#Jurien Ashur

[jurien-ashur]

Discourse

So I didn’t want to have to do this but it seems like it’s unavoidable. For the past couple of months I have been trying to move on from a toxic relationship and move on to more enjoyable roleplay but it seems that she cannot let go. Who am I talking about? I’m talking about Corinne Fletcher (aka Nemy on discord) who is @Fletchlingfletcher on tumblr. Now this post is mainly to clear the air because she as well as Naenia (@paleshadeofrose) have been spreading rumors and speaking about my personal real life in order to depict me as a horrible and abusive person.

For the most part, I just ignored it and just peacefully warned people that this was going on and to disregard it because these people and the friends that they have made in order to repeat these rumors have gotten out of control. So here it is… This is my side.

Corinne’s mun and I had a bad falling out because I just wasn’t having fun with her. After 5 years of Rping the same thing I wanted to try other things which she wasn’t comfortable with. I tried to invite other people into the roleplay and she became very passive aggressive. Now this is in no way trying to paint me out to be  the Dalai lama to where I didn’t do any wrong. It was a constant back and forth of accusing each other of losing interest or cheating-- overall just very toxic because that is the environment that we created with each other after being with each other for so long. I have a very busy life now which made it difficult to be attentive to her. I had school, I worked 10 hours shifts at night, I have family business that has to come first and so I hardly had time to really talk to her as I once did. The stress of her neediness and my shortness with her led to a big fallout where a lot of things were said out of anger. A lot of things that I said that I’m not too proud of but all the same it was said out of anger. I spoke with her again, one time in December to try to patch things up with her and when she didn’t want to do so, I haven’t talked to her since. You can find the LAST conversation I had with her here…

HERE

Five months later, she is still spreading rumors about me and telling people things that we talked about in private to make me seem like a horrible person in order to sway people into not RPing with me. She won’t show them how I tried to mend things. Instead she shows them THIS in order to emphasize what a bad person I am when it’s a conversation of when we were breaking up. Now, I don’t care if someone is mad because a Roleplay doesn’t work out. Ships end. Friendships end. But time heals sore feelings and regardless of how you may feel about someone you should NEVER bring their personal life into the game that has PERSONAL information about them and their family… In this conversation, specifically, it even spoke about my daughter. I don’t care how pissed you are about a ship not working out, you never bring those aspects into a game to make someone out to be a bad person. This is what she sent to a person I was actively roleplaying with.. Here. 

Anyone who would condone this or pretend like this isn’t a serious invasion of privacy is wrong. She has messaged several of the people I interacted with in order to push this narrative and it’s been over 5 months since we broke things off. How do I know this? This conversation from a friend and her was posted 3 days ago suggesting that my friend should block me because of a disagreement we had. You can find that HERE. This evident that she is NOT over our breakup. It doesn’t matter how mad I was about the way she and I broke up, I never suggested to anyone that they should stop speaking to her. Anyone who associated themselves with her a lot, I civilly removed myself from the their tumblr in order to avoid seeing her posts. I cannot tell people to not post her stuff; I only have control over what I can do to ensure my mental health is good. Following someone’s tumblr is not the measure of the friendship that I have with them. But Corinne is actively trying to alienate me from the Tumblr community and from the RP community by showing screenshots of when we were breaking up and I want people to know that that is NOT the narrative of our entire relationship. It wasn’t just me who was bad to her.. WE WERE BAD TO EACH OTHER. There had been days where I would just lie in bed and stare at the ceiling because I was filled with anxiety and she wasn’t helping. She told me that she would not try to sabotage my Rp and keep our drama between her and I which is not truthful. HERE

I can only speculate on her motivation to this but I would assume that she has become bitter and spiteful because I actually am doing better and I’m doing well and my mental health is much better now that we are separated. Yes, in December I tried to mend things but after the offer was rejected, I accepted it and I moved on. And I was happy. And I AM happy. And I want to remain happy.

Now let’s talk about Naenia because she seems especially interested in my personal life. Last night (5/11/19) Naenia harassed my friend trying to confirm some things that is none of her business. However, since Corinne and Naenia have been talking, Naenia wants to concern herself of who I am outside of the game, i.e age, gender, marital status, immediate family etc.. and she wants to confirm if some information about my personal life is true. Her is her trying to guilt my friend into sharing information about who I am when he states several times that he doesn’t want to be involved. HERE.

Now who am I? Who is Jurien? Well for all the people who want to know and all the people who are still reading this. As a mun, I own the tumblr Jurien-Ashur, Misato-Otsuka and Yuki-yukichan. Yes, surprise. Yuki-chan and Jurien have the same mun.

I created Yuki because I had high anxiety, low self-esteem, writer's block, depression and I was generally just angry all the time while playing Jurien. He just wasn’t a fun character to play anymore. I created Yuki more so to converse with people. Not necessarily to Rp though it did turn out that way. I needed to deflate because I was always stressed out. In the process, I ended up meeting a lot of great people who supported me and made me believe that I was more than just one type of OC-- that my creativity was more than just this one thing. From past experiences, I knew that if I invited Nemy/Corinne into Yuki’s world that the same result would happen all over again and people would be turned away because of her passive aggressiveness, so I kept the blog separate. Corinne found the blog, called me out on it and I was reluctant to actually confess. Now that is the problem. Why should I be afraid to let my rp partner know my alts? No one should be afraid to tell the truth when it comes to something they enjoy.

As far as Naenia is concerned, she is bitter because I didn’t want to be in a romantic relationship with her on Jurien. She talked to her friends behind my back to paint this picture that I was abusive to her and leading her on. However.. I have proof that it wasn’t the case. Multiple times I had set up times to rp with her and SHE didn’t show up. In a conversation, I expressed that I was disappointed that we didn’t get to meet up and immediately got defensive and when I decided to end the conversation.. She continued to ‘poke’ and try to get my attention. You can find that conversation HERE. I also made it clear that I didn’t want to be in an rp relationship and that I didn’t want her to wait around for me to be ready for a relationship. You can find that conversation Here. And here is a conversation that was going on at the same time of when she is talking to me reasonably and we are trying to work things out and I asked her for patience because I had a busy life outside of the game. At the same time she is talking to Ashe bad mouthing me. You can find that conversation HERE. Naenia didn’t want to do anything with me because it would be 6am when I got off from work however, she is frustrated with me when I won’t wake up early to Roleplay with her-- because I work 10 hour shifts and it’s heavy lifting. You can find that double standard HERE. She also conveyed that she didn’t like RPing before she had to go to work which I completely understood which you can find that HERE.

After that conversation, Naenia blocked me which I was okay with. I didn’t block her. It didn’t really matter to me but after saying all those things about me and when Ashe and I broke our rp off because Ashe tried to commit suicide.. Naenia pops up in my DM on tumblr again. You can find that conversation HERE. This conversation comes only a few hours after Ashe was discharged from the hospital but because the whole situation was upsetting, I refused to speak with her from that day on. At the same time.. She is telling people that Jurien was Gaslighting her and that he is very abusive (Which could be found here) but Naenia had never stopped actively trying to be with Jurien even after I expressed both IC and OOC that I didn’t want to be in a relationship. She even tried to get Ashe to be the bad person for even showing me the screenshots of her talking poorly about me to her friends while she was sweet as pie when talking to me on most occasions. And got everyone to be mad at her for showing that she was bad mouthing me instead of getting mad at Naenia for saying those malicious things in the first place.

Now again, I’m not telling people to stop talking to these two girls who have been extremely toxic in my life for the past few months. Some people just don’t vibe well together. I don’t want anything to do with either of them after this. They have invaded my privacy and shared that information with everyone who would listen all because they are upset about an rp ship that ended or a friendship that ended. My private life should not be a spectacle. Someone shouldn’t be asking my current RP partners if they know a certain bit of information about my personal life in order to try to convince them not to talk to me because I didn’t want to ship with them. We should not downplay all this and we should call it what is it. It’s bullying. All I wanted was to write and to have fun with the friends I found in game and Tumblr after a bad experience.

I didn’t want to show the information that I had. Hell, I didn’t want to show any of this information but I found that my silence and my ignoring the situation has done little good. People are believing the narrative that I’m this ‘horny guy’ when I have only been with two people in an intimate fashion Rply.

So there you have it. I’m just a player who is trying to move on from a toxic relationship-- a toxic friendship-- a toxic encounter with a tumblr woman and they are obsessing over me. They are broadcasting my personal information and they are trying to alienate me from others because they can’t accept that I’m happy. I’m not broken and I can survive without them.

You can make your own decision about the situation but I did the best I could. I’m doing the best I can.    

[shenani-gan]

Send 🎀 to see them in a cute outfit

She doesn’t really do cute outfits, so this one is totally OOC. For now.

[veloxaraptor]

👍 You’re doing great! Keep it up!👌 Your character portrayal is amazing.

[ashura-amariyo]

💯 What is my muse’s ideal date?

“I... I don’t mind doing something simple. Staying at home, a nice home cooked meal, maybe reading and drinking hot chocolate together. Though, going for a walk in raincatcher gully or the shroud at night sounds fun too! Or to Mor Dhona... Just let me geek out about Aether for a while, heh.”

[ashe-xiv]

Decoy

It hasn't even been a week, and already, clothing was haphazardly tossed about the bedroom, some making it into the clothing basket, but other pieces were tossed about the interior of the wardrobe, as if he'd gone through them looking for something, and didn't bother folding what he wasn't after.

She doesn't understand how difficult it could be to take the extra seconds to fold up something one wasn't after, but she accepted it's a habit he had, the polar opposite of her own. It's a minor irritation, nothing worth ruining their relationship even further.

Masking her freckles is a familiar process, and takes but a handful of breaths to carry out, and it didn't take much to sharpen the curvature of her muscles a touch. Even changing the length and shape of her hair is a familiar process, as is the basic principle of changing its colour, but this is the first time she's needed a shade other than blonde or red.

Her chest is nearly as flat his chest is, though shaped a little differently. That would take some work to mask, though she doesn't think it will be that big of a problem. It seems, to her, that such was to her advantage, this time.

She's studied his inky black hair often enough, managing to duplicate the colouration after another handful of long moments. Shaking her head, she begins searching through the wardrobe for some of his more generic clothing.

"...such a mess..." she murmurs, a soft sigh escaping her lips as she lifts one of his shirts, absently folding it before setting it aside and picking up the next garment.

A pair of pants, though not the style she's looking for. Folding the sweatpants, she sets them aside, giving another soft sigh as she continues searching through the disorganised wardrobe, righting it to a more proper state with each piece of clothing she finds that isn't what she's after.

Once the wardrobe is back in something akin to order, her eyes flicker to the basket of discarded clothing, falling on a familiar pant leg. She hesitates, as she isn't sure whether the clothes in the basket had even been used, or merely tossed aside, but convinces herself that a bit of dirt and grit would make it all more convincing.

Freeing them from the disarray in the basket, she slides them on, frowning a little at the differences in their size, though she doesn't mind being the smaller of the two. It takes another moment or so for her to adjust them enough to fit, but still look convincing, unsure of whether she likes how loose they are, or not.

She has much better luck finding herself gloves, though she manages to find single left-handed ones of each pair in the wardrobe. With another frustrated sigh, she pulls the glove on, again taking a moment to adjust the fit until it's snug against her skin, thankful that it's fingerless, like the gloves she uses.

Eyes fall to the still disorganised drawer of the dresser, and she removes a single sleeveless shirt from the pile that threatens to spill onto the floor before finding the shirt she's after. She half-drowns in it as she pulls it on, taking another moment to fuss with it until it fits her form snugly. That's one thing she's noticed with him - most of his shirts are rather form-fitting around the torso, which might have caused a problem if she didn't have such a boyish form herself.

Next, she manages to find one of his jackets in the basket, shaking it off a little before pulling it on, shoulders rolling as it settles across them. This requires some adjustment as well, but not nearly as much as some other pieces of clothing she's borrowing.

Satisfied, her hands fall back down towards her sides before she moves onto the next piece she needs.

At least she's been able to get him to store his shoes under the wardrobe, rather than tossed aside haphazardly, for either of them to trip over in the middle of the night. It seems he can't be bothered to keep them stored together in pairs, as she discovers they're all shoved this way and that beneath the dresser.

These are almost comically big on her, taking even more alteration than anything before them. Even when they're her size, she's a little alarmed by how heavy they are, realising that this is probably why it seems he can't do anything but stomp about - he's got some of the heaviest footsteps she's ever known which will be a touch difficult for her to replicate, without his actual mass to help her.

With the boots securely in place, laced in the same sort of inattentive manner he laces them in, there's but one more thing for her to do in her efforts to borrow his appearance. Her eyes flicker closed for a brief moment, opening to reveal the same mismatched gaze she's become so comfortable looking at.

Fingers close into a fist, all but the thumb, which sticks straight up, as she works on mimicking his movements, gestures, and expressions. With all the moons they've spent together, it isn't too difficult to recreate each little mannerism, completing her disguise - perhaps a touch too flawlessly.

Minding her gait, she turns to leave the bedroom, the folded and adroitly stacked clothing in the wardrobe the single sign of her passing. With how heavy the boots are on their own, it isn't too difficult for her to find the stride he uses, steps creating muted thuds in nearly the same manner his footsteps do.

They'd noticed a guy hanging around the apartment complex, though he didn't appear to actually be a new tenant, and after having the man and his habits described to her, she realised it's another tail, this one meant to track her companion's movements while the next cohort was prepared to go after him.

Although it wasn't part of their original plan, they needed more time, so she decided to make it appear as if he's decided to chase after her, making her way casually from the apartment complex to the docks. From there, she would catch an airship to Limsa, and hop a ship to Thavnair before losing the tail, and teleporting back.

Hopefully, he wouldn't be too upset at her little stunt - or his missing clothes.

[lydha-lran]

Here’s the first round of requests!

@bhaldstyr-ahtahrmsyn , I hope I did your lovely starry roe justice ;w; I’ve never actually drawn a bearded buff man, but he was a lot of fun to draw!

@jurien-ashur, I heard from a little birdie that Jurien’s face claim was Kurosawa Yamato from ‘Say I Love You’, so I combined his look with Jurien’s IG look! 

Thank you both for requesting doodles from me, hope you like them! :D 

[jurien-ashur]

Jurien Ashur- Updated

Jurien Ashur

The Basics — -

Server/World: Balmung

Age: 25

Birthday: 22nd Sun of the 2nd Astral Moon (March 23rd)

Race: Hyur / Midlander

Gender: Male

Sexuality: Heterosexual

Marital Status: Single

Physical Appearance — -

Hair: Jurien has ebony hair with ink blue highlights at the tips. Strands of his hair are often shadowing his eyes and since he often neglects cutting it, he pulls what he can into a short braid at the back of his head.

Eyes: Right eye: Blue. Left eye: Green

Height: Just under 6ft

Build: He has a very tone build about him from his constant workout routine.

Distinguishing Marks: Jurien has a long scar over his eyes and another across his nose. Additionally, there is a very wide scar on his chest due to a stab wound which causes the area to be lighter than his otherwise darker skin tone.

Common Accessories: Gloves, bracelets, motorcycle key, apartment keys.

Personal — -

Usual face claim: Kurosawa Yamato (I’m into anime, don’t judge me)

Personal — -

Profession: Wanderer, Carpenter

Hobbies: Carpentry, drinking, eating, exercising

Languages: Eorzean

Residence: An apartment in Lavender Beds, Gridania.

Birthplace: Limsa Lominsa

Religion: The Twelve

Patron Deity: Llymlaen, the Navigator

Fears: Drowning. Being under a large body of water. Whalesharks. Getting married.

Relationships — -

Partner: None

Children: None

Parents: Charlotte and Trent Ashur

Siblings: Abigail (decease)

Other Relatives: None to mention

Pets: NO PETS

Traits — -

Bold your character’s answer.

Extroverted / In Between / Introverted

Disorganized / In Between / Organized

Close Minded / In Between / Open Minded

Calm / In Between / Anxious

Disagreeable / In Between / Agreeable

Cautious / In Between / Reckless

Patient / In Between /  Impatient

Outspoken / In Between / Reserved

Leader / In Between / Follower

Empathetic / In Between / Apathetic

Optimistic / In Between / Pessimistic

Traditional / In Between / Modern

Hard-working / In Between / Lazy

Cultured / In Between / Uncultured

Loyal / In Between / Disloyal

Faithful / In Between / Unfaithful

Additional Information — -

Smoking Habit: Rare (Recently picked up habit)

Drugs: Never

Alcohol: To excess

RP Hooks — -

Adventurers- Casual adventure hookups are great for him. He runs into people all the time with their quests be it long-term or short term goals. You’re more likely to keep his interest if there is some sort of action going on.

Tavern patrons - Jurien is a very heavy drinker. You will more than likely see him in a bar or with a drink/flask in hand. Whereas this is probably damaging his liver, he is more inclined to be in a great mood while drunk and this often sparks conversation and shenanigans.

Hire him for crafting-Jurien is really good with his hands and most of the time, if someone wants something crafted, he can do it, given enough time.

Childhood friends - I’m really big in giving Jurien a background with actual people and friends that he’s encounter. I’m always willing to do something pre-establish friend-wise (please don’t say you are my baby momma or something!)

What I’m looking for — -

Mostly in-game RP and Tumblr RP

Looking to plot storylines long term or short term

Friendly OOC friendships are nice to have.

I’m usually down for all sorts of RP except extreme BDSM. Mature themes are alright. Extreme violence, slice of life, short term/ long term RP, character development etc themes are also really good for me.

What I’m NOT looking for — -

I’m not looking for any romantic ships for the sake of being in a relationship. I like realistic (slow burn) relationships so no there is no love-at-first-sight, love-after-first-battle, love-after-first-emotional-conflict… No moving in with me after a week of dating. No falling in love after a month of being around each other… No getting married after two months of being in a relationship. Please. Just. Don’t.

No drama, obviously. If your real life is bringing you down, please don’t try to use me as a punching bag. It won’t end well. Please don’t tell me who I can and cannot RP with.

No meaningless ERP which is different from slice of life/one-night stand ERP

Character death.

Contact Information — -

It’s just better to contact me through Tumblr. I might not respond right away all the time but I’m pretty much very active.

@mooglemeet ​ @balmungrp

[veloxaraptor]

Send 🏠 to see them in their home or place of origin

Place of Origin: The Azim Steppes. Though one wouldn’t know now, seeing that she’s been body swapped into a Miqo’te. She was born here, she lived there until she was about 9 years old and then her family moved to Limsa Lominsa a whole world away.

[ashura-amariyo]

Heart meme: Jurien Ashur

VISUAL ATTRACTIVENESS: 💗💗💗💗"Guys with shaggy hair and pretty eyes? Yes, please.”

FRIENDSHIP LEVEL: 💗💗💗💗"I may yell and get fussy with him, but... I appreciate everything he’s done for me, and he’s such an attentive student! I care about him deeply.”

SEXUAL DESIRE: 💗💗💗💗💗She just... covers her face, one could swear there was steam coming off her from how hard she was blushing.

ROMANTIC INTENT: 💗💗💗"I mean... I would love it, but, I doubt I’m his type at all...”

[madalinevossffxiv]

Always nice to have a cool evening on the beach!

@juri-ffxiv

[phyghyver]

🙄 Is real life more important than roleplay or do you believe your partners made a commitment to write with you and should make good on it?

I don't really have an opinion on the subject, I think everyone needs what they want.

(@jurien-ashur )

[blindkarakul]

15. Would they rather go back and relive their childhood? Why or why not?

[meandering-mind]

What are some of your OC's short term goals?

N’idawa really wants to finish exploration of a ruin near Qarn that she found, which she suspects might have served (either originally or whilst it was a younger ruin) as a secret workshop for an elusive chronometer-maker. She has found a couple of old pocket-chronometers with signatures/inscriptions that look a lot like this creator who was described in an old book she found in a library on the subject of chronometers. She might be completely wrong, but she’d like reassurance. 

[twelveswood]

💵 = Is money an important factor to consider when dating? Does your muse prefer rich partners?

Dreyll and Kajh are pretty much of the same mind on this one, they really don’t care. Dreyll came from a fairly well-off background and has never really wanted for much, but she also doesn’t have big material desires. She’s also surprisingly self sufficient so if she wants something she can usually get what she needs and make it herself (coughhack actually V’jaela makes it for her, but in my dreams she’s actually quite crafty). And Kajh inherited quite a bit of wealth on… accident. Because of some murdering. But he also has no concept in how money is spent and what’s a lot of money. Kind of like Alphinaud. Would pay a billion gil for a sword. Really needs coaching on when he’s being obviously swindled when it’s in regards to money. SO NO. Neither of them really consider it a factor at all. [TMI Tuesday even though it’s Thursday]

[ashura-amariyo]

🎶

But I won't let them break me down to dustI know that there's a place for usFor we are glorious

When the sharpest words wanna cut me downI'm gonna send a flood, gonna drown them outI am brave, I am bruisedI am who I'm meant to be, this is meLook out 'cause here I comeAnd I'm marching on to the beat I drumI'm not scared to be seenI make no apologies, this is me  - “This is Me” from The Greatest Showman

[fae-fire]

 🍻+ “ what is the most embarrassing thing in your room ?”

DRUNK CONFESSIONS ASKS (CLOSED)

The Keeper’s already alcohol-flushed features depend in color as the question passed his ears. Fur tipped flesh twitched as the earrings clinked together from the movement. “It is not to say that there is one single item that is embarrassing,” he paused briefly. His mind ticked like overly-oiled clockwork. Cogs slipping as he attempted to find a way to talk around the answer. “I wasn’t afforded much, if anything, in my younger years. In the village, we were poor. In Hana’s home, my life was poor, so now... well,” he pinched the bridge of his nose, staving off the headache, “I have poor impulse control when buying things. I see it, I buy it. Or take it. And now my room and home have become that of a hoarder’s,” he sighed heavily, downing the rest of his cup. “I’m certain I can break the habit. But I fear I will regret not getting what I wanted to get.”