#JUST KI AHHHHHHHHHH MY HEART

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Teddy Bear 🧸

“Sorry, kid, I don’t have a teddy bear, or I’d let you hold it while I take care of those wounds.”

Killua blinks.

“What? Don’t make fun of me, kid!”

Killua fiddles with his torn shorts.

“I-It’s not that…”

Killua sniffs.

“It’s just… I heard that’s only for the good kids… the ones that don’t misbehave…”

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[writingthy]

6 The A Team

warnings: anxiety, death mentioned, curses, negative thoughts

a/n: English isn't my first language but I will try. so if there are any criticisms, free to tell me <3

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It was five days before Clara’s 16th birthday. Her parents were planning to throw a party in their house, I was the first one she invited.

I don’t know what to fucking gift her.

… What gift can you give to your girl friend?

I thought about it. I thought about it for 2 days, 4 hours, and 19 minutes. All I got is my old beanie, that I never ever used that’s why it’s still in plastic, and this fucking search result.

Google keeps correcting my "typo", BuzzFeed showing up ‘Top 10 Gifts You Should Get for Your Partner’, and Quora asking ‘What are some thoughtful gift ideas for a new girlfriend?’

Bullshit. Bullshit. Bullshit.

Burying my head in the hardest pillow, I calmly screamed. “AHHHHHHHHHH!”

I can’t fuck this up. Dude, I can’t.

After all the things she did for me, after all of that. All that I could, maybe, give Clara is a gray beanie that was gifted to me when I was 11.

Someone kill me. I beg of you.

I could hear someone slamming the door, a smell of Takoyaki filling the room.

There’s only one person shameless enough to let themselves in, “Fuck you Drea. Get out!”

I threw her the rock pillow.

Luckily for her, it missed.

“Fuck you too.” I held a mighty middle finger to my cousin, to which she received with, “What kind of depressing shit have you got yourself to now?”

“Clara’s birthday.”

“Your girlfriend?”

I sat up fast. Eyes glaring, I pointed the exit. “Get out.”

Andrea smiled, sweetly for an additional effect, “Denial is a river in Egypt.”

“I hope a cockroach kills you to sleep.”

“What?”

I’ve got nothing to say. Just said the first thing that came to mind.

“You’re such a loser, Ki.”

She ended up taking my phone away.

Laughing at the exact moment she saw my search history, “Oh my god!” She managed to squeezed out, “And she’s not your girlfriend? Even Google says she is. Seriously, you need help!”

“Give me that!” I tried stealing it but her arms were longer, damn my genetics.

“Kian. I will always accept you for who you are. Always. Lesbian, gay, even stupid. I love you.”

“I really, really hate you.”

She ignored me, continuing to scroll down the screen. “You know it’s fine right. I mean- Ate Annabel being lesbian and all that.

“Ugh. I don’t like Clara that way. She’s my friend, my only friend.”

“Uh-huh. And you think of her constantly?”

“Yeah?”

“You get excited talking with her?”

“Yeah.”

“Your heart beating fast when-”

“Okay! I know what you’re getting at and it’s not that. We’re friends. PLATONIC.”

Andrea didn’t believe me, it was obvious by the way she raised one of her eyebrows and teased me with kissing faces. Despite the stinky hurdle, the panic never eased in my head.

What the fuck should I gift Clara Bernardo?

She has everything! Her family’s rich, from what I heard – never really met them… THAT’S MORE REASON ON WHY I SHOULDN’T FUCK THIS UP! What if her family thinks that I’m a shitty friend for giving her a shitty gift?

“Alright. I could help you. You look constipated so… This is me being nice.”

I couldn’t believe it.

I’m pretty sure our house isn’t haunted, so who the fuck is this? “Really? No catch or something?” My cousin shrugged it off, a simple “Yup.”

She’s actually being nice.

That’s a thing you don’t see every day.

Maybe it isn’t that bad at all,

Tita Ruben and Andrea moving in our house after that guy left.

I guess…

No. I take it back.

I really take it back.

Why the fuck are we in cdr king?

“Andrea why are we here?”

“Buying a memory card?”

“We’re supposed to buy a gift for Clara? Remember?”

“Yeah… But we almost went to every store inside Walter and you said don’t like any of them, any of my suggestions so- Might as well buy something for me!” She looks exasperated. I would feel guilty if not for my erratic mood today. “Well, that’s because all of the gifts you recommended sucks. Clara wouldn’t like any of them!”

“Why don’t YOU think of something then?”

“I don’t know! I don’t have anything that she might like!”

“You’re her friend, right? Her Girl-friend.” The way she air quoted the last words kind of irked me, I didn’t push it – don’t wanna erupt in rage inside a cdr king, not in cdr.

Getting her memory card, we decided to leave in silence.

Well… Decided to leave for Jollibee.

Dipping her fries in her sundae, Andrea wave her hand, “So let me get this straight. Clara’s pretty, she’s smart, she’s rich, and she’s actually kind? That doesn’t exist. No one exist like that.”

“She does.”

“Yeah, in surface. Something gotta be wrong. Maybe you just see her in a different way because she’s like your favorite person.”

“No. She’s really like that. A warm person. Really good and kind.”

“More like clingy. That was weird, by the way. She came off too strong for someone you don’t know. I wouldn’t like that neither.”

“… I don’t mind it. She means well, plus she helped me. Maybe it’s good that she was clingy to me when I first met her. She’s that kind of person…”

My cousin stayed quiet for 10 seconds, before sighing out, “Don’t you think you depend on her too much?”

That made me pause, burger still in my hand, “What?”

Andrea continued, her voice lower and slower, “… You met her when things was… Complicated in your house. Your father and all. She was this… Savior. Right? She’s bright, she’s warm? That’s what you said. She’s like a coping mechanism almost and you immediately glued to her because you need her comfort… And you got used to that comfort because there’s no other option at the time. Your mama- Tita Jenny, I mean, she was also emotionally unavailable and-”

“What are you saying, Andrea?”

The way she looks at me changed, her eyes more resilient, light no more. “I don’t want you to get hurt, Ki. If you depend on this one person too much, you might get hurt when they leave you in the end. There are other people here for you, but if you focus on only one person then you’ll get blind to who really surrounds you. If Clara leaves you-”

“Clara won’t leave me.”

“How do you know?”

“She promised me.”

“Your father made the same promise. Where’s he now?”

No,

She’s wrong.

“Clara’s not that person.”

Clara’s the opposite of papa.

Andrea dropped her head, she’s avoiding my gaze.

“Sorry… That was a bit… Let’s just eat, okay?”

We both finished our food.

No one said anything, we just ate.

Echoes of music solely in the background.

… She's in the Class A Team Stuck in her daydream Been this way since eighteen, but lately Her face seems Slowly sinking, wasting Crumbling like pastries…

After Tita Ruben died the next year, Andrea asked to move out of our house. Mama fought for her to stay, but Andrea pleaded that she didn’t want to burden our family. The words being, “Ayaw ko naman maging palamunin, Tita.” It sounded as if she was joking but Drea cried after hugging me and my mom for the last time.

Now, whenever I hear that song all that I could remember is Andrea,

What she said that day.

If only I listened to her…

“She likes flowers, right?” Andrea asked, before opening our house’s door. I nod, still not in the mood to talk, “You should get some bougainvillea, Tita Jen stored some… I think? Then tie it like a bouquet. It’s simple but it’s sincere. Clara might love it if you hand it to her personally. I know I would.”

“Okay… Yeah, I’ll ask mama.”

We ended up smiling at each other, awkward at first then a burst of short laughter after. She pats my back before pushing me to go inside, “You know I stole my nanay’s dior box. There’s a blue ribbon in it, you could use it. It looks expensive, also really shiny!”

“Thanks, Andrea.”

“No problem, Ki.”

[duhragonball]

Dragon Ball 123

King Piccolo is dead!    He exploded in the sky over what used to be King’s Castle, but Yamcha, Bulma, and Launch don’t know that yet.   So they move quietly through the rubble to get a better look, until they find...

Another Launch!  No, wait, they find Tien, and this is Launch reacting to that.  Sorry.

She’s super happy an relieved to see him, and she starts bandaging him up.   This is cute and all, but I can’t help but notice that this is the first time Blue Launch has really spent any time with Tien.    She watched Tien break Yamcha’s leg, but I’m pretty sure she was in Blonde mode through every episode until they separated to deal with the Piccolo crisis.  Certainly, she could have sneezed a few times off-screen, but otherwise I think this is the first time Blue Launch has met Tien since he turned good.

I just wonder what the deal is there, because she seems pretty happy to see him, and I always took it for granted that Blue Launch loved Tien as much as Blonde Launch does, but she wouldn’t remember the things Blonde Launch saw that made her fall for the guy.    So what does Blue Launch see in him?   Or is this some deal where the heart remembers?

Then again, like I pointed out before, Blonde Launch didn’t see much of Tien either, at least in the manga, and yet she still fell for him anyway.  Maybe that’s how both forms of Launch roll.   She’s used to hearing about new people after the fact, because someone needs to fill her in on what happened while she was her other self.  

Once Bulma hears from Tien that King Piccolo is dead, she reports the good news to a TV station, and before long the whole world is celebrating.

This escaped convict is so relieved that he’s happy to surrender himself to the authorities.    “Welp, crime is illegal again, so I guess it’s back to jail for me.”   This guy looks like Nappa, by the way.

King Furry’s security guys congratulate him for weathering this crisis, but Furry insists that it’s all because of that boy who tore Piccolo a new cakehole and blew him up.   Well, those aren’t his exact words, but man that fight was good.

Back at Kame House, Tien tells the others the whole story, and Launch is still putting bandages on him.    Okay, Blue Launch is hot for Tien, there’s no question of that.   Bulma’s cooking eggs for everyone, and that’s normally Launch’s thing, so I’m pretty sure she’s only doing that because she couldn’t get Launch away from Tien for five seconds.  

It’s not all sunshine and rainbows, though.    King Piccolo is dead and Goku is alive, but Krillin, Master Roshi, and Chiaotzu were killed during the crisis.    Worse, Shenron was destroyed, so the Dragon Balls have been reduced to ordinary stones.     Not sure why they bothered bringing them back with them to Kame House, or why they’re keeping them in a glass case, but okay.

Meanwhile, this old man’s watching an enormous TV.  

His wife busts in to tell him about this big egg she found in the river.   I was about to say “giant egg”, because it is, but honestly, the TV sort of stole the egg’s thunder.

The old man checks it out an he’s like “This isn’t even close to the size of my TV.” 

Yeeeeeaaaaahhhhh.   Kami left it... why not?

He tells his wife to fetch him a knife, which seems like the wrong move for dealing with an egg, but it was floating in a river before, so maybe he figures all bets are off.    But then it hatches right in front of them, and they look inside....

AHHHHHHHHHH IT’S PICCOLO’S SON AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Back at Korin Tower, Korin heals Goku’s injuries with “herbs.”   This word is used in the manga too, which I don’t understand because we’ve already established that Senzu beans heal injuries too, so why bother with anything else?

Korin admits that he honestly didn’t think Goku stood much of a chance, and in his mind, the best case scenario was that Goku and Piccolo would take each other out.   If that happened, he would have used the Dragon Balls to resurrect Goku, though.    Turns out, Korin didn’t know about King Piccolo killing Shenron, which seems odd to me, since he usually knows about everything else, including Piccolo’s wish to make himself younger.    So was he watching Piccolo using the Dragon Balls, then looked away before he killed the Dragon?

  Goku’s pretty frustrated that he can’t wish King Piccolo’s victims back to life, but Yajirobe points out that this is normally how life works.   People die all the time, and you don’t get a reset button.      Then Korin adds that it’s actually worse than that, because when you get killed by a demon, you can’t go to the afterlife, and you’re condemned to wander limbo forever.  

I really don’t get this bit of lore, and I suspect that Toriyama threw it in just to make it clear that there’s something at stake here.    One could argue that Master Roshi is happier in the afterlife, like Son Gohan was, so Korin has to rain on that parade in order to keep the story going. 

But I don’t understand how Korin would know such things, especially since there’s nothing supernatural about King Piccolo or his spawn.   He’s not a demon, he’s a Namekian, and his kids are all mutated Namekians, so how does that fit into all of this?

At last, Korin realizes that there is a way to get the Dragon Balls working again.   Goku just needs to ask the guy who created the Dragon Balls to revive Shenron.   And that guy’s name is Kami.

I don’t want to get bogged down in the definition of the word Kami, since it’s kind of a complicated topic.   Suffice to say that it can be used to refer to a Supreme Being, and that seems to be the context it’s used for in Dragon Ball.  In the Viz translation of the manga, they just substitute the word “God”, which makes the point a little more clearly: Goku has to ask God to turn the Dragon Balls back on. 

I’m pretty sure that’s also what was meant when other characters have referred to Kami in past episodes.   Suno prayed to Kami to watch over Goku while he fought in Muscle Tower, and Chiaotzu prayed to Kami when Tien used the Ki Ko Ho during the World Tournament.   Even in this episode, that old couple who found Piccolo Junior thought the egg might be from Kami.   

So this is what Yajirobe means when he says there’s no such thing.    He’s basically saying that he doesn’t believe in God, even though he’s familiar with the concept of God.   And even if he did think God existed, it’s not like you can just walk up to his front door and ask him to turn the Dragon Balls back on.

But Korin tells them that he not only knows God’s home address, he’s the guy who arranges all his appointments.   Kami’s temple is directly above Korin Tower, and it’s so high up that it can’t even be seen.  Goku can’t fly up to it with Kinto Un because apparently Kinto Un’s maximum altitude is the height of Korin Tower.   A rocket wouldn’t work, because some sort of force field would repel anyone who approached.  

No, the only way to gain access to Kami’s temple is to get permission from Korin, and then to ascend from the top of Korin Tower using... the Nyoibo. 

Turns out the Nyoibo was never a weapon at all.   The reason it extends on command is because you’re supposed to plug it into the top of Korin Tower, and hang onto it while it takes you up to Kami’s place.    Korin gave it to Master Roshi a long time ago because Roshi wouldn’t stop bugging him about it, and eventually Roshi passed it on to Son Gohan, who gave it to Son Goku.   So as it turns out, Goku already has what he needs to appeal to Kami.

Or he would, if he hadn’t lost the Nyoibo during the fight with King Piccolo.    Whoops.

Goku heads back to the ruins of King’s Castle, where King Furry is holding a press conference.   When Goku arrives, Furry introduces the boy as the hero who saved everyone, though he doesn’t know his name.

The press  swarm Goku immediately, but he’s too busy hunting for the Nyoibo to pay any attention to them.

Then he remembers Fortune Teller Baba, and her ability to find lost objects.

Goku heads over to her place.   Now, Baba charges 10 million zeni for a single reading, but you can opt out of her fee by fighting her team of five fighters.   So Goku’s prepared to go that route.

But Baba points out that she’d never find anyone who’d be willing to face the guy who killed King Piccolo, so she agrees to do this one for free.   Master Roshi is her brother, after all.

Turns out the Nyoibo is at Kami House, because Tien picked it up off the battlefield after Goku left.   Goku heads there immediately, leaving Baba to remark that her prediction came true. 

Turns out Launch tied the Nyoibo to a broom head for some reason.    I mean, she needed to clean the bathroom, I get that, but it hasn’t been that long since Tien brought it here, right?   Sometimes it’s hard to tell with Dragon Ball.  Has it been a day or a week since Goku killed King Piccolo?  

Goku immediately runs off, saying something about going to talk to God, and warning the others not to dispose of their friends’ bodies.   No one knows what any of it means.

Meanwhile, Piccolo’s final offspring is burning houses down and threatening to destroy his father’s enemies.

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🦋💕🦋💕🦋

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capture

“Killua? Are you hurt?”

Killua peeks his head up, smiling and giggling.

“No. Not really. I could’ve gotten out at any point.”

Gon freezes.

Oh.

He stares dumbfounded for a moment.

He forgot to think.

Gon’s brow furrows.

“Killua.”

Killua glances up and pouts.

“What? It’s not like you’d come running if you heard me scream about a terrifying bowl of cereal!”

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🐱

Killua glances up, pouting.

“W-What…?”

Gon smiles softly.

“Nothing, just you’re so cute-”

Killua cuts him off by pressing his face into his bicep, and Gon laughs.

He’s just proving his point.

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🥒

“You just wanted Gon to open that for you.”

Killua’s expression falls, and he puffs out his cheeks.

“N-No, I didn’t! Isn’t that right, Nanika?”

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4 U

“Killua, no, no, I’m not mad. Of course, you can buy yourself stuff. That’s why I’m paying you.”

Gon gently lifts Killua’s chin.

Killua’s eyes are filled with tears, and he has a smudge of jelly near his lips.

Gon smiles softly.

Cute.

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my hero

G-Gon’s stupid, right…? So he’ll totally forget if Killua says it…

He whispers shyly under his breath.

“G-Gon, you’re my hero…”

Gon’s sharp hearing picks it up, and he blushes, looking down at Killua.

C-Cute…

Even if Killua claims to have not said it later. Gon’s going to remember this forever. He’s Killua’s hero.

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kitten

Gon grins and looks back.

“Don’t worry! It was an emergency, after all!”

Gon looks back at Killua who is pressed to his chest, and his grin grows.

Killua’s so cute with his little pink turtleneck and plaid skirt.

“A little kitten needed saving, right?”

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iced bun

“Happy Mother’s Day, Leorio.”

There’s silence on the other end for a second, just buzzing, before a loud yell.

“WHAT?! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN?!”

Killua holds back a giggle, and he can hear Leorio grumbling and mumbling on the other side.

Killua sniffs, putting on his best wobbly voice.

“W-What? Nanika and Alluka d-did it for me…”

“Fine. Thanks, kid. Now stop messing with me and get some rest! Doctor's Orders!”

Killua’s eyes water and he looks at Gon, wailing.

“G-Gon… L-Leorio… actually cares about m-me…”

Leorio can hear his blubbering through the phone, and he isn’t sure if Killua is still trolling him or is serious.

“O-Of course, I do!”

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cheese bun

“U-Um… I just…”

Killua gets teary-eyed, and Gon stands up in alarm, scooping Killua out of the chair.

He holds Killua close to his chest, and Killua wraps his arms around Gon’s neck, shyly grabbing the rough tufts of Gon’s hair.

“G-Gon… you big dodo head… I’m fine…”

But it makes Killua happy and smile.

“I just… I really want unicorn mac-and-cheese…”

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cute point

“What do you think, Gon?”

Killua flips his hair back, the long, wavy curls going down his back, as he smiles.

Gon turns around and has to pick his jaw off the floor.

“Uh…”

Killua stares at Gon’s dumbfounded look and crosses his arms across his chest, pouting.

“They’re extensions…”

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Naughty or Nice

“You’re on the nice list, isn’t that right, Gon?”

Gon smiles and nods, looking down at Killua who stares with wide eyes.

“Y-You’re lying.”

The Santa simply gives a smile and rummages through his bag.

“Ho, ho, ho, I do not lie! I know all!”

Killua puffs out his cheeks, and Santa turns back around, holding out a stuffed white teddy bear with a pink bow.

Gon glances to catch a glimpse of Killua’s face; his mouth is open, and his eyes seem to sparkle. It’s the cutest sight Gon’s ever seen.

His fingers twitch, but he keeps them around Gon’s neck.

“Go on, Killua.”

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🍭🍭🍭🍭🍭

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🛍️

Oh.

Right.

Sometimes he forgets Gon is some popular jock…

G-Gon’s allowed to have other friends… Gon’s allowed to have a girlfriend… he’s just Gon’s friend…

He’s just…

He repeats it mentally as he walks over, gripping his skirt and muttering the words under his breath.

He reaches out timidly, grabbing Gon’s bicep and staring at the girl on Gon’s other arm.

“Killua?”

Gon looks down, and Killua avoids his gaze, puffing out his cheeks and glaring at the girl.

“Killua? Do you feel okay?”

G-Gon’s worried about him…?

He shakes his head, and he can feel Gon’s hand go to his waist protectively, and he has to bite back a happy smile.