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This man thinks that you don't need external validation to feel desirable
#This doesn't make any fucking sense to me#Like I get feeling lovable or attractive without someone else but I feel like desirable completely hinges on other people#I feel like I'm already hitting a brick wall in therapy and I only just started going again#Like I ~know~ that I shouldn't need external romantic validation to feel loved but I can't fucking love myself and apparently platonic love#Isn't enough for me so#And like I know it's not what he meant but being in love being a lofty or unrealistic goal is not helpful#Like I understand that it's not something I can control and it's not qualifiable#But I've had 28 years to love myself and that ain't working out
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she's singing in another room and my dog is asleep at my feet. my grandma asked me why i haven't found a man yet and i laughed. oh, you know. i like my house clean.
my girlfriend is also my man is also "my partner" if i'm in a professional setting. yesterday we went to a ren faire and a man mimed at me - you're together? and at my delighted nod, his baffled, you're gay? made me laugh. a woman with rainbow hair said i love the two of you together. you're both so beautiful it's absurd.
my dad introduced my partner as my "..... friend. or whatever" the other day. he knows we're dating. in the same way, i was never able to get my sister's husband to stop saying that's gay like it's 2008. he still uses the word fa***t, and my sister's defense of him has always been well, he's just kidding.
my lover and i dance to old music in a tiny kitchen. we judge new music together and take food critique very seriously. we watch love is blind before we fall asleep and agree that if they had a queer season, it would be bloody but also make for excellent tv. of fucking course queer people would know someone for only 2 weeks and agree to get married. what are you saying.
at a bar with friends, a man puts his hand on my wrist. got a boyfriend? and yes, i do have a boyfriend, she's amazing. i am texting her while i wander around a gas station named after geese. i am visiting a swing state for a wedding. in the candy aisle i overhear: she's actually like a lesbian it's disgusting. two teenage girls with packaged sandwiches in their hands, giggling. no literally, like. i'm not, like. okay with her being there while we're all, like, naked and changing.
my girlfriend and i tailgate, drink gin and cider out of cups. from the frat group beside us, a man corrects himself with one of his friends: bro, i mean, nonbinary entity, and it makes everyone around him laugh, myself included. he razzes his friend the same way i would have killed for at 19 years old - like nothing happened, he continues: you apply sunscreen like an alien. he does a little sassy (and fairly accurate) dance interpretation of the motion. his friend is laughing so hard they're crying.
i am lucky, i live in a safe neighborhood in a safe state. my masc passenger princess comes up from DC. i drive her for an hour to where all the leaves are a violent arrangement of color. we walk along the trails, letting autumn into our blood. in this part of the state, there's a lot of pickup trucks and trump signs. when we chastely kiss before getting into the car, i accidentally make eye contact with a woman holding her child's wrist. she looks disgusted. she looks fucking pissed.
two hours later my girl and i are eating dinner on a patio, soaking in the last warmth of new england sun before the chill of winter sets in. we are giggling and trying to talk through plastic vampire teeth. at another table, i see a young woman sit up straighter. i watch her watch us. she blushes and takes her partner's hand from across the table. shy, like the taste of evening has just become something deeper.
it's worth it for this moment, i think. my lover is still humming the same song she's been singing for four days straight and i don't want to kill her for it. her guitar is beside my bed. her toothbrush is in my bathroom. in a few moments i will make us lunch. we are lucky enough to have found each other. it is lucky enough to be in love.
#writeblr#wlw#i often think about like.....#being happy in a gay relationship is sometimes so odd#bc u can forget how stupid ppl are.#bc ur so USED to being gay. and u forget other people GENUINELY ARE homophobic#so it's like. girl pardon?????#but also there are moments where it's like. ohhh the kids are alright#like watching someone razz someone else.... so fucking wholesome#“lemme get this bitche's pronouns before i make gentle fun of them” .... i would have KILLED for that.#THAT is how u know ur accepted#not just tolerated#..... when ppl are like. sure ur nonbinary congrats but WHAT is this fucking sunscreen application#ps idk if "razz'' is a real word but someone asked what it means -#i've always heard it as being a term for 'gentle & friendly teasing'' which like#i personally notice more from my guy friends but is like - when a person isn't#LIKE ACTUALLY teasing u (it's nothing personal/mean) they're just laughing w/you about something#my friends often put on a little voice and call me an anemic little bitch#like 'ooooo the anemic little bitch is cold??? does she need a mouse blanket#bc she's SOOOO SMALL AND ANEMIC???''#and it doesn't hurt my feelings (it makes me laugh very hard) bc 1. i actually called MYSELF that first#and 2. i'm not sensitive about it!!!#a proper razz is when you are ALSO in on the joke - i ALSO think it's funny#for some people i personally find that when they razz u it's when they love u -#they've noticed something genuine about u and love u enough that u know they're not being mean#this is cultural and personality based of course but i'm hispanic#if someone isn't making fun of me it means they hate me . obviously.
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People keep on asking for more Baby Robin and Papadile so here is more Baby Robin and Papadile. Now never ask anything from me ever again
#My art#One Piece#Long post#Sir Crocodile#Nico Robin#Alternatively panel 5 would've been a close up of Crocodile's face from Robin's POV where he looks like he's giving her a death glare#Not intentionally he's just a big scary bastard with a Resting Murder Face and Robin is a small traumatized child#But I wanted to focus on the silliness of the moment so you get the goofy version instead#IDK man there's just something very funny to me about the idea of Robin just randomly info-dumping about a subject she's read about#And Crocodile being like ''?????????????????????? The fuck you talking about??''#Robin leaves the ship's kitchen and Crocodile just stares at the tomato like ''...It's a fruit? Forreal?''#(Meanwhile Robin is sweating bullets like ''I called his favorite vegetable a FRUIT right in his FACE he's going to KILL ME'')#Robin grew extra feet from the bottom of her feet to reach the counter and that actually isn't me trying to explain bad art away#In the original Papadile comic there was a panel of Robin doing the dishes with extra feet to reach the sink but I cut it out#(It was a stress relief comic I did not feel like drawing a complicated background in detail) (BUT YES I THOUGHT OF IT)#Nico Robin Age 11 is *more* than capable of cooking Crocodile just does not trust her with his food. At least not yet#She did start doing the dishes unprompted and continues to do so (mostly out of fear). Croc told her she didn't have to but allows it#IDK a lot of people seem to headcanon Crocodile as incapable of cooking and like. Surely Mr ''I don't trust people'' knows how to cook#Like he doesn't have to be a master chef or anything but and maybe he enjoys not HAVING to cook (pain in the ass with one hand + knife/hook#But surely he can cook decent enough. SURELY#Botanists don't @ me I know the ''tomato is a fruit'' thing isn't fully accurate this is just a silly little haha comic
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If anyone knows where all the fat is let me know
#dwpsart#it me#cat girl#i keep tagging her as cat girl so ambiguously but she is technically me#38D isn't enough
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hey guys is flirting not just looking up at butches with the biggest brown doe eyes and sweet smile???? i thought the sparkle in my eye and cute giggle combo would work for sure!!!
#a's corner#oh so me sitting pretty isn't just enough to make you obsessed with me???? wtf#femme posting#femme4butch#femme blog#femme lesbian#lesbian#lesbian community#butch bait#butch#butch lesbian#butch4femme#flirting
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Simon 'Ghost' Riley & John 'Soap' MacTavish in CALL OF DUTY: MODERN WARFARE II (2022)
#call of duty#codedit#gamingedit#call of duty modern warfare#cod mwii#john soap mactavish#soap mactavish#simon ghost riley#simon riley#soapghost#ben.gif#gradient text#the way i had to cheat with two of these to put them close enough to both be in frame 💀 hope it isn't Too noticeable#4th gif haunts me that shot is so... good lord
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the way Evka and Antoine immediately look at each other after getting chewed out by the First Warden is one of the funniest things to me
#Antoine's face is so funny to me. Very “do you see this shit?”#yes giffing is going very badly but I managed to get this thrown together. it's just harder to pull a whole gifset together. Soon™ tho#Evka Ivo#Antoine Dragon Age#Antoine Ivo#Antoine and Evka#Dragon Age: The Veilguard#Dragon Age The Veilguard#Dragon Age#DATV#DATV spoilers#Veilguard spoilers#DATV things#Gena makes stuff#Gena's gifs#this isn't enough of an edit for me to use the edit tags#Veilguard
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#soapghost#ghostsoap#simon ghost riley#john soap mactavish#call of duty mwii#cod mw2#saw this quote and blacked out for like 48h#listen it's about the longing the we can't we shouldn't this is going to end bad and we both know it#but what if i just look what if i just stare at you from the shadows what if i let you see me like no else can isn't that enough#anyway#the brain rot is so strong y'all my fic wip is at 18k now i need an intervention#id in alt text#soph arts
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been watching mashle and oh my god, the eugenics???? the way lance's parents were so ready to give up their daughter??? no second thought???? just "why did this child have to be born to us?"???? um everyone talking in mash's face about how non-magic people are inherently worthless???? the triple line dude fucking making dolls out of people and somehow no one??? is??? checking him???? and then when questioned immediately jumping into "well humans are little more than mindless beasts and i will become a creator deity and reshape the world in my liking!"????? the, um, corruption in the government??? the way this story is so clearly "h*rry p*tter if it was actually funny"??? the slytherin coded characters are blood purists???? they took out hufflepuff??? one of the magia lupus' mage's powerset was just big shuriken???? another one is rip off kisame???? lance is a siscon and the first thing mash says is "that doesn't make it better"???? lemon is genuinely so fuckin funny??? dot is incel-coded but like in a funny way??? dot says that lance is playing life on "easy mode" cause lance has a good face??? dot likes tea??? dot has good manners??? everybody only has one spell they can use??? finn ames is like if you transported is regular human into this stupid ass world??? i think the old man and the cop have explored each others bodies.
#so many baffling things#the show is genuinely funny tho#mash and lance have something going on and i stg this isn't just me putting my shipping goggles on#also lance is a siscon but like in the most non-weirdest way possible??? like he just doesn't want his baby sis to die#and like yeah the power of her photo is enough for him to fling himself backward into a wall hard enough that it cracks#but he's not like in love with her or whatever. bare minimum victories ig#also when the rap starts it gets sooo hype#not to talk about h*rry p*tter in 2024 but why did they take out hufflepuff??#that was the only good house#everybody else in that world seem insufferable but hufflepuff seemed like you could get along with them#also they need to stop talking shit about non-magic people in front of mash's face#mashle magic and muscles#mashle#lemon irvine#dot barrett#finn ames#mash burnedead#lance crown#1k
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hope you feel better soon!
I am riddled with ailments, but I stay silly!
#ask#non mdzs#My health journey has been: Hernia -> acid reflux -> Vocal pain due to aforementioned reflux -> chest infection.#I'm terrified to know what's about to hit me next. Please let it be something kind. PLEASE.#The consequence of living with linguists is that you'll wake up with a wacked up voice -#suddenly you're sitting you down in front of a program called something like Praat having your shimmer and jitter levels calibrated.#They gave me a GRBAS of 33012. I have a fun thing called a pitch break where a whole octave just does not exist.#My vocal pain was bad enough I ended up seeing a speech pathologist and that whole experience was super neat!#I learnt a lot about voice - to be honest I might make a little comic on it after some more research. Fascinating stuff.#For example; your mental perception of our voice modulates the muscles of the vocal folds and larynx.#meaning that when you do have changes (inflammation = more mass = lower frequency)#your brain automatically attempts to correct it to what it 'should sound like'. Leading to a lot more vocal strain and damage!#And it gets really interesting for trans voice care as well - because the mental perception of one's voice isn't based on an existing sampl#So a good chunk of trans voice training is also done with the idea of finding one's voice and retraining the brain to accept it. Neat!#Parkinsonial Voice also has this perception to musculature link! The perception is that they are talking at a loud/normal volume#but the actual voice is quite breathy and weak. So vocal training works on practicing putting more effort into the voice#and retraining the brain to accept the 'loud' voice as 'normal'.#Isn't the human body fascinating?#Anyhow; Now I have vocal exercises and strategies to reduce strain and promote healing.#Which is a lot better than my previous strategy of yelling AAAH in my car until my 'voice smoothed out'.#You can imagine the horror on the speech path's face. I am an informed creature now.#I'm my own little lab rat now. I love learning and researching. Welcome to my tag lab. Class is dismissed.#I'll be back later with a few more answered asks </3 despite everything I'm still going to work and I need the extra sleep.#Thank you for the well wishes! And if you read all of that info dump; thank you for that as well!
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mfw henryk keeps beating my ass
#there goes my evening#i was going to say this isn't worthy of my artblog but this is cleaner than some of my sunday evening shitposts so. yeah#what an afternoon at the office without enough work to keep me busy does to a mf#bloodborne#good hunter#eileen the crow#rubiart
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@chipper-smol I couldn't get the thought out of my head of dragon loop flying on unfamiliar wings away from their problems because obviously that's why they have them haha ha ha
#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#i... i think#loop isat#siffrin isat#art#fanart#kitscribbles#I HAVENT DRAWN DRAGON IN FOREVER im so sorry if i mucked your loop's anatomy fnjdvks#also imagine loop winds up right back at the tree whenever sif loops#its FINE. its WHATEVER. who wants to be up where the stars are anyway hrghrgrgrgr whats even the point#the universe gives you a substitute to take over the responsibility you feel and wings to go take a vacation somewhere else and yet#its like the universe is a sucker for irony or something haha ha#imagine sif doesnt even see loop for so much longer because theyre just out there seeing how much distance they can cover#oh hey is that an island it looks familiar *loops* stardust you LITTLE-#also i drew sif so small to begin with and then realized. little guy isn't little enough because loop is so BIG#^^^ all of this is just me being silly with ideas dont mind me
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thinking about josh's massive arms and hands and giggling and twirling my hair
#i am so weak for him#making gifs of him isn't enough i need him in me#josh hartnett#trap 2024#trap#cooper adams
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#carol danvers#valkyrie#carol x valkyrie#the marvels#captain marvel#the marvels spoilers#marvel spoilers#captain marvel spoilers#spoilers#mcu spoilers#spoiler#have i put enough spoiler tags#the quality isn't the best okay i know don't come for me#ive been completely normal about this scene since it came out uh huh so normal#flashing tw
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not to be Anxious on main but i've got my performance review for my apprenticeship in a few weeks to see if they're going to keep me on permanently and i am gently shitting myself hnhhhhh
#ramble#tl:dr almost done with my training so i have to talk with my mentor next month to find out if i get a probationary period/permanent space#i knew it was going to happen but also NERVOUS#i don't think i've done TERRIBLY???? i haven't permanently fucked anyone's body and my hygiene is fine so that's probably good#i haven't even really had any HARSH criticism i'm just worried that she's been saving it all up until now lmao#the thing that i'm worried is going to fuck me is that i don't have enough self confidence and that doesn't look very good#everyone jokes that i need a 'sorry' jar instead of a swear jar akdfhdfh#if there isn't space for me it's not the end of the world bc they said they'll connect us with another shop but also. i really like it here
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LEON
LEON YOUR EYEBALLS
#art#ride kamens#ride kamens spoilers#ride kamens episode 14 spoilers#can't believe i made a joke about it being his eye color AND THEN#i did see his updated sprite before i got to 13 but i didn't even notice it at first...#at least he also got a funky little face marking to go with it#shine on you super shitsuji!!!!#anyway I AM FINALLY CAUGHT UP#on main story anyway i haven't played the tower emblem event yet :')#but man i am loving this game#i was not expecting it to be a full-on mystery! with intrigue!#who is lying! who is telling the truth! who THINKS they're telling the truth but isn't!#punctuated by the most delightful nonsense like the unbreakable magic superhero covenants#where you gotta touch rings in the magical wedding chapel dimension that we teleport to sometimes to talk to our dead dad#(OR IS HE???????)#NO IT'S GREAT (and it does make sense in context i just love it)#still 50/50 on yellow beyblade man secretly being our dad but i can't get into theories now i don't have enough tags#man this really has the essence of what i love about rider ❤️#so far i do think agata is my favorite#but then there's leon...#let me put it this way: i would tell agata a hard truth about himself if i thought he needed to hear it#but there is no amount of money in the world you could pay me to say anything even slightly mean to our sweet leon#LET 👏 HIM 👏 HENSHIN 👏#WAIT SHOOT is it too late to redo my survey answers i need to demand that i be able to put hats on leon
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