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UNDER THE MISTLETOE — psh
PRECiS ♡ you didn’t plan to attend sunghoon’s birthday party, but you reluctantly went and ended up kissing him — the man you hate the most.
park sunghoon x fem! reader ୨୧ non idol au fluff some angst ・ implied second chance kissing mistletoe kissing exes to lovers this might be a trailer hehe skin ship parties ( wc : 1040 ) — reblogs, comments, and likes are very appreciated
ai’s love note 💌 this is for liz’s season of love event !! ^0^ (im so glad you’re back liz) sorry this is corny btw ..
You scanned the room anxiously, noticing no familiar faces as you crossed your arms in nervousness. You never enjoyed parties.
But once you noticed Sunghoon walking towards you, a sense of relief washed over you as you saw him approaching, making you sigh in relief.
Park Sunghoon - the only person who can make a lie taste so sweet. The way he can make a comment so dulcet feels like he possesses some kind of power when his words roll off his tongue.
“I’m glad you came, love.” He had a silly grin on his face. He always flirted with you, never leaving your side. You avoided his flirty remarks because why would he love you? So, you kept your distance and pushed him away.
“Hoon, how many times do I have to tell you to leave me alone?” Your voice was annoyed, making Sunghoon curve into his signature grin. He was excited like a little boy hearing his nickname from you.
“But if I leave you alone, I’d have to annoy girls who are interested in me” You rolled your eyes and crossed your arms. He’s been continuously chasing after you like a dog and is always attached to you, scaring off any guy who dares to stare in your direction.
“Like you could ever find one” It’s clear you were lying; Sunghoon can have any girl he wants.
“See that, there! Who needs affection when you could have blind hatred” Sunghoon had a smug grin on his face, inching closer to yours. Your heart skipped a beat, but you chose to ignore it and scoffed, not wanting to feed into his trap.
“Anyways, how about a birthday kiss to make this birthday special?” The arrogant man lifted your chin to lock your gaze on his tall figure, a smug grin plastered on his face. “Whatever..” You whispered to yourself, hoping that Sunghoon hadn’t heard you.
He gently guided you to an empty corner, his eyes sparkling with mischief and a playful grin lighting up his face. The innocence of his smile was contagious, and it tugged at your lips.
Without warning, a sharp gasp pierced the air, drawing your attention. Sunghoon stood there, his eyebrows arched high in a sarcastic way, a smirk playing on his lips. He pointed at the ceiling, making you look up in curiosity.
A single sprig of mistletoe hung from the ceiling, it glistening softly in the dim light.
Sunghoon wore a dreamy, lovesick smile that lit up his face, his eyes gleaming with hope and mischief. You couldn't help but let out a frustrated sigh, disbelief washing over you.
You would be lying if you said you didn't want to kiss him and his plump lips. However, your ego was too high to admit your feelings and lose to his challenge. “See? Even Santa wants us together”
You rolled your eyes and scoffed as he stepped closer, his height towering over yours. His hot breath brushed against your skin, causing a shiver to run through you. How could a man make your skin crawl while also making your heart flutter at the same time?
“Well then.. Let's make this Christmas special, shall we?” The tall man gently pressed you against the wall, placing your wrist on it. His eyes gazed down at you before moving his gaze lower to your lips, making your heart race.
Your breath hitched as he brushed a strand of hair behind your ear and placed his fingers under your chin to make you look up at him.
As he muttered a quiet voice of permission, you nodded without thinking before he crashed his lips onto yours. You felt his racing heartbeat that made you think for a second that maybe he was sincere about how he felt about you.
But you were wrong.
Now, snapped back to reality, you feel foolish for believing such an empty lie. Sunghoon never loved you as deeply as you loved him, and you will never see his face again. You stared at the old jacket that you forgot to give back to him, missing all the memories you two made.
Nothing about him could escape your thoughts: the scent of his Tamburins perfume, the delicate way his touch glides over your soft skin, and the way his plump, soft lips brush against yours, leaving a hint of strawberry chapstick.
Memories flood your mind as you let out a sigh, feeling a heaviness in your heart. You remember the times you spent making out in your pink, girly room, stargazing at the moon together, and laughing at your inside jokes, wishing those moments would never end. Each thought makes you miss him more, always searching for his familiar face in a crowd where he’s never present.
His sharp nose, the moles you can count all day, and his messy dark brown hair made you miss him. It seems impossible for him to leave your mind. You want to give up on him - and you know you have to.
You stared at the notification glowing on your phone screen and sighed when you saw your friends once again trying to set you up on a blind date. You thought to yourself that maybe agreeing to it could help take your mind off him, even if just for a short while. With that in mind, you picked up your phone and replied to your friends with a simple, "Fine."
You know deep down that nobody could fit your puzzle piece like Sunghoon, but you know he has never thought of you since the day you two last met - so you have to move on.
But what you couldn't see was Sunghoon lying on his large bed, staring at your photos—missing you so deeply that his heart ached.
He let out a sigh and moved his gaze to the suitcase with his clothes and items. His thoughts were racing as he doubted whether you’d give him another chance to hold you in his arms again.
He wondered how you would react when you saw him again. You probably hated him, and that was okay. All he wanted was to see your familiar face one last time, and he was determined to do that.
#꒰ seasons of romance ☃️ ֺ ⋆ .#k-labels#en-diaries#𝓅oèmes / ( ˶ˆ꒳ˆ˵ )🌺. d’𝒶mour#enhypen#enhypen fluff#enhypen angst#enhypen scenarios#enhypen imagine#enhypen x reader#enhypen imagines#enhypen comfort#park sunghoon#park sunghoon fluff#park sunghoon angst#park sunghoon x reader#sunghoon#sunghoon fluff#sunghoon angst#sunghoon x reader#sunghoon x you#sunghoon fic#enhypen sunghoon#lee heeseung#park jongseong#sim jaeyun#kim sunoo#yang jungwon#nishimura riki
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Forbidden Feelings
paring: haechan x fem¡reader
synopsis: college student haechan who has a crush on his best friend mark lee’s sister. whom by the way is COMPLETELY off limits to his friends.
genre: smau
8. IM SORRY
Later that evening, you sit at home, waiting. You’re anxious, pacing around and glancing at your phone every few minutes, wondering if this plan is actually going to work. And then there’s a loud knock on your door.
You open it, and there he is—Haechan, breathing hard, a look of worry on his face. “Are you okay?” he asks, eyes scanning you as if to make sure you’re really fine.
You nod, your heart racing. “I’m fine. I… I needed to talk to you.”
He steps inside, closing the door behind him. There’s a long silence, and you can feel the tension in the air. Finally, you gather the courage to speak.
“Haechan, there’s nothing going on with Renjun,” you say softly. “I was only spending time with him because… I didn’t want to think about how I feel about you.”
He stares at you, the anger slowly melting away, replaced by something softer. “You like me?” he asks, his voice barely a whisper.
You nod, feeling a blush rise to your cheeks. “I do. And it’s okay if you don’t feel the same, I just… I needed you to know.”
Haechan lets out a small, shaky laugh. “I was mad because I thought you liked Renjun. And all this time… I’ve been feeling the same way about you.”
The relief that washes over you is overwhelming. You both laugh, the tension finally breaking, and you feel lighter than you have in days.
“So… what now?” you ask, looking up at him with a hopeful smile.
He smiles back, softer than you’ve ever seen. “How about we take things slow? I don’t want to rush this.”
You agree, feeling like everything finally makes sense. And as he pulls you into a hug, you know this was worth the wait.
You relax into Haechan’s hug, feeling his warmth around you. His arms wrap tighter, like he’s scared to let go, and for a while, neither of you says anything. It’s enough just to stand there, close, knowing everything that’s been unsaid for so long is finally out in the open.
When he pulls back, his eyes meet yours, searching. “I was so mad at you,” he admits softly. “It hurt watching you with him. I thought… I thought I wasn’t good enough, or that maybe you’d moved on.” He frowns, his fingers fidgeting at his side.
You shake your head quickly, reaching out to take his hand. “I tried to move on, but it wasn’t because of you. It was because I thought you’d never see me that way. I thought I’d always just be your best friend’s little sister.” You feel a small, nervous laugh escape your lips. “Turns out I was really, really wrong.”
He lets out a breathy laugh, his grip on your hand tightening. “You have no idea. Every time I saw you, I’d have to act like it didn’t bother me when other guys noticed you. And then Renjun? That hurt the most because he’s such a good guy. Part of me thought, if you were happy with him… I’d have to be okay with it.” He bites his lip, looking almost embarrassed by his confession. “But it drove me crazy.”
You nod, understanding completely. “Renjun… he’s just one of my friends now, I only want you.”
The words hang in the air, and for a moment, it’s as if the room has gotten smaller, quieter. Haechan’s eyes flicker to your lips, but he hesitates, catching himself. “If we’re going to do this, I don’t want to mess it up,” he says, almost to himself. “I want us to take things slow. No pretending, no misunderstandings.”
You nod, feeling a rush of excitement and nervousness all at once. “I want that too. I just want to know I’m not alone in this anymore.”
“You’re not.” He squeezes your hand, his voice full of certainty. “You’re not alone. We’ll figure this out together.”
The two of you sit down on your couch, and he keeps your hand in his, tracing small circles on your palm with his thumb. You start talking about everything, filling each other in on all the small details you’ve missed this week. He listens closely, genuinely interested, laughing when you joke and looking serious when you bring up the moments you felt hurt or ignored.
“Chenle’s plan really got me,” he admits with a smirk. “I thought something happened to you, and I didn’t even think twice—I just ran here.” He pauses, his expression growing softer. “I don’t ever want to go through that again. If something’s wrong, or if you’re feeling anything, just… tell me.”
You nod, a little overwhelmed by how open he’s being with you. “I promise. And you… you should do the same, Haechan. If I make you mad, tell me. Don’t just ignore me.”
“Deal.” He looks at you with a playful glint in his eyes. “But only if you call me Donghyuck sometimes. You’re one of the few people who gets to.”
You laugh, the sound filling the room, and he smiles, watching you with that soft gaze that makes your heart race. “Okay, Donghyuck,” you tease, testing his real name on your tongue.
He grins, clearly pleased, then hesitates. “Can I ask you something?”
You nod, curious.
“What would’ve happened if Chenle’s plan didn’t work? If I’d never come tonight?”
The thought makes you pause, feeling a pang of sadness at the idea. “I don’t know,” you say honestly. “Maybe I’d still be hiding my feelings, watching you from afar. Or maybe I’d just move on, pretending it didn’t hurt.”
“Well, I’m glad it worked,” he says, voice low and serious. “Because I don’t want to keep watching from afar anymore.”
You nod, feeling the same way. There’s a sense of relief and excitement in knowing you’ll go forward together. You stand to ask him a question, “donghyuck would you like to stay the night, it’s a bit late..”
“I’d love to” he answered confidently.
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daily status . . . { nov 11th 24 }
breakfast { 6am - 11am } , 0 cals
lunch { 12pm - 4pm } , 0 cals
dinner { 5pm - 8pm } , 0 cals
water drank , 36fl oz
. . . total ate ; 0 cals ⸝⸝ ⛧
burned , 588 cals
workout time , 84 mins
tbh i literally stayed in my room all day cus i was scared i was gonna break my fast 😭 tmrws a school day and im hoping ill be able to make it thru till dinner so i can complete my around 48hr f4st (´﹃`)
lowkey dreading going to sleep tn cus ik it's gonna be a struggle, but im also excited to finally be sick. the dizzy spells as if a curse instead of something i inflicted on myself, the static vision like an old tv...
but anyways today was an overall really good day!! i would've gotten yelled at for doing this when i was younger, now look at me ⊂((・▽・))⊃ young me would be so proud !!
alr, ima basically doomscroll the next couple of hrs thru the same 3 apps till my brain gets tired enough to finally sleep
gn , stay safe (*´▽`*)
#tw ana bløg#🐛hungrycaterpillar#34t1ng d1s0rd3r#4nor3xia#4n@diary#@na#3ating d1sorder#🕯️as a feather#light as a 🪶#🕯️ as a 🪶#light as a feather#tw ed ana#tw ana rant#@na dairy#@n@ blog#@n@ trigger#@na rant#@na shit#@n@ diet#@na blog#@n@ fast#4norexla#4n4blr#4n4rexia#4n0rexic#4nerex1a#4n4rex1a#3d but not sheeren#tw 3d vent#3d f4st
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Perhaps, hes at first hes worried about Uzi, but she confronts him about killing her mom and suddenly he either realizes he was caught and knew he killed her the whole time, not telling her to "not hurt her" OR he didn't know the whole time and is confused of the allegation. That second look reminds me of one that is realizing or knows something and was caught, and it could look like betrayal based on the possible situation. BUT we should prepare for it possibly being that N knew the entire time he killed her mom since he started to get his memories back and didn't tell her to protect her or ruin his friendship with her, which is all sorts of fucked up and selfish.
Then again it could be possible he didn't know until it was brought up, making his memory of it spring back into his head like "OH YEAH! I REMEMBER- o-oh yeahhh I...oh no..." sort of moment. Which is still really bad, because I feel like he won't get the time to explain he didn't actually remember before Uzi loses control due to the confirmation of his body language, in which yikes, losing his best friend to a misunderstanding when he said they would get through this together...oof.
Last but not least, it could also be a Tessa revealing she's not Tessa moment, oR Tessa telling N her true plans like she hAD implied to V last episode, making V sus about her to the point she wanted to leave with Uzi and N.
Or Tessa about to ya know…Kill Uzi 🙃 Which is betrayal all in itself….
As a sidenote, it could be him seeing a HoloSpookySnakeCrab V and him realizing who and what it is. But Im leaning it being more of a look of realization and knowing something than betrayal and it being the same since where he gets his hand crushed by Uzi in that Cathderal room.
BUTTTTT I guess we will see in 14 days!
Edited! Was wrong butttt this could still happen in the future episodes/seasons!
A little thing I noticed while watching the teaser
Notice how N goes from a maybe scared and cautious look to an almost betrayed look, and how N shrinks back as if someone betrayed him.
Uzi perhaps? Maybe she got possessed by the solver or something? Or maybe Tessa?
Idk but my game theory brain is going to be working in overdrive for these next two weeks
(I stayed up until 5am bc of Australian time zones, send help)
#murder drones#murder drones n#murder drones theory#I feel so bad for him tho#Im so scared BUT excited at the same time#I hope there is a season 2#and it just doesn't end with him alone.#and him losing everything and everyone...#our happy boy is gonna be really dimmed down#and depressed next season if it happens huh
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#cuz i feel like i wanna do it but im scared and excited at the same time#its all new to me so its gonna be my first time#im worried i might messed up or something#also idk when ill open commissions so its a question for now until im very sure i wanted this or not
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OC fanart! For @brightscraps @artyz-here-01 <33
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can any of you look after this thing right here im so sick of her im going to crash her with dumbbells
#dandys world#dandy's world#dandys world fanart#dandys world oc#im so excited to show my own dandys world oc but im also like scared at the same time like who is she?? why is vro mint??
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I'm so glad I told my mum about Ninjago since I started watching it because now I can't rant to her about the friggin spoilers
Love my mum very much💚💚💚
#my mum#i love my mum#ninjago spoilers#ninjago#hello tumblr#fandoms i'm in#lego ninjago#recommend#ninjago dragons rising season 2#ninjago dragons rising#IM SO EXCITED BUT SCARED AT THE SAME TIME AAAA
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sometimes i can’t believe i was posting wips every single wednesday and sunday for literal months like who even was that person
#and now i can’t even write a paragraph without taking a month break#or monthS should i say#god why aren’t the words so easy anymore 😫😖#this writers block thing is doing my absolute head in#i get so excited to still be tagged#and then i’m all ☹️ cos i have no words to share back#i have so many wips so may ideas but i am so scattered#i miss writing soooo much#and instead of actually writing#i just think about it#and never get any words down#also we’re like a third of the way thru the new season and that is scaring me#i feel like by the time i can write again or finish a fic i’ll have missed the boat#and everyone will have moved on#or already written the same idea but better#and it’ll be like hey! what’s the point#anyway i’ll try to be reassured by the fact everyone stayed active during an 18 month hiatus#and the more fics the merrier#also feels like i’m trying to make up for lost time#for all the years the show aired and i wasn’t apart of the fandom#i want to enjoy and savour all the moments of the new season with you all#and get out of my own head#but that won’t be tonight 🥲#🌀 hours#don’t mind me being a sook lol#emphasis on the sunday scaries tonight#literally how is it monday again already im going insane 😵💫#d stuff
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I was about to say that I'm going to feed you guys once a week bc I have a big thing to draw and I still have to not be kicked out of college....
But then I remembered that new life series sooner then I think......
Oh no....
#melousblahblah#im scared#im happy and all but holy shit my life is packed and now i have to also add this thing#bc i won't let it go GUYS I'M AUTISTIC I CAN'T GO BACK#ok silly fact that no one will see#but my therapist said that i don't have adhd or autism#and the same day i cried out of excitement bc i found life series wiki snd thry have all and everything summarised and organised#to be fair#that therapist said that people cant have adhd and autism at the same time and specially cant have depression#imagine lmao#sorry for this little rant#i mean#its my blog so eh its alr ig#if i feel like i need to make a different personal one I'll do it one day#but not today#rn its everything so teehee <3
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Oh God, help me.... I can't.... I can't with this....
I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS ABOUT THIS YOU HAVE NO IDEA
My stomach hurts....
#i have never been so excited yet so scared at the same time#it's too many feelings#i cant process them all#im gonna throw up#or cry#or jump around#or all three#or none#idk#Youtube
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hello beautifuls, i got a job offer last week in [redacted] and i’m so grateful and excited to be… making money again! and to finally have my own place and fix it up to my taste and get 2 cats 🥹 there’s a job in [redacted] w the same exact salary range and i’m really hoping i get it bc it’s a much more desirable hot girl walkable city. my final interview for that job is next wednesday send hot girl city job offer vibes my way pls
#either way i’m so excited to be getting out of texas. i have a love hate relationship w my city bc it’s 90% mexican and frankly moving#either cities means i will mostly be surrounded by white people and i’m not even trying to be funny when i say that scares me a lil#i remember the first time my big sis and i visited new jersey and when we were walking around the town i looked at her and went ‘i’ve never#seen this many white people in my life’ and her eyes got big and she said ‘i was thinking the exact same thing’. like there’s safety and#security in being constantly surrounded by other mexicans/latinos but alas. it’s time to get out of the comfort zone and make some schmonie#the salary is very good i think but then again i probably don’t feel as impressed or wowed as i should bc i think i deserve 1 million#dollars an hour. and i don’t have imposter syndrome in fact i have i deserve it syndrome. i worked hard for everything i’ve earned so far#and im an amazing operations manager so yeah pay up bozo better yet? offer me more money :~] i actually did try negotiating the salary and#they were like well no. but we still want to extend the original offer LMAO i was like ok. i deserve it but ok#then i got a second job offer like the day after but they were offering $15k less and i was like hmm maybe this current job offer is pretty#good overall. so i denied it obviously and accepted the other one but i’m still holding out on the hot girl city job offer.#ill tell yall the cities once everything i said and done. send hot girl city vibes my way pls xoxooxo#thank you loves you all. walkable city here i come (i hope)!#mine
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I'm NOT ready for alnst round 7 💔💔 vivinos has something planned i can feel it in my bones
#を⠀𓈒⠀° 𝙍ambles#someones gonna die and i dont know if i wanna know who#IM EXCITED BUT SCARED AT THE SAME TIME#i need to sleep so i can’t see it until later ugh 💔💔#rest is more important
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#really about to talk about this guy again. ive become That Girl. its fine JDJDDKDKD#anyway nothings happened Happened yet but i get more n more sire that its mutual#but im gonna be PATIENT. bc god... nothing good happens when its rushed#im just !!!!!! i like him so much 😭😭😭😭😭#like usually when i like a guy right. its from afar n the minute i talk to them im like ok ew actually i dont like u#but this guy... THISSS GUY.... first of all i cant get enough#and second we're like FRIENDS alright. when im at school we're almost always near each other or talking#and i am in BLISS. OK. JDJDDJDKKZKZ#idk... idk.... ive never felt like thism im both scared n excited at the same time JDJDJDJDJDJDJJDJD#like i'll be honest i never truly related to love songs this much in my life. like pls save me !!!¡!!!!!#n im not saying its love. but like JDJDJDJJDJD. i like him a LOT A LOT..... ya.....#personal
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I'm going to be applying for my first full time position in the coming weeks 😬
#my resume isn't READY#technically they require the degree that i don't have yet but im a semester away so maybe itll be fine??#i have all the qualifications regardless and double the experience they want#and its full time making 25 fucking dollars an hour. STARTING at 25#with benefits AND at the company i wanted to work for#i. frankly doubt they will accept me bc i don't have that degree BUT#i have really strong references and if i name drop them.....maybe my foot will be in the door idk#i need money so bad bro#i am salivating over 40k a year. what has the economy come to man#anyway i will apply regardless of whether or not i think im worthy but im scared to get my hopes up#full time....i could move out so much faster l#i would be making 3x what i make now#yes i would still be in classes but maybe if i am like ''yeah haha june 2025 graduation date ♡'' and then they hire me#i can be like ''ohhhh noooo i can only take one rn :( guess ill graduate this summer haha''#bc it would Have to be online. like i will not commute to classes while also working full time#idk man im excited and scared at the same time
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YIPPEE!!!!!!!
#wrote like 200 words today and its not even 9pm lets fucken go :D#coni wips#its pretty much done i just gotta edit it yay#ill probably be out sometime next week?#also. im so scared and excited for sow tmr. i have to play dnd at the same time tho so ill only catch like the first half hour#before i have to go rip#but!!! so excited!!!
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Ughh I'm so anxious for just the session 0 of the new campaign im running
#the duck quacks#im very excited for it and im very scared the players wont have the same excitement and that the campaign falls apatr after 1 session#but also im still so. fucking excited to run a Balance campaign again#i loved running it the first time and im so excited to see the new players reaction to it bc its fascinating to see how people react to#the same scenarios and how much a story can change based of players alone#+ since i ran it already i can fix a few mistakes i made last time gfdjgkldf#also its just such a fun system with different themes each session and i actually found a module on an old reddit post this time ill be usi#g for reference which im v excited for bc it looked pretty darn well made (for my standards)#god im just so excited for this group but also terrified out of my mind
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