#Jessica gives me a chill pill

[weltonboys]

jessica gives me a chill pill - angie sijun lou

[whale-music]

"Jessica Gives Me a Chill Pill" by Angie Sijun Lou // "For Tammy Rae" by Bikini Kill

[random-poetry-account]

[magicalantiquity]

Jessica has a forehead scar from the deep end of a pool. I ask Jessica what drowning feels like and she says not everything feels like something else.

Angie Sijun Lou

[micarps]

i love jessica gives me a chill pill because it’s just one of those poems that feels like it can give you queer loneliness™ just from reading it 

[jetbluebishop]

Afternoon conversation

[nonhapiupareti]

NOT EVERYTHING FEELS LIKE SOMETHING ELSE

[bthayerr]

"Jessica gives me a chill pill"

I keep waking up in different beds and in this same body. I have to say this right away so you know it didn't start with limbs slackened, hair oily, a cruelty towards the sun. It started in the backseat of Jessica's Pepto-dismal truck. She tied my hair back with rubber bands when the freeway passed clean through us. Jessica says I can feel like a cherry blossom tree wobbling under lightning. Jessica has a forehead scar from the deep end of a pool. I ask Jessica what drowning feels like and she says not everything feels like something else. That night we lose the 7/11 lottery but I draw my lucky number, no quarters so we scratch our tickets with fingernails. Jessica says that's the sanctity of ritual— a ceaselessness in how I look at every drop of rain before it touches ground, the way Jessica mouths my name in her sleep eating each syllable like a minor god. I'm coming out as someone who loves things unevenly, my theologies strewn out in the dark, this iPhone an almost oracle. Jessica forces me to watch every sunset even when I am full. She puts her fingers in my mouth and says open your eyes. Open them. You see the small-town girls on big billboards? One day that's us.

❦❦❦ — Angie Sijun Lou

[dogangel]

She asked me what futile devices live on soundcheck performance feels like and I said not everything feels like something else

[remuslupinfarts]

Thinking about this again

[rosie-kairi]

I wonder how lonely a death like that must've been?

[gokartkid]

anons ask if a driver rivalry is like brocedes and i say not everything feels like something else

[texaschainsawmascara]

Age of Delilah - Ethel Cain / Jessica gives me a chill pill - Angie Sijun Lou x

[julystruck]

Jessica forces me to watch every sunset even when I am full

[discoidal]

if you could carve/tattoo a poem into ur skin what would it be? mine would be birds hover the trampled field by richard siken, from war of the foxes 🥰

[yikez]

THIS IS THE HOUSE THAT BUILT ME

AND I'M GONNA BURN IT DOWN

THIS IS THE RIVER I CRAWLED FROM

AND I REFUSE TO DROWN HERE

AND BLESS THE STRIPPERS

AND FUCK THE MEN

AND BLESS THE BERRIES

AND FUCK THE FARM

AND BLESS THE DAUGHTER

BUT FUCK THE FAMILY

WHAT IS HOME

IF NOT THE PLACE YOU LEARN TO RUN FROM?

YOU'VE GOT TO BITE THE HAND

THAT STARVES YOU, IN DOING SO

PRAISE THE PLACE THAT BIRTHED YOU

BIRTHED YOU FUCKED UP

BIRTHED YOU UGLY AND INTERESTING

AND READY TO SCREAM