#Its because Justin never gave a shit about me!

[cherriesformatt]

boston || matt sturniolo

matt x fem!reader

summary: matt takes reader home to meet his parents and he takes her ice skating for the first time where he used to play hockey

warnings: pure fluff

word count: 1,6k

a/n: Hi!! I combined two requests I hope you're okay with that! I tried my best! Ily <3 I will read proof after work!

based on:

"Hey...do you want some?" Matt asked me when he opened some kind of cookies.

We were on the plane with his brothers right behind us. It was my first time flying to Boston with them and I am going to meet his family. I was shitting my pants and felt like throwing up because we were hour from landing.

"No, thanks" I smiled at him and went back to my book.

We were flying first class and it was nice and quiet here. I am glad because I was able to read and it kept my mind from stressing out.

"You don't have to be scared, they going to love you I told you that already" Matt said and put his hand on my thigh and stroked it.

"You can't possibly know that" I closed my book and looked at him with my worried eyes.

Matt smiled at me and tucked some of my hair behind my ear. He kissed my nose which made me giggle.

"Yes, I do. Justin is chill and our parents even more. Please Marylou probably already has our picture on the wall and Jimmy will want to take you fishing and hope you will say yes because we always say no" He laughed.

I laughed too.

"Please say no because if you say yes we all will need to go" Nick's head popped out of nowhere in the middle of our seats.

It calmed me down just a little bit. But as we landed it all came back. My palms were sweaty and I was fixing my hair and hoodie every three seconds as we waited for our bags in the baggage claim. Chris made me and Matt to take a picture with "Welcome to Boston" sign. And I probably looked like I saw a ghost.

"Justin just landed too and Mom is going to be here in 20 minutes" Nick said looking at his phone.

We collected our luggage and waited on the chairs for their brother.

"It was not hard to find you...Nick you look ridiculous it is so warm outside snd you wearing fucking Uggs" I heard and my eyes followed the voice.

Justin walked up to us. He was a little shorter than his little brothers and had very similar style to Chris. I wouldn't say he looked similar to them but they only shared a mom and also I knew how Justin looked like from the pictures and videos.

They said hi to their brother and he brought so much energy and made everyone laugh. I could see how boys missed their brother a lot.

"And you must be y/n, it is nice to finally meet you. This one does not shut up about you" He embrace me with a warm hug and I smiled hugging him back.

"That would be me. Its nice to meet you too Justin" I said.

"Smart choice, this one can drive and doesn't talk too much" He joked and I laughed.

"Okay let's go...mom is here" Nick said and we went outside to look for their van.

When we found the car I tried to keep my cool. But it was just so normal to be stressed about it. I never did that before. Meet my partners parents. I never felt about anyone as I felt about Matt. He was so important to me that I just needed for his family to accept me because I knew how much his family was important to him.

We all were friends for almost two years now. Me and Matt started dating like 7 months ago but it was going on for longer than that. We were both just too scared to confess our feelings but one day our friends just couldn't stand us and they set us up with a date. And we talked and talked about feelings for hours and there we are now. I am meeting his parents.

"Hi kids! I missed you so much!" Their mom gave them a hug and a kiss and I stand next to them smiling at how adorable it was.

"Hi honey, you're even more pretty in real life... welcome! I hope the flight wasn't bad for you. Matt told me you do not like flying that much" She gave me a warm smile and hugged me too.

"Thank you Ms. Sturniolo... No, it was all great I am so happy to be here" I said and her aura just made me not stress at all anymore.

"Oh please, call me Marylou, get in, choose the best seat before they all start to fight" She laughed.

Boys put all our stuff in the trunk and got in the back so I did seat in the front with their mom. She was asking me about myself and everything else. The conversation was very easy with her. All the way home we were just talking and catching up.

When we got to their house all the brothers just walked in and straight away were met with their dog. Trev was so happy to see them. He was wiggling his tail.

"Oh.. brothers are back Trevor...look at that happy boy" Their mom smiled.

"And Matty brought you new best friend" She aded happily and I smiled and kneeled to give Trevor my hand to sniff.

"Hi buddy I heard so much about you...you're so cute...oh yes you are" I smiled when he let me pet him.

"Probably more than about me, huh?" Their dad walked out from the living room and smiled.

"Hi everyone!" He said and each of his boys hugged their dad hello.

"Good Morning.." I smiled standing up from the floor.

"Hi y/n, I'm Jimmy" He smiled at me and I shook his hand gently and he stroked my arm warmly.

"It is so nice to see you... We were waiting to meet you I am so glad you could visit with boys. " He said and I smiled even more.

"Me too..." I truly said.

"Okay... we are going to put the stuff away and rest a little bit" Matt said.

"Yes.. You guys go, sweetheart if you would ever need anything let me know... I put extra stuff in their bathroom for you and please feel like it is your house" Marylou said and I smiled.

"Thank you..." I said.

We went to Matt's room and I smiled.

"Your parents and brother are just as you said... I am sorry I was stressing out so much. And your house is just so warm and feels like family and love" I said looking at him.

"I told you... Yes, I love coming back home...nowhere feels like here and now that you are here. I have all I need" He kissed me gently and I wrapped my arms around him.

"I love you.."He said when he moved away and I smiled.

"I love you too" I said back and he smiled and kissed my nose.

He always did that and I loved it. He was so cute for that.

"Okay... I will show you whole house later, you go to the bathroom first and than we can have a nap if you want or whatever. Mom said we can eat dinner together" He said and I nodded.

I loved being in Boston. First few days we all spend together. They were showing me around but also we had family movie nights and game nights. I felt very welcomed and part of the family. Their family was everything I ever wanted for my future family.

"Where are we going?" I asked one evening when Matt told me to dress warmer and take a hat.

"Oh.. remember how you told us you never ice skated before?" Chris smiled at me.

"No way...."I said.

"Oh yes way! We kinda booked our old ice ring for the evening" Nick said and I looked at them.

"Thats so cool! I cant wait to see you guys on ice" I said.

"Thats what they said about you" Nate laughed from the back.

He was also going with us.

Once we were there boys collected all the stuff they needed from the trunk and we went in.

"Here I bought this for you. I will help you put them on" Matt said handing me a box with a smile.

"You bought me ice skates? Matt..."I said and pouted my lips.

He kissed my lips and smiled.

"I always wanted to take you and I do not who actually wanted to see you on ice more me or my brothers" He laughed.

We sat on the bench and he helped be put on the skates after he put his own.

"Ready?" He asked and I looked at rest of the group already skating on ice. They were fast. Matt reached for me with his arms.

"Okay.. but do not let them run me over” I said standing up and not letting go of Matt's arms.

"I would never" He laughed and we slowly entered the ice.

"Yes!! Go y/n!" Nick clapped his hands for me and I smiled but concentrated on keeping myself up. He was filming me.

"Slowly...move your legs like you would roller-skate, you did that before so it should be easier" Matt said.

I did as he asked me and I was able to move myself. He let go of one of my arms.

"I think I got it!" I said happily but it caused me to lose my balance and I somehow fell on my bum.

"Ah..baby are you okay?" Matt helped me up and all of them gathered around me.

"Yes... guys I like fell skating 1 mile per hour and you gathered here like I was gonna die here” I laughed.

We spent all evening on ice and I got okay to the point where Matt wasn't scared that I am going to kill myself. They were also filming for a video. I helped them with the camera and was cheering from the bleachers.

I had so much fun. Here and in general. I already knew Boston had a special place in my heart. Seeing boys how they were here with their family and friends. I knew I would always want to be back here with Matt.

[dolche-tejada]

So I wanted to point out the usual nonsenses coming from Tony Stark antis and luckily enough, one of them made a post quoting pretty much most of their popular "arguments" (if I can refer to them as such), so let's take a look at this user’s main points and see how solid they are.

"Let's talk about the horrible shit Tony has done in the MCU"

Please keep in mind the "horrible shit" term all along during your reading.

"MCU Tony has mortared a city full of civilians"

Okay so first point and it literally never happened. USA's government did that to Wanda and Pietro's town, not Tony so I hope it wasn't too painful to pull this nonsense out of your ass.

"Been a complete dick to all of his teammates"

Oh no... he was mean to Steve and his coworkers during their first movie ? What a complete tragedy, what a heartless monster. Please stop the violins, otherwise I might weep.

"Made multiple misogynistic comments about women mainly Natasha (looking at you prima nocta scene)"

Okay so you gave only one example to back this up and it's when he was obviously joking with his friends. Even if that joke may be in very bad taste, that doesn't make him a horrible person like you tried to demonstrate, you're just nitpicking.

"Manipulated a 16 year old into getting into a war with his former teammates"

A) "a war" please don't make me laugh. For most of the only fight Peter take part in, both sides were joking with the other while fighting and weren't even fighting seriously, they were just trying to incapacitate each other. Things only get messy after Tony ordered Peter to step back.

B) Tony didn't manipulate shit. He hid no vital informations to Peter and while bringing a 16 year old to an arrest was indeed a stupid decision, he knew Steve wouldn't harm him and that Peter was strong, competent and equipped enough to deal with him.

"Thought he was completely justified for trying to kill Bucky for something Bucky did unwillingly cuz he was fucking brainwashed"

Why the fuck are you lying ? At no point Tony justified himself for this. He tried during the whole Civil War plot to ease things with Steve and this even after his best friend got disabled for life because Steve escalated the situation at the airport, only to learn then that his friend lied to him all along about his parents' death.

At this point Tony just didn't care anymore and while he was obviously wrong for trying to kill Bucky, it's not like he had no understandable reasons to go after him. Brainwashed or not, most people would try to obliterate their parents' murderer if he stood right in front of them.

"Repeatedly mocked Bruce Banner who was filled with self loathing and even tried to kill himself because of how much he hated being The Hulk"

Firstly he joked with him, not about him. Secondly, Tony was the only one who respected Bruce from the start and never treated him like some ticking bomb ready to explode.

"Created most of the villains in the MCU (Mysterio and Co., Vulture, Aldrich Killian, The Maximoff Twins, Justin Hammer, The Flag-Smashers etc)"

Okay, where do I even begin on that.

Quentin Beck was a narcissistic asshole who got mad because his boss called his invention "B.A.R.F", that and Tony tossing it aside because this tech was way too expansive for its very limited applications. So not Tony's fault if Beck had an ego more fragile than a soap bubble.

Hammer tried to destroy Tony's image and Stark Industries first, so Tony defended himself by revealing he crippled a man by trying to replicate his tech. Hammer fucked around and found out, not Tony's fault if he's an hypocritical idiot.

Concerning the Flag Smashers, the reason they became terrorists wasn't caused by Tony bringing back half of the universe, it was due to the Global Repatriation Council's disastrous resources management.

About Toomes, Tony had no prior knowledge of the contract he signed with NY and even if he did, leaving dangerous alien tech in the hands of random people is quite a moronic idea, as evidenced by what they did with this tech for years. Not Tony's fault if Toomes is delusional and sucks at his job.

Aldrich Killian ? Be fucking real, he became a super-villain just because Tony ignored him, an archetypal greasy-haired nerd who literally drools as he talks, for a pretty chick on New Year's Eve.

Like obviously, when a serial killer stab someone to death, the most logical reaction is to blame those who assemble knives at the factory rather than the murderer himself, makes perfect sense to me.

The Maximoff Twins, my god this argument again... Yeah let's blame the guy who designed and sold weapons to his government rather than, oh I don't know, the fucking guys who used them against civilians ??

"Which also means he's also had some hand in the deaths caused by all these characters"

Literally none of the characters you quoted became super-villains because of him.

"Created Ultron"

He intended to create a security system against other alien invasions and it resulted in a genocidal robot, which only happened because Wanda mindraped him some hours before. Tony is responsible for Ultron's creation, Wanda for what he became.

And I don't want to see anybody whining in my mentions that he already planned to design Ultron prior to her mindraping him, not when she had this fucking grin after seeing Tony taking the Mind Stone with him.

Let alone when she threw this line, later in the movie : I saw Stark’s fear. I knew it would control him, make him self destruct.

She knew letting him take the Stone would cause something awful that might also kill him and she used her powers to make him even more paranoid. She's responsible for Ultron going from "A suit of armor around the world" to "Genocidal Murder Bot", not Tony.

"Thought it was a good idea to have a newly created AI be exposed to The Mind Stone which caused Ultron to kill JARVIS and go rogue

A) Which again wouldn't have happened if Wanda hadn't mindraped him the same day.

B) He didn't consciously exposed Ultron to it, the Mind Stone corrupted the AI on its own, something Tony and Bruce had no way to predict.

C) Still not his fault anyway. Ultron is sentient, he takes his own decisions. Tony being his "father" doesn't change anything to this state of fact.

"Profited off of war by making weapons of mass destruction and selling them"

Something he's spent over a decade to make amend for, notably by closing his weapons division and dedicating his life and resources to helping people and saving the world.

"Bought illegally obtained vibranium stolen directly from Wakanda by Klaue"

False too. All we know is that they met each other at the time Tony was still designing weapons ; and that Klaue told him he was looking for something new. At no point was it implied Tony illegally bought vibranium from him.

"Technically responsible for more vibranium being stolen from Wakanda by Klaue due to Ultron"

This vibranium was already stolen by Klaue when Ultron met him.

"Being responsible for everyone who died in Sokovia's death because he made Ultron"

So following your reasoning, I guess Jeffrey Dahmer's parents are responsible for every murder their son committed from his own free-will ? Did I get that right ?

"Being unwilling to help Steve and the others fix the Blip cuz muh daughter"

My god, how dare he... being against playing with time and rather trying to accept what happened while taking care of his family.

And this when we know screwing up with time can cause world-ending events.

Truly a proof of how horrible of a human being he is, indeed.

Btw I like how you ignored that Tony changed his mind and helped them afterwards.

"Supported The Sokovia Accords which need I remind you all Tony is technically responsible for The Accords being made because A. he's the one who killed Wanda's parents (blah blah blah, a lot of false attributions later...) causing her to kill Crossbones and a building full of people"

Still isn't him who dropped those mortar shells on her house. Just like it's not him who pushed Crossbones to go suicide-bombers, wrote the Sokovia Accords and incited 119 countries to sign them.

"and B. he is literally responsible for what happened to Sokovia BECAUSE HE MADE ULTRON"

Already answered to this shit, let's continue.

"Referring to Wanda as "a weapon of mass destruction" in Civil War"

Lmao because she isn't ? No one forced Wanda to join a terrorist organization, pal. Just like no one pushed her to act as a weapon of mass destruction, by using her powers to send Hulk on a rampage across Johannesburg or by enslaving Westview.

"meanwhile HE is the REASON SHE has her powers in the first place"

Sure, Tony whispered in her ear every night to go serve as a guinea pig for Nazis in order to get her revenge on him. I forgot this part of Wanda's backstory, silly me.

"Falsely imprisoning the heroes that didn't sign The Accords because he's a cunt"

Tony don't have any power or authority to imprison people, and the heroes he stopped got incarcerated because they indeed broke the law, you jackass.

"Being technically responsible for all the deaths caused by Wanda in Wandavision and DSATMOM because if he didn't kill her parents with his mortar..."

I don't think you know what "technically" means.

"then her and Pietro wouldn't have went to Hydra thus not getting their powers from The Mind Stone"

You know what would have actually prevented all the deaths Wanda caused ? Her not willingly joining Nazis to get her powers and going on a murder spree.

"And you are probably thinking "But he sacrificed himself at the end of Endgame !""

To save the whole universe indeed. That and quite a few other things, such as :

Outright refusing to help terrorists and getting tortured as a result.

Risking his life to save Yinsen.

Saving Afghans villagers from terrorists.

Saving Pepper and SHIELD's agents from Obadiah Stane.

Actively saving people on a daily basis, and this for a decade.

Developing a shit ton of armors to protect people more efficiently.

Saving New York and the world overall from Chitauris.

Stopping Killian from taking over the USA.

Curing Pepper from the Extremis treatment.

Designing Veronica with Bruce.

Fighting Hulk to protect Johannesburg.

Saving the world once again, alongside the Avengers.

Awarding promising students with the funds to develop their own projects and inventions.

Granting his tech to Peter and designing for him two suits that allowed him to save many lives.

Saving Stephen's life from Ebony Maw.

Helping the Avengers to travel in other timelines.

"Let me ask you this : If Strange had hold Tony that the only way to defeat Thanos is if Tony sacrificed himself would Tony do it"

It's literally what happened during Endgame, you fucking bozo. What do you think was the meaning of this scene ?

And it's not like it was something new, he was always ready to die for others' sake, right from the start, did you even watched the first Avengers movie ?

No wait, even better : Have you at least watched the beginning of his first solo movie ?

I wasn't expecting anything from Tony antis but sucking that hard at watching a movie is quite impressive ngl.

"Bottom line is MCU Wanda sucks and Tony Stark sucks"

Yeah no shit, that's pretty easy to say when you're making up lies to support your hate boner.

So in conclusion, this dude has no idea of what he's talking about and neither does Tony antis in general for using these bs as arguments.

[eye-candy-film-enjoyer]

My favorites of 2023

I wanted to make little wrap up of 2023, so here are my favorite movies and performances from 2023

Top Five Favorite movies

#5 The Hunger Games: The Ballad Of Songbirds and Snake - dir. Francis Lawrence

I am a YA/dystopian boy through and through. I thought this was a very faithful adaptation and very visually stunning. The performances were all great and I just really liked it. However, I had my problems with the book itself and I felt the movie didn't do a great job truly villainizing Snow (I found him too likable until like the end of the film) All in all though a fun watch.

#4 Saltburn- Dir. Emerald Fennell

If there's one thing I'm gonna do on this account, It's support a boy's wrongs. This movie has so many visual details and story details, it truly blows my mind. The soundtrack? Banger after banger. I'd never heard Murder on The Dance Floor before this movie but now I want to dance around a mansion to it. The cast? I mean just look at them. I do think occasionally this movie occasionally felt like it was just being shocking for shocking's sake and I got a little tired of it.

#3 Spiderman: Across The Spider-Verse- Dir. Kemp Powers, Justin K. Thompson, and Joaquim Dos Santos

I love art. There's no other way to say it. I am in love with creativity. The amount of details that are in this movie are so utterly mind blowing that every time I read about a new one, I feel like I have to rewatch this movie. The first Spider-verse film is an absolute masterpiece and this movie was not about to disappoint it. From the voice performances to the bleeding-water color, to animating on every other frame, this movie just had me floored. I hope it wins an Oscar for best animated feature or I'm throwing shit. I do want the second part before I fully judge the story but so far I think this is one of the best superhero stories in a while

#2 Barbie- Dir Greta Gerwig

I have never cried harder to a Nikki Minaj song. But actually, this movie made me fall in love with the simple act of being alive. It's a movie about a doll and yet its about enjoying life and growing up and how everything's so messy and it's so beautiful and we're so beautiful and I just. I get it. I get why Barbie wanted to be a human. We are all so fascinating. The ending montage alone is enough to make anyone with a heart cry. I hope that one day everyone is as in love with the world around them as this movie made me.

#1 Asteroid City- Dir. Wes Anderson

If you don't know the I'm Wes Anderson's number 1 fan, I'm doing something wrong. Truth be told, I didn't get this movie at first. I left the theater knowing that there was some deeper meaning but...what? So I thought about it for two weeks and then it hit me. There is no clear answer. There's no clear answer because the actors can't find a clear answer. There's no clear answer because the in-universe playwright didn't write one and maybe Anderson himself didn't write one. The movie has clear themes of grief and love and identity but at the end of the day what you choose to make of it is all up to you. There's also a lot to be said about how the play is existential and about uncertainty in the future and I think that's another reason I liked Asteroid City. I'm always so worried about the future. It terrifies me. But what can I do. And with that I once again realized that Wes Anderson was truly genius, and I don't think I'll ever see a film quite like Asteroid City again.

Favorite performances from each film

#5 Rachel Zegler as Lucy Gray Baird

I never got the hatred for Rachel Zegler. She was absolutely phenomenal in the 2021 West Side Story and she ate up Lucy Gray Baird. I just felt through the screen that Rachel understood her role so well. She played Lucy to all her vulnerability and strength and goddamn I am in love with her voice!! The old therebefore gave me absolute chills.

#4 Allison Oliver as Venetia Catton

being complete honest she's who I wanted to be in like middle school. Allison Oliver managed to play her as both such a free spirit and then to haunted on such the drop of the dime. From her subtle emotions to her snapping at Oliver in the bathtub she had me eating out of the palm of her hand. She would've loved Tumblr.

#3 Shameik Moore as Miles Morales

He had me laughing, crying, cheering and getting goosebumps the whole time. The absolute power Shameik Moore gives Miles is truly what tie the whole movie together. I feel like his performance often gets overshadowed for some of the bigger names in the cast and I truly find that shame. He gives Miles such a powerful and realistic portrayal that I admire it so deeply. From "Nah, I'mma do my own thing." to his conversations with Gwen to arguments with his parents, Shameik Moore makes Miles feel like a teenager who's trying to figure out who he is and a superhero saving a multiverse from collapsing

#2 Margot Robbie as Barbie

I'm fucking sick of only hearing Ryan Goslings name mentioned when we talk about the BARBIE movie! It is Margot's movie!! SHE ATE THAT SHIT UP!! She managed to so subtly bring in the changes of barbie being only a doll to being a real person. She provides so much of the movies comedy too. Her laying down crying had me wheezing not gonna lie. But she also shows us that how strong Barbie is and how she's so multi-faceted.She is truly someone little girls should see and be inspired by. Margot truly brought Barbie to life in all the ways that the audience and the script needed. She had me laughing, crying and smiling so goddamn wide the whole film. Here's to you, Margot.

#1 Jason Schwartzman as Augie Steenback/Jones Hall

It was the year of Schwartzman and nowhere was the proved more than in Asteroid City. Here we see, Jason Schwartzman playing and actor playing a single dad war photographer. Schwartzman manages to play all these layers so well, letting them blend together through on intense common factor: grief. Jones' grief bleeds into Augie in such a fascinating way that you might not even realize at first. It's so subtle and yet, it complete makes the performance. When we see Jones on his own a few times, though Jason Schwartzman manages to make him feel like a completely different man than Augie. The entire scene from Jones walking offstage to us being returned to 'Asteroid City' is truly some of my favorite acting of the year. Even through subtle expressions, we can truly see everything that Jones is experiencing. It's just such a sight to watch and it blows me away.

Some honorable film and performance mentions

Oppenheimer- Dir Christopher Nolan. Good film but a little too long if you ask me. Sorry!

Fav performance- Emily Blunt as Kitty Oppenheimer. She might not have been in a lot of the film but she stuck with me

Renfeild- Dir Chris McKay. Sorry I like fun camp! sue me!

Fav performance- Nic Cage as Dracula. I'm sorry Nic Cage is just so goddamn funny

Poison- Dir. Wes Anderson. Maybe the real snake was the Benedict Cumberbatch we met along the way.

Fav performance- Dev Patel as Woods. Wes please cast Dev Patel in a longer on of your films he ate this up.

Five Nights at Freddy's- Dir. Emma Tammi. I wanted to like it more but it felt like 3 different films until the last 20 minuets

fav performance- Matthew Lilard as William Afton. I want Stu Macher back after this.

The Swan- Dir. Wes Anderson. (Last time I mention Wes in this post I swear.) Hey Wesley! Quick question! WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT?? Thank youuuu!

Fav performance- Rupert Friend as Narrator/Peter Watson. Yeah he was the only guy speaking and he carried! The one moment where he breaks the stoic delivery and truly pleads for them to not kill the swan? Wow.

Gaurdians of The Galaxy Vol 3- Dir James Gunn. I have never cried over cgi this hard in my life!

Bradley Cooper as Rocket. Just hearing him scream sob almost had me open mouth sobbing in public.

Scream 6- Dir. Matt Bettinelli-olpin, Tyler Gillet. Starting to get real pissed at radiosilence.

fav performance- Jasmin Savoy-Brown as Mindy Meeks-Martin. She's so funny, I love her.

If y'all want I also have a favorite tv shows of 2023 post

[beaker1636]

D is For Dianism - Ricky

A/N: When coming up with ideas for D my friend suggested this, I have never heard of it but basically the concept is that you enjoy the sexual actives and experiences but without either party climaxing. So they can do whatever they want but aren't allowed to finish.... with that said here we go!

“So are you done sulking about your failure last night so that you can give Rick his letter before we all get home?” Chris asks with a laugh from his bed in the hotel room the next morning.

“Oh I have his task… but he is going to fucking hate me, trust me.” Justin says, glancing over at his friend.

“Do I dare ask you ahead of time what it is or wait until we see the little dude turn bright red in anger?” Chris asks, now very interested in what Justin has up his sleeve.  Clearly he is still bitter about his loss, but that is Chris’ win because finally people are getting competitive and that was the whole point of this… and also to watch Vinny get flustered because that is always amusing.

“When we all meet in the lobby I’ll tell him… that way you all can laugh at this.  Probably risky pissing off the one who would actually kill me but.” Justin shrugs, slowly getting up so he can grab his bags as it is now time to gather and head back to the airport.  At least they will all be going home and now they are off for a couple months now, everyone had agreed they wanted a break for awhile.

The two head down for the lobby where everyone else is, waiting for the van to pull up.

“Hey, so I picked your letter out Rick,” Justin says, glancing at the others as they all gathered around to hear what is next.

“Okay and?” The shorter man asks, annoyed that Justin isn’t just coming out with it already.

“Dianism,” Justin says, smirking at his friend.

“What the fuck is that?” Vinny asks, pulling his phone out of his pocket to google it. 

“Oh he gets to fuck her, in face he has to, but neither of them are allowed to finish or else they lose.” Justin says, now full on smiling at his friend who is glaring at him without restraint at this point.

“Then what is the point of even doing anything?” Ricky groans, annoyed and honestly not understanding the point of it.  

“To feel closer or something? I don’t know I was just googling shit and came across it and figured I failed, may as well make it easy for you to fail at it too. This is a game after all, right?” Justin asks, thanking god that the sprinter van has arrived and he can dip out of the hotel before Rick can beat him into the ground.

“Well, we its about time we step this up some I guess… but dude that’s just straight up cruel,” Ryan says from his seat, adding his two cents into the conversation.

“I think it’s interesting, isn’t the point that we challenge each other?” Chris asks, letting out an annoyed sound when the guitarist punches him in the arm. “What was that for?”

“Agreeing with that dickhead,” Rick grumbles.

They all drop the conversation for the rest of the ride to the airport, everyone dozing off when they get on the plane, still exhausted from the traveling and performance that they gave the night before.

Later That Night

“Are you ready to do your letter thing or are you still sulking?” you ask, walking up to your boyfriend and giving him a back hug as he unpacks his bag from the trip.  You can’t help it, he looks really cute when he is huffy… but you can’t say that because it will annoy him more.

“I genuinely don’t think we can pull this one off, Justin gave us an awful challenge and I don’t know if we can pull it off.” He says, turning to look at you, the confused expression obvious on your face as he does so.

“Are you going to tell me what it is or keep it a secret?” you ask him with a giggle, which only annoys him more.

“Dianism, basically we have to have sex but neither of us can finish.  So we can edge and get close as much as we want but that is it,” he says with a huff, clearly annoyed. “I legit don’t know if either of us has the willpower to pull that one off.”

“So you don’t even want to try? Just automatically give up? I’d rather do it and fail than just automatically lose,” you respond, now playing with a couple strands of his hair as he looks at you.  You miss having more hair to play with of his but would be lying if you said you don’t find the haircut attractive.

“You’re the needy one and you are willing to try this? You’re the one who is going to hate it more than I would,” he says, now it’s his turn to start messing with you, ghosting his hands just barely under your shirt to run along the bare skin of your stomach.

“I may be a needy whore but even I can control myself,”  you glare at him, annoyed that he won’t even give you the chance to try. “Do you want everyone to know that YOU were the one to give up and not try?” you taunt him, pressing yourself a bit closer to him, knowing that if you pressure him enough that he will give in.

He does just that, closing the slim gap between the two of you as he pushes you backwards until the back of your legs hit the edge of the wall. “You sure that you want to start this war, because I can tease you for hours and hours, edging you over and over.” 

“Oh shut up and give in already,” you whine, egging him on.  Wanting to get him to be the first one to make a move, being the one to decide how things are going to go.  You enjoy giving up control and letting him take the reins so that you don’t have to think about what to do or try to guess what he wants.

The two of you make eye contact and stare each other down for a few seconds before he gives up, pulling you in for an aggressive kiss that quickly turns you into putty in his hands.  Him teasing you by biting your lip and tugging on it, knowing that when he gets this way with you that it spurs you on.

Just as quick as his lips found yours they are suddenly pulled away from your own, moving to leave a trail of kisses up your jaw leading towards your ear.

“Move to the bed,” he says softly, swatting your ass when he pulls away and you make your way over to the bed, sitting and waiting for what he wants next.

“Now strip baby, if we’re doing this then we are focusing on you.” He says, watching you closely as you begin to do what he asks, excited when you can see the desire in his eyes grow as you do what he asks.

“Good girl,” he murmurs, moving to push you on your back before leaning down to pull you into another kiss, this one much more heated as he slides a hand up your torso.  A rough calloused hand moving to toy with one of your breasts, taking his time with teasing you as he rolls your nipple between his fingers, smirking when you let out a soft moan.

Pulling his lips away from yours he kisses down your chest before his lips wrap around your other one, licking, sucking and lightly nipping at it until he can feel you shift beneath him, your arousal obvious to him as he continues to tease you for several minutes.

“You weren’t joking about teasing me tonight,” you say, your breathing heavy as you focus on his touch, needing him to stop doing so and touch you where you need him the most.

He pulls his lips away from your body to glance up at you. “I told you that you are a needy whore and would give in quick,” he smirks.

With that he slides a hand down between your thighs, urging you to open up to his touch a little but, which you finally give in and allow.  He runs a finger along your slit, happy when he finds how wet you are already before he sinks two fingers inside of you with no warning, making you moan out at the sudden stretch, both from pleasure and a little bit of pain from the sting.

“Remember, you can’t cum.  You have to make me stop before you do,” he says, watching you with half lidded eyes as he begins fucking you with his fingers, adding a third quickly knowing that the stretch will drive you insane.  Especially now that he is using his thumb to circle your clit, wanting to bring you close just so that he can rip it away from you.  You’re the one that insisted on doing this stupid challenge and he is set to make you regret it.

He can feel you starting to clench around his fingers so he stops, making you groan out in frustration at your ruined orgasm.  He then starts up again once you have calmed back down, only to do it again and again.

“God damnit, I need you inside of me please?” you beg after the fourth ruined orgasm, frustrated and craving the release that you have been denied yet again.

“Even if I am inside of you I still can’t let you cum, you know this,” he taunts, moving so that he can slide the rest of his own clothing off as he looks down at you.  Loving the way you look at him with such desire, that only he can give you or deny you of what you want.

“Fuck off, you know you want to….” you cut off with a gasp from him suddenly sliding into you, finally giving you what you want when he bottoms out inside of you.

He begins to thrust into you, taking his time so that he can tease you yet again, not quite giving you what you want nor need from him. However he eventually gets frustrated himself and starts to go harder, which unfortunately pulls both of you close so he has to stop.

Both of you grow frustrated as you continue this push and pull, getting right to the edge before you have to stop yourselves.  He starts up again, but this time it is too much, you are unable to stop yourself as you suddenly hit your climax, wrapping your legs around his waist as you do.  When you come down from it you feel guilty, knowing that you just lost the game for the both of you but it is short lived when he begins fucking into you harder.

“Fuck it, we already lost,” he groans as he now chases his own high, falling over the edge only a couple moments after you do, both of you collapsing next to eachother on the mattress as you both slowly come back to your senses.

“Fuck Justin,” you mumble before heading to the bathroom to clean yourself up, annoyed that you lost the game and that you two are now stuck being cockblocked for the next week until you get another stupid letter.

When you return to the bed you curl up next to Rick, resting your head on his shoulder while scrolling your phone and him reading, enjoying the quiet moment before you both fall asleep, exhausted from the marathon edging you both just endured.

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Collide-Justin Herbert-39

A/N: This is fanfaction, I do not know or own any on or affiliated with the Chargers. You do not have my permission to take my fic

Time stood still. Her breathing was heavy, there was no reason to have that document in her hands, she didn't even have a copy of that for God's sake. This wasn't something she had ever revealed to her fans, and while one day she would probably open up about it, she wanted to do it on her own terms just like she had with Justin and her relationship.

Relationships got leaked all of the time, but this was a violation of HIPPA. How the fuck did she even get a hold of this information?

Sara slowly approached the counter and looked through the page, it detailed her stay, course of action, the medication she was on, the therapy she did for years. Clicking out of that she stared in disbelief as she went through the entire laptop. There were photos of Sara and Justin that were only taken from her phone, a phone that Erika had access to.

There were ones that were in the article that they saw. Ones of Justin and Sara in an embrace in her house. They must have been taken when neither were paying attention. Going into another file, there were photos of her and Harry. It was backstage on his 2019 Fine Line show at the forum. Harry was lifting her up and they were passionately kissing. They both just assumed they weren't hidden enough and a fan caught them. But it all clicked, Erika didn't just leak Justin and her relationship.

She'd done this for years. Sara had always been a private person, unfortunately things came out. She just assumed it was how the business worked. Never in a million years did she think the one person she trusted the most could do this to her.

Once again her breath was shaky, but this time it was with anger. She didn't know how long she and AnnSophie stood like that, but as soon as she heard the door open Erika announced her presence. "Sara? Are you home?"

Not being able to control herself Sara speed walked and whipped around the corner. Erika barely had her shoes off before Sara was in her face. "Did you really think I wouldn't fucking find out eventually you fucking cunt!" She seethed with anger. Any chance of a normal conversation was out the window now.

Erika backed up into the door, clearly not expecting Sara to be so angry at her arrival. "What are you talking about?"

"Don't you play fucking stupid with me! I saw your computer open to my medical documents!"

Erika had a look of Oh shit on her face before she tried to recover. "Oh that! The hospital called because they wanted to release records so I just said to send them to me and I'll forward them to you." She sounded sure and proud of herself that she covered her tracks.

It made Sara want to choke her. "Oh really? You wouldn't happen to want to send them to Jack from OK! Magazine would you?"

Erika's facade fizzled a bit before she held her head up eye and walked into the kitchen where AnnSophie was standing, laptop put back in its previous position

"Sara, you're acting paranoid. I mean I know you deal with some slimebags, but come on." Sara was hot on her heels. "How can I trust someone who was out to dinner with Jack and friends celebrating his promotion? And I wonder how he got the exclusive photos that were on my phone."

Sara ran to the counter and grabbed the laptop. "In fact, let's check your laptop. You wouldn't mind since it's technically mine and you only use it for work." As Sara grabbed the device Erika lunged to grab it back. A wrestling war began. "Let go!" Erika yelled. Sara did, and shoved her, sending her flying to the floor. "Admit it was you! You leaked everything about every relationship I've been in!" Sara yelled, overwhelmed tears flowing down her face. "I fucking trusted you! I gave you everything! I was there for you when no one wasn't! And this is how you repay me!"

Erika got up. She was mad. "Oh boo hoo. Stop acting like the fucking victim. All you do is cry about your daddy issues and trust issues. You are a spoiled princess who just feels sorry for herself."

"So you betray my trust and sell me out for money?" Sara shook her head. "You were my best friend!"

Erika was shaking. "Only when it was convenient for you! I was nothing but a glorified slave to you. You get everything you want! Every man I've shown interest in has wanted you!"

Sara shook her head. "I can't control what another guy likes. Every time you've shown interest in someone I've supported you, and I know those guys are off limits."

"What about Justin and Harry?" Erika crossed her arms. Sara was now confused. "What?"

"When we were younger and into One Direction. I was always a Harry girl, you liked Niall. Then all of the sudden we meet him and become friends, and you start sleeping with him. You know how that made me feel?" Her former friend's face was red as a tomato. Sara shook her head. "That was when we were teens though, I even asked you about it and you said it was fine. So I don't understand. Also what does this have to do with Justin?"

Erika turned away, she was holding back. It was driving her nuts. "I can't tell you." Erika finally mumbled

"No! I think I deserve an explanation! What does Justin have to do with you nearly destroying my relationship!" Sara yelled. She was out of patience. Erika turned towards her and yelled. "A couple years ago, we went to the game with Joe, it was one of the first games we attended. You weren't even paying attention, glued to your phone. I pointed him out while he was running onto the field and I said 'oh he's cute'. You looked up once and went back to your phone."

Sara vaguely remembered that moment. "Erika, I didn't know." She scoffed. "Really? Even when I told you I was going to DM him?"

"You said you were going to message an NFL player. I didn't know it was him."

"Yeah because you didn't see me as a friend but as an employee. How could anyone want someone when their best friend is the one every guy wants. Remember you said that to me in high school?" She practically spit the last sentence.

"I'm sorry okay? But you didn't tell me anything? Our friendship was built on communication. If you had an issue you could have come to me."

"Yeah okay and when would that be? You were always with Justin or Bella, or AnnSophie. I was slowly fading into the background."

"Again, so you decide to betray me and destroy my relationship? Tell me how that makes sense." Sara shook her head. "You're fired, and it's best we go our super ways."

Erika smiled evilly. "Oh you think that's it? One click and this gets sent to Jack, along with everyone you've hooked up with, and other photos." As she went to grab the laptop Sara lunged at her. She managed to wrestle it away, but not before Erika got a good kick in her ribs and stomach "ow!" Sara screamed. In retaliation, Sara punched Erika, first getting her shoulder but it was enough to make an impact. She saw a fire in her former friend's eyes before she lunged. The laptop was now forgotten. Sara landed another hit, this time on the eye.

Out of nowhere, AnnSophie leaped into action the laptop away, she shattered it before turning to Erika. "Please leave."

Erika smiled smugly. "I live here."

"Not for long." Sara was hunched over, hissing in pain. The kick knocked the wind out of her. "Leave or I'll have the cops arrest you for assault ." That got Erika moving. "This isn't over. Bitch." She got the level at Sara, who was in tears. "Oh cry little princess, someone gave you a dose of reality. Good luck when he dumps you again."

"Fuck you! You were my sister! I loved you!" Sara screamed. AnnSophie followed Erika as she grabbed her clothes and made sure she was out the door. The model looked out the window to make sure she was gone before attending to her friend. "Are you okay? I gave you guys some privacy. I didn't think she would attack you."

Sara got up and slowly made her way over to the couch. "Yeah I'm fine. Just stunned I guess. My stomach got the most of it."

"You need to get a lawyer to sort this out. She could have more personal details on you with proof."

As Sara held an ice pack to her stomach, AnnSophie made calls. Within the hour, Sara had no obligation to Erika, except a rightful termination of employment. Which she signed when she agreed to join her team. It meant Erika had to leave Sara's house, and thank God for Brittany and her team, who made sure Erika had a NDA. Her lawyers told Sara that she could sue Erika for everything she had.

As she calmed down she decided she didn't want to sue. Her legal team didn't agree with the decision at all. She wanted to get Erika back, but suing her for all of her money wasn't going to solve anything. Her family was poor, and her parents and brother had nothing to do with their relatives' shitty decisions.

Sara was caught up in all the drama that went down, she didn't notice that hours had passed, or Justin was trying to get in touch with her anyway he can.

Her phone had plenty of missed calls and messages, ranging from concerned to petrified and hysterical. As she and AnnSophie prepare dinner she called Justin. "Hello?"

"Oh thank God," he breathed. "I was about to fly home to check on you." He was in Georgia for a golf tournament. "What's going on?"

She sighed, not sure if she wanted to have this conversation over the phone. But she didn't want to risk him finding out via social media in case some leak got out. "I confronted Erika, and we got into it."

There was silence. "Like arguing?"

"It turned physical, and she kicked me in the stomach."

His voice was low and deep. "I'll fucking kill her." This was the second time she heard his voice get really deep in anger. It was fucking hot. "Where is she now?"

"I don't know. AnnSophie kicked her out before we could continue to fight."

"You are never confronting someone again without me there." He joked and she laughed, wincing in pain. "That wasn't the plan. I came in and found my personal medical records on her laptop. The bitch was planning to tell the world my issues." She started sniffling. "Baby." He started.

"I feel so stupid. Everyone was warning me about her. I gave her the benefit of the doubt. We were like sisters, I defended her and now here I am. Looking so stupid."

"That's not stupid. Sara, you see the best in everyone. That's not a bad thing, it's the people who take advantage of it."

"Thank you. I needed to hear that." She smiled. "I miss you."

"I miss you too, baby. I'm hanging out with Nelly Korda before the tournament. She's a big fan of yours."

She laughed. "Tell her I said hi, and that one day I'll learn to watch golf."

He laughed. "You better be ready for my invitational in July."

"I'll be on the sidelines." He snorted. "You will be with my family. You can bring your family out too. I know your brothers in laws love golfing."

"Oh my god they would lose their minds. I always told them I was going to find someone who hated golf."

"How did that work out for you?" He teased and she giggled. "Pretty good I guess."

"So I have some bad news." Her face paled. "Oh god what?"

He sighed on the other end. "I have to make another appearance and then I have the draft party.  So I'm going to be very busy."

Sara threw her head back. "So you mean it's going to be even longer before I see you Naked?"

He laughed. "Wait a minute, I thought we were taking it slow?"

"Oh yeah because we are just sooo good at doing that." Justin was silent, unbeknownst to her he was thinking about asking her to move in. "True."

They spoke for a couple of hours before hanging up.

The next day Sara decided to pack up Eugene and bring him over to watch Nova. She was up at night researching how to introduce the cats to each other. She brought over a bunch of his toys, and his food.

She still had the key Justin gave her, he asked her if she still had it considering she never even bothered to give his stuff back. As she grabbed the key at his front door, the sunlight caught the diamonds of the 'O'

As soon as the Erika thing was settled she ran around hee bedroom looking for the ring, luckily it landed by her closet door. Justin had half laughed, half grimaced when she told him she threw the ring somewhere.

"I'm surprised you didn't show up to my house to throw it at me." He joked

"Trust me I wanted to, but knowing you would have caught it with your super athleticness."

Once she got in she set Eugene in his carrier down. She heard a meow and saw Nova coming towards her. "Hi Novi! Did you miss me? Cause I missed you!"

The brown cat stopped when she spotted Eugene. Sara knelt down. "It's okay baby, this is Eugene, he is a Bengal like you, here." She held out her hand for Nova to sniff. Once Nova sniffed her small body went still, then out of nowhere she swatted at Sara's hand. "Hey!"

Eugene must have taken offense, as he hissed. "Eugene, stop it." This is going so well. Sara thought, and decided to bring the carrier in Justin’s bathroom. "You guys are going to be buddies, I promise." She sighed and went into the bathroom, Nova following her.

She closed the door and got Eugene's food and water bowl set up. Maybe once dinner time she could feed them both through the door.

As she was setting up she walked around, remembering everything that had gone down in the kitchen, her feeling sad, the sleepless nights when she was sure she was wasting her time. Discovering there was another woman. She walked to the sliding doors and looked out into the backyard. Sara got lost in thought, until she looked down and saw Nova rubbing against her legs. Smiling, she bent down and picked her for a snuggle.

Her phone rang, interrupting the silence of the house. Still holding the cat, she saw it was Pat calling. "Hello?"

"Hi Sara, it's Pat." She laughed. "I know, you're programmed in my phone. You sent me pictures of the lakes."

"Oh that's right." He said with an awkward laugh. It was silent after that until Sara spoke. "Not that I don't mind speaking to you, but why did you call?"

She heard whispers on the other end. Finally she heard his voice

"Fuck it, I'm just going to ask. Are you and Justin back together? I know last time he said he wasn't sure-"

She laughed. "Yes Patrick, Justin and I have gotten back together, I'm looking after his place while he is gone." She scratched behind Nova's ear.

"Oh thank God, I'm so glad he got his head out of his ass." She laughed. Patrick joining in before speaking. "You know you can thank me for that?"

"What do you mean?"

"Well during his birthday, I meanted the photos I sent you, it set him off and I guess my dad must have said something to him. Must have lit the fire in his ass, next thing we knew he was trying to hit the road back to Cali. We heard he chased you to Pittsburgh."

Sara smiled, feeling giddy at retelling the story a million times to her friends and family. "Yeah, he stood in the pouring rain for who knows how long and then jumped in front of my car!"

"Awwww." She heard a new voice which then identified itself. "Hi Sara, it's Carly. I just got in to catch the end of the conversation."

"Oh hi!"

"Wait a minute, you tell me  my nerdy goody two shoes brother did something reckless. I actually have some respect for him"

Sara rolled her eyes. "Surprised me too."

They spoke a little bit more, with Sara promising to come to Oregon again. Once they hung up, Sara began trying to introduce the cats again. She set up the food stations on the opposite of the door. Eugene immediately pounced on the food, while Nova sensed his presence and trudged slowly. Sara held her breath as Nova sniffed at the door. Finally, after a few minutes Nova began to eat. She guessed she was okay with the other cat.

It was a start, and once the cats finished they hung around the door separating them. Sara decided to ignore the research she did and open the door so they could look at each other. They both were still until Eugene walked towards her and began sniffing. After a few minutes Nova began to lick him, and Sara breathed a sigh of relief.

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Sara knew she was in love, because she was watching Justin in a fishing competition on television. Her dad took her and her sisters out a few times as kids, and she did like being out on the water. But this wasn't something you watched on television.

Justin was surprised when she told him she had experience in the sport. "I would have never guessed." He mused.

"Well there's a bunch of things you don't know about me." She replied  cheeky. He laughed. "I can't wait to discover it."

He couldn't see, but she blushed over the phone. "Cheesy ass." He laughed.

As she was waiting for the competition, she finished up some virtual interviews for the show, and was on the set for some dress rehearsal stuff, she was also looking over some music choices for certain episodes.

As she was pouring a margarita, she heard a familiar voice on the television and looked up, and she sighed, looking up to hear Justin speak. He was so eloquent and captivating. Sara wished he had more confidence in himself.

Overall, he wasn't on the television too much and he probably arranged it that way. Once it was over, she was on social media when she saw something that made her lose her mind.

Justin was shirtless and jumping into the water.

It was all over twitter, many people applauding him for showing some personality. Sara was too busy drooling over him.

Why the fuck did I say to take it slow.

After a few hours Justin called her as she was cleaning the cat litter. "So you're just going to let everyone see your titties and not me?"

There was a pause. "What on earth are you talking about?"

She rolled her eyes. "I'm talking about you celebrating your big catch."

"Babe, where did you see that?"

"It's all over social media."

"I got to tell them to delete it." She giggled. "You know it's saved everywhere. Maybe I should get mine out for a role in the future."

There was no hesitation on Justin's end. "Please don't. Those are only for my eyes. Plus there's no nudity clause in your contract." Her eyebrows raised. "I'm impressed."

“No one sees what is for my eyes only.” He turned possessive. It was hot. “Well, you’re lucky, cause I don’t want anyone to see my tits besides you. But apparently you want everyone to see yours.” He groaned. “Stop it”

She giggled, then decided to change the subject, “I introduced the cats.” She looked over to where both Bengals were chilling on the cat tower. “We had a slight hiccup, but they are buddies now.”

“I’m glad, now there is no argument against you moving in with me.” She was silent, and Justin had to ask “What’s wrong?”

“I’m nervous.” She admitted and Justin knew why “I understand you don’t trust me.” It made him sad, but he knew why. “I understand if you want to wait, like you said in Pittsburgh we take it slow.” She nodded, then realized he couldn't see it. “Yes. In the meantime I can’t wait to see you.

“Well just a few more days, then I'll be home, we will have a few days before workouts begin. Maybe we could go to dinner or something.”

“In a public place? I mean we could just get takeout.”  Sara was shocked. Justin knew it too, “Well, I mean we can’t hang out at each other's homes forever. I am not saying let’s go to a red carpet together, but we can go out once in a while.”

“I just want to make sure you’re comfortable with this. I mean yeah we are not going to hotspots, but all it takes is one phone call, and then there is a whole group of people.”

The thought did make him nervous, but he loved Sara, and whether he liked it or not this was her life. “I mean I think Irvine is pretty safe, you have been out and about before and you have been left alone.”

“True.”

Justin smiled, looking out at his view of Miami “So how about I take you to this sushi place by the ocean, its quite a drive, but it will be worth it.”

“Its a date.”

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Fate had other plans

As soon as she hung up with Justin and began planning her outfit for their date, Alex called, she needed a new assistant, pronto and there was a list of potential candidates she needed to pick from.

Also, her team decided that saying No to the Met was not an option, considering she needed to make more public appearances since the Oppenheimer premiere was coming up, and she missed a considerable amount of press because of her family’s issues.

So within hours, she was on a plane with Alex to New York, where she would be heading to Vogue Studios, for an interview on attending her first Met, then meeting Law Roach to put her in his vision, which was a vintage Chanel designed by Lagerfeld. Sara met him only once backstage at a Fendi show that AnnSophie opened. He was very nice, and threw in a backhanded compliment about how she wasn’t thin, but she wasn’t too chunky where she couldn’t wear high end designers. Well, she had heard worse, so she just took it with a grain of salt.

She only had time to text Justin, promising to make it up to him. He called her and assured her that it wasn't a big deal, it was only a week setback. It still sucked though.

So instead of eating sushi and getting her sushi eaten, here she was at the finest hotel in New York, surrounded by Law and the creative director of Chanel, who designed a dress based off of Karl’s designers. It wasn't too bad, there were plenty of snacks, plus Bella and AnnSophie were there with little Lexi. They were gossiping and laughing as Sara caught Bella up with the drama.

They were all attending the pre met luncheon the next day and it was revealed that Harry would be attending. This made her nervous, she hadn’t spoken to him since his awkward proposal. She carried the huge diamond Harry presented her with in her bag. She planned to mend fences and give it back to him. Sara thought about going to his house while they were in Los Angeles and handing it to him, but the last thing she needed was to be spotted entering or leaving his house.

Of course she had told Justin her plans, he wasn’t happy that she was seeing him, but understood that Harry would always have some part of her life. They were friends before lovers, and they were apart of the new generation of Hollywood. Justin knew she didnt have any romantic feelings for the singer, just like she knew he didnt have any feelings for Taylor.

Once rehearsals were done and measurements were taken, and everything was completed that left the girls free for the night. Sara decided to join AnnSophie in taking her daughter over to Bella’s sisters house so Lexi can play with Khai

The group spent a few hours there until the toddlers were nearing their bed time. Sara carried a sleeping Lexi against her with the blanket draped over her face so the photographers couldnt get a picture, plus it shield the baby girl’s eyes from the harsh lights of the cameras. Once in the car AnnSophie took her daughter to comfort her as she was scared from the loud voices of the cameraman. Once Sara was dropped off at the hotel she changed clothes and got unready, once she put on her glasses she got into bed. However, her mind was racing. She knew she wasn’t going to get any sleep unless she did what she wanted to do.

Grabbing the black velvet box, she opened her door and peeked around. It was late, so no one was walking the halls. It was a high security floor that celebs stayed on,that no one but the people with elevator codes could access so no randoms could walk on the celebrity guests floor.

Punching in the code, she went one floor up. When she stepped out on the floor, she realized she had an issue. She had no idea what room he was in. Sighing, she took her phone out of her pocket and texted him, hoping he was up or not out partying somewhere.

Where are you?

I'm in my room.

Let me in.

She knew he was probably surprised she was going to see him, as she waited she thought about messing with him like the old days. It would take the tension out of the air. She took the ring out of the box and slipped it on her left ring finger.

Another minute passed, and she saw Harry come around the corner. "Sara?" His hair was wet and he was in pajama bottoms and no shirt. "What do you want?" He came towards her

"Can we go to your room? We will talk there." He nodded and motioned her to follow him. It was an awkward silence when they made it back to the room. Closing the door, he turned towards her. "What is it?"

She looked down at the ring. "So I've been thinking about us." She felt his stare on her hand, where the big diamond sparkled. "What about it?" He gulped. She looked up and smiled. "My answer is yes." Sara wanted to laugh when she saw the panic in the man's eyes.

"Yes to what?" She rolled her eyes. "Your proposal. Yes Harry, I will marry you!" She launched herself at him. "Oof!" Harry groaned. "Sara, listen…" She pulled back. "You don't want to marry me?"

His eyes widened and she had to break character. She began giggling, which turned to a full on laugh. "What the fuck is so funny?" He was annoyed.

Taking the ring off, she put it back in the box before closing it and tossing it on the bed. "I was playing you idiot. You don't think I saw those photos of you and Emily? I can't tell you how flattered I am by seeing a guy who supposedly wanted to marry me makeout with someone else a couple of months later."

Running a hand through his hair, he sighed. "Not one of my proudest moments huh?" She huffed and sat on the bed, Harry taking a seat next to her. "So why the hell did you do it? Was it some sort if manipulate tatic or some shit?"

He shook his head. "No."

"Okay, was it because your label told you they needed you to settle down for a good public image?" Again, he shook his head. "Then what was it?"

He put his head in his hands. "I was jealous okay?"

Sara was in disbelief. "Jealous? Of what?"

He turned towards her. "When I did what I did with Olivia I was always hoping we could be friends, you know? Why do you think I wrote Little freak and Matilda about you? What I did was terrible, but I was hoping you would be by my side and we could be how we once were." He shook his head. "But then Erika got in touch with me and was telling me all about that American football player, and I don't know. I freaked out!" He got up

"I guess I just felt like you wouldn't want to ever be close with me again. So when we began talking again I just… I don't know. I've been the only guy in your life until I wasn't, and I deserved

"Harry. I've forgiven you, I missed my friend. You didn't have to do that at all. Gave me a fucking heart attack." He laughed. "Wasn't one of my finer moments hmm?"

"No, it wasn't. I should be used to it." She smirked. "Hey!" They laughed. Once they calmed down Harry sighed. "So I get the feeling Erika wasn't supposed to tell me anything about this guy?"

Sara shook her head. "Security went with her to get her things out of my house. My team wants to pursue a lawsuit for breaking an NDA. I don't know if I want to do all that though." He shook his head. "It's exhausting, and I feel like the press coverage isn't worth it."

"That's what I said." There was a comfortable silence. "I'm sorry for everything." Harry sighed. "You know in another life I think we would have been perfect together."

She smiled. Knowing what he was talking about. "Living in a London townhouse with four kids." He laughed. "Still remembering those fanfictions from the Tumblr era huh?"

She knocked shoulders with him. "Hey it was a big part of the Fandom. How was I supposed to know I'd be here?"

"True. So does this mean we can be friends?" He looked hopeful. She nodded. "Yes, I love your stupid ass too much to lose you. I was hurt with what you did, but I've forgiven you."

"Does this guy make you happy? He treats you well?"

She smiled and nodded. "Yes, I'm in love with him, and I know he loves me." For the first time she felt confident.

"He knows what he is getting into right? This world is insane."

"Don't I know it. Yes, he knows. We had a hiccup, but we know what to expect."

"Then that's all I needed to hear." He got up. "God we are going to be so tired tomorrow for this brunch."

Sara was confused as she got up. "Wait a minute, isn't it lunch?"

He shook his head. "Anna changed it to brunch..so 10:30 am sharp." She groaned and he laughed."God my makeup team is going to be so mad at me"

They hugged and promised to meet up again before heading out. As Sara was walking down the hallway, Harry called out. "Sara?" She turned to face him. "I'm happy for you. You deserve it."

She smiled. "I know."

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"You are such a pervert." Justin laughed as he laid in the cold empty bed. He was facetiming Sara who was in her hotel room. She had just gotten in from the Met after party. While it was 2am in New York, it was 11pm in LA. He laughed at her buzzed state, she had a black veil over her face, it was decorated with Swarovski crystals and according to Sara it was heavy. He cringed at the sound of taking all of the gel out of her hair that was on her face. It was a vintage 90s look that the stylist put her in. While she looked gorgeous, Justin could tell she wanted  nothing more to be in comfy clothes. As she was changing, she was telling him how she was looking at his workout photos.

"I can't ogle my sexy boyfriend?" She took a wipe for her makeup. "Oh my god I can't wait to get this off. One step closer to taking out my contacts." He laughed. "A few more sleeps and you're with me."

"Please, this vanity fair photoshoot is going to be the damn death of me."

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At long last, she was here.

Well a few more minutes.

Justin was waiting outside the sleek black car in the private terminal a distance from the runways private jets came in. He saw in the distance a black plane come closer and closer. He smiled, the roses in his hand seemed to perk up a bit.

The plane came down the runway and stopped. Eventually, after what seemed like hours the door opened and the stairs came down, and there was Sara and someone behind her carrying a bag. Once they reached the end. Sara said something to the person carrying her bags. There was some back and forth, and eventually the man gave her a bag. Justin laughed, he knew she was uncomfortable and preferred to do things herself.

"Excuse me Mr. Herbert would you like me to drive up and pick up Ms. Wozniak?" The driver, David, was a kind older man. Sara insisted that David would pick Justin up to meet her at the airport. "Yes, that would be greatly appreciated, thank you." They got in the vehicle and he knew she spotted them as they pulled up. David went to get out to help with the bags, but Justin told him to just pop the trunk and they will get it.

Getting out, he made sure no one was around before leaning down and capturing Sara's lips in a passionate kiss. She immediately reciprocated and wrapped her arms around her waist. They broke the kiss after a bit, both trying to catch their breath. He went to grab a bag but she turned her shoulder. "You are injured. I got it." She knew he had came from an off season workout, and she didn't want to be in any way responsible if something happened to him while trying to grab a bag.

He was still a gentleman as he gave her the flowers and opened and closed the car door. Once they were both in, the car took off, heading towards Sara's house first where she would get herself situated and then pack to stay by Justin's for the week. "Make sure you bring dress clothes, I made reservations for tonight." She was surprised "for what?"

"Dinner, remember I wanted to take you to that sushi place." She was shocked. As much as a cozy night would be amazing she knew that this was important to him. "I look forward to it."

The whole way back to her house she told him all about the New York adventures and the Met. Then she decided to get it out of the way. "I spoke to Harry."

Justin didn't look phased. "Oh? And how did that go?"

"Fine, we agreed to be friends, and he will help me out with planning the Christine McVie tribute." He nodded, "I saw Taylor when I came back to Los Angeles. I confronted her on everything. Let's just say it didn't go too well like your meeting."

Sara laughed, then got serious. "So that's it right? It's over?" He kissed her. "I want nothing to do with her. I found out she asked to not cover the Chargers anymore." Sara flung herself at him and began kissing him. Justin looked towards the front, where the driver was too focused on the roads. He was able to see that they were close to Sara's house, her gate coming into view. "Wait." He gently pulled her away. "I need to take you to dinner first." She rolled her eyes and he laughed.

Once the driver pulled up, she gave him a rip, and Justin and her unloaded the bags before bringing them into her house.  The first thing she did was start a load of laundry, then began packing another bag for Justin's house. "You know you wouldn't have to do that if you just moved in with me." He smirked.

"Aren't we taking it slow?" She teased back. He smiled. "I mean with some things. Eugene has already made himself a home with Nova."

"Thank you for taking care of him by the way. How was it?"

"Ashley is in love with him. He is a very clingy cat. Caught him a few times snuggling with Nova. I think she just deals with him now."

"Remind me to thank Ashley, and get her something." She hadn't met his agent yet, but the fact that she was willing to take on another cat for sitting was amazing. "How was feeding?"

"Nova loves the raw diet, her favorite is the chicken hearts. Almost busted her trying to get in the fridge." Justin laughed. Sara walked up to him and kissed him. "Wanna shower with me?" She asked when she broke the kiss. He smiled. "Hmm not right now, we need to get ready." She groaned and he laughed. "Hey, taking it slow."

Once they were all ready, she drove them back to his place. Upon arriving, she went into the house and greeted the cats. "Hi babies." She cooed and Justin rolled his eyes. "Yeah so you guys can avoid me now." Sara laughed.

She went into his room and unpacked all of her things, while Justin observed. It felt so natural seeing her in his place. He wished the last few months without her wasn't a thing. If only he could have just grown up and-

"Are you sure you don't want to join me in the shower?" She began to lift up her shirt and he chuckled. "If I join you then we aren't going anywhere."

"Maybe that's what I want." She walked up to him. Slowly, she began to run her hands all over his T shirt clad chest. He had lost weight, from the restrictions regarding his recovery, but he was still lean and sexy to her. She heard a sharp intake of breath and she smiled. Trailing her hands lower, she began to work on his pants. As much as she made fun of his constant Sports attire, it was times like these she was glad she had easy access.

He groaned as her hands slipped into his shorts and boxers. Her hand was warm as she wrapped it around his hardening dick. "Sara, please." He whispered. "Please what? Ooh I missed this." She lightly applied pressure where she knew he liked and he almost lost it.

Almost.

There was every fiber of his body that wanted to say fuck their plans. However it was important that he do this for her. He wanted to show her he would be comfortable with the public aspect of her profession. With a strength he didn't know he had, he backed off. "Dinner first."

Her eyes narrowed at him and he laughed seeing the pout on her face. "Fine." She grumbled and on cue, he heard her stomach rumble. He laughed again, bending down to kiss her. "Shower."

As she got into the shower he knew it was going to be one of her spa showers, so it was going to be a while. He went to watch some football news

There was nothing new to report, so he turned it off just as his agent was calling. He didn't want to deal with him, he just wanted to play football. Justin didn't care about the numbers, he knew that he was going to be set for life with any amount because he wasn't a big spender. Hearing Sara turn on the blow-dryer it was his cue to start getting ready.

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The place was gorgeous. Sara was impressed.

Her and Justin were on a private balcony overlooking the beach. They were sipping on wine waiting for their huge sushi sample platter. As the host led them to their table she could tell Justin was anxious at all of the heads turning and the jaws dropping. This wasn't a typical celebrity place, and while they may have not known Justin before, they knew now because of her. She squeezed his hand, reassuring him. They made it to their table and the waiter came by and did the usual introduction before taking their orders. There was a door that closed them off to the rest of the dining room. So it was only them and a few others on the balcony.

"How are you doing?" She asked him. He smiled. "So far so good."

"If it gets too much, we will get everything to go and eat at your place." He laughed. "This is your night, and you're concerned about me."

"It's about both of us." She paused as the waiter set down their drinks and left. Picking up hers she made a toast. "To us, to new beginnings and putting aside past mistakes."

He smiled and grabbed his. "To us." They clinked glasses and sipped. "So question. Do we have an anniversary? Or does this start over?" Justin asked. She laughed. "I mean, isn't our anniversary the day we became official? Or the day we met?"

Justin shrugged. "I mean if it's the day we met, that's Joe and Alisha's anniversary. Isn't that stealing their thunder?"

"So our first anniversary is October…… something." They both began laughing. "I want to say it's the seventeenth."

"Then its the seventeenth." They smiled at each other. Justin reached across the table to grab Sara's hand. They got lost in each other's eyes.  Unaware that a long lens camera was taking pictures from another building.

Eventually their large platter came, and Sara had never been so excited. One bite and she moaned. "Oh my god this tuna roll is sooo good," Justin smiled as he put a huge piece of Wasabi on his roll. They sat in a comfortable silence and ate. "Thank you for taking me here." She said. "I love you."

Justin smiled. "I love you more."

They spoke about the upcoming season, and Sara spoke about her press tour for Oppenheimer. She also gave an update on her dad. "I'm glad he is retiring well." Justin said. "Based on what your sisters said, it was a long way off."

Sara laughed. "You know he texted me asking what's good on Netflix. My dad, watching a television show. Can you believe it?"

"Why doesn't he watch your show?" She shook her head. "No way. I told him not to. Way too many sex scene and me swearing

Justin laughed. "Again I've never watched your show. What is your character about?

"Well she's a lost soul, coming from a conservative town. She questions everything she was taught. Kinda goes through a rebel phase with her friends. She is in an on off toxic relationship with a guy in her class. That's Greg, who was at Joe's house. But this season…." She paused. "I can't tell you." He laughed. "But I will say there are a few steamy scenes between me and the new character." She giggled as his jaw clenched. "You know we aren't actually having sex you know?"

"I know, but still. You being so close to the guy. Have you met him yet?"

She nodded. "I have, we did a test run for chemistry. His name is Jesse but his character is Jay."

It was nice, this was nice. So far they had been left alone. Some people did stare, and if Justin paid close enough attention, he could see some people try to sneak photos on their phones.

As much as they enjoyed being out and carefree. They were snapped back to reality when the waiter approached to take their leftovers and wrap them. "Um excuse me I'm sorry to say, but we just word that there are a few paps outside.

Sara sighed. "Damn it. Thank you."

The waiter looked at Justin. "Would you like the valet to pull your car up to the back entrance? We can sneak you guys out through the kitchen."

Sara was about to say yes. But Justin answered. "That won't be necessary, but thank you. We'd like the check please." The waiter nodded and walked away. Sara turned back towards him. "Justin, do you know what you are saying?" He nodded. "It's a quick second walk."

"Are you sure? I mean the hospital had rules in place. This… this is fair game. They can get close and they will shout."

"We will just run to the car." Justin took the bill, putting down his card. Once he got the receipt, he put a $100 bill in the envelope. They got up, and they headed to the front. They saw a few of the men waiting, talking. This was going to be huge for them, getting a date night of a couple that was never seen in public.

Justin grabbed Sara's hand. "Ready?" She nodded. They pushed open the doors and they walked out. The flashing blinded them. Suddenly three photographers became six.

"Sara! Is this your boyfriend?"

"How was dinner tonight guys?"

"What happened to Harry?"

"Looking gorgeous Sara."

"Look my way guys!"

The two began to pick up speed, why did it always seem like the car was far away when you were getting chased?

She walked as fast as she could with her heels. Justin kept a steady pace, once they reached the car. They got in and took a deep breath. Sara noticed Justin was breathing heavily. "Look at me." He met her eyes. "You're okay." He nodded. "Do you want me to drive?" He shook his head no. "Okay, but they still are going to be taking pictures since we are going to be passing them on the street."

"Okay." Sara tried to joke. "And as much as I want you to run one of them over its still considered a crime." He laughed.

Justin pulled out of the parking space and stopped to turn into oncoming traffic. Again, the clicking of the cameras and the flashes made him nervous but Sara's voice calmed him down. "Look at me." He did, and unbeknownst to them, photographers caught the most beautiful photo.

Justin and Sara looking at each other, in love and truly happy. When they were finally able to escape the restaurant, the photo began trending on social media

Look at that!

She seems so happy and relaxed with him!

Herbo got some A type Rizz

What is he doing with some attention seeking hoe like her?

Tumblr.

I can't believe he is actually okay with being photographed.

He must be serious about her.

They look really happy together

She is different from his usual boring type.

"You guys want a snack?" Justin heard Sara speaking to the cats in the kitchen. The meows came next, followed by the takeout container opening. No doubt she gave them the raw fish from one of the rolls.

Once everything was put away Sara walked in the bedroom to find Justin unbuttoned his navy blue shirt. As much as she wanted to initiate sex again she knew Justin was right about taking things slow. It was a wonderful night and it didn't always have to end in sex

She was in the bathroom taking off her makeup. Her feet were still stinging from the YSL shoes that were clearly for show and not comfort. comfort. The Muegler dress she bought in Paris paid off as Justin kept complimenting her. Heidi messaged her saying that fashion critics were praising her looks including tonight. As Sara took her hair down from the sleek bun Justin approached her from behind. “You need help unzipping your dress?” His lips were close to her ear. The room was hot, you could cut the sexual tension with a knife. His large hands were rubbing up and down her shoulders. “Yes please,” She whispered. The zipper came down as she was freed from the tight constraints of the dress. Once it was revealed what she wore underneath it - which was nothing, Justin groaned and his hand lightly closed around her neck. “Are you telling me you were naked underneath this dress the entire night?”

"I didn't want any lines." She played it nonchalantly. Another groan came from his lips. His hand snaked down and grabbed her breasts. It was her turn to moan as his lips were on her neck as his hands touched everywhere on her body

She turned around to face him, and he lifted her up to carry her to the bed. "Justin, you're shoulder."

"It's fine." He kissed her. "I asked the doctor."

"You asked the doctor if you could have sex?" His face burned red at the thought. He laughed. "Babe, he works around football players. He's seen and heard it all."

He carried her all the way to the bed. Where she fell back against his soft mattress. She realized that he was nothing in his boxers. Sara got up to take them off but he held her wrists. "It's about you tonight." She nodded and laid back. Sara allowed herself to get lost in pleasure.

Justin opened her legs and stared at her. "You're so gorgeous " He breathed, before diving in. She forgot how wonderful he was with his tongue. Justin remembered her body like a football play. Sucking and nibbling, lacking at her inner thighs in between. Her hands were running through his hair. "Oh I love you mouth baby." Sara breathed. Justin chuckled against her, and she squealed.

Throwing her head back, Sara hit her high and she had to push Justin's ahead away from her. "I'm going to die." He laughed. Climbing on top of her, he kissed her allowing her to taste herself. Once he broke away. "Did you get the pill?"

She nodded. "You're good."  He smiled and reached down to grab his dick to situate himself. He pushed in, and they both gasped, relishing in the feeling of being united after so long. It was almost like it was the first time. Even though they had done it alot, this time felt full of promise and a new beginning.

As much as Justin wanted this to be sweet and slow love making, they were both inpatient, and they wanted to get off. He began thrusting faster, and he knew his partner was loving it. Her hands were going up and down his back. "Oh god Justin." He growled. "Baby, fuck you feel so good."

They were going to wake the entire neighborhood of Irvine. "Faster!" She yelled. It was building up and all of their senses were lost into each other. There was no one around but them. "Uhh. Uh." Sara threw her head back and released. Justin followed behind her. Both covered in a light sheen of sweat, trying to catch their breath. "Should we shower?" Sara asked Justin, who was still on top of her. He nodded, and eventually they got up and went into the shower, only to go for round two.

Once dried off, she they fell asleep into each other's arms. —----------------------------------------------------------

It was around 3:30am when Sara woke up. Justin was turned on his side, his back towards her. She giggled, Justin always moved around in his sleep.

Sara was thirsty, and a little hungry. Slowly she got up, and went into his closet. Grabbing one of his Nike shirts and slipped it on. She went into the kitchen, and heard footsteps behind her. It was the cats who jumped up on the counter. "What are you guys doing up?" They stared at her and she rolled her eyes. "You guys want a treat don't you?"

She poured herself a glass of water, and took out one of the chicken hearts. Giving one to each cat, she decided it was a gorgeous night to sit outside. Sara was careful to deactivate the alarm and open the door.

It was still a bit warm out, so she decided to sit on the edge of the pool and dip her feet in. Lightly splashing back and forth, she thought about her life. While she was upset about losing Erika, her life was pretty amazing. Her boyfriend was fantastic, she mended things with Harry, her career was going wonderful, and she was healing from the past. Her relationship wasn't one hundred percent, it was sure a lot better than it ever was.

"Sara? Sara!" She turned around at the muffled sound of her name being called. Standing up, she saw Justin zoom in and out of the different rooms in the house, he went downstairs and she walked back inside.

"Justin?" She heard him bounding up the steps. "Oh thank god." He grabbed her and picked her up. "I thought you left." He admitted.

"Honey, why on earth would you think I'd do that?" He shook his head, he looked panicked. "I woke up and you weren't there. I guess I just thought the worst." She kissed him

"Listen, never. It's you and me okay? I love you, and only you."

He nodded. "I guess I'm worried about the football season, I know I can be a bit intense."

"And I won't hesitate to put your ass in place." He laughed. "Thank you."

"For?"

"For being you, for being color into my world when I didn't know I needed it."

Sara kissed him. "Thank you, for being you and coming out to Pittsburgh and dealing with my crazy family, and you haven't met the rest of them!" He laughed. "I could say the same about my family, and my friends."

"You know we haven't celebrated your birthday." Justin shook his head. "I don't care about that. I have you, that's all that matters."

"Lame ass." He laughed. "I'm still going to celebrate next year."

"Stubborn woman."

A/N: I wanted to make it long for you guys and wrap everything up. The next Chapter will be the last with a teeny time jump of like a few months. Don’t worry though! We still have a few epilogues and I will continue small blurbs and the canon questions will be available. Thank you all for reading!

[winderlylandchime]

I feel like I have to keep you updated for these last few days and 70% of that is because I unfortunately made you all aware of my brothers existence and the other 30% is because he bullies me into telling stuff to his new ‘homies’. But also soooo much happened that i immediately thought to myself ���i know a few people that would like to hear all this’ and my brother shared the same thought. So I apologize in advance for any spam that will happen in the next few days but I will also try my best to put it all into one message.

So first of all: MY BROTHER IS OFFICIALLY CLEARED UP TO GO HOME!! His tests all came back amazing so he is officially going back home on Sunday. Ngl the feeling is bittersweet because who is going to wake up half of the neighborhood with Sandstorm now and get stuck trying to climb a fence and force 50-60 year olds into watching qaf with him? And he’s taking the cat with him as well. Rude.

Anyway! I wish you guys could’ve seen him go into his lasy check up, he brought chocolates for everyone and got them each a card with personalized messages to say thanks for taking care of him. He was all happy and sweet, it was like a kid on Christmas. And then towards the end of the check up, one of the nurses was like ‘hey (his name), we actually wanted to give you a little something, to remember us by and also as a goodbye since you’re going home’ and they gave him a gift and guys, this shit was so freaking cute! They first got him some snacks he loves (he always came to the check ups with snacks and was offering them to all of the staff), but they also got him a penguin plushie (context: when he first came for the surgery, they told him to bring his pajamas from home since he will stay for a few days and he rolled up with two different penguin pajamas cause it’s his favorite animal..again this man is a grown 36 year old) And the plushie has the exact same scar on his chest/stomach as my brother does from his accident. And the surgeon goes ‘i made sure that they were identical, that way you’re no longer one of a kind’ because after the surgery when they showed him how it looked he was all high on meds and went ‘not gonna lie, this looks badass but fuck now i really am one of a kind and all alone.’ So the surgeon sewed the plushie to make it look the same. It was actually adorable as fuck! And my brother was all teary eyed about it. And then!!! the nurse goes ‘there’s one more thing inside and you have to check it now.’ And she explained that the nurse who knew about qaf (from when he ripped his stitches) is also a big part of this last gift. And it was a card and on the front it said ‘you’re cool but we really hope to never see you again’ (its kinda like a thing they say there bc it’s trauma department or whatever). Also sidenote: Did you guys know there’s a greeting/birthday card you can buy online that allows you to record a message and design the cover? So when you open it, it starts saying the message or whatever? Me neither. But apparently the nurses knew about it. So he opens the fucking card and Lover’s spit starts playing and all that is inside is a picture of Britin from the end of 3x14 where everyone is celebrating and they hug (Brian is like hugging Justin but he’s looking over him somewhere). And they go ‘you talked so much about that episode we figured it was fitting.’ And then they explained that the nurse who knew about the show helped them find the photos and everything and even fought them to make sure Lover’s spit is used since originally they wanted to put Cue The Pulse. And that nurse eventually won the “fight” because they remembered that my brother went on a whole speech when he watched 3x08 about the reunion scene. And my brother on the verge of tears goes ‘thank fuck cause this is way fucking cooler. No offense’ And that’s literally all there is in the card (well and all their signatures on the opposite side from the photo).

And then after the check up as we are leaving, the surgeon goes ‘well I think I can honestly say, that i will never ever have a patient like you ever again’ and my brother obviously took that as a compliment and went ‘well duuh, every other patient is boring compared to me’ and guys!!!! We were leaving, my brother is almost out the door, I’m already outside the office and the fucking surgeon goes ‘oh (his name), by the way, you were right. That proposal was ridiculous and the finale really did suck. In fact if it was up to me? I’d erase the entire last season.‘ and he’s like smirking at my brother and my brother (and me too ngl) is SHOCKED! And he starts stuttering and goes ‘you..you knew the show this whole time?’ And the doctor goes ‘don’t be ridiculous. I didn’t even know it existed but after your 3rd spiral over it, I had to check it out to see what the big deal was about it’ and then my brother was like ‘why didnt you say anything? We could’ve been buddies over it this whole time’ and the doctor walked up to the door and goes ‘Exactly’ and then he just slowly closed the door while waving to my brother and my brother was just standing outside the door not moving for so long, i had to drag him away. And he walked past the nurse and goes ‘he watched it!’ And the nurse goes ‘oh yeah, he came in one day and was like “you know that show (his name) is always talking about? Well my wife and i watched it and holy shit’

The whole car ride home, we were both in absolute shock. Him more but that’s because only one of us was giving full speeches and rundowns about episodes to the doctor. And as for the card? You know that scene in Easy A, where she keeps opening and closing the birthday card to hear the song? That’s what half of my Wednesday looked like.

Dear sweet anon and brother anon! I am so happy he’s cleared and discharged. That makes me so happy!

I am beyond surprised that the doctors and nurses all got him presents. Admittedly, any surgeries I’ve had have been done outpatient except for when I was 8 and 13, and with follow up only with my doctor so I don’t know what is common these days. But their presents! Those weren’t generic, we give these to all the patients, gifts. The penguin! With the matching scar! The card with the photo and Lover’s Spit! I’m dying.

And. The. Surgeon. Watched. Qaf. Like all 5 seasons. I am deceased. Ofc he didn’t tell your brother until the end. (Your poor brother has all these people doing things behind his back while he’s watching this show. He’s going to develop trust issues.) But he has all correct opinions.

Wait. As I’m typing this I realized. A trauma surgeon (if I understand correctly) watched prom and 201. He must have opinions about Justin’s injury and recovery. Wait. I have some questions. How comfortable does your brother feel calling up the surgeon and saying “so I’m tumblr famous and this rando girl who is equally obsessed with QAF wants to know what you think the long term effects of the bashing would be on Justin.”

I am just as shocked as both of you about this turn of events. What a way to start my Thursday.

[madsworld15]

New Fic Alert! i held my head up high (Brian/Justin)

This one answers the prompt: getting arrested (Prompt #17) [12/21 for me personally] for the QaF Prompt Challenge 2024

Spending most of the day in jail was not something Justin would recommend. Hell, it did nothing more than increase the amount of anger he had in his soul for those supporting Prop 14. His dad now sat at the top of that list. Prior to this, Justin could brush off his father’s disdain for his sexuality as just that, a dislike. But now, now he knew that his father was amongst those people who wanted him dead.

When the officer came back to the holding cell and told Justin his bail had been posted, he hadn’t expected to feel disappointed. Not that staying in the jail cell was ideal, but it had also been the best break from everything he’d had in weeks. Breaking up with Brian, for good this time, had come with its own series of heartbreaking thoughts and realizations. Being in jail allowed him to drown them out with thoughts instead of how awful the place smelled and whether or not the people in there with him would hurt him.

Then, Justin stepped into the lobby of the Police Station, and all his thoughts and worries about whether or not he had made the right decision came flooding back. Standing in the lobby, next to his mom and Ben, was Brian himself. Justin licked his lips, ran a hand nervously through his hair, and approached the group.

“Brian, what are you doing here?” Justin immediately questioned his ex, while staring down his mother. He was certain she had called him in some side plot to get them back together.

“Your mom called. Said you needed to be bailed out of prison and asked if I had any cash handy.” Brian shrugged; his eyes looked Justin up and down. It was clear that despite his aloof, carefree demeanor, Brian was worried about him.

“Mom.” Justin sighed, “I don’t need you running to him every time something happens. We aren’t together anymore.”

“He still cares about you, Justin. Besides, where else were we going to get the money for your bail? Your father?” Jennifer didn’t back down despite Justin’s hard gaze. 

Justin rolled his eyes and stepped past them to leave the premises. “Either way, you shouldn’t have called Brian. I can handle things on my own.”

“Oh well, by all means. I will take my bail money back, and you can sit in jail until you ‘handle’ things.” Brian quipped back at him.

“Justin, we just wanted to help. Brian’s the only person we know who typically has cash on hand.” Ben tried to jump in and defend his mom’s choice in calling the brunet.

“Bullshit,” Justin replied. “Be honest, Mom. You hoped that by calling Brian, you could get us back together.”

“I just don’t understand why you guys can’t make it work. You love each other.” Jennifer wrung her hands and gave Justin a sympathetic look. “I just want you to be happy.”

“I am, Mom. Generally speaking.” Justin forced a smile at her and gave her shoulder a reassuring squeeze. “Today, however, I’m pissed. The nerve of that…man.”

Justin continued his quest to leave the building. This time, Ben, Jennifer, and Brian all let him. Instead, they followed him out onto the street. Jennifer scoffed in response.

“I never thought the man I once married and loved would have his own son arrested. And for what? So he can prove he’s the bigger man?” 

“Considering he smashed my Jeep and beat the shit out of me when he first found out about our relationship, this doesn’t surprise me that much.” Brian shrugged. “Anyway, I gotta go. Take care.”

And with that, Brian was gone. Trudging up the street with his hands in his leather jacket and his shoulders hunched against the wind. As much as Justin protested Brian being there, a small part of him had hoped Brian would want to go to the diner for a cup of coffee and a chat. Or even just acknowledge him more than he did. Instead, Justin is met with the cold, hard truth: Brian still worries about him because he’s a good person, but he’s no longer Brian’s person.

Justin sniffed against the chilly air and smiled at both his mom and Ben. 

“Let’s get out of the cold. Think I can crash with you guys tonight?” Justin turned to Ben in question.

“Sure, you are always welcome at our place.” Ben wrapped an arm around Justin, and they walked off down the street. 

“Bye, Mom. Let’s get lunch tomorrow.” Justin called over his shoulder. 

“Take care of yourself,” Jennifer called, and then she, too, headed down the block toward the direction Brian had gone moments earlier.

[excessivelemon]

as taylor has said many times, she wants us to come up with our own interpretations of her songs and attach our own stories to them.

maybe thats the reason why i thought of the peace lyric as not being the gossip but rather fuelling it.

maybe she's referencing all the other meaningless past feuds she's had (like katy perrie) or how immaturely she acted in previous relationships (like joe jonas) and is comparing them to his past, how despite this being his first public relationship especially with someone on whom we are focused 24/7, he acted maturely and carried himself with this grace and confidence.

"i talk shit with my friends, its like im wasting your honour" it could be that she thinks how publicly she picks sides during other peoples drama (selena-justin) is childish and petty compared to how he's dealt with his public life.

i'm not saying i know what went through her head while writing this but insecurity is a common human trait and its hard to be with a person all the time and not feel jealous of or try to adopt certain traits of them. just because swifties consider their relationship the pinnacle of maturity doesnt mean it is and like any other relationship, they too have certain "unsaid" discussion remaining between them.

sorry if this was worded wrong and made no sense lol

i agree with a lot of what you said

i think the one thread that comes across for me in a lot of taylor's with-joe-era music is that she looks up to him a lot. like, she sees him as such a gentleman, almost like a white knight, especially compared to her previous partners (lyrics to ...ready for it? make this pretty clear)

and while all of her music is open to interpretation, and i'm not saying all of it is explicitly about her, either (she's admitted death by a thousand cuts was inspired by a friend's break up, for example), i think that her evermore era really felt like she was... it's not that she was seeing through the illusion (of joe as gentleman) but that she was starting to see that her perception of him meant she put herself in a box to suit him

i'm thinking about the lyrics to happiness especially (you could put champagne problems in this category too, but i was never convinced that was about taylor and joe)

in happiness, she describes a break up that could be anyone's, and that's true. but she sings

"after giving you the best i had, tell me what to give after that"

i think she gave everything to be what she thought would suit a reserved, proud gentleman like joe (or who she saw joe to be) and she could never make herself fit perfectly in with him

(even the lyrics to 'glitch', she says "fastening myself to you with a stitch" and that always struck me as self-effacing. might be overthinking, but it makes her sound like an appendage. like he's a person and she's a leech that gets to hang on for the ride. it's not a 'two jigsaw pieces fitting together' lyric, it's a lyric of desperately affixing herself to him so she won't lose him)

I think she was haunted by insecurity for a lot of the relationship because of who she built him up to be

and this isn't hate for joe alwyn, but genuinely....

when i think about the lyrics to The Great War, what I heard in that song was a woman who held herself entirely responsible for a massive rift in her relationship, and he played no part in it, he carried no blame, just "looked up at me with honor and truth"

her lyrics make it seem like she spent so much of that relationship being insecure and feeling like she couldn't measure up to his nobility (for 6 albums!!!!!!) and he just.... let her feel like that? the whole time??????

i feel like a man worth the label 'honorable' wouldn't have let his gf feel like he was better than her for so long. i feel like he would have tried to build her up after everyone tore her down. after she tore herself down. that's imo

[hermitcraft-8]

ace attorney investigations is both way better and way worse than the original games to me in particular because in the original games you go around looking fir clues and stuff but most of the games are the courtroom parts which is complicated and confusing and awful < unless youre good at it

id like to mention ive done mock trials before and theyre actually so much fun but the games are so confusing and convoluted and strange that i dont like being behind the bench for some levels. i just dont know whats happening or what on earth phoenix is thinking

but anyway. in investigations youre almost never behind the bench and its great. phoenix isnt there at all, youre miles EDGEWORTH instead. you just look around to see clues and stuff, build the situation your head - its cool :]

but the downside is logic chess. in which you learn that miles has no clue how to play chess because its a time based game where you either stay quiet or start pushing for information and then a chess piece shows up????? and breaks the other person’s chess piece ????? its not chess. but i only really dislike it because of the time aspect, yiure on a timer and its scary

ANYWAY who even cares about game mechanics i need 2 introduce you to kay faraday

shes a little [i say little but shes like. idont know. 16-18] pink thief girl who shows up. i think after miles gets kidnapped ?????? in a haunted house ???????? and she has her speech where she talks aboyt how shes the yatagaratsu who steals the truth ect ect. i love her because when she’s not being extremely helpful she exclusively makes fun of miles. as a teenager is meant to do 👍

she talks aboyt stealing & breaking & entering in front of this whole entire lawyer so often and its hilarious. because he cant do shit about it because shes never actually stolen anything or broken and entered anything

anyway she has this little machine she got from her father called little thief that makes holograms of whatever information is inputted into it. helps with detective work 👍 and also with stealing

her dad was a defence attorney BUT. YOU SEE. HE WAS ALSO A GREAT THIEF which is where she got this whole thing from. and he was a thief WITH two other people. her uncle whos a detective that looks like hes smoking cigarettes but its just a lollipop < hes silly] and the woman who killed her dad 👍 her sprites r cool as hell

the whole first game, kay & miles are revealing a smuggling ring. can you believe it. this random rich guy and the girl he met 3 days ago who is 16. find an international smuggling ring and get them arrested. the hell

in the second game they have ❤️❤️❤️❤️ justine courtney & sebastian debeste. justine is a judge & also religious but her god is uh. the goddess of the law 👍 shes kind of a hardass but shes nice to sebastian which i appreciate because no one is nice to sebastian. which sucks

sebastian is another rich guy who only got the job cuz his dad let him. its complicated and a whole thing and seb’s dad is a. horrible person + the big bad of the second game because he killed someone, attempted to take justine’s son hostage + took sebastian hostage instead.

Theres a second big bad, his name is simon keyes, hes a clown. but an evil clown but like. he looks nice. until he starts being an ass right when you try to get him arrested. he gave kay amnesia and ill never forgive him ect ect ect

anyway thats ace attorney investigations. evil rich people & people who manipulate people who dont know better into giving them what they want r the general big bads in this one

that's awesome, love that

[hav-10]

ipromiseyoustories:

It’s Official

October –December 1st

Selena POV:

My feelings were growing for him & I didn’t what to do, he was 2 years young than me. But he treated me better than guys older than me or my age did. He was asking me to hang out more, during October we had gone out to ice cream probably 12 times. Sometimes with a group of friends & sometimes just us & Kenny. I had finally asked him if he wanted to spend Thanksgiving with my family & me. He agreed & I couldn’t have been happier. As time went by & November disappeared my feelings were growing for him but I didn’t know if he felt the same but I was soon going to find out.

December 2010

Justin’s POV

            How was I going to do this, I was always so slick with the ladies but when it came to her I couldnt figure out how to tell her my feelings. I had always thought Selena was a cutie & a sweetheart from the minute I was introduced to her when I first moved to the states. But as I became good friends with her & we hung out more & a couple years started to go by & we got closer I started to like her more than friends. I was the friend she turned to when her & Nick had their break up & I had to hold myself back from going & kicking his ass. Despite being short, small & a younger than him & I hated the way he treated her. I was there for her she would tell me about the problems but I was never more than friends & I was okay with that for awhile. I was fine with just hanging out with her & having a good time but when I saw that she & Taylor L were having a little fling while they both were in Canada it hit me that I liked her more than friends & I needed to do something about it.

            As 2010 was flying by I was busy working & so was she, we didn’t get to see much of each other but I would call her & talk to her almost everyday.  She had gone to London in October & she wouldn’t have her phone for a few days, by this time I was having strong feelings for her & I was freaking out that I wasn’t going to get to talk to her. When she got back we hung out a few times & it was confirming my feelings even more for her. When she asked me to spend Thanksgiving with her & her family I was beyond happy. Things between us seemed different than that had in the past, different as in a good way different. She seemed more interested in what I was doing & we were talking even more than we normally did. December came & I needed to do it before some other guy came & took her.

Selena’s POV

            “Justin stop..” I laughed scrabbling trying to get out of his tickling hands. “say it then.” He laughed, “Justin Bieber is the shit!” He stopped tickling me, “Damn straight!” We both laughed. We were hanging out at my house in LA since we both had the day off. “Lets make some popcorn.” I said getting up from the couch, “Yea that sounds good.” He followed me into the kitchen & watched me as I put the popcorn in the microwave & got out the hot sauce & pickle juice. He laughed when I poured some pickle juice in a small bowl. “You are so weird Sel.” I gave him a dirty look, “I am not! You are for not even trying it!” “Because I know its going to taste nasty!” I shook my head as I took the popcorn out of the microwave putting it in a bag & putting hot sauce on it & shaking it up. Justin walked over grabbing the bag from my hand letting his hand brush against mine. The sparks between that touch were different from any other touch from him.

            We were sitting on the just finished eating popcorn & now watching a movie & a natural reaction I placed my head on his shoulder, I had done this before but it felt more intimate this time.  To my surprise he rested his head on top of mine & reached for my hand intertwining his fingers with mine. I held my breath, it felt so natural like we had been doing it forever. “Justin” I breathed. “Selena” Just said giving my hand a squeeze. I lifted my head to face him, “I like you Sel. Ive liked you for a while but I never knew how to tell you.” I cut him off. “I like you too Justin.” He looked me in the eye, “Really? Even though im younger?” I laughed, “Justin you treat me better than people my age & older than me. You are more a man than some guys I know.” I smiled his cocky little smile, “Go on a date with me.” I motioned at our hands & the tv, “what do you call this?” He laughed,  “No I mean like out in public, like maybe breakfast.” “Pancakes?” I said happily “Pancakes it is.” He said with a smile as he leaned in & kissed my lips quickly. I looked at him, shocked that he just kissed me, “Sorry.” He whispered, “I couldn’t help it.” I laughed leaning my head back on his shoulder getting comfortable on the couch, “Lets take it slow, Mr. Bieber.” We both laughed as he kissed the top of my head. Finally our true feelings were out, i had no idea what kind of love Justin & me would have. 

[the-cooler-king]

Sometimes britt will drop something mad casual, like "I was napping but now the cats and adrian won't let me" and I'm thrust back ten fucking years to when Justin wouldn't let me do something because he thought he knew better

[4ragon]

can i ask for your thoughts on justine courtney and seb's relationship? i think its just like, neat, but the fandom tends to push them aside for seb and edgeworth which is fair but. justine

Oooo I feel you, I absolutely love Justine and Sebastian. It is very neat. I do love that Justine admits to initially getting close to Sebastian as a way to get close to Blaise, and as soon as she realized what was going on with Blaise and Sebastian she was just like, “My son now.”

I do find it incredibly interesting to look at how their dynamic works. In my first playthrough, it had been my assumption that Justine was some sort of Big Bad and Sebastian was just sort of a hapless victim, a pawn in her greater plans. I mean, come on, who didn’t hear Justine’s music and just assume she was evil. No non-evil person is getting intense organ music as their theme music. You can’t do that to me, video game. And she’s always nodding along to his antics and guiding him to the outcomes she wants. Like it feels Big Bad And Lackey up until the curtains are pulled aside.

And I do think it’s important to understand that Justine sort of couldn’t exactly treat Sebastian like her son throughout AAI2, because at the end of the day, doing anything that could alert Blaise to her dissatisfaction with him could easily make her ‘Disappear.’ Like, there’s a very clear difference between how she treats John and how she treats Sebastian. She’s a stern person, she will not put up with any of John’s shit, but she is forced to put up with a lot from Sebastian. And she just has to smile and nod for a lot of it. It’s clear that a lot of her strictness with John comes from love, and she just cannot do that with Sebastian.

Of could she’d guide Sebastian as much as she could, and she clearly wanted to help him grow and learn, but there were a lot of things putting her, and let’s face it, probably him too, at risk in this situation if she was ever completely honest with him. Sebastian knowing too much could easily ‘Disappeared’ the both of them. He trusted his father implicitly, wanted so much to make his father love him. So she did have to keep her distance from him emotionally for a lot of that first section of game.

But despite everything, she still so very clearly cares about Sebastian. As soon as she is able to safely turn on Blaise, she is defending Sebastian immediately. He’s trying his best, he’s doing everything he can, he just wants to make Blaise proud, he’s not a bad kid. All of her gentle corrections were not the condescending actions of The Big Bad Doing A Manipulation, like I had initially thought, but the actions of a woman who cannot do what she thinks is right for this young man.

I think that’s part of what is so interesting about their dynamic. Justine, in mentoring Sebastian, puts herself at a lot of risk. She is trying to take down his father after all, who he clearly holds in high regard despite, well, everything about him. And furthermore, she needs to stay on Sebastian’s good side too. He’s here because of nepotism, and she probably can’t challenge that.

A lot of people really like the Sebastian and Miles dynamic because Miles can take that step back and be the person Sebastian needed. Heck, I like their dynamic a lot for that. And I think part of what I find so fascinating about Sebastian’s relationship with Justine is that Justine clearly wanted to be that person in Sebastian’s life but couldn’t.

However, that’s not to say she’s not very good for Sebastian. She absolutely is very good for him! I think she’s probably the first person in his life that actually cares about him. Certainly, she’s the first adult to do so. She is a very kind and nurturing person deep down, and there are so many instances where you can tell she cares so much about Sebastian. She is encouraging and kind to him, in a way that Blaise never was. She genuinely wants him to succeed, and hates Blaise’s mistreatment of his son.

And conversely, it’s clear how much Sebastian values and respects Justine. He trusts her insights and listens to what she tells him. He may be a bit full of himself, but he still thinks Justine is brilliant (and rightfully so). And even if Justine couldn’t fully be the person she wanted to be with him, I think having someone who actually genuinely gave a shit about his physical and emotional wellbeing was hugely important.

Anyway, I hope she does take on a much bigger role in his life after Blaise is carted off to jail. I think having her be able to actually help Sebastian without risking Blaise’s ire could allow her to be that parental figure he needs.

[mariunnnn]

I love Daphne, and QAF, but lord this is an example of how the show wrote the women so poorly.

In what world does she fall in ~romantic!~ love with Justin because some flip switched in her because sex happened? And if they've been friends in school and perhaps before, she knew.

Now, the conversation about someone being out and leaning into it and it's brand new and dynamics changing can be a thing, I understand that, I've experienced that.

A still dear friend came out to me at a Chili's (suburbia has its perks), but I always knew when we were just doing middle and highschool together. Let it be known he found me to be his safe person, which I'm slightly proud of. In fact, he's one of the people who watched QAF with me in real time, as his family was shit. And I had my own place, cause my family was dead and I had money and paid for fancy cable. He made our QAF viewing parties the best via those he introduced me to.

I will never forget when I picked him up though after his first true heartbreak. He was so into that man and I fully was into it too.

We also laugh about when he tried to pretend liking a girl SO MUCH. I went along just knowing deep down. He had his own timeline.

My such good friend, also middle school. Obsessed with Angelina Jolie, we called each other after getting home from school and talked about TRL, talked a lot about the "hot" girl in our school to the point of what anyone would know she's just talking about having a crush. I loved that, but she wasn't ready. She called my mom when I had after school stuff when my mom was literally dying of cancer. She really liked calling people and talking, and is just the kindest. She could talk your ear off, but always gave a shit. I wonder what they talked about, but it's not for me. We reconnected years later, randomly, and she was with her partner and she acted shocked that I didn't know. Girl, I knew. And hugs and kisses were shared.

This is a novel that started with a point.

Mostly, be a full time homosexual and no one is going to be judgeish or weird about it, I promise.

[winderlylandchime]

(Lets all say a silent thank you to my cousin who suggested that I record him at major moments last week) 2/3And Brian said there’s nothing noble about being poor. (And my brother lost his mind. Im glad you gave me a heads up that you guys were wondering about this scene so i could film him) ‘Wait!!!!! hold up!!! Pause it! I’ve had thoughts about brian and money and *waves his hands while fast walking* stuff but I need my laptop! (he has over 20 google tabs opened with research about colleges in Pittsburgh that could do marketing degrees, how much it would cost and shit like that. One tab was also ‘how to learn to play violin in less than a week’ he said he wanted to see if its really that hard) Okay so! I’ve been thinking A LOT about this. So Mike said they were in the same school, remember? But Mike dropped out or something like that from college which to be fair, so did I and I think I’m doing fantastic, haters that go by the name mom and dad may disagree but I’m here for a fun time not to cure cancer, anyway back to Brian. Brian has this big fancy wearing suit type of job and he’s a partner remember? So that unfortunately demands a resume with big words on it like “college”. So Brian definitely went to college and he obviously worked his ass off since clearly him and Mike are nowhere near each other cash wise. I mean a loft like that? That he probably owns? At 30? Plus the suit wearing job? Yeah, he did a lot of work and probably even had straight As. Probably even in high school so he could get into college AND like how he keeps going at Justin for school? Remember him being impressed by his SATs and how he would make him study like crazy. Shit I wouldn’t be surprised if he even quizzed him during sex. Poor Justin for sure got a boner while taking a test. Wait im getting distracted! Anyway his *gags* dad also took money for him AND HE HAD IT FUCKING READY! He went to see him and he already had it ready! And just before his nephew said Brians sister says he doesnt give them any money which clearly not true to some level but clearly they saw him make money and they took it. And we both know that house was on fire! It was burning every day! This dude made it out alive but he most definitely got 3rd degree burns. So he for sure knew the only way out was to turn 18 and get into college far away and then never come back unless it’s for a funeral to make 100% sure that they are in in that box. So him saying there’s nothing noble about being poor is coming from a different place than what Justin is dealing with with that fucker. That dude is just a broke college student who got offered a deal that kinda sucks BUT he said it himself to Jen, his parents payed for shit, they supported him. Meanwhile Brian? Every single thing he has down to his drugs was bought by him. And i doubt he’d ever take anything from anyone because you know how shitty abusive parents are? They buy you a box of cereal once and then throw it in your face for 3 years straight. So he probably never got anything from his parents and if he did it came with a price *looks at paused Brian on tv and takes a deep breath* and probably some bruises too. So him saying and thinking that, is coming from a place of survival and “look what i did for myself” when everyone probably told him he’s never gonna be anything except maybe dead. And sure he clearly loves money and power since he’s even willing to work with that fucker but in some way can you blame him? He was powerless all his life. But if that would be Ethan who would say that? Now that’s different. It’s not exactly survival in the same sense *looks at me in worry* i fear, i lost the plot of the point..i will make it back but i need to think. *plays the episode again* ‘WHY WOULD THEY MAKE HIM JERK OFF TO RAGE?! No matter what he’s always gonna be obsessed with Brian. HE IS RUNNING WITH SPERM IN HIS CUP! RUN FORREST RUN. Is that really how this was done?’

WOW the character analysis from your brother… I personally think he’s spot on (I’ve given a lot of thought to Brian’s SES background and where he is financially and professionally at the start of the show… too much thought? Nah.) (Btw tell your brother some day that the fandom thinks Brian went to Carnegie Mellon - I love all his open tabs) And this is happening in parallel to Stockwell - Brian is clearly a take the money and who tf cares where it’s from because he had to be, he didn’t have any alternative. His advice makes perfect sense for him to have survived.

Cosign your brother’s analysis.

[heirofmisfortune]

is there a list of all the collaborations fall out boy has done because if not i think the world deserves that

i'm not sure about a list that already exists but i will make one here!! sounds fun ! so here is

Probably Close To Every Fall Out Boy Collaboration and Feature (So Far)

on tttyg

Chicago Is So Two Years Ago features backing vocals from Justin Pierre of Motion City Soundtrack

Grenade Jumper features background vocals from Jeff Warren of Knockout

Reinventing the Wheel to Run Myself Over features De'Mar Hamilton of Plain White T's (the little yell and laugh at the end lol)

on futct

7 Minutes In Heaven features Brendon Urie obviously of Panic! at the Disco on backing vocals

Sophomore Slump or Comeback of the Year features William Beckett of The Academy Is... on backing vocals

on ioh

Thriller features Jay-Z in the beginning and end of the song

"The Take Over The Break's Over" features a guitar solo from Ryan Ross obviously of Panic! at the Disco and another from Chad Gilbert of New Found Glory

on folie

okay What a Catch, Donnie- in order this song features Elvis Costello, Gabe Saporta of Cobra Starship, Travie McCoy of Gym Class Heroes, Brendon Urie, Doug Neumann (general manager for Crush Management), Alexander DeLeon of The Cab, and William Beckett

Tiffany Blews features the bridge from Lil Wayne and additional vocals from Alexander DeLeon

20 Dollar Nose Bleed features Brendon Urie

West Coast Smoker features Debbie Harry of Blondie

Beat It (Micheal Jackson Cover) features a guitar solo from J*hn M*yer

on srar

Just One Yesterday features Foxes

The Mighty Fall features vocals and a writing credit from Big Sean

Rat a Tat features Courtney Love of Hole as a vocalist and writer

Save Rock and Roll features vocals from Elton John

on ab/ap

there is a version of Irresistible that features Demi Lovato but that was not released on the standard version of the album

American Beauty/American Psycho features writting from Nikki Sixx of Mötley Crüe and french musician Sebastian

on mania

Church features artists Kate York and Audra Mae as writers

Champion features Sia and her long time collaborator Jesse Shatkin as writers

Sunshine Riptide features Burna Boy as a writer and vocalist

(also note Dear Future Self (Hands Up) which features Wyclef Jean on believers never die vol. 2)

i didn't include remixes but a few notable and iconic ones are:

This Ain't a Scene... with Kanye West

My Songs... with 2 Chainz and Modo

the entirety on Make America Psycho Again tbh

Champion with RM of BTS

other collaborations- but not under the fob discography (in no particular order):

Cupid's Chokehold/Breakfast in America and Clothes Off!- Gym Class Heroes

King Of Wishful Thinking- New Found Glory

Everything Is Alright- Motion City Soundtrack

The Last Hero- XV

One Of THOSE Nights- The Cab

Jock Powerviolence- Weekend Nachos (this one has Patrick heavy metal screaming its so great pls pls pls listen to it)

86 Missed Calls- Man With a Mission

Summer Days- Marvin Garrix

Back To Earth- Steve Aoki

I've Been Waiting- Lil Peep and ILoveMakonnen

One and Only- Timberland (if u are into reading pete's old livejournals the lyrics to this one will sound familiar !!)

Dancing With he Devil- Krewella

All Your Heart- Transit

Second Chances- October Fall

Don't Wake Me Up- The Hush Sound

Birthday Girl- The Roots

Don't Regret It Now- Tyga

Check Your Phone- Cheap Cuts

In Transit- Mark Hoppus

If You Could Remember- Damnation A.D.

New Music Sucks- POSEHN

okay I think I got a lot of them but patrick literally composes and has his vocals all over the place so I literally could not name every band he has done a project with !! but if u feel like it, go look through his music credits lol its extensive

notably he has random backup vocal/composing/production credits on these albums to name a few

Viva La Cobra- Cobra Starship

basically every Gym Class Heroes Album

In Loving Memory of When I Gave a Shit- LOLO

California- Blink 182

Ungreatful- Escape the Fate

[akirosama777]

If nothing brings me joy and I always feel quite hollow, does that mean I've died inside already because I refused to follow...

Every person in the world who seems to skate, to flutter by... while the music fills my hollow ears and bleeds from glassy eyes?

Am I worth the amount of energy that I never seem to have, while the mother I once called a friend goes out to poison herself and die?

And I stand here in the bleakness of a hollow, brittle world, while I pick up all of the pieces that she left when she unfurled...

I am broken and I'm bleeding... I have nothing left to give, but the love I'd once begun to give, and barely alive to live.

I was beautiful once... I had a dream... had a goal or two in mind... but I'm sitting here in the broken wake that her destruction left behind.

But it began way before my time, began with a little girl... my mom... and her grandpa, such a piece shit, let's called the bastard, "Tom,"

Took from her, her innocence, shattered her life apart, sent her down a road of agony, and her father killed her heart.

When he sent her far away at the behest of a beastly cunt, sent her to a boarding school, a common parental stunt.

And her life began at 11 when she'd had it all ripped away, sent her down that road of agony in blood and tears was paved.

Then at 16 she met a Jewish man, who with her had his way, then abandoned her with two children on one fateful Christmas day...

But she picked up the pieces, worked 3 jobs, she became addicted to a couple of drugs... met my father in a satanic band, acting like a thug.

So when she fell in love with him, got him to change his ways, both of them kicked the drugs they'd started and set out on another day...

She soon became again pregnant with my father's first born son, and he tried to kill the baby, with a doctor... not a gun...

Told her if she loved him badly, loved him half as much as she'd said, that she'd abort that fetus and remove its tiny head.

But she didnt... and he stayed... later giving birth to me... but that's not the last of her children... I was only number three.

Then as I grew he would abuse me, threaten, beat and apparently molest... then she had my little brother but he'd never face these tests...

As I began to mature and grow, I could see the patterns form, and my mind became a labyrinth as the alters would soon be born.

And at 6 I tried to end it... but my little brother was there... just one of the many treasures that kept me from joining the City of Air.

And he saved me... I don't know why, but he removed the chord I would choose... saved me from my madness as the alters began to fuse.

All the while my mother from her past she'd grown quite numb... and my father kept her helpless, kept her silent... kept her dumb.

My older brother fell to drugs and disappeared one day... right around the time, eleven I think, where I realized I'm gay...

And my sister fell to young love, to a man who started fires... and my mother fell to drinking when the divorce set forth in ire...

Sent my sister too to heroin and my mother to her dark, while my brother depended greatly on my ability to endure the harsh...

So I shouldered all that hatred... shouldered all the pain inside... let the alters guide me forward through the labyrinth in my mind.

I pushed forward for my brother until my little sister was born... as my mother found another man who left her completely forlorn.

And another life depended on the strength I'd come to own... after all the pain of a father, who's approval was never shown.

I was broken, I was bleeding, I was yearning for a hand... never found it... never searched, for on my own I had to stand.

Now my brother... little brother, grown and turned into a guy, who too had shouldered pain and suffering likely due to mine.

And my sister, little sister, worst of all had witnessed decay... and was tortured by a mother who'd been through so much hate and pain...

But im here now... for my sisters... for my brothers best I can... all five of me are standing and I've grown into a man...

But I'm broken... fuck... im broken... and my mother now she's gone... left my darling little sister on a strangers dying lawn.

And I'm picking up the pieces... trying so hard to hold me up... trying so hard to remember but the memories are scuffed.

Yeah this story's probably cliche... im sure you've all heard it once before... heard about a broken persona raped and bloodied on the floor...

Yeah, you've probably already heard it... probably seen it on a show... nothing shocks you people anymore, when it's something you already know.

I'm so certain that it's pointless to write these words and cry... while my mothers out there drugging and likely about to die.

And my sister... my poor little sister... all those years I tried to protect... will soon be here to visit this pathetic, broken mess...

And I'm trying to keep it together... to tell the alters to quiet down... in my brief and silent lucidity in a new and peaceful town...

And despite my anger... sadness... despite the insidious voice of pain... I understand why mother did it... though I know it doesn't explain...

But her life was so much harder... she'd had so much love to give... but the entire world around her let her run into their shivs.

So she tried her best at surviving, passed those lessons on to us... taught us how to keep on fighting but never how to trust.

Now I'm married... and I love him... but I'm broken, hurting, mad... at the life they gave my mother and that treatment from my dad.

I'm so full of rage and agony... so full of hope and full of pain... that's why I can't get to healing... why I cry whenever it rains.

And she's missing... my mothers missing... a person who never could refrain... She went out to numb the agony, the voices in her brain.

And... I empathize. I sympathize... I understand those thoughts... im still fighting... im still trying... Im still battling... distraught...

For my sisters and my brothers I have never touched a drug... for my sisters and my brothers I have never said no to a hug.

For my sisters and my brothers I am fighting yet, so hard... to keep my head above the water and stay away from all the shards...

I won't cut myself again... I won't try suicide to commit. I won't do again what I'd tried to do at least five times... maybe six.

For my father I'll keep fighting... I'll keep being a better man... prove him wrong and keep on going... on his grave I'll one day stand.

For my family that was broken... I'll keep searching for our mom... I'll keep hoping she'll find solace deep within her sorrowful song.

Mom if you're out there somewhere breathing, just know I understand and care... Im still your standing pillar, still your darling baby bear...

For my little sister Anna and for Justin im still here... I'll do my best to outlive them and watch them live out all their years...

I will never let this agony... from my health or lack there of... push me down to join the army of the defeated by the drugs.

I will never let this anger, let this rage or let this pain, push me to the point again where I grow more alters in my brain.

I'll keep fighting for my dogs... keep on fighting for my man. Keep on fighting for my sisters... and for my brother's I will stand.