#It's so fucked up

[buttercupshands]

MHA didn't create some miracle way of helping others. It was never promised to be this way. And when it came to villains...

Spoilers for manga all the way to chapter 423.

The only way to get anything in life in MHA was to be born "normal" like everyone else and that way of thinking never left Izuku with Toga getting the same treatment she did before from everyone from her family to her "normal" classmates. It was Ochako who helped Toga even if just a little by lifting the weight of all the feelings that Toga had.

She couldn't save Toga the way one could save a civilian by saving them from harm. If it worked that way Dabi would've saved Toga even before Ochako could apologize for failing to notice Toga. She was so lazer focused on saving everyone else, that she was just another villain to stop, not a human.

Even if by the end of it Ochako helped Toga to deal with her grief, acceptance as it was wasn't something possible when a quirk makes you want to drink someone's blood from jealousy.

We got a bittersweet ending with Toga, in which she probably died from blood loss just like her double did in MVA. If it wasn't for Twice she would've died back then.

Giving away her blood for Ochako wasn't a redemption or a way to save Toga in the end, more as it was her being true to herself until the very end.

Just like Twice chose to stay with the League even if Hawks offered him a way to survive that battle. He refused and died protecting his friends who accepted him instead of choosing to betray them and accept Hawks' offer.

After Twice's death... It was a matter of time that more 'active' LoV members would join him as well. As sad as it is, we now can return to Izuku.

Who, after his time OFA-AFO quirk space, now wanted to help a "crying boy" he saw in Tenko just as before with Katsuki in chapter 1. He didn't forgive Tomura and didn't excuse the way he chose to solve his problems.

It didn't mean that Tomura would survive in their battle, even if Izuku didn't see killing others as a way to solve problems. He didn't understand Tomura, but he still wanted to try, and try he did.

The rest of this post was nothing more than a contextual prologue to understand that it's not the first time a hero failed to save a villain and in Twice's case we know that he died and his death was the reason Toga started thinking about her own possible death and Dabi finally revealed himself as Toya.

The goal of saving a "crying boy" never was an end-goal for Izuku in the Final arc, since helping Tomura deal with his feelings just left him hollow with a goal that clashed with Izuku's. As being a hero for villains meant destroying the world for them to help them live freely.

But that was before AFO resurfaced.

Sadly after that Tomura who was talking about making his own choices for a while now stopped doing that. Even if he still had a goal of helping villains and only villains, Tomura was almost gone. And his goals were now unreachable.

Izuku helped Nana who in turn kept Tomura from fading away entirely. In MHA there were countless situations where Izuku's help affected people by helping a different person to keep hope, All-Might being the first one and Nana being the last one at the moment.

Hollow after Izuku helped him to get rid of his hatred Tomura could do the only thing he did - accept the situation as it was.

Accepting AFO as his Sensei, accepting Stain's ideals and Overhaul's deal was the way he solved his problems. Just like Izuku had a problem of understanding something outside of his norm, Tomura was accepting too many things, which lead to his downfall after accepting AFO's quirk.

Just like Twice could've given up everything that he had for his friends so did Tomura.

With Izuku helping as much as he could let Tomura to finally rest as he wasn't really living ever since waking up in the hospital. With his body now affected by AFO's wishes instead of his own until the end.

In a way Izuku didn't succeed in his wish for Tomura to stop ever since PLF war arc. As he "kept fighting to destroy" no matter how hard Izuku tried to stop him.

The only thing he succeeded in was changing Tomura's mind about himself, instead of viewing himself as a monster he accepted that he was a human just like Izuku said. A "crying boy" who couldn't really destroy Izuku's hands in the end.

For a group of Villains who weren't supposed to get profiles of their own at the start of the series, League is slowly fading as the most memorable group that there was in MHA, getting backstories, their own Villain themed arc all the while being as human as anyone else.

As sad as their story is they were not "unlucky", they didn't need a happy false ending where they would need to change to be normal - they chose to live this way and they lived it to it's fullest.

[overmorrowpine]

okay someone has probably said this before but i only just got to act 3 so i don't dare go into the tags to find it

but it's so fucking creepy that mizora replaced his eye with a sending stone tuned to her

like. THAT'S HIS EYE. can he see through it no but that's his fucking eye. and in the same battle that ruined his life she uses that newfound disability, that newly hollow place, and fills it with herself

like i can believe he lost his eye in the fighting or at least lost functionality of it due to smth cutting across the surface of it or smth

but the way that that is then used by mizora to spy on him, to track him—this message that he isn't his own, no matter what he does, because he sold his soul for his city and lost everything for it, and really, why wouldn't his own body be the next thing to go?

you see this again if you save karlach, and mizora turns him into a devil

this message of you are not your own, you are mine, and i can do what i please with you

and it's SO FUCKED UP. IT'S SO FUCKED UP.

especially considering how she ruined his life and then keeps cutting at him in little slices, little bits of cruelty and condescension where he can't fight back until he internalizes it, how long has it been since anyone cared for him and not just what he could do for them

and on top of that his fucking eye is a sending stone tuned into mizora and he can never even be truly alone

[tinyclowndancer]

[piosplayhouse]

The canon fact that Shen Yuan is bilingual is actually horrible because that means he very well could've been a toxic bnf in fandoms INTERNATIONALLY

[dovalore]

6.4 dungeon boss design

assortment of cute slimy creatures

[justalittlebluetiefling]

idk what it says about me but episodes like this one are the ones that I want to listen to over and over again

[thatndginger]

love when I have an idea that's wonderful and terrible and gives me that little jolt in my chest, like "holy shit this is good"

[sirleonthelongsuffering]

lose a year off my life every time i remember this line actually existed in the show

[millionsghosts]

It's missing Magic and Mystery hours anyways remember when Dazai told Atsushi in canon that people tend to cry when their fathers die and in chapter 19 when Mori kills the previous boss Dazai's got blood all over his face because of his eye getting stabbed out. Because I do.

[iaus]

bc i saw u mention cgu in the darling one (which i think is so funny. yessss cinnamon girl universe let’s get into it) but ⭐️ for hold me <33

i will never not be giggling over cgu. while also feeling a little guilty for jace in that universe eheh. but okay the way i know already what i wanna talk about.

so. fun fact about me i've cut back on them recently but i used to use A LOT of parenthetical sections in my writing. i've cut back on them recently because i got self conscious of how wordy i was but. i indulged myself in hold me.

let's look at those.

so. as it was an ask fic, i did feel the need to speed up the timeline of hold me. like. i don't think porter would have been adverse to starting being physical with jace right off the back, but i think even 26 yr old jace would have some anxiety about appearing professional and as we know i have to justify everything in my writing to myself.

even the porn.

but right before our parenthetical sections (which are a way for us to see how jace reacts to getting less professional with porter and a little peek into how porter eggs him on) we do learn a little about porter.

Porter Cliffbreaker is recently forty-nine years old, owns a family house in Tillering, and has a bad habit of patronizing Jace so much that he swears he’s flirting.

i'm not gonna lie i really like this line just in general. i wanted to give a concrete number to their ages and these little details jace knows about porter. he doesn't know much, but it's enough to give us an idea of well. yea he's probably a creep. (fun (?) fact, i was doing the math for porter's family and jace in this universe is about the same age as porter's youngest sibling.)

now. for this section i couldn't really help myself so i set up a little pattern we start:

It took about a week for Cliffbreaker to turn into Porter.

porter and jace start moving away from professional pretty quick. this, though, is pretty normal. i had a few coworkers that i never called by their first name, but even with my mentor it took like a month for me to open up and call them by their first name. so it's a sign that they're at least "close."

but then we have jace's reaction:

(He hooked up with a goliath about Porter’s height the weekend after Porter had smiled at him, told him, unthinking, good boy—then he’d almost moaned the wrong name. Then there was the barbarian he met at an adventuring bar in Bastion City. He’d asked for him to fuck him on all fours, for him to tell him he was proud of him—that he was doing so well. He had moaned Porter’s name that night. His date hadn’t seemed to notice. Or care.)

porter gives this permission to use his first name and jace... goes and finds men that remind him of porter. he immediately takes calling porter by his first name into his fantasies and hookups. he's in deep already. we're also establishing jace's pattern. he likes older men. married men. men who are more occupied with getting off than anything about what jace is experiencing... already we're seeing how this is going to go.

Two weeks for Jace to say, a little nervously, that he thought meeting three times a week might be better. I need some help with management strategies, he’d simpered, eyes wide and lip trembling a little. The freshmen are difficult.

now. you see, with my induction at least you were really supposed to meet every day. i didn't so i put it into the structure of this. but here's jace two weeks into the school year deciding. no i need more time with porter. so he goes and bats his eyelashes and lies a little bit. also going from one meeting a week to three in a five day work week? i think he's crazy for that.

porter doesn't mind though. how kind.

(Porter had been indulgent, rolled his eyes, and said he could make it work. They had sat pressed together awkwardly in Porter’s office as they went over the data Jace had collected from his Common classes, went over different ways to get student’s attention—what strategies was he using to address disruptive behavior. Then Jace had bitched about how he’d denied a position at Mumple to avoid Common and working with freshmen. Porter had laughed, clapped his hand against Jace’s shoulder and said, I know you’ll make it work, you’re a smart kid. Jace had jerked off in the shower imagining Porter’s laugh pressed to his neck. Imagined the heavy clap of Porter’s hand on his thigh.)

and as is my usual motive... porter does a lot of touching. even in this universe he is getting into jace's space. putting them in his office which requires them to press in close. and then already adding some casual touch and starting with some "safe" nicknames. kid's neutral, right?

jace is soaking that up. and let's be real. porter's noticing that.

Then, a month in, they were having their meetings outside Aguefort.

now this. here's the first official red flag. i never met my mentor outside of our site. my coworker i started with had to meet their mentor outside of our site only because they went to different schools. and even then they did professional zoom calls.

not jace and porter. they go for coffee.

(Porter hadn’t been looking at him when they got coffee in a new bistro not far from Strongtower Luxury Apartments. He’d been focused instead on the notes Jace had from when he spent his prep period observing Tiberia. Jace had felt a little stupid, sitting there in his tight jeans and polyester blend shirt that almost looked like silk. He’d sipped his drink in silence as Porter made his own notes. Asked Jace questions on what he thought of Tiberia’s pedagogy, her engagement of students. He’d sulked on the way home, thinking he was a particular kind of stupid. He’d still texted later and asked if they could have another meeting the next day—after he observed Badgood. Porter had texted back, hours later, saying that sounded fine—did he have a date? Was that why he had been dressed so nice for their meeting? It fell through, Jace texted back—face flushed and heart hammering loud in his throat. Porter didn’t text back until midnight, He missed out then.)

they go to a bistro! they get their drinks. jace dresses up!

but porter is so professional. he doesn't comment on jace's clothes, he focuses on being jace's mentor. and jace is of course disappointed. yea it's what he needs, porter's doing his job. but. he dressed up. like he was going on a date. he gets his feelings hurt.

but then. later. after he goes home. when the "mentoring" is done, porter texts him.

did he have a date? was that why he was dressed so nice?

and just with that porter validates jace. porter noticed him. not in a professional way. in a way jace has been seeking.

and then... at midnight. late. way beyond the "professional" hours.

he missed out then.

makes you wonder what porter was doing that late. thinking about jace in his tight jeans.

and then we get that scene with goldenhoard.

“It’s good you have an attentive mentor."

(to say the least)

“You’re not the first person he’s mentored,” Goldenhoard says. He signs the page requiring an admin signature, slides that back to Jace as well. “His pedagogy… gets some complaints from parents. But his mentees are usually… satisfied.” Jace can feel his ears go red. He wonders, briefly, if he’s the first Porter has taken an interest in.

this is probably the most concerned jace has been about this whole thing. and it's not even anything about being worried about being professional. this is jace being jealous. he wants to be the first porter's done this deeply unprofessional unethical thing with. because he has to be special.

and this is something that never got mentioned because we never saw porter's pov but. this bright-eyed naive jace does have epilogue jace's past.

so he has his spell thief ability.

and porter knows about it from the get go. (it's why he volunteered.)

He’d been hired during his interview with Arthur Aguefort—with a hand-wave and an understanding laugh that his mentor could help him with the paperwork related to the… problems that had followed him out of college.

so, while it's not mentioned... the funny thing is that i personally do see this as the first time porter's taken an interest in a mentee like this.

porter in this universe wants jace's magic more than he wants jace.

it's just an added bonus that he clocked jace's interest in him. makes things a lot easier.

[lordansketil]

Rewatching 'The Madness of King George' and holy shit when they're working out where to incarcerate him and Rupert Everett's Prinny goes "Kew." and then it cuts to the King screaming "KEW???"

And it's like, you don't understand the sheer level of petty malice going on there. That's where Prinny grew up. That's where his father sent him to be raised away from his family (except Fred). That's the place Prinny hates most in the world. He's recreating what his father did to him and it's so fucking petty i'm-

[immediatebreakfast]

God, this is just... so painful. Victor's reaction to Henry's death is the culmination of every harsh feelings he felt during the whole novel. It's a miracle that Victor even had energy to tell the tale of how the person he loved the most on earth was murdered. He feels responsible for the actions of a vengeful son. Victor feels the blood of his loved ones in his hands, even if those crimes were not commited by him.

This is what Adam wanted at the end, to make Victor feel miserable, and horrible in this earth. The murder of William was planned, yet the murder of Justine and Clerval were not. Yet, it doesn't matter, all of this suffering for Victor, who was left alone in this world.

[areyougonnabe]

Ok literally yes they were. Like did you know that you can do a virtual tour of amundsen's house exactly as he left it when he yeeted himself into the void and prominently featured in his sitting room is the tablecloth that fred cook EMBROIDERED FOR HIM in PRISON!!!!!!!!

That is TRUE LOVE!!!!

Also honestly julian sancton is such a deep understander. Every paragraph he writes about them in madhouse makes me insane. Look at these two this is BOYFRIEND BEHAVIOR

and then there's the literal final paragraph of the book which is purely just fred imagining roald might still be alive out there in the north after disappearing ha ha ha IM FINE THIS ISNT PIERCING MY HEART AT ALL

anyway stan cookmundsen

[tardis--dreams]

I have a 'job interview' today at 6p.m. (s i x o c l o c k. In the Evening.) (It's currently 12:40 am) but I'll make chickpea salad on thursday so maybe there's still something left to live for

[sevicia]

And going to uni as a "girl" has been genuinely kind of a shock to me because the particular brand of misogyny at my school from kinder to high was of the "girls must be proper and boys must protect them" kind not the "women are stupid and vapid" kind. You know? Often when I'd speak to a guy about anything related to class he'd look at me in this very strange way that I can only interpret as "this girl has NO idea what she's talking about. she's so stupid" and no I don't think I'm exaggerating. I went into a STEM field.

[sergeantpixie]

Do you prefer saphne or kanthony and why?! kanthony was too much constant bickering/clashing and not enough actual connection for my taste but i know that’s not a popular opinion!!

You know I wasn't on tumblr when the first two seasons of Bridgerton aired so I experienced it in a vacuum. I watched it with one of my closest fandom friends, we've been friends for about 10 years at this point, so we know each other really well and we respect each others' opinions too. We both liked both couples and both seasons, but we each had a preference. She preferred season 2 and Kanthony, and I prefer season 1 and Saphne. I didn't need to be on tumblr to know which one would be more popular though, this is the enemies to lovers website.

I tend to prefer the friends to lovers route - that's just who I am. But I think Kate and Anthony are so well written that it makes sense why they argue and fight against it and why they end up hurting a lot of people including each other (Daphne and Simon do this too, just differently.) As older siblings who stepped up to take their fathers' place after his death, Kate and Anthony are very similar, specifically similarly damaged. They put their siblings' needs above their own to their own detriment constantly. It makes sense that they could only fight against their attraction and feelings for each other - it makes sense that the only way Kate could come to terms with her own feelings was through the eyes of her little sister that she puts above all else - and it makes sense that she'd end up hurting her in the process, because that's what happens when you wall yourself off from your needs - especially emotional. You hurt people. (We get that with Anthony and Daphne too, in season 1. He projects his own romantic woes onto Daphne and Simon and tells her they can never be together when he's not actually seeing them, he's only thinking about his own doomed romance with Siena. Every time Kate tells Edwina Anthony is not for her she's talking about herself. Both of them are trying to save their beloved younger siblings from pain as well as themselves - and causing them pain - and also causing themselves pain.)

Daphne and Simon are both exactly my types as characters it's kind of insane. Simon's archetype is one I find appealing in both sexes, but Daphne's is exclusively interesting as a woman to me. Almost all of my favorite female characters are the archetypal perfect girl of their universe and they're so fucking lonely because of it that they're barely human. Simon is lonely too - loneliness is an important factor in being my favorite characters - and he's very defined by the abuse and neglect he suffered in his childhood. And then he meets someone who gives him hope - a friend and a lover and someone who makes the world seem bright. But he's so preoccupied by the pain and the anger from his past that he can't let himself take it. Daphne has the strength and the determination to demand he take it. Daphne is also very emotionally stunted and uneducated about certain aspects of life because the time she grows up in is so infantilizing to young women. (I appreciate Queen Charlotte for showing exactly why Mama Bridgerton is so fucking bad at basic sex ed, god her mother was a nightmare!) Her anger and humiliation at her lack of knowledge and understanding of the world is a lot. They do hurt each other along the way but ultimately choose each other (they choose happiness!) and idk I just love it a lot. A character like Simon being able to decide that love is more important than pain is very beautiful to me. I love that he gets to be Lady Danbury's son instead of his father's.

Thank you for asking, anon!