#It's the trauma

[aithusarosekiller]

James: hey Reg, you're gorgeous with your hair tied up, did you know that? Makes me wanna-

Sirius: no flirting with my brother!

James: awh :(

Lily: what about kissing him

Sirius: wh- LILY!

James: yeah, Lily’s right, what about kissing him?

Sirius: JAMES!

Regulus: well I certainly wouldn't mind trying it

Sirius: REGGIE!

[soaps-mohawk]

Okay but can we get Simon in on that purring symphony??? Add that nice deep bass, with some higher pitched from the others, hell yeah *chefs kiss* 👌

You'll have to really convince him to join, but he might. Depends on when said symphony happens 🤭 He's not much of a purrer really.

[waytooobsessedwithmcyt]

My intense desire to be closer to have community vs my fear of being clingy

[gaykey]

not able to get over the scene where he's literally fighting off his inner demons through dance.

[the-amalgam-house]

High as fuck with no inhibitions makes me realize that at my core, I'm still all the traits that were deemed "annoying" (usually by me but occasionally by family) and that for like ALL of my late teen to adult life I've been scared to be seen as annoying/cringe

But my persona is crafted around very purposely avoiding saying or doing the first thing that comes to mind, which may be part of why there's that autism burnout happening. I don't let my autistic/adhd impulses blurt out cause I put on my mask and go "no, that's weird, normal people don't say that."

So now I'm kind of afraid to rediscover who I am without masking like Out Loud cause I'll feel judged. Mostly by Nina I guess cause she's known me as This for our whole lives. I let an impulse escape today while in the car with Nina and felt I had to immediately apologize. I don't realize I'm always holding back so much, and in part why I'm always so tired.

Feeling like I can't just let go and unmask 100% is so weird tho cause like? Nina wouldn't care? Kanon doesn't care? I won't be relentlessly made fun of for having autistic tics and adhd everything. It might be a BIT annoying but the worst anyone would do if I annoy them is maybe sigh loudly or laugh a little awkward. That's nothing.

When I can just let my brain go to goop, I'm just like that. When I'm sober I catch every line before it goes out in rapid succession before getting to the version that's socially appropriate one to say. That costs energy and mental stamina to always be making. Oof.

I should just allow myself to be weird. I might come off as really immature, but it would be freeing.

[greenteaandtattoos]

Every time Otohan enters a scene, my heart throws up a little in my chest

[ultfreakme]

Jon: Wow Batman is such a paranoid weirdo like ew what is wrong with him lmao

Also Jon: * wears a bulletproof vest, has a belt that is miniature sun to constantly keep him powered, ready to murder Bendix because he destroyed his home and only feels safe with Justice League protection, absolutely cannot let go of his boyfriend even though said boyfriend is literally INVULNERABLE and can't let go of dad who's the strongest person possibly in the galaxy*

[hauntedhouseoflove]

HELLO I SPEAK FOR THE TREES! THE TREES SAY YOU'RE GAY

Hi there!! You can call me Ghostie!!

Self ship blog go BRRRR if you know my main no you don't :D

PROSHIPPERS FUCK OFF

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[alphie-in-the-sky]

[bluk-berry-jam]

me: having a perfectly normal day the Litleo walking across my path: me: why do i hear "your new home" playing softly in my head

[the-bisexual-bitch]

Not me saying legitimately awful/insane things like "I obviously don't deserve consideration in this descision because I don't deserve anything more than the bare minimum" completely seriously and dead-faced, see them react like I'm crazy, and not realize that thats completely off the wall until two days later.

[jamiebluewind]

I want to listen to music while I go to sleep, but I have this anxiety over getting use to it (and being unable to sleep without it). So at night, my hand reaches, but my brain stops it. I can't get used to something that makes my life easier. I have to keep my guard up. Stay smart. I know what it's like to get so used to the soft things that you can't brace for the concrete. I can't let it happen again.

So I live my life a little uncomfortable. A little out of place. A little yearnful. I have to.

At least... it feels like I have to.

Am I the only one?

[thatdykepunkslut]

oh it's my birthday in 2 hours. ew

I love getting older I just wish I didn't have a birthday but just slowly got hotter over time with no way to track the progress.

[hannah-heartstrings]

I've been thinking about one of my original stories a lot lately, which hasn't seemed to help me actually write it.

Anyway here's the two main character's dynamic summed up in three memes:

(Descriptions in alt text)

She's an exhausted 20 year old thief who's a little too OK with murder, he's a 12 year old chosen one with undiagnosed ADHD and a hero complex. Neither one really knows what they're doing.

[saryasy]

me at heartstopper: you better fix me, bitch