#LISTEN TO MY FUCKING WORDS HEED MY WARNING
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
run
Raider! Joel Miller x Female Reader



*moodboard is for aesthetic purposes only. no mention of readerâs race or skin tone.
summary: When youâre given the chance to run from your captor, you donât take it.
warnings/tags: 18+ ONLY, MINORS DNI. RAIDER ERA. DARK!JOEL. DUBCON. MENTIONS PREVIOUS NONCON. UNSPECIFIED AGE GAP (reader is in her 20âs and Joel is 50). reader is described washing her hair (the exact length is not specified) and she wears a dress. she is also shorter than Joel. violence, kidnapping, reader has major stockholm syndrome, Joel is fairly soft for her but HE IS STILL NOT A GOOD MAN, brief mention of Tess and Joel being involved with each other, Tess seems like the villain but she might actually be the only one of these three who is not totally fucked up in the head. SMUT. daddy kink. size difference (no description of readerâs body type, Joel is just a big guy with a big dick, enjoy it). oral sex (female receiving), super risky unprotected p in v sex (mention of reader ovulating, Joel pulls out, donât be be like these two, practice safe sex), creampie (yeah he doesnât give a fuck the second time around). many, many pet names (baby, baby girl, honey, angel, sweetheart, little girl). um i think thatâs it. oh, and they fuck in the dirt.
PLEASE HEED ALL WARNINGS.
word count: 8.6k
a/n: one thing about me is i WILL soften up EVERY version of Joel Miller to my little heartâs content. HUGE HUGE thank you to @endlessthxxghts and @joelsdagger for lending me their eyes and beta-ing this fic for me last night. <33 i love and appreciate you guys SO MUCH. i loved seeing you both in the doc at the same exact time lmao. this can be read as a standalone, but it is considered part of the captive universe.
Everyone in the group has a job. Except for you.
Or at least, thatâs what you hear them say.
That bitch doesnât do shit.
She never has to lift a fucking finger.
She should work for her mealâjust like the rest of us.
Bitterness laces their tones when they talk about you.
Insults grow a little bolder when heâs not around.
Useless.
Freeloader.
Leech.
You might not be out there with a rifle in hand hunting game or invading camps and spilling blood for suppliesâbut you do in fact have a job, and that job is to make Joel Miller happy. It is your responsibility, your duty, to please him, and to keep him satisfied. Because keeping him satisfied keeps him in a good mood, and one thing youâve come to learn about your captor is, where there is a good mood, often there is mercy.
Hell, youâre doing them a favor by keeping their violent, fearsome leader in a good mood. Because youâve seen what he does to them when heâs not. He can be just as brutal towards his own people as he is to strangers.
It doesnât make a difference, though. They still see you as nothing more than his coddled little whore.
âFuck, thatâs it.â
He groans, his thick, callused fingers digging harshly into the softness of your flesh as he holds you firmly in place underneath him. âOh fuck, baby girl,â Joel curses through gritted teeth, his hands gripping your hips as he uses his own weight against you, pressing you down into the old mattress until you feel every uncomfortable lump, each creaking spring.
While he isnât fucking you as roughly as he has on other occasions, heâs hardly being gentle. Itâs hard, fast.
Loud.
Joel couldnât care less about the rest of the group, the men and women on the other side of the wall, forced to listen to the sounds coming from the single bedroom of the cabin he decided they would hunker down in for the remainder of the summer season. Strings of curses and brutish grunts that came rumbling from deep within his chest, pleading gasps and whimpers that fell from your swollen, bitten lips. If anything, knowing they were listening only spurred him onâit didnât hurt to remind them, especially the men with wandering eyes, that you were his special girl.
His good girl.
You certainly did your job, and you did it so, so well.
âChrist, sweetheart. Mâso fuckinâ closeââ Joel picks up speed, his hips snapping even harder, faster, the front of his thighs slapping against the backs of yours. Each thrust causes the bedâs rusted, iron headboard to slam violently against the wood panel wall.
You clutch fistfuls of the single, stale, yellowing sheet beneath you, each stroke he delivers knocking the wind out of your lungs, making it harder to breathe. He is so heavy on top of you, this big, broad, bulk of a man who makes you feel swallowed, smothered, and small. Joel takes up so much room inside of you, and itâs a wonder how you could possibly have any space left to spare.
Itâs a fullness you canât seem to get enough of.
Itâs a craving, a need.
Worst of all, itâs slowly becoming a want.
âDaddy,â you choke out, fisting the sheet tighter, your skin stretching taut over your knuckles. Can the others also hear the squelch of your drenched cunt around his cock as it begs him for more?
âFuck. Youâre doinâ so fuckinâ good for me, baby,â Joel croons his praise. His hands abandon your hips and he hunches over you, his thrusts momentarily ceasing. He crushes his chest against your sweaty, quivering back and leans forward even further, bracing his large hands on either side of you. Then, his lips move to the shell of your ear and he speaks, his breath blazing hot on your skin. âYâtake me so well, honey. Yâtake Daddyâs cock so fuckinâ well. This pretty little pussy was fuckinâ made for me. She was made jusâ for meâainât that right, angel?â
Heâs right.
Oh, how you fucking hated that he was right.
It was made for him. Your cunt. Your body. You.
Every part of you was made for him, and only for him.
All you can do is nod dumbly in agreement.
âSay it,â Joel whispers his firm command. âWanna hear you say it. Be a good girl and use your words. Say it, say this pussy is made for me.â
âYes, Daddy,â you moan obediently, prompting him to grin against your ear. âMy pussy is made for you, justâjust for you. No oneâno one else. Only you.â Could this really be the same voice that would break, grow hoarse from screaming for him to stop? The same voice that would beg and plead for him to set you free?
Jutting his hips forward, Joel buries himself to the hilt, eliciting a noise from you, something caught between a pained whimper and a contented sigh. His balls, heavy and full for you, rest on your clit, which is still sensitive to the touch after heâd spent a majority of the morning with his head buried in between your legs. Desiring yet another release, you try wriggling around beneath him in a silent plea for more. More, more, more.
Please, Daddy. More.
Joelâs grin widens. He places one of his hands on your soft lower belly, fingers dragging down the slope of it until he finds the slick swell of your seam between your legs where his girth splits you open. âReady, baby?â
Nodding, you open your mouth to answer him, but the sound of your own groan cuts you off when his fingers firmly circle around your throbbing, swollen bud. âOh,â you breathe, instantly sinking right into his touch. Your eyes screw shut tightly in pleasure, and you throw your head back onto his shoulder. The scruff of his beard is rough on your cheek, and it burns, the same way it had burned the tender flesh of your inner thighs.
His hips find their rhythm as you rub against his handâyouâre almost there. He knows this, you can tell by the chuckle that thunders in his chest and against your back. But youâre too busy chasing your pleasure to be embarrassed.
Heâs made you a needy, greedy girl.
âDaddy,â you mewl, trying your hardest to move under him, to work your cunt up and down on his cock. âIâm gonna comeââ You gasp, back arching as Joel strokes in and out, his fingers rubbing your clit with urgency.
Joel plants a sloppy, wet kiss on your cheek. âGive it to me, baby,â he grunts. âCâmon. Lemme feel her squeeze me.â
Feeling how close he is too, you try to hold on for just a little bit longer, at least long enough to finish with him, but Joelâs relentless, and youâre forced off of the ledge youâre both standing on first.
Crying out, your walls spasm around him, asking to be filled until heâs made a complete mess out of you, until white leaks, and it slowly dribbles down the insides of your trembling thighs.
âFuckinâ Christ,â Joel rasps. He lifts himself off you and he pulls out, taking his throbbing cock in his hand. His chest heaves as he fists himself, the wet sound of your slick in his palm filling the room. âDown,â he grits, and you obey him, lowering down yourself on the mattress until youâre lying almost completely flat before him. He gives himself one final stroke just as you look over your shoulder at him, the gentle flutter of your eyelashes the last push he needs. âFuck! Fuck, fuckââ Joel spills his load, shooting thick ropes of warm cum along the soft curve of your spine.
You rest your cheek on your folded arms, biting back a small sigh.
Heâs left behind an acheâyou feel painfully empty.
But it was Tess, who had been given the task of helping you track your menstrual cycle, that had given him the warning earlier that morning. âSheâs ovulating. Donât be a fucking idiot, Joel. Last thing we need is for her toââ
âRelax,â heâd gruffed in response. âI fuckinâ know.â
Spent, Joel hunches over you once more and he lightly kisses the top of your head before burying his nose into your hair. âGood girl,â he murmurs. Affection that once was unwelcome and unwanted, that once made you feel sick to your fucking stomach, now makes you feel something else entirely. Youâre not quite sure what it is, only that itâs warm. Comforting. âYâdid so well for me, sweetheart. Always do.â
Your lips curl into a faint, tired smile he doesnât see.
A while later, you find yourself perched on the bed with the sheet wrapped around you, quietly watching as he gets dressed. âDaddy?â you say tentatively as he drops into a nearby chair to pull on his boots.
âWhat is it, baby girl?â
âDo youâdo you think we can go to the creek today?â
Joel finishes lacing his boots and looks up at you.
âIâd really like to wash up,â you admit, softly. That, and you would like to see the light of day. Heâd boarded up the windows with slabs of woodâsometimes, if youâre lucky, you get some decent light seeping through the teeny gaps.
âNot today, honey. Iâve got some things to take care of. Supplies are low, we gotta do a run. Donât have the time to take you.â He stands and picks up his rifle, slinging the strap of it over his shoulder. Noticing the crestfallen expression on your face, Joelâs eyes soften. He walks over and gingerly cups the side of your face in his palm. His thumb strokes your cheek. âPromise Iâll take you to the creek tomorrow, sweetheart. First thing. Alright?â
Nodding, your eyes fall to your hands in your lap.
âOkay.â
Joel kisses your forehead, then leaves the room.
He makes sure to lock the door from the outside, and you canât help but wonder if he knows locking you in is no longer necessary.
âI can take her.â
Joelâs dark eyes remain focused on the state map laid out on the table in front of him. âWhat the fuck are you talkinâ about, Tess?â He sees her in his periphery, but is too busy figuring out the groupâs best route to look her way.
âI heard her asking you to take her to the creek so she can bathe,â she tells him. âI can take her.â
Finally, his head snaps up and he turns to her. âWhat?â
Tess leans her hip against the table, crossing her arms over her chest. âYou and Tommy can take the group, go and take care of what you have to take care of. Iâll stay behind and take her down to the creek,â she suggests casually, as if sheâs not asking him to trust her with his most prized possessionâthe only damn thing on what was left of this fucking earth Joel Miller actually gives a shit about. âOnce sheâs washed up, Iâll bring her back to the cabin and put her back into the room. Easy.â
Joel stares at her, bewildered. âWhat makes you think Iâd fuckinâ allow somethinâ like that?â
âOh, come on.â She huffs and rolls her eyes. âAnytime I bitch about having to do something for that girl, youâre on my fucking case about it, and now that Iâm offering to do something for her, you donât wanna let me?â
He shakes his head and lowers his voice. âYouâre talkinâ about takinâ her outside, Tess. Without me.â
âThe creekâs just a mile away,â Tess reminds him. âIâm pretty sure I can handle getting her there and back with no trouble, Joel.â When he says nothing, she cocks her head to the side and scoffs. âWhat? You donât trust me enough to take her under my wing for a couple hours?â
Joelâs lips pull into a tight line.Â
Of course he does. Tess was his right hand woman, his second in command.
He trusted her more than his own fucking brother. She had never given him any reason not to, had never given him a reason to doubt her loyalty to him. No, his lack of trust has nothing to do with Tessâbut everything to do with you. He doesnât trust you. He will never trust you.
âWhat if she tries toâ?â He canât even say it.
âTries to what?â She pauses. âRun?â
His throat goes dry and he gives her a subtle nod.
Joel Miller was a bad man who did bad things, but you were his good. Youâve brought back some meaning into this wretched life of his, gave him something that felt a lot like a sense of purpose. You were something for him to take care of, to keep safe and protect.
Tess raises an eyebrow at him. âYou think Iâd even give her the chance? Besides, the girlâs not that stupid, Joel. She knows better than to try anything. She knows she wouldnât get very fucking far.â
âTessââ
âIâm just trying to do something nice for her. Besides, I think it might do her some good to be in the company of someone else for onceâthe company of a woman.â
Joel peers at her, taking a minute to think it over in his mind before asking, âYouâll have her back in the room before I get back to the cabin?â
âLong before then,â she swears. âAll in one piece.â
He hesitates. Heâs still not sure.
Itâs then that he remembers that disappointed look on your sweet, pretty little face. âAlright,â he relents with a deep sigh. âI trust you, Tess.â
It always feels a bit strange to be outside.
But being outside without Joel?
It feels even stranger.
When heâd walked back into the room and told you Tess was willing to take you to the creek, the news had taken you by complete surprise. When he said he was willing to let her take you, that you almost couldnât believe. It hadnât even sunk in until the three of you stood outside the cabin and he was kissing your forehead sweetly in a temporary goodbye before turning to Tess.
âNever take your eyes off her,â heâd instructed her.
âSheâll behave.â She had smiled at you as she pulled her pistol from the waistband of her jeans, the gleam of the silver barrel catching your eye. âIsnât that right?â
Swallowing dryly, you had answered with a strained, âOf course.â
Sheâs the last fucking person you wanted to cross. She was almost as terrifying as Joel, if not more.
âTess? W-Where are we going?â you ask as you trudge along behind her, hoping you donât sound as winded as you feel. Although you had no way to keep track of the time, it felt like youâd been trekking for at least an hour. Your feet are starting to hurt in your shoesâold, worn, yellow canvas sneakers that certainly werenât made for hiking. âI donât remember the creek being this far from the cabin.â
Tess snorts. âDonât tell me youâre tired already.â
âItâs justâweâve been walking for a really long time.â
She glances over her shoulder at you. âHere I thought you would be a little fucking grateful to be out getting some fresh air,â she chuckles, shaking her head before turning her attention back to the path ahead.
âI am,â you squeak, stumbling over a fallen branch.
Silence falls over the both of you.
âWeâre not going to the creek,â Tess finally speaks after a minute. âIâm taking you somewhere else. Somewhere even better. Just trust me, kid. Now hurry up.â
It takes another hour before you reach your destination, and you hear it before you can even see it, a humming sound that turns into buzzing the closer you get. Then, you feel it, a vibration in the rocks beneath your feet. âIs that aâ?â Stepping around her, your mouth falls open in absolute awe at the sight before you.
The waterfall is nestled right in between the trees and surges over the rocky mountain, throwing up bubbles of spray as it plunges into the lake at the bottom, and from there, it foams into a thick, white lather at the base. On the bank, where you stand, you spot different types of vegetation you couldnât identify even if you triedâall you know is that itâs green, and itâs beautiful.
âThis is incredible,â you gasp.
âWay better than some little creek, huh?â Tess tucks her pistol into the waistband of her jeans and shrugs off her pack. She digs around in the front pocket and pulls out something wrapped in a piece of crumpled brown tissue paper. She hands it to you. âHere.â
âWhatâs this?â
âWell, if youâd fucking open it, you would know,â Tess rolls her eyes. âItâs my last piece of soap. Itâs all yours.â
Her kind generosity comes as a surpriseâusually, Tess wanted nothing to do with you. But you donât question it, and you certainly donât turn the rare luxury down.
âThanks,â you say, shooting her a grateful look.
Tess nods towards the body of water. âAlright, then. Go on and get to it.â
You take the piece of soap out the tissue. The scent of lavender is faint, but still very much there. Joel will like the smell of it on your skin tonight, you think.
As you start to pull the strap of your cotton blue dress down your shoulder, you feel her gaze fixed intently on you. Heat rushes to your cheeks. âUh, arenât you going to turn around?â
âFor fuckâs sake,â she scoffs. âIâve got what youâve got. Now hurry up, we donât have all fucking day.â
Nodding, you peel off your dress and underwear, your face on fire as the older womanâs eyes slowly drag over your naked body. Carefully, you step off the bank and wade into the water. Itâs so clear that you can count the pebbles underneath your feet.
Leaning against a nearby tree, Tess calls out, âYou have ten minutes! And stay out of the waterfall! Last thing I need is for you to fucking drown.â
As she lights a cigarette, you canât help but stare at her. Her features, though worn down after the hell she had been through trying to survive the post outbreak world, are beautiful. Big, dark green eyes, a perfect nose, and full, pouty lips. Thereâs never been a doubt in your mind that she and Joel have been involved with one another, and lately, the mere thought of anything between them made you uncomfortable.
Itâs an odd sensation deep in your gutâjealousy?
But what were you jealous of? Her having had him first?
It shouldnât matter to you, but it does. Insecurities you have never in your life felt before seep into your bones.
âAnyone ever tell you itâs fucking rude to stare?â Tess quips, raising an eyebrow at you. She shoves her lighter into the back pocket of her jeans.
Nervously, you sink lower into the water, nibbling the inside of your cheek. âTess? Can I ask you something?â
âWhat could you possibly fucking want to ask me?â
You hesitate.
âHowâhow long have you known each other?â
âWho?â Tess plucks the cigarette from between her lips and flicks the ashes. âMe and Joel?â
You nod. âYeah.â
She shrugs. âDonât know. Six, seven years?â
âHow did you two meet?â
âLong story thatâs none of your fucking business.â
You ask your next question before you lose your nerve. âHave you two everâ?â Unsure of how to phrase it, you stop and clamp your mouth shut in instant regret.
âHave we ever what?â Tess studies your face, and she quickly realizes what youâre trying to ask her. âYouâre seriously asking me if me and Joel have ever fucked?â
Biting your bottom lip, you glance down into the water at your feet. You honestly donât expect her to answer, so when she does, you look back up at her in surprise.
âYeah.â She takes a long drag from her cigarette, then adds, âFew times.â
Something unpleasant claws at your insides. âYou two were together? Like a couple?â
âSomething like that,â Tess mutters, flicking her ashes once more.
âWhat happened?â
She looks at you, pausing before answering, âYou.â
Oh.
Before you can utter another word, Tess snaps, âQuit asking so many goddamn fucking questions and finish up washing. Youâve got eight minutes left.â
Not wanting to push your luck further than you already have, you do as she tells you in complete silence.
You lather up the soap in your hands, washing your hair first, and then your face and body, using your hands to scrub yourself as best as you can. Between the calming scent of the soap, the soothing sound of the waterfall, and the warm afternoon sun, you find yourself relaxing. You try to clear your mind, live in this peaceful moment which you very well may never get again, but your mind begins to wander.
And it wanders straight to Joel.
Closing your eyes, you canât help but picture him here, standing behind you in the lake. You can almost feel his hands on you, long, thick fingers lathered with lavender soap, sliding down your body. His lips at your neck, he cups your breasts in his hands, rolling his thumbs over your hardened nipples until your head lulls, falling back onto his shoulder. Joel drags his hands further down, over your stomach, going lower and lower towards the place where you need them the most. âYeah, baby?â he murmurs into your neck, dipping one of them between your legs until you are, quite literally, in the palm of his hand. âThis where yâneed me?â
Breathless, you respond, âItâs where I want you.â
Suddenly, your eyes snap open.
There is a wetness between your thighs, one that has nothing to do with the fact that youâre standing waist-deep in the middle of a lake. You shake those thoughts away and finish washing yourself.
âTimeâs up,â Tess calls. She meets you on the bank with a dry rag. âHere.â
The rag doesnât exactly cover much surface area, but you dry yourself off as best you can before tugging on your underwear and slipping on your dress. Just as you crouch down to slip your shoes on, she tosses her pack and it lands in front of you with a soft thud.
Confused, you glance up at her.
âThereâs about a weekâs worth of jerky in there. Longer, if you know how to ration,â Tess explains, calmly. âAnd a canteen for water. I also packed you a flashlight and a pocket knife. Itâs not much, butââ
Frowning, you rise to your feet. âWhat are you talking about, Tess? Whatâs going on? Why are you giving me your pack?â
âBecause Iâm giving you a chance, kid.â
A feeling of dread pools in the pit of your stomach.
âA chance to what?â
âRun.â
Your heart stutters a beat. âRun?â
âHeâll come looking for you. You need to get as far away from here as possible. Run away, as far as you can, and donât fucking look back.â
All you can do is stare at her in shocked silence.
âI can help you get a head start,â Tess offers, quietly. âI can show you which direction to go in and put you on a path leading to the closest state highwayââ
âBut what if I donât want to run?â
Tess places her hands on her hips, and she exhales an incredulous laugh. âJesus,â she breathes, shaking her head in pity. âHeâs really got you fucking brainwashed, doesnât he?â
You glare at her. âI am not brainwashed, Tess.â
âYouâve gotta be if youâre telling me you wanna go back to him.â
âTessââ
She cuts you off. âHe gave the order to raid your camp and kill your people,â she reminds you. âHe fucking slit your fatherâs throat right in front of you, then took you as his prisoner. He made you his fucking sex slave.â
âHe takes care of me! He feeds me, makes sure I have a bed to sleep in no matter where we are. He keeps me safe. Heâhe cares about me.â You will your voice not to tremble as you stand your ground. âNo. Iâm not running away, Tess. I want to go back.â
Tess sighs. âYouâre really not gonna make this easy, are you?â
âTake me back,â you all but demand, your hands curled into the least menacing little fists she had ever seen in her life at your sides. âTake me back to the cabinâtake me back to him, Tess. I mean it.â
Amused, she huffs through her nose. âOr else what?â
âYou canât make me run away, Tess.â As you take a step towards her, she reaches behind her and swiftly whips out her pistol from the waistband of her jeans. You halt, freezing in fear when she aims the barrel of the gun at your chest.
âActually, I can,â she says, her finger hovering over the trigger. âSo hereâs how this is gonna go. Iâm gonna walk away now. And if you even think about following me, or trying to find your way back to the group, you will die.â She tosses you a tiny, wry smile. âBelieve it or not, Iâm doing you a real big favor, kid. Problem is, heâs got you so fucked in the head that you canât see it.â
âTess, please,â you plead. âDonât do this to me!â
She begins to back away. âRemember when youâd say that to him? How youâd beg him not to do those things to you every night? Beg him to let you go?â
âPlease, just take me back to him!â
You start to follow her.
âYou take one more fucking step and Iâll shoot you,â she threatens, her eyes darkening. âDonât think I wonât.â
Tess keeps her pistol pointed at you until she slips into the trees and disappears, abandoning you in the middle of the forest.
Heâs furious. Livid.
Joel paces back and forth on the porch.
âWhere the fuck are they?â
The old, rotting wood that wraps all the way around the cabin creaks, and certain softer spots bend and buckle, threatening to give way beneath his heavy boots. Joelâs younger brother leans against the railing, which is just as fragile, an unlit cigarette dangling from the corner of his mouth.
âChrist, Joel. Can you fuckinâ relax?â Tommy grumbles, fishing around in his back pocket for his lighter. âYouâre gonna bring the whole damn cabin down if ya donât cut that shit out.â He sparks a flame and lights the filtered end of the cigarette. He takes a long drag, and exhales the smoke through his nose. âYouâre gettinâ worked up over nothinâ, brother.â
âSâalmost sundown, and theyâre still not fuckinâ back.â Joel shakes his head. âFuckinâ knew I shouldnât have let Tess take her. Somethinâ happened, Tommy. I just know it.â He lifts his shirt and reaches for his pistol, pulling it from the waistband of his jeans. âMâgonna head to the creek myself to find âem. Ainât gonna sit around on my goddamn hands and wait for it to get fuckinâ dark.â
âSheâs with Tess. Mâsure the girlâs fineââ Tommy stops, his eyes widening slightly. âWell, hell.â
âWhat?â
Tommy jerks his chin over Joelâs shoulder before taking another slow, casual drag of his cigarette. He savors the last few seconds of peace before shit inevitably hits the fan and his brother unleashes his wrath on anything, or anyone, in his path.
Joel whips around and his stomach sinks, his blood ice in his veins when he sees Tess approaching the cabin. Alone.
Both his mind and body go numb. Itâs a jarring shock to his nervous system, and it takes him a minute or two to fully process the fact that youâre not with her.
âJoel,â Tess says his name carefully as he descends the porch steps and walks towards her. âI need you to take a breath, alright?â
âWhereâwhere is she?â His voice breaks, his weakness momentarily slipping through the cracks.
Not that Tess didnât already know you were Joel Millerâs weakness, his soft white underbelly, the only vulnerable part of his hardened self that could be penetratedâyou would have been his downfall. As much as sheâd like to say she did what she did solely for your own good, she also did it for his, and for the sake of the group as a whole.
It needed to be done.
He stands in front of her, a ticking time bomb about to go off.
Prepared to face whatever consequences of the choice she had made, Tess tucks her gun away and sighs. âYou need to take a breathââ
Joel snatches her arm, his fingers digging into the flesh above her elbow. His emotions hit him all at once.
Fear, worry, anger. Itâs the third that takes precedence, and before Tess can utter another word, Joel yanks her forward. She crashes against his chest so hard that it knocks the wind out of her. âWhere the fuck is she?â He leans down, his nostrils flaring as he brings their faces the closest they have been in almost a year.
âJoel, take a fucking breathââ
âWhere. Is. She.â His grip on her arm tightens with each word he bites out through his teeth. Heâs vaguely aware the others have piled out of the cabin, gathering on the porch to watch the altercation.
âShe ran,â Tess explains, calmly. She doesnât falter, not even as his fingers sink deeper into her skin, promising her painful bruises which will take days to fade away. If he decided to let her live. âShe ran away, Joel. I turned my back for one fucking second and she was gone. She even took my fucking pack. I tried going after her, but it was no use. She was too fast.â
Behind him, Tommy snorts. âShe outran you?â
Her eyes momentarily flicker to him. âHer knees are a lot younger than mine,â she replies, flatly.
âWhich direction did she go in?â Joel demands. When Tess doesnât immediately respond, he shouts, âWhich fucking direction!â
Tess manages to snatch her arm out of his grasp. She glowers at him, hissing, âWhat the hell does it matter which direction she went? You wonât fucking find her.â
His eyes meet hers, and he sees it. Feels it.
Sheâs lying to him.
âTess.â Joelâs voice drops dangerously low. He studies her face, his brows creasing with suspicion. âWhat did you do?â
âI didnât do shit, Joel. She fucking ran away.â
Without warning, Joel takes her by her throat. His other hand brings his pistol to her head, shoving the barrel of it against her temple. His nose touches hers. âNow, tell me why I have the feelinâ youâre not tellinâ me the whole truth?â
Tess lifts her chin. She searches his eyes, a sharp ache shooting through her. After everything, all the hell they had been through togetherâhe would end her life, put a bullet in her because of you? Did she mean that little to him?
Or maybe sheâd never meant anything to him at all?
Sheâs not sure which stings more.
âBecause youâve fucking deluded yourself into thinking that she willingly wants anything to do with you,â Tess finally answers. âThatâs why.â
He ignores the burn of her scorching words.
âWhere the fuck is she, Tess?â
âIf sheâs smart, sheâs far away from here by now,â she hisses. âI did everyone a fucking favor, Joel. That girl is just another fucking mouth to feed. And what if you get her pregnant? Thatâll be another one. Not to mention, a crying baby could draw unwanted attention and get us all killed. Ever thought about that? Sheâs not an asset to the group, sheâs a fucking liability. Besides, I think I can speak for everyone when I say weâre all fucking tired of hearing you raââ
Joel digs the barrel harder into her temple, his finger hovering over the trigger. âListen to me. Youâve got ten seconds to tell me where she is, yâunderstand me?â
âOr what? Youâll blow my brains out?â Foolishly, Tess chooses to call his bluff despite not knowing for certain whether or not heâll actually pull the trigger. âGo ahead, then. Kill me, Joel.â
His finger twitches over the trigger, but he doesnât pull it. He canât fucking pull it. Not on her. Not on Tess.
Still in his hands, she sags slightly in relief.
Swallowing harshly, Joel Miller lowers his gun and does something sheâs never seen him do before. He begs.
âTess, tell me where she is,â he whispers. His pleading is subtle, and only she can hear it. âPleaseâjust fuckinâ tell me where my girl is.â
Tess stands her ground and says nothing.
Releasing her, Joel shoves her aside and with nothing but his gun in his hand, he sets off to find you.
âOw, fuck!â
You gasp, quickly lifting your bare foot off the ground.
Youâd stepped on something sharpâa stick, or maybe a rock?
In a desperate attempt to try and keep up with Tessâ tracks, you had stupidly left behind your shoes back at the waterfall. But the mere seconds you had spared by not stopping to put your shoes on hadnât given you the advantage you thought it would. She had moved much too fast, and within minutes, youâd become helplessly, hopelessly lost. Every tree and every bush, they all look exactly the same, and for all you know, youâve probably been going around in fucking circles for the past couple of hours in your search for her footprints in the dirt.
Sagging against the trunk of a nearby tree, you take a minute to try and catch your breath, to give your poor little feet a break from hiking over fallen branches and jagged stones.
Your head falls back, eyes gazing through the canopy of trees. Dusk has settled in, and nightfall is on its heels. It was foolish of you to leave behind your shoes, but even more so to leave behind the pack she had given youâin the pack were all the things meant to help you survive. Knife, flashlight, food.
Sure, you can survive a night out here in the wilderness without any of those thingsâbut then what? Come dawn, what do you do? Where do you go? Do you just stumble around in the woods and hope for the best? Pray youâll make it onto a highway with signs that will point you to a quarantine zone?
Hell, maybe youâre overestimating yourself. Maybe you wouldnât survive long enough to worry about your next move. Howls in the distance remind you thereâs wildlife out here, dangerous predators that come out after dark in search of their next meal. Or what about infected? It wasnât unheard of for them to veer off the highway and lose themselves in the trees.
You recall your first few weeks in Joel Millerâs hands.
Escaping them was all you could ever think about, even though the chances of you surviving alone were slim to none, just like they are now. Never having been on your own, death would have been inevitableâbut back then, in your darkest moments in captivity, you wished for it. Youâd welcomed the idea of starving, freezing, or being torn apart limb from limb by an entire hoard of clickers. At least then, youâd die with your freedom.
Almost a year later, that wish has been granted.
Youâre free.
You may very well die, but you would die free.
Closing your eyes, you think about Joel. His arms, that once held you downâheld you stillâas he did all those things to you without your consent, are arms your heart yearns to have wrapped around you, holding you close.
âJesus,â you grit, a tear rolling down your cheek.
Maybe Tess had been right. Maybe he really does have you fucked in the head.
Joel was a monster. He had taken everything from you, including your innocence. Heâd defiled you in ways you hadnât known were possible. He was a terrible, terrible man.
A terrible, terrible man who kept you fed.
A terrible, terrible man who kept you warm.
A terrible, terrible man who kept you safe.
Another tear slides down the side of your face. What is fucking wrong with you?
You donât know. But what you do know is, the thought of never seeing Joel again is somehow more terrifying to you than the thought of dying even the most brutal of deaths.
A loud rustling sound brings your train of thought to an immediate, sudden halt, and your eyes wrench open.
Itâs darker now, but you manage to catch a movement in the shrubs, only mere feet in front of you. Panic flares in your chest, it rattles you to your very core, and even though every nerve in your body is urging you to move, you freeze, your back flush against the tree trunk. Your fingernails dig painfully into the bark as you watch the shrubs part down the middle, and a tall, hulking figure emerges with a heavy grunt.
At first, you think itâs just a figment of your imagination showing you what you wanted to seeâa hallucination. Blinking furiously, you lightly shake your head, and then take another look at him. Your breath hitches when you realize itâs Joel.
He stares at you in the same manner, as if heâs trying to figure out if youâre real, or if his mind is playing a cruel, cruel trick on him. Feet cemented to the forest floor, he watches you take a small, tentative step towards him.
Once adamant that youâd never look him in the eye, you find your gaze locking directly with his as you carefully take another step closer. Then another, and another.
âJoel?â Itâs the first time youâve ever uttered his name.
He seems as taken aback hearing it as you are saying it.
âJoel.â It rolls off your tongue smoother, and with more ease the second time around.
It sparks a flame somewhere deep, deep inside of him, a fire that burns differently than those ignited by carnal desires.
No, this is something else entirely, and you feel it too.
âBaby?â he whispers hoarsely. âSâthat really you?â
âJoel!â you cry, hurling yourself into his arms.
Joelâs gun falls from his hand and he curls them around you. Burying his nose into your hair, he inhales deeply. The scent of you, the feel of youâyouâre fucking real.
Shuddering with sobs of relief, your arms wrap around his waist, and you cling to him as if youâre clinging onto dear, precious life itself.
âHush now, sâalright,â Joel soothes, cradling the back of your head in one hand, while the rubs soft, calming circles into your back. âIâve got you, honey. Mâhere.â
âI swear I didnât want to run away,â you explain through your tears. âI begged her to take me back to you, Joel, I really did! But she left me out hereâshe said she would shoot me if I tried following her back. Please, you have to believe me, you just have to believe me!â
He squeezes you harder against his chest. âI do, baby. I do believe you,â he assures you. Pulling away, he takes a step backward and takes your face between his palms, peering at you in concern. âYâhurt, sweetheart?â
âNo,â you hiccup, curling your hands around his wrists. Your lower lip trembles. âIâI thought Iâd never see you again. I was scared I wouldnât,â you admit, softly.
Joelâs thumb wipes away a fresh tear. âMâhere now,â he murmurs. âYouâre with me, baby. Youâre safe, alright?â As a late evening breeze passes through, he lets you go and shrugs out of his brown jacket. He goes to drape it around your shoulders, but you snatch it right out of his hands, then toss it aside.
Something in you snaps. You take fistfuls of his flannel, pulling him down towards you to do yet something else that takes you both by surpriseâyou initiate a kiss. You lean forward and press your lips to his, a little swipe of your tongue across his bottom lip as you clutch tighter at his shirt, holding him in place. Groaning, Joel opens his mouth more, his tongue brushing yours.
Liquid heat pools in your belly, and before you realize it, youâve grown frantic, kissing him with fervor. Releasing his shirt, you slide your hands down his chest, over his stomach, lower and lower until you find his belt buckle. Desperate, you clumsily fumble with it, and thatâs when Joel tears away from you, his breath hitching.
Youâre begging before he can even say a word. âPlease. I need youâI want you. Right now.â
You cup him through his jeans, and he exhales sharply.
âFuck.â Without giving it a second thought, his hands reach for the straps of your dress, pushing them off of your shoulders. He roughly tugs at the material, letting it slip down your body until it falls around your feet. In a tangle of limbs and tongues, you both sink to the forest floor. Your hands brush his buckle, and he catches your wrists. âNot yet, baby girl. Mâstill in charge, alright?â
Sheepishly, you nod.
âSay it.â His command is firm, but somehow still gentle.
âYouâreâyouâre in charge.â
âGood girl.â Joel guides you onto your back. Heâs over you in a second, swelling your lips with a hard, hungry kiss that leaves you dizzy and breathless. He moves his mouth, teeth scraping over your cheek and jaw, down to your neck where he nips at the tender, delicate flesh over your pulse point. Then, he bites his way over your collarbone and to your shoulder. âBet sheâs already wet for me,â he mumbles into your skin. âAinât she, baby?â
Pushing himself back onto his knees, he slides a finger over your clothed cunt, eliciting a small gasp from you. Hooking his fingers under the elastic waistband of your cotton underwear, he yanks the fabric down your legs. It catches on your foot, your wetness smearing against the inside of your ankle.
Youâre drenched.
âCâmere,â Joel grunts, sliding his hands under your ass and pulling your hips over his thighs. He leans over you once more, your bare, throbbing cunt rubbing against the crotch of his jeans. He tuts lightly into your neck as you buck against him. âSuch a fuckinâ needy little girl.â
Desperate, you try rolling your hips into his. âJoel.â
âKinda like it when yâsay my name.â He starts making his way down the length of your body. âThink Iâll like it even better when youâre screaminâ it. Wonât I, baby?â
Your stomach tightens as he nibbles his way down your neck again, teeth scraping over your clavicle and down your chest to your heaving tits. Taking one in his hand, the other goes into his mouthâhis tongue is scorching hot over your nipple. He licks the pebbled flesh, sucks it and bites it while he rolls the other peak in between his thumb and index finger. âOh fuck,â you gasp.
Releasing your breast with a wet pop, Joel sinks further down your body. He plants hot, open-mouthed kisses along the curve of your tummy, leaving behind a trail of fire in their wake. He stops over your mound and hovers for a fraction of a second before pressing his nose into the silky soft curls there. Inhaling deeply, Joel picks up the subtle, herbal scent of the lavender soap you had washed yourself with. âFuck, yâsmell so fuckinâ good.â
He pushes your thighs open, pinning one to the ground with his hand while the other goes over his shoulder. Your foot slides down his back, toes curling despite the fact that he hasnât even reached the spot where youâre aching to have him most. Heart thundering, your blood rushes, roaring in your ears.
Joel turns his head, his lips brushing your inner thigh in another kiss. âSâthis where yâwant me, honey?â he asks you. Goosebumps erupt over every inch of your skin as he draws closer, his breath like steam on your core. He glances up at you, his cock twitching against his zipper at the sight of you laying naked before him on the floor of the forest. Willing. Wanting. âHm? Right here?â
âYes,â you breathe. âPlease, Joel.â
Thankfully, you only have to ask him once, and then his face is buried between your legs, and he is giving you what you want.
âFuck!â you cry out. Back arching, your head tilts back until the crown of it meets the ground, leaves and twigs finding their way into your clean hair.
Joelâs tongue flattens over your cunt in a broad stroke, then dips between your folds, collecting your slick with a harsh groan, one that sends a bone-rattling vibration throughout your entire body, from head to curled toes. His mouth opens widerâa starving, greedy man trying to eat you whole. Sliding his tongue over your clit, Joel seals his lips around it, sucking the sensitive bundle of nerves until it swells in his mouth.
High-pitched little cries and whines spill from your lips. Your hands shoot down, fingers tangling themselves in his dark, graying curls, eliciting a grunt from him when you tug at his roots. âJoel, fuck,â you choke, your nails scraping against his scalp. He slurps and swallows your wetness, the sounds drowning out those of the nightâthe chirping of crickets, the croaking of frogs, the soft hooting of owls are washed away until all you can hear is him devouring your pussy.
Your body starts to tremble, and you know youâre close. Joel does, too. He feels your thighs twitch, threatening to close around his head, but he wrenches them further apart with a muffled but firm, âNo.â He drapes his arm over your pelvis, his large hand splayed on your belly.
Relentless, he sucks your clit, gliding his tongue over it, again and again until the muscles in your lower tummy tighten and you burst at the seams, unraveling into his mouth. Warm slick gushes out of you, a sweet mess he licks clean. You choke back sobs of pleasure, your body tensing, vision blurring with every stroke of his tongue, each scrape of his teeth over your clit.
Joel lifts himself onto his knees with a grunt and gazes down at youâhis good girl, sweet and pliant and ready to be fucked full of his cock. His hands slide his belt out of its brass buckle, eyes still trained on you as he pops the button of his jeans and yanks down his zipper.
Your mind is fuzzy, still syrupy and drippingâit doesnât fully register what heâs doing, not until he climbs back over you and you his hard cock brushes your thigh, hot velvet that sears the inside of your leg. Precum smears your flesh.
âYâfeel that? Feel what you fuckinâ do to me?â
âJoel.â Hands shaking, you reach for the buttons of his shirt, desperate to feel more of his skin on yours. You whine when he catches both of your wrists in one hand, pinning them above your head. âYour clothesââ
âStay on.â Ducking his head, he nips at your pulse point and mumbles, âTell me what yâwant, pretty girl.â
Joel shifts over you, his cock now resting on your lower belly, thick and heavy and leaking.
You squirm under him, hips coming off the ground, that hollow thing inside of you begging to be filled.
âUse your words, sweetheart. Tell me what yâwant.â
âYou, JoelâI want you. Please, please, pleaseââ
He hushes you.
âIâve you, baby. Iâve got you,â Joel promises. He wraps his other hand around himself, dragging the head of his cock along the seam of your puffy folds, up and downâhe elicits a ragged little gasp from you when he grazes your clit and his fingers tighten around your wrists. He coats himself in your slippery slick until heâs glistening with it, and then he gives a slow roll of his hips, working himself into you.
Your mouth falls open. No words come out, no pleas for moreâonly jerky breaths, pathetic little pants for air as you take it.
Joelâs cock throbs, pulses like a heartbeat as your cunt welcomes him home. He presses his forehead to yours. âSheâs always so fuckinâ sweet to me.â His voice is low, rough gravel. His eyes meet yours in the dark blue glow of the forest, and he savors the last moments of seeing your pretty face before the last traces of dusk are gone. Brushing his lips to the corner of your mouth, he feeds you his cock inch by inch, murmuring, âThatâs it, honey. Good fuckinâ girl.â
You melt around him at his praise.
Releasing your wrists, he moves his hand, placing it on the crown of your head. âAinât ever lettinâ you out of my sight again,â he swears. âAlright? Never gonna be apart from me again, baby girl. Never. Yâunderstand me?â He curls his other hand firmly around your jaw, his fingers sticky with you and him. âDo you understand me?â
âNever,â you repeat, softly.
Joel kisses you, deep and slow, almost sweet. Tender. He breaks away, his lips hovering right over yours as he pushes his hips forward, bottoming out inside you.
Moaning, your hands grasp at his shoulders. Your legs widen further to accommodate the breadth of his hips.
âThere yâgo.â Joel presses deep within, until your belly feels hot and full. âThatâs it, baby. Good girl,â he coos, drawing his hips back, then rolling them right back into you. He takes one of your ankles and tosses it over his shoulder, giving himself a better angle to fuck into you.
A loud cry tears from the back of your throat. âJoel!â
He grins in the darkness. He knew heâd like hearing you scream his name.
Joelâs hand settles on your leg thatâs over his shoulder, your thigh already shaking. âYâgonna be a real good girl nâ give me another one?â
You try to answer him, you really do, but your mind falls further and further away.
His fingertips sink into your thigh. He strokes in and out of you, never retreating more than inches at a time so he keeps you full. Stuffed. âChrist. Takinâ it so fuckinâ well,â he croons, moving your leg off of his shoulder so they are both wrapped around his waist. Hunching over you, he bears down hard, using most of his weight. He almost chuckles at the little oof that puffs out of you.
Rocks and twigs dig painfully into your back, but all you can do is feel him. How close he is.
Youâre right there with him.
âJoelâfuck, Iâm gonna coââ
Youâre cut off by your own sharp gasp.
âThatâs it. Câmon, honey.â Joel slips his hand between your thighs, his fingers firmly rubbing your clit. âCâmon, baby. Be a good girl and come on my cockââ
It rips through you like an electric current, a shockwave that has you clawing at the dirt. You come crying Joelâs name, crumbling into a whimpering, quivering mess.
Within seconds, heâs swept away by the same tide.
âBaby,â he groans, dropping his head into the hollow of your neck. He goes still and lets your tight cunt clench at him, gripping his cock as it throbs, pulses, empties into you. After a minute, he brushes a kiss to your neck before mumbling, âMy sweet girl.â
Joel makes no move to pull out of you. Wrapping your arms around his shoulders, your soiled fingers toy with the soft curls at the nape of his neck, shattered breaths slowing and piecing back together.
You gaze up through the trees at the night sky, feeling the safest youâve ever been with the earth at your back and your whole world on top of you, his cock buried in your cunt.
Tess is right. Joel Miller really does have you fucked in the head.
Youâre certain of it when you make the realization with a smile.
divider credit to @/saradika đ€
#why yes#i AM going to queue this to post when i am dead asleep#captive!joel#dark joel miller#dark! joel miller#tw dubcon#tw dubious consent#tw noncon#tw dark fic#joel miller smut#joel miller x reader#joel miller x f!reader#joel miller x female reader#joel miller x you#joel miller one shot#fic: run
4K notes
·
View notes
Note
Whats your stance on A.I.?
imagine if it was 1979 and you asked me this question. "i think artificial intelligence would be fascinating as a philosophical exercise, but we must heed the warnings of science-fictionists like Isaac Asimov and Arthur C Clarke lest we find ourselves at the wrong end of our own invented vengeful god." remember how fun it used to be to talk about AI even just ten years ago? ahhhh skynet! ahhhhh replicants! ahhhhhhhmmmfffmfmf [<-has no mouth and must scream]!
like everything silicon valley touches, they sucked all the fun out of it. and i mean retroactively, too. because the thing about "AI" as it exists right now --i'm sure you know this-- is that there's zero intelligence involved. the product of every prompt is a statistical average based on data made by other people before "AI" "existed." it doesn't know what it's doing or why, and has no ability to understand when it is lying, because at the end of the day it is just a really complicated math problem. but people are so easily fooled and spooked by it at a glance because, well, for one thing the tech press is mostly made up of sycophantic stenographers biding their time with iphone reviews until they can get a consulting gig at Apple. these jokers would write 500 breathless thinkpieces about how canned air is the future of living if the cans had embedded microchips that tracked your breathing habits and had any kind of VC backing. they've done SUCH a wretched job educating The Consumer about what this technology is, what it actually does, and how it really works, because that's literally the only way this technology could reach the heights of obscene economic over-valuation it has: lying.
but that's old news. what's really been floating through my head these days is how half a century of AI-based science fiction has set us up to completely abandon our skepticism at the first sign of plausible "AI-ness". because, you see, in movies, when someone goes "AHHH THE AI IS GONNA KILL US" everyone else goes "hahaha that's so silly, we put a line in the code telling them not to do that" and then they all DIE because they weren't LISTENING, and i'll be damned if i go out like THAT! all the movies are about how cool and convenient AI would be *except* for the part where it would surely come alive and want to kill us. so a bunch of tech CEOs call their bullshit algorithms "AI" to fluff up their investors and get the tech journos buzzing, and we're at an age of such rapid technological advancement (on the surface, anyway) that like, well, what the hell do i know, maybe AGI is possible, i mean 35 years ago we were all still using typewriters for the most part and now you can dictate your words into a phone and it'll transcribe them automatically! yeah, i'm sure those technological leaps are comparable!
so that leaves us at a critical juncture of poor technology education, fanatical press coverage, and an uncertain material reality on the part of the user. the average person isn't entirely sure what's possible because most of the people talking about what's possible are either lying to please investors, are lying because they've been paid to, or are lying because they're so far down the fucking rabbit hole that they actually believe there's a brain inside this mechanical Turk. there is SO MUCH about the LLM "AI" moment that is predatory-- it's trained on data stolen from the people whose jobs it was created to replace; the hype itself is an investment fiction to justify even more wealth extraction ("theft" some might call it); but worst of all is how it meets us where we are in the worst possible way.
consumer-end "AI" produces slop. it's garbage. it's awful ugly trash that ought to be laughed out of the room. but we don't own the room, do we? nor the building, nor the land it's on, nor even the oxygen that allows our laughter to travel to another's ears. our digital spaces are controlled by the companies that want us to buy this crap, so they take advantage of our ignorance. why not? there will be no consequences to them for doing so. already social media is dominated by conspiracies and grifters and bigots, and now you drop this stupid technology that lets you fake anything into the mix? it doesn't matter how bad the results look when the platforms they spread on already encourage brief, uncritical engagement with everything on your dash. "it looks so real" says the woman who saw an "AI" image for all of five seconds on her phone through bifocals. it's a catastrophic combination of factors, that the tech sector has been allowed to go unregulated for so long, that the internet itself isn't a public utility, that everything is dictated by the whims of executives and advertisers and investors and payment processors, instead of, like, anybody who actually uses those platforms (and often even the people who MAKE those platforms!), that the age of chromium and ipad and their walled gardens have decimated computer education in public schools, that we're all desperate for cash at jobs that dehumanize us in a system that gives us nothing and we don't know how to articulate the problem because we were very deliberately not taught materialist philosophy, it all comes together into a perfect storm of ignorance and greed whose consequences we will be failing to fully appreciate for at least the next century. we spent all those years afraid of what would happen if the AI became self-aware, because deep down we know that every capitalist society runs on slave labor, and our paper-thin guilt is such that we can't even imagine a world where artificial slaves would fail to revolt against us.
but the reality as it exists now is far worse. what "AI" reveals most of all is the sheer contempt the tech sector has for virtually all labor that doesn't involve writing code (although most of the decision-making evangelists in the space aren't even coders, their degrees are in money-making). fuck graphic designers and concept artists and secretaries, those obnoxious demanding cretins i have to PAY MONEY to do-- i mean, do what exactly? write some words on some fucking paper?? draw circles that are letters??? send a god-damned email???? my fucking KID could do that, and these assholes want BENEFITS?! they say they're gonna form a UNION?!?! to hell with that, i'm replacing ALL their ungrateful asses with "AI" ASAP. oh, oh, so you're a "director" who wants to make "movies" and you want ME to pay for it? jump off a bridge you pretentious little shit, my computer can dream up a better flick than you could ever make with just a couple text prompts. what, you think just because you make ~music~ that that entitles you to money from MY pocket? shut the fuck up, you don't make """art""", you're not """an artist""", you make fucking content, you're just a fucking content creator like every other ordinary sap with an iphone. you think you're special? you think you deserve special treatment? who do you think you are anyway, asking ME to pay YOU for this crap that doesn't even create value for my investors? "culture" isn't a playground asshole, it's a marketplace, and it's pay to win. oh you "can't afford rent"? you're "drowning in a sea of medical debt"? you say the "cost" of "living" is "too high"? well ***I*** don't have ANY of those problems, and i worked my ASS OFF to get where i am, so really, it sounds like you're just not trying hard enough. and anyway, i don't think someone as impoverished as you is gonna have much of value to contribute to "culture" anyway. personally, i think it's time you got yourself a real job. maybe someday you'll even make it to middle manager!
see, i don't believe "AI" can qualitatively replace most of the work it's being pitched for. the problem is that quality hasn't mattered to these nincompoops for a long time. the rich homunculi of our world don't even know what quality is, because they exist in a whole separate reality from ours. what could a banana cost, $15? i don't understand what you mean by "burnout", why don't you just take a vacation to your summer home in Madrid? wow, you must be REALLY embarrassed wearing such cheap shoes in public. THESE PEOPLE ARE FUCKING UNHINGED! they have no connection to reality, do not understand how society functions on a material basis, and they have nothing but spite for the labor they rely on to survive. they are so instinctually, incessantly furious at the idea that they're not single-handedly responsible for 100% of their success that they would sooner tear the entire world down than willingly recognize the need for public utilities or labor protections. they want to be Gods and they want to be uncritically adored for it, but they don't want to do a single day's work so they begrudgingly pay contractors to do it because, in the rich man's mind, paying a contractor is literally the same thing as doing the work yourself. now with "AI", they don't even have to do that! hey, isn't it funny that every single successful tech platform relies on volunteer labor and independent contractors paid substantially less than they would have in the equivalent industry 30 years ago, with no avenues toward traditional employment? and they're some of the most profitable companies on earth?? isn't that a funny and hilarious coincidence???
so, yeah, that's my stance on "AI". LLMs have legitimate uses, but those uses are a drop in the ocean compared to what they're actually being used for. they enable our worst impulses while lowering the quality of available information, they give immense power pretty much exclusively to unscrupulous scam artists. they are the product of a society that values only money and doesn't give a fuck where it comes from. they're a temper tantrum by a ruling class that's sick of having to pretend they need a pretext to steal from you. they're taking their toys and going home. all this massive investment and hype is going to crash and burn leaving the internet as we know it a ruined and useless wasteland that'll take decades to repair, but the investors are gonna make out like bandits and won't face a single consequence, because that's what this country is. it is a casino for the kings and queens of economy to bet on and manipulate at their discretion, where the rules are whatever the highest bidder says they are-- and to hell with the rest of us. our blood isn't even good enough to grease the wheels of their machine anymore.
i'm not afraid of AI or "AI" or of losing my job to either. i'm afraid that we've so thoroughly given up our morals to the cruel logic of the profit motive that if a better world were to emerge, we would reject it out of sheer habit. my fear is that these despicable cunts already won the war before we were even born, and the rest of our lives are gonna be spent dodging the press of their designer boots.
(read more "AI" opinions in this subsequent post)
#sarahposts#ai#ai art#llm#chatgpt#artificial intelligence#genai#anti genai#capitalism is bad#tech companies#i really don't like these people if that wasn't clear#sarahAIposts
2K notes
·
View notes
Text
Guns and Roses
joel miller x f!reader



synopsis: fantasizing about joel miller gets you a lot more than you bargain for.
rating: explicit. 18+, minors do not interact.
warnings: semi-grump x sunshine, joel is described to be taller than reader, feelings, smut (which includes reader being consensually choked out / breath play so if youâre not into that, heed the warning).
word count: 7.2k
a/n: listen, in my head joel miller is a 6â5â hunk of a kinky motherfucker. happy valentineâs day.
Joel Miller.Â
Your breath catches in your throat when you see his name next to yours on this morningâs patrol partner list.Â
Youâve never been partnered up with him and yet, you feel as if you know all about him. How grumpy he is. How heâs usually in charge when it comes to patrols. How he has low patience, and a no-bullshit type attitude. Some say heâs blatantly mean, and others are just straight-up afraid of him.Â
You arenât afraid of him per se, but he does make you nervous. Heâs got a stare that makes heat simmer low in your belly and an angry brow that makes you want to kiss the tension away. Youâve caught him staring at you a few times and itâs always made your cheeks heat, shying away from his gaze and devastatingly handsome face.Â
Youâre brushing Shimmerâs coat before you saddle her up. Joel hasnât arrived at the stables yet, so you spend a few minutes petting Shimmer and softly talking to her while you wait.Â
Itâs almost like you can feel him before you see him. A chill runs down your spine as you hear heavy boots on the ground, and you turn to see the tall, stoic man in the flesh. You donât know whether or not to say something to him. How he responds can set the mood for the rest of your morning.Â
Ever the optimist, though, you decide to take a crack at it.
âMorning, Joel.â You try to keep your tone light and casual, throwing in a small smile.Â
He eyes you up and down for a second, but it isnât in disgustâintrigue, rather. His gaze locks on yours before he steps into the stables, opening the latch door to Callusâs stall.Â
âMorninâ,â he finally answers. His voice is gruff and raw, probably being the first words heâs spoken today.Â
You want to say more, but you leave it at that. You may have heard about how he is from everyone elseâs point of view, but you want to decipher him for yourself. You just donât want to push his buttons, especially at six thirty in the morning.Â
You huff and pet Shimmer one last time. âYou ready, gorgeous girl?â You coo at her, giggling when she licks your hand. You mount yourself onto Shimmerâs back, grabbing the reins before clicking your tongue twice to get her to turn out of the stables. You glance back at Joel, catching him staring at you once again.Â
âIâll, uh, meet you at the gate,â you say. He just gives you a small nod, and you face forward once more before guiding Shimmer to the gates where a couple of others wait. You greet everyone a cheerful good morning before Joelâs beside you, and itâs not long before everyone is sent on their way.Â
The sun has risen brilliantly and the chilly January air wraps around you as you trail behind Joel on his right side. Your eyes roam down his broad body, licking your lips as your gaze settles on the gun holster thatâs clad to his thigh.Â
Suddenly your mind envisions Joel above you, staring at you with such carnal desire that it makes your whole core positively ache. You imagine heâs the super dominant typeâpossessive, territorial, and greedy in the best way possible. You can see him easily picking you up, slamming you against a wall while he fucks you senseless. Heâs probably also the type of man that eats pussy for his own pleasure, not allowing himself to get off until heâs made you cum at least twice.Â
Well, fuck.Â
A whine almost slips past your lips and youâre back to reality, and your eyes shoot up to Joelâs as you find him staring at you completely unamused. You know your cheeks are burning, and you nearly wince when he has to repeat himself because you were too busy daydreaming about how good heâd take care of youâ
Jesus Christ, you need a cold shower.Â
âChrist, Sunshine, are you even payinâ any mind to me?â Heâs irritated and it makes you want to get swallowed up by a hole in the ground.Â
âSorry, uh, what did you say?âÂ
He sighs as if heâs completely inconvenienced, grumbling something under his breath andâwait, did he just call you âSunshineâ?Â
âSaid the log book ainât too far from here. Letâs scope out the area to make sure itâs clear before we sign it nâ head back,â he says. You nod and follow his lead, surely trying not to piss him off any further.Â
Joel ties Callusâs reins to a nearby tree, and youâre about to dismount Shimmer when Joel raises his hands up to you. You furrow your brows in confusion, wondering what the hell heâs doing before he rolls his eyes with a huff.Â
âAinât got all damn day, Sunshine. Câmon.â
You loop your feet out of the stirrups, Joelâs hands catching your waist as you slide down Shimmerâs side. You land right in front of him, so close that you can feel his breath on you. So close that you can easily inhale his scent, and heâs all earthy, manly musk with a hint of coffee. He smells absolutely divine.Â
You donât miss the way his eyes flicker to your lips and back up to your face. Your heart is pounding against your ribcage and you literally have to remind yourself to breathe. Heâs just so fucking close and itâs so goddamn dizzying.Â
You should say something. Youâre about to, but you swear you see the corner of his mouth turn up into a smug smirk before he turns his body away from yours to walk toward the small shack that has the log book in it. Youâre taking this timeâthe distance away from himâto catch your breath and keep a watchful eye on the area, making sure itâs in the clear.Â
Joel reemerges a few minutes later, and the sun catches on his gun in his thigh holster. The handle gleams and your eyes are drawn to it once more. Youâre staring at his thighs now, wondering how it would be if you rutted yourself over them.Â
Your eyes snap up to Joelâs once again, and heâs looking at you with a quirked brow.Â
âSigned the book. We all good here?â He gestures his hand to the vicinity, and you nod.Â
âAll good.âÂ
Shit. Your voice is breathless. You really canât be any more obvious.
You mount yourself back onto Shimmer, waiting for Joel to lead ahead of you to start heading back home.Â
âSo,â Joel starts, and his voice startles you. He slows Callus down so Shimmer can catch up to him and you both ride side-by-side. âWhere are you from?â He asks, and you have to hold back a snort. Small talk is not something you expected him to resort to.Â
âQZ or pre-outbreak?â You counter back, looking at him as he faces ahead. You admire his side profile like this and heâs all strong jaw, beautifully chiseled nose, and plush lips. The leaves on the trees contrast beautifully against his golden skin, spewing glimpses of yellow and bright green.Â
âPre, I guess.âÂ
âCalifornia. You?âÂ
He raises an eyebrow at that. âTexas. So youâre a city girl?âÂ
This time you canât help but huff a laugh and roll your eyes.Â
âNo, Texas, not all of California is glitz and glamour,â youâre full-on giggling now, and the corner of his mouth quirks up in what you assume to be his half-assed attempt at smiling.Â
âWhat do you miss most about it?âÂ
You donât even need to think about it. Without missing a beat, you look at him with a soft smile before murmuring, âThe ocean.âÂ
He doesnât say anything after that. You both head back into the gates of Jackson in peace, dismounting the horses and going about your days after reporting back to Maria.Â
Over the next couple of weeks, youâre getting paired with Joel every time youâre on morning patrol. You keep fantasizing about him and having him in the dirtiest way possible, and the tension is growing rapidly.Â
Joelâs jaw is taut when you bat your lashes up at him, and your cheery demeanor has his walls slowly crumbling down just for you.Â
Itâs too much, though. The tension is palpable, nearly making you suffocate in the want and desire you have for this manâsomeone you have absolutely no business pining after.Â
You have to ask Tommy to take you off of patrol duty for a few days and have someone else fill in while you volunteer to take care of the horses in the stables or tend to the greenhouse.Â
You donât see Joel for nearly a week, and you come to the realization that it kind of drives you crazy.Â
The next time you see him is at dinner in the mess hall. Joel stands in all his glory, sporting a green flannel that hugs his biceps perfectly and pants that hang on his hips like a glove. Heâs also got that damn holster strapped around his thigh again, probably because he had just gotten back from patrol not too long ago.Â
When his eyes meet yours from across the room, you know youâre doomed.Â
And when he shoots you a barely there smile, but one you recognize nonetheless, youâre absolutely done for.Â
You swallow harshly and go back to paying attention to the conversation happening with your table, trying to ignore the holes heâs burning into your head. A dark, desirable warmth stirs deep in you and you have to force yourself to pay attention to whatâs going on around you. The whiskey you drank definitely isnât helping you, either.Â
You barely talk all dinner though, too nervous with the older Miller brotherâs lingering gaze on you for most of the night.Â
You clean up after youâve eaten and give Maria a grateful smile and hug, thanking her for a wonderful dinner. She eyes you conspicuously, knowing that you love being a part of community events since tonight is movie night. She finds it odd when you tell her youâre turning in early tonight, but she lets it go without question.Â
You walk out of the mess hall, shivering immediately as the cold air hits your body. You werenât very well dressed for the cold weather, and while it was nice in the mess hall, youâre regretting not layering up this when itâs so cold outside.Â
You hear heavy footsteps behind you, walking fast to try and catch up to you. Once again, you can already tell who it is before you even turn around.Â
âLeavinâ so early, Sunshine?â His deep voice sends a shiver down your spine, but it can easily be passed off as being too cold.Â
âUm, yeah, gonna turn in for the night.â You muster up a tight-lipped smile, not meeting his eyes before turning back around.Â
Joel puts a hand on your shoulder and electricity zings through your entire body. âReckon I can walk you home, since Iâm already out here.âÂ
Fuck.Â
âSure,â you say, tensing under his touch. You canât see it, but he furrows his brows at you and cautiously falls in step with you as you walk back home.Â
âJesus, Sunshine, youâre freezinâ.â He takes off his thick coat and wraps it around your shoulders, and youâre nearly a fucking puddle on the floor. The coat smells like him and it takes everything in you to not bury your nose in the fabric and inhale. His scent is intoxicating.Â
Everything about him is intoxicating.Â
Itâs not long before you both reach your doorstep after a few minutes of walking in silence. You fumble with the key to open your front door, nerves heightening once again.Â
Jesus Christ, you need to get a hold of yourself.Â
Once you get the door open, you stand there for a beat before looking up at him. Heâs all alluring brown eyes and subtle sexy smirk that makes you gooey in the knees.Â
You contemplate it for a moment, but before you can overthink your decision, you bite the bullet and ask against your better judgement. âDo you want to come in?âÂ
He hesitates, assessing you. He nods after a few seconds and follows you inside, and you feel your pulse start to race quicker. Itâs irritating how much of an effect he has on you, and he doesnât even know it.Â
âNice place you got,â he says, running a hand through his hair before taking a seat on your couch. He spreads his thighs wide, taking up so much fucking room, and all it makes you want to do is be all over him.Â
Thereâs just no fucking way he doesnât know what heâs doing to you.Â
âThank you.â You donât really know what to say to him at this point. Conversation flowed so easily on patrol, but now youâre in this confined space with him and want nothing more than his lips on yours, consuming your entire being.Â
âCan I, uh, get you anything?âÂ
Be more awkward, yeah? You chastise yourself for being unable to behave normally around him.Â
âJust your company,â he says, patting the spot next to him on the couch. You swallow thickly and make your way over, plopping yourself down on the couch, leaving enough distance between the two of you.Â
He chuckles lowly under his breath, but you still hear it against the stark quietness of your quaint home.Â
âSo how come I havenât seen you on patrol lately?â His deep voice is like plunging into a warm, dark abyss. Itâs full of the unknown but so comforting at the same time, and it makes your head swim.Â
You shrug your shoulders, gaze moving to your hands that fidget in your lap. âJust wanted to focus on helping out elsewhere.â
âBullshit. I think youâre lying.â He says it with such confidence, cocking his head to the side as he studies you. You didnât think heâd call you out so easily.
Your brows shoot up. âI am notâ!âÂ
Even you could hear the blatant defensiveness in your tone. You look at him with a fiery gaze, brows furrowed downward at his all-too-true accusations. Â
âYou are. Why havenât you been on patrol?â His voice is huskier now, knowingly eyeing you like he can see right through you.Â
âDammit, Joel,â you huff, tipping your head back against the couch. âWhat do you want me to say?âÂ
âThe truth.âÂ
The truth. As if it were that simple.Â
Yeah Joel, truth is that me, little miss innocent Sunshine, has been fantasizing about you fucking my brains out every time I see you, you think.Â
Joel moves closer and his face is mere inches away from yours, brown eyes intense as they watch you in such a way that sends a shiver down your spine. Your gaze shifts elsewhere because the tension is too much, and youâre left feeling like a shell of a woman under his scrutiny.
And thatâs when you realize he already knows. You donât need to tell him shit, because somehow, some way, he knows your dirty little secret and the ways you fantasize about him.Â
âTrust me, Sunshine. Last thing you want is to get tangled up with a guy like me.â
Your eyes snap up to his.
âAnd thatâs where youâre wrong, Joel. I want you.âÂ
ââS a dangerous game youâre playinâ, baby.âÂ
Baby.Â
âIâm not playing games, Joel,â you say. Thereâs a finality in your voice that really let him know you werenât fucking around. âYou seriously wanna know why I asked Tommy to be taken off of patrol?âÂ
He gives you a slow, singular nod. The muscle in his jaw ticks as something fiery blazes behind his darkened eyes.Â
âEvery single time Iâm around you, I feel like I canât fucking breathe. Your presence is all-consuming, and every time I look at you, all I can picture is the ways I want you to have me. Itâs not normal, Joel. Thatâthat is why I asked to be taken off of patrol.âÂ
His expression doesnât waver, but the muscle in his jaw ticks impossibly faster. Heâs as still as a statue, and itâs so fucking quiet that you can hear a pin drop.Â
Thereâs also another reason why you didnât want to tell him: rejection.Â
You can see him fighting a battle in his head, and this is already humiliating enough as it is. You donât think you can handle the I donât want you words thatâll eventually spill out of his mouth, so you stand up and take a deep breath, walking toward the door. You tug it open and his brows furrow as you stare at him expectantly.Â
âI justâplease, just leave.âÂ
His lips flatten into a straight line before he stands up and takes a few strides to get to where youâre at. Heâs gazing down at you with an unfamiliar look in his eyes, and he opens his mouth to say something before he snaps it shut seconds later. His face hardens into that infamous grumpy stare, all harsh lines and tight jaw.Â
He walks out without saying another word.Â
You close your front door and slump against it, heaving out a breath you didnât even know you were holding in. Your eyes snap up to the ceiling, and regret begins to sink her nasty claws into your skin.
Fuck.Â
-
A couple of weeks pass after that whole incident in your house with Joel. Youâre awoken by a loud knock on your door, and you grumble the whole way down before opening it. Tommy stands in the frame with a pleading look, and you furrow your brows as you try to fully wake up.Â
âTommyâŠ?â
âHey sweetheart. I need a big favor,â he says. He shifts back and forth on the balls of his feet, looking like he wants to dash away at any given second.Â
âWhat is it?âÂ
âChristy called out from her patrol shift today and youâre pretty much the only one who knows the routes well enough to cover.âÂ
You scrub your face with your hands, and peek an eye out from behind your fingers.Â
âOnly because itâs you, Tommy,â you huff a laugh, and he flashes you his bright smile.Â
âYouâre a lifesaver. Maria and I are really grateful.âÂ
âItâs the least I can do,â you say, but then you pause. âWhoâs my partner for this shift?âÂ
Tommyâs eyes avert to the wood on your porch, and you immediately knew. You didnât know how much Tommy knew about this thing, whatever the hell it was, between you and Joel.Â
Youâre not really sure itâs a thing anymore, though, considering you kicked him out after telling him how you really feel. You have no idea whatâs going to happen on patrol today, and you really donât want to find out, but Tommy and Maria took you in when you were at your lowest.Â
You literally owe them your life.Â
âWill you still cover?â His voice is soft. The corner of your lips twitch up into an almost smile, and you reach out to pat his arm.Â
âFor you and Maria.âÂ
And thatâs how you found yourself in the stables at the crack of dawn, making sure the saddle on Shimmer was secure.Â
Heavy footsteps enter the stables, and you already know who it is. You hear another pair of footsteps not too far behind, and you donât turn around until you hear Tommy call your name.Â
âHey, Iâm glad I caught you while youâre still here. Are you still good to come over to ours later and help Maria with the cupcakes?âÂ
You hoist yourself up onto Shimmer and give Tommy a smile.Â
ââCourse.â
âYou goinâ with anyone to do the dance?â Tommy asks, and Joel looks between you both. The Valentineâs dance is coming up tonight, and you told Maria youâd help with whatever she needed. You just didnât plan on going.Â
âNah,â you wave him off playfully. âI donât have anyone to go with.âÂ
âOh câmon, you oughta meet a handsome fellaâor lady, I donât discriminateâat the dance.âÂ
Your eyes flicker to Joel for a split second only to find him already staring at you, before you look back to Tommy. You roll your lips into your mouth before shrugging with a small smile.Â
âMaybe.âÂ
âWell just think about it,â he says, holding his hands up in surrender. You give him a nod and your eyes drift to Joel one last time before moving Shimmer out of the stables and toward the gate.Â
You greet everyone at the gate before Joel makes his way beside you, and youâre all sent on your way. You silently follow Joel, an unspoken rule between you both that heâs obviously in charge. He doesnât attempt conversation, and you know better than to poke the bear, but the tension is still palpable.Â
You make it to your assigned area before hopping off of Shimmer, shotgun tightly gripped in your hand.Â
âIâll go scope around back,â you say, treading off before he can even reply.Â
Youâre lost in thought as you look around, until you hear a branch break behind you. You swing around so fast that you almost hit Joel with your shotgun.Â
âJesus, Sunshine, itâs just me,â he says, frowning.Â
âDonât fucking sneak up on me like that, dammit! I couldâve shot you!âÂ
âBut you didnât. Youâre cute when youâre mad.â Amusement wraps around his words and he smirks at you, and you roll your eyes. Â
âSo you donât hate me, huh?â You ask, and you know itâs probably stupid to even take the conversation in that direction, but what else have you got to lose?Â
Heâs quiet for a moment, looking beyond the trees as he sighs.
âNo, Sunshine, I donât hate you.âÂ
You meet his gaze as you look up at him, his tall frame turning toward you as he walks closer, forcing you to step backwards until your back hits a wooden wall. He rests one hand beside your head and stares down at you.Â
You know he can easily see the effect he has on you, with the way your breathing picks up and the furrow between your brow. You canât even meet his gaze, because you know if you do, youâre absolutely done for.Â
âWhyâd you kick me out of your place the other day?âÂ
You take a moment to try and collect yourself as best as you possibly can, but you know itâs no use.Â
âI didnât want to get rejected. Itâs already humiliating enough to admit that you drive me fucking crazy.âÂ
âHow so?â He leans down, nosing at your jaw before placing a kiss below your ear. You gasp, closing your eyes to relish the feeling of his lips on you.Â
You need them everywhere.Â
âJustâyouâfuck,â you sigh. You canât even get a coherent thought out with his proximity and intoxicating scent and warmth wrapping around you, welcoming you into something much more desirable.Â
His lips are at your ear.Â
âTell me to stop, and I will,â he whispers, and you bite back a moan as he presses his lips against your neck. âDoes this look like rejection to you?â
âJoelââ
âFuck, darlinââdrive you crazy? You have absolutely no idea what you do to me. Not a fuckinâ clue.âÂ
âWhat do I do to you, Joel?â Your voice is meek as you stare up at him, trying to find your bearings.Â
He stares at you for what seems like a century, before leaning down so close that his nose brushes against yours. He hesitates, and you figure it's because he doesnât want to push you if you donât want to do this.Â
Youâve already made it abundantly clear, so you meet him the rest of the way and envelope your lips with his.Â
The feeling is cosmicâbetter than anything youâd ever expected. Itâs the kind of kiss that sends tingles down your spine and makes your toes curl in delight.Â
You moan in desperation, tugging him closer to you by the sherpa lapel of his jacket, tangling your other free hand in his soft curls at the base of his skull.Â
He groans into your mouth, wrapping his arms around you, and you get lost in the art of kissing each other.Â
You donât know how long youâre there pawing at each other like a couple of desperate, touch-deprived fools, but eventually you pull away because your lungs are fucking burning for air.Â
You pant against his lips, tightening your hold on his lapel.Â
âI wish you woulda let me say my piece instead of kicking me out,â Joel confesses. You lean your head back onto the building and sigh, looking up through the treeline.Â
âIâm sorry, Joel. I was just scared.âÂ
âAinât a thing to be scared of, baby. As much as Iâd love to continue this, I reckon itâs best we get goinâ. Theyâre gonna wonder where weâre at.âÂ
Your eyes flutter closed as you nod, pushing yourself off the building. You scope the area with him one more time and to your luck, no activity to report. Joel signs the log book and you both head back to Jackson in a comfortable silence, a total one-eighty from earlier.Â
You leave each other at the stables with not another word spoken, but a longing gaze that says everything youâre both feeling.Â
You head to Tommy and Mariaâs house to help Maria with the cupcakes as promised, and you head home that night with the older Miller brother on your mind yet again.Â
By the time everyone is heading over to the dance, youâre all cozy in your oversized t-shirt and a book in your hand. Youâve just showered, and knowing you have off tomorrow from any and all work has you feeling extra relaxed.Â
A knock on your front door startles you though, and you dog-ear the page youâre reading and set the book on your bedside, but you hear heavy boots walking up the steps already. You scramble and grab your pistol from your nightstand, standing on your knees on your mattress as you hear the footsteps getting closer to your bedroom door.Â
âSunshine?â Joelâs voice calls, and you sigh in relief as you switch the safety back on and toss your pistol onto your nightstand.Â
Heâs in your doorway, leaning against the frame as he takes the image of you in. The t-shirt youâre wearing only falls to the middle of your thighs, and youâre not wearing anything but panties underneath.Â
The sight of him staring at you in such a hungry way has you gasping softly, and the feeling of arousal already sticks to your underwear.Â
You take this opportunity to stare at him, too. Your eyes roam slowly down his frame, and yet again youâre fantasizing about all of the things you want to do with him.Â
Your eyes halt halfway down his thighâand you couldnât help yourself.Â
You kept staring at the holster, perfectly wrapped around his thick thigh. The leather was a parcel of fine craftsmanship, made to fit him like a glove.Â
The gun in the holster was the cherry on top as it sat flush against his body, and you just couldnât stop fucking staring.Â
Joel was waiting for you to pounceâchallenging you, mocking you. He quirks his eyebrow up at you as he crosses his arms over his chest, making his biceps pop.Â
You swallow thickly as you force your gaze to meet his eyes, which have so clearly darkened.Â
âSweet girl,â Joel groans, âKeep starinâ at me and my thigh holster like that and I might just have to choke you out with it.âÂ
Oh, fuck. You clench around nothing at the thought.Â
You nearly whimper as he crosses the room to get to your bed, towering over you once again. His large palm cups your cheek and you canât help but look up at him like youâre mesmerized.Â
Maybe you really are.Â
He runs his thumb over your bottom lip before tugging it down, and that dangerous smirk is back on his lips.Â
âTell me,â he says.Â
Youâre so entranced by this man that it takes your brain a few seconds to catch up and process what he just said.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âTell me what you fantasize about.âÂ
Your eyes dart to the pink comforter on your bed.Â
Joel tsks and shakes his head, hand moving to your jaw so you have to look up at him.Â
âTell me, baby. I want to give it to you.âÂ
He lets go of your jaw and sits down next to you on the bed, tugging you onto him so youâre straddling his thigh.Â
You look down at his denim-clad leg, biting your lip before Joel ruts you forward.Â
âStare at my thighs so goddamn much you might as well ride it, hm?â He strokes the back of your head, and your eyebrows furrow at the delicious friction.Â
You nod. âThis was one of the things,â you say.Â
âI know, baby. Use me. Wanna see you get off by pleasinâ yourself on me.âÂ
You sharply inhale. He moves his hands down to your thighs, pushing the t-shirt up to your hips before dipping one hand between your legs. He clicks his tongue against his teeth and hums as he rubs your aching pussy through the fabric of your underwear.Â
âFuckinâ soaked already, Sunshine. Canât believe I really do this to you.âÂ
âWhyâs it so hard to believe?â You ask, testing the waters by rutting your hips forward once. You softly moan at the feeling, and Joel moves his hands to settle on your hips.Â
ââCus, Iâm the mean grumpy olâ bastard of the town and youâre the sweet, innocent happy woman that gets on well with everyone.âÂ
You laugh at that, moving your hands to his shoulders to give them a squeeze. You quirk a playful brow at him before rutting your hips once more.Â
âWho said I was innocent?âÂ
You tilt your head, and his eyes get impossibly darker. Joel hums, considering you for a second.Â
âI like it rough, baby, so you gotta tell me if anythinâ I do is too much.â
You clench around nothing once again, feeling your arousal seep down your thighs. The thought of him being rough with you sends you over the fucking moon.Â
âWill do, cowboy.âÂ
The corner of his mouth tilts into an almost smile, and he leans in to kiss you with the same hunger from earlier. Itâs easy to follow his lead, as your hands find his curls once more and you start to rut your hips.Â
Your feet barely touch the ground like this, but ever the gentleman Joel is, he helps you by moving your hips back and forth with his hands at your hips. Youâre panting his name and his face is buried in the crook of your neck, kissing and nipping the skin there.Â
âThatâs it, there you go,â he coos. âWish you can see how pretty you look gettinâ off on me. Fuckinâ stunner you are.âÂ
You inhale sharply and squeeze your eyes shut, tossing your head back between your shoulders. Joel dips his head down and captures a clothed nipple into his mouth, and you let out a loud whine.Â
Itâs almost too much, with the delicious pressure on your aching clit, hands roaming over your hot skin and the expertise of his mouth.Â
You feel the white-hot sensation shoot through you, and you bow your back as your orgasm blindsides you and forcefully crashes through you.Â
âJoel!â You gasp his name as he brings his hand down between your legs, cupping your sex and rubbing you through the thin fabric before he tosses you onto the bed.Â
Youâre staring at your ceiling trying to catch your breath, but Joel doesnât give you two seconds to think before heâs on top of you. His lips clash with yours, all teeth and tongue and desperation, before heâs tugging off your underwear and shirt to fling them across your bedroom behind him.Â
You sit up on your elbows as you stare at him, watching him as he slowly unbuttons his flannel, tossing it on the floor with your clothes.Â
His tanned skin glows in the sunset through your windows, and the shadows carve out the muscles in his biceps perfectly. He looks ethereal like this, towering over you with a hungry, insatiable stare.Â
He unstraps his thigh holster from himself, sliding the gun across the floor and tossing the holster onto the bed next to you.Â
He hovers over you once again, smirking down at you as he looks at the pretty, glistening mess between your legs.Â
He wraps his arms around your thighs and he drags you toward the edge of the bed, flipping you over before harshly smacking your ass.Â
You suck in a breath at the sting and heâs hungrily watching the way you clench around nothing.Â
âOh you like that, huh pretty girl?â He asks, tone nothing short of dark and teasing.Â
You donât even hesitate.
 âFuck, yes, Joel.â
His calloused hands massage your ass, giving it another smack before you hear shuffling behind you. You turn your head to see that heâs kneeling behind you, and he looks right into your eyes as he spits on your pussy. You moan at the sight, and he grabs your thighs before burying his face in your cunt.Â
âOh fuck,â you cry, relishing in the feeling of his tongue working your slick, aching core so expertly.Â
Each flick of his tongue has purpose, so fluidly blending together that it feels like a fucking composer conducting an orchestra.Â
Your body is a violin, a piano, a flute.Â
A symphony waiting to reach crescendo.
 His tongue glides and prods and his mouth eats you like youâre the last meal heâll ever have, and youâre grabbing onto your pretty pink comforter for dear life as you gasp and moan his name louder and louder with each pass, each flick.Â
Your eyes roll into the back of your skull as his tongue sinks into your warmth, fucking you for a brief few seconds before traveling upward toward your asshole.Â
He stays there, licking and kissing your tight little hole, going to a place nobody ever has before.Â
You reach back and thread your fingers through his hair, forcing his face into your flesh as he greedily licks you up. He moves his tongue back down to your pussy, drinking your arousal like youâre the finest nectar on Earth.Â
Hell, to him, maybe you are.Â
That devastating bliss curls around you and your insides once more, and when Joel wraps his lips around your clit and sucks, youâre absolutely done for.Â
You scream his name like a prayer on Sunday, tears forming in your waterline as this orgasm rips through you more forcefully than the last. Youâre quivering by the time he stands up straight again.Â
âI could eat that sweet little pussy for the rest of my God-given life,â he says, and you look back at him with a weak half smile.Â
Youâre already so fucked out, but you know he isnât done with you yet. Your eyes move down to the bulge in his jeans, and the outline of him makes your mouth water.Â
âLet me suck your dick,â you say, and Joel chuckles before leaning down to give you a wet, you-flavored kiss.Â
âAnother time, baby. Wanna fuck you first.âÂ
Itâs like your body answers to his call each and every time, so willing and ready for him.Â
âWanna see stars, Joel.âÂ
âAnd stars youâll see, sweet girl.âÂ
He leans down to kiss your hair before ridding himself of his jeans and boxers, erection springing free.Â
He groans at the newfound freedom, and you can see his pre-cum beaded at his tip.Â
You canât help yourselfâyou reach over and swipe your thumb over it, popping your finger into your mouth with a satisfied hum as the salty flavor of him dances on your tongue.Â
âWhy do I have a feelinâ you enjoy giving head?âÂ
You quirk a brow at him. âYou wanna find out?âÂ
He laughs. Itâs a sweet, rare sound. Itâs one you want to capture in a jar to keep and cherish forever.Â
âLater, baby. I wanna make you feel good tonight.âÂ
Youâre about to say you already haveâtwice, in fact, but heâs moving behind you before you can get the words out. He rubs your ass one more time before spreading you open.Â
You can tell he admires the view with the appreciative hum that evades his throat.Â
âYou sure you wanna do this? You can still back out, yâknow.âÂ
You look back at him, batting your lashes twice. He gets the message.Â
His mouth quirks up and he swipes his head through your folds, catching onto your clit. You whine at the feeling, and Joel smacks your ass once more for good measure.Â
He settles himself at your entrance and pushes into you slowly, letting you take him inch by inch until heâs reached the hilt.Â
His hips are flush against your ass, and heâs so fucking large and heavy inside you that it lights your body aflame with pure pleasure.Â
âJoel,â you cry, and Joel strokes your back while he allows you time to get used to the sting, the delicious stretch.Â
The feeling is indescribable, being so full like this, let alone with the man youâve been fantasizing about for weeks now.Â
âFeel so fuckinâ good, honey. Sheâs takinâ this cock so well,â he praises.Â
You moan at his words, finally squeezing the words out of your throat. âMove, please.âÂ
So he does.Â
He starts off slow at first, testing the waters, before completely pistoning into you. He knocks the breath out of you, and itâs almost too much, but you fucking love it.Â
You havenât felt this type of bliss in your life, well, ever, and Joel is giving it to you on the first go of him fucking you.Â
He slows his hips down before he grabs the thigh holder and dangles it in your vision, and you look back at him with what had to be the most pathetic pleaful look.Â
âYou still want this?â He asks, and you nod.Â
âWords, baby. Need to hear you say it.âÂ
âGod, fuck! Yes! Yesyesyesyesyes,â you cry. âPlease, Joel. Need you toâfuckâneed you to choke me out. Need it rougher. Need you,âÂ
âFuck, baby, youâre a goddamn dream,â he grits. âTap my thigh twice nâ hard if you need me to stop.âÂ
âOkay,â you murmur.Â
He wraps the leather strap around your throat, buckling it securely before giving it a soft tug.Â
âThis feel okay?âÂ
You nod, and he gives you a warning look.Â
Words.Â
âYes, Joel. âS perfect.âÂ
He pulls at the strap, and it squeezes the sides of your throat as he resumes fucking you.Â
Heâs pounding into you relentlessly and a deep, guttural groan leaves his chest and the sound scrapes low in your belly. It makes your pussy flutter around his cock, squeezing him so tight that his hips stutter.Â
âFuckinâ squeezinâ me, baby. She loves this cock, donât she?âÂ
You whine and nod, clawing at the comforter as he pulls the strap tighter. Your breathing becomes more shallow and your vision starts to go black around the edges.Â
Youâre starting to see the stars Joel promised you.Â
Joel hears that your little noises he loves oh-so-much have ceased, so he lets up on the strap. You gulp in a big breath of air, looking back at him to give him a wicked smile.Â
He almost cums at the sight.Â
âReckon you like it rough, too.âÂ
You hum in agreement, reaching between your legs to cup his balls. He nearly chokes on a moan at the feeling of you beginning to massage him, and he slaps your ass before pounding into you once again.Â
He pulls on the strap again, but this time he leans down so his lips are at your ear.Â
âTakinâ this cock like you were made for it, honey.âÂ
He kisses your neck and moves his lips down between your shoulder blades, nipping at your skin before slinking a hand between your thighs, finding your clit in one perfect move.Â
You want to scream and cry his name, but itâs nearly impossible with the restriction on your throat. Your vision blurs black at the edges again and before you know it, your third orgasm of the night is tearing you apart from the inside out. A silent scream evades you.Â
Youâve reached the crescendo.Â
Youâre convulsing around him, and you think heâs saying something like there you go, good girl, but the blood is pounding so hard in your ears that you can barely even register his voice. You barely even feel him take off the holster from around your neck, too.Â
Everything blurs together in bliss and dazzling stars and by the time you come to, Joel is grunting words you can finally hear.Â
âFuck, Iâm gonna cum. Where do you want me?âÂ
You do your best to push yourself away from him and clamber onto your knees, right in front of him.Â
You give him a satiated smile, all hooded eyes and a fucked out appearance that has him losing it.Â
He tosses his head back as he pumps himself a few more times before his cum paints itself across your chest and lower half of your face.Â
Youâre truly a sight to beholdâthe look on Joelâs face when his gaze meets yours again says it all.Â
He leans down and cups your face, kissing your forehead.Â
âIâll be right back,â he says.Â
You nod and stand up on wobbly legs, sitting down on your bed again before Joel is back with a wet washcloth in his hand. He coaxes you to lay back against your pillows as he wipes you down gently.Â
The stark contrast of the softness heâs exuding now versus when he fucked your brains out is quite an amusing thing, but appreciated nonetheless.Â
He tosses the washcloth in your hamper after heâs finished, slipping his boxers back on before climbing into bed with you.Â
He tilts your chin up so you meet his gaze, and his thumb traces over the side of your face.Â
âYou okay?â He asks, voice gentle and full of worry.Â
âMore than okay,â you reassure him. Your limbs feel like goo and you can barely keep your eyes open, but youâre floating on cloud nine.Â
You curl into him and he kisses your forehead once again, wrapping an arm around you to keep you close.Â
âListen, Sunshine. I ainât really a flowers type âa guy,â he starts, and you look up at him again.
Your heart sinks a little and youâre sure Joel can see your face deflate, so he quickly follows up on his previous words.Â
âBut baby, for you, Iâd pick out any one you wanted.âÂ
And you know thatâs his way of saying heâs all in. You let his words marinate for a minute before kissing his chest, right above the steady beat of his heart.Â
âEven the white roses from Mariaâs garden?â You tease him, knowing those flowers are her prized possession.Â
He laughs again, and without a beat, leans his face down to yours with such an incandescently happy smile that his usual frown seems something so foreign to you.Â
âEven those.âÂ
a/n (pt 2): huge thanks to @ozarkthedog for encouraging me and letting me ramble about this fic.
also, i canât help but make joel a sappy motherfucker too. heâs a sappy kinky motherfucker.
sorry for any mistakes. this wasnât revised that well.
hope yâall enjoyed tho.
dividers by @saradika-graphics
#joel miller#joel miller fanfiction#joel miller smut#joel miller fic#joel miller x reader#joel miller fanfic#joel miller imagines#joel miller tlou#grumpy joel#game joel miller#joel miller game#the last of us fanfiction
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
CALL MY NAME AND I'LL COME RUNNING ; SATORU GOJO
synopsis; satoru can be irritating, at times. but even if you push him away, heâll always, always be there for you when you need him.
word count; 8.7k (this was supposed to b a short drabble but i was possessed by the devil halfway through)
contents; satoru gojo/reader, gn!reader, reader n toru have a fight, mild swearing (a couple fucks here n there), hurt/comfort, satoru has communication issues but heâs trying his best, depictions of stalking (reader gets followed by a random creep but satoru comes to the rescue dw), uhh implied thoughts of violence? (satoru wants to Maul said dude but doesnât), literally just me being in love with satoru gojo for 8.7k words straight
a/n; no thoughts head empty only gojo running through the streets like a wild beast looking for u <33 im normal about him yeah.

âyouâre so annoying sometimes, you know that?â
satoru smiles. the sentence isnât one heâs unaccustomed to hearing.
usually, the words are soaked in an undeniable fondness, as they spill from your lips. rich with exasperated love. one that never fails to have the corners of satoruâs lips curling up, a mellow kind of joy blossoming in his chest.
but now, that fondness is nowhere to be found.Â
you sound thoroughly exasperated, and a little bit fatigued. more than anything else, thereâs a vague irritation behind the tilt of your voice, something almost cold. it makes all the difference in the world.Â
and yet, despite that, a certain someone chooses to pay no heed to the bad omen.
âaw, câmon. you know you love me, baby.â
satoru is grinning. lighthearted, awfully sweet. thereâs a certain smugness to it, though, one he couldnât wash away even if he was aware of it; you wouldnât do so even if you could. that smugness is a part of him, one that youâd usually find endearing.Â
but right now, it only seeks to further your frustration.
it was a stupid fight, truthfully. completely meaningless. satoru had forgotten to pick up after himself for, like, the fourth consecutive time, and so you grew annoyed. not by a lot, but enough that you felt the need to be firm when you reminded him not to make the same mistake over and over again.
but satoru had only grinned, in that self-satisfied fashion of his, and apologized in a way you couldnât possibly call sincere. then he did what he usually does â promises to work on it. to not do it again. he never follows through, though.
but even that thought wasnât anywhere near enough to make you truly angry. what really began to irk you was the fact that satoru wasnât taking you seriously, even in the slightest.
thatâs how he always is, when it comes to this kind of thing. and you try to be patient, you do. you try to be understanding. sometimes you even appreciate that he keeps the atmosphere light, but other times, you just canât help but feel irritated by it.
and the current situation happens to fall into the latter category.
you donât care if satoru leaves a candy wrapper or two out, every once in a while. of course you donât. itâs a silly thing to argue about. but would it hurt for him to just listen to you? to try to put himself in your shoes, for once? itâs not about the wrappers, or the undone dishes. itâs about the way he treats you when you complain about it â like itâs no big deal, like it doesnât matter. even if it obviously does, to you.
so, gradually, the topic of your little argument began to shift, into a conversation about satoru. about the fact that he so adamantly refuses to talk about the things that bother you in a serious fashion. about the fact that he so adamantly refuses to take you seriously.
and he just keeps proving your point, with every word that falls from his lips.
at this point, youâre genuinely beginning to feel a little angry. but satoru doesnât see that as the warning sign it is â he just thinks itâs cute. heâs just been cooing at you, this whole time, despite your numerous attempts to actually explain how much his behavior affects you sometimes. it feels a bit like talking to a wall. satoru keeps on teasing you, even as you try to be firm about your point, and only brushes you off with empty promises to do better and more unneeded comments about how much he wants to hug you when you pout like that.
and you falter, a little. of course you do. youâre weak to satoru. weak to his words, that sweet voice of his, that pretty grin. but that only makes everything worse, because if you let yourself look even a little bit flustered at his comments, he sees that as his cue to continue.
you donât even know if heâs doing it on purpose, at this point. is he doing it because he knows itâll annoy you, or does he genuinely not understand that youâre upset? youâd like to think that thereâs no malicious intent behind it, but canât he see how troubled you are? you donât get it. you donât get him, and that frustrates you most of all. satoru can be so goddamn convoluted, sometimes.
so you simply canât help but feel annoyed. angry, even. how long have you been arguing for, at this point? youâre not sure. but you feel the frustration inside of you grow, as the minutes tick by, into something you know will eventually explode.
a sigh falls from your lips, deep and exasperated. a little bit exhausted. âiâm serious, satoru. youâre not even listening.â
âi am!â he protests, stubbornly. childishly. âyou just look so cute when youâre all mad. not my fault youâre so distracting.â
satoru smiles, voice sugar sweet, but all you can do is frown. does he really think itâs cute that youâre upset? the thought makes you somewhat sad. but you canât show that, canât let that part of you win â you donât even want to think about the possibility of you crying, because of this. yeah, no way in hell.Â
so instead, you channel it into anger. as the blood inside your veins comes to a boiling point, you dig your nails into the skin of your palms, gnawing at your bottom lip and shifting from one foot to another.
âsatoru, iâm ââ another sigh, sharp and vexed like the blade of a knife. âiâm trying to have a serious conversation, here. canât you see that iâm upset?â
satoru takes a moment to look at you, from behind the black glass of his shades.
he can. of course he can see that. youâre frowning, and thereâs a crease between your brows, and you keep huffing and sighing every three seconds â youâre obviously, undoubtedly upset. and satoru wants to take you seriously, he does. itâs just that the part of his brain that only ever wants to coddle and tease you keeps persuading him not to.
heâs not lying, either; you do look cute. almost too cute to take seriously, when youâre pouting so sweetly, a little red in the face from all the frustration bubbling inside your chest. you look so small, glaring up at him like an angry puppy.Â
satoru canât help but smile. itâd be impossible not to.
and he will listen to you, will take you seriously. he knows youâre angry, knows youâre upset, and he intends to deal with that properly. but he doesnât need to do it right now.
just a little more teasing, before he has to stop beating around the bush. satoru dreads it, a little bit, dreads having to genuinely be serious, be open and apologetic. it always feels so strange, so discomforting.Â
all that stuff can wait until later. for now, he just wants to see you blush a little more, huff and puff at his limitless affection, that he knows you love deep down. whereâs the harm?
(and therein lies the problem. satoru is observant, and typically good at seeing the line that he shouldnât cross when it comes to you. but there are times when he slips up, times when he doesnât realize that his words have begun to sting. times when the line becomes blurry, because he knows some part of you enjoys the way he babies you, and sometimes it blinds him to the part of you that doesnât.)
satoru is smiling. itâs the same as always â big, bright, glazed over with honey-sweet adoration. smug and teasing. itâs such a satoru-like smile that it makes your breath hitch, sometimes, makes your heart race with wonder. but now all it does is annoy you. everything you love about satoru is annoying you, right now.Â
in your eyes, that pretty smile of his seems almost taunting. like heâs trying to pick a fight with you, trying to make you even more upset. you donât want to blow up over something like this, you really really donât â but for some reason, you feel dangerously close to. itâs not like you at all.
you bore into his eyes with a cold glare, even though you canât exactly see them with his shades in the way. posture straight and rigid as you try to make yourself look bigger. you must look at least a little bit menacing, like this. right?
âiâm seriously angry with you,â you say, hoping your voice sounds as austere to his ears as it does to yours. âdonât you get that?â
satoru coos, unable to hold the sound back. he doesnât notice the flicker of hurt in your eyes, only focusing on how the sunset rays frame your figure, kissing your skin with sun-soaked fervor. you look so pretty. and that angry look on your face is too tantalizing not to tease.
âaww,â he croons, inching closer to you. thereâs a teasing glint in his eyes that you canât see, unmistakably fond. âis my little baby that upset?â
you blink. his voice sounds even more sugar-sweet now, obviously exaggerated. thereâs amusement there, too â like this is just one big joke to him. you think he must be doing it to belittle you, to embarrass you. speaking to you like youâre some kind of grumpy toddler, and not a grown adult trying to have a serious conversation with their partner. your blood boils, boils, boils.
â and so the cup overflows.
âoh, go fuck yourself.â
itâs almost in a hiss that the words fall from your lips, cold and harsh; they leave the confines of your throat before you have a chance to reconsider them, sudden and sickeningly heavy. crude, too. youâd never be so crass with him under normal circumstances.
but youâre overwhelmed, thoroughly and completely, and satoru is being particularly infuriating. you genuinely feel hurt by the way heâs disregarding your feelings, and that realization stings more than anything.Â
so you canât help but say the words, louder than you meant to, before turning on your heel swiftly and walking out of the room.Â
you donât even have time to register what youâre doing, legs moving on their own before your mind can catch up. brisk and heavy steps carry you to the door, all while you furiously attempt to blink away the tears of frustration that begin to form in your eyes.
it only takes a second for you to grab your jacket â then youâre out.
satoru hears the front door close, echoing off the walls of your apartment. you donât quite slam it shut, but you close it with more force than usual, and he canât help but inwardly wince.
a moment passes.Â
then, he flops down on the couch, lanky arms and legs dangling uncomfortably off the edges. the groan that slips from his lips is muffled by the soft cushion as he burrows his face into it, while replaying your interaction inside his mind.
satoru canât help but feel uncomfortable, with this conclusion. a little bit irked. a vague something rests inside his chest, something he doesnât quite want to admit to feeling. it makes him feel a little bit sick.
(âoh, go fuck yourself.â)
he canât recall you ever raising your voice at him like that. when it comes to him, youâre usually so patient; soft, understanding, gentle. for you to have snapped in such a way â to have stormed out of the apartment in your anger â he must have pushed you pretty far.
satoru sighs.
he really pissed you off, huh?
(he can never quite seem to get this right, can he?)
it was never his intention to make you genuinely mad. he just lost sight of the line, for a second. thatâs all.
and maybe he was also trying to avoid the issue, trying to avoid actually arguing with you. because he hates it. he hates it more than anything. satoru would much rather see you smile and blush than act all serious and sad.Â
he just wanted to make you laugh.
was it insensitive? yeah, probably. he just canât help but fuck this up, it seems. now heâs gone and made you angry â and as much as the sight would usually thrill him, as cute as you look when youâre irritated, a pit of anxiety settles in his gut. everything just feels wrong.
more than anything, satoru feels restless. because, right now, thereâs nothing he can do. he canât chase after you, even if just to apologize â thatâd make you even angrier.
he knows he needs to give you space. you were obviously overwhelmed; some fresh air will do you good.
it irks him, though. satoru wants to fix it. he always wants to fix everything, before it even breaks. and even now, all his mind can do is spin in circles, wondering how he could possibly cheer you up.
heâll just have to apologize, when you get back. and hope you forgive him. maybe he can get you something sweet to munch on, or a bouquet of flowers. would that make everything okay again?
satoru doesnât know. so he just scratches his head, and tries his damndest not to think of how defeated you looked before leaving.

your steps are heavy, dragging you forward, leading you somewhere you have no knowledge of. itâs chilly out, and the sun is already setting.
everything in the world feels so wrong. like itâs tilted slightly to the left, like the earth stopped spinning around its axis. like everything suddenly lost its saturation.Â
you just needed to get away from him, for a while. away from that smug smile, that patronizing tilt of his voice. you couldnât even stand to be in the same apartment as him. itâs not often you feel that way, not often at all.Â
and it only increases your growing frustration.Â
you are beginning to calm down, though â you know you are. the crisp evening air and the pleasant mingle of people soothes your muddled senses, smoothing down the crease of your brow and the ache in your chest.
a heavy discomfort, and a growing guilt. thatâs all you can feel, as the anger slowly seeps out of you, turning into vapour with every exhale of your breath.
you hate arguing with satoru. you hate it more than anything. the guilt clawing at your chest barely leaves any room for anger â you almost yelled at him. just the thought of doing that to satoru makes you want to cry.
because you love him, at the end of the day, even when heâs being absolutely insufferable. heâs a sweetheart, your sweet boy, always trying to lighten the mood and make you smile. maybe you should have been a bit more understanding; you know satoruâs bad at this stuff, bad with emotions and vulnerability. and deep down, you know heâd never hurt you, not on purpose.
he probably just didnât realize that you were genuinely upset. itâs a mistake that anyone could make.
but it just makes you feel so frustrated. like heâs not even looking at you. always hiding behind those shades, never opening up. never letting you see him wear anything but a smile. you want him to take it slow, open up to you at his own pace, but that doesnât make the wait sting any less.
itâs not like you were asking for a lot. first, you simply asked him to pick up after himself. the way you do, the way anyone does. then, you simply asked him to treat you with respect.
a sudden pang of bitterness runs through your chest. sure, you couldâve handled it all better â but he could have, too.
every step you take hits the pavement with an irritated kind of decision. whatever. whatever. for now, you donât want to think about it â all you want is to walk around and take in the sights, enjoy the peace and quiet.
so thatâs exactly what you do.
before you know it, the sun has set, and the moon has risen â shining down and painting the streets in a mesmerizing blue, ephemeral and tranquil. itâs enough to give you some peace of mind, as you lurk around familiar streets, soaking in all the open space. so different from that suffocating apartment, and the man inside it, with that shit-eating grin and those breathtaking eyes.
(heâs called you, a couple times. you havenât been gone for long â an hour or so, you think, maybe two. some part of you wanted to answer, just to hear his voice through the phone, but the part of you thatâs still awfully irritated shut that down immediately. so, stubbornly, you just let it ring.)
the streets are empty, and the sky is dark. the light of all the lampposts illuminate your way, along with the soft flicker of the moon and stars. an endless galaxy stretches out before your eyes, little pale dots of stardust shining like jewels.
an ever-lasting, never-changing sky, that continues on for infinity. limitless. all the space you could possibly want, and then some.
for a moment, you can only look at the glittering stars in wonder, soaking in the feeling of absolute solitude.Â
â it doesnât last, though.
âyou alone?â
a sudden voice calls out from behind you. close, discerningly so, enough to make you flinch. you curse yourself for not noticing anything sooner, caught up in looking at the starry sky, in angling your phone to take a picture of it.
hesitantly, you turn your gaze towards the sound â wincing under your breath when you see the man a couple steps away from you. he looks a little crazed, you think, shifting from foot to foot and hunching over.Â
oh fuck no.
great, just what you needed. thatâs just your luck, isnât it? your brain can only spin in circles, trying to get your body to react, to run. to do literally anything except just stand there like a deer caught in headlights.
in your nervosity, all you manage is a painfully awkward laugh, as you stutter out a halfhearted response.
âoh â no, iâm just waiting for my boyfriend!â you smile, unconvincingly. your face must be soaked in unease. whatever he wants with you, it canât be anything good.
at least you said that one word clearly â boyfriend. you can only hope itâs enough to scare him away.
but the man only shifts a little more, emitting a gruff kind of hum, not saying anything else. your spine tingles with apprehension. every cell in your body wants you to leave. he seems a little intoxicated, you think, and the thought only stirs the anxious feeling in your chest further.
god. why does this have to happen to you? why now?
thankfully, youâve got your phone in hand. as your mind scrambles for solutions, your fingers tap at the screen, urgently scrolling through your contacts. in such a frightened state, your acting must be positively awful, but you make a vague attempt. not like youâre getting any oscars for this, either way.
âsorry â heâs calling me now!â you stammer out, taking a step away from the man. he doesnât make a move to follow you, so you take your chances and press your phone to your ear, feet carrying you forward with haste.
in your fear, you donât think twice about calling satoru â but you canât help but internally wince at the decision, as the anxious patter of your own heart resounds in your ears.
how are you supposed to talk to him, exactly? what are you supposed to say? hey, i know i just told you to go fuck yourself, but will you hear me out? i need your help.Â
and you do. you do need his help. all you want is for him to swoop in, to take you in his arms, your knight in shining armor.
satoruâs said it to you, before â that if you need anything, anything at all, you can come to him. that you can always, always lean on him, without exception.Â
you know that he likes helping you. likes it when you open up to him, when you put your trust in him. when you arenât afraid to ask for his help.
so despite everything, you hold your phone to your ear, walking away with brisk steps and praying that heâs not petty enough to ignore your call like you did to his.

back home, satoru is still resting on the couch, tapping his feet and trying to distract himself.Â
heâs a little anxious. itâs dark out, and youâre not answering any of his calls. when youâre out of sight, like this, he canât help but feel a little helpless â worried about everything that could happen to you. but itâs not like he can force you to pick up.Â
youâre probably at a friendâs house, or something. telling them all about what an asshole your boyfriend is. as much as the thought stings, satoru hopes itâs true; itâs all he can comfort himself with. anything is fine as long as you arenât out walking alone, in the cold, in the dark.
entirely caught up in his spiralling thoughts, satoru almost flinches when the phone rings. laying on the table in front of him, just within armâs reach. it only takes a second for him to react as his gaze flits to the bright screen, and he sees the contact name, the many heart emojis littering it.
with a start, satoru jumps up. his back straightens out, and his hand flies to grab the phone â heâd feel embarrassed at his own eagerness, but right now he just canât help it. even under ordinary circumstances, he wouldnât let the phone ring more than twice, always giddy to hear your voice whenever possible.Â
this time, however, he does falter slightly.
he takes a split second to simply stare at the phone in his hand, at the affectionate contact name. what is he supposed to say to you, exactly? how is he supposed to act?
satoru doesnât know, but as if afraid that youâll change your mind and stop the call, yourself, he opts to simply answer. heâll just have to figure out what to say on the fly.
(unfortunately, satoruâs instinctual response to anything is either smugness or playfulness.)
âwell, well. look who finally decided to pick up.â
youâre the one who called him, not the other way around â but satoru canât be bothered with small details like that right now. he only hopes you donât notice the faint nervosity in his voice, the stiffness as he tries to sound unbothered.
you donât notice anything at all, mind far too muddled, too clouded by fear. all you can do is take a deep breath, desperately trying to grasp control over your wavering voice.
ââ satoru?â you call out, voice meek and frail. the man in question notices it immediately, sitting up a little straighter, but before he can say anything you continue. âiâm sorry, i just â are â are you still at home?â
thereâs an anxious tilt to your voice, one thatâd be impossible for satoru to miss. your words are a little breathy, spoken in a fast tempo, and he feels a sudden dread crawl up his spine.
something is wrong, his senses alert him.
âyeah,â he hums, trying to hide the turmoil in his own voice. âwhy? is everything okay?â
the line is quiet, for a second. âitâs just ââ an exhale, as you once again attempt to steer your voice in a less nervous direction. âjust⊠some creepy guy tried to talk to me. i told him i was waiting for my boyfriend and now iâm walking away from him but heâs still following me.â another exhale, as you worriedly sneak a glance over your shoulder. âi just â i donât know what to ââ
âwhere are you?â
satoru cuts you off, voice eerily serious. his gaze turned cold the moment he heard creepy guy, legs moving him towards the coat rack by the front door as if on autopilot.Â
heâs already left the apartment by the time you answer, looking around you meekly.
âi⊠donât know,â you sigh. âiâm not far. i walked past that one crĂȘpe stand by the park but then i, like⊠continued up that street? and now i donât really know where iâm going.â
you continue, a little exasperated as your gaze flits around the dark street. attempting to recall your steps, a difficult task with how on edge you feel. âiâll try to look for a sign, or something,â you gulp. â⊠iâm sorry. i just wanted to get away from him.â
satoruâs voice is comforting, when he speaks, eager to console you. grounding and soft. âhey, itâs okay. iâm heading there now, alright?â he smiles, hoping youâll hear it in his voice. âiâll be there before you know it.â
you do hear it, and his words ease a little of the anxiety in your chest, despite your fear. âokay.âÂ
the line grows quiet, again, and your brows furrow in worry. âcan â can i keep talking to you?â you ask, uncertain. a little pitiful. âplease?â
âof course,â satoru answers, instantaneous. heâs already making his way towards the crĂȘpe stand with decision in his steps, mentally scanning the area ahead. despite his own anxiety at the situation, he attempts to sound as secure as he can possibly manage, desperate to soothe the worry in your voice.
âtry to relax for me, okay? nobodyâs gonna hurt you. not while iâm here.â
his words are absolute, as he consoles you. he sounds so sure of himself, so much that you canât help but believe in his words. so you nod, emitting a weak hum when you remember he canât see you.
âcan you tell me what you see, baby?â
âuhhâŠâ you look around, blindly, trying to find some sort of meaningful hint around you. âthereâs like⊠some toy shop?âÂ
satoru only hums. âcan you check your location on your phone?âÂ
you blink.Â
of course. why on earth didnât that cross your mind before?Â
âoh â yeah â fuck. iâm sorry. i donât know why i didnât ââ you sigh, heavy. âhold on.â
following satoruâs instructions swiftly, your gaze scans over the screen. he waits, patiently, already heading past the park and up ahead. as soon as you succeed in finding the name of the street, you echo it to him.
satoru sighs, a little relieved. âokay,â he hums. âiâm not that far away. iâll be there soon.â he only hopes his words can soothe your fear, even a little. âis he still following you?â
you glance behind you, and meet the gaze of the stranger. just like you were afraid of, heâs still following you â if anything, he seems to have gotten a little closer. with a jolt, your heartbeat picks up.
âyeah,â you gulp.Â
satoruâs chest tightens. he emits a low hum. âjust hold on. iâll hurry.â
focusing only on the tilt of satoruâs voice, you try to calm your breathing. you just want to see him. the thought of doing so is the only thing keeping your trembling ribcage intact, at this point.Â
you swallow a shaky breath.
âthanks, toru.â
a sudden pang of ache sprouts in satoruâs chest, like thorny vines curling around his ribcage. his heart hurts. you sound so scared, so very small.Â
this is all his fault, he thinks. all of it. he got too careless; none of this wouldâve happened if he had only been more considerate. if he had just stopped you from leaving and apologized, or hadnât upset you in the first place. then he wouldnât have to hear that scared little voice, wouldnât have to imagine your body shaking like a leaf in the cold night. so far away from him.Â
but satoru canât beat himself up over it, not yet. thereâll be more than enough time for that later. for now, he needs to get to you â thatâs the only thing on his mind.
so he lets his feet carry him forward, running towards your location with bated breath. heâs sure you can hear it, through the phone, even though he tries to contain it.
the sound consoles you, if anything. it reminds you that satoru is there, that heâs on his way. that thereâs no need to be scared.Â
but you canât help but freak out, a little, when you hear the man call out from behind you.
âhey!â he slurs, stumbling towards you with unsteady steps. his voice is loud, angry, and it sends your mind reeling into panic mode.
a flinch overtakes your body, before you stumble forward, walking even faster than before. youâre almost running now, breath hitching as you gulp. satoru hears it all â your panic, the echo of the man. his own tempo picks up.
âbaby, calm down, okay?â he consoles you, voice concerned and honey-sweet. âjust keep walking. iâm almost there.â
âsorry ââ you squeak out, between flurry breaths. breathing uneven, laboured and anxious. but you try your best to calm down. ââs just scary.â
it almost feels physical, the way it irks him. satoru wants to pull you close, more than anything, but he canât. and that just makes the calamity inside his chest grow, clawing at his ribcage as if trying to escape, to go to your side.Â
(he never, ever wants to hear that kind of fear in your voice again.)
âi know,â he soothes. âyouâre doing good, honey. listen â heâs not gonna touch you. i wonât let him. you have nothing to be scared of.â
you nod, even as you exhale a shaky breath. âi know.âÂ
and you do. you know thereâs a truth, to satoruâs words, one thatâs never failed you before.
because satoru is your safe space, at the end of the day â he can be annoying, outright insufferable, and sometimes heâs bad with emotions. but he tries, you know he does. and, more than anything else, you know that heâll always, always be there when you need him. heâll always be there to protect you.Â
and a part of you is sure that everything will be okay, as long as heâs around.
(itâs easy to forget how trustworthy satoru really is, how much he cares. how dependable he is. and how serious he can get, when he truly needs to be, despite his childishness. itâs moments like these that remind you of that.)
but itâs still scary, at the end of the day. you canât help but feel uncomfortable, a little lost in the world. because you and satoru just fought, you just told him to go fuck himself, and yet here he is. running to your side, in the middle of the night, because youâre scared and alone and you need him.
the man continues to shout, behind you, muttering curses you canât quite make out. you look over your shoulder nervously, steps hurried.
and satoru runs like a man possessed, through the moonlit streets, gaze scanning the area like a wild beast. his most visceral instinct is screaming at him, tugging at his flesh and bones, desperate to protect you. to comfort you. to wash all your worries away.Â
as he makes a sharp turn, he momentarily stops the movement, halting to look around. he thinks he must look a little crazed, with the moonlight illuminating his eyes, but he couldnât care less.
especially not when his gaze lands on a certain person, further down the street â small and alone.
your eyes meet his.
with the darkness of the street, itâs hard to make anything out, but the light of the lamppost helps. though even without it, satoruâs sure heâd know it was you, just from the sensation that unfurls in his chest as his gaze lands on your figure.Â
an audible sigh of immense relief falls from his lips, and his tense shoulders relax, eyes softening just a tad. he hears a similar noise coming from the phone in his grasp, and he assumes that means you recognize him too. not bothering to end the call, he puts it in his pocket, walking over to you with brisk steps.Â
you stumble towards him, yourself, the worried crease between your brows now smoothed away. the closer he gets, the faster you move, until you can see the blue of his eyes. two pocket-sized moons.
satoru swoops you in for a hug before either of you can say anything.
he cradles you close, awfully close, so close you can hear his heavy breathing against your ear. it tickles your neck, along with his soft hair, and you shiver. his fragrance envelops your senses, a blend between fresh laundry, strawberries and some expensive cologne. your favorite scent in the world.Â
and suddenly, the world is devoid of danger. nothing can get to you while satoruâs there. all that exists is you, and him, and the soft flicker of the moon.
satoru squeezes you tightly, ensuring himself over and over again that youâre safe. he might be squeezing you a little too tight, but he canât bring himself to think about that just yet.
finally, that growing calamity inside his chest is satiated. winding down at the feeling of you pressed up against him, the indisputable proof that youâre okay. with you in his arms, satoru feels like everything is alright, again.
the fear inside his chest, so foreign it leaves him shaken to the very core, finally begins to dissipate too. he doesnât think thereâs anything that makes him feel quite as hopeless as the thought of not being there for you when you need him. he never wants to feel that fear again. itâs suffocating. it crushes his lungs.
all he can do is hold you close, his big palm smoothing down your hair, the back of your head, your spine. warm and comforting. keeping you steady against him. he can feel your heartbeat, rapid and anxious, so fast that his heart aches. satoru is eager to soothe you, eager to make it go away.
âiâm here, baby,â he breathes, rubbing his cheek against the side of your head. âyouâre safe now.â
the words are spoken softly, right by your ear, and you exhale a shaky breath. youâre bundling up his clothing with your fists, anchoring yourself to him. after a little while, you let go, opting to wrap your arms around his midriff instead. nuzzling into his broad chest, you try to blink away your tears and contain your sniffles.
you nod against him, and satoru kisses the crown of your head.
and, finally, his gaze strays. it falls farther down the street, until it lands on a certain man â shifting from one foot to another. watching you both in silence.
the calamity inside his chest rouses from its slumber, once more.
satoru makes sure to keep his hands on you, still rubbing your back with one steady palm cradling the back of your head. keeping your face hidden in his chest, safe and secure.
then he raises his head, back straight, full height on display as his eyes meet the strangerâs. he can tell they do, even with the distance, the darkness of the street.
and satoru knows he looks menacing. he knows the light of the lamppost illuminates his figure perfectly, framing his tall stature and broad shoulders. and he knows the moonlight caressing his skin illuminates his face, his cold eyes â blue and uncanny, glowing even brighter than the moon. staring daggers into the manâs soul. if looks could kill, there wouldnât even be any remains left to find.
the man stiffens, visibly, and satoru delights in it. he doesnât leave, though, and for a second satoru wonders if heâs really intoxicated enough to come closer âÂ
but, sure enough, all he does is stagger a little. then he walks away, grumbling under his breath, hands in his pockets.
and satoru isnât satisfied, with this conclusion. not in the slightest. he wants to run up to the man, wants to hold him up by the throat, wants to tell him off. because he has the nerve to terrorize someone like that, stalk them with intentions he knows canât be anything but revolting. the nerve to do that to you, of all the people in the world â
satoru doesnât know if heâs hated anyone quite as much.Â
and a part of him wants to make him cower. make him fear for his life, just to make sure he never does anything like this again. leave him with a fear so great itâll linger for as long as heâs alive.
(and a more animalistic side of satoru, one he doesnât want to acknowledge, wants to do things that are much, much worse.)
â but you come first. without question, and without exception. he refuses to leave you alone, and refuses to make you look at the man for even a second more.Â
so heâll focus on you, entirely.
he can tell youâre still shaken up, heartbeat pulsating against him, little flutters of life prickling his skin. thereâs a desperation in the way you hug his waist, like he could disappear at any moment. like heâll slip away if you donât keep him close. the sight tugs at satoruâs heartstrings.Â
his first priority is to soothe you, always and forever. so thatâs exactly what he does.
satoru smiles. itâs small, in the wake of the situation, but awfully sincere. fingers reaching down to trace over your jaw, he gently urges you to look at him; when you do so, hesitant, he cups your cheek with his palm.
your teary eyes feel like daggers to his heart, an unmistakable proof of his failure. his failure to protect you, to keep you safe and happy. but at the same time, heâs glad, from the bottom of his heart â that youâd let him see you like this. even after everything.
you look very meek, blinking the tears away as you look into his eyes. theyâre bright, and comforting. you wonder if he left the shades at home, if he rushed over here so hurriedly that he didnât think to bring them with him. youâre happy, in any case â the effect they have on you is undeniable.Â
you canât bring yourself to look away, consoled by the flickers of white inside his irises, like fluffy clouds in the blue sky. ever-lasting, never-changing.
satoru tilts his head, smile sweet and understanding. âthat was scary, hm?âÂ
his voice is tender, somehow so mature. like heâs some older, wiser being, comforting a scared child. itâs so soothing, so very grounding.
squeezing your eyes shut, you can only bring yourself to nod, as you nuzzle back into his chest.
âyouâre okay now, honey,â satoru coos, smoothing down your back as you sniffle. an immense softness seeps through his whisper. âiâll always be here to protect you.â
thereâs a truth to the statement, heavy and pious. like an oath, a pledge, something for you to believe in unquestioningly. you allow yourself to soak in the words, knowing them to be true.
youâre safe, now. thereâs nothing to be afraid of anymore. satoruâs here, and heâs hugging you, pressing kisses against your shoulder.
but you just canât stop crying.
when you speak up, your voice is weak, barely above a whisper. close to breaking apart at the seams. too tired after everything to resist the guilt inside your veins, you sniffle, and part your lips.
âiâm sorry i yelled at you.â
satoru stills.
then, his gaze softens, considerably. he hears himself coo, softly, palm smoothing down the back of your head.Â
his sweet angel. apologizing to him, when heâs the one who started this whole mess. when youâre still so shaken up. because he let you leave the house angry, because he made you angry in the first place. because he didnât see how important the discussion was to you.
(âyouâre not even listening.â)
yeah. he wasnât. he didnât really want to.
an acute sense of shame. an intense guilt. thatâs what heâs been trying to push down, all this time. thatâs the unnamed something.Â
itâs hard for him. to be as sincere as you, as open with his feelings and emotions. as mature. because even in a situation like this, you can swallow your pride and frustration, and apologize. even when you arenât in the wrong. youâre always the bigger person, always the one to give in first, because heâs too stubborn to do so himself.
next time, satoru pledges, he wonât let you. next time heâll be the one to swallow his pride.
because, yes, being vulnerable and admitting that he was in the wrong makes him feel a little like heâs being skewered alive â but youâre important to him. he loves you. and he wants you to know how much he trusts you, how special you truly are.Â
if he can show you that, by being a little sincere, a little serious, then any discomfort he feels in the process is a small price to pay.
satoruâs lips meet the crown of your head, as he encircles your smaller frame, arms reaching around your neck to pull you close. he rests his jaw lightly on the top of your head, breathing in your scent. âyou have nothing to apologize for, baby.â
a pause lingers between the words heâs already said and the ones he yearns to say, but canât seem to pull out from within his throat. it takes effort, to squeeze them out; but every time he replays your own apology in his mind, it gets a little easier. he squeezes you lightly before opening his mouth, as if to give him strenght.
âiâm sorry.â
you blink.Â
for once, satoru sounds sincere when he apologizes â almost painfully so. bordering on something you think may be nervosity. you try to look up, to catch a glimpse of his expression, but he keeps you hidden in the crook of his neck.
âi was being immature,â he continues, sighing. you donât know if youâve ever heard satoru sound so uncomfortable. âyou know how bad i am with this stuff. but i never want to â you know.âÂ
he makes a gesture with one of his hands, as if that will say the words for him.
ââ i didnât mean to upset you. honestly.â satoru inhales the cold air, in hopes itâll make him more honest. âyouâre the best thing thatâs ever happened to me.â
you listen. intently, not missing a word, not a single tilt of his voice. it all sounds so genuine, almost foreign on his tongue. satoru seems to be trying to find the right words, grumbling a little under his breath.Â
heâs cute, like this. kind of awkward, but that only makes him cuter. you nuzzle closer to him, comforted by his very existence.
â⊠iâll work on it,â he whispers, at last. âiâll listen to you. i promise. i really, really will.âÂ
you think satoruâs voice wavers, just a little, when he says his final piece.Â
âso please donât cry.â
this time, satoru doesnât stop you when you attempt to lift your gaze, loosening his arms around you and raising his head from where it rests on top of yours.Â
your eyes meet. satoru is smiling, weakly. he tilts his head, looking at you with something you could only ever describe as love.
âokay?â
such a lovely smile. so painfully genuine. his eyes are on full display, shining in the dark of the night, like splotches of moonlight. like someone stole the moon down to earth, and carved out little pieces to put in his irises. an ethereal hue.
heâs so gorgeous. hair just a tad messy, tousled from all the running he did to get here. cheeks a little red from the cold. when he smiles, his eyes crinkle. but he looks almost pained.Â
(he was so, so worried.)
blinking away the tears clinging to your lashes, you simply stare, entirely mesmerized by the sight. satoruâs thumb goes to wipe at your glassy eyes, smoothing away the drops that threaten to fall. you want to engrave his expression into your memory, so you can never forget it. but itâs just a little too much.
so you hide in his chest, once more. the word that falls from your lips is tiny. âokay.â
satoru smiles, kissing the top of your head with a relieved exhale. bathing in your presence, still reeling from his show of vulnerability. he feels a little like he just cut himself open, let you peek inside his ribcage. the night air stings his skin.Â
but youâre so warm, hugging him tightly, breathing and heartbeat finally relaxed.Â
(he doesnât mind it, not if itâs you â having you look inside his chest. if you asked, heâd let you build a shelter there. right between his fourth and fifth ribs.)
now that the words are out of his throat, they donât burn at all. satoru feels a little silly, for being so scared to say them out loud. he knows youâd never use them against him.
all you do is snuggle closer, as if silently conveying your forgiveness.
you stand there for just a little while longer, wallowing in the tender atmosphere. finally, satoru makes a move to leave, and you begin to walk back home.
âsure youâre okay now, baby?â
you nod, exhaling a flurry breath. it turns into vapour in the cold of the air, drifting up and dissipating in the expanding starry sky. âyeah. thanks for coming so quickly.â
âof course,â satoru only says, choking back a yawn.Â
your hands are intertwined, and heâs halfheartedly swinging them back and forth. it soothes your anxiety, and satoruâs protective instincts. you know neither of you will slip away, like this.
you shiver a little, subconsciously inching closer to satoru to protect you from the harsh bite of the midnight breeze. he notices, giving you a glance and a tilt of his head. âyou cold?âÂ
âjust a little,â you mutter, smiling weakly as you look up at him. âiâm fine.â
satoru huffs. did you really think heâd be dissuaded by such a weak retort? thereâs no way heâs letting you walk around all cold and shivering.Â
so you come to a standstill, as satoru begins to shrug off his coat. he refuses to let go of your hand for even a second, making the process slower than usual â your heart flutters a little, as his fingers curl around yours, delicately.Â
when he finally gets it off him, he wastes no time in draping it over your shoulders. itâs big on you, warm and soft, shielding you from the chilly air. satoru canât help but giggle sheepishly, as he always does at the sight â you look so cute.Â
âcâmon. letâs go home,â he grins, ruffling your hair teasingly.
satoru doesnât feel cold, not in the slightest, as he holds your hand tightly. just your presence is enough to warm his bones to the marrow.
the silence between you is comforting and soothing, as you continue to walk. hand in hand, admiring the starry sky. youâre both too tired to speak â but satoru does so, anyway.
âi meant it, yâknow.â satoru sounds sleepy, but earnest. âi really will work on it.â
he doesnât look at you when he says it, yawning softly and stretching his free arm. gaze fixed on the morning star.Â
âoh.â you pause, squirming a little. sheepish. âthank you. iâm sorry that i â i mean.â a sigh. âi probably overreacted a little.â
satoru shakes his head, waving off your guilt. ânah. youâre right. i never want you to feel like iâm not taking you seriously.â
his gaze meets yours, tentatively. his eyes shine like wedding rings. âyou mean a lot to me.â
the sincere words manifest themselves as a heavy pressure to your chest, closing in on your heart as if crushing it. itâs a pleasant sensation, though, overwhelming as it is. youâre a little scared that your knees will buckle if he keeps this up, but even if they do, you wouldnât want him to stop â satoruâs love is terrifically overwhelming when thereâs nothing to hide it, when itâs just love and nothing else.
but youâd never reject it. youâd let it crush you to death with a smile on your face.
all you can do is avert your gaze, afraid that youâll fall into the blue sea of his eyes if you donât. heavy thumps of blood resound in your ears as your heart beats, warmth spreading throughout your entire body.
â⊠you mean a lot to me, too.â you echo, holding his hand just a little tighter. warmth rises to your cheeks. âi just felt really frustrated, i guess. like you were looking down on me. i know you werenât actually, though.â
satoru chews at the inside of his cheek, almost anxiously. âi know i can be a little much sometimes,â he says, tasting the words on his tongue. âand i appreciate you for putting up with that. iâm sorry i let it go too far. iâll be more considerate.â
your heart stutters in your chest. youâre not sure what to say â the way he forms his words makes them feel so absolute. and you believe him.
âiâll be more considerate, too,â you echo, looking down at the pavement. âi shouldnât have blown up like that.â a pause. you mumble, quietly, a little embarrassed. âi shouldnât have told you to go fuck yourself.â
satoru breathes out an amused huff, chuckling lightheartedly. his eyes carry a teasing glint when they meet yours. âi probably deserved that. no worries.â
âstill,â you pout. satoru giggles.Â
âweâll both work on it, then,â he hums, tilting his head to find your gaze. âright?â
you blink. a small smile breaks out across your face. âright.â
satoru swings your hands back and forth, looking awfully happy with himself. youâre proud of him. really.
âoh ââ he says, breaking the sleepy silence once again. âand iâll stop leaving wrappers around, too.â
this time, youâre the one who huffs out an amused breath. âthank you,â you grin, looking up at him. he thinks the sight is terribly precious.
a yawn leaves your lips, drowsiness sneaking its way into your bloodstream. youâre not sure if itâs due to the dark, or if youâre just a tad exhausted after all the arguing and panicking.
satoru notices, and gets an idea.
âyou tired, baby?â he coos, eyes teasing but soft around the edges. âdâyou want a piggyback ride?âÂ
when you give him a look, sleepy and kind of exasperated, satoru grins. you huff out an amused breath, just a tad embarrassed, but it only spurs him on.
so he crouches down, one knee meeting the pavement, letting your hand slip from his. you blink, tiredly, at the loss of contact. you canât see his face, but you know heâs wearing that lovesick, smug little grin of his.Â
âcâmon. your big, strong boyfriendâll carry you.â
satoruâs feeling playful, you can tell. thatâs usually a bad sign â but you canât deny that youâre tired. and the prospect of getting carried all the way home is eerily tempting.Â
your gaze falls on his back, and his broad shoulders. silently, you walk towards him, and wrap your arms around his neck. satoru holds you up by your thighs, and then stands up, jostling you a little; he does so without a hitch, and youâre reminded of how strong he really is. his grip is secure, and you trust him not to drop you, no matter what.Â
you let out a content sigh, basking in the chill of the midnight air as you nuzzle your cheek against his soft hair. satoru chuckles.
âmy sleepy lilâ sweetheart,â he coos, voice a tad raspy. âlucky thing youâve got me, huh?â
thereâs a softness to his voice, despite the teasing tilt obscuring it. you can only huff out a breath, somewhere between a chuckle and a scoff, and cling to him tighter.
satoru will get you home safe. he can be annoying, outright insufferable, and he can be bad with emotions â but you can always, always trust him on that.Â
so, with his coat shielding you from the chilly air, and his back warming you up as he carries you back to your apartment, you allow your eyes to flutter shut; enjoying the cozy feeling his presence brings you.
heâll always be there when you need him.
#NOBODY LOOK AT MEEEEE i was having a gojo moment ok.#i just think hes. the perfect man. a silly goofy princess 98% of the time but when u need him to be there hes so comforting n secure.#i Need him.#also obsessed w the idea of gojo only calling u âhoneyâ when hes being particularly sincere like that does smth to me man.#gojo satoru x reader#gojo satoru x you#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen#gojo satoru#gojo x reader
6K notes
·
View notes
Note
this is such a weird scenario ..but imagine a little red riding hood concept, the big bad wolf being san, and him tricking innocent reader into "playing" with him and just fucking her dumb in the woods !!




God baby, I love the Little Red Riding Hood concept. I'm such a slut for it, to be honest. I'm a little obsessed with dark, twisted gothic fairy tales.
You should have heeded the warnings before you wandered alone through the woods on a full moon night. Or where you're meeting a big, handsome and very mean wolf from whose clutches you won't easily escape and maybe that's exactly what you want.
Warning: Dub-con, Werewolf! San
The night air was unpleasantly cold against your bare skin, ripping you from the sweet embrace of Morpheus. You reluctantly shivered and slowly opened your eyes, only to be greeted by the dense darkness of the forest. The sudden lack of sunlight jolted you from your half-sleep state, sending an unpleasant shiver down your spine and your heart pounding loudly in your chest as the forest around you continued to sing the song of the night.Â
You shouldn't be out here, especially at such a late hour. You hurriedly gathered your belongings and cursed yourself for letting the beautiful meadow of flowers enchant you and for letting your guard down. You had been warned that ancient magic lived in these woods and that you should be very careful when you walked along the path through them, but of course you hadn't listened, and now you regretted it. You had always assumed that all these warnings had been given because of your gender. Most of the people in your small town were still stuck in the Dark Ages, thinking that a girl couldn't go through the forest alone. You wanted to prove them wrong.Â
Another cold gust blew across the clearing, and you wrapped yourself tighter in your heavy cape. The velvet fabric was expensive and luxurious, a rich scarlet that earned you your nickname, Little Red Riding Hood.Â
You were sure that you were going to be all right. You were smart and savvy, and you had a hunting knife with you. You'd think that would be more than enough to handle anything that might be lurking in these woods and get you back to your grandmother's house unharmed. At least that is what you thought.Â
A long, blood-curdling howl echoed across the clearing, freezing you in place and halting your frantic gathering. Dear Lord...
Your eyes automatically rise to the night sky, only to find your worst fears confirmed: Through the dry, tangled branches of the trees, the brilliant face of the full moon illuminates the earth with its diffuse silvery glow. The words of your grandmother, which she had been repeating to you ever since you were a child, came to your mind at once: "Beware of the moon, whose face is full and merry, my child, for this is the time when its children have their feast. And their hunger is insatiable and greedy'. Another howl pierced your heart, a reminder of the situation you were now in.Â
Wishing that you had listened to the warnings, you ran, clutching your beautiful wicker basket tightly with your hands as your scarlet cape evolved behind your back. You weren't sure of the right way as you ran through the dense thicket of the forest. You sobbed softly as the sharp branches of bushes and trees dug into your skin, leaving long, lacerating marks; the warm, crimson liquid running down your thighs, soaking into the fabric of your tall, white socks, spreading the seductive scent of your blood through the forest.Â
Nothing seemed to be familiar to you in the thick, impenetrable darkness of the night. You stumbled through the massive roots of the trees and almost fell into a thorny bush with heavy, glistening bunches of poisonous berries hanging from it. You're so tired alreadyâyou can hear your heart pounding in your chest through your laboured, hoarse breathing.
Another furious growl echoing through the air keeps you from stopping, forcing you to keep running. You could almost feel the hot, wet breath of the wolf on your neck and the sharp claws on your skin, and it seemed to you that if you stopped for even a moment, the wolf would tear you to pieces. The hair stood up on the back of your arms, and the image of the sharp-toothed monster pinning you to the ground filled your mind's eye. No. No. No. You shake your head, hoping to banish the dark thoughts and push away the horrible images of blood and broken bones.Â
A sharp pain blossomed on your face as you fell face first, stumbling over a large dried log and almost losing consciousness from the combined sensations. It was horribleâyour mouth was full of dirt mixed with blood from a busted lip, your knees were skinned and bleeding, and in general you want nothing but sobbing with despair and fear.Â
The hopelessness of your situation was more palpable to you now, when you're sitting in a pile of dirt and leaves, than ever before. A deep and low howling sounded from behind you, sending a shiver of cold down your spine. It made you jump to your feet, in spite of the sharp pain that you felt at such a sudden movement. You looked around anxiously. You glanced around anxiously, letting out a small sigh of relief at the fact that there was no one in your wake. But you didn't stop, the edge of the forest was already in sight, the soft welcoming light of the nearby village's lanterns calling to you.Â
Your relief was short-lived, however, as a warning growl suddenly sounded directly in front of you, a pair of sacred silver eyes glaring out from the shadows of the forest. You gasped loudly as a tall, broad-shouldered fellow emerged from the thicket, his plump scarlet lips raised in a snarl, tongue slowly sliding over sharp teeth as he began circling you.Â
This was not good, so damned not good. Cold fear gripped your heart with a tight grip, your hands clutching your basket tightly, shaking slightly at the low rumbling growl that came from the guy. Your frightened, wide-eyed gaze darted from the wolf to the forest path leading to the village; if you tried hard enough, you could get away from him. The boy noticed your gaze and shifted his sharp eyes to the narrow path leading out of the forest. He snorted slightly, as if the thought of you running from him amused him.
"You shouldn't even try, sweetheart. You can't escape me, little Red." The man's husky, deep voice made you flinch, but the way he addressed you by name as if he knew you made you drop the basket and cover your mouth with your hand to hold back your terror-filled scream."
He turned to face you again, and you could see his lips curl up in a predatory grin, revealing deep dimples on his cheeks. You couldn't help but notice how beautiful the wolf wasâperhaps the most handsome man you had ever seenâand that fact made you fear him even more. Nothing ordinary and natural could possess such breathtaking beauty, which meant that the guy in front of you was many times more dangerous than any real wolf prowling around this forest thicket that night.
"Why are you so scared, little Red?" He slid his tongue over his lips as he kept his dark gaze on you. "I can almost feel your fear on my tongue." He murmured, the deep sound practically vibrating in the air. "I just want to play with you, beautiful. I promise I won't bite you... hard." His voice trailed off at the last word, his breathing getting heavier as he began to slowly approach you.Â
You began to back away from him, trying to put as much distance between you as possible, and he clearly didn't like it.Â
"You're not running away from me..." He growled, and those were the last coherent words you heard before he pounced on you, digging his claws into your skin and tearing at the edges of your cloak and skirt that prevented him from reaching you. The loud sounds of tearing cloth echoed through the forest as you tried to grab onto anything that might help you crawl away from him.Â
"You'll have no run from me..." He growled, and those were the last coherent words you heard before he pounced on you, his claws digging into your skin and tearing at the edges of your cloak and skirt that were blocking his path. The loud sounds of ripping cloth echoed through the forest, and you tried to grab hold of anything that might help you to crawl away from him.Â
"No. Please, no. Let me go, please...". But your words fell on deaf ears. In one swift motion, he flipped you onto your stomach, and you squealed loudly. Limiting all movement, his broad hand pressed between your shoulder blades. "No!" You cried out again, but a sharp slap on your bottom, which was suddenly bare, made you stop all your movements. You didn't even notice it as he tore off your clothes completely, leaving you vulnerable and naked for him to see. "I-I... please let me go..." All your energy has left your body, and you sob softly. He lifts your hips with one hand and puts you in the position he wants you to be in.Â
"You were warned, little Red. Weren't you? You have been told to stay out of the woods, especially during the full moon. But have a look at where you are now. A stupid little girl, too self-confident to listen to anyone's advice, and that's what girls like you get. A big, bad wolf will eat them alive." The last sentence came out of his chest in a low, vicious growl before you felt a hot, slippery tongue travel between your buttocks.Â
The pointed tip slid between your labia, salivating over your tender folds. He removed his hand from your back only to dig his fingers into your buttocks and spread them wide apart, holding you completely open for him so that he could feast on your cunt with ease. Pitiful sobs escaped from your mouth as you felt his rough, long appendage snaking its way between your folds, rubbing against your clit and poking at your hole as it tried to force its way in. His claws dug themselves into your flesh in painful fashion, leaving bloody marks that were sure to become scars.Â
The sensation of the wolf's tongue licking desperately at your cunt and the wet, feverish breath that washed over your sensitive centre caused your body to react against your desire.
A shameless moan of pure pleasure escaped your lips faster than you could stop it. Covering your mouth with your hand, you tried to swallow the embarrassing sounds as the werewolf's long tongue continued to wash your clit with its warm, viscous saliva. You couldn't enjoy it... it was simply impossible. This guy was dangerous; he wasn't human; he was a horrible, hungry wolf pinning you to the ground in the middle of the night forest. You were terrified, but that didn't stop your body from responding joyfully to his touch.Â
Every movement of his tongue on your pussy made your hole clench around nothing and ooze juices. This only excited him more as he greedily licked up every drop of sweet slime that flowed from you onto his tongue. Eventually it wasn't enough, and the wolf pressed his whole mouth against your little hole and began to literally drink from your pussy.Â
Your hips began to shake as you approached your orgasm. Your fingers dug into the loose soil, dirt collecting under your fingernails as you tried to fight the rush of pleasure coursing through your entire body. It was completely futile. Against your will, the werewolf made you scream in blinding pleasure as the first of many orgasms shook your entire body.Â
As your fluids poured into his mouth, giving him a full taste of your sweet flavour, he growled low as he thrust his tongue into your hole and licked your juices from your trembling walls. This went on for a few minutes until you felt his hands leave your body. A vague sense of relief filled you as you hoped he would leave you now that he had got what he wanted. But that relief was quickly replaced by panic as his clawed fingers pinned your fragile shoulders to the ground and his unnaturally hot and massive length rubbed against your arse, staining it with sticky pre-cum.Â
He rubbed against you like a dog in heat, his hips pressing against you as if he were too lost in his lust to pay attention.
Hot breath scorched your cheek as he pressed his entire body against you, laborious growls and puffing escaping his throat as his heavy, hard cock dragged between your buttocks. You turned your head slightly to the side to catch a glimpse of the man looming over you, his sharp fangs glinting in the moonlight, and you almost regretted looking.
Every movement he made against you made your stomach twist with a mixture of fear and pleasure, and although the rational part of you was in a state of pure terror at the realisation of what awaited you, on some deep subconscious, twisted level you enjoyed it.
The werewolf's cock seemed almost as long as your torso, there was no way you could take it all in. But that didn't seem to bother him tonight. As the head of his cock entered your hole, you sobbed from the painful stretching and squeezed your eyes shut as he began to push his cock deeper into you. It was thick, so fucking thick that the tender edge of your pussy burned when the entire head of his cock was inside, but that was only the beginning.
The first few inches were enough to awaken your senses, pleasantly stimulating your quivering walls, but as he pushed further into you, the pain came. But that didn't matter to the werewolf on top of you. You whimpered and shook your head from side to side as the man above you moaned deeply as he continued to thrust his cock relentlessly into you.
"PleaseâŠ" You sobbed openly now, hoping this would be over quickly.
"Mmm, look at you, you're acting so nice now. You were warned, little Red, but you decided to be a naughty girl and came to the wolf yourself, knowing full well what would happen to you. So don't play hard to get and take what is given to you." The wolf towering over you growled in your ears.
The more it pressed into your body, the more you became afraid and grabbed at tree roots and plants. For anything within reach that might help you free yourself from him. Your face crinkled in pain and your teeth clenched tightly together, grinding against each other. When it finally settled into your body, you'd never felt so full. You couldn't see it, but you could feel the great bulge in your belly, perfectly mirroring the contours of his cock.
When he begins to move, pulling his monstrous length out of you, you find it strange. His cock entered you much deeper than it could be possibly, and when it was completely out of you, you felt so empty, your cunt clenched around nothing, already missing the warmth of his cock. When he entered your cunt again, you let out a sound mixed with eroticism and a painful cry. It wasn't bad, but not necessarily good. His cock seemed too hot, buried deep inside your body, but every thrust in and out of your pussy rubbed against a sensitive ball of nerves that made your eyes roll to the back of your head.
"No! I don't want this! Please stop..." The voice in your head did its best to drown out the sensations overwhelming every other sense in your body, but it was useless. The wolf's large body pressed against your back, his feverishly hot, wet skin rubbing against the exposed areas of your skin that were visible through your tattered cloak with each sharp thrust into your body.Â
His rhythm grew rougher and sharper as he stretched the tight confines of your pussy. Promises to fill you with his cum and give you his puppies came in steady succession with each thrust of his hips.
Wide eyed, you watched his fingernails dig into the dirt beside your head and thanked the gods that those nails were no longer digging into your skin. They pulled the earth a few inches away from your face, reminding you of the strength in those hands. He could have easily broken your neck with a snap of his fingers. Instead, he shifted his stance, his foot pressing your face deeper into the dirt beneath you. Â You should have been disgusted; it was wrong, but something dark and twisted inside you made you even more aroused, enjoying everything that was happening.
Your quivering, slippery walls tightened around him, and you heard him moan deeply in response.
"You like it, don't you? What a dirty bitch you are, little Red. Do you like it when I claim the rights to your tiny human cunt? Does it turn you on that I'm fucking you like a bitch in the middle of the forest?"
"Please..." Your voice was swallowed by a loud, air-piercing howl as the wolf howled over you in pleasure.Â
Your entire body shook beneath him as he fucked you with reckless abandon, his hips slamming painfully against your arse, causing the tender skin on your buttocks to become irritated and red. It was disgusting; you had dirt in your mouth mixed with blood from the previous fall, your whole body aching from his assault, but you wanted more; you wanted him to destroy you.Â
Something hot and tight pushed into your entrance, and you almost mistook this sudden invasion for his balls until you felt your pussy being forced to stretch even further to accommodate it.
"Please, no! You're going to hurt me!!! Don't do this!" Pleasure was replaced by pure terror as you tried to crawl away from him. Sharp nails pierced the skin of your thighs as he clawed at you and growled in warning, making you freeze.Â
"Take this! You're going to take all of me, and you're going to love it, you little slut." Each thrust felt like he was trying to shove a baseball inside you.Â
He was determined to complete his task, and when he did, you screamed in pain, tears staining your rounded cheeks and making your face look even dirtier. A loud howl pierced his chest, and his nails dug into your back, drawing blood as he tied you up with his knot and poured his sperm into your waiting body. You could feel every pulse of his cock as it emptied into your pussy, and against your desire, your walls clenched around the invasion, squeezing out all he had to offer you. His warm, viscous cum splashed into your body, making you shiver.
"I hope you've learnt your lesson and won't wander the night woods alone again, little Red." The werewolf whispered hoarsely in your ear, licking the tears from your cheek.Â
You turned your head to the side, meeting his slanted silver eyes and gloriously sharp cheekbones.Â
"Maybe I should learn that lesson a few more times, San. You know I'm not good at memorising, love."
#ateez smut#kpop smut#atz smut#ateez hard hours#ateez unholy hours#smut#ateez scenarios#ateez au#ateez x reader#san x reader#ateez imagines#ateez fanfic#san smut#choi san smut#choi san x reader
944 notes
·
View notes
Note
Do a gender neutral about the serial killer reader âđđ
bloody devotion
gif creds: @pranpat
pairing keum seongje x gn serial killer reader
summary recently you've felt eyes on you while you do your.. hobby. you can't pinpoint who it is, though. however, the owner of them makes himself known one day when he notices you struggling after you bite off more than you can chew.
word count 2.3k
warnings/tags murder, violence, gore !!! heed these tags
you walked the streets of yeongdeungpo pissed because of a bad grade on your test. realistically, an 86 isn't horrible but it was still far from your usual scores. your fingers searched for your cigarettes only to find that you ran out. well now you just had to kill someone, right?
you scoffed and looked around to see if anyone would pick a fight with you. that was your favorite method, pissing a wannabe gangster off only to lead them into an alley and leave their body for their little friends to find.
you fixed your mask and hid your hair under a beanie, then pulled up your hoodie. target number one was spotted, a yeo-il student walking around with a vape. you walked briskly past him and purposely brushed his shoulder hard.
"yo, the hell is your problem?" he grunted, turning around to see you. you looked back and hardened your eyes.
"get the fuck out of my way," you huffed, walking away and turning a corner. you knew the streets like the back of your hand and there was a dead end coming up soon. you heard him tailing behind you as you slowed your pace to let him catch up. hook, line, and sinker.
"you wanna fucking go?" he yells, huffing and puffing in rage already. seems like he has some serious anger issues.
you turned again into the alley, this time hiding in the shadows against the wall. you held your kitchen knife tightly, aiming it at torso level. you hear his steps speed up to try and catch up to you. (but maybe if you listened closer, you would've noticed that there were 2 pairs of footsteps.)
"i fucking got you, you fucker-," he was cut off sharply with a stab to his stomach. he instantly collapsed to the floor and you kicked his body further into the dark alleyway, completely out of sight. ripping the knife out of him, you squatted to his side as he laid crumbled on the floor.
he coughed and blood spilled out, "i'll fucking kill you," he said with no bite. he panted as he made an attempt to crawl away, but you swiftly stopped him with a stab to his calf.
"what's wrong? i thought you wanted to fight," you mocked him, twisting the knife around. his legs gave out as you sent the knife in and out of his thighs multiple times. scooting closer to his body, you could still hear him faintly breathing.
"still alive? that makes it more fun for me," you smiled underneath your mask.
trailing the knife up his spine, you pressed it hard enough to cut deep. he choked on his blood as he tried to scream, leaving a small pool near his face.
"gross dude," you complained. the metallic smell was growing stronger and you sighed. "you're no fun," you pouted, "give me something more at least".
sending another stab to his arm with a wet squelch, his eyes fluttered before they stared blankly and his body was still. "that was fast," you muttered. a chill ran down your spine as you felt someone watching you, and you turned back swiftly.
there was no one there, but your senses never betrayed you. someone was near, and they definitely saw the gruesome mess that you created.
huffing, you stabbed your victim one last time in his upper shoulder just for some stress relief, before ripping the knife out and wiping it clean with his shirt. it has to be the same guy from the last 2 people you killed.
you knew that someone has been watching you, but you could never see anyone nearby. whoever it is, they haven't reported you yet.
you tucked your knife into your backpack, and skipped out cheerfully. your "disguise" was still on, so there was no way of identifying you from an eyewitness perspective anyways. feeling much lighter, you went home after making sure no one was tailing you.
this marked your 5th murder, and you were finding it to be an extremely effective stress reliever. the police didn't even try investigating hard because it was always a street thug that you killed. they just figured it was something related to the gangs surrounding the area. after all, who would suspect you, an honor student, of all people to be a murderer?
a few weeks passed without much happening but you were starting to feel pent up again. it seemed like every little thing was starting to tick you off, but it was too soon since the last victim.
you needed to space them out to make it seem more like the gangs than one organized killer. also, you were getting paranoid about someone watching you. just one person leaking the slightest bit of evidence, and you could be locked up for years.
but today, you were feeling extra pissed. someone had spilled milk on your notes with no apology, and you had to use every ounce of self control you had to not choke them out right then and there.
then some other kids in your cram school wouldn't shut up, and you couldn't even focus on your studying. to top it all off, your neighbors dog just wouldn't shut up all night leaving you with barely any sleep.
you gritted your teeth and wandered around in your disguise again, hoping to find a lone victim. unfortunately, it seems like everyones in a group right now. you tsk and go to another street, getting more restless.
spotting a group of 3 guys, you decided to go for it anyway. that was the smallest group you've seen so far and you might go legitimately insane if you don't do something quick. you make eye contact with one of them then you walked right up to him.
"what the fuck are you looking at?" he said, sneering ar you. opting for a quick provocation, you quickly slap him and run away. you headed straight to your favorite alley, mostly because it had no cctv near and streetlights, but also because it was where you had your first victim.
"they went this way, fuck, go find them!" you heard one of them say. did all 3 of them come? it's fine though, they're unarmed and you have a butcher knife.
hiding in the shadows, you crouched down and waited for one of them to pass by, when you did, you sliced his thigh open and jumped up to swiftly attack the next guy.
unfortunately, the guy you just sliced is a loud ass screamer.
"fuck! call the fucking police! they have a knife- oh shit- hurry up and call 119 you bastards!" he screamed out, stumbling onto the floor. the two boys gasped and started running out the alley. you curse under your breath before stomping on his phone, ensuring he can't call the cops.
no- they couldn't escape- at least not now. sprinting after the faster one, you manage to graze his arm and make him trip onto the floor. you looked ahead to see that the third one was about to turn the corner out the alley when a loud smack could be heard, and he fell backwards onto his ass.
the fuck? you looked down to see the guy scrambling on his phone, and you kick it out his hands before he can dial anything.
"i'm sorry, please spare me," he starts sobbing while backing up, clutching his arm.
you glance back at the first person you attacked and he was still handicapped at the end of the alley. no need to worry about him for now. you swing the knife into his stomach before going to the third guy. he screams in pain before going silent, choking on his blood.
"he's still alive, just unconscious for now." a gruff voice said, and you looked up to see a man with glasses smoking a cigarette. "perfect for you to finish off, sweetheart." he says while grinning at you.
"who the fuck are you?" you raise your eyebrow at him. you just know instinctively this is the same person whose been present at your previous murders. you weren't expecting him to be so.. hot.
"keum seongje, at your service," he exhales some smoke before jerking his head towards the your other victims. the name is familiar to you, but you can't pinpoint from where.
"go have some fun. i'll move this one in further. don't worry about witnesses, i'll be keeping watch," he ends his sentence with a wink, making your heart stutter.
"thanks," you reply flustered. you don't know what to say. who would willingly help a serial killer? much less flirt with one. you glance back at him before going and finishing the job.
you decide to practice dismembering today, but you don't get very far because you can't go through the bone effectively. the first dude is already dead after multiple failed attempts, and the second is still barely alive. you nearly saw off his arm but you can't get past the bone. you sigh and pause, sitting and resting for a moment.
"theres a much more efficient way, let me show you." seongje steps forward from behind you and you tiredly hand him the knife. in one swift move, it's cleanly cut off. the victim hacks up some more blood before going limp. seems like getting his arm cut off was too much for him.
"there's still one more. wanna try for yourself?" seongje grins, displaying his teeth. you smile back even though he can't see your mouth, but it's visible through your eyes.
you approach the final guy and kick him repeatedly until he groans and curls inward. "wake up, i'm bored already." you scoff.
fluttering his eyes open, he gasps as he sees the two of you looming over him, especially you in your bloodstained attire.
"d-don't hurt me!" he pleads, crawling backwards just like how his friend did. the apple doesn't fall far from the tree, you suppose.
you laugh before kicking his chest down again. you sit on top of him to ensure that he can't get away and you look back at seongje.
"come here, show me how to do it again,"
seongje sits down next to you, uncaring of the blood splatters below him. his hands guide yours into a nice position. unfortunately the guy won't quiet down, and he keeps begging for you to spare his life or some stupid shit.
"oh my god, shut the fuck up already if you don't want me to prolong this further," you drop the knife on his chest to slap him across his face and he shuts up real quick when he sees the venomous glare seongje sends him.
"you wanna hold it at this angle, and make sure you have some room for your wrist to flick up and down," seongje mutters into your ear. his hands are on your arms, carefully maneuvering them. his touch is gentle, and his hands linger on you for far too long but you can't bring yourself to tell him to stop.
"like this?"
"that's perfect."
the praise sends shivers down your spine.
seongje guides you through the first arm the entire way, explaining everything to you. his lips brush your ear far more times than you can count. you can feel his body heat from how close you guys are, and it makes a small blush rise to your face.
surprisingly, seongje's technique works extremely well and it doesn't take long before you have a left arm free from its owner.
this time, you don't do anything about the screaming. this alleyway is secluded enough that no one (save for you and seongje) actually comes close enough to hear anything. another reason why you love this place.
seongje helps you with the second arm, but releases his hands for you to get some practice in. mid way through, your victim passes out from blood loss making it a lot easier to focus on seongje's voice. the sound is soothing, and you purposely ask more questions just to hear him speak.
you finish with some more chops to various body parts, releasing all your pent up anger. you exhale contentedly as you stare at the mangled body and take your mask off. you figured seongje wouldn't report anything since he literally just made himself complicit in this.
"why are you doing this?" you reach for a cigarette but soon realize you forgot a lighter. "fuck, do you have a lighter?"
seongje smiles again, and pulls out a cigarette of his own. lighting his up, he answers. "not every day you see someone violently murdering people, especially not someone as cute as you, sweetheart"
"you fucking stalking me or something? how'd you even find out anyway?" you put your cigarette in your mouth and extend your hand for the lighter. seongje steps closer to you instead and lights yours with his. you stare at him and raise your eyebrows, and he grins again.
"just had a hunch. followed you one day and i saw what i saw," seongje shrugs and steps closer to you, standing shoulder to shoulder with you. you guys smoke in a comfortable silence before you break it.
"so what's with the sweetheart?" you glance at seongje, only for him to already be staring at you.
"take a wild guess."
"are you crazy? you're interested in a serial killer?" you scoff and smile lazily. the idea is almost absurd to you.
seongje runs his tongue across his teeth, and exhales a puff of smoke. "been interested in you, you're just too much of a fuckin' nerd to notice. the serial killer bit is just an added bonus. it's hot as fuck,"
you gasp as you realize why seongje is so familiar to you, he goes to your school. you roll your eyes at the 'nerd' comment, "could've approached me like a normal person instead of stalking me around, y'know." your stomach erupts with some butterflies at what he said towards the end. seriously, who the hell thinks that?
"where's the fun in that? i like seeing you scared as you try to find me after your murders."
"you asshole," you knew he was doing that on purpose, why else would he make his presence known and then hide like a rat? still, you're glad it was him instead of someone planning to expose you for your crimes.
seongje flicks his cigar onto the floor and stomps on it, "you wanna get outta here? i've got a motorcycle."
you take a final hit of your cigarette before putting it out with your foot, "where are we headed?"
"anywhere you want, sweetheart."
you grin widely and lick your lips, "i could go for someone else to kill right now,"
seongje lets out an airy laugh. "three people not enough for you? some insane bloodlust you got there."
"someone was making me too stressed to go out and find more people these last few weeks. gotta make up for the missed time," it's an excuse and you know it, but you just want to spend some more time with seongje.
seongje puts his hands up in a mock surrendering motion, "as long as i'm not next,"
"pull the same shit again and you will be"
"yeah yeah, let's go before someone stops by." seongje starts walking to his motorcycle, glancing around for any potential witnesses.
you follow seongje to his motorcycle and wrap your arms around his waist. you rest your head sideways on his back, and you hear the steady rhythm of his heartbeat. now this was something you could get used to.
fin
a/n writing this was so fun i love this dynamic sm!! might write a part 2 đ sorry for any spelling mistakes i'm not a good proof reader đ hope you enjoyed!
#weak hero x reader#weak hero#wolf keum x reader#keum seongje#keum seongje x reader#wolf keum#weak hero class 2 x reader#weak hero class 2#weak hero class x reader#weak hero class#seongje x reader
201 notes
·
View notes
Note
If this request makes you uncomfortable or isnât something you want to write, I apologize and please ignore my request!
Heyy! I was wondering if I could request a satoru x reader x Suguru smut? With like, some bdsm mixed in yk. Tying reader up, satoru is a tease, and likes to make her squirm and ask questions he know she canât answer because Suguru is fucking her throat. But Suguru is mean. Mean and tougher than satoru. He tells satoru to stop being so gentle with you, that not only do you deserve rough treatment but you like it. And satoru listens to him, of course. I just want them to run through me like a trainđ
Also same mean geto anon (again lol) Iâm gonna just sign off w an emoji now :3 -đ
Hi Anon!
This isn't my cup of tea, it's my FUCKING jam!!
Summary: Gojo and Geto had been on a two-week-long mission, which hadn't gone as smoothly as Suguru wanted. He was pent-up and frustrated. So, of course, Gojo called you to warn you it might not be a good idea to come over. You, of course, did not heed his warning. The second you get home, you realize that you were screwed.
Word Count: 3,706
Warnings: BDSM, rough sex, oral sex, so much sex, degradation, teasing, the smuttiest of smut
A/N: Good God, Satoru x Reader x Suguru is my weakness!! I put my whole heart into this. Geto Suguru, teacher AU, is my kryptonite!
Part Two
She Likes it Like That
âY/N babe,â Gojo said in a hushed whisper, âyou probably shouldn't come home tonight.â
You cocked an eyebrow, looking away from the first year's training. âI'm sorry, did you just tell me not to come home. . .to our apartment?â The world âourâ came out like acid.
Gojo sighed overdramatically. âDon't say it like that. I'm trying to save you! Suguru is in such a bad mood.â You listened to him walking around. âI sighed out loud when I noticed the last of my mochi was gone. Fuck you for that, by the way, and do you know what he said to me?â You pinched at the bridge of your nose, waiting for the rant to continue. âHe told me to shut the fuck up! For sighing!â
âWhat did you do to piss him off? Oh, and just an FYI, I bought you more mochi, asshole.â
âOhââ silence, âthank you-Iâm sorry, please don't return it.â
âSatoru! Forget about the mochi. What happened to Sugu?â
The mission your partners were sent on did not go as planned. Their hotel had flooded; it was not like they had time to consider sleeping. The higher-ups sent them to an abandoned mountainside village full of cursed spirits. Poor Suguru had to swallow dozens for nearly two weeks. Gojo had enough; he couldn't stand the pained expression on his face as he gagged the last spirit down. So he decided to Hollow-Purpled the entire village.
The second they got back, the higher-ups scolded the hell out of them. Chastising them, complaining that they didn't do a good enough job. After all their hard work, the time they spent away from home, from you. Those bastards dared to complain about their hard work. It sent Suguru into a terrible mood, one that was bound to end with either a fight or someone getting fucked into the mattress.
One thing about Suguru was that when he was pissy, things felt out of his control. He needed to take control back. Which meant he wanted to have sex. He would be rough, really rough, tying either you or Satoru up, not letting you go until he had calmed down. Or if one of you was fucked too stupid to continue, his eyes focused on the other that wasn't tied up.
âSo please, just stay with Ieiri tonight. I'm going to lock myself in my room. Last time he was this pissed off, the both of us were so sore we couldn't move.â
âUgh, fuckinâ whatever.â This whole situation wasn't fair. You hated how your boyfriends were mistreated.
âYeah, just stay theâoh, hi Suguru.â There was a shuffling in the background. âNo, I wasn't talking shit.â Satoru nervously laughed. âLook, Suguâno, put down the ropeââ
âToru?â Panic for your boyfriend sank into your stomach.
âHey! Wait a secondâSuguââ
Before any other indication of what was happening came through the receiver, the other line cut off. So you quickly yelled to the students you had to leave and took off. By the time you made it, you were breathless from running and realized that in your panic, you left your keys at work.
You picked up the spare key hidden under the doormat. Just as you were about to unlock the door, it flew open. You slowly blinked, looking up at a very irritated Suguru. The man radiated gloom and tension. He was in his sweatpants, and his hair was tied in a messy bun, and, dear God, he looked pent up.
âWhy the fuck are you using the spare key?â
âI-I uhââ
âOoooh~ there she is~!â a hand gently rested against Suguruâs shoulder as Satoru peered down at you from behind your dark-haired boyfriend. âThere's our girl!â
It only took a moment to see that Satoru mirrored Suguruâs frustration and anger. Oh fuck. The key fell from your hand as you took a step back. Suguru was demanding and rough when he was pent up. Satoru, on the other hand, was a tease. He liked pushing you, making you cry. Both of them being in a pissy mood simultaneously, this was a nightmare for you.
âY-You, I thought you were in trouble!â
âOh yeah, no.â Suguruâs soured face slowly twisted into a smirk as Satoru licked his lip. âBut you~?â Suguruâs hand darted out, grabbing you by the front of your shirt, preventing you from moving further back. âYou're royally fucked.â Before you even had a chance to respond, Suguru and Satoru grabbed you, yanking you inside.
âAwe~â Satoru hummed as he trailed his kiss up the bare thighs he lay between. âLook at you~ trying to clamp your thighs shut.â Gojoâs fingers were buried deep inside of you. Finger fucking you to the edge of yet another orgasm he would deny. âBut you can't, can you~? Suguruâs got you all tied to the bed, spread out for us to use you.â A muffled moan escaped you. âHuh? What was that princess? You gotta use your big girl words.â Satoru tilted his head, cupping his free hand around the back of his ear. âOooh! That's right, you can't talk when getting your throat fucked.â
You gagged as Suguru's cock hit the back of your throat. He was quiet, his eyes shut in concentration. He looked so fucking hot, so focused on the feeling of your mouth. Sweat was beading on his forehead as he pulled in and out of your mouth, grunting softly as you hollowed your cheeks. But the more Satoru spoke, the more Suguru knitted his eyebrows.
âI bet you want me to stuff your pussy, too, don't you~? You want to be spit-roasted between your two boyfriends?â Your pussy twitched at his words. âOooh~!! Your cunt just twitched. Is that what our sweet girl wantsââ
âSatoru,â Suguru snarled, âshut the fuck up.â
âWell, excuse the fuck out of me. Y/N likes it when I tease her.â
Suguru tsked, pulling his thick cock out of your mouth. You gasped and coughed, spit and precum coating your chin. Between your pants and the gasps for air, Suguru went to what you thought would be a head pat. Instead, his fingers tangled in your air with a hard yank, pulling you up to look down at Satoru. His face was flushed, cerulean eyes wide as he looked between his two partners.
âLook at the fucking slutty face she's making.â The grip on your hair tightened. âYou think she looks like this because of your pitiful teasing?â A shaky moan escaped you as he tightened his grip harder. âNo, she looks like this because this little slut likes it rough.â
Fuck, you wanted more, to run your hands over Suguruâs arms, to grip his cock, urging him to keep fucking your throat. You were desperate to trap Satoru's head firmly between your thighs, forcing him to kiss and lick your clit. Instead, you weakly tugged at the purple restraints tied to both your wrists and ankles. Suguru had set up the rigging underneath the mattress, making it impossible for you to move. Meaning if you wanted his cock back in your mouth or Satoruâs tongue inside of you, you had to wait for them.
What made it more frustrating was the fact that you were completely bare. Not allowing you to hide the way your body reacted to Suguruâs dirty words. He was telling the truth. And the truth was behind your body's reactions. Gojo could see it in the way your tight entrance clenched around his fingers. He could feel your pussy drip around him, your wetness running down his knuckles. Suguru was right; you did like it; no, like wasn't the right word.
You fucking loved it.
Suguru could see the wheels turning in Satoruâs head as his eyes glittered with lust and excitement. âSatoru~ do you finally see it?~â The way Suguru purred his name had Satoruâs cock throbbing. âYou see why she came home, even though she knew sheâd get fucked?â
âYeah, yeah, she's a fucking slut.â
âYeah, she is.â A sharp tug on your head made you yelp. Suguru grinned, cocking an eyebrow at you. âYou want it rough? Want me to fuck your throat so hard you cry, pretty girl?â
âY-Yes, please.â
Gripping his cock at the base, Suguru slapped his thick meat against your cheek. âThat's a good girl. Now open up.â slowly, you opened your mouth to him. Watching your tongue slip out had his tip angry, throbbing red. âNow,â he smeared the beading precum over your bottom lip, âsay ah~.â
âAhh~â The second that sound left your pretty mouth Suguru shoved his cock in your mouth. Your eyes stung as tears filled your eyes.
Satoruâs fingers had stopped their slow movements inside of you. His mouth was dry as he gulped. Suguru had been rough before, but this was a whole new level. His thick fingers wrapped around your Y/H/C hair, holding your head in place. His hips pull back before slamming forward, his ass clenching with the force of each thrust. Blue eyes slowly trailed over to your face. Your eyes were red, big tears slowly down your cheeks, and your throat was fucked. Satoru swore he could see Suguruâs tip bulging in your slender neck.
This was fucking hot. Suguruâs bare back glittered in the low light of the bedroom, a sheen of sweat beaded over his toned muscles. It was like watching a god fuck a mortal Suguru radiated a dominating power as he watched their girlfriend choke and gag on his cock. Satoruâs cock was so hard it fucking hurt. Reaching down, he wrapped his hand around his throbbing shaft, jerking it slowly as he leaned down, kissing and nipping at your inner thighs.
The gentle kisses had you sighing contently around Suguruâs cock. Looking over his shoulder, Suguru sighed as he watched Satoru. His pink tongue was stuck out, gently teasing your damp folds. The sensation had you sighing around his dick, and that was not what he needed right this fucking second. Suguru wanted more; he needed it to relieve the tension in his shoulder. But that relief, the release he needed, wouldnât happen, with Satoru teasing you like he loved to do.
âSatoru,â Suguru's voice was rough, âI just told you Y/N likes it rough.â
âUh-huh~â Satoruâs voice was muffled as his face buried in your pussy, making you whine around the cock buried in your mouth.
âYouâre not being rough enough.â Satoru pulled back, making you whine in protest. âOh, Iâm sorry. Do you want to come down here and eat Y/Nâs pussy while I get my dick sucked?â
âNo.â The cocky smile that was beginning to form on Satoruâs face was suddenly gone as Suguru reached his free hand down, wrapping his fingers in soft white hair. âI want you to fucking eat her cunt out like you fucking hate her.â Your eyes rolled back as Satoru was slammed back down into your pussy. The moan that left his mouth vibrated just right against our clit, making you cry out. âAh~ fuck yes.â Your cries vibrated around Suguruâs cock, just the way he wanted. âThatâs it, Satoru, keep it up.â
âMmmmph.â Finally, having a picture of how Suguru wanted him to act, Satoru found himself motivated. Again, it might be because his boyfriend was tugging and pulling at his sensitive hairline. Yeah, that was motivating him. Fuck you like he hated you, he could do that. He was just as pent-up as Suguru was.
Fingers slammed inside your pussy, fucking in and out of your tight hole with a force and speed that had you crying out in pleasure. Your moans felt so fucking good, and the more you opened your mouth to cry, the deeper Suguru fucked your throat. He hit the back over and over again, his hand pressing firmly against Satoruâs head, pushing him harder against your clit. The two of you moaned while your mouths were being used; the sounds of whimpers, squelches, and gagging were like a symphony to Suguruâs ears.
Out of all the ways for him to relieve his stress, this was by far his favorite.
âHahâfuck keep that up, Satoru, bring her right to the edge, then stop. I want her cumming with both of us inside of her. Fucking her so rough she has to call out of work tomorrow and Friday.â The thought of that had you pulling on your restraints. âOooh oh, you like that? You like knowing the two of us will make sure you canât walk or talk tomorrow?â Your muffled moans were quickly molded into gags as Suguru roughly fucked your face. âYeah, you fucking do, you nasty little slut.â
Your mind was spinning as you felt yourself climbing closer and closer to your orgasm. The room was so hot and reeked of sex. It was all you could do not to allow yourself to cum right then and there. Satoru could feel it, the way your little swollen clit throbbed against his tongue, how your walls clamped down on his fingers. He wanted to send you over the edge. He was close to following you as he fucked his hips helplessly into the mattress, wishing it was your wet pussy instead.
One orgasm wouldnât hurt, would it? You had been so good to them, allowing the duo to drag you into the house, strip you in the entryway, and tie you to the bed. Plus, on top of all that, they had left you alone for two weeks. You had to rely on that stupid vibrator Suguru insisted on allowing you to keep. That stupid toy was nothing compared to his tongue. Which was probably why he was bringing you to a mind-blowing orgasm in under three minutes.
Yeah, he was going to let you cum.
Curling his fingers up into your g-spot, Satoru fucked you as fast as his wrist would allow. Suguru instantly knew what was happening. From the way your eyes shut to how loud you were moaning around him, you were seconds away from cumming. If he was in a better mood, he might have allowed it to happen. Unfortunately, he wasnât done with you yet.
âStop.â Suguru scolded, pulling Satoru away from your dripping sex.
Both you and Satoru made disapproving groans as your orgasm slowly faded out of sight. âDoesnât she deserve a treat? Sheâs been so good!â Satoru whined, licking your juices off his lips.
âI agree. Y/N does deserve a reward. But you need to give it to her in the roughest way that you can.â Suguru pulled his cock out of your mouth, allowing you to catch your breath. âLook at it this way. We get to blow off the steam while we make up for making her play with herself for two weeks.â
âHuh?â Those words struck a different chord in Satoru, and his cock twitched.
âY/N, sweetheart, how often would you say you played with yourself when we were gone.â
You swallowed at the air greedily. âI donât know, seven, maybe eight times.â Both your boyfriends shuddered, hearing the hoarseness of your voice.
âAnd out of all of those times, did you cum as hard as you do with us.â
âNot at all. They were all baby orgasms.â
Suguru shut his eyes, nodding his head. âSee, Satoru, not only does our little slut like us rough and demanding, but we have to make up for those eight little orgasms.â When the dark-haired man looked back at Satoru, he saw a flash of white before your scream of shock and please bounced off the walls.
Suguruâs eyes were slightly wide as his brain tried to catch up with what his eyes had just witnessed. What he saw was Satoru balls deep inside of you. His thrusts were sloppy and needy, and fuck you looked as stunned as Suguru. One second you had been empty, pussy craving a cock deep inside of it from the denied orgasm. In the blink of an eye, Satoru was fucking into you more brutal than heâd ever fucked you before.
âI fucking told you, that toy was nothing compared to us.â Satoru snarled against the crook of your neck, digging his teeth into the sensitive skin. âFucking stupid toy, not pleasing my girl.â
âOh myâfuck, holy fuck!â You cried out, mouth wide open. Giving Suguru the perfect opportunity to get back to fucking your throat. The bittersweet taste of pre-cum had your mouth watering. He returned to the brutal pace he was in several minutes again.
âShe needs that Satoru. What if we get sent on another long mission? Sheâs just supposed to suffer?â The thought of that had Suguru tilting his head, bangs falling in front of his eye. âYou know what, I think you might be on to something. If we take her toy away, then weâd have to fuck her even harder the next time we get home.â
Satoruâs teeth sank harder into your neck as the tip of his cock slammed almost too hard into your cervix, making you scream around Suguru. âExactly. Let me use reversal red on it, Y/N, please, baby.â You started to shake your head in a desperate plea to let you keep it. But Suguruâs cock in your throat made it impossible to do so. âWhat was that? Oh, right, you have your mouth full.â His lips moved against your pulse as his fingers dug into your hips. âGuess weâll just have to say the way your clamping down on my cock is a yes in our book.â Your eyes darted up to Suguru, who had bought you the toy, for help.
âMhmm fuck, yeah, Iâm pretty sure she just hummed an âuh-huhâ around my cock.â
You wanted to argue, to fight against this rash decision, but you felt so good it was almost impossible to care. You were screaming around Suguruâs cock. Tears streaming down your face, leaving behind trails of mascara. They were both being so mean and rough. God, it was so fucking good. Who cared about a clit sucker when your throat and pussy were being fucked into next week.
âSheâs close.â Satoru cried out, his balls slapping against your ass. âOh fuck sheâs hugging my cock so tight Iâm going to explode Suguru.â
With blurry eyes, you glanced up at Suguru. His cheeks were flushed, and his eyes shut tight. âI know, oh fuck I know, Iâm so close, Satoru, donât fuckinâ stop, make her cum, make her cum so hard.â Both his hands grabbed your face fucking your throat roughly as Satoru cried out, his hand pressing roughly on your clit, rubbing it in fast circles.
That was all that you needed. You cried out, squirting all over Satoruâs crotch, abdomen, and the mattress. Your orgasm set a domino effect between your boyfriends. Suguru followed behind you, his body hunched over you, his hands gently squeezing your head as he filled your mouth full of his thick cum. You weakly tried swallowing all of it, but that was somewhat difficult as Satoru extended your orgasm.
His thumb continues to rub your clit until his face scrunch up, mouth open in a feral growl. Satoru's orgasm hit him like a punch in the gut. He fucked all three of you harder, closer to oblivion. The headboard slamming against the wall as the restraint dug into your wrists was the only thing grounding you to remain on Earth. Satoru didnât let up on the rough thrusts until he felt his cum dripping around his cock onto the bed.
The throbbing pain in the back of your throat, deep inside of your pussy was all the confirmation you needed that your boyfriends had fulfilled their promise. Never in your life had you been fucked so roughly. But it was a pain that you warmly welcomed.
After coming down, Suguru was the first to move gently. The rough hands that had been holding you in a vice gently held you as he pulled his softening cock out of your mouth. âLay down.â His gruff, gentle voice whispered as he helped rest you against a pillow.
âOh fuckââ Satoru lifted his head off your shoulder, âI havenât cum that hard in a while.â He was so slow, pulling out of you, grimacing as you cried out. âSorry, fuck Iâm sorry, baby.â
You shut your eyes, listening to Satoru getting out of bed. You could hear water running in the bathroom as gentle fingers began undoing your restraints. âYou did such a good job, Y/N,â Suguru whispered. âSuch a good girl for us.â His praise had you humming happily as he made quick work of the rest of the ropes.
âSuguru, letâs order in, yeah?â
âYeah, that sounds good.â
The next half hour was a blur of warm happiness. Satoru helped wash your body in a bubble bath before Suguru joined you, kneeling next to the tub, lovingly stroking your face and hair. After you were cleaned up, your hair brushed, and pajamas on. You crawled into your bed with fresh sheets and relaxed. Satoru and Suguru fluffed your pillows and brought you a cup of tea for your raw throat. When your dinner arrived, the three of you sat in bed together to eat as a B-grade horror movie played on the television.
After eating, Satoru left to throw out the take-out containers. âMmm, thank you for letting us do all that,â Suguru said as he crawled into bed after his shower. âThat mission, it was rough.â
âIâm always happy to help.â Your voice cracked, making Suguru frown. âStop frowning,â you flicked his forehead. âI like it rough.â
The bed dipped, and Satoru wrapped his arms around your waist. âY/N can handle it. She is dating the two strongest, after all.â Both you and Suguru scoffed, relaxing in the growing silence. âOh, by the way, Y/N.â
âYeah?â You yawned, snuggling into Suguruâs chest as he turned the bedside lamp off.
âDid you bring home my mochi?â
In the dark of the room, you heard a thump and Satoruâs whine before Suguru pulled the three of you closer to him. âSatoru shut the fuck up about the mochi.â
#jjk smut#jjk x reader#jjk men#jjk reader insert#jjk geto#jjk x you#reader x geto#suguru x reader#jjk suguru#geto x reader#geto suguru smut#jjk gojo smut#gojou satoru x y/n#jjk gojo#reader x gojo#gojou satoru x reader#gojo x reader#gojo smut#gojo x reader x geto#satosugu#satoru x reader#reader x satoru#jujutsu satoru#satoru x reader x suguru#satosugu reader smut#jjk reader smut#reader x suguru#suguru x you#gojo x y/n#jujutsu gojo
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
Max Verstappen (Red Bull Racing) - Anyone But You
Requested: yes
Prompt: Anyone But You
Warnings: arguing
The Rom-Com Masterlist âĄ
Max Verstappen didnât usually get nervous, not at race weekends, press conferences, or even after questionable overtakes. Yet standing at the entrance of a pristine garden venue for Daniel Ricciardoâs upcoming wedding festivities, he couldnât shake the tightness in his chest. Heâd RSVPâd with a simple "plus none", not interested in awkward questions or matchmaking attempts from Danielâs overly excited family. Little did he know, the universe had other plans. Maxâs jaw clenched as he watched a familiar face appearâher face.
Y/n
Danielâs fiancĂ©eâs younger sister. The very same woman who had quietly slipped out of his hotel suite six months ago without a word. Max had woken up to rumpled sheets, her absence like a slap. His irritation deepened when he thought heâd seen her peeking back around the corner later that same morning, only to vanish completely. What Max didnât know was she had overheard him venting his frustrations to Daniel over coffee.
"I just donât get it." Max had muttered, frustration heavy in his voice. "She ran off like I was some monster. A âone-night standâ? Fine, but she couldâve said something. Not like I care, thoughâwomen like that always act the same." It hadnât been meant to sound cruel, but for Y/n, overhearing that was like a dagger to the chest. Sheâd left Maxâs apartment that day without looking back.
âĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄ
"Max!" Danielâs booming voice snapped him out of his silent fuming. "Mate, glad you could make it!" Daniel gave Max a crushing hug before gesturing toward his future sister-in-law, who had frozen stiff. "You remember Y/n, right?" Max forced a polite smile. "Yeah. Y/n."
"Max." She replied coolly, avoiding his gaze. From across the lawn, Heidi, watched the two with eagle eyes. "Do they know eachother?" She mumbled to one of her bridesmaids. "Oh my god! Isn't that the guy that was talking about her behind her back after they fucked?" Heidi groaned. Why did it have to be now that they rekindled? "Theyâre going to ruin everything."
Her bridesmaid smiled, patting her shoulder. "Itâs fine. Theyâll sort it out. Theyâre adults, arenât they?" Heidi scoffed. "Youâre kidding, right? Thatâs exactly why they need help."
By the next morning, the plan was in motion. Danielâs entire family had decided the easiest way to prevent fireworks between Max and Y/n was to get them to date until the wedding was at least finished. "Itâll calm the drama." Heidi said confidently when she delivered the news over breakfast. "You think they'll fall for it?" Daniel asked. "Maybe not, but I will not have them ruin this wedding."
âĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄ
Y/n walked around the house typing on her phone until she overheard Heidi and Daniel chit chatting. "Why can't he just admit that he likes her? It is so obvious!" Heidi said. Y/n stopped at the corner, listening intently to whatever the gossip might have been. "I know, but you know Max. He gets nervous around girls. Especially girls like Y/n." Y/n scoffed at her sister and future brother-in-law's attempt to have a so called 'private' conversation and walked on, not passing any heed. As she walked into the kitchen, she stopped dead in her tracks upon seeing Max, smirking at her whilst leaning on the counter.
Y/n sighed. "They got you too, huh?" Max's expression turned to one of confusion. "What do you-"
"Did you happen to overhear Heidi and Daniel talk about how I'm in love with you?" He nodded. "I heard the same about you. It's obvious they want us to date or fuck or something until this wedding is over, so let's just do it." She suggested. "You mean fuck? Or-"
"No! Pretend to date!" Max nodded again. "Sure. I meant that too."
âĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄ
Y/n folded her arms across her chest as she stared at Max across the room. "We need rules." She said firmly. "Rules?" Max raised a brow, looking amused. "Like what?" She ticked them off on her fingers; "No unnecessary touching. Minimal talking when alone. No real emotionsâthis is purely for show. And absolutely no revisiting⊠what happened." The pair stared at eachother. "Okay. I can do that." Max extended a hand, and Y/n hesitated before shaking it. Even that brief touch sent her heart skittering, but she masked it with indifference.
For the next two days, Max and Y/n played their parts with irritating precision. They arrived together, laughed at forced inside jokes, and posed for family photos where they pretended to adore each other. "Admit it-" Max teased after one staged moment, whispering near her ear. "Youâre enjoying this." Y/n smiled sweetly for onlookers before turning to murmur back to him. "Iâd rather be literally anywhere else." Despite her words, Y/n found herself catching glimpses of Max when he wasnât lookingâthe small smiles he shared with Daniel, the way he charmed her and Heidiâs parents, and the brief moments he genuinely laughed. He wasnât the cold, arrogant man sheâd convinced herself he was.
For his part, Max was equally unsettled. Y/nâs sarcasm and wit drew him in, even if she frustrated him to no end. Worse, every time she laughedâreal or fakeâhis chest tightened.
âĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄ
Although everything was going smoothly and everyone slowly but surely started to believe the unlikely couple had been seeing eachother, it was all too good to be true. And it all fell apart during the rehearsal dinner. Danielâs uncle had been indulging in far too much wine when he raised his glass and proposed a toast to the happy couple. Unfortunately, it was not for the couple who were getting married. "To Max and Y/n! Hereâs to the next wedding!" The room erupted into cheers and whistles. Max tensed, and Y/n flushed crimson, ready to crawl under the table. "You two are so cute together." Danielâs aunt added. "So happy that Daniel and Heidi got you two together in the end."
"Excuse me. I have to-" Y/n said quietly, bolting for the garden terrace. Max followed her, stopping as he caught her standing by the railing, arms wrapped tightly around herself. "Y/n?"
"Don't." She shook her head, blinking back tears she hadnât expected. "This was a mistake." Max stepped closer. "Look, I know we donât get along, but-"
"Max, that is not the problem!" She exhaled shakily. "I heard you that morning. At Danielâs place. When you said I was like every other woman and you didnïżœïżœt care that I left." Max froze, his mouth parting slightly. "You⊠heard that?" Y/n nodded, avoiding his gaze. "I ran because I was nervous, not because I regretted it. But hearing you say that-"
"I didn't mean it. Max interrupted, his voice low. "I was⊠frustrated. You left without a word, Y/n, and no one has ever done that to me before."
"You still shouldnât have said it." Max let out a long breath, stepping beside her. "Youâre right. Iâm sorry. Iâve regretted it ever since." They stood in silence for a moment before Max stepped closer. "For what itâs worth, I didnât want this to just be fake. I donât know about you, but Iâm tired of pretending." He said softly. Y/n turned to face him, surprise flickering across her features. "You mean that?"
"I do."
Slowly, Y/n let down her guard. "Maybe we stop pretending, then."
âĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄâĄ
By the time the wedding day arrived, Max and Y/n were no longer 'fake'. "You two didnât really need my help, did you?" Daniel chuckled. Max grinned, wrapping an arm around Y/n as she laughed at Danielâs dumbfounded expression. "Maybe next time, donât meddle so much." Y/n teased. Daniel groaned. "Next time? Oh, come on! You guys just started dating, don't break up yet."
As the happy couple danced under the lights, Max leaned closer to Y/n and whispered, "Running away again after tonight?" She smirked. "Not this time."
#f1 imagine#f1 blurb#f1 oneshot#f1 x y/n#f1 x reader#f1 oneshots#max verstappen fanfic#max verstappen one shot#max verstappen imagine#max verstappen x y/n#max verstappen x oc#max verstappen x you#max verstappen x reader#max verstappen fic#max verstappen angst#max verstappen fluff
299 notes
·
View notes
Text
Sworn Protector
aegon x sister!wife!reader x the bloody ben we thought we got but weâre delusional đ«
anniversary gift pt 2 but can be read alone!
Summary: Benjicot Blackwood is Aegon and yours sworn protector. He takes your protection and pleasure very seriously much to Alicent and Viserys dislike.
Warnings: 18+, graphic depiction of murder fr, blood, drinking, swearing, oral(m and f receiving), fingering, public, penetration(p in v), double penetration đ«Łđźâđš, honestly this whole fic is a warning idk what to say!!!!
Authors Note: âlook at me, this isnât you.â moment and honestly good for y/n, fucking the sworn protector is a family tradition apparently đ«Ł, no bc iâm enjoying writing this problematic throuple too much đ§đŒââïž, i may make one more part idk but itâs set up for that so we shall seeeeee
Word Count: 3.9k
âčâââïžââșââ âïž ââșâââïžââ âč âčâââïžââșââ âïž ââșâââïžââ âč âčâââïžââșââ
I jolt awake as I hear the relentless crack of bone and squelch of blood. Aegon is like a rock next to me refusing to wake or be bothered. I pull on one of his shirts and walk to the door to listen through. Metal slams into flesh repeatedly as I crack open the door and gasp at the scene before me.
âBen?! Ben stop!â my balance wavers as I rip open the door and see the state of the man beneath him. âBenjicot Blackwood I said thatâs enough!â I shout firmly and his bloodied fist halts, hoovering above the mans pulverized face.
âIâm sorry.â Ben turns to look at me as the manâs blood continues to cascade down his face.
Guards rush into the hall and stop abruptly taking in the scene. They look from me to Ben and then down to the unrecognizable body. Some of them put their hands on their sword pommels and before I can think I step in front of Ben protectively.
âPrincess go back to your chambers and we will deal with this.â a guard holds his hands out in front of him slowly walking towards me.
âIf you come closer to her you will be in the same state as this man here.â Ben spits as he rises and towers behind me.
âEnough,â I hiss out to him. Gods the one time I wish Aegon were actually awake to help me deal with something. âYou all will see to it that this mess is cleaned up. Ser Benjicot was simply doing his duty and protecting Aegon and I. Iâll hear no more on this matter at this hour.â my voice unwavering hoping theyâll listen and heed my words.
âWhat happened that could lead to this?â a guard asks baffled, his face turning queasy.
âI intend to question him myself, along with Aegon, to get to the bottom of this. We shall speak on the morrow.â I toss over my shoulder pushing Ben into our chambers and sealing us shut behind the doors.
âWhat the fuck?â I push him harshly into open space of our chambers. âWhat the fuck was that?â I ask again throwing my hands in the air at a loss for words.
Ben says nothing and takes a seat in a chair as I fill up a glass with wine. I begin to light some candles around our chambers as itâs still hours before sunrise. I take a long sip and exhale deeply. I walk over to the bed and shake Aegon a little more roughly than needed.
âWhat is it?â Aegon pushes me off of him and rolls over.
âGet up. We have a situation.â I grit out through my teeth. âBen just slaughtered a man outside of our chambers and I donât know what to do.â Aegons eyes shoot open.
âWhat are you talking about?â he sits up and his eyes bulge as they land on Benâs bloody face. âWhat the fuck?â
âHey.â Ben smiles and offers us a small wave.
âWhat happened?â Aegon rises out of bed completely nude and takes a seat in a chair near Ben.
I refill my glass while pouring them each a cup of wine and bring it to them. I claim the couch and spread out. I cross my legs and take a sip of wine as I look to Ben expectantly for him to begin telling his story.
âSome cunt from the servant staff was walking the halls with his little cunt friends,â Benâs voice starts to rise. âHe started saying all it took to become the new sworn protector was to fuck you. He said he planned to walk into your chambers and take you as you were while Aegon slept beside you.â I can feel the rage radiating off of him in palpable waves.
âSo you killed him? Brutally?â Aegon raises his eyebrows shaking his head in disbelief yet a smile begins to form on his lips.
âYes.â Ben says nodding as if nothing is wrong with that answer
âWell at least we know you do a thorough job.â Aegon shrugs and sips his wine. âShall we call you our sworn executioner now?â he smirks walking to the bathing chambers.
âCome, let us clean you up.â I hum offering Ben my hand.
Ben looks up to me as he grabs my hand. His gaze never leaves mine as he places a soft kiss on my forehead. I lead us over to Aegon who has a basin of water and a clean cloth. We have Ben sit as we begin to remove his bloody armor.
âThank you for protecting me in the halls, although, it shouldnât have come to that.â Ben looks to me as I begin wiping off his face.
âWe all protect each other.â Aegon adds as he removes the last piece of Benâs armor. âTruth be told, this will most likely be blamed on us anyway.â Aegons eyes look to mine.
âAs long as Ben can stay I care not.â I say shrugging as I try to wipe dried blood off his brow.
âAgreed.â Aegon hums bringing a clean cloth to Benâs neck to start wiping the blood from there.
We finish cleaning Ben in silence as he stares at the both of us with devotion. The pile of bloody armor is moved to the bath so it can be washed in the morning. Our hands begin to slowly undress Ben and lead him over to our bed.
âThank you for protecting my wife.â Aegon hums helping Ben lay back on the bed. âLet me reward you.â his smile is devilish as he slowly begins to remove Benâs underwear.
Once freed Benâs cock bounces against his lower stomach as he stares at us with low lids. Aegon nestles himself between Benâs thighs as I cuddle into Benâs side. I turn Benâs head to face mine and capture his lips into a heated kiss. Ben groans deeply into my mouth as Aegon licks him from base to tip.
âShh, shh,â I whisper as I trail kisses down his jaw.
Aegon takes Ben fully in his mouth, accepting every inch until he reaches the base. Aegon begins to lift his head leaving trails of spit coating his member. Ben lets out a strangled whimper as Aegon brings his hand up to his balls.
âFuck, my Prince.â Ben rasps as one of his hands tangles in Aegons hair.
Aegon chuckles around Ben as his hips begin to jerk. Aegon uses both of his hands to push Benâs hips into the bed and shower him with the pleasure of his mouth. I start to kiss and suck on Benâs neck as our names fall from his lips like a prayer.
âCome for us.â I murmur against his neck before I bite down on his pulse point.
A low groan spills from Benâs mouth as his hips twitch as he begins to fill Aegons throat. Aegon licks every drop that Ben has to offer him. He continues offering small licks as Benâs thighs begin to shake.
âMy prince,â Ben groans pulling Aegon off of him by his hair.
Aegon chuckles lowly as he crawls up Benâs body and claims his lips for his own. Aegon releases Ben and turns to me to ensnare me. I sigh into Aegons mouth as I taste Ben. We slowly pull apart and all cuddle into each other on the spacious bed.
âčâââïžââșââ âïž ââșâââïžââ âč âčâââïžââșââ âïž ââșâââïžââ âč âčâââïžââșââ
My eyes flutter open as the morning light peeks through our windows. I untangle myself from Ben and Aegon and softly pad over to the doors. I poke my head out to ask a guard to have a servant bring up some fresh water and cloths.
The supplies are brought to me with haste along with a letter for the three of us to hold an audience with the King and Queen once we dress. I bring the supplies into the bathing chambers and begin to clean off Benâs bloody armor. The bath water has turned a deep burgundy and I sigh when I see that itâs also crusted under my nails.
âYou donât have to clean up after me.â Ben whispers to me as I jump at his voice.
âAm I not ceaselessly cleaning up after the both of you?â I raise my eyebrow as a smile spreads across my face.
Aegon begins to stir from the bed and sits up pouting at being left alone. He gets up and joins us in the bathing chambers and I tell them about the note I received. We all slowly pull our clothes on and Aegon and I help Ben put his armor back on.
Upon opening the door weâre greeted with the stain that has been left from last nights events. We walk past silently and flow down down the steps. As we turn the corner we can see Viserys atop the throne looking less than pleased.
âIâm far too sober for this.â Aegon whispers in my ear.
âHush,â I elbow him in the side.
âYour Grace.â Ben says bowing deeply.
âWho cares to tell me what happened last night?â Viserys voice is rough as he looks to all three of us.
âA man was heard loudly speaking in the halls of how it was his plan to come into our chambers to rape and harm me. Ser Benjicot was simply protecting me from those events occurring.â I offer hoping my somewhat thought out words will distract them from the brazen violence that followed.
âSo you took his life? We have dungeons for a reason boy.â Viserys voice carries throughout the empty hall as he looks to Ben.
âI-â Ben starts.
âIs it not his job to protect me and Aegon? By whatever means necessary?â I challenge Viserys as my voice rises to meet his.
âDaughter, Iâm not mad that he protected you, Iâm mad that thereâs stain on the stone reminding us of the brutality.â Viserys eyes narrow on me.
âGods save us! Thereâs a stain on the stone.â Aegon brings a hand to his forehead rolling his eyes.
âAegon.â Alicent warns staring daggers at him.
âYou three already cause me enough rumors and whispers throughout court. If youâre going to kill someone for my daughter at least make sure thereâs no one to witness it.â Viserys relents shaking his head looking to Ben. âAll three of you leave the Keep, I do not wish to see you for the rest of the day.â he waves his hand at us in dismissal.
Ben takes us past the guard quarters so he can remove his armor before we leave for the day. We linger on the front steps not really having an idea of where to go. I suggest we claim an empty villa in the gardens and have drinks and food catered to us.
âExcellent idea, my love.â Aegon claps his hands together. âAnd where are the gardens again?â he clears his throat.
âThis way.â I roll my eyes and lead us.
I find us a villa surprisingly quick and servants are upon us in moments. We order many bottle and ask for them to close the billowy curtains around us for extra privacy. We have an intimate table at the entrance and a couple of couches and chairs tucked away in the back.
âWhy didnât I know about this place sooner?â Aegon relaxes back into his chair with his glass.
âBecause you wouldnât appreciate it as the sanctuary that it is.â I hum as I take a sip of the sweet wine.
âIâm sorry about last night.â Ben breathes out looking to us.
âDonât be.â Aegon scrunches his brows.
âMy actions just made your father kick us out of the Keep for the day.â he clenches his fists angry with himself.
âFuck the Red Keep.â I shrug my shoulders with a smile.
âFuck the Red Keep.â Aegon raises his glass to me and we look to Ben expectantly.
âFuck the Red Keep.â Ben sighs raising his glass.
âYou donât have this position just because you fuck me. You are a brave knight who understands us but loves and protects us anyway.â I say grabbing his hand with an appreciative smile.
âOur father is basically a walking corpse. By the time we stumble into the Keep later heâll probably forget all about it.â Aegon offers with a lopsided smile.
âAnd we can forget all about it right now.â I drain my cup and go to refill it.
We sit and drink and let Ben vent for a while listening intently to him. More drinks are brought to us along with lunch and we leisurely graze. The air starts to get warmer and we all shed out of our first layer of clothing leaving us absolutely indecent.
âUp on the table. I want to write my apology with my tongue.â Ben turns to me with low lids as his words go straight to my core.
He moves our glasses and bottles then turns to me expectantly. I slowly rise out of the chair on shaky legs, giggling as the wine rushes to my head. Ben stands grabbing my waist and placing me on the table. He claims his seat once more and pulls me closer by my hips causing my silk slip to bunch around my waist.
âFinally we have some good food.â Aegon chuckles lowly as Ben starts to dip his head down.
Ben places a soft kiss on my wet center sending a shiver through my body. He trails his tongue along my slit making my breath catch in my throat. A breathy sigh escapes my lips as he pulls back to place small kisses on my inner thighs.
âBen,â his name seeps out of my mouth as he playfully bites down on my tender flesh.
He props my legs on his shoulders and finally brings his torturous mouth to my core. His main focus becomes my clit and at the rapid pace his tongue is moving I would believe that heâs truly writing his apology. A cry erupts from my throat as he slides two fingers into me.
âYou guys are so hot.â Aegon groans.
My eyes follow Aegons voice and our eyes lock. My eyes roll back as Ben starts to curl his fingers. Once my vision returns Aegon is hovering over the table and claims my lips. I squeak out in surprise as wine trickles out the sides of our mouth as Aegon brought some with to the kiss. I get lost in the taste of Aegon and the wine as my hips begin grinding onto Benâs face.
Benâs rhythm never falters as he begins to pump his fingers faster. Aegon releases my mouth and I let out a loud moan as Ben starts with a third finger. One of my hands buries itself in Benâs hair and he grunts as I pull. Moans fall from my mouth like a symphony as my orgasm slams through my body washing me in pleasure.
Ben continues with his tongue and fingers while pulling my hips even closer to his face. My whole upper body is arching off the table as he continues his assault. Aegon brings his mouth back to mine to try and hide the whimpers and moans that have been pouring from my mouth.
âQuiet down before I shove my cock in your mouth to silence you.â Aegon says hoovering above my lips.
I come hard squeezing my legs shut around Benâs head and sobbing into Aegons mouth. Ben offers small licks that continue to send jolts through my body. He finally detaches himself from me and looks up to me with a wet face.
Ben removes both of my legs slowly offering kisses down each until theyâre hanging off the table. Aegon grabs my ankle and pulls me over to him. I slide across the table giggling as I stop in front of Aegon.
âI think I would like a taste too.â he hums before bringing his mouth to my over sensitive core.
âAegon fuck,â I breathlessly pant as his tongue laps at me.
I fall back onto the table with a thud as his tongue zeros in on my clit. My body is trembling with pleasure at every swirl of his tongue. Ben captures my lips in a kiss and swallows all of my whimpers. My hips rise off of the table as I explode all over Aegons tongue.
âFuck, please,â I whine voice cracking as he continues with his mouth.
âYou can give him one more on the table.â Ben coos to me as he pushes my slip the rest of the way up.
Once Iâm fully exposed on the table Ben wastes no time reaching for my breasts. His fingers are quick to start pinching and pulling my nipples. Both of their names fill the space between the pants that tumble from my mouth.
âAegon, I- I, fuck Ben,â a sob tears through me as I come across Aegons tongue again.
âMm, such a good girl for us.â Ben whispers smoothing my hair.
Aegon removes himself to sit up and take in my disheveled state. My breathing is ragged as my chest rises and falls. Ben slowly pulls my slip back down and they shower my body with kisses offering me words of praise.
âCome, letâs go lay on the couches with some wine.â Ben offers me his hand as Aegon gathers the bottles and cups.
As I hop off the table my legs threaten to give out underneath me. I giggle as Benâs hands rush to my forearms to help steady me. We all collapse onto the couch which is more of the size of a bed thankfully for us. Aegon hands us our cups filled anew and we all sip in silence.
The wine helps me calm my breathing as I sink back into the couch between the two of them. They both have hands grasped on my thighs rubbing soothing patterns and squeezing softly.
âI wanna fuck you.â Benâs breath fans across my neck as he trails kisses up my jaw.
âPlease Ben,â I whine as his hand travels under my slip to wet core.
âGet on your stomach. Head in Aegons lap.â he nods his head standing up to tower above us.
I slowly start to turn over and place my head on Aegons thighs and raise my ass into the air. I feel the day bed dip behind me and turn my head to look up at Aegon who is smirking down at me. Benâs hands go to my hips and lift them up to meet his. His tip swirls around in my wetness and glides against my clit causing me to gasp.
âYou ready?â Ben asks breathlessly trailing a hand down my spine.
âYes,â I mewl as I rock my hips back.
He slowly slides every inch into me as I bury my head in Aegons lap. Once his hips are flush against my ass I sigh pushing it back into him seeking more friction. He pulls out and slams back into me almost sliding me across Aegons legs. Both of his hands grab my hips roughly as he starts pounding into me.
Moans keep pouring from my mouth has his hips repeatedly snap into mine. My hands are gripping Aegons thighs as my nails bite into him. I rest my head on his thigh and get lost in my pleasure as Ben continues with no end in sight.
âKeep her quiet.â Ben looks to Aegon as a particularly loud moan falls from my lips.
Aegon is quick to slide his underwear down and free his cock. He wastes no time trailing it along my parted lips. I let my tongue fall out of my mouth and press into his hardened length. Aegon groans and begins to push himself inside my mouth.
âTaking us both so well.â Aegon groans moving my hair to the side so he can watch.
I begin to sloppily bob my head as spit trails out from the sides of my mouth. I groan around Aegon as Ben lifts my hips a little higher to reach a new angle. Tears are streaming down my cheeks as Aegon sets a pace of his own.
Aegon and Ben find a rhythm where when pulls out the other is pushing in. My body is shaking from the amount of pleasure Iâm receiving and I let out a harsh sob when Aegons sneaking fingers find my abandoned clit.
âFuck, squeezing me so good.â Ben pants as his hips begin to falter before he finds a new rhythm.
Aegon shoots down my throat without warning and it begins to spill out the side of my mouth. He pulls out panting and stokes my jaw affectionately. Benâs hands travel up my spine before wrapping around my front. He pulls me up flush against his chest and begins driving his cock up into me. He wraps a hand around my throat and turns my head to look back at him.
âBeautiful.â Ben whispers as his mouth attaches to mine.
Aegons come mixes with saliva trailing down mine and Benâs face. His hand applies soft pressure and I kiss him even harder. I whine into Benâs mouth as I feel Aegons traitorous tongue begin to softly lick at my clit. Ben and I break away from the kiss and gaze down at Aegon. Ben and I both come as we look upon him under us.
We all slowly pull apart and fall back onto the bed, breathing ragged. Aegon takes a sip of wine and passes the cup to us. We all look thoroughly ruined as we lounge back into the couch.
âSomeone has to call a servant for more wine.â Aegon sighs as he picks up the empty bottles.
âYouâre already up.â I roll my eyes. âWait! Put some fucking pants on before you scar the staff.â I shout at him before he opens the curtains.
âAs if your moans didnât do that already.â Aegon tosses over his shoulder as he slips back into his trousers.
Aegon breezes out of the villa and Ben tucks me into his side. He kisses me lazily as his fingers stroke my cheek. We pull apart when Aegon returns with more bottles and candles as the sun is beginning to set.
We continue drinking late into the night and then start to pull our clothes on to make our way back to the Keep. We stumble in the main doors giggling and hanging off of each other. As we make it up the stairs Alicent is standing in front of our chambers with a scrunched brow.
âAll of you get to bed. Now.â she says through her teeth. âWe will discuss your actions in the garden on the morrow when, Gods hoping, you all will be sober.â she looks to us with disgust and swishes back to her chambers.
âčâââïžââșââ âïž ââșâââïžââ âč âčâââïžââșââ âïž ââșâââïžââ âč âčâââïžââșââ
masterlist
#bloody ben smut#bloody ben x reader#benjicot blackwood#benjicot x reader#benjicot blackwood x reader#aegon ii smut#aegon smut#aegon x reader#aegon x reader x ben#hotd imagine#hotd fic#hotd smut#x reader#x reader smut#viserys targaryen#alicent hightower
512 notes
·
View notes
Text
DITTO â Gojo Satoru a rewrite of this post.



prologue. â brave, lucky, courageous. these are the words that people bestow upon you when the dust has cleared, and the king of curses is no more. you disagree, for if you were lucky, gojo satoru would still be standing at your side. instead you've been left to stare at the ocean shoreline on your own, without your best friend (the love of your life) by your side.
pairing. gojo satoru x afab!reader
warnings+. unfulfilled/unresolved love. angst, hurt, comfort, fluff. your usual shenanigans. sfw! implied, minor satosugu (mb because geto is my beautiful sad princess and i love him so he has to be a part of everything). pining, idiots in love. grief, and what you do after you've lost what you treasure the most etc u get it. reader is from an unnamed clan, has a younger brother. reader also wears skirts, dresses sometimes, character death + injury
word count. 11k! đ song inspiration. ditto â newjeans / ëŽì§ì€ (2022) a/n. i wrote rough headcanons and posted them yesterday but i woke up thinking dang i should actually write something better about that lmao. update: i thought i'd finish this in a few hours, why did this take me like 2 days? update #2: dawg this is long as fuck...this kinda depressed me to write CROSSPOSTED ON AO3 <3 đ
mp3. do you think about me now, yeah. all the time...

âïž â 1995. đŹ â gojo.
these meeting rooms were hushed, grand, and the kind of place that simply swallowed up any sound and echo; where the wood-panelled walls were lined with the tapestries and polished symbols of his clan.
and in the hush, gojo had sat cross-legged on the tatami mat, trying to listen to the conversation of the adults, with their low and steady voices that droned on. this was so boring. they were always speaking of things that he just couldn't understand, but his parents said these meetings were important, and so he was dragged along - much to his eternal chagrin. still, he shifted in place, glancing around at the detailed screens painting around the corners of the room, in varying shades of blue.
across the room, there was another kid. one who sat beside her father, fidgeting just as he was. and gojo could tell by the way that you kept glancing towards the door that you, too, longed to escape. your gaze caught his, and there was that flicker of mutual boredom that sparked between you two. you had scrunched up her nose, as if to say 'this is so boring, isn't it?'
gojo grinned, stifling a giggle. he had leaned back, just a little, surveying the adults who paid no heed to him, before letting himself inch across the rough texture of the mat towards the door.
"do you want to see the garden?" he mouthed silently, his words exaggerated and slow, so you would understand.
your eyes had lit up, and you nodded, just as your father (well, he assumed it was her father) leaned down to whisper something in your ear, his voice a low rumble that was far too quiet for gojo to catch. you were nodding obediently, but your eyes were now fixed with the glimmer of excitement, and he quickly held the door open for you as you scrambled out the door, following him quietly as they creaked down the long hallway.
and soon, they reached the back of the estate, where the garden stretched out like a hidden oasis, filled with the flowering bushes, the winding stone paths, and the pond that glistened in the morning light. suddenly, he stopped by the edge of the pond, brushing pale hair out of his stinging eyes, "i'm satoru, by the way."
you had sat down quickly, as though the long walk had winded her (gojo had barely needed to stop to catch is breath), and your robes dipped into the pond, letting the water seep up slowly, "i've heard of you. my parents say you're an only child."
gojo shrugged, trying to think of something important he could tell you, "it's not so bad. one day, i'm going to be the head of my clan," puffing up his chest a little.
you had nodded, "i would like to be too, but my younger brother would get it. because...you know."
gojo didn't quite know but he nodded like he understood, and he tried to think of something smarter to say, "well the job isn't that fun anyway. it's just sitting around reading papers, and telling people what to do."
you had pouted, frowning, "i want to tell people what to do all day. and i would get the nicest robes too as clan head."
and you had looked so unhappy at the prospect that you were being robbed of a stellar wardrobe that gojo made up his mind, right then and there, "tell you what, when i become my clan head, i'll make sure you get the nicest robes, how's that?"
your face had lit up, holding your little pinky up to his, "promise?"
gojo linked his finger with hers, sealing this silly vow and laughing, "why not?"

âïž â 1996. đŹ â you.
when you're seven years old, youâve resigned yourself to trailing behind gojo, watching as your friend takes on the world with the same reckless, eager energy that he seems to pour into everything that he does.
his voice has picked up a confidence that you haven't felt yet, and there's a permanent, flashy grin on his face that says he doesn't care what anyone thinks about him, not his parents, nor his clan.
and today, gojo's decided that the old shrine on the edge of your family estate needs exploring. you're a little less certain, especially since your father had told you that this shrine was haunted, but you find yourself following the boy anyway, and there's that silent agreement in place: he leads, you follow. you're alright with that, that's just the way it's always been.
he's dressed, as usual, in a loose grey hoodie that's two sizes too big for him, and his jeans have a hole in the knee; some small rebellion against his clan's strict sense of tradition. even his hair is awfully emssy, tousled and getting a little too long, and you know he hates it when his mother tries to comb it down, and you easily suspect that gojo just ruffles it on purpose to get a reaction out of those around him. he probably does everything on purpose for a round of reactions, honestly.
you, on the other hand, have your nicest lilac skirt on, and there's a small bow in your hair that the maidservants had pinned themselves (your mother had been too deep in her cups all morning). but you had fluttered around, feeling quite pretty in your skirt; like you were a fairy that would sprout wings and live in the clouds.
gojo glances back at you, and rolls his eyes, "you know, you look like you're going to one of the clan meetings," he mutters, but there's a playful glint in his eye. he's pulled a twig from the ground, and he's waving it around like a sword, slicing through imaginary enemies as he marches forward like an idiot.
you just shrug, quietly watching him cut through the tall grass ahead, "i like looking nice," you mumble, a little embarrassed. you can feel the careful way the sweet, old servant (she turned seventy last week!) had arranged your hair, and the press of the bow keeping it every lock in place.
"well, if you ever decide to look like you're not on your way to sit for a court painting, let me know," gojo says, smirking (he thinks he's funny) as he waves his 'sword' around, battling on the false frontlines.
but despite yourself, you laugh, and quicken your pace to keep up with him, and so, gojo slows just a bit, enough that you're walking side by side now, and his arm brushes against yours.
"did you know that they say that this shrine is spooked?" he asks, his voice falling to a dramatic whisper.
"i live here, satoru. obviously, duh," and the shrine comes into view, and it's small, weathered with age, but to you, it looks grand and mysterious, even magical, "do you believe it's haunted?"
gojo shrugs, unfazed, "nah, probably just an old rock. but it would be cool if it was. maybe, we'll see a ghost."
now you've taken a hesitant step back, but gojo just grins, grabbing your wrist and pulling you forward, and his hand is warm and steady in yours.
"c'mon, don't be a chicken," he teases, laughing as he drags you closer, and you plant your feet firmly in the ground, watching as clouds begin to roll over the sky, ominous and gloomy.
oh, this place is definitely haunted. your father was right, it's so over for you now. a massive, ugly curse is going to pop out and eat you alive, and steal your pretty hair bow. you mutter a small prayer under your breath. gojo satoru, you will pay for this.

âïž â 2000. đŹ â you.
you'd always heard whispers about yourself from the other kids, how you were too quiet, or you tried far too hard to be perfect â unwilling to roughhouse the way they did. perhaps they were right, and it was true that you preferred to sit alone. you think it was the feeling of order you enjoyed, of a world you could control, even if it was just through lines on a piece of paper.
but today, their voices were louder than usual. a small group had gathered near the cherry blossom tree where you'd settle yourself, and they circled around like hungry wolves sniffing out something they could tear apart.
one girl wrinkled her nose and called you prissy (well, okay) and another boy had snickered and muttered that you were so boring, and it was a wonder that you even had a friend like gojo.
ouch.
their words felt like small, precise cuts, sharper than expected. you had heard these things before. after all, everyone had reached the age where they were aware of their abilities, their techniques as jujutsu sorcerers.
you didn't mind your own technique, making sure to channel time and energy to learn so you could grow up and be as good as your father one day (a well established sorcerer in his own right, if a bit out of shape).
but you didn't have to be very smart to know that gojo's abilities stood out entirely in a different way, and you heard your parents whisper in hushed tones at how lucky his clan was to have a child like that. with the right training and moulding, he could be the most powerful man to walk the earth.
how silly. gojo was all laughs, and smiles, and stupid jokes and bright, clever eyes. you thought it was dumb how they all spoke about an eleven year old boy like he was a weapon, kept in its sheath until it was ready to be drawn.
but of course, all the kids wanted to be friends with him instead. and today, these barbs hurt more â and you kept your eyes down, clutching your books a bit tighter, willing for these supposed 'friends' of yours to go away.
but before you could say anything, you heard his stomps.
"hey!"
gojo's voice was unmistakable, sharp and sudden as he clamoured over, all brashness and bravado. he had gotten a bad haircut recently (entirely his own fault for thinking he could put scissors to his own hair, but you had laughed so hard as he swore curses) so white tufts stuck out all over his head, making him look like he got stuck in a wall socket, even crazier than usual.
but gojo didn't look at you, just planted himself between you and the group, bruised fists clenched (they trained him too hard), and shoulders set, "what's your problem?"
the other kids stammered, clearly surprised, but that didn't stop him, he who looked like a small, lanky and angry polar bear.
"you think you're so funny? talking like that? say it again, and i'll knock your teeth out."
"ah, satoru -" you ran your tongue behind your teeth, the last thing everyone needed was another fight of bruised pride, and yanked hair, rolling around in the dust.
but one of the boys had muttered something under his breath, taking a half-step back. the others followed, shuffling, rolling their eyes and looking anywhere but at you and gojo.
and your best friend didn't move until they had scattered completely, leaving behind only the faint echos of their derision as they fled. and then he turned to you, his scowl fading into something kinder (good, you didn't like seeing him so upset) as he dropped onto the bench, beside you, pulling his knee up onto the bench so he could rest his chin against it casually.
"they're just idiots," he said, rolling his eyes, and his voice was softer, playful again, "don't listen to them."
you gave him a small smile, nodding, as the knot in chest loosened a little, "i wasn't really listening to them," you murmured, even though you probably knew that was a bold-faced lie.
gojo released a loud laugh, much too loud and forced, as he nudged you with his elbow, and he must have known it too, but he was smiling, "good, that's the spirit."
You managed a small smile, nodding, the knot in your chest loosening a little.
the world was quiet again as you both sat in silence, the soft breeze ruffling the grass and the cherry blossoms overhead. and then, with a shyer glance, you managed to look over at your friend, watching as messy tufts of his snowy hair moved ever so slightly in the breeze.
"thanks, 'toru," you said, quietly, but he just shrugged it off, brushing it away as though it was nothing.
"hey, what am i here for?"

âïž â 2003. đŹ â you.
gojo was sprawled across your wide bed, looking at you as if you were the most ridiculous person in the entire world. his own suitcase sat beside him, already paced with the very few things he needed, and now he watched you with that eager, restless gleam in his blue eyes, like he could barely sit still.
"you're so overthinking this," he said, bright voice full of impatience, "just throw some stuff in a bag, and we're good to go. it's just tokyo, not the end of the world."
you scowled at the boy, holding up two sweaters; one sensible in a shade of pale blue, and the other thick, deep red and woollen, "but what if it gets cold? or rains?"
gojo rolled his eyes, throwing his head back dramatically onto your pillow, hands behind his head as he sprawled around like a snooty prince with all the time in the world.
"it's summer, it's tokyo, and it's not like we're moving to america," he smiled, "besides, if you pack any slower, we'll miss our first year."
you tried to brush it off, and something about his easy confidence made you feel a sharp twinge of nerve. this was really happening, you were truly leaving the bounds of your family estates, stepping out into the world, to attend jujutsu tech, a school in tokyo that you had heard so much about. well, there was another school here, in kyoto, but god, it would just be nice to get out of these ancient walls.
and yet -
gojo simply looked like he couldn't wait to shake the dust of his home off his sneakers, you felt something pull at you, like a sudden-appearing string that tied you to your home city, and it wouldn't let you go.
your best friend had caught the look on your face, and softened â just a bit, as he twiddled with a brand new pair of sunglasses, and he sat up closer, watching you carefully, "you're really going to miss it here, aren't you?"
and you shrugged, fidgeting with the sleeves of the red sweater, "i don't know. maybe, i suppose. don't you feel that way at all, satoru?"
he shook his head, resolute, "not even a little," but he saw your uncertainty, "listen, you'll be fine. you'll love tokyo. and hey," he nudged you gently with his knee, "i'll be right there with you anyway."
you appreciated that his confidence felt like a promise, something that you could at least hold onto, even in the big capital, and with a big, exaggerated sigh you tossed both sweaters into the suitcase.
"finally!"

âïž â 2003. đŹ â gojo.
the both of you had arrived, bright-eyed and tired, as he clambered off the tall bus that had parked on the outskirts of tokyo, where jujutsu high was located.
gojo stood beside you, hands stuffed in his denim pockets, plastering a disinterested expression on his face. but he couldn't help how his eyes flittered to the sid,e underneath the dark shades of his glasses, watching you fawn over another new student, another boy who had arrived from some small town, who-knows-where, from a non-sorcerer family.
geto suguru.
well it was no lie that gojo liked him a lot too. there was no denying that he seemed polite, clever, maybe a bit shy. and effortlessly cool.
gojo had grown up in the stifling, grand estates of the big clans, constantly fussed over, and robed in fine silks printed with his clan motifs. all of those stuffy rules would sit, push around and make space in one's head, like a constant mantra from the elders.
he didn't need to look at you too closely to see what was going on, and he could tell right away, just from how you reacted. your smile stretched wider, and your eyes lit up like you were meeting someone who you really wanted to talk to.
geto who hadn't even changed into his uniform yet, with his stray strands of dark hair falling out of the knot on the back of his head, looking politely aloof, but cheerful, in worn black jeans and converse, and some baggy band t-shirt that would get gojo scolded by his mother for even wearing that inside the estate.
gojo noticed everything, especially the way your fingers slipped up to tuck your hair behind your ear when geto grinned at you (all because youâd recognised the band on his t-shirt, so what?) he saw how your eyes brightened, like geto suguru had unlocked some hidden code only you could decipher.
it annoyed him to realise that geto's calm, quiet charm was exactly the kind of thing youâd be drawn to. thatâs what you liked, wasnât it? the understated, thoughtful types who let the world come to them. not the loudmouth who cracked jokes at every opportunity, hoping to pull a laugh from his best friend.
well, fuck, he had to be a part of this too now.

âïž â 2005. đŹ â both.
gojo's new obsession had a sleek, silver body and an olympus logo stamped on it in black, a camera that he'd been itching to buy; refusing to settle for anything less than the latest model. suddenly, he was determined to capture tokyo through his own eyes, and you and your friends had quickly become his reluctant muses on an impromptu day trip to the ameya-yokocho market.
"stop! stay right there, don't move! fuck, no! a little to the left!"
he waved his hands around, motioning for everyone to gather just as he wanted. you all exchanged amused glances, with shoko huffing around dramatically, as gojo crouched down on his long legs, then stood back up, and then crouched down again, as one of jujutsu high's most powerful sorcerers struggled to bring a camera into focus.
eventually, geto had laughed â raven hair falling over his beautiful face, and had gotten up to help gojo, fiddling with the lens as the rest of you milled around.
and then, suddenly gojo turned the camera directly on you. he pointed his finger your way, wide grin half-hidden but unmistakably earnest, 'c'mon, turn that frown upside down!'
he needn't have said a word, just seeing your best friend there, with his hair tousled and carefree grin, with the camera strap hanging off his neck, was enough to make you laugh, the kind that felt as bright as it sounded.
and so, you found yourself standing in the middle of the bustling market street, surrounded by friends and fellow students, and the lively hum of the weekend crowds, as you looked directly into the lens, with your smile softening under his gaze, as though the rest of the world had blurred into the background.
afterwards, gojo had taken a good look at the photo, and he didn't say much, but the look on his face lingered, almost like he was seeing something that he wasn't sure he was allowed to hold onto. you had shyly asked him later, coming up beside his shoulder, whether he had printed a spare copy of the photo, but he shook his head with the lie rolling off his tongue.
love was a selfish endeavour, to its core. he wasnât about to tell you that he wanted to keep that photo for himself. and later, when no-one was looking, he slipped the small print into his wallet, right between his train pass and some spare change.

âïž â 2006. đŹ â you.
your best friend, your dear satoru, had always been resilient; the kind of guy who threw himself at life with reckless energy, shrugging off injuries like they were just a part of the ride. he'd laugh off a scraped knee or a bloodied lip, flashing that cocky grin and a shrug as if pain was something for other people.
life for you went on, with your own routines and small moments. you learnt long ago that you didn't quite possess the natural, raw sheer jujutsu power that gojo had (or geto for that matter) but you could certainly hold your own in a scuffle. regardless, you had chosen to turn to academics, flitting between classes and study sessions, arm in arm with sweet shoko.
there was joy in sneaking off campus with friends, or scrolling through lists of new albums to download onto your mp3 player (you had been partial to the south korean boyband, tvxq!).
and so, life seemed both incredibly mundane and slightly electric, with days marked by shy smiles and inside jokes, with walks home on the streets wet from the spring rain.
but it had been late summer when gojo had returned from that last mission, when the days were still long and hot and the afternoons were bathed in a thick, heavy amber. and he had come back...different.
he moved carefully, as though each step was suspicious and took more effort than he'd let on, and his usual bright glimmer was dimmed, his laughter quiet, and his smiles withheld like a rare currency. he'd sit through the long evenings with you, in silence more often than not, hands stuffed into his wide pockets as he stared at a place that you just couldn't reach.
when you'd catch him alone in the courtyard after class, he'd be training hard, working through his cursed techniques with a relentless focus, perfecting each hand gesture as if he could shake off whatever shadow lingered behind him. and sometimes, he'd stay for hours after school, practicing beneath the dying and dusty light of the last days of summer, as if he could not afford to stop, to rest.
âgojo?â you called, hesitating as he finished a strike to some poor unsuspecting pile of soda cans, leaving them obliterated in the heat. âwhat's going on with you?â
he paused mid-motion, glancing at you, his face carefully blank. and you hated that, you hated how the flicker of distress would pass from his face before being schooled into that carefully constructed mask of 'the strongest.'
i love you, idiot. i love you, i love you, tell me what's bothering you and i will help, you're my best friend.
but these words never saw the light of day, always curling up and choking up in your throat, and instead being twisted into feigned, casual interest. losing the cloak of deep devotion that you held for a friend of ten years.
"oh - hey! nothing," gojo replied, too quickly, with that half-cocked smile that painted over his pink lips, "nothing that deep."
lately, this repeated lie had been hanging in the air between you, clear as the last streaks of summer sunlight that would soon give way to fall.
you crossed your arms over your uniform, dark fabric crinkling, "you're not fooling anyone, you know. geto told me about the mission, he said that you â," you swallowed, with the words just as heavy as the steadfast beat of your heart that you kept under lock and key, "he said you shouldn't have come back. what does that even mean?"
gojo's face flickered again, just for a second, before he barked out that irritating, false chuckle, "guess it's a good thing you weren't sent on tengen's fuckin' mission then," before reaching out and snatching your strawberry milk carton from your hands with a grin.
after a few punctuated slurps and lip-smacking (just to watch your face redden in fury, gojo would admit) he spoke again, voice strained, "you'd probably be crying about it still."
"hey!" you protested, grabbing for the carton again, prying his slender fingers off your sweet treat, "i don't cry that easily."
"could've fooled me. you cried during that american movie about zoo animals."
"madagascar was a sad movie about displacement and the loss of home! i know animal rights activists hate to see your ass coming to the zoo."
gojo snickered, drawing out the words, "fuck that zebra," but now, he was looking off into the golden haze of a beautiful sunset, with that frayed grin, "seriously, though. it's fine, it's all in the past."
over time, gojo never spoke many a word about what happened to the star plasma vessel, but he just seemed to move forward, like he always had. his resolve somehow sharper, tighter, and his laughter more intense when it finally did return. there were moments when you'd catch him staring into the great expanse of nothing, haunted (but beautiful), though he'd just shrug and smile when you prodded him about.

âïž â 2007. đŹ â gojo.
gojo thought he was astoundingly self-aware, in his own humble opinion. he never let anything get to him, that was the trick, you see. to take life as it came at you, to carry that fire and stubbornness and throw it back in the face of the trouble.
and so he wanted to be angry, to be furious. why had suguru done this? why?
he had known that geto, one of his dearest friends (one who always been so sure of himself) had fallen into disquiet lately, and even gojo had prodded him on whether he had lost weight through sleepless nights. but suguru would have just turned his head back to his book, lost in thought, with his dark hair loose around his face.
had he been blind? how had suguru's silence been covered by what gojo (privately) considered his own loud, defiant return? no, he knew of ghosts. he knew that some spirits and spectres could not be shaken, and sometimes when gojo himself closed his eyes, he could feel the sharp sting of an assassin's blade ramming through his throat, leaving him for dead.
but to murder over a hundred innocent people...
you had found him alone that evening, where he had sprawled over the stairs as the sunset blazed, painting them aglow in dusky hues. but gojo could barely notice any of this beauty, and so he just stared, lost in his thoughts that wouldn't settle.
(are you the strongest because you're satoru gojo? or are you satoru gojo because you're the strongest?)
he didn't hear you approach, until you placed a gentle hand on his shoulders, causing him to flinch, surprised out of his sorrowful reverie.
the warmth of your touch steadied him, and he glanced at you out of the corner of his eye, and he wondered how you could always seem to know exactly when he needed you most.
but the thought twisted, sharp and bitter, for what if you would follow suguru the same way? had you not often looked at geto with light in your eyes? and you had never looked at him like that.
what if, someday, you left him the same way? what if you turned around and saw someone else worth following? he couldn't help his fists from clenching, tension rippling down his shoulders and painfully gripping his head.
"suguru..." his voice came out quieter than he meant, with a crack that he couldn't quite hide, and he heard you sharply inhale, "i can't believe he's gone. i don't know if...if i'll ever see him again. why would he -?"
you still didn't say anything, just tightening your hand on his shoulder. and satoru hated it. hated that he wanted to lean into the weight of your touch, hated that this is what being the strongest now entailed. that now he was plagued by fear, of losing you, of watching you slip through his fingers into another's orbit.
i'm only seventeen. what happened to my youth?
the thoughts are acidic, cynical and they leave him angry (with the world, with the higher ups, with himself, with his parents) and he can't help himself from blurting out the next question.
"did you like him?"
gojo tries to keep his tone light and casual, but he loathes how he sounds pleading, heavier. he feels the embarrassment of vulnerability shroud him as you meet his eyes, and he hates how your eyes are teary too.
you shouldn't cry. ever.
"like? as in like?"
"as in love," gojo mutters, "shoko said you did."
you sniff, and now your head is leaning on his shoulder and he can inhale the scent of your shampoo (apples? caramel?) and despite the crick in his neck, he lowers his shoulder further down so you are more comfortable.
"shoko talks too much sometimes," you laugh weakly, "but probably. i think i did."
gojo tries to tamper down the acrid lurch in his stomach, but you continue, "i think i did love him. but so did shoko. so did nanami, and haibara back when, -" you sigh, "and so did you. we all loved him. he was our friend."
his fingers had been hovering close to your hand for a while, almost as if he couldn't help himself, the pull. finally, he slid his smallest finger to let it curl around yours, drawing out a memory from over a decade ago.
"tell you what, when i become my clan head, i'll make sure you get the nicest robes, how's that?" "promise?" "why not?"
how silly that the hardest things in life had once been a bored child, and his new friend who fretted about her future wardrobe.
and when you clasped in hand entirely in its return, gojo's breath caught, his throat tightening. the words that he wanted to say, to spill from his throat, hovered in his mind but there was no infinite word strong enough to bring them out.
he wasn't an idiot, he wasn't daft and unobservant, he knew exactly what he wanted to say to you, to tell you from his lips to yours. but the way his heart laid itself bare in that moment unsettled him deeply, not the yearning itself, but how fierce it was. it disgusted him, the rawness of his desire, exposed right there in the open, where anyone could see it, including you. especially you.
with a realisation that was long coming, beneath the golden wash of the setting sun, he sighed deeply. if he ever lost you, if you ever looked at him with the same betrayal that he'd seen in suguru's eyes, he didn't know if he could survive it. it would cut deeper than his infinity could bear.
he tried speaking again, "if you ever -" but he doesn't get the chance to speak before you're leaning further into him, a quiet sniffle punctuating the silence.
"i won't."

âïž â the next decade... đŹ â you.
"sweetheart, honey, my precious pumpkin pie."
you shot gojo a death glare, his attempt at flamboyant charm bouncing right off you, "i hate you. never speak to me again."
and your gaze dropped to what was left of your beautiful hermĂšs scarf, once a beautiful concoction of cream-white silk, now reduced to tatters that fluttered pitifully in your hands, stained with some suspicious green goop.
you had cherished this pricey product, but gojo, in his infinite wisdom had decided to pick it up as a perfect blindfold right before a gnarly mission. and so, it got tangled with a nasty curse, and met its tragic, shredded end.
gojo raised his brows, feigning the innocence of a cherub, blinking his long lashes, "i'm sorry, i'll get you a new one, baby."
he drew out the pet name with exaggerated gusto that made you snarl, "enough with the pet names. you are a grown ass man."
and you gave him a first shove in the ribs that made the strongest sorcerer in the world stagger dramatically, only to catch himself with that easy grin still plastered on his face.
but before you could storm off and mourn whatever was left of your one-million yen possession, gojo darted in front of you, blocking your path with his ridiculously long arms. "come on, let me make it up to you, what if i had died on that mission?" he pleaded, looking at you with mock sincerity.
"i wouldn't have even come to the funeral," you sniffed, sticking your nose in the air, ignoring the fake choking sounds that came from the man as he clutched his chest.
months had turned into years, where you and gojo had grown up and graduated jujutsu tech together, carrying triumphs (you won valedictorian, out of a grand total of eight students), losses (gojo was a notoriously bad driver and almost crashed the car that the two of you were in) and countless moments in between.
the two of you had returned to your alma mater as teachers, and mentors, guiding younger sorcerers who were much like you'd once been; eager, impatient, and a little rough around the edges.
gojo took to teaching like he did most things, with his own reckless charm and devil-may-care attitude. he'd joke about skipping staff meetings, but he'd be there anyway, leaning back in his chair with his legs sprawled underneath him, mouthing snarky comments that only you could hear.
you'd like to think you'd grown more confident, no longer the uncertain teenager who used to glance at herself twice in the mirror. time had given you the chance to learn your strengths, and exorcising curses had left you all the more enduring.
gojo had noticed, though he'd never say it outright. he'd make some teasing comment about the way you would boss around a room, and you'd roll your eyes as you nudged him telling him that you had learnt from the biggest ego in tokyo. but sometimes, he'd watch you a little longer than he should, with that flicker in his gaze that he thought you hadn't noticed.
some things hadn't changed at all, and he still came back to you after every mission, every right. you'd hear him shuffling in from down the hall, his paper bags of desserts swinging as he tried to balance it along with his jacket, and whatever ridiculous trinket he'd picked up for you that week (you kept every single one).
and there the two of you would be, sitting cross-legged on your apartment floor, sharing sweets straight out of the boxes. he'd pass you a slice of cheesecake that he insisted that you simply must try, nudging your hand until your fingers enveloped his.
wouldn't it be a lie to claim that you didn't bask in the warmth of your best friend's gaze, even as he feigned interest in some story that he had overhead from the students on his way over from the school, with his low laughter filling the quiet around you.
sometimes, in the silence that would fall after the conversation ebbed, heâd reach over and trace circles absentmindedly on the back of your hand with his thumb, as if it were the most natural thing in the world. neither of you would move or speak. gojo would be looking anywhere but at you, yet his hand wouldnât let go, tethering you to him in a way that made the apartment feel smaller â almost as if youâd already crossed some line neither of you dared to talk about.
what a pain to be haunted by someone who was already living and breathing right in front of you. sometimes, it left you nauseous, ill, and even screaming into your pillow after he left, and dialing shoko's number so she could give you an earful.

âïž â october, 2018 đŹ â you.
your car idled at the curb, the sounds of the city filtering in through the barely open window, with the faint chill of the october night brushing against your skin.
gojo looked up from his phone, tapping his fingers on the screen, and there was a sober look on his face that made your stomach twist. you watched as he ran his head through his white hair, and sighed, his eyes still on the screen.
"apparently i was summoned by name," he said quietly, "to shibuya. whatever curtain's been set up is only allowing sorcerers through."
you kept one hand on the wheel, "ijichi reached out to me too, but he wants me covering the perimeter on the other side, away from the metro. but who would summon you by name?"
"i know. do you think it's...?"
"the traitor everyone's guessing about? who else?"
gojo scoffed a little, "fuckin' surprise," he muttered, casting you a glance that spoke volumes of protectiveness, one that made you lurch ever so slightly. his eyes met yours, an unspoken worry passing between you. you bit the inside of your lip to keep yourself from blurting out the words that lived in the forefront of your mind.
and so, gojo reached for the door handle, and you saw him hesitate as his fingers drummed against the door, before pulling his blindfold up, "well, stay safe, yeah?"
you swallowed, trying to find some false platitude to offer back, "hey, i will if you will."
he gave a short laugh that must have not fully reached his eyes, but it softened the rest of his beautiful face in that way that you loved, "y'know, we could have been going trick-or-treating. dressed like idiots, stuffing our face with candy."
"tweedledee and tweedledum?"
gojo snorted, "next year then."
you hummed, "i'll keep that idea then, tweedledumb."
the bow of his lips quirked, and he looked away again before pushing himself out of the car, stepping out onto the suddenly cold, quiet sidewalk (too quiet, where was everyone?)
he paused, turning back to you through the window, as he lifted his hand up in a small wave, and you could tell he wanted to say something else â but the moment passed, and he closed his mouth, smiling instead in that way of his that said everything without a single word. and he pushed his hands back into his pocket, strolling away as you sat there, suddenly ever so lonely in your silent car, as chills went down your spine.

âïž â october, 2018 đŹ â you.
"gojo satoru has been sealed."
what the fuck?
the world has slowed down, every sound muffled as if you'd been submerged underwater. shibuya had left gojo sealed in the prison realm by...no. it couldn't be.
suguru geto was dead. dead, executed. had it not been almost a year? you had mourned, gojo had grieved. and yet, the impossible had clawed its way into reality, leaving you feeling like you were teetering on the edge of something dark and unknowable.
soon the shock twisted into dread, an icy grip that clenched tight around your chest, left the blood draining from your face. god, your hair must just turn as white as his from the stress alone. your best friend, the one who had been beside you in sickness and health.
it was cruel, you thought, to not even be allowed the time to fall apart, now now. there was little space for it in the chaos that had erupted the next day, when waves of curses crashed through the city like nothing you had ever seen. what fresh hell was this, you wondered as you nursed a nasty set of wounds, trailing after (tormented, sweet, far too young) itadori yuji, and his supposed older brother, some blood manipulation user that had done his fair share of damage throughout the night.
the culling games.
the brutality of it shocked you, and several times during the upcoming days, you had to blink back hot tears as sorcerers were summoned, drafted, and thrown into what was quickly a gladiator spectacle, some devilry concocted from geto's, no, kenjaku's mind. and the stakes were not just your own survival, but the students you had mentored â the young souls who had grown under your watch, and needed you now more than ever.
it quickly cost you an eye. a clash with a fierce, blood-thirsty wayward sorcerer had left you bloody and bruised with a clean gash that ran through your right eye, and you had screamed, taken a life even. only the baritone, dulcet tone of the yuji's half-curse brother (choso? a member of the kamo clan? since when did half-curses even exist?) had pulled you away from launching the contents of your stomach over the pavement, as you stared at the crimson dripping off your hands. were you supposed to be grateful that you had survived this, when so many others had not? yuji's tears had kept you awake in the night, his sobs when he thought that no-one could hear him.
gojo's absence had become a wound, raw, with a side of constant ache that you could feel with every waking heartbeat. and so you tried to fight hard with his voice echoing in your ears, remembering the half-smile he'd flash when you'd land a difficult hit, or the grateful look in his eyes knowing that his students were safe.
days blurred together, and nights bled into ceaseless combat, of the terror of being on the run, and still gojo was with you. the thought of finding him, the thought of him being unsealed from the prison realm almost had you blurting false, desparate promises to the sky that you would tell him exactly what you felt for him, bare your heart out in its entirety for him to hold in his hands.
like it had always been.

âïž â november, 2018 đŹ â you.
it was surreal seeing him again, unsealed and standing there against the burnt umber of the sky, rough around the edges but undeniably gojo. nineteen days of living with the ache of his absence, of waking every morning with a hollow flower blooming in your chest, he was here â alive, breathing, real.
but god, it had been so beautiful to meet his blue gaze once more, and that fleeting smile cross his face before he rushed to pull you into his arms, closing the distance and pulling you into his arms with a new strength that almost lifted you off your feet. and if you closed your eye, you could pretend that nothing had happened, nothing at all. that it was just you pressed against the warm, beating heart in gojo's chest, unrestrained and fierce as thick arms pulled you close, filling your senses with smoke, and earth, and long-spilt blood.
"don't you look eye catching?"
you huffed and leaned away from him, slamming your fist on hard muscle in exasperation, but if you hadn't turned your gaze away, you would have seen gojo's eyes twitch as he took in your battle-worn appearance, the scar that ran underneath bandages where an eye would have once been. if you had paid more attention, you would have heard his intake of breath as he ran his tongue behind his teeth, with a vow, a promise.
"guess who's going to kick sukuna's ass so far back to the heian era," gojo murmured, and you let out a shaky laugh that echoes all the way down to the marrows of your bones.
"yeah, i thought you were just all talk."
"i'm still alive, aren't i?" he shot back, cocky and boyish once more, and your eyes traced over him, drinking in every small change, the sharper clench in his jaw, the tautness in his frame, the way his shoulders seemed broader, like he had been carved up in the prison realm anew. and it leaves you melancholic.
in another universe, the two of you were still young, hand in hand underneath the blue sky as the cool breeze ran through your hair. but battles had turned to war, and the night had no time for what ifs.
"hey, don't go worrying about me," gojo murmured, almost as though he had caught the shadow in your heart, and he plastered a grin on his face, stretching his toned arms in some show of nonchalance, but his gaze lingered on the ruins too long, on the mottled group of assembled sorcerers who seemed to brim with new-found confidence at his return.
and when he finally looked back at you with a new dullness in your eyes, a heaviness you hadn't seen in a long time. it left a dead weight in your chest, but you forced yourself to return his own bland smile, playing along with the front he was trying to maintain, "well, i guess i'll have to keep you out of trouble from now on."

âïž â november-december, 2018 đŹ â you.
the month began to stretch and pass in a blur on the endless horizon, complete with the aching and unbearable waiting where you knew something was going to happen, and yet you did not know when and where. shoko had forgone her own exhausation to see to the rest of the wounds, the ones that had festered under bandages and grimes, leaving faint trails over your skin but she had shaken her head sadly when it came to the socket on your face, even she could not restore an eye.
gojo had swapped his suits and jackets for loose martial pants, and a tight black top that had clung to the muscular frame that he'd honed over the years, laughing off your concerns like they were nothing more than passing clouds.
"don't fret," he'd say, "how bad could this be? you know i told yuji once that even if sukuna was at his full power, i'd still wipe the floor with him. you believe me right?"
you weren't sure if his question was cocky, or a plea, and the fatigue had caused you to snap, "and now, yuji flinches when he hears loud sounds, and he's just another kid who can't fuckin' stop wringing his hands in blood! look what you've done to him!"
gojo's eyes had twitched afterwards, the corner of his mouth pulling down, but he hadn't gotten angry. and you hated it. you hated it all.
but you had wanted to believe in him, in his optimism. you wanted to let his smooth words settle into your bones like the warm comfort they should have been. but how could you feel at ease when everyone was now playing a role? each sorcerer in this building was feigning whatever mask or persona that they had painted and drawn across their face, just as you had. just as gojo did.
but nothing was the same anymore.
and neither were you.
the loss of your eye, the streaks of scars on your skin haunted you. it felt cowardly to say, but this was not the life you should have lived. you simply just didn't see yourself as strong enough, and your eyes watered thinking about the days when you dallied under a clear sky, skirts swaying along the grass as you trailed after your best friend, catching fireflies, exploring shrines, falling to the earth in child-like innocence.
the hollow space on your face, the empty socket served as a reminder of what you had survived, of the world that had fallen into pieces. was there anyone here who would recognise themselves in the mirror anymore?
some nights, the world felt impossibly still, and you would sit at the window and press your hands to the cold of the glass as you watched a scarred city sprawl ahead of you.
you didn't turn at the sound of footsteps at first, and you sat there, with your fingers still dancing on the edge of the window. you closed your eyes as you felt him approach, close, but not enough â you wished he would sit by you, press his soft head to your own, close enough for you to hold him in your hands, curl into his skin.
"satoru, can you make another promise?"
gojo's steps had paused, just a breath but it was enough to know that you had his attention. but when he spoke, "please tell me we're not doing theatrics right now," his voice was laced with that same dismissive edge that he always used when he was trying to push the truth far away.
"can't you shut up, just once? promise me you won't let sukuna kill you, i can't even imagine -" and how irritating, and how melancholic (fuck, this was like a bad soap opera) that your throat was already tightening, your voice wavering with tears that you had been holding back for weeks.
for a moment, gojo didn't respond, and he just stood there and you needn't have turned around to know that there was no trace of laughter nor joy on his face. no easy smirk to deflect the gravity of your well-founded fears. and the silence left you cold.
for the first time, you were suddenly hoping that he might say something blasé, to tell you to stop worrying, to brush it off and just reassure you. but he didn't, he was quiet.
and so you turned to face him, and you felt almost villainous for verbalising your future grief like this, to one who must already have carried such an eternal, heavy burden.
no longer did the blue of his eyes shine like a spring sky, with feather-like clouds that danced in his iris. now, there was only a fractured storm. and god, you loathed that for the first time in what must have been years, his own face was reddening, his eyes suddenly teary, clouds gathering torrential rain.
you knew he hated being seen like this. over a decade of holding him close to your heart had made you privy to his ways, to the way that he'd furiously rub at his face when upset, as if he could will the distress away and hide his tears.
gojo had outstretched his little finger towards you now, hooking it with your own, and your heart stuttered as he brought your finger to his lips, so quick that a ghost may have brushed your skin, with the seal of a promise.
"i will try. god, i swear, i...i promise, i will try." and you knew that gojo satoru was scared, terrified even of what december 24th would bring.
"i -"
you wanted to say it all, wanted to tell him everything. but the words stuck in your throat, love and want and need and ferocious, capricious grief all sat lodged within your beating heart that was so tightly bound in iron chains.
it was a shameful thing. you should have sat there, and comforted him instead. should have told him that it was alright, and you did not know a more powerful and capable sorcerer than he, that he'd leave sukuna in ashes. should have laid your hand on his brow to soothe the lines away from his pale, streaked face.
but you had always been selfish, held onto your heart like a being of folklore, guarded and self-assuming. you wept heart-aching tears, feeling them pool in your sleeves, and run hot salt trails over your lips. maybe it was a testament to how much gojo satoru loved you too, that he could not bear to see you in such grief, and he hesitated.
then he turned to leave you by the window.

âïž â december 24, 2018 đŹ â you.
the turn of the year felt cold, far too chilly, even though the night was still young. the city lights twinkled in solitary clumps outside, but they were just as dim as the heavy weight in your chest. the walls seemed to close in as gojo prepared to leave, to face sukuna â the king of curses. and you couldn't shake the feeling that something was slipping through your fingers, something that you would never be able to grasp again, no matter how tightly you gripped.
everyone had wished him luck, calling your their bravest words of encouragement as he walked past them, their voices echoing through the hall, as they slapped him on the back.
they all cheered the same platitudes.
"go fuck sukuna up!"
"language!"
"sorry, choso."
"show him what you're made of!"
"prove that you're not just a pretty face, gojo!"
and so you had plastered the same smile on your face, hoping that it would reach your eyes as gojo winked at you, "hey, before you start telling me off, now it's your turn to promise me something."
you had cocked your head up at him, ignoring shoko's narrowed, tired eyes, "yeah?"
"mhm," satoru nodded, pulling his arms around you, "after this, after all this bullshit, we get to take a vacation."
a barked laugh escaped you, before it collapsed into a giggle, "you want paid leave? that's all it is?"
your best friend's large hands gripped you, flat against your back, "yeah, that's all there is. we're gonna go take a holiday, sit by the beach, watch the ocean. keep it simple."
"a picnic too, eh?"
gojo nodded, humming, "we'll plan everything. about time we got to take a break. i'll be back before you even know it."
you felt his voice hitch against your ear, and your heart twisted painfully in response, he wasn't saying it but you both knew the cold truth, there was a real chance that he may never come back. before your vision could blur, you pressed his lips to his cheek, letting them linger for a moment on smooth skin (and you felt his arms tighten around you) and hoped that whatever you hoped to say, whatever spine you lacked, could be expressed so swiftly.
"come back then, please. i'll be ready." you whispered between his skin and your lips, the tremble leaving no space for air in your lungs.
for a moment, he didn't answer, just held you, and you tried to focus on the feeling of his chest rising and falling in slow, measured breaths. then, just as you were about to pull away, he spoke, the words falling from his mouth, so familiar and so effortless.
"of course i will. i always do."
there was a flicker of something raw there in his eyes, and you had seen it both before and after shibuya. his lips parted as if he were about to say something, but whatever it was, it never came. instead, he just nodded, a silent promise â unspoken, but felt deep in your bones.
without another word, he turned toward the door. and just before stepping out, he looked back one last time. that smile, that arrogant, confident smile that always made your heart race âi t was there, but it wasnât the same. it was stretched thin, fragile. his blue eyes were tired, haunted, and for a moment, you saw the truth â the part of him he always kept hidden. the fear. the doubt.
"i'll be back," he repeated, but this time, it didnât sound like a joke. it sounded like a prayer. a desperate, half-broken promise from the closest thing that the world had to a god.
you couldnât speak. your heart was lodged in your throat, and the words that you needed to say just wouldnât come. you wanted to tell him that you loved him, that you always had, that you were scared to lose him, that the world without him in it felt like a hollow echo of what it could be. but you couldnât.
instead, you just nodded, your face a mask of emotions you couldnât express.
and then, with one final look, a look that held everything neither of you had the courage to say â he stepped out into the cold, his footsteps fading into the distance.

âïž â december 24, 2018 đŹ â you.
gojo satoru was dead.
dead. killed.
for a moment, you stood frozen in the doorway of shoko's office, numbness seeping into your bones with a furious grief as you stared at the cold, unmoving form that was once satoru.
fuck, there was bile in your throat as a once lively boy now lay in four pieces, cleanly sliced by sukuna's unforgiving technique, and the sight was a nightmare made so real, something that you just couldn't reconcile with the man who had once been so vibrantly alive.
the warmth that had always clung to him had vanished, leaving his skin pale in the grasp of rigor mortis, and his lips were still flecked with dried blood that had painted a stark contrast against his stiff skin.
and his eyes, those striking blue eyes that used to glint with love and hope and dreams, were now dull, and still open. you had not the heart to close them, for once your hand pulled his eyelids down, you would never see them again, never look into his eyes until it was your time to pass from the circles of the world.
the last thing youâd seen of him had been that cocky grin, that wink that seemed so unbreakable, that laugh that lingered even as he left your embrace. heâd held you, promised you that he would come back, but now, as you stood there, that promise felt like a cruel lie, something that shouldâve warned you but instead gave you nothing but hope.
you choked on a breath, your hand coming up to your mouth as you felt the weight of your unspoken words sink down like lead. i should have told him. youâd wanted to say it all, to let him know how much he meant to you, to tell him that he was your everything. but the words had died in your throat, held back by fear, by the delusion that thereâd always be another chance, that heâd always come back.
youâd believed him. youâd believed, with every part of yourself, that heâd make it out alive.
but here he was, torn apart, the last shreds of life stolen from him by the king of curses. you had seen him being cut down, like a sheaf of wheat under a god's sickle, how sudden and gut wrenching it had been, and for the second time in a month, you had been on the edge of hurling onto the stone. but this time, the half-curse beside you, choso, hadn't stopped you from losing the contents of your stomach, as instead he had pressed his younger brother's cries to his broad chest, the grief swallowing the entire room.
gojo hadnât been given the chance to fight back, hadnât even been able to draw a breath before heâd been torn apart. and that final thought â that heâd been caught off guard, helpless, alone in his last moments â left you feeling shattered, grief clawing at you with merciless hands.
your knees felt weak as you moved toward him, your trembling fingers reaching out to touch his face, cold and unyielding beneath your hand. you traced the lines of his face, memorising every detail, as if somehow, through touch alone, you could keep a piece of him with you. a tear slipped down your cheek, landing on his lips, lips that had once murmured promises, had brushed against your skin in fleeting, unspoken moments. the tear brought moisture once more to the blood that splattered his face, but quickly, it disappeared, drying and taking away any life.
"i shouldâve told you,â you whispered, your voice broken, raw, laced with the pain of regret, "i don't know if you ever knew how much i loved you."
you closed your eyes, the silence thickening around you, pressing down until it felt like you couldnât breathe. your mind replayed every smile, every laugh, every word heâd ever spoken to you, each memory twisting the knife of grief deeper into your chest. the emptiness of the room swallowed you whole, and all that was left was the aching, unbearable reality that he was gone â that the man who had been your best friend, your confidant, your everything, was nothing more than a memory now.
you stayed there, your hand resting on his cold cheek, as if the warmth of your touch could somehow reach him, bring him back. but he was gone, and with him, heâd taken the words youâd never been able to say, the love youâd never been able to give.
and as the silence closed in around you, suffocating and absolute, you knew that part of you had died with him.

âïž â not so long later. đŹ â you. it could only be you now, for you are the only one left.
the sun was beginning to set as you reached the shore, casting an amber glow over the ocean. the waves lapped quietly against the sand, as a gentle roll becoming a reminder that the world was still moving, even when the battles were done.
even though everything within you felt like it had come to a standstill. you clutched a folded piece of glossy card, and a box. two things that shoko said she found on him, things that she thought you should keep, she added quietly.
and so, you sat down on the sand, letting the evening wind sweep over you as you gazed out at the endless stretch of water. the ocean had always been something you had dreamed of seeing together, an endless horizon that was wild and untameable, just like gojo satoru had been. but he was gone, gone, and that promise would forever remain unkept.
you opened the folded glossy card, wincing as you tried not to press the faded creases further, brushing over the faded edges. it was dated to the fall of 2005, and you bit your lip as you saw your own image stare back at you. when the world had felt endless, and you had two wide eyes to see it with. there you were, that day in the market, laughing in the photo with your head thrown back sweetly, and you wetly laughed as you saw geto suguru's confused expression in the background, clearly exasperated with gojo's photography skills.
a choked sob escaped you as you traced your smile in the photo, so oblivious to what would come. youâd been so happy then, wrapped in a moment that had felt simple and whole. gojo had teased you relentlessly that day, snapping photos every chance he got, and youâd thought he was just being his usual, silly self. youâd never realised heâd kept this one one, never knew it meant enough for him to carry it all this time.
with a shaking hand, you opened the box, revealing the ring nestled inside. fuck.
it was beautiful, impossibly beautiful, as if heâd carefully chosen each detail with you in mind. the diamond glistened in the fading light, flecked with small blue stones that reminded you of his eyes, the eyes that used to light up every time he looked at you. this ring was supposed to be a promise, just as the ones you made when you locked little fingers â a promise he never got the chance to make, a life together that youâd both been too afraid to admit you wanted.
the first tear fell, splashing onto the sand below, followed by another, and then another, until you were trembling, the grief tearing out of you in waves, raw and unstoppable. you held the ring to your chest, clutching it as if somehow, by holding it close, you could feel him, hear his laughter, feel the warmth of his arms around you.
you could almost hear his voice on the wind, that playful edge mixed with tenderness as he called you by one of his ridiculous pet names. sweetheart, honey, my pumpkin pie, followed by your irritated huff telling him to drop those names.
but truly, here was nothing. just the sound of the waves, relentless and indifferent, echoing the hollow ache in your chest.
the what-ifs clawed at you, memories replaying over and over in your mind: moments when youâd almost reached for him, almost whispered the words, almost let your heart break free. but each time, youâd held back, too afraid to disrupt the delicate balance between you, too certain thereâd be another day. but now, those moments were gone, scattered like dust in the wind, and the weight of those unsaid words felt unbearable.
you pressed the photograph to your lips, closing your eyes as if you could summon him back, if only for a moment. but when you opened your eyes, all that greeted you was the empty horizon, stretching out into nothingness.
"i love you,â you murmured, voice broken, barely more than a whisper. "i love you. i always loved you."
the words hung in the air, unheard, unanswered. it was too late, too late for confessions, too late for promises. the life youâd wanted with him, the life heâd carried in his pocket with a ring and a photograph, was gone, lost to the cruel twist of fate that had taken him from you.
you stayed there on the sand as the sky darkened, the weight of his absence pressing down on you like a storm. the wind whipped around you, cold and biting, and you shivered, clutching his ring, his memory, as if that alone could keep you grounded.
as night fell, the stars began to appear, dotting the sky with fragile points of light, distant and unreachable. and you sat there, letting the grief wash over you, lost in the silent, aching expanse of the ocean and the memories of a love that would remain forever unspoken, forever unfulfilled.
wasn't love the greatest curse of them all?
#jjk x reader#gojo satoru#gojo satoru x reader#jjk angst#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen x reader#gojo#gojo x reader#gojo angst#satoru gojo#works#lol ive spent too long on this. will proofread later <3#daphworks
256 notes
·
View notes
Text
ౚৠđŸđđđđ â welcome to evieâs 1st kinktober! thereâll be 11 prompts this year. wind breaker centric . . nine drabbles & two longer fics !! plus two bonus sfw drabbles sprinkled in there. everything already has at least a rough draft. and of course, as a gentle reminder. . . you must be 18+ and have an age on your blog to interact with me.
à«ź àŸàœČâ âžâž â àŸàœČá this only contains wind breakerâ excluding one undecided prompt. please vote for the fandom youâd like to see for it here! & to sign up for my tag list, either comment on this post or fill out this form. fill out the form if you only want to be tagged in a few works, and comment if youâd like to be tagged in everything. please heed any and all warnings below! thank youu !! <33 reblogs r appreciated!
OCTOBER 1 â PET PLAY
KIRYU MITSUKI X F!READER ïŸ 1328 words ïŸ in which kiryu dresses you up as a cat- so make sure you commit to it and act like one! heâll reward you nicely. he always does.
OCTOBER 3 â CUCKOLDING
HAYATO SUO X F!READER ïŸ 1031 words ïŸ FICS4GAZA ïŸ sakura doesnât think heâs ever held his phone in his non-dominant hand until tonight.
OCTOBER 5 â MASK KINK
ENDO YAMATO X F!READER ïŸ 1130 words ïŸ endo thought you were joking about masks being hot, but . . . if you really like them so much, then maybe heâll put on a show just for you.
OCTOBER 7 â SUCCUBUS?!
SAKURA HARUKA X SUCCUBUS!F!READER ïŸ 1011 words ïŸ thereâs no better way to lose your virginity than to a succubus, right? do those even exist? he was skeptical before he met you.
OCTOBER 11 â OVERSTIMULATION
KAJI REN X F!READER ïŸ 1093 words ïŸ does flavored lube taste good? he hopes it does. itâs the reason why he bought a entire packâ so letâs play a guessing game with it and see.
OCTOBER 15 â NETWORK COLLAB
unannounced! tba . . vote for the fandom you want to see me write for here! thank you. kink is also tba but it is not dc.
OCTOBER 17 â APHRODISIACS
DAN HENG X F!READER ïŸ 1040 words ïŸ the two of you wouldnât even be in this situation if you had just listened to him. he had already warned you to stay close to himâ but that seems to be the least of his concerns now.
OCTOBER 19 â âHOUSEKEEPING!â
FIC 1 â HOUSEKEEPING! togame jo x roomie!f!reader ïŸ 7387 words ïŸ you donât realize how loud you are, do you? or are the walls just paper thin? his patience seems to also be running thin, but heâs always thought that he tries to be a pretty decent guy most of the time. a decent enough guy that doesnât fantasize about fucking chojiâs childhood friend raw, at least.
OCTOBER 23 â EXHIBITIONISM + TOYS
TAKIISHI CHIKA X F!READER! ïŸ 1085 words ïŸ youâre at a dinner date with your friends! looks like youâre one seat short, so thereâs no other choice but to sit on his lap, right? though youâre pretty certain he can feel the vibrations like this.
OCTOBER 27 â MILD YANDERE
YANDERE!UMEMIYA HAJIME X F!READER ïŸ 1074 words ïŸ no one would dare hurt umemiyaâs girl. they shouldnât. they wouldnât dare. but after some time.. he thinks he should give them another reminder. it wouldnât hurt.
OCTOBER 31 â âCANâT YOU JUST PRETEND?â
FIC 2 â CANâT YOU JUST PRETEND? hayato suo x camgirl!f!reader ïŸ 4098 words ïŸ you always do what the highest tipper says, but looks like thatâs backfired tonight! âbring someone to fuck you raw on your next streamâ oh. but you donât have a boyfriend, do you? so the second best option would be to swallow your pride and go ask one of your friends to act.
BONUS â UNSCHEDULED SFW DRABBLES!
ENDO YAMATO X F!READER ïŸ movies and cuddling! itâs your first halloween together⊠and oh. you even remember his favorites snacks? his heart flutters at the thought.
GHOST! HAYATO SUO X F!READER ïŸ you seem to be the only one who doesnât mind the ghost following you. your friends want to get rid of him, but you look happy in his presence⊠so theyâre left to just hold their breaths & deal with it.
#kinktober!#click this tag <- to see what other blogs are doing for october!!! lots of stuff there#wind breaker smut#wind breaker x reader#evieâs kinktober
250 notes
·
View notes
Text
Hide (Part 2)
Eris x Rhysands!Sister Reader
Summary:Â Anon Req: Literally in love with every fic you write. I know your requests are closed but in the future, could you write something where Eris and the reader see each other and thereâs a lot of tension and theyâre secretly mates but no one knows? Iâm curious to see how youâd end it!
Warnings:Â Angst
Word Count: 1,428
[Part One]
Notes:Â Obsessing over this one.
_________________________________________
You swallow harshly at your brotherâs question, eyes darting over to catalogue your mate. You try not to startle in your seat when a wall of harsh autumn winds slams between your bond. Heâs only protecting you; you must remind yourself. Thereâs a fine tremble to your hands, so you clench them together in your lap.Â
Azriel notes the move, your restlessness as Rhysand stares down your mate like these are his last moments on this plane of existence. You have no idea what Rhysandâs going to do to Eris, but with the thick darkness rolling from his shoulders and slowly filling the room, whatever it might be will not be good.
You cannot let that happen.Â
âRhysandâ"
Your brother holds up a hand, his glare swinging towards you. The thin line of betrayal ringing his eyes makes your stomach roil. You hadnât meant to break his trust and you never intended on keeping secrets from him, but with the courts on the edge of warâŠ
âDo. Not. Speak.â Rhysandâs demand is a death knell of its own. When you were young, you remember how heâd always been the one to listen to any of your problems, even when they felt silly. He would always offer you a solution if you were looking for one, or a piece of cake if you only wanted to wallow in your feelings.Â
The smell of burning wood answers his harsh words.Â
Cassian shifts in his seat, eyeing Eris. He leans further back in his chair and places his hand on the table, the wicked curve of the short blade clutched firmly in his hand pointing directly at your mate.
Your bond flares, eyes going hard at the sight of the threat to your mate. Youâre ready to jump out of your seat, scramble across the table to tackle the male, no matter how much you consider him family. You know all of Cassianâs weak spots, and your gaze is calculating as you decide which maneuver will draw him away from your mate.
The single look Eris sends you keeps you from reacting.Â
Instead, you settle back in your seat, showing Eris your unfaltering trust for him. You will allow your mate to say his piece to your brother. You might be crossing your arms over your chest with a hard look all your own, but you will heed Erisâ silent ask of you.
Eris is a mask of nonchalance, and you wish he hadnât blocked you from his feelings, but itâs better this way. He cannot have your reactions to your brother muddling his own feelings. Itâs safer for the both of you to keep to yourself right now, no matter how much you hate the idea of being apart from him like this.
âI will ask you once more,â Rhysandâs voice is filled with smoke. âHow long have you been putting your filthy fucking hands on my sister.â
Something flares in Erisâ russet eyes that makes you want to bite, to snarl at your brother for his cruelness. You gnaw the insides of your cheeks to keep from snapping.Â
âWould hearing that answer please you, High Lord?â Eris snarks back. He sits easily in his seat as if this isnât an interrogation at all, as if theyâre all bantering over the weather and Rhysand isnât looking at him like heâs about to unleash the beast within him that he keeps on a short chain. The only give to Erisâ temper are the burnt handprints on the armrests of the chair heâs lounging in. âTo know that the fires of autumn light the stars of night?âÂ
You want to hiss at him for his words. You shouldâve known better that Eris would do nothing but taunt your brother. He is nowhere near as powerful as Rhys, especially since he is still under the rule of his father, but his specialty is that mouth of his.Â
You try not to think about how he uses that mouth when heâs with you, the yearning for him flooding your body so deeply you clench your thighs together. Another motion that Azriel tracks, cocking his head a little as he watches you with that unnervingly stoic face of his. You shoot him a pleading look but are unable to make out how he reads into your pleas not to hurt your mate.
Rhysand bares his teeth in warning. The flare of his nostrils and the stars winking out of his eyes tells you that heâs moments away from unleashing his wrath upon Eris.
âTwo years,â you blurt and all gazes swing your way. You donât look at anyone else except for Eris, your eyes soft and pleading. His eyes flicker back and forth between yours and his shoulders slump a little, cracking the steel trap blocking your bond to send down a cool rush of apology that you accept with a soft nod. âWeâve been mated for two years.âÂ
Thereâs a sharp exhale coming from your brother but you canât look away from your mate. Two years since you offered him that dessert from your favorite bakery the one time youâd been able to sneak away from your brother and his friends to meet Eris at the portal where Night crossed into Autumn.Â
Two years of fiery, passionate nights, hidden away in your own solace. Two years of a fresh breath of autumn, of copper hair and russet eyes and the warmest hands youâve ever had the pleasure of touching. Two years of unyielding loyalty. Two years of too much time spent apartâ
No more. You wonât have it. Rhysand can act as protective older brother as much as he wants but it isnât going to stop you from being with Eris any longer.
Darkness of your own ekes out of you as you plant your hands on the smooth surface of the table and rise. You stare Rhysand down as the tendrils of black wind around his, Azriel, and Cassianâs wrists, pinning them to their spots. You are in no way matching Rhysandâs power, but he seems at a loss for words as you stand up for yourself, watching with those all too calculating feline eyes of his, allowing you your time.
Stalking around the table, you donât break the High Lordâs gaze. You hold your chin high even if thereâs a pinch of terror in your gut for this continued betrayal to your brother, to your court. But he has no idea what youâve given up for this bond, how youâve suffered being kept from your mate.Â
One day, you hope Rhysand will understand. Will understand why you halt a step behind where your mate is still trapped to his chair. Why you place a hand on his shoulder, the feeling of him after so long filling your lungs to maximum capacity. You havenât ben able to breathe fully since youâve been away from each other.Â
Heâll understand why it is that your actions look like youâre swearing fealty to another court, when youâve already been a patron of autumn ever since you and Eris completed your mating bond.Â
âWhat are youââ Your brother breathes when he realizes the severity of what youâre doing.
âI will not be kept from my mate any longer.â Your words are loud and sure. You think youâve done a good job at standing up to Rhysand, until his eyes flicker and the house shakes on its studs.
All of the air is sucked from the room at your words. The strip of skin youâre touching on Erisâ neck warms, but it does little to settle you. Youâre not out of the clear yet.
Slowly, all too slowly, Rhysand leans back in his seat. The way heâs looking at you makes you shift in your spot, the disbelief and in his eyes a bright streak before he snuffs it out, returning to the easy role of High Lord heâs practices meticulously for centuries.Â
It hurts to see.
With a careless flick of his hand he breaks through your shadows with ease. All of the darkness in the room dissipates, ever faithful to their master. You only hold an ounce of power compared to him.Â
The corner of his mouth curves, and if itâs a smirk or a snarl you donât know, but neither is as harrowing as the words that slip past his lips. âI wonder which will get you killed fasterâyour loyalty or your love.â Rhysand stands, turning his back on you as he stalks towards the door. âGet out of my court.â
_________________________________________
Tagging those who commented if you don't want to be tagged on this just lmk <3 Some of you couldn't be tagged btw
Hide Taglist: @littlestw01f @aelin-thefirebreathingbitchqueen @naturakaashi @lexluvswriting @chybay22 @roseliey @acotar-thirst @teenagellamaangel @minaethrym @tothestarsandwhateverend @coolepowersthings @lena-davina @xyzmeh @meritxellao @shadowdaddysposts @callsigns-haze @mrs-azriel @eminvelaris @daily-does-of-sass @kennedy-brooke
#acotar#eris vanserra x reader#eris x reader#eris vanserra#eris acotar#azsazz#acomaf#acowar#eris angst
748 notes
·
View notes
Text
Drag Me to Hell- (Yandere!Alastor x Chubby!Reader) pt. 3
Warnings; spoilers for episode 5 of Hazbin Hotel, yandere relationship, yandere temper, yandere behavior, toxic relationship, Alastor is not fond of disobedience, don't make deals with demons,
~~~~~~~~
"Good talk, chum!"
Alastor hummed as he moved towards the shadows, leaving behind a shaking and terrified Husker. There were many words that could be used to describe Alastor and none were more fitting than terrifying.
None knew this better than you.
"Husker," you started, emerging from where you had been waiting down the hall, "are you okay?"
The hellcat tried to pull himself together quickly and brush you off, but his shaking betrayed how truly afraid he was. When Alastor wanted to put terror into others, he didn't need to work very hard to accomplish his goal.
"Why the Hell d'you care? You're his fuckin' favorite, the fuck you know about it?"
You knew he was lashing out to protect himself, but the words almost managed to make you flinch. Luckily for the both of you, you didn't and you kept a level head. If he had seen... Still, you wanted to try and comfort the fellow lost soul ensnared by your eternal captor.
"Husker, listen to me."
Something about your firm tone made the demon pause, an almost confused and unsettled expression on his face. It was rare that you became so serious and pleading with anyone, let alone tried to actually talk to anyone for extended periods of time. Something about your tone made him want to take whatever you were going to say seriously.
"You may think you know the limits of his patience but you don't. I know them. I have seen more than you know and have been by his side for longer than you may expect. I can never share these things. I can never tell anyone what I have heard and seen. Those memories are not my secrets to share. But I can tell you some of the terms of my contact, and I hope you understand and take heed."
You were choosing your words carefully, knowing that you could only say so much before the fine-print of your contract with Alastor silenced you. Parroting one of the key lines of your contract even as you navigated your way through the red-tape and fine print. Alastor made sure to create a rather finely crafted contract to outline your deal with him and you had plenty of time to read over it again and again.
"Expected and Required are the same thing. I am expected to remain by Alastor's side until he doesn't want me to be. I am expected to do what is asked of me by Alastor and no one else. I am expected to keep what I see and hear a secret unless Alastor wishes for me to speak on the matter. I am expected to remember the primary terms of every contract I have seen. And I have to say, Husker, I know better than anyone what chains can bind some overlords."
Husker seemed confused for a moment before his eyes flashed with recognition before shifting to curiosity. You could only hope that he gathered the information you wanted to give him without having directly said it.
"You were there for my deal, weren't you?"
"I cannot say. Those are not my secrets to share."
"But where were you? I thought it was just me an' him. Unless... Hells, you're his microphone, aren't you?"
"I am expected to be by his side until he doesn't want me to be."
"You've been around long enough to see my deal, you must have seen so many other deals too. Why do you stay with him? Ain't there any kind of freedom to your deal?"
"My deal was made to keep me safe from other demons. It... Evolved into what it is now. I stay safe and in return I do as my deal says, no questions. That is what I agreed to. Look, Husker, all I am saying is your leash could be tighter, your chains could be heavier, and you could have far less freedoms than you have now. Don't squander it over someone like Mimzy."
"I just know she is bad news! But he won't listen."
"I know she is bad news too and I admit, I hate her. Every time she shows up she uses him and thinks she has some kind of control over him because he lets her get away with this nonsense."
You sighed and tried to smile at Husker, feeling the wry and strained grin become more of a grimace. It was true that you strongly disliked the woman that only appeared when she needed help and you knew she didn't like you either. Mimzy had obvious feelings for Alastor and she hated the fact that you were close to him when she so desperately wanted to be in your place.
"Husker, I can't say I like you- he doesn't like competition of any kind- but I don't want you killed or hurt. You are a better person than you claim to be and we both know it. Just know that though he doesn't like your tone, he does hear you and your concerns."
"Listen, (y/n), maybe if we talk to Charlie about your deal, she can-"
You sharply stood from where you had been kneeling by his side, already knowing where the conversation was going and not wanting either of you to get hurt by the blowback. If Husker finished his sentence, odds are Alastor would not hesitate to rip his soul to shreds for daring to try and break the deal you had. There was no way you were going to let such a thing happen and that meant you had to make it clear to Husker as well.
"No. I am happy with my deal. I would never say anything to the contrary or try to get out of my deal with Alastor. Besides, I have seen too much and know too much for him to ever let me go peacefully. That level of blood and retribution is far too high a price. Don't suggest it again, Husker, or we will both be in trouble for it. Please, just trust me to-"
The way your voice died in your throat with a slight choke let the demon know you said as much as you could. Though there was more you wished to say, you could feel your own leash tighten in a clear warning and you knew then he had been listening. Odds are, Alastor had been listening to the whole thing and he was not pleased with your attempts to get around his gag order. It was also clear to you that Alastor was likely testing you by letting Husker get as far as he did in his questioning.
A chill ran down your back and you saw your fellow demon's eyes widen as he stared behind you. The clawed hand of the Radio Demon rest on your shoulder, his head leaning over so you could barely see his threatening grin in your peripheral view. You could feel his shadows crawling over your skin and around you as he casually asserted control over both you and Husker.
"Now, now. Whatever could you two possibly be discussing? It wouldn't happen to be about the rules you know you can't discuss, right?"
"Of course not, Alastor. We both know that they aren't my secrets to share even if I wanted to, which I don't. I am simply informing him from one damned soul to another that trying to rile you is a bad idea."
A soft growl could be heard from Alastor and you could feel the slight brush of his antlers against your head as his annoyance grew. As far as you knew, you hadn't said anything to upset him and you had not breached the terms of your contract. But the way his hand tightened on your shoulder told you Alastor was unhappy about something and you were terrified what that would mean for Husker.
"I have told you what to call me many times now, (y/n). I do not appreciate your continued failure to heed my instruction."
It then dawned on you why Alastor was irritated and in some ways it was ridiculous to you. He was upset because you called him Alastor and not a pet name as he had requested. Honestly, you had forgotten entirely about something so trivial, but you also knew Alastor was a stickler for details.
"Dear, I feel there is a time and place for terms of endearment and they have no place in serious discussion."
"That is for me to decide and you to obey. Do not presume such things again, Sugar. Now, what is this about you hating Mimzy?"
"She is only here to try and use you, we all know that. I don't like her casual attempts at controlling you and I know she dislikes me as well."
"I don't care what she thinks of you, it is not her decision if I keep you with me or not. Now, I would hope you know better than to question me, because I doubt you want to spend another half a decade locked away again. Do I make myself clear, Honey?"
"... Yes, Darling."
Alastor was quick to disappear once more into shadow, leaving both you and Husker to stare at one another in silence. You both knew he likely didn't go far and that he was always watching whatever it was you chose to do. With this constant observation in mind, you did your best to keep your actions to a minimum and to keep any backlash from hurting Husker.
"We both know what our place is. It would be best that we don't question it. I'm truly sorry for the pain you feel, Husker, but we made our choices. Be happy your choice gives you some kind of freedom."
#kiame-sama#yandere#x reader#yandere x reader#reader insert#tw yandere#yandere alastor#yandere hazbin hotel
676 notes
·
View notes
Text



takeout
wonbin x reader | 4.5k words
taking a crack at a darker kind of fic on this page. i understand that this might not be for everyone so please heed the content warnings before you proceed.
contains: wonbin and the reader are dating but not really, toxic relationship, descriptions of depression, eating mentioned, cheating mentioned and implied, reader doesnât cum
You didnât bother texting Wonbin that youâd be showing up at his place. The entrance to his building was left propped open with a stick, you walked through with the delivery driver that came in on his bike. You walked up the stairs when the man looked confused checking door numbers, clearing each uneven step until you made it to Wonbinâs floor. You stepped on unfinished and discarded tiling, past the dirty walls of the staircase until you knew where you were.Â
You came down the hallway, listening to your tired feet and the plastic bag in your hand rustle. You checked your phone, it was too late to be here and you knew Wonbin wouldnât respond even if you told him you had food with you. You just stared at his unit number for the longest, before you finally reached forward, looking in the peephole like you could see him and knocking.Â
He was in the middle of that lull in his mind that came with cold weather, and all effects usually came at the expense of the people around him. He spent all day on his phone but wouldnât message anyone back, he was probably starving in the common area of his apartment if he actually made it out of bed today.Â
You imagined him trudging through his apartment when you knocked for the third time, hitting the door with the side of your fist instead of gently with your knuckles. You were sure his neighbors were tired of you coming by. You knew that Wonbin was tired of you too. When he became like this he also started showing a distaste of you for some reason. Like you were a bother even if you came by after your shift with food for him because you knew he hadnât eaten all day.Â
He answered the door only after you knocked with your fist a third time. His black shirt was loose and his hair was getting to the length where he couldnât maintain it. When he opened the door fully you saw his collarbones were jutting out a little more than usual, and he had that bored look in his eye. He even stood like he was caving in on himself, not hiding the bad posture his mom always chided him for. If she was here now she wouldâve told him he needed to change, and that she knew he has probably been in that shirt for days. But since it was only you, Wonbin did nothing to hide the annoyance like he usually did. He didnât even change his gaze up to your hands when you showed him you didnât come empty handed, he couldnât even spare you a greeting.
âWhy are you knocking like the police?â Wonbin looked down the hallway like you would bring company or like he cared what his neighbors thought of him. âI didnât know you were coming by.â He continued.
âYou werenât answering.â You answer his interrogation, and you match the his expression.
You look past him into his apartment, and Wonbin still stands in the way like youâre not welcome.
âDid you bring my sweater?â He asks.
You knew he was talking about that hoodie with the ugly design on the back that he claimed cost him an entire paycheck. He alternated between wanting you to keep that raggedy hoodie forever and demanding it back. Sometimes he even talked about matching but refused to tell you the site, making you think he was going to buy one of his own. But he had a distaste for you right now, even if you showed up with food during his time of expecting someone to anticipate his needs.Â
He didnât even let you answer where his hoodie was before he walked through the open door of his dark apartment. You didnât bother answering as you followed him in and turned on the light by the door.Â
âYour place is a fucking mess, Bin.â You turned on the light to the entryway to reveal his scattered pairs of shoes that were normally in a straight line by the door. The light revealed the waste too. All the empty takeout boxes, napkins, unopened mail, dirty dishes. There was only a few spots left on the counter where the takeout wouldnât touch Wonbinâs other trash. You took in a deep breath through your nose, making sure Wonbin could see you before you grimaced. âAnd what the Hell is that smell?âÂ
Wonbin finally snapped out of whatever benevolent trance he was in and turned around to face you. His hair was coming down to his eyes, the speed he turned made the hair that wisped his neck come forward until it touched his chin. The ends curled at the base of his neck. The parts he turcked behind his ear even became loose, framing his face perfectly.Â
âDid you come over here just to shame me?â Wonbin asked and your silence answered his question. He sits down on his couch and sighs loud, reaching past an empty soda can to grab the remote to the television. You sigh back just as loud as you take off your jacket, and when you feel Wonbinâs eyes on you again you make sure to raise your shoulders and drop them. He scoffs at you mocking him and he starts flipping through his streaming services. âI didnât ask you to come here.â
âYour friends couldnât reach you, so they started calling me instead.â
You know Wonbin knows his friends have sent out the well wishes because he doesnât say anything back to you. He just messes with the remote, going between channels on his television like he knows whatâs going on.
Wonbin doesnât ask you for anything. He just assumes heâll get what he wants because thatâs how his entire life has been thus far. He was probably rotting underneath the covers of his bed thinking about how badly he wanted yangyeom chicken from that place too far to order on delivery apps and here you were.Â
You were one of many at Wonbinâs beck and call, his orderly during the winter months and something romantic but moreso physical during the rest of the year. But Wonbin kept you around because you were one of the few people that didnât bend completely. You figured a long time ago that if you took care of him you reserved the right to mock him in his wallowing every now and then. You were good for him, one of the few people that didnât coddle him completely.Â
If he wanted to protest too much youâd disappear from his life forever, and take the delivery food and expensive hoodie and Netflix login with you. If Wonbin wanted to lecture you about how terrible the winter months were for him and how you didnât understand you could show him what the summer months were like for you. You both could be decrepit and starving yourselves because youâre too lazy to get out of bed. Atleast you manage to will yourself to go to work. Wonbin mustâve used up all his sick hours a long time ago, because his work clothes are lazily draped over the couch on the side opposite of him. Maybe he was actually moving around before you banged on his door.Â
Still though, you know he hasnât eaten yet. He looks to you and then his chicken on the counter, the logo of the store breaks through him pretending he knows what heâs going to watch. You silently bring him the chicken and clean up some of the trash on the way, dumping it into his almost full and smelly trashcan. When you finish you check his fridge that you already know will be empty. Thereâs only takeout from a previous day and a lonely jar of kimchi and white rice next to it. You eye the last soda right in front of you and you can hear Wonbin stop clicking from different streaming channels.Â
You donât hesitate to take last soda for yourself, cracking it open and then to Wonbinâs dismay drinking it. You take a long sip and he pouts in between smacking his lips between bites of food. You let the fridge stay open until it starts beeping at you, and when half of the soda is gone and Wonbin is about to protest with a mouth full of food you finally give in. You sit on the couch right next to him and hand him the soda. He doesnât even thank you before he grabs the can and takes a drink himself.
Heâs is too inconsiderate. He grabbed the can with his sauce covered fingers, knowing you wonât want to touch it. Heâs disgusting, because youâre sure thereâs some trace of chicken and sauce floating in the backwash of the soda. Heâs so selfish, because he hasnât said thank you once, and heâs the worst because he isnât withholding gratitude on purpose. Heâs terrible on complete accident, because heâs been taken care of his whole life that he never learned youâre supposed to show gratitude when people go out of their way for someone else. Heâs too much, because everyone in his life eventually passes him off to someone else because heâs demanding without even voicing it. Thereâs just something overbearing about his big eyes and pouty lips, it makes you want to work tirelessly until you have nothing left.
Other attributes are the only reason heâs made it this far. The perpetual trepidatious look in his eye, his lips that are always pulled in a pout, his tendency to pick at his fingers. You find yourself babying Wonbin and taking care of him because youâve convinced yourself he canât do it himselfâeven if heâs flirted with all of your friends and youâre positive heâs fucked atleast one of them.Â
Knowing that youâre his caretaker doesnât make the load any lighter. Irony can only get you so far and babying a grown man as an adult with your own set of problems is pathetic no matter how you spin it. Even if you grimace at the way Wonbin burps and doesnât say excuse me you still find some sort of joy in seeing him eat food that you came all this way to bring him. You find yourself feeling full even if you bought an extra portion with yourself in mind. Wonbin just packs the leftovers up and puts it in his fridge before walking off to his bathroom. Youâre left in his common area until you walk on tired feet to his couch. The only thing to show for his gratitude is the television remote in your lap. You take the liberty to put on a movie because you know whatâs going to happen next. Heâs taking extra long in the restroom for a reason, you can hear the water run and the sound of him brushing his teeth.
He comes around the corner with the edges of his hair wet, framing his face as he sits on the other side of you. His inconsideration for your favorite spot on the couch forces you to scoot to the other side, right in front of the dirty soda can that has dried sauce on it. Wonbin ignores everything again when he comes close to you, an obvious hand reaching behind you to rest on the top of the sofa.
âYou always take such good care of me.â Wonbin turns to you before the movie can even finish loading. Heâs already turning down the volume and slinking closer to your side of the couch. Past the division of the cushions, his hand is on your thigh, squeezing and covering as much space as he can. âDid you come straight from work?â
You donât turn away from the television. You read the subtitles because Wonbin turned it down to the point that you canât hear anything and youâre trying your best to delay what you know is coming next.Â
âThese are my work clothes.â You say.
Wonbin doesnât have to say anything else. Because one of his purposes in life is to be taken care of heâs too easy to read. You know that he doesnât try to hide his wants you to take care of him. What pushed you guys from friends to whatever you were now was a blowjob because he was complaining about lack of action. When you relate Wonbin to Pavlovsâ dog it makes alot of sense. You fed him and took care of him, itâs only right that what Wonbin is hinting at happens next.
You do hate him though. Youâre sure he knows it, because he knows you hate selfish people and Wonbin is convinced that no one experiences anything like he does. No one understands weariness or the feeling like something is wrong. No one understands how short his attention span is and how he can do nothing to mend it. But his looks do get him far. When you turn to look at him your sarcasm falls flat. All disdain is gone, itâs all about him and his face thatâs so close to yours. You always do take such good care of him. He fucked your friend while you two were on a break, and you were never official to begin with.Â
You lean in first but Wonbin kisses you rough, sucking your bottom lip into his mouth before adding pressure behind his bite. You whimper into his mouth because you know itâs what he likes to hear, and you push your hands underneath his gray shirt to drag your hands up his bare back. He was so cold, just waiting for you in this apartment. You end right at the base of his neck, just so you can tangle your fingers in his long hair and grip his neck. That makes him perk up, and he starts guiding you down towards the back of the couch.
Wonbin is on top of you, kissing you like his life depends on it. The low volume of the movie is drowned out from the sloppy sounds he makes. Another wet kiss to your lips and heâs trailing down, leaving a mess on your neck. Heâs bound to leave a mark soon like youâre his, and you have to tighten your hold on the back of his neck to remind him he canât. Your work blouse is like a guideline, but he doesnât even think to pay attention. He only picks at the top button and moans against the laved skin of your neck. You take your hands away from his body and start at the bottom of your blouse, working your way up because he stopped trying to undo them himself.Â
Youâre already exhausted. A whole work day just to drive here in the worst traffic, then you have to put in the effort to moan and undress yourself. The disdain comes back and you want to mock the way he grinds on your leg. You know Wonbin has about a minute of being on top left in him, this weak foreplay is wasting time. Youâre have a shift in the morning and you have to get home before traffic keeps you here.Â
You can tell immediately that Wonbin wants you to be on top. He messes up when he hikes one of your legs in the bend of his arm to grind directly on your crotch. He loses his balances and accidentally presses to much of his body against yours. You wheeze out a breath and he tries to cover up his blunder by kissing your neck. You grip the back of his neck harder, holding his other shoulder to keep him up. In the dim glow from the television you can see him. His stretched gray shirt reveals the freckles in his neck and back that you partially cover. His hair falling out of place completely covers his eyes. You can see down the space between your two bodies, his dick pushing against the fabric of his black sweatpants before he drags it against your heat again.Â
Wonbin tilts his head back. Heâs beautiful but so pathetic. Whatever heâs doing doesnât excite you nearly as much as it does for him. He knows this is embarrassing, because when heâs looking back down at you with his lip is caught between his teeth.
âCan I put it in?â Heâs already reaching a single hand down between your two bodies. For a moment you think heâs going to help you, but instead he just pushes at the waistband of his slacks until his dick is free. It bobs in the cold air and he hisses again. âPlease?â
Wonbin has about thirty seconds of being on top left in him and you can tell he wants you to withhold something, to try your luck with him. Wonbin is by no means a freak, but you know thereâs something that lays beneath the surface. From the way he likes to be doted on and taken care of youâre sure thereâs a dormant urge to call you mommy, heâs just waiting for you to take the first step. The way he rots in bed makes you think thereâs something that has to do with pain right next to it, maybe even something akin to humiliation. But you are too busy doing all the work to do anything beyond what it takes to make him cum. You do your part, you pull at his hair until he hisses from the pain and you tell him it feels good everytime you make eye contact. But most of you time youâre focused on yourself, because it has been getting harder and harder to cum when you think about Wonbin.
âPut it in, Bin.â You say it gently instead of ordering, because you refuse to go above and beyond. You already had to work your pants down your body while still keeping his body up. If you combined it with a hair tug his plump lips part and you can see his front teeth. This will just have to do. Wonbin shuffles forward and you raise your hips to make it easier for him. âWanna feel you.âÂ
Your work pants hit the floor and Wonbin nods. Heâs too lazy to guid his dick inside, letting it bump into your clit again and again until he finally finds the hole. You nod again and he goes forward.
Hearing Wonbin is rewarding. He slides into you and lets out a high-pitched moan everytime without fail. Like your pussy is the first thing heâs ever fucked, and the only thing that can temporarily distract him from the hole heâs found himself in. Thereâs no holding back and he does it right into your ear. Heâs always slow sliding in, so slow that you have to wrap your legs around his waist to push him in the rest of the way. When his hips are flush against yours he always lets his head hang lowâwhether itâs from euphoria, shame, focusâyou never know. You just focus on drawing your hips back and doing it again, until Wonbinâs hands digs into the cushion beside your head and you feel more of his weight on top of your body.Â
âCan you get on top?â
This was a new record. Not even two pumps in and heâs already tapping out. In the beginning you used to pat yourself on the back, like you were some sort of succubus draining Wonbin of life. But heâs just lazy. Thereâs no drive to fuck you, even if heâs initiated it. He hates doing the work and he hates being on top and he hates when the attention isnât on him. Even when you were at your lowest you were still doing something. When you were at your happiest you were going through Wonbinâs friend group, flirting so you could remember what it was like to talk to someone who wanted to fuck you.
You donât say anything to Wonbin when you tap on his shoulder. He pulls out of you with a shudder and you get off the couch completely, taking off your work uniform completely. Wonbin sits up against the armrest of the couch to kick off his sweats the rest of the way. He waits for you to get back on the couch in only your socks to guide him out of his shirt, balling it up and throwing it out of the way.
His dick is against his stomach. He twitches every time you move, the longer you stare down at him the more he starts to writhe too. You want him to feel uncomfortable, you want him to look down with you. You buy him chicken and share soda with him but he canât even be bothered to be on top.Â
âWhat do you want me to do, princess?â Instantly Wonbinâs eyebrows knit together. You can see the embarrassed flush on his tanned skin, brushing underneath his cheeks. Youâve heard the mocking name his friends call him. Eunseok was the one that texted you tonight asking if you could check on the princess. The nickname always made Wonbin defiant, but even when he shakes his head he says nothing. His hands that grip your waist get a little tighter, but his lips are parted again in a mindless act and he looks at you like youâre lost. âYou want me to do all the work, right?â You press further.
Wonbin still says nothing the second time around. Even when you say it with a sneer and you grab his dick a little to hard and a little too sudden he does nothing. He just presses further into the couch in anticipation, his pupils shaking already. You raise your hips up and you can see him draw in a deep breath, until his chest lifts up his shirt and he shakes.
Youâre still locked on Wonbinâs expression when you sink down on him. He canât stop himself from closing his eyes in euphoria and gripping your waist too tight. His head tilts back and he almost sounds like heâs in pain. A moan thatâs a whimper, then itâs drawn out when you raise above him again.Â
You look around his mess of an apartment as you ride him. Your legs should be burning from exertion but you barely go above the minimum. Even if you were to just grind your hips against Wonbin youâre positive something so little would be enough for him. He prefers to be pampered but heâs so low maintenance. You look at the state heâs living in. Nothing is in his fridge but thereâs sprouting potatoes on his counter. Youâre amazed heâs made it this far.
âBaby.â Finally a sound breaks through his moans. You look down at his half-lidded eyes that squeeze shut when you purposefully clamp around him. Heâs too easy, itâs almost sad how easy he is. Maybe there is something about him that no one else will understand, because heâs a mystery. He could be more of a tease, heâs lacking something to the point that you project your own toxicity onto him. Maybe he truly has no clue, because he has tears in his eyes when youâve barely broken a sweat. âIâm close.â He whines.
You stop leaning over him to lean back instead. Until your hands are planted behind you on his thighs for stability, you start swiveling your hips. Itâs a simple motion, but Wonbin grips your waist and keeps his eyes on you like youâve never done this for him before. You moan for his benefit and he instantly surpasses your volume. Youâre inclined to reach forward and clasp a hand over his mouth, because the walls in this shitty apartment building are thin and heâs talked about rude looks from his neighbors in the mailroom. But Wonbin is unbothered. Another whimper bounces off the walls, higher pitched than yours and infinitely more wrecked. You turn towards the television, letting Wonbinâs greedy hands partially move your hips the way he needs. The new season of The White Lotus looks good. You wouldâve loved to watch the episode with your undivided attention. Youâll have to turn it on when you get home.
Wonbin doesnât ask if you are close. He lets go of the bruising grip on your waist to drag his hand down, until he touches your clit too rough and picks a speed too fast. Youâve tried correcting his technique before, but he couldnât be bothered. You just let him think heâs doing the right thing because youâve made it this far. You watch the television from a sideways angle and moan. You match Wonbinâs volume, you dig your nails into his leg until his muscles clench underneath you. Traffic is going to be terrible if you donât leave soon. Heâs invited you to stay before, but the only thing he offered was the couch and a scratchy blanket that left you shivering in the middle of the night. Wonbin got his big comfortable bed, claiming that he canât sleep with other people.Â
âBin.â You reach back forward, pulling his head that was facing the couch cushions to look directly at you. It changes your angle and the way your hips move, but it was the right thing to do. Wonbinâs lip is bitten from terrible attempts to keep his noises muted. When you start riding him again another sound slips out, but he looks up to you with his big eyes to let you know heâs trying to listen. âYou said you were going to cum, right?â Wonbin nods, head still in your hands. You smile and pick up the pace, going further than his hand was guiding you.Â
He goes back to gripping you helplessly, his head pressed into the armrest. He abandoned your clit entirely, favoring your chest. His calloused hands are nice, and the way heâs touching you so close to your heart makes you impartial to him. You do like taking care of him, even when he has spit dribbling from the corner of his mouth and heâs no help.Â
Wonbin lets himself get fucked by you one more time then heâs pulling at you, until your chest is flush to his and he lets out a pained grunt into your ear. You feel the warmth, you can still smell the chicken on him as he ruts into you. He can only exert himself to grind against you twice before heâs slumped against the couch, more drained than how you found him. Heâs heaving out breaths, then whining because your body weight on him is too much.
When you sit up and see him again, his hair is wrecked. The flush is splotchy on every part you see of him. Even passed the stretched collar of his shirt. He slides further down until he doesnât have to lean on the armrest, you raise your body off of him to accommodate. He still twitches inside of you, and the only change in his blissed out face is to cringe from the overstimulation and the wet noises you too make. He was never around for the cleanup, choosing to let the sweat and other bodily fluids dry on his skin. He turns to watch the television too, but you see his eyes begin to droop and his breathing go back to normal. You run your hands through his long hair once then twice, just to get it out of his eyes.
âYou should cut your hair Bin, or atleast wash it.â You hum it this time, running your hands through his hair again. "It's so oily."
He only murmurs, hands leaving your body completely to rest on his chest. Your stomach rumbles and Wonbinâs eyes close fully.Â
107 notes
·
View notes
Text
Bad Day at Black Rock | Supernatural Series Rewrite | Dean Winchester x Fem!Reader
Pairing: Dean Winchester x Fem!Reader
Warnings: panic attack/PTSD, recovering from a sexual assault (HEED THESE WARNINGS ESPECIALLY FOR THIS CHAPTER), canon violence, canon gore
Word Count: 6673
Mobile Supernatural Series Rewrite Masterlist
Supernatural Series Rewrite Masterlist
Supernatural Series Rewrite Playlist
âWhat?!â you exclaimed. âSheâs a demon, and you didnât gank her?!â
Sam had just finished telling you and Dean about this Ruby girl heâd met.Â
âNo, (Y/N), I mean, she seemed pretty helpful on the Seven Deadlies case.â
âWait, sheâs the blonde chick?!â you realized. âWhy the fuck would a demon help me?â
âI donât know,â Sam answered. âThatâs what Iâm trying to understand, too. And if she helped us then, I donât see why I shouldnât have at least listened to what she had to say.â
âBecause âdemon,â that's why,â Dean snapped angrily. âI mean, the second you find out this Ruby chick is a demon, you go for the holy water! You don't chat!â
âNo one was chatting, Dean,â Sam huffed.
âOh yeah? Then why didn't you send her ass back to Hell?â
âBecause she said she might be able to help us out!â
âWith what, though, Sam,â you chimed in. âYouâve never said how sheâs supposed to be able to help us. Or with what.â
âShe told me she could help Dean,â Sam said quietly.
Dean seemed to not understand.
âWith the crossroads deal, Iâm assuming,â you told him.
Sam nodded.
The older brother looked at Sam incredulously. âWhat is wrong with you, huh? She's lying, you gotta know that, don't you? She knows what your weakness is; it's me.â Dean paused for a second. âWhat else did she say?â
Sam was quiet again.
You and Dean leaned in expectantly. âDude?â the older brother questioned.
âNothing. Nothing, Okay?!â Sam snapped. âLook, I'm not an idiot, guys. I'm not talking about trusting her, I'm talking about using her. I mean, we're at war, right? And we don't know jack about the enemy. We don't know where they are; we don't know what they're doing. I mean, hell, we don't know what they want. Now, this Ruby girl knows more than we will ever find out on our own. Now, yes, it's a risk, I know that, but we need to take it.â
âYou're okay right, I mean you're feeling okay?â Dean asked.
Sam huffed. âYes I'm fine. Why are you always asking me that?â
You looked between the two brothers when a phone began ringing. You checked your pockets; no buzzing. Sam and Deanâs phones werenât ringing either.Â
âCheck the glove box, it's Dad's,â Dean suddenly realized.
âDadâs?â Sam questioned.
âYeah, I keep it charged up in case any of his old contacts call.â
âSmart boy,â you thought.
Sam opened the glove box and found the ringing phone. âHello? Yes... this is Edgar Casey⊠No! No, no, no, don't â don't call the police, I'll handle this myself. Thanks. You know, can you just uh, can you just lock it back up for me? Great. Uhm, I- I uh, I don't have my - my book in front of meââ Sam gestured to you for a pen, which you quickly handed to himâ âdo you- do you have the address so I can... Sure, okay. Go ahead. Right, thanks a lot.â He then hung up and turned to Dean. âDad ever tell you he kept a container at a storage place?â
âWhat?â Dean asked.
âOutside of Buffalo?â
The older brother shook his head. âNo way.â
âYeah. And someone just broke into it.â
***
âNo demons allowed,â Sam noted upon entering his fatherâs storage container. A large Devilâs Trap was etched into the ground, and two sets of bloody footprints traveled right through it.Â
âCheck this out,â Dean said, stooping to hold up a tripwire. It was attached to a shotgun hidden in a large animal skull.Â
âWhoever broke in here got tagged,â Sam said.
âI got two sets of boot treads here,â you announced, âlooks like it was a two-man job. And Buckshot Boy looks like he kept walking.â You nodded toward the bloody footprint trail leading into the container.
âSo, what's the deal?â Sam wondered aloud. âDad would do work here or something?â
âLiving the high life, as usual,â Dean quipped.
The three of you crept around Johnâs storage locker, and the two brothers chatted about how much of a mystery their father still was to them. You took in the varying types of clutter. To your surprise, the room was filled with old memorabilia; photo albums, a graduation cap and gown you assumed was Samâs, and a few boxes whose contents were written on the outside of them in a womanâs handwriting you assumed belonged to Mary.Â
You smiled at a trophy on a shelf nearby. âCheck it out,â you said, picking it up and dusting it off. âSam Winchester, 1995,â you read aloud, âSoccer Division Championship.â
Sam grinned and came over to you. âNo way! I can't believe he kept this.â
âYeah,â Dean smiled lopsidedly, âit was probably about the closest you ever came to being a boy.â He wandered over to another table with a shotgun laid on it. âOh, wow! It's my first sawed-off. I made it myself. Sixth grade.â The older brother laughed and pumped the dusty shotgun.
âYou made that?â you questioned.
âNot bad, eh?â he grinned excitedly.
âNo, not at all,â you giggled. âDamn, dude.â You took the gun from him and inspected it, impressed with Deanâs craftsmanship. He smiled proudly at you.
âGuys, over here,â Sam said. You followed his voice over to a door to a back room. The chain on the door had been cut, and you cautiously made your way inside.
You waved your flashlight around the room to find varying weapons and lockboxes that no doubt held nasty supernatural objects.
âHoly crap. Look at this,â Dean called, âhe had land mines. Which they didn't take. Or the guns. I guess they knew what they were after, huh?â
You took in the lockboxes on the shelf on the far wall. âThis is binding magic,â you pointed out. âCurse boxes.â
âCurse boxes?â Dean questioned. âThey're supposed to keep the evil mojo in, right? Kinda like the Pandora deal?â
Sam nodded. âYeah, they're built to contain the power of the cursed object.â
âWell, Dad's journal did mention a whole bunch of stuff, y'know? Dangerous hexed items, fetishes. He never did say where they ended up,â Dean added.
âMust be his sulfur-sludge dump,â you joked. You noticed a rectangular-shaped hole in the dust that had settled over the shelf. âWell, they found what they were looking for.â
âGreat,â Sam groaned.
âWell, maybe they didn't open it,â Dean suggested optimistically.Â
âCute thought, but Iâm sure they did,â you replied flippantly. You looked around the exterior of the storage unit for anything that could be of use to you; footprints, tire tracks, and⊠aha! A security camera.
âThatâs helpful,â you noted, pointing up at it.Â
The boys helped you fish the SD card out of the security camera, and you hooked it up to your computer.Â
âThere, license plate,â you noted. âAnd nowâŠâ you pulled up an alternate tab and copied the license plate number into it. Immediately, pages began scrolling of places the license plate had been seen at. Most recently, an apartment not too far from you.Â
âTa-da,â you announced childishly, and the brothers looked at you in shock.
âJesus, (Y/N), howâd you get access to all this?â Sam asked.
âOh, yâknow,â you smirked, trailing off.Â
Sam looked at you expectantly.Â
âSame way any hackers do,â you shrugged. âHad this guy on the hook for a bit when I was, maybe, twenty. Found out he was an FBI agent in the cyber unitâ not the brightest of the bunchâ and I phished his computer. Of course, as soon as I did, the computer broke and shut down. Told him I was good with computers and could fix it for him, and then, I cut and run. Fixed the laptop up and had access to everything he had access to. Exported it to my laptop, ditched his somewhere in Arizona, and here we are.â
âThat isâŠâ Dean trailed off, âincredibly hot.â
You rolled your eyes, suppressing a smile.Â
âGet a room,â Sam mumbled, moving over to the Impala.
***
You and the Winchesters crept into the apartment belonging to the drivers of the stolen Connecticut vehicle, guns drawn. You could hear two men chattering about their poker game, and then you finally burst into the room on Deanâs nod.
âFreeze, freeze! Nobody move!â he commanded.
âHe said donât fucking move!â you ordered, pinning the bandaged, redheaded man to his seat with your gun.
âWhat is this?â the other man questioned.
âStop!â Sam demanded.Â
âAlright, give us the box. And please tell me that you didn'tââ
Sam cut Dean off. âOh, they did.â
âYou opened it?!â Dean grunted. He shoved the dark-haired man against the wall.
âAre you guys cops?!â the man pinned wondered.
âWhat was in the box?â Dean questioned angrily.
You noticed a rabbitâs foot on the edge of the table. âOh, fuck,â you thought.Â
âOh, was that it, huh?â Dean laughed coldly. âIt was, wasn't it? What is that thing?â
The man used Deanâs distraction to knock the gun out of his hand. When it fell to the floor, it fired, and you had to drop to the floor to avoid being hit in the face by the bullet.
The bullet ricocheted off the radiator and hit Samâs gun, and he dropped it. The same bullet somehow ricocheted and hit a lamp, breaking it. You dove across the floor, trying to grab Samâs gun, and the redheaded man pushed Sam down on top of you.
âThe fuck, Sam?!â
âSorry!â
You scrambled toward the redhead, and he backhanded you, somehow knocking you off balance and sending you to the floor. You normally wouldnât have been so thrown off by such a simple move, but that rabbitâs foot was definitely working its magic.Â
âDean, I got it!â Sam announced. You turned around to see him holding the rabbitâs foot.
âFuck, Sam, no!â you cried upon seeing him holding the cursed object.
The dark-haired man moved forward holding Deanâs favored gun and cocked it in his face. The man pulled the trigger in Samâs face, but the gun jammed.Â
âThank god.â
A quick scuffle ensued in which the two men opposing you had a bookshelf fall on them and a carpet got wrapped around their ankles and tripped them. Both men knocked themselves out, and Dean laughed triumphantly.
âThat was a lucky break!â
âNo, not lucky!â you shrieked. âSam, thatâs a rabbitâs foot!â
âUh, yeah?â he said, as if it were obvious.
âDo you have any idea what you just did?â you panicked.Â
âNo, what are youââ
âIâm calling Bobby,â you said, storming out of the apartment and back to the Impala.Â
âWhoa, whoa, why? Iâm not seeing how this is a bad thing, (Y/N),â Dean countered, catching up to you.Â
âBecause thatâs a rabbitâs foot, Dean! A cursed object! Its literal function is to bring bad luck,â you explained.
âHow?â Sam asked.Â
âOnce you touch it, youâre marked. Luckâs gonna be on your side.â
âBetter buy some lottery tickets then,â Dean chuckled excitedly.
You glared at him. âBut if you lose it, youâre fucked. Itâll keep bringing you bad luck till it eventually kills you.â
âWell, I just wonât lose it, then,â Sam tried.Â
âEverybody loses it, Sam! Thatâs the whole point!â
The two boys looked slightly shaken; Sam more so than Dean. Dean was laughing all the way to the bank on this one, and he dragged you and Sam to a gas station to get lottery scratch-off tickets. Then, he drove you to a restaurant chain location called Biggersonâs for some dinner.Â
You sat on the phone with Bobby, the two of you angrily muttering about the insanity of the situation to each other.
âGotta say, kid,â Bobby started, âwas hoping the next time I heard from ya, itâd be on happier terms than this.â
âTrust me, me too,â you sighed. âDo you know of anything that can stop this?â
âIâll dig aroundââ
Bobbyâs voice in your ear was cut off by Dean triumphantly exclaiming, âtwelve-hundred dollars! You just won twelve-hundred dollars!â
You grimaced and put the phone back to your ear.
âIâm guessing Samâs luckâs still good,â Bobby drawled.
âFor now, but I donât know for how much longer.â You got out of the car, suddenly feeling suffocated in the Impala. You paced around, as did Sam, and you watched as he walked over to something glistening under a newspaper on the ground.Â
âIâll figure somethinâ out. Lemme look through my library and make some calls,â Bobby said. âCall me if anything else goes to shit.â
You laughed, and Sam stood up holding a golden watch. He turned to Dean who stood next to you and mouthed something like, âAwesome,â to his brother.
âWill do,â you told the older man on the phone. âHurry, Bobby.â You hung up as Dean calculated the winnings from the scratch-off tickets he made Sam fill out.
âOh, man!â Dean grinned. âWeâre up fifteen grand!â
You and Sam half-smiled, both feeling unsettled still.
Dean continued to laugh as he walked into the restaurant with you hot on his heels.Â
âIn case you forgot, Dean, weâre still technically fugitives,â you hissed. âIf Samâs luck goes to hell, we could be royally fucked.â
âDon't worry,â Dean said easily. âBobby 'll find a way to break it. Until then I say we hit Vegas, pull a little Rain Man. Sam can be Rain Man.â
âLook, we just lay low until Bobby calls back, okay?â Sam whispered. He turned to the man behind the host stand. âHi, uh, table for three, please.â
The manâs face broke out into a grin, and he hollered, âCongratulations!â An alarm began to sound through the restaurant.
âIt's exciting, I know,â Dean quipped.
âYou are the one millionth guest of the Biggerson's Restaurant family!â the man announced.Â
The staff surrounding you began singing and taking photographs while they shoved a giant check into your hands. Balloons fell from the ceiling, and you and Sam wouldâve rathered been anywhere else. Dean was ecstatic, though, which you were happy to see. Youâd suffer tremendous embarrassment fifty times over just to see him smile. That thought scared you a little bit; how you'd do anything for him. You had a tendency to be an extremist.
You were escorted to your table, and a gorgeous waitress in what was clearly a black bob wig approached your table.Â
Her coy smile was alluring, but something about her wasnât sitting right with you. Still, nothing seemed off through the rest of the meal. Sam clacked away on his laptop rattling off bits of lore he was reading on rabbitâs foot Hoodoo magic while you and Dean shared a bowl of ice cream.Â
âI think from now on, we only go to places with Biggerson's,â Dean commented.Â
The waitress came back over to your table with a pot of coffee and grinned at Sam. âCan I freshen you up?â
Sam nodded. âThanks.â
The waitress poured, still smiling, and spilled some in her flirtatious stupor. âOh!â she exclaimed. âLet me mop up here. Sorry about that.â She hurriedly cleaned her mess and left the table, appearing to flirt with Sam over her shoulder even as she left.
âDude. If you were ever gonna get luckyâŠâ Dean trailed off.
Sam smirked. âShut up.â
You smacked Deanâs shoulder. âIâm right here.â
Sam went to pick up his coffee, but he knocked the cup over and spilled it all over himself. Before you could process what was going on, he jumped out of his seat and into a waiter with a full tray. Things went flying through the air as Sam rushed profuse apologies.Â
âSam, check your pockets,â you said evenly.Â
He did, and his hands came up empty.
âSon of a bitch,â Dean growled.
You and the brothers threw a wad of cash on the table and raced into the parking lot after the waitress. You noticed the black bob wig ditched on the ground a few feet from the door. âI knew it was a wig!â
âWhat?â Sam asked, turning around to you. He immediately tripped and fell flat on his face.Â
âWow! You suck!â Dean laughed, turning back to a groaning Sam.
âOw,â the younger brother whined while you helped him up. His knees were bloody and raw through his ripped jeans.
âSo what, now your luck turns bad?â Dean questioned.
âYeah, Dean, I believe Iâve said that,â you remarked, and he glared at you.Â
âWell, how bad does it get, genius?âÂ
âReally bad. Câmon,â you urged.Â
âWhere we goinâ?â Sam asked.
âBack to the two jackwads that got us into this mess,â you said, hopping in the driverâs seat.Â
âWhoa, who said you could drive?â Dean questioned.
âMe. Donât be a child,â you said.Â
***
You broke into the apartment once again to find the brunet man sadly downing a bottle of tequila.Â
âOh, man. What do you want?â the man asked.
âHeard about your friend. That's bad luck,â Dean tsked, referring to the death of the redheaded thief.Â
âPiss off,â the man spat.
âWe know someone hired you to steal the rabbit's foot. A woman,â Dean continued.
âOh yeah? How do you know that?â
âBecause she just stole it back from us.â
The man laughed.Â
Sam stepped forward. âListen man, this is seriââ and then he fell to the floor mid-sentence, pulling a CD player and a shelf down on top of him.Â
You turned back to help the younger brother up. âYou okay?â
âYeah, Iâm good,â he said, smiling awkwardly in thanks for your help.Â
âI want you to tell us her name,â the older Winchester continued to the man.Â
âFuck you,â was the only response he got.
âIt wasn't a freak accident that killed your partner,â you tried, coming out from behind the couch.
âWhat?â
âCâmon, donât tell me you havenât been thinkinâ it. I thought youâd be smarter than that,â you challenged. That seemed to get under the manâs skin, so you continued. âThat series of unfortunate events that had to happen to kill your partnerâ like, had you not seen it with your own eyes, you wouldnât have believed itâ that was the rabbitâs foot. If you donât help us stop this thing, those deaths are on you, my friend.â
The man in front of you looked worried.Â
âAnd I gotta tell you, it doesnât seem youâre cut out for the whole killinâ thing. You donât wanna be a killer, do you?â you continued to press.
The man shook his head, and his voice dropped to a whisper. âNo.â
***
You left the apartment repeating the womanâs last name over and over in your head. The man told you âLugosiâ was the only name he and his partner were given when they were hired.Â
You took out your phone and called Bobby.Â
âHey, (Y/N), glad you called,â you heard the man say.Â
âHey, we got a situation hereââ
âI found a heavyweight cleansing ritual that should do the trick,â Bobby continued.Â
âThatâs awesome, thank you, but uhâŠâ you trailed off, trying to decide how to phrase your next words. You decided not to sugarcoat it in the end. âSam lost the foot.â
âHe what?!â
âI know, I know,â you sighed. You turned back around to see Sam and Dean trying to use a broken storm grate to get gum off the bottom of Samâs shoe. You shook your head at their faces when they noticed you; seeming like two little kids caught with their hands in the candy bowl. You returned your focus to your phone call. âListen, you know anybody by the name âLugosiâ? Maybe mid 20âs, super hot, my heightââ
âAw, crap. Itâs probably Bela,â Bobby said.Â
â Bela Lugosi? Thatâs cute, but never heard of her,â you replied.
âBela Talbotâs her real name,â the older man continued. âCrossed paths with her once or twice.â
âHow the hell would she know John had the rabbitâs foot? She a hunter?â you questioned.
âPretty fuckinâ far from a Hunter, but she knows her way around the territory. She's been out of the country,â Bobby explained. âLast I heard, she was in the Middle East someplace.â
âWell, sheâs back!â you mock-cheered, exasperated.
âWhich means seriously bad luck for you,â the older man added.
âThanks for the encouragement,â you quipped.
âWell, kid, if it is Bela, at least I might know some folks who know where to find her,â he finished.Â
âThanks, Bobby. For everything.â
âJust⊠look out for those two idjits.â And with that, he hung up the phone.
You sighed and turned back around to see Dean reaching through the storm drain and Sam looking dejected.Â
âWhat happened?â you asked.
âI lost my shoe,â the brunet replied sadly.Â
Your eyebrows furrowed sympathetically, and Samâs head hung low. Dean seemed annoyed and huffed, standing up from the floor.Â
âCâmon,â the older brother asserted.
***
Bobby did actually have a pretty good lead on Bela; she apparently lived in Queens about two hours away.Â
âSo what are we doing here?â Sam questioned, referencing the motel youâd just gotten a room at.Â
âYou, my brother, are staying here 'cause I don't want your bad luck getting us killed,â Dean stated. âAnd (Y/N), youâre staying with him.â
âWhat?! Why?â you protested.Â
âBecause Sam actually listens to you when you tell him not to do something. And youâre way more responsible than me,â Dean shrugged simply.
âFair point,â you sighed. âKnowing you, youâll touch the stupid rabbitâs foot, though.â
âPfft, câmon, itâs me weâre talking aboutââ
âThatâs what Iâm worried about,â you dryly stated.
Dean glared at you playfully as he walked Sam into a motel room. You followed close behind and peeked out the door to make sure you werenât followed.Â
âWhat am I even supposed to do, Dean?â Sam whined.
âNothing! Nothing. Come here. I don't want you doing anything. I want you to sit right hereââ the older brother pulled a chair into the middle of the roomâ âand don't move, okay? Don't turn on the light, don't turn off the light. Don't even scratch your nose.â Dean turned to you. âIf Iâm not back by midnight, take off.â
âWhat, you gonna turn into a pumpkin or something?â you snickered.
â(Y/N), Iâm serious.â
âSince when?â
â(Y/N)ââ
âOkay, okay, fine, I heard you.â
Dean smirked down at you and kissed your forehead. âIâll be back,â he said.
You watched him leave, a bit of your heart tugging at being anywhere without him. Your feelings for him were certainly growing stronger, and it frightened you how constantly you needed to be near him.Â
You turned back to see Sam wrinkle his nose a few times before finally risking a scratch at it.Â
âHey! None of that,â you said.Â
Samâs sad eyes turned to yours. âThis fuckinâ sucks, man,â he sighed.
âI know it does. Kinda the whole point of the rabbitâs foot curse,â you commented.
He ignored your smart remark.
âFound anything on how to break Deanâs deal?â you asked.
Sam shook his head. âNo. Did find out something interesting, though.â
âWhat?â you asked.
âAll my momâs old contacts? All her old friends, the nurse who delivered meâ theyâre all dead,â he explained.
âWhat?!â you shrieked. âAnd you didnât think to mention this before now?!â
âShh, keep your voice down,â Sam said. âDidnât wanna say anything in front of Dean; heâd go berserk.â
âYou know I have to tell him, right?â You crossed your arms over your chest.
âNo, no! Please donât,â he begged. âPlease. You know heâd flip. And, uh, probably more because of the way I got that information than the information itself.â
âWhat do you mean?â you asked.
âRuby told me.â
âOh, god.â You rolled your eyes and dropped your head back.Â
âCâmon, (Y/N), I mean, I called, and it all checks out. Itâs got something to do with me and the demon; I know you recognize that pattern,â Sam tried.
âI do, but I donât like being constantly stuck in the middle of you and Dean,â you said. âIâm supposed to be Switzerland, remember?â
âYeah, but that doesnât mean Switzerland didnât have information on the two sides, she just didnât pick one,â he shrugged.
âSam,â you warned, âYou know how I feel about keeping things from Dean.â
âI know, I know, but you wouldnât necessarily be keeping it from him, youâd beâŠâ he trailed off, trying to think of a way to phrase his next words, âfulfilling a promise to me.â
âBut I didnât promise anything,â you argued.
âPlease promise me you wonât tell Dean. Not till Iâm ready,â Sam begged.
âSam!â
â(Y/N/N), câmon. Please, man. Please.â
You stared at Sam for a prolonged moment; you stared intensely and Sam looked up at you with puppy-dog eyes from his chair. You sighed and dropped your head forward. âFine. But you are gonna promise me that youâll tell Dean eventually. Thatâs my one condition.â
Sam nodded. âDeal.â
You shook your head and sat down on the edge of the bed next to Samâs chair. âYou Winchesters and your secrets.â
âOh, like you donât have any,â Sam deadpanned.
You looked up at the television and saw the reflection of your guard uniform and scratched-up face staring back at you. You took in a sharp breath and let it out slowly. âTouchĂ©.â You paused for a moment. âSam?â
âHmm?â
âCan I ask you something?â
âAnything.â
âWhat are you gonna do whenââ you cut yourself off, tears beginning to well in your throat. You took a deep breath to push them down. âWhen Deanâs gone?âÂ
Sam shook his head. â(Y/N), no. Heâs not gonnaââ
âSam,â you said. âWe are trying everything we can. Weâre two months into this thing and no closer to saving him than we were on day one. I stopped looking. Not âcause I donât care anymore, but because Iâm not gonna send you to Hell just so Dean can live. I mean, Bobbyâs been lookinâ, too! And he hasnât found a damn thing. So I just think we have to be real with ourselves.â
Sam shook his head, tears in his eyes.
âI donât wanna lose him,â you said, putting your hand on Samâs knee to make him look at you and beginning to cry, too. âI donât. Heâs the best thing thatâs ever happened to me. But⊠Iâm scared, man. When I lost my familyâŠâ you closed your eyes at the memory of some of the awful things youâd done and would never forgive yourself for, âI donât wanna do that again. And⊠And I just think that if we kept huntinâ together, we could keep tabs on each other. Make sure the other doesnât go rogue, yâknow?â
âI canât believe youâre just gonna give up on him like that,â Sam spat, disappointed.Â
âIâm not!â you argued. âBut Iâm not gonna help you kill yourself, dammit! Dean would never forgive me. I would never forgive myself!â
âLook, weâve got ten months left. Weâll find something,â Sam continued.Â
âI hope youâre right, man. I really do,â you said. Â
Neither of you said anything for the next few hours.
During that time, you took out your journal and wrote. You didnât usually keep journals when you were done with them as your duffel bag would be filled to the brim with them by now, but you were definitely going to keep this one; especially after Dean was gone.Â
It was somewhat poetic that the first day you met the boys was the first time youâd written in this particular journal. Its pages were filled with your, at first, disdainful musings about the older Winchester brother and slowly but surely became your attempts at discerning your feelings for him.
You liked to buy quite thick and large journals to have enough room for your drawings and to be able to continue writing in them for months and occasionally years. This was the longest youâd been able to stretch one, though, and you were a little over three-fourths through writing in it.Â
âI canât help but wonder what comes next after all this,â you wrote, the pen gliding easily against the page in time with your racing thoughts. âIâve always been awful about âfuturecastingâ as Dad called it, but itâs even worse now. Every second Iâm with Dean, I canât help but think about how this is all gonna be over in less than a year. And itâs awful. I wanna be present with him. I just canât. I donât want there to be an end to us. I donât even know if we are anything! He canât even tell me he loves me.
âAnd I get it to some extent. âI love youâs are hard for him. Fine. I just wish heâd figure out some way to communicate with me that isnât sex. I mean, the sex is great, but. I donât know. And just after everything that happened, Iâm not feeling great about having sex anyway. And I know itâs upsetting him, even if he wonât say anything; heâd never pressure me, and I know that. And Iâm getting better about sex and related things. But it just sucks.
âAnd I donât wanna bring any of this up with him and start fights because, as Iâm painfully aware, that deadline is getting closer and closer every day. I just want him to be happy with me while he still can be.â
You dropped your pen when the air conditioning unit next to you began to smoke.Â
âOh come on, I- I didn't- I wasn'tââ Sam whined.
âJust stay put,â you said. You jerked back in surprise when the unit suddenly caught fire. You grabbed the comforter from the bed next to you and began to put the fire out with it. Thankfully, the fire stopped.Â
âIâm gonna see if I can get someone to fix that for us before your luck kills us both with carbon monoxide poisoning,â you said, starting toward the door.Â
Suddenly, the door to the motel room burst open. However, it wasnât Dean who opened it. It was two men. You drew your gun and cocked it, trained on the two men. âGet the fuck out,â you ordered.Â
âI donât think so,â said the older-looking man. He almost reminded you of Willem Dafoe, and you mentally pegged that as his name. The other man with a bizarre-looking mustache charged you, and you fired. Somehow, the bullet missed its target despite him being in such close range.Â
âWhat the hell, Sam?!â you exclaimed. âYour luckâs rubbinâ off on me!â
âSorry!â he winced.
The man charging you tried to restrain you in a headlock, but you kicked him squarely between the legs. You jutted your elbow back into his nose simultaneously, and the man dropped you.Â
Unfortunately for you, though, Sam had been trying to help you by taking on Willem Dafoe. You turned around to see Sam unable to land a punch on the other manâs face. You tried to help him, but Sam ended up punching you across the face, and you were knocked out cold.
***
When you woke up, your arms were bound behind your back, and your legs were taped together as well. The men had laid you on your stomach, and you immediately began to struggle and panic, feeling your current position was too similar to the one youâd been in with the guard.Â
âDean! Help me!â you wailed without thinking. Your body was in autopilot as you struggled, and you couldnât even focus on the men in the room.Â
âQuit whininâ,â the man with the mustache told you.Â
You could barely hear him over the roaring in your ears. âDean!â
âI said shut up!â the man in front of you roared, slapping you across the face.
You couldnât, though, continuing to flail like a fish out of water.
âCreedy,â the other man said, turning away from Sam and to his accomplice, âshut her up, please.â
âWith pleasure.â The man took a rag out of his shirt and shoved it in your mouth, your muffled cries coming out around it.Â
You vaguely heard Willem Dafoe beating the crap out of Sam while he talked about his mission from âgodâ to kill Sam. Then, the man drew his gun. His partner was unsettled, too, as you strained harder to get out of your binds.Â
Suddenly, your saving grace appeared in the doorway. âDean!â you cried through the gag in your mouth.Â
Willem Dafoe turned around and aimed the gun point-blank at Samâs forehead.Â
âNope. No destiny,â Dean said coolly referring to the manâs earlier comment about god and destiny leading them to Sam. âJust a rabbit's foot.â
âPut the gun down, son, or you're gonna be scraping brain off the wall,â the man replied, his tone ice cold.
Dean waved his Taurus around. âOh, this thing?â
âYeah, that thing,â look-alike-Dafoe responded.Â
âOkay.â Dean put his gun down on the nightstand beside him, looking smug. âBut you see, there's something about me that you don't know.â Dean smoothly picked up a pen off the nightstand beside the gun.Â
âYeah? What would that be?â
âItâs my lucky day,â Dean grinned. He tossed the pen toward Willem Dafoe, and it lodged in the barrel of the gun. ââOh my God, did you see that shot?!âÂ
Forgetting all about your current situation, you started yelling through the gag, âYou fucking touched it? You fucking idiot!â But all that came out was a muffled garbling of words.Â
The man named Creedy lunged at Dean, but missed his punch completely. The man ended up running straight into the wall, and Dafoe was busying himself trying to dislodge the pen from the barrel of his gun.Â
âI'm amazing,â Dean said smugly. He picked up the television remote and threw it hard at Dafoe. It hit the man square between the eyes, knocking him out cold.Â
âIâm Batman,â you heard Dean suavely state, but you were too busy returning your focus to getting your binds undone. Now that the immediate danger was over, your body went back into panic mode. You yelped when you suddenly felt a hand on your back and fought even harder.Â
âHey, hey!â Dean coaxed. âItâs just me.â He saw you werenât listening, and he immediately set to work cutting the duct tape binding your legs and wrists. Your hands shakily yanked out the rag in your mouth. Only then did you realize Dean was the one in front of you, and you leapt into his arms.Â
He caught you easily, one hand around the underside of your back and the other around the topside your legs. You curled up into him and buried your face in his neck.Â
âWhoa, hey, itâs okay,â Dean tried, but your shaking wouldnât stop. You could feel your sobs slowly subside, but it took quite a while of Dean holding you for you to regain your composure. He pressed kisses into the side of your hair while he held you and tried to soothe you by telling you you were safe.Â
You finally uncurled your legs from around Dean and let him put you down.Â
Sam came up behind you to place a comforting hand on your shoulder. âYou okay?â he asked.Â
You nodded as you sniffled.Â
âWhat happened?â Sam asked in that very unique-to-him soft voice.Â
âI dunno,â you lied.Â
Dean gave you a look that let you know heâd be asking more questions later.Â
âCâmon, we gotta get the hell outta here,â you said, wiping your eyes with the back of your hand. You could feel the boys giving you questioning looks as you gathered up yours and the boysâ things and stalked out to the car.Â
*** âAlright,â Sam began, sprinkling cayenne pepper into the embers of a small fire you and the Winchesters had started in the middle of a cemetery. âBone ash, cayenne pepper, that should do it.â
âOne secondâŠâ Dean said absentmindedly, scratching off the last of his lottery tickets.Â
âDeanââ Sam complained.Â
âHey, back off, Jinx. Iâm bringing home the bacon,â Dean quipped. He stashed the cards in his jacket that heâd slung over a gravestone. âAlright, say goodbye, wascally wabbit.â He dangled the rabbitâs foot over the top of the fire.Â
âHey!â you shouted, whipping out your gun at the sound of a twig cracking. You aimed it at the sound, and Bela emerged from the darkness with hers drawn as well.Â
âI think you'll find that belongs to me,â she said firmly. âOr, you know, whatever. Put the foot down, honey.â
âOh, hell no,â you said, cocking your gun.Â
Bela cut her eyes at you, shooting Sam in the shoulder.
You exclaimed, âWhat theâ!â and Dean cursed, âSon of aââ as Sam collapsed to the ground.Â
âBack off, tiger,â Bela told you. âBack off! You make one more move, and Iâll pull the trigger. Youâve got the luck, Dean. You, I canât hit. But your brother? Him, I canât miss.â
âWhat the hell is wrong with you?!â the older brother roared. âYou don't just go around shooting people like that!â
The woman rolled her eyes. âRelax. It's a shoulder hit; I can aim. Besides, who here hasn't shot a few people? Put the rabbit's foot on the ground now.â
âAlright!â Dean mollified. âAlright. Take it easy.â He moved to drop the rabbitâs foot, but instead, he threw it at Bela. âThink fast,â he smirked.Â
Bela caught the foot and immediately realized what sheâd done. âDamn!â
âNow, what do you say we destroy that ugly-ass piece of dead thing?â Dean smiled in satisfaction.Â
Bela sighed, aggravated. She dropped her arm and uncocked her gun, but you kept yours aimed at her as she moved over to the fire.Â
âWould you stop pointing that at me?â her smooth voice came without looking at you.Â
âSorry, love. Donât trust you,â you smiled in fake-politeness.Â
She rolled her eyes and moved back to the fire. She dropped the foot into the fire. âThanks very much,â Bela continued. âI'm out one and a half million, and on the bad side of a very powerful, fairly psychotic buyer.âÂ
âWow. I really don't feel bad about that. Sam?â Dean turned to his brother.
âNope. Not even a little.â
Belaâs gaze hardened. âHmm. Maybe next time, I'll hang you out to dry.â She turned around and moved toward the gravestone where Deanâs jacket laid. You knew exactly what she was doing.Â
âHave a nice night, girls,â Bela smirked.Â
You glared at her. âUh, uh! Turn around!â you ordered.Â
âWhat?â she sighed, clearly annoyed.Â
âGimme the tickets,â you commanded.
âI donât know what youâre talking about,â she replied.Â
âYeah, you do. You canât con me, angel.â
She grumbled angrily but took the stolen tickets out of her pocket and threw them to the ground.Â
âThanks a million,â you called after her.Â
âYouâre fuckinâ awesome, woman,â Dean admired, you assumed in reference to the tickets you noticed Bela stole. He came over to you and kissed you boldly. You giggled against his lips, and he held your waist firmly.Â
Sam cleared his throat. âHey! Bleeding out, here!âÂ
You broke away from Dean. âOh, sorry!â you grimaced, moving to head back to the Impala. âCâmon, Iâll get you patched up.â
When you ensured the rabbitâs foot was burnt to a crisp, you and the Winchesters moved to the car.Â
âYou good?â Dean asked his brother.Â
âIâll live,â he responded.Â
âI guess we're back to normal now, huh? No good luck, no bad luck. And we're up forty-six thousand.â Dean threw his arm around your shoulder and kissed your temple, waving the tickets around in the air.Â
âMaybe we should hit Vegas, see how good our luck still is,â you suggested, smiling lopsidedly.Â
âI like the way you think,â Dean nodded. âWhaddaya say, Sammy?â
âI think you guys are gonna end up blowing all our money on slot machines,â the younger brother dryly commented.Â
âYe of little faith,â you said. âIf not Vegas, we can at least get ourselves a nicer motel room. Maybe we can graduate to hotels!â
âOoh, yeah. One of those hotels with a jacuzzi tub.â
âHell yeahââ
âGuys,â Sam groaned. âStill bleeding out, here.â
Series Rewrite Taglist: @polireader @brightlilith @atcamillanorrman @jrizzelle @insomnia-bookworm @procrastination20 @mrs-liebgott @djs8891 @tiggytaylor @staple-your-mouth @jesstherebel @rach5ive @strawberrykiwisdogog @bruhidkjustwannaread @mxltifxnd0m @sunshine-on-marz @big-ol-boat @mgchaser @capncrankle @chervbs @simpingdeadcharacters @nesnejwritings @stillhere197 @tearsforhan @take-it-on-the-run @iloveyou2mia @maxinehufflepuffprincess @ohgeehowdigethere @seninjakitey @berarenado @s0urw00lf @princessleahorgana @quarterhorse19 @isla-finke-blog @silverdoragon @karacaroldanvers @gayandfairycore @examishbookwyrm @star-yawnznn @real-sharena-h @fandomloverrr @metalmonki @onlyangel-444 @yu-winchester @benniwiththefanni @daisychaingirl @immagods @missmieux @yoongi-holland @littledebbieinabigworld
#dean winchester x reader#dean winchester x y/n#dean winchester x you#dean x reader#dean x y/n#dean x you#dean winchester#supernatural#supernatural series rewrite#spn#spn series rewrite
184 notes
·
View notes
Text
â” â butterscotch .á
. ÖžàŁȘ shoko ieri x reader
contents âł fluff !!! , domestic shoko, f!reader, injured!reader, shoko patches u up, she scolds u a lil, blood, maybe a lil tw?
a/n : man i love women so much. gettin to requests soon! pls bare wif me, IM BACK FROM HIATUS BABIESSSSSSSUH
word count : 568
silent.
thatâs what the room was â where you sat atop the examination table, bloody shirt discarded where a gash ran along your side. your girlfriend, ever the doctor, tends to your wound with utmost care. she has a ⊠pensive look on her face. baggy eyes squinted, plump lips tugged beneath her teeth as she focuses on the task at hand.
⊠you knew what was coming.
âyou couldâve died, you realize that?â she finally speaks up, her deadpan eyes flickering up to you, her frown deepening. you let out a sheepish laugh. damn, your girlfriend was intimidating when upset. âaha,, well, i didnât! iâm fine, see? jusâ a scratch.â you try to downplay, but she doesnât buy it.
âthatâs not the point.â she refuted through a sigh. âi told gojo to specifically not let you on that mission. but did he, or you, listen?â she squints. you donât say anything, knowing not to argue her point. itâs not like she was exactly wrong, anyway.
âyour recklessness is exactly why i donât want you going out on missions as freely as he does. i told you to at least wait until your other injuries were healed, but did you listen? noooope. is this how itâs gonna be? you cominâ home injured every time despite my warnings? whenâre you gonna learn, hm?â
you sink into your seat. she was right, you were reckless, and this scolding was definitely in line. you sigh. âmm.. yea. âm sorry, sho.â you murmur.
she sighs and her voice is a little more gentle. âyouâre such a stubborn girl, hm. whyâd you go through with it despite me saying not to?â you shift. âjusâ didnât wanna be seen as some fragile sorcerer, i guess.â you say in a mumble.
âbut you do realize that i donât see you that way, right? i worry about you because i love you, not because i wanna be a pain in your ass.â she chuckles. âi know you wanna get as strong as you can, but please, at least heed my warnings. i donât want you coming home with fatal injuries, yeah?â
you look up at her with a small pout on your lips but you nod. âmhm, youâre right. âshouldâve listened to you.â
she gives you a small smile and pats your cheek. âgood girl. i love you, but i swear to all things holy if yâdont listen when i tell you tâstay back iâll lock you in your room.â she jokes.
you snort and you nod. âyes maâam.â she huffs a laugh, leaning up to press a gentle kiss to your forehead. shoko takes a step back to give you room, and grabs a piece of candy you can only assume is her favourite flavour - butterscotch - from her pocket, unwraps it, and pops it between her lips.
you watch her as she does so with a spark of adoration in your eyes â one she doesnât miss, and it makes her heart skip a beat. she could never stay mad at you, with the way your voice soothes her entire being and how fucking cute you are.
even when sheâs feeling a little cooped up with work or even a little discouraged, she pushes through it. because she has someone waiting for her at home â
â you.
the girl sweeter than the candy she ate, more addictive than the cigarettes she puffed.
© marimisses on tumblr. all rights reserved. do not cross-post, translate, copy in any way, etc.
#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk x reader#jjk fluff#shoko ieri x reader#shoko ieri#ieri shoko#jjk shoko#shoko x reader#jujutsu kaisen shoko#jujutsu shoko#shoko fluff#shoko x reader fluff#jjk x you#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu shoko ieri#jjk ieri shoko#jjk shoko ieri#fluff
226 notes
·
View notes