#It's a great podcast

[rosielav]

I keep trying to finish Wolf359. I'm still on episode 57. I tried to shut off my brain, ignore the dumb idiot voice telling me it's not gonna be worth it, it's gonna suck, I'll be sad, blah blah blah. And it didn't help. It just *feels* different at this point, like how things always feel when they're going to end soon.

This is a main reason I like consuming content that is currently in production and/or being released. I don't know exactly when it'll end. I don't know what bonus content will be available. I know nothing more than anyone else who is currently listening. That's not true with content that is complete. There will always be someone out there who listened when it came out, who got to experience the finale in real time, who got to donate to the patreon and get bonus content and exclusive things. There will always be people out there who got the experience I'm missing out on, that a lot of people will never get, because it's already over.

I definitely don't want to be cynical about it, and will continue to try to listen! I think my podcast experience has been almost exclusively ones that were still releasing content when I started listening. I started listening to TAZ: Balance before the Stolen Century arc came out. I got to experience all three parts of the finale, as they came out, the second they came out, listening in real time with other TAZ fans as the events unfolded. I got to cry at the same time hundreds or thousands of other people were crying, for the same reason. I got to find out the ending at the exact same time as other fans did.

So anyways. If anyone read through all that, and has a currently airing podcast they'd like to recommend, I'd love to hear some new ones. Honestly would love some comedy/dramedy, maybe even a period piece :D or, just tell me about your fave podcast! I love an info dump :)

[chaos-and-recover]

If you want to hear more from her about her life and career (it's genuinely FASCINATING) she appeared on an episode of the War On Cars podcast (recorded at a live event) in March.

HEY HEY LISTEN THE VOICE OF THE MTA TRANSIT SYSTEM, ALL THE ANNOUNCEMENTS ON THE NYC SUBWAY LINE??

SHE'S A TRANS WOMAN AND TRANSITIONED AT 66!!!!!! THE BACKGROUND HUM OF MY CHILDHOOD, AND SHE'S LIKE ME!!!! WHAT THE FUCK

[hell0jon]

“First one to leave has to read the next statement”

It’s been 48 hours

[mythalism]

solas: uwuuu you disrupted my ritual and trapped me!!! now im stuck here and it’s all your fault wahhh poor little old me stuck in the fade in a prison that i designed myself within my realm that i created where im supremely powerful and can “casually reshape reality” with a thought and i have an anchor that lets me open rifts physically in and out of here BUT NOW IM TRAPPED!!!!! 🥺🥺😣😣😰😰

meanwhile solas:

[lackadaisycats]

Lackadaisy ShopTalk is back tomorrow!

We'll be sitting down live with Lumi and the Great Big Galaxy creator, @starteas and crew to talk about their pilot, their crowdfund, and what it's like to be doing indie animation!

Join us Saturday, October 12th 4:30pm PT / 7:30pm ET

Here on YouTube!

[kryhara]

Please please put Arthur in a silly medieval outfit in a future episode 🙏 it’s probably not going to be anything cool like I want but still he deserves a cool new outfit after everything (his current one is not going to last with his injuries from the past couple episodes 💀)

(Also I referenced the outfit from Pinterest)

[thermodynamic-comedian]

malevolent is a horror podcast to YOU. and also to me. and also to arthur lester, though sometimes he forgets that it is. it's more like a tragedy to john doe. but it is ABSOLUTELY, without a doubt, a fucking comedy to kayne.

[burnillya]

haven't drawn john in so long here's a sketchy

[keepin-it-on-the-d-l]

What a silly family, I sure hope nothing bad happens to them!

[aivilo]

credit to peepaya (i think??) on pinterest for this banger ref

[physical-manifestation-of-spite]

I keep thinking about Arthur's regression at the end of Season 2 and then into Season 3. I keep thinking about how victims of trauma tend to get worse once they escape their traumatic situation. How their body and mind start to crack and shake under the weight of the horrors, now safe enough to escape the survivorship mindset but now forced to endure the fallout.

I keep thinking of how hard Faroe's death hit Arthur. How his guilt and grief were so intense that he wanted to kill himself, so low that he drank himself into a stupor for who knows how many years to just dull the pain. I keep imagining how hard it was to pull himself out of that, to work with Parker and find a new meaning in life, to walk away from his guilt of killing his daughter, and instead to help people.

(I keep thinking of how Arthur finds a vial of alcohol in the Dreamlands. How he sniffs it and recoils in disgust.)

I keep thinking of how long it took for Arthur to build himself back up from his lowest point, to tuck the guilt of Faroe in the deepest corner of his mind just so that he has enough room to breathe, to live, to be a better person. (And yet, Faroe is every facet of his life. It's his first memory in Season One, when he plays Faroe's Song, when he doesn't even remember his own name. It's the last name on his lips when he dies on that boat. It's his only memory when John is torn away from him.) I keep thinking about how Arthur is consciously repressing her every second of every day just so that he can keep going.

And then John pushes, and asks, and asks again. And finally, after almost dying twice with this entity, after surviving time and time again, he thinks he can trust him. He thinks he can share his deepest secret, to pull open the wound he keeps stitching over to protect himself. How he risks feeling the grief he's suppressed for years to trust someone. I keep thinking how John seizes it and, because he is ancient and young and inexperienced, childlike in his tantrums and his fears of responsibility and consequence, he uses it as a weapon the moment he's backed into a corner. I keep thinking of how not only the trust is torn away from Arthur, but how his wound is stretched and torn, and not only does his guilt and grief come back, but it's like a tidal wave that he cannot suppress this time. He's opened that wound and John has pried it wider, and now Arthur can't shut it. He survives in those pits, but she is all he thinks of. He escapes those pits, and ("Goodbye, Faroe.") she is all he thinks of. He slits his throat and she's all he thinks of.

He enters at icy cabin (a small gurgle, a bundle of blankets in his arm, a warm hum rumbling in his chest as he lulls his whole World to sleep) and he thinks of her to keep going.

And then Yellow enters, a blank slate, a John before he was John, and the pain is too fresh. This is the thing that tortured him. This is the thing that starved him. This is the thing who asked who his daughter was, and when he told him, the thing called him a killer. John and Yellow and the King are all the same in that moment, and Arthur's too fucked up and traumatized to separate them tangibly, as much as he insists that he can. His hatred grows and grows, all from himself, until it bleeds into Yellow, and he remakes this entity in his image, in his self-pitying hatred.

So when Yellow finally calls him a monster (and Arthur knows, he's called himself that the moment he saw the water spill from the bathtub onto the tile below), Arthur holds it close to his chest, and becomes it.

[lunali-moon]

day 23 in the server rack, they ain't found me yet, but when they do they gone be surprised👁

[mothidocandart]

i need every media I like to feel like a fever dream actually. If I don’t watch it/read it/listen to it and go “what the fuck was that” then it’s not my favorite media

[artshine-exe]

@malevolentbigbang has been finished a few weeks ago, but I didn't have Tumblr back then, so I'm also posting it here a little (very) late. If you'd seen my art anywhere else, but still haven't read Words_Go_Fast's wonderful roleswap fic, 'Pray you, love, remember', go check it out! Have a laugh, maybe cry a little - I've read it many times by now, and I'm still not immune to the descriptions of John's grief and Arthur's silly comments.

Working with Rain and @mivved (their animatic is otherworldly!) during this project was truly delightful. It was my first time participating in a Big Bang, but certainly not the last. (Once again) All the thanks to the organizers!

[sincerelymarner]

ellen said out of her kids, quinn and jack together are the most mischievous. and that when they were kids once they tried to break luke out of baby jail (his crib)

[gilf-ahab]