#It satisfied my brainrot so I am still happy

[thyandrawrites]

Guess who thought "I will just do a read through of my (short) meta wip and maybe fix that paragraph that got me stuck last time, that's all" right before bedtime and then entered a weird ngro-brainrot focus and typed the bulk of said meta until 3 am

Well... I have an almost complete rambley analysis now... Enjoy? I hope this is what you guys follow me for because it surely will happen again in the future. Very soon. That is a threat 😂

[erabu-san]

tighnari saying cyno and sethos are like brothers at the end of this quest... cyno really is collecting siblings like pokemon. good for him!!

Yeeeessss!!

In my HC, Cyno put a lot of attention in family.

Firstly because Cyrus was his only one family when he was a kid with amnesia, but also he grown up with Lisa as colleague under the same professor, but both of them consider Cyrus as a parental figure : without saying anything, a link it made of brother/sister. Cyno never knows his family by blood, and I think he was curious once. But he is satisfy with his current family ! And for him, family doesn't need to blood related. And if I remember well, Cyno said (during Windblum event, EVENT EXTREMELY IMPORTANT FOR ME 😭🫶) something like it is pretty current people in Akademiya becomes a family for study. It was his case ! Cyrus becomes his dad figure, Lisa, her senior, is like a big sister (I wouldn't never forget when she calls him little brother/baby brother) (AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISA !!! <3). And when in windblum Cyno came visited Lisa, during their conversation, Cyno is the one mentionning the family bond she has with Cyrus "you are also part of the family, Lisa. It is normal for a daughter to talk like his father" (*CRYING*)! It sounds a tiny detail but I feel like this is so important for him.

Then came Tighnari, aka the first friend he had ever ! (I am a bit lost in chronology tho. In Tighnari's backsto, we learn they met when Cyno was already the general mahamatra while Tighnari was a student new-ly popular. But in Cyno's quest, we learn that they were student when they met ?? So Cyno was student and General ? 🤔 welp, I am still unsure but now I include it in my HC/brainrot kskdkd). And also Collei ! Collei is a bit more complicated, in term that she wasn't comfortable around him for a long time being. But even when she wasn't comfortable around him at first, she still gave him a bookmark handmade during windblum and saying he is like a family for him (I AM ON THE FLOOR). Tighnari and Cyno both consider Collei like a little sister, and bahaha when they "fight" about "who is the older one" and tighnari don't want to admit this loser being the older oh gosh i love theeeeeeem (I will never recover from "oh yeah but you're younger in your head, Collei could be your big sis !" "I wouldn't never say I am the youngest !!! Except if it is for an opportunity for winning TCG by shocking my opponent.." cyno you are so real). But during this windblum event again, Cyno said something like "you know Collei, tighnari said we are not an akademiya family, and he doesn't want to work on a post together" and this is SUPER IMPORTANT because for Cyno, as you can see earlier, only had family by study (Cyrus, Lisa). He worked, studied and published with his father and Lisa. And also, he did homework with Tighnari that he considers like a brother in soul. But the fact he was "refused" to do work with Collei and him, kind of make him feel to tell Collei "yeah we r family but, tighnari... ):"

As Tighnari answered "You know, we can consider ourself as a normal family" AND THAT'S SOSO IMPORTANT. In my HC, Tighnari is the one in group having a "good family" (not in sumeru cast, I believe it is Nilou who has the healthiest family). He knows what a family is supposed to, he grew up with parents who teach him a lot of thing and he explored with them. Anyway Tighnari is a healthy kid, he knows that they don't need to work on a project together to be a family. Oh and that's also why I HC him Aromantic, AroAce persons value platonic and familyship a lot more than romantic, so he doesn't know mind that Collei and Cyno who are not blood related to him are like a true family for him !

(Before continue, I want to talk his bond with Collei ; I believe he can relates on how Collei suffered from the seal, because Cyno who might forget his past, he remembers the pain. That's how in Tighnari's voiceline, Cyno often check how Collei is going w/o her noticing. Even when Collei was aware of Cyno and under Tighnari care, he was ready to help her. And in the first story quest, Tighnari said that she still awares of him. I wonder how often they talk abt Collei !! I am sure Cyno shares to Tighnari how much he woud like to get along with her, and that's how Tighnari gives him opportunity like this one official art when in description Tighnari said "I asked Collei to bring Cyno")

And so, that's how in Cyno's quest we were able to see all his closest friends. Tighnari Collei Kaveh Alhaitham Candace Dehya Faruzan (and Traveler). Everyone was worried for him, was wishing to help him, and was here for him. And Cyno also noticed he is less alone (GOOD FOR HIM). And now, there is Sethos, a man coming from nowhere in this life, but an important man ; they didn't spend life together but they can feel a deep connection bcuz of both of their backstory. Sethos might be the closest to understand all his doubt a long time ago (and Cyno IS the closest person for Sethos to relate). And IN CYNO'S VOICELINE ABOUT SETHOS "Aren't we his best friends of whole Sumeru city ?! 😐" Cyno pulled the power of friendship and adopt him in his big family circle.

ANYWAY WOW IT IS ONLY 8AM AND I AM HERE ALREADY YAPPING ABOUT CYNO BAHAHAHA

But genshin impact is for me more family impact that anything 😭 🫶 (and that's also why I am stuck with sumeru while FONTAINE AND THE HOUSE OF HEARTH ARE JUST RIGHT HERE ?!?!) after all, we are playing a traveler who is searching their twin !

Thank you for reading my talk, anon

[regretfullyrave]

Having some major J and Tessa brainrot currently

I'll be honest ep 5 is incredible confusing to me, I mean it's N's memory, but also it's being actively influenced by Uzi (and prolly Cyn) and also we see things N wouldn't have known about? Yeah, mess

So this is all more just headcanon interpretation of the show

But I always saw this moment of J shutting the door behind her as alluding to her being the one who ends up killing Tessa, it feels incredibly satisfying narratively

But also ow, my heart, it's also something we only would know as the viewers

I don't think J herself knows this either tho, how much anyone including V remembers is hard to tell, but J seems to be completely oblivious

Which makes it even worse because she's the one who brings/comes with 'Tessa' to Copper-9 and is convinced it is her— which it kinda is (but THATS EVEN WORSE) and remind you 'Tessa' is just double dead now by N and J doesn't know that either

And I am incredibly enjoying the idea of J, a Worker who adores Tessa's company and attention to the point of feeling jealous of N, ending up killing her boss and friend when she gets possessed, getting that memory wiped, living in oblivion with leftover animosity towards N, to then get to reunite with 'Tessa' again, and finally get that happiness taken away by none other than N. Who does the right thing, we know that, but she thinks her human is still alive (and was just murdered)

Still completely oblivious to what she's done a what was done to poor Tessa

If the show doesn't have her find out and have a mental breakdown I AM DOING IT I SWEAR

[azsazz]

💐 Dad!Az anon!!

Putting your message here so i can add a read more, but like i said earlier i don't have any words 😭😭 this is def one of the best asks ive ever gotten before and i'm so so so glad you love dad az as much as I do!!

ugh, i love and miss the babies so so much. and i love you too because this message made me feel so many things that i'm still blushing from reading this!!

yes, the kiddies will someday be developed as my OC's...i have plans :)))) 💙💙

Hi Kiers! I have returned, alas, and I have come with me and my complete brainrot. (I am crazy) Without further ado, here is everything I have to say about Daddy!Az and the rest of the Legion. Some might be complete brain rot, while the others fall in the middle or are actually (somewhat) legible literary analyses! just so you know, this is really long. i tried adding a read more button but I don't know if that's available for asks? i distinctly remember it being available... but it is what it is😔

One More: 🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦 SOME MIGHT SAY FIRST IS THE WORST BUT THIS FIRST ONESHOT TO START US OFF?? NOT THE WORST. FAR FROM IT, ACTUALLY. I don’t know if people say it enough, but I adore how you write smut. I have one emotion: 🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦

Family Dynamic: First, I love how your first thought was to go “Oh hell yeah! Daddy!Az! I should make a story about the birthorder of the children!” GOLDEN. your brain has veins with gold flowing through them. COMPLETELY and utterly ASTONISHING how they just come one after the other it’s hilarious?? im reeling😭 AND IRS SO CUTE HOW YOU INCLUDE LIKE LITTLE EXCERPTS OF DOMESTIC LIFE ARE YOU KIDDING ME? THAT’S SO ADORABLE. what gets me most, however, is the last few paragraphs. It’s like, it completely encompasses the reader’s (our) content and it’s so accurate and beautifully worded I can’t help but commend you for it. Plus, Cassian’s immediate “Oh No” gets me everytime😭😭

Keep Me Satisfied: “Going to fuck so many into you, love. A whole litter, I promise.” GET. THE. FUCK. OUT. 🫦 i literally HAVE NO WORDS?? I have no words! I literally have NO words besides the sentence “i HAVE NO WORDS”?? GOT ME FUCKED UP, GOT ME FUCKED OUT, GOT ME FUCKED???? HELLO??? HAS ANYONE EVER TOLD YOU THE WAY YOU WRITE SPICE IS LIKE OTHERWORLDLY TYPE OF IMPRESSIVE?

Hush Little Baby: This is like throwing the first ever blanket I had as a baby straight at me. It’s so familiar, and warm, and It makes me nostalgic because I was once a baby too (weren’t we all?), and I had the same wide eyes Azriel observed in his own babe. This oneshot makes me so happy, & I can’t fully articulate it

Here’s To Tradition Kiers give us a goddamn break or a glass of water to wash down the sugar challenge FAILED MISERABLY i look at nyx, giddy, and wren and all i want to do is CRY and HOLD THEM. I CAN’T EVEN LIKE… I DON’t KNOW HOW TO….ARTICUATE…I WANT TO HOLD. they’re like so little:(((( and im :((( i :((

You Too: I love your writing so much. need I say more. if I do then uhh err rhow do I get my thoughts out what if I just sscream in text AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Can’t You See?: IM CRYINGGGG WREN:( he’s such a sweet, sweet boy and when i first started reading this series i was really excited to see how he’d grow up and it’s just. wow. seeing him so happy makes me so happy. your writing makes me so happy “The little boy even tries to show off his own shadows, “Just like my daddy’s!” He sees both Rhys and Cassian watching with their own fond smiles, silently agreeing with every loving word pouring from the little boy's mouth.” PAUSE. I NEED TO CRY

Concord: I really like how you emphasize the bat babies innocence here. Unlike their fathers, from what I remember because I find it truly hard to focus when i read and like to listen to audiobooks as an alternative, the bat babies have a more stable childhood. theyre surrounded by safe environments, and they see that their parents have these funky little markings on parts of their body and they want to have that too. they hear stories of promises and the like and they want that too. they want what the inner circle have and so they try to ensure they get it and it BACKFIRES ON THEM THEYRE SO:( I feel😞 and WRENNIE ASKING IF NYXIE AND GIDDY CAN STAY FOR SUPPER ?!!!!! I CRY.

come back: 😞😞😞i 😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞love😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞the😞😞😞😞😞😞familyness😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞icryicryicry😞😞😞😞😞😞

Burning Man: Hi! You wound me with your writing sometimes. The utter devastation I feel whenever you write angst is inexplicable! There is truly nothing like it! I did like the comfort right after though. Dad!Az you are my roman empire😞

Promise: GET THE FUCK OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT I AM GOING TO CRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY IM SORRU ITS JUST SOMETIMES WHENEVER YOU WRITE ABT THE BABIES THEY’RE LIKE SO WONDERFULLY PORTRAYED.. l CRY I CRY I CRY ITS TAKING EVERYTHING IN ME NOT TO HOLD BAZ RN

Summer Daze: I love how you give us a little peek into Mama’s relationship with the other women, Nes in particular!! i love Nes and i hold her close to my heart so this little peek made me really happy. Especially at how cute her relationship with Cas is, even if its just brushed over:((( its so cute!!!!!! And Azzy kissing Mama’s belly:( that’s so sweet and tender

Two is Better than one: I. LOVE SCENES LIKE THIS. Where a character is thanking and worshipping the person that’s giving them children, blessing them with new life—an extension of love and care; it’s just so intimate and i treasure it and you write it so well it near kills me to stop reading😭 I really really like that addition:(

Taciturn: Punchign wall.😭☹️☹️😭😞☹️😞☹️☹️😭☹️😞☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞 baz they will never make me hate u “How come knoxie doesnt cry like Malos does” HELPPPPPP☹️☹️☹️☹️ “Its okay mommy, i’ll talk for him!�� can we get more baz n knox pls. pls. thats truly so sweet.

In the House love built: the way you write smut is so intimate sometimes, and it’s so loving and you encapsulate the bond between mates so well. you’re truly worthy of all the attention you’ve received on this platform

The Calm Beneath The Storm: ☹️ pleaaaase i love how the childrens bonds are so evident and well written too and i just.i just cant properly sayhow much comfort i find in series like this and i cant properly say how much comfort i find in writing like yours ure so good kiers omf

Cuddle Me In: Jax is like living tylenol in a baby im not joking . he fixes ALL my headaches. hes so adorbsicles no one speak to me at all i cry i cry i cry☹️😞☹️😞☹️ punchign. wall

The Rowdy Bunch: Azriel really knows how to man up huh god he’s so fine in rhis one miss kiers u made him sso fine

The HoneyCrisp Grove: 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 ARE YOU KIDDING ME THATS SO ADORABLE

Winter Wind: I just think it’s REALLY funny that you deliver honeycrisp grove and suddenly i get hit in the face with 💥BOOM ZUZU CRYING SO HARD HER VOICE IS HOARSE 💥BOOM MAMA GETTING STABBED BY A DISTANT RELATIVE 💥BOOM “help me” WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME. do u drink your readers TEARS for breakfast (this is my way of saying this story is well written and perfect)

Sticking Together: UGHH THIS IS SO:((( I WOULD LOVE FOR AN EXTENSION ON THIS!! like just seeing the #boys and their journey throughout windhaven would be so sad but also such an exciting read?? I hope we get to see how their bond grew because of it, or how it was maintained:(( i really like this story!!

Snatched: Complete rollercoaster of emotions btw. A bunch of ups and downs and round and rounds and i came out dizzy and dazed and possibly bleeding internally. W Eris I love him in this you portray him so well🙏🙏 And also once again. BAZ AND KNOX. GOD. MAKES ME SICK TO MY STOMACH WITH WARMTH.

No tricks, Just Treats: little knox is so precious to me. like he’s just so sweet. and also i remember you mentioning in the batbabies doc that wren, gideon, and nyx had the same dynamic as rhys, cas, and az so thejr costumes are a pretty good touch:D this is the perfect amount of fluff

In Ribbons:

“Baby, baby,” he begs, raising up as far as he can, voice lined with desperation and hazel eyes wide, “I didn’t mean to–” 🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦🫦 HELLO

Unwrapped: “Zuzu and Jax must be on waking you and your mate duty as they’re already climbing up into your bed. Your oldest daughter, ever the determined one, uses all of her strength to pull herself up onto the plush bed, only slipping once.” ZUZU GET BEHIND ME ILL PROTECT YOU 🤺🤺🤺🤺 HUZZAH shes so cute . i love zuzu so much, shes such a sweetie:(( your stories are like huge rollercoasters tbh one moment az is wrapped in ribbons and then the next the kids are fighting over presents and im here for it!! AND ALSO JAX AND AMREN & jax and rhys mention wow. god i love them i love how you put in effort to establish dynamics not only between the family but between the extended family too!?!

Into The New: I LOVE ZUZ SOOSOSOSMUCH:( she triggers fond memories of my own childhood. The way more of her dynamic with the orher members of the inner circle is expanded on in this story is so so sweet. I LOVE scenes where young characters see love blossom between people and KNOW that its love and WANT it but also at the same time i recall seeing an ask where you mentioned if Zuzu ever had a mate she’d think of herself as unworthy which … which is making me connect dots🙏 im trying to connect dots here cuz I SEE THE VISION but im trying to see the TRUE EXTENT OF THE VISION

Here for You: the Zuzu Rules Shirts?? I love Uncle Rhys😭 he’s so real for that tho. toss me one and watch me wear it with pride ??? i love the little things you add into your stories thatninclude the dynamic between characters:(( and also Zuz here being so happy and fulfilled makes ME happy and fulfilled. shes MY BABY.

Between Me & You: “This one’s for all the Jax girlies” ME🙌 JAX IS MY BOY🙏🙏 but also Baz calling Jax “J” is so corny and brother-core!!! (i dunno how else to describe it but i love it) also Bryaxis and Jax⁉️ FRIENDSHIP⁉️🙏 IM ALL FOR IT and i love how we see remnants of Jax’s journey into being able to control his power:((( i hope we get to see more of him (and Knox and baz . i love knox and baz)sometime!

The SafeGuard: IM TELLING YOU IM CONNECTING THE DOTS⁉️🙏 read:. im tripping over protective father azriel and giggling like a complete fool

Warrior Status: I. LOVE. WHEN. YOU. WRITE. SCENES. LIKE. THIS. ITS SO… IRHFJDJD LIKE WHEN YOU GO MORE IN DEPTH INTO THE LORE AND HOW NEW GEN IS HANDLING THE BLOOD RITE AND HOW THEIR PARENTS TRAIN THEM FOR IT IS MAKING ME HRISIDOOD ITS MAKING ME SO HAPPY but also wow. wow um the tension here is real. i always expect a rollercoaster of emotions whenever i read your writing and yet im blown away every time. i love baz, he seems to be capable of more than even he knows, and i hineslty hope theres more content so we cannall see how he’s faring:)

About Last Night:

“If we get caught,” Gideon defends, before adding as an afterthought, eyebrows furrowed, “And she’s not my girlfriend.” LOUDDDD INCORRECT BUZZER❌❌❌❌❌ W W W WRONGGGGG WRONG. EVERYONE KNOWS‼️ i love how giddy is the one who suggests going to autumn primarily to see his girl. it’s very cassian core to me as much as cassian himself disapproves😭 and KNOX’S LITTLE ‘im sorry’ PLEAAASEE THATS SO FUNNY

Torrential: This was actually the first story I read about the batbabies:) I was like, “oh my gosh who is Knox? I didn’t know there was a book out for next gen………… “ i was like genuinely so confuzzled. and this was like a few weeks ago. i didnt even know rhat Knox was an oc but I had, and still have a raging crush on him😞 I truly hope that you take the next gen and turn them into full fledged original characters of yours, i’d love to see them developed to their full extent especially with the teaser i get in this fic. like hello? Knox? River Keeper?? Okay I see you!! THE WAY YOU PORTRAY KNOX HERE UGHHHHHHHHHH HE’S SO LIKE UGHHHHHHHHHH UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH😡😡😡 (positive)

“His lips pull high into a wicked smile. One side curls higher than the other and it’s the first imperfect thing you’ve noticed about him, yet it still makes your breath hitch.” woo that got me. that got me good. you’re excellent

Our Souls Are Stars & Mine Is Forever Yours: kiers your BEAUTIFUL BRAIN is BRAINING again. this is my favorite scoop of content for the batbabies. Maude & Giddy are truly so adorable, and you really did a good job at sparking chemistry between them both. Maude trying to calm Gideon down, Gideon leading Maude to the famous balcony I CRY. I WEEP. HEAD IN HANDS. I WAILLLL I WAIL IN JOY IM SO? YOURE SO GOOD AT WRITING KIERS HOLY FUCK?!?! YOU NEVER FAIL TO IMPRESS ME

to my heart: ouuuuu… okay i see you kiers….i love this oneshot, it’s like really sweet but in a quiet subtle way and i love it when oneshots are like that. Knox’s banter with Malos, knox waiting for a reply… Kiers genuinely bless your heart

Undercover: Jax, Knox, Baz. you will always be the number one’s of my heart. NOW THAT THAT IS DISCLOSED CAN I PLEASE SAY I LOVE HOW YOU WRITE CHARACTERS PINING. LIKE JAX THIS WHOLE ONESHOT IS JUST “grrrrrrrrrrrrr dont you notice me?? 😡😡” and “wait nevermind its not time yet☹️😞☹️” at the last second and hes just so cute in this oneshot but i feel so bad for him (can we get the batbabies dapping eachother up to commemorate the jax and knox interaction in this fic yall!?!)

Jax uses his powers at a party: Heehehehhehehehehehehhehehehe wowwwwwwwwwwww hes like protecting her from afar heheheheh i giggled

Jax finds out Knox’s mating bond has been found out: I LOVE THE CALL BACK TO THIS IN UNDERCOVER. I want to see how the whole family reacts to Knox’s mating bond in the future, hopefully!! It’d definitely be very chaotic, especially if it’s the whole family!!

Bryaxis calls Jax a friend: “There's this boy at my school. His name is Montauk. He always gives me trouble, pushing and shoving me, calling me names…" Jax trails off, his tiny hands clenching into fists, "But I've felt his true emotions, and he's just a sad, scared little boy too."” :((( the “too” at the end im inconsolable. I want to hold each and every one of your next gen characters. pls.

Uncle Cassian’s reaction to finding out Jax wants to be friends with Bryaxis: Cassian is my spirit animal. and i LOVE the way you portray him 😭 he’s so funny i feel like he’d bark if I told him he was my spirit animal

What if Zuzu had gotten her wings clipped at the Steppes? I CRY I CRY I CRY I CRY. UGHHH how you detail Azriel’s devastation and at the same time Zuzu’s acceptance TEARS THROUGH ME. Zuzu is such a strong character and theres nothing to thank for that other than your immaculate writing skills

Zuzu Gets a Cat but it loves Azriel the Most + Wren, Baz, and Zuzu work together to try and convince their parents to get a second cat: I wholeheartedly believe wren, baz, and zuzu were probably nicknamed the triple trouble primarlt because of their tendency to pull shit like this and i LOVE it its so funny. I love your writing sm

I don’t know if you can tell, but I have an actually very secure AND VERY!! NORMAL attachment to this series. And I don’t have anyone to thank but you for writing it and writing it so beautifully; you truly have a gift and I know that it will get you a bunch of amazing opportunities in the future, or even now. I can feel how much work and effort goes into your writing, and the fact that you share it is an honor in itself and I’m so glad to have stumbled across your blog. You are an amazing writer. I look forward to reading more of your writing, not just for Daddy!Az—although I’d love for more of him—but even without him, I’d still love every piece of yours. I honestly hope the next gen characters become characters you take under your wing and develop, I would love to see more of them and they’re such interesting characters already. They’re so cool. You’re really cool too, Kiers!! I hope you don’t mind it took so long to get back to you, I was balancing cleaning my apartment and binging your writing:D I don’t regret anything. Reading your writing feels like a reward after every hard day. I hope to see more of you on my dash, Kiers!!! Keep writing, with your skills and your beautiful mind—it’ll no doubt help you in the long run. You’re really cool:)

xoxo,

-💐 (the one from about a week ago)

[delvalentine]

Big fat typical AO3-style life update:

I am no longer engaged... I am married ! We had an intimate elopement in the mountains in late March 2024. My husband and I live busy days in our house/condo and the flex of being a homeowner at 23 in the Canadian housing market is the only thing keeping me going when rotten lettuce is $4.99 at the store. Fret not as even though I am a wife to a living man I'm still going to write my smut and love stories about pixelated anime boys LOL

We travelled Japan, Thailand, & Taiwan together and will be re-visiting Japan & Thailand as well as S. Korea (for the first time) later this year - recommendations highly welcomed~

I'm finally taking the risk and dropping my pointage as a full time OR RN to part time so I can travel, get back into fitness/taking care of myself instead of others, have hobbies and freedoms... yenno the things that make life worth living instead of living to work ? I'm afraid of the income drop but luckily my husband can take care of us which will allow me to finally take care of me for the first time in my life :,) props to everybody in medicine/healthcare that can handle being full time but it wasn't me & that's ok.

I've been reconnecting with old friends (both online and irls) and it's been so, so nice. I mentioned it in old updates but going from lots of socialization and feeling popular as a teen to barely having anybody in my circle and struggling to meet new people now - I think this sense of confused loneliness is just a hallmark of your twenties; the uncomfortable yet necessary pain that drives you to growth. I used to know exactly which niches I was meant to fill as a teen. I have no idea who I am now that I've achieved everything the teenage version of me wanted to achieve... I'm not even sure who I want to become anymore...

... & that's ok! Life is meant to be discovered and lived, not scripted.

As always I wish everybody happiness & health, and that my inbox is open for anything from anybody ! It's lonely out here when your colleagues aren't chronically online so brainrotting on Tumblr w/ the weeb community is so much more satisfying TT

[taesancult]

love that riwoo thoughts!!!!! what about a anniversary celebration​ with a very pasionate sex with him? love ur blog!!

i am in the worst riwoo brainrot of my life rn so thank you for requesting him anonie! and thank you for the support! i hope the hc format i used was okay and if you want more i can always share more bc i can’t shut up abt him <3 enjoy <3

warnings: fem!reader, licking, pinch of dirty talk, praise kink, overstimulation (male receiving), mentions of being used (but like in a hot way, male receiving), passionate seggs, mentions of getting fucked out, and that should be all.

SMUT UNDER CUT! MDNI!

an anniversary celebration with riwoo would include…

him being even more passionate than usual, but he would also be more daring than usual. hitting a relationship milestone is something really exciting, so his heart would be overflowing with love for you, so much so to the point where he could barely keep it together. he felt a lot of emotions that night as he was just so overwhelmingly happy to be yours, and for you to be his. so, throughout the night, his touches would get more and more daring. it would start with gentle pecks of his lips on your body here and there, but by the end of the night he would be full on making out with the skin on your neck. you two would be just about to enter into the apartment, with him practically clinging onto your back like he was literally trying to get into your skin. he’d kiss along your neck, but more intensely compared to the sweet kisses he gave you throughout the night, and all of a sudden he would lick up from the base of your neck to underneath your ear. “riwoo what are you-” you tried questioning him, but were cut off by pure shock when his hands that were originally on your waist quickly slid up to cup at your chest. he gave you a squeeze, taking a deep breath in before muttering out a “you’re so beautiful,” and nuzzling his face into your neck.

in moments like these, he’s a lot more reactive too, which in turn makes him a bit more shy. he starts off bold, but if you’re lewd with him, he’ll become so shy. his reactivity isn’t like he’s necessarily out here moaning with his whole soul, but he’s just a lot whinier. your hands would be on his cock, both of you lost in each other already. he would be sitting up against the bed, with you laying on your side next to him. you observed his facial expressions as you stroked him, watching the way he melted from your touch. “sanghyeok, you’re so pretty- you look so pretty when i play with your cock.” “ah~” he would smile, let out a light laugh, and his upper body would fall back into the soft pillows beneath him. he would hide his face with his hands for sure, not wanting you to see the blush on his face at your lewd words. he is so so cute in moments like these, but quite shy that it makes him more endearing. he definitely radiates praise kink receiving energy, even if he isn’t the best at receiving compliments, he still loves them. compliment him and he’ll become a blushy mess, especially in heightened emotional moments like these.

cannot stress how much of a giver he is. he’s a pleaser for SURE. if you’re someone that wants to get railed until dawn then he’ll provide even if he is getting a bit tired. he’ll have you sit on his face, ride his thigh, finger you, anything if that’s what you want. he likes to be used, but in a romantic way. he wants you to use him for your own pleasure because he loves you so deeply and trusts you. so, he takes pride in being able to make you feel so good. on a special occasion, he will literally overstimulate himself to make sure that you’re satisfied even though you’ve already finished multiple times that night.

he always takes care of you, always. however, anniversaries are special, so he puts even more work into caring for you. he’s the type that would spend all night pleasing you, even if he’s overstimulated because he wants to ensure you’re satisfied. by the end of the night, you’re exhausted and so fucked out, it actually makes him laugh because of how cute it is. “you feeling okay, pretty girl?” he’d say in a gentle voice, but also sounding tired himself. truth be told, you were feeling amazing, incredible in fact. your head was dizzy and all you could think about was him. your heart was pounding in your chest, beating for him. so, when you respond with a soft “mhmm s-so good.” he would start laughing, not at you of course, but because you were so cute that he just felt his love for you grow even more (if at all possible). you two would then spend the rest of what was left of the night cuddled in each other’s arms, both your hearts beating in sync for each other.

[miraakulous-cloud-district]

Tag game that took me way too long to do

Hi, hello, I'm still here. Life and side-tracking happened a lot and, lately, my only online presence was some reblogs. Nonetheless!! It made me really happy to see that I've been tagged in this wonderful tag game by @inkoherentwriting and @dirty-bosmer and @blossom-adventures Thank you so much and sorry it took me this long to actually do it!

How many works do you have on AO3? Just 6 so far!

2. What’s your total AO3 word count? 100,271 (oh!! I didn't realize I hit the 100k word count before doing this!)

3. What fandoms do you write for? The Elder Scrolls and Dragon Age so far, but I would love to expand that list, and I have my eye on a few fandoms (looking directly at One Piece)

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? I only have six fics, and I don't really like looking at the statistics because it makes me terribly sad and unmotivated.

5. Do you respond to comments? Yes!!! Comments are everything to me. It may take some time to respond, but just know that I read the comments as soon as I get the email notification and I reread whenever I feel self conscious about my fics (which is *very* often lmao)

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? My longfics are not finished yet, but if you read chapter 15 of WYGTYA, then you'll know which one will have the angstiest ending Spoilers: it's Hymn of the Highs Seas, it's prequel. Author's note: WHAT HAVE I GOTTEN MYSELF INTO, I AM SO EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED TO THE PIRATES. But I *will* find a way to make it as satisfying an ending as possible, and it will most definitely have a fluffy/bittersweet epilogue. HOTHS will not be sad, I promise!

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? After all the shit I'll put Ravonna through, she deserves it the most, so WYGTYA, probably! Also, my Ralof/Hadvar fic has a really happy ending, if ya know what I mean :)))))

8. Do you get hate on fics? Not yet. I have this wonderful small community of dear readers and they're the most awesome people in the world <3

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Smut is not really my thing, so no. The most I'll do is imply.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? I haven't, but I'll never say never!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not that I know of, and I doubt anyone would want to steal my writing out of anyone's

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? No

13. Have you ever co-written a fic? No, but I think it would be a very nice experience! I've spoken to a few beloved mutuals about crossovers in which Ravonna meets their ldbs, and I have an idea in mind where I could write a few chapters, each of them exploring Ravonna accidentally teleporting into their ldb's world, but it's still just an idea at the moment :)

14. What’s your all-time favourite ship? That I've written? I don't know if I can choose because I love them all, but Rumcurio and Ralof/Hadvar are incredibly underrated ships in the TES fandom and I wish they had more content! Fave ship of all time? Well, right now I am watching Jujutsu Kaisen and I am, of course, having satosugu brainrot. They could have had everything :(((( So beautifully tragic, this one. The fix-it fanfics are amazing, too! But if I had to pick just one ship to be my favourite, I think I'll go with the ineffable husbands because 6000 years of pining is just exquisite <3 <3

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? A very sad and romantic reincarnation AU of WYGTYA where we get to see many versions of Ravonna through the ages! I say romantic, but knowing myself, it won't be super sappy. It's Ravonna that we're talking about here :))

16. What are your writing strengths? I would say that dialogue, and banter in particular. That's what flows the easiest to me, and I think that is how I'm able to express a character's traits and personality the best

17. What are your writing weaknesses? I believe there's room for improvement in all areas, but what I struggle with the most is angst, probably. I need to practice focusing on describing the character's feelings more. Also, politics. Crucial to the plot, but my mind never cooperates when I want to write politics.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue on another language in a fic? If it's a few words, it's fine, I think it adds flavour to the chapter, but translations should be provided. However, I would avoid writing entire paragraphs in another language, that's just confusing to readers.

19. First fandom you wrote for? Skyrim! I wrote for the Tes Summer Fest event in 2022!

20. Favourite fic you’ve written? I love them all very dearly, but hear me out!!! WYGTYA is my first baby, my longest fic and the thing that led me to start such beautiful friendships online. It will always have a special place in my heart! In my soul, there's a jewellery box dedicated to just WYGTYA, and it's all heart shaped and made out of love. Ravonna is by far my most developed oc, so much so that she feels like a real person sometimes when I think of her. She's even become a source of inspiration for me at times and her story with her fellowship will never fail to put a smile on my face. She's also such a big impact on my writing that I think she will become a blueprint for future stories that I write. Every story will have a Ravonna-type character, for sure. That's how much love I have for her! But I started writing WYGTYA as a beginner, and I sense that I will go back to some of the earlier chapters and re-edit some stuff. Right now, the fic that I'm most satisfied of is HOTHS. It's still at 2 chapters (soon to be three), but I'm so excited about this project, and the characters are all ocs, and my heart is so full of love for them that it overflows! It's also a pirate story, and I always have such a weak spot for pirates. It also follows the storyline and plot twist that I'm most proud of in WYGTYA, all about Ravonna's lineage. Damn, I guess I have Ravonna to thank for this, too. I'm just really happy with this twist and canon divergence in Deathbrand's character. I feel like he has so much potential in the TES Universe, and I'm about to explore all that and more in this fic!

Oh wow, that last bit got so very rambly, I'm so sorry! I don't know who has done this or not, but I'll tag @bougainvillea-and-saltwater @kiir-do-faal-rahhe @bostoniangirl21 @sheirukitriesfandom @illumiera

[bonesandthebees]

help, I am starting to lose myself in my glass ch28 brainrot note and I really want to finally put it together so I can shift into rose mode so im just gonna start putting my finished subsequents here

that being said dont expect any logical order whatsoever

1. wilbur vs the pythia + 2. others learning wilburs name

1. there was not a single slip into the pythia this is huge, didnt even get close to it and hes been so much more comfortable in his "wilbur", the progress just from before the palace is huge, like he told phil, it really did help him a lot to be able to move and and kill the pythia, leave it behind for good

and not just that, even his relationship with the title got better as a consequence of all this so when being called that while it did feel wrong it doesnt make him flinch, doesnt make him spiral or anything

its so satisfying to see it finally come to this, this is what the story has been going towards this whole time basically, or at least its the representation of wilbur finding himself which is the point of this story

2. I wonder if tommy felt a bit sad about wilbur telling his name to other people. bc it is losing a part of wilbur he only had for himself. and im sure that being happy for wilbur overweights it, but did he feel a sting of jealousy when he heard niki or tubbo use the name? I like to think he did, crimeboys unhealthy possesivity/dependence bond and all that. I like to think hes not perfect, even in his feelings about wilbur. feels fitting. and it shows that thoughts dont actually matter that much its how you act upon them/bc of them. nobody ever only thinks the right thing.

finally going to start working through your glass asks but don't expect any consistency with me answering these lol, I love hearing your thoughts though I promise!!

oh yeah I always knew from the start that I wanted the final chapter to be entirely 'wilbur' without slipping into 'the pythia' once. the pythia was left behind when the palace burned. wilbur is the one who survived. and now that he's finally accepted that he is a person, it's easier when he does get called the pythia because he knows that's not what he is anymore.

tommy was definitely a little bitter hearing others use wilbur's name. he's extremely possessive of wilbur's trust and liked being the only person who knew all these things about wilbur for the longest time. tommy's love for wilbur was never a proper healthy thing, and the dependency the two still have on each other is bound to cause problems in the future, but it works for them and tommy is able to put his jealousy aside for the time being because another part of him is still happy that wilbur has finally accepted his name and identity as his own

[no-psi-nan]

@jkgnggj I definitely ship it!! I am ringing a cowbell in the town square constantly extolling the virtues of Aikechi while the masses pointedly look the other way lmao.

I think what first got me thinking about Aikechi is that one artwork of the Psychickers polycule at the beach in black and white where Aiura kisses Akechi. I reblog it all the time and I always add it back to the queue lmao. Once I started thinking about their potential relationship, I started realizing how good it is and it all spiralled from there lol.

Basically I love everything about this ship lmao. They're both incomprehensible in different directions. They both have a strong drive to help people. They both are extremely perceptive in different ways. They're both extroverts who love gossip. They both reject the shame that society tries to force them to feel – Aiura for her rejection of traditional femininity & her sex-positivity, Akechi for his incontinence/disability and general disregard for taboo. Akechi would be a great partner to Aiura, attentive and romantic in a way she definitely hasn't experienced before (or else why would she have gone through so much effort to seek out her soul mate?). And Aiura would be a great partner to Akechi with her similar attentiveness, her greater people skills, and her powers. They would love to help people out together (especially trying to defeat death marks), they'd both enjoy trying new things together (like axe-throwing or trying out new fashion looks), and they'd both enjoy chilling and cuddling and watching YouTube poops / listening to music from around the world / parallel playing on their phones etc. They would just be such a disgustingly happy couple <3 The kind that is regularly commiting PDA crimes and are so annoying to talk to lmao. You know they're giving each other pet names and being too lovey dovey and referencing a billion inside jokes and it's just so cringe <3 I LOVE THAT FOR THEM!!!!!

All of my opinions for this ship are technically unpopular because the ship is unpopular lmao. I think one problem might be that Aiura is clearly allosexual with a high sex drive while Akechi seems pretty dang ace. I guess my unpopular opinion is that it would not be a problem in this particular case. LISTEN... In my experience, there are broadly 3 types of asexuals. Those that find sex repulsive, those that literally could not care less about sex, and those that find sex fascinating like on a conceptual level. I think that based on his noted interest in dick and general lack of shame about bodily functions, Akechi probably falls into the third category. In fact, I posit that to Akechi, sex is a game you can win, something which is both normal to want and possible to achieve. His powers of observation, natural curiosity/willingness to experiment, and patience make him ridiculously good at showing his partner(s) a great time, even though he himself is rarely interested in getting involved. It fits with his evil nice mastermind characterization to be able to "control" someone in that way, and it keeps the funniness of his character because who in the world would think MISTER PISS is actually a world-class lover?? Anyways, he can definitely satisfy Aiura, though I still generally like her to have other partners so the game remains fun for him and doesn't become tiresome. Power to the polycule, etc lmao.

Thanks for the ask, I'm SO brainrotted about them <333

[ Ask game ] <- still open for these!

[forever-fan]

FNAF Brainrot

Guess who found a super old AU? This bitch! I'm gonna rant about it for a little. Feel free to hate or whatever, I honestly couldn't care less. It's an AU (which literally stands for Alternate Universe), so pretty much nothing follows canon.

So, to start off, the AU was heavily inspired by AkiR Moon on YouTube. Yes, I know their oldest video is from like two years ago; therefore, this AU isn't SUPER old. Hang in there, people can change a lot in two years and this was when I first joined the FNAF fandom about 2 1/2 years ago. I was such an immature fuck back then.

Anygays, I'll call this AU the Afton Family Expansion Pack AU, or Expansion Pack for short. In Expansion Pack, there were five main things you had to know.

There were more people in the Afton Family, like, a lot more. There are so many OCs

William Afton was always a good person (Yes, this AU has the whole Vincent Evil Twin Brother thing, but he died super young)

Magic was a real thing that some people could harness.

It was kind of tied to Hazbin Hotel at one point, but I dropped that after around two months of playing with the crossover.

It's pretty gay, ngl.

I was (and still am) fascinated by magic and mythology so the third thing was me indulging myself and creating my first magic system.

Also, I am a sucker for torturing the good characters. So, William Afton may be a good person in Expansion Pack, but he suffers a ton. Michael Afton suffers more than he does in canon and has basically never been truly happy since he was eight.

Moving on, the AU basically stars three people as possible main characters.

William Afton (not a murderer, but his body was possessed and used to kill children while he was still conscious. He kinda believed that he had done it of his own free will and he thought he was bipolar or something.)

Michael Fritz Afton (Not the guy who killed C.C. They are two different people in this. But, Michael is still Eggs Benedict/Fritz Smith/Mike Schmidt/any other alias he has used in the games.)

Michael Terrence Afton (Birth name was Terrence Darren Afton, but he begged for it to be changed after the original Michael got kidnapped [lore for another day]. It was his way of processing his brother's disappearance. Terrence was the one who killed C.C. Older brother of the year, man! [This is sarcasm.])

I suppose Terrence is less of a main character to follow, but I did put some effort into fleshing him out as a character. I haven't even touched on William's nephew, Donni, or his weird ass friends. Or William's mother, father, and stepmother. His younger brother and half-sister have such a pleasing relationship with him.

I kinda want to start writing out the lore on a doc so I can throw away the multitude of papers I found and also satisfy the part of my brain that itches to turn the story in my mind into a story on my laptop screen.

Honestly, I think the concepts that went into the full AU were interesting, and I enjoyed rewatching AkiR Moon's videos.

Anygays, this was a late-night rant that will probably haunt me until the end of my days. Later nerds.

[forkaround]

Top 3 Personal Favorite BLs of 2022

I would like to start by thanking everyone who replied to my 'What's the appeal of BL?' post. A friend had asked and I felt I hadn't given a satisfying answer but seeing all the reblogs and comments made my heart grow three sizes. These were things I knew to be true. These were things around me, abstract and translucent. And every answer made me so fucking happy. I could see hope. Thank You.

I got into BL this year and I can say, with ease that I've never been happier.

I am a writer. At 15 I had the idea for an epic fantasy. But things changed once I realized the female lead could end up with no one but this other female character. I steeled myself for a difficult battle because since this was gay this won't be published in India. (Back then there was still a ban on homosexuality. Section 377, if anyone's interested. A remnant of the British Raj. Lifted in 2018.) And I told myself this is going to be hard but it's fine. We can publish in the US. Parts of the story take place in the US anyway, and the rest is in another galaxy, so it's okay. We are fine.

At 20, I had an idea for a story where the female lead become the uncrowned Queen of India (Richest, most influential person in the country). Her motto was - Ambition isn't a bad word. I knew this won't be well received since a woman has ambition but I figured it won't be that bad. But I couldn't conceive of this character as anyone but a lesbian. And I knew this would never be made or rather published if she was the main character.

And in rolled the year 2022. I am 23. It's my 24th birthday and I am more excited for something else that's going to happen in two days than I am about it being my birthday and also the day I go to live, by myself, in Germany, miles from where my parents live. I can barely think about that.

All I am thinking about is -

Kinnporsche

This show is fantastic and no one can deny this but to me it's much more than a show because it made me believe there was a market for my stories. That I could do this and the road ahead wasn't as difficult as I'd thought I'd be. And that was because of how much of a phenomenon Kinnporsche was. Still is, idk. It trended worldwide every week. It trended in India every week since Ep 4. Major Indian magazines wrote about it. And for once I thought, maybe India is ready.

Kinnporsche was also a personal phenomenon. I had Sundays blocked off in my Bullet Journal as Kinnporsche Brainrot days. I bought wine for the first time in my life in anticipation of the Vegaspete episode. This show spawned 7 WIPs and added umph to pre-existing projects like the Ambition one I mentioned before. I had the time of my life reading metas and my critical thinking and media analysis skill improved because of this fandom. The fanworks were the first time in my life I've been as invested in the fandom of the fandom as I've been in the media. It glitters like gold. And in-between the changing genres and political scheming, stage blocking and color theory, and tooth rotting fluff and sadomasochism I found hope.

And what Kinnporsche started multiplied with the things to come.

Old Fashion Cupcake

I've mentioned I'm 24. I feel like I'm 40. I am a woman from a conservative country like India. I am queer but that's not the only thing about me that defies norms. And when you are young defying norms is a metric of success. When you go to college, though, things change and everything that you thought were things people were proud of, are suddenly not. All the talk of feminism and equal rights that had people clapping at 15 are all the same things that people snide at you about. It's the same with your family. And once you've finished college. The second that bachelor's degree hits your hand, the first question asked is - When are you going to start searching for a husband? And you've know for a while this is coming. And 25 feels like the end of the world. You can't imagine being 28, 30, 35, 40... And you've not even lived.

Then some guy, 5 years older than you, starts teaching his boss about some anti-aging thing. The boss is just like you, someone who hasn't lived and regrets it and you realize, a thought so powerful that your cry in the middle of the afternoon. There are as many years between me and Nozue as I've lived. It's not exact math but it shocks you down to your every cell. I feel old. But I'm not. Nozue is twice as old as me and I never thought him to be that old. And yes, life still sucks in many ways and yes, the rules of the universe are different for men and women but it also means my life doesn't end at 30. I won't be a haggard, old woman the moment the second hand moves to the next day on my birthday. Even if the world believes it - I don't have to. And it changes me coz all the things I thought I didn't have time for are suddenly things where I have all the time in the world. I have time for cute food. I have time for a cute cat. I have time to make my name. I have time to live.

And then comes something that makes me even more insane than I already am -

Love in the Air

I know. I know. But this is the first time I've seen someone that makes me as insane as Payu does. And I don't mean the department god status or the cool look. I mean the complete balance and grace this guy has. Before him it was Peggy Carter who I thought was just amazing but it was Payu that solidified the idea of why. He defies every expectation put on him. Good guy? No, he has connections to the mafia and can make you vanish with a phone call. Bad guy then? Nope, he is nice to everyone and is a general pleasure to have around. Any bad guy aesthetics are things he is passionate about in a nerdy way. The Cool Guy? Nope, he looks cool sure but it's not his goal to be a cool guy. He wants to be a nice guy. It's being nice that is cool. Nice Guy (derogatory)? Nope, he tests Rain but is pleasantly surprised every time Rain does pass the test. Narcissistic? Nope, he will put his whole pride aside for the man he loves. He will get humiliated for him any day. He is a well adjusted, respected man who is into kink. No tragic backstory, no dark impulses. Just some guy. Who likes kink.

He became dear to me and looking at him is the reason I realized that in order to make my dreams come true I can't just hope and have talent, I need discipline and balance too. But I also need grace to understand others. Enter Parpai. He spotted something wrong with Sky from the few seconds he seemed lost in thought. His priority in the finale was to take care of Sky and not being his hero or being The Hero. He cared about nothing beyond Sky's wellbeing. This is a type of character I can honestly say I've never seen before. The maturity and emotional intelligence shown by Parpai blows me away each time.

The clock struck twelve and I broke my first bottle of Merlot. Here to to an amazing 2023, an insane 2023, a wonderful 2023 and a kind 2023. I end this with love and gratitude, thing that before this year I considered superfluous, especially gratitude. But I've felt more gratitude this year thanks to BLs/GLs/QLs than I thought I was capable off.

What I wanted to do at 15 hasn't changed but now I have hope it can happen and time to make it happen and the balance and grace I would need to help me achieve my 15 year old self's dreams. Coz after a decade of being told it was stupid or unimportant I get to have confidence that all that I felt, things that others didn't agree with are real. And that makes all the difference.

[hanafubukki]

Well, you said you would love to answer some questions, so here are a few!

🌈,🍭,🕯

I'm curious 👀

[from this ask game]

Hello Amy🌺💕🌸, thank you for sending this in 💞💞

🌈is there a fic that you worked *really fucking hard on* that no one would ever know? maybe a scene/theme you struggled with?

I’m assuming this means a fic that’s already published? Easily, it would be Just a Human because there was a clear image in my mind that I wanted with that fic and I kept writing certain parts over and over just to fit that image. The scene that I wanted to convey was the flashes of magenta within the crimson in Lilia’s eyes to show that the Lilia we know is there and slowly but surely reappearing.

If we are talking about unpublished works, I currently have 13 drafts that I haven’t published. 2 of which are completed but needs to be edited and I keep forgetting to publish them?? Lolol and the other 11 are wips (mix of theories, memes, fanfics, and other stuff), some are halfway done and others are close to done. About 4 of those are Lilia fics and 2 of them are Malleus fics 😂

🍭why did you start writing?

I honestly started writing because I was stressed with school, family, and work. I was really burned out (and still am kind of) and nothing was helping me relax. The usual fanfic reading or games wouldn’t work. I couldn’t touch books because school had me clawing my eyes out. But what I did have was Simping and brainrots power, and I just opened up my word doc one day and just wrote the idea that was plaguing my head throughout the night which was the All in Time series which had such a warm welcoming that the rest was history and I kept writing since then. I actually met many precious friends through writing that fic, so it has a soft place in my heart.

🕯️was there a fic that was really hard on you to write, or took you to a place you didn't think it would take you?

There are three fics that took me to places that I didn’t expect and practically ideas flowed itself and I was nothing but the writing vessel.

Time and Time Again, literally just came about because of something a friend said and the whole idea was triggered and next thing I know I have three parts written with a fourth planned (whenever that is because I have notes but brain just won’t write it so waiting to see if book 7 jumps starts it lol)

I Suddenly Became the Mother of the Red-Rose Tyrant?!, this fic literally came to be because I saw this fanart of Riddle’s mom hugging baby Riddle and because I was reading too many Manhwas at the time. I also got to thinking about why Riddles mom would do what she did and how I wanted Riddle to have a happy childhood and next thing you know this was written. There are ideas for a part two that I have notes on too and certain scenes written already.

The Love of a Family , was inspired by Lian’s artwork and me being in a diasomnia feels mood. I literally looked at the artwork and I really just wanted a happy ending to it. I wanted all parties involved to be happy and something about Big Brother Silver with little Malleus just had me writing as fast as I could. When I was editing it, I kept adding scenes and switching things around until I was satisfied. I still have some ideas for this AU in my head that I have notes on too.

This was fun to talk about. 🙌🙌

[seaselkie]

🌀❤ 2, 5, 15, 26 ❤🌀

Aaaah okay hi. Oof some good ones but also some tricky ones to answer. Sorry, this will be long 🤪

2. When you’re writing a new story, what is the one thing you need to know before you can start?

Unhelpfully, this depends.

The simplest, shortest answer is I mostly need to start with the human element; generally people. A character or dynamic that I have a vested interest in exploring in some way. Sometimes I want to write for a world or larger concept, but mostly with me it is something human at heart.

The more in depth answer is that what I need to start with is often different. Sometimes the idea for a story will be built on some internal factor - a character confronting a fear, or achieving some goal. Sometimes the starting idea is external - wanting to explore a physical space or put people in a certain situation. And those things are just what inspiration happens to strike, sometimes at random and sometimes prompted by what I see or read in the source material.

For example:

When I wrote Raise the Black (Maze Runner), it was because I mostly wanted to write about 18th Century piracy and specifically sailing and tall ships. The rest of the story I built around that. When I wrote The Space Between Sleep (911) it was more that I wanted to explore paths of recovery after trauma and the many different forms that both trauma and love can take. (This is a popular draw for me, and many of my other fics have threads of this). I also have around 100k of a Teen Wolf fic that has never seen the light of day which exists purely because I had one character-oriented idea and it needed a lot of set up to get there.

5. How do you know when a story is “done”?

The short answer to this is closure.

Whatever the story set out to do, when you have been able to satisfy the sense of closure to the key characters and plot elements and questions that you have opened up, that is perhaps a good indicator. (Closure, is also not in conflict with an open ending. I think you can have an open ending, in many ways, while still feeling like you have resolved what you need to).

The longer answer to this is I think is trickier.

First off, because as my hard-drive will confirm, I am crap at knowing when a story needs to stop. I just keep adding to them and realising theres way more to tell than the small idea I started with. I also think, though, that stories are never really done, or over, but that authors have to pick a point to stop telling them. Part of that is, perhaps, knowing when you have addressed and resolved the things you set out to, and knowing when something else is part of an entirely new story instead of this one.

Examples again - When I wrote The Last Hearth (GoT) it was very much about that one conversation between two sisters. When I had addressed the things I set out to, the scene could come to an end. Shape of Grief (Maze Runner) was about exploring loss and pain and following that down a tragic path. The story I am currently working on, an aralas lotr brainrot, started on a few ideas spread out over time, and there are more dynamics involved than just two people so it encompasses much more in the telling. Ultimately all those I consider complete when they provide the closure for the threads I started pulling on, even if the endings aren't all neatly tied, or especially happy.

15. How do you write a really good metaphor?

(First - I think that whether you did write a good one or not is ultimately up to the individual reader, and this is something I always say of writing generally. You can do all the hard work in the world, but ultimately, a reader's first impressions and interpretation of a story is their lived experience and nothing you say or try to correct about it afterwards can take away from that. It might contextualise it, or provide greater understanding, or might offer them another viewpoint, but their first feeling is something that they have every right to even if it is not what you as a writer intended.)

So short answer again, my personal 'good' metaphor is making it immersive and relatable but also being able to find a common thread to the audience.

To elaborate on that - (imo) a good metaphor is one that pulls from the world and the story around it. It is using language that your viewpoint/narrating characters would personally have a reference for because they understand or have experience with them. For instance, in a medieval world, you might not use words or phrases to do with computers, or even advanced science. Back then you wouldn't say someone "bluescreened" with shock or they felt as though they had been electrocuted because they have no reference for that terminology. Even within the same story or world, different characters have different experiences and they may think or relate to things in different terms. So whoever is telling your chapter or story, use metaphors that relate to them and make sense in their understanding of their world.

In some ways the tricky part could be being able to use metaphors that make sense to the character and their lives, but ones that don't leave the reader with no point of reference, especially in stories where the world, culture, character or whatever else are so departed from the reader's experiences.

So ultimately, what I think makes a metaphor good is embedding it in the world and having it make sense within the context of its story while being able to deliver that to readers.

26. How do you go about world building?

Lmao damn. Short answer: a piece at a time.

The long answer....(and boy did this take some time to think about)

I think it is some core essentials and ultimately people come to them in their own ways. For me its working out from wherever your starting point is - be that an opening scene, a line of dialogue, a character concept etc - and at every stage, asking questions about who, when, how, where, why etc to fill in a history and paint a picture. Sometimes you need to know one person's backstory before anything else, and other times that kind of individuality comes way later because first you need the larger picture of a corrupt government or something. So the starting blocks will be different for every author and for every story, but in its core form, to me at least, its slowly working outward, asking questions and finding answers that all form building blocks for the overall image.

(Like, most of us know Harry Potter started with a boy and his scar. Tolkien started with languages and a map. Percy Jackson came to life because Riordan wanted a hero with ADHD. The Scorpio Races was written because Stiefvater pictured a brutal beach horseback race. The world comes together a bit at a time from that starting idea).

I think then, a Part 2 to this answer, is actually writing it into a story, not just how you come up with it, and for me that is also: a piece at a time. Show, don't tell.

If you drop several paragraphs of backstory on your world in the opening pages - or even a wall of text in the middle - the chances are your readers will skim it and move on. Generally speaking, with a few exceptions, you don't want your story to lose momentum, and that is what happens when you take a time out to explain a lot of things.

So for me, I favour drip feeding information. Share the bits that are relevant when the story is served by knowing them. Sometimes that is letting the reader learn things at the same pace that your characters learn them. Not only is it more likely that the information will stay in their minds because its necessary and useful in the moment, but it can also help to embed them in the story and develop a stronger emotional attachment if they feel like they're living it in the same breaths as your characters.

All of this obviously just... my opinions on things 🤓

Damn Dreams you asked some hard ones. I hadn't stopped to think about some of this before so that was fun. Thank you!

Ask me author questions

[kirider]

3, 6, and 13!!

3. your favorite piece(s)?

Have a bunch out of the ones I posted:

Card games which is one of the few pieces I actually finished, I really like how colorful it turned out and I'm pretty happy with how everyone looks. My only regret is forgetting Daichi from Ultraman X. Please pretend that he was late and joined them right after this picture

I really like this idk why but so many of the KiriEmu stuff I draw comes out so good? This one too for example. I think I'm just very biased towards this two and the pink and yellow color combo

I love this one because The First brainrot am I right /j But I really like how I drew them both (I do prefer the version of Ichimonji with the coat tho), and I need to reuse this pallette bc it's very good. I also need to draw this Hongo more. Gonna go draw him as soon as I finish this actually. Anyways, this is one of those posts that every time this pops up in my notifications I go "!!! :3"

Also self indulgent thing but bottom left of this page. I regret not posting it in the tags tbh, but I am very self conscious about self indulgent stuff so I got scared lol. I love how the pose came out and I love this two and I love that people liked this "story" enough to ask me about it. And a couple of people left very nice tags on it and man i love this fandom how are you all so nice

6. favorite thing to draw?

I love just doing characters interacting with each other, especially hugs and cuddles :3 I do have a bunch of poses that are just blank mannequins because I didn't know who to draw I just wanted to draw cuddles

If we're talking favorite characters to draw it's Amazon and Ikki lol

13. talk about a wip you like!

*slams fist of the table repeatedly * this animatic is taking so long and requires me to rewatch so many episodes from so many different series for references but I love it so much. The Revice part is the only one that I have finished the thumbnails for, technically the Geats one too is almost done, but for everything else I'm still just blocking in what happens. I just love working on animatics it's so fun, and it's so satisfying seeing the whole thing with the music. Everything before that is a giant pain in the ass tho lol. I have so many that I still need to finish

[butterflyseraph]

Oh my god, Pretty Boy Reo!!! I actually wanna cosplay him someday hehe

"The good thing is that between you two is that there are never any misunderstandings, at least not for Iong; you express yourselves when something's wrong, which immediately defuses potential problems."

It's interesting because depending on the person, I can be extremely open about my more vulnerable feelings or just mask them completely. I feel like Reo would be someone who I'm able to open up to a little easier. He's just so charismatic to me, but in a soothing way.

"Reo would never make you feel like you're too much; on the contrary, he'd be the first to spot you in the crowd, grab your arm, and include you in the group. I don't think there's ever any ambiguity between you two; it's smooth, and no one could question your friendship."

Hilariously, one of thing I noticed as I was reading through the matchup was how I actually relate to Nagi in a lot of aspects. My love for gaming aside, I can be very "lazy" due to my executive dysfunction. I remember in the movie, Nagi told Reo that Reo never made him feel like he was a hassle. Other than my big shipper ass going crazy over that line, it just really struck a chord with me as someone who suffers from executive dysfunction and experiences a lot of guilt as a result.

...should I get a cactus and name it Choki-

"If he starts playing, it's not only to be with you but to understand the mechanics of those games. Maybe it'll inspire him on the field, like giving him a sharper understanding of his opponents' mindset. Immersive games often lead to introspection and analysis- making choices, challenging one's ethics, etc."

Oh my god Reo would love tactical RPGs. REO I'M DRAGGING YOU INTO MY FIRE EMBLEM BRAINROT.

"You see, I think Reo is one of the characters in the whole manga with whom you quickly feel comfortable; he has a very close, very human vibe. Very relatable. So, I have no doubt you'd feel at ease with him quickly, to the point where you'd let him approach you even from behind for a surprise hug."

A surprise hug from Reo sounds so sweet. I still remember that iconic scene of him hugging Nagi as he played Nagi's game, and one of my many thoughts was "I want to recreate that with a future romantic partner" lmaoooo

"And it would make him so happy to receive your affection too. I can't imagine him not sharing affectionate gestures with his significant other, no way."

The most guaranteed way to get me to come out of my shell when it comes to physical affection is to initiate it and then sit and wait. Eventually, I'll probably be giving just as many surprise back hugs as he does, haha!

"Actually. he kind of reminds me of a knight sometimes, you know? The one who opens and holds the door for you, the one who tells everyone on the escalator to move to the right so you can go faster. The one who always orders your dish without the sides you don't like. Those kinds of small, discreet attentions that are incredibly satisfying to experience daily."

I am genuinely gushing over the thought of Reo as a knight lmaoooo. The more I think about it, the more I feel like acts of service impact me more than I'd like to admit. I mean, I become a bumbling mess if a friend does anything for me: imagine a romantic partner 😅

"I see him as someone materialistic, so all the gifts you give him, he keeps them carefully at home and doesn't throw anything away, even if they seem completely ordinary or insignificant. As long as it's from you, he'll keep it until his death (which makes me think his inheritance might be complicated)"

Lmao, my mind shifted from knight Reo to dragon-guarding-his-hoard Reo. The fact that both are very fitting images of him makes this even funnier to me.

"Two little sunshines <3"

🌞🌞🌞 Yeah!!! 🌞🌞🌞

Bonus:

"I first thought of Niko (the "attracted to the realistic, grounded types" you know) but I figured he would be too quiet and solitary for your need to be with others. Lack of communication, as always."

Ooh, Niko! Yeah, I get what you mean. I feel like we'd make pretty decent friends tho!

Anywayyyy, thank you again for doing this with me! Sorry my response took so long, but thank you so much for your patience!!!

BLUE LOCK MATCHUP EXCHANGE — @butterflyseraph

Your match is...

— Mikage Reo

✦ It wasn't easy; I thought of several characters, but each time I was like, "hmm no."

✦ I figured it had to be someone who wouldn’t make you feel like you were too much.

✦ … So, not someone introverted.

✦ Or someone who doesn’t communicate enough.

✦ We all know where relationships go when one person doesn't communicate enough…

✦ *cough cough*

✦ I think you and Reo make a very balanced duo. He’s naturally sociable, loves approaching people and showing interest in them (not necessarily for personal gain; that’s just how he is).

✦ That made me think of how you tend to appear very open with others at first.

✦ It’s something that can unsettle shy people, but with him, it would only be appealing.

✦ Anyway, if it hadn’t been you, he would have come to you sooner or later.

✦ I can totally see you two as the duo that always has a bunch of friends orbiting around them. You’re the headliners, the queen bee duo of the university.

✦ The good thing is that between you two, there are never any misunderstandings, at least not for long; you express yourselves when something’s wrong, which immediately defuses potential problems.

✦ The trope of best buddies, obviously.

✦ Reo would never make you feel like you’re too much; on the contrary, he’d be the first to spot you in the crowd, grab your arm, and include you in the group. I don’t think there’s ever any ambiguity between you two; it’s smooth, and no one could question your friendship.

✦ He loves your contrasting personality—the fact that you appear quite cute on the outside but enjoy less conventional and niche things. I think he’s interested in those things too because he wants to understand them—and, by extension, understand you.

✦ Whatever you like or do, it piques his interest, and in a sincere way. No hidden motives. To me, Reo is truly someone loyal and reliable in friendship. He doesn’t try to play games—except during a match, but that’s part of the sport.

✦ I like to imagine you playing a soccer video game while he’s actually playing soccer.

✦ That’s probably not the kind of game you play, though; I see you more with games like The Wolf Among Us, Genshin Impact, The Binding of Isaac, or Outer Wilds. But you know, I think those games could interest him in a way too. They’re successful games, and he’d be curious about why. After all, Reo is still a business-minded person.

✦ And if he starts playing, it’s not only to be with you but to understand the mechanics of those games. Maybe it’ll inspire him on the field, like giving him a sharper understanding of his opponents’ mindset. Immersive games often lead to introspection and analysis—making choices, challenging one’s ethics, etc.

✦ In short, things we regularly see at Blue Lock, let’s be honest.

✦ "Physical Affection (giving and receiving, although I do need to be properly acclimated to a person: it's basically my ultimate form of affection)" You see, I think Reo is one of the characters in the whole manga with whom you quickly feel comfortable; he has a very close, very human vibe. Very relatable. So, I have no doubt you’d feel at ease with him quickly, to the point where you’d let him approach you even from behind for a surprise hug.

✦ And it would make him so happy to receive your affection too. I can’t imagine him not sharing affectionate gestures with his significant other, no way.

✦ Actually, he kind of reminds me of a knight sometimes, you know? The one who opens and holds the door for you, the one who tells everyone on the escalator to move to the right so you can go faster. The one who always orders your dish without the sides you don’t like. Those kinds of small, discreet attentions that are incredibly satisfying to experience daily.

✦ I see him as someone materialistic, so all the gifts you give him, he keeps them carefully at home and doesn’t throw anything away, even if they seem completely ordinary or insignificant. As long as it’s from you, he’ll keep it until his death.

✦ (Which makes me think his inheritance might be complicated)

✦ Two little sunshines <3

A word about your match: I first thought of Niko (the "attracted to the realistic, grounded types" you know) but I figured he would be too quiet and solitary for your need to be with others. Lack of communication, as always.

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[swamp-chicken]

hugs n kisses // ethubs ficlet

short little fluffly ficlet inspired by all the great stuff in the ethubs tag today. yes please keep feeding my brainrot. 

Etho’s bag was overflowing with stuff when he finally made the trek home. He passed Bdubs in the woods, kneeling over a fiddly redstone project near his tree. The wiring was so messy it made Etho wince.

Bdubs heard him approach and whirled around, eye wide. “Hey! Oh, it’s only you.”

“Hello,” Etho hummed. “Expecting someone else?”

“No, I’m just being… pestered today.”

Etho snorted. The hermits in the neighborhood were particularly fond of Bdubs, or at least fond of bothering him. Etho couldn’t blame them, the guy was cute when flustered.

Bdubs eyed Etho up and down. “You on your way back from the shopping district? Those are a lot of shulkers.” 

Etho patted his loot protectively. “Well, someone wouldn’t buy me any.”

“Oh, please,” Bdubs scoffed. “Where’s my rent? You freeloader! Why would I buy you anything?”

Etho sniffed. “You should be nicer. I made a stop to a certain moss shop while I was there.”

Bdubs scowl vanished. “No way! Moss o menos? What did you think?”

“Yeah, Miso Mosso.” Etho stifled a laugh as Bdubs narrowed his eyes. “Actually, I have a few complaints.”

Bdubs pushed aside the redstone and stood, dramatically throwing his hands in the air. “Oh good, here it comes. What now?”

“I think you could use a few lessons in shop design…”

“Shop design!” Bdubs spluttered. “I’ll have you know my shop is perfect! Perfectly glorious!”

“Well, Bdubs, a customer shouldn’t have to read an entire book just to figure out how to use the brone meal they paid good money for.”

“A book! Now you’re mad I made you read a book?”

“Not only that, but the book doesn’t even tell you where the drop chute is. You have to walk all the way outside to find it.” Etho shook his head sadly, “Poor, poor design.”

“That’s part of the experience,” Bdubs insisted. “Exploration is the name of the game!”

“You want to know the worst part?” Etho asked.

“Ok, ok, this should be good. You got too much moss? The building was too beautiful?”

“I didn’t get any hugs and kisses. As promised in your little book.” Etho huffed and crossed his arms, eyeing Bdubs sidelong to gauge his reaction.

“I don’t remember putting that in the fine print!” Bdubs’s face was flushing up spectacularly. Hook, line, sinker. 

“Well, it was. And here I am, huggless, kissless…” Etho trailed off and gave a little shiver for dramatic effect. 

“Oh you,” Bdubs griped, but then he was stepping into Etho’s space and tugging him down for a brief kiss. It was quick, a little too forceful, but Etho still found himself smiling into the kiss, chasing Bdubs’s mouth as he pulled away. 

“Happy now?” Bdubs asked. His cheeks were bright red, but he frowned stubbornly. 

“And hugs?” Etho prompted.

Bdubs grumbled, but let Etho tug him closer. Etho held Bdubs against him, cupped his head gently, and savored his victory. 

“There, that wasn’t so bad, was it,” Etho murmured.

Bdubs sighed, put his arms around Etho and held him just as tightly. “You know, you could try asking for affection like a normal person.”

“Where’s the fun in that?” Etho dropped a kiss on the crown of Bdubs’s head. 

Bdubs’s arms tightened around Etho’s middle. “Maniac,” he said. “Can you help me with my redstone now, or do you want to torture me a little more?”

“No, I’m satisfied. For now.”

Bdubs extricated himself from Etho’s embrace, fighting a bashful smile. “You thought the shop was nice, right?”

Etho smoothed Bdubs’s hair back into place. “It was beautiful.”