#It just seems like somethibg he would like

[blackfairy312]

What traits are each of them most attracted to? What/who is their biggest inspiration.

🔥oh boy an attraction, invlvong MY fucking ocs this is great.

Komi obviously has bad taste in men, like oh my god woman please theres somethig wrong with you but thats alright i guess. like idk how to decribe it but like, so likem you know. idk. like. ? blonde men seem to be a type, like Albert Wesker, andlike William Birkin, but also like bitches with mental disorders i guess idk DSM5 bitches like Amanda Young and probably the Trickster from Dead by Daylight fame. and like , Scaramouche is on there, which says something for sure. about here type, so foes like Maxwell from Dont Starve fame. Reigen Arataka is on this list and so is Osomatsu Matsuno from fucking Osomatsu-San is on this list and he is like, idk man hes on that go look at his wiki, aslo like everyone Komi has ever dated EXCEPT FOR TWO are on theVillians wiki which is insane because one of them is fucking MIGUEL OHARA. wild. i hope she gets therapy.

as for the others, uhm, Vincent is bisexual so like he knows what he likes. im not going into any more detail than this. dont ask me about what this pervert likes. hes a freak.

Antonio and Richard are GAY so like . tbh theyre probably like attracted to SANE people or something? idk Antonio seems like the guy to like, idk maybe someone who's nice to him? like SOMEONE WHO LIKE GENUINELY SEES THEBEST IN HIM AND WILL SUPPORT HIM becuase hes never had that ever growing up so its bizzare to him that someone out there genuiely CARES about him and CARES ENOUGH TO BE LIKE HIS FRIEND. GEUINE FRIEND. and if theyres a guy... yeah . Yaoi. (im a gay man I MAKE THESE JHOKES ALL THE TIME)

Richard i didnt answer bc idk man have you ever sen the Stranger Things fandom? so like. He's Steve Harrington and he needs to find his Jonathan Byers OR Eddie Munson before its too late ... it is too late btw he died lol

their biggest inrpiratons? Komi's is her half-kind of? sister? Ayano from KagePro and im not going into all that just read her carrd or assume that i will address this later in more detail ebcause again this is an OC we've had for over 6 years so her lore is all over the place and shes not a dedicated fandom OC SHE GOES EVERYWHERE.

Vincent? idk. some big name hollywood actor . or somethibg. probably a few. im not going to indulge him by looking one up for an example bc the only movies i watch are shitty horror/slashers or marvel movies and smetimes ill watch like, idk a disney movie if im feeling freaky. idk whyy i said freaky

Richard idk soem fucking sports guy probablt i kinda want to make ajoke with Richard that he APPEARS to be a CIS STRAIGHT WHITE HETEROSEXUAL MAN but hes such a fucking himbo that he probably doesnt even fucking realize that hes GAY and im not saying like hes, idk talking to women I MEAN HE DOESNT REALIZE THAT WOMEN LIKE HIM. MAUBE. LIKE HE OBVIOUSLY, TO HIM, LIKING MEN IS NORMAL HES UST OBVLIOUS WHEN SOMEONE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX/GENDER IDK FLIRTS OR HITS ON HIM andhes like thibning theyre friendly and so hes friendlyback? LIKE THAT JOCK DUDE FROM PARANOMAN, thats Richard. he probbaly has a boyfriend or a crush on someone idk. too bad he died.

Antonio probably looks up to like, idk, a super hero or some fictional character like if he lived long enough to see Star Wars, he would attach himself to Han Solo. i dont really know many people/characters PRE-1970s and the Rat/Cat/Puppeteer ALL DIED IN LIKE in the span of 1961 and 1963 probably, i think Vincent died in prison a year or two after the events of FNAC 3. so. but yeah.

[smilingangel582]

Heeey, I know recently, I haven't written much fics, but to tell u the truth, I found this interesting anime, Fukigen no mononokean. I liked it surprisingly. Sooo I was thinking of writing another tehe!

Again I like Ashiya he's cute but I can't think of him a full time lee. I could add it a liiittle bit. And hence I commence -the execution of a plan with switched Lee's. Personally I want a full lee Abeno cuz he's not childish like my sweet Hanae Ashiya!

Warning spoilers

Takes place in the middle of S2, so... better watch them all before reading

Be your age for once, alright?

The legislator, Rippo, and the pharmacist Kōra both glanced back at the feast they were having while Shizuku decided to leave after a quick meal with the rest.

Ashiya is slowly getting used to the underworld food, yet he insists on having water from the mundane world. Legislator glanced at Abeno, almost convinced he's never planned on joining a late snacking time with yokai and Ashiya.

"Itsuki... what's the matter?" Legislator gave a teasing smile, the blond leaning on his elbow he had barely eaten, but he didn't give a very offensive impression like he used to. He seemed to ponder about something and Legislator intended to get his mind off of it.

"Shut up, I got nothing to say to you"

Ashiya, finally taking the final bite, glanced back at Abeno, who was the only one frowning. Kora gave a slight snicker, "such a frightening face, you may oblige him but you are still rebellious,"

"Oh that's right," Ashiya thought now, as if something jolted to his memory "he had been an exorcist since he was... what seven?"

Abeno frowned, looking at his employee. "Yeah? And...?"

"Sheesh, relax I'm just saying," Ashiya returned a similar frown, but looked away when Legislator gave a gentle laugh "Oho my I always forget how small he was... barely keeping up with Aoi"

Abeno huffed, now leaning back, staring up the ceiling. "Aoi taught me a lot, I can not believe it's been eight years"

Kora sighed in amusement "You were a tiny thing back then, always coming on errands for Aoi,"

"Remember how Aoi always protected you like his eye?" Legislator said.

Abeno blushed now. "Settle down... Ashiya's here..."

Ashiya however, along with Fuzzy the hairball, looked in interest "Tell me more..!"

"No!" Abeno glared now trying to appear threatening and that wavered Ashiya who whimpered "I'm sorry boss..."

Kora chuckled, taking a puff from the pipe, "You know Ashiya, he used to be so cute, he would giggle whenever Justice comes to play the mischievous Yokai game! He loved it"

"Hey! That was-!"

Ashiya happened to be more interested in this mischievous Yokai. He looked at Abeno and then tilted his head in question "Who's that?"

Legislator eyed them very menacingly and when Abeno could react by hitting him, he spoke up "Well humans call it the tickle monster... Itsuki used to be so ticklish and adorable!"

Abeno groaned now, rubbing his temples in frustration, "Yeah, well ...I was a kid,"

Ashiya widened his eyes before laughing out loud "You! Ticklish aw that's rich! What about now... are you still ticklish?"

Abeno became wary. He knew where this was going. "What do you think? I'm fifteen... not seven... so obviously I grew out of it in maturity."

Raising an eyebrow, Ashiya faced him now, turning to the left from his seated position. "I don't believe you... can I test it?"

"Idiot..." a growl came from the blond but he was nervous enough to get up from his seat, "I have something urgent to do... so I'll be going-"

"Where do you think you're gooooing...?" Abeno felt a tug around his kimono, he was surprised by a sudden jab in side. Oh, did he pray that he wasn't ticklish anymore? Yes, he did but sadly the prayer wasn't answered.

"He flinched," Legislator pointed out, genuinely surprised that Abeno was still sensitive. Kora smiled wider, and she asked, "Somethibg wrong, Itsuki? Yiu said you grew out of it,"

Abeno was mortified, his situation wasn't something good, he needed to leave but Ashiya's grip tightened.

"Oh man, you laughing is something I need to prepare for"

"C-cut it out!"

He felt a wiggling finger sneak around his waist, and the touch was like an electric wave. Abeno gasped suddenly puzzled by this creep attack.

"What a surprise," The blue haired boy sneered "The master of the mononkean is actually sensitive."

This was bad. Ashiya is so determined. Yet... he could fight back.

"W-whahahat? Ahahahabeno noho fair!"

Abeno sighed in relief, it was a good thing Ashiya's guard was down. He now pinned the other boy and dug his fingers at his side.

It honestly felt good. The legislator chortle "My how the tables have turned!"

"Nohohoho Ahahahabeno! Yohohohou Ahahahass!"

"Don't blame me..." Abeno shrugged, his hand cordination was messy as he was used to it, but it still drove Ashiya up the wall "You left your weakness open for others, always keep your guard up,"

Abeno managed to fight more cruelly since he needed to divert attention to his opponent rather than protecting his own weakness. It was rare for him to be like a five year old like this five year old.

As if the Legislator read his mind "My, my Itsuki, you got a mean streak, but you still haven't changed."

"Oh hush!" Abeno snapped at him. Still managing to get the boy. Kora smiled at the scene and the Legislator knew Abeno was being too uptight, he was slightly loosened by attacking the other kid. However, Itsuki deserves to laugh as well.

"Hey, dear Fuzzy," Legislator whispered to the hairy yokai who squeaked in interest, still enjoying Ashiya's laughter.

"Itsuki is being a little mean right? I say go get him so Ashiya can attack him back"

The hairball nodded excitedly, wanting to be involved at last. He jumped up at Abeno's back which sort of made him stop to turn back.

"H-hairball? What's up?"

Fuzzy curled itself by the crook of his neck, snuggling in a tickly way which made Abeno spasm in shock "W-wait! Wait! Dohont do that!"

The first giggle was out. Ashiya recovered quickly. This time, he was pushing Abeno down with a smirk "Thanks Fuzzy, for harrassing me all this time. I say we teach this master a lesson"

"A-Ashiya, hold on!" Abeno raised his hands defensively."Dohont you dahare!" Already Ashiya wiggled his fingers into his waist like he had done before. Ashiya grinned maniacally "Oho Abeno, I was planning on going easy on you but after that stunt... uh uh no"

"Youhuhu imbehehcile! Knohohohock it ohohoff!" Abeno can't fight back. This time, Ashiya was going all out, and it made him keep his own spots hidden. Abeno happened to be more ticklish than Ashiya, yet he was good at hiding it.

"Oh, Ashiya, need some help?" Legislator cheerfully crawled towards them, and to Abeno's horror, they had the same mindset right now.

"Ahahahahshiyaaa! Ihihihihi wihihihhhilll kihihihll youuu!" Abeno thrashed harder, finding less room to move with his wrists pulled above his head.

"Abeno-san~, are you ticklish here?" With that, Ashiya slides his fingers up to his armpits, and Abeno's jolt clarifies that he was.

"Ihihihi wihihihill -Gahahahaha DOHOHOHONT GOHOHOHO THEHEHEHEREE!"

His giggles turned to cackles, and his struggles became more unbearable. He kicked around, not caring if he did end up kicking someone. "Wow! Ashiya, you know Itsuki's spots haven't changed at all, but I know Justice had a giggle spot right around his shoulder blades, so let's flip him!"

"WHAHAHAT AHAHAM IHIHI A TOHOHOY??"

Kora giggled, "I know you're enjoying, dear legislator, but please let him breath"

Ashiya shook his head as he helped turn a red-faced Abeno on his stomach. "He's tough, well except when it comes to tickling, but he can handle more, right Abeno-san?"

"Ihihi hahate you! I swear ihihif you don't lehet go ihihill fire you!" Ashiya paled at that, but the Legislator made Abeno start in a panicked cry when he wiggled a finger messily around his back "Oh Itsuuukiii~ don't forget I make the rules... soo I command you to let Ashiya tickle you"

This guy knows how to abuse his power. Poor Abeno, Ashiya mentally noted.

Kora continued to drink her sake as she watched them play around. Ashiya was insistent to get Abeno after all.

"WAHAHAHAIT! IHIHIHI HAHA AHAHA -EHEHEHENOUGH! PLEHEHEHEASE!"

Ashiya widened his eyes upon that but didn't stop the shoulder massaging. "Did I hear wrong, or did he just beg?"

"Itsuuukii~ You better not let any yokai know the master's weakness... to beg is such a humiliation. " Legislator snarkily scribbled his fingers over his shoulder blades that earned a loud squeal -something alien to their ears coming from Abeno's voice.

"AHAHAHA SHUHUHT UP!! FIHIHIHINE IHIHI GIVE IHIHIM SORRY FOHOHOR ALL THOHOSE TIMES IHIH YEHEHELLED AT YOUUUU AHAHAHASHIYAA!"

Ashiya smiled fondly, "Come on, abeno, I tickled you because you needed a laugh, obviously."

Legislator let's Itsuki go who finally curled to a giggly ball once they stopped. "You should be nicer to me, Itsuki... I needed an apology boy Ashiya"

Abeno growled now with leftover giggles. "Yeheheah? Screhew, yohou!"

Kora chuckled "Dear Rippo... that must have been harsh,"

Legislator feigned a pout "Our little Itsuki used to be so nice and cute... but now he's mean and cute".

Abeno straightened glaringly at him sharply. "I am not s-so stop it..."

Ashiya nudged him, making Abeno jump "Hey... Abeno -I mean, Haruitsuki... you need to laugh more"

Abeno blushed. It was both the compliment and the usage of his first name.

He sheepishly murmured "Well what can I expect from a five year old like you? Ashiya -Ahem Hanae..."

Ashiya's eyes sparkled in wonder, almost too annoyingly for Abeno to handle "Y-you said my name too! Wow Itsuki... you sure are sweeter than you look"

"Don't get used to it, I'm still your boss".

"Then Itsuki-san?"

Abeno hummed in agreement, showing not much interest, though his heart raced when he heard this. "Whatever you say, Hanae"

Kora and Legislator exchanged looks, and they began drinking together, watching the two boys with pride. Yokai snacks seemed to trigger a new friendship between the master and employee.

[dabiscrustyfeet]

Hello! Can I ask some angst?

Can you make a fic or headcanon with the demon brothers (or just your favourites)? Lets say the MC is very wortied or sad because somethibg happened to their dad who is pretty stern but raised them with lot of care and love.

If you don't want to or can't do it it is 100% OK!

I wish you health and take care!

Ngl, this hit close to home cuz my dad is like that and i always had cried in school when i was younger worried for him ( nothing’s wrong with him i was just like that)

Im going to do all the bros for this one to ya know have a feel of ✨writing stuff ✨ and ill start this with a fic and do the bros reaction in headcannon form end if that is okay with you. I also did some comfort too, i hope thats okay with you darlin

I also wish you a very good evening/day/night and health too sweetie, muwah

Gn Mc worried for their father ft. the bros

Warnings: mentions of stab wounds, surgical procedures, angst [and comfort]

You loved your family very much, especially your father. He was always open minded and taught you the difference between right and wrong. He made sure you would own up to your mistakes and learn from them, and taught you how to defend for yourself. He also taught you to take in activities that you enjoy, too. He always wanted the best for you.

It was during lunch break when you had the phone call. You were in the far corner of the library, minding your business, reading the demon version of human folklore. You saw the caller id and it was your mother phoning you. You were a little confused–she only ever calls you on the weekends, so this must be urgent.You answered the call and you heard your mother. “Mc, your father – something happened.” You noticed her voice was breaking up - she seemed to have been crying and that was enough for you know something was wrong, so horribly wrong.

“Ma, what happened to him?” You asked. She went silent. “…Ma?” Whatever has happened to dad must’ve shaken her up pretty badly you thought. “He… he got stabbed,” she whispered, as if she would start crying if she said it any louder. And you, so many thoughts were running through your mind, and you feared for the worst.

“He’s okay, right?” You were trying to reassure her and yourself: you did not want to believe that your father was critically injured. “He is in hospital.” Your mother took a deep breath before she continued, “ The doctors said that he got stabbed in the stomach multiple times, so now, he’s undergoing a surgery. Hopefully the surgery works out.” You let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding. Turns out your father got taken to hospital as quickly as possible and your mum was with him, which was a relief. However that did nothing to ease your fear. What if the surgery doesn’t work? What will happen then?

You bid your mother goodbye, and she promised to tell you the results of the surgery after a few days of rest for your father. Your thoughts did not calm down, and you felt yourself zoning out. Before you knew it , it was the end of lunch, and you made your way to lesson.

The rest of the day was a blur for you. Once you reached home, you went straight to your room and tried to get your mind off of your father by doing the long ass homework your demonology teacher given you. Your thoughts, however, were running 100 miles per minute.

Stabbed.

You gripped your pen tightly and continued writing. In the stomach. “Deep breaths mc, dad’s okay”.

Multiple times.

You closed your eyes. Surgery. You exhaled, hands shaking. May not work. You opened your eyes, tears welling up in them. Reaching for your books, you closed them, and put them in your bag as you wiped your tears. You tried to calm yourself down, before you heard the door being opened. You looked up and saw the brother who walked in, having a concerned look on his face. “MC? What’s wrong?” And thats all it took for your walls to come crumbling down.

Lucifer

He knew something was up the second you completely ignored him when he greeted you.

Your eyes had completely glossed over, and he didn’t like to see you upset

When he walked in your room, he honestly didn’t expect you to have been crying

You never show that side of you at all

So you can imagine how worried he was.

Lucifer asked you what the matter was, and you started sobbing

Lucifer walked up to you, and hugged you tightly

He never wants to see you cry, MC

You holding on to him tightly, voice cracking while trying to tell him what was wrong

He had to calm you down, of course, so he carded his hands through your hair, and hummed a little lullaby

This always worked when he tried to calm mammon down from his nightmares, so he tried to use this to calm you down, and it worked to his suprise

Lucifer pulled away from you and asked you what was wrong

When you finished telling him, he held you closely

Sure, he may not have a great relationship with his father, but he’ll be damned if he doesn’t try to comfort you

“Your father will be okay my love, I will make sure of it”

Safe to say that your father’s surgery went perfectly

Mammon

Mammon is smart when he wants to be, and out of the brothers he can tell when anyone is upset

So he knew straight of the bat, that something was up when you didn’t say hello to him

Your eyes had a far away look and he decided he hates that look on your face

So his heart broke when he saw you burst into tears when he walked into your room

He never hugged you tightly so fast in his life

Mammon drew patterns on your back and swayed slightly to calm you down

When you did, he asked you who made you upset

When you explained your situation, he obviously didn’t know what to say

He knew how much you cared for your father

He wasn’t going to not try comfort you though

“I know how much you care for him MC, but I’m sure the surgery will go well. Would you like me to send a crow to see how your father is doing - I hate seeing you upset”

The crow did tell you that your dad was a little exhausted but was doing fine

The day after, mammon swore he’d do anything to keep you smiling

Leviathan

Levi does online classes and hardly ever goes to school unless its for a meeting with diavolo

So when he heard you come into your room, he never bolted so fast in his life

He wanted to watch an ova of tsl with you

But that excitement died down when he saw you sobbing on your bed

He may be awkward, but he is an older brother to 4 siblings

He pulled you into side hug and stroked your hair

When he managed to calm you down, he asked what happened

He asked you then if you wanted a distraction from your mind – he didn’t know how to comfort you

When you agreed, levi took you to his room, he sat you down on his lap and you watched the ova

“I hope your dad gets better mc, i-i hate seeing you cry”

Satan

Satan wanted to go with you to a cat cafe, and he went to find you

He was very excited to go of course but he wanted you with him

So he bursts into the room and sees you upset

He asked you if you’re alright - and you started crying

He never ran to your side so fast

He is holding you close as comfortably as he can just like mammon did to him when he was younger

He told you to take deep breath to calm you down, and asked you what was wrong

You told him what happened, and, if he’s being honest, he had no clue what to say

But he did try to make you feel better

He needed to give you a distraction, so he got a book he always loved and read it to you

Either you were exhausted from crying or this book was magic, because you fell asleep

Satan lowkey wanted to check for himself if your father was okay, he wanted to reassure you when you woke up

Your father was indeed in safe hands, MC

Asmodeus

Asmo wanted to gossip with you, as one does, but he couldn’t find you

I guess he kinda forgot you live in a house, not in a school

Once he got his ass out of the school, he dashed home - straight to your room

Gives you eye contact and you burst out crying

Horny and narcissistic asmo out the window, here comes the king of comfort

Hugs you tightly [prolly feels soo safe in his arms] and asks you if you want to go to his room

So he takes you there via teleportation, and makes you sit on the bed

See, asmo was the brother that satan and the twins and levi go to if mammon isn’t available, so he does know how to calm them and comfort them in his own way

So he’s wiping your tears and asks you whats wrong

When you explain, he stays silent for a little, and asks if you want a distraction or if you just want some quiet

Whatever you ask of him, he would do, whether you want cuddles or a little self care session, he’ll give it to you

By the end of this, asmo managed to make you smile- a small smile, but still a smile

He also decides to ask lucifer to check on your father for you also made him swear to secrecy since he doesn’t think you want everyone finding out

He never wants to see you cry MC

Beelzebub

Beel came home pretty early but he was in the kitchen, so he didn’t see you go to your room

He’s quite worried already, since he doesn’t think he could hold his hunger off till dinner, but he does just fine

While dinners being made, he decided to check up your room since you didn’t say hello

He brings a bunch of snacks just in case he gets hungry and makes his way to your room

When he opens the door, he expected anything and everything but you crying

Older Twin mode activated

He hugs the everliving shit out of you, obviously minding his strength

Because he is the tallest, you are now technically being carried

Once you calm down, beel wipes your tears and seats you on his lap, he asks you whats wrong

He’s definitely a great listener as well, his eyes looking at you with understanding

His father was not like this, but he knows how important fathers are to humans

He asks you if you have eaten, and when you shake ya head no, he gives you a snack that he was gonna eat but clearly you need it more

He tells you that your father will get better, that everything will be fine

Honestly at this point he’s just reassuring you and swaying you side to side

Beel managed to distract you pretty well, because now he’s fully hungry, and he ends up whisking you away to the kitchen with him happy that you have a little smile on your face because of usual antics

The next day, beel still assured you that your father was doing fine, he was going to to keep an eye on you in case you get upset again

He doesn’t like seeing you upset MC

Belphegor

Olay first off, this little shit somehow was in you room

He woke up when you started sniffling and one look at your face, he knew that you were sad

So he crawls up to your lap, and you didn’t notice because you were far too deep in your head

Now he’s fully awake, and he decided to hug you, not knowing what to say

Something about his hugs made you feel very safe and sleepy-he was very soft somehow

You slowly stopped crying, and just buried your head in his shoulder

He sleepily asks you why you were crying, and when you told him, he had many questions running through his head

Lemme remind you this is the same guy who turned his hands into a necklace for you

He knew from past conversations with you that your father was one hell of a decent man

So he obviously is sorta mad because - “ who the heck stabbed your dad?”

Yes he kinda put your dad on his ‘must protect’ list

Anyway he decided to sing a little lullaby to you, which, gaddamn, it worked wonders

He cant comfort for shit, so you were only getting a hug and a lullaby out of him

Either ways, he may have been silent the whole time, but he was still gonna hold you because he’s too lazy to get up.

Fear not, dear MC, your father will perfectly fine, he checked and your father was sleeping soundly : the surgery was a success

However, those who stabbed your father tried to fuck around and find out, now they were out of date and needed to be disposed of

I am so sorry this took so long sweetheart

[with-the-same-tattoos]

What do you think the sawyers parents were like?

Ok so I have like a whole hc timeline I would like to write down one day and WILL and KINDA STARTED TO WRITE DOWN, but u r literally asking me about the parents not the whole Sawyer family, so I'm gonna limit this to talking about them 😭💖 i'm a mess.

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Ok so !!!!! I have kind of a specific image of them in my head rn. Might change but yk.

I like to imagine that grampas son is their dad. Some mostly straight laced seeming lad from the meat plant, who. Started the whole cannibalism theme. I have a lot of thoughts on when that started and why but I won't go into it. But pap pap Sawyer was the dude. I imagine him as this gangly looking tall kinda lad who smiled a lot, who you could have a beer with, hang out w for a while, but who u really shouldn't talk much w, bc he would always kinda steer towards some slightly... odd... subjects. Morbid. Even slightly occult. I love that kind of country gothic flavored occultism. I don't see it as having stayed in the family, but I see papa Sawyer making some weird knicknacks meant to be functional objects for curses n stuff  that later inspired Nubbinses art. Quiet, but also- really distant. I think he would'v died around when Drayton was in his teens. I kinda feel like Drayton was more of a mommas boy, but Nubbins liked to hang around dads workshop and watch him work on his reading and such after work work. He wouldv' been distant, but open to Nubbins when he realized the kid was interested in whatever weird shit he got up to.

As for mama Sawyer, her coming from outside the family, I kinda like to imagine that she is just from a more "normal" family. maybe a little wealthier, but not too much. But like, her also working at the meat plant? Idk I just really love the image of this pretty tall 50s housewife coming from a neat family, but secretly being a natural born Sawyer; weird, crooked, and INCREDIBLY passionate about the meat industry. Immediately getting hired at the plant, coming in with a nice little brunette bobcut to do. Meat plant work. Very capable!!! Lovely lady. Unlike dad, I imagine her being jsut extremely in your face weird, but so loud and charming abt it that she kinda got away w it?

I like to think that mama & papa Sawyer were incredibly in love and got along well even tho they were pretty busy w their own tasks !!! As i mentioned I like to think that Drayton was a bit of a mommas boy. Inherited her bright cheery smile and funky fashion <3

(I think from the kids, Chop Top was the one to seek the outside world the most, kinda trying to make friends w some of the other kids, etc, and was a bit more unattached from the parents??? Dunno.bubba wouldv been too young when they died to properly remember them.) (In my hcs i mean.)

So yeah sorry thsi was very rambly but I just love the Sawyer family and again, I just wanna be a part of it so :') i think abt it a lot. Rip.

Also i WOULD LOVE TO HEAR WHAT OTHER FOLKS IMAGINE THE SAWYER PARENTS BEING LIKE. I HAVENT SEEN COMMENTS ABT THEM???

Somethibg extremely quick. I... have this weird love for the Sawyers ive mentioned before, and I really do wanna do some more in depth content w them. Either some shitty writing or low effort comics. Idk i just like the vibes of tcm2 and wanna try to replicate them, lovingly 😎 im hella sleepy rn so im not making much sense but big thank u for asking!!!!! This is super fun to talk abt !!!!

[zuffer-weird-girl]

ok but toxic relationship with kai scenario got me feeling some kind of way... like imagine you're a villain/his rival, and you two somehow end up hooking up (you don't have to do nsfw if you're uncomfortable!!) and it escalates to a very toxic love and hate relationship. I think One More Night by Maroon5 gives off these vibes 😅

He sighed when his ears peeked up the sounds of metal hitting against eachother and what was suppose to be discret footsteps.

He crouched down quickly to both avoid being stabbed by a knife on his scalp and to create a barrier of the ground. His attacket being more quickly and jumping on the walls of the alley to dodge his attack.

"This is getting annoying." He hissed as hoves started to form obto his skin as he furrowed his eyebrows at the ironic laugh coming from the darkness.

"Hypocrisy of you to call somethibg annoying Chisaki-kun." You smiled as you lowered down your mask as Overhaul narrowed his eyes at you.

He hated when people dared to say this name out loyd, but something about you saying was extremely annoying and bothersome... nore than the others per say.

"Care to explain what in all hell you're doing following me no less?" He sughed in annoyance while grabbing a napkin and wiping his hand that was used earlier.

"I should be asking you the same, spoiled boy." You purred while walking closer to him. Eventually trapping the taller man on the wall of the building as he narrowed his eyes down at you.

"Get off of me you dirty and imbecile thing." He hissed when he felt your nails trail from his bicep to his bare neck...

"Ah ah ah~!" You shook your finger negatively with a mockery and fake poyt as you unclasped his mask to reveal the man whose was considerate dangerous and deadly, was with lips tihhtly shut together "Thats not a way to treat someone you sleep with, right?" You smirked at the sign of the yakusa boss getting ashamed of the statement.

A mistake would say others but for him it was more like a... bussiness. You see, for about half a month you were hired by a rival gang to discovers the Shie hassaikai secrets to dwport to the police, and actually flund out about Eri.

Sure, he could kill you on the spot. But from hos first fight with you he noticed that you were actually... pure. A pure human being with no actual dicease. Whenever he touched you, hives wouldn't errupt from his skin neither would his brain would scream at him to wash his hands immediately.

Some sorta of a sick way to say it... but he was attracted to you. Something not even his commurates thought it was possible... yet no one does actually know about his little encounters with you.

Basically the deal was, you wouldn't deport him to the police and he would put you on the highest places of the Shie Hassaikai or die. You obviously were intrigued by the offer and accepted, attracted by this gorgeos, mysterious yet sociopath man.

Then in one particulary discussion you two, you asides from Rappa was probably the oenly one who had the guts to ahout at him even, it just kinda... happened.

Never his life would he think he would grow sexually active with someone he in fact hated it with all his soul but yet couldn't pass a week even without getting to know what were you doing.

"We arent lovers." He hissed when you licked his neck and hummed on him, the vibrations sending shivers on him.

"That hurts." You giggled before smilling at Chisaki whose growled and grabbed your wrist to prevent you of touching his belt "So what you call us? Hm??"

"Nothing." He hissed as your face turned into a serious one as he felt your knee rubbing on his hard on.

"Doesn't seem like nothing." You smirked "I am in quite the mood tonight Kai, so unless you want me telling apl the heroes about that poor little girl, you will do as I say tonight.... lower down this little mafia boss attitude puppy." You purred as he clenched his handa on your wrists.

"Ever call me that again and I will tear you apart (L/n)."

"What happened to angel? Chisaki?" You growled on his face as well as you two exchanged both heated and hateful glares.

".... my room at midnight." He growled as he rougly let your wrist go, you scoffed at him as he walked away as you rubbed the red spot on your wrist.

"I will make you cry for this." You muttered seductively as he throw you a dirty and disgusted one sided glare.

"It looks like it will be the other way around."

[smokahuntis]

hey, just looked over your prompt list... could you do 4, 15 and 24 with Kylo? Idc just do your best

Bet

Pairing: Kylo Ren x Reader.

Prompts : “I’m not cleaning that up.” “Am I bleeding?” “If you say another word, I’m going to shut you up myself.”

Summery: (y/n) is Kylo Ren’s apprentice, and when she, Phoenix and Bubba take on heavy fire from the Resistance he comes to save them and find out what went wrong.

Warnings: Violence! Murder! Angst! Not a lot of Kylo!

Authors note: I do not own the characters Phoenix and Bubba! This is a collaboration with my friend @hxldmxdxwn who so nicely let me use them! Also I’m sorry this kinda turned into just them for a minute because I miss my boys.

Fire, fire rained down from the burning trees and weapons that sounded in the distance. Most of the troopers she brought with her are dead, and most of the resistance that opposed her had found the same fate. She called for pick up almost an hour ago and no one was there, she tried reaching out to her master but nothing would come threw. She couldn’t hear him, almost couldn’t even feel he was alive.

He trusted her to do this one mission alone, it wasn’t even supposed to go this way. It was a simple ask some questions get some answers type mission with a few locals. But how we ended up here was a different story.

She was walking back to her ship with her to trusted guards YO-988 and YW-382. Phoenix and Bubba, Kylo’s most trusted troopers and probably the only two who could actually call her by her first name. Also the only two allowed to escort her or train with her. They quickly became her best friends around The Finalizer, training with her when her master was to busy, and protecting her when he became a little to viscous.

Her black and red cape blew in the winds of the forest as she made her way back to the ship, her lightsaber attached to her side tightly. Bubba felt somethibg was wrong before she did, stopping in front of her and putting his hand in front of her, his silver armor shining in the light of the forest. Just as Phoenix was about to ask what was wrong he felt it too, and quickly all three of them were bringing out their weapons.

“This should be fun!” Phoenix said looking over his shoulder to the shorter girl and his partner. The red light from her lightsaber shining against his golden armor.

“You need to get back to the ship princess!” Bubba said looking down at her figure.

“I’m not leaving you guys!”

“We can take care of our selves!” They said at the same time. Just as the Resistance men starting coming towards them, they were moving fast and the soldiers quickly realized it was to late for her to get to the ship with how far it was. Phoenix’s right hand came out pushing her closer to them as he shot down Resistance soldiers. Bubba in the other hand stayed close to them but moved away starting hand to hand combat with his staff.

She loved their protective nature over her but hated that she knew she could handle herself, and she was going to prove it, and here was her chance. Bubba was a little to occupied to notice someone get to close the golden plated marksman, swinging her red lightsaber threw the hair taking him out easily and catching a small thanks from Phoenix, but everything only continued, getting harder for just the three of them. She reached down to a band on her wrist snapping it letting the wired band hit the ground of the forest. The breaking of it alerted the ship of troopers above waiting that something is wrong. Quickly troopers rained down from the sky assisting them in the battle that ensued.

Phoenix turned quickly to make sure (y/n) was still close by as he saw bubba miss a shot.

“Hey cum dumpster! Targets over there!” He said shooting someone behind bubba with complete ease. Bubba only rolled his eyes under the helmet and threw a knife behind Phoenix nearly cutting his helmet as it went into the Resistance soldiers head.

“You’re welcome cumshot!”

“You two shut up and cover me.” She said running back to the ship with them following close behind, taking out anything and anyone that got to close to them or her.

Just as they reached the ship she quickly got on sending out a signal to the Finalizer.

“If the ship working?” Bubba said as he boarded walking over to her looking down at the panel, no fuel.

“I think one of them took out the tank, but I can still get a signal out...” she said working on the codes finally sending a signal out to her master, Kylo Ren. The blasting and loud noises outside quickly calmed down as Phoenix entered the ship looking at her.

“Am I bleeding?” He said taking his helmet off, one side was broken and you could see the emerald gem stones he called eyes.

“Fuel is empty...” she said before a loud noise came from the outside sending them all out rushing to see it. An X-Wing, flew over head letting fire rain down on them Phoenix moved her behind him quickly taking the shot he had, the pilot was gone and the plain came crashing down near them, setting the forests around it ablaze.

Though they thought that would be the last of it they were wrong, it was a distraction for more men to come towards them. But they all got separated quickly which was something the two troopers always hated. But (y/n) didn’t mind, she liked being able to fight openly and not worry about hurting her partners as she took out soldier after soldier, she fought gracefully not caring for the pain that took over them as she cut them down. And that’s how they got here.

She stood in the middle of bodies, her cape flowing around her as YO-988 and YW-382 came back to her, noticing the fire in her eyes instantly, a fire that could only be matched by her master. And speaking of the devil, a ship landed close by, and the first person to exit was Kylo Ren himself. Phoenix and Bubba knowing of Kylo’s little crush on the girl caused them to nudge each other and giggle, waiting for Kylo’s reaction to the mess his little apprentice had made.

She looked up seeing his masked figure and instantly her lightsaber shut down and clicked back to her waist. Before he could ask what happened she spoke up completely leaving him dumbfounded with the tone she used.

“I’m not cleaning that up!” She spat out and pushed past him into the ship, she was filled with anger and he could feel it, he could feel it run threw her as if it was his own veins being fueled with fire.

He stood there looking around them at what seemed to be hundreds of bodies, not only resistance but storm troopers as well, he looked up at his two trusted friends and sighed, looking for answers. But they just followed him onto the ship and to the small living space it held where they found (y/n) sitting there getting looked at by a nurse.

“What happened?” Kylo said taking off the helmet feeling safe with the troopers and her.

“Hux is a fucking liar...” she said glancing up at him, it was never like her to use such language, she was always quiet and never really fought, so today was completely out of character for her. Kylo not understanding where this came from he looked to her troopers for help.

“The locals knew nothing, and when we were on our way back we were ambushed.” Bubba said looking at Kylo who looked down thinking of ways this could have just been an accident and not what it was. But he wasn’t willing to accept it until someone said it.

“We were sent out there to die...” the apprentice said pulling the attention of everyone in the room to her.

“Leave us...” Kylo Ren said and quickly with out another word everyone left the room leaving just the two Sith to themselves. “What do you mean...” he said in a low tone as he moved towards her. She stood to try and meet his eye but never able to get high enough. He always towered over her.

“We were sent to a back water planet with nothing but forest and small towns! “ she growled out looking at him. “When we got there I didn’t sense a thing! Nothing was wrong until after! Someone knew we were coming!” She said looking at him, the implication she was making could be huge, and probably the biggest problem he could have other then liking his Padawan.

“Shut up...” he growled out looking down at her.

“No! Look at it how it is Ren! Three of your best men were sent out there and I’m surprised we made it out!” He his came up quickly grabbing her by her collar and staring into her rage filled eyes.

“If you say another word, I’m going to shut you up myself!” He said holding her collar tightly, their faces inches apart. He expected the threat to make her calm down and understand, but the fire in her eyes didn’t fade, it grew. It grew so bright it started a flame in his chest, but her words pored gasoline over it, causing it to spread.

“Do it...” she said calmly and his lips came crashing down to hers like the x-wing Phoenix shot down. Her blood covered hands coming up to grip the sides of his face as his moved to her waist pulling her closer. It would have gotten a lot farther had the two troopers not came back in.

“Boss man we go- oh shit!” Bubba said looking at them, Phoenix’s face dropped and his eyes rolled.

“Damnit...” he groaned handing over credits to Bubba.

“I win!”

[allthingsobeyme]

Little Mermaid AU pt.4

(( @eddieveneziano is co writer

MC chuckled as they finished tending to Lucifer. They tilted their head and smiled kindly as Lucifer and the other brothers making their hearts collectively jump.

"I shall have the maids prepare some proper clothes for you all for now you all need to bathe in the meantime, Simeon will take to the baths"

The brothers all nodded and MC soon stpped out of the room.

Mammon was still blushing, all them were actually and Lucifer smiled softly.

'I suppose we'll need to work around being unable to speak but, its time'

All seven jumoed whent he door opened to reveal a young man.

"Ah! You must be Prince/Princess MC's guests, come this way I shall show you to the baths!'

What was a bath?

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Oh so that's a bath

MC came into the royal bath house, huffing and puffing. "What is it Simeon? Did something happen to the boys?", MC asked with their hand on their chest.

Simeon shrugged. "More or less. These gentlemen won't go near the water no matter how much I tell them it's safe.  I won't blmae them thou. You do found them er, naked by the beach yes?"

At the far corner of the room, MC could see the boys hundle together with the one with the black hair(Lucifer) standing infront as if protecting them.

MC bit their lips before walking over to the black haired. They smiled gently and then carefully held Lucifer's hand, unknown to the fact that the former mermaid's heart was ready to birst out.

"Come now..."

He carefully guided them to the bath as Lucifer's eyes widened.

"This bath is safe, nothing is going to hurt you here"

Lucifer purswd his lips and pokes at the water. True to MC's words it was intact safe. Even if there was lots of foam like bubbles.

Being a former mermaid made the prospect of swimming irresistible.

All the brothers dove right in.

"Oh my..."MC giggled.

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After that one eventful bath time, it's time to eat.

The boys were astonished with the variety of human food. How colourful! Oh it smells so good! Oh it's so...so...

So human!

Beelzebub was the first to dive in. Literally, I mean. He smacks his face in a bowl of mashed potato. Belphegor took one of the hot soup and drank it straight from the bowl. Then his face turned red.

Mammon gasped and took one of the fork. He remember seeing it on MC's ship and he used it to brush his hair, thinking that it's a hairbrush that the humans used. But he hides it away when he notice that Simeon and MC is looking at him so weirdly.

Lucifer looks on, seeing his brothers happily eating the food offered by MC. Back in their sea kingdom, receiving food from the other species meant one thing.

'This human is courting us...' he mused before he too, dive in to eat.

"I take it you all have nowhere to go?"

Satan lookef uo, face messy from food as he nodded, Lucifer looked up as well as MC hummed and set down their fork.

Simeon then suggested an idea, he had observed they could make good servants.

"Hmm...My lord/lady, we could have them live here and work for you?" Simeon turned his head to MC, MC put a finger on their lips...

"I suppose, if you want to work here I mean?"

MC stared at the brothers whom all stopped eating the meal and looked at each other as if speaking telepathically.

Lucifer stared at MC and nodded vigrously. 'Of course we'd gladly stay by you' he mentally exclaimed.

They'd be closer to there human!

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"I take it that all of you can't speak?", Simeon asked with an amused face. Lucifer can feel his eyes twitching with irritation. Simeon chuckled and handed them their servant clothes

"My Greatness will send in the royal tailor to measured up your size. For now, this will do. I'm Simeon, if you got anything to ask you can come look for me"

Leviathan is ready to throw hands at the moment but he was held down by Beelzebub.

'Let me at em I had enough of this stinky human!', Levi internally yelled. Satan shakes his head. 'Can you for once stop trying to pick fights? You're no longer a beta fish remember?', Satan raised his brow while his eyes looking downloads at Leviathan's skinny legs. 'Let me at em' !!!!', he yelled internally again.

The brothers sighed. Wait...

'Where's Mammon?!'

'Heheheh! All of these shinies'

This fucker managed to sneak into the royal treasurey, Mammon's eyes shined as he dug into the gold piles of gems and metals.

'So much human shiny things! I love it'

Mammon laughed internally but stopped when a voice spoke, MC's.

"What are you doing here?"

MC was stanfing by the doorway as Mammon scrambled and stood up. He blushed in embarassment but MC just smiled kindly.

"I'm not mad, but I am curious...Did something catch your eye"

He walked over to the small pile Mammon made.

"Servants are not allowed here you know"

Mammon blushed in embarrassment and also looked ashamed, he blew it for him and his brothers...

"But I can give you something..."

He stared at them in shack and he stared at what was in their hands. A silver choker with a yellow gem at the center.

"You can't enter here again...But you can have this...Consider it my welcoming gift to the castle"

Mammon blushed as MC's hands glided on his neck and put the choker on.

"Now go on...Go to your brothers, they are at their room"

Mammon nodded and ran out. He smiled a big stupid smile.

'Brothers! Look what MC gave me!'

In the sea kingdom giving somethibg like a necklace was considered another form of courting.

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The boys internally gasped. Except for Belphie who is sleeping and Beel who is....

'BEEL! You're not supposed to eat that!', Asmo shrieked internally. He quickly pulled Beel away from....Whatever he is eating.

Beel still munching on the blanket, 'Sorry I'm so hungry. I guess even as a human I'm still hungry....', he mumbled.

Lucifer sighed and facepalms. Guess being a human is not as easy as he thought. Not only the human has courted them first, it seems that his idiotic of a brother has gotten a gift.

A gift! He needs to act quickly, it is not fair for the human to court them and yet they haven't return the favour.

Back in their kingdom, their merfolks danced and sing songs to attract the potential mate or courting.

They all can't sing obviously. With that in mind, Lucifer absentmindly rub his neck. Hmm...

And they can't dance either. Lucifer can still feel the pain of sharp knifes in every step he take.

'Brothers, it's about time we court the human'

'Huh but how? Also it's not fair Mammon has gotten a gift! I want one too...', Asmo pouted. Mammon soundlessly chuckled.

'That means MC likes me! Oh I can't wait to have eggs with them!'

Satan stroke his underchin.

'Do humans lay eggs too?'

The boys shrugged.

Brainstorming was hard pressed until Satan finally suggested something.

'Simeon said somehing about us learning about MC's interests as he introduces us to their routine, maybe we can find out what they like doing that

Lucifer hummed but Belphie cut the silence.

'Can we brainstorm more tomorrow? Its getting late and I feel tired...We should all sleep too'

Lucifer sighed as Asmo nodded.

'Belphie is right we should get some beauty sleep so we can look pretty for MC!'

Lucifer and the rest nodded as Satan switched of the lamp and dmiled to himself at the cute little light source.

For now they rested.

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The next day....

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"Be honest with me....Have you lot never done any housework?", Luke one of the servants tsk'ed while looking at the mess infront of him.

In front of him is a royal disaster. Lucifer seems to be struggling with balancing the dishes that they ended up broken on the floor around him. Lucifer covers his face with his hands in embarrassment.

Mammon somehow don't know how clothes and gravity works so now he's all tangled up in the blankets he was supposed to fold.

Beelzebub was assigned to cooking with the head chef but he ended up eating almost ALL of the ingredients. The head chef had to hold him back when he started chewing on the table.

Leviathan was assigned to do gardening. But...um....(pushed the mic away) "Dude who even eats worms????" "Just read the script? Okay fine.."

Satan and Asmo was assigned to window cleaning, but because they are still adjusting to their legs, they ended up in a wet mess with the soapy water all over the velvet carpet and the buckets on their heads.

Belphegor? Well....

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"Thank you umm....What should I called you?", MC asked shyly as Belphie serves them tea. It seems that Belphie is fairing pretty well. He smirked which makes MC blushed even harder.

"C-Come to think of it I don't know your names or your friends? Brothers?", MC asked.

Belphie shakes and nods. "Oh brothers ? My you all are so unique and different!", MC laughed heartly.

Belphie can feel his heart swoon.

Simeon just gave his ever patient smile but inside he felt that perhaps them dorwing did more damage then he and the healers initially thought. That or these 7 came from a place where they did not need to perform such tasks.

"Perhaps we should teach them basically skills first hmm Luke"

"Huh...Basic?! We need to teach them everything by the book!"

The 6 brothers all just stood there in embarrassment and hoped the land would consume them.

"Fear not, me and Luke can teach you all, but the young royal...He wants to take you out to see the town and familiaize yourself of this place"

All the brthers looked at eachothwr.

"But when you get back I will teach you all the ropes of being MC's butlers"

[mothhsss]

could you do Four for the character ask game? i just love hims a lot,,,

okay man

favorite thing? squimshy

least favorite? he legit abusive to x at times

favorite line? "woahj woah woah woah woa" and then he thumbs up

brOTP? four and dora good bals dunno if it would be bromancy

OTP? 4x

nOTP? idk, i feel like any ship with him that isnt with x seems kinda off but im down to find somethibg

random hc? he's just a cat with lasers!

song? all i want for christmas or some lemon demon song

fav pic?

[themansmansblog]

Draft day (Chapter 1)

Crystal pov

" Come on Crystal it's draft day your going to be drafted for sure I mean you held the nxt title for basically a year you where unstoppable " Bayley said jumping up and down pulling me inside the performance center.

Bayleys been my best friend sense I've been in developmental, we where pretty close. It was funny in my opinion becasue to most people they see her as the happy and joyful one then they see me and I'm well I'm me.. not as joyful but to her I'm doing my best okay? She always tells me that I look tough i guess thats my resting bitch face acting up. But what's hard is getting me to open up, i have trust issuse after all the stuff ive been through in my life.

"Yea I was champ in tell you beat me" I said walking inside with her as she held on to my arm making sure i didn't walk away from her.

" Hey we agreed that wasn't personal, and beside we hugged after. Keep making stuff up ,but your going to be on the biggest stage there is :and I'll be your biggest fan " Bayley said as we walked to where there was a bunch of seats and the whole nxt locker room was out there sitting down as Monday Night Raw started.

"Carmella tell Crystal she'll be drafted tonight. Or im just gonna go crazy. "Bayley said as we sat down next to Carmella.

"Oh my god you are most definitely being drafted that's not even a question girl. How could raw or Smackdown not invest in the longest reigning NXT womens champion. Its stupid if I say if they dont." Carmella said I nodded my head cracking a small smile at Bayley and Carmella. As I took a deep breath and watched the tv screen.

" I'm so nervous" I mumbled

"Don't be, hey Finn!" Bayley said as Finn Bálor aproched us well Bayley's friend. I've never talked to Finn really. Seen him a bunch of times. How could i not have seen him. Have you seen that mans body?!

"Hello ladies. Ready for the draft?" Finn asked looking at Bayley and glancing at me every now and then smiling polity.

"Hell Yea I can't wait to see this one get drafted after me telling her 100 times already today that she well. And your going to be drafted too leaving me friends less.."Bayley said putting her arm around my neck pulling me close to her as she frowns at her disapproval of being along.

"Love you to Bayley ,but by any chance can you let go of me ?" I asked and I hread a light laugh coming from Finn

"Nah Crystal has a better change then I do" Finn said making me blush at the fact he knew my name.

" Don't say that your going to be the first to go for sure! Who wouldnt want the demon on their team" Bayley said letting her grip on me go. She hit Finn on the arm with him moving back a little protending to be hit hard.

"Haha! Ok well I'm going to sit down have a good time ladies!" Finn said looking over at me smiling. I still had a pinkish color to my cheeks .

"Awe your blushing!! Wait.... do you like Finn?!" Bayley whispered to me.

"Well I can't say I don't find him attractive ,but I don't know about like... you know me and guys.. it just seems to never work.. and besides I don't think I can do it... you know what happend to me" I said bring my hand to my mouth bitting my nails like I always do when i dont know what to say.

"Yea... but Finns different he's the digest dork " Bayley said laughing a little

"I don't know Bay..." I said calling her by her nickname I call her

"Ok. I won't push it ,but if he asks you on a date I swear to god I'll beat the living shit out of you if you say no to him. Hes so a sweet man he needs a chance" Bayley said glancing at me with daggers in her eyes.

"If... key word if" I said rolling my eyes with a slight smile on my face.

"Hey-" Bayley began but I got her off right away.

"Shh it's starting " I said making her stop and we watched as Seth Rollins got drafted to Raw then Dean Amdrose to Smackdown and so forth

"with an eye for the future or next pick comes from NXT " Mick Foley began ,and Bayley was jumping out of her seat excided to learn who it was.

"Finn Bálor" Mick said loudly.

" I knew it !" Bayley said smiling and hugging Finn. He was sitting behind us so I turned around to say my thoughts.

"Congratulations Finn " I said to him smiling.

" Thank you " Finn said smiling and taking a raw shirt that was handed him. We quieted down as Smackdown picked there person again

"Me and Mick both said that our goal was to have a strong woman divison so our next pick comes from nxt too ,and she is the two time nxt women's champion and the longest reigning nxt champion, the most badass bitch in locker room Crystal! " Stephanie said and I sat there shocked as Bayley jumped up bouncing up and down so I stood up hugging her back as i cryed happy tears.

The roster was clapping as Bayley let go of me and of course I was blushing as I got handed a Raw T-shirt.

" Can we get a picture of you and Finn Bálor sense you two where both the frist nxt superstars to be drafted to raw?" A camera person asked pulling us to the side for the photos.

"Uh.. Yea of course" I said hugging Bayley one last time walking acroos the row to get to finn for the picture

"Be nice ok " Bayley calls out giggling.

"Yea yeah " I said putting the t-shirt on moving my hair ,and fixing it a little getting into the ring with Finn standing in the middle with Finn.

"Hey I didn't really ever get to meet you before. I've seen you around and well I'm Finn Bálor " Finn said sticking out his hand for me to shack with I gladly shook

"Crystal. Crystal Foster " I said shacking his hand.

"Nice to properly meet you. " Finn said smiling at me and I gave him a small smile.

" Ok we just want a picture of the two of you i dont really care what pose " the lady said holding up a phone for a picture.

"Just this then" Finn said putting his arm around my shoulder as i put mine around his torso. We smiled the picture was to taken. I got out of the ring going back to Bayley who was smiling at me.

"What?" I asked looking down at my red shirt

"you like him..." she said with that kids like smile on her face.

"Shut up do not!" I said glaring at her as Smakdown picked Alexa Bliss then Raw went back and forth intell we all knew who was going to at Raw and Smakdowns show.

I was a nervous werk. I mean like who dosnt stop and stare when Finn Bálor walks by hes well a very beaftuil man and i got to say i still look at him every now and again.

"Okay people don't get confused we still have a show tommarow night! So go get back to your guys hotel rest. Lets get ready for takeover ,and lets just all give the people who got drafted today a big huge round of Applause. Ill miss you guys and the NXT superstars and universe well sure miss you too" Matt said starting to clapping i smiling waving at everyone clapping as well for the other people who got drafted.

'I cant believe your leaving me " Bayley said frowning ,but hugs me holding me tightly.

"Just means you have to get on my leavl again. Plus, im hungry lets go get somethibg to eat before we head back to the hot to crash" i say smiling

"I have an idea. Lets invite everyone who got drafed to a dinner tonight.. Like we use to do when it was late after a show. Just hit up a diner and have no last dinner. Itllbe a goodbye dinner!" Bayley said smiling with enjoyment.

"Yeah sounds good ill go talk to the girls then you can go ask the guys sense you have better moves then i do" I told her as we go our separate ways

"So like olds time right ?" Nia askes smiling when i got over to the group. Well my close net group was pretty much Bayley and Sasha. With Carmella, Nia and Alexa being a very close friends too

"Yes exactly so im here asking you guys if you would come as i dont ask a lot of you ,but god it would be nice to have like a far well dinner before i have to beat you back up" i said laughing at my joke looking at my friend group that i love dearly.

Nia and Alixa look at each then back at me " We're in meet you guys there" Nia said smiling as her and Alixa make there way outside.  I already talked to Carmella and let me just say i don't know who was happier her getting invited or Bayley coming up with the idea.

"So like old times then? " Sasha asks wrapping her arm around my neck as we meet back up with Bayley.

"So all the guys well be there and Finn" Bayley said nagging me with her eldow expecting to get a reaction out of me.

"Oooo she like Finn?!" Sasha asks smiling glancing at me. "Why didnt you tell me?" Sasha asked shooked.

"Well bayley pryde it out of me not like I was expecting to tell her" I say bitting my nails like I always do.

"Okay okay i dont agree with that! It was writen all over your face that you liked Finn" Bayley says as we all headed to the car to meet up for dinner with everyone.

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[tumblunni]

Misc thoughts of rambling development for my new yokai watch ocs family of hugs and sadness (blythe the Dimmy and amber the Gorgeous Ambassador)

* Amber was totally still Gorgeous Ambassador at heart even back when he was human. I feel like he probably dressed very plain and was very self concious for a long time, as well as also being poor as dirt so it wasnt really easy to be super fashion time. Perhaps the only way he was really able to be remotely flambouyant or pretty was just having a long ponytail that he was very proud of. It would have been easier to maintain a shorter hairstyle when you're struggling to even find somethibg to eat each day let alone a bath, but it just helped him hold on to a tiny bit of confidence. Even when he reincarnated as Gorgeous Ambassador he was still unconfident for a long time and it took all these centuries to fully embrace The Power Of Gorgeous. He was probably really shocked when he got his medal registered and heard his new yokai name, like uhh excuse me "must beautiful man who spreads beauty through the world with his smile" are you sure there hasnt been a mixup??? And nowadays he's become so happy with himself that he maybe dresses a little bit gaudy sometimes, but if you saw how he used to feel then you'd absolutely be cheering for him!

* he was probably worried that Blythe wouldn't recognise him when he finally managed to reunite with them, but i think the lil shadow ghost instantly knew it was their brother and ran straight into the biggest hug ever. "Im worried they'll think im all cringe and gaudy" NO UR LIL SIB IS IN AWE OF YOUR FASHION POWER AND HAPPY FOR YOUR CONFIDENCE

* I also think Amber would absolutely be proud of how much confidence Blythe has gained through travelling with the protagonist and co. Like "aaa the last time i saw you you were so tiny and shy!" "Yes, now i'm tall and shy!" "NUUUU STOP PUTTING YOURSELF DOWN"

* basically they are absolutely Shyness Fam, and Amber just approaches his anxieties differently with over-the-top fake boasting about his greatness instead of being honest about how bad he feels. So thats why itd be so heartwarming to see him genuinely making progress and genuinely seeing good parts of himself. ALL THANKS TO THE INTERNATIONAL GORGEOUSNESS ASSOCIATION OF THE AFTERLIFE, YES *cheesy makeover ads fly by in the background*

* Dimmy's fave food is rice balls not just cos ninja monster = rice balls, but cos for Blythe specifically it brings back happy memories of backstory ninja Amber in ye olden days packing lunches of love for his tiny friend. He was always broke in between finding bountys to hunt, so he was never able to cook anything too fancy, but those simple meals became associated with childhood in Blythe's heart. All the times this big strong human swordsman would have a moment of gentleness and offer his last bit of food to a useless little yokai like them. ("No!! You're a valued part of the team!! And growing children need this more than i do!! Besides, i'm so tough i don't need to eat." *stands up for a minute and blacks out*)

* Since this backstory took place before thee yokai watch was invented, you cant technically say Amber was Blythe's previous watchholder but like.. He totally was? Same formula of being a human you partner with and then go around fighting/befriending other yokai. I like to think that maybe before yokai medals became the latest trend and they set up the whole official regulated medal registration process, yokai would still give their human friends some sort of token of their friendship but it was just less organised. Like imbuing their soul energy into all sorts of shit like This Leaf I Found or One Shoe. Which could be used in the same way to summon them but obv was less conveinient, haha! I'm thinking maybe Blythe's bond object was just a neat rock, cos they were so young and didnt really own anything else to gift to this human. Like all they had was the coal from the hearth in the house they used to haunt, but thatd be too crumbly so they dug through to find the sturdiest and prettiest rock and Amber was like straigjt up crying from how touched this whole thing made him. I WILL TREASURE THIS PEBBLE MY TINY MONSTER CHILD...

* oh but just to rub salt in the wound i think he couldnt find it again when he woke up floating over his own burned corpse in the wreckage of his final fateful battle. There uhh..wasnt much of himself left, let alone anything he was holding. Itd kinda have to be that way cos if it worked like a yokai medal itd mean Amber could have instantly reunited with his friend and cut out all of these years of sad backstory, alas

* ok but imagine the cute and sweet emotionalness of then being able to swap medals when they see each other again, and have an actual magical guarantee of never losing their family ever again.

* I feel like Amber only initially agreed to join the Gorgeous Association because he wanted to get a job in the yokai world and save up to buy a decent house and decent level of income so that there would be a hapoy home waiting for his child whenever he finally found them. He didnt really believe that he had the potential to be a fashion icon, he just went along with it as an employment opportunity in his weird new ghost life. But OH NO, accidental self confidence!! (We are all very proud of him)

* oh and the Gorgeous Association doesnt work 100% identical to the anime version, i just like the anime's general concept. I feel like Gorgeous Ambassador is indeed a yokai species and not just a title, its less 'you were chosen by random lottery' and more 'you were chosen by destiny'...? Shy people who have potential to be fashion icons just tend to end up becoming the shy-people-with-potential-to-become-fashion-icons yokai, aka this. And the Gorgeous Association takes responsibility for finding all new Gorgeouses and training them to use their new powers instead of just staying in their shyness. Its more of a self help club? Oh and also the membership is full of other types of fashion yokai too, its not just Gorgeous Ambassadors. Just its only Gorgeous Ambassadors that get visited by the president as soon as they die and given a special invitation to join. So basically interpreting Gorgeous Ambassador as more 'this yokai is named that cos its powers are about encouraging people to be more confident aka introducing them to the world of fashion'. And less the idea that all Gorgeous Ambassadors used to be a different type of yokai and you can only become one by being picked by the club lottery. And also that its just a costume with no actual powers?? That was funny in the anime but i prefer if they actually could inspirit people and make them more confident and stuff.

* I FEEL LIKE IM EXPLAINING THIS BADLY, SORRY! Ok so uhh like yknow some clubs are all exclusive entry "you are not this thing til you join"? Like you cant be a country club member til you join the country club, and the sense of comeraderie there is just all being rich enough to pay for membership rather than having anything in common. But then there's stuff like lgbt groups or mental health support groups where youre all already the same thing and thats WHY you join the club. Anime version had Gorgeous Association be a country club and Gorgeous Ambassador be just a membership name rather than a real yokai form. Which, again, was really funny but i feel like it only works in a more gag focused series like the anime. Here i'm interpreting it that you can just be born in the species Gorgeous Ambassador, same as any other yokai like jibanyan or whatever, and it actually does have its own special powers and stuff. And its just that the Gorgeous Association sends out invites to any newborn yokai that have fashion related powers. So not all Gorgeous Ambassadors actually join the Gorgeous Association. Oh and Kageusuo is the actual yokai species name for those unaffiliated ones. The anime seemed to say that kageusuo was an unrelated new yokai that isnt in the games, that was just invented to have a form that Gorgeous Ambassador had before he became Gorgeous Ambassador. But i have Other Ideas

* i'll make it a new bullet point cos im getting all disorganized now aaaa

* ok so Kageusuo (or my fanmade eng dub name Shamshade) is Gorgeous Ambassador. Same thing. Same species. Kageusuo is a yokai personifying the idea of a fashionable beautiful person who never reached their potential in life due to social anxiety/bullying. Like an 'ugly duckling' story. Their default form is this shadowy looking depressed dude because their power is that they drain shadows from people, vampire style. This makes you 'less overshadowed", so you become more confident and people notice your unique style! But kageusuo cant use its powers on itself, so a lot of them stay in this shy form forever and just continue repeating the same overshadowed life they have as a human. The fabulous form that Gorgeous Ambassador has in the games is just simply the same yokai dressing differently- a kageusuo that managed to conquer its anxieties from its past life and take steps to embrace its true self! But theyre not actually any different in terms of powers, theyre still shadow vampires and their power to make people fabulous is just them eating your shadow. It was something they could already do before they became fabulous themself, now theyre just confident enough to match their powers, yknow? And also unrelatedly there's a club called Gorgeous Association that this particular kageusuo joined, which personally helped him in his journey of self confidence so he goes by the nickname Gorgeous Ambassador to advertise it. (Which is even more nicknamed into Amber cos he thinks it sounds cute)

* WHY ARE MY HEADCANONS SO OVERCOMPLICATED AAAaa

* anyway just imagine a vampire movie but its a supermodel lurching out of the shadows groaning "I VANT TO SUCK YOUR ANXIETY" and then when he bites you you become more confident. This is a Good Concept so i will somehow find a way to use it, dammit!! *b movie music* "OH NO THE MONSTER GOT TERRY" *terry suddenly wearing applebottom jeans*

* also imagine all of that but also the dude is a weird samurai being all "wow the wonders of the future" about thos applebottom jeans

* why do all my headcanons start as angst and end up as nonsense like this

[kawaiianimeredhead]

Oh right I wanted to rant. Im still on my phone so there might be typos but oh well

Edit: this got way longer and rambly than I expected oops. I hope this read more works, i never actually checked yesterday when I used it to see if it still worked on mobile so if it doesnt oops and sorry

Anyways. In september a new company took over our contract and thats a whole rant on its own. The previous lead (my dad but not important) left before the new company came and he left Sam in charge. Sam has been there for like four or five years and he's a pretty good guy. When the new cobtract started he was very quickly overwhelmed with the bs and also with the paper abd computer stuff he had to do so he stepped down. Hes still there and actually was still in charge for a bit after he stepped down because we didnt have a new lead.

And now we do have a new lead. This was apparently a Process from what ive heard. Nobody really wanted the job and im not sure how the Boss from the company even went about hiring but i heard that a couple people he considered weren't interested and then I was told that someone was hired or was going to be hired and quick before she even started. I heard these from two differenr people because one told me she qas being walked around and woukd start soon and another said she wasnt coming a day or so later. Someone was hired though and the first night he was there so was the Boss showing him around kinda. I spoke with him a bit and he seemed nice. Def better than the Boss who I cant stand beinf around for long hes got weird and annoying vibes around him.

None of this is actually particularly relevant or necessary for this rant but it came out anyways.

So this new lead has tried all thr different shifts/jobs out and and has been with us for like a month or so now maybe? The first schedule he was properly scheduled on was such a SHIT week/schedule because I went from working 5-4 days a week to 3 and instead of doing bathrooms which is 3 hours or 4 depending on if I'm also doing trash to working 2 hours one day, 2 or 3 the next, and 3 or 4 the last. And it sucks. Then, the first schedule to come out that he made (with the help of the Boss) had ALL of us on less days and hours and HE now working every day but one and working both in the morning AND at night. Now I'm not convinced this was soley his decision because I know he made this schedule with the Boss and i have a suspicion that the Boss encouraged him or persuaded him or some other kind of bull shit to do the schedule like this. And then the week after was the same schedule copied again and this week coming up is the same minus a few small changes.

Now all this is annoying and bull shit on its own but not even the main fuel to this rambling rant. With this schedule, hes scheduled to clean the bathrooms and trash every day except Sunday, which is when I am scheduled on them. Last week was the first week of this and besides the day I'm specificed to do bathrooms im not given a specific job. Imbonly told to do "extras" so ive asked Sam and hes told me to do offices one day and some windows the other. I come in Saturday ready to do the windows which ive been dying to do because they look awful and they used to be my Thing so I get really annoyed about them often but then I notice the trash hadnt been done. So I start doing that thinking maybe that was what I was supposed to be doing. Then while doing this I notice the main breakroom doesnt look particularly clean, breakrooms are a part of the bathroom persons job. This was annoying but because it wasnt Bad I left it. I then go to the next break room which is smaller and always messier because more people stay in it for longer, this one also looked dirtier than it should be. In addition, the bathroom's trash hadnt beeb taken out which is a part of the bathroom job. Bathroom trash is separate from trash trash as far as jobs go, theyre usually done together but if someone is doinf "extras" and someone else bathrooms, bathrooms normally gets bathroom trash abd extras the rest. Something felt really off about the bathroom as well and combined with the breakdowns I had a suspicion that bathrooms hadnt been done. So I decided to check the costumer bathrooms for their trash and their cleanliness. When I got there they absolutely had not been done. Which ! I hadn't planned for. I was taking my time on trash and now I had to do bathroom s.

Nobody had been called or texted about the lead not being at work. And he absolutely has our numbers. We used to sign in on a time sheet and that would have helped us noticed but we recently got a finger print time clock which, as far as I know, we cant check other peoples hours on. So we had no fucking clue he just hadnt been in the previous night.

Then this week comes along. Friday talking with Sam he mentioned something along the lines of not checking the bathrooms. Mentioning that its not really our fault if we dont abd they havent been done because since were not scheduled for them, we have no reason to assume they wouldnt be done. So I hadnt looked in the bathrooms but I did notice the break room looked a bit messy and which had me a bit concerned about a repeat of the previous week. But I didnt wanna do them and I knew Sam didnt either so I left it be but texted nick to ask if hed seen the lead the previous night. Nick confirmed hed been in and was seen cleaning the bathrooms. Yesterday, I briefly looked into the main break room and it looked not great, and then later I went to the bathroom in the smaller breakroom's bathroom (they have really nice soap they buy themselves thats not really importantto this tho) and noticed that one looked AWFUL. It absolutly hadnt been swept and I felt bad but it wasnt what I was scheduled for so I just kinda left it... Their bathroom also had 1ply toilet paper in it, which is what we had when the company first took over it its AWFUL everyone complained so we switched but the unused rolls are still in our closet. Nobody told our new lead this so he had put some of this in the bathrooms. Then later on in the morning, I noticed several trash cans had stuff in it. Not trash but like residue from trash? Like sticky spots of soda oe coffee, some gum, things like that. Basically things that pointed to him only dumping out the trash and not changing the bag. The bags dont always get changed everyday, thats not really an issue, but if theres something still kinda in them they normally are changed because thats gross and why would it just be left like that... I also noticed that up front by the entrance door none of the trash had been got. The busiest area for trash (from customers) and it was still ! There! And I had actually heard Friday or last Friday that this wasnt the first time. Again I left it because I had other things to do.

Now this morning. I worked bathrooms and trash. Trash went ok, I changed a lot of the bags becsuse I prefer to do it regardless and it was just normal overall. Then bathrooms. The bathroom cart is a mess. Which started my mood. The top is all unorganized and theres dirty water in the mop bucket. When I went go get new water, I had set the mop off to the side assuming it had already veen run out and dried because it had been in the part of the bucket where you ring it out and it had been there since yesterday morning. I finished filling the bucket and then look over and notice the puddle forming under the mop because my assumption had been wrong and worse, it smelled like pee. ! Carring on The first two bathrooms were ok, not great but fine. Then I got to the main breakroom and noticed itd clearly been cleaned, Sam worked the day shift Saturday so I assume he swept and mopped. I also swept and mopped. Then, the small break room. Sam didnt clean this one. Which is fair on his part because I think throughout the whole day at least one or more people are sitting in it with no time for someone to clean. So I start and its just the whole thing, even the bathroom floor, was so bad. Aside from the floor the bathroom part was ok, but the floor really didnt seem to have been swept. And the main floor absolutely hadnt been swept. This was obvious from the start but it kept making me madder and madder as I swept and saw how much trash was on the floor. It absolutely put me behind because I wanted to get as much as I could. The cutomer bathrooms also looked pretty bad which is had to tell who thats on, but wheb I got to them it was apparent somethibg else I hadnt fully thought of as a problem until then. Behind all the toilets, like on then but behidb the seat part, there was so much DUST. I had noticed before in the other bathrooms but didnt really think about it because of things plus i see the dust more often collect in the orher bathrooms than that one for some reason and I didnt even realize this but because it was something New in the costumer bathroom it was really noticeable now. Which made ne even madder. Its not hard to clean, were supposed to be cleaning the toilet seats anyways so getting just behind them isnt anything!

And its just so aggrivating. The longer at work i was this morning the more it pissed me off. Especially because in addition to what I was seeing, the things I had heard from others over the last couple of weeks started piling on.

With my own eyes i had seen how bad the cart had been and from sam I heard that the water in the bucket had been in there all week, he suspected that he wasnt changing it. He also commented on the rags all over the cart thinking that he wasnt using paper towels to clean and instead used the rags. I heard about how a couple of times now hed forgotten or ignore the front trash cans and some others. I heard from someone in the meat room that when he cleans it he doesnt do that grear a job and even broke a couple small things. Which is all very concerning to hear since thats a fucking sanitation issue!? And I heard from nick yesterday that he thinks that the lead isnt cleaning all thw bathrooms every day and is instead only cleaning them when they look dirty. Which I'm a bit inclinded to believe because the underside of some of the seats seemed much dirtier than id expected.

And its all infuriating! The Boss is the one who showed him all the jobs, none of us showed him any of what we do it was all the Boss. So like, did HE tell the lead not to do this or that? To do some of it to save time? I dont know but some of it is common sense regardless of what hes beeb told hes still fucking it up and hes our fucking boss. And the main one doing everything!

The store hasnt looked as clean from the start of this new contract and now it's even worse and its awful!

And I dont have a way to end this rant it got really long snd feels like it needs a good closer but I dont have one...

[not-museing-around]

Everything but his Ramen would be more than welcome in her space. Having him overnight in general had seemed like a pretty big deal, but having him overnight and at her place of all places, Nick had to be somethibg special. "So you'll stay?" She asked in disbelief as the man stood up nice and talk before her. "I promise it'll be fun. I'll cook, we can grab whatever you need tomorrow." It was easy for anyone to see just how happy the idea of him staying had made her. "Go lay down and shimmy those pants off," she requested with a suggestive wiggle of her eyebrows. He had definitely earned his blow job.

Nick & Talia

“That’s what I’m here for. I was actually going to ask if maybe you want to just hang out here this week while you recover.” The blonde set the mirror down when he was finished with the lines, though she gasped lightly when he swatted her ass. “Obviously you don’t have to, but I think it would be easier on you. I’ll have to work and stuff so I won’t be around all the time but I can’t make sure you aren’t fucking your ribs up more if I’m bouncing back and forth. If you really can’t stand sleeping with me for that long I’ll just sleep on the couch.” It was a long shot but she hoped he would see the logic behind what she was suggesting. Odds were for at least the next few days his hands would be useless. Opening bottles, containers, getting dressed..Little things he was going to struggle with until his hands recovered. She was supposed to go out of town for her gotcha’ day celebration of her adoption day but Nick needed her. 

[jameskv]

Jak&Daxter Horror Week- day 1

Sorry for the stupidly long post

Today is all about a zombie outbreak in the J&D universe (gonna leave out kras city because im not familiar with them as much)

Spargas- after the first day or so everything would be normal for spargas, their city is already heavily defended because of the sandstorms and metalheads/marauders. Maybe one or two casualties but under sig/jaks leadership the city would be fine. Potential troubles would be their graveyards, but i figure that either no-one makes it to old age in spargas, or they go out viking style in the heat of combat and die on their own terms instead of to sickness.

Haven- yeah im pretty sure big city is fucked. Like if the plague was external and nothing was ever brought into the city it would prolly do ok. But given one or two infected in the city it would spread faster than jak on blue eco. The average havenite would be completely unprepared for any form of combat against a zombie, even the slow ones from the walking dead would have a hay day in haven, god forbid they be like somethibg out of l4d. Im sure it would get into tbe city through the port area or through the dead town doorway. Those doors that airlock the city would have no concept of the zombie virus and would probably assume they were just another citizen. Ex kg members and current freedom guard members would fair rather well against most forms of zombie since they have basic combat training. (And they could prolly hit something since it wouldnt be dodging too much like jak did in 2/3)

Characters- Jak/dax- probably would be fine, jak has so many tools for fighting and healing that he would have little trouble defending himself and dax.

Kiera/tess/samos again probably fine. I headcannon that between 2-3 she spent a lot of time with tess and learned to shoot and defend herself. Samos has enough knowledge of green eco that he would prolly be immune to any zombie plague. Potentially he would work with haven doctors to distribute a cure or vaccine or something. Depends on how you personally headcannon his selflessness. (Aka prolly not in ny books. He’d keep kiera safe, maybe jak as well. He’d lean heavily on jak to sort this out like he always has. Tess would be holed up with her guns and protecting dax when jak isnt around, prolly makes sure everyone knows how to shoot and defend themselves. Runs classes daily for regular havenites on how to fight/combat the zombies.

Torn/ashlyn- aside from the trouble of keeping the city in order, they’d be fine. Both are experts of combat and marksmanship.

Seem/the monks- wouldnt notice shit was wrong from their temple, possibly would help spargas but its unlikely that either needs help from the other.

How does eco react with the zombies? Id think its gonna make l4d style zombies Red eco creates tanks/chargers depending on quantity nearby Green prevents/slows down infection and prolly causes immunity Yellow makes spitters/smokers Blue would give jockeys and hunters. Dark eco is prolly a death sentence to zombies still, but could cause extreme mutations and turn them into monsters out of dead space or resident evil. Light eco prolly either vaporizes zombies or turns them into witches.

Thoughts? Sorry for the long ass post.

[makeos-blog]

All The Bright Places.

I knew, from the small summary Netflix provided, of “two teens facing personal struggles form a powerful bond as they embark on a cathartic journey chronicling the wonders of Indiana” that this movie would touch on things I wasn’t ready for if I didn’t feel ready emotionally.

I wrote in my journal this week. I only do that when, I’m not okay, when my thoughts are a mumbled mess, my emotions uncertain, and I’m feeling lost, and alone.

I wrote about the situation two years ago, how it’s still something I think about every day, and how it...It made me both trust people and feel so betrayed, all the same.

I should have been safe.

That’s all I ever think about.

I should have been safe.

Like I was with my sister when I lay there on the stairs, and she chuckled and helped me to bed.

I learned that I was masking who these people were. I took everyone around me, applied it to myself, and it made everything that had happened to me, over the course of probably five years, okay.

I don’t know how to act, so I mask. It’s being a certain persona of yourself, really, depending who you’re with. When you don’t know social ques, or actions, you pull from everyone else around you.

If what’s happening to you is treated as normal by everyone else, you accept things as they are. It’s normal. It’s okay. Even when it so obviously is not to anyone looking in from the outside.

It took for this for me to see how hurt I had been. And I’m not okay. I haven’t been okay since it happened.

I can talk about it, but I can’t talk about it all the same. No one gets it, because not even I do, because I keep picking at it, and finding more layers to the whole fucked up situation.

And then I watch movies like this, when I’ve been writing in my journal, and these things are haunting me.

And I can picture so clearly how he must have looked after he put that gun...I can see the aftermath of what it must have done, what it must have looked like.

It plays over in my head all the fucking time. How one person pushed and he fell over a ledge, and before we even knew it, he was gone.

I try to tell myself, over, and over, and over, and over again, you are loved. People love you, they would miss you, it’s just a bad moment, there is so much good, but...I can’t shake the feeling of being so alone.

I would rather our tattoo be a constant symbol of our relationship, than a reminder of what it was.

Answer your phones.

She’s texting me about nothing, stupid cosplay shit, or work, or about her cats, who fucking cares? I’ll just like it, ignore it, I’m busy, I’ll get to it later.

Maybe I’m not saying, hey I’m having a hard time right now, I could use someone, but it’s there.

I’m opening a conversation, and I’m going to get there, say somethibg, to let you know, my head isn’t there, I’m not really there, and about all these things I keep thinking about.

But sometimes, I don’t know how to talk about it, and it’s just, stuff, that doesn’t seem important, but it’s a need to feel connected. Someone is there.

I know I’m a lot, when these things take over, and I get lost in the depression, in the anxiety, in the thoughts.

I push through. I go to work. The arena. I post all over social media. I know how to pretend now.

Why does it take for me to be close to that ledge, to finally send that text, for someone to see me?

All the bright fucking places.

[thedreamihadlastnight]

Orchestral Inferno

In my dream I was in this large stadium gym type area. It was like a orchestra choir thing but for some reason it felt like my two friends and I were banned from performing. One was a guy (I have no idea who he is in real life.) His parents were super strict and his dad led the orchestra which is probably why we were banned. We had been drinking before we walked back stage but neither of us were drunk. He played violin and the other girl sang. He entered the stage first and the other girl and I sang. It sounded beautiful, almost like it was a part of the show that had been cut. The cute guy finishes his violin solo and before his big build up finish he just stops and exits the stage. I follow. His mother was in the crowd fuming and his father was probably feeling the same but the audience cheered. Back stage I congratulate him on how well he did, then out if nowhere we kiss. The other girl we were with seemed jealous and in that moment his father comes out of nowhere ready to rip us to pieces. But then shit started to really hit the fans. Men and women in what seem to be fbi uniforms entered behind the stage and begin demanding to search the belongings of every student because there was "underaged drinking and drugs being distributed." We had been drinking but we didn't have it on us. So in that moment they began questioning his dad and we had the opportunity to slip out of the area undetected. By the time we reached the audience the entire gym had been locked down and fear was the only thing in the air. They began shooting students but everytime someone was shot their chests and heads caught on fire. Screams of terror were everywhere and the further toward the back exit we reached, the more empty the building got. There were guards everywhere and at every exit. By this time the guy and I got separated. There were a small crowd directed to line up in front of the exit so I slipped in the back. They faced the center of the room were a smaller crowd of the armored men stood as their "leader" spoke. There was also a small group of people still on the bleachers. Most were parents and they were waiting further instructions from the man in control. The crowd I was in was made up of a few remaining students, and a few staff. Some woman on the staff( who felt like she had a deeper relationship with me, maybe a mother that adopted me or somethibg) she began whispering instructions and reassurance to me and the girl next to me (who was probably my sister or something). She told us that we had to do something and that fear wouldnt protect us. There were signs behind us and markers so because we were behind the crowd No one could really see us. A lot of the markers didn't work which was frustrating.So we made signs and held them up. The crowd joined in our chant. But the man running everything just laughed. He said if we talked anymore he would put a bullet in us as well. He continued to taunt and torture the remaining people on the bleachers. And the crowd just had to wait in fear. The last thing I remembered were the bodies on fire around the gym. At this point my dream ended.