#Ignore me I'm just a hsp

[loopsisloops]

I'm not sorry I still believe in love

Last year I was talking with some coworkers during our closing shift. The conversation jumped from topic to topic and then Janice [fake name] asked "Hey [Me], do you have boyfriend?" I said, "No, I've actually never had one." These women are all twice my age. I've known them for a few years now and I wouldn't say we're close friends or even best friends but I'm chill with them and trust them enough to know they would take a punch for me. They're a little confused about my answer and continue to press.

And before you say anything, yes we talk about nsfw topics at work sometimes so the beginning of this conversation wasn't really anything out of the ordinary for me. I stay in my lane and tune it out most of the time anyway. The spotlight was bound to land on me at some point. Alexa [fake name] yells from across the floor, "But you've at least fucked, right?" "No. I have not." I say a little quieter. Jane [fake name], pops her head in from around the corner, "What about a blowjob?" "No." "Handjob??" Alexa raises her hands above the endcap does a stroking motion with her hands. "Nope." Alexa has a quizzical look on her face and says, "You're a cutie, what do you mean you've never gotten down like that girl?" Jane hums in a agreement and adds "Yeah I mean, I lost my virginity at 16." You and I had very different bodies at 16 Jane. But, okay. Alexa leaves her cart of things in the aisle and makes her way over to where Jane, Janice, and I are by the registers. "If I were gay or bi or a man, girl I'd definitely go for yah." Alexa winks at me. I give her a deadpan look, "Thanks Alexa." Janice continues to count the money from the register, "But why?" I look back at Janice. "Why haven't you?" I think for a moment. "I don't know...I just haven't really met someone. I'm waiting for the right person y'know?" They all laugh and now it's my turn to act confused. Janice speaks up again, "Ohhhh I see. So you're still waiting for your knight in shining armor, is that right?" Jane chuckles, "To be saved and whisked right off your feet?" Alexa leans into Janice and says "Oh knock it off, she's still young." Janice hums in agreement, "Yeaah, life hasn't broken her yet. It's okay, soon enough you'll realize people are terrible, and princes don't exist, you'll see."

In the moment I just laughed all of this off but I knew, deep down, they were wrong. I shouldn't feel stupid for having a little hope...

I don't blame them for thinking like this. I know each of them have had their struggles. Teen pregnancy, loss, life has thrown enough shit at them for them to have these points of views be justified. But to say "don't worry life will break you soon enough." The thing is, life has. Time and time again. Believe me. It has.

I'm not sorry I still think love is real. I am, however, sorry life was not kind enough to you to keep believing in it.

[00-theguardians-00]

Hello im Finstel you can call me finley or fin!

This blog is still in work so yeaaah might undergo some changes

This blog is mostly about the guardian's so it's not only about the Xmas au if you want to ask one of them please tell me who and i will awnser :]

My other trumblr blog is called @morpheus-the-sandman hop in if you're interested and take a look around!

The pictures hight difference is by the way referenced by clowns drawing just so you know!

im not good at writing and my grammar isn't that great so forgive me for typos :'D I also didn't used Tumblr as much so I'm still

Important none of the stories are Canon to clowns og project!!

!! Boundaries!!

Yes you can

✅ make fanart absolutely tag me please!!!

✅ Shipping? Yes ofc but please only ocs sonas or yns yeah you can also ship Eddie and frank since I ship it too

✅ Im also okay with interactions trough I can't promise I will do all of them I mostly do what I feel like and if I don't feel like it I don't do it it also might take a bit

Donts❌

Please no applecest no wallycest no proships!!!❌

No nsfw with these aus mentioned here!!!❌

Don't do Ai bots of my aus I'm doing alredy bots but it takes a bit I get really exausted after a bit of working on bots like I get sleepy and all it takes a bit I know I'm working on them for quite a while now but still have patients I'm also not an expert when it comes to bots I'm still learning!! ( not sure if I make any ais of the aus here I see idk)

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Don't message me privately if I don't know you please if I know you for a bit from my comment section you can ask me if you can message me and I might say yes , please have patients with me I don't feel comfortable calling you my friend so soon so I just call you a mutual if I know you for a longer while I might call you a friend! I had a really bad experience with an ex friend of mine I knew since my childhood and that left marks , I might get easily overwhelmed or exausted so I might dip or don't talk at all please don't feel like I'm ignoring you or anything I'm not I'm simply not feeling like talking or it is to much at that day for me!❌❌❌

🌟Things about me that are important 🌟

my pronounce are she/her, he him, im genderfluid and aroace bisexual ❤️

I have auditory processing disorder or called

(APD )

Wich makes me slower I might forget alot of things or I also have hearing problems sometimes like when somone calls me it doesn't end up in my brain I'm also very sensitive so sounds loud notices specifically

I also take a while to understand things so be patient with me

(HSP ) I am a highly sensitive person

I also have social anxiety

I'm really sensitive like I would say emotionally there are often times where I do take things too serious or something please tell me talk to me about those things if I understand stuff the wrong way

I'm 23 years old and German

I only speak English and German I can't speak other languages

🌟Refs of my sillys🌟

What's the Xmas au about??

What is the Xmas au about??

Well I think you can guess Basacally they make gifts for everyone

Wolly Julie yn and Sally are outside to check the houses and make them ready for Santa home to enter before he comes

Eddie brings the letters from everyone to Santa home

Frank makes sure everything goes after plan

Howdy does work both as a shop keeper but also helps around and carries heavy things

Poppy well she bakes

Barnaby also helps around!

They are also able to travel trough aus

If one of them talks it's gonna be red

Because I'm planning on bringing in this blog also other aus so stay tuned!

[the-king-of-nighmares]

Hello im Finstel you can call me by fin, finley

This blog is still under work so there might come changes in the future

Warnings for this blog

There will be death

There will be also unsettling scenes staring and such

Somone that gets hurt ect gore probaly too not sure eather that or puppet Gore as I call it be warned, if any of these topics triggering. To you then don't click on it please thank you!

im not good at writing and my grammar isn't that great so forgive me for typos :'D I also didn't used Tumblr as much so I'm still

Important none of the stories are Canon to clowns og project!!

!! Boundaries!!

Yes you can

✅ make fanart absolutely tag me please!!!

✅ Im okay with interactions trough I can't promise I will do all of them I mostly do what I feel like and if I don't feel like it I don't do it it also might take a bit

Donts❌

Please no applecest no wallycest no proships!!!❌

Don't ship home with anyone please he's really toxic and absolutely not interested in any relationships he dosent care about feelings he dosent care about people 🙏❌

No nsfw im srs!!!❌

Don't do a Ai bot of him I doubt I do an Ai bot of him !! ❌❌❌

Don't message me privately if I don't know you please if I know you for a bit from my comment section you can ask me if you can message me and I might say yes , please have patients with me I don't feel comfortable calling you my friend so soon so I just call you a mutual if I know you for a longer while I might call you a friend! I had a really bad experience with an ex friend of mine I knew since my childhood and that left marks , I might get easily overwhelmed or exausted so I might dip or don't talk at all please don't feel like I'm ignoring you or anything I'm not I'm simply not feeling like talking or it is to much at that day for me!❌❌❌

🌟Things about me that are important 🌟

my pronounce are she/her, he him, im genderfluid and aroace ❤️

I have auditory processing disorder or called

(APD )

Wich makes me slower I might forget alot of things or I also have hearing problems sometimes like when somone calls me it doesn't end up in my brain I'm also very sensitive so sounds loud notices specifically

I also take a while to understand things so be patient with me

(HSP ) I am a highly sensitive person

I also have social anxiety

I'm really sensitive like I would say emotionally there are often times where I do take things too serious or something please tell me talk to me about those things if I understand stuff the wrong way

I'm 23years old and German

I only speak English and German I can't speak other languages

Blogs I will tag once I posted this

🌟Ref of my silly🌟

He will talk in red so you know

Here is poppy

Through I won't tell you what her porpose is just yet!

When she talks it looks like this

Eddie is homes little helper he has to be obidiant or home will be Mad

When he Talks it looks like this

He dosent talk alot since he isn't really allowed to

But he does sometimes see fairy frank and ends up spending to much time with him

[imfindingmyownway]

I need to stop mentally giving excuses for why other people treat me poorly. Everyone is entitled to have a crappy day or struggle when they are going through a rough season. But when I use that as an excuse for them consistently over long periods of time, that's a problem. I deserve to be treated well. I need to learn that I'm just as important as the ones I care about. I'm worthy of a mutual friendship.

[hopelesswritergall]

Hello, I hope you're doing okay. Also, my first language is not English (I'm Polish) so I'm sorry for any mistakes. I would like to for a Harry Potter matchup. I go by she/her, I don't really care for my S/O gender. I'm 5'10, Pisces sun, Leo rising, Leo moon, INFJ 6w5, Ravenclaw. I am calm and composed but have a lot of personal struggles. I try my best to be there for people and show my best side to them. When I get emotional is big and I always feel ashamed after and think I just overreacted. I can get overstimulated pretty fast, and I am a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP). For some, I come off as scary, but I don't see myself like that. I appreciate words of affirmation and quality time, I feel quite uncomfortable with physical touch and need peronal space to feel safe. I'm interested in history, classical music, art, fashion, psychology, and lecture. I like to know people's cores and understand the way they think. I have difficulties with making relationships with others and feel lonely often. I like people with passions, with personal things that they like to do. I like both quiet and more energetic people, but need a lot of time to rest after spending time with bigger personalities. I don't like when people press me when they don't respect my personal space and ignore the things I say. I just want to be heard and understood. I draw and write, I like doing clay and knitting, and I like to create things in silence. I think that's it, thank you for your time. :)

Hi there for once I overlooked the fact that this is very very long. Please do remember to keep it a bit shorter next time since I'll wont write as much with a Matchup I'm sorry but I just dint have motivation for matchups really. Maybe later I'll add more.

I ship you with Hermione

She helps you with all your troubles and doesn't hesitate to drop everything for you.

She loves that you draw and is very happy if you give hwr one of your drawings.

[askacambridgestudent]

Hi! I'm looking to apply for HSPS this year and was wondering what kind of written work (length, scope etc.) the colleges would look more favourably upon. Thank you!

(Note: they may send out specifications that contradict what I say, in which case, ignore me and listen to them).

So you’ll definitely be wanting something that isn’t too long, but that isn’t too short. I think 1500-2000 words is generally a good length, as that’s the length of Cam essays. Don’t send them your Extended Essay (if you’re an IB kid - if you’re not, this is a 4000 word essay). Don’t do it. 

Scope - it can really be on anything you want. I know HSPS applicants who sent in English essays, history essays, politics essays etc. The only real requirement is that it should be something that showcases your best work. Try and include something that’s analytical and critical - so for example, something that develops an argument, and that cites other sources, but doesn’t necessarily take them at face value. You shouldn’t just be repeating what someone else says, but developing your own ideas.

Finally, colleges usually ask for two or three pieces of work. Try and send them different pieces. For example, if you send them a history essay on the causes of WWI, make sure your second essay isn’t just on the causes of WW2 -- try and mix it up, by maybe including a poetry analysis you did in English, or something from a completely different area of history. This is particularly relevant for HSPS, where in first year, you’ll be expected to engage with a wide variety of subject matters. I actually think sending in pieces of work from different subjects is a good idea for HSPS, because it shows your ability to look at things from a variety of different viewpoints!