a friend name Riley.  A cleaned-up Kam retrieves her computer and decides to work in her room.  Sam mops up the rest of the coffee.

In the Armory, Kensi and Fatima are talking about her walks on the pier and the beach, probably with Akhil (but not mentioned).  Kensi asks if Fatima has her address for the wedding invitation.  They are called to Ops.  Kensi lets Fatima lead so Kensi can hold her train.

In Ops, Petty Officer Wassner’s personnel info is on the big screen.  Shyla is running the briefing.  Wassner was an electronics technician on the Allegiance.  The Allegiance had two suicides on the ship in recent months, the SecNav wants to know if this is the third.  Kensi asks why the Agent Afloat isn’t handling the investigation.  Lucy Tara just left the Allegiance for Hawai’i so a new Agent Afloat has not been assigned. 

Wassner leaves behind a wife in Los Angeles and parents in New Jersey.  Kensi asks if Wassner had any history of depression.  If there was, Wassner never sought treatment.  He also didn’t have gambling debts.  The Admiral wants to know where Callen and Sam are.  Kensi doesn’t know.  Shyla reminds Kilbride that he sent Callen and Sam home for a week to get through some of their annual leave.  Deeks and Rountree are going to interview Wassner’s widow in the boat shed, Kensi and Fatima are on their way to the Allegiance.  The Admiral is worried that the suicides happening in clusters will have some struggling sailors think this is a way out.

In a wedding planner’s office, Callen and Anna are in for an appointment.  They are offered champagne.  Anna tells Callen he doesn’t have to be there, she could have brought Fatima.  Callen wants to be there.  After Anna gives him a look, Callen revises that to wanting to be there for Anna.  Anna wants Callen to want to be there for the two of them.  That’s what Callen meant, he assures her.

On the Allegiance, Kensi and Fatima are brought to see Master Chief Hughes in the hold where Wassner was found.  He’s there to help as needed.  Hughes points out the ladder Wassner used, the rope stored in the hold and Wassner’s knife.  Kensi wants to see the body but that’s impossible, the body was sent stateside.  Wassner is Jewish and the Navy is respecting his traditions.  Fatima will have Shyla speak to the medical examiner.

Hughes turns over the note found in Wassner’s bunk.  That is going back to NCIS for analysis.  Fatima asks who knows about the note.  Hughes says the ship’s Command, NCIS and Chief Adebayo, who found both the note and Wassner.  Kensi asks to speak to Chief Adebayo.

In the boatshed, Castor shows up with Robin Wassner, the widow.  Deeks points to the couch, and offers sympathies.  He’s sorry to do this to her with all she’s going through.  He’s looking to find out a little more about Eli, what he was going through on the Allegiance.  They had a weekly phone call every Sunday.  There were no signs that he was struggling.  He was happy, they were laughing on the call.  “We loved each other,” Robin tells Deeks and Rountree.  They were starting to plan a family.  Eli was a letter writer – he was old-fashion, she thought it was romantic.  She’s happy to turn over the letters – “whatever you need.”

Kensi and Fatima interview Chief Adebayo.  She is rather emotionless, giving one word answers.  Fatima brings up two complaints filed against Adebayo.  Having none of it, Adebayo explains that she doesn’t coddle sailors, that makes her the villain.  She’s not complicit with mediocrity.  Wassner did good work but in recent times, lost focus.   Adebayo says she told Wassner to get his act together.  Kensi pushes – was she too aggressive telling Wassner to get his act together?  With a large group of sailors to lead, Adebayo does not have time to deal with each sailor’s personal issues.  She didn’t know he was unstable.  Kensi really pushes – the team’s well-being is part of her duties as their leader.  Wassner is the third dead sailor on the Allegiance, maybe it is time to review how she is dealing with her sailors.

Looking at Wassner’s background, Rountree says there is no drug use, no alcohol issues, no other mitigating factors.  Wassner’s medical records are clean, his discipline history is spotless and there are no financial issues.  Deeks points out that Wassner was about to go on leave and start a family, there is real pressure there.  Looking at the suicide note, Rountree calls it short and generic.  Comparing them to the letters to Robin, Deeks notices that Wassner was quite poetic in his writing. 

Both Deeks and Rountree notice something else is off with the suicide note.  Deeks points out differences in how certain letters are written, how the ‘i’s are dotted.  Wassner didn’t write his own suicide note – he was likely murdered.

Shyla tells Deeks and Rountree that forensics confirms Wassner didn’t write the suicide note.  Looking through the sailors on the Allegiance, everyone was thoroughly vetted.  There is no history of violence in any of the men and women on the ship.  There were also no visitors or contractors on the ship in the last 48-hours.  Someone on board did this but Shyla wonders why they hung the body, why not throw Wassner overboard.  Deeks, who was almost thrown overboard 10-Christmases ago, tells Shyla that any sailor going overboard triggers an immediate investigation.  By hanging Wassner, the killer tried to come up with a believable cause of death. 

Castor returns with Robin Wassner.  Saying there is no easy way to tell her, Deeks tells Robin that Eli was murdered.  And while it may be hard, anything Robin could remember might help.  Deeks brings up Chief Adebayo, who Robin calls lovely.  In the prior year, Robin had a miscarriage.  Chief Adebayo pushed through Eli’s temporary leave papers, called in favors to get him home to her.  Eli didn’t ask for help, Adebayo overheard Eli mention the miscarriage and she got him home.  “It’s the nicest thing anyone has ever done for us.” 

Kensi tells Fatima that Wassner didn’t write his suicide note.  They are looking for a killer.  Fatima brings up Adebayo but she has alibis from the other Chief Petty Officers on the Allegiance – they all share a room and she was there all night.  Kensi also brings up Adebayo helping the Wassners “in their time of need”.  Adebayo also has a stellar personnel record.  Disappointed in herself, Kensi says she left Adebayo’s personality cloud her judgment during the interview.  Adebayo could have been an ally on the ship.  Fatima brings up that Adebayo wasn’t helpful with some of her answers, Kensi shouldn’t beat herself up.  They need to interview her again.  Kensi also wants to apologize.

Since schoolwork first is still in effect, Sam offers to make Kam Michelle’s famous meatloaf.  Kam likes that idea.  When Sam offers an invite to Josh, Kam doesn’t like that idea.  They’re not hanging out anymore.  They’re both busy with their own things.  Sam tells Kam he’s there if she wants to talk.  The phone rings and Kam retreats to her room.  Raymond is on the phone – could Sam bring over his pickleball paddle to Arkady’s?

At the wedding planners, Tara Walker introduces herself to Callen and Anna.  She’s so excited to be working with them.  Fatima told Tara about Callen and Anna.  Since marriage is between two people, she wants to hear what they both have planned.  Anna lets Callen go first.  Callen brings up a theme and Anna is not big on themes.  Tara ask what they are looking for in a venue.  Anna is looking for atmosphere, Callen is looking for security.  When Anna gives him a look, Callen tells her she didn’t attend Kensi and Deeks’s wedding.   Moving on to an officiant, Callen mentions not being religious, Anna brings up that Arkady is looking into becoming an officiant. 

Seeing things are going to hell, Tara pass Callen and Anna a list of questions to learn their expectations about the wedding.  Callen thinks about eloping.

Kensi opens her second interview with Adebayo with an apology but Adebayo is not listening to it.  Maybe if she was more involved in Wassner’s well-being, he wouldn’t have taken his life.  Kensi tells Adebayo that Wassner was murdered.  Adebayo is stunned.  After speaking to Kensi and Fatima, Adebayo spoke to her sailors.  An Ensign Choi saw a sailor named Bradshaw on roving watch.  This was around 1AM.  Fatima is going to get Master Chief Hughes to set up an interview with Bradshaw.  When Fatima leaves, Kensi calls into Kilbride and Shyla, updating them on Bradshaw.  Shyla has a time of death – around 2AM.  Also, Wassner wasn’t hanged, he was choked to death.

From his office, Kilbride reads Kensi Petty Officer Dennis Bradshaw’s background.  From Alabama, Bradshaw lives there with his wife.  Their financials are odd.  He’s has a separate account with $50,000.  Kilbride doesn’t believe Mrs. Bradshaw knows about that second account.  And all the money was deposited into the account in cash.

Walking into Ops, Shyla has more on Bradshaw.  While Alabama is his home, he did not fly home when on three-months of leave in recent months.  Instead, his cellphone was pinged in San Pedro.  Bradshaw spent a lot of time in business called The Brass Boot, owned by Rondel Fryer.  Fryer was administratively discharged from the Navy.  As soon as he was out, investigations were started into tax evasion, fraud and money laundering.  Investigations but no convictions.  The Admiral asks about foreign connections and there are running phone calls with someone in China. 

With Wassner’s position as an electronics technician, he had access to radar and ship technical data.  Shyla thinks Bradshaw was selling Wassner’s intel through Fryer.  If something went wrong, and Wassner learned Bradshaw was selling his data to a civilian in China, that could lead to a fight.  It could also lead to Navy secrets being in the hands of China.  Kilbride want Deeks and Rountree to interview Fryer.  When Fryer’s background as an MMA fighter and the owner a large cache of weapons, Kilbride wants Sam to join Deeks and Rountree – “day off be damned.” 

At the wedding planner’s office, Callen is stuck on question eight.  Anna won’t let Callen “cheat”.  Callen grabs Anna’s paper.  Anna grabs Callen and pushes him onto a couch.  They are not fighting anymore.

At The Brass Boot, Rountree is alone when Sam arrives.  Deeks had a deposition – Kilbride knows.  Rountree asks about Kam, “the first future woman President of America”.  Sam mentions a paper, “tolerating” him at best.  Rountree brings up Jordyn but Sam is not interested in any Rountree lessons right now. 

Walking into the bar, Rondel Fryer tells the “gents” – Sam and Rountree – that they aren’t opened yet.  Sam says “federal agents” and since we’ve all seen this show, Fryer runs.  Rountree chases, sliding over cars, jumping over beer kegs.  Sam pulls up in his car but Fryer already ran into an alleyway not no exit. 

Walking back into her office, Tara finds a rather disheveled Callen and Anna.  They thought the questions were great but they have to go.  Tara looks at her messy couch.

Kensi and Fatima find Master Chief Hughes, who was looking for them.  Petty Officer Bradshaw was in an accident on the flight deck.  He’s in the trauma room in sick bay.  Kensi and Fatima are on their way to sick bay.

Saying he thought Sam and Rountree were the IRS, Fryer ran because they are harassing him.  Sam shows Fryer a photo of Bradshaw – was he ever in the bar.  “I’m not at liberty to say.”  Rountree sees that as a yes.  Sam accuses Fryer of selling Naval Intel and being part of the murder of a Naval Officer.  Fryer explains that The Brass Boot isn’t just a bar, there is a private club in the back.  It is a safe space for military men, Hollywood types, executives who want to keep their private lives private.  It is a part of a different time.   Rountree realizes it is “a gay speakeasy.”  Seeing himself as a guardian angel, Fryer explains that being gay may not get you beaten up on the streets anymore but “how many gay global action stars do you see starring in Hollywood movies?” 

While that explains the bar set-up, Rountree asks about the calls to China.  Fryer’s brother teaches English in China.  After the brother went through a rough patch, Fryer lent him some money.  The brother has been wiring Fryer money every month to repay the loan.  Fryer makes it clear, he didn’t kill anyone.  He’s there to let people be who they really are.

In Ops, Shyla confirms all of Rondel Fryer’s story.  Other than the IRS, everything about the bar is above board.  Perhaps Bradshaw and Wassner were involved in a relationship.  And maybe something went wrong – breakup, one person wanting to go public when the other did not. 

Fatima calls into Ops, Bradshaw wasn’t hurt at all.  Hughes lied, which means the two are working together.  The Admiral and Shyla try to figure out if Hughes and Bradshaw are a couple, where did Wassner fit in.

Outside Master Chief Hughes’s bunk, Petty Officer Bradshaw is banging on the door, begging “Jalen” to come out.  Bradshaw tells Kensi and Fatima that Hughes has a gun and Bradshaw fears Hughes may kill himself.  In his room, Hughes has his gun out.  Explaining that he didn’t mean to hurt Wassner, it was an accident.  Kensi says it is going to be OK as she inches closer to Hughes.  Bradshaw understands, telling Hughes that he lived too many years in shame.  Hughes says he’s so tired.  Kensi gets the gun away as Hughes keeps apologizing.  Fatima is able to cuff Hughes.

In the office, Deeks tells Sam and Rountree that Wassner found out Hughes and Bradshaw were a couple.  He didn’t plan on telling anyone but Wassner freaked out when Hughes tried to bribe him with a recommendation for a promotion.  Sharing some beers, Deeks understands Hughes and Bradshaw keeping  their relationship on the ship quiet but didn’t understand keeping it from their families.  “Sometimes the hardest people to talk to are family,” Sam says.  Deeks agrees – “exhibit A, Roberta Deeks.”  Rountree agrees as well.  He doesn’t tell Jordyn everything and he knows Jordyn doesn’t tell him everything.  But Rountree’s doesn’t think any of this makes sense - that Hughes thought of bribing Wassner because Wassner saw him kissing Bradshaw. 

It makes to Kilbride.  In 1991, the year Hughes joined the Navy, “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell” started its 20-year run.   Many gay members of the service were beaten, assaulted and killed but there are no stats for that because it wasn’t counted.  What was counted was the 100,000 service members who were discharged.  Hughes was from a different time.  While Kilbride isn’t always a fan of the younger generation, he likes that they aren’t afraid of someone who is different.  They may not understand the other person, but they aren’t afraid.  Rountree says Deeks still freaks him out a little.  That kills the moment. 

Arriving home, Kam wound up making the meatloaf for Sam.  Sam tells Kam that he always hoped that he and Michelle created an “empathetic environment” for Aiden and for her.  That the two would never feel like “our compassion was conditional”.  Kam knew this.  Sam tells her he knew that she broke up with Josh and that she may be dating a woman.  Kam wants to know if Aiden told Sam.  Sam is not happy that Kam told Aiden first.  Kam says Aiden wasn’t told, he just figured it out. 

Sam makes it clear, he would never turn his back on her.  Why didn’t she tell him?  Kam explains that she really liked all the guys she dated.  And she really likes the woman she is dating now.  She doesn’t know if she’ll go back to dating men again or if she’s going to only date women.  She’s figuring things out and she didn’t want to tell anyone until she knew.  Sam ticks off the reasons he loves and admires his daughter – brave, smart, courageous.  None of that changes based on who she is dating.  He will always love her.  Sam asks if Riley, Kam’s girlfriend, has a 4.0 GPA, works with a number of charities and has a prestigious internship set up for the summer.  Kam explains she’d never settle for anything less.  The two have dinner.

What head canon can be formed from here:  There was a good episode to be done about the military’s history with gay service members but this one isn’t it.  In fact, the best part of the episode was Kilbride’s thoughts at the end about how gay service members are treated now compared to when he was a younger man. 

A very siloed episode – had a COVID season feel.  

Liked seeing the Kensi-Fatima friendship in the armory.  The program’s long-running friendship between Kensi and Nell is missed.  Callen and Sam are bros, Kensi should have a friend not named Deeks.

Kam telling Aiden first is a nice bit of continuity.  Kam also told Aiden first about her car and her volunteer work.  Sam assuring Kam that his love for her is unconditional was good to hear but even better to know that Kam didn’t need to hear it, she knew it.

 Of course Fatima knew a high end wedding planner.

Episode number:   This is episode 14 of season 14 – two-thirds of the way there.  It is episode 316 overall.

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cry baby

☆ cry baby - the neighbourhood publicado en wattpad: 21.01.23

Resumen: Lauren es un bebé llorón y Camila la ama aún así.

I need to cry, baby. Cry baby, cry baby. You need to cry, baby. We need to cry. And if we do, I know that would be alright.

Necesito llorar, amor. Bebé llorón, bebé llorón. Necesitas llorar, amor. Necesitamos llorar.Y si lo hacemos, sé que estaría bien.

Advertencias: bullying (flashback), (avisame si me faltó alguna).

Palabras: 802

Lauren: 18 // Camila: 19

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Miami, Florida.

Lauren es el tipo de chica que cuando la miras piensas que es fría, seria y sin sentimientos, pero en realidad es todo lo contrario. 

Lauren se dirige a la casa de sus padres con su novia Camila, su madre las había invitado a cenar aunque la ojiverde no tenía muchas ganas de ir pero aceptó porque no podía decirle que no a su madre.

Bajaron del auto y caminaron a la entrada, la pelinegra tocó el timbre mientras que con su otra mano apretaba ligeramente la mano de la castaña sin darse cuenta, Camila notó esto pero no entendía porque su novia había hecho eso, iba a preguntar si estaba todo bien pero su suegra apareció en la puerta.

—Hija —Clara abrazo a su hija mientras esta corresponde lentamente el abrazo, mira a la castaña y la abraza—. Hola Camila.

—Hola Clara —la castaña corresponde al abrazo de su suegra. 

—Pasen, la cena ya está lista.

La familia Jauregui cenaba tranquilamente hablando entre ellos.

—Hija, has subido de peso, te noto la cara un poco más ancha —comentó Clara, sin pensar que su comentario le dolería a su hija.

—Concuerdo con tu madre, hija.

La pelinegra estaba cabizbaja en silencio. Por esta razón es que no quería venir, siempre alguno de sus familiares hacía comentarios sobre ella, realmente no entiende porque la necesidad de hacer eso, ella es consciente de ello.

—Tengo que ir al baño —Lauren se levantó y salió del comedor. Camila la miró preocupada, se levantó y se disculpó diciendo que también tenía que ir al baño.

Camila se dirigió al baño pero no encontró a su novia. La buscó en varios cuartos de la casa y cuando iba a revisar el último cuarto escuchó sollozos provenientes de el.

—Amor, ¿estás bien? —preguntó la castaña pegándose a la puerta. No obtuvo respuesta—. ¿Puedo pasar?

No volvió a obtener respuesta así que la morena decidió entrar. El cuarto estaba a oscuras e iba a prender la luz pero la voz de su novia la detuvo.

—Por favor no prendas la luz, no quiero que me veas así —rogó la pelinegra en voz baja. Lauren tenía miedo de que su novia la viera en este estado

—¿Por qué? —preguntó la castaña.

—Porque te burlaras de mí como lo han hecho los demás.

—No lo haré, lo prometo —dijo comprensivamente la morena. Prendió la luz y vio a su novia sentada en el suelo abrazando sus piernas con la cabeza en sus rodillas. Camila se acercó y se sentó al lado de ella abrazándola. 

—Siempre he sido una persona débil —afirmó—. Cuando era niña lloraba mucho, paré de hacerlo un día que no puedo olvidar.

Una pequeña Lauren de 8 años se encontraba en el salón de clases dibujando un gato con un corazón en su pecho que había visto en el patio de su casa. El timbre aún no había sonado pero había pocos alumnos en el salón. 

De repente un niño agarró bruscamente su dibujo. 

—De-devuélveme mi dibujo —Lauren tartamudeó, lágrimas amenazaban con salir de su ojos color esmeralda.

—Que horrible dibujo, no merece la pena que lo vean los demás —dijo con malicia, el niño rompió el dibujo en pedazos y los tiró al suelo.

—Nooo —Lauren se arrodilló tratando de unir las piezas del dibujo. Las lágrimas no tardaron en salir y caer en los pedazos de su dibujo, dibujo que había hecho para su hermana pequeña.

—¿Enserio estás llorando por ese horrible dibujo? No seas un bebé llorón —esas dos palabras la perseguirían gran parte de su vida.

—¡Bebé llorón! ¡Bebé llorón! —los alumnos empezaron a burlarse de ella. La pequeña Lauren salió corriendo del salón sin rumbo alguno.

—Lamento que hayas tenido que pasar por eso, amor —comentó. Camila ahora entendía porque su novia actuaba fríamente con los demás, no quería que vieran ese lado vulnerable.

—¿Le dijiste a tu madre sobre lo que pasó? —preguntó la morena.

—Lo hice pero solo empeoraron las cosas —respondió la pelinegra—. Me dijo “Lauren, ya no eres un bebé, tienes que crecer y dejar de llorar” —citó Lauren. A la pelinegra le dolía recordar aquellas palabras, todo el tiempo se preguntaba porque estaba mal llorar. 

¿No se supone que eso hacemos los humanos sin importar nuestra edad?

Pensar en ello hacía que le doliera el corazón. Lágrimas comenzaron de nuevo a salir de sus ojos esmeralda. La morena notó esto y acercó a Lauren a su pecho.

—Lamento que las personas te hayan hecho creer que llorar está mal —dijo la castaña—. No tiene nada de malo ser un bebé llorón. Camila beso las mejillas húmedas de Lauren. La ojiverde se sentía afortunada por tener en su vida a Camila.

Ese día Lauren lloró por primera vez sin que alguien le dijera que estaba mal hacerlo.

Estoy feliz de por fin comenzar a escribir, he querido hacerlo desde hace mucho tiempo pero no me animaba por miedo a escribir horrible. He iniciado primero con one shots para después poder pasar a escribir fanfics y así tener un poco más de experiencia escribiendo.

Déjame saber tu opinión✨🐝

Si te gustó, no olvides dejar tu me gusta♡ y compartir con más fans del ship<3

Recuerda que no tiene nada de malo llorar♡

― Danny🪓

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LAUREN JAUREGUI at the 2022 American Music Awards on November 20th 2022 wearing NORMA KAMALI

I got to be honest, I kinda hated this look. While I appreciate how detailed the pattern was, I thought it was overwhelming. There was so much fabric, especially with the oversized sleeves. It felt so heavy. I also don’t think the color of the dress was particularly flattering. I just wasn’t a fan at all.

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Halsey, whose real name is Ashley Nicolette Frangipane, is an American singer, songwriter, and actress born on September 29, 1994 in Edison, New Jersey. She began playing acoustic shows in New York City in 2012 and started gaining a following through her music on social media. In 2014, Halsey released her debut EP "Room 93", which received critical acclaim and led to her signing with the record label Astralwerks. She released her debut studio album "Badlands" in 2015, which peaked at number two on the Billboard 200 chart and included hit singles like "New Americana" and "Colors". Halsey's second studio album "Hopeless Fountain Kingdom" was released in 2017 and debuted at number one on the Billboard 200 chart. The album featured collaborations with artists like Quavo, Lauren Jauregui, and Cashmere Cat. Halsey has also collaborated with other artists such as The Chainsmokers, BTS, and Yungblud. In addition to her music career, she has also acted in TV shows like "American Horror Story" and movies like "A Star is Born". Throughout her career, Halsey has been praised for her unique style and vocal range, and has become known for her honest and often political lyrics. She has won numerous awards, including several Billboard Music Awards and an American Music Award. #music #lyrics #lyrically #lyricallygames #halsey https://www.instagram.com/p/CpOdQUOgvTh/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Because I wanna throw an American history textbook at her head

Demiiiii

What happened to our entire life? It just went poof