#It's all gonna be LU though haha

[shadedheart138]

Finally archived all my old headcanons, and am gonna go ahead and clear the good old Tumblr out! Feel free to take a look at them if you'd like, anyone with the link should be able to view it.

[miyakazashi]

The Burning Hell that is Yingdu Episode 6

I have no idea where to start, so I thought I might as well just write down something like a live reaction, basically how I reacted to the main parts of this episode- not much theories just plain thoughts and yes 44 minutes after the episode finished airing... took me a while, uhh I'm still not okay though, anyways

Omg this scene was so hilarious, but honestly when I was first watching it I was so stressed out about the whole "someone is gonna die thing" that I processed the joke, but couldn't really laugh, it basically went like- oh haha😆, okay serious talk who's gonna die 😀 but now that it's all over, damn that's hilarious 🤣🤣🤣 they really were not on the same track as Vein and Xia Fei huh🤣

This whole model scene was so wholesome🥺 and honestly made me chuckle a little, since I was still really stressed- like, you can't tell me someone in the fandom really forgot the main deal of this episode while watching these more lighthearted scenes, no way- anyways I love how cute they are here, plus the song (which I really liked btw) gave me mad idol anime vibes 😆and Lu guang throwing the flower pedals for Xia Fei with a dead pan face is hilarious, will go into detail with this part in another post

This part freaked me out, like it was definitely the first death flag of the episode for Xia Fei, when he just disappears? Obviously from the trailer we know he's with Liu Xiao- but that's even more unsettling

The fact that Liu Xiao just shushes him, I can't, I was even more stressed out here, but like I just had a nagging feeling he wouldn't get his hands dirty by killing him so-

Look, I just find this scene really REALLY odd, like Vein's favoured model of his company disappears and he's just like, "nah it's fine don't worry about him, we have more important stuff here" my first thought was that, I think he's conspiring with Liu Xiao here, they have a plan, and he knows it's succeeded since Xia Fei is gone. I was scared, and started to second guess whether Liu Xiao would kill him or not- but alas with this episode we do not get enough thinking time

And this just further proves my thoughts when Xia Fei first "disappeared", I bet the one on call with Vein is Liu Xiao. This whole episode was probably their plan I think.

With Wang Qing ( or rather probably Cxs's mother in Wang Qing's body ) just saying she doesn't have much time left, I was scared it was another death flag, plus the other obvious death flag Cheng Xiaoshi in the room my heart was racing here, like literally I knew I wasn't gonna be prepared for whatever kind of sh*t was about to go down.

Continuing in the next post, cause I don't know anymore

[perhaps-in-anotherdream]

Hello Anika! I've noticed that another CN otome game "Lovebrush Chronicle" is being localized in English. What are your thoughts on the story, and is there a ML in the game similar to Victor?

I want to hear your thought because I think you have a good eye on judging a story ❤️ Sorry if this ask seems to be out of nowhere!

hello!!! thank you haha~ ಡ⁠ ͜⁠ ಡ yes, the game’s original name is 时空中的绘旅人, also known as For All Time. It’s one of the 4 big CN otoges (the other three: Light and Night, Love and Producer/ MLQC, and Tears of Themis).

idk why they had to change the name smh but then again i can see why too LOL, but if you’re gonna change the character names, change for all of them why change just two?? especially since Emerald’s name is explained precisely so aksjsjs i’m so salty rn lmao

uh about the storyline, i had to try hard to not be lured into yet another game lmao (eyeing L&N akshdhd), so i haven’t actually played the game personally after CBT LOL nor do i keep up with its contents that much, so my knowledge regarding the story and the characters isn’t deep and is limited haha. also, since the premise begins in the AU world + with some other factors, i kinda lost my interest to even begin with LOL.

here’s a brief introduction for you though—

the game’s setting is the AU world ahah, and it also has personal routes. it has battle systems for leveling up your profile / raising cards. i heard it can be pretty grindy, but since i haven’t continued playing it, i can’t comment on that :>

✦ The Heroine:

she is an art student / comic artist in the modern world, but one day she gets sucked into a different AU world while watching her friend’s performance. (she’s so pretty tho u.u)

✦ Ai Yin/ Ayn:

19 years old, goes to the same school as the heroine and a pianist in the modern world. He’s a prince in the AU world, focused on his revenge.

✦ Lu Chen/ Alkaid:

20 years old, a transfer student, the heroine’s senior in a different study (Astronomy), photographer. In the AU world, he’s a mage/ high level priest.

✦ Lu Xia/ Rorschach (re-named as Lars for EN):

27 years old, the heir of a wealthy family, CEO, flirty af. In the AU world, he’s an aggressive and headstrong king.

(if you’re into the “CEO trope”, he could be your pick LOL. but if you’re looking for similarities that actually matter— then aside from just the CEO title and maybe that body lmfao, Victor and him share no other similarities hahaha)

✦ Si Lan/ Clarence:

22 years old, goes to the same school as the heroine and is the student president. He is the head highest priest/ mage in the AU world.

✦ Ye Xuan/ Emerald (re-named as Cael for EN):

An art instructor, took the heroine under his wings, gentle in nature sus lmao. In the AU world, he is the silver knight and leading the revolution.

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Over all, from what I’ve seen, the story is pretty good, has the intrigue elements for sure. Also plus point, in every AU/ arch you get a common part and then you can choose your love interest to progress for the rest of the story. what it does here is that unlike Lovepro/MLQC + Light and Night main story, where the story itself is very character-driven, you need to shut your brain and consider the MC that specific love interest’s heroine for the allocated segment- or else given the extreme lengths she goes for them/ the said borderline intimacy certainly don’t cut for “just friends” tag LOL. So, if you’re someone who self-inserts (consciously or not) and perhaps is a little uncomfortable with that kind of storytelling, For All Time/ Lovebrush Chronicles is certainly one you can give a try.

For me personally, the writing pattern didn’t seem like my cup of tea + I prefer the storytelling pattern of Lovepro and L&N (singular main story + parallel dates) haha. But hey, we all have different tastes, so be sure to give it a chance if you’re interested. Who knows, you could end up with completely different viewpoints than me! (⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠*⁠)

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[cyberdragoninfinity]

it turns out you CAN AU already AU'd characters but the light of heaven WILL leave you, so watch out (putting together little pokemon teams for dimensionswap dennis and yugo because theyre in my brain Really Bad rn)

rationales:

DSWAP DENNIS White Kyurem - haha, white boy. Also Trishula, Brionac, Lancea, all the Ice Barrier dragons… also ironically Kyurem is probably the closest pkmn Dragon to Yugo's ace Shattered-Wing. hmm Furfrou - Poodle but make it ungroomed and built for Attacking. Hunting Dog. Cryogonal - For all his Ice Barriers/ice motif also this is just a really fucked up explicitly a predator Pokemon. this thing Eats prey. Mr. Rime - YOU CANT ESCAPE THE CLOWNS FOREVER YOUNG MAN. Compliments the Mime Jr. I gave regular Dennis, ice magician, Mercury Mirror Magician essence... also just really stupid funny 'mon to give him Chien-Pao - i think it's fun to give dswap dennis and yugo treasures of ruin <333 Chien-Pao for dennis because of ice and snow and also rampant, blistering hatred personified but dont even worry about it Nihilego - god it's hard to assign an ultra beast for him, i got so spoiled with blacephalon. nihilego is just kind of a really terrifying pick though. 'i am nothing' vs DA dehumanization... ALRIGHT !

DSWAP YUGO Silvally - Yuri has the Silvally normally, I just gotta give the fusion yuboy the fucked up chimera science experiment Legendary. He keeps it Ground type mostly I think <3 Claydol - MAN HOW DO WE NOT HAVE LIKE. *ANY* PUZZLE POKEMON claydol gonna have to do i suppose... toy made of earth and weird energy. he would love this thing Incineroar - I somehow gave dswap yugo a tiger motif I need him to have the big goofy mean tiger starter!!! Absolute competitive beast!! Over the top heel!!! Fire type the closest im gonna get to radiation burns/his radioactive motif too. Houndoom - my other hunting dog <3 Also devil imagery for the Zarc of it all. Predapuzzler Crosswarg, too. Chi-Yu - originally I gave him Ting-Lu for fusion!Yugo's Earth element association/the element of fear but Chi-Yu reflects his smaller Predapuzzlers and also radioactive fire and ALSO a 'mon associated with envy makes me a little sick in the head with him. Stakataka - hes get the Fusion kid ultra beast >:] Stakataka is Kind of a puzzle...jenga tower ass Pokemon. Rock and Steel like the earthy elements of his monsters.

[ixtaek]

Tagged by @sprite-and-the-bunnydragons, my Ao3 writer stats!

1. How many works on Ao3? 9! Ish

2. Total Ao3 Word Count? 159,733. Most of which is Crossing of Stars

3. Top 5 Fics by Kudos? 1. A Stubborn Kid 2. Tall 3. Legend of Zelda: A Crossing of Stars 4. Monster Energy 5. Need a Lift?

4. What fandoms do you write for? Zelda baybee. Mostly LU by number of fics, but again, CoS takes up most of my wordcount.

5. Do you respond to comments? Yes. Yes I do.

6. Fic with the angstiest ending? Uuuh Tall maybe? Or CoS. Depends on your definition of angst

7. Fic with the happiest ending? Probably Monster Energy for pure fluff.

8. Do you get hate? Besides from myself? I think I got a bot. I also had one dude who said they didn’t like one of my characters, but a few chapters later then comments again that they now liked that character! Probably my happiest moment haha

9. Do you write smut? No. And again no.

10. Do you write crossovers? Not published. And it would really be more of a “X characters in Y universe” rather than “X characters meet Y characters”. I did once write a CoS x LU crossover but will that ever see the light of day? Who knows.

11. Ever had a fic stolen? Nah. I’m not that good. I’ve had ideas that then someone in Burbank or Nintendo makes something crazy similar, but that’s not theft. That’s just me being predictable ;)

12. Have you had a fic translated? Nope! I would be happy if someone wanted to, but that’s a lot of homework haha

13. Have you ever co-written a fic? Not really? Technically CoS was made with my boyfriend, but I do all the writing and he just listens to me talk out plot points till I figure out what I want, or reads it.

14. All-Time favorite ship? Would you ask me to pick a favorite child??? Jk it’s Candace Flynn and Jeremy Johnson. I relate to the feeling of being a high-strung red-head oldest sister with a much calmer blonde boyfriend who is still with me in spite of my shenanigans. This isn’t related to writing I guess though so… Rigito and Syn (sorry Zelda and Link)

15. WIPs you want to finish but doubt you ever will? I have one titled “Youngest” that’s me pushing my “Wind is not a pirate” propaganda/exploring how it feels to be a non-swearer in a swearing world, but I can’t work out a plot, so it’s just gonna sit in my drafts forever.

16. Writing Strengths? Uh. I am good at. Concepts?

17. Writing Weaknesses? Remembering where people are. Writing descriptions of places or events. Naming fics. Describing action. Why am I even writing actually? Imposter syndrome.

18. Thoughts on mixed language dialogue? As the worst Spanish speaker on the planet (exaggeration) who still tries my best to speak it with other Spanish speakers, I am not fluent enough to feel I do it justice. But I like seeing other people use other languages, especially if they use actual sentences so it’s like a bilingual bonus.

19. First fandom you wrote for? Ever?? *overthinks* Proooooobably Pokémon? Or Ace Attorney. Don’t ask for them, you will not get them. They’re long gone. On Ao3? Zelda.

20. Favorite fic you’ve ever written? It may be long, onerous, and not all polished, but Crossing of Stars is my baby. I sob tears of joy when people read it and comment. I would talk about it forever if you asked. I still wanna write in it.

I dunno who to tag so please, open tags and let me know you did it so I can smother you with love.

[beanghostprincess]

What are your thoughts on lusopp? (Luffy x Usopp)

i just woke up so if my words are all over the place that's probably why! being productive right here! waking up early! somebody shoot me! fighting the urge to go back to sleep so i can reply to your silly lil awesome questions! i need a coffee.

AND!!! I REALLY LIKE THE SHIP!!! (just saw you're on impel down so i won't spoil anything!)

i mean, it's not my favorite ship and i'm not crazy about it like, idk, my fiancé is crazy about them (but again, she's crazy about zosan and lawlu and i'm not so we have to deal with each other's bullshit all the time). but i find their relationship really, really interesting and complex and cool to explore. i was just writing a fic about them being besties and super clingy, gonna cry. baby boys.

i personally see them more as just best friends, but hey! if there are cute fanarts and content i'm not going to scroll away!! it's a good and cute ship!!! they're bffs almost instantly and usopp's intelligence really disappears when he's with luffy which is, not only hilarious but extremely refreshing to see. let the anxious boy be dumb and reckless!! they're so chaotic!!

not to mention that it's not only their dynamic that makes them good, but the whole water 7/enies lobby thing. i fear that if i talk about this much i might start sobbing. but, like,,, their fight is the first time we see luffy actively cry on screen. we see luffy losing control of his crew, something he used to have control over. we see luffy lost and act impulsively and not knowing what to do because his best friend and sniper is about to go away and his heart fucking breaks into a million little pieces. because luffy sees usopp's potential and he wants him with the crew, but he can't do anything to help if usopp doesn't believe in himself. and also, the merry, which is another thing luffy loses control over and has to act like a logical captain about it but we all know it's heartbreaking for him too. and then there's usopp, who feels inferior and not worthy of being part of this amazing crew. even though he has shown over and over again to be part of this little family. he just feels like he doesn't belong here. and, you know, he says he's angry because of the merry but we all know the fight isn't about that.

so, we all agree that water 7 is very very peak lusopp (and sanuso, but tbf it's just peak usopp in general because he has great scenes with everyone. especially the monster trio, shout out to my boy zoro), and then enies lobby is when they make up and it's beautiful and heartbreaking and the way usopp yells at luffy to stand up and fight makes me want to curl up on the floor and sob for ages and ages and ag-

and i would go into detail about luffy's character but i don't want to spoil anything, so let's just focus on usopp here:

lusopp's dynamic works well both as a friendship and as a ship, mainly because they're both on the same page when it comes to silly shenanigans. we see them actively enjoying being with each other and doing stupid things together and that's just,,, so sweet. but also, usopp is one of those people that have to ground luffy sometimes and tell him "fuck, no. haha. we're so not doing that" because despite acting silly, he's pretty much more logical and rational than luffy is. but, you know, the reason he's like that most of the time is because he's scared of fucking dying (which i understand. i'd be scared too in that crew. i'm glad nami is always agreeing with him with these things), and he has to be the one to stop luffy (try to, at least. never really works) from doing extremely dangerous things. which is both hilarious and actually pretty cute to watch because it shows us how well usopp knows luffy. it's obvious that they're best friends. dude knows what luffy is going to do minutes before luffy even thinks about doing it. and luffy really, really admires and loves usopp's abilities and strengths and brains. all the things usopp is insecure about? luffy loves them!!!

and, you know, it's a good ship because they have that sort of bff energy, but if you make it romantic and angsty and more intimate? that's just better! i feel like their ship is just- those friendships that turn into romantic relationships but their dynamic doesn't really change at the end of the day? and i find that really endearing.

luffy makes usopp see the best in himself and makes him want to improve as a pirate to follow his dream and feel like he belongs in the crew. usopp makes luffy be a bit more grounded to reality whenever he needs to, and he was the first one to make luffy realize that, well, fuck, he's the captain of a ship and he needs to be responsible and make harsh decisions.

but now that they're together again, luffy is sooo not going to let him go ever again. and usopp will never try to do so because he just wants to keep fighting for him!!!

it's such an endearing and funny and angsty ship. i think i just don't really ship them much because i'm more of a sanuso/zolu kind of person. but at this point just make it poly and everybody is happy (except nami bc she has to deal with the 4 of them being in love and that would be extremely tiring. somebody bring back vivi for her PLEASE).

but yeah, cute ship. not my favorite but awesome to explore and tbh one of my favorite friendships in this show. very underrated but that's just bc usopp is underrated af and it makes my blood boil with anger and the fury of hell itself. that's for another day, though!

[fictionkinfessions]

GOD (haha thats my dad) i miss my bros. my siblings. every last one of them. like yeah, i totally dipped out on my responsibilities and shit. but i still missed them, even if they were honestly terrible at times.

yea, we were angels, but that didnt make us any better than dads other creations.

dad wasnt supposed to play favorites, but he obviously favored lucifer, even after everything. he didnt give a shit about me or raphael, and godforbid anyone bring up uriel or zadkiel or literally any of the other archangels. those guys got the worst of it considering literally no one remembered them.

but he had such "big plans" for mike and luce. which was literally hey boys, in a few million years im gonna have you both fight to the death!! and IM the "irresponsible one" out of all of us bc i was tired of the fighting and the bullshit after dad left? whatever dude. i didnt WANT to be in charge, i NEVER asked to be a general or whatever, that was just something i was made to be.

anyways. besides that. uhh. sorry to sam winchester for torturing you and your bro for like. years that one day. honestly you got kinda pathetic towards the end there and thats totally on me, but like rlly dude? dad wasnt rlly going to let one of you die forever back then, that much should've been obvious. esp considering most people who died actually stayed dead. no one dies that much & comes back without godtier plot armor.

i still loved you, lu. even after all the shit i said about you to your face (though it was kinda deserved). you were my big bro, you taught all of us everything we didnt know. i miss playing games and pulling pranks with you.

and, despite it all. i still loved dad. i dont know if he hated me in the end, probably. but how could i not love him? we were made that way, to love him.

damn, this got long.

anyways. uhh. fuck apocalypse michael, i hope you step on a lego and you always have that itchy feeling in your hand that you have to bite.

archangel gabriel out

(tag as fictive please + gonna take #🪖 for our sys if its open haha)

x

[alligatorgator]

jwqs update (at ch100)

veey glad shunu is gonna be divorcing that piece of shit lu zhongxing, it was driving me nuts. also props for stabbing him in the neck, it gave me a chuckle.<-also thanks jiya!

so far i really like jiya, she a girlboss and i appreciate her influence on shunu immensely, also she's a horse girl What More Do You Need. i am curious about what her motives are though, guess we'll see in the future.

oh yeah, as of now i also don't like nangong rang and nangong wang. both for the same reason of being creepy about jiya, the only difference between them is that one is a pedo and the other sees women as objects oh also he's really annoying stupid, i just can't

extremely appreciative of all the angst so far lol, i just know i will become mentally unwell after the identity reveal, i am both cheering qi yan on and also want to see her fail, either way all that's left will be misery haha what a goober love her

that's that for now since i can't think of anything else.

oh i guess i'm also expecting the myna from jingnu's birthday to play some role later on, like repeating sensitive info it heard or something idk

good novel

[sweetdwrites]

14-year-old y/n

"Alright, mom and dad Aki and I are off to school"

I'm y/n I'm 14, and Aki is my 9-year-old little sister.

Our family is a normal family we don't have any quirks.

my dad is a teacher though I don't know where he teaches at. But my mom is a doctor people need her a lot. Like my little sister when she was a baby the cord was wrapped around her neck. they couldn't get it off so they had to cut it and end up cutting her throat in the process. so she can't put a lot of pressure Like screaming would put a lot on her throat. She doesn't talk much but when she does talk it would be soft.

"Ok hun don't forget your lunch again"

"Oh righttt thanks dad"

"Where's mom"

Aki asked

"She had to do overtime at work"

"Oh well we have to go we love you"

"Love ya kiddos to"

I finished putting on my shoes quickly grabbed my backpack and sprinted towards the door with Aki but when I got ahold of the doorknob I couldn't move anymore

"Dad we're gonna be late"

I said as I looked back at him holding the back of my backpack

"I told you not to forget your lunches" "Yeah" I huffed

"Then why were they still on the table"

He then put the lunch sacks in my face

"Oh righttt"

With a sweat drop going down my face

I then grabbed my lunch gave Aki hers and we both turned around and gave dad a kiss on the cheek and zoomed out the door

We were then standing outside of school I reached for the door when I was pushing out of the way

"HEY"

"Oh I'm sorry I didn't see you there" she said in a mocking tone.

"Lu what are you doing here I thought you were suspended"

"My dad is a superhero I can't get suspended stupid"

"You on the other hand can you and your family don't have quirks"

I shoved past Lu and walked Aki to her class and then went to class leaving Lu and her ugly laughs behind

Soon when school was out Aki and I started walking home but I had got a headache it was far worse this time I fell on my knees holding my head with tears in my eyes

"Y/n what's wrong are you ok"

I saw a blurry image of a pool of blood on a wooden floor

I started shivering but the headache went away so I got up

"Yeah I'm fine Aki don't worry I'm sorry it won't happen again"

"It's ok don't apologize"

Then we continued our journey home though I felt like we were being watched

I kept looking around me I don't know what was wrong I didn't see anyone yet I can't shake the feeling of being watched.

I then run into a tall and strong figure sending me down on my butt

"Hellloo there young child"

"Alll-all-all m-might"

"What are small children like you taking such a dangerous path"

"We always take this way home"

"But I'm glad I found you we need help"

"Ohh what is it you need young child"

"I feel like we and our family are in trouble I feel like something bad is gonna happen"

He just stared at me with a big small on his face

"Hmm well what is there you want me to do for you and your family"

"Well I wondered when you had time maybe you could come over and watch the house for a little bit every night only if you can I'm sorry if I'm asking for much"

"Hmm I'll see what it is I can do young child"

My eyes lit up as bright as the sun I told him our address and we started to run home

A few days later

"girls time to eat"

"Coming momm"

We ran downstairs

"Whoa girl no running"

Dad said to Aki and I

"Mm smells good now I know you cooked mom"

Mom Aki and I started laughing

"Hey I heard that you jerk"

"I never imagined having such a mean daughter"

"Aki won't you say something to your mean sister for me"

"Yeah your being mean I like dads cooking"

Dad then sticks up his nose

"Yeah Aki loves my cooking"

"Yeah because she's a daddy's girl "

"Even better"

Dad then picks both of us up swinging us around

"Now sit and eat children"

Haha just a little something I made for a mha fanfic👀 I have a story on wettpad name is SweetDstorys

[charmed-asylum]

Billy Your Way tho

I wonder what going though all three people minds the beginning of the chapter. I mean in away we see two of thee kinda three. She lost in the glitter daze shy from it all a kind of is this real. Billy more then ever high from all this attention ( which I’m shock 😮 bc you think he hide her for as long as possible so what is it he getting from her besides devotion) and lastly Eddie lord he makes me feel like I’m watching one of those movies from 80s to 00s when guy sees girls of his dream his friend with another. I’m gonna call it the JH VIBES . “ You’re with Billy and he feels like it's his fault. You felt so lonely, and undesirable, and Eddie is convinced he made you feel that way by keeping his feelings locked up” I mean is he right or is he not . It’s sad what not speaking your mind means. But is it to late while I’m a lover of Billy Eddie is that dirty guilty pleasure I have so I can say Billy loves to fuck up so it’s only a matter of time just let’s hope he doesn’t do anything to the reader .

And it’s moments like this why I’m worried for reader and mad at Billy and his attentions w her, “ Billy notices Eddie looking, Hellfire congregating around Gareth’s locker. He smirks, giving Eddie a knowing look before giving Eddie a little show. Billy whispers something in your ear, making you giggle before turning you so your back is to your locker and he kisses you, tongue slipping into your mouth and his hands sliding into the back pockets of your jeans” and poor reader don’t even know billy thought process , “Despite the uneasiness you feel inside, you can’t help but melt at the way Billy is touching you, at how he’s letting everyone know that he wants you. It’s dizzying” that it is damn maybe this is what the doc order haha ha billy gonna have a hell of time w her maybe just maybe they all have an effect on each other that’s take them out of habit . Haha idk I feel Billy would be a closet DD FAN for sure like him n Eddie would meet in an undisclosed location and play for hours lol. “ . Warmth spreads throughout him, proud of his accomplishment and also as a reaction to your excitement. He won’t admit how much he actually enjoyed it. “ girl thanks bc home girl up in DE LU LU ISLAND “ You know deep down that this is wrong. If you weren’t so wrapped up in it, you’d be able to see the way Billy is trying to isolate you- keep you for himself”

Still I worried about it all. “Billy wasn’t sure how he managed to end up here. In all honesty, he didn’t expect to talk to you again after Saturday night, but now he’s here- walking you to class, holding your books, observing you all day at his side. He doesn’t understand what’s happening to him- how you have this effect on him. “ ITS THE FEAR IM WORRIED ABOUT THE ONE I KNOW BITS OF NEIL MAY COME OUT. I’m worried when and how it’s gonna come out then back to reader who idk is she disappointed or something else

WHY BILLY GOTTA do this why Eddie gotta do this why can’t I save money on GEICO oh yea no car so I can’t run to u and scream why u killing me this softy

“He can’t catch his breath and his mind is spinning at just how good that felt. It rattles him to his core- like how everything else you do seems to affect him in ways he never thought possible…. He heads to the bathroom, leaving you alone with your anxiety and your spiraling thoughts. “ lord knows I am not going to make it

BILLY U ASS WTF 😳

Everything that I Wanted (2)

Eddie Munson x F!Reader / Billy Hargrove x F!Reader 

Word Count: 5k 

Synopsis: Love triangle between your best friend Eddie and your first boyfriend, Billy Hargrove that spans over many years as you get everything you think you ever wanted. However, your life doesn’t play out how you expected it, starting from the first time you’re asked out on a date. 

Warnings: 18+ MDNI; SMUT (oral m receiving), angst, language, depictions of a toxic relationship (manipulation, coercion/guilting & isolation from peers)

A/N: Comments & Reblogs are always appreciated! Please let me know what you think! Thank you so much @munsonsmixtapes @punkrockmlchael @keeryhours @losingmygrasponreality for letting me talk to y'all and reading this for me!

PART ONE

It was obvious to Eddie why you never called him, when he sees you walk into school on Billy’s arm. From the outside, you looked like you were head over heels in love with Billy and Eddie could barely stomach the thought. Everyone at school is staring at you, it feels like- but of course they are. Suddenly, a freak of Hawkins is walking into school with Billy Hargrove’s arm slung around her shoulder. It’s a spectacle that makes you shy away and makes Billy cockier than before, thriving on the attention he’s getting. Eddie feels like his heart has been ripped from his chest, knowing that you’d rather be with Billy devastates him. 

He should’ve said something sooner. He regrets bottling up this affection he holds for you. Selfishly, he thought he had more time- more time to make you see how perfect you both are for each other. You’re with Billy and he feels like it's his fault. You felt so lonely, and undesirable, and Eddie is convinced he made you feel that way by keeping his feelings locked up. Billy’s going to hurt you, break your heart, and he feels helpless like he can’t save you. Do you even have to be saved? 

Billy notices Eddie looking, Hellfire congregating around Gareth’s locker. He smirks, giving Eddie a knowing look before giving Eddie a little show. Billy whispers something in your ear, making you giggle before turning you so your back is to your locker and he kisses you, tongue slipping into your mouth and his hands sliding into the back pockets of your jeans. Anger boils over in Eddie’s chest, he knows exactly what Billy is doing. He can’t give the jerk the satisfaction if he stays and watches the spectacle. He mumbles something about needing a smoke to Jeff, making an excuse to leave, slamming the side door behind him. 

The PDA makes you uncomfortable, hating how it seems like everyone’s eyes are on you. Despite the uneasiness you feel inside, you can’t help but melt at the way Billy is touching you, at how he’s letting everyone know that he wants you. It’s dizzying. So, you fold, giving into his touch and letting him kiss you however he likes. When he pulls away, he’s grinning like a little kid, pressing his forehead to yours. 

“We gave them quite the show, princess,” he whispers, caressing your sides, and you see how he’s talking about your friends- most of Hellfire standing there stunned. “Remember what we talked about,” he whispers close to your ear, sending a shiver up your spine. You look over at Gareth, and his eyes search yours. You can practically hear what he’s thinking. What the actual fuck? Or something along those lines. You’d never seen Gareth look- disappointed. It gutted you. 

“You know… I know you and everyone else thinks Hellfire is like this weird satanic cult, but honestly, Billy- they are just a bunch of geeks. D&D is just a game… It's a lot of fun. Maybe if you came with me-”

“Not happening,” he deadpans. “Princess, I don’t think they’re good for you…”

He takes your books and carries them, which honestly catches you off guard. He also surprises himself, not sure what’s coming over him. He tries not to think about it too much, leaving the thoughts by the door as you both walk into your chemistry class. Plopping the books on the work table, he slides his stool closer to yours so your shoulders brush. 

“I think if you played, you’d like it,” you try to insist. Billy tries his best to not roll his eyes and scoff. He shakes his head. 

“No I wouldn’t,” he says, his tone a little curt. You pretend it doesn’t hurt your feelings and just continue talking. You loved the game- and you found yourself wanting to share with him. Plus, sometimes when you get started on a topic you love, you have trouble dropping it. 

“Come on, just try it, please?” you ask, wide pleading eyes making him cave. He hates it- that you manage your way under his skin like this. The effect you have on him is something he can’t explain. It’s not something he’s ready to unpack- he doesn’t want to see that part of himself. 

“I’m not going to waste a Friday night with those freaks,” he says, his hand rubbing your back, “Not when there’s much better things I can think of- that would just be me and you.” He smirks, but you miss it- too preoccupied with pulling your pouch of dice out of your backpack. Billy blinks, taken aback at your complete disregard to his flirting. 

“No, we can just play right now,” you smile, opening up your notebook to a blank page and emptying the pouch contents out onto it. “Please, just try it- I promise you’ll have fun…”

“Fine,” he rolls his eyes. 

“So imagine you’re in the woods- you have a sword sheathed at your side, a dagger on your leg and a shield in your arm,” you begin setting the scene. “In the distance, you hear a noise- like the heavy footsteps of an animal. What do you do? What do you want to know?” 

You’re setting the scene in such a way that Billy is pulled into the storytelling almost immediately. You watch how he legitimately ponders the question and you can watch him thinking through the options. You can’t help but smile, happy to see his willingness to try even if only to appease you. 

“Um, what direction did the noise come from?” He asks, and it makes his heart swell when you seem giddy at his question. 

“So we don’t have a character sheet, so I’m just gonna fudge the stats. But you’d do a perception check- and based on how you roll, you’d see if you can answer that.” You pick up the dice and drop them into his hand. He looks down at them, rolling his eyes, but still rolls anyways. “Good roll,” you beam, and he can’t help but smile at the compliment. “You’re a natural,” you praise. 

“So you can tell that the noise is coming from the North, maybe North East. It’s coming from about 30 feet away. You also know that these woods are known to have dangerous species. How would you proceed?” 

“Do I recognize the sound?” He asks, hanging onto your words. He won’t admit it, but you have him sucked into this story, thrilled at the opportunity to play the hero. 

“The dice will tell you,” you tease and Billy rolls again. “Yes, you recognize that it's a chimera- the dangerous fire breathing beast that has the body of a goat, the heads of a lion and a goat and the tail of a serpent… you also know that their joints are their weak spots.”

“Do I know how to defeat one?” Billy asks, rolling before you even need to tell him. It makes you smile, biting your lip- happy to be seeing this side of him. He looks to you to decipher his role. 

“Yes.” 

“Okay, well,” he rubs his face with his hands like he’s actually in this situation. You find it endearing, “I wanna try to attack and kill it,” he says, nodding to himself like he’s convincing himself he made the right decision. He holds his breath as the dice roll across the table. 

“You did it!” You exclaim excitedly, wrapping your arms around him in congratulations. He chuckles, hugging you back. Warmth spreads throughout him, proud of his accomplishment and also as a reaction to your excitement. He won’t admit how much he actually enjoyed it. 

“Okay, sure,” he shrugs, but you can see through it. You know he had fun. 

“This is all Hellfire is,” you explain gently, hoping to convince him to change his mind- to show him that all you and your friends care about is a game. “Do you see why I like it?” you ask softly, hoping you showed him enough to make him understand. However, you around Eddie- all those other guys- not something he would want in any context, even if it was just D&D. The idea that you still are insistent on staying in the club upsets him- he should be enough for you. 

“I know you love it, princess,” he whispers, kissing your temple. “But those guys aren’t good for you- they aren’t good for us. They aren’t interested in friendship- they are just pretending to be your friends… Trust me, please? I don’t want you hanging out with other guys… You’re my girl, right? Not there’s…” 

You know deep down that this is wrong. If you weren’t so wrapped up in it, you’d be able to see the way Billy is trying to isolate you- keep you for himself. But, you can rationalize those apprehensions away so well. He’s your boyfriend, and he’s setting a boundary in your relationship- that’s normal. This is a sacrifice people need to make sometimes for the sake of their relationship. Why does it have to be so hard? You nod, giving in to his request- you think it's the right thing to do. 

You find Eddie at his locker in the middle of the day, and you take a deep breath- bracing yourself for the hard conversation you need to have with him. This is tearing you apart inside but it’s something that you think you need to do- thinking you’re doing it for the good of your relationship. 

“Hey, can we talk?” you ask, and Eddie can tell sometime is wrong. He closes his locker and leans against it. He sighs, and you can tell he’s upset. You already know it was about Billy- you don’t need to ask. You gulp, bracing yourself for how he’s going to react. 

“What’s up?” He asks, faking indifference. “I see your date was a big success…”

“Oh.. um, yeah,” you shuffle on your feet awkwardly, not able to meet his eyes. “Listen, I just needed to let you know I need to take a break from Hellfire for a little bit…”

“Is Billy making you do that?” Eddie asks, his eyes full of concern. You try to brush it off. 

“No, no, no,” you lie, “It’s not him. I just… I have a lot of projects and assignments coming up right now that I really need to focus on so I just thought it would be best if I take a break from Hellfire for a little while… not a big deal, you know?”

Eddie says your name, worry laced in his voice. This isn’t you talking, he knows that this was Billy’s doing. “Are you telling me the truth?” he asks, his voice cracking a little, unable to hide how upset he is. 

“Yeah, you know- I just need the time to focus on getting my grades up a little bit.” Eddie knew you were straight As and Bs, you out of anyone in the group didn’t need to get their grades up. He nods, pursing his lips and you know he’s holding back on saying something else to you. This hurts worse than a breakup, you can imagine. “It’s just for now, you know?” You continue, and you know that Eddie knows you’re lying. 

“Yeah, whatever you think you have to do…” 

“Okay,” you say, taking a shaky breath, holding back the tears that are welling up at Eddie’s indifference. “I’ll see you around then,” you say quickly, before walking away. You walk quickly, arms crossed over your chest with your head down. Eddie watches helplessly as you storm into the girls bathroom. He bangs his head up against the locker. 

“Stupid, fucking, stupid,” he says to himself, with each syllable he hits his forehead off the metal. He runs a hand through his hair, and he feels like he can’t breathe. The hallways are too congested, he feels trapped- he can’t be in this god awful building anymore. He brings a cigarette to his lips and makes a beeline for the parking lot. Fuck this place. He can’t be here knowing you’re here- with Billy. Somewhere at any given moment while he’s walking the halls alone, you’re here falling in love with someone else. Someone who isn’t him. 

Billy wasn’t sure how he managed to end up here. In all honesty, he didn’t expect to talk to you again after Saturday night, but now he’s here- walking you to class, holding your books, observing you all day at his side. He doesn’t understand what’s happening to him- how you have this effect on him. It supposed to be a hook-up- a conquest to check off of his list. 

Suddenly, he’s scared. Scared of whatever this is, scared of the unknown feelings that are swelling in his chest and most of all, scared of it ending. The paranoia fuels him to keep you close- wrapping himself around you so no one else could get in. It’s all he knows- he doesn’t understand this, he doesn’t understand you- he just knows fear, which is why he’s holding on too tight to whatever this is with you. 

After a couple of weeks, you’d never been more miserable. Billy confused you, and you never knew which version of him you would be getting. If it was just the two of you, he’d be sweet and attentive. He’d bring you to his house after school and you’d accompany him to pick up his little sister beforehand. You’d sit on his bed together and he’d rest his head in your lap or you’d lay against his chest. He’d let you run your fingers through his blonde curls and you’d make out until you fell asleep tangled up in each other's arms. 

At school, he was possessive. Guarded and closed off, it was like a shield went up and you couldn’t get through. It was like a performance and you didn’t know the steps so you had to pretend. You felt as though you needed to tip toe, hyper vigilant about things that could set him off. He’d show you affection but it didn’t feel like it was for your sake- but more like a tool, showing off for other people. Jealousy coursing through his veins, his arm would wrap tightly around you but instead of feeling loved- you felt trapped. 

You miss your friends, Eddie most of all. You catch yourself from approaching him, and you can’t help yourself as you stare longingly from across the cafeteria to your old seat at their table which remains empty. You wonder what they’re talking about, what they are planning for the most recent campaign, if they miss you even a fraction as much as you miss them. You watch as Gareth makes Eddie laugh, and the sound reverberates across the room. It makes your chest ache. More than anything you want to be in on the joke that made him laugh like that. 

“You okay, baby?” Billy asks, a whisper against your ear. His arm snakes around your waist and he rests his chin on your shoulder. He nudges your hair out of his way with his face, before leaving a trail of kisses on your neck. As you melt into his touch, he locks eyes with Eddie from across the room. He discreetly flips him the bird from behind your back before pulling you up from your seat and leading you out of the room. 

Eddie can’t take his eyes off of you as you walk out. He didn’t even know his jaw was clenched until Gareth elbows him and he feels the muscles release their tension. He hated everything about this. He resented Billy- jealousy coursing through his veins. He resented you for throwing away your friends for some guy. He also hates himself for not speaking up and just telling you how he felt. 

He knows Billy is telling you everything you want to hear. Like a snake that slithered its way into your head, filling it up with lies. He feels hopeless- not sure that you’d listen to him if he tried to talk to you anyways. He knows in his chest that Billy is keeping you from Hellfire. He just can’t figure out what Billy’s game is. He just knows he can’t bear watching this unfold. 

Your absence is looming in every aspect of his life these past few weeks. The empty seat at their lunch table was just the most apparent, just like the empty seat at Hellfire to his right. You haven’t called him or spoken to him even except to essentially break up with Hellfire. You haven’t spoken to Gareth- blowing him off when you had promised him a ride to The Hideout for a gig. You never came to Eddie's house after school- your sweatshirt still sits over his desk chair. Evidence that you were once a constant was all that lingered- your tapes in his stereo, your favorite snacks in Wayne’s pantry, your handwriting in the margins of his copy of The Hobbit… 

After school, your routine has changed. The days where you’d smoke with Eddie in his trailer and stare at the vent in the ceiling has been replaced to afternoons where you’re twisted up in Billy’s bedsheets, making out for hours. You could tell he was losing his patience with you, that he wanted things to progress further. You’d shy away, and he’d get angry; he wouldn’t say anything- just separate himself from you and grab his pack of cigarettes and you’d sit in silence completely guilt ridden while he smoked and stewed. He’d drive you home without ever talking about it. And he’d kiss you goodbye everytime like it never happened. It was so confusing. 

You’d resolved you needed to break this cycle. If you maybe you had felt differently on this particular Saturday night, you might have thought to break up with him. You might have realized how bad for you this was. However, despite his flaws- Billy was undeniably gorgeous. It made it increasingly difficult for you to decipher the red flags when his eyes are that just fucking blue. You were just a girl- with a very hot boyfriend who seemingly wanted you badly. Your resolve was crumbling with every passing day. 

But something was holding you back- you weren’t ready to fully give yourself to Billy. You couldn’t even think about it without using euphemisms in your mind, literally feeling too embarrassed by the thoughts you were having to ever properly express them. You also wanted your first time to be something more special than just Billy’s bedroom on a random night. You wanted something special, and figured when you were ready, you’d know. You’d feel it, and with Billy- it didn’t happen like you thought it would. 

But now, your head is resting on the back of Billy’s pillows and his body towers over yours as he slips his tongue in your mouth. You can practically feel him smirking against your lips as a soft moan escapes your lips. His hands rest on either side of your head, keeping him from putting his full weight on top of you. You like gently tugging on his curls and the way it makes him growl so lowly. You loved being the one to elicit those types of sounds from him. Billy took the lead everytime, but today you wanted to try something. 

“Billy,” you mumble against his lips, reluctantly pulling away from the kiss. Billy sighs, resting his face in the crook of your neck.

“Hmm?” His tone is irritated, but he continues nipping at your neck. You can tell he thinks you’re wanting to stop. 

“I wanna try something,” you whisper, and it makes him freeze. You feel a slight apprehension now that you’ve initiated- worried that you’re going to be bad at it. Suddenly, you’re a little more self-conscious about this idea of yours than you felt a few minutes ago. 

“Oh yeah?” he asks, smiling at you and he bites his lip. “What is it, princess?” He moves a strand of hair out of your eyes and he’s gazing down at you, eyes flickering between your eyes and your lips. His tongue darts out to wet his lips as he waits for you to tell him what you want. 

“I-um, I don’t really know…,” you stumble to find your words, the way he’s looking at you making your head dizzy. “It’s gonna sound so stupid…”

“Use your words, baby,” he coaxes, kissing your jaw again, making you shiver. “‘M not gonna judge, princess.” You release a shaky breath. 

“I wanna make you feel good,” you trail off, your eyes shutting tight, wincing at how awkward you sound. Billy kisses your lips, his hands finding your skin under your t-shirt. 

“Oh yeah?” He asks, against your lips, teasingly. “Wanna make you feel good too, princess.” 

“I just- never did it before.. I’m worried I’m gonna be really bad at it…” you try to explain. Billy’s hunched over your body, your shirt pushed up so he can kiss up the length of your torso. 

“Are you asking to suck my cock, baby?” He smiles, a mischievous look in his eyes as he gazes up at you. A shy, embarrassed smile spreads across your face and you shrug. 

“Yes, I guess so,” you reply, a little coy. 

“Fuck, princess,” he groans, connecting his lips to yours once more. He slips his hands into the back pockets of your jeans, squeezing your ass. While simultaneously, he moves to kneel on the beg, pulling you up to rest on his thighs as without breaking the kiss in one fluid motion. Your legs wrap around his torso. “Can’t just say things like that…,” he continues, his voice in a low whisper. His hands slide up your back, feeling the soft skin under your shirt. 

“Can you take this off for me, baby?” he asks, and you abide. He holds you steady as you pull the shirt over your head and toss it to the floor. You lean down and reconnect your lips to his. You rest your hands on his shoulders, bunching up his shirt in your fists- wanting to peel all the layers away. 

“Fuck,” he smirks. “Someone’s needy… aren’t you, Princess?” You can’t even find it in you to care that he’s teasing you, you just want to see more of him. He helps you pull the shirt away, revealing his perfectly toned chest.  

He lays back, pulling you down with him so now you’re on top. Straddling his waist and sitting up as you  unhook your bra, you look down at him. There’s a cheeky grin on his face as he literally rests his arms behind his head, and his eyes shamelessly look you up and down and you can feel the large bulge in his jeans pressing against you. The idea that he’d been the only one to see you like this had him painfully hard. 

“Shit, baby,” he draws out, eyes still grazing over your whole body as you let your bra fall onto the bed.  His knuckles trail up the curve of your side, and he bites his lip. “Look at you,” he marvels, “so fucking pretty.” You lean down to kiss his again, your tongue slipping into his mouth.  

Still with your lips on his, you wiggle out of your jeans- now wishing you wore something cuter than just your plain cotton panties. It’s not like you had anything much sexier anyways. But you realize that doesn’t matter much when Billy moans against your lips as his fingertips graze the little wet spot that’s formed on the fabric. 

“You wet for me, Princess?” He teases, his fingers now teasing the length of your slit from over your panties. “Are you wet thinking about this cock in your mouth?” His words make you whimper and then he grinds his hips up to yours- the sensation making you practically cry at how good it felt to relieve some of the friction. He grins, biting his lip- loving the way you’re reacting to him. “Gonna have to take these off,” Billy muses, glancing down at the jeans still on his body. He leans up, kissing your cheek, your jaw, your neck, your chest… while he unbuttoned his jeans to make it easier for you to tug them down. Your eyes widen when his cock hits against his stomach as he kicks his jeans and boxers off in one motion. 

You experimentally wrap your hand around his base, shyly looking for him to give some instruction. He smirks and then rests his larger hand over yours, guiding you through how to jerk him off. The feeling has him quickly falling back against the pillows, his eyes closed shut from the pleasure it’s bringing him. Seeing him react to your touch like this only encouraged you, wanting to see him fall apart. 

You don’t really know what you’re doing, but you decide it’s best to just follow your instincts- Billy would tell you if he didn’t like something, you’re sure. When his eyes meet yours again you wink, playfully and he thinks he might die. You watch him watch you from under your eyelashes as you finally dip your head down and press soft kisses to his aching tip. 

Billy hates when things are slow. He’d always been the type to want the instant gratification- for him, sex was just about the chase to feel good, never the act itself. He’d go hard and fast, wanting whoever he was with to just do the same. Fast and rough was safe- it’s was impersonal. It kept him guarded and in control. This? This was so different than any other time a girl had blown him and he worried he’s gonna blow his load early from how scaringly intimate it feels. 

A girl has never sensually made out with his cock, it’s always been fast and messy and loud. Going slow like you’re going- taking time to explore him and learning what feels good makes his heart swell. Your hesitant kitten licks and your tongue grazing along his slit like you want to taste absolutely everything he’s going to give you makes him want to spill his seed all over your pretty face right this second. His hands tightly grip at his sheets and your name falls from his lips like a prayer. 

“You’re so fucking good at this, baby,” he praises, his hand coming up to cup your face. Cupping your cheek, he gently leads you down so your lips fully wrap around his cock and fuck, it just feels too goddamn good. His hand moves to hold back your hair but he refrains from pushing you down, not wanting to scare you away. He didn’t think he could be this delicate and it’s scaring him as much. But god, you looked so fucking pretty with your lips around his cock. 

Hollowing your cheeks, you do your best to fit his whole length in your mouth until it hits the back of your throat. Moaning contently when you’re able to relax your mouth around his length, creating a steady rhythm as you bob up and down. This feels right, and it feels good looking up at Billy and watching him look at you like this. He bites his lip, and sweat forms on his brow. His chest rises and falls unsteadily as he tries to catch his breath. “Oh fuck…,” he drawls as he feels your tongue swirl around his length. 

Switching it up, you pull away and a long strand of your saliva connects your lips to his cock. He stares at it, mouth agape and he thinks it’s maybe the sexiest thing he’s ever seen as you begin to pump his cock in your hands again. When the line breaks, it lays on your chin and he swipes it away with his thumb for you with wide eyes. 

“God, baby- shit, I’m so fucking close..” 

He pulses in your hand and his entire body shakes as he finishes, making a mess on your hand and his torso. He swears you made him see fucking stars, and his entire body falls limp- sinking back into the mattress. He can’t catch his breath and his mind is spinning at just how good that felt. It rattles him to his core- like how everything else you do seems to affect him in ways he never thought possible. 

“Was- was that okay?” You ask, resting back on your heels. He opens his eyes to you hesitantly, and experimentally  sucking his cum off your fingers and he thinks he’s going to go into shock. He throws his head back again, not even able to bear looking at the sight of you right. He couldn’t, he was already too overwhelmed. 

“Uh, yeah,” he manages to croak out unsteadily. He can’t think straight. He reaches over for some tissues and begins to clean himself up. He doesn’t miss the way the wet spot on your panties has gotten larger and fuck if he doesn’t want to do something about it. It’s all already been too much. He can’t let himself fall down into whatever this is. “That was, uh, that was- um, that was really good…” 

You don’t interpret Billy’s reaction as a good thing. You try to hide it as your face falls, worried you did something wrong as he begins to pull away again- like every time you think you’re getting closer. Suddenly, you’re hyper aware of everything- the fact that you’re practically naked, the fact that you’re sweaty and feel gross, the fact there’s still an ache between your legs that now feels almost painful as you realize your actions probably won’t be reciprocated. He’s not able to offer the reassurance that you need and you don’t have the courage to ask for it. He kisses you, pulling up his boxers and his jeans as he gets up. He heads to the bathroom, leaving you alone with your anxiety and your spiraling thoughts.

PART THREE

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[juniperhillpatient]

Tales of Ba Sing Se Re-watch

Alright, I ain't even gonna lie to you guys this is yet another re-watch post made after a couple glasses of wine. I really don't have anything too deep to say about this episode though, it's just fun. This is also one of my most highly re-watched episodes so I don't even know why I re-watched it again for this re-watch. Just the completionist in me, I guess. But I literally do watch this episode all the fucking time lol it's a comfort episode for me & good background noise plus it's one of my sister's faves so she literally always has either this or 'The Beach' on.

(Yes I know my sister has good taste. Please comment about it so I can tell her. She is 12 & would be delighted & validated to know people on the internet think she has good taste.)

Already this post has gotten off track! I swear I used to be a party girl y'all I used to be able to drink anyone under the damn table at any time now literally only 2 glasses of red wine on a weeknight & I'm loopy lmao. Okay, what was I saying? What do I have to say about this episode? Look, basically, it's a slice of life & it's kinda like a fluffy fanfic to me. Like, it's not relevant to the plot but I love it so much. It's so important to me. Every show needs at least 5 episodes a season in this vein, I think that would fix modern TV I'm being completely serious.

Alright, so first of all the beginning is hilarious & precious. I just love all the kiddos getting ready in the mirror, & Toph being a hot mess who's ready to go & doesn't give a fuck about dirt.

Katara & Toph's segment is just so fucking cute.

I always completely forget until watching this episode how hard I used to ship Katara & Toph lol! Now I no longer ship them romantically but they have such an adorable friendship. I really love how Toph is hesitant at first but goes along with Katara's idea, & even sticks around after they touch her feet - the one thing she asked not to happen (don't blame you, baby girl, this is Nickolodean after all.) Toph freaking the attendant out with her silly mud mask face & making Katara laugh gets me grinning like a fool every time. I of course love Katara & Toph showing those mean girls what's what & sharing a soft moment. Best girls. I love them so much. Oh shit, the iconic behavior competition. They get +500 each for sending those mean girls down the river.

Alright & Iroh's adventure!!! Wow, I have like, nothing deep to say about it but I love it so much. I love Iroh helping people selflessly. The interaction with the would-be mugger is great. But the juxtaposition from Iroh singing to the crying kid on the street & singing as he plays tribute to Lu Ten.....I get emotional every time. Iroh's little tale says a lot about the way he interacts with the world around him & I love it <3 Also, +100 iconic behavior points for changing the mugger's life so easily.

Aang's adventure is funny but I have no deep analysis? Sorry guys I'm lacking in the deep analysis area right now. I mean, there's not much to say. It's entertaining. I'm a little confused about how there can be a zoo outside the walls of Ba Sing Se? Isn't it....kinda tricky to get in & out? I don't...ok.....anyway...

Sokka's adventure is hilarious. I love the slam poetry moment. But I don't have much to analyze there other than "haha funny."

Zuko!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know if you guys knew this about me, but I love Zuko. I know, I know, shocking. I love Zuko's little date with Jin. I saw the headcanon that Iroh purposefully made Zuko's hair into a 'do that would cause any girl with any sense to immediately ruffle it & that's just so cute, I totally read it that way from now on. "Zuko can't lie" as a character trait will forever be important to me. Zuko juggling even though he can't juggle will never not be funny & endearing. But I have to tell you guys, I was joking with some of you about how "Zuko has no game" before but like.....if u think about it Zuko did get a girl fully simping over him & trying desperately to get a lil kiss on the lips DESPITE his consistent fumbling so I MEAN. Say what you will but Jin was into him.

Also, I remember the first time I watched this episode I could not focus on anything else after Zuko lit the lanterns 'cause I was STRESSED. I was certain Zuko had given him & Iroh away.

Momo's segment just makes me sad 'cause it reminds me what episode is next & my heart is not ready.....

Anyway!!!! I love this cute little episode!!! That is all <3

[miyamiwu]

The Red-Eyed Murderer being from an Alternate Timeline + His Perverted “Crush” on Cheng Xiaoshi + Other Ramblings

This is gonna be a long stream of consciousness essay dump… but I really want to get this out of my mind, so you’re all just gonna have to suffer with my incoherent ramblings haha (Oh btw, this post is gonna have a lot of screenshots… like, a lot)

Okay, so I mainly watched the show with the Funimation subs because it flows more easily, but even though I chose it, I fucking hate how Funimation takes too much liberties with the translation.

Especially with this part in Episode 11:

I’m too lazy to get a screenshot for comparison, but in the Bilbili subs, the red-eyed guy said, “It really is you, the witness.”

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Edit (Jul. 17, 2023): Okay, now that I know a little Chinese, I’m not sure if the word “witness” was really mentioned. I’m able to catch the murderer saying _ _真的是你 (zhende shi ni, “really is you”), but I can’t catch what the two characters they said before zhende/really. I’m bad at recognizing Chinese characters through audio. Will have to check the Chinese subs to be sure

Edit (Mar. 28, 2025): Red-eyes said “原来真的是你.” Literally meaning, “It turns out to be really you.”

But even without the “witness” word, the rest of the post still holds.

The witness.

Why would he call Cheng Xiaoshi the witness? Witness of what?? And why would Funimation remove that!

Funimation removing that one small detail immediately makes the whole sentence confusing. To say “it really is you” the moment Xiaoshi appeared implied that Red Eyes had met Xiaoshi before when he was using his own appearance, and not in the body of someone else. The addition of “the witness” was a hint for us viewers, but Funimation took that away asdfghjkl

Anyways, fast forwards towards the end of episode 11, and we have this:

To the Red-Eyed person, Cheng Xiaoshi was someone he met maybe months ago. So that means he’s had enough time to brood over him and develop some kind of perverted attraction to him...

I seriously can’t be the only one who found these scenes disturbingly suggestive:

And then there’s this:

This guy is crazy. But at the same time I can’t help but think that he’s turned into a psycho because he feels alone and isolated for being an Agent. He probably doesn’t know that there are others out there like him, so when he meets Xiaoshi, someone who is so similar to him, he gets excited...

(I know it wasn’t revealed here to him yet that Shanshan was Xiaoshi, but I’m pretty sure he hoped she was.)

And yeah, this guy really wants a friend. And he’s dead-set on it being Xiaoshi... which then brings us back to this:

It really is Cheng Xiaoshi.

And he’s so damned happy about it.

However, to the Cheng Xiaoshi and Lu Guang that we’re following in the story, this Red-Eyed person is totally new. They know next to nothing about him and just think of him as a psychopathic murderer (which he definitely is btw. No sob story is gonna change that)

And just seeing the consequences of how they of different past timelines are now meeting on one present timeline really drives home the fact that Cheng Xiaoshi really messed up with that one text he sent as Emma. (I love you Xiaoshi, but sometimes you just really have to listen to Lu Guang 😭. If he says no, then please don’t do anything.)

Cheng Xiaoshi inadvertently letting Emma die was bad enough, and him going into the photo alone during the crime scene was even worse. But you know what definitely hit the nail on the head even more?

This:

Xiaoshi alerted Lu Min with his scream, driving things more out of control. I believe it was at this partiular point that the timeline started splitting. In the original past where Emma died, perhaps she had simply died from being choked in the car. But because of Xiaoshi, we get this:

And then the car crashed.... Lu Min was trapped inside, while Emma was able to get out and walk on the bridge. Lu Min ended paralyzed in the hospital at the time of Emma’s actual death, earning him a perfect alibi. And remember when his alibi was revealed in the show?

It was right after Cheng Xiaoshi got out of the picture

When I first saw the shock on Lu Guang’s face here and followed by that surveillance footage bit, aside from being confused and demanding answers, I didn’t think much of it. But after rewatching this scene again, I noticed how the show particularly emphasized Lu Guang’s shock and Emma being on the bridge by playing that creepy start of the ending song before fading everything into black.

Lu Guang can see the future of a photo within 12 hours after it was taken. I figured that what he originally saw was Emma dying for sure in the car. But now, the future has changed again, and Lu Guang knows that things are gonna go bad

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And I’m gonna end this here for now. I still have a lot to say, but it’s almost 1am here and I’m hungry asdfghjkl

Might post a part 2 to continue this

[koishua]

Hiii, here to tell you that I'm (surprisingly) still alive 🤭🤭 He's a handful when his mother enters the house, but as the majority of the time we're alone he has been actually behaving better than what I expected.

Finally I'm not staying for a month, I'll be going back this weekend, but I'm *thinking* 🤔 of coming here to study (there's better chances than at my country), the only thing taking me back is having to learn another language 😩😩 they all say I'll learn it quickly but I just don't like languages 🤧

It's actually really cold here but I don't go out more than to take my cousin to school so no problemos, thank you <3

As I've been really unoccupied these days I started a drama called Law School and I'm currently obsessed, but I'm planning on watching All of us are dead after 👀

Besides, apparently even if my other friends are studying they appear to be free everyday for an anime hangout 🤔 (but who am I to reject?🤷🏽‍♀️)

I end up sending such long asks bc I accumulate so much info 😔... But please do tell me, how are you baby? Elaborate as much as you want. Seen you've been feeling under the weather, hope you're feeling better, I gotta work those reconnections to my good vibes, seems they aren't reaching you 👀✨✨

Have a great day tomorrow (today?) bubs 💕 - 💐

well hello there miss 😭 i kinda wanna ask why you're up so late but then again that would be hypocritical of me so i'll stay quiet bahaha it's so nice to hear from you again and im so glad to see that you're still all intact 😩 i'd be going back home asap too lmao also ooh studying there? i have heard that it was quite nice there but yeah the language problems </3 what do you want to study anyways?

that area is freezing istg im just glad that where i stay, it doesn't go lower than -10° c or else i would literally die of hypothermia or something regardless of how many layers i have on 😶 they call me michelin man on the streets smh

OMG LAW SCHOOL AS IN THE ONE WITH THE GIRL FROM ITAEWON CLASS?? or did i mix things up? anyways!! all of us are dead is SO goddamn good oml korea really has apocalypse movies down like man train to busan, happiness, this. all of them are *chef's kiss* ugh

any animes y'all are watching other than the new aot season? im gonna start this new badminton anime and it literally looks so good and the animation is PERFECT 😭 i think i'll enjoy it a lot like haikyuu since i actually used to play for a team too so that's nice 😩

also no worries i love your asks!! i just like talking to you in general haha as for me... idk man things have been all over the place but we're getting there ig 😔🤚

my mental health has been jumping everywhere every two seconds lmao it didn't seem too bright for me last night and im just glad im still here and breathing tbh 💀 i DID transfer schools again though so ig leaving my old school has helped me regain some sort of stability? (we are just going to ignore the fact that most of my issues are probably BECAUSE i had to move schools every six to ten months the past ten years 💀)

good news tho omg i am getting better at italian 👏it's similar to spanish, yes, but the speed and the way things are pronounced while natives speak made it difficult for me at first but bless easy italian bc it literally is my saving grace 😭 ive been binging their videos the past week while under quarantine no thanks to my siblings bringin covid back home with them lmao

i had the biggest urge and inspiration to paint something yesterday, but i ran out of the necessary paints and it pained me greatly that i was stuck inside till next week 💔💔 BUT‼️‼️i ordered A Thousand Splendid Suns, champion (marie lu) and They Three Body Problem and im so so excited to read them oml i read cixin liu's The Wandering Earth over and over so many times and am now in the process of reading all of his other books starting with the three body problem haha

i really recommend him if you like reading sci-fi‼️‼️and that's it from me <3 take care and stay safe >:(

[kykyonthemoon]

Boys’ Night Out

@created-by-lexi’s request

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“Let’s play a game!” Finger cheered and woke the whole room up.

It was late night at Takamagahara, and the boys were all drunk; except for Caesar and Chisei Gen who kept saying the opposite. 

There was Johann, whose face was tomato red, staring at the club ceiling and mumbling how the universe was made. There was Chime Gen, whose face was calm and only showed a tint of red. No one would think he’s drunk; not until he started giggling at the wine glass in his hand.

Luminous completely fell down to the ground, with his head resting on the table. Finger, also drunk, started taking of his jacket and laughed like a maniac for nothing.

“I don’t wanna play games. I wanna sleep!” Luminous protested with his face buried in the table still.

“You might like this game, Lu.” Finger grinned. “It’s called Spin the Bottle!”

“What?!” Luminous shouted. He rose from the ground. “Do we have to... kiss?”

“What? No! If anyone here I’d kiss... that wouldn’t be you, Lu.” Finger coughed. “The game we’re going to play is a bit different... Instead of kissing, the person whom the bottle points to will have to answer a question.”

“Sounds good.” Caesar spoke. “A small game is good. To help us sober up.”

“Ha! So you’ve admitted you’re drunk!” Chisei exclaimed in victory.

“No. I have never said that... In fact... I think I can beat you in this game, Chisei.”

“Challenge accepted, my friend!”

“Guys!” Finger interrupted them. “It’s not about win or lose... In this game, we will exchange our... secrets.”

“Oh? What kind of secrets do you speak of?” Chime put down the glass, at last. His eyes sparked with interest.

“LOVE secrets of course! We will answer all the questions about looooove~”

“I don’t wanna play!” Luminous pouted.

“Oh c’mon! You guys are like, the best hosts in Tokyo right now! I might learn a few things from you, haha!”

“You’ve spoken the truth, Finger.” Caesar raised his glassed toward Finger and drank the dark liquid from it. “I’m the master of courting, as they say.”

So they gathered around the table, and the game began.

Finger was the first one to spin. The bottle finally stopped at Chime.

“I did not expect to be the first.” Chime smiled gently. “But please ask. Anything you want to know.”

Finger took a great amount of time to think, then he spoke, “I’m sure a famous person like you don’t have to confess your feelings, because girls would just scream they love you everywhere, right? But... if you really like a girl, how would you tell her?”

“Well... Words are not the only way to express your feelings. I would take care of her with all my heart, and hope that she would know how much I cherish her.”

“Wow!” Finger was in awe. “No wonder you’re the top host, Kazama!”

Chime smiled and bowed. He then took the bottle and spun it. The moment it stopped spinning and his twin brother - Chisei - was at the other end, he smirked. 

“I guess I really want to know this, Chisei. If your lover was from Devil Clan, would you... would you kill her in the name of justice?”

Silence fell on them. Everyone eyed Chime, then Chisei, nervously as if there was an invisible bomb between the two brothers. 

"Guys... We can change question—” Finger said, but Chisei stopped him. 

“No need to. My dear brother really wants to know this.” And he turned to Chime. “I’d convince her to leave the Devil Clan, and protect her from whoever tries to hurt her, even my own clan. It’s... what I would do for you too, brother. I wish I had, in the past...”

A complex expression was seen on Chime’s face. But he soon regained his smile. “Aren’t you killing the mood, brother? Just spin.”

Chisei smiled, mostly to himself, then take his turn. The bottle stopped at Luminous.

“I don’t know what to ask, really.” Chisei rested his back on the couch.

“Well then, if you’re not gonna ask—” Luminous reached his hand towards the bottle, but was hit by Finger.

“Hey, he must ask you first!”

Luminous glared at his roommate. Chisei finally came up with something. 

“Sakura, what was your first kiss like?”

“...”

The whole room cracked out in laughter from Finger and Caesar. Johann, on the other hand, tried his best to hold the laughter back, while Chisei and Chime seemed confused.

“He has never kissed a girl!” Finger laughed even louder.

“Hey!” Luminous was angry, “Stop it! You guys are just mean!”

“I’m sorry.” Caesar said. “But I’m afraid we won’t know the answer soon... Not until we all graduate at least!”

And they went on laughing at him again. 

“C’mon!” Luminous, having enough of this, pointed to Johann and said. “Senpai hasn’t kissed anyone either!”

Johann’s face became stiff. He rolled his eyes and went back to counting stars on the glass ceiling of the highest room in Takamagahara. 

“I find it hard to believe an excellent person like Ukyou has never had his first kiss.” Chisei stated. 

“He’s never had a real date, either!” Luminous said, “A.Real.Date!”

“Now I’m curious to know what Ukyou would plan for a perfect date.” Chime spoke.

Every eye was on him. Johann could not get away with this. He hesitated. He had never thought of what a real date would be like.

“I guess... I’d invite her out... to the aquarium or a movie theater...” His voice became really soft, like he didn’t want anyone to hear. “Then we’d ride the ferris wheel... Later in the evening, we can... have dinner together. That’s all I can think of.”

“That does sound like a perfect date.” Chime nodded. “You two would get to do lots of things together, have fun and a romantic dinner.”

Johann’s face turned red, even more than a moment before.

“Wow! I didn’t know senpai could be this romantic!” Luminous exclaimed.

“That makes you a loser, really, Lu!” Finger replied and received a nudge right in his stomach by Lunimous.

“You still have a lot to learn, Lu.” Caesar said.

“It’s so easy when you say it, Boss! You never get rejected! Never!”

“But what if you get rejected?” Finger asked, “I mean, what would you do if a girl you like doesn’t have the same feeling for you?”

Caesar seemed somewhat shocked and offended. “Let me make it clear, this is just a what if. That means, it never happens, never will.”

“Yeah, yeah. We get it. Just get to the point.” Finger urged.

“Love is like a battle, my friends. You need to know the girl like the palm of your hand. What she likes, what she hates,... What I’m trying to say is, I will learn everything about her first. Then, I would accidentally meet her in her favorite places. She would have to talk to me; I’d make sure of that. I would also happen to be good at all the things she’s interested in. Sports or music, for example. If she doesn’t have feeling for me yet, she will, as soon as she finds out how perfect of a man I am.”

Luminous and Finger was amazed by Caesar’s answer. Though the game purpose was to help them sober up, the boys ended up drinking again and sharing more secrets of how they wanted their love stories to be. 

However, there was one person who had not answered any question. But sharing his own secrets was not his intention from the beginning. Later that night, Finger left the room with a big grin on his face. With all that information gathered from the other boys, he would have enough gossips for the next semester at Cassell! 

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Masterlist: x

[winnipegpatty]

2020 Wrapped:

i feel like i just did this, bc everyone was all pissy, and i wanted to love everyone, but i’ll do it again bc i’m just like....i love love so? whatever. 

first and foremost: i have to acknowledge some of the people who no longer share fandoms with me but are still just some of my best friends even if we don’t talk every day all day. @steveswhitewolf @farfromstevie @justwanttobefound @dorotheuh Lu, Kali, Bee, and Tiana. I love you guys so much. You always have a special place in my heart no matter how close or far in fandoms we are or even in distance. Bee, I wish we could have had our yearly thanksgiving/christmas meeting but nevertheless i’m so glad i know you and im so glad i’ve had the chance to be in your presence as many times as i have. thank you for always welcoming me no matter how long it’s been since we’ve talked. <3 Kali, what the fuck when are we gonna see each other again :( when am i gonna move to philly? i have like, a thousand flyers hockey items now, so i’ll like fit right in. i love you, and i’m sorry i changed my url, but i kept the other one and now i have a whole entire sideblog dedicated to you, so i think that’s like cool (or incredibly lame, you can chose). Lu, thank you for being there for me through literally everything. Thank you for being that online friend that goes past fandom, and let’s me cry about real life shit and checks in on me when it’s been a while. ilysm <3 T, you are are such a lovely ray of sunshine in my life. I don’t even know what i did to deserve your devotion and love. i hate shawn so much, but like at the very least he brought me you so im okay with it <3 

now: god, okay this is gonna be a fucking novel i guess. i gotta acknowledge my hockey friends, and im genuinely sorry, i know i’m going to forget people (rayleene, i don’t even fucking know what your url is anymore so i won’t even try.)

there are so many, too many, good blogs here, so this is more related to people i love and now like, content stuff bc, like so many of yall have amazing content ( @pencilhoarders @art-and-the-hockeys @powerblais @heddy just off the top of my head) and i genuinely cannot remember everyone like, ever, so im sorry. 

@mathewtkachuk first and foremost the babe (read: bitch) that drug me into this hell. i mean, i suppose i asked for it but thats neither here nor there. isbah, i love you. thanks for being with me for the last like....six (seven? eight? wtf is time?) months. thanks for all the cute baby photos and videos. thanks for letting me rant about so much hockey shit that you’re probably so tired of me. thanks for helping me decide which merch to buy when im doing retail therapy lol. i just love you so much. please never leave me lol okay thanks, bye.

@captainkirbydach kels, even though you and isbah talk about me behind my back, i am happy we have started talking more lately! i enjoy your presence on my dash as well as the chats we have (Even if it started with like 99% Drama haha )

@jamesvanriemsdyk i love you i love you i love you. i love that you’re like so fucking exhausted with just Everything (TM) because you’ve been on hockeyblr for too long. and you always make me and isbah feel dumb af bc most things are new to us haha but i love it so much. 

@goalie-interference love you bub. thanks for being my ultimate encourager always <3 i literally probs wouldn’t be able to write without you lately!

@jonnysboy ciciiiiiiiiii! love you so much. our talks are *chefs kiss* your icons/wallpapers/headers are lovely. you are lovely. you’re so kind always, and i appreciate you. 

@ohnokonecny alexis you say you have like no friends here, but LIES because i am your friend haha. I love talking to you. I love chatting with you about writing and fics and whatnot. I enjoy our convos so much! 

okay, i know im 100% missing people but im sorry. im tired and also im taking a break from work to write this and i 100% need to go back to work so this is all for now <3 love you guys, thanks for making 2020 not so shitty

[irwinkitten]

Little first years Luke and y/n coming to hogwarts and being best friends when they were little. They want to be in the same house but then she’s Hufflepuff and he’s not (idk what house for him you pick haha) and she’s all worried they won’t stay friends. They do stay friends at first and then drift apart. They run into each other again finally and realize they’re still best friends and totally in love even though they’re separated by houses and have all different friends and such

this is from when i did the hogwarts blurb night with @cakesunflower but i found it in my drafts and got inspired for it.

it’s also 3k so have fun with that lmao 

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first year

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“Lu, I’m scared.” You whispered once your parents had put you on the express and said their goodbyes. So far, only the older students seemed to be milling around, a lot of them already in their uniforms. 

Grabbing your hand tightly, Luke pulled you further onto the train, searching out for an empty compartment, or one which wasn’t overtaken by older students. 

Luck was on his side when he happened upon an empty compartment, taking the shrunken luggage out of his pocket before putting it up on the rack, then tapping both trunks so they returned to their normal size. 

Once that was done, the two of you sat next to each other, his hand never leaving yours.

“You’re my best friend n’ that ain’t gonna change.” He whispered and you tried to let yourself believe him. 

A few of the older years checked in with you both, Luke’s older brothers teasing him when they stuck their heads in before seeing how distressed you were and sitting in the compartment, talking about the cool things you’d get to see whilst at Hogwarts. 

The two of you had grown up together, hearing about Hogwarts from his older brothers. And you were excited, but you were scared, especially of losing Luke. 

More of his brothers friends seemed to join the compartment and you noticed that they had a mixture of friends from other houses, which was a small relief for you. The older students answered your quiet questions with an amused smile but they were honest with each answer.

By the time you’d reached Hogwarts, the two of you were happily chatting with two other first years who couldn’t find a place to sit and soon the worries about Hogwarts were lost on you, especially when you sailed across the Black Lake, your own gasp echoed by the other first years.

Your name was called and with a whispered good luck and a quick squeeze of your hand from Luke, you went up and sat on the stool, the hat slipping over your eyes slightly.

‘Oh I know exactly where to put you, abundance in loyalty, you’ll do well in your house.’ 

“Hufflepuff!” The hat cried out and you felt the hat get taken off and you grinned to Luke before joining the cheering house of yellow and black, some of his brothers friends introducing themselves and promising they’ll look out for you as you sat with your year mates.

“Hemmings, Luke!” A few whispers ran up the tables about another Hemmings in Hogwarts as the hat went straight on and you held your breath for a second before the brim ripped open.

“Slytherin!” 

Your heart sank, but you clapped for him anyway, sharing excited grins as he went to sit with his brothers. 

The next morning, you went down to the Great Hall, grateful it was a Saturday so it meant no lessons, and found Luke sat on the end of his table. When he spotted you, he waved you over.

You sat next to him, the relief that he was still there flooding you.

“The common room is really nice, I don’t really care much for my dorm mates though.” You admitted quietly and he grinned.

“Ours is under the lake. At least you don’t have don’t have dorm mates sucking up to you. My brother got made head boy and everyone is trying to be nice to me to stay on his good side.” He rolled his eyes, making you giggle quietly.

As more students began to filter in for breakfast, the two of you received curious looks from other houses whilst the Slytherins were being downright hostile towards you.

“Hemmings, tell your pet badger to stay at their own table.” One of the older years called down and immediately you blushed. Luke, however, stood his ground.

“It’s breakfast. It’s not like we’re going to the common room.” He snarked back and a few people muttered before falling silent.

“Lu, I don’t want you to isolate yourself because of me.” You whispered and he shook his head.

“You’re my best friend and will be forever,” he promised, “they can get stuffed.”

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second year

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Part of you wondered if people would ever stop giving you filthy looks as you marched up to the Slytherin table, dripping wet and a snarl on your face.

You spotted the Hemmings that you wanted to talk to. 

The older ones laughed, but one of Luke’s brothers—Ben—gave you a concerned glance. You hadn’t noticed you had cuts littering your face. 

“Hey little badger, where’s Luke?” His question was casual, shutting up the Slytherin’s that laughed. The Hemmings brothers knew the reputation they had and used it wisely in the snake pit. 

“Your moron of a brother decided to learn agumenti but forgot that he has power behind his magic. He’s currently in the infirmary because the idiot got knocked out of the window and broke most of the bones on his right side.” 

“And you’re angry because?”

“He told me he didn’t want to see me.” You admitted much more quietly and Ben understood. 

“Go see your Head Girl little badger and get yourself cared for. I’ll go check in my little brother.” He got up and a few of his friends protested.

“You’re really going on the word of a blood traitor?” You felt your heart sink.

“They’re Luke’s best friend, even if he’s being an idiot right now. I’d trust them more than I’d trust your parents to tell me that the sky was fucking blue.” He snapped back, effectively ending the conversation. A few looked chagrined as he headed out of the hall and you went in search of the current Head Girl who was in your house.

“Get in a fight with the venomous tentacular again?” The tease made your anger recede as you found her and she healed the various cuts on your face before casting the drying charm.

“No, I just happen to be friends with a dumb boy who thinks he can master a powerful spell with no adult supervision.” You grouched and she laughed before ushering you into the badgers den.

“It’ll get easier. You might as well get changed and relax for the rest of the evening.” She advised and you complied, concerned about Luke.

He normally never turned you away, yet he didn’t want you in the hospital wing with him. 

As the year progressed, you found yourself welcomed less and less, most of your dorm mates jeering at the fact that Luke clearly didn’t want or need you. 

It hurt to be shut out so harshly and despite Ben being able to see what was happening, he was at a loss of what to do. 

His only offering was the fact that you should have the summer together with Luke at one point. 

But when you got off the train and watched as Luke didn’t even look your way as he rushed off to find his parents, you greeted yours sadly, a welcomed hug from your father being the only thing to stop the tears from falling in such a public place.

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third year

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The summer had been a disaster. You’d tried to send owls to Luke, but he refused to return them.

Despite making friends in both Ravenclaw and Gryffindor, most had other plans, holidays and obligations to attend. It was the first time summer had been so quiet for you. 

You didn’t protest the dancing lessons, nor the etiquette instructor your mother insisted on every year. 

That Luke wasn’t with you was neither here nor there. You knew that there would be betrothal contracts, and although you got final say on them—your father overruling your mother on this argument—you knew that eyes would be upon you and it was your duty to family to not cause a scene. 

Once more you found yourself on the Express, having said goodbye to your parents and kept yourself composed when you spotted Luke. He ignored you in favour of his friends and a small part of you reminded you of last year and the promise he’d made to you.

“Promises get broken dear, head up and move on.” Is what your mother had said. But that didn’t sit right with you. A promise made is to be a promise kept. And despite your father saying that it was the innocence of children that thought this, you shook your head stubbornly.

“You kept every promise to me growing up. If you couldn’t promise it, you never did.” 

He’d been surprised that you’d noticed that, but didn’t refute what you said. 

“Maybe Luke should take a leaf from my book then.” He’d calmly replied with. And despite that thought upsetting you that you knew he wouldn’t, you felt better than after your mothers attempts for comforts.

You found some friends and sat with them for the duration and tried your hardest to ignore when Luke finally knocked on the compartment door. 

“I need to talk to you.” Your anger reared its head and you couldn’t stop yourself.

“After nearly a year of you either barely speaking with me or outright ignoring me, I think the need to talk walked out of the door long ago. Get out Hemmings.” You snapped. 

He reeled back as if you’d slapped him before closing the door and carrying on. Your friends looked at you stunned but the subject moved on as fast as the train was moving.

Now that Ben had left the school and Luke being the remaining Hemmings, it wasn’t a shock to you that you were on the receiving ends of hexes from older Slytherins. 

You’d learned the shield charm in your previous years which deflected most of the hexes but some still struck and left you to retreat to the infirmary. 

Luke didn’t look at you for the entire year as your treatment from the Slytherin’s left you unwilling to be amongst the student population. 

By the end of the year, you’d sequestered yourself to the badgers den, only having to go a little ways to the Kitchens to get dinner from the elves. If anyone noticed or knew, they never said or brought it up. Even with Hogsmeade trips, you weren’t missed and that made your heart sink even further. 

When you got off the train that year, in your fathers embrace, he apparated almost instantly to let you cry on his shoulder and tell him about the year you had. 

You had to beg him not to storm over to the Hemmings’ residence, saying that it wasn’t worth it for you. 

Although he disagreed, he followed your advice. 

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fourth year

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This summer was certainly better than the last. Your friends had realised that they’d barely spent time with you and bombarded you with owls.

After short notes explaining what was happening, especially the treatment from your dorm mates, your friends were quite justly angry on your behalf. So for the entire summer, you were ferried between your various friends, enjoying the summer days and evenings.

You formed a tight friendship and with these friends, you all began to learn more curses and hexes to payback on those that had made your previous year miserable.

When you got back on the train once more, there was more laughter. 

You didn’t look at Luke once.

Your friends were vicious on your dorm mates, especially now that the majority of the Slytherins that had targeted you, had graduated. 

A few still tried, but realised that you fought back and had an array of vicious curses too. They soon left you alone.

It was as Christmas approached and you realised that this year would allow your year to finally attend the Yule Ball that was held each year. 

It made your heart sink as your friends paired off with other students and you accepted the fact that you would be attending alone.

Until you received a surprise note on  a Saturday, three weeks before the Ball. 

‘A flower for my apologies, and a token of our friendship. Promises broken aren’t fair to you, so with this token and my heartfelt apology, would you accompany to the Yule Ball?’ 

You had your suspicions, but the flowers made it clear.

Growing up you’d both been trained on the language of the flowers. The white tulip and lavender rose, twined together made your heart race.

He hadn’t spoken to you since second year and your heart still felt the implication of the flowers. Seeking forgiveness and either enchantment or love at first sight, you weren’t too sure. But you were hesitant, scared. 

So you sought him out.

You knew he was watching you as you left the great hall. You knew that he was going to be following soon after. So you waited until he could glimpse where you were going, to follow after.

Then you came to an unused classroom in the charms corridor. 

He stepped in moments later to be met with a wand pointed at him. He raised his hands, showing you that he was unarmed.

“After so long of not speaking, you do this and expect me to fall to my knees for you?” You both ignored the unintentional double meaning behind your words. Luke shook his head.

“I want this, us, to start again. I got lost in the politics of my house, and it was when both Jack and Ben sat me down and gave me a verbal beating did it dawn on me what I was doing.” 

“I cried for you, Hemmings. I cried because the one person I truly believed I could rely on broke his promise to me. do you know how often I got my friends to leave you alone when they got the Slytherins back for time times they hexed me into hiding?” Your words had a profound impact on him, anger showing on his normally stoic features.

“They did what?” His voice was dangerous now and you were reminded that his father was Head of the DMLE many years ago. 

“I thought you knew, that you would be laughing with them over the fact that I had hidden within the dens to escape being targeted.” You whispered sadly. The look of anger was replaced with sadness.

“We may have not been talking, but I would never do that to you. I hexed enough of my housemates enough times when they badmouthed you, I thought it was enough to give you a semblance of protection.” 

“That walked out of the door when Ben left.” Your tone had turned bitter and Luke felt his heart sink. Your own was trying to calm down.

“I’m so sorry.” He stepped forward, and hesitated. When you didn’t move, he closed the distance and his arms were around you.

You fought every urge to cry until the moment his arms were around you and then you couldn’t hold back a second longer. 

You weren’t too sure how much time had passed before you finally calmed down and he conjured a handkerchief carefully wiping it away before vanishing it. 

“Would you do me the honour of not only attending the ball with this stupid Slytherin, but maybe we can work together in the library?” His words brought a tearful smile to your lips.

“Yes to both, kind sir.” The look of hesitation had you giving him a curious one in return.

“Would the token of my affections allow me to kiss them?” And you giggled as you were hit with a memory from when you were both eight and he’d said the exact words to annoy the governess.

“Absolutely.” You murmured and his lips were on yours, soft and gentle. 

You melted into him before he pulled away, pressing a kiss to the top of your head.

“Lets get to the library. I think I owe an apology to your friends too. First, shall we find Professor McGonagall? I’m sure if we asked nicely, she could transfigure these into a brooch of some sort.” His words were met with an enthusiastic kiss.

“Where do this leave us though?” You asked quietly as you took his offered arm. The two of you had done this so many times before, but it felt different this time.

“Would you at least consider, allowing me to court you?” And you felt your heart nearly stop.

“Luke, don’t joke with me about something that serious.” He offered you a nervous smile.

“I’m truly not. I’ve had no interest in anyone apart from you, despite what people may say. I’m not like my brothers. I’ve only ever wanted you, and when you told me off at the start of second year, I realised how badly I messed up.” 

“Then why didn’t you try again?”

“Because you were angry.” And you couldn’t blame him. You knew that when you were angry, being reasoned with was out of the question.

“So you decided to wait?” 

“I figured if I kept myself quiet, didn’t try to push myself into your life when I wouldn’t be welcomed, but offer a proper apology for my behaviour this year, you would be more willing to listen.” Again you knew he was right.

“If I said I don’t need to think about it because I’ve loved you since we were children, what would you say?” And he smiled.

“That you are a credit to your house, and that I may not deserve you, but I won’t let you go. Not a second time.” 

“I don’t think any wards in the world would save you from my father if he discovered you hurt me a second time. It was only because I begged him to let it go that you didn’t receive a personal howler from him.” And Luke flushed, but you leaned up to kiss his cheek.

“He’s going to make this difficult isn’t he?” And you shook your head.

“Not if I tell him we intend to be betrothed before we start next year. I think he knew we would get to this point eventually and accepted it long ago. And he’ll leave well enough alone if he decides to say anything about it. If I get to marry the person I love, he’ll be happy enough for me.” 

The smile on Luke’s face lasted the rest of the day.