#LONG!!!!!! I HOPE THIS MAKES SENSE UGHHHHH

[mountaindmned]

Who were they? That taught you that? About ghosts, about… saving other people.

Jack almost considered not answering. He stirred the coals in the fire. The answer to that question was hours worth of storytelling. Right now, the focus was on Beth, on her upcoming choice. He wasn't one to sway her one way or the other.

Her life was her own to follow, and he was rebuilding the old traditions in his own way now.

But Jack had spoken the truth in those last two lines:

i sure could use the help,

&&

your brother needs you still.

Could remember Gramps, all spitting over the flames as he came across the pyre they'd built for Skye's ex. The way Hawk had set her shoulders, stared him dead in the eye, Jack and Bluebird holding onto either of Gramp's arms--

Skye missed. It was a tragedy. It happens. I saw it.

With a shotgun, Skye is only a hair less than you. Gramps snarling with his face all etched in orange from the pyre.

Jack swallowed a knot in his throat, looked away from the flames. Up towards the snow drifting in from the stone. They should move towards the cabin soon, he'd unchain the fence and unlock the door and tell her all about his family, at some point. At some point.

It was easier, for now, to focus on the new round of stupid kids about to invade the mountain. There's no room for history.

"Oh. Hawk was my little sister. Skye was too." Not in a way Beth would understand but, it was easier to just use that word. "Gramps was big on saving everyone. No matter what. It was out duty." He held out his wrist, the brand on his forearm visible. "It's what this means. It's... An old tradition. You don't have one--" he hesitated, unsure if he should add the last bit stuck on his tongue. Finally says it anyway.

"You don't have it yet. Y'dont need one, not unless you want. We're, I'm... I'm starting from scratch now, there's... What's that phrase you used? There's wiggle room. But, uh. Once upon a time, this mark meant we saved everyone. Even if they were... Horrible. There's this woman, Sarah, she lived on the mountain awhile back and she ran off after... Well. Skye and Sarah both tested the rules of the brand. I think after Sarah, Gramps went a bit softer on Skye. Numbers were dwindling and he knew he'd lose Hawk too." He ran a hand through his hair. "Anyway. Anyway..." He thinned his lips. It felt so strange, talking about it. Opening up old wounds like this. "A-ny-way."

"I'm not going to make you a Fiddler if you don't want it. I'm perfectly fine with Beth Washington, so long as... so long as someone is helping, I guess." Hates the desperation, some sort of way Gramps must have felt. Bending the rules to keep the numbers. Needing people, sacrificing tradition. Where had that gotten them!?

Jack was the last Fiddler left. God what a spiral.

"Anyway. Uh. Sorry."

"But, I guess it was a compromise. Skye and Hawk twisting Gramps into changing the rules. If you're going to be haunted by a ghost, make sure it's one you want around."

Always just, hollowing out themselves for the sake of staying alive. Give an inch, another inch, another...

am I already that?

Jack hummed. "If you spend your whole life just angry, looking for vengeance... you might be. That's part of why Gramps had the rules.

"You're part of something bigger. Or, Fiddlers anyway. Mad Dogs. There's the spark that ignites the fire, sure. But the fire has different tongues of flame all destroying as a whole. There's a unity in that. You're not a person, you're part of a pack, a collective -- it-- I guess it doesn't apply much now. Just you and me. But..."

He leaned forward over the fire, a storytellers air. "The reason we're called Mad Dogs. There's a painting in the library of the night we first defeated the Damned. Mind you, this was my grandpa Joseph, not me. It's a bunch of teenagers, all gripping each other tight as they can. you can see their knuckles white. They're all so happy they survived, mostly. They all started dancing in the streets, laughing like mad dogs barking. A wildfire blazed in the background, their eyes and toothy smiles all painted orange.

"They'd lived. So they clung to the survivors. Gramps, he, he carried that. Taught it to our parents and to us. In numbers, we survive.

"The way you don't become like that.... You have other people around you. At least you're going mad together, I guess is what I'm saying.

"The girl in your book, she pushed everyone away, didn't she? She got obsessed because no one could distract her, pull her out of it. That's why you see me playing fiddle or, or fixing the truck or cooking. You have to have a life outside of the pain. You have to. I'm damn sorry I don't have a pack anymore, I think it would do you good.

"You've still got your brother. He needs saving, doesn't he?"

Maybe, he'll take her down to see Sarah or Kira, maybe that would help. Kira is about her age.

"There were times when we didn't see eye to eye. Me and Gramps or Skye or, hell even Hawk. But we still have a history. We've been through shit no one understands. It's a pack mentally, the.... Outside and those inside. These kids.... They hurt you, I get that. Trust me. But you all know each other. You can't replace that. It means something, even if it means something terrible."

He threw the last orange peel into the fire with a scowl. "But, I'm just a crazy old kook who lives on a mountain. I don't have answers."

One. He could hear Hawk whistle at him, in those moments when he woke with his sleeping bag cold with terror-sweat. The meaning as clear as the ice on Hannah's eyelids. You saved at least one. Trying to comfort him from beyond the stars.

Jesus. Jack listened, bit back the rants about technology and cruelty. No. He just listened, he'd asked, it was only right to help carry the grief pouring out.

He took the orange peel in his hands and twisted it, ripping it restlessly. Monsters came in all shapes and sizes. Remembered how Hawk had first introduced Skye to the mountain. A car almost out of gas, a shiner and a split lip. She needs help, she needs to heal. Hawk had argued. Gramps simply asked if she could throw a few logs on the fire. Hawk buzzed around her the entire night, hands on shoulders and a glare at anyone who came too close.

Prank. Skye had taught him that word, wasn't used much on the mountain. He still didn't understand it. There were a lot of words he didn't understand but it didn't exactly bother him. Dumping a bucket of water on someone, spooking them by jumping out somewhere. No. Things worked different on the mountain. Water couldn't be wasted like that, spooking someone might get you punched. Worst was some scary stories around the campfire. Their lives were filled enough with panic and fear. Fear was a sacred tool. Not something fun. The life up here was so sharply divided into joy and terror. It wasn't welcome to taint one with the other.

"Doesn't sound like a prank to me." Sounded like the kind of thing you'd shoot someone over.

He wondered, sure maybe a little bitter: what kind of cushy, sheltered lives had these kids had, to think that sort of thing was funny? He worked his jaw, threw a few bits of orange peel into the fire.

He looked up. Looked Beth in the eye as her voice grew darker. Could see Hawk in the way she held her anger, saw Skye in the chase for injustice. In the flickering fire, saw both sitting next to her, hands on Beth's shoulders.

"I can't say I disagree." He looked off at Hawk, saw her nod. He stirred the fire. "They don't sound like they deserve saving. I'm not going to kick you out because you don't want to save them." She doesn't have her mark yet anyway. But, it's not as if Gramps is around to care much even if she did have it. Life up here is too thin and haggard for any sort of hard rules anymore.

And no one had cared much when Skye had 'missed' that shot. They'd burned the body, left no questions asked.

"But I'm going anyway. The way I grew up-- I'm not saying you gotta agree with it-- we save everyone. It's not some high ground, it's just easier to sleep at night. If you're going to have ghosts haunting you, might as well be people you want sticking around.

"Besides. You've got to keep your brother safe, right?"

[resonabilis-echo]

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[nomairuins]

no sims 5 . guys im gonna

[bbangtans]

daybreak | jjk | oneshot teaser

Summary: One of your favorite things to do when you were in your early 20s was stay up late where reflective conversations eventually blurred into nonsense as the sun rose alongside someone you thought you would spend the rest of your days with… Now you’re stuck in New York City for one night due to a delayed flight with that very person standing there in his leather jacket and guitar case in hand across from you at the airport gate. See, fate is a funny thing and Jeon Jungkook could always find the humor in anything.

pairing: rockstar!ex!jk x f!reader genre/tropes: angst, fluff, exes to ???, right person wrong time/second chances, jungkook is so romance film lead coded – charismatic and well-spoken and genuine and ughhhhh i be fawning frrrr, this takes place where both jk and reader are 28ish, jk is a lead singer in a band with tae-jimin-yoongi, and y/n is a working professional rating/warnings: M | alcohol consumption, lots of swearing, semi-public sex, unprotected sex (don’t be all willy nilly with this tho!!!), dig bick jk lmfao, oral (f receiving), heavy petting, multiple orgasms. a/n: inspired by my faaaaaave movie before sunrise bc if there’s anything namjoon and i have in common, it’s that we are yearners 🤝 word count: ~10k POSTED: link

You cursed every cliched metaphor referencing the elusiveness of time… the grains of sand slipping through fingertips, the ticking of clock hands that echo in the back of your head, the passage of breezes, and the eventual rising of the morning sun. 

Jungkook smiled gently, wiping away a tear with his thumb which you didn’t even feel form as it fell down your cheek. “Don’t worry.”

“I just want you to know that I loved being in this moment. Sharing this night with you, that tonight it felt like New York was all ours. I could have never seen its beauty and experienced its magic the way I did with you.” Barely managing through your cries, you gasped for a breath as you tried to make out the next words. “But why did things have to turn out this way?”

The loud caws of the seagulls as they flew over the pier and the cold morning air fell onto forgotten senses as the only thing you could feel was the intensity of Jungkook’s stare on you. From your forehead that he placed a tender kiss upon, to your eyes that mirrored that silent longing his contained, the nose that he nuzzled against his, and chin that he held softly in his rough hand… It was like he was taking a picture of you at that moment. A moment where he was not rockstar Jeon Jungkook, but the Jungkook who always found a way to make you laugh and the Jungkook you dreamed of sharing matching rings with. And you were not the person living too fast for anyone to keep up with, but a person who could find the beauty in anything and the person that Jungkook could write a million and one songs about.

“Shh,” he comforted you as his arms wrapped around your shoulders, pulling you into his chest. “I really can’t thank you enough for tonight… I’ve never hated to see morning as much as I do now.” He chuckled dryly at the irony of all. 

You pulled back, surprising the man who towered over you. You held his confused face in your hands and smiled. “Me, too. I hope you know that.”

“I do now…” He whispered as though louder words could break the moment before placing a chaste kiss on one of the hands that cupped his face.

“Now what?” Your hands fell from his face and rested on his chest. 

Jungkook sighed in contemplation as he peered past you into the blossoming orange horizon before recentering his eyes on you and grin losing its warmth and being replaced with sadness. “Good morning, I guess.”

The gravity of the situation settled upon you both silently.

“None of that dramatic ‘goodbye’ shit in the morning!” You tipsily pointed at Jungkook with your beer who only laughed at your theatrics as some foam spilled.

Between chuckles, Jungkook was barely able to let out. “Okay, then what do we say at the end? When it’s morning?”

“What people always say at that time – ‘good morning’ and not goodbye. Let’s make it a nice ending for us, I feel like that would do us both justice.” Your gaze was too hazy to see the seriousness that lined his face but he shook it off and plastered his signature smile despite the storm in his heart. “I know it’s a little cheesy, but I don’t want to be sad in those last minutes with you.”

“Okay, we’ll bid each other ‘good morning’ when dawn comes then we go on with the rest of our lives. No sad stuff.”

“Promise?”

“Yeah, I promise.”

“Good morning, Jungkook.” No matter how dazzling your smile was, Jungkook could never be distracted from the tears that lined your gorgeous eyes. 

No physical closeness could ever combat the weight of what daybreak meant for you both.

[sleepybambiloves]

Realised I never made a new pinned post about who I am before now, so here it is :)

First off: This is a VERY NSFW Blog, if you're under 18 leave. Now.

Who Am I?

My name is Bambi. I'm 26 and from Ireland. My pronouns are She/ Her, and I'm Bi. Kind of shy so sorry if I seem that way.

This is like my fourth time having a blog on here, I sort of go through these phases of being like wtf am I doing and then deleting everything, so we'll see how long that lasts this time.

No the woman in the profile image isn't me, and no I won't share actual pictures of myself, sorry :(

What am I into?

I'm a huge submissive in every way, don't ask me to be in charge because it's not me, I need to be controlled, I need to be corrupted, I need to be told what to do. Once you understand that, I start to make sense :)

- Hypnosis/ Brainwashing/ Being out of control/ Mind Control/ Resistance Play.

Ughhhhh, all of this, so much, so bad, take away my will and make me mindless and yours and everything that means, pleaseeeee.

- Smoking/ Vaping/ Nicotine/ Breath play/ Cigarettes/ Cigars/ Intox/ Forced Intox.

A lot of this kind of plays into eachother, but smoking is one of the first kinks I've ever had, I vape a little but not much, but I find everything about smoking in all shapes and forms so sensual and sexy. I also really enjoy being forced to take it in all of its various ways :)

After that, it's a lot of little things:

- CNC (Consent Non Consent), Denial, Teasing, Roleplay, Being loved for once in my life 👀, Degradation, light pain, Sissification, Feminization, Bimbofication, being forced to do things in general is really hot, Dumbification, Cumplay, Spit play, Daddies, Mommies, Masters, Owners, Petplay.

What Do I Not Like?

Generally I'm pretty open to trying things at least once, if a Kink isn't listed above you can usually ask and see how I feel. But there are some hard no's for me:

- Anything illegal

- Scat, poop, pee play.

- Serious pain or blood.

- Furry stuff, I like being referred to as a pet or things like that but actual animal stuff I'm not really into.

- Ageplay if it includes like ADBL or diaper play or any of that.

I like to think I'm kind of cool and welcoming and fun to talk to? But idk lol, I wanna make friends, I wanna have fun, I wanna be more involved in the community here.

I hope you liked my post, thank you for reading ❤️❤️

[ave661]

Hi! I’ve got to say I absolutely adore your art it’s impeccable and always leaves me either blushing or crying (I’ve seen the somewhat sadder or dad!character renders you’ve made and I did cry for no reason but I love them either way)

Anyway, I did read your pinned post but I’m not sure if this falls in your ‘okay’ category. Are you comfortable with us using the newer renders that have “Do Not Repost” on them? I use the old ones but lately it’s seems disrespectful if I do use the new ones because I’m not sure you are okay with me using those. Is it alright if I do use the new ones? Obviously I’ll give you credit, as always, but I want your permission first before I do so.

I hope this makes sense. Anyway, have a great day/night!😊

I've been thinking about changing the pinned post for about a month now and I've been postponing the answer to this question for a while to think it over and I came to the conclusion that I don't want my renders to be reposted in any way. Not only new ones, but also older.

If I could go back in time, I would add a huge "do not repost" watermarks from the very beggining on every render. Back then I didn't know how much some of them would blow up and who would use them in what way. I've never been in a fandom as a creator, so I learn something new with every mistake. Maybe I'm too trusting and for a long time I didn't expect that some people would sell fanart they found on the internet. People trace, sell, use without credits, remove my watermarks, edit with AI. Every new info about someone trying to sell them makes me want to give up and I really, really, really don't want that to happen. It's annoying to waste hours reporting thieves. That's why I started adding bigger and uglier watermarks and also posting less renders here and X. However, I'm still very active on Instagram and TikTok because the download option is disabled there which makes me feel more comfortable. I also post stuff on Patreon.

I love seeing my renders used in creative ways and inspiring you to do something, unfortunately every now and then I see them being used in… not so nice ways. Like adding a sw@stik@ to my Konig render, using my Dad series for pedo fics/bots or nsfw stuff that sometimes makes me a bit uncomfortable. But when I read comments that some people thought I MADE THEM because of the watermarks on them, it makes me… ughhhhh.

It really hurts me to say "no" when many of you are respectful, nice and give me credits, but there are also people who don't care and just want to use them for their own profits, not caring that someone spent long time on them.

There's also the problem with Pinterest. Even though I've never posted anything there, I've noticed that sometimes I see my art with all the info and links to my Tumblr blog. Honestly, I don't know how it works, but I don't want anything of mine there. Every time I see them, I report, but like I said, it wastes time that I could be using to create new stuff. So when someone reposts my renders here, it increases the chances of them getting on Pinterest = more stealing in the future.

Sorry I changed my mind on this, but when I saw HT recently selling my Ghost meme on their t-shirts, and then heard that the company that designed it apparently got approval from act!v!s!0n themselves, I was speechless. I guess "I thought they were official" has reached a new level.

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=SAEjwwo9S1g

So I know everyone knows this interview off by heart and it’s been spoken about A MILLION TIMES but I would just love love to hear you ramble about from 10:20 onwards bc omg it’s just so sweet and your thoughts on things are always perfection :’) like Miles seems like he’s keeping an eye on Alex for the whole interview and playing off his humour but the fond/amused/exasperated ‘please do’ that he says when Alex goes ‘just to add to that’, and how he sort of glances at Martin in an ‘ah where is this going’ sort of way is just gorgeous xD and the way he squeezes his eyes shut, just waiting to feed off whatever Alex says but wondering what on earth is about to come out of his mouth is just so tender and pure 😭😂 like miles you sweetheart xD

omg i will take ANY opportunity to ramble about this absolute gem of an interview (and about them generally, as we know lol)

anyway yeah, this whole interview truly is peak milex derangement - and this little section in particular??? ughhh it just feels like such an intimate insight into their humour and the way they mess around together. like you can tell they're a bit bored with the interview, and it makes me wonder if this is what they get like when they're bored and restless on bus journeys, waiting for soundcheck etc - if they descend into the same affectionate, humorous madness that no one else quite knows how to deal with. it feels like such a window into their everyday lives and way of interacting, and ugh i just love it, how easy it is to imagine them talking in silly voices and being totally wrapped up in each other in all these other scenarios 🥺

one of absolute my favourite things about this clip is how you can just tell how UTTERLY in tune they are with each other - even when they're not really that engaged with the situation they're in. the way they know each other's subtlest inflections of expression and twist of phrase without even thinking about it. it's all so totally instinctive, and i actually think their interchanges like these, when we get a glimpse into their unique alex-and-miles humour, are at least as intimate as a lot of their more *ahem* explicitly intimate moments onstage. because they just show the way they completely and utterly get each other, how they've built up this whole way of interacting that's just them. miles and alex and no one else.

and you're totally right, you can FEEL the fond exasperation radiating from miles, and also like - idk, just this quiet delight he's clearly taking in alex's presence? it's something you see with both of them a LOT, this sense that they just love being around each other and (even in situations like this where they’re not really into what’s happening around them) there’s nowhere else they really want to be. idk how to explain it, it just feels like there’s just this underlying sense of completion and contentedness when they’re with each other - probably because they’re able to truly be their whole selves when they’re together 🥺

UGHHHHH they make me so emotional 😩

also all the suggestiveness of the “little finger” bits and the way you can SEE miles trying not to get the giggles??? absolute gold 😭

oh dear, i fear this has been ended up being a much longer ramble than i intended, i hope at least some of it made sense 😅 thank you so much for your lovely words and for giving me the opportunity to flail about our two favourite smitten idiots, i love asks like these 🥰🥰

PS i’m so sorry it took me so ridiculously long to answer this - i actually thought i’d posted it weeks ago, but just came across it when i was sorting through my drafts this afternoon 🤦🏻‍♀️

[squarebracketsmileyface]

if you're looking for some Jam coded songs might I suggest the song I Love You Too - Ezra Bell

Jam song jam song jam song jam song yayayayayay

okay, it got a little long so: thingy bob

god this is so perfect for them though :] its so happysad and that's literally just so them. they are happysad together, theres so much wrong going on around them and they're all they have to turn to for comfort, so of course they're going to turn to each other. And they do love each other. they definitely do, but its definitely complicated. It's not long lasting love, but they still want to make each other feel loved.

Especially Tim. he wants to make sure Jay feels loved, he wants to fix Jay even though he definitely can't. Jay has to fix himself, and he doesn't want to, so he'll take all the nice things and the i love you's Tim will tell him and he'll hoard them and hope they'll fix him a bit, but not too much. He wants to be fixed enough that he stops feeling completely like shit, but not enough that Tim wouldn't need to keep trying to fix him. (Does that make sense lmao? god knows)

All of the lovers have moved on But yours is the steepest of hills And you glare at yourself in the mirror They all know things that you never will

They'll feel the things you can't access As they stand by the river at dawn You've grown older and cagey and classless And regret just what little you've done

This bit feels especially like its about Jay. Kinda like, at first its Tim in uni? like, he kinda knows about jay and alex even though they haven't actually told anyone (they're just not subtle about when they sneak away, and when they both come in covered in hickeys) like, Tim can kinda tell from just, Jay's face that there's something not ideal about his and Alex's arrangement, and he can take a pretty good guess at what it is given the way Jay's face drops whenever the topic of sexuality comes up in their little 'friend' group and Alex insists he's straight and gets really defensive over that fact.

Then it becomes current Tim who knows more about Jay and about Jay and Alex's not-relationship, and he knows that as Jay's gotten older he's gotten more cagey about everything, more like, defensive and more just generally weird about his relationships with people and all that. There's a specific word i'm looking for and I just can't for the life of me find it, but like yeah. Tim knows Jay's a lot more, like, spiteful? that's not the word either. spikey? WORDS ughhhhh, anyway

i love this song. its so them. its so Jam. they're such a mess. I love them but they're gonna be terrible if they're allowed to continue for too long. Ugh why can't i just telepathically beam my thoughts and ideas into peoples heads, it'd be so much easier than trying to translate the colours and shapes that make up how i feel about Jam in sorry its locked in my head.

They're just purple right now. like the colour of a bruise that you really wanna press on just to feel it hurt like a bitch so you remember its there and you know that the bump that gave you it actually happened.

that's them in my head right now.

they're a bruise

They're a bruise on each other. not a nasty one. not one given cruelly. but not one given as a hickey either. just a bruise given kindly. that doesn't even make sense.

they're just purple like a bruise i dont knowwwwwwwwwwwww. words don't make it make sense for themmmmmmmmmmm.

they're my babies and they hurt each other without even meaning to. but given where they are that hurt is sort of a kindness? because it's not as painful as it would be if they weren't trying to be gentle with each other. They're trying. even if it wont last forever.

[nervocat]

WAITTTTTY YJH PFP AHAH THE ORV BRAINROT IS SETTING IN

congrats!!!!!! i’m vv excited that you like it so far!!!!!! :DDD ….makes me want to bring back my kdj pfp lololol

oh the brainrot set in LOOONGG ago sp.. or at least less then a week ago when I started to read it on Webtoon.... I take every chance I can to read it esp during school 💔💔 I'm nearly on ep 60 in I think 5 or 4 days?? That sounds abt right..

(I'm abt to get very ramble-y here so. a cut off is in place. I wholeheartedly blame you for this ramble sp. take responsibility.)

BUT DUDE I CAN'T GET OVER THE TWISTS AND TURNS OF THIS STORY. THE ACTION. THE CHARACTERS. THE REASONABLE THINGS IN THE PLOT (if that makes sense) AND IT ALL OCCUPIES MY HEAD 24/7/hj....

LIKE KDJ IS SO SMART HELLO?? In my friends words as well — he is a pretty boy. UGHHHHH

I'M LOSING IT OVER ORV.. I HAVEN'T BEEN THIS OBSESSED WITH ANYTHING IN A GOOD LONG WHILE YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I NEED TO GET MY HANDS ON THE NOVEL I'M FREAKING OUT

but also to elaborate on how the reasonable things in the plot make sense — WHY EVERYTHING HAPPENS ACTUALLY MAKES SENSE. LIKE HOW KDJ SURVIVES STUFF AND SHIT AND HOW THERE ARE SOME PARTS WHERE IT'S TRICKY BUT IT WORDS OUT AND I. I've gotta cut myself off HELP

And there are some. Silly scenes. But yk. That just happens ig.. they're funny anyways so 😭😭

I hope you're happy that you got me to ramble sp. You silly.

[dootznbootz]

https://youtu.be/onM__FRBp3E?si=HV0p5w0kISwTgOV_

i am going to scream.

circe: haha ody was a little flighty :(

yeah maybe bc he wanted to LEAVE and return to his WIFE HIS JOY THE WOMAN HE CALLED KING

But also melinoe being like "ody what happened between u and circe i sensed pain in her voice when she was talking abt u" that better not lead up to a reunion i will probably scream at frequencies not yet heard by man

The fact that she didn't remember his name??? That kind of gives me hope???

"Oh, what was his name again?"

If she "longs" for him, then why doesn't she even remember his name? Them just being "meh" about each other makes me feel a little better but ughhhhh???

I just hate the idea of her being anywhere near him again in general. Like he did it to save his friends, he was SCAREDDDDD. Like they were fine in book 12, but there's still pain.

I really fucking hope that this man gets left tf alone :'(

[ctorres74]

> [ RECORDING_6 ]

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You- you want death.

You've asked me like five fucking times already. Yes, I want death.

You don't- you don't see the oxymoron in that statement??

Oh no, I see it. Clear as day. It makes sense if you knew just how bad it was though.

Okay then- how bad is it???

You don't want to know. It'd just make you feel bad.

Violet, I swear to God. I already feel bad knowing that you apparently want death, I already feel bad knowing the stuff you just told me. Please, I don't want to be annoyed at you.

.

You're not going to stop begging me until I tell you, are you.

UGHHHHH. Fine then, I'll tell you, and I'll tell you while I run out of any sort of positive feelings I have towards you left. I hope you're fucking happy.

You know who you decided to tell all this to.

...

So, crazy thing. I'm made up of every little bad part of you. Every negative attribute you have, even if you don't recognize it. Okay? On the same page?

So now, I'm entirely fucking unlovable because I have nothing to balance out the bad things about me. I don't have your kindness, I don't have your generosity, I don't have your understanding, I don't have your patience. I have NOTHING. All I have is anger, incompetency, impulsiveness, and- whatever the fuck else you want to add.

I can't be happy because I was made to be physically incapable of being happy. I can't be happy because anything I don't outright hate has to have some sort of string attached to it. I don't hate gore, but it also disgusts me and everyone around me. I don't hate tourture and manipulation, but they come at the expense of others, and I'm a sadistic fuckhead for enjoying them. I don't hate Green, but it doesn't matter because eventually it'll hate me for being like this.

Everything else? I'm made to hate it. I can't get my brain to like anything else, and I know exactly fucking why. I know why and I know that I will never break free from it for as long as I fucking live.

There's only one point to my existence. Without it, I am nothing. I can't have anything outside of it. I'm not meant to have anything outside of it. I just....

I can't live like this. I just can't. And if you don't understand, I don't want to hear it. I-I....

...

...

...

...You should go to bed. It's late. I'm sorry for yelling at you. I'm sorry for everything.

When you wake up, I won't be here. I'll be gone. Just like how it should be.

Good night, Cesar.

Wh- Violet, you can't fucking end on that!! What-

Violet!! You can't, I, please--

Violet!!!!

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[userlaylivia]

I AM NOT OKAY I REPEAT I AM NOT OKAY!!!!!! JUST FINISHED MANIFEST S4 PART 1 AND UGHHHHH ZEKE DYING GOD WHYYYYY AND HIM DYING TO SAVE CAL KILLED ME!!!!!!!! ANYONE THAT EVEN DOUBTED FOR A SECOND ZEKE ISN'T THE LOVE OF MICHAELA'S LIFE AFTER THAT SCENE BETTER LEAVE BECAUSE THE WAY SHE RUNS TO HIM AND CRADLES HIM AND SCREAMS FOR HIM I CAN'T!!!!!! I STILL HAVE HOPE HE'LL BE BACK BECAUSE MATT LONG HINTED HE MIGHT NOT BE PERMANENTLY DEAD SO I'LL HOLD INTO THAT!!!!! MY BABIES MY BELOVED SOULMATES THEY ARE LEGIT SOULMATES UGH

also manifest writers, if you keep zeke dead just to put michaela back with jared I'll injure someone!! first of all they'd be cruel to do that and especially with only 10 episodes left and it wouldn't make any sense because they've shown for 4 seasons that zekaela is the epitome of soulmates and jachaela aren't him saying it in s1 isn't the same thing as showing it and michaela chose Zeke over jared multiple times!! I used to ship jachaela with zekaela but now I'm 100% zekaela and it's because they turned jared into a jerk in s1-2 regarding zeke I love him again now but it ruined them for me lol

[putschki1969]

『KEIKO fan meeting chocolate meating #2』Live Commentary

Keiko’s exclusive fan club event is about to start. I got tickets for both performances of course so I will be live commenting on some of the stuff that’s happening. As always, I will also try to provide a report/summary. Very excited to see Keiko with her guitar again, she has been practicing like crazy so I am expecting something pretty neat for today. We might also get a new song reveal so YAY for that. Still hoping Keiko and Kaori will cover “cynical world” at some point during the event. It’s unlikely but a girl can dream XD

Tweet by Keiko | Instagram post by Keiko

Keiko is wearing a gorgeous black dress with floral embroidery, will try to find it somehow. She immediately starts with the live section and later mentions that this event will be more focused on singing rather than talking (compared to her previous fan club event which was live stream only). For the evening section, we got an outfit change. A beautiful shimmery blouse and a long black skirt.

1. Alcohol: You know how I feel about this song. Not my fave but okay 2. [DAY]Toori Ame/通り雨: For the second song, eji joins Keiko on stage. 通り雨 sounds quite different today, maybe a slight change of key! I love it! Very emotive performance. [NIGHT] Genjitsu no Metaphor/現実のメタファー: Ohhhh, love this acoustic version 3. Hitori Janai Kara/ひとりじゃないから: I like the live version a lot more than the studio version but once again, it’s not my fave Talk with eji (Q&A): They talk about how eji really loves Disney music. 4. End-roll/エンドロール: OMG, I am officially deceased. This might have been the hottest thing ever!! Keiko on her guitar singing with that super sexy voice. Such a rockstar!! Ughhhhh!! Talk: Kaori joins Keiko on stage. 5. Akamusubi/紅結び: I am not at all familiar with Kaori’s songs but this was ABSOLUTELY beautiful. 6. Cleome: Meh, wasn’t a fan during the YouTube broadcast and didn’t particularly like this either. Just not my cup of tea. 7. Nanairo no Finale/七色のフィナーレ: Love her version with Kaori. Their harmonies are great and Kaori sings some of the higher parts that are sometimes a little tricky for Keiko. Aww, she got really emotional during the evening performance. It’s kinda funny how she tries to distract from it by drinking water and going straight to the Q&A. Talk with Kaori (Q&A): Apparently Kaori’s fan club would have a name related to alcohol because that’s what she is obsessed with. During the evening, someone wants them to hold hands while singing so Keiko gets all grabby XD And they remember their time together in New York when they were doing FictionJunction work. 8. [DAY] New Genesis=Shinjidai/新時代: Apparently one of their favourite karaoke songs. Don’t know it but it’s pretty cool. Nothing to write home about though. [NIGHT] synchronicity: OMG!!! It’s not “cynical world” but I voted for this as well!! So excited!!! *sobs* What can I say? The acoustic version of this is just WOW! I have no words! Talk 9. Burn in the Wind: Might be my favourite live version so far. Absolutely flawless. Encore 10. [DAY] 夜の噓と: YESSSS! Was hoping she would perform this. It was everything I expected. Simply beautiful, especially the end!! LOL tho at that random announcement during the song (someone apparently made a mistake and accidentally played one of their recorded announcements for the show) [NIGHT] Inochi no Hana/命の花: It’s been a while. Lovely as always.

Keiko started doing a little raffle at the venue but for us streaming viewers it seems like they prepared a prerecorded “After Talk” session in which Keiko answers some more questions. There was no raffle for us but I guess that makes sense since it’s still possible to buy streaming tickets for a couple of days.　Last but not least, here’s my haul (courtesy of my friend). So happy! I even got a message. BANZAI!!!

[lordtraco-fanfics]

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Five separate reunions? You know what, I can do that!

Five times the brothers reunited with loved ones

(lots of fluff and sibling pranks. Emmet swears a time or two)

1.

"Ughhhhh" Emmet collapsed face-first into the large joltik-shaped pillow in the corner of the room. Five small joltik skittered away before jumping up onto his back once it looked safe to do so.

"Well hello to you too." Ingo walked over, putting an oran berry on his brother's head. It was intended as a gift, but the joltik started eating it, getting blue juice all over Emmet's gray hair. Who was Ingo to deny the universe a prank that good?

Emmet just groaned again into the pillow, so Ingo sat on it as well, patting his back. "Today was verrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry bad." The stretched out word emphasized what was already established, but failed to elaborate anything.

"I am sorry to hear that." With a gentle rub to the back of Emmet's shoulders with one hand and a bite into the berry in his other, Ingo contemplated his options. He could take this seriously. He could. He was the older brother. He should take this- "Will blue hair make it better?"

"Wha-"

Ingo smushed the other berry into Emmet's hair and ran off when he saw the murderous glint in Emmet's eye.

"INGO YOU PIECE OF-" huh! Ingo wasn't the only one who could get that loud!

2.

"You're back again."

"I followed the correct route, I'm sure of it!" Ingo shook his head, flipping the mall map over in his hands. It shouldn't have been complicated to follow!

"How do you not have a sense of direction? You're a Subway Boss." Elesa teased, stealing a fry from Emmet's plate to point in his brother's direction.

"I'm telling you, I followed the right route!"

"Have you tried the left one?" Emmet asked, grinning wider as Ingo grew more frustrated.

"You two are no help! Finish your lunches, I will find my destination on a single car." With that, he left again.

"So, when do we tell him we gave him the map of a different mall?" Elesa asked.

"Never." Emmet said, readjusting his hat to ensure the blue stain on his head wasn't visible. "Let him suffer."

It wasn't long before Ingo returned, yet again, bonking each of them on the head with the wrong map.

"Oh hey, you're back!" Emmet's knowing smirk earned him another bonk on the head.

3.

"You're… real, right?" Emmet reached out a hesitant hand for the man before him. He was desperately afraid that the coat he grabbed for would fade like smoke, never granting him the smallest of hopes. Never even giving him the reassurance of texture, the only thing he felt that could truly make this real.

"No, I'm Ingo." He said flatly. It was a joke, But the man before him only sobbed and retracted his hand.

Ingo reached out his own, grabbing the man-Emmet's arm. Right. His twin. His twin!

"You fuckin jerk." Emmet muttered, yanking Ingo into a sobbing mess of a hug. "Still messing with me!"

"That's my job!" Ingo said smugly, even as the tears started. He gripped Emmet tight, not wanting to let go.

4.

"Elesa! Get out the ketchup!" Emmet practically broke the door by kicking it open.

"Are you finally going to try-" Elesa stood and turned to face her friend, only to have her breath catch in her throat.

"Nope, but he is!" Emmet jumped out of the way, pointing at his brother with both hands.

"Ah, um, hel-" Ingo only got as far as tipping his hat downwards before he felt like he'd been trampled by a zebstrika. Ironically, the analogy was what opened the floodgates for memories of the lady now crushing him with a strength that was on par with Zisu.

"You're HOME!" Elesa yelled, not letting go.

"I'm home, Elesa." He felt her grip loosen just enough that he could return the hug. It lasted a long while, but the only rush to end it came when his stomach growled. "Ah, my apologies. Emmet says you have a form of spaghetti that I must try."

Somehow, he missed the evil grin the two shared at his expense. Ingo relearned his lessons quickly after experiencing "poor man's spaghetti". Even so, he only felt more at home among the pranksters.

5.

"Love of my life I'm HOME!!!"

Emmet seriously contemplated just taking off his coat then and there. Maybe a quick trip to some woods to get buff would be fun. Maybe running off to the past and dealing with amnesia would be preferable to this.

His brother was literally trying to hug a subway car. In rush hour. That was against safety protocol! Plus it was making everyone stare!

Ingo was so carefree about it! DID HE JUST KISS THE TRAIN!?

Emmet hadn't thought it was possible to die of secondhand embarrassment, but was fairly convinced of it now. He was beat red from the tips of his ears all the way to his neck. This had to count as a status condition.

He barely registered when Ingo came back and started tugging him along to their post. "Please, Ingo."

"Hmm?" That smug, pleased tone. Oh damn it all.

"Promise me you won't do that with every train." Emmet's plea was barely over a whisper.

"I must refuse your request, Emmet. I cannot simply play favorites here."

"I hate you so much."

Ingo snickered, patting his brother's back. "I'm kidding, I'm kidding. It's unsafe behavior to hug a train like that."

"You better hope we have strong opponents. I will be planning my revenge."

"I can't wait!" Ingo said, pulling him into a side hug with a gentle smile. The conversation drifted back to work talk and ideas for new rail lines. Yet even so, in the back of both brothers' minds, there was a spot reserved for the next harmless prank.

[melsbabydaddy]

this is so so correct and right in every way omg

stupid long rant under cut

I find it so annoying how people just choose to ignore Abby’s past and literally all the people she cared about. Like yeah, yeah hot muscle lady or whatever, but I'll always wish that her relationship with the slc and Jerry were more fleshed out.

I get time and budget but ughhhhh I would've loved it.

And since they all got so little screen time together, everyone pretends like Abby didn't care at all about her friends. I’m upset they didn't show Abby all their deaths or dead bodies. Letting the guilt wash over her that every single close person to her died because of her revenge would've been even more heartbreaking and interesting.

And even the ones Abby did have screen time with, everyone brushes off.

Manny - People still can't get over the fact he spat on Joel for some reason. True, it boiled my blood when I first played, but I can't lie, I probably would've done something similar if I were in his shoes. Joel murdered his friend’s dad for crying out loud, who they all probably looked up to. His own father was probably a Firefly who could’ve gotten almost killed or badly injured during the massacre.

He was in the room when Abby broke down in anguish when she saw Jerry’s dead body. It’s very similar to how Jesse told Ellie he looked up to Joel and would’ve went with her to Seattle if she asked. “My friends problems are my problems”

Mel - My sweetheart, my darling, my girl who does no wrong, I know I’m biased as fuck cause she’s one of my favs but people are so weird about her and it makes me crazy. I know she’s kinda bad for getting with her best friend’s ex man, but I very much doubt she would’ve done that without an explicit ok from Abby. And since Abby was too busy plotting Joel's death, she probably didn’t give it much mind at the time. Also, it takes two to tango and Owen was probably just heartbroken that Abby and him broke up so that’s why they ended up together.

Also, people get on her for going on missions while heavily pregnant. No she didn’t. They thought they were taking a safe route to the F.O.B before Scars ambushed them. The whole hardware store, train yard, boat shop, gas station mess was completely unexpected and Mel didn’t purposefully put herself in that position.

However, I’m assuming Mel did take an unsafe route by herself to get to Owen at the aquarium. Which is on her but it was also for him but they were lucky she was there to help Yara. And people would say that’s dumb, but Dina basically did the same thing for Ellie and I know she wasn’t as heavily and she wasn’t sure yet but c’mon, even if you think your preggers, you should hang back from guns and zombies.

Another thing, I really don’t think Owen and Mel planned to have this baby. I’m 99.9% sure it was an accident and with how helpful and restless Mel is, she probably hated that everyone kept telling her to keep still and relax, especially in a do or die apocalyptic world.

Then there’s the whole jealousy thing Mel had towards Abby, which I don’t really think it was like green-eyed envy. It was more like

“oh, what if Abby and Owen still have feelings for each other and they’re seeing each other again but Owen doesn’t want to break up with me cause I’m having his kid and things are super awkward and weird and oh dating him was a mistake what should I do?”

If that makes sense. Mel’s not stupid and it’s clear that Owen and Abby had a strong bond (no matter what people think) and it’s reasonable for Mel to assume they would fall back on old habits. Which they did.

Lastly was the aquarium fight. I know a lot of people their minds over it. and I’ll admit, my first play through I was like “damn, that’s kinda harsh” but I really don’t think that Mel meant it.

She’s pregnant, that shit does unimaginable things to your brain and emotion regulation, she was just extra grumpy. She’s pregnant in the fungus zombie apocalypse, too btw.

She watched her friend who was bright and hopeful, train for years, making herself a cold, ruthless killer for their creepy leader who puts a lot of pressure on them and is willing to interrogate and kill his own soldiers.

Of fucking course she couldn’t believe that Abby suddenly wanted to protect two runaway Scar kids. Literally, like the day or so before, when Mel showed remorse for the other Scar children that got killed by the WLF, Abby brushed her off and said the deaths weren’t their fault.

And Mel probably had her suspicions about Abby and Owen getting together which definitely didn’t make things better.

Owen - Owen, my poor often misunderstood fish loving bastard. I honestly didn’t feel one way or another when I first played. He seemed like a generic love interest type first glance. The cheating on the baby mama caught my attention a bit but in a world of cults, military psychos and slave drivers, it didn’t really hit me all that hard tbh. Felt like there were bigger issues happening.

I liked the aquarium flashbacks and I appreciated that he voted for keeping Ellie and Tommy alive even if it did lead to their group’s downfall.

Owen genuinely seems like a good person. and I know, I know! He cheated on Mel and was willing to leave her and go to Santa Barbra. While that is rather bad, it’s really not the evil evil thing people make it out to be.

Idk where this belief came from that Owen is a lot older than Abby, but unless that’s actually been confirmed by the writers somewhere that I’ve missed, I think that’s such bullshit.

“He looks so much older than her!” No. No he doesn’t. He looks like a young guy in his early twenties, which is about Abby’s age.

“He looked so much older than Abby in the flashbacks!” Again, no. He really didn’t. Idk if people just forgot what actual humans look like, but he looks about Abby’s age.

No one in the slc can be over the age of 25, they all look so young. (which is lowkey so sad)

That’s also why he was so bad with romance, bro is young! Abby was probably his first girlfriend or serious girlfriend which would make Mel his second. And I know being young isn’t an excuse for cheating, but in a world where you might die at any moment, things just tend to happen. I very much doubt anyone in that world has good emotional/impulse control.

And no, I’m not saying anyone will cheat on anyone at anytime just because of zombies.

Owen loved Abby a whole lot, as she did him, and they had a very tender relationship together. They were just starting to date when Jerry died. Abby got consumed by her thirst for revenge and pushed that to the side. Of course, she was valid for that, but it was clear Owen missed them being together.

Relationships are messy and complicated as is and the constant situations and pressure put on these characters definitely just make it worse.

Also, I’ve seen people say that all Owen does is make fun of Abby, therefore he’s mentally abusive. It’s literally just light hearted teasing and trying to get Abby to overcome her fear of heights. I promise the silly, seal loving man is not mentally torturing Abby.

The “stocking or someone who loves me” thing was said by Abby. I really don’t think Owen would tell the woman he still cares for deeply that she doesn’t deserve love. He meant the damn stocking, people.

Owen is a light in Abby’s dark life and their relationship goes beyond the infidelity and boat scene.

Nora, Jordan, Leah, Nick & Joel’s Death - I’m just cramming these thoughts into one section cause this is already so long. I always thought that Nora’s death was so brutal for no reason. Yeah, it’s supposed to show Ellie’s loosing herself and that’s important for the story, but I feel it could’ve been given to someone more ‘deserving’ of it. Like, she smacked Tommy in the head and held Ellie down with Nick, that’s it.

The only black woman of the group getting chased, battered around, thrown into spores and beaten to death just kinda rubbed me the wrong way, especially cause she did almost nothing back in Jackson.

It’s extra uncomfy cause black characters in tlou tend to get done dirty. Riley, Marlene, Henry, Sam. Other POC, too. Nick gets beaten to death off screen after participating even less than Nora. Dina, who is also pregnant, gets constantly man handled and smacked around. Manny gets his head blown off. Lev and Yara (children) get beaten up and brutalized. Jesse gets shot plainly and is almost never mentioned again.

I know the games are brutal and it’s the apocalypse, but…

Not trying to make this a big thing, but it is an undeniable pattern.

I also hate how Jordan, Leah, and Nick get written off as “WLF soldiers who became friends with Abby later on” like c’monnnn

Make them all Fireflies!! I firmly headcanon them all as Fireflies cause it’s just seems so stupid that they went on a long-distance, out of base mission to hunt down a known dangerous man in a quest for revenge they had no personal connection in.

One factor people never talk about when it comes to Joel’s death scene is that Abby basically made everyone participate/had them watch. No, I’m not painting her as super evil, just hear me out.

No one knew who Joel and Tommy were (aside from Abby) when they walked in until they introduced themselves. You can visibly see them all tense up and lock in as soon as their names are said. Abby then very violently shoots Joel down, causing everyone else to jump into action knocking Tommy out and pinning Joel against the wall.

Then, Abby demands, not asks, demands that Mel tourniquet Joel’s leg to keep him alive longer, which Mel is very visibly hesitant to do. She basically forced Mel to participate there cause how could she say no?

Abby’s in bloodlust mode and holding a shotgun. Also, the way Abby accused Mel of not wanting Joel to suffer was kinda gross of her. “You don’t think he deserved what he got?” No, girl, she just didn’t want to watch you beat a guy to death.

Mel and Owen weren’t in the room when Ellie came in (I think they were in the garage?) so I think Mel had to walk out cause she didn’t want to witness that and Owen probably went to comfort her and most likely to get away from the brutality himself.

And then everyone kinda just stood there and watched? For how ever long that was. Maybe to make sure Tommy stayed down? Maybe to just keep an eye on Abby? Owen told Jordan to watch the outside but he didn’t, probably cause he didn’t want to listen to Owen and they didn’t think anyone would show up like they said.

Manny was probably the only one who didn’t mind watching Joel die terribly since he hated him so much. Nora probably could handle it, but it stuck with her (her getting flashbacks every night). And Jordan, Leah, and Nick probably didn’t feel one way or the other cause it wasn’t personal for them.

But it was still a brutal thing for everyone to witness.

I just find it kinda strange Abby didn’t clear out the room since this was her revenge. And the fact that Abby claimed Owen wanted Joel dead as bad as she did, even after he showed a lot of reluctance on the trip.

This was long and unorganized and I’m sorry for reblogging this off your post op, it just made the gears spin hard.

I don’t really have a point, this was just kind of a story/character analysis/rant I guess.

it really piques me whenever i see people undermine owen’s role and importance not only in abby’s overall story but her ensuing redemption— he is the stimulus that begin her journey to quote unquote look for the light and i don’t think people appreciate that enough, regardless of whatever opinion they hold about owen and his character. most of the time i see their relationship discussed it’s either a joke about the boat scene and how “disturbing” it is (frankly i believe the way people react to the boat scene is a great litmus test for someone’s level of maturity and media literacy but hey! that’s a conversation for later) or bashing owen and/or abby, never about how complex and nuanced they are as both individuals and as a pairing, flaws and all.

[emblemxeno]

Different anon, but gosh I love Seliph so much... He has these little design choices and tiny story details that inform who he is, how he has his mother's face in his sprite work bc he's Grannvale's true heir, how he keeps his hair long and tied bc he was raised in Isaach and looks up to Shannan, how he tells Oifey that he looks to him the same way Oifey looked to Sigurd as a father figure. He really feels like he's connected to all these people who see him as their last hope and it makes sense that it weighs so heavily on him because the little details add up to a fuller picture, especially in a game where the story telling had its own limitations.

It's so fucking good. The fact that Genealogy was a SNES game and still managed these kinds of subtle details speaks to how impressive it was. Even if some lore was hidden in really obscure places, we can still appreciate the story as it's presented to us.

And Seliph, ughhhhh! He's so good! I've heard some people say that Gen 2 pales in comparison to Gen 1, but FE4 is such a deliberate package deal in terms of storytelling, that you can't separate them imo. Seliph becomes a paragon-a borderline god-like figure-because that's what the hellscape of Gen 2's Jugdral needs. And the very fact that he has ties with every country in some way or another really hammers home that he's a savior that people rally behind and hope for. He needed to be the one to carry on after his parents' tragedy. Gen 2 caps off everything Gen 1 set up, with full catharsis both in-story and for the player, with great success