We used to daydream maladaptively. It was distressing because we were afraid to talk about it, and dysfunctional because we would spend hours pacing or staring at the wall or redoing some repetitive useless task.
I think we used to be stuck in it so often because we couldn’t safely exist anywhere else. Our external lives, whether regular or extreme, were nigh unlivable. Our internal lives were often loops of trauma, reenactments and terror. We dissociated from both.
For some of us, we changed our internal lives as a result. Many of our genuinely safe innerworld locations came about because we revisited a daydream so often. We have a few bubbles off layers that were never part of our innerworld, but were parallel to it.
We still daydream in the innerworld. It takes a lot of mental energy to do vividly, so we mostly only get to when we have chores to do. Laundry is prime daydreaming time. Azure is the best at outerworld overlays, but they only do it when we’re meant to be sleeping or have to sit quietly.
We daydream together, bicker over the flow of a scene, have alters who embody paras, pilot different characters. It’s more common to daydream vaguely, alone, but it’s often collaborative if it’s done in the fronting realm.
I miss daydreaming. We have a section of the archive of perfected scenes in each series, where you can view other alters’ work as writing or video. The layers with the parajects are lifelike, for better or worse.
We don’t have much time to do it anymore, and we stopped because we had to for our continued survival. System policy dictates that “you can’t daydream if you’re dead” — we can’t prove it, but it helps keep the “angel of death” thoughts away (where some of us were taught that the only way out of the pain was to die).
It’s one of those almost cultural things that I’m not certain I consider disordered. It doesn’t currently inhibit our functioning, and I’m not distressed now that I know it’s a valid experience. We’re getting good at taking ourselves seriously, which means I can work through the shame that came with feeling alone — we rarely spoke about the daydreams, so we only had to overcome our own fears. I guess I’m just not one to consider any experience “crazy”.
I’d have to find someone who remembers the more maladaptive days, because I can tell I’m idealizing the habit. We still are not bad or broken for finding solace where we could. Just like our CDS, immersive daydreaming kept us alive and as well as we could have been.
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A while ago, we saw someone explain why they don’t like first person. Aside from “it’s shallow” (which feels like a shallow critique itself without more context), they cited a desire to understand what all the other characters in a scene are thinking and feeling, and I found that very interesting.
Because I don’t feel like every story benefits from knowing every character involved in it to such an intimate degree.
A lot of interesting speculation can be derived from gaps in the narrative. Why did he do that? What was her real motive there? The protagonist can speculate, but are they really the most objective source for that, or are you assuming that they are because they’re in the narrator seat, and they haven’t explicitly called themself unreliable?
First person creates a very specific opportunity to convey characters outside of the protagonist via showing and not telling.
It also creates a great opportunity to put your reader in a mental maze (the central narrator’s perspective) and give them a fun crumb trail out of it (the way that other characters react to the narrator).
I personally think that first person really shines under the right circumstances; and I think one of the best circumstances is when the central narrator has some horrendously skewed worldview. When they’re a fucked up little guy. When they think they know what’s up and they really, really don’t.
And when there’s other characters just as fun outside of them to force the reader to fill in the blank spaces for themselves.
Anyway, sometimes I feel like the push against first person is motivated by people being burned by boring, one-dimensional first person narrators and/or a distaste for common YA conventions. At other times, I feel like it’s motivated by the very bland desire to have the author shine a flashlight into every nook, cranny, and crevice of the narrative so that you don’t miss out on anything. I understand the desire to know more, but it's also fun to be able pick up the flashlight yourself as a reader!
No style of narration is inherently lesser than another. They just suit different readers and author's tastes.
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ravager and magpies first meeting is so fucking funny. magpie gets reports of someone meddling in his city and is like 'i swear to god if invictus sent more drones to my city im going to start cracking skulls...' and then he finds a 15 year old in a sloppily put together costume and has the most soulcrushingly potent moment of self reflection
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Acathexis | Immerse | 20th March, 2024
International Black Metal
Artwork by Divine Chaos Art
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"This horror style of music is powerful and intoxicating, drumming your footsteps headlong into doom, gradually picking up the pace as your heart begins to pound until the dead-drop of realisation of what you are here to witness: a funeral foretold."
Read a Review of A Morte do Corvo, an immersive theatre show currently playing in Lisbon.
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Reading baru cormorant after the locked tomb is very interesting in that the most jarring element of baru cormorant is the homophobia inherent to the central plot. It’s not even the most horrible part of the plot but it comes up again and again in a way that feels like a gut punch each time.
after reading not just the locked tomb but other books that just are queer without taking note of it or addressing it at all it just is a very different reading experience that I am out of practice with
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So my housemate, Ed, practices ragtime piano basically every day, sometimes multiple times a day. It’s generally pretty good, though even I get frustrated at 15 repetitions of 15 bars of The Entertainer, with one little bit I’m sure sounds wrong.
But my brain being my brain, this means the pieces that are less familiar to me get stuck in my head all the time. So these days I’ve basically got a ragtime soundtrack running through my head half the day.
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Living Room by art collective Random international
allows visitors to “co-create a unique NFT” of their experience
© Oriol Tarridas Photography
"The piece bridges immersive art and the blockchain, claim the project organisers. Each visitor’s movements around the darkened Living Room installation—where shifting lights and sounds respond to each person’s movements—are tracked by motion sensors, drawing on Web3 technology.
“This data allows you to co-create a unique NFT of your experience, as seen through the machine’s eyes,” says an Aorist statement.
“We became interested in NFTs when we discovered we could mint behaviour. It is making us [people] the interface,” says Hannes Koch, co-founder of Random International."
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Introducing HeadBox 3D Studio: The Future of Immersive Events - Interview With the CEO
HeadBox, Australia’s leading digital meetings and events platform, is raising the bar with its latest innovation—HeadBox 3D Studio. This state-of-the-art software promises to transform how venues and events teams create and share proposals, offering a unique, personalised experience through interactive 3D tours embedded with AI-generated narrator videos.
A New Era for Venues and Hotels
For the…
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