#JUST STAY WARM!! OR STAY COLD!!!!! IM SICK OF THE BACK AND FORTH IT FUCKS ME UP SO BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!

[paigesfuturewifey]

authors note! IM SORRY FOR BEING MIA college was kicking my ass (still is) and i’m trying my hardest not to crash out but here is an angsty fic :D

this is also heavily inspired by she wouldn’t be gone by blake shelton IK IK country music sue me it is unfortunately part of my roots so yes here she is

“i’m sick of this caitlin!”

you two had been going back and forth for a while about this, both too stubborn to admit who was in the right and who was in the wrong.

it’d been two months since caitlin went first pick in the wnba draft. two months of caitlin continuously forgetting about your date nights, two months of caitlin lagging hours on end and then eventually responding to your messages with one word replies, two months of wondering if caitlin would be home from practice at a decent hour or if you’d go to sleep in a cold, empty bed.

two. fucking. months.

of course, you understood the fact that caitlin’s job required almost all of her undivided attention and you were extremely proud of her and all her accomplishments.

but being second priority to her job was taking a toll on your mental health.

you were tired of being alone all the time. the sacrifices you made, picking up everything and moving to indiana with caitlin to be with her, felt pretty fruitless when you had barely seen her in your own apartment.

caitlin’s response came low at first as she rubbed her temples, “what do you want me to do?” and then she repeated it louder, throwing her arms up in frustration, “what do you want me to do?!”

“i want you to be here! you’re never here anymore, caitlin! i’m alone ALL THE TIME now!”

“that’s not fair. i’m doing this for us! for— for you!”

you shook your head, pointing an accusatory finger at her. “no. no. not for me. this is what you wanted! you wanted this! i didn’t—“

“i didn’t ask you to move to indiana with me!”

the statement felt like a slap to the face. caitlin, of all people, knew how hard of a decision it was to move to indiana. to be away from your family. your sister, your parents.

caitlin never pressured you into it, of course. she was insistent that if you had decided to stay in iowa, you’d make long distance work. but when you ultimately decided to stay with, whom you thought was the love of your life, caitlin couldn’t of been more happier.

the two of your popped a bottle of champagne in celebration and spent the night talking, laughing, planning your futures together.

a bittersweet memory that seemed so distant at the moment.

as you narrowed your eyes, you felt a tear roll down your cheek, followed by three or two more. “you know what, caitlin? you’re right. you didn’t ask. but it was a sacrifice i was willing to make for you!”

“you’re not the only one making sacrifices—“

the mere start of the sentence had you letting out a laugh, putting your hands behind your head as you paced back and forth. “you’re not listening.”

“i am listening—“

“no! you’re hearing me but you’re not listening to me!”

silence fell upon the two of you, both contemplating your next words because you both knew you guys were pretty close to crossing lines that couldn’t be uncrossed.

you placed your hands on the counter, leaning on it while hanging your head low, letting the tears drop onto the floor. “i can’t do this anymore,” you finally let out in a small whisper, but it hit caitlin in the gut. “i don’t want a life where i spend more time waiting for you than being with you.”

“you don’t mean that. please baby, stop.” caitlin’s warm hands were suddenly around your waist, leaning her head on your shoulder and kissing softly. “let’s just go to bed, yeah? i promise, i promise things will be different, okay? i’ll make more of an effort. i’ll try and get home on time for dinner. i know things aren’t easy right now, but i can’t lose you. we’ll figure it out, i’ll— i’ll try harder. okay?”

but even when those words eased your mind a little, you both knew the promise wouldn’t be kept.

so it wasn’t really a shock to you when you sat at the dinner table, candles lit and your meal sitting in front of you with the empty chair across from you.

you cooked caitlin’s favorite meal, wore her favorite set underneath your clothes that was her favorite color. you looked at the clock, and when it read 10:30, you scoffed.

you were fed up. you were well over your boiling point.

and, so, when caitlin entered your guys’ apartment at midnight, her heart ached a little at the sight of your untouched meals at the table, and candle she assumed was lit at one point.

she rubbed a hand over her face, quickly walking to your shared room. then she froze in her spot.

your side of the room was empty. from your nightstand being stripped of its decorations, to your side of the closet being completely empty.

the suitcases you used for when you guys planned vacations were gone. along her your toothbrush, makeup, hair products, basically everything that made your shared apartment shared was gone.

caitlin wasted no time picking up her phone and clicking your contact, holding the phone to her ear. she anxiously waited, suddenly feeling as if her whole life was falling apart.

voicemail. she tried seven more times. all went straight to voicemail.

her mind immediately went straight to denial, there was no way you picked up and left, right? you always said you would, but caitlin never believed you. never truly believed you.

or maybe she just didn’t listen to you.

she snatched her keys from the table, leaving the apartment and shutting the door loudly behind her. she bet all her money that her neighbors hated her.

that’s how she ended up in her car, speeding down the highway on a rainy night, frantically calling all of your shared friends.

she started with your mom, driving down the road at 90 miles an hour and switching lanes like an absolute maniac. she’d gotten honked at at least four times already.

“caitlin.” your mom greeted, though judging by her cold and and distant tone, and her use of caitlin’s full name instead of cait, caitlin could tell the news had no doubt got back to her.

“do you know where she is, mrs. l/n?” her question came right off the bat, figuring she had no time to waste in finding you.

your mom’s answer was quiet. and caitlin learned your families habits quickly enough to know that when she went quiet, she was lying. “please—“

“i’m afraid i can’t speak with you now, goodbye caitlin.”

then the line went dead.

with her left hand on the steering wheel, she punched the middle with her right and threw her head back.

her next call was kate because you three all had been very close throughout your iowa college years. kate always understood you in a way that made caitlin jealous.

and for a while, she she was a topic of argument in your relationship because caitlin constantly needed reassurance that she was the one you wanted.

there was clearly a rift in caitlin and kate’s friendship after, but after the move to indiana, they seemed to be mending their friendship. until now.

kate answered on the first ring with a hard question. “what’d you do, clark?”

“kate, i— i fucked up. she’s gone. i don’t know where she went. her stuff’s gone, her clothes are gone, she’s gone.”

“damn it, caitlin. you always do this shit— you drove her away, again.“

“do you know where she is?” caitlin demanded, arriving to her first destination.

“no.”

“you’re lying.”

“no i’m not—“

“i should’ve figured you wouldn’t help me find her. you’ve always been pathetically in love with her, ever since college.” caitlin scoffed out bitterly.

“caitlin—“

“know what? no. you’ve always been on her side, since day one. i can’t even do this right now—“

“you’re frustrated with yourself, about driving y/n away, so your picking a fight with me.” kate spoke calmly, fueling caitlin’s anger.

“don’t fucking psycho analyze me, right now martin.” with that she abruptly ended the call, getting out of the car and walking into the ice cream shop the both of you loved dearly.

after that, she went to your favorite coffee shop, after that, nalyssa’s apartment, then aliyah’s, then the hotel near your apartment.

she held her face in her hands, finally letting the sobs ripple through her. she suddenly realized how under appreciated your voice was. she was forgetting how sweet it was, how beautiful it was when you hummed her to sleep.

she was forgetting your voice already.

and she realized that she should’ve fought harder. should’ve told you how much she loved you, cherished you, needed you.

maybe, just maybe, if she had done that, you wouldn’t be gone.

safe to say caitlin didn’t find you that night, and no one told her where you might’ve went.

[risingsunresistance]

hourlytechno posted something from the resistance so casual reminder. Soon 👀

[pixicunt]

NAMJOON

You picked Namjoon !!

Make sure to read AFTERMATH first

This is very self indulgent I love DilfJoon, 2021 Namjoon just been screaming DAD to me.

Wordcount: 6.5k

Warnings!: somnophilia, dark age play, forced age play, yandere daddy Joon, Knife (to cut your clothes, no blood or on skin contact), manipulation, druging, daddy kink, Im sorry to everyone who thought Namjoon was a good guy, rich daddy Joon, fingering, touching, penetration, hinted minimoni, Namjoon is just really big, threats of punishment, breeding is mentioned once cause I just needed to. umm big dick, vaginal training to take such dick (hinted). I think thats it.

quick note: sorry this took so long, i rewrote like the whole thing last minute, READER IS 18+ ! in college ok, Namjoon is not a pedophile

You bring your jacket closer to your body, the late night chill settling into your skin even the fire couldn't warm you, watching the orange flames slowly die out like it had given up on you amongst everyone else. Maybe it was the desolate feeling in the pit of your stomach slowly eating away from the inside-out, gnawing away at your brain. You could only describe the feeling as being on a roller coaster, free falling with your stomach in knots and you think you might puke. (nope that's just the alcohol).

Your fingers run over the edges of the jacket, a sudden reminder of the owner, The man that had put the warmth on your back, ahh here comes the giddy part on the roller coaster where your just sat atop of the word, a calm euphoric bliss, heart beating with nerves of what's going to happen right before the approaching drop. Remembering his words from earlier this night, he said you could call him for anything right?

You bite you lip in thought, if you had a flower you would be picking off the petals until only one answer on the last petal remained. Namjoon was a respectable man so you were not wrong to be hesitant to bring your neighbor into your drunken mess.

The times you did see him through glimpses at the mail box or from your window he was always busy, phone pressed to his ear and hand in his grey slacks as he paced back and forth with a frown. right now you could guarantee he was working in his office or asleep at this time of night but the desperation claws at you. A gentle voice telling you that maybe it will work out, the thought of asking anyone else for a ride home leaving you feeling sick to your stomach. how had you fucked up so much in one night.

You grab your phone from the pocket of the jacket, cold fingers tapping the cracked screen to find the number you had saved. the fluttery whirlpool of feelings swell with butterflies when you think about how you got his number. the man dressed to the nines in a luxurious suit when he stopped you on your way to class, sweat dampening you hair and piece of toast in your mouth as you run late, Jimin had left without you again and now you were late. He rolled down the tinted window with a dimpled smile, telling you to get it, you don't protest.

You remember him scolding you for getting up late, as an adult you had to get yourself up and not rely on your brother he had said and you cast your eyes to the clean floor of the vehicle. The car comes to a stop at your school but the door stays locked and you look expectantly at him. his hand extended to you and you look with confusion, your own hand jutting out to match the movement. He sighs and reaches into your blazer pocket, his body leaning over your side of the car that you could feel his breath on your neck

He pulls out your phone, quirking an eyebrow at you when he sees there is no password and working silently to enter his number in.

"ill call you every morning as a reminder, if you don't answer I will have to come over and take you to school myself" he hands back the phone to your stunned face, red and rosy.

he continues on

"If your ever need an adult to talk with or you need anything at all, you see something nice you like, if you need help with homework or you need anything that you might feel to embarrassed to go to your brother about you can call me" you cheeks heat as your fingers trace over the phone in your hand, emergencies only you told yourself, you try not to think about how far that anything at all reached to and your thighs press together for thinking about it.

You felt a lot closer to Namjoon then you did to Jimin's father, always away on business trips with your mother that you hardly knew him, infact in the past year you been living with your new family you think you had only seen him a handful of times. Namjoon was the closest thing you had to a father figure an that's exactly want you needed right now, the screen was cold as you held it against your ear, the ring only mocking you , you really are alone.

The soft voice breached your ears instantly calming you. "y/n are you ok?" you nod, eyeing the dark sky above you to keep yourself together. "y-yea sir-ah.... Namjoon, I was just wondering if your offer still stands, my ride home fell through and-and" you gather your breathing, trying to keep yourself stable enough to talk. "take a deep breath and use your words, tell me what you need"

"I just need you"

His voice was so calming, a deep rasp lulling you into trance as the fire stared back at you. The hum in his throat and click of a pen on the other end of line dragging you further on edge and if you listen close you think you hear the sound of the front door closing. "ill be there soon, don't move" explaining that he would be there in 5 minutes. 5 minutes felt so long sitting out in the with nothing but the cold to keep you company.

the sound of drunk squabble broke the trance as you watch someone fall down the back yard steps, "please hurry".

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Namjoon was hard, achingly so at the desperation in your voice

He pulled up to the house address you texted him (not that he needed it, that tracking device worked just fine and from years of taking care of Jimin where Jimin's own father failed, he knew a lot of the younger boys favorite spots to get wasted at)

You had been outside long enough now for the cold to grow numb, past the point of hurting and now just a dull ache in your joints, not even noticing the sleek black car pull up to the front of the house until the tinted window winds down to show the familiar warm smile.

You quickly get in the car and basically melt into the seat, the warmth from the heater warming your skin and you thank the heavens you had the courage to call Namjoon, he really did save you from a otherwise dreadful night.

"thankyou sir, you have no idea what kind of shitshow this party was" He doesn't correct your title this time, "I'm glad I could help". His smile didn't reach his eyes but you didn't question it, you did however question the beverage in the cup holder.

"I thought you might need a little pick me up, something to make the hangover a little easer when you wake up" your cheeks tingle at the gesture, people as nice as Namjoon didn't exist, you didn't know how old he was as every time you asked he would just smile, lean down to your height and tell you to try and find out to which you would get to shy and change subject. All you knew was that he was probably old enough to be your dad. If only you were smarter to see why he was so nice to you, if only you had questioned how he knew your exact coffee order but you don't.

ignorance is bliss as they say

"you are such a life saver" you sip at the warm liquid, letting yellow street lights blur together like stars as you pass them by. passing drunk teenagers along the way and you wonder if they will get home safely.

Namjoon drove with one hand on the steering wheel, eyes on the road but his mind filled with how you would look in the next hour , drooling all over yourself with his fingers deep inside you, contentment thrilling through his body as he relaxes into the drive, you were so close to him, so close to him that he manages to see the blood on your lip and it itched at him.

"what happened to your lip"

Touching at your lip, sucking it into your mouth to try and hide it from him, you make up an excuse. "oh, I cut it on a glass bottle, a bit to much to drink I guess haha" you let the awkward laugh die in your throat as he nods, something shifting in the atmosphere of the car, the air suddenly a bit to warm.

"we should get that fixed up"

You were a lier. You laugh nervously when you lie... he would store that information for later use. Namjoon gripped the wheel in thought. you had just lied to him and Namjoon hated liers but he knew exactly how to deal with them. He was also a skilled knivesman, expertly cutting and trimming his plants so he knew no such thing could have happened to your lip. what did you take him for.

You don't know when your eyes got so heavy but it was getting harder an harder to keep them open as the drive went on, your mind tries to keep up with his speech, black spots taking up the corners of your vision as you try to shake yourself awake.

His house comes into view, the large driveway lighting up when he parks the luxurious vehicle, "do you know what happens when you lie to daddy?" Namjoons voice was so nice that you really could fall asleep, your own mouth opening, nothing but slurred nonsense making its way out. your brain registers the opening and slam of a car door, Namjoon making his way over to your side of the car to open your door and your met with the immediate cold air filling the car, icy air feeling like it was burning your skin and you almost want to cry.

"They get punished"

You don't know how but you somehow end up in his embrace, strong arms bigger then your head holding you up against his chest, you breathe into his neck... he had the most wonderful scent.

"were g-oooing" your voice comes out in a whine as he enters the pin pad to his home, marble floor echoing under the weight of his shoes, he doesn't answer you and instead makes the journey up the stairs

You fall onto a soft bed, your back immediately melting into the soft material, much much better then your own bed. you try to sit up but the dizzy swirl of your brain and Namjoons soft fingers in your hair was so inviting. "t-this isn't my room" you giggle, trying to get out of the bed only to be pushed back down onto your back, Namjoon hovering over you.

"I know baby but Daddy needs to keep an eye on you, your so drunk you can hardly stand, just look at you"

but you didn't drink that much, did you?

"your the one that asked me to bring you here"

you don't remember that but Namjoon would never lie to you.

The bed feels like it was moving, floor swirling under your eyes, you felt like you were going to fall through the bed and be sucked up with the ocean under you. you clutch onto Namjoons shirt and pull him closer with weak limbs. "don't feel good, please stay" before you know it you were out.

Namjoon smiled to himself, knowing the dose he slipped into your drink was just enough to have you passed out for a couple of hours so he could stretch you out, if you did happen to wake it would only be for a short while and your precious head wont remember a thing. he would start with cutting off those pesky fishnets.

The shrill ring broke the silence in the dim room. quickly digging out his phone from his pocket, Jimin's callers ID lighting the room up in a blue haze as he swiped to answer using the same comforting voice he used on you not long before. "Jimin , are you ok?"

the edge of the bed dips with his weight, one hand loosening the top button of his shirt.

"Hyung, fuck I dont know what to do" Jimin sounded frantic, panic wobbling in his voice amongst the loud vibrations of music. "I-fuck I cant find Y/N, she wouldn't leave without telling me and im freaking out because I think Hoseok took her, I cant find him either" Namjoons worked to untie your shoes with his free hand.

"and what do you want me to do Jimin?"

The question hangs in the air and he could feel the other boys distress. "I don't know I just need help and you always know what to do, I was going to make a quick stop with Taehyung to-" Jimin halts his words, probably not the best idea to talk to his much older responsible neighbor about drugs and how badly he wanted to rail his friend, the pent up sexual tension from you eating him alive and he wasn't in the mood to get in trouble, that didn't go well last time he asked Namjoon for money.

"I just need help"

His fingers trace shapes into your thigh. "well she's a good girl, she cant be to far, ill see what I can do"

.................................

Your body was warm, the comfortable sheets of a bed hugging your body in its heat. Trying to stretch your hands but find that they don't budge. Still cloudy from sleep as you start to notice the steady pressure of fingers over your underwear. A continuous rub against your clit over the sheer underwear that was now completely soaked through.

You whimper, voice horse as you try to grasp your bearings but it was so dark, that's when you feel the fabric over your eyes, your still druged state weighing you down into the mattress, limbs feeling like dead weight as anonymous fingers played with you, a single finger slinking up and down. the thin fabric the only thing from keeping him from violating you

"oh, your awake"

Namjoon? the rough pads of his fingers that had been worn down with years of tiresome work and sleepless frantic typing to get to where he was now, CEO of his own company, alot of money and no one to share it with. skilled fingers with years of practice in his youthful college days, everyone of his partners complimented his skilled touch but then sex started to feel all the same, thoughts much to dark for normal people but it was ok because he became so busy on his way to the top, marriage came raining down on him to make his parents happy and his skills became useless when his wife never wanted sex for pleasure, only to have his child. divorce came quickly with the misscarage.

The skilled fingers hook into your underwear, pushing the flimsy fabric to the side, a single digit running slowly up your slit. You recoil in surprise, feet jetting out to kick at nothing but air and the soft sheets of the bed. His fingers pinch down on your thigh, not being able to help the clench of teeth, a pained moan on your tongue as it comes slurred, how long had you been out.

He successfully catches your foot and pulls you by your ankles down the bed, a harsh slap delivered to your ass and you gasp, a silent scream at the pain, his voice rough "I wont take off the blindfold if you don't listen and daddy isn't feeling very patient right now" his hand soothes over the red mark, fingers making shapes in your skin. "are you going to be good?" the hand hovers like an unspoken promise

You nod, face pressed to the pillow. Your heartbeat sporadic in your chest with the hammering thump of a headache in your temple. Your ears ringing from the reverb sound of the slap that had long passed. your mind pulls at unconsciousness, begging to be pulled under the weight of your eyelids and welcome dream state, the soft rub of fingers on your clit dong its best to put you in a trance.

"good girl"

You could almost feel his body unclench with a sigh in your submission, releasing a low hum his hands soothed over the sting of his hand mark, fingers moving softly up your spine until his hands were firm in the locks of your hair, pushing your head further in the pillow

"daddy is just inspecting how tight you are, just go back to sleep baby"

The blind fold falls slightly from your face, your eyes adjusted to the room, light spots swimming in your vision as you repeatedly blink to grasp your surroundings. The room dark with a dim glow of a lamp lighting the room.

"Be really still for me or we could have an accident" he speaks to you softly but with a firm hand on your ass almost turning painful

what ?his words muddled in your head as he took your legs in his hands again, moving you onto your back and your hands dig painfully into your spine, the rope cutting at your skin as you struggle

You felt the cool sensation on your thigh but your mind was to muddled to know what it was, The sharp tip of a knife spreading like ice on the soft skin of your inner thigh. your breath hitching as he runs it higher, over the slick of your underwear and clit and letting it rest there.

"keep your legs open" his calming timber of his voice ran through you, the knife hooking into the side of your underwear. you tried to control your breathing through your nose, despite the knife on your skin you felt safe, the calming voice convincing you that everything was ok, you were a good girl.

His eyes were kind, still the same Namjoon you knew but now you could see the malice behind them, he called it devotion.

He watched you shake, "what's wrong baby, does it hurt here, I know first times are scary" his fingers were back on your clit, the soft press of fingers rubbing in calculated circles. His hooded eyes drinking in the way your head lul to the side, drool cornering at the side of your mouth.

Your back arches as a moan slipped past your lips, inescapable pleasure from the friction of his fingers making you clench, his eyes trained on your face, taking in every gasp and twitch as he coos at you

"that's it , so needy for daddy aren't you" now with you distracted he takes hold of the knife again and with a quick flick of his wrist your underwear fell from your body as he tore the rest away from your legs now completely bare infront of him. slick and shiny all for him

"Such slutty underwear baby, did you plan on getting fucked"

He spread your legs open, knife dropping to the side of the bed where your other ruined clothes lay as he admired your folds, his fingers running from your entrance all the way to your clit. fingers sticky as he brought them up to his mouth

you couldn't help but gush at the sight, his tongue swirling around to suck every drop from his fingers, a deep rumble emits from his chest that cold only be described as primal and you try to close your legs at the sound, a whimper caught in your throat, mind alert but your muscles were still having a tough time catching up, not being able to talk or scream as the muscles in your neck lay dormant

Your knees knock together in effort to hide but his wet fingers move back between your squished thighs, voice deep and menacing like you really were on thin ice.

"Don't even think about it, you want to be a big girl and get drunk and show your body off to perverted men then your going to have to be a big girl and take it" he pushed you legs back open with his other hand, your legs falling open to continue to let his fingers touch you. He shushes your cries with a finger, pressing all the way inside of you, letting a finger move in and out of at his own pace.

"Actions have consequences , This is what happens when you don't listen"

You cant help the breathy half whimpers that leave from deep inside your chest. the sudden curl of his finger , body twisting infront of him. you much rather his calming voice, not the angry one he was using.

"please, i-" another finger pushed inside to meet the first, the stretch making you wine as he fucked them into you. feeling so full.

The continues curl of his digits sped up, the vulgar sounds of his fingers fucking into your cunt just to show how wet and needy you were brought a dominate blush to your face, so much attention on you that you had never experience, Namjoon holding your legs open and still fully clothed.

"what would you have done if someone had touched you like this at the party, someone not as kind as me" you grit your teeth so hard you thought they might just break, his fingers working expertly inside you and you just couldn't keep it together anymore. a moan being forced from your throat.

"your lucky I got to you first, your so tight you can hardly take two fingers"

A desperate breath leaving your lips with the pleasure threating to snap, it made you feel delirious. your throaty voice coming out in a whisper" - daddy msorry"

"fuck" Namjoon pulled his fingers from you, the sloppy sound of his fingers exiting your hole to grasp at his suit pants, the belt being ripped from its place as he discarded his attire.

His cock hard against his stomach and your tears well up, not ever haven taken someone his size before, it was never going to fit. He groaed as he pulled you flush against him.

"you haven't been very good have you, months of teasing with those short skirts, putting on a show from your window just begging me to look at you, what ? you don't want armature cock is that it?" He lined himself up with your entrence, letting his tip drag along your folds and brush over your clit.

you recoil away, scared of the impending length.

"I cant- it wont-" a hand clasped over your mouth, lips quivering under his palm as you cry as he pushes himself all the way in, your cunt stretching to accommodate him as he fills you slowly.

"I know baby, daddy is sorry but you need to learn to take it, this is still a punishment" he pulled out and pushed himself back in to the base, picking up a slow rhythm as he used you.

your eyes closing at the pure feeling of being so full and stretched, pain clinging onto every thrust feeling him enter you over again, your mind going numb to the pain every time he fucked into you, burst of pleasure every time he moved.

"fuck, look at you taking me so well, you like it don't you" he took hold of your leg, hoisting it up to his shoulder to fuck you deeper, the slow thrusts of his cock driving you crazy, feeling him in your stomach with every push of his hips.

small noises and mumbles leaving your mouth still feeling like your mind could give up any second and plunge you back into darkness, the steady rock of hips fueling the flutter or your eyes. A harsh thrust had you feeling winded. "no- to much" you want to reach out to claw at his big chest, to push the intrusion of your walls away but you are reminded with the sudden ache that your hands were still bound uncomfortably behind your back.

"does that feel good baby, you like when daddy fucks you like this" The bed creaks in unison as he pushes himself into you, your strangled moans of pleasure taking over your whole body as he lifts your other leg over his shoulder, your limbs may as well have been made out of paper from the way he hoisted your waist into the air.

"s-stop ah , too deep" you could barley get the words out, mouth refusing to work and words coming out much slower, hitched with every thrust inside you. the tingles in your mouth allowing drool to pool at the corners of your lips. your cries go unheard as his focus in his own cock slipping expertly into your dripping cunt over and over, his palms taking a handful of your ass to keep your lower half suspended off the bed, the furious knock of the bed against the wall thumping in your ears

"do you want daddy to breed you? cum deep inside you and make you keep it all in"

the thought almost made you cum

He pulls himself from your body, not enough patience to be kind or gentle as he flips you back on your stomach like you were nothing but rag. already sinking back inside of you with a deep sigh from him.

Bending down so his chest was flush against your back, his arm bigger then your head coming to wrap around your neck in a head lock as he held you close to him kissing your cheek, his hot breath gathering against your ear. "wanna cum baby?, cum for daddy and when you fall back asleep ill increase the dosage so I can use you all night, get you nice and stretched" he could hardly talk, overwhelmed with the feel of you squeezing around him, grunting into your neck as he fucked into you.

Your breathing and incoherent speech dying on your tongue as he wraps his free hand around your mouth, your drool coating his hand as you let your eyes drop shut, much to heavy to keep open.

He cums inside of you with a deep grunt, cum leaking from you as he pushes it back into you, the slap of his hips against you coming to a gradual stop, hissing in slight sensitivity when he pulls out.

you were already being pulled under, body giving out as you let your brain shut down.

the sound of the doorbell rung out through the massive house, Namjoons fringers tensing where they rest against your sweaty skin, your eyes already fading in and out, blurry and wizing around the room as your eyes get heavy.

Your eyes close for the final time, the last thing you see is namjoon riping his pants up his legs quickly patting your hair with a kiss to your temple. "daddy will be right back and ill make you feel really good, make you cum" the fading footsteps echoed across the silent night, the pounding on the door not letting up, Namjoons footsteps carrying him further from you.

Namjoon opens the front door with Jimins raged breathes in a panic as Namjoon ushered him into the house. the door clicking shut with a lock. Namjoon was telling him everything was going to be ok, reassuring him with a gentle smile as he sits him on his unused open L shaped sofa. Before Jimin could get in a word Namjoon was walking into the kitchen.

Jimin reluctantly sat on the huge open L shaped couch, legs bouncing as anxiety ate away at him, your phone was off and the icing ontop of the cake was Namjoon bringing him a hot chocolate. no one was taking him seriously. "what the fuck"

he moved to stand only to be pushed back down with a strong hand on his chest, other hand gripped on his clothed length instantly shutting him up

"w-what are you-"

"I would be very careful with the next words you choose to say, you wouldn't want your father to know that his son is a dealer now would we, how you came onto your neighbor begging to suck my dick for some drug money because his daddy froze his bank account, if your father wont teach you any manners then I sure as hell will" Jimin swallowed hard, hissing as Namjoon squeezed down on him. it was one time and he was very drunk. If Jimin's own father wasn't going to discipline his son then Namjoon had no choice to do it himself.

"I wonder if he would also like to know his perfect son swings both ways, lips made to suck cock I'm sure it wont be a surprise, do you think he know how you touch yourself to the thought of your innocent sister"

Jimin shakes his head, silent struggle in the pain and pleasure. "no p-please don't"

"that's what I thought, now follow me"

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The next time you wake your tarnished with blankets that don't smell like your own and as you wipe the crust from your eyes, still blurry with sleep and thick fog that clumps together at the back of your eyes, the same feeling you get when you sleep too long into the day or wake from a indulgent nap, bad taste in your mouth.

The fuzz was still swirling around your brain but at least you could open your eyes without having them glaze over, objects becoming clear as you look around the room. the more you look the stranger it gets. the room was no doubt extravagant but it was no way fit for an adult, the beady eyes of a caramel coloured stuffed bear perched onto one of the dressers starting to creep you out.

You sit up slowly, the pink blanket falling from your body and letting slide down your chest, the slide of fabric was much to sensitive on your nipples, you recoil with a shrill of pain, nipples rubbed red with hours of abuse . No matter how much you sit and think you cant remember a thing, all you knew was that you were in a room fit for every 7 year old girls dream and that you were naked and sore.

you set out on thick padded socks, legs giving up on you the moment you touch the soft woolen rug. It feels like sleep paralysis... your muscles refusing to work even when you were wide awake, only there was no dark figure waiting for you at the end of your feet and the sun was basking across your skin in a warm glow.

A sharp pang of hunger shoots at your stomach, feeling is shrink on itself from not being fed for far to long and sure food was a good motivator but also the quiet creak of the floorboards that got closer with each step outside the closed door was enough to have you standing on your feet.

You watch the door handle open, scrambling onto the bed to cover your naked body just as the door opens, holding your breath not really knowing what to expect until you see Namjoons calming all-knowing eyes, they shine with exhaustion one would only get with age, reading glasses perched on his nose and dressed to empress even if it was only 7 am. Shirt buttons clinging for dear life . You mouth open and closes, mind turning to goo as the clench of your legs speaks for itself.

He catches the squirm of your body, lips tugging at the corner of a dimpled smile. 37 years is how long it had taken for a Devine intervention to occur in Namjoons life, having worked his ass off from the age of 20, building an empire and name for himself he could finally allow his inner self just be, the darker side of himself that he never allowed to spill

"glad to see you finally awake, did you sleep well ?"

The heat that creeps up your neck at , much too expensive watch glinting in the early morning sun reminding you that time and life did exist.

"how long have I been asleep"

His eyes fall to his watch (the name to long and complicated for your drugged state of mind that you wouldn't even know how to pronounce it), the silver standing out amongst the black suit pants but still matching the embroidery on his belt.

"3 days"

He tells you with with a smile. you blink

huh?

what?

Your brain still catching up with what he had said, he didn't look the slightest bit worried like you being out cold for 3 days was normal "come get breakfast, don't make me wait"

Why was your brain so fuzzy

"Wait im just really confused right now... did we fuck ?"

You don't know when he got so close, slow steps into the room and he breathes a sigh, a hard stare pinning you in place that you feel all squirmy inside. "we don't use that foul language in this house, do you understand?"

you hold your breath, his fingers moving under the soft blanket covers until his hand encloses around your ankle, fingers dipping higher up your leg before they wrap around your thigh, so so close to your naked heat but the air was stuck in your throat, you felt a little scared under his gaze, his jaw setting stern, a click of his tongue.

"I see iv been easy on you, its rude not to respond when an adult is speaking to you"

The fuzz starts to clear as you become more and more awear to your surroundings, bed warm with the days you had spent being trained to take more then two fingers without the tight stretch, you don't remember that though... just the murky voice of the older man telling you to go back to sleep. afterall Namjoon didn't want you to cry like the first night.

The warmth of the fingers were gone and he was out of the room with a hand in his pocket. it left you stunned.

You walk down the stairs one at a time as softly as you could. Fingers holding onto the railing as you do so as your legs aches from being unused.

the wet sounding click of laptop keys swirled around in the quit living room space, his rimmed eyes focused on the screen where you could make out long paragraphs of tiny black font though the reflection in his glasses. coffee steaming a colour blacker then his dark brown eyes as he lifts it to his mouth, not acknowledging your presence and the hesitancy that swallowed you, if you could make it any clearer you would be wearing a post it note stuck to your head saying what the fuck.

"N-namjoon?"

The sound of typing flatlines as he peers at you from above his glasses, rolling his sleeves up to his elbow as he sits back into the plush looking chair, broad shoulders taking up so much room in the chairs space as he gestures you to sit, you follow the line of his arm, watch covered wrist up to his finger where he was pointing to a chair.

A pink bowl filled with now soggy rainbow coloured flakes, all the artificial colours bleeding into the white milk making it look a 3rd graders art drawing

when you look back up at him he was already typing away , eyes focused.

you scoff and try not to think about how sexy the older man looked while working... but this was a bit much, you would much appreciate a warm cooked meal and while you weren't opposed to ramen or unhealthy foods kids cereal was ???

"whatever" You gather your things quietly and head for the front door

"I wouldn't do that, now sit down while I'm asking nicely"

His stern voice, filled with authority and promises that if you don't do exactly as he says you would be in a lot of trouble. the small part of your rational thinking tells you to leave but the much bigger part feels like you are being spoken to by a school teacher and so you had to listen, letting your feet carry you back.

You take your seat with defeat and wait patiently for the man to be done.

you don't know why you cant remember the past 3 days, had you got that drunk at the party ? had Namjoon found you and taken you under his security until you came around. You try to remember scraps from the event but your head throbs in pain when you try. you wait to be scolded, just knowing the older man was probably so disappointed that you had let it get so bad to the point you don't remember and your cheeks heat when you remember you had been naked when you woke up, did he??? did you??

the sudden closing on the laptop had you jump

"Eat your breakfast , its the most important meal of the day" his eyes bore hot into you, waiting patiently with with his hands folded together on the table. you look down at the sludge of slimy mush and wince.

"cant I at least have some coffee or som-"

"Eat your breakfast" the stern voice had you flinching, the authority in his voice making you feel small under his gaze, the annoying tick of anger took over

"No"

The single word felt so heavy in the air, silence was the only thing that followed, so still you count hear the morning birds , you dared to look up and meet his eyes

"No?"

You didn't know what to say, feeling like you had done something wrong but choosing to roll your eyes , that did not sit well with him at all

"Namjoon i-

"You are to address me properly, you can address me as Daddy or Sir and you will be addressing Jimin properly as your brother"

You blink, and blink again

"Ok what the fuck" you roll your eyes, this must be some sort of prank.

The chair scrapes against the floor , Namjoon rounding the table to pull you from your seat. If you had just done what he said but this was alot more fun for him then it was going to be for you and you had made him mad.

Hand on your jaw to force you to look at his towering figure "you better watch that mouth, do you want to roll your eyes at me again ? because I have been waiting to use that mouth for so long"

"Dont make me punish you cause I fucking will, your brother is evidence of that, why don't you go ask him"

He nods to the long stairway, soft cream carpet stairs leading back the way you came. tears fill your eyes from being yelled at and you shake you head, finally understanding the situation and taking him seriously.

"that's what I thought"

He pulls you over towards the L shaped couch and places you over his thighs, the pillowy thighs restrained under suited pants felt like a safe spot, he was so so big and it had you feeling dizzy.

His large hand coming to pull down the pink shorts you had pulled on in a hurry, the swell of your ass visible as you thrashed and cried in his iron tight grip

"how about 15, then ill put your mouth to better use"

[leerongrong]

❥ 𝐍𝐂𝐓 𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 – sending them the wrong text

⌜ mark ⌟

mark watches from the corner of his eye as you tap at the screen of your phone, a shy smile present on your face. he's waving his hand side to side, trying to get your attention, only to pout when he fails to. he perks up the moment his phone dings, opening it to see multiple messages from you.

[11:45] you sent a message.

i think the sun's starting to get to me

[11:45] you sent a message.

the more i look at him the more he shines

[11:46] you sent a message.

nvm that I CANT TAKE MY EYES OFF OF HIM

[11:46] you sent a message.

did you see him smile when he saw watermelon? the smile he had while eating them :((

[11:46] you sent a message.

and not to be nsfw but the more i look at him,,, the hotter he looks??? is that even possible????

[11:46] you sent a message.

he was so small so cute when we first met in 5th grade

[11:47] you sent a message.

fuck i think im in love with him i think im in love with mark

[11:48] you sent a message.

i think im in love with my bestfriend

he started off confused, eyes flitting from the first of your texts, slowly dragging themselves to the end. his small pout slowly turns into a smile, to a full blown grin when they finally reach the last of them, when they finally reach his name.

"holy." mark started off with mumbles, his head turning from you to his phone so fast he might get whiplash. "she- she's in love with me.." the farther he gets through his sentence, the louder he becomes, catching not only peoples attention, but also yours. "she's freaking in love with me!"

your furrowed eyebrows is the first thing he sees, running across the pool and straight to you, barreling into you and accidentally sending the both of you into the water. you're both spluttering when you break through the water's surface, your face an expression of disbelief while his is of pure joy.

he doesn't regret pulling you down with him, sealing your lips in an underwater kiss that tastes of watermelon and grape ice cream.

⌜ renjun ⌟

the soft glow of your phone disturbs renjun. the only source of light in the otherwise dark theater room, playing the movie you begged him to watch with you. he's rolling his eyes in annoyance, still gripping the half finished popcorn, hands coming back and forth from his mouth towards the salty snack.

soon after, the soft tapping of your fingers against the screen takes his interest off the movie. renjun's eyes sneak a peak, slightly leaning his body against his head rest so he could take a better look at what has your full interest.

[19:06] you sent a message.

leee jenooo

[19:07] you sent a message.

as cheesy as it sounds,,, the movie's right in front of me but the one view i want to see is him

[19:07] you sent a message.

i know its stupid to say but i just feel...happy whenever im around him

[19:07] you sent a message.

it doesnt matter where we are it freaking doesnt matter what we're doing and it FREAKING DOESNT MATTER WHO'S THERE WITH US

[19:08] you sent a message.

all i know is that when im with him im happy

[19:08] you sent a message.

it doesnt matter if it's all gray and blue hes the splash of color and thats all i need..

[19:09] you sent a message.

im all soft for him like this,, i just wish i could tell him 🙃

the slight ringing in his ears should worry him, along with the excessive warmth that's suddenly spreading through his body, face, and ears. the slight twitch of his fingers should too, as if his body is reacting in a way only you can make him, as if it's finally accepting the pull.

the clearing of his throat startles you, making you instinctively hide your phone in the corner of your seat. your eyes zoom in on his reddening face, leaning in closer to make sure, amidst all the darkness. "renjun? what's wrong?" pressing the palm of your hand to his burning forehead. "do you have a fever? junnie, you should've told me."

renjun's still stubbornly looking at the screen, taking a deep breath and doing a countdown before he takes your hand in his, intertwining the two as your eyebrows furrow.

he starts leaning in, coming closer and closer to your face that it makes you lean back in your seat, trying to look away from his face. "i think this isn't a good date," he whispers, "how about we go on an official one tomorrow?"

the wide cinema screen is the audience to the scene renjun puts on, leaving a peck at the edge of your lips as shy smile spreads on his.

⌜ jeno ⌟

[09:08] you sent a message.

i love it when jeno smiles

[09:08] you sent a message.

i mean :: have you seen his smile? those pretty cresent moon eye smiles that's just so freaking cute it makes me want to kiss him all over

[09:09] you sent a message.

and not be weird or anything,,, but his height is perfect. imagine running into his arms and just being all warm because we all know jeno gives the best hugs 😫

[09:09] you sent a message.

is it weird to think about hugging and snuggling with your best friend? to think about how pretty his smile is and how you want to kiss away his cute pout?

[09:10] you sent a message.

yes? no? mark, i think i'm in too deep here..

the minute jeno reads your texts, he's out the door. he doesn't care about the thunderstorm going on outside, he doesn't listen to his member's shouts about bringing an umbrella. all that's running around his mind is you. all he can think about is how he desperately wants to hug you in his arms, so tightly he knows you're going to start to whine. all he wants to do is to kiss you. after 5 years of pinning over you, he finally has the chance to.

he's met with water the moment he runs out in the rain, not caring about the thunder and wind that's pelting down his body. he's soaking wet when he reaches your front door, drenched in water as he knocks and is met with your cutely confused face.

"lee jeno!" your eyes are as wide as saucers, quickly starting to tug him inside when you see his condition. "what are you doing you idiot?! you could get sick!"

he doesn't give you much time to talk (or to start hitting him for being stupid) when he puts his hands on your cheeks and pulls you into a kiss, the atmosphere reminding him of two lovers running through the rain to see each other in movies.

the cold and fever he gets the next day is worth it, especially with your cuddles and chicken soup to get him through the day.

⌜ haechan ⌟

[07:10] you sent a message.

i may be in love with donghyuck

[07:11] you sent a message.

i think he's just the most sweetest, funniest, dorkiest guy with the most perfect smile and laugh

[07:11] you sent a message.

the one who brights up my day (ironically), my full sun

[07:12] you sent a message.

but love is such a fickle thing <3

he wouldn't notice at first, too busy goofing off with chenle and mark, until jeno points out his phone buzzing and lighting up with notifications. the biggest smile would light up his face, so bright and wide, and he just freezes in his place, not even moving or looking away from his phone that it makes the others worry.

starts jumping and squealing, shoving his phone into the other's faces to show off your text when he finally breaks out of his stupor, heart beating so fast renjun tries to make him take deep breaths before he passes out.

doesn't care when his members tell him to carry out with caution, that it could be one of your usual pranks. all he can see is you and him, going on dates and cuddling. after all, it isn't every day your bestfriend (whom you have feelings towards) since diapers confesses.

[07:44] haechan sent a message.

so you have a crush on me😏

[07:44] haechan sent a message.

i'm not surprised, i AM a natural charmer

[07:45] you sent a message.

WHAT

[07:45] you sent a message.

HOW THOU FRICK

[07:46] you sent a message.

wrong message wrong person sorry haha

[07:47] haechan sent a message.

"i am in love with donghyuck."

[07:47] haechan sent a message.

"sweetest, funniest, dorkiest guy with the most perfect smile."

[07:49] you sent a message.

i MAY be in love. MAY. not AM you narcissistic freak

[07:50] haechan sent a message.

i MAY be in love with you too

ends up taking you to the carnival for your first date, winning you stuffed animals and dragging you on rollercoaster after rollercoaster (definitely not because he likes the way you wrap around him whenever you get scared), finishes the day with a photobooth and a kiss on the ferris wheel.

⌜ jaemin ⌟

the coffee shop is relatively bustling, people going in and out the moment they receive their orders, or stay inside to enjoy their cup of coffee. you and jaemin being the latter, both your perspective orders on the brown wooden desk, along side your thick biology books.

your book has been untouched for the last hour, notes and highlighters thrown onto it as you tap at your phone, eyes flitting from the screen to jaemin's face every few moments.

[07:22] you sent a message.

we're currently studying biology

[07:23] you sent a message.

oh welp im lying,, he's learning biology and i'm relearning all my favorite things about him

[07:23] you sent a message.

that was so cheesy- ive been spending way too much time with nana 🤧

[07:23] you sent a message.

he's mumbling something about adjectives to explain biology

[07:24] you sent a message.

the one three adjectives i can explain is him

[07:24] you sent a message.

focused, motivated, oh and most definitely cute

you don't seem to notice jaemin's eyes on you, a coy smile on his lips as he checks his nonstop buzzing phone, slightly giggling at how you seem to not notice you've sent your texts to the wrong person.

"if I had to choose between DNA and RNA, i’d choose RNA because it has u in it.” his sudden voice startles you, making you yelp and raise your head to look at him in bewilderment. "we fit together like the sticky ends of recombinant DNA.”

"excuse me, na jaemin." throwing a raised eyebrow at him along with a sarcastic chuckle. "but i don't understand smart talk."

"you must be a red blood cell because you take the oxygen away from my lungs straight to my heart.” the coy smile he sends you doesn't solve anything, and it takes you moments until you finally start to catch on to his quips.

"DNA spelled backward is AND, as in… me AND you"

jaemin's blinking, breaking into a laugh that shakes the table just enough to spill some of his coffee onto his notes. an excited grin breaks out on your face, butterflies flying in your tummy as his eyes glaze over with a sudden emotion.

"my sudden protracted cardiac arrhythmia tells me i love you."

⌜ chenle ⌟

5 minutes to his last buzzer and chenle's looking for you in the bleachers. his eyes are searching through the crowds of people, trying to find you in his signature red and white jersey, only to pout and huff when all he sees is unknown people waving at him, perking up seconds later when his phone vibrates.

[15:30] you sent a message.

look at him down there!

[15:30] you sent a message.

he looks like a freaking super star

[15:30] you sent a message.

hes THE ace,,, hes MY ace ohmygod :((

[15:31] you sent a message.

i just want him to know that whatever happens hes a winner in my heart yaknow??? not as if hes gonna lose i mean my chenle is the best one out there!!!!

[15:32] you sent a message.

pray for me bcs if he does win im gonna give him a big fat smooch :)

the coach calls for him before he has time to process your message, casually dragging him to play for his last round. his eyes are flitting from the score board, with a big red 60 vs 60 displayed, to the hoards of people. his eyes land on your for a second, the moment enough for you to send him a victory smile and thumbs up.

it's only in the last seconds when he scores the winning goal for his team does he celebrate, running away from the sports ground and leaving his confused team behind as he purposely looks for you. it's when you crash into his arms does he lift you into them, pressing a disorienting kiss onto your lips, with his teams roaring cheers as the background.

"i'm your chenle, i'm your ace!" it takes a minute for you to process his words, clicking two and two together before your jaw goes slack and an embarrased groan escapes from your lips. chenle grins when you bury your face in his chest, shaking you in his arms with all his added excitement. "can i have another kiss?" he peeps down to take a look at you, sending a bashful smile.

⌜ jisung ⌟

"park jisung this isn't funny!" you're sprinting down the stairs, a fair distance away from jisung who's already reached your kitchen, running for his life with your phone in his hand. "give me my phone back! jisung, i swear to god!"

the big laugh that erupts from jisung only gets to you even more, trying to run even faster after your neighbor whom you have had a crush for since childhood. all the while jisung is having the time of his life, running to your living room and cramping his lanky body into the first place he thinks of hiding, wedged between two sofas.

jisung's putting in your password, his birthday, and he's opening the message you've just received from renjun, reading your most recent chat with the chinese boy.

[14:09] you sent a message.

i dont know jun...

[14:09] you sent a message.

what if me confessing only makes us awkward?

[14:10] you sent a message.

i dont care if he rejects me, its jisung we're talking about here! he wouldn't hurt a fly! i dont think he'd break my heart that much..

[14:10] you sent a message.

i dont want 10 years of our friendship to go down the pipe just because of some stupid crush i have towards him

[14:11] you sent a message.

what am i going to do jun?

it takes jisung a moment to read between your texts and another minute to process that the boy you have a crush on, is in fact, him. the more he thinks about it, the more jisung regrets being a slow poke because the moment he finished, you're bounding in between the sofas and taking your phone from him.

there's a moment of silence, of you staring at the phone now in your hand and of jisung staring at his feet, shuffling and pouting his lips.

"jisung, i like you."

"i would never break your heart."

it's the day you became both jisung's bestfriend and lover, with him taking you on a date to the park later in the afternoon.

[kaijurakunsobs]

The Beauty in Empathy

master list

ya boi took all the time in the world writing this but here we go baby! also...yall get soft!Heisenberg content

⚠ Trigger: Panic Attack, PTSD

Summary: the travel to the village has left you shaken up and unsure of what to do with your life. You lack direction, an objective, something to anchor you give the sense of control, it doesn't matter what, you just need something to control.

It, almost, feels nice to come back to the factory, not carrying for the ache in your limbs or the blisters on your feet, you need to feel safe in any way shape or form, and the closest thing to a safe heaven...is the factory. Where no one can touch you, where Heisenberg's sole presence is enough to ward off unwanted visits, where you could run through the maze of corridors and find refuge in some empty room.

There was so much going on, the euphoria you got that morning over the small win against Heisenberg was gone now, replaced by uneasiness, fear of what you don't understand, of what you had gotten yourself into. But you don't let panic subdue you again, taking deep breaths, you run to the living quarters, crates creaking with the movement, fresh vegetables, and cans making so much noise, you were sure the Lord would come and yell at you, he never comes, not even when you almost throw down the door and begin to scream, he's not there.

It takes you a bit to calm down and regulate your breathing, you feel disoriented, suddenly everything is too much and you begin to get rid of the rope wound around your shoulders and hands, wincing when the crates and sacks do so much noise.

And there you stay with your head pressed against the door and eyes shut, remembering how your mother used to cook and clean when stressed, she said cleaning your living space clears the mind and keeps us sane, cooking fills the soul and your stomach with the warmth of your home.

That makes you get up slowly, moving to the kitchen to clean it and the fridge thoroughly, ignoring your aching and shaking limbs in favor of putting everything away and leaving out some ingredients to make a simple vegetable soup. Taking a cutting board and knife you start chopping and cutting vegetables, casting a glance at the clock in the wall and wondering, when will Heisenberg come back and if you should leave him something to eat.

You are done cooking, letting the soup boil, and slowly make the room smell deliciously, remembering how your mom used to cook this soup when you were distraught or sick, you are distraught indeed, but getting lost in memories of people that don't exist anymore feels...useless, painful, stupid.

All of your attention is brought back to the mess on the table and coffee table, all those blueprints and papers just laying around, feels wrong. Picking up every single one you do quick work of rolling it and placing it upright in one of the crates the Duke used to pack your groceries, carefully stashing papers and placing them with the prints, dropping the crate over the kitchen table, grabbing the broom and sweeping the small living room.

With a prideful smile, you stare at the much cleaner area, serving yourself a generous portion of soup and taking a seat at the table, it tastes just as good as your last meal last night, you feel pleasure by eating something this warm, feeling the heat go down your throat and radiate through your entire chest and bleeding down your body, it's nice a feeling. But the heat doesn't linger long and the cold of the world beyond the factory hunts you.

You lost it all so fast, everything stole away by Miranda and the creatures that attacked you, yes, you have a "home" here and a room, and Heisenberg's presence seems to guard off against anyone coming close to this place, but you have no control over anything anymore, and that's what scares you, the lack of control over something.

Routine...that's a way to control your life, something so easy yet so valuable right now, that you don't fight off the prospect of binding yourself to something as monotonous as routine. You were adventurous and brave, now you are scared and ready to find some resemblance of normality, it might be hard, seeing how Heisenberg seems to be more on the chaotic side, but, starting tomorrow you will need to work on that, you need to reclaim a bit of your life.

For now, the best you can do is rest, tame your emotions, abide by the contract you made this morning, maybe...if you play your cards well, you get more perks or small liberties.

Heisenberg drags you out the next day to finally help him with the ventilation, barely giving you time to eat anything and forcing you to chug your coffee, running after him to not be left behind.

The Lord can see you, scribbling something on one of his old note pads, stopping outside of certain rooms to scan the place and write down more notes, mumbling to yourself about what you will need to fix the room. So you are a planner, he likes that, you could also be faking it in favor of getting on his good side, let's see how well you do.

"Let me get this clear" you sigh putting on a pair of his gloves, looking at the rather shabby board connecting the railway and the hole in the wall where the ventilation duct is visible "I have to go across this, get inside and then find the problem?"

"Yeah, basically" he's looking at you, judging your reaction, half expecting you to back off and run away "Is there a problem, sweetheart?" he leans close to you, blowing smoke in your face

With a huff, you take the cigar from his hand and take a drag and puffing the smoke back on his face, jumping over the railing and swiftly balancing over the board towards the hole "You better find a way to pass me whatever I need, cuz im not doing the trave back and forth every fucking time!"

Karl grins at your boldness, smoking his Cuban cigar like it's nothing, raising a brow when you finish it "Will find a way, don't worry about it"

"You better do, Karl!" turning around you grimace looking at the duct, there's water and cobwebs "This is asinine..."

"You will do amazing, darling!" he screams with a lot of amusement when he sees you climb into the duct, enjoying the view of your ass "way better than I could do"

"Oh, bite me!" you yell back with a bit of humor, quickly crawling to the spot marked on the map he gave you the day prior, only stopping to wipe off the sweat from your forehead and assess the damage "Hey, Heisenberg! We have rats here...seems they been doing a number on the ventilators' wiring!"

"Fucking hell! again?!" there's a moment of silence and you use it to look around, definitely, there are rats here, he should think about acquiring some cats, "Think you can fix it?!" you hear him clearly as you make your way back

"If you have some electrical tape and new wires? I could do it today but the rats will come back and eat the new wiring!" he sees you come back, looking at him expectantly

He waves dismissively, turning around to dig through the toolbox, he swears he saw some spare wires here..."Oh don't worry about that, darling, you fix the wiring and I'll just let the lycans have a feast on the vermin" he says as if you knew what he's talking about.

"The WHAT now?" Heisenberg chuckles at your expression, smiling a bit when he tosses the tape and wire in your direction barely catching them.

"More fixing and less asking, you can meet the pack later after we are done with everything you need to work on!"

You hate the way he's smiling, it makes you shudder and feel weary for whatever he's planning.

And you are right in feeling apprehension, Heisenberg keeps dragging you around, helping you up when the repair it's too high, happily taunting you when he sees you stand on a piece of metal, watching your legs wobble and the slight terror when he screams for you to balance yourself because he's not going to save you if you fall, cackling when you tell him to shove it and balancing on the metal sheet.

At the end of the day, he's surprised at how unbothered you seem at being covered in grease and sweat, nonchalantly cleaning your face with your sleeve "And here I thought you were lying about being a mechanic, color me impressed"

"I told you, I'm a woman of my word, I would never lie to you Heisenberg~" something stirs inside him in the way you smile, cocking your hip to the side, he hates your guts but he gotta admit, you are a sight for sore eyes "This has been a beautiful day and everything, but! I'm in need of a shower and I wanna eat something"

"Not yet princess" you yelp when Karl grabs your shoulders and quickly pushes and guides you "You were curious about the lycans, yes? I think is only fair for you to meet them, seeing how you will be staying here for a long time, it's better if they understand that you aren't food"

"WHAT, WHAT DO YOU MEAN!?" you try so hard to hold onto the door frames, make him stop by refusing to walk, try to walk backwards, only making him grow annoyed and throw you over his shoulder "HEISENBERG I'LL DECK YOU AGAIN, PUT ME THE FUCK DOWN!"

"I would LOVE to see you try that stunt again, girly. It's quite clear your daddy never showed you to be more respectful, I might need to teach you so manners" he has the good forsaken audacity of slapping your ass with his free hand

Heisenberg grunts and chuckles when you trash in his hold, trying so hard to run away from him "HOW DARE YOU?! IM BEATING YOUR DUMB FACE WHEN YOU PUT ME DOWN!" you make him laugh when a yelp scapes you the moment the cold air of the outside hits your skin and at least has the decency of softly putting you down, raising his hands as if ready for you to pounce "DON'T you dare to do that again, got it!?"

"We'll see if you mishave and threaten to punch me again, there must be some punishment, don't you think?" he's all smugness when he speaks, puffing up with pride when you blush and begin to frown, getting ready to tell him off only to get cut off when he whistles.

The sound is loud and fills the still air with a disturbance that feels disrespectful, making you wince when he keeps whistling rhythmically, that reminds you of how your grandfather used to have whistle based commands for the digs in his farm, which means...that the lycans are dogs, probably, and Heisenberg just lets them roam around, there's a small chance that the dogs are trained to chase or hunt vermin.

You both stay outside, waiting, getting a bit excited at the idea of seeing a dog after so long. Karl lifts a brow at the eager look on your face, wondering if you even know what's going to happen or if you are that stupid. He's ready to see your reaction, heard you scream in terror, or try to run back to the factory, although, he hopes you don't do that otherwise the lycans might give change and end up killing you.

The cocky smile on his face grows when he sees you pale in horror when the lycans come running, snarling and snapping their fangs at each other. Heisenberg was ready to hear you scream and see you escape, but he is not prepared for what you do next.

All that eagerness, the small hope you felt, all die when you see those beasts, all running to you like it happened that day, the phantom pain in your side makes you choke and freeze, these aren't the same beasts that...killed you...but the memory is still fresh, a part of you tells you to run, to hide, you scream or fight! but the rest of your body refuses to move. The closer they get, the louder the voice in your head becomes, so...you run and hide.

Last time you tried to run to your home and that got you almost mangled, this time? you let instinct guide you, pulling Heisenberg's coat up and hiding behind him, like a child would do, both arms winding around him with crushing strength.

In another situation, he would have made fun of you, laughing and asking where all that bravado of yours had gone to! But he can feel your chest rising and falling so fast, your entire body is shaking so hard it's making his necklaces clink and your teeth clack, you are muttering something but he can't tell what, more importantly...you are crying. He knows the signs of shell shock, oh he knows them too well, whatever happened to you, the lycans triggered a flight or fight response in you, a very strong one.

You can't hear anything over the ringing in your ears, so it's impossible to hear when Heisenberg whistles and makes the lycans scatter again. You do feel his hands peeling yours off him, the weight of his coat covering you and how, strangely, careful he is when picking you up, barely able to register his voice telling you to put your arms around his neck, the firm hold of his hands on your legs and what you guess, was a huff when you locked your legs behind him.

He's beyond surprised when you willingly allow him to pick you up like this, a million questions running through his head over your reaction. Guilt taking a hold of his heart knowing he made you THIS scared, to the point of sobbing on his shoulder and refusing to let him go even after making it into the living quarters but he manages to convince you to let him go, sitting you where you can see him cook and barely hear him talk...something about helping him with a reactor? you are not sure.

Karl watches you eat slowly, looking for any sight you might throw up or if the shaking in your hands gets so bad you might be unable to eat. He goes as far as to escort you to the bathroom, leaving you a new shirt and alone. There are no words to be exchanged but you know, he will come back to check on your jittery self and take you back to your room.

Once alone, you let shame eat you alive, wondering if he thinks less of you, if he will make fun of what just happened, or if tomorrow he will relegate you to some stupid minimal task thinking you are some weak damsel in distress. Dread crush you, not excited for the next day.

Waking up is torture and dressing up is suddenly the toughest task you have been saddled with, the smell of coffee fills the kitchen and, to your disgust, you see Heisenberg dump what might have been three spoonfuls of sugar on his cup. The man perks up when you get close to the table,

"Alright darling, let me start by saying..." here he goes, he's going to laugh and humiliate you "I'm NOT your fucking delivery man" Heisenberg throws a utility belt at you, the weight of the tools on it make you tip back and almost lose your footing "I went to the Duke to see if he got me some new stuff and he said your tools and boots arrived early, I only brought all this back so you won't lose time passing you anything"

"Eat something, we have time" He knows he shouldn't bring back up what happened yesterday, giving you time to process it all and think about what his next steps should be regarding the lycans and your fear of them.

The day is just like yesterday, but you pick on the subtle differences, Heisenberg seems more aware of any sounds that might startle you, steering you away from areas where he knows the lycans are chasing after rats and having a feast on some other things. You don't comment on it, smiling inwardly at his attempts to prevent you from going into another panic attack.

You are sitting in front of a broken generator, judging the damage and sighing when you come to the sad conclusion that you might need to rebuild the entire engine, Karl is close by, two rooms down from where you are. Getting up and stretching is a small pleasure, hearing your back crack loudly, groaning over the stiffness on your neck.

"I got you bad news, backup generator number eight? dead as fuck! I might need to rebuild it which means I'll be doing a list of what I need" you say while entering the room, his back is facing you and he seems to be deep in thought hunched over something.

Getting close you can see him pulling pieces towards him the metal listening to his command and coming his way, a screwdriver in one hand and a magnifying glass in the other, he seems to be struggling to assemble something.

Smiling a bit, you are careful when putting your head on his shoulder, effectively making him jump "Whatchu doing~?" Heisenberg curses under his breath, looking at you to the best of his abilities

"Reactor, damn thing keeps exploding whenever I do test runs" he feels you hum and see your hand get close to the project without touching

"Maybe it's the material or the lack of a cooling system, but that's my opinion" you straighten back "And like I said, the generator is dead, gone, either replace the whole unit or we rebuilt it"

You hear him grunt and pat his pockets looking for something, soon the smell of tobacco fills the air and he too gets up, looking at you, clearly thinking something or how to say it "Princess, about yesterday..." you go stiff, immediately looking away "I don't know what happened before you were brought here, but I do know that it's important for your safety that the lycans learn that you are a part of my..." at this he hesitates, chewing his cigar "family, so if you ever need it, they will come and help you"

He waits for you to say something or to see if you panic again when he sees no sight of terror he continues "There's a small group of lycans that are a bit more tamer, and I was thinking about introducing them to you, one by one"

"You want me to just do what, play fetch with them, scratch their bellies!?" there it is, your panic begins to raise and before it explodes, he grabs your shoulders making you look at him.

"You won't be alone, I'll be there and if the lycans try to EVEN bite you, I'll kill them on the spot! I will even teach you how to control them, that pack will be your...personal guard, but I'll be there"

You relish in the feeling of his gloves hands over you, thinking slowly about this. You need routine and maybe training the beasts to obey you might be good...having control over another being could be good and Heisenberg said he will be there the whole time, something about his voice makes you trust him. "If you leave me alone even ONCE, I'm destroying your knees with a wrench"

And there's that wolfish smile and hearty laughter, with renewed joy he pulls your hand telling you about how you will have the right to do that if he abandons you ever after this, he's staying with you throughout the whole process. Heisenberg catches you off guard when he takes off his coat and drapes it around your shoulders, pulling you outside, standing next to you.

"Let's start with whistling, ok?"

You must admit, you have a lot of fun learning how to do the right whistle command to call this particular pack, laughing a bit when Karl squishes your face whenever you fail to produce the right sound, once you get the sound right, he teaches small commands, how to make one sole lycan come to you, have them stop dead in their tracks, among others and how to make each whistle sound loud.

He does chuckle when you jump the moment the pack comes bolting from the woods towards you, the grip on your shoulders return and that anchors you, giving the stop command and smiling once the small group stops, Heisenberg all but smiles proudly when you take control and pick one lycan to get close and dismiss the others.

"Once it's close enough" Karl whispers low enough for you to hear "take off your gloves and let it smell the back and palm of your hands" he sees you nod and waits for the lycan to get near you, his hands sliding up and down your arms, he can feel you tremble a bit when you take off his gloves and let the beast smell you.

The lycan looks up to you, then at Heisenberg, opting for keeping its attention on you, you called it after all "It won't bite you, it can smell that you belong here, it knows better" Even with his reassurance you are weary of the beast, everything inside asking you to run away, yet you stay put, dogs can smell feat and react to it and that never ends well.

"What else can they do?" Karl can hear the terror in your voice but feels proud of your bravery, quickly teaching you what other tricks the thing can do.

By the end of the day, you are rather surprised when he cooks dinner again, he's actually pretty decent, his cooking lacks a bit of salt but it's good and he's doing his best to have you well fed.

"May I ask...why are you being so nice?" you ask him looking at his back "I've been a bit of a brat"

He laughs looking at you over his shoulder "I suppose...I understand what you are going through" he says, turning his attention back to the stove.

You want to ask him what happened to him, what made him so emphatic out of the blue but the tone of his voice and the stance of his body is enough indicator that this time is not the right moment to ask about it, perhaps one day, you two can share the pain that haunts you both.

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Welcome To The Pack Not Like I Needed That Bed

Summary- 10k. Alpha!Steve x You. You go to Steve needing him in just about every sense of the word. You Heat fully hits and there is no controlling it. Bucky and Natasha find out more of Pierces doings. Warnings- Okay guys, shouldn't have to tell you, but Smut. Readers in Heat, really what else can you expect from her and the Alpha? Female Receiving Oral. Two Prompts added for @lielullabye Snow's Five Hundred Challenge- 1. “Toto I got a feeling we’re not in Kansas anymore.” 2. There's only one bed- in a cabin. 

A/N- Thank You all for the support in this Fic. It's very near and dear to my heart, and just to see the out pour of love for the wolves (im sorry, this chapter doesn't have much of the actual wolves) really makes me all soft. Anyone that notices similarities with @imanuglywombat​'s series Hungry Like The Wolf, it is similar. We talked about it. :) You all should go check out Laura's piece, it is amazing! Moodboard made by @omega-nicole​. Thanks Babes for the lovely Artwork. Thank you for reading everyone and much love from all the wolves. 🐺❤ Happy Howlings! 

Chapter Three / Pack Master list

Steve closed the door behind You when you came in, your heavy soft scent washing over him, reminding him of the day you arrived. The day you sat on his bed, and he could only imagine what had happened from there to set off your arousal. The one that had sent him straight into a ice shower raging hard, fuck you smelled so good. This had a touch of that, and it made his cock stir. He could only hope that his sweatpants he yanked on when you first knocked could hide it for now. Turning towards you, you were seated on a chair in the far corner of the room, much like how you sit on the alpine chair out on the deck, having folded up your legs, peeking at him as if you were upset you were disturbing him.

Steve walked, a bit stiffer then usual, and went to sit on the end corner of the bed, facing You. “Y/N, Little One, why are you afraid? I can smell it.”  

You fidgeted, picking at your fingers, and he reached over to capture your hands in his before you could do anymore. Apologetic you looked at him, and wrinkled your nose instead. Your emotions so easily played across your face in the dark, Steve suspected you felt less vulnerable in the night, and for that he was grateful. It gave him a better reading on what was going on in your mind, and he issued a reassuring squeeze of his hands on yours.

I got you Little One, We will keep you safe.

His wolf rumbled in agreement <Always, she's ours.> Steve could just feel him aching to wrap around you, pull you in close to tease that look off your face, feel your body press into his with need, just as he was feeling now. You would be safe in the circle of his arms.

You immediately felt your Wolf and you calm down when he touched you, his grasp bringing you back to him, and you uncurled, letting your legs stretch and tiptoes brush into the rug beneath the chair. Opening up to him, in a way it made you proud to see his features softening cause you trusted him. “Nothing more than nightmares, but sleeping alone, well it's not something I've done often. Just having someone nearby...” your eyes lifted to meet his, really hoping he didn't misunderstand what you were saying. Steve just studied you a moment, and moved to a stand, his hand outstretched.

“Come on, let your Alpha take care of you. You have nothing to fear.” He smiled, although his body raged at him to take you, to throw you down and rut into you, cover your body with loving bites, and fill your womb with him so you belonged to him forever. All these desires he was able to control, for now. When you rewarded him with a soft look of relief, and slid your hand into his, pulling you to a stand, the Wolf in him crooned softly with affection seeing you take his hand willingly, and lead you to the bed. You crawled up on it, of course giving Steve a perfect view of the heart shape of your ass in sleep shorts swaying back and forth, that did nothing to help his current issue. Slamming him with tented pants, and deep rumbles from his Wolf, he slid in right behind you.

“Can I touch you Little One?” Steve did his best to keep his voice normal, calm. Not the raging fire to claim you he felt inside of you. When you looked over your shoulder, and scooted back to press against his chest, body fit against his just as his Wolf knew you were meant to. Soft against the hardness of the Alpha, his hand sliding over your waist to press his palm under your shirt against your stomach, and there was a visible sigh from you. For now that made his Wolf content, the beast settling back down, laying his head on his forepaws, bright yellowed eyes shimmering in the darkness of Steves mind.

You could feel Steve settling behind you, when you gave the invitation for his hand to encircle you, you relaxed, all that tension caused earlier in your room seeped away. Your Little Wolf started grooming to calm herself, long licks along her forepaw, and knowing she was no longer crying in your mind made you breath out in relief. Steve was warm against you, his fingers brushing against you with a gentleness you've never experienced in another. You wondered if he could feel the fire licking along your nerves just below your skin. The way his heavy scent of the pines he ran through, and metal that you associated with your Alpha stirred your core. Of course he can, you could feel him firm behind you, nudges against your lower back, this wasn't easier on him then it was on you, and yet... this is exactly what you craved, sinking in closer and letting yourself to slip away in his hold.

It was the sweetest torture for both You and Steve.

Bleary eyed Bucky woke with a moan, rolling to his side and his hand went to his head to press against the fucking temple where he felt sharp pain. Whoever fucking clocked him, got him good. Cursing under his breath as he sat up and looked around, trying to get a bearing of where he was. Looked like a normal room, in a normal house, one small lamp was on nearby.  There was a weight around his neck, and his hand dropped to a collar, it was cold to his fingertips with carvings all around it, it left a burnt singe sensation in his nose When he dipped inside his mind, the White Wolf was subdued, chains interlacing around him, tight around his throat that it bit through this thick fur into the skin, muzzled, and held down, the White Wolf couldn't move an inch.

So they were using fucking magic on these wolves, great. Bucky thought as the White Wolf growled, trying to move, which resulted in the chains just tightening more. “Toto, I’ve got a feeling we’re not in Kansas anymore.” Bucky snarked as he tried to feel for a clasp on the physical collar around his neck, and it was no use, it was as smooth around as it was heavy on his neck.

“No Soldier your not in Kansas.” A voice said behind Bucky, and a older man came in, smaller in stature then the two that followed him in, but Alpha... or Alpha like, Bucky couldn't see the physical demeanor that Alphas usually had in this man. But his body language said it, and the way the two larger men were sure to stay back behind him, bringing up behind him like a couple body guards. This must be the wolf Nat had to get past in order to be on the pack territory. “But you are on my territorty. I'm the Alpha of these lands, and I want to know why the “famous” White Wolf was scoping us out. I know your not looking to join.” Pierce snarled at these last words as he sat down, pulling a cigar from his pocket. “Especially not after you killed one of my Trackers.”

“Oh the Tracker on OUR territory? I stayed in No Mans territory, he didnt. Not only did he cross our lines, he entered our Alphas house.”

Pierce cut off the tip of his cigar and lit it, looking over at Bucky after a few inhales. “Your Alpha took something that didn't belong to him. I intend to retrieve her, with interest of course. If I find out he bit her, and she took the fucking bite, I’m going to skin her alive.” He waved a hand over his shoulder and stretched out on the wall were skins Bucky didn't notice before. Various colors and species of shifter. The White Wolf tried fighting his binds all over again, his fur bristling down his back, and roars bursting from him in a rage. Buckys’ face changed to one of horror.

“Thats fucking sick man...”

Pierce gave a wicked grin, blowing cigar smoke in Buckys face as he came closer, the chain holding Bucky tightened and wrapped around his torso quickly by the other men, holding him still. “Is it? They are all animals who couldn't listen to the Alpha, and I can't make a profit, they are added to my collection. Your a handsome fellow, all white, I’ve seen pictures of you. You would make a nice addition. Yet... your wanted by Hydra, and since they have been bugging me for an Alpha Male to do ritual magic, I can’t. That pretty Red Wolf though, Natalie I think she had said.  She will look good on my wall.”

This Bucky tried fighting back, break the bonds on the collar, it only resulted in him getting several kicks to the ribs and back. Pierce watched with satisfaction, motioning to Bucky who was once again subdued in pain. “Ship him out to Hydra in a few days, make sure you received the payment at the exchange. And bring my fucking collar back. They can put there own on him.” Bucky got hauled up and dragged away, Pierce going over to the desk, and dialing the phone. “Ahhh yes, the new wolf. Get her situated will you please. Put her in a cell till I can speak with her. ” Settling back in his chair, he went over the stuff they found on Bucky. Particularly his phone. Once he got into it, with a little help from stolen Stark Tech, he was able to go through all his messages, the ones of most interest, Alpha Steve fucking Rogers. Oh he was going to kill that fucker for what he's taken. There also seemed to be some interesting ones from a human, Pierce was sure to jot that info down as well with a smirk.

The next morning Steve woke up slowly, breathing in deeply against the back of your neck and a flex of his arm around you pulled you in tighter against him. Fuck this felt good, his mind was groggy and he grinned against your neck, nuzzling the back of it when he felt his erection press tightly against your back side. Clearly he wasn't thinking straight at the intimate wake up, and his Wolf wasn't going to remind him that Steve was dead set on not getting romantically involved. Steve’s hand traveled up to cup one of your breasts, softly squeezing in his palm, the nipple tight to push for an escape between his fingers. Oh Fuck! His mind cleared and he immediately pulled away from your sleeping form, his whole body throbbing now.

<What are you doing? She's in your bed now, and practically throwing herself at us.>

Absolutely fucking not. I'm not taking a sleeping woman as a partner.

<You really think she was sleeping? She felt you, and wanted it. Her arousal spiked as soon as you started to touch her.> Yes Steve had noticed, he just chose to ignore it. But it was enough to have him raging hard. <You humans make everything so fucking difficult.> The Wolf started to push for more control now.

Steve was quick to rush into his bathroom, starting the water to the coldest setting, he didn't even bother looking at himself in the mirror, he knew. The Wolf was right there, ready to take over if Steve gave an ounce of control. Turn animalistic and fuck you right into the mattress until satisfied you belonged to them. Shucking his pants off, he got into the shower and gripped his raging cock, abusing himself to hurry up and cum. His jaw tense to stay as quiet as he could to not disturb you, he came once heavily, making his legs shake at the effort. But it wasn't enough and he sunk to his knees, still one handed and fast, his balls tightening and more thick ropes of cum covered his shower wall, tipping his head back into the freezing cold stream of water.

<This isn't going to solve her problem.> The Large Silver Wolf stretched and sat with his tail wrapping around his paws.

What problem?

<Oh you can't tell? She's all fucking hot and aching cause she needs her Alpha, her Mate. It wasn't just cause she had a nightmare she came seeking you out. You had to know this would happen with her under our roof and in our care.>

When did the fucking wolf get so insightful Steve sighed to himself as he grabbed a towel to dry himself off, not sure what he was going to find in his room.

<When you started to go against every instinct you have.>

Trying to breathe through his mouth, Steve could taste your arousal heat as well, making his mouth water and a heavy groan rip through his body, feeling just as he done before the shower. Fucking hell... Pushing open the door with a towel wrapped around his lean hips, his eyes widened to find the bed empty.

You stumbled back into the bedroom, early dawn lighting the room with a brilliance of light and you just shaded your eyes, your reasoning at leaving Steves bed was that you overstepped your boundaries when you found yourself all alone. Plus a deep seated lust started, slicking between your thighs, and you simply couldn't control it. None of it, the ache, the need, how wet your cunt was. How sensitive your skin was and you started to pull off the clothes, trying to get away from the way it was teasing your skin, if only if was calloused fingertips and not fucking cotton. Your body was so sensitive, aching, fucking needing that even the brush of clothing against you was maddening. Your tank to was dropped to the floor and your shorts next, your skin shivered, and was covered in Goosebumps as you curled in on yourself. Your slick already coated your thighs from earlier, and you resisted the urge to touch yourself.

Why is it so bad? It's never been like this before.

The Little Wolf whined, her ears flat as she snapped at nothing in aggitation and ache.

<Why do you think? Your in heat with your Mate, it's going to be stronger then usual. Your body is made for him.> The Little Wolf snarled out with a snap of her jaws. <You two are to stubborn and this is what happens. We're all miserable.>  

Another wave made you arch, and bite into the pillows your head were resting on, growling out and crying as the lust filled pain that was shockwaves through your body. Withering against the mattress in an attempt to escape what was unescapable. You never heard or noticed Steve stumbling into your doorway, his hair still wet from his shower as he fisted a hand through it, seeing You twisted up in the sheets. “Y/N!” He growled to get your attention, but your face was buried into the pillows, crying into the feathers that muffled your noises. His gaze flowed down your front, and every muscle was taunt, tense, your thighs clasped together in a locked grip, but even he could see, and smell how hot and slick you were.

<Fuck it Steve, we can't leave her like this.> The Wolf snapped, and it finally broke the man, he couldn’t, wouldn't leave you withering like this burning up. Striding over, he let the towel fall from his body, lithe, muscles rippling at the sight of you withering naked on the guest bed, the sight making his cock twitch, starting the throb into a hard erection. His hands grasped your shoulders to straighten you out, leaving you tear streaked looking up at Steve, panting slightly. “Please Steve, it's never been like this before...” Your eyes are flaring yellow at him, and you reached up to grasp his biceps, arching again with a roll as he hovered over you, seeking contact.

Steve had to get you to calm down, grasping the back of your neck, and his voice took a deeper roll, commanding you to snap back to him. “Y/N, Look at your Alpha.” It didn't pass his notice that you never hesitated this time, your eyes snapping to meet his, your fingers bunch into the muscle of his arms. Steve dropped his nose to slide along your face, huffing deeply as he dragged in your scent, and you went still for him to do so, wanting nothing more then to please your Alpha. Up one side, into your hair, the act made you calm right down, just the occassional shudder rolling through now, soft whimpers and tilting your face to run your nose along his neck, inhaling his scent when he was angled just right and flicking your tongue to take a lap of his skin. Pulling back to look down at you, your eyes still had a subdued yellow look, but calmer, not that wild out of control look.

Rumbling softly in praise, he loosened his hold on you, letting your head ease back down to the pillow. “Easy Little One, It will be okay, I got you.” You nod up at him and he lowers his head to lap his tongue over your lips, and slip between them, stroking his tongue against yours enticing you to meet him, lips pressing and sliding along yours until Steve pulled back to look down at you, moving back enough to admire the rest of you. Fuck you really were beautiful, and in your Heat your whole body responded to the smallest things. Wherever his eyes flowed to, your body would arch for him, rolling. An offering all for him, just the cooler air of him moving back from you was making your nipples pebble, tighten to hard peaks,. Mouthfuls Steve wanted to draw in and suck on them, leave his marks on them, only his pups would would suckle from you. He inhaled sharply to get control of himself again, lifting his eyes back to yours.<Why are you stopping?> His Wolf growled and Steve rested his hand against your hip, snapping at his Wolf to have some patience.

“Better?” He asked as you blinked up at him, the yellow ebbing from your eyes and you nodded. Your hands loosened from his biceps, now just resting there. Steves head dropped to lap lightly against your neck, placing softer bites to keep you calmer, reminders that your Alpha was there to take care of you.

<Not just your Alpha Y/N, your Mate.> Your Little Wolf reminded you softly.

That's why it's so much more intense? It's not just because Im with the Packs Alpha?

<No Y/N, it's only like this when your with your Mate, they are the only ones your body needs.>

Your hands smoothed along his shoulders and down his back, and you hummed softly with content rocking your hips back and forth “Its easier.” You whimper and Steve continues down your collarbone and nipping the tops of your breasts, glancing up. “But?” and you do your best to pay attention, but the needing ache bordering on pain started to build again, rolling your body underneath him, tipping your head back and crying out. “I still need you Steve.” And your fingers tightened in his back, digging into the muscles to hold onto him.

Steve let his hand grasp your hips and slip you further underneath, his knee parting your thigh and rub us against your hot wet core, grinding against you till it registered and you started to rub your slick on him, growling so soft with pleasure at the hardness, the way Steves wet mouth pulled a nipple in, pulling, tugging, slight pinches when his rolls your nipple between his teeth about to release, just to suck back in, dragging his tongue over the sensitive spot that left you moaning and withering underneath him. Flushing bites, that would bruise, moved to the other breast, his hand palming and twisting the peak to keep you right up there.

And Oh it felt so good. You arched right into his touches like they were all you needed, and your legs parted further as he made his way down, one hand still covering a breast, kneeding and palming you, Steve lapped his way down your body, he couldn't get enough of your taste, the way you sounded all urgent for him. Using his shoulders to spread your thighs for him, he couldn't help but bury his nose against your cunt and fill all his senses with such a gift. You were so slick with need, an aching need, that the moment his tongue lapped through your cunt, you cried out his name and arched, your hands fisting into his hair to hold on. “Fuck Steve!” 

His large hands clasped around your thighs and tilted you up, the Alpha lapping deeply through the folds, growling in a pleasure that you felt rolling through your core, his tongue filled your entrance, and you clenched around him with a urgent need. But that didn't slow him down, every lick, suck and pull, his hands kneeding into your thighs, till he let his fingers get greedily swallowed into your channel, lifting his head to watch you as he fingers pumped you to stretch around him. “Just like that Little One, cum for me, let me clean you up before I fuck you.” Lips teasing your clit, you bucked your hips into his face, the urgent beard scratches for him to gather all he could from your weeping hole on his tongue was enough to make your want to snap. Coming undone, he was sure to wrap his arms around you when your thighs snapped around his head and you arched your upper body, but Steve wasn't letting you go anywhere, blue eyes lifting to see you sink back down, panting with a racing heart. “So beautiful, fuck every inch of you is just perfect.” 

Arching to kneel wiping his mouth and chin off best he could, he watched you post orgasm, flushed and heaving chest as you tried to drag in enough air, he fell over you, holding himself up by his hands on either side of your head to kiss you deeply, this time your tongue lapped at him, moaning at the combined tastes of your Alpha and You. When he pulled away, you almost reached to bring him back, but his hands moved on your hips, and he flipped you to your knees, arching your ass into the air. He paused a moment to see pink marks all over your back, breathing in sharply. What the hell happened to you, Little One?

<Are those cuts or bites?>  The Wolf alarmed, pacing back and forth with anxiety. Steve pushed him back further in his mind as he turned his attention back to you. You had dipped your back further, and presented yourself to him. Shivering under his hands, and Steve was again struck with how trusting you were of him to take care of you, how fucking breathtaking you were submitting to him. You pulled a pillow in close and went to your elbows. Biting your lip with nerves, and looking over your shoulder at Steve kneeling behind you, rubbing his hands up and down your sides as he kissed down your spine to the base of your lower back. He didn't seem effected by the bites, or notice them. 

“Steve?” Your voice was urgent, making him lift his head from where he was lavishing nips to the dimples in your lower back, your ass pressing into his groin, making him want to sink into you, know just how good you would feel tight around his cock as you had been around his tongue and fingers. “Yes Little One?” He rumbled as he lifted his head and leaned forward, kissing on your shoulder, his hand smoothing to settle on your stomach, fingers splayed as if saying 'All Mine'. “You can't bite me, Please... please dont.” His eyes lifted, he had seen all the scars on your back, suspected what they were, but his focus was distracted, your arousal was so enticing, calling him to fill you, love you. “I won't bite you unless we're both ready.” You let your forehead lean against his, and he let his nose nudge against yours before pulling back behind you. 

You were stretched before him, just waiting for him, and Steve gripped the base of his cock, letting the thick head slide between your sick folds, watching you tense and relax, he was thick, heavy and throbbing in his hand, he really couldn't remember the last time anyone turned him on this much, and when he started to press into you, your heavy moan slightly muffled in the pillow while your channel clutched around his sliding cock. It was like you were made for him, the way you stretched for him, pressing back to meet him. Hands folding around your hips, fingers digging in as he thrusted his cock in rest of the way to seat deeply inside of your fluttering channel, you twisted your hands into his bedding. “Fuck you feel see good gripping on me Pretty Girl.” He groaned out after a few moments, 

With a pull back of his hips, he didn't start anything fast, letting you get accustomed, ready. He shouldn't have though, you were more then ready for him, and you craved that hard pounding fullness. “Harder Steve, Im yours... make me yours.” You pleaded, and Steve hearing you started to move you over his cock, bring you back harder and faster on his thrusting cock. His thighs smacking into your ass, fingers digging into the soft supple skin to the bone, You appreciated every bruising second of it. You cried, sobbed into the pillow, begging for it. 

Steve fell over your back, wrapping and arm around your chest and pulling back till you were sitting against his chest, still rolling your hips just as urgently as well as him pounding into you. He dropped laps to your neck, kisses that were harsh and urgent, hand went from palming your breast to grasping around your neck and under your jaw, holding you in place just how he wanted, tilting your head slightly so he could see your face, the drop of the 'O' of your mouth, the way you “Uh yes Steve, uh uh uh” moans that were so fucking needy and perfect, he couldn't help but want to sink his teeth into a growling bite. He settled for pressing his lips against your racing pulse, inhaling against your hot skin smelling of sex and him, growling deeply. 

You reached the grab his forearm that was pressing against your chest in his hold, leveraging yourself to pound your aching throbbing cunt harder on his cock, but it was spiraled fast, coils in your stomach threatening to snap and release, you barely registered him growling words in your ear, whatever they were, you just nodded to them, and then snapped a final time down into his lap. Tipping back into his chest, and your head on his shoulder, feeling your body shoot off the best orgasm, it clouded your mind, getting lost into it. Steve kept a tight hold, still pounding out his own following orgasm, that when he did fall over that edge, leaving hot streams of cum filling you, his thrusts trying to bury himself into the womb, you just couldn't anymore, couldn't stay up. You both crashed heavily into the bed. 

So heavy, that the box spring underneath collapsed beneath the two of you, sending the mattress busted onto the floor, Steve pinning you between the broken bed and himself, his knot so fucking thick, you thought you were going to split, but you revealed at the feeling of being so full of him. His panting against your neck changed to a warning growl against your ear. “Don’t Move Y/N.” You shook your head, and twisted it to the side, the two of you laying there, Steve pressed open kisses to your neck and shoulder, mummering against the skin. “So fucking good Little One, I promise to clean you up afterwards and take you to bed.” 

You chuckled softly, wanting to stretch, reveal in the orgasm, but Steves cock was still buried deep, throbbing. You knew that it made his orgasm longer, the knotting. And when you flexed slightly, he growled again at you, biting the curve between shoulder and neck, holding you still once more. Nothing hard enough to break skin, but enough for him to ride out the sensation and make you behave. Finally it started to go back to normal. With a groan, Steve pulled away and you rolled to your back, finally stretching out. He looked down at you with a chuckle, and leaned down enough to slide arms underneath you and bridal style, picked you up. Your arm locked around his neck for support and looked down at the bed, turning red. 

“Uhh, I’m sorry we broke your bed Steve.” You apologized, looking nervously at him. Steve as well looked at the bed, and shrugged his shoulders before turning away, heading to his bedroom. “Dont worry about it, it was useless in that room anyways. Now I have an excuse to get rid of it.” He said as if it was no big deal, which it wasn’t. He only had that room set up per his ex's request. Where one of them would on occasion sleep when it got really bad between them. He always hated having that room there, now You gave him the perfect opportunity to change it. Careful as he lowered you to the bed you had left earlier, he couldn't help but think to himself You look better in here... 

<Exactly where she is meant to be.> The Silver Wolf yawned, one of those wide jaw, tongue curling yawns, that showed how content he was. 

Already you were getting sleepy on Steve, he could see it. As quickly as he could, he got a warm wet cloth and eased if between your thighs, over the lower part of your stomach, cleaning himself as well, he tossed the cloth and eased onto the bed, stretching out beside you. As you curled in closer, he let his hand rest on your hip, waiting for you to fall asleep. He wanted to get a closer look at those old scars on your back. Steve was rewarded a couple hours later, when you shifted from your back to your stomach. Asleep himself, the Wolf growled to get his attention, making him stir, his arm loped loosely around your hip when the pacing Wolf woke hip up more, finally coming into a closed eye’d and aware. 

You were stretched out on your stomach, Steve could hear your soft breathing signaling you were asleep, and he breathed in deeply, the smell of you two and sex a heavy welcome one, settling warmth and satisfaction to rest in his mind. Both him and the Wolf were content having there mate in the bed, no longer aching in need, when the urge came again, he would be ready. Steve moved away from you a bit to sit up, able now to get a proper look that he wasn't completely focused on one thing. His eyes widened and a snap of his teeth were the best he could do to control the rage that rattled through him.

They are fucking bite marks.... all of them. Steve growled sharply in anger and disbelief as his fingers traced over one that was particularly large and deep. The pink skin of the scar slightly raised and shiny. His palm smoothed along your back, his brow pulling together further to wrinkle at all the marks they had inflicted on you. All the times another Wolf tried to subdued and claim you as their own. No wolf willingly let's themselves get bitten that many times, go through the attempted bonding. No wonder you told him not to bite you, even through your Heat, when you would crave it the most. Steve’s eyes roamed down your back and they stopped just in your lower back area. The rage that rolled through him made him stiffen and clench his jaw from saying anything out loud. All of them will pay for this, starting with Pierce. It was hard to reign in his anger, making his throat close and his chest burn at the sight. He wanted blood, for you and who knows how many others had this been done to. 

<We will kill him for doing this to her, and all the wolves that left her marked like this.> The Silver Wolf paced back and forth, ready for action, his fur raised along his spine in his anger, muzzle rolled up to show bared fangs just waiting to crush a windpipe, shake his victim till his neck snapped. Any that bit his mate, he wanted to shred them till there was nothing left to piece back together.

When Bucky and Natasha return with the intel, we will certainly be doing something. Council can go fuck themselves, waiting this long to bring Pierce under control.

The Wolf stopped pacing enough to study his mate laying there to make sure you were still at peace. <Will she be able to ever accept our Bite?>

If she doesn't that changes nothing. This is her home, bite or no bite. Besides our scents all over her, no one will doubt who she is with as long as that is what Y/N WANTS. Steve reminded his Wolf firmly.

<You really are fucking stubborn to think she doesnt. See how beautiful she presented, the way she came apart and trusted us.>

You never know, things can change when were not all caught up in the moment.

<You got to forget the bitch... Y/N is not Alanna.>

Easier said then done, Steve thought as he let his hand slide along the curve of your side to where your hips flared out, and sure enough light bruises in the shape of his fingers colored your shin. He knew he should be sorry he left them from where he took you from behind, but he wasn’t. He loved seeing his mark on you somewhere, even one that would fade in time. It made the others seem insignificant. they had no true value, memories of a time that you were no longer subjected to. He had a new purpose, to change every scar left into a new memory, one that wouldn’t remind you of Pierce but of him. If you let him, of course. 

Steve knew one thing for sure, Pierce wouldn't ever lay a hand on you again. You stirred under his palm, he could feel you draw in a deep breath of air and release under his touch, turning more into him when you realized he was there, moving from the pillows to lay your head on his sheet covered lap, still half asleep. Steve bit back a smile, suspecting you were still out of it, and this was your Little Wolf he was seeing more of. “Y/n, welcome back Little One.” His hand moved from your back to brush back your hair, see your face better. Your eyes were still firmly closed, and you twisted your face into his knee, rubbed the sleep out of your eyes with a groan. Steve still ran his fingers through your hair, and when your eyes spring open, you twist to lay on your back, looking up at him.

“You saw them, didn't you? “ you asked with a bit of hesitation, trying to gauge what he was thinking.

Steve’s head tilted a bit while his fingers were gentle through your hair, and down the back of your neck, giving a gentle brush of fingertips along your neck, as if memorizing the shape of your body. “I did Little One, because of Pierce?” His question was gentle, but it still made your chest tighten, and your Little Wolf crooned softly to comfort your pain.

“They are from all the times he tried to sell me. The seller, would try to initiate the bite, but I just couldn't do it back. At first it was fear, I was pretty young when it started, my first heat at 18, as it went on and he couldn't match me in the pack, that's when he decided to sell me.” You shifted to sit up, reaching for more of the sheet and covering yourself. “It just felt wrong, the others told me to just submit to one, that the bond can be broken later. If my new home didn't work out, I might be able to get away. I thought about it... Just let it happen, and hope it would be better. But I was to much of a coward to take that chance. Better the evil you know and all that.”

Both man and the beast snapped at attention to that, Steve leaned forward and caught your chin in his thumb and forefinger, his eyes seeking to connect to yours when he tipped your face up to look at him. “You are no fucking coward Y/N, what he put you and the others through is enough to end him. This isn't supposed to be a sick deprived thing, this is supposed to be something you carry with you forever.” His forehead leaned against yours, and he inhaled you deeply, drawing in your scent, and your eyes closed in return, doing the same. Once Steve pulled back, he let his hold drop, and was rewarded with a small smile. It was enough to make his Wolf howl in the small victory.

“How about breakfast out on the deck, and we can go say goodbye to Tony and Pepper before they head out?” Steve suggested, wanting to end this on a good note, and when he held his hand out in a offering, you seemed to study him and then his open hand, when you unfolded yourself, and placed your hand in his, once more showing a bit of trust and allowing your Alpha to take care of you.

Pepper packed the overnight bag they used while Tony paced back and forth on the phone. The clipped tone of his voice, and his fast paced stride as he would his way around the cabin Steve offered them, showed his agitation, it made Pepper herself start to get a bit aggravated. She understood The Council, but they set her mate off more then she was okay with. “Steve has a couple of his wolves already assessing the situation. Well what did you expect, he had a victim of Pierces right on his doorstep, Not to mention they came on his territory and into his own home. You can't expect him to just 'sit back and wait.” Pepper zipped the bag and brought it by the door, moving over to Tony and she cut him off from his pacing, her hands sliding up his chest and around the back of his neck. His eyes flickered to her even though he continued speaking. “Yea, I hear you, fine. If that's what you think is best... Oh, uh huh... I'm up in the middle of--” He clicked the phone off and Pepper took it off him, tossing it aside.

“Line went dead, real shitty reception up here.” Tony smirked and Pepper laughed, backing him up to the bed, and making him sit for a moment, her fingers brushing through his hair. “I take it Ross isn't at all happy with what you've told him?” she looked down at him, taking in the bit of stress lines furrowed in his brow. He sighed and wrapped his arms around her hips and shook his head. “No, He doesn’t want Rogers taking off after that pack on his own, no “rogue packs" being viglantes. Unfortunately this will also speed up those Accords the Council has been pushing for.” Pepper dropped her head to kiss his forehead and pulled away, bringing him to a stand. “Your doing your best trying to keep the peace Tony, no one can ask for more.” Tony quirked a smile at his mate, and grabbed there bag, looking around the room. “Ya know, Rogers doesn't have a bad set up here.”

“Mmhhh, and especially now that he has a mate, he's going to root right down.” Pepper added, knowing that Steve’s pack was one they were worried about once the Accords were dropped by the council. Tonys grinned at Peppers words, drawing her in close. “You really think that woman is his partner?” Pepper nodded and went to open the door, holding Tonys hand. “Didnt you see them last night, even when they weren't together, couldn't stop staring at one another, plus his scent is all over her. It's just a matter of time before it happens.”

Tony snorted as they headed towards the car to ditch the bag before going to say goodbye. “I don't know how I feel about you sniffing other wolves.” He tossed the bag in the back and raised his hand in greeting to Steve and You. Pepper slid up against his side, nipping his neck and whispering “You smell much better, does that make it okay?” He didn't have time to answer when Steve and You came up on them, it didn't pass Tony or Peppers notice that you two hovered close to one another, not quite touching, but close. Plus it was hard to miss your Heat, although it wasn't a arousing scent for either of them, just feminine, and soft.

“Rogers, as always a pleasure. Thank you for the lovely accommodations, I was telling Pepper that we should get a similar set up. Maybe on the other side of your lake here.” Tony took a glance over his sunglasses at the lake as if assessing it, and Steve probably turned three shades of white at the idea. “Actually that's Pack Land Tony, I was sure to put it right in the middle of our territory when I expanded.” Pepper rolled her eyes and patted Steves arm. “Kidding Steve, he's only kidding. You know you couldn't get Tony to leave New York.”

“Well maybe if you wanted to live the Malibu life I would Pep. Y/N, dear, Im glad your safe here, and of course if you happen to need anything from us, don't hesitate to call.” Tony wrapped You up in a surprise hug that elicited a growl from Steve and a squeak from you.

<Whats he doing touching our Mate?> The Wolf snapped at the air, ready to go after Tony.

Stop, he's just messing with us. She's fine, see. You embraced him back once you weren't shocked anymore and nodded, thanking him for the offer.

Pepper grabbed Tonys arm and dragged him to the car before he actually set Steve off, an apologetic look over her shoulder. “Steve, your order, will be in next week. Till next time.” She shoved Tony in the car, and Steve instinctly moved closer to you, and you to him, the two of you waving the couple away. Finally after a few moments, you simply remark. “Well they were nice... “ Steve snorts and gives a sideways glance. “Tonys a pain, Pepper is a saint for putting up with him.” Pulling out his phone, he took a look at the time. “I got to get up to the crew, we've already taken a day off.” You frown a bit, and look down. The only reason they missed a day was because the Trackers broke into Steves cabin. Because of you. 

Steve caught sight of your frown, the way you pulled back, and immediately slid his fingers along your jawline, tilting your face back up, shaking his head. “Wasnt your fault Little One, I normally shut down the day after our run.” The relief that flooded your eyes made Steve soften, and he couldn't help but place a soft innocent kiss on your lips, rewarded with a flush of pink. His wolf was smug watching the tender moment between you two, but real life called Steve away when his phone started ringing with Sams name flashing. Yes, we gotta get up to the Lot. 

<Or stay with our Little One, she is in heat after all.> The Wolf offered a suggestion, both animal and man inhaling your scent, commiting it to memory. His eyes roamed over yours, and your thighs started to clench under his gaze, and teeth would pull at your lower lip. Your arousal once more heavy in the air between you two, and Steve knew that he couldn't leave you alone today, not like this. Maybe it was selfish reasons, as he felt his cock start to harden, but in good concupiscence he couldn't leave you in pain, not when he could help you. “Or... I can stay ?” 

When Steve extended his hand, it was hard denying that the fire coursing through your body that was laced with need made it hard not to just throw yourself at the Alpha. He already sated you once, made the urge into a full background ache for at least a little while. But now slick was pooling your cunt, the feeling of clothing was making you on edge, wanting to get them off your skin. You didn't need the clinging cotton all over you. You needed skin to skin burning into you. If you took his hand, would you ever be able to look back, take it all back. 

Your Little Wolf nudged you to slide your hand into his. <take it Y/N, He needs you as much as you need him.> 

He can have any mate he desires, not one as damaged as me. You stated bitterly to your wolf, and she snarled at you. He knows now Ive been used, and not suitable for the Bite.

Your eyes roamed over Steve momentiarly, and you couldn't see where he needed you, and your Little Wolf, calmed once more, nudges you again. <You can't always see it, the way he held you last night was just as much for him.> 

All this happening in the seconds Steve held his hand to yours, and you stepped forward, to let your slip into his, and stepping in closer to him. Your face tilted up to his, and this time it wasn't in sadness, but need and trust. “Thank You Alpha.” Together you two made your way back to his cabin, and this time when he stretched you out on his bed, the only one left now in the cabin, both of you  void of clothing, he couldn't help but admire you properly this time, his hands sliding along your sides to trace your curves, kisses flowing up and down your body worshipping till you were wriggling under him with soft pleas, when Steve would surge himself to fill you, there was a collective sigh between you two feeling him stretch you open and tighten around him, rocking together with deep demanding kisses and you tipping back when he told you to, coming completely undone. 

Other times it was rough and dominating fucking. Your hands pinned over your head in his own, hard demanding thrusts claiming not just your cunt, but your whole body, pounding it into the soft cotton sheets and feather pillows on the mattress, clashing teeth biting at each other's lips, and tongues, his hand in your hair to rip your head back, Steves licking a long claiming lap up the column to your ear, grunting in it. “Give it to me Little One.” He said in the dying twilight, leaving him in shadows above you, this blue eyes as always demanding your attention, doing the best you could to listen. It was hard when you felt yourself floating in a space that was all pleasure and relief, your fingers curling around his palm keeping you pinned to the mattress, nodding that you would, you would try. You wanted to listen to him, you and your wolf craved to give him what he wanted. But by this point you were so tired, you just wanted to curl into him and sleep, free now of the ache, he sated it, made it shrink away into a distant morning memory. You tipped your head into the pillows, screaming his name while he continued powerful demanding thrusts, your cunt locking around and the last thrust had him swelling inside of you, brimming you with his seed,making you whimper out in relief, and cutching to his chest. 

Careful Steve maneuvered both of you so you were straddled against his hips, rubbing your face into his shoulder and he told dragging breaths to ride out the Knotting, keeping you full of him. Your fingers dig slightly into his biceps as you rub your face into his neck, moaning out softly. “Fuck Im so tired.” Your yawning against his skin, and Steve rubs your back, kissing your temple. “Go to sleep Little One, I will be right here for you.” Rumbling softly from his chest, The Wolf settling to stand guard over your sleeping body. Steve can feel you sinking away after he tells you to, your breathing soft against his neck, and the Alpha waits till his own body cooperates, the knot easing down till he was soft again and able to ease you to lay on the bed, your lashes fluttering up for half a second before you shifted to your side, twisting till your back was pressed to him. 

Knowing you would be out for a few hours at least till your urges took over once more Steve slid a sheet up to pool around your hips in case you caught chill, and moved to the edge of the bed, picking up his pants to dig out his cell phone from his pocket. Being preoccupied for the day with his mate, he hadn't been able to check on Bucky and Natasha. When he saw no messages from them, his brow furrowed. Glancing over his shoulder to check that you were still sound asleep, he slipped on boxer shorts, and stepped out onto the deck from the door in the bedroom leading to the deck, leaving the door open to let the room fill with the fresh lake air. 

<Cant go to far Steve, she might need us soon.> 

I won't be, I know she's got another day or two like this. Remember not to get to attactched... Steve tried gently reminding the Wolf, and the Wolf just snorted in disbelief at this point.  

Still frowning as he pulled up texts, he didn't want to risk blowing Buckys cover should he be scouting Pierces lands by making his phone ring with a call. 

~Any updates Buck? Haven't heard anything from either you or N all day.~ Hitting send, he set his phone down on the railing, and leaning on his elbows, he looked out over the lake, watching the stars and moon shimmer over the surface. No longer full, it wasn't as bright as usual, but Steve still felt the pull to it. It was hard to believe the run had just been a few nights ago, seeing your sleek form weaving through the trees, yellow eyes reflecting at him playfully in the moonlight. Even after spending a day together in bed exploring all the ways he could make you come undone, Steve missed feeling your warmth press into him. 

Turning around, he could see the pale of your bare back in his dark bed, the moonlight lighting up enough to be able to study the curve of your hip just peeking out from under the sheet. Recalling how well you fit in his palms, you crying his name with those sweet pleases, wanting to cum again. The memory made him smile. 

<Imagine when she's swollen with a pup? All round and curves.>

Steves breath caught, but fertility was hard among shifters. For some reason, having kids took a long time for mated pairs, so he wasn't to worried, having never gotten pregnant with Alanna, and it wasn't like they didn't try. 

I don’t know what you think is going on, but we're not a mated pair. The likelihood I've gotten her pregnant yet is slim. 

<Right Steve, you didn't just spend all day making her yours in every sense of the word, short of giving the bite.> 

You heard her... I probably would have if she hadn't specifically asked us not to. Begged us not to . And you saw her back. It's understandable she wouldn't want that, maybe not ever. 

That idea made Steves heart ache a little, although he didn't have a strong bond with Alanna, it was still something Steve appreciated, giving there wolves a connection all just for them. Until he severed it, cut Alanna loose from his Wolf. His Wolf recalling the female he once shared his life with, started shaking out his fur to dispel the discomfort she brought up in him, even with the bond, the Alpha Wolf and Alanna’s Wolf fought more then were ever companions, always snapping at each other, rarely sharing affectionate moments in the bond. When they got to physically run together, it wasn't a smooth team, pulling one another up short on accident, the dance wolves did was never smooth with them two. They could never sync up... Unlike him and You on the beach. 

No, looking back on it, Steve knew bonding with Alanna was a mistake. Already this little bit he shared with You was different. Before he could get lost further in his thoughts, his phone buzzed with a message from Bucky. ~Alpha, N is with the pack now, and I'm waiting till I can extract her and bring her home.~ Steve read the message, but one part seemed odd, Bucky calling him Alpha. Never in there lives had Bucky called him that. Nicknames or Steve, but never Alpha. 

~Alpha? what the hells gotten into you. Stay safe brother.~ Hitting send his brow deepened in an unsettled way when he heard you stirring behind him, holding your hands over your breasts when you came up next to Steve, nudging his shoulder lightly with your nose. “You okay Alpha?” Now hearing you say Alpha stirred him in the right ways, and his face smoothed, cocking a smile at you. “Nothing to worry about Little One, but what are you doing awake?”   

“I couldn't sleep, not really. I had an urge... “ 

“An urge, for what Little One?” Steve questioned although he suspected he knew what she needed from him. 

Dropping your sheet to pool around your feet when you went to tiptoes, kissing his cheek and catching Steve by surprise when you grinned up at him. “A swim in the moonlight.” And just as quick as you were standing before him, you werent. Even in your human form you were quick, moving down the stairs to reach the end of the dock. Steve pushed his worries about Bucky out, and followed behind, catching up once you slowed down, and dipped your foot in the water, Steve wrapped his arms around you from behind, and with a loud squeal from you, both tumbled into the water, breaking the pristine still top playing while chasing each other around, swimming further out. 

Nothing but the night sky to witness you two catching each other, legs tangling together, arms around each other as you both pressed your lips together in a kiss.

Natasha paced the room, having been stuck in with other wolves for well over a day she was guessing. Once they brought her into the center of there lands, Pierce immediately rounded on her, and they forced her to shift back with threat of an injection. It could wipe out her Wolf if she was given to strong of a dose, immediately recognizing the solution filling the vial. 

“Well welcome to my pack.” Pierce had snarled out slightly, going up in the naked woman's face, lewedly sniffing her neck. “Thought you were being slick huh, come infiltrate into our pack. We already got your companion, the White Wolf.” Natashas heart sank knowing they had Bucky, but she gave no inclination of it physically. She didn't have all that training for nothing. 

“I don't know what your talking about Sir.” 

“Sir, I like that. But Im afraid you do, see I can smell him all over you. Same scent, your packs scent. Your Alphas scent. Although it's not as strong on you. I do like a little defiant bitch. Might just keep you for now. To bad Alpha Steve used you as bait, lost himself a good female.” Pierces hands circled Natashas throat and dragged her to his eye level, searching them for defiance. Natashas wolf was raging to attack him, to get his hands off her, but Natasha kept docile, calm, waiting. 

Let them underestimate me. It will be there biggest mistake.  

Her Wolf listened, her muscles flexing under her red fur, muzzle rolled just enough to show bared fangs. As soon as Natasha released her, she would rip out anyone's throat. 

“Put her with the others, they will give her something to wear.” Pierce finally decided, and  that was that. They dragged Natasha, still compliant to a holding area, and shoved her in. The woman immediately growling at the amount of people in the room, lounging around, waiting for something to happen. A few approached her as Natasha searched for a way out with a scan of her eyes. Windows were up high, higher then any of them could jump in either form, and steel wire bared being able to get through, the only door a steel one behind her. Sighing within’ herself, she turned her attention back to the few people coming to greet her, holding out a tank top and shorts. 

“Welcome to the Sales Floor.” One girl smiled as she handed over the clothing, Natasha grabbing it, the tank just a touch to small and the shorts a bit to big. 

“The what?” She asked and waved a hand over her outfit. “Thanks by the way, Im Natalie.” Giving a fake name just as easily as if she gave her actual name. 

“Sales Floor, were all for sale for the right buyer.” The girl held out her hand and Natasha shook it while trying to make a count of people in the room. She had been filled in on your situation a bit before leaving by Steve, and well this just confirmed all that they knew about You. The door clicked behind her, and two oversized men entered, growling at anyone close till everyone scrambled to get out of there way. One wasn't fast enough and the man's hand shot out to clasp around her neck, and the other checked her face, nodding. Without a word, they clasped a collar around her neck, and she immediately complied once it was on, falling to her knees and waiting. Two others were captured the same way, inspected and collared, then all 3 were led out of the room. 

“And what was that?!” Natasha asked, the girl, dread sinking into her gut. 

“They will be presented to some Alphas for sale. They will inspect them, and if they chose to purchase them, they will issue the bite to claim them. Of course if the bite doesn't work, they can return us. Also Im Kat.” She beckoned Natasha to follow her. “There’s not much to see of The Sales Floor, but let me show you around.” 

Natasha felt sickened by all this, seeing all this. We're leaving as soon as possible with as many of them as well can, and find Bucky to. 

<The sooner the better> The Red Wolf still coiled and ready, ears flattened and her green eyes shifting back and forth in mistrust at the others. There were at least a good twenty wolves crammed into a small space, danger laced the air with a sour taste. 

Natasha followed Kat, learning more and more to bring back to Steve. That was the first night, by the second night, the night Steve and You enjoyed your swim, Natasha had a rough plan in place, just waiting for the right opportunity.

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[thirstystarkey]

HATE CAN SOUND LIKE LOVE • JJ MAYBANK

Summary: JJ and Y/N have always fought, since everyone can remember. They both have short tempers and a endless love for surf and chaos. But what happens when they have to pretend to be a couple? Well.. people always said that hate can sound like love sometimes.

Warnings: Mention of underage drinking, drugs, minor violence, some smutty scenarios and a ton of sexual induendos, JJ being a hot idiot and Y/N a wild girl brat

CHAPTER 06

While the HMS pogue cut it’s way through the river all the pogues, except JJ and Y/N, chatted happily sharing some cool beers Kie had previously brought with her.

“What’s going on?” Kiara asked her friends due to the strange silence between them. She was used to break their fights and now they didn’t even talked.

“Nothing.” Y/N started, a bit annoyed. “Aside from my best friends basically kidnapping me.” Y/N looked at JJ who agreed with his head at her saying. “What did you said to my mom?”

“Oh that..” Kiara changed her body language, automatically looking over at the other boys who didn’t seem very excited to explain either.

“Before they start, I just want to say I wasn’t participating I was just supervising!” Pope said. Raising both hands in the air.

“What could you possibly say to my mother that is worse than what you already done to us?” Y/N asked, afraid of the answer.

“We said you and JJ went on a date.” John B announced fast.

“What?” The red head girl gasped.

“That’s not all we said.” Kiara began.

“Are you guys insane?” JJ manifested.

“They are!” Pope pointed at John B and Kiara.

“We also told your mother you were dating JJ.” John B tried not to laugh.

“I’m going to kill everyone of you while you all sleep.” Y/N was beyond pissed. “I bet my mom didn’t believe that bullshit.”

“Well, she actually did.” Pope said. “She even said she already suspected it.”

JJ and Y/N shared a disgusted look between them. The idea of them dating seemed so surreal to Y/N she almost felt sick to her stomach. The idea of dating Y/N scared JJ, he never had a actual serious girlfriend and he knew Y/N didn’t do the whole one night stand stuff. They were polar opposites.

In the next few days Y/N was on a mission to avoid her mom. She slept at Kiara’s home most of the days and when she eventually went home Y/N didn’t stayed long enough for her mom to ask any questions or even have the talk. Y/N never took any boys home, no one ever stood a chance with her for she always thought they were stupid and didn’t care about the same things as her. They didn’t see her for her but rather for her looks and Y/N loathed them for that. The other boys saw her as a price, a price they could never claim for Y/N was no trophy. She was free, she was a force of nature, she had the ocean’s soul in her spirit.

“Hello? Y/N?” Kiara called while snapping two fingers in her best friends face.

They were all at the beach enjoying a hot late afternoon after a surf session but Y/N’s mind was off and far from being chill. She had a storm called JJ Maybank living inside her mind creating a itch she couldn’t scratch. All the looks she receive around the island made her want to fight them for believing in her best friends lie.

“Wha-”

Y/N wasn’t able to finish her sentence because JJ picked her up throwing her in his shoulder easily, running at the waves direction. She screamed loud enough to catch everyone’s attention, her friends just laughed at the view.

When the cold water hit her body she swore it felt like tiny needles poking her.

“JJ why would you do this?” Y/N fumed.

“Because we need to talk, girlfriend.” He tried to keep her in place while she tried to run back to her towel.

“Fuck off and don’t call me that.” Y/N pulled JJ’s hair making him let her go off his grip.

Back at the sand her friends were laughing at the top of her lungs pointing at her and the blue eyed boy and that alone made her angry. They were having so much fun with her situation and she wanted to kick their asses.

“Even if you two were dating I bet it wouldn’t last for a month.” Pope said trying to catch his breath with a hand on his toned chest.

“A month? I wouldn’t give these two more than a week, with luck.” Kiara made her point.

“I’m done with this, I’m going home.” Y/N was livid, at the point off almost crying with anger. “Have fun.”

“And your mom?” John B inquired, they knew she was avoiding her mom for dear life.

“I don’t care.” She mumbled. “I will deal with her.” She said shrugging her shoulders. “But I can’t deal with this bullshit now.” Y/N pointed at her friends.

When she finished packing her things JJ tried to stop her but he couldn’t catch her in time to talk to her, so he decided to call it a day as well making his way back to John B’s chateau.

Once home the redheaded girl thanked god her mom wasn’t home, Tina had left her a note.

“I’m working a late shift don’t wait for me, we still need to talk about JJ, I love you honey.”

A loud sigh was heard from her, after reading the note Y/N made her way to the bathroom, she needed a warm bath to relax from before. When she was done and the water had run cold Y/N stepped out and dressed some comfy clothes, her plan for the night was to lay in her bed and ignore her problems. Pretending like she didn’t even existed.

But the girl was in a bad luck strike for her phone rang with a buzz not long after she started watching Gossip Girl on netflix.

With was a text message from JJ, which was weird, they never texted. They only texted each other to mock one another or when he sent her memes making fun of her, which she secretly laughed at and sometimes saved them. Something she would never admit to anyone.

JJ 🏄🏼‍♂️: Meet me at our beach in 15, we need to talk. I’m serious now.

JJ was never serious so she knew something was going on. She didn’t knew why she jumped right off her bed first thing when she finished reading the text message, she put on her black vans and grabbed her oversized jean jacket along with her keys on her way out.

As soon as Y/N’s had arrived at the beach both her and JJ surfed, the reason he called it their beach, she saw JJ standing there, with his back against the lifeguard house, in his hand a lit joint.

“Why did you call me here JJ?” Y/N voice was soft, she was actually tired. “I don’t want to fight.”

“Neither do I.” The boy agreed. “But I think we should get back at them for this little stupid prank.” JJ suggests.

They sat together at the steps and JJ offered to share his joint with the red head girl, who normally didn’t smoke but it had been a long day so she gladly took his offer, immediately surprise because JJ weed was strong.

“What’s the plan?” She asked after freeing the smoke from her lips, passing the joint to JJ.

“We should let everyone think we are actually dating, for a month.” JJ said serious. He wasn’t joking.

“You mean, date date?”

“Yes smartass, date date.” JJ giggled at her confusion.

“You’re insane.” The girl blurred out. “Last week we couldn’t stand being close and now you want to pretend we are together.” She pointed back and forth between them. “Actual dating, as in you are my boyfriend.” She laughed.

If there was one thing Y/N and JJ had in common it was their pride. Both of them being to stubborn to lose a bet or to let anyone say they couldn’t do a certain thing. But they never thought the pogues would use that in their disadvantage.

“So what you say, frenemies baby?” JJ held his hand her way.

“Frenemies.” They said in unison.

“But meet me at my place tomorrow, we need to figure this thing out.” Y/N warned JJ while getting up.

“Is lunch included in that talk?” JJ questioned with a raised brow.

“I can make something.” Y/N rolled her eyes.

“Then it’s a date babe.” JJ winked at her blowing her a kiss but Y/N raised her middle finger at him.

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[bakugoubabygirl]

           okay before I start she going to choose one. Don't worry if its not the one you wanted her to choose bc its going to be  a Roller coaster  of emotions and a lot of back and forth for awhile  BC I FUCKING LOVE BOTH  OF THESES BOYS. also  there will be smut soon and it wont be vanilla .  

                                                        YOUR POV

          "Lets go before they find us" I whispered tugging on Bakugou arm.  He didn't say a word and followed me.  " Lets get some food at the stand" I gave him smile. Bakugou followed me he seem kind of moody though more moody then usual .           " Are you going to say yes?" Was he asking about tododroki. I didn't give much thought to that . I like him  a lot but if I was being honest with myself i had feelings for someone else.       " I dont know I like him a lot and i think it would be amazing. But i also think I have feelings for someone else. To be fair they haven't shown no sign of returning this feeling. Maybe I ought to say yes and forget about the other guy like that" I admitted.        " Who is this other guy" He asked. Why was he so damn interested and how can i tell him its him.         "Not telling" I felt my face getting red. Next thing I Knew I was getting pinned against a wall.           " Tell me" He growled. Why was this bothering him so much. If only he knew that telling him would ruin our friend ship . He would never look at me the way I look at him. because I was made to  be the villan.  Bakugou strive to be perfect at everything and I was not perfect.           " Bakugou Its you stupid" Then I broke free from his grasp . I didn't want t o know his reaction or have him mocked me. I hurried and disappear into the crowd.    Still haven't found any thing to eat my tummy started growl. When I heard my name being called out, The next thing I knew someone dragged me off  somewhere quite. I'm so sick of being pulled around today. It was my dad, Honestly I was relived that it  wasn't Bakugou .        " Hey  I know you and how your going to give it all but You need to make sure your head is clear. Ive been studying and your powers  feed off you emotions.  I want to make sure you have a clear head" he said worriedly .  OH god I'm screwed my head is far  from clear.         "  Yeah I'm not focusing on anything right now except for winning" I said and I fake smiled.          " that's Great I Know your going to make me proud. I may be rooting midoryia but Your my number one and I hope you win more." He smiled. Pulled me and for a hug.           " Thank you dad and don't worry Ill cut all there throats open" I laughed.      Then it was time to to go back to the arena.  Time  to face bakugou mental and physical . I think mentally would be harder to do.  Midnight call me and bakugou to fight first.  I try not to think about what had conspire between us earlier. I need to focus to keep my head cleared.              We both step into the ring. Bakugou goes to attack me and I dodge it just in time. Then I Blast one of my purple fire balls at him and he dodge to . This was really upsetting, and I  Take one of my shadow hands out and it wraps around his body. I started to think about how he never loses. He was perfect and every way and would make a fine super hero one day.   something you'll never be  the voice was back again.  

                                                 Bakugou  POV

She had her hand wrapped around me. I  had to escape and then I saw  Her starting to levitate off the ground. Her eyes flash purple there was a gasp from the crowd.  She slam hard into the ground  with the shadow hand. She was Going to kill me.        I jump up and fired another explosion at her this time using more force.  She shield it and then made a big shadowy fist at the ground causing it to erupt . I almost fell but then I caught my balance.  This time I used my full force now that I knew it wouldn't hurt her too bad.       The explosion was so big she couldn't shield it. She was on the ground and lay there for several of seconds.  I walked over her to see if I have won and if she was okay. She started to get back up again and she grabbed a whole of me again.      She grabbed me so tight with the shadow arm I couldn't breath.  My face started to turn purple I was pretty sure I was going to die.  The crowed was screaming to let me go But she wouldn't listen.   " Y/n Please let me go I cant breathe" I try to say but she didn't hear or listen. She wouldn't do this on purpose.  Something was seriously wrong . this was not her. " Y/n Please I love you" at that point I didn't fucking care if the whole crowed thought I was a simp . I love her and I need her to came back. Her eyes turn back to e/c when I said that.    " Bakugou" she gasps and then dropped me. I could barley move I'm pretty sure she won but she just stared at me. Her eyes started to tear up. " I give up" she yelled. Then ran out of the arena . They announced me winner and The nursing girl came to heal up my minor wounds.  I was livid that I won that way. She threw the fight.

                                                                   Y/N POV

     I Brought shame on my dad and my school. I brought shame on myself. The whole world watch it happen too. They watch me turn into a monster. I almost killed bakugou and He never going to want anything to do with me again. I sat outside the stadium on the ground.  I'm no hero I cant even go and face what I done.       I must of sat there for hours and hours. It was finally dark and everyone left. it started  to  pour down rain.   I decided to go back into the arena to pick up my bag and stuff.  It was dark except for a couple security lights. I found my bag when I heard a familiar voice.       " Tch where did you go?" Bakugou asked. Was he still talking to me.        " heard you won congratulation"  I gave him a smile. The air was so cold I could see my own breath. 

                                            BAKUGOU POV 

 " THATS NOT HOW I WANTED TO WIN" he yelled. " YOU GAVE UP THAT FIGHT WAS YOURS"        " I almost killed you .  I was created for one reason and one reason only. The whole now know so to. I let you guys down and I let my dad down. How can I be the princess of peace when I cant even find peace in my own head.  I'm done," I said  tears started to pour out my eyes.        " IF i was the bad guy you would of won. Your powerful and just because its hard your going to pack up then Your not who I thought you were " he scoffed.         " I almost kill you and maybe next time I will. I care about you too much for that to happen" I cried. I started to turn away.  He grabbed my wrist and pulled me agaisnt him.        " I know you wont. You stop because your good and you over came it. we just have to work on it. Please stay if not for yourself then the million you could save with that power.         " I dont know how I stopped myself. All I remeber is blacking out and then waking to see me almost killing youself." I explain.             " I said something to you and then you just snapped out of it" He said nervously .              " Oh well what did you say" I asked.  This could help me find the answer.      " I told you I Love you"  He blushed. This was a side of him I never seen before. I think im falling to. Todoroki was important to me but in the end bakugou been here.  I wasnt sure if I was ready to say it back. I grabbed his face and kiss him. He started kissing back first it was soft but then its starts to get more rough and passionate. He grabbed my ass and pulled me agaisnt him. despite the freezing rain , I felt warm.               He pulled away but remain eye contact with me as he pulled something out of his of his jacket. It was a small box and he handed it to me. " I wanted to give this to you when I ask you out after I won the festival correctly . That didn't go as I plan but I still want to win your heart. please accept this and be my girl. I never done this soft shit and I'm sorry if it not something I'm going to show everyday. Your worth taking my pride down a little I guess" His face was red.       I open it up and it was a sliver bracelet with his name on it and diamonds. It was beautiful and way too much. I had no idea what to say. " Yes Ill be yours" he pulled me into a tight  hug.      " lets go to my place you need to get out of the rain and getting late" he said gently. It almost scared me the way he was being so kind.                                                                      Bakugou POV         We arrived at my place. She look like she was about to past out. Today was a lot on all of us. I didn't really won the sports festival but at least I won the girl. I just got to keep that damn icy hot away from her. I wanted to rip the necklace off of her that he gave her. She mine now.        " Hey you stupid bitch your late" my mom bitch. No good job bakugou or nothing.         " Fuck you too hoe" I said back flipping her off. She was about to really yell, until she saw Y/n  come in after me.             " Hey Y/n nice to see you again. I saw you tonight you should of just kill him and not worry about it' she laugh. The fucking old hag meant as a joke. Y/n face turn white though.  I grabbed her hand and lead her up to my bedroom. She seem like she was still half in a daze.        " Lets get out of these wet clothes. You can wear anything of mine for now." I said awkwardly. I knew we were dating but I didn't know her boundaries . There so much I want to do with her. She needed sleep tonight though. we both did.   she started to strip off in my room.  Oh, she wasn't paying attention to anything really. I couldn't help but to watch in amazement though. She took  off her clothes and strip down till she was naked. I had to use all my self control to not do anything. then she put on one of my T-shirts that looked like a dress on her and then a pair of my boxers.  I strip down to nothing and but my boxers and laid on my bed.     " come here princess" I yawned. She crawled into bed and laid on top of me. She feel asleep instantly but then here phone started going off. I  Pick it up and looks at it.  Deku: hey are you alright. Me and your dad are really worried.    Damn deku fucking worrying about my girl. I didn't want to give her a dad the pro hero a reason to hate me though. Me: yeah I'm fine just staying at a friend house. I'm really sleepy so I'm going to go to bed.   Then there was other messages on the screen so I looked. Todo: hey  Y/n I'm so worried about you. When you see this please answer and I was wondering if we could meet up tomorrow to talk about today and I have something I wanna ask you. I hope your safe and sleeping well beautiful. Oh hell  no. She mine and he going to back the fuck off.  I took a pictures of her sleeping on my chest and I sent it. Me: she mine and she sleeping fine thank you. Back the fuck off  she mine now!!!!!! Todo: I see for now that may be it. I don't give up and I especially wont stop until she mine. You well slip and when you do ill be there for her. Your impulsive and abusive and don't deserve her. Me: You come any where near her your dead I blocked his number from her phone.  I wrapped my arms tight around her and I pass out.    The sun filled the room waking me up. She was still asleep. She was so beautiful and peaceful when she sleep.  Her phone started buzzing causing her to wake.   " Where my phone" she sat up straight looking for it. I handed it to her. The number didn't have a caller id. She scrunch her nose in confusion.     " Hello who is this " she answered.      " Todoroki, are you alright?" I heard him answered.  Great rich boy has more then one phone.     " Yes, what happen to your old phone number?"      " Long story, where are you at?"     " Bakugou house, why whats wrong?" she asked worriedly     " Ill be there In 20" he said and then hung up.  " Do you have anything else I can where by chance?" she asked   " I think you look fine in that Idiot" I snorted grabbing her wait.   " I cant go out like this" she said digging though the bag of mina and kiri clothes that they leave here.      " Your not going anywhere with him and no way in hell wearing that" She hold up a short pink dress of mina. Mina was shorter then Y/n so this dress was gonna not cover anything. She took off my shirt and put on the dress anyways not listening to me at all.    She grabbed my hair brush and tied it back out her face. she look stunning even though she didn't try and its for him.  " I fucking mean it your not going anywhere with him" I yelled.   " Chill out you have to trust me. He one of my friends and I'm yours so don't worry" she said try reassuring me. I almost lost her to him though. He going to try all Kinds of flirty shit. I cant be okay with this but I have too. She will leave if I'm too controlling.   " One hour then come back" I grumbled.  " I have to go home afterwards and talk to my dad" She sigh. She was right even though I wanted some time with her. The door bell ring and I hurried up to open it. IT was half and half baster.   " Leave your hands off of her and no flirty shit or I will Murder you" I screamed and then Y/n push me put of the way. I grabbed her and kiss her so fucking hard in front of him. She push me away and laughed.     " I'm sorry about him" she said. Walking out of the door with him. I kept trying to talk myself out of following them. I decided to invite shitty hair over to distract me.

IM open up to ideas and or request for my one shot books I'm doing. Thank you for read part 7 will be here Thursday at the latest

[iphoenixrising]

I did not expect people to want more of the thing *shrugs* 

Thank-you for the comments on my assholery with cliff hangers @txbookeater​, I love you too babe <3. So much love to electra-iphigenie, emjalen, ships-lover, and @chibinightowl​ for talking up that post. Based on this thing. Warning for triggering themes. Be aware of good boyfriending, kink negotiations, and mentions of past sexual assault. 

Proceed at your own risk 

He takes in a breath, blank for a second, his brain catching up. “Could it possibly be in the bathroom before I get in a nice, hot shower? Followed by a few hours of unconsciousness? That would be really amazing right about now.”

Deflection is an art form, and he really is a master.  He shrugs off his bag, gives him an opportunity to turn away, aware of eyes and how he’s dragging ass, feeling off and irritable. His brain doesn’t have to keep moving from one thing to the next, and things are slowing down. A shudder runs like cold fingers down his spine.

“I think I’d rather ya do it right here, Tim,” and there’s no Sweets, Baby, or any other endearments to make this easier on him. Nope. 

(It’s fine. Breathe. Just some bruises. They’ve seen worse, had worse. They’re all adults here.)

“Jay, I am tired–” “You’re looking shaky, a little strung out.” Dick, at least, makes it gentle. “And I saw it already, so we both know. I’d rather see the damage without your shirt in the way.” “Then, we’re gonna talk ‘bout why ya didn’t tell us right away.” “Mmhm, we might need to have another talk about the rules when we play.” “You’re blowing this out of proportion,” he argues gently, rubbing his hands and wrists because his fingers are tingling. “We had a play date, and by the time I was getting...you know, sore, I was already at work, you were on patrol–” “You didn’t say a word about it to me,” Dick cuts in, “and you absolutely should have. Now, I’m wondering if you really do know your limits, and if I can trust you enough to stop us when you need to.” “I...I didn’t–” yes. Yes I did.

It’s as simple as breathing in too sharply, his ears suddenly ringing, and there’s rubber in his mouth, his teeth probably cutting into it, and it hurts. Normally, he’s okay with rough and multiple rounds, loves how they get when they need control, to feel like there’s something in their hands that can’t just be taken away. 

He gets it. Loves that their go-to outlet for it...is him. 

Even if he can’t come again, it still usually feels amazing, and crazy in his brain because they want him this much. Really, he loves them. 

(The bell clenched in his fist is making an indent in his palm. His chest constricts, just like last time, but he can at least gasp through the holes in the gag. So he doesn’t need to drop it. He wants to. It hurts and he wants to, but he doesn’t. He can take it. He’s had worse. This is for them.) 

Neither of them noticed it had gone from amazing to uncomfortable to painful, and he didn’t drop the bell. He didn’t tell them to stop, so really, it’s on him isn’t it?

Bile rushes up his throat, bringing him back to the very real present where Dick and Jay are suddenly really close, and he realizes he’s just sitting in Dick’s lap, shaking like a leaf.

His face is wet, his chest hitching. 

He doesn’t puke, so that is about a million points.

But, he is absolutely falling the utter fuck apart and that just isn’t conducive to his attempt at coming home to snuggle and pass out in blissful unconsciousness.

(This is his life. Seriously.)

“Shit, shit, shit,” the first attempt to move is right out the window because he’s on octopus hold lockdown.

(On one hand it feels nice to be held. On the other, he can’t escape and it feels restrictive, stifling, terrifying.)

“Hey, hey, Baby. Lookey here. That’s it, that’s good.” Jay is rubbing palms up and down the top of his calves, up to his knees and down to his ankles. He’s talking low and gentle. “I’m going ta the kitchen, n’ getcha some water. Then, we’re gonna talk ‘bout what’s doing, you feel me? If me and Dickie are gonna be able ta take care a’ ya, then we gotta know what’s in yer head.”

He’s breathing too hard, too fast, his hearing spotty at best.

“Ssshhh. You’re having a panic attack, Timmy. You’re hyperventilating, so I need for you to calm down now, okay?” 

Then Dick’s chest is under his tingling fingers, and the exaggerated breathing helps him slow it down, take back some of the control over his body.

He doesn’t feel like he’s going to pass out or puke, so the day is looking up. 

The absurdity of that thought it the thing that really makes him laugh, the sound hoarse, choked. 

“Okay, okay, you’re doing good, Timmy, just stay with me,” and he didn’t notice when Dick started rocking back-and-forth in a soothing motion, or when Jay got back and slid a hand around the nape of his neck.

He’s still shaky as fuck, curled up against Dick’s warmth, and fuck is he cold and wrung out. It feels like a high fever, joints achy, brain foggy, reaction time slow.

“...it’s a fucking drop, Dick. Look at ‘im!” “I’ve never heard of a delayed response like this.” “Knew we shoulda waiting ta scene. He went right from bed ta the pressure cooker, Dick.” “I should have picked up on it when I went to see him.” “S’all right, least we know what ta do now,” and Jay bends, pulls and lifts him like he isn’t a full grown man, pulling him in tight. “Need ta getcha all warm n’ snuggled, don’t we, Baby?”

Dick is throwing back the covers, but Tim doesn’t want to get in bed, not smelling like antiseptic and and bleach, but being warm, being able to hide his face in the pillow is really appealing.

He nods in Jay’s shoulder and lets just the scrub top be pulled off, leaving him in the nerd shirt underneath. He’s glad for it, already vulnerable, cold, shaky.

A straw to his mouth from no where and water before hands are helping him scoot over gingerly in the middle before flopping down on his good side with two warm vigilantes like bookends. Gentle circles on his back while Dick snakes an arm under his head, pulls him closer. 

“All right, that’s better.”

That hand hits a tender spot, and the flinch is automatic. “Sorry, Timmy. Once yer all warm, we’ll lookit how bad, yeah? Gonna lemme see, and it’s gonna be all right. S’ just me n’ Dickie.”

It’s awful because the two wrapped around him is fucking close to perfect and he isn’t feeling as shitty as he was at the ominous picture they made when he first walked in, and yeah, yeah, maybe it was stupid to try hiding it from them. He’s fuzzy about it, but he’s pretty sure that’s a rule somewhere in the Do’s and Don’ts for Playtime talk. 

He probably going to get a lecture. Possibly two.

“Sorry,” he finally says, voice stronger because his throat doesn’t feel like raw hamburger anymore. “I...that wasn’t supposed to happen. I don’t know why it was bad, but I’m s–”

“The only thing that would make me angry right now is if you apologize again,” Dick follows it up with scritches to take the sting out of it. “Something triggered you to have a severe drop, Timmy, and if you could tell us what happened, it would help us to make sure it doesn’t happen again. Can you understand that? We need to know so we don’t accidentally hurt you?”

He goes still and his chest hurts just a little.

“I...I should have safeworded out,” it hurts to say, “I sh-should have dropped it, but I thought I could take it, and then things got weird and my brain just, and I thought if I did it would be weak and-and you didn’t need that, and I-I just. I’m sore and it hurt and I didn’t– it’s my fault, okay. I should have because I know that’s a rule somewhere.”

and he keeps babbling on, rambling with his eyes getting hot and his vigilante boyfriends petting him, rocking with him, letting everything just pour out of him without stopping him or pulling away, just–

Dealing with his special brand of insanity. (Those darn abandonment issues. Golly, some day he won’t feel like his chest is being ripped open viciously with fear they’re going to walk the fuck out of his life and never come back.)

He’s finally talked out, feeling like ass about fucking up their morning.

“Your color is coming back, that’s good.” “Warmed all up, Dickie. Time ta tell it like it is.” Well. Shit.

“Yeah, yeah okay,” and he blinks up out of Dick’s chest with his eyes still puffy and his side tender, those blue eyes dark with something hard to interpret.

“I’m not happy you didn’t tell us immediately because we agreed to communicate about these things. D&S can be scarring, and this is just an example of how people get hurt.” 

“And I’m going to say this now so you understand how important it is. About the fact you didn’t safeword.” Dick’s chest expands, hitches, “You need to know, you’re not only protecting yourself when you do, but you’re protecting us, too.”

“I don’t–”

“Tim. I’ve been sexually assaulted several times, and you know that. So... knowing I hurt you that way makes me sick inside, okay. Can you– can you understand that?”

“I-I fuck, Dick, I’m–” “Please don’t say it. No more sorries. But, it’s important you understand Jay and I have our own traumas, so if you, not us, want to keep trying this, we have to navigate more carefully.”

Behind him, Jay’s forehead is nestled in the dip at the base of his neck, and a hard breath whistles down the back of his shirt. 

He despairs inside at how Dick and Jay must be feeling, how bad it looked to them that Tim hadn’t come clean, hadn’t safeworded at all. “I fucked up. I won’t do it again, I promise.”

Dick presses a gentle kiss in his hair, and Jay nuzzles against his throat. 

He gets more sips of water and eventually a panini and soup. There’s more cuddles and warmth, more talk that sucks the breath out of them all. 

His head wraps around the rules differently this time, taking careful note of the way Dick’s expression gets shuddered and Jay goes still. He assures them he still does want playtime sometimes, shoots down the notion he’s only doing it for them, tells them that when his brain is too full and he needs to give up control, he doesn’t want to do it with anyone else but them. 

He realizes it’s because somewhere, he knows they’ll take care of him...if he lets them.

Then his shirt comes off so the deep bruises can have Alfred’s magical concoction spread over. His cheeks are pink when he’s laid out on his stomach with the scrub pants tossed off the bed. Soft praise while he’s spread open by gentle hands to make sure he’s not torn. Bruised and sore yeah, but nothing too awful. He gets a pair of Dick’s cut-off sweatpants that still hit him below the knee and one of Jay’s shirts that he practically swims in, but he feels about a million times better just wearing their clothes.

And when they’re careful with him for the next few days, when love making is tender and slow, when touches are easy with his bruises in mind, when everything is verbal and consent is crucial, he make more of an effort to stomp down the urges to push his limits, push himself. He stomps down on those stupid recriminations and uncertainties, tries to remember that these two could be literally anywhere else in the world, and yet, here they are at his side.

He gets to have vigilantes bleeding on his fire escape, and the men under the mask in his bed, in his shower, in his kitchen, in his life. 

The next scene he yellows, gets a much needed pause before they continue, and the aftercare is truly a thing of beauty.

[rosyrosethings]

Harry and Y/n broke up a while ago but decided to be friends but Harry gets sick and Y/n takes care of him.

This is kinda a part 2 Harry doesn’t love Y/n anymore. But you don’t have read part 1 or maybe you do. Depends on the person.

Part 1

Harry and Y/n decided to just become friends after the break up. Even though Harry left her for someone else. Y/n couldn’t really live without him. She knew all of her life and they were dating for about 5 years going on 6. So they’ve been best friends since the break up honestly. Even though Harry and his girlfriend didn’t work out. Y/n was still there for him even though he made a dumb decision by Leaving her. But she was starting to like her co star Luke. In the movie that she was playing in. Luke was awesome and beautiful. So she felt like everything was going back on track. She was staying at Her friends Bri apartment until she found her own apartment. But she spent most of her time at Luke’s house.

Today she realized she hasn’t talked to Harry in a while. So she decided to call him and see how’s he doing.

“Hello?” Harry answered sounding horrible. Her face immediately scrunched up.

“Hello? Is this Harry? Did you a rat crawl in your throat or something.” She laughed. Harry rolled his eyes. “No I’m sick.” He said following by a cute sneeze. Y/n frowned.

“So what are you doing to fix that?” She asked. He shrugged and realized she can see him.

“Nothing. I might order some uber eats and eat a burger.” He said,

“No you’re sick. You need a home cooked meal not freaking take out. Be there in 5!!” She said, hanging up the phone. Quickly getting dressed. Luckily Luke was not here so she didn’t have to tell him where she was going. So she left the house stopping by the grocery store to get some food to make Harry and went to his home. She knocked on the door. Harry took to long to answer so she used the key she never gave back. Once she opened the door revealed Harry looking so cute and puffy in a over sized sweater and joggers.

“If you’re gonna use your key then why knock. “ he sniffed turning around walking back to the couch he lied on the couch snuggling back up in his cover.

“Because you took to long to answer the door.” She said, as she locked the door behind her. Placing her keys on the table. Then walking over to Harry. He was so adorable she thought. She kneeled down to eye height with him. She placed her hand on his forehead.

“You’re burning up love and you’re all wrapped up in these covers.” She said, he looked up at her. “I’m cold and hungry.” His green eyes just as beautiful as ever. He was thinking about how beautiful she was without any makeup her skin was glowing as it always does. He really missed being able to kiss and touch her skin when he wanted to.

“I’m gonna make you some chicken noodle soup. I’d be right back.” She said as she got up taking the grocery bags going to the kitchen. Shortly after cooking she was back with home made chicken noodle soup.

“Okay Harry sit up so you can eat.” He obliged to her command and sat up. Wrapping the blanket around his shoulders. She placed the tray of food in his lap.

“You remember when i bought this and you said you were never gonna use it?” She said referring to the food tray. Harry rolled his eyes at her and smiled slightly . “Y/n can I just eat my noodles?”he asked,

“Of course love.” She said and she sat next to him. Looking up at the tv. Seeing that he was watching the office. “Gosh Harry you’re watching the office without me?”

“I thought we agreed to watch together on Netflix.” She said looking over at him.

“We did, But we were in a relationship back when that happen.” He said, slowly eating his soup.

“Ohh yea. Well the office is funnier when you have someone to watch it with.”

“You’re right and aren’t you here with me?” He asked,

“Yes.”

“Are we watching the office together?”

“Yes.”

“Well seems like everything is right where it’s supposed to be.” He said with a slight smirk. causing y/n to smile. She loved to spend time with Harry. It always made her happy. He sat the tray down on the coffee table in front of them. Y/n frowned. “Harry you didn’t finish your soup.”

“Because I’m cold.” He mumbled, laying his head on her shoulder. “I want you to cuddle me.” He said pouting. She sighed.

“I will cuddle you but you have to take some medicine first and finish your soup.”

“You promise?”

“I promise Harry. I’d even play in your hair.” Harry immediately perked up and took his soup not even using the spoon just slurping it through the bowl. Y/n laughed as he finished his soup quickly. Placing the bowl on the table. She handed him the little cup of blue thick liquid that was on the he tray.

“Now bottoms up.” Harry quickly took the blue liquid making a funny face. She handed him his glass of water that quickly gulped down after that nasty medicine. He placed the empty glass on the table.

“Now we cuddle?” She nodded laying back on the opening her arms for him. He took off his sweater. Revealing his perfectly sculpted chest. His tattoos were soo hot. Y/n had to quickly snap herself out of it.

“Noo you have to take this off. I like skin to skin contact. You know this.” He said tugging at her white tshirt. Y/n laughed looking down at her T-shirt. “Harry you know I’m not your girlfriend right? Shirts off Is girlfriend privileges.” She took his hand. “Now lay down.” He pouted but nodded.

“I bet Luke gets to see you shirtless.” He said pouting while snuggling into her chest. Realizing she doesn’t have on a bra on. She put her hands through his hair. “Go to sleep Harry.” But Harry didn’t wanna sleep. Today was there 6 year anniversary and he wanted to spend it with her. Harry begin to rub on her thighs. Y/n didn’t pay too much attention to it though. She was on her phone scrolling through her Instagram. Harry really missed her. He just wanted to be like this forever. He snuggled into her neck.

“Stay the night?” He asked, Y/n sighed.

“Harry I don’t knowww.” Y/n said skeptically. Y/n said biting her lip.

“You can’t leave me. Remember what happened last time when i got sick?” Harry said lifting his head up to look up at her. Y/n thought back to the time Harry had a temperature of 104 and he was sweating in the middle of the night. He had such a high temperature that he was delusional. He thought he was cold. Y/n was on the phone with the doctor all night.

“Okay fine.”

//

Y/n ended up falling asleep with Harry on her chest. Harry on the other hand was too busy watching her face to sleep. He didn’t sleep. He was scared if went to sleep she’d be gone and he didn’t wanna deal with that.

“If you keep staring I will get up and walk away.” She mumbled, eyes still closed. He chuckled and continue to looked down at her. Y/n phone started to ring. She groaned and grabbed it answering the call. She knew it was luke

“Yes?... I’m sorry I was sleeping.. im at a friends.” She said, followed by long silence. Harry looked up at her wanting to know what’s going on.

“You’re at Harry’s aren’t you?” Luke said, y/n but her lip.

“Yea he was sick and he had no one to take care of him.” She said like a young child explaining to her parent. Luke groaned angrily as he paced back and forth through his home.

“Y/n Harry is obviously still in love with you. he wants you back and you’re just falling into his trap!” Y/n rolled her eyes at Luke’s response. “Luke he left me.. I’m pretty sure he doesn’t want me.”

“Y/n have you fucking looked in the mirror. You’re amazing and he realized what an asshole he is for leaving you!” He let out another groan in frustration. “Fine whatever. Fall for his game. I won’t always be here when he hurts you.” With that he ended the call. Y/n set down her phone with a sigh and looked down and the green eyed boy below her.

“What happened?” He asked, y/n laughed. “Nosy much?” She said back at him. She placed her hand on his forehead.

“You’re still warm. Let’s go upstairs and get you in bed.” She said, as she tried to sit up but the boy wouldn’t move. “C’mon Harry.”

“Are you gonna leave once we go upstairs?” He asked, as he sat up . His head down. Y/n frowned.

“Harry do you know what today is?Out of all dats to leave you alone why would I go today?” He couldn’t help to break into smile. She remembered it was there anniversary.

“I miss you. I’m sorry for what I did. I really need you in my life and I’m sorry.” He said looking up at her. She put her hands through his his hair and kissed his nose. “Harry how do I know you won’t just stop loving me again?”

“Marry me?” He asked, Y/n looked at him him confused trying to process what he said. “What?” She asked. Harry stood up

“Wait right here!” He demanded as he ran upstairs to his bed room going through his drawer on his dresser pulling out the small box and he quickly ran down stairs.

“I bought this right before I went on tour for our 6 year anniversary. I meant to give it to you once I came home but Instead I was being an asshole.” He said as he went down on one knee. He looked up at her sitting on the couch.

“Harry what are you doing?” She said, even though she knew exactly what he was doing.

“Y/n I don’t wanna live without you anymore. I don’t want to wake up to anyone else. I just want you. All of you and with this ring if you accept. I promise to love you forever and no one else. So will you marry me.”

“Yes, Yes, Yes!!”He grabbed her hand and slid the ring on her finger. She immediately wrapped her arms around him. ”I love you.”

” I love you more.” he said as he held her tightly.

[foolishlovebugbaby]

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Summary: when it comes to you, seo changbin will say everything else but those three little words to get his message across- but you’re not complaining.

warnings: kissing

word count: 3.5k

note: it’s 4am, im sick and disoriented from all the paracetamol running through my veins, and I managed to conjure up this very spontaneous and soft and delirious piece because thinking about whipped!changbin makes me all fuzzy. the goal is to get you all fuzzy too- enjoy :) leave a like/reblog/comment so i know whether yall like these kinds of pieces <3

Changbin loves spontaneous food rendezvous at ungodly hours of the night (or, to be precise, morning), which is exactly why you try to remember to keep your phone off whenever you sleep, otherwise you’d be woken from your slumber by a persistent and whiny voice begging you to get tteokbokki and mango juice from the 7-eleven on the other side of town.

That was, in fact, your current predicament because unfortunately for you, Changbin remembers the number to your landline to a T. “Pleasssseee? My treat, and I promise to help you with mechanics afterwards.” He can practically see your annoyed expression behind his eyelids as he peeks at your window from his parked car in front of your driveway. He knows that you desperately need help in mechanics, a subject he prides himself on being unexpectedly good at, and that you won’t be able to resist a tutoring session right before mid-terms. Manipulative, but in an I-just-want-to-see-you-when-are-you-going-to-take-the-hint way.

“I’m suing 7-eleven for their 24/7 policy on the grounds of sleep disruption,” Your sleepy voice softly seethes on the other end and he smiles. “So is that a yes?” He hears shuffling and quiet groans and a fuck, that hurt, before he sees the curtains to your windows open and a very sleepy, angry and disheveled you throwing the middle finger at him. “It’s a fuck you.” He grins. “Take your time, I’ll be here patiently waiting.” He teases and he sees you hang up the phone and stick your tongue out. 

He smiles to himself, already turning the heater on in his car because he knows you’ll complain about it being too cold. He’s done this thousands of times, yet each time you protest he can’t help but find it more and more endearing- your cute whine and messy bed hair and the way you snuggle up in his car seat when you ultimately decide to just come down and get it over with warms his heart like no other. 

Thousands of years from now, when social scientists research teen slang from the 2010’s and they stumble upon the word whipped, Seo Changbin would be the prime study example because dear lord is that boy whipped for you. 

“At this rate i’m convinced you just want to fatten me up and pull some Hansel and Gretel shit come winter,” You get into the passenger seat and put on your seatbelt in all your oversized sweater and sweatpants glory, and Changbin can’t help but wish he was the one keeping you warm. But he supposes his varsity sweatshirt that you wear over your tiny frame would suffice for now. 

“You and your irresponsible ass has barely been eating for the entirety of this exam season,” He pulls out of your driveway and heads towards the main road. “If anything, you should be thanking me for looking after you.” He smiles teasingly at your displeased, sulking face, and he wants to stare longer to admire your cute sleepy features and small frame curled up in his passenger seat but he’d rather not get into a car accident because he knows you’d kill him if the two of you died in a car crash. 

“You’re also the root cause of my sleep irregularities, so thank you very much.” You smile sarcastically at him, and he’d return one right back if it weren’t for the fact that he felt bad about waking you up in the middle of the night. “Is it my fault that I just want to see more of you since school’s been holding you hostage and away from me?” He pouts and sends a puppy eyed look your way, and you huff. “You know you can come over anytime during the week,” You mumble, even though you understand his sentiment. 

It was your last year of highschool and soon enough, the both of you would be whisked away into completely different lives. Time was withering away right before you- heck, you swore you just blinked and autumn was already all around you. It didn’t help that your senior year schedule was practically designed by satan to keep the two of you away from each other. But, as the saying goes, if there’s a will there’s a way, and Changbin’s got the will of a thousand spartans.

“Yeah, but I don’t want to distract you from your study time or steal you away from your family during weekends. So now my nights are reserved for you and only you.” He says pointedly as the car nears the 7-eleven too well-lit for its own good. He doesn’t notice the fact that you bite your lip bashfully at his words. 

“You? Distract me? In your wildest dreams.” You huff, lying through your teeth, and he immediately thinks In my wildest dreams indeed. The amount of times he’s daydreamed about kissing up your neck as you whined about needing to solve a Chemistry question before ultimately being unable to resist the urge to sit on his lap and kiss the life out of him is too many to count, and he coughs the thought away as soon as it comes. “We’re here.”

He pulls up in front of the store, turning the engine off and taking his keys out of the ignition. “Do I have to go inside?” You whine, reclining further into his red pleather seats and snuggling into the Totoro pillow you purposely left in his car for nights like this. He wants to say no, that you and your adorable ass can stay in the car so long as you’re snuggled up next to him while the radio sings in the background, but he’s a coward that’s not ready to have that conversation.

“Yes, now get out of my car before I lock you inside.” You pout and force yourself out of his car.

“So, is it a tteokbokki or steamed buns kind of night?” He quips from beside you as you two walk towards the doors. It’s bloody freezing outside, and Changbin notices you shoving your hands deep into your pockets as you walk a little closer too him. He wants to hold your hands, but his own reroute themselves and open the doors for you instead. “M’lady,” He says and flashes a smile. You roll your eyes at his cheekiness.

Your eyes sparkle under the bright fluorescent white lights inside the store, “It’s a hot chocolate kinda night,” You rush over to the hot drink dispenser and he chuckles at your sheer cuteness. The cashier is half asleep when he greets Changbin, eyes half-lidded and barely standing up behind the counter, and Changbin sends him a small wave.

“Someone’s tired,” He says, pointing out the obvious. “No kidding. You kids are my only customers at this hour.” The cashier manages to get out as he yawns. “Knock yourself out,” He waves sleepily. 

Changbin makes his way for the ‘instant’ aisle, trying to find his beloved spicy tteokbokki pack and some string cheese to satiate his cravings. He crouches down when he spots his favorite brand, ‘Hm, do I want it more saucy or more dry tonight? Decisions decisions…” He thinks to himself. When he finally settles on the less saucy version (of course, because practicality, duh), he sees you emerge from his peripheral vision.

“Got what I need,” You say, left hand carrying your hot chocolate while your arms hold a bag of gummy bears, a carton of mango juice, and a bottle of water while you smile sheepishly at him. His heart is screaming at how cute you look, but his face is mocking you. 

“What was that again about not wanting anything from the store?” He says smugly, and you make a face at him. “Oh hush, you’re paying for it so I thought, why not?” You defend and he laughs, making his way towards you. “Sure.” He teases.

 You stick his tongue out at him and he puts a hand on your shoulder, turning you towards the cashier. “C’mon, let’s get out of here.” 

You two pay for your late-night grabs- well, he pays for everything and you pay with a bright grin and a side hug and a pat on his back (but he’s not complaining)- and he makes his tteokbokki bowl at the designated station before you two walk towards the street bench on the other side of the road. 

“Want some?” He offers cutely, cheeks filled with rice cakes as you swing your bag full of goodies back and forth. “I think I’ll pass,” You say with a smile, your eyes bashfully looking away at his sheer cuteness. You cover up your embarrassment with a sip of steaming chocolate.

“More for me,” He shrugs and you both plant yourselves on the bench. 

The trees shroud around above you both as you overlook the canal, the city completely dark before you. The street lamps are dim and no cars pass on the road behind you, but the pair of you wouldn’t have it any other way. It’s soothing and Changbin wouldn’t trade these moments with you for the world. 

In a flash, he finishes his tteokbokki. “You practically inhaled that.” You say amusedly as he chucks the bowl in the trashcan next to him. “I’m a growing boy, sue me.” He says as he grabs the water bottle in your bag. “May I?” 

“It’s yours, stupid. You always forget to buy one and I always have to pick it up for you,” He smiles at that. “Aw, how cute of you.” He takes a swig and notices your ears turn pink at his comment. “What would you do without me?” You say as a joke but he’s completely serious when he says “I have no idea.” 

You breathe out a chuckle. “Sometimes I wonder how different things will be once we both get out of this town.” Changbin sighs wistfully at that and reclines further into the bench, not liking the idea of leaving at all. 

“Well, I’d like to think that we’d still facetime 24/7, obviously, and I’ll take a drive to your dorm once a week at times like this for a local food trip around your campus town.” His says as if it were the most obvious thing in the world, though his mind runs a mile a minute at the thought of losing you because of distance. He looks into your puppy-dog eyes, and he swears the entire cosmos resides in them.

“Promise?” You stick out your pinky and he intertwines his. “Promise.” 

“Good, because I won’t be able to live without you,” His gut flips at your comment, and you chug down the rest of your hot coco. 

“God, it’s fucking freezing.” You shiver when a gust of wind blows past you. On a chilly November night with absolutely no one around to cringe at his actions, Changbin happily decides to prove to you that chivalry is, in fact, not dead. “You should’ve worn an extra layer, silly.” He takes off his black zip-up hoodie and places it over your shoulders, running his hands over your arms to warm you up. “Better?” He keeps his arm firmly planted around your shoulders, and his face is so close to yours that he can see all your tiny, minuscule freckles in dim lighting. Never mind the fact that he was lowkey freezing in his plain black long-sleeve; he figures holding you close to keep you warm was worth the hypothermia. 

He sees crimson spread across your cheeks like a wildfire, “M-much,” You mumble silently. Maybe it was the fact that your eyes twinkled up at him in the moonlight, or the fact that your face was so close to his he could almost kiss you, but Changbin’s heart starts palpitating and skipping beats all at once as he thinks to himself, god, i’m in love with you. Ofcourse, he doesn’t say this out loud. But in another world where he isn’t a coward and timing was on his side, he likes to think that he wouldn’t let you forget it. 

He doesn’t know that butterflies swarm your insides and that you think to yourself, I think I’m in love, and that the combination of his intoxicating scent and the way he looks at you as if you were his entire world makes you woozy and weak in the knees. It’s frustrating, really, how two people could be so silently in love with each other and not say a thing. 

But tonight was the Night of Nights, and before he knew it, Changbin began leaning closer to you. He doesn’t know what’s taken over him, but he doesn’t do anything to stop it. Because there you were, the girl of his dreams a mere inch away from his lips looking as beautiful as ever, about to be whisked away from him in a few months. Screw it. 

His eyes are half-lidded as they flicker between your eyes and lips, and yours mimic his. It’s so agonisingly slow, but the moment he feels your lips on his, all his worries melt away. Your lips are cold but impossibly soft against his own, and it makes his body erupt in tingles all around. Something cheesy like fireworks, but maybe a grenade going off would better describe how his insides feel.

He doesn’t want the moment to end, but you pull away slowly and rest your forehead on his, eyes shut and teeth clamped on your bottom lip. 

You don’t know why you pull back, and you immediately miss the feeling of his lips on your own, but Changbin assumes the worst. Fuck, maybe that was uncalled for, his heart sinks to the ground and he nervously chews down on his lip. “Let’s get you home,” He says dejectedly, pulling his forehead away from yours and your sorry eyes meet his. He retracts his arm around your shoulders and stands up, wanting nothing more than for the ground to swallow him whole, and you follow him silently to the car. 

The drive back is anything but comfortable- the air between the pair of you is stiff and and suffocating and every synonym for awkward and you wonder why the hell you pulled away because you know your heart wanted to remain on that roadside bench, kissing him until the sun rose. But you’re stupid, so instead you sit in his car while he silently drives you back home, and every passing minute is another minute away from his lips. 

Wordlessly, Changbin pulls into your driveway and his heart sinks down further to the earth’s core. “Sorry for tonight.” His voice is barely above a whisper and his eyes refuse to look at you, which breaks your heart. You want to ramble and say that it’s a misunderstanding, that you have so many bloody feelings for him, but the words get caught in your throat. 

“Changbin?” Is all you manage to get out. He still doesn’t look at you, not because he hates you but because he hates himself for acting on his feelings, and instead looks at his lap. Words weren’t going to get you anywhere, you decide, and you suck in a breath. You reach over and grab his face. Here goes nothing. 

You kiss him this time, a lot more harder than before, and Changbin swears he’s dreaming. Like, he’s waiting for pigs to fly around in the background and for The Walters to appear in your driveway singing ‘She’s Going to Leave You’ because he can’t fathom a world in which you like him back. But none of those things happen, and you’re still kissing him with so much passion and certainty that he figures even if it were a dream, he’ll take it. 

His lips move in sync against your own and makes sure that everything he’s ever held back is poured into this moment. The kiss earlier was in the spur of the moment, but this- this is completely intentional. Maybe that’s why you pulled away. The thought of a kiss between you both simply being just that- a kiss and nothing more. That in the morning neither of you would acknowledge it ever happening. You needed some type of confirmation that things were real; thank the stars you got what you were looking for. 

His hands rest on top of yours and he brings you closer, needing more of you and your touch. But the compartment in between you both is a literal cockblock and he wants to rip it out just so he take you into his arms completely. He’s delirious, and he blames you. 

“Want to come in? It’s a lot warmer in my room,” You say through soft breaths, the wind completely knocked out of your chest and Changbin places soft pecks from the corner of your mouth to your chin. “I don’t mind.” 

It doesn’t take much for either of you to get out of his car and for him to lock it behind you. His adrenaline is rushing and he just wants to hold you and kiss you again, but goddammit, you’re fumbling with your keys not knowing which one is which thanks to the absence of lighting on your front porch- it doesn’t help that he’s decided to plant his hands firmly on your waist as he lightly kisses down the nape of your neck. Fuck you, Seo Changbin. 

The door finally opens after what feels like an eternity, and you make it a point to turn around and shush him. “My parents are asleep,” You look at him with alarmed eyes and he raises his hands up. “I can be quiet, but no promises.” The nuance in his statement makes you blush and he sends a cheeky wink your way. You’re mid eye-roll when he grabs your wrist and heads towards your staircase. 

You’re both clumsy and haphazard as you walk up the stairs, almost tripping and Fuck, I stubbed my pinky toe, but you both fortunately make it up to your room in one piece. Changbin’s heart is beating so fast that he’s genuinely worried you’ll feel it against your palms when you place them over his chest- and you do, by the way- but you’re leaving sweet kisses against his neck that the prospect of dying from cardiac arrest doesn’t scare him because atleast he’ll die happy. 

“So, mechanics later?” He says panting, forehead against yours as he has you between him and your door, thumbs rubbing circles against your waist underneath his sweatshirt and jacket. “Totally,” You tiptoe and kiss him again. 

You taste so sweet against his lips, and at first he thinks it’s the lingering taste of hot chocolate, but he’s come to the conclusion that it’s just because it’s you. His adoring, sweet girl that he takes on midnight food runs because he’s afraid of missing her. The girl that can make his gut flip and mind scramble with a smile. It’s cheesy, and you’re slightly lactose intolerant, but it’s the entire goddamn truth. 

His jacket suddenly claims domain on your floor and you both kick off your sneakers, never pulling away from each other, and suddenly your bed feels a little warmer than last night. He kisses down your neck, something he’s always wanted to do, and you run your hands through his hair. Insane isn’t enough of a word to describe the way he’s feeling, but the search for a word that can encompass all his rampant thoughts would have to wait. 

“You’re the best part about my day,” He whispers into your neck, and you sigh with closed eyes at the feeling. You bite back a smile “I know,” 

“I know? I know-?” He pulls back, half-joking and half-serious, and you’re giggle while you run your hands over his torso. “Yes, I know,” You leave a kiss on his jaw, “And you’re my favorite part of the night,” He’s obviously the favorite part of your entire life, but that statement would have to do for now. He nods his head, “I’ll take it.” and goes back to kissing you. 

Those three daunting words stuck in his throat- and, frankly, yours- make themselves out of his mouth in different ways because perhaps saying them verbatim would shake his entire world, and he’s not sure why he’s scared because he knows you’d say them back. So instead, through voices barely above a whisper and warm hands running along your body, he tries to show you what those three words really mean to him. He’s sleepy and delirious and he’s honestly convinced he’s dreaming, but it’s the greatest thing to ever happen to him. You are the greatest thing to ever happen to him. You both could come up with a title some other time, he concludes, because kissing you is of the utmost priority to him at 2AM. 

Labels were overrated, anyway.

[klaus-is-the-real-number-1]

She’s Electric (Number 5 x reader)

54A/N: wowowow so im not smart at all so hopefully i pulled the whole fake smart act because im pure clueless :))) hope yas enjoy :)) still havent posted the playlist of all the songs because my spotify has my full name and am not that commited for ppl to find this soo. and i also went a bit off like i hope this is what you want lmao.:)) stay fresh. (ok so you have powers in this and its more like portal jumping rather than spatial jumping so you like create holes and jump down ? if that makes sense(also if anyone gets the date hmu))

ASK: jellyxfulll:hi could you please do one where the reader is really smart, likes coffee and sarcasm (legit a carbon copy of him) like five and when he meets them he’s absolutely smitten ? i have a lot in common with him anD i wAnt to bE loVed bY mY fiCtionAl chAracteR

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Black coffee steamed in it’s mug as it sat out in the open, wind swirling it in different patterns. The swirls of steam looked like it was dancing a tango, as if the beat it was dancing too kept getting faster and faster until a sudden stop and the steam disappears, signifying the end of a dramatic dance. 

Black ink stained up the side of your hand as you furiously wrote away, you just couldn’t get the equation right and you couldn’t use your powers, not yet. You were on the run from the commission as they wanted to use you for your powers, it was a valuable asset, time travel and dimension jumping, the Handler said it could open a whole new market for them but once you refused they came after you. 

You’d got the equation wrong while you were running and you got stuck, you got stuck somewhere, an abandoned world that hadn’t been looked after. Years and years passed with you stuck in the wasteland of a world until the Handler came back but you couldn’t say no otherwise you’d die alone with no chance of seeing your loved ones again. So you became a killer to survive, you kept to yourself. In that world it was kill or be killed.

After years of service you thought you had the equation, endless nights of black coffee and sleep deprivation you thought you’d got it right. All you wanted to do is go and see your family again but next thing you knew you were 16 years old again and stuck in some random dimension but it was a start. You had removed any form of tracker the Handler had on you back in 1854 after completing your last mission.

During your time in the small town you’d managed to get a small job to rent a tiny one bedroom apartment, it wasn’t the best but it would do for the time being, until you get the maths right.

You let out an exasperated sigh, slamming your pen down on your scribble ridden page. It was a bright but nippy day meaning you could sit outside in peace and be uninterrupted. Griddy’s was always quiet on week days, the perfect time to go for a black coffee and just go over everything that’s happened, it’s good to do that sometimes, just to think and remember.

Reaching for your coffee, you underestimated the distance between the mug and your hand resulting in the mug falling. You open a portal under it so it falls right into your hand and take a sip, placing it down gently in it’s original place. 

“How did you do that?” A boy was suddenly next to you, an excitable expression present on his face. He looked about the same age as you, but he had a look in his eyes, like he’d seen some things.

“What do you mean?” You ask, pretending to be confused, taking another sip of your coffee. You watched as he pulled the seat opposite to you out and sat down crossing his arms and legs simultaneously. He looked at you with a slight smirk.

“You’re y/n, aren’t you?” He leant back in his chair, scanning you up and down. “I’ve heard so much about you.” His eyes could tell 1000 stories but you could tell that he had no one to tell, no one would understand.

“huh, interesting, I’m not going to lie to you, I don’t really know who you are.” You say matching his movements but making sure you can have easy access to some form of weapon of he attacks. For all you knew he could be part if the commission finally catching up to you.

“I’m Five, ex-commission.” You narrow your eyes at him as he sticks his hand out, you take a glance at his hand. You reach out but just before you meet his hand you grab the handle of your mug, bringing it to your lips. Fives hand drops and he lets out a breathy laugh, crossing his arms again.

“I would introduce myself but you seem to already know who I am so I guess there’s no need.” You give him a sickly sweet smile before taking another sip. You had heard a little bit about Five, he had a similar story to you,stuck in an apocalypse, ran away from the Commission to see his family and tried (and succeeded) to stop the apocalypse.

Five couldn’t believe his eyes when he first saw what you did with the mug, there was only one person who he had heard that could do that, y/n. Five had heard rumours upon rumours about y/n, an example of some is that she was the most deadly killer the commission had ever seen and the prettiest person the universe had ever seen, and Five couldn’t agree more. He couldn’t imagine you ever killing anybody, your hair loosely hung with strands tucked behind your ear. Five took in your soft features, the warmth of your eyes and the freckles that littered all over your face and arms, presumably from the years in the apocalypse.

“It’s rude to stare.” You tell Five, not even looking up from your writings. Out of the corner of your eye you see him shift uncomfortably, averting his eyes. “Listen, I don’t know why you’re still here but if you’re lying about being ex-commission and are here to try and kill me I think you should reconsider your options because we both know who will make it out alive.”

“I’m not lying about being ex-commission, I know what it’s like and I think I can help you with getting back.” Locking eyes with Five, you saw the sincerity in his eyes. He held out his hand, you think about the worst possible outcomes from this situation, you take his hand. 

You had never travelled the way Five normally does, you just were not used to it. As soon you reached the desired destination your knees gave out and a wave of nausea washed over you. A retching sound made it’s way out of your body as you cover your mouth with shaking hands, as if that would stop you from being sick.

“How the fuck do you travel like that?” You almost shout at Five, staring at him from the floor, you didn’t even know where you were, you didn’t care. Another wave came over you again along with a banging headache. The one thing that you were grateful for in the Commission is that they let you travel how you wanted, the first time you had used a briefcase you could’t stop shaking and being sick which wasn’t the most efficient if you needed to complete a mission.

With a flash of blue Five was holding a glass of water crouched down next to you. “Here take this.” He held the glass closer to you.

“How is making me sick going to help me get home?” You say cautiously taking the glass from his hand. You sit up straight and try to take a deep breath in.

“Just show me your equations, I’ll see what I can do.”

Days turned into weeks, then weeks into months. The more time you spent with Five the more you began to forget about the equation. Truth be told, you got the right equation about 3 weeks into working on it with Five. After years of being alone you liked spending all this time with Five, you were both equally as emotionally deprived as each other, both in need of a friend who you could relate to.

Feelings for Five was also a newly developed emotion, the more time you spent with him the stronger these feelings got and all of his family could tell. You had met the Hargreeves on many occasions, often getting comments about how much you had made him come out of his shell since he stopped the apocalypse. But it’s not like you wouldn’t do couply things, if that was even a word, you would hold hands, cuddle and exchange compliments back and forth all the time. It was done so casually, as if you both didn’t know what to do with your feelings.

You were currently laid down with your head in Fives lap as he absentmindedly ran his fingers through your hair, occasionally twirling stands in his fingers. It was a summers day, natural light streamed through the open window, giving the room a natural glow. 

“y/n,” He lightly taps your nose. “You’re really pretty.” 

You smile, leaning into his touch. You knew you had to tell him at some point, about the equation, you just didn’t know how. Sighing, you sat up and faced Five, you noticed in the past months how his features had softened from the hard, brooding looks he used to give.

“Five, I’ve found the equation.”

“What?”

“I’ve found the equation.” You repeat with more force. “But I’m torn, I don’t know what to do.” You searched his face, trying to read the emotion. “I miss my family so much. But I don’t want to leave here, you’ve shown me theres so much in this timeline.” His face dropped.

Five didn’t want to sound selfish but he didn’t want you to leave, the past few months had been the best time of his life, he’d found someone who understands him. Y/N never questioned his coping mechanisms, you had actually made him accept his own past and move on with his life. He doesn’t know what he’d do without you. Five eyes began to sting, he felt a wave of sadness but also anger, he felt himself getting warm, an uncontrollable range swept over, consuming any other emotion that was in it’s way.

“How long have you had it for.” Five had a quite voice, not looking you in the eyes.

“A few months.” You watch as Fives fist clenched. “Five I-” But he had cut you off.

“So you’ve just been leading me on.” Five eyes met yours. They weren’t the soft, welcoming eyes you had come to love, they were cold, hard and shut off, the only emotion you could see in his eyes was anger.

“What no, why would you-”

“Maybe you should just leave.” Your chest sank, Five let you go from his grip and stood up. He looked like the killer you had only heard about mere months ago, he didn’t look like your Five anymore. “Just go, y/n.”

So you did, no arguments, no questioning, you had gone. As soon as you left the room Five caught a glimpse of himself in the mirror but the reflection wasn’t him, it was the killer that he thought he’d left in the Commission, he was his clenched fists and cold eyes. He couldn’t believe he spoke to y/n like that, looking like this.

“Y/N!” He called out, he was in a cold panic. He kept calling your name out, traveling to your work, your house, all your favourite places but you weren’t there. Five had been told that you handed in your resignation at work and your flat was cleared, you had gone home.

Five didn’t know what to do with himself since you had left, he was constantly thinking about the what ifs, what if he acted differently, what if he didn’t snap. You had been gone from Fives timeline for almost a year, he didn’t have much to remember you by other than one picture that he had on his bed side table. The picture was taken by Allison of the two of you, you had both fallen asleep on the sofa downstairs, you looked so peaceful together as Five held you in his arms. 

He fell in love with you in the time he had met you, the complexity of love confused him but he wanted to figure it out with you. He loved the way you talked, how you carried yourself, your smarts, your personality, everything. It was a cold night and Five wasn’t able to sleep, he just laid there staring at the ceiling. There was a strange noise, a noise he knew well, y/n. 

“Hey Five.” You were breathless, it had taken you so long to find the right equation for the frequency of Fives timeline, to see him again.

Five couldn’t believe his eyes, you were really there. Without a second thought Five leapt out of his bed and crashed his lips to yours, he pulled away and tightly wrapped his arms around your frame.

“I’m so sorry y/n. I’ve missed you so much.” You couldn’t agree more, leaving was an impulse moment of anger, there was a gap in your heart that only Five could fill. “y/n, I love you so much.” He held your hands, his eyes were soft again, filled with love.

“I love you too.”

[petalpetal]

fe3h prompts

Date stood me up for the ball and its time for (insert character) to save the day

study date!!

Wow that (weapon) technique is so cool can you teach me that!!!

all the seats in the dining hall are taken so now u have to sit next to your crush

You got Chore duty with your crush!!

Supply run with your crush

Passing notes in class

Battling together back to back

“Shit i forgot a pen can i borrow yours thanks” and then keep finding excuses to see each other and give the pen back and you never do oops

wow you really kept that silly doodle I gave you 5 years ago

Got injured in a battle and now i have to tenderly dress your wounds while gently scolding you for being so reckless and oh suddenly we are kissing

broke foot during training and oh no now your crush has to carry to the infirmary on the other side of of the monastery and everyone can see.

and there was only one bed

We promised to meet up in five years and the war started and we seek solace in each other but have to wait until after the war to start a relationship but oh god is the wait worth it

We promised to meet up in five years and the war started and we’re on opposite sides but we run away together

Love letters across five years that slowly become more romantic until the war finally ends and i can kiss you so sweet

A proposal during the monestary time that has to wait for five years but of course i didnt change my mind i love you after all

Reader get kidnaps by bandits while out on mission

You won the heron cup contest and im so proud of you! But oh…oh the dancer costume is…wow

oh no it’s kind of cold we gotta cuddle for warmth haha ;>

oh no you broke your ankle right before the heron cup

you’re training with your (insert character) and you knock their weapon away and you jokingly put your weapon right under their chin and oh no suddenly you’re both into that dahkdjskd

You dont know how to dance so i start leading you through it and its fun at first and then we’re just kinda swaying back and forth with no music and eventually we stop but im still dizzy and you dip me and oh…

night of the ball, you both get away from the noise and start dancing quietly together

You write poetry for [character] and hide it because youre too shy to send it but they find it  before you can stop them and oh shit im sorry–oh nevermind we are kissing now

THAT LOVE LETTER WASNT MEANT TO BE SENT!!!!

crush passed out from being sick during battle because they refused to admit that they where sick

you wake up and the first thing you see is their face over you, crying. “Dont you ever do that again”

i dont tell you i love until im literally bleeding out in your arms

Visiting them in theirroom but- oh fuck how are you fitting all these cats and dogs in here what are you doing howd you get them all to stay

plase help me get this angry cat out of my room

we’re about to die because we’re so outnumbered by the enemy but if i had to die there would be no better place to do it than by your side

wow where your jeleouse dude chill that was my cousin we havent seen each other in 3 years

please hold me I’m scared at the thought of having to fight old friends

we just woke up, the sun is barely up, the world seems to just be waking up too and the beds still so warm and ‘do we have to get up?’ so we just stay curled up in each other’s arms lazing around and going back to sleep”

your crush sleep walks into your bed at night what do you do?

You keep leaving flowers outside my room and i dont know its you until i see you leaving them and catch you in the act

if you refuse to to sleep then i refuse to sleep

i know flower language but you dont know that so i 100% know what it means when you hand me that specific flower

You wake up in an empty bed and PANIC but ur s/o was literally just grabbing tea, please calm down,

looks like we got seppareted from the group we are gonna have to spend the night here

you hurt ur crush during training

we’re the only ones in the room and we just decide to change out of our armor and we won’t look @ each other much but then the rest of our friends walk in and see us half naked and we’re too busy blushing to actually explain

you have fever and you accidentally confess to your crush

Oh no! you fell into the fishing pond in front of your crush

Byleth decided to pair you up with ur crush during battle

oh no we’re trapped in the storage room!

you accidentally fall asleep on ur crush

i wasn’t supposed to have this thing to start with, but can you help me find it?

OH!! SHIT IM SORRY I DIDNT MEAN TO SCARE YOU!!!

Character KO’s crush during training by accident

gets harrased or robbed while shopping and crush comes in to save the day

[byuniieo]

‘Lovely Guardian - CH 1’

「pairing: baekhyun x reader」

「genre:mafia!AU racer!AU & little bit of university!AU」

「☻A ♡F ✿S (later on)」 ✧ 「༄ - on going mini-series」

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Word Count: 4365 

·˚A/N✎ ﹏ I made a playlist (on spotify) that helped me create this story!! Feel free to listen to it !!

Lovely Guardian’s PLAYLIST ❀

。・゜    ♡ ・ 。       。・゜     ♡ ・ 。       。・゜ ♡   。・゜   ♡ ・ 。

Being early october meant there was rain and cold wind. It was fall and it’s one of your favorite seasons despite you not like being cold. You liked being able to wear warm and big baggy hoodies and the rain made you nostalgic, you thought about the man with the jade green eyes.

You usually stay up till 3AM mainly because you just can’t bring yourself to sleep so easily. I guess you could say it’s insomnia or sometimes you just think too much before going to bed. Last time you thought about having a dragon for a pet and then in the morning you ended up trying to do some witchcraft on a cat, which resulted you in chasing a cat. And no you didn’t get the cat but you found a convenience store that sold some good noodles.

Right now you were sitting at a kitchen island, with all your papers, sketch books and sketches laying around but you were sound asleep. You were just resting there ever so peacf-

“Xeno! Wake the fuck up! Your class starts in 12 minutes and i’m not driving you there!” You felt something smack the right side of your face and as you look up you instantly jumped off the stool you were once sitting on as there was a flying a book headed your way. If you could go back in time, You would’ve rather much gone back to your apartment then to have knocked on this crazy girls door at 3am.

“Damn..be a little nicer, it’s barely 7-” You quickly turned around to check the clock on the living room wall, “7:18..” You scratch the back of your head then taking a small glance the person who kindly interrupted your small sleep, which was the one and only, Kim Joy. A while ago you decided to crash at Joy’s place since tonight you didn’t want to be home alone. You and Joy met when you were in high school, 5 years ago during sophomore year. At that time you thought you met someone who was fully capable of being responsible, sadly enough you bumped into the next big hot mess and here you both are. Surprisingly still alive.

You started to pack your things into your backpack when you decided to actually look at the girl. There she stands tall and beautiful from the roots of her black hair to the very bottom of her heels, dressed in a tight black dress with a brown coat gently falling off her exposed shoulders. You had the urge to brush back the hair falling down, framing her angelic face. Its when you hear her that you snapped out of your thoughts.

“Just take a picture and get over with it.” You look up to her eyes just to see her wink. She’s always been confident in herself, either her body or her face. She never failed to show off her looks. Of course she wasn’t cocky about it, she just liked the attention.

You felt a small chuckle leave your lips and you turned around heading towards the door, “I’m good, Later.” You softly mumbled as you pulled on your old black boots and swung your bag over shoulder.

Opening the door you felt the cold air touching your face and then you heard Joy yell out from inside, “I PUT AN ORANGE JUICE BOTTLE IN YOUR BAG AND DON’T COME BACK LATER CAUSE IM NOT OPENING THE DOOR FOR YOU”

The door slams shut right behind you with a small smile adorning your face as you make your way to your first class of the day. Reaching into your pocket to take out a cigarette from its packet and you lit it up with your pink pocket lighter. Lowering your pale hands you inspect the glitter polish chipping off your nails, you puffed out a cloud of smoke without removing the cigarette from your lips.

You could say you enjoyed dressing up and looking stylish. Occasionally you’d do your makeup and nails. Some days you end up walking out barefaced and still be dressed nicely but now you could care less, with your pink oversized hoodie, over your black ripped jeans and your dirty black pair of boots.

Feeling your body get colder you cover your honey colored hair, then placed your cold hands in your hoodies pocket, you hoped the day would be better than yesterdays.

Although you already knew not to expect much from life.

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Your classroom felt warm and comfortable but looking outside you saw raindrops dripping from out of the sky onto the sidewalk below. Luckily you managed to make it to class on time, and now you were just heading out to get some coffee on this cold rainy day. Walking out of your class you saw a couple of students walking around with their umbrellas. So pulling up your hood on, you walk forward and under the rain.

“Hey Xeno! I thought you said you were quitting school?” You turned around to look at the owner of the voice and the hood on your hoodie slides off your head exposing your head to the cold rain.

You look up to see his soft brown hair falling over his dark orbs, you quickly notice his simple outfit, black jeans and a light grey hoodie under his jean jacket and the open umbrella loosely laying on his shoulder. You looked up to meet his eyes and his boyish smile, “Oh Sicheng..” Returning his smile you walked over to him and you grabbed his hand to pull him after you.

You started mumbling a response to his earlier question, “I did say that, and I was going too..but Seulgi said she’d buy me food for the year if I stayed..” Your face scrunches up as you turn to smile at him, “and well you know me.”

A fit of laughter erupted from his chest as he pulled you back and placed your hood over your head. He then turned you around grabbed your bag and gently pushed you forward, “Why am I not surprised” He muttered as he walked behind your small skipping figure, watching you step and splash in puddles.

Rain was a happy thing for you, because it reminded you of the man with jade green eyes. You and him used to play outside in the backyard on rainy days, and even though you got sick the next morning you never regretted it. Sicheng being someone who grew up with you knows this, so he let you be. Sicheng was always like an older brother to you, He held your hand when you were scared, he helped you when you struggled to do things on your own, and he always peeled your oranges because you just never could. He was legitimately the brother you never had. You and Sicheng met when you guys were little, he was your next door neighbor and since then you’ve always been together. Him and his family weren’t the closest or the best and because of that he adored you more since you never pushed him or blamed him for shit. Life can be a cruel ass, especially to those who have already “fucked up”.

· · ─────── ·𖥸· ─────── · ·

“Aye, Xeno want to come with me to the repair shop with me?” Turning around you saw Sicheng fixing the bags on his shoulders. 

“Sure! Is Seulgi there?” You tilted your head watching him start walking in another direction, you began to skip behind him.

“Yeah actually, They’re all most likely there since it’s friday the shop is closed. Meaning they’re taking this time to modify their own cars.”

“Are you going to make me help you?” 

“No, Last time I did that you almost broke Yeol’s window”

Your face turned bright red at the horrible memory, In fact what Sicheng said is true you sort forgot to focus on what you were doing because of Toben, Chanyeol’s dog. He was running around and nudging your legs for attention, you shuddered at the memory of Chanyeol threatening to make you into Toben’s chew toy if it were to have happened, “Yeah uh, Maybe that is a better idea.” 

Sicheng emitted a small chuckle, “Well no shit, Sherlock”

You walked beside him under his black umbrella, looking up you saw a glowing galaxy drawn all over the place. You drew those for him because you were criticizing him for being “basic” and in the end he challenged you by telling you that you couldn’t do better, which resulted in a glow in the dark galaxy right over his head on rainy days.

You pulled your hood lower on your head turning to look at the steps you take, “How’s Taeyong?” 

“I actually haven’t seen him in a while. He’s probably selling drugs again.” Sicheng released a sigh as he looked down at his feet too. 

You knew these boys belonged to the world of “bad”, the world where there’s illegal races, drugs, violence, sex, murder, so on so forth. It didn’t bother you, You knew these boys since you were young and even if you knew your life was in some sort of danger for knowing them.. You didn’t really care. You yourself smoked, but never drank or did any xanax, heroin or any sort of drugs. You also never went to one of their illegal races. They never forced you to come but they did ask if you wanted to tag along to which you usually always refused.

“Do you think he’s taking them again..?”

“I hope not, even if he was I doubt it make any difference” 

“What's that supposed to mean ?!” You turned to smack his chest.

“Nothing! Nothing! aH! I'm being attacked by a dwarf!” Sicheng pushed your hands away and closed him umbrella and started running away from you. 

“Get back here you muffin top!” Running after him in the rain while your boots splashed in every puddle your small foot landed in. With a bright smile on your face you declared a race, and of course the loser buys lunch.  

· · ─────── ·𖥸· ─────── · · 

“Hey Win! Can you pass me the T9 on the front counter”

Confused by the new voice you frown up at Sicheng.

“Who’s that?” You reach out and grab the umbrella from his hands.

“Kai, He’s been a racer of Suho’s for a long time but Chanyeol just brought him here in the garage a couple weeks ago” He turns around taking off his jacket and tossing it on one of the chairs nearby. “He’s pretty chill guy you might like him, but there’s this other guy that I know you’ll be happy to see.” 

Right as he finished his sentence a white cloud ran alongside Toben, barking and jumping at your feet. 

“Viví~” you cooed at the white puffy dog. Crouching to their level you patted their heads and rubbed their bellies. You picked up Viví and cradled him in your arms. 

Standing up you walked behind Sicheng as he made his way over to this Kai person and girl when you saw this man it’s like you saw a literal god. With his honey skin, his well defined face and body, he looked like an actually god, but your mind only thought of one thing..

“Woah, Its Fancy Squidward from Spongebob!” You heard Sicheng snort and look over to see Chanyeol dying of laughter right besides his yellow Mustang GT350.

Your eyes widen in realization, “Oh! I'm sorry, did I say that out loud?!” You buried your face into the dog in your hands as you walked back to hide behind Sicheng. 

That’s when you heard laughter coming from “Fancy Squidward” himself. Peeking over Sichengs shoulder you saw the boy reach over to grab the screwdriver from Sicheng’s hand. 

“That was a very lovely first encounter” He looked up to meet your gaze. “Hi” He smiled at you, “Im Kai, or Jongin”

“Y/N,” Sicheng moved out of the way to start working on his car, “Sorry about that I didn’t mean to say that loud” You bent down to let the Viví play with Toben. 

“You’re all good” He giggles, “Oh! That’s right uh that’s Sehun” He pointed to a black Aston Martin Vanquish right behind him. Tilting your head you noticed another tall guy standing besides the car. Instantly you recognized his face and ran towards him.

“Sehun!” You jumped up to hug him and he quickly responded by wrapping his arms around your waist as he laughed into your shoulder.

“You haven’t changed a bit.” He placed you down and pinched your cheek, “Still short as ever”

“Hey! You know what go back from where you came from because I am not liking your attitude” You slapped his hand away and crossed your arms.

“You guys already know each other?” You turn around to look at Kai and nod.

“Yeah me, Sehun and Joy met in high school” You turn to look at Sehun, “He’s just older” You stick your tongue out.

“You know he’s the same age as me right?” Sehun pats your head, “tear tear” He starts teasing you by making his fingers in the shape of T’s and imitating your pout.

“Im taking Viví!” You watched as he walks towards the car he was working on.

“I hope we become good friends” With that Kai patted your head and strolled after Sehun.

Grumbling to yourself you walked towards Chanyeol who was sitting on the floor fixing his cars tire and draped your body over his back releasing a sigh. You look at what he was doing and saw his hands skillfully move all over the place, Sometimes he grabbed his notepad and pen and wrote a few notes down. It’s like if he was so engulfed at his task in hand, he blocked out what was going on around him.

“Is anyone using the upstairs room?” You poked his cheek and waited for a response while skimming through all the tools he was surrounded in.

“No, I think it’s empty,” He placed one of the tools on his leg and started fixing a few things with his hands, “Let me guess you’re tired already?” You felt his back vibrate with the sound of his laughter.

“Yeah” You hopped off his back and made your way towards Seulgi, “Hi sexy!”

“Hey Xeno, brought  me anything today?” She stood up from where she was inspecting her motorbike and turned to at you. You noticed the faded bruises decorating her face. There was a small cut on the corner of her lips and a small stitch on her forehead.

“Hey what happened to you?” You walked up to her and grabbed her face.

“Just a little rough play” She looks down at you with her a slight sad expression and when you looked at her eyes it’s like if there was some sort of unspoken words, and she just wanted to spill but instead she lightly slapped your hands away, “Go rest”

With that she turned around and started working on her bike again. Seulgi never really acted that way, She was honest and blunt with her words and always spoke up about what she wanted, You were concerned about Seulgi’s behavior but you didn’t want to push it, if she’s not in the mood, sometimes it’s best to give her time, you kind of learned that the hard way. Slowly walking towards the stairs to head up stairs you saw that Sicheng wasn’t to far from there so you strolled over to him.

“Hey Winnie, I’m going upstair.. Im kind of tired” You placed your head on Sicheng’s shoulder and scanned over the motor he was trying to work with.

“Okay, Rest well. Call me if you need anything” He looked over at you as you pulled away from where standing and made your way up the stairs with Viví and Toben trailing behind you.

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The sound of a roaring engine and an argument was heard making it way towards the garage. Chanyeol immediately stood up grabbed his gun and walked towards the big doors. Everyone also felt kind of iffy about the atmosphere and got ready to attack.

“It’s just Irene and Taeyong at it again,” Sehun yelled out towards them, being the closest one to the big doors  he was able to peek outside and see who was causing the commotion. “and I think B’s car”

Him and Chanyeol walked over to the big doors and pushed them open allowing a red Lexus CL500 roll into the garage, with an arguing pair following behind. Behind those two were 5 others trying to split them apart before they’d scratch at each other’s throats.

“It’s the same bullshit with you!” Irene glared at Taeyong from where she was walking.

“Well what else was I supposed to do! What could I have possibly done when there was literally 5 guns pointed at me!” Taeyong gripped at his hair looking at Irene as she walked around the red car mimicking him.

“Hey I’m talking to you!” Taeyong walked up to Irene and pulled on her wrist and lord have mercy on him because that was the worst decision he could’ve possibly made.

That was enough to piss Irene off, she grabbed his arm and twisted it to turn him around and she pushed him against the closest wall, “Don’t you ever lay your fucking hands on me” She slammed him into the wall again and before it could’ve gotten worst Seulgi ran up to her and pulled her away.

“You ruined it all! You put her in danger again! We have been keeping her safe for more than half of her life and this is where you get us!” Irene trashes in the arms of Seulgi and soon Sehun and Joy are running up to her in an attempt to help keep her in place.

“I’m not mad about the fucking time we spent! I’m mad that you can’t be her fucking friend and think about where your decision brought her!” She managed to rip away from their grips and ran towards Taeyong punching him right on the side of his face.

“Irene that’s enough!” Everyone started shouting and trying to pull each other away from each other. They weren’t aware you woke up and started  watching from the top of the stairs.

Everyone except one.

Your eyes met another pair. His eyes were in a slight glare but droopy enough to not crease his forehead. His lips seemed to be a natural pout, and the strands of white hair slightly falling over his eyebrows.

He looked ethereal despite you knowing he wasn’t anywhere near pure.

You broke out of your trance and glanced towards Irene as she kept trying to attack Taeyong. You didn’t understand the reason behind the violence, using your words can be strong enough to bring a point however whenever someone deeply upset violence seems to be the easiest way out.

You made your way down the stairs drawing a bee line in your head to where Taeyong stood. Without realizing it, the white haired boy had his attention on you since you met his gaze.

But just as your foot touched the floor a gunshot erupted from a gun and echoed through the garage.

With wide eyes you saw Taeyong falling to the floor, as his body touched the ground a small pool of blood started forming around his side.

“Fuck! B, get her out!” The sound of gunshots erupting from different guns, the sound of shattering and yelling soon become white noise as your mind goes blank and the bad memories come rolling to your head like a bullet train.

After all these years you seem to never forget those jade green eyes fluttering close.

“Honey, I’m here. Always.”

You felt a soft hand slightly tug you down behind the red car and as you looked up you saw the boy with white hair.

“I’m here, so don’t panic. I need you to listen to me so I can help you.” His dark eyes look right into yours as he pulls your hood over your head. Tugging on your arm closer to the cars door.

He takes out ,what you assume, is his gun from his pocket and in one quick motion he opens the door and slightly pushes you inside. As he does this he tosses something towards the garage doors.

And just as it touches the floor a cloud of smoke appears from the small item and everyone scatters to their own cars.

Before crawling to the other seat you managed to see Taeyong being picked up from the ground. You released a sigh of relief as you saw that the one picking him up was Sicheng.

You made your way to the other seat as the white haired boy closed the door behind him and turned on the engine.

The sound of the engine was followed along with a few more, you peeked out the window to see 3 vehicles. Chanyeol’s yellow Mustang GT350, Sicheng’s white Toyota 86, and Seulgi’s purple Suzuki GSX250R.

You felt the boy leaned over your body, so you turn to come face to face with him, his eyes met yours as he felt your lips slightly brush over his cheek. 

Immediately after meeting your gaze he pulled the seat belt quickly buckling you in and speeding out the garage. 

“Here.” You look over at him, seeing he’s looking up ahead, your gaze slowly trailed down to his hand extended out towards you. Grabbing the earphones from his hand you plug them into your phone to tune out the sounds around you. 

And from the corner of your eye you see him smirk while taking out his gun.

· · ─────── ·𖥸· ─────── · ·

You feel a light tap on your shoulder waking you up from your sleep. Sluggishly you pulled out the buds and slightly turned your head to look at the person who just woke you up. 

You see the boy slightly turn his head towards you, but the darkness outside catches your attention. And like you weren’t just asleep about a while ago you quickly looked outside the windows to be met with twinkling stars and empty fields.

“You aren’t kidnapping me right..” You slightly turn to look at the boy besides you who is seemingly entertained by your comment, “..Please don’t kidnap me.. I have yet to try cheesecake and- and I- I still haven’t tried the new coffee at the gasoline station across the street from my home so please don’t kidn-” 

The boy besides you suddenly chuckles and the sound erupts some sort of feeling inside your stomach because of raspy and deep it sounded in your ears.

“I’m not kidnapping you, besides Win is right behind us.” Your gaze fall to the side mirror and you notice the white car behind you instantly recognizing the cars plates.  

“O-Oh sorry.. my names Xe-“

“Aiko. I know it’s Aiko.” Your eyes widen as you hear your given name.

You didn’t hate it. It just always scared you cause it seemed to always bring you wrong attention. You were afraid that what happened to the man with jade green eyes.. would happen again. You were afraid of losing someone again because of that given name.

Yoon Aiko.

The name Aiko meant “Love Child” in other words “child who will be loved” but it’s meaning felt foreign to you. So you changed it to Yoon Xeno, Xeno meaning “foreign” or “strange”.

“How do you know my name..?”

“You’re the daughter of..” He turns to look at your eyes and seeing how they looked confused his brows furrowed in confusion as well, “Do you know who you are?”

“Yeah I’m Yoon Aiko..Why?”

“No. Do you know who you are? Your background? Your family? The place you were born in?.. Do you know Sir Lyeth?”

Lowering your gaze to you hands on your lap, your mind repeating the last question.. Do you know Sir Lyeth…?

“No, I don’t know any of these things. But if you do.. You have to tell me.” You look up at him with determination.

Of course you know Sir Lyeth, He was a friend of the jade green eyes man, and when he passed Sir Lyeth was your caretaker. But one day he suddenly disappeared and you were forced to move elsewhere, leaving you to where you are now.

“I can’t do that, It’s not my place. It would be better if you heard it from Win or Taeyong maybe even Irene or Suho but not me.” 

“Why not you?” You see him change the gears while steering with his other hand. 

“Because I’m Byun Baekhyun and I’m the last person you’d want to hear this from”

“I’d rather hear it from you, It hurts less if it’s the actual truth.” Stars twinkle outside and all around making it feel as though it’s falling right onto you.The car’s engine can be heard running and the gears being changed can be felt and heard from inside the car. 

“There’s no going back now princess.” He turns to look at you with a slight frown.

“When you were born, everyone working for your parents feared for your life. You we’re your parents first and an only child, You were a miracle because your mom wasn’t capable of giving birth to you on her own but you made it. To everyone's surprise you were a girl, they wanted to keep you but they knew your life was endangered. Since well,” You heard him take a deep before he turned to look at you, “You’re the child of one of the biggest and strongest mafia groups out there” 

And just with, that your world had stopped. Suddenly the sound of the engine and the sound of the running tires behind turned into silence. You could almost feel your own pulse and the blood slowly running through your veins. 

You.. are the daughter of a mafia.

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✎ᝰ┆I was so nervous to post this, I will be going through and fix some errors ( ・∇・) It’s kind of sloppy forgive me, I was really nervous :’) But any who I hoped you enjoyed!💘

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[redxriiot]

Rappa has died.

『 .◉ Meme || Anon ◉. 』

        “Huh?”

        HA! That’s what ya get, ya fucking bastard! Was the first of many thoughts whirling around in him, screaming, cackling in absolute delight. You fucking idiot! You got yourself killed by some guy and now you’ll never fight me! You’ll never get that chance!

        It was so unlike him–unlike a hero–to feel such a thing. And as if on cue, amidst sheer relief and and utter rejoicing, a different feeling suddenly took root. Only it wasn’t guilt gripping at his heart, like he’d expect. It wasn’t that, it was more of a hollow, foreign feeling–

                                     But what about our match?

        –that planted a thought in his mind, enough to drown out all others

        He should be relieved, even a little remorseful. That was the gut feeling he had. So then why hadn’t it stayed?

         The man had been in many a dream since that rescue mission. No, not dreams…nightmares.

        Nights where he’ll toss and turn to visions of not being nearly strong enough, watching his mentor brutally beaten down before his very eyes, blood bursting, splattering and coloring the craggy floor.

        A cold, sharp dread filling his body like ice in not being enough and his own body breaking. The all too visceral feelings, the impacts, of the cracks in his armor, himself under the violent barrage of fists. Shattering.

       Hearing the man’s laughter, his sheer and utter delight in each and every fight, echoing in his brain even after he’d gasped and forced himself awake, gripping at the scars the other had etched into his skin where it had been torn away.

        Sick to his stomach in moments he’ll see a vision where that Tengai had never put up a barrier, Fat Gum had never stepped back up to take over and finish the fight. See himself push beyond anything he’d ever been, where he charged forth, past the flurry of impacts and plunged a sharpened fist right into the larger man’s gut. Tearing through muscles and organs alike, bathing himself in a shock of warm crimson. Pushing forwards again, again, losing himself to the sharp shudders that ran up and along his arms, through his body, screaming, punching, clawing his way through the other in an animalistic frenzy. Losing himself to the sensation of strength and sheer power over tearing apart the one who’d put his–his mentor’s–life in danger.

        Feeling the dull thud of the other’s body hit the ground. Hear garbled words of praise spill from his lips, the utter validation weighing at him just before he snapped awake in a cold sweat–

       “Red Riot–?“

       He snapped his head up, stomach churning uncomfortably as he gaze on the other. Lips parted, as he tried to find the words to speak. Once, twice, his mouth would move, and once, twice the words failed to come out.

        He should be happy, a bitter part of him insisted. Relieved, with this news. He’d never hurt anyone again. But–

        “That’s…rough.”

        What the hell?

        “Thought that parole woulda done ‘im good.”

        What the absolute fuck, you bastard?!

        “Guess a criminal can’t change his stripes so easy, huh?”

         I thought you had your eyes on me? Huh? What happened to that?!

        “Red, that’s…a little harsh.”

        What? Did you get so desperate for a good fight, you went off ta’ find some fucking extra ta’ beat down? Now look at you! You’re dead! You seriously let some fucking nobody kill you?!

        “Sorry.”

        You fucking bastard! It shouldnta been them! It shoulda been m–

        “Gu…ess it’s ju–st a little surprising.”

        This was supposed to be a good thing. He no longer had to worry about him. He never once had to keep his guard up, wondering if that guy would show up out of nowhere and take the first strike again. He would never had to think about some other person getting wrapped up in that man’s desire for a good fight. Hell, he would never have to worry about that rematch, would never have to relive the feeling of being smashed up, of being broken.

                                        So why wasn’t he happy?

         He felt…he felt–

                                           Dissatisfied. Outrage.

        The thought came into mind, and a fresh wave of disgust and other feelings he didn’t want to identify washed over him, like something crawling up and bursting from the ground after being buried away and left for dead.

        Yeah, he would never have to fight Rappa again. But then he would never get the chance to surpass him. He could swear it all he wanted, but that rematch…

        He took a sharp breath.

                                      He had wanted it just as badly.

         A hero wasn’t supposed to have grudge matches. A hero wasn’t supposed to enjoy the thrill of a fight, pick a fight for petty reasons. Wasn’t supposed to indulge the enemy, especially not something like that.

         But he had wanted that fight. As much as Rappa did, hell, even more. He could swear it was different to anyone who said it. But there was no denying it now. He had wanted to shove that bastard’s face in the damn ground and break him. He wanted to pulverize him, twice as bad as the other had to him.

          Why?

         Had the desire to clash against him and see who would come out as the victor had become too strong to ignore? To show him which of the two of them was really the strongest? That he really was a goddamn man, strong enough to beat even the most brutal of fighters? He wouldn’t put it above himself, no matter how much he wanted to shove the thought down. He’d had those same feelings before, in seeing Bakugou throw the ball the first time, the sheer power he had displayed with such apparent ease.

                       ‘What if we fought? Would it be a good match?’

                                         ‘Which of us would win?‘

         But Bakugou was alive. More than that, he had already fought Bakugou and lost. He understood eagerly wanting to fight him again and fix that, beat him in return.

         However that feeling was nothing compared to the sheer rush of adrenaline and the utter burn that had eaten at and coursed through him in facing Rappa. Nothing compared to the emotions torn and dredged out of him in losing to him in the first round, like someone had filled his veins with gasoline and let it ignite, searing him from the inside out. In taking that blaze within himself, getting the fuck back up again and fighting like he used to. No limits, no holds barred, no regrets.

        Just taking a hit, giving back, and forcing himself to keep on, until someone broke.

        If he beat Bakugou, it would be fine. He’d gloat, he’d laugh, go on with his day. He might even get so damn cocky about it. If he beat Rappa…he swore he could take on the world. He felt it in simply dreaming about it. To allow himself to indulge in it, edge closer to see just what it was…it was a feeling of absolute accomplishment. Euphoria. Rappa was everything he wanted to surpass, the very one who dredged out the worst of the negative feelings in him.

                           His despair, his own burning desire to fight.

          No matter how deep he’d buried it, he remembered what it was like to lose a fight to someone only to force himself to charge back in and go another round. To fight another with such vigor and determination, he’d do anything and everything to win because he had to. Because he wanted to. 

        This guy brought out the worst in him, yes. Even afterwards, he could set his blood to an utter boil with more ease than most any other, and had brought him so close to breaking his little sunshine of a facade and throwing the first punch. A constant temptation to  fight again, just like they he wanted.

          But in that moment, in their first brawl, he had used that to fight anew. Things he buried out of hatred of them and himself had become a strength in that moment, solely to beat him. They fueled him, and that guy had been the very crux of making that happen.

                 No one else had done that for him. Not even come close.

         He tied the image of his negative sides to that man, focused it all on him, intending on letting that hatred fester and boil, let his own strength grow and meld with that feeling, become so much more than their first meeting until the time was right, until he could finally rise up to that challenge and truly give that man his all. To put a stop to the fighter himself, but now that he was gone…

                   Now he was gone and somebody else got to him first.

        Somebody else got to claim the life of the man who owed him a damn fucking rematch. Someone stole his goddamn right to it. That bastard let himself get killed, and now he would never get the chance. He got back at him for the wait in the sickest way possible, and God fucking dammit, did that piss him the hell off.

         Was that what Rappa had wanted? He got so tired of waiting for their fight, he went off and got himself killed so he’d be left feeling the same goddamn dissatisfaction? Frustration?

                                    Except his was now permanent.

        Teeth grit tight.

        Even without his own competitive nature drawing up things he’d rather disappear, there was another surge of feeling: Anger. Forget the damn fight, there was so much he could have learned from the other.

          Aizawa was the last person he’d need to learn fighting techniques from. Their styles were so different. All Might wasn’t a teacher, even he could see it, discern from his advice and how he carried himself. Fat Gum could could only teach him so much, focusing on defense more than anything, even if he was a bit of a scrapper. Hell, if anything, he’d probably teach him the watered-down version of what he wanted, what he needed to learn to be stronger.

         Rappa…now Rappa was the paragon of what he needed, if he had just set to use the other right. A fighter like him, who needed not to think of strategy. Who needed only rely on his own brute strength and barrel ahead to engage. A seemingly fearless man with a ferocity and drive like almost no other. Startlingly similar to the Crimson Riot, he was even willing to venture. Two men of great strength who cared not for dwelling on fear or despair, who forged forwards to impossible limits, past it all to succeed at what they sought to by any means necessary. Granted one for a thrill, and the other to save.

                          But he was both. And both held his admiration.

         And for the one of the two he’d actually met–

       “Ah, good riddance–“ He stood and turned suddenly, knocking over his chair as he stormed out. “The world didn’t need people like him around anyways!”

        –well, God damn, he owed it to him to find the damn bastard who’d stolen his opponent away. Find him and making him regret killing his goddamn adversary. It would be nowhere near the same thrill, he was sure of it. There was no way that fight could ever compare to the one they would have had. But damn it all to hell, if it was the next best thing, well–

                    –nobody got away with taking something from him.

[emperorcrest-blog]

im not too familiar with felix, but maybe write a drabble about the aesthetics you associate with him? you could spin that into writing about his past or even incorporate them into a small snapshot of his life. he could be sitting down, simply remembering his past or he could be fighting. the setting is up to you, but i'd love to see you write about his motifs/aesthetics/whatever you liken to him!

    fraldarius was a cold place to grow up in. the manor was all high empty corridors, and heavy doors to keep out the snow. cold steel locks, cold steel suits of armour everywhere. the heavy weight of knighthood followed you down the halls. the floors were stone, the walls were stone, all deep, sheer grey, all dark and bold. in the larger halls, portrait after portrait hung, ancestors with eyes that were blue like the sky on a cool day, or the first frost glittered on the walls. you grew up with the knowledge that you would not be one of them. you never resented it - after all, glenn was more suited for glory in almost every way. it was just a fact that, until you were thirteen years old, seemed unshakable. 

 you had a sword pushed into your hand and told to get on with it, to learn fast, or it’ll be the death of you. girls had swords in hands as much as boys, but for all your skill, you’d been aware, so aware, that you were a prize more than a gift. your blood - rare, beautiful, inticing, would make a fine present for some other house. seven years old, and the thought made you shudder, as did the dresses, and the makeup, and the maids calling you a tomboy, and the sound of your name on everyones mouth. you’d burst out to glenn one night, that you weren’t a girl, you hated this. 

 and there had been raised voices - your father and glenn rarely clashed, and you felt so guilty, so so ugly. the next morning, your father looked at you with cold eyes, and said if you want to be a boy so badly, you better start acting like one. you chose the name felix because it meant lucky and happy, and that was all you wanted. seven years old, and you had all the dresses thrown out, and a new wardrobe pulled in. 

 didn’t you have a daughter? people would ask at balls, and your father would smile, too sweet, while glenn’s hands tightened protectively on your shoulders. in public, your father never slipped up once. in private, he’d sometimes call you the wrong name, or she or girl, and you’d flinch, fullbody, and glenn would jump in and snap at him. 

 your father and glenn fought a lot more after you changed your name, and not just about you. but there was one thing they could both agree on: glenn would become a knight. dimitri and ingrid would talk about it for hours, all voices raised with excitement and awe, and sylvain would listen and chuckle. you were a wild little beast, all muddy legs, and running out in the cold with no boots on, and hands cut and scarred from sword training far too young, face stained wet with angry tears.

 if you want to be a boy so badly, you better start acting like one. it rang through your mind like a church bell, and threw yourself into brawling, felt the bitter sting of defeat at the hands of the village kids, bigger and stronger as they were than you, threw yourself at the sword. compliments from your father were far and few between, but once he’d patted you on the head and said felix, you will make a wonderful sword.

 you didn’t truly understand what he’d meant until years later, when people had called him the shield of faerghus. ( what is a sword to a shield? a shield protects, a sword has no function but to maim and slice. a weapon. you had nothing else. )

 your brother, fifteen years young, babyfaced and bright, a sword touched once on each shoulder by the king, and a smile split over his face, as you and dimitri and ingrid and sylvain cheered for him, was born to be a shield.

 your brother, two years later, died protecting dimitri in duscur. so he had fulfilled his role.

faerghus raised lions ; noble and proud beasts with all white teeth. ( it’s a fucking lie - lions don’t live in the snow. lions live in far off lands where it’s warm and different. you’ve never even seen a real lion in your life. they could have wings for all you know. ) you were never meant to be a lion. a major crest means you are born with all of the fire, and none of the longevity. you’re born canine, born a wolf with broken legs and white teeth made for slaughter. lions have pride and grace. wolves survive.

 wolves also thrive in the snow. you have seen wolves with your own eyes, heard their howls in the fraldarius hills, calling to one another. 

 the night your brother died, you cried flame. you cried furious and hot and wet, shook into your mattress for hours, rocked back and forth and back and forth, terrified and angry and cold, cold, cold inside. 

 your father had touched his armour , all they could fucking find of him, and said ‘he died like a true knight.’ and then smiled sadly, and said; i am so proud of him. you had snarled, snapped, screamed at your father. how could he be proud of death? how could he smile at a time like this? how could he? how could he? how could he?

at the funeral, everyone told you how proud you must be. everyone said how brave glenn had been, how strong, how noble. how wonderfully he had died. how it was every knight’s dream to die protecting their charge.

 you hated it. everywhere you looked: self sacrifice was lifted upwards, some unattainable ideal for some afterlife that may or may not even exist, to martyr yourself for an uncaring or absent God. in faerghus, no one worshipped the goddess. they all worshipped death. it made you sick. honour, chivalry, it was all bullshit. it wouldn’t help anyone survive. it hadn’t saved glenn, or anyone else in duscur. 

 you took glenn’s place in at least one way : after the funeral, you and your father screamed at each other, your tears dropped like fire from your eyes and you bared dog teeth in threat.

                            if only you had died instead of him. 

 it stopped you. it made you hurt. it cut deeper than any wound your father could have given you. you turned, and left. perhaps once you had been a wild and naive child, with laughter on your lips and smiles in your eyes. that child had been as warm as summer, but winter had to come. winter was here to stay. you frosted your old self over, and took a sword, and drove it into his chest. 

 ( your father never called you a girl again after glenn died, hands hungry and reaching for any son he could find. you, ungrateful little pup, bit the hand that fed over and over and over. you would not be his puppet or his doll. you would not be glenn in his eyes. you were yourself. there was no one else you could possibly be. )