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[myheartisoutatsea]

Speaking ill of the Dead

Okay, let’s have this conversation. The tragedy on the Titan Sub is an incredibly complicated topic, less so because of the actual technical issues of the submarine but for the actions of the company and crew. Perhaps by calling it a tragedy I have already made my opinion somewhat clear, but let me lament about the topic a bit further. 

Clearly the company did not take well enough actions prior to the dive of the submarine. It has had no peer review, not certification, and every attempt to express concern on the Submarines integrity was ignored in favor of a quicker time tune over and a profit. This is an inherent problem in the Adventure industry, where something that is meant to be undertaken slowly, carefully, and by well prepared experts is done by people who want an adrenaline rush and an experience. This leads to a lot of tragedy in the Industry. 

Secondly, the crew aboard has made some questionable designs in their life. I believe one report I saw claimed the co-founder of OceanGate and pilot of the Submarine was previously a private jet owner and flyer and thus according the account responsible for heavy air pollution and in passion of already great wealth. I believe they (the author of the account) found this to be abhorrent, and anybody who respects this earth would react to pollution, and found him to be  a terrible human being. 

There is also the issue of whether or not the site of tragedy should be a tourist destination, and also the waver the crew signed when entering the vessel. The waver clearly stated it was an experimental vessel and an uncertified one at that. 

Now none of these are what I have an issue with, seeing as I honestly think many mistake were made, that’s what makes it a tragedy and not a horror. What I have issue with it going around saying they deserved death, as though we should let people make their beds and lie in them, as though we should look death in the face and call it humane and right, as though I am supposed to speak ill of dead men for their money. 

So I’m going to go into these issues, from the point of view of a Sailors child. My parent is a sailor, and a Submariner at that. We’ve had extensive talks about the issues here, and I’d like to poke a few holes, a patch a few others, and make some conversation while I’m at it. 

I would like to ask you dear readers, what in the world do you actually know about Submarines? Had you read that waver, would you honestly believe there would better options? Would you know about the three to five organizations that certify Submarines or would you assume uncertified meant non-military? Would you not assume this new and amazing technologically was of course experimental? For what else could innovation in adventure be? 

There has been some outrage about the fact that the submarine was piloted by a game controller, well guess what, Navy Submarines have them too. Until very recently most Periscopes on Submarines were made to function through a highly calibrated set of mirrors. Quite literally mirrors. The submarine scene from the Fast and Furious 8 movie made me so mad, because there is not enough technology in an older submarine for Cipher to hack if she tried. Now, the most recent submarines use digital cameras in their periscopes. Want to know how they maneuver that? With an Xbox game controller. One of the Sailors pointed out that the technology for game control, meant to be intuitive to the user, could be very useful on the submarine and thus the engineers made it happen. Do not pretend the wireless, intuitive controller is not amazing technology because it helps you play video games. 

Another thing about Submarines, did you know that worldwide, during peace time, many nations have a specific system set up with each other to do search and rescue for submarines? Look up the disappearance of the ARA San Juan, an Argentina sub that also imploded and was only located with national help. The Hulk wasn’t too far off when he talked about being in a pressurized can being a bad idea. Submarines are some of the most deadly machines we have, in their military use and how much danger there is to operate them. As such, the international community reacts to them according. The US Navy specifically has a policy of being able to launch search and recovery equipment to the needed location or at least en route to within 24 hours of notification. This includes sonar and deep sea ROVs. Based on previous precedence set by Submarine emergencies, the international community is more likely to respond to Submarine disasters quicker, they have less time. 

So Yes, the tragedy of the refugee ship of Greece is a politically fueled tragedy and loss of life, but it is not the same as the Titan. The Titan didn’t get more attention because it has billionaires on board, it got more attention because it was a Submarine. Submarines have the benefit of being a recent dilemma for the world theaters, so they have more modern solutions while Refugees and Sailing ships have had centuries of existence to be wrangled into political machinations that make it complicated to rescue too retrieve. 

What is more likely to be a problem is the retrieval or lack there of the bodies, as those bodies are usually mounted over, but bodies lost at sea rarely get returned. The Navy has always held that the ocean is a fit and final resting place for those lost at sea, and while due respect is paid to their loss, retrieving the bodies and wreckage is harrowing and expensive. If you truly want to rage against those with a lot of a money, start asking who’s going to be paying for the retrieval operation and all that time spent searching. I would argue it should be OceanGate, for their negligence in the integrity of their Submarine lead to a loss of life. 

I will also honestly say this, I hate to speak ill of the dead even when it must be done. Yes, some of these people lost did terrible things, but they did not only do evil in their life and their story should not just be “They did this but they also did this!” it should be instead “They did this and this.” Was the french diver not also one of the only certified people to take wreckage from the Titanic to surface for study, posterity, and for museums? Was the British explorer not also a history enthusiast who was excited to see a piece of history he studied so fondly? Was the Son not also a student? Perhaps the pilot did pollute the earth, you’d be hard pressed to find someone who hadn’t, his crime is perhaps instead doing nothing to fix pollution. 

I believe a lot of us apply Spiderman's “With Great Power comes Great Responsibility” to those with Wealth, and while not wrong we get too disappointed when they fail to meet our standards. They are not obligated to help the world, as much as we need them to be. We want them to be better people, but they won’t always be. It is not wealth that made them bad, but their actions or lack thereof with it that did. 

The Navy hosts something called the Submarine ball, to celebrate the creation of the Submarine force. And every Submarine ball, they will list the submarines sunk and the life lost on them. I have gone too many times, heard that speech and list too many times to call the death by horrific pressure and cold and drowning something somebody has to have had deserved. 

Look up the specifics of implosion, of death, of how your blood boils if you rise to fast, of the cold seeping in so fast you feel like ice, to the lack of hair, and tell me you wish that on people. Tell me you have enough in you to wish somebody to die by the sea, lost and scared, and tell me how that makes you a righteous and good person. By all means rage an injustice, rage at the unfair, but do not turn that into a right to murder, to kill, and wish death on others. 

[hanzi83]

Society in Mental Decline

I figured I would waste people’s time with another blog. Keep in mind you are not supposed to be consuming my blogs or podcasts if you are someone who is a very well together adjusted person, the good portion who consume anything I write or say on a podcast, but let’s be real, also my “private” thoughts I write in a journal can be hacked and monitored and when I am feeling irrational with the direction in where the world is going and seeing all kind of fandom and political angles going to complete and utter shit, I start to feel a certain way and since no one interacts with my shit and I am considered a red flag account and it is fine, because it is better to vent my mental irrational shit because for the most part no one wants part of it but people with powerful connections are often monitoring me and when they sense my mental is falling off a little bit more than usual, trolls from the past show back up and try to take advantage by misrepresenting what I say or what I do, put out dangerous rumors and instilling paranoia into me for almost a decade now and then when they can’t get on my good side, they will take it personally and dedicate their life to trying to ruin an already uneventful life, and then they try to accomplish multiple goals with this, first misrepresenting where my mind is and hoping I snap and also putting instilled fear in me in wondering who is making the call for this to happen and try to make it as personal as possible, whether it is with the political shit or the wrestling shit, and normally the people who are footing the incentive for these people to do it are normally people who pretend they have it all together because they have a cult online of fed like accounts who are designed to create chaos and make a little push for me to harm myself or others. This one fucked up troll by the name of Gorilla Bacon, is someone who, in my opinion, is an outsider and he has made photo shops of me attacking people and saying it is a gay couple or him repeating the lie that I got physical with my parents, and constantly interfere whenever I would become friendly with other people online, even at one time I believe he was sent to my house to knock on my basement window, or he would get other trolls to claim I did some inappropriate shit backstage at Stern Show even though I never was at the studio, maybe twice, once for a tour in 2008 and the other on air in a shitty segment. I am just writing this now because he is the one they really send when they want to push me off my rocker, so much so when I wanted to go away for a bit, he is so closely monitoring my life because I believe he is another paid agents, he wanted to be in the same hospital because he is a fucking creep. And if people in the “wrestling fandom” who don’t like me shitting on the fact that they are paid and funded shills by billionaires, or whether it is people in my life who are giving incentive, I hope whoever is funding this and trying to make me lose my mind, I really do hope the worst for you spiritually. They knew what they were doing and because this one notoriously would dedicate himself to posting my periscope videos and then misrepresenting what was being said and trying to constantly get me to engage, he will try to do it again because he takes pleasure in trying to drive me crazy because he can’t admit he is an obsessed cunt who can’t deal with his own mental issues and spends his time with far right wing mentally ill people and trying to troll and destroy people’s lives because he is told to do so. But I knew once I started bitching irrationally and getting thoughts off he normally reports my tweets and tries to get me censored and people who surround themselves with my trolls and get them to fuck with me, no one is forcing you to monitor my thoughts on certain issues or listen to my podcast. Not only have I been suppressed and made to feel completely useless, it is not good enough they want to cause me serious harm, if it isn’t this troll, it is the one who pretended he was driving to my house and broadcasted it on periscope or putting my tweets out there for nationalist people to have me on their list, these people have actively tried to put in my head they were kidnapping me and since no one has my back seemingly they would take pleasure in the thought of breaking me down. If they didn’t get my attention, they would get other people who would try to be friendly with me to start fucking with my mental to drive me fucking crazy. They sense weakness and predictably they come for blood and they act like vultures because they sold their soul to be mediocre obsessive trolls who want to socially climb off ruining people’s lives, whenever I was not around in online circles, their lives became boring and they realized the only reason they had online people to interact with was because when I was addressing them, no one gives a shit about me or my existence, but these people no one would notice if they fucking died and they spend time being told to harass a mentally ill person and drive them even more insane and if I act out and lose control, where do you think the attention lies? It will go on me because the aggression outward gets the most attention, they won’t talk about the tactics being done for the incentive of entertainment because mentally ill people have been given power to cause online chaos for personal gain and because they have nothing in their lives. So you want to spread that I am going more right wing since you hang out with a bunch of them because by discrediting what I am doing on my podcast, you are showing me that even though there are theories I express, it is making a bunch of people nervous that I might have an accurate description of what they are doing and what they are about. If you are the ones who are permitting this to happen and giving incentive, and even plotting and organizing to put harm on me, I will hope for the remainder of your days you will mental pain that you will not recover from because people will cross the fucking line and be the ones who start doing it on purpose so when I do fight back against certain narratives, they make it seem I am the one bringing this on, but a lot of you started this shit. You aren’t happy enough that no one on the surface takes me seriously but now for just existing in my own world and going off about the decline of society, it makes you feel some sort of way that you would opt to try and fuck with me even more. Even if you succeed and get whatever done, you will always be haunted by the fact that you partook and tried to ruin other people’s lives. I believe a lot of you are paid to do that and because I didn’t bow down to Pepsi Messiah like everyone else did and partake in a mentally ill campaign to have discredited legacy media members act like sports entertainers so that there would be a campaign to bring in new sports entertainers who are more “truthful” while completely tearing shit down purposefully to cater to one person’s ego and then get mad that the reboot “worked” shoot didn’t pan out with ticket sales, then to be so mentally ill to act like the smears is what did it when those were by design to make him look like a victim in all of this shit. I don’t mind online angles working out but when it comes to the detriment of a product that is growing, it feels backwards to me. Purposefully fucking shit up so a bunch of social climbers can act like geniuses for having a preset answer isn’t moving this shit forward, it took steps back to facilitate this. I don’t even know if it is the wrestling fandom shills that are doing it but they have partaken in piling on others who spoke out about stuff, it is their style, they constantly create chaos online, won’t cosign talent if they are not giving into social pressure online to be more “sexy” so the companies themselves don’t have to be the ones to do it. They didn’t want to evolve the industry, they just wanted their own version of WWE, like having so much organized chaos where it has to bring in a more militant approach of putting your foot down even though the chaos to me is organized. It could be people who hate me personally who have had a hand in destroying my life the last 15 years and making side deals and being allowed to use me as a guinea pig on display while undermining me and showing off about how your lives are better because of your aesthetic and making me feel like shit by denying anything shady you have done or won’t be held accountable for because the system protects you and if I dare show aggression, then it is all on me to “get help” in a fucked up world where everyone is losing their mind and going more to the far right and are help normalizing fascism via sports entertainment. It could also be in the political circles who are going more to the right and maybe they don’t like that I basically shit on certain narratives from alt media types whose sole personality is being anti MSM while normalizing new propaganda and never disclosing who is footing the bill for your “views” that are being propped up by very far right wing people and maybe a lot of you are mad because you would think with the shit I was consuming 10 years ago, I would have naturally transitioned into being part of this new right, but also capitalizing off the trauma mentally so I could call out Howard Stern but only under the guise of “Liberal Hollywood and Howard gone PC” type of narrative. If I had done that, I believe it would’ve still lead to me being on his side because I believe he is a closet right wing person and he is gonna go back to his roots that made him famous in the first place. I am trying my best to keep this structured as possible but when I am stressed and irrational, I want to go all over the place because a million thoughts are going through my head and the writing can never encapsulate the feeling of what I go through, but they knew sending the original troll who helped put me in a bad mental place and then gaslight me and try to make half ass peace and half ass apologizing but not feeling bad for what he put me through and completely denying it over and over. I don’t want you in my life and I don’t fucking like you and anyone who associates with you I will never like. That is why I don’t want to be here because the longer I am, the worse I will end up being and even if my aesthetic improved, I would never want to be on the same sicko wavelength as a lot of you who help destroy people’s lives. I don’t want to have my own cult that purposefully fucks with people and permanently fuck with their psyche, I would rather lash out on my own in self defense even if I have to cross the line with shit I said because these people don’t get the fucking hint. They will always insinuate they are watching and monitoring and even insinuate they will kill me, yet they are allowed to get away with it and constantly generalize me and put out that I am going to cause violence when I have no intention, nor do I have any weapons, or how to get access to the weapons. I am truthfully waiting for whoever is in charge to decide my time is up so I never have to think about these people ever again. It doesn’t help that this “conspiratorial” thinking is only kind of embraced on the right wing, people who are “left” always shit on conspiracies if it is being weaponized against the right wing. It feels even people who claim they are democrats will generalize so people have no choice but to be lured into right wing shit. Because there will be some truthful shit the right wing says but a lot of the time, they are the ones who are projecting while being the ones who can say on the surface they are bringing attention to it. We limit conversations because we are all trying to play fucking social media characters, there is no way to really have analytical conversation when everyone is working with a script they cannot get off of.  We reduce the villains to “America’s dumbest criminal” level of conversation and it doesn’t go anywhere, it normally ends with product placement discourse over real systemic issues that make people think the actual issue is not to be cared about because we define it by the sensationalism that takes up time. I will get into other things but I know now that my trolls are being given incentive to come back out etc, they won’t care if I make valid points or have legit concerns, they will just continue to misrepresent on purpose and they are knowingly pushing someone to lose their mind but then again, they are a product of Howard Stern’s cruelty and I am not the only one whose life has been fucked with but because the whack packers are so out of control and “low brow” no one gives 2 shits, it is kind of why it has so many similarities with the wrestling fandom because there are people who are literally employed to put people in bad predicaments not knowing the system will make you go through the exact same shit, you want to sell your soul and not realize that there will be a cost and when this shit happens to you that has happened to so many us, you will be portrayed as the worst version of yourself. I want to write a long blog because these people will be forced to read it since they keep track of every word, every mistake etc, they will have to constantly keep track and then because my words will affect them because I am bringing up what they are doing and what their incentive, they won’t know how to cope or deal with it, they will just double down with their shadiness and try to get my attention, maybe so my blog and podcast can revolve around them since they won’t leave me alone. These people know where I live, have spent years claiming they are following me and watching me. Maybe even organizing weird shit to happen to me when I go out. Why would you want to keep me alive? To torture so I can be a tragic figure you can make a documentary about and some people will shit on me, or others will pretend they care and they wish someone would’ve stepped in, but  alot of people with power sit back and watch. No wonder people turn to evil, there is more fun incentive to do evil shit and get rewarded for it while it seems like there is no incentive to do anything to save people’s lives or try to maintain positive change but because billionaire funded accounts get paid to create chaos and start constant negative shit because it seems more genuine and real, will then make it seem like any push for positive shit is the most sociopathic shit where they constantly have to gaslight people with their gimmicked negativity because it is their image as a “truth teller” that is more important. 

There is a reason why there has been this forced online push in politics and fandom in general where the discredited legacy media types are becoming more parody and when they do tell truth out of self preservation, you have people who think because they are online and the internet is some freedom of speech shit, when most likely it is a playground for billionaire funded gimmicks to push back on transparent errors so they can swoop in and spread their lies, like I am all for a rehaul of media if there was actual truth coming out from the alt media types and online personas but they already lie about shit and mislead people with their narratives, why would I want to consume more liars? It was never about real change, it was about them getting to be the leaders of thought after self sabotage and ruining people’s lives. Even with the small power they have, they have shown they are reckless and careless with whose lives they destroy and all you have to do is have the bare minimum “anti establishment” narrative, while being permitted by the establishment to play ball. Like with elections, it feels like the presidents and politicians would be different title holders in a wrestling company and even if they can cut dope promos to mesmerize the audience, ultimately it is the Vince McMahon’s of the world who decide where the trajectory goes. So it feels like people have a gimmicked way to blame whoever for voting for who they deem less credible. But even if by some miracle one of these funded third party types win you don’t think they will have to do shit they don’t want to do, especially if the system goes more into the right wing. Apolitical people who see the world being the same on the surface no matter who is president, you think they want to vote for a democrat. Maybe if there was honesty in what is actually different about the parties because judging it off of what goes on the surface, the overall shit always seem to be the status quo to majority of people, so you can’t really get mad at people who feel disillusioned by the system who don’t see a difference. Then if you strategize and want to vote for a democrat because you know what the reality is, if you give votes to people who plan to take whatever is bad now and expand it even more, then people will shit on you for not voting for their third party candidate. Maybe 5 years ago or so this would have resonated more but when people who are advocating for third parties are people taking right wing billionaires money then as a dumbed down guy I don’t have to really trust you about what your motives are.  If you are people who are constantly finding “sophisticate” the both sides argument with trans issues at a time where there is vitriol toward the entire community which ends up being product placement for a shitty product while amplifying dangerous rhetoric and then the companies who have gone “woke” will then capitulate to their needs because they want right wing shit to dominate, then I don’t have to trust your takes on politics like I used to, especially if you constantly just say “I am anti war” because just saying it doesn’t mean anything, it feels like you say it so no one can question your pro war narratives when it comes to weaponization against people in marginalized communities, by using tokens who lean more conservative to basically give you your talking points. Sports are always popular and there will always be coverage of it, but by now letting the political shit seep into it, it then gives a bunch of conservative leaning people who claim they are not political to chime in with a political take that just covers the most sensationalist. Like if you have purposefully put out shit against other communities through some sensationalist shit to help manufacture consent while laws are being passed to fuck with people’s lives, then why would I want another system stooge who is gonna do fundamentalist level shit under the guise of “keeping it real” to have more of a say in this world when there are a dime a dozen, but they get propped up because they did the system’s dirty work so now we have to put up with mediocre personalities with shitty takes but because it is better than MSM, we have to kind of accept it. 

Look at the online sensationalist shit you see for people to automatically want vigilante justice on homeless people because there is an uptick of subway attacks. I am of the belief and I know I am not allowed to get conspiratorial because apparently that is a right wing thing, but if these people on the far right can fund shit to go down with school board meetings and fund protests and counter protests to show up etc why wouldn’t I think that they would have a bunch of people funded to do these kinds of attacks so it goes viral and it fear mongers to regular people of these kinds of crimes, and I feel like even people who counter the narrative of tough on crime, I feel they limit themselves because if they explain root cause of what needs to be done to help people on a systemic level, the counter to that is always about how regular people feel about it now because they need a solution to feel safe. It goes in circles, but none of the parties involved don’t want to act like these things could be organized on purpose, so much so that even during one of her commercial breaks Ana Kasparian got a reader comment that insinuated that could be the case, she agreed but never mentions it on the main show. It is like people like that have doubled down on their rhetoric, so people in the system in the alt media can speculate on it technically but for their main audience, they will find themselves justifying the vigilante justice and judging this as it is a regular situation when I believe the system have people like Jordan Neely on their radar, and give incentive to do shit that will get them arrested because they will have some kind of way to make money off it if it goes viral, they spy on all of us and have us monitored, you don’t think they know which people who are homeless, who they can fuck with in a culminative way and then organize a fucking murder that will get used to demonize the person who was killed. People will be outraged that a “criminal” was let out after so many incidents, but did it ever occur to people they don’t want those people getting better and they make it seem that they don’t want to keep them in jail because of the claims of systemic racism, but it feels they do it on purpose so they are given incentive to create chaos or cause commotion. The right wing who normally doesn’t give a shit about minorities will then use a situation where a black male stabbed someone who slapped his girlfriend etc, I don’t agree with slapping someone and people will react physically but I don’t think you needed to kill him, or stab him etc, there are better ways to keep that person down until you can get to the authorities but the right wing will use him as an example so it doesn’t look like this is some racist shit because even the ideology of white supremacist can use diversity so it blurs the line of the overall thing. People who will claim the MSM has not covered stories then link to a MSM outlet that covered the story doesn’t fool people, it does fool people who believe they have woken up the “EVIL MSM” but dumb themselves down to believe an End Wokeness account because they said MSM has not covered it, even though online is another form of MSM. That is their only hope to say credible because we still view the world through a 1990’s lens and people want to reboot their favorite narratives and personalities they have consumed. You even have that uncharismatic shit head Charly Anolt aka Charly Caruso getting in on the grift praising Daniel Penny and acting like America is better than other countries because they kill people for being gay when she is adding to sensationalist rhetoric which is helping laws to be passed that is trying to eradicate different people from different communities from existing and don’t act like a lot of that fundamentalist shit in other countries are in line with the fundamentalists in the western world, it is like WWE is America, other territories get to practice the regressive shit, like doing hardcore and edge lord storylines to practice underground, until WWE starts embracing stuff they probably had a hand in to begin with, in my opinion of course, just like most of the shit I am saying but it feels like that is implemented with other countries the US has had a hand in making worse then they bring it to US or in Canada. So someone like that is adding in helping people feel less than so you can profit off putting people’s lives in danger. They are hyping up these fake viral moments or organized moments to then use it as a way to promote a product but also capitulating to right wing narratives. You got guys like Glenn Greenwald claiming Rumble doesn’t have a political ideology even though most of the people on it are funded by a right wing billionaire, and if you want to prove Rumble isn’t agenda filled, you wouldn’t be promoting Andrew Tate because they somehow amplified his views to get over 5 million, why would you want to promote a right wing rapist who is going to prison for sexy trafficking women, he will probably get off and it will be seen as victory because they hammered home the point of the powers that be targeting him, but he is still free to do live streams and still have lots of influence, it is like everyone is practicing the “Radio won’t even play my jam” method, like Eminem saying they are banning him from MTV and radio, yet I am seeing your videos on MTV and hearing your song on the radio and now they turned it into a right wing concept to gain favor by other people who think because they are reading it on the internet that they are tuning into some secret news they weren’t supposed to hear. There is more concentrated effort to organize the label of “diversity training” with corporations and because every corporation partakes in sports entertainment for online narratives purposes, it will come off as dysfunctional as a television show where a corporation looks incredibly dumb so they make it seem like diversity and inclusion is backfiring so they can capitulate to the right wing cause, which to me was always their intention, like that Starbucks story, and this is the latest I have heard, these stories change so many fucking times because it is more about people getting their narratives, 2 black men were escorted out by police because they had it called on them, but the woman who did it was a black woman, so the company didn’t want to seem like racist for firing her for doing that to people who were just legit waiting for their friend etc, so they then fire a bunch of white employees and one of them got a big payday? Is that the story but it is designed to make it look like they are bending over backwards to help minorities and protecting them when this puts more vitriol towards any claim of racism, it feels like in the 2010’s, even if it was not talked about what is going on with the core of the issue and still felt limited, it felt like we were moving toward exposing the system in a genuine way but it has now resulted in people who have felt socially more powerful to push back against any claim of racism that people don’t mind that there is a movement to ban books that discuss racism in it. They will use the corporations who probably fund the negative Nancy’s to push back against wokeness because they want that side to ultimately win. And the people who are countering it are also shills who will do it in a way where it comes off like an emotional and irrational response. It is like they want every sports entertainer who counter racism to do it in the style of Ben Affleck when he had an emotional break down because Bill Maher and Sam Harris were being racist towards Muslims in a sophisticated way so it made Ben’s response look like he was the one who can’t handle the facts and you could’ve had better people who could point out Bill and Sam’s lies, but whenever any liberal calls it out, it has to be this blind emotional response which makes the racist side think that these people can’t handle the facts, like Ben was not wrong. Bill and Sam were being racist, but there was more vitriol for him than the racists themselves. People often applaud Ben Affleck for that shit, but it is like you made the situation worse, it wouldn’t shock me if he did that on purpose to help that cause and now look at it on social media, they got a bunch of people to do that with these talks about the current issues via culture war whether it is racism of why a movie didn’t do well or whatever else product placement you will promote but act like by covering the social issue involved is really gonna fucking change anything. They make it seem like because we consume shit by alt media and online that being vitriolic toward the democrats is detrimental when literally every funded person out there is doing it 100 percent, they will claim they give it to both sides, but a lot of you buy into the America’s dumbest criminal shit with right wing and dumb down their threat and then you present shitty in fighting where it puts you in a position to have to play devil’s advocate for people with fascist aspirations. Tell me how are you better than the MSM again? I am not even saying don’t call out democrats, but to act like it is more detrimental to criticize them because they make it look that way is the worst narrative ever because everyone literally makes fun of the democrats. You’re not special because you do, because most people who started out like “we have to go at both etc” are now making excuses for far right wing people who have really shady ties with other fucked up people in that space. I never thought some of these people who claimed to be socialist, not all of them obviously, but the ones who get right wing funding, but I never thought their socialism shtick would be aligning more with the National socialists. It used to be easier to kind of escape politics with the entertainment even though entertainment has played a role in manufacturing consent for people to think in a more ignorant kind of way but for some reason if you point it out, they lump you in with the evangelicals who pretend to be against the entertainment when it is 2 sides of the same fucking coin, but it has really seeped into the wrestling community and they basically give Tucker Carlson and CM Punk the same booking elements for their characters. To me a situation that was created for the purpose of watering shit down just so it caters to one person’s ego like if I am not one of these people who think Punk was unprofessional, the guy clearly has mental health issues from people fucking with him over his life and also being in a mafia industry is not gonna help your mental no matter how many people will think it will because of money and fame, but some people get ganged up on for a long time but then when they become in a situation with power and having their own cult, then ti is like you are repeating the same shit to others that happened to you and that is when I stop feeling bad. I have nothing against Punk personally, the entire business was built upon unprofessional shit, but to me this entire thing could’ve been done better but instead his shills ruined the enjoyment and helped sabotage shit so they can get people on the pro Punk train because whenever anyone else in the industry get screwed over, it doesn’t matter. You can have misogynistic shit heads and racists pile on Swole for giving fair criticism but when Punk is affected, then I am supposed to act like this is the biggest travesty and the people who planned the smears so it could seem like his shills are fighting back, I felt it was done by design because they need to constantly market controversy around him. If you compared worked shoot shit to Sopranos, like at one time this shit changed the game and rewrote the rules that made a lot of money etc, but when you try to do a Sopranos copy in this day and age you better evolve it a lot more than redoing what the Sopranos was, which by now has been done by every show out there just like every company that falls for partaking in constantly creating worked shoot controversy. It doesn’t have the same effect and because ticket sales have not been that great outside of Chicago for this new show, instead of admitting this worked shoot shit didn’t have the immediate success you wanted, they blame the gimmicked smears about him as the reason when maybe the whole fucking thing made people sick of it. When life was more boring and it was not amplified with a news cycle 24/7 for every fandom, these worked shoot angles meant something because it was out of ordinary of what you would expect, but literally every day is something else with a celebrity or politics or some product that is constantly fighting nonstop that maybe people already have enough to worry about and consume instead of this worked shoot shit they are doing and as long as wrestling and other fandoms remain discourse products, then you will never have a great product 100 percent because it means we are going to have to do booking errors to facilitate real life angles so they can make money from you shoots and podcasts and documentaries, when everything revolves around that then nothing will ever be done correctly. There is more incentive to have the errors run wild. I will admit I get angry at other cogs in the system who are doing my level of “ride or die” for their favorites like I used to do which is probably why I get so angry about it because I was in that phase, but it feels more people will double down with it, and they will do worse shit by being let in the club and being allowed to cause destruction to someone’s image, thing is before I knew there were efforts on a grand level to make someone the butt of the joke, I would get in on it to some extent because I felt I was just some random person who is just making light of shit in the news that genuinely happened, once I found out people can organize you to be fucked with or lure you into a dark space of embracing far right wing shit, it changed my perception on the manner and now it comes off as really fucked up to play with people’s mental illness especially when incentive is given. I probably don’t have long to live anyways, because I am sure I have some sort of cancer or health problems that I won’t give a shit about until it takes me to death, but all the stress from the people who harass me and then it forces me to respond back because they are organizing an effort but their narrative will be to keep my mouth shut because they can’t control their mentally ill impulses and they use their power to fuck with one person’s mental health which is what they have done secretly the last decade, and they have gotten more people to partake in that, especially within the wrestling fandom. It is fucking disturbing that people cross the line over “entertainment” but they literally do that and do the billionaire bidding. They have the “Kill the rich” mentality but get turnt out by the billionaires who do far worse. 

[infinityreview]

New Infinity previews! (2022)

In the new Infinity Studio Update video Bostria shows off a whole bunch of renders presented at Adepticon. You can watch the full video here. Lets take a look, and I’ll tell you what I think!

This new Vanguard sniper is pretty sweet! While the new Vanguard designs are really nice, I personally prefer the more military and armored older versions. However this is a really solid looking model. The pose is a HUGE improvement over the previous version (even though it is very similar), and the bag is a nice addition that helps balance the whole model out. 

I’m really not a fan of these new Yaogats. Both the previous versions are classics, and this one just abandons everything that made those great for something pretty generic looking. It doesn’t look like a Morat at all. This really, really looks like a 40K T’au model to me. it is also absolutely massive for an ARM 3 MI. And the gun is absurdly big, even for a Morat. All of that said, the helmet and collar areas are pretty interesting looking, and I like the big pack. 

Yikes. This pretty cool looing TAG is ruined by the ridiculous pogo stick periscope riding pilot sticking out of the bottom. What were the thinking??? First off, the idea that a Morats would leave their pilot unarmored like this is ridiculous. Look at the absurd armor they put on their ARM 1, 2 and 3 troops! Second, for a close combat focused TAG, it looks ridiculously easy to just punch the pilot. He’s just hanging  at waist height, completely unprotected! It also looks like the TAG wouldn’t be able to walk forward with it’s knees bumping into the pilot, and its thighs crushing him.  

Otherwise the TAG is pretty okay. I believe its designed to look like the Hungries, which is pretty cool.

Oh geez I just noticed its awful gun! Sigh.  Maybe we’ll get a redesign in 5 years that fixes all this? or maybe someone will just do a good version we can all 3d print?

Sargosh looks pretty cool. I really like the designs for the Jayth Cutthroats already, so I’m not surprised I like this too. The pose isn’t particularly impressive or attention catching for a character, but the the elements look nice. 

I guess this and Sargosh are “tournament editions” of the existing models? The Zeta Unit seems fine. Big and nicely detailed. I seem to remember people really not liking the original model, but I’m not sure what the problem was. leave a comment if you know. 

Another Uxia?  This one doesn’t seem to be a particular improvement over the last 3 or 4, design wise at least. The sculpting is nice though. 

The image says this model has an ADHL. I can’t tell if that's the weapon slung on his back, or if he’s dual wielding them. The weapons in his hands look like grenade launchers to me. Anyway, the coat and hat make this a pretty fun design.

Wow! I own the older Shinobu, but I never got around to painting her for my JSA. I haven’t used that army in a few years, but Ill probably pick this model up just for the fun of painting her. She looks great! The pose is really weighted to show off the heft of that enormous sword. And the hat looks great!

I really like the pose on this one, and his extra details really compliment the standard Nomad outfit. Great expression, too!

This is a really neat design, with lots of interesting elements. But like the recent Zerat, it just seems too busy.  

I really like a lot of the recent Military Order models, and this one is another good addition. Her collar and jacket really play up the religious look, and her eye piece is great. She’s cute too!

This is a really great extreme action pose, and a great overall design. I really like her!

I wasn’t sure what to expect from a new Marut. The original is pretty amazing. This one is really sleek. I wish they did more with the four arms, since that’s the model’s most unique element, but overall I really like this. Well, that's it for now. I’ll have full reviews of these models whenever they’re finally released. - Jake

[maspwinj2]

How many days you all talk about that fucking pic with Dannel and Jensen? You talked more about this than the mountains of things J2 at Jibcon!! I know this is a blog tinhat but wtf..I want J2 love again!!

truth is, i’ll talk about it… FOREVER

and every time i will, it’ll be specifically to annoy YOU anon

and every time any single tinhat will talk about it, it will be in the hope that YOU see it and that YOU get annoyed

[unfortunate-stranger-losers]

Six Baudelaires AU, Part Three {AO3} {Masterlist} {Part One} {Part Two}

Chapter Thirteen → in which I bang my head against a table because I have to pay attention to Widdershins

Nick flinched back and grabbed even harder onto Klaus’s arm, enough that he let out a cry. 

“Shiver me timbers!” Sunny said, giggling. 

“The Sugar Bowl?” Klaus asked. 

“Aye! The Sugar Bowl!” Widdershins bellowed. “Do you think the Queequeg made its difficult way up the Stricken Stream just for fun? Aye? Do you think I would risk such terrible danger just for my own amusement?” Fiona raised an eyebrow there and shot Lilac a disgruntled look, which made Lilac blush harder. “Do you think it was a crazy coincidence you ran into our periscope? Aye?” 

“You were… looking for us?” Nick asked quietly, not looking very pleased. 

“For you! Aye! For the Sugar Bowl! Aye! For justice! Aye! And liberty! Aye! For an opportunity to make the world quiet! Aye! And safe! Aye! And we may only have until Thursday! Aye! We’re in terrible danger! Aye! So get to work!” 

“Bamboozle.” Sunny said, eyes wide. 

“My sister is confused, and so are we.” Violet said. “If we could just stop for a moment-” 

“Stop for a moment? I’ve just explained our desperate circumstances, and you’re asking me to hesitate! My dear girl, he who hesitates is lost! Now let’s get moving!” 

Nick and Violet both inhaled sharply, sharing identical looks of frustration, while Klaus took a deep breath, Solitude hmmphed and stomped her foot, and Sunny groaned. Lilac, meanwhile, was still staring at Fiona, who sighed. “Stepfather, why don’t you start up the engines, and I’ll show the Baudelaires where the spare uniforms are?” 

“I’m the captain!” the captain announced. “Aye! I’ll give the orders around here! Aye! I will start up the engines, aye!” He walked towards a small rope ladder and hoisted himself into the ceiling. 

“You must be overwhelmed, Baudelaires.” Phil said. “Why, I remember my first day in the Queequeg! It sure made Lucky Smells seem quiet!” 

Fiona waited until her stepfather disappeared, and then she burst into a grin. “Phil, you go get the Baudelaires some soda while I bring them to the spare room and get the uniforms!” 

“The soda’s for special occasions.” Phil said. 

“It is a special occasion! We have six new volunteers!” Fiona was practically bouncing. 

Nick flinched. “I’m not a volunteer.” he said quickly. 

“It’s alright, we’ll deal with formalities later.” Fiona said. “What soda you prefer?” 

“Anything but parsley.” Violet said. Then she glanced at Lilac and said, “Though, if you have coffee, Lilac is gonna need that, she hasn’t had her fix in days.” 

“I don’t think we have coffee.” Phil said. 

“No, no, we do!” Fiona looked ecstatic, and Lilac let out a squeal as Fiona grabbed her hands. “One of our previous crewmembers, the one who later turned out to be stealing information on VFD headquarters, she stockpiled a shitton- oh, sorry, I mean a lot of coffee.” 

“No, no, you’re fine.” Klaus said. “We swear all the fucking time.” 

“Thank fuck.” Fiona sighed. “Stepfather thinks it’s unladylike.” 

“Fuck that.” Solitude nodded, then she held out her hand, and Babbitt wriggled onto her palm. “This is Babbitt, my frog!” 

“Very fascinating.” Fiona knelt down. “That’s a rare species. Where did you get them? Wait, don’t tell me, from Dr Montgomery.” Solitude nodded. “You should be proud. This frog looks well taken care of, even though you’ve been on the run for so long.” She stood back up and said, “Well, like I was saying, I found a bunch of coffee stuff under her old bed, and while there’s not a lot of it left, there should be enough at least for today.” 

“Oh…” Lilac’s eyes widened. “If- if there’s not a lot-” 

“No, no! I’ll make you some coffee!” Fiona cheered. “This is a huge celebration! Come along, you can rest a bit while Stepfather’s not looking.” 

“I’ll get the rest of the drinks, then.” Phil said. He turned and started limping away. 

Klaus flinched. “I’m sorry about your leg, Phil.” 

“What?” Phil glanced down. “Oh, that wasn’t from the lumbermill. I was bitten by a shark last week! It was really painful, but most people don’t get the opportunity to see such a deadly animal up close!” 

He limped back through the kitchen door, and Fiona said, “Was he always this optimistic?” 

“Yes.” Violet said. 

“Honestly, I find it a bit tiresome.” Fiona shrugged. “Come along, Baudelaires. I’ll see if I can answer your questions as we walk - Lilac, come on.” 

The other Baudelaires had started following her down the corridor, but Lilac just stood and stared after her. Fiona sighed and grabbed her hand, which made Lilac look about ready to pass out. 

“Now, I’m sure you have lots of questions.” Fiona said as they walked. 

“Definitely.” Nick said. “Number one, how d-” 

“How did you know so much about us?” Klaus interrupted. 

Fiona smiled. “Your exploits aren’t exactly secret, Baudelaires. Nearly every day there’s been a story about you in the newspapers. Of course, those aren’t very trustworthy, but sometimes we can get the truth from them. We knew you’d been at the Village of Fowl Devotees, and at the Heimlich Hospital and Caligari Carnival, and that you must have figured out the secret message on the map that would lead you to Headquarters. I assumed you’d be heading down the mountain once you realized it was destroyed, so I set a course for the Stricken Stream.” 

Violet blinked at her. “You came all this way just to find us?” 

Fiona looked down. “Well, no. You weren’t the only thing at VFD Headquarters. One of our Volunteer Factual Dispatches- coded telegrams- told us that the Sugar Bowl was there was well.” 

Lilac finally spoke up, very quietly, as they maneuvered around a pipe. “We, um, didn’t see it in the ruins.” 

“It got thrown out the window when the fire began.” Fiona answered. “If they threw it from the kitchen, it would have landed in the Stricken Stream and been carried by the water cycle all the way down the mountains. We were seeing if it was at the bottom of the stream when we happened upon you.” 

“The stream probably carried it much further than this.” Klaus said thoughtfully. 

“I think so, too,” Fiona said, “And I’m hoping you can help me read my stepfather’s tidal charts. I can’t make head or tail of them.” 

“Nick and I can show you how to read them, it’s not difficult.” 

“That’s what worries me. If those charts aren’t difficult to read, then Count Olaf might have a chance of finding the Sugar Bowl before us. My stepfather says that if the Sugar Bowl falls into his hands, then all of the efforts of all the volunteers will be for naught.” 

They stopped at a small door, and Fiona said, “This is our supply room. You should be able to find enough uniforms for all of you. We have one that shrunk when stepfather tried to wash it that might be able to fit Solitude, though I’m afraid we might not have anything that would fit Sunny.” 

“Pinstripe.” Sunny said. 

Fiona let go of Lilac’s hand in order to open the door, and Lilac blushed again and translated, “What my sister means is that she’s used to ill-fitting clothing.” 

“Don’t worry, I know what she means.” Fiona smiled over at Lilac. “I used to speak similarly, and I remember a bit of it. You’ll also need diving helmets, in case this submarine springs a leak.” She sighed. “This submarine used to be in wonderful shape, but without a mechanic, it’s not quite up to its former glory.” 

“Well,” Violet said, smirking, “Good thing Lilac’s here. She’s great at fixing things.” 

“Violet.” Lilac muttered, trying to get her to stop talking. 

“Fiona?” Nick said quietly, looking over at her. 

His siblings gave him a worried glance, and Fiona said, “Yes?” 

“If… if you and your stepfather have been following our progress- or lack thereof-” he stared at her, a soft accusation in his eyes. “Why didn’t you help us?” 

Violet and Klaus flinched; Klaus subtly squeezed his hand tighter, and Lilac and Violet stepped a bit towards him, remembering how furious he got the last time he encountered someone who could have helped them. He simply stared at Fiona, who looked very, very sad. 

“I wanted to.” she said. “Especially after we found out that you… nobody should be under the control of the firestarters. But my stepfather said we couldn’t do anything about it. That your troubles were too enormous.” 

Nick kept staring at her. “I don’t understand.” 

“I don’t, either.” she assured him, glancing down at Solitude, who had moved to hug her brother’s leg, and Sunny, who was curiously blinking up at her. “My stepfather said that the amount of treachery in this world is enormous, and that the best we could do was one small noble thing. That’s why we’re looking for the Sugar Bowl. You’d think accomplishing such a small task would be easy, but we’ve been looking for ages and still haven’t found it.” 

“What’s so important about the Sugar Bowl?” Solitude asked. 

Fiona sighed again, looking even more sad. “I don’t know.” she whispered. “He won’t tell me.” 

“Whyno?” Sunny asked. 

“He said it was better I don’t know. There are some secrets in the world too terrible for young people to know.” 

“If you’re risking your life for this thing,” Nick said, “You should know why.” 

Fiona swung the door open. “I think so, too. But I can’t do anything about it, can I?” She gestured for the Baudelaires to step inside the room and find their uniforms. “Your rooms are to the left, down the hall. You can share, or there’s two you can split.” 

They didn’t move for a second. Then Lilac reached forwards and grabbed Fiona’s hands in a comforting gesture, as Nick said, “You deserve better.” 

Fiona sighed, pulled away from Lilac, and left them alone. 

“So. Lilac.” Violet said, smiling as she rolled up the sleeves on her uniform, “What do you think of Fiona?” 

They had moved into the room with the most bunk beds, and Lilac had thrown up a curtain to give them some privacy while they changed. Solitude and Sunny were behind it now, with Soli helping her little sister get into her large uniform, as Lilac and Violet rolled back their sleeves- which were a bit too big- and Klaus adjusted his boots. Nick was still in his sweater, sitting on a lower bunk and hugging his knees. 

Lilac blushed and glared at Violet. “What do you mean?” 

Violet and Klaus shared an excited look. “She’s real pretty, isn’t she?” 

“Stop it.” 

“You like her.” 

“Stop it!” 

“Thought we were too young to date.” Klaus giggled, sliding his commonplace book into a waterproof pocket. 

“No, no, dear brother,” Nick said, actually smiling a little. “That’s just us. Lilac’s fifteen, that’s practically an old maid.” 

“Shut up.” 

“Are you gonna marry her? Is she gonna be our new big sister?” Violet asked. 

“Why are you doing this to me?” 

“It’s karma.” Klaus giggled. 

“Also,” Nick added, “We’re your baby siblings, it’s our job.” 

“I will kill you.” Lilac huffed, sitting beside Nick in order to start braiding her hair back. 

“Good luck trying.” Violet sat on another bunk bed, fiddling with her ribbon. 

“Done!” Solitude called, pulling back the curtain as Sunny toddled through. “We just rolled up the pants a bit!” 

“Looks great, Sunny.” Lilac smiled. “Nick, you head back.” 

Nick flinched. “Actually, um, I… I kinda want to stay. In the sweater.” 

They all gave him sad looks, knowing why. “Well…” Lilac said. “You do need a suit. I… I can grab one a size bigger. You can probably put it over your clothes. It might be a bit loose-” 

Nick bit his lip. “I… um…” He shut his eyes and sighed. “Nevermind, it’s fine.” 

“Nick, really-” 

“I’ll just take this one. I don’t want to be any trouble.” 

“But-” 

“It’s fine.” Nick reached into his pockets, pulling out everything he had there- the handmirror, a box of Verdant Flammable Devices, and a small photo. 

Lilac eyed the picture as he put it on the table, next to the other items his siblings taken out of their pockets. “You still have that?” 

“You never asked for it back after the carnival.” he shrugged. “You can take it, it’s your baby picture.” 

“It’s… fine.” 

“It’s honestly a miracle it’s not wet.” Nick laughed slightly. “We were in that stream forever. Anyway, I’ll… I’ll just put my clothes under a bunk somewhere. Klaus, don’t leave that spyglass on the desk, we could need it. Might make a useful weapon if we have to make a quick getaway.” 

“Why?” Sunny asked. 

Nick didn’t answer. He just took his suit and stepped behind the curtain.

[interracialfictionandfanfiction]

Less than 24hrs 2 mass shootings, back to back..trying to kill Black and Brown people either back to school shopping or have fun at a bar.. And a privileged white teenager from a Private school wishing to kill as many Black people as he could.... I'm tired and I'm going to take break from this evil. That's what this is. Evil people (adults and children) do exist. Justifying it by using mental illness,music,& movies as scapegoats is bullshit. And I don't care if they supposedly come from good parents/homes/neighborhoods/communities/towns....that's bullshit too. Ted Bundy came from a good home with two parents that loved him and each other...next. I listen to metal,rock,rap and can play a video game or watch a movie and I don't want to kill anyone. My son is severely autistic and nonverbal and he's the sweetest ,loving 17 year old you'd meet.He loves his family,Max and Ruby,his tablet,watching Clifford on youtube,& eating his favorite foods. He's introverted like me and likes people he's comfortable around. I'm tired like I said before so I'm going take a break off SM (except Periscope because I only use it to record my reaction vids & update on my fiction) and concentrate on work on my next book. Watch some of my favorite cartoons. Anything to let my mind de-stress. 😔😑 https://www.instagram.com/p/B0v-aIVH5j_/?igshid=1fpywwet30kfm

[black-halla]

Fear and Loathing in FS thread or What’s Wrong with Eteri Tutberidze

Disclaimer by me: Sports.ru is a fan web resource full of very toxic people who move from love to hate very easily. They are ready to spend their nights on the site writing mess things about athletes. Why? I don’t know. This article is about disappearing Russian skaters and the faults of Tutberidze, written as reply on the article “What’s wrong with Medvedeva” and also as reply to all toxic haters in fs fandom. A lot of sarcasm here. Please, beware.

«Hate is easier than love. Hate can be explained.»

Prehistory. For those who joined fandom during the Olympics, and do not really understand what’s happening.

In the previous series:

ep.1. On the eve of the Olympics, the story of one cycle. Pre-Olympic seasons 2015-2017.

In the lead roles (titles and age as for May 2018):

Elizabeth «she smoked live on Periscope, ew!!!» Tuktamysheva, World Champion 2015, triple Axel, 21 years old.

Sports.ru hates her for «disgusting programs» , «extra weight»  and laziness.

Elena «fat cheeks, left Goncharenko (her coach), ew!» Radionova, 2-times junior world champion, holder of the badge of CSKA school, 19 years old.

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Sports.ru hates her for her lifestyle and her «mushroomed» CSKA. [Mushrooms (Russian fs slang) – high PC scores. To get mushrooms – to have high PC’s scores.]

Anna «unstable and injured, ew!» Pogorilaya, bronze medalist of the World Cup 2016, skater with the most unusual programs and stunning looks, 20 years old.

video

Sports.ru hates her less now because she doesn’t skate.

Adelina Sotnikova — episodic role, the Olympic gold of Sochi.

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(she had such jumps, oh).

She is hated on Sports.ru for everything.

Maria «woman-underotation» Sotskova.

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Well, obviously, it's hard to hate a person you do not remember.

Team «Tutberidze’s monsters»

Evgenia  «LICEMERIC MEAN SHIT»  Medvedeva, 18 years old. The winner of everything in the seasons of 2016-2017. 

Polina «totally injured» Tsurskaya, 16, owner of the most beautiful « hunged» jumps and talent, yet unrealized.

Alina Zagitova, 15 years old. Olympic champion 2018 had not yet annoy anyone in her first season at the adult, so no nicknames on Sports.ru.

Team «former Tutberidze‘s monsters»  + episodic male roles: 

Yulia  «she leaved Tutberidze because she was lazy and fat»  Lipnitskaya. The one «in a red coat»  who «beautifully put her leg up».

Adyan  «lazy! (not fat because he’s not a girl)»  Pitkeev, the former hope of the dead now men's figure skating.

Sergei Voronov, episodic role.

Team «very former Tutberidze‘s monsters»

Polina Shelepen’ was «lazy and ungrateful»  along before it became mainstream, oh, wait, I mean, before Medvedeva, Lipnitskaya and Tsurskaya. The first student of Tutberidze, who stepped at a high level.

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(it turns out, she was a swan before the mainstream too!)

Brief content of the 1st episode:

Olympic champion Adelina Sotnikova opens the beauty salon, visits talk-shows, posts in Instagram — in short, goes into the shadows, but sits in the care of the federation. Olympic champion Yulia Lipnitskaya does not cope with eating problems (not confirmed) and injuries (confirmed). After leaving Tutberidze's group (accompanied by scandals), Yulia tries to pursue a career, but the Rostelecom drama and the flow of dirt on Sports.ru come to see her soon.

To replace the champion here comes Liza Tuktamysheva and her triple axel (the same one, for whose performance Mirai Nagasu will become the hero of the US, despite the modest final place), but a year later the axel leaves, and together with him Liza leaves too. Well, she is still here, but there is no chance for her at all.

On the place of leader comes 15-year-old Evgenia Medvedeva, who dominates everywhere for next two seasons. A new world record holder, which guarantees the talented Russian team what it lacks – the stability.

At the pick up Zhenya has Lena Radionova and Anya Pogorilaya, who leave at the end of the episode right before the Olympics. Lena — because of coach changes and sharp growth, Anya .... Anya is a theme for a single episode.

Quintessence of the state of the Russian women's team in 2016-17: World Cup 2017, where the fate of the Olympic tickets was determined. The hellish fight at the Russian Nationals and ... the deafening failure of the 2/3 team at the decisive moment. Medvedeva and her iron nerves pull out 3 tickets for the Olympics. «School Tutberidze» , they say. «Iron nerves» , they say.

Only one problem, «evil, dirty»  tongues whisper quietly behind their back that Tutberidze can not coach adults. If Zhenya will have a hard puberty, her career will be finished: talented Yulia Lipnitskaya left after the Olympics. ET has no students who perform reaching the age of 18 years. The coach is credited with the hellish methods of weight loss (which cannot be sustained after puberty) and indifference to injuries. As confirmation — the trauma of the Main Tutberidze’s Monster, «indestructible» Medvedeva. But Zhenya goes to the starts. Behind her back — the whole team. Problems? First, not everyone agrees with the PC — this is a clear premium from the Federation for stability. Secondly, lutz. A clear technical problem.

At this time, a girl named Alina Zagitova wins the junior world championship. Tutberidze took her in group recently. She’s still in the shade.

ep.2. During the Olympics (All of you has watched this episode)

Prologue: Medvedeva's speech in Lausanne at the IOC meeting, where the issue of Russian team’s admission to the Olympics was decided. Zhukov's gratitude for Medvedeva and her knowledge of the language.

Main action: Olympics. Drama. Technical superiority of the younger rival. The unofficial prohibition of Tutberidze to call «stepdaughter» Zagitova Olympic champion. A stream of mud in the comments: The Sports.ru's troops, of course, begin to protect the defenseless and disadvantaged minors, watering the aging old generation with mud.

ep. 3. After the ball (You are here).

Starring:

«Supernew monsters of Tutberidze» 

Alexandra Trusova. 13 years old, 148 cm, quads in official competitions. 

Alena Kostornaya. 14 years, 146 cm, triple axel. 

Anna Shcherbakova. Broken leg, but now jumps everything, including quad lutz, hello, Misha Kolyada.

«We were in the shadows, but we are also monsters of Tutberidze»

Darya Panenkova. 15 years old, the only one who passed puberty, but not very «danceable, according to the coaches themselves. 

Anastasia Tarakanova. 13 years old, according to rumors all the same dropped out of struggle due to injury.

Evgenia Medvedeva as the main villain.

In this episode: Supernew Monsters of Tutberidze «stamp» the quads in Instagram. Zagitova is in the shadows.

Evgenia Medvedeva after months of rumors leaves the coach. The coach shows on the air of national channel a private conversation in Viber and pretends that she learned about the transition only from news. Medvedeva leaves for Orser, perhaps the world's most famous coach, who just has a free places in group.

There is a lot of gossip and mud: they say, the coach from the group of Tutberidze himself says that the quads of the Supernews will leave soon; someone gloats.

A photo appears where Eteri hugs Zagitova like a mother. From this day Alina can be called the Olympic champion. Now, Alina is the New Hrustalnaya Daughter.

[Hrustalnaya means Crystal; Tutberidze’s rink is called Hrustalniy.]

The main part. What’s Wrong with Eteri Tutberidze?

Before the beginning:

Eteri Tutberidze is an excellent coach. Yes, she does not have athletes over 18 years old. But the successes of Lipnitskaya (in her few seasons on senior) and Medvedeva (under 18 years) cause respect. Yes, the junior coach. But the sport is changing, and Eteri enjoys this very well.

But with all due respect, here are the tense moments collected in one post.

1) The methods of training are clearly not designed for long-term athletes.

About nutrition of Lipnitskaya:

When she needs to lose weight, she eats only powder «Squid» — it's fiber, which gives energy. It's hard, and the weight goes down very slowly — 100 grams a day. But she copes, thank God.

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It's not very surprising that Yulia started having weight problems, right?

Of course, it's much easier not to put the girls on the weigher during puberty, not to take food from them, not to force running crosses... Of course, the child is hurt, and he very often seeks whom to complain. Not everyone understands that if the coach screams at you, it means that he loves you.

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Athletes of Tutberidze have usually very small height and weight (Medvedeva is  159 cm and 41 kg according to Tatler). It is purely physiologically impossible for 18 years. She’s even smaller than her mother. And by the way, screams mean love?

2) Medvedeva — not the first one who left Tutberidze like this.

Lipnitskaya and Medvedeva left without saying goodbye. It's not polite. But, whatever one may say, this is an indicator of fear and a general atmosphere in group. Why does Eteri say that all her leaving athletes are beasts? Why along with Medvedeva Tsurskaya left, which in another version may become the second number in the strongest group of the country? Why Shelepen’ left the same way? Are they all «ill-mannered, lazy and ungrateful» , while Eteri is one there who’s the right?

If the young girls were not afraid to go to the Olympics, why did the fear to write to the coach turned out to be more of a fear to go out in front of millions of spectators and give out a skate of the life? Perhaps the famous methods in the style of «wagging on the ice» had the opposite effect, when the athletes become more mature. Adulthood inevitably leads to the appearing of critical thinking.

And by the way, is it possible to speak so loudly about love and family relations, when...

3) Unethical statements about the left (and even not yet time to leave) athletes.

…when after you talk about them in bad manner, giving wvwryone all the small details of the leave? Why do we know everything about the leaving of athletes? Is it necessary for public? What is this for? Eteri has no one to share, and a strong woman does not want to cry near the window alone?

Adyan Pitkeev.

Before leaving:

He is always focused on himself. The presence or absence of several practice mates does not reflects on him. There is such a type of athletes.

After leaving:

At that time, several guys were riding at the same level, but the coaching staff had to prove their love to him on a daily basis. He had sincere tears when he thought he was not needed. The guy ran away, threw the skates into the garbage can. Of course, he didn’t want to leave skating. But he wanted someone to get these skates out of the can, wipe it, bring it back to the locker room and say to him "Adyan, come back.”

He shouted on trainings: “Withdraw me, I do not want to go there as a tourist.” How is it to «withdraw» ? Why «tourist»? Before this European Championship there was a chic Russian Championship. Why does he suddenly start acting like this? We persuaded him with love very long. But in the end we literally forced him to go on the championship.

Polina Tsurskaya.

Eteri says the one of the most talented female athletes had a bad season because of the rare genetic disease.

The mother of Polina denies.

A year later, Polina leaves the coach. She says that she doesn’t know for who she’s going. Clearly cunning.

Yulia Lipnitskaya. 

all about her leaving

The main reason for the transfer according to Tutberidze's version: 

Yulia is very driven. She does everything her mother says her to do.

Zhenya Medvedeva.

Well, you know. Publishing of the private chat, loud complaints for the fun of the public.

The full list of athletes who «for some reason» do not greet Eteri — here.

You know, when people constantly leave that way, even those whom she calls   «her children» (Shelepen’, Medvedeva, Lipnitskaya), are you either a very naive person or a very complicated person? And not all coaches of the group share the negative attitude of Eteri to the «defectors» : 

I can say only one thing: every person chooses his own destiny. If Evgenia decided this, then it remains to hope that she will succeed. I have known her since childhood, I accept her any decision. Is it wrong or not — time will show.

via the choreographer of the group, Zheleznyakov.

Is it possible to blame a person for leaving without saying goodbye the place where people are called pets? Yes, sure, it is. Do we know all the details of the conflict? No, we don’t.

4) Pay attention to the recurrence of the scenario:

From Medvedeva's sincere faith that «we just need to work harder and to not eat»  to the beautiful Alina’s phrase: 

Talking about puberty, when you become fat, it seems to me, that this is all fiction. You just need to close your mouth and not eat! Or, at least, eat a little. I eat, but in small quantities.

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It’s impossible not to grow up ever. In modern Russian (and world) sports, only Medvedev succeeded. Well, Tursynbayeva and Miyahara too, perhaps. Where is the guarantee that Tutberidze's school will release an adult athlete into life?

5) Choreography.

Daniil Gleichengauz is a wonderful young specialist. The Tutberidze’s group has excellent specialists, but… There are some questions to the choreography.

1) Why did Medvedeva really has the same program every year? It's not she herself who made herself the program with her mouth open.

2) Why do the students of Hrustalniy have such, um, strange topics in their skate? Escape from an asylum for 15-years girl?

Coming out of a coma for Medvedeva? Red lipstick of Panenkova — it's absolutely something weird that will appear in nightmares of fs fans all their life.

In total. The main questions we have to this whole situation.

1) Could Medvedeva progress further in the Tutberidze group? Is her leaving the reasonable step? Was it necessary to wait for another brilliant program in the same style with same elements?

Obviously not. Leaving is a great solution. Was situation ugly? It was. But why we are on the side of coach? Why the fact that the change of coach is an absolutely casual story for figure skating takes the second plan? Radionova left Goncharenko. Gubanova left Turenko. Sotskova and Tarakanova left Panova. All these coaches didn’t throw the skates in the backs of leaving athletes.

The difference is that all that people left because of a lack of ice or PC. And here? Why did Tsurskaya leave? Yes, silent leaving is terribly ugly. But why does everyone leave from Tutberidze without saying goodbye? How did it happen that this talented coach this season will have only adult women? Why all this people are so ungrateful? Is the spreading of information about the leave of each athlete ethical?

2) Why is there such a hype around the phrase «keep Alina one season in juniors» ? Medvedeva should refuse to translate for Zagitova at press-conferences? Where is the line between «hypocrisy» and professional ethics? Is it possible to judge a person for emotions?

3) Yes, the comments of Tarasova and others were incorrect. But what does Medvedeva have to do with it? Why is it so fashionable to hate winners, especially on Sports.ru? Why everyone here  is hated?

And the very main question.

Why do we not appreciate our athletes, knowing well that between 10 talented at a high level will hold 1-2? Of the talented list of Sotnikova, Tuktamysheva, Lipnitskaya, Proklova, Sakhanovich, Pogorilaya, Radionova, Medvedeva, only one potential revealed her potentional. And God forbid it will open further. We do not have many of them.

For the next season, Zagitova, Gubanova, Konstantinova, Panenkova remain competitive, not injured and inclined to struggle. The oldest (and hated by public) of them is 17 years old. The rest are 15 and 16. Our list of hopes: Shcherbakova, Trusova, Kostornaya, Tarusina, Panova's school. Changes in the rating rules from the next season will somewhat «skew» the advantage of the Russian school — jumping in the second half and technical complexity. It will become more difficult.

«Tutberidze’s conveyor» is an ambiguous phenomenon, but it deserves respect. In any hero there is a hint of villain. In any villain there is something human. This is about both sides of the conflict.

But in the argument «girls should be grateful to Tutberidze for who they are» there is one significant omission — Eteri should also be grateful to those who worked for her name. And we too should be grateful if we demand moral superiority over the mortals from the athletes.

And nationalism and general hatred against athletes is bad.

Please, think about it.

[themurphyzone]

The Safety Manifesto

Yay for thesaurus abuse to make myself sound smart XD. Also the formatting is structured like the US Constitution...which is ironic considering it’s got “Manifesto” in the name.

I, Elliot Decker, in order to maintain a protected Tri-State Area, establish a safety protocol for the populace, defend against the scourge of Milo Murphy, educate students on all manners of safety, enforce strict standards and penalize the rulebreakers, do ordain and authorize the Safety Manifesto of the Tri-State Area.

Anybody questioning why the above paragraph doesn’t flow to the tune of the preamble song in Schoolhouse Rock will be punished by wearing a sign that states “This is what you get when you question the authority of the Safety Czar.”

Revision 1: The above punishment is null and void because Principal Milder said nobody could possibly enforce it and that it sounded stupid even by middle school standards.

Article 1: Laws of the Safety Czar

Section 1: Non-Murphy, But Essential Rules

1. The Safety Czar’s word is law. He must be obeyed at all times lest harm befall those who scorn this crucial condition and fail to provide adequate safety for the self and others.

2. Do not cross the street until the Safety Czar has given you permission.

Revision 2: Permission is automatically granted when life is in immediate danger or in the event of a transchronological portal opening in the schoolyard.

3. Waterfowl and all waterfowl-related products cannot be brought within a two mile radius of the Safety Czar due to their status as defecating, featherbrained, ill-tempered brutes.

4. Strawberry waffle cones are quite tasty and half-price on Tuesdays at Mr. Freezie Dawg. The Safety Czar is contractually obligated to announce this advertising slogan on any legal document or when asked about the button.

5. Pigeon beaks should be taped shut and the sharp parts of fences bubbled wrapped or duct taped.

Section 2: Murphy-Related Rules

1. Milo Murphy is forbidden to “help” the Safety Czar.

2. In the event of multiple Murphys, whether by a time anomaly or family members visiting, the Safety Czar may choose to take a staycation at home. In the basement. With Mr. Safety the Safety Teddy Bear.

3. Do not strive to emulate Milo Murphy. Your admiration should be given to those who don’t automatically endanger you with their presence.

4. Milo Murphy is forbidden from being in possession of a baking soda volcano. 

5. Milo Murphy is forbidden from trying to fix the crosswalk. 

Revision 3: The above list will constantly expand as new calamities arise. Assume any rule that is not listed above will also be enforced. 

Section 3: The Other Important, Non-Murphy Related Rule That Must Be Noted

Do not ever place a bet with Melissa Chase. Her type of Murphy’s Law is tailored specifically to your wallet. 

Article 2: Violations 

Section 1: The Stuff Middle Schoolers are Prone to Breaking

1. Everything. Assume everything is breakable and can cut or lacerate the flesh off your bones. 

2. No jaywalking. The blue jays are also subject to this stipulation. Violations will result in a hundred lines of the phrase “I will not promote delinquency by jaywalking”. 

Revision 4: Giving lines is outside the Safety Czar’s jurisdiction, according to the city council. The new punishment is taking over the strawberry sundae ads for a week. 

3. Do not feed the ducks. FEEDING THE DUCKS IS ABSOLUTELY FORBIDDEN. 

4. The Safety Czar is allowed to impersonate a security guard. It’s a violation to question his makeshift materials or trick him by enlisting a friend to serve as a distraction. 

5. People under the Safety Czar’s authority may not talk about him behind his back while spying on him with a periscope. That’s just being a jerk. 

Section 2-4

This section is currently undergoing a rewrite because the original was lost due to unforeseen circumstances. That guy in the tracksuit ripped it up when I said Milo was dangerous. 

Then the old man threatened to send me to Siberia. 

There’s an actual law that has to do with threatening harm. The Safety Czar didn’t make that one up. 

Section 5: Incapacitation 

1. Heavy objects cannot incapacitate the Safety Czar by falling out of the sky.

2. Asking if something is about to fall out of the sky is forbidden.  

3. If a heavy object does incapacitate the Safety Czar, he may take the object in question as incriminating evidence of a disregard for the safety of the populace and the greater good. 

Article 3: Do Not Take These Protocols Lightly

Whoever stole this document and gave it to Amanda Lopez so she could place a red marker through practically everything better pray I don’t find them and stuff their mouths with Mom’s oatmeal raisin cookies. 

Revision 5: This document is strictly for explaining the Safety Czar’s basic principles and not for emergency desk polisher, Mrs. Murawski. 

This Safety Manifesto was written and shall be enforced by the resident Safety Czar, Elliot Decker.

[hanzi83]

This may be my last blog

I feel the end is coming near for me. I don’t know where to start because more and more they are suspending me from different platforms for being hateful, when it is clearly something bigger at work. I refuse to believe these social media sites who help let right wing bigoted assholes spew their views with no repercussions, but someone like me who is venting to get it off his chest and defending myself from attacks, where I feel these attacks are coordinated on purpose to fuck with my mind and instill more fear and paranoia. I literally don’t feel like I have anyone on my side, and even if I did have people on my side, I am sure I would just lose my fucking mind and accused them of being against me at some fucking point.

I think the problem lately I have not been able to express myself in my private thoughts and when my notes got deleted I have not felt like putting effort into doing it and normally it is full of wrestling analysis and what conspiracies are happening mostly and I am not even good at doing this anymore because so much thoughts poor into my psyche and I hope that it is somehow recorded by some advancement and is being extracted in some kind of manner and I am already getting bored with writing this because I have nowhere to start, so lately I have wanted to keep up with what is going on so I can have material from what is happening in the social landscape around the world, and then I figure it might be better if I react and retweet other people a lot smarter than me.

I have become a lot more aggressive with my irrational rants, and it feels like people push me to react this way and I feel I have to fight back, so if I do fight back, they can suspend me for telling someone to fuck themselves, or tickling themselves with a razor blade and if I don’t react then they get away with it. I have cried out for people within media establishment would help but I don’t know if they are allowed to do anything or even say anything, especially when it is Howard Stern, as irrelevant as he is in the lexicon of popular culture, I still feel I am being targeted by him. It is not a coincidence that he has gotten Leslee Dart to be his publicist for his book, who also represented Woody Allen, and I could bet money she is behind help censoring the online stuff and pushing back against the negative reaction to his book, not that I know for sure.

He has always had his own followers, who I feel are employed fans who bad mouth others and even bad mouth Stern as well, so it gives off this notion that the right wing contingent of the fan base is against him simply for being a little more liberal about his views, when I feel he is a neoliberal, and even people messaging me on twitter thanking me for being right all along because Alyssa Milano was promoted the book etc. These people are sick, they have dedicated a sub reddit to me, that has to be a sub reddit of another sub reddit which is Howard Stern, and that is done because they used to encourage that on their reddit, but now that I have called it out and put eyes on it, they have since then made another one and the people on the Stern Show reddit are “against” any Hanzi comments and pretend it is me, so now this troll who is obsessed with me, will project his feelings on me, and act like I am the problem.

I have no idea who this dude Gorilla Baconator is, but he will always post my periscopes and misrepresent what I am saying and because these periscopes are deleted afterwards, if someone goes online to look about things about me, they might seen the titles of some of these threads and not see it is being misrepresented. I always upload most of the scopes onto my public facebook page, but lately since I have been off twitter I have been on different periscopes that happen. I have met some cool people, and some people hated me. It is a variety, whether it is religious people wanting to pray for me, some wrestling ones, or women trying to get guys to pay for private shows while I just name drop I was on Stern Show and ask conspiracy questions. I do that because I literally have nothing else interesting about me, and also want to see if the trolls who stalk me, will pop out and I have caught some of them doing that, so I boasted about feeling better going on periscope and meeting new people, the trolls then have to say “Hanzi is stalking black teens” and I get if it was just a joke, but their goal to do this is for me to get in trouble, and because these people are paid to do it and have no soul, they will make me crazy even more.

One screen grab I put out was about them making insinuations that I am trying to pick up underage girls and that an arrest is eminent and even as untrue that is, it puts paranoia that they can control this narrative and I have no one to watch my back. I posted the screen grab on my facebook to show people how fucked up this is, and I like documenting it so people can see what kind of shit they are trying to misrepresent and character assassinate me.

I certainly cannot count on anyone I know because I think all my friendships and relationships have been strained severely with my subtle jabs because of my hatred for not being connected with my city over this Toronto Raptors thing. I have voiced my displeasure, as irrational as it is, and then valid displeasure came out because it was reported the owner of the Raptors wants to take the team to Israel, and anyone pushing back against that, is seen as an anti Semite since they purposely pile lump in criticism of Israel and Zionism in with the white supremacists who hate Jewish people. So this made me not want to root for the team, and it made me not want to care about it.

I couldn’t even go a day without social media where I did not see any footage of celebration, and as much as I think it is cool the Toronto team won a championship, it makes me overwhelmed because I see a lot of Canadian exceptionalism taking place and more and more it is like Toronto is becoming like the United States, and while the hatred for that is overwhelming, the fact that people I know are part of this type of shit it makes me regret even knowing these people, and the media can show a Sikh guy who owns his own car dealership and has gone to every game etc and then say “Hey look Toronto is diverse, we’re not as racist as the US” is horrible, I am happy that we are celebrating people uniting and feeling good about a sports team winning, but I can already see the pretentious cockiness about this and how smug people will become because of all of this and because I have not handled this well, and have been taking jabs at people I presume are in group chats, and people who have used my “fame” to get what they want systemically while I have to suffer and if I even say anything back to them, I really think people will plot to kill me or fuck with me.

People have hinted they sneak into my house and move shit in my house. I don’t know if it is all true, but if people are targeted I could see how they have “regular” people to become agents and do the bidding at the elite’s behest and I feel like they have done it to me and will continue, until they get me offline or until I attempt suicide and they will keep pushing me more and more. If I do a periscope to do air my thoughts out and don’t have any comments on, they will take it personal, if I take my anger out on them because they are adding to my mental stress, they will then carry on to fuck with me over everything.

I don’t think it is a coincidence I got suspended on twitter the week of the championship game, and now on facebook I have been suspended off of, when people are reporting my lives for being “suicidal” when it is clear I am not going to do anything and I can tell it is a plethora of people in my life who do that. It is scary to think that people I know, or people at the top are taking the time to fuck with me like this, and I don’t know what they are capable of and how they could kill me, since people can be bought off for the access in the elite. They will gossip about me constantly in group chats, posting whatever move I make, what I tweet out, what pictures is being put out there or whatever blog I post. I think they even shut down the Hanzi83 sub reddit, because they said they wouldn’t shut it down until the mission was complete. Are they disguising the truth under the guise of shit post, or they actually trying to instill paranoia in me. I would not be surprised because a plethora of whack packers are going down and are sick in the hospital, and it feels like sacrifices could be made, even though they would not officially expose that, and maybe my time is coming since I have to pay for the fame I got, even though I have paid the ultimate price for it, and instead of killing me, they will just imprison me even more mentally. I think the end is near for me unfortunately. This blog will only be seen officially by a couple of hundred people, because I can’t post this on facebook or twitter.

I think they will kill me. My parents are ashamed of me, and why wouldn’t they be? Look at me. I should have never been alive this long, but around my house I can sense this dark energy of silence and it feels like the elite have warned them about something that is going to happen. I could be wrong, but my life has been a fucking waste. I will never be able to trust anyone in my life, and they will never take accountability for anything and I feel people with power in the system will use it to fuck with others and bully them, without making it look obvious. Everyone in the system is corrupt and fucked up. Why would you let me be on this planet, I can never look at these people the same again, they all fucking hate me and sometimes I feel the same way and I never want to feel like that

I need to take a break from the internet and get active again. I have to try, because as much as I loved making new friends on Scope, and actually trying to have a connection on a human level because it is a fresh start for friendship, because I don’t think I will ever have a good rapport with people I already know because of the damage that has culminated and I always hoped I would be at peace with people now because whatever has been creeping on behind the scenes, I thought would be done now. I think I have become such an asshole and political about this Raptors shit, and maybe it is my insecurity of never reaching to do great things because I did not sell my soul, and I kick myself sometimes for not doing it because maybe I need to be praised and cheered on, and then I get back down to earth and just want a revolution to take place. I don’t know if I am going to be sacrificed. I feel people have used me and set me up, because I am going to have to be fucked with and put away in some hospital. I might have to decide to check in and disappear for a bit.

It is funny that I am a joke in my town, but in my fucked up head, I feel I helped get people their connections without even knowing it because of the alleged politicking that existed behind the scenes, and it fucks with me that so much has happened to me behind my back and now I am so hurt emotionally that I have no choice but to vent so I can get out whatever is in my head, but no one sees that. I really don’t mean harm on anyone. I just wish the world would just let me go because I will never fit in with anyone every again. I have angered the brass and their minions are hard at work trying to get rid of me.

Even if my twitter and facebook is restored, I should just get off. I can try deactivating it but time to time I would like to see what is going on in the world in the news since we are at a dangerous times, I feel that way. I just lessen the amount I take in because I am so hell bent to catch up on everything, I don’t have time to want to leave my fucking house. I have to get going and do something. Lately my desire to catch up with anything or even write has lessened but then when I want to go do something active I become worried I will not know things or get references because I still fancy myself a comedian in training, but never actually doing stage time, but still finding ways to creatively vent. I can feel them coming for me, I don’t know if they will further hinder my attempt at a career, and then it could just be that I suck. I don’t fucking know. Even if this is kind of funny, can I use this again? Or did I just waste material and left it open for anyone to just take from me, and I will never get any credit.

I apologize to people I have hurt but keep in mind you have hurt me and I will never get the answers because none of you would ever admit what you are supposed to be accountable for, or at least in my fucked up head, I wish it was not like this but this is all I have, to vent and I just rather act irrational. I should just take a break and work on my notes and at least save them for my own journal, and then gradually bring it out but even when I am typing in my own journal, I don’t think it is actually private because I feel these people are watching me. I am afraid of doing things because whatever I do, I wonder if people are paid agents and always meant to keep tabs on me, and it feels like there is literally no one to talk to about anything and that is why I have been addicted to periscope for the last week because I felt I was seeing all walks of life doing different things, whether it was shit talking, presumed sex workers trying to advertise themselves, debates about prison reform,  Christian women praying for me, it was just fresh of interacting with people, and also me trying to cram it in that I was on the Stern Show because there is literally nothing interesting about me, because of my limited experiences and knowledge, and only way to sound kind of interesting is having discussions of conspiracies and then tying it in that I might be the victim of a conspiracy and having great discussions about it. I am also worried because I would go in scopes where it might come across like women were being forced to do it, or maybe they are legitimate sexy workers, I did not indulge further than just dropping conspiracy talk and asking how old they were. But when I would go on random scopes of musicians or just regular people if they were underage or just barely legal, I would walk out of the conversation pretty quickly. Anyone within my age range I was never going on to these places to get off, and maybe that is because I am medicated so much that I don’t even have a sex drive anymore, so I was really looking for good conversation with people within my age range because I need some mature conversation. It was just good talking to different people, there are a lot black and brown people on there that I gelled with and even being made fun of and busting their balls back. I even got felt like someone important with a couple of people, whether they were just feeding my ego or genuinely interested in my story and the fact that I am kind of known, it felt good and maybe it was one of the best things that happened, because it has made me want to try and get my shit together. I don’t know if these people will come for me, and try to frame me for shit because of how much I have tried to speak up about the world and what my theories are, and they punish people like me for doing things.

I can see the disgust in people’s demeanors around me more and more. I really don’t feel like I fucking belong. I get fucking scared when there are certain things these people admit to and then act like it is for real but they know there is nothing for me to do about it because literally everyone is compromised and since I feel targeted, and it gets scarier when they spread horrible lies about me, and accuse me of being a pedophile when it is not fucking true, and it makes me think since they have my computer hacked and have showcased what they can do, whether it’s moving my keyboard, taking from my actual document on my computer and pasting it on reddit before I even posted it in the blog site I use, or stopping music being played on my device when it is somewhere else, or posting under my name on my public page with my personal account, there is no telling what they have done to my computer and even if I wanted to indulge to see if they did any funny business, what the fuck am I supposed to look up to know if anything shady is on my computer if anything at all. These people really love to mess with me. I might just have to check myself in the hospital, but I will probably get abused there or I will be put through torture or something. I don’t fucking know. I wonder if they want me out of commission it will be so I don’t have to be present for something people in my life can’t hide.

I am going through so many emotions. I need to break from twitter, even if it is restored, as attempting as it is going to be seeing the jokes about OJ getting on twitter and then me complaining how they are beating a dead horse since it is all planned out anyways because they needed to make twitter interesting before it completely becomes nothing, like it is WCW, “You know what will keep people invested with twitter? OJ SIMPSON”  I am already getting sick of the responding with a GIF movement that has taken a light of its own, and then people thinking the GIF chosen is such a genius move.

Anyways I am happy Raptors won but then I am not because it brings joy and I hate that I am not included in it probably. I really don’t know how I fucking feel. I know that putting that out there makes people come bust my balls, even subtly just to try and trigger me. Then if I go off on this shit, then people act like I am the guy who is treating people like shit so then I put people down for their tactics and how they act behind the scenes, and since this “fan base” is not getting paid by me, and maybe they would be a little more supportive if I did like anyone else with a fan base who pay their fans indirectly and do it with perks etc, in my opinion, but I don’t pay these people and they might be paid by other people to harass certain people, they will try to set me up by asking what they can do or what are the orders, even if it is something small. I tell people to act on their own.

Anyways this blog is out of control because I am doing random thoughts because I have not written much in my journal, so I am all over the fucking map, but who cares I am not credible and no one is going to read this, and even if they do, they don’t care. It does hurt that people who are leftist could be part of the group that decides I need to be put out of commission online as well, because some of them don’t seem to want to bring attention to it, and maybe their battles are limited, it is like wrestling, and any decent person would ask “Why aren’t the other good guys helping this dude who seems to being outnumbered with mental abuse as the referee continues to ring  the fucking bell” and it feels like that is what is happening, all the other good guys can’t help or I have been such a fucking asshole, that people don’t think I am worth saving, until the narrative changes then conveniently people will start fucking caring. I realize neoliberals wouldn’t help because we know they don’t care, and the republican types won’t care because they will justify it why I am the bad guy, but people are leftist, I would expect they would at least make mention of it, but even their word is limited, even though they are also speaking out on other evil, so maybe some fat delusional Pakistani in mommy’s basement is not high on their list. No one cares or it feels that way and because of that I will always feel aggressive with my shit talking because I am so hurt by no one seemingly caring and letting all this alleged harassment to go on and make me feel so fucking horrible, that I fucking want to die. When I speak with my case worker, I might have to really ask about going away for a bit. I know that is what you want anyways.

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How To Make Money With My Online Business

Being in pre-launch for my new business, it is time to plan out the methods I am going to use to make money.

My goal is to be making a full-time income of $3,000 a month after 12 months of my business operating. I have a short-term target of my business breaking even monthly by the end of month 3. 

I have a 3-week window to get as much of my pre-launch planning and online set-up of my business completed before I launch in the first week of October 2020.

At this stage, towards the end of week 3 of pre-launch, I am doing pretty well on my business set-up, but most of my business ideas are yet to be committed to paper, or should that be the computer?

I want to use this article to play around some of the ideas currently floating around my head and turn them into concrete ideas for bringing in business revenue.

There is a multitude of training courses, PDFs, software, videos, audio courses, etc available. The majority of these purport to make you richer from a few hundred dollars a week to 6,7, and even 8 figure incomes.

Using my experience of working online previously, I want to focus on the methods I will use to build a solid business bringing in a full-time income in the next 12 months.

In this article, I will draw on my previous experience to highlight some of the pitfalls and distractions to building an online business and focus on the disciplines you need to succeed.

  Tools and Training Courses Available

There is a plethora of advice out there to help you make it online. Some of it is free, some is paid for. It can be bewildering and the temptation to begin with is to buy everything that looks useful and great value for money. 

I urge you not to take this approach and hold back from buying anything until you have read this article.

Having been around the online marketing scene for over 6 years now, it is fair to say I have seen my share of the following:

Scams

Exaggerated income claims

Incomplete solutions

Dodgy practices

Outdated methods

Business models the 'expert' obviously wasn't implementing themselves

There are a lot more like this too.

  The main problem I struggled with was incomplete training. Let me explain . . .

You purchase a training course for $997 (or more). The training is of good quality and the instructor knows what they are talking about.

You implement the steps as you follow the training and get everything set up. You launch your new business or process, then discover you are only seeing a part of the solution.

At best, the training course has delivered what it promised, but your inexperience of the system results in you not realising you needed more knowledge to make it work effectively.

This lack of knowledge could be any of the following (or more):

You don't know how to drive traffic (people) to your business offers

You need to be experienced in Facebook Ads or Google Ads, otherwise, you are wasting your money on ad spend.

You need to have an email list already built

You need to know how to build an email list

The system is not as effective in your country

You need to pay for tools or online systems that you can't afford until you start making some money (Catch 22!)

The support for the training disappears as the trainer is now supporting their latest get-rich-quick scheme

You just can't fathom out how to implement a key part of the training because of inexperience in that area

The training is riding the crest of the current fad and falls out of favour long before you see success. Does anyone remember the Periscope fad?

Then there are the problems caused by yourself. These tend to be a more likely source of failure before you even hit any from the list above:

You don't ever do anything at all with the training system you just paid good money for

You start the training course, hit a problem, and give up

You buy a subsequent training package and move on to implementing that one

You don't take massive action at the beginning and the enthusiasm dries up long before you see any results

You switch to another course to give you the background you need to complete the current one but never return to the original training

If you have been around the make money online scene for more than a few months you will probably identify with many on this list. I certainly do - that list was constructed from my own painful memories.

  How To Be Successful Online

Whatever you decide to do to make money online you have be willing to do the following:

Do your research first

Devise a plan

Commit long term to the project 

Take massive action

Keep yourself motivated

Stick to the plan

I will go through these steps in more detail below, but if you are not willing to follow my advice then I suggest you save yourself some time and money and give up now.

There is no such thing as a quick rich scheme online. It all requires work. If you want to get rich quick, then spend your investment money on lottery tickets. You have a better chance of getting rich that way and we all know what the odds are of doing that!

Being in business is not easy, not at the beginning for sure. It requires hard work, dedication, perseverance, and probably a touch of luck here and there.

You must be willing to learn new skills and do stuff you really don't want to do when it needs doing. You need self-discipline - there is no boss watching you to ensure you get the work completed. 

I see loads of products offering solutions to failed business enterprises that use the phrase 'It is not your fault' when refering to past failures. Well I am here to tell you that is marketing hype. You will have the same result with their system if you don't put the effort into it needed.

The bottom line is if you have faced failure over and over then it is porbably your fault. But before you get all aggressive with me about this, give yourself a chance to read the rest oif this article before you disagree.

Being your own boss can be a lonely journey unless you are working with a partner or as a team.

I know, I have been there and I still struggle with a lot of what I am going to advise you below.

1) Do your research first

  This step is imperative. Depending on the level of your previous experience will determine how much research you need to do upfront, but you need to know enough about your proposed business to be confident you can follow all of the steps I am outlining here.

You need to be able to answer most of these questions:

What skills do you need?

What tools do you need?

What training courses do you need?

What equipment do you need?

Who is your ideal client?

What services/products are you going to offer?

What benefits do they offer your ideal client?

What is the cost?

What is the profit margin?

What is the lifetime value of each client?

What is your income target?

How many clients do you need to reach your target?

How will you attract clients?

What are your startup costs?

What are your ongoing costs?

How will you fund your venture?

What happens if you fall ill, or break an arm?

Do you need to set up an LLC or a limited company?

Do you need outside expertise (accountant, coach/mentor, social media agency, VA, web designers)

What payment methods do you need to put in place?

Do you want to expand the business to more employees or to different locations in the future?

The full list can be pretty exhaustive, but that should suffice to put off most of the less dedicated of you. If so, I have saved you some time, money, and grief. No need to thank me :)

By the time you have completed this research you should have a good idea of how you will make money, the cost involved, the type and number of clients you need to attract, and what you need to implement it all successfully.

2) Devise a plan

At the very least you need a business plan and a marketing plan in place before you start your business.

These are the roadmaps to building your empire and your success. Without them, you are doomed to failure. If you don't have a map of where you are coming from and going to, you will flounder when you hit obstacles because you will not be able to make a diversion easily around them.

Your business plan should put in writing all of the key discoveries you made during your research phase. You should be able to give it to someone to read and they have a good idea of your business venture, how you will make money, and how much.

Your marketing plan will cover how you intend to get your business in front of the people who would benefit from it. Remember, good marketing is bringing your offer to the attention of people who need it. They should want your offer. It is not about selling.

This is why you need to have your ideal customer mapped out in detail and your offer marketed in a way they see the benefits to themselves straight away.

3) Commit medium to long term to the project

  Most online business ventures fail because people don't see instant success and get drawn to the next shiny object, thus starting the process off all over again.

If you have a good plan in place you should already know your figures. If you are not hitting them as expected, you need to go back to your plan and adjust the figures, or determine what part of the plan is not meeting expectations, then fix it.

My plan involves a 12-month target to make $3,000 a month. It has a specific goal by a specific date. I know what I need to do to reach that target. I have my plans roughed out and will be finalising them over the coming days.

I know my target is ambitious for the timescale, so I know I will have to put in extra effort at points along the way to keep it on track. What I have no intention of doing is saying,'I am behind on my projection, this business is not going to work, let's do something else.'

That mindset is a surefire one-way ticket to failure. Yes, I have been down that track a few times too.

If you can't commit long-term to your business then don't commit to it at all. Otherwise, you will just be adding to the woeful statistics of people who fail online.

4) Take massive action

Your new business is like rolling a massive boulder uphill. It takes a lot of effort to get that boulder moving, but it becomes a little easier once you do.

If you stop for a breather you will lose momentum and have to put a massive effort into getting started again. This is the point you are most likely to quit.

If you keep on pushing until you reach the top, the boulder's own momentum will take it forwards after that. Life becomes a lot easier and all you need to do is steer it in the right direction.

Your business will be the same.

Nevertheless, you will have doubts along the way: 

Did I pick the right hill?

Should I have chosen a smaller boulder?

Should I get someone else to do the pushing?

Why am I pushing this boulder in the first place?

You must be willing to keep going until you reach the top. If your business plan is done correctly you should have a pretty good idea of where the summit is and how close you are from it.

5) Keep yourself motivated

  Keeping motivated is hard, especially in the months after you launch. Initially, you have fed off the adrenalin of building your business to keep you going in the setup stage and the first month or so after launch.  But now you are having to keep marketing, the number of clients you have is low, and the effort needed to keep going is high.

This is where you need to keep micro-planning. You need daily, weekly, and monthly goals that take you closer to your target. It is easy to look at the big picture and get discouraged, but if you set yourself tasks and goals you can keep ticking off along the way, then you can visibly see you are making progress.

Plan your schedule for the day each morning and revisit it each night to see your progress. This will keep you motivated. Focus on the end goal, keep in your mind the lifestyle you desire that made you start the business in the first place. If you are doing it for your family, then have a picture of them on your desk. If it is for a car, a holiday, a house, or whatever it is that drives you to succeed, have a picture of that where you can see it.

If you focus your attention on the micro-tasks you will not be daunted by the whole journey or how far you still have to go. You are running a marathon but can only take one step at a time.

6) Stick to the plan

With the exception of not having a plan in the first place, this is the biggest reason people fail. 

You lose sight of the end goal and don't plan or take action on a day to day basis to stay on track.

With experience of running the business for a while, if you discover your original plan was way off the mark, then sit down and rewrite it with the actual data you have gathered in those early weeks.

If your assumptions were wrong change them. If your figures were wrong change those too.

If you rewrite your plan and your business is no longer viable then make a note of where your research and planning went wrong in the first place and learn from your experience.

Have a solid reason for not continuing with your business, don't just wimp out. Wimping out is a bad habit to get into.

  My Plan To Make Money Online

Well, that first section went on a bit longer than I expected. So let's get to the original premise of this article - the methods I will use to get my business making a full-time income within 12 months.

Here is my 6 part plan:

1) Blogging

You can't make money directly from blogging unless you get people to pay you to write the articles, and that is not my plan.

Nevertheless, blogging is a key part of my income strategy as it is the framework around which I build my other income streams.

Blogging will help build my authority, build my audience, therefore building my influence. My influence builds trust and that trust means more people will follow my directions when I recommend a course of action.

My blogging process, coupled with my social media process, means I will be getting my content out to various branded online properties across the web. By being consistent and reliable, I will build an audience and my influence will grow.

For my blogging journey, I am following the Project 24 training by Income School. It is called Project 24 because their plan is a 24-month process to build a full-time income. Their 'Timeline' projects an income of $264 a month after 12 months and $7,875 a month after 24 months. After the first 6 months you have income coming in, but you are yet to make your first $10 in total.

  You can see how your income grows as your authority and influence grows over time, not just with people, but especially with the search engines too. Google wants to get to know you and find out if you are going to stay around before recommending you to it's audience.

It is a very slow process, especially in those early months. This is when most people will quit and say blogging doesn't work. Income School knows blogging takes time and their timeline is a great tool to set you expectations against.

If I stick to the Project 24 Timeline, I would reach my target of $3,000 a month around month 18 or 19. So, in order to reach my target of $3,000 a month in 12 months, I will have to speed up the timeline or to do additional income activities to the Project 24 process. My intention is to do both to increase my income quicker.

2) Affiliate Marketing

Affiliate marketing is getting paid a commission to recommend products to your circle of influence. You recommend or advertise a product, someone purchases the product, and the product vendor pays you a commission for making the sale for them. The cost the purchaser pays is the same as anyone else, your commission comes from the vendor's profit margin.

The purchaser gets a product you are happy to recommend, the vendor makes a sale to someone who wouldn't have purchased otherwise, and you get a commission for bringing the customer and the vendor together. Everybody wins.

Or do they?

The problem with much of the affiliate marketing that happens online, especially in the Internet Marketing arena, is that the people recommending the products are mainly interested in getting that commission payment. This means they will recommend stuff they haven't used themselves, or have any intention of using in the future.

The whole transaction is driven by money.

In my case, my income targets are pretty meager compared to the effort I am willing to make to reach that target. My intention is to make friends along the way and I don't see how I can do that unless I am genuine in the products I recommend and in the reviews of those products.

Believe me, I have purchased plenty of junk over the years that were recommended by people I trust (and still do trust). The problem stems from the inability to do proper reviews of the products before making the recommendation. In many cases, I have seen reviews appear before access to the product is even available, so conclusions are being made on what the sales blurb says, not from the actual use of the product. Not good.

The problem is exasperated by having short windows when these products are promoted after launch. Usually this is less than a week.

Having the time to get your hands on a product, do a thorough test of the claims made by the vendor, evaluate the benefits of the product, write a review, and still get it in front of your audience in time to get a sale in pretty nigh impossible in a 5-day launch window.

Even if you do manage it, the chances are they have already purchased using someone else's affiliate link.

This is what fuels the poor reviews and recommendations and the vendors are not likely to change this process because it means they sell lots more copies of their product with the way things are. Creating false scarcity drives up sales, it is a proven fact.

So how do I overcome this problem and provide balanced reviews? Well, for one, I intend to review products that are more evergreen so you don't have a limited window in which to buy them. Secondly, I will ask for a review access to the products I feel may be of benefit to the people who read my reviews.

I will also provide honest reviews. I will either use the products myself, or would use them for a specific task, or if I would buy them if I didn't already have a similar tool already in use.

3) Online Advertising

This is a major part of most bloggers income arsenal, but my intention is not to concentrate on this in the beginning. 

The reason being is you need to have a good amount of traffic coming to your website to attract the companies that pay the best prices for advertising and it takes months to build up those sorts of traffic levels.

My intention is to evaluate the space I have on my blog pages once I reach a decent level of monthly traffic and decide what is the most lucrative use of that space at the time.

4) Training Packages

I want to get my own training courses out there so I can build my influence and help the people who fall within my circle.

I intend to create both self-development type training and online marketing type training. I feel the two go together. To make money online you need the tools and techniques to succeed, but for a greater chance of success, you need to become a better version of yourself to make the most of the skills you learn. I know that was certainly the case for myself.

I will look to sell the training courses individually, as bundles, and as part of a membership site, which brings us nicely on to the next income stream.

5) Membership Site

  My plans for my membership site is to have at least 3 levels of access:

Silver- A free membership, open to all

Gold - A paid membership offering a range of training

Platinum - The big-daddy of memberships offering access to all (or mostly all) of my training.

People will be granted silver access by either applying for it, or when they opt-in for lead magnets within my business. All of my lead magnets will reside in my membership area.

By bringing people in to the free silver membership, I can market the benefits of the gold and platinum levels of service to them.

My plans are to charge monthly for the paid access. I have yet to decide if I will offer 'lifetime' access to these membership levels for a larger one-off payment.

The benefits of membership sites is they bring in 'residual income'. This is income you receive month after month instead of receiving a one-time payment. The skill with membership sites is keeping the members happy enough that they see the monthly payment as a bargain, not a waste of money.

  6) A niche site

Internet marketing is one of the toughest markets to be in when you start an online business. The competition is fierce and it is much harder to run adverts in Facebook compared to being in the quilting niche, the camping niche or the barbeque niche. as Facebook is strict on schemes offering money making claims.

I am knowledgable in the make money online niche because that is where I have been investing my time and money in for the last 6 years. Nevertheless, I wanted to try something in a different niche, mainly as a Plan B, because of the competitiveness of the online marketing niche.

A few months ago I began a project in the video gaming niche, but I canned it after a couple of months for a good reason. I was struggling to find a way to justify the work involved as it was difficult to sufficiently monetise it. There were no attractive affiliate marketing schemes and advertising companies paid less for adverts shown in this niche than the market average.

So I stopped and started a project in another niche. My intention was to build this business with my partner Andie (who I am a full-time carer for), especially as she was the expert in this niche. My hope was by giving her something to focus on, it would keep her positive and engaged despite her medical problems.

Over time though, it became obvious that the project was putting more pressure on her than it was helping her. She struggled to work on stuff and I sensed it was affecting her negatively - she was feeling guilt because I was beavering away with my tasks and she was struggling to do anything.

The website was built, the social accounts were set up, and the business plans were starting to take shape, but it just didn't feel right. So I sat down with Andie and told her I was going to stop the project and begin one I could run myself in the Internet Marketing niche.

You could see the relief in her face immediately once the pressure had been lifted. She admitted to struggling and to feeling guilty about not helping me. The pressure just made it worse, so she had struggled. I had made the right decision.

Nevertheless, this project is still there. I had invested a lot of time and a decent amount of money in creating it and I don't want it to go to waste. So my intention is to keep it going, on the back burner to begin with, as I build this business.

Andie can still advise on the project and I can always outsource articles once I have an income coming in from either projects.

The niche this earlier website is in is much more passionate than the Internet Marketing niche and a lot more money is spent in it. The signs are good for making a success of this project, it is just a case of the timing, management, and budgeting of it to get it bringing in money.

Whether I can get it to a stage where it is contributing to my monthly income within the coming 12 months will be an interesting side show to everything else I am doing.

I will keep you informed.

  .   .   .

  So there you have it, my plans to montise my business(es).

There are other ways to make money online.

In fact the project I have in the non-Internet Marketing niche has an ecommerce store attached to it and we were going to make products to sell in the online store.

There are other methods I have tried previously online with varying degress of success which involved having clients, such as lead generation or a local SEO agency, but with my current caring duties, these were not viable.

When I gave up working online previously I was running a local SEO agency, but when I started caring full-time for Andie, I felt I couldn't maintain the level of service I demanded of myself for my existing clients, or have the time to attract new clients to keep my business growing.

  So What Of The Future?

  Even without my other commitments, my plans are ambitious. Only time will tell whether they are over ambitious or just plain ludicrous.

Some things I have no control of, Andie's health being one of them. Plus, I am at an age myself where I am more likely to suffer with health problems. I will be celebrating my sixtieth birthday at the end of the 12 month target period.

Then there are the unforeseen expenses and events I haven't catered for. You can research and plan as much as possible, but in the end you still don't know what you don't know.

Having a solid business plan and marketing plan will help bypass these oversights as they hit, but experience tells me there will be major obstacles to overcome along the way.

I am ready and excited for the coming journey. The question is, do you want to watch from the sidelines or are you motivated to start your journey too?

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One Million People Sign Petition To Shut Down Pornhub For Alleged Sex Trafficking Videos

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When requested, most refuse to speak about piracy, worrying that MindGeek will blacklist them. Since MindGeek-owned companies present large amounts of promoting to Adult Video News and other trade information websites, they wield a great deal of influence over trade publications and occasions as nicely.

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I spoke together with her about what she found in her research, and the interview that follows has been edited and condensed for the sake of clarity. Sexual assault centres in US faculties have said that more girls are reporting anal rape, which Dines attributes on to the normalisation of such practices in pornography. There are authorized websites that feature hardcore pictures of extremely younger-wanting girls being penetrated by older men, with disclaimers stating all the models are 18 and over. Dines is clear that common publicity to such material has an effect of breaking down the taboo about having intercourse with children. A new wave of sexual misconduct accusations is sweeping throughout the porn trade this week, as ladies started coming forward about abuse they've skilled on multiple porn sets.

The girl said that she emailed Pornhub repeatedly over a period of six months, however received no reply.

Pornhub eliminated the video when reported, but clones of the video using her full name replicated faster than the videos were removed.

In 2009, a 14-year-old girl was gang raped at knifepoint and claims the movies had been uploaded to Pornhub.

Another case in October 2019 concerned a person who faces expenses of lewd and lascivious battery of a 15-year-old girl, videos of which have been found on Pornhub, Modelhub, Periscope and Snapchat that lead to his arrest.

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The UK based activist group Not Your Porn was based by the friend of a girl whose iCloud storage had been hacked, resulting in the hacker posting sexually specific pictures and movies on Pornhub alongside her full name.

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The basic sentiment is that the porn enterprise crash round 2008 was because of the rise of widescale piracy on tube sites and torrents, an increase in amateur porn, and the Great Recession. with sexually assaulting 4 ladies, seemingly exterior of the context of the porn trade.

Some people are exploited as kids and made to be confused. Most people do not know all of it's dangerous as a result of they develop up inundated with it. Years ago TV was ruled by the Catholic League of Decency and it was not so.

While a cradle Catholic drilled in the faith would possibly know it's mistaken by way of the teaching, he's attempting to refute society’s justification of it. The largest promoting point of porn is their argument that it's harmless to society and we know this to not be true.

That discussion intensified when the grownup business media publication AVN ran a story alleging police brutality victim George Floyd had hyperlinks to the porn trade, sparking huge backlash and prompting AVN to delete the story and publish an apology. For many people after they think of the porn business, they think of actors and actress getting paid to be naked and have intercourse on digicam. The crash within the porn business provided MindGeek with the chance to purchase high-profile porn content material producers, together with big names like Digital Playground (in 2012), at discounted charges, each of which themselves function dozens of websites. Alongside names like Hustler and Vivid, MindGeek successfully came to manage a huge quantity of the mainstream “traditional” porn business—the Hollywood-like manufacturing scene primarily based in California’s San Fernando Valley, which has given us Jenna Jameson and Sasha Grey. The way Siri puts it, it’s as if Walmart drove mom-and-pop stores out of business “after which to top it off, went into the mom-and-pop outlets and literally stole all of their merchandise to be resold at Walmart.” It’s a troublesome time to be a mom-and-pop porn store.

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[iluvpcy]

This is kind of a random question and I know it’s still far away, but do you think there will be a stream for the EXO Planet 4 concerts? And if so, do you know where I could find that? Sorry I’m new ;-;

hiii its ok! yep ill be rlly surprised if there’s no streams going this year. i think for the first exordium concert we just had audio streams but then for exordium dot there were a lot of periscopes so there’ll probably be both for these concerts? usually there’s no links to streams until the day of the actual concert and the people who do periscopes usually end them and restart them quite often so ur better off just following whoever’s doing the periscopes on twitter so you’ll know if they start a new one. there’ll be people on here posting links to streams and stuff as well if you’re really stuck. hope this helps!!

[legalizeiero]

what has brendon urie said wrong? also he isn't white hes Hawaiian

i know it took me a while to answer this, but that’s because i’ve been compiling links (with the help of my friends) just so i could cite all the gross things he’s said and done in the past few years (i say past few years because i don’t really count things a person has said when they are younger since people change a bunch)

overt biphobia and sexualization of bisexual women: 

pretty much everything he says about girls/girls/boys here is disgusting. fun things he says includes “barsexual” and calling girls who make out when they are drunk “sexy” !!!

“‘Girls/Girls/Boys’ is such a racy song that it immediately made me think of one of the sexiest videos of all time, which also happens to be one of my favorites.”

overt transphobia

this tweet

i can’t find a link but i recall a few years back watching one of his periscopes where he reffered to rachel dolezal being ‘trans-racial’ as not that big of a deal because it’s the ‘same thing’ caitlyn jenner did when she came out as trans. 

more general transphobia 

also when he wore heels and everyone worshipped him like he was god??? like chill out he’s literally pandering to yall lmao 

overt fatphobia

this makes me really upset and disgusted

his “apology” 

fetishization of homosexuality and stereotyping

“We have this thing we call "stage gay” where I become a different person on stage. I think I can say the same for the rest of the band: We become just a character, a different person on stage, and you treat every situation accordingly. So you get close to somebody on stage and there’s sexual tension and you’re all of a sudden this cocky person running around on stage. I like to bring that person to the character I play on stage.It’s also just very flamboyant. Our costumes are pretty amazing. Some very flamboyant shiny, sparkly clothing. I have a pinkish, rose-gold jacket that’s my favorite thing ever. I gotta gay it up a bit.”

rape jokes !

he thinks these are hilarious !

he’s made several jokes about “raping” his audience 

several passing rape jokes in periscopes/vines

another rape joke directed toward his mainly young female fans !

mental illness jokes !

another type of joke he seems to be fond of !

made fun of BPD in a bunch of his vines (i’m not taking the time to look up all his vines i don’t have the time and i’d probably kms if i had to watch them all)

this is a combo “joke!” about anxiety, lesbophobia and making fun of a girl for dead ass being allergic to peanuts (like how dumb can u get??)

just generally being a dick tbh

referred to himself as the only remaining member when spencer was still in the band (before dallon was demoted to touring member again)

here’s a really helpful masterpost with more links to vines and stuff

[fearofaherobrine]

Roleplay Server Log #219

“Pinwheel sitting, Ashes Flying Lessons”

[gem] -flies next to splenderman's house and knocks on the side of the door-

[Slender] Sighs- Come in

[Gem] -flies in then lands she is holding two stacks of sugar cookies- oh hello I heard Splenderman was sick so I wanted to help cheer him up I didn't know someone else was here

[Slender] - Yes, I am his brother- He's looking Gem over, finding her attributes a bit odd

[Gem] well I brought sugar cookies

[Splender] Groans and rolls over- Nooo...

[Slender] - You may as well put them with the other food which has been brought, in that chest over there

[Gem] -puts them in the chest- will splenderman be ok?

[Slender] - In about a week or so, he doesn't like having to kill humans

[gem] -flies up a little- I understand so are you doing staying on the server must be tough it being so different I would guess

[Slender] - Having to restrict my EMP field is annoying but necessary.  Speaking of I wouldn't get to close to me unless you wish to be affected.  And I'm staying here to help make certain Splender is alright

[Gem] -flies back a little so she further from slender- is restricting it hard?

[Slender] - After some time it does become difficult, but I should be able to do it for the length of time I'll be here

[gem] -is just talking out loud- I just realized I should check on aven and ben later before I go back to building the track system

[Slender] - Ah yes, them and their child

[gem] I live with them but I have recently been busy with building I haven't been home as often

[Slender] - I see, I am curious about how their child is coming along

[gem] oh he is just the cutest he is very healthy too

[Slender] - I know Painter and Angel desire a child, but I'd like more data, preferably a second successful child

[gem] well ben is quiet protective of hyrule to the point of not wanting to give him baths

[Slender] - Of course he wouldn't want to do that, you can always get Jeff and LJ to hold him down, they've gotten very good at that over the years

[gem] I believe they had to do that once already and my guardians also did once

[Slender] - And his mate is still doing well?  There have been no ill effects of having the child?

[gem] no aven has been good

[Slender] - I see...

[Splender] - Brother...

[Slender] - Yes?

[Splender] - Don't let father get us...

[Slender] - I won't, I promise

[gem] what would happen if they did?

[Slender] - It's nothing, he's just dreaming of a memory

[gem] oh well if there is anything you need for me to get splenderman I will gladly help

[Slender] - I will keep it in mind

[gem] well I should be off to check on the couple -starts flying to the door-

[Slender] Lets her leave before pulling a book out of his jacket pocket-

[Deer] Has shifted into her dragon form and is playing with Yaunfen in the water-

[Doc] Does a graceful roll a little farther out and breaches in a gentle arc, using the air to make it higher before plunging back down-

[Deer] Laughs and nudges Yaunfen to swim a bit more-

[Doc] Does some little zigzags under the water near them. Just keeping an eye out for trouble.

[Yaunfen] Paddles about-

[Endrea] Flies past them over head-

[Doc] Looks up- I wonder where the babies are?

[Deer] - Probably with their uncle, I'm more curious as to where she's going

[Doc] The void hole we covered up is in the ravine over there. But that's it. I doubt she wants to hang out with the villagers over the water.

[Deer] - Odd...

[Yaunfen] Paddles towards the shore-

[Doc] I'll check on her and come right back. Will you two be okay?

[Deer] - Absolutely, besides, I think it's time for a nap

[Doc] On the sand, by our sea, in this lovely morning sunshine perhaps?

[Endrea] Heads down into the ravine and starts scrapping up loose rocks-

[Deer] - Oh absolutely

[Doc] Oh good! -Xe leaps out of the water and chases Endrea. On the other side it doesn't take long for hir to sniff out the bigger dragon and peek down into the ravine. - Endrea? Are you doing okay?

[Endrea] - Need to brood...

[Doc] Oh! I guess the kids are with the sitter?

[Endrea] - Yes- she then lays down, huffing a little-

[Doc] Can I get you anything?

[Endrea] - No, I'll be fine- Already the first egg is emerging

[Doc] How long will it take? Just so I can let the others know.

[Endrea] - A few days at the least- She grunts as the egg pops out

[Doc] Okay. I'll leave you too it. Let me know if you need anything, or if anything unusual hatches. Heh.

[Endrea] - It's always the same every time, twelve eggs, for twelve eyes of ender

[Doc] You never know... I've come to believe anything is possible around here. - grins-

[Doc] Takes a little leap off a cliff by the sea and spins out over the water, dragging a foot to make a huge plume of water. Hir other paw wiggles as xe chats to Deerheart - Gotta make one more stop -

[Deer] - Okay

[Doc] Hits the shore running and vaults over Stevie and Alexises house landing a chunk away with a thump in Lie's yard-

-There's a grumpy looking red cat on the bridge-

[Doc] Stops short. - Uh oh. What did you do?

[[Lie] Walks past the bridge- SOMEBODY left HG out in the real world...  With Jeb...

[Doc] Oh for... well. I guess it's better then leaving him at the manor. And he did want to go.

[Lie] - Still...  He made me mad

[CP] Mews at his wife-

[Doc] I hate to say it - shuffles hir claws a bit in the dirt- But I actually think that's pretty funny. I mean, Jeb is terrified of us. I don't think he'll screw up intentionally. I'm sure he knows Cp would punch his dick so hard he couldn't have a second kid.

[Lie] - Pretty sure he threatened to stab Jeb's dick off

[Doc] See? Besides, who else could we even leave him with? Do you want to be out there for at least two weeks? I don't.

[Lie] - You have a point...

[Doc] I mean, he knew he'd be out for a while right? You guys warned him?

[Lie] - CP didn't give me the chance to

[CP] Is looking a bit smug-

[Doc] You told him it would be painful? Yeah?

[Lie] - Again, a certain someone didn't give me the chance

[Doc] Looks a bit skeptical. - I think one or both of you need to check on his house then.

[Lie] - I will after I take care of my animals

[Doc] Good. And for what it's worth. I don't think this should be a lengthy cat-i-fication. He's done way worse. And he might be needed anyway.

[Lie] Sighs- You're right, I just got pissed at him...

[Doc] He has that effect on people, - winks- and he is a really cute little kitty.

[Lie] - That he is

[CP] Hisses-

[Doc] And so are you.

[Lie] - So, why might he be needed?

[Doc] Endrea went off to lay a clutch of ender eggs. And of course, Slender is still here.

[Lie] - Slender's here?

[CP] Tries to look innocent-

[Doc] He came to take care of Splender. Trust me, the whole thing makes me massively uncomfortable, but the server is holding steady with just some tiny errors in the 2-3 pixel range from his skin. And his waves are making any humans in a 6-8 block radius feel ill.

[Lie] - I see...  I think I'll just keep my distance for the time being

[Doc] I don't blame you, he's a downer anyway. But the Steves, Alexes, and even the villagers have been going down there with food and get well gifts all day.

[Lie] - Well of course, they love Splender, it's amazing that the two are related, they're as different as night and day

[Doc] All of them are, it's almost like someone took a whole personality and split it into several parts.

[Lie] - True, maybe they all were originally one person

[Doc] Or one old God...

[CP] Jumps down and rubs against Lies legs- [Lie] - An old god?

[Doc] why not? I think Cp was the one that told me their strongest Allie is some kind of demon.

[Lie] - They've probably been called that themselves

[Doc] Then who knows? Your world makes the one I'm used too look sane and normal most of the time. Irregardless, even if you want to avoid Slender you should at least send him a note or something. There's a trunk on the shore people have been using as a mailbox all day.

[Lie] - Got it, I'll have to think about what I'll want to say though

[Doc] Take your time, he's gonna be laid up for a few days. And you, make sure you check in on Hg.

[CP] Considers it-

[Doc] gives Cp the hairy eyeball- you get to aggravate Jeb....

[CP] Yowls a little-

[Lie] - I'll let Notch know since Jeb will probably call him

[Doc] Thank you Lie. -gives Cp a tiny lick on the ear- behave...

[CP] Attempts to scratch Doc-

[Doc] Withdraws hir forked tongue with a teeny slurp- naughty. See you guys later, my own little family is waiting on me.

[Doc] Canters back home with a spring in hir step-

[Deer] She and Yaunfen are happily curled up by spawn in the sun-

[Doc] Makes a circle around them as if fluffing up the grass with hir claws and lays down as well, hir body a loop with hir beloved and child protected by the kinked coils of hir golden form. Before long, Xe is also asleep.

[Deer] After a few hours she begins to whimper in her sleep some and shift around far more than usual-

[Doc] Opens an eye at hir mates distress and cradles her head - Shhh, I'm here love.

[Deer] Whimpers and curls up a bit more-

[Yaunfen] Wakes as well and looks at Deer with concern-

[Doc] Huddles closer- Wake up love...

[Deer] Slowly wakes up-

[Doc] Were you having a nightmare?

[Deer] - No...  I think... Ugh, there's some interference nearby...

[Doc] Probably Slender.... It looked like the server was distributing his load pretty well considering. But if he's moving around it might be having some issues.

[Deer] - He's close, not with Splender

[Doc] Periscopes like a snake- looking around-

[Slender] Is in the shade of the tree's near the water-

[Doc] Yeah, he's on the next chunk. Should I get Flux?

[Deer] - What for?

[Doc] Well she has experience, and you said she was teaching you a lot of server maintience stuff? I thought it might help?

[Deer] - Oh, right...  Maybe you should, I don't seem able to think straight right now

[Doc] Tapping in the chat already - Flux? Can you please come to the spawn?

[Flux] - Certainly- Within seconds she has arrived, forming near them- What did you call me for?

[Doc] Server issues actually. Slender is here, and even though the server is holding up underfoot it's still making Deerheart feel scattered. Can you give her a hand?

[Flux] - Absolutely, but perhaps you could convince  him to step a ways away?  It would be helpful

[Doc] Okay... -Xe puts hir head down for Yaunfen- Just hop on -

[Yaunfen] Crawls on- Mada!

[Doc] Smiles- Yep, and you're my baby. - Purrs- Lets go see if we can straighten things out a bit. - trots toward Slender.

[Slender] Noticed their approach and turns towards them- Hello Doctor

[Doc] Hey.... um.... not to be a pill, but I need a little favor....

[Slender] - What would that be?

[Doc] I just need you to move. - Looks at the ground and counts - about twelve blocks that way.

[Slender]- Why so specific?

[Doc] It's kinda complicated. Basically my mate is the embodiment of the server. And you're too close to her physical part. She was napping away from our house to stay out of your interference and then you moved closer to her. So I just need you to back up a bit.

[Slender] - Ah I see, she must be very sensitive then since I am repressing my waves as much as I can

[Doc] She can't not be. She's part of everything around you.

[Slender] - I see- He does begin moving away- I would have stayed with my brother, but he requested a bit of time alone

[Doc] That's okay. I don't mind you exploring. Just give the spawn a wide berth. - Indicates with a paw- The little valley down there with the spooky tree and the gravestones.

[Slender] - Very well, you know, you are quite lucky to have ever even met my Splender

[Doc] Yeah. Cp told me about him, I basically insisted on meeting him. I'm damn glad I did, he's an excellent friend.

[Slender] - That is not what I meant.  Had I not brought him and my other brothers into the realm of the humans, then he would not even be alive

[Doc] Everyone is running from something I suppose. I take it your home... dimension? Isn't a safe place to exist?

[Slender] - If one looks like me, then it is fine, but those born with a face are considered a very large disgrace.  Considering how our family is one of the most distinguished, well, it would have been a blow to how our family was viewed

[Doc] Aw. Well he's found the right pack of kindred souls. We're no strangers to discrimination. To most of the NOTCHs we're all just a pack of filthy glitches, no better then rats. Not to mention those who were spat on for being gay or otherwise outside the norms. Poor Gem was pursued and the world she inhabited destroyed just because she was mistaken for a Herobrine.

`[Slender] - I suppose in a way he has...

[Doc] It's why I'm so hellbent on helping the creepypastas too. They're much the same, ejected from human society or worse, and I just feel like... they're not used to anyone being nice to them... at least nice with no ulterior motives.

[Slender] - I try my best, but they do make it difficult

[Doc] I just keep trying. It makes the triumph all sweeter when they finally come around. I - I don't know where I came from, or if I had an original purpose, but fixing things makes me happy.

[Slender] - I've heard Jeff's complaints over it

[Doc] Wilts a little. - Jeff is hard... I thought I knew what he wanted most and tried to give it to him, but....

[Slender] - Oh you did, but his mind is set into thinking that he doesn't deserve it or that it could be given to him

[Yaunfen] Yawns-

[Doc] Go back to sleep little one, Just curl up between my spirals. I'll keep you safe.

[Slender] - I see they have grown bigger...

[Doc] I hope you're right about Jeff and he'll eventually come around. In the meantime at least Liu has a second chance at life and he's making Smile happy too. And yes, they had a growth spurt. My little one is just a bit too big to pick up in my human shape anymore. It's bittersweet. Soon a few words will become sentances and then, that's when the real fun will begin.

[Slender] - Watching others grow up is bittersweet

[jewel] -approaches the three quietly-

[Doc] It's okay. I can't wait to see what they'll have to say....

[Slender] Senses her- Hello Jewel

[Doc] Brushes her gently with hir tail fluff- Nice to see you Jewel.

[jewel] hello doc and hello slender

[Slender] - Are you well Jewel?

[jewel] yes

[Doc] You seem subdued. Is everything okay?

[jewel] I am fine I and just slightly surprised slender is here and this place isn't messing up

[Slender] - It is not my first time in a digital setting Jewel, I have learned a few tricks in my years

[jewel] I understand

[Doc] Plus we buffered the server when Splender was invited in. BEN and Cp worked really hard on it.

[Slender] - Yes, those two were the best at coding, at least amongst my digital pasta's

[Doc] And Dawn gave Splender a charm to tamp his field down as well.

[Slender] - So he keeps telling us and showing off to us

[Doc] chuckles- I get the feeling he hasn't met many witches.

[Slender] - No, most are not very fond of our kind.  Jewel, have you seen Jeff or Jane?

[Jewel] no but they might be some where around

[Slender] - I know most of you probably felt my arrival, so I am surprised they haven't shown themselves yet...

[Doc] They might have just gone exploring. This world is near infinite in scope. Much bigger then earth.

[Slender] Sighs- I'd like for them to at least check in with me...

[jewel] would you like me to go look for them?

[Doc] I can just send out a message in the chat, no need to go running around.

[Slender] - I do not mind when, so long as it happens while I am still here

[Doc] Wiggles hir claws, typing with one paw. Just a general call for the creepypastas to come over by the koi pond to check in with Slender.

[CP] Over chat- Fuck off

[Doc] Mutters, but it's a loud thought too - Not you ding dong, he know's you're okay. -accidently aloud -Unless you're still a cat?

[Slender] - A cat?

[Doc] Weeeellllll....

[jewel] can't cp's wife turn him into a cat?

[Doc] Yeah... He wouldn't stop murdering people when we brought Lie here... it was a way to contain his worst impulses.

[Slender] - An option not available to me

[Doc] You met TLOT right? The brine with the gold armor?

[Slender] - Yes, he and I had quite the talk while within CP's dream

[Doc] He's had a lot of time for quiet contemplation and honing his powers. He can actually grab someone and squash them into a smaller or completely different shape. He helped me make the body I'm wearing. Actually, he made me a Herobrine too.

[Slender] - Is that how your kind creates more?

[Doc] What do you mean? More brines?

[Slender] - For lack of a better word, reproduce, create more of your kind

[Doc] Oh, no. Herobrines spawn naturally in this game. We're not sure why. Every world gets one Steve. Most worlds will have a Steve and an Alex. She's a bit rarer, and only a small percentage will spawn a Herobrine. And when one is detected, the system will automatically create an AI NOTCH to check the brines powers.

[Slender] - Like the one which my brother helped destroy?

[Doc] Yes. They vary a lot. His original father was a decent NOTCH. But the one they helped kill was a monster. Mad, bloodthirsty and relentless. The admin of their world was ready and willing to delete everyone on it if we didn't agree to kill it for him.

[Slender] - Yes he was very enthusiastic about how he helped with that

[Doc] And rightfully so, it was one hell of a battle. The Testificates were certainly impressed. Did he tell you they added him to their pantheon?

[Slender] Sighs heavily- No, he did not, but I'm sure I'll hear about it once he feels better

[Doc] They have a thing for making statues, but they seem to prefer his image carved into walls. I guess it's too tempting to cover the space with curly knots of tentacles.

[Slender] - Has he seen?

[Doc] Not directly, but it will happen. TLOT likes to go check on them periodically. He just needs to tag along on the next trip.

[Slender] - I see... You said something earlier about being made a brine by another, I'm still somewhat confused by that statement since you also said your kind are a natural spawn

[Doc] Oh, that's because I'm a unique case. I'm a digital entity by nature, but I aquired a glitch when I was injured by a rather aggressive Herobrine. I had a mental breakdown because of some... personal issues... I suddenly developed an ability that I couldn't control and TLOT shared his powers with me to save me. The more powerful Herobrines can give of themselves to create life or sustain it. You met Steve right? TLOT made him.

[Slender] - So almost as a vampyr would create another of its kind, how odd

[Doc] That's more right then you know in his case. His own blood is full of life. He likes to make butterflies out of flowers when he's nervous. Him just breathing on them is enough to bring them to life.

[Slender] - I can see why his followers refer to him as a god then

[Doc] Yes. And the more they believe, the more leverage he has to shift the world. His powers here are immense. They grow with the fevor and number of his followers

[Slender] - Has he made any brines other then you?

[Doc] He made Lie. She was in horrible pain as she got closer to becoming fully digital. He gave her of his power and licked out her eyes.

[Slender] - Licked out?

[Doc] A formality almost, he used his tongue to clean the colored pixels in her eyes from the inside of her player skin. It was a kiss that made Cp rather... annoyed. But his husband Steve will certainly sing the praises of TLOT's expertise in that area.

[Slender] - I'm surprised he did not try to attack the golden brine for that...

[Doc] He was rather worn out at the time, I'd just fixed his respawn and cleaned all the junk files out of his system, he'd puked. And right after that I cut off his hand in the process of removing Insanity, he was a bit too weak to do much more then growl.

[Slender] - Ah, yes she was far from happy about that

[Doc] Too bad, as soon as Cps head was cleared of Insanity he and I were in perfect agreement. He likes Lie just how she is. Kind. And becoming a brine has its own attendant special powers as well.

[Slender] - How so?

[Doc] We usually develop special abilities that fit our personalities. Lie can make magick plants, I think because TLOT changed her, she got a bit of his ability to give life.

[Slender] - Is plants all she can create?

[Doc] Heh, you say that like its a small thing. Her greatest work took a house sized bite out of a NOTCH with a gigantic pod full of venomous teeth.

[Slender] - How interesting...  But surely the lack of diversity in her abilities leaves her weak in many other ares

[Doc] She's also psychic and she can teleport. She can turn into a cat as well.  He cuteness level is very persuasive

[Slender] - As can her mate, but there is nothing else unique to her?

[Doc] She carries a cleansing white fire that can burn Insanity out of a person.

[Slender] - Ah yes, I do seem to recall seeing that when she and I met on the witches beach

[Doc] She's young anyway, still learning. She'll probably figure out how to fly at least. Most brines can.

[Slender] - A trick CP uses often to avoid the others since the ceilings in my home are so tall

[Doc] It's handy for that. I cheated my way around it. I determined that the empty space is still enough of a part of the grid that I can use the air blocks. Zero is still a number, after all.

[Slender] - I, do not understand what you mean by that

[Doc] This world is a three dimensional grid and gravity only affects certain types of blocks. So if I do this- places a dirt block and then another on top- and I take this one away- knocks out the underneath one and the top one stays floating-  then this one is fixed and I can jump on it all I want and not fall- presses the block from above and to the side- so if I want to go up, I place my feet where a block would go and just climb up like its solid stairs-

[Slender] - This would certainly explain some of the pranks CP was able to pull off...

[Doc] oh do tell!

[Slender] - He's managed to place tree's that touched the ceiling but not the floor, random blocks just right at head height for the others to run into if they're not paying attention...  He's gotten BEN with walls of water outside of his door many times

[Mix] -in chat- I'm gonna hop out for a bit to check on something if its alright Doc?

[Doc] also chat- Aww. Mix, you don't have to ask permission. But if you want to come over here first I'll send you off with a bit of code so you can contact me if you get in trouble out there.

[Doc] That sounds about right, we are tricksters by nature, and this games strange physics just make it easier. Good example. One plus one is two, correct? Unless it's water, then one plus one can equal infinity. Two buckets of water arranged in the right way can be drawn from indefinitely.

[Slender] - That would also explain why it's sometimes impossible to empty the giant bath...

[Doc] Most likely. The dev team put in a sponge block specifically for cleaning up Griefer-created water messes.

[Slender] His face seems to shift a little as if he is annoyed-

[Doc] Something amiss?

[Slender] - My other brother's, they are near constantly contacting me to check in on Splender

[Doc] Awww, it's nice to know they care. Is Splender the youngest brother?

[Slender] - Yes, he is

[Slender] Rater suddenly and loudly- Offender no!

[Doc] No pants again?

[Slender] Groans- No, he's currently watching Splender's pet and has gotten bored of poking it, so he wants to put it in clothes now...

[Mix] -In chat- I'll stop in a sec, gotta grab my bag

[Doc] Poor Pinwheel. I have the anti venom, if he wants to pass her back here.

[Slender] - I cannot open a way

[Doc] Oh, I might be able too. Where is he specifically? Can you get him to go in the living room? I know that space decently well. And I can use the tv.

[Slender] - If you're certain...

[Doc] She already hates everyone and I don't want to make it any worse a situation. Besides, there's a chance she's spent her venom for the day biting Offender.

[Slender] - Very well, give me a few moments

[Doc] Let me take care of Mix real quick first. - Xe pulls a book from the creative and starts adding a bit of code to it.

[Mix] -Trudges up, eyeing Slender a bit, shes got her bag and her elytra on- Hey! Sorry it took a bit

[Doc] No problem, it gave me a minute to fix this for you- Offers the book. - Just write 'Doc' and then whatever you need to say and it will email me and ping my carrot phone.

[Mix] -Takes it- Just that? Alright -Stuffs it into her bag-

[Doc] Be careful out there and let me know if you need help okay?

[Mix] I will, don't worry! Be back,, soonish? -she gets a thoughtful look before shrugging and turning. She takes a few steps and hops, with a swift glow and snapping sound she's gone from the server. She's out. Bye Felica n' stuff-

- / player Mixminer has left the server /-

[Slender] - Offender is ready

[Doc] Okay, just give me a sec... - Doc would take a running start, but Yaunfen is sleeping soundly on hir shoulders. Hir eyes narrow with concentration and xe suddenly slams hir head forward as if headbutting a wall. The opening is ragged, crackling, and won't hold for long, but it is there.

[Offender] Is standing there buck naked with his hands on his hips and pinwheel in his tendrils over his crotch- TADA!

[Slender] - OFFENDER!

[Offender] Cackles-

[Doc] Please, please tell me you didn't fuck her?! She's only a baby!

[Offender] - Nah, I'd never do that to Splender's pet

[Doc] Thank goodness... Just kinda, set her on the grass please.

[Offender] Puts her down while Slender mutters over his brother's inappropriateness-

[Pinwheel] Slinks back into the server, going back into a lower resolution-

[Doc] She's not really a pet anyway. When she's grown theres a strong chance she'll have human-level intelligence.

[Slender] - Yes well that's how Splender views her currently...

[Pinwheel] Hisses and growls a little-

[Doc] I think it's an issue with her behavior. He'll likely feel different when she's learned a few words. -At Pinwheel- It's okay, you're safe.

[Pinwheel] Snaps at Doc-

[Doc] Scoots back a bit. - How about... some nibbles? I know, maybe a challenge?

[Pinwheel] Curls up a little-

[Offender] - Hey, where's Splender?

[Slender] - He wished to be alone

[Doc] Puts a small circle of half-slabs around them and pulls out a teeny egg before tapping it lightly near Pinwheel. - Want a mouse? - the little creature goes scurrying along the edge of the slabs.

[Pinwheel] Focus' on it immediately-

[Doc] Maybe more then one? Multitask a bit. - Taps out two more and they scrurry around randomly-

[Pinwheel] Stands up a little, eyes dialating-

[Doc] That's more like it. She just needs a bit of playtime. Her strikes are so fast they're a bit hard to follow.

[Pinwheel] Strikes out at one of the mice in a blur-

[Mouse] Pops with a tiny squeak into a morsel.

[Other two mice] scatter in a panicky way.

[Pinwheel] Chases after them-

[Doc] Is just watching with a happy expression.

[Offender] - I think I'll check on Splendy myself!

[Slender] - YOU WILL NOT!  YOU KNOW THAT HAVING TWO OF US HERE IS A DANGER ENOUGH AND I WILL NOT HAVE YOU RUNNING AROUND HERE NUDE!

[Offender] - Oh come on!

[Doc] Yeah, please don't. You guys can, switch out later if need be.

[Slender] - You are more than welcome to close the portal...

[Offender] - Awwww...

[Doc] Anything you want passed on?

[Offender] - Nah, if I think of anything I'll tell bro here

[Doc] Later then! - Closes the portal. - I swear if he didn't have such a messed up idea of consent, him and TLOT would be best friends forever.

[Slender] - In a small way he does, his victims have to accept his rose in order for him to have his way with them.  I imposed that rule a very long time ago

[Doc] Is obviously uncomfortable- I prefer more then that. And TLOT nearly ruined the best thing that ever happened to him by taking advantage of someone sexually without their permission. He still regrets it.

[Slender] - It's the best I could do considering his feeding habits

[Doc] I gathered as much. But apart from that, nothing wrong with being naked. My mate does it quite freqently. She's just comfy that way.

[Slender] - It gets annoying after a few millennia

[Pinwheel] Kills the second mouse-

[Doc] Pfft. I guess it's different when it's someone you like seeing naked too... Aw, not gonna eat the prize at least Pinwheel?

[Pinwheel] Chases after the third-

[Doc] She's gonna so deadly when she's bigger...

[Slender] - Especially with that venom of hers...

[Doc] Curls into a more comfortable loaf and puts hir tail fluff over Yaunfen like a blanket. - I hope she gets big enough to give Splendor rides, I can only imagine how thrilled he'd be.

[Slender] - If she'll let him on her

[Doc] Considering how lovingly he's taken care of her despite her biting him all the time... I'd be suprised if she was unwilling.

[Slender] - Yes, he's been talking about her non-stop

[Doc] It's hard not to get excited. We all did so much travelling in dangerous places to rescue the eggs we brought in. And then I set them up so they could be hatched by being walked in peoples inventories, so that was more time and effort.  And it takes a long time for them to mature to the talking phase too. My little one was the last to hatch.

[Yaunfen] Sleep talking- Burp...

[Doc] Snickers- Such a silly word. But it was their first.

[Slender] - Well, I should return to my brother, would you like me to take Pinwheel?

[Doc] No, it's okay. Unless you think Splender is well enough to watch her; let her have her fun with that last mouse.

[Slender] - Very well, let me know if you need help with her however

[Doc] I will, thanks.

[Gk] Notices that the little dragons are all bloody from stalking the local wildlife. - We should go over to the desert area for a bit, I think. Take a breather. Follow me.

[Ashe] - The desert?  Why?

[Gk] Because I can't wash you little guys.

[Ashe] - Oh...  Uncle GG?  When do I get to learn to fly?

[Gk] Hmm? We can practice that today. The desert is also a good place for that. Sand is nice to land on if you faceplant.

[Ashe] - Okay!- His tail is wagging around in excitement

[willow] -jumps to get on gk's back-

[Gk] Clops down from the narrow cobble road into the warm sand- ahhh, okay, you guys roll around and it'll get some of that blood off. Flap your wings like me- Lays down and fluffs sand everywhere like a sparrow taking a dust bath.

[Ashe] Sneezes from some sand getting in his nose-

[oak] -sneezes and flops on to his back-

[Ashe] Tries wiggling in the sand-

[Gk] Fluffs even more sand since they seem to need help-

[willow] -jumps off of gk's back into the sand and start kick some up to make a hole then jump into stick her head out of it-

[Gk] If nothing it feels good! - Gets up and shakes off. - You ready to strech those wings a bit?

[Ashe] - Yeah!  Yeah!

[Gk] Okay. Since we don't want to leave Willow and Oak alone, you're just gonna stay low to the ground. Copy my movements and then we'll try- makes a show of flexing his wings in the right postures slowly so Ashe can see.

[Ashe] Tries mimicking the motions-

[oak] -tries to squeeze into willow's hole with her-

[Gk] Does it a few more times, correcting Ashe gently and repositioning his little wings.

[Ashe] Flaps a bit-

[Gk] okay, now I wan you to run and flap just like that. Don't strain yourself, just get an idea how the wind moves over and under your wings.

[Ashe] - Okay!  Starts running and flapping-

[Gk] Is keeping an eye on all three babies. At Willow and Oak- Haha, you two comfy in there? Like two silverfish in a block.

[Ashe] Squeaks in surprise as he accidentally gets a bit of lift and tumbles into the sand- Oof!

[willow] -tries to get out from under oak making a little squeak as she pops free-

[Gk] Whoops! Well at least you know you're doing it right kid!

[Ashe] Stands up looking determined- I'm gonna do it!

[Gk] Keep going then! Just don't go up! Try to stay around 5 blocks or lower to the ground. And don't go out over the water either!

[Ashe] - Okay!

[Ashe] Continues running and flapping, but only getting airborne for a few seconds at a time-

[willow] -make a second hole next to the one oak has clamed and settles into it-

[Gk] Stops him for a minute to adjust his movements - Try it like that!

[Ashe] Tries some more, staying up a bit longer- This is hard!

[Gk] It's only because your muscles aren't used to the movement! And when you get up high you can glide, but I don't want you to fall while you're still learning.

[Ashe] - Okay...

[oak and willow] -have another growth spurt and are now to big for there holes only there back feet are in them-

[Ashe] - UNCLE GG LOOK!

[oak] -runs over to ashe and gk with willow close behind-

[Gk] Heeeeey! Check you kids out!

[willow] look I am scary rawr

[Ashe] - Willow!

[Gk] And a full sentance! Your mom is gonna flip!

[oak] -plops his head on top of ashe's- big brother ashe -nuzzles him-

[Ashe] - Yes Oak?

[oak] you are my big brother best big brother

[Gk] Is beaming he's so proud.

[Ashe] - Uncle GG!  Can we go show mama?

[Gk] I guess we could? But we should walk to be safe. The bridge is a long way and over water.

[Ashe] - The scary water bridge?

[willow] yay let see mama

[Gk] Yeah. It's safe. Just no horseplay allowed.

[oak] -is bouncing- yes mama lets go to mama

[Gk] Leads them out of the desert and around the little bay.

[Mb] Is sitting outside the little building he's claimed and watches them go by curiously.

[Celine] Stops playing in the grass to squeak at them-

[Ashe] Excitedly bounces around GK- Mama's gonna be so happy!

[oak] -bounces after ashe-

[Gk] Trots down the hill and stops at the foot of the bridge- Okay, this is it. Stay in the middle of the path and I'll take the rear. - He folds his wings over the little ones so his tendrils brush the raised walls on both sides.

[Testificates] Watch them a bit nervously from the walls of the village that floats below the bridge.

[Ashe] Huddles close to GK- There's so much water...

[willow] -looks at the village- rawr

[Gk] Don't look at it. Just walk straight forward-

[Testificates] Some jump, a little startled-

[oak] -walks slowly down the middle of the bridge-

[Ashe] - Willow come on- He keeps bumping into GK's leg

[Gk] just uses his wings to shelter them and nudge them along.

[willow] -walks quickly down the middle of the bridge-

[Ashe] Spots the small island checkpoint near the end and races for it-

[willow] -tries to race ashe to it-

[Gk] No running!

[Ashe] Huddles in the small building there-

[Gk] It's just a teeny bit farther Ashe.

[Ashe] - Okay...

[willow] I am going to get there first -keeps going over the bridge-

[oak] wait for me willow -follows after-

[Ashe] Cautiously follows-

[Gk] Looks up the hill - We're going up there. It's an easy climb, but again don't run, there's a big gap in the ground with a long fall up there.

[Ashe] - Okay, Willow?  Oak?  Stay close

[willow] ok big brother

[oak] -is right behind ashe- I am close

[Gk] Gets to the summit and looks down at them. -You stay right here, I'm just going to holler down - Creeps over to the edge- Hey Endrea?

[Endrea] Is exhausted having only just finished laying her eggs- GG?

[Gk] I come bearing good news! Can we come down?

[Endrea] - What is it?  And yes, you may- She protectively curls around the twelve jet black eggs she just laid

[Gk] Okay give me a sec. - Turns back to the babies- You guys climb on me, I'll just fly down-

[Ashe] - Okay Uncle GG!

[willow] ride -climbs on to gk-

[oak] -follows after his sister-

[Gk] Wiggles his wing tentacles and floats softly up and then down into the ravine like a gently deflating balloon before landing with a click of hooves on stone.

[Endrea] Gives off a pleased hum at the sight of her children-

[GK] Stoops so they can get down-

[willow] -jumps off and runs to endrea- mama yay we came to see you

[oak] -slowly climbs down and follows- yay mama is here

[Endrea] Perks up a little- You're speaking more, and you grew!

[Ashe] - Mama!  Uncle GG gave me flying lessons!

[Gk] Told ya. Ashe pulled off some gliding in the desert too.

[willow] I am big and scary now rawr

[Endrea] - Yes you are my little one

[oak] I am cute but bigger more cute to love

[Endrea] - Yes indeed, and Ashe, I'm proud of you

[Gk] And they were all so brave, they walked the whole length of the bridge to see you.

[Endrea] - Brave indeed- She sniffs the air a little- I smell clouds...

[willow] I made it to the other side first

[Gk] That's bad... You kids step back. Uncle GG's gonna show off a little bit...

[Endrea] Lifts her wing for her children-

[willow] -runs under endrea's wings-

[oak] -runs under as well-

[Ashe] Joins his siblings-

[Gk] Turns to the nearest wall and sucks in a massive amount of air. He blows it back out with a roar of nearly blue flames, cooking the stone wall and turning it first to magma blocks, then lava, and making a huge dark hole lined with obsidian.

[Ashe] - Cool!

[Endrea] Sniffs at her children- GG...  Why are my children covered in blood and sand?

[Gk] coughs a little- we went hunting... and then took a sand bath. I can't lick the little buggers clean like you. Got too much spit.

[Endrea] Sighs and starts cleaning them-

[Gk] Don't do that now! Let em come in here before it starts raining!

[willow] evil rain

[Endrea] Nudges her children towards the hole- Go on, get in there

[Ashe] Hurries in-

[willow] -hops into the hole- rawr rain fear me and run

[oak] -goes into the hole as well and goes to the back-

[Gk] Also goes in. The walls are nicely warm and he loafs with his wings open in case the kids want to snuggle under them-

[Endrea] Stays with her eggs-

[oak] -flops under gk's wings-

[willow] -keep rawring at the sky and rain-

-It slowly begins to drizzle-

[Gk] Admit it. You don't mind them being close. Even with the new enders due.

[Endrea] Grumbles a little- I'm mostly just exhausted right now, laying twelve eggs is hard

[Gk] I can imagine. I've had plenty of bowel disturbances with all the garbage I ate in my homeless days...

[Endrea] - Well at least you have a home now

[Ashe] - Mama you're getting a bit wet!

[Gk] Yeah. - Looks fondly at the little dragons. - Times got better.

[willow] rawr rain get away from mama

[Gk] It's okay kiddo's, your mama's tougher then diamonds.

[Endrea] - I'll be fine little ones, when you get all grown up then you can handle some water

[Gk] Good thing too with how much it storms around here...

[willow] but the rain must be scared I will get it to go away. RAWR!

[Endrea] - The rain is to far away to hear you Willow

[Gk] Oh! I'm a dumbasss...!

[willow] how do I get the rain to hear me from here

[Endrea] - What is it GG?

[Ashe] - When you can fly Willow

[Gk] I know how to make it stop raining!

[willow] I want to fly now so I can scared the rain

[Endrea] - You need to be bigger Willow

[willow] aw

[Gk] in chat- Hey Deerheart? Can you turn off the waterworks on the chunk at the end of the bridge near Sunakagure?

[Deer] - Huh?  Oh yes, may I ask why?

[Gk] The baby dragons are hiding from the rain and Endrea's getting drizzled on cause she can't move at the moment.

[Deer] - Oh absolutely!- After a moment the rain stops

[Gk] Looks proud of himself- See Willow, you just gotta have friends in the right places. Important lesson!

[willow] the rain is gone did the friend scare the rain away

[Endrea] Checks on her eggs-

[Ashe] - Mama what are you doing?

[Endrea] - I'm checking on my eggs

[Gk] Close enough. Deerheart made it stop.

[willow] whoa

[oak] -has fallen asleep under gk's wing-

[Ashe] - Eggs like ours?

[Endrea] - No, endermen eggs

[Gk] You know, like Enderbro.

[Ashe] - Oh!  Is that where they come from?

[Endrea] - Well, at least mine do

[Endrea] - You might as well stay here for now, it's safe.  After all, who would attack a nest full of dragons?

[Gk] Fluffs up - And one of them a Herobrine. No one would dare-

[Endrea] Giggles a little before laying down with a huff-

[willow] if anyone attacks I will stop them they will fear me

[Endrea] - You will sleep like your brother, I already know that

[willow] they wouldn't dare try to come near when I sleep because they have no chance because if they wake me up no mercy I will attack them

[Endrea] - Yes yes my little fierce one. now sleep, mama will watch over you

[willow] -walks over to oak and plops down next to him and falls asleep-

[Endrea] Reaches over and nudges Ashe towards them too- You too Ashe

[Gk] Come on, it's nap time. - He wiggles down against the ground and focuses on being warm for them so they'll get sleepy-

[Ashe] Yawns- I'll watch over Oak and Willow

[hanzi83]

Probably the Longest Blog You Will Ever Read.. fuck it. Very Necessary Tho

Since I have not been constantly writing down my thoughts other than the occasional blog, that never seems to get any type of feedback, probably because no one is paying attention other than a few dedicated trolls, who I presume have been sent to fuck with my mental health, even if it is not true, the illusion of trying to implement some kind of devastating fear, and every time I decide to write a blog that expresses what is transpiring in my mind, it is met with no acknowledgement, and when it is acknowledged, it is the cult like trolls who will convert it to audio, so people will not bother to give me a click on where it is posted. I don’t know where this blog will particularly go since I never plan these out, and just write from the heart, and my will has not been into jotting down my thoughts, I still have point form notes on my phone dating back to last June about experiences and topics that have transpired, but for the most part it has mainly been me explaining how I think it is organized and wondering where it is all leading because it has meaning symbolically and how the seeds are planted, it has become clear since I stopped writing stuff down daily to get the frustration out of my system, that I have become exhausted mentally and can barely retain anything, whether it is reciting why capitalism is bad or if it means memorizing a movie or television show reference, mixed with how now to watch this entertainment that I have to read on the discourse about something not being woke enough, or if it something seems woke, then it just people pushing agendas, and then lesser known people expressing the fake wokeness that exists, and I just realize I am too stupid for this world so I just remain in the wrestling bubble, just like I began last decade.

I need to set this up because I am trying to think rationally as I write but I know in the middle of this blog, it will probably fall apart but it is a good thing that most people don’t take me serious, and I am not really on the masses radar, even though important people are constantly on the lookout for me, that is why my broadcasts on periscope are interrupted, my social media posts are practically shadow banned, my facebook lives are not giving out people notifications, so clearly they are trying to censor me, and it shows this is real censorship, not the marketing tool censorship where the masses are aware of the censorship at hand.

I have been writing blogs on a certain person on youtube, who has become completely unhinged, and then a group of people on the application periscope, that I feel have felt they did not get all of their use from me, so now are trying to align with people who have been waiting for anyone to have a mutual distaste, and what is weird is that I am this irrational and irrelevant mentally ill person they dismiss as just some delusional caller but these same people need to try to destroy any good that I try to create and try to bring me down so badly that I lash out with irrational anger that makes me want to go back to my ignorant ways after years of trying to deprogram myself since I was dumbed down majority of my life and fell for the ignorance, and because mental illness to the mainstream is just described as someone being sad, and not the fact that there are darker elements in mental illness people will not want to discuss, but rather they ignore it so when someone else is having a legit mental breakdown, they will pile on them all the while maintaining the “woke” points for addressing the stigma of mental illness, even if it means it is presented in such a limited way,

My trolls also realize that I have not been writing lately so they figure it will be easier for me to snap since they know I am not getting my thoughts out and the plan is for me to be piled on mentally so much, in such a pseudo intellectual way, that I will just snap and lose my mind and then the people paid to harass me can take the audio of me losing my mind and saying some hurtful shit to people encouraging a mentally ill person to go kill himself, and constantly hint that I will be targeted. It feels this aggressive trolling has begun on periscope when I was discussing these Howard Stern leaks, and it feels like we are at the precipice of Howard finally getting canceled because his past will come back to haunt him, so the person that will be of interest to people in the media might be me, and before that could happen these people need me out of the way. If my theories are correct, then these people could probably be sacrificed when they strike down on Howard’s image.

One of the other problems was that when I initially broadcasted on periscope, I would not really follow anyone and just broadcast while promoting it on twitter. Last summer, I got suspended on facebook and twitter and I decided to browse the app and see what kind of people are there. There were plethora of characters etc that existed and I have tried to become friendly with people, a lot of sex workers, musicians, gimmick personalities etc. It seems friendly but also if you browse by the random broadcasts you will see thumbnails of people I perceive to be young and I have to report because I feel people running periscope allow some type of exploitation on there that is truly disgusting,  but overall it has been kind of a positive experience, and I am so full of low self esteem I have to constantly name drop I was part of an institution to present myself to stand out but also interview different walks of life and get some good discussions going on, and also because I feel Howard has a stake in periscope, again it is my theory I name drop to see if people who are there are kind of answer to him since I feel the elite use these apps to sell people, but I could be wrong but if I am wrong at least I make a friend out of it. It feels like people also get sent to me, and since I don’t have the resources to do background checks on people, I always wonder if the system is sending people who are not good people to be associated with me, so it damages my reputation further. Even when I talk to people on there, I have to ask their age because if they are not over 18 I have to dismiss them from talking to them because I don’t like talking about the content I talk about in front of people who are not of age, even though I can control who comes into my broadcasts and don’t interact.

 So before I get accused of setting a narrative and speaking out like it is fact, I have to preface this by saying whatever I have written on here has been just my opinion, when I do my videos, I express my opinions and I might vent out of frustration because if I  don’t express myself I will probably end up harming myself and I don’t want to do that and since I do feel bad and get to reflect when I say some evil shit when being pushed by people, others just want to cross the line and then pretend they never did anything negative while pointing out all my flaws. So I don’t know where to go with this because I am not intelligent enough to deal with the nuances of good storytelling, or maybe I am just underselling it.

This lady came to my scope last summer after people who have been trying to troll me for years were in there and immediately I did not take her seriously because she was presenting herself as an alien and she would full of mystery all while having this soothing voice. I always have my guard up and I do want good content, as long as the people in my periscope are willing to come up and talk etc. I am creating content, and hopefully I can try to move on to a podcast, but there are a lot of people who somehow have some investment in me without knowing and if I don’t move on their watch, they will then start showing their true selves eventually. I entertained this lady’s presence for a while but then when someone from her past came onto my panel when they called into my periscope, that alien schtick went down the tube and I laughed because as a wrestling fan it would be like if the Undertaker was confronted by someone in real life and then him immediately dropping the Dead Man character and freaked out. I was not aware of the drama scopers on this app, because apparently a lot of doxing goes on and organized harassment, basically what I have predicted in my own life, but I am kind of watching it play out to others and it is just completely fucked up.

There was another nice man I met on scope who I gelled well with when discussing stuff and even though we did not agree, he clearly has some resources and his full of encouragement when people want to go for their dreams and if he is cool with you he will help you out but because I was suspect of this alien lady who would not ever address any of my questions for her, and I did not want to talk to her in private because apparently she belongs to some former patriot groups, and when I hear that I can only imagine these can’t be good. It is one thing to have a conversation with someone who might not be politically correct, but I have learned some people who lean right are not as bad and are anti imperialistic, while others are just defensive of anything criticizing Trump. I feel with these conversations I am able to at least talk to someone who I don’t agree with politically and get them to deprogram themselves from the ignorant propaganda, the same shit I used to kind of fall for. This woman does not seem like a Trump supporter but she is an enigma because she will play the Jewish card but still associate with people who have been fucking with me and bothering me to join their podcast network, and these people are insanely racist and bigoted. This lady puts it all on me when she comes into my scopes, and her supposed harassers come in, and because some of them seem like they could be dangerous, I try not to rock the boat with more enemies, but as far as I know they have been nice to me, but then again my trolls do the same thing where they endear themselves to people I try to make friends with and when I flip out they will claim I am the one bothering them. I just kind of wish she would have stayed out of my lives, I even blocked her because she was becoming a disturbance in my sessions, but the nice guy I became friends with would always kind of vouch for her and I did not understand why. The only thing I could come up with, is the typical “Are these 2 fucking?” because I don’t understand how you could just know someone for a month or so and suddenly just become these great friends, I did eventually unblock her and tolerated her but she would kind of want me to have conviction in protecting her when I don’t even know her like that because she has not presented any proof of this happening

The fucked up thing is she claims to be someone that just observes but she is following all the trolls who have been following me nonstop, and these people have become extra aggressive since making new friends on this app, like they are lashing out about me not paying attention to them and having people of color on my panel since I did not know that there were so many black and brown people on the app. They then start saying I am so anti white because I rail against a white supremacist system and then they discredit me with rumors of me beating up a gay couple, or beating my mother. They create accounts where they take pictures of me and blacken it because they think I want to be black. They are doing deep fakes of me talking, and then leaving suspicious messages instilling fear about me being kidnapped and killed. They have a sub reddit dedicated to me, and then when I become rational enough to analyze their mental illness, because if I am so irrelevant and useless and such a drain on society, then why wouldn’t you do something better with their lives? The answer is they can’t, because as useless as I have been, these people are even more useless for the last several years and clearly need to latch onto me to exist, and because people end up having problems with me they all connect because of their mutual hatred for me, but the truth is none of them are interesting without me and they lack creativity.

The alien chick and the supposed innocent dude would be in these scopes with these people witnessing my meltdowns on the Stern Show and apparently questioning them is a big no-no so I assume they get the advice of these trolls who study me that if they are nice enough and I don’t fall for it, it can be easily pushed against me that this is what happens and this is why I was kicked off the Howard Stern Show. They try to be like Howard and Robin and try to dismantle your psyche. I did not trust this lady and I felt like the dude I was cool with was just going to take her side regardless and because I feel like she is hanging out with my trolls, and I figured she was recruiting me for some kind of cult or wanted to capitalize of any value I have so they could get some clout, even though I barely have it on the surface. I am going all over the map and kind of leaving some details out but overall these people she claims were bothering her came into my scope, but according to this innocent nice dude, these are legit gripes, and I am supposed to have some kind of conviction, but not them because they are associating with people who have made my life hell, and they dismiss my claims even though there is a legit thread I have made on twitter on my pinned tweets where you can see the supposed threats made to me.

So the innocent dude eventually blocks me because I had the gall to get mad that I was not trusting him because he was in this dude’s scope who is harassing me, I got tired of periscope so I started doing facebook lives, and then the cult of trolls would fuck with that too by people not getting notifications and there would not be many there and I was so set out on doing it with low views for the principal, because I know when you are supposed to be popping, you will have a plethora of views, and when they punish you they dumb them down, but either way it is all organized. I eventually go back to periscope in December, and the alien lady has choice words for me because that innocent dude had “helped” me and he did but there was something they weren’t telling me, like there was some hidden investment with me, and it set their plans back by me leaving periscope for a bit. She would give me more attitude, and honestly I would have preferred to speak to the dude, instead of this chick who I feel has brainwashed this dude. That is the way I see it, they will probably read this and get mad that I am presenting it as fact, but a lot of the videos are on my facebook public page and there have been a lot of witnesses who can attest that I am presenting the events truthfully mixed with me presenting my theories, whether they are valid to you or not, depending on how low the totem pole I am in social media.  

(Blog continued 2 days after)

Now I have been out of practice from writing since I used to do it consistently in my life since 2007, and felt I had to make up for the anger I had years before, and I had a lot of deprogramming to do, it went from writing in notebooks and barely understanding what I was writing, or that I would have to write on my computer so I could read it back and maybe sustain some material for it so I could write a book of my irrational thoughts, but I scare myself with the anger I had and how my opinions would differ often and barely being able to retain shit, so sometimes I felt I would guess people were watching me and monitoring my computer so I would suspect different people and write things to test anyone and see what would prompt them to move my mouse so I know their presence is lurking digitally in some hacker like way.

Anyways, writing a blog has even drained me and I felt I was not aligning the stories well because I have been used to just talking more often on my platform than writing. I had to take a break from it and since the developments are breaking every single day I had to hold off and debate if I wanted to write a blog because it will seen as some act of social media war that will further encourage more harassment, that most people who have power and set the narratives can use to their advantage to further make me feel like a useless piece of shit, more so than already. If I vent, I am supposedly doing the woe is me gimmick, and constantly feeling sorry for myself, because I don’t want to hold in my irrational feelings or I will snap and maybe that is the wave right now.

So I did not bother to know where I left out because I am too lazy to read it so I will try to pick it up from where I left off and there is a good chance that I might repeat the same shit but at least if you are going to read this, I at least came up with an interesting angle of how to write a shitty blog that people will pretend does not exist, or maybe they just don’t know and I have to act like I am this important person being spied on.

I think it was from the time that I got blocked by this one guy from periscope, while he defends the alien lady. I know I should present names but if you been following it you already know the names, but I need to express this and I don’t want to be accused of putting their name out there and seeing as lying on their names, when I have explained ad nauseam that these are my theories, and no one ever listens to what I say and by people being scared people might believe me, it will contradict the whole thing of me being irrelevant and that maybe beneath the surface more people care about what I think.

I just feel when I took a break from periscope because I did not want to deal with more betrayal, at least from my perspective, do these trolls actually wish me harm or are they just testing me and toughening me up mentally and putting me through some shit, or these people are aligning with trolls who have tried to drive me insane by spreading rumors of me hitting my mother, or beating up a gay couple etc, and they put out misleading titles of what my periscope is about so when people do search my name, they will get these negative and untruthful shit at the top of google etc. That was my beef with these new people who wanted to be friends with me, but it seems like I am only supposed to take their safety seriously yet they will be following my trolls who have constantly pushed me to the brink of insanity and make me want to say some irrational shit that I will regret, because the system is so against me, if I irrationally talk shit and tell someone to do something horrible to themselves, they will suspend me. They push me to that so they can twist it into me being seen as threatening

I don’t know if the trolls have been aligned with these people from the beginning or do people approach anyone I make friends with and when I try to create some content with interesting discussion. The trolls hate me for not acknowledging them as much and because I have different people of different races/ethnicities/nationalities on and they spread this shit of me hating white people even though I talk about the systemic corruption and the grander white supremacy that exists on a pseudo intellectual type of way.

I took a month away from periscope, so my facebook lives would suffer when I would do decent numbers prior and suddenly I would be lucky if I would get 5 people in there but out of principle I would still do it and it would anger the trolls even more, because even though I was not broadcasting I was still being a guest on people’s periscope. They got it banned and I had to write a repeal on it and they gave it back. So it was like a test. I don’t know who helped do this but I eventually came back, and this time instead of dealing with the constant disturbance I would just block these trolls and not unblock them, because when I did, they would say I want the drama and want them to come in so when I become strict with it I then angered them even more and they will keep leaving cryptic messages on different troll accounts about them going to execute MK Ultra on me, or that they will kidnap me and that they are continuously watching me and monitoring me and showing so by knowing when I have therapy appointments etc.

It felt like this dude I met on periscope who really helped me for a bit, and this alien lady really wanted to teach me a lesson and maybe fuck with my head but overtly finding all the trolls, when there are people I roll with who have discussions with people who might seem more conservative, and I will have discussions and not budge from my point of view while still having the discussion, and some people I can get through but some have their minds made up on believing Trump is actually anti establishment and I can’t deal with it. So there was these 2 black dudes I have conversations with and enjoy their scopes, but they are constantly getting harassed by a lot of white people or people with Zionist leaning ideals and harass black people for not wanting to give them the time of day and think they are entitled to these people’s time. So when one of the guys lost account after account for defending himself, he had a enough and I shared his scope, because when he comes back with a new account I share it so more people can see it but the guy had a periscope saying “Jew Jokes’ not the best title, but he was trying to get at these Zionists fucking with him, and he even cleared it up that he is just doing that for that purpose, because he was pissed, the other guy, who loses account after account, wanted to troll with someone black in Nazi fatigue, and I expressed concern with it and he was just so pissed about being banned and I had to approach him privately and explain that even though I know what he is doing it is wrong to do it because it feels like you are cosigning some white supremacist shit, and it that people try to discredit black people a lot, that it gives the Zionist more ammo because ultimately it won’t matter if they did racist shit first, it will be all put on the black dudes. So this alien lady, who often tells me that the people harassing her are anti Semites, and I don’t hang around them enough to know, they only come in when the alien lady comes on my scope, and I am expected to just block them, when she won’t even unfollow  the trolls harassing me. She starts this campaign that I am hanging out with anti Semites and she seems to dismiss what others are going through, while she is hanging out with anti Muslim type of people who also say anti Semitic shit and actual real generalizations. That is why I hate generalizations and specify Zionism, even though they are starting to say that Zionism and Jewish is the same. The guy I talked to privately was thankful for my advice, because he was so irrationally angry he wanted to do something to upset them, because he is constantly being called the N word and having money taken off his table by getting his broadcasts suspended and making people rebuild.

So this is when I was like I had enough of this shit because it hurt me to know this dude I met on periscope who became friends with will defend this chick for some reason. Why does she get to follow all these people who are often anti Black and anti Muslim? I don’t even know where this is going but if these people are aligning with my trolls, and they are actually trying to do harm to me, because they want me on their playing field where all my trolls are, and think I am using them for entertainment on my platform, which is what the app is for, but when something organic is to be discussed I don’t mind that, but they wanted me in their platform because it supposedly was not for entertainment while all these people in there are guilty of putting fear and severe paranoia in me.

The trolls will constantly try to pretend they turned a new leaf and that they are done harassing me but will still have sub reddits trying to dox me, or mislead with the titles to paint me in a bad light, and the stuff they claim I am saying that is fucked up when I am angry is what made them fans of me on the Stern Show, while probably being associated with people like that dude Jimmernam, who has probably been behind the attacks as well.

Jimmernam has become much more unhinged and he has started to fucking with the True Crime community because everything else has fallen apart and since he pissed off his old crew so much and has done so much fucking damage in people’s lives, wherever he goes to endear himself and then destroy it because that is what he does, he has done it to some poor woman named Limonade. I was done after the summer where I wrote the blog and believing that there are lies about him being a child groomer, and how he has changed from the old guy, but he has that venom in him and he is still full of lies. He hates me for not cosigning his show the first time and not believing his sob story and how he tried to use Wendy to gain sympathy, and then people expected that she was taking her donations to give to him, and he would play dumb about giving it back and change the topic. He even caused a beef with me and that Ross Dawg guy, because he knew I was protective of Wendy so he would get her to say different people are bothering her so I would be insanely angry about it, and it almost started something ugly because even though I don’t like the general way Stern has trained the public to talk to Wendy, I have to understand she is used to that and she gravitates towards that kind of thing and I don’t want to feel she can’t have fun and joke like normal with people etc. So when he fucked with this Limonade chick, I really felt for it and it was like a united front with people who I did not see eye to eye with, to help this woman against Jimmer, who turned her friends against her, constantly doxing her, and her family, and putting out threats within 12 hour streams, all while taking over her community of True Crime and wanting to be the number one guy in town. And the sycophants have become a lot worse, I don’t know how he has convinced these many people to help him and be completely blinded by his tactics, and the ones who are standing up for themselves as doing dirty tactics, when it is not nearly on the same level, and it is being done out of self defense. I don’t agree with everything people say on the panel, but I have enjoyed discussion I have had with certain people because without being this preachy SJW, I try to teach people that the shock jock type of humor is not really the edgiest and it doesn’t mean it can’t be funny but I would rather have people agree with me with systemic shit, and let them do their shock jock style of humor, but Jimmernam’s crew will take stuff and make videos to discredit any type of criticism towards him and create false narratives about him. It feels like what he pretends he is going through, he actually does it to me, so it sounds like me and him are kind of the same, but this guy copies everything, Howard Stern’s personality, Bill Burr generic whit woman voice,  NBA commentators closing tags and even channels Chris Jericho by calling himself Le Champion. When he sees that this woman has backup, he will try to get in on the Stream Yard link and claim he wants to talk when he just wants to insult her and project things on to her and questioning her parenting and her divorce, when he is the guy who can’t see his kids because of the shit he is doing. He will send his teenage audience into this woman’s streams and then make videos of how she is grooming him, when he is the one who has had a kid audience and played adult content for them and constantly bringing up how people are calling him a pedophile because he let a kid in his discord in 2018 and it had porn in it, and he will claim the videos of him are being edited, when it is not and that is him. He lost his mind when he lost that reddit money, so now he has just become a lot bitterer and he is threatening me and others.

He did not like that I was on her panel and making new alliances and friendships, especially with people I didn’t think I liked before because I assumed they were just doing ignorant shock jock humor when they are a lot more deeper about their discussions. Now Jimmer did not like that and it gave me confidence to stand up to him seeing how this Limonade chick was standing up to him, even though she has been getting a lot of shit on her from her former friends, one of which is a gay guy who seems so scared he just hangs out with Jimmer, and Jimmer has constantly been kind of homophobic and does not regret any of the hurtful things he has said to people, It feels like that Kitty chick, who he doxxed when she did not have his back, is back with him time to time, even though she is good at hiding her role in doing any dirt,  so as far as I know she has nothing to do with this, but it feels like if they want to make money in a field and continuously create drama, they will. I could be wrong though. It felt for a while that he was going to get caught for what he is doing, but he just comes back more confident and making some threats and dedicating streams to putting out private information, and it seems youtube does not want to do anything. He does not like that I aligned with this woman to give her support about what he has been doing, and I did it because maybe if people in that community did not believe the others who are informing these people about the past of this guy and to watch out for him, I would have more credibility since I am a former celebrity essentially and since we in society value someone who seems to have greater value unfortunately because of how “famous’ they are, I thought I would put it for good use, and now Jimmernam aka Misery Box has threatened to come after me, which is aligning with the original trolls who are now constantly bothering me and sending people to my scopes, and maybe get shady people to befriend me so I will be associated with someone I don’t know well. I don’t have the resources to do background checks, I kind of assume if this person is just roaming around I want to believe they are not all scumbags, even if they put on a false bravado of being anti PC, they are buying into ignorance,

So this all ties into the alien lady because she followed me when one of the guys who has power with the app came into my scope, and since I blocked her he and the trolls have become a lot more aggressive, but I also know that these people are associated with Jimmernam, and these people seem hella racist, and bigoted, and this alien lady keeps making it seem like I am the one rolling with racists, while she is claiming to be someone with special powers who can put people into rehabilitation, so maybe she is someone special and I don’t realize it. I am having a hard time understanding what is going on because there is another guy involved who she calls my producer, who started out as a troll, but he and I have gotten a long, but sometimes I wonder since he had a friendship with her and that other dude I met on scope, he has kind of seem iffy by wanting me in their clique and to believe them, but when I don’t give in, he will be on my side, but then the lady will tell me he is the one that is stirring all of this up.

I realize by not giving specific names, I may be confusing people, but keep in mind that no one gives a fuck about these stupid blogs but I did an outlet to write about it and the more I write, I just fucking shake my head how I am so bad at explaining all of this and what makes it worse is that you can’t keep up with people who I am referring to other than a few people. The trolls will be so much more outward aggressively with admitting they want me to kill myself and encourage me to take pills, and what hurts about this, what if I am not the only one these people do it to, and how many people who have killed themselves have dealt with targeted harassment. So while I am tougher mentally than a lot of others, I can take it, even though it hurts my fucking soul, because these people can be protected and say the worst shit and do the worst shit and me standing up for myself is what is magnified because I am supposed to be the better person, even though people want to pile on me and making me a miserable person.

When I separated with the dude and the lady, I figured they would get mad at the fact I am moving forward so they have to try and show up in different scopes I am in and maybe tell people to come and be spies for them. So sometimes when I am hurt about how my friendship with this dude was from the summer, I might be irrational and talk shit and I do this knowing he will hear about it, and he will act like I am talking shit about him, and he will say he does not want part of drama, but he is still monitoring me, and because I am not giving in, this is all I suspect in a theory not fact, that they need to start with me but look like the rationalized ones. I was willing to make peace but because they dismiss what I am going through and claim that I am endangering this lady because she insists on observing my scopes, but hates that her followers are there, like it is my problem, I don’t encourage hatred toward her and continued harassment. I might talk shit about her when she makes my broadcast about her, but she will claim she finds it funny or whatever, but when it is convenient she will then use it as a prime example of why I am an asshole.

Last weekend we had a blow up where I was on her scope with the trolls, who are aligned with Jimmernam, and the dude I was friends with who does good community work, who seems to have conviction, because he did end his friendship with people who treated Wendy like shit, which is admirable but all I did was bring up is that he is careful of his image but he is hanging out and following trolls who might be aligned with someone who might be grooming children, I did not say that he is the one who is a child predator or anything but I can understand why he is mad, but I am making a point that I am getting hated on for people I don’t want to fuck with and get doxxed by, because I let them in my periscope but not following them while he and this alien lady are following someone like this account Gorilla Bacon, who will restream my shit and play my worst calls. Sometimes I don’t know if these people are actual fans and they are just toughening me up or if these people are punishing me and becoming more aggressive because it is their job to get me out of the way before Howard ends up getting canceled when his past and his potential corruption might be brought to light.

These trolls don’t realize that the only reason people are aligning with them is because they all have mutual hatred for me. It could be anyone, it could be this dude on periscope, the alien lady, the trolls, Jimmernam and his kid army, or maybe people in my life who probably hate me. Either way their lives are all better than me and yet they need to make me feel like shit and rub it in my face I am on welfare, like this was not the plan from the system, because there are different rules in this world, and they blacklist me from making a living anywhere else so they can say I am not trying to monetize anything because I am not doing it on their time.

Any chance for anything embarrassing they will run with. Here is an example, if I say something that might be about agendas by the upper echelon of the LGBTQ, they will say homophobia but then if I say that I would consider having sex with a post op Trans woman, then they will mock me for it like they are homophobic. They will say the most racist shit against Muslim women or black people, and then a story comes out from someone as a joke about how I asked a Muslim woman out because we both live in Toronto, and she is a cool chick who has a good sense of humor, she asks me how much I will pay for her and where I will take her and I am willing to pay for something small on  first date because it is about getting to know each other but I believe if we should pay our own shit on the first date, but she jokingly said I need to spend more money and I said “I will spend 50 bucks at most” and when I was given the option of over 100, I said “For that kind of money I better be getting laid” but I did not mean it literally because it was my way of conveying that it is ridiculous to expect a man to pay so much on a first date to get to know each other,  just like it is ridiculous for me to expect sex on the first night. But the trolls ran with it and said that I am harassing a woman so it becomes a top google search when you look me up. It feels they are amplifying it because if Stern does get exposed, and I am someone who has been a prime target for calling him out, then when the general public looks me up, they will see these false narratives about me, and that is why it hurts to see these people who I thought were good, to align with these trolls who are doing it, and because they are not getting the shit they wanted out of me, they will have no issues to act like I am this dangerous human being who is lying and causing all this pain, and that won’t work. You will not point out at me and discredit me, because I am such an easy target who has no backup.

No media outlet even gives a fuck and it is sickens me because it will continue and it feels like they will only care until something horrible happens to me so then they can pretend they give a fuck about the situation, kind of like they are what they claim the MSM is and maybe someone is investigating and I am wrong but it feels like the worst possible shit has to happen in order for it to be exposed. You know how fucked up that is? It is like no matter what people have to profit off the pain and it shows that all these things are predetermined and will have solutions after the fact. It does not matter and I wrote this in 2 parts and made it this long because I hope if you are reading this, I hope you got a headache from reading all this convoluted mess of an explanation. I know most of you will not get through it all so you might as well put it on vocaroo to so you can get through it easier. Make sure you set it on some stereotypical accent.

I wrote this part with the fact that lately it has been more peaceful but when I was given the choice of not wanting this lady in my scope or wanting her out of my life, they did not take it kindly because if I gave in then I wanted her in my life, but by saying no because she has fucked with me too much and changed the narrative on me to paint me as the bad guy because she couldn’t make me fall for her spell, like she seems to have on other people, she is now coming into scopes of other people I have met and is kind of trying to poach them from partaking in my lives, and now she is coming back to my scope and pretends she is just automatically being put there and that the whole ambush on me on her scope was just comedy, Now that I let her back on, she will twist that, and say I forced her to be put on.

I don’t know what the fuck is going on anymore. I will close with this, that if you are someone of importance and power, you need to check in on this Misery Box guy and what kind of fucked up shit he has convinced his people to do. He has ensured that I will not go on that Limonade chick’s panel because he has threatened me and encouraged me to kill myself, and tell me how my parents don’t love me because I am such a disappointment, even threats of doxing them when people are not well, and I have tried to document this, if you go to my twitter page and look at the pinned tweet where I show old audio of Howard in 97 jokingly threatening the media if they fucked with him he would have dossiers on them to ruin their lives, and in that thread I have documented some of the cryptic videos, and threats of something happening to me, and it just does not matter anymore. I don’t know if the alien lady has anything to do with him but she is allowing some of the people she is associated with.

By the way on a scope where this bigoted guy who I hate was threatening to kill myself because his periscope girl friend cheated on him. Even though I hate the guy for how fucked up he is and feels no remorse I don’t like seeing anyone lose their mind, but he was one of the guys who I used as an example of the alien lady being friends with, who constantly says racist shit when she would point out because I shared the scope of the black atheist dude who was being harassed by Zionists, and now being labeled an anti Semite. So I called into the guy’s scope to see if he was for real and if he was fine, and if this situation was so real, that alien lady chose the time where he was threatening to kill himself and people, to come and tell me it was my fault and that I don’t care. She has no problem with just blaming me flat out and just making up lies, and then act like she is a victim afterwards if I point out her bullshit. It has become such a fucking mess. I don’t even know what this blog will accomplish. I am trying to move forward and it feels these trolls will not allow me, and they have me in a constant state of fear and paranoia, and when I explain myself they will even make more of a mockery because of it. It is so fucking gross and sick.