#Idk. I don't care. He's cute. It'll just take time to get used to

[kyouka-supremacy]

Honestly, he doesn't look like Akutagawa at all. He's round

[yourbloodysunrise]

Hi!! I see you do requests, Can you do Ninjago, All the main ninjas [Like Lloyd, kai, nya, Cole, jay,zane] with a reader who's definitely, taller than them? I think it'll be a cute dynamic ^^ Romantic headcanons please and thank u!

🌤 — thanks for request, anon!that sounds cute and that was fun to writing :3

🌤 — I write from shortest to longest in my opinion, enjoy!

❝ How you can be so tall? ❞

— FANDOM: NINJAGO

— PAIRING: MAIN NINJAS X TALL!READER

— ROMANTIC

— HEADCANONS

— READER IS GENDER NEUTRAL

— TW: BAD ENGLISH, BAD GRAMMAR, OOC, IDK WHY SOME HCS SHORTER THAN OTHERS☠

LLOYD:

☆ ┈ The picture is definetly describes his reaction.

☆ ┈ He is unlikely to be surprised, considering that he is the shortest in the ninja group.

☆ ┈ Kai is constantly teasing him about this, and if you join him, he will feel betrayed.

☆ ┈ Lloyd will often use his abilities hoping to impress you.Look, he cool, he deserves you, right?

☆ ┈ He may behave a little childish with you, especially if you try to pick him up.

☆ ┈ No, seriously, he'll start twitching like a cat if you pick him up trying to get out.

☆ ┈ In the first episode of season 12, Lloyd was scared when an ordinary iron hand fell on his shoulder, just imagine that he jumps into your arms every time he gets scared, and this one too..

— "..."

— "...?"

— "Don't ask about it, okay?"

NYA:

☆ ┈ One of the two ninjas who really don't care about the reader's growth.

☆ ┈ Although, if you tease or make fun of her about this, she will start to get annoyed by your height difference.

☆ ┈ Nya usually the one who takes the initiative in your relationship more, like inviting you out, trying to pay for you and all that, and that looking a little fun from outside.

☆ ┈ If someone thinks that you are the head of a relationship, you will have to hold her to prevent her from breaking up the one who said it.

☆ ┈ Nya sincerely wants to be the one you rely on, not the other way around.

☆ ┈ I think in the early seasons it could have worked on her to create Samurai X.She could help you in battle if you can't handle it!

☆ ┈ You two have a energy like:

— "Excuse me, they asked for no pickles!"

— "👉👈"

☆ ┈ Change my mind.

JAY:

☆ ┈ When you first meet, his honest reaction will be: 😳

☆ ┈ Like..Dude, why are you so tall???Do you walk on stilts?Yes, definitely you are.Don't try to talk him out of it, he won't believe you.

☆ ┈ Only during your friendship he would stop paying attention to it, but when you start dating, he will start to fixate on it.

☆ ┈ Jay is, in fact, a tame lover. If you ask him to jump off the roof with you, he will do it without hesitation.

☆ ┈ However, he feel insecure about the fact that you are above him.In his fantasies, he's always supposed to protect, but it seems you're doing just fine without him..

☆ ┈ Sometimes he reminds himself the same way when Nya rejected him in the original series. He is constantly around you, trying to take care of you and makes incomprehensible clumsy hints that he hides as a joke.

☆ ┈ Please kiss the guy and tell him that you love him.He will instantly melt and forget about all his worries.

☆ ┈ His parents adore you!They always invite you to visit them and tell you about Jay as a child.Poor guy is dying of shame somewhere off-screen.

☆ ┈ He will start helping you more often during the fight. No matter how much he appreciates his friendship with the ninja, he cannot afford to leave you for even a second!No no, no way.

☆ ┈ Sometimes it can be dangerous for other ninjas because Jay is overprotective of you.

☆ ┈ Remind him that he has to stop praising you in front of other ninjas, otherwise he won't stop. It can get to the point where he starts talking to inanimate objects about how wonderful and cool you are!

— "Oh, look at how gracefully they fight!I'm so lucky.."

— "Jay, I literally got arrow in my leg."

— "We're not talking about you, Kai."

KAI:

☆ ┈ He's freaking out because his partner is taller than him, considering that he's tall enough himself.

☆ ┈ No, no, wait, HE should be the one above!Then why are you taller than him?!

☆ ┈ Kai thinks that it's not fair, because of this, he looks like a psychotic child whose mother refused to buy a chocolate bar.

☆ ┈ He will complain to Nya that he wants to be taller than you so that you admire him, but all the methods on how to grow up from Internet just don't work!

☆ ┈ Nya secretly tells you this, at first you don't pay attention to it, but then you notice that Kai is trying more and more to make you pay attention to him.

☆ ┈ Push away other ninjas to defeat the enemy himself, clear the way for you if there is a person on the way who could just be bypassed, or even do something dangerous to health to "impress" you..

☆ ┈ You start playing along with him, asking him to do something easy and then thank him as if he saved your life, or ask for help in a fight even with a weak opponent.This will give him confidence and he will be happy to do something for you and not even doubt that you need him.

☆ ┈ After that, he sees your height as a plus.He flaunts you in front of his fans, praising you and saying that you are the coolest in your team. Let his ego want him to be considered the best, we all know you will always be first in his priorities.

☆ ┈ Reminds Jay in way that he is always by your side in battle, however, if Jay is worried that you might get hurt, then Kai sees this as an opportunity to show you that he will protect you!

☆ ┈ Are annoying fans bothering you?Did some villain hold a personal grudge against you?Are you not as successful in training as other ninjas?Don't worry, Kai is always here for you!

— "Kai, I'm glad that you care about me so much, but sometimes you overdo it-"

— "Me?Overdo it?Don't be silly, babe, I'm just helping you at the right moment!"

— "But I could have opened that cookie jar myself!.."

— "Shh..No thanks needed, honey."

ZANE:

☆ ┈ Considering that he is slightly shorter than Cole (in my opinion), then you are the second tallest in the ninja team.

☆ ┈ In fact, Zane and Nya hardly worry about your height, except for a few details.

☆ ┈ He wants to make sure that your height doesn't upset you or cause you problems.For example, he always stops you before you bump your head against a low doorway.

☆ ┈ Only once he could ask you about your height, and only out of pure curiosity.Consider Zane the one who pays the least attention to your height out of the entire ninja group.

☆ ┈ Despite the fact that you are taller than him, he usually forgets about it.He is ready to carry you in his arms like a royal person just because in his opinion you deserve it.

☆ ┈ If someone makes fun of your height, Zane will just freeze them 😼

☆ ┈ Zane is definitely one of the best ninjas who behave with a tall reader.As I think he is generally very good in relationships, always caring and attentive to you, will help if you ask or notice that you cannot cope with the task.

☆ ┈ Often takes it upon himself to pamper you, because the ninjas does not have much time for do that myself.Expect that you will rest after training, and he is already standing next to you with his usual smile and outstretched gift.Don't even try to reject, he will stand his ground.

☆ ┈ Since his attitude will not differ from the reader who is shorter than him, consider that you just have a funny robot boyfriend who adores you.

☆ ┈ I'm sure that in the series you would be a favorite pair of ninja fans.

— "Could you bring me the salt from the top shelf?"

— "Sure thing, Zane."

— "Thank you."

COLE:

☆ ┈ Bro is confused...

☆ ┈ In my headcannons, he is the tallest ninja, so how did you manage to be taller than him?

☆ ┈ At first he is broken, but then he quickly remembers that he has a trump card up his sleeves: his strength.

☆ ┈ No matter how tall you are, Cole will be the strongest in the team anyway, so why did he worry about it?With that mind he calm up.

☆ ┈ In a few quarrels, he will always use it against you, especially if you touch on the topic of growth.Just tell him something and he will suddenly throw you up and grab you in his arms, grinning maliciously.

☆ ┈ You two look like the perfect dynamic: a tall dude and a strong dude.

☆ ┈ Like Kai, he often helps you with things that you could handle on your own.He usually doesn't need a reason for this, he just wants to help you and does it.

☆ ┈ He is your guard dog, manages to help you in battle and at the same time help other ninjas.

☆ ┈ I think he's the kind of guy who can fall in love at first sight, so he could be trying to impress you from the moment you met.

☆ ┈ Don't be offended by this guy when he teases you, he's just playing with you.Tell him to stop and he will stop.

☆ ┈ Cole sure that you are his destiny.He can't explain it, he just feels attracted to you.

☆ ┈ His father often write letters to you to find out how you and Cole are doing.No, not to Cole, to you.Although Lou is proud of his son, he considers you more responsible.

☆ ┈ Make a cake for guy and he will praise you as a deity.

— "How's the weather up there, sweetheart?"

— "Cole, I'm trying to train, can you be quiet for at least 5 minutes?"

..:*･ﾟ☆.｡.:*･ﾟﾞ｡.:*･ﾟ☆.｡.:*･ﾟ🌤

🌤 — funny that I started it a long time ago, but I finished it in one day lol

🌤 — sorry for waiting anon, hope you like it☆

[n3ptoonz]

OMG OKAY SO I JUST READ YOUR RECENT HEADCANONS WITH EARTHREALM BOYS AND HOW THEY'D REACT TO READER RIDING THEM AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH AND IT GOT ME THINKING

How would they react to reader pegging them HEHEHE 👁️👁️🙏

mk1 hcs: how the earthrealm guys react to pegging

sorry i took so long to get to this anon! life is on my asssss and kept getting random spurts of writers block but WE HERE

warnings: explicit, smut elements, fluff elements, sub men obviously, sphinx might have favs idk tho😹

Scorpion

When you suggested pegging for the first time, it intrigued him. He'd always been down to try something new, especially if you bring it to him since he does it more

Y'all would be reeallll slow in the beginning. Luckily you knew all about preparation and making sure he was relaxed and okay the whole time. It didn't take long for him to get used to it, and even take a liking

He'd prefer for it to be a regular thing after his looonngggg days after work. There's nothing he needs more than to either be treated with tender, love, and care or just straight filthy coitus with him seeing stars and his hair tangled to all hell

The first few times he was a shy boy, cute lil whimpers here and there. Now? Doesn't give a damn, he will be as vocal as he feels like. You're gonna be the one who wakes up with claw marks and bite marks in the morning

Sub-Zero

Huh? You want to what? Were you inside of his head or something? How'd you know he wanted you to absolutely mix his guts whenever he gives you attitude? Something ain't right

He only acts reluctant because he didn't wanna look eager, but the man was waiting for this moment. The second you suggested it he was like "okay i'll say yes after like the third time i gotta look cool." when whole time he wanted to fall to his knees and hug your thighs in agreement

Don't try to go slow the first few times. His patience is shorter than his temper, this mf is the most power bottom individual in the bedroom. After he's gotten used to it he'll 'allow' you to go the romantic route (he's such a lil bitch for it we love it)

He barks orders at you like you won't grab his face and give him a taste of his own medicine. One good time where you're hovering over him, a thumb on the inside of his cheek while he drools and you fuck him like your life depended on it. Mission success!

Smoke

He's the one who brought it to you. Any objections? I think tf not. He isn't saying it aloud, but his eyes are silently begging you to treat him like the town's whore

He likes both the romance and the pure filth. It's entirely up to you; he will never say no to anything you suggest. Fuck him like you're mad at him or go slow and steady while you kiss his jaw and play with his hair and sing his praises

Any and all positions available. If you can somehow prone this big boy, DO IT. He'd totally ride you too if you really down for the count. We are troopers around this bitch!

Sometimes it would concern you how rarely he tapped out, especially when shit was getting intense and didn't calm down for a while. If you were absolutely demolishing his ass, you'd see a pool of drool escaping his lips, his eyes glossed over, his whines and moans gradually getting louder, and when you asked if he was okay, he would nod and give you a thumbs up like he didn't just bust 3 times in a row

Johnny Cage

Every time I do any sexual hcs of this mf, I will continue to say he's a brat. I do not care. He's a fucking diva and will dare to bark orders at you too like you're not the one who brought it up

Y'all know that Meg the stallion lyric where she's like "no don't fuck me like that fuck me like this"? THATS HIS ASS. He KNOWS it'll piss you off but go one of two ways: you indeed do fuck him like that but added aggression, OR! you stop completely and pretend like you're gonna leave the room. Works every time

He thoroughly enjoys straight up sex over romantic sex, but every once in a while he indulges in popping champagne, throwing down rose petals, and playing sexy music in the back to set the mood. Ol dramatic ass

Remember how I said in my riding hcs that he records everything? Yeah. Even as far as come to you and be like "okay so like what if we sold these? i could cut your face out if you want-" and you're like !1!2? HOWEVER ik some of yall are FREEKIE FUCKS. If you say "fuck that leave my face in it", prepare to never need a job ever again

Kenshi Takahashi

Surprisingly is down with it. That's what #love does to a mf. He's like Kuai, anything you want you shall receive. If you wanna play around in that ass, say no more!

97% of the time wants to go slow and steady. He just loves looking at your face with the power of Sento while making love. Tell him how much you love and appreciate him and how he's doing so good for you and he'll instantly become the butter to your bread (like melting- ok y'all get it cool)

That 3%?? He would be on his knees and begging you to fuck the stress out of him. He's had such a tough week, just shove his head into the pillow and get to work!

If it's missionary just grip his neck, get real close to his face so he can feel your breath, and welcome him to pound town. All aboard the slut-Kenshi-out train

Raiden

Secretly a whore. The first green light into pegging territory, you could see his pearly browns sparkle in excitement and eagerness. He's relatively chill and calm about it at first because he didn't want to scare you away, but that's gone in an instant when you actually do the deed

Walks up to microphone Raiden...enjoys the prepping damn near more than the actual pegging. This pretty boy sure loves to see you break out the lubricant and gloves just so you can get him ready. Bro is on the edge of the bed swinging his feet while you have the most devious look in your eye

He's 50/50 on sensual nights vs getting down and dirty. Literally has zero preference, just spread him!

Back to how I said he's secretly a whore, sometimes he does subtle things that get you riled up throughout the day so you can take it out on him later. It's kinda funny sometimes cause he can be vocal but he's more shy than ever, but he'll break soon, trust

Liu Kang

Out of everyone he'd probably enjoy it the most. Now hear me out, he's not used to something like this, so it may take some convincing, but it's very little. It's good that he was mortal before so this level of intimacy isn't completely out of bounds

Once you get the stamp of approval and you try it for the first time, he's in love. It's like all he wants to do. Like holy fuck, where has this been for all these eons? This is the ultimate relaxation and he gets to forget his worries for a few hours??

He's so fascinated that he'd be the one introducing YOU to different types of straps all the way down to the patterns. "A dragon one... have you heard of this one?" like damn bro we get it you fw dragons (literally 😹)

Given how calm he is he prefers slow and sensual. It's only when he's truly curious that he'd be like hmm...it certainly wouldn't hurt to try (prepare for his godly stamina to have you on the brink of death btw). also, there's no way he wouldn't request for his hair to be pulled 😮‍💨

Kung Lao

Kung Lao my beloved. Morphs into alpha with huge muscles and impeccable imagination. Kung Lao, the egotistical and prideful man he is would think he has the up on you simply because he brought it up before you did. This fine ass man can and will come prepared on his own, case full of toys and all

And if I said he likes to be tooted up with music in the back and you pulling his hair while being used like a barracks bunny, would you arrest me?? For speaking TRUTH? He's a whore your honor

He don't give a damn about slow and steady but he'll do it if you want to. Just know it will never end in slow and steady, the pace always seems to be picked up and all of a sudden he's strap-warming you as a punishment (he literally wanted this to happen)

Idek what more to say Kung Lao is a slut and I need him in a way that's concerning to women's suffrage. I will make that hat chucking dimple having sexy ass man a fucking mother, just you wait. [he is one of the first I will breed]

[butchcarmy]

see on one hand i wanna take care of carmy but on the other hand i want him to take care of me. like idk i feel like a night of use ranting to each other and crying in each others arms would heal me, ya know?

YES. YES. Taking care of each other isn’t cute unless it’s a two way street! It’s give and take

Carmy comes home late. He thought he'd come home early today, but of course it didn't work out that way. He's pissed and grumpy and tired. You're already in bed, which makes sense. It's really late, after all. When he gets in by your side, he sees that your eyes are swollen.

He's stressed from work, sure. Always is. But when he sees you so upset, he just tucks away the frustration, the leftover anger that's still left simmering for later. You're more important.

You don't mean to start crying. you really don't. but carmy's right there in front of you, sweet and concerned, and you just start bawling. He holds you close, thumbs away your tears. it was one of those days where every single little thing goes wrong, all piling on top of one another. He listens to you talk, gently pries you open when you start clamming up, watches you intently. He cares so much.

After you calm down and ask Carmy about his day, he doesn't think it'll make him cry, but it does. The emotion feels more potent than just frustration from work. He doesn't recognize where it comes from, but maybe it's just grief at work as it always does, coming out of nowhere. He's crying and he hates it, hates crying in front of people, but you reassure him softly and hold him tight.

"Everytime I think I'm doin' okay, something fuckin' awful just comes out of nowhere and it--it just--it just beats the shit out of me." Carmy laughs, the sound a bit hollow. He's not sobbing his eyes out anymore, but he's still a little sniffly. "Y'know?"

"Fuck, all the time. I feel that all the time. I..." You take in a breath that feels just too sensitive, hits you somewhere a little too soft, and tears are spilling all over again. "It's--it's just like, g-gimme a break. Like, life shouldn't be this hard."

"Yeah," he whispers, thumbs chasing the tears on your cheek. "It shouldn't be." And then he starts crying again. It's just one of those nights where it's impossible to stop once it starts. He tells you later that it was something about seeing you cry that made him tear up again.

Yeah...I think there'd be something special about crying in each other's arms. It'd feel much better than crying alone.

[hwapetals]

impulsive thoughts

pairing - best friend!yunho x reader genre - fluff warning(s) - drinking (i dont drink so im not sure how drunk people act ngl), swearing, vague hint that yunho and reader like each other??? idk i wrote this weirdly summary - after a drinking session, you and yunho end up walking in the rain together. author's note - was thinking abt yunho in the crazy form mv and decided to write something cute???? also not proofread.. erm.. word count - 1501 words

oh, dear, you just knew your liver and head was going to hate you the next day.

you had agreed to go out with yunho, your best friend, to drink because why not? it was always guaranteed to be a good way to spend time with the one person you liked the most.

yunho clinked his full glass of beer with yours, chugging at least half of it in one go. you decided to take your time, sipping on the beer. you both were already pretty tipsy, leaning against each other in front of the bar.

"we should go soon, the bartender is looking at us weird," you whispered to yunho, who turned to look at said bartender.

"you're right," he mumbled back, not very inconspiciously but it's not like the bartender could have heard your little conversation anyways. "but, one more drink."

one more drink eventually turned to three, but after several more dirty looks, you just decided to leave anyways. it was a bit disorientating in a way to get off the chair, your body twisting oddly to step onto the ground.

on the contrary, yunho seemed to have no problem, probably because his feet were already on the ground anyways. yunho was visibly tipsy, not because he was tripping but because his face was an extremely bright shade of red.

yunho took the lead, guiding you to the entrance. you kept on bumping into tables, apologizing to nothing in particular. yunho had to hold back his laughter, finding it the funniest thing ever in his drunk state.

when he opened the door, you were met with the sight of a lot of stairs (exaggerated), going downwards in a spiral arrangement.

"careful," yunho mumbled, holding the small of your back lightly as you stumbled, stepping down the stairs that lead down to the hidden entrance of the bar, literally almost falling off, although there was a railing at the side.

the familiar noise of raindrops hitting against glass and metal could be heard from inside, and it sounded unrelenting.

"did you bring an umbrella?" yunho asked, his words slightly slurred as you clung onto him, carefully stepping down the stairs (you kind of didnt want to stumble again) as your vision blurred from being intoxicated. you shook your head roughly, regretting it as it made you a little nauseous.

all yunho could do was sigh, because he had also forgotten to bring an umbrella. he opened his mouth, before closing it again, not knowing what to say.

"in my defense," you hiccuped softly, pointing to the ground. "the weather app said it wouldn't rain! it lied."

yunho chuckled at your childish reaction, squeezing your side lightly. it wasn't like he was gonna scold you anyways, you were too precious to him. if it were anyone else, he would've probably said something.

"looks like we need to walk back to mine while it rains, since it's a lot closer by," yunho replied, letting go of you to open the door at the bottom of the stairwell, stepping out under the shade as he held the door open.

when you stepped out, he moved over to the edge of the covered area, holding out his hand. yunho winced slightly, furrowing his eyebrows together as he felt how heavy the rain was.

"what's wrong?" you asked, moving over to him, looking up at him with a curious stare. "you look angry."

"no, no, i'm not angry. just worried," yunho quickly responded, almost in a defensive manner. "i don't want you getting sick, you know."

"oh, really? i haven't gotten sick in a while," you lied in a joking way, holding onto his arm. "cmon, it'll be fun to walk in the rain!"

yunho quickly gave in, knowing that you were right, and proving the theory that he would do anything you asked. he just liked you that much.

in about a minute or so, the both of you were already partially drenched from the rain, stepping through the dark alleyway. the only thing illuminating the area was some old looking streetlamps, mounted on the brick walls at constant intervals.

your body shivered slightly from the cold, but you seemed happy, kind of skipping as you and yunho's arms were hooked together.

"tonight's nice, isn't it? i really like rain," you rambled slightly, looking up at the moon. the rain was starting to sober you up, but not much. yunho laughed, nodding in agreement.

"it really is nice, rain is always so calming. until it starts hailing," yunho joked, a soft laugh bubbling out of your throat in response. "seriously! i got hit on the head once, i think there was a bump for at least three days."

"no wonder you wore a hat so often then, you looked like a soccer mom," you teased, poking his head. yunho scoffed, sputtering softly before poking your head back, deciding to be more annoying by poking your head several times.

"stop," you whined, slapping his hand away as he laughed at you, saying a half-hearted apology. "you're such an asshole."

"i know, but you love it," yunho poked your nose, you scrunching it up and complaining. it always brightened his day, seeing your reactions to his teasing.

"you're delusional," you groaned, leaning against him, a random sharp pain hitting you in the head. "ugh, i feel like, not drunk and drunk at the same time. my head just hurts randomly, but i still want to drink. maybe we should have left later."

yunho quietly pressed his index and middle finger against your temple, letting you lean against him as he applied some pressure.

"it's fine, we can drink more when we get back. we're close by anyways," yunho reassured you, but he probably wasn't going to let you drink more.

"you better, my tongue is practically begging for the taste of beer," you pulled away, the massaging of your temple making you feel better but it was starting to feel uncomfortable.

you walked near to the road, looking down at the puddles from the rain. you had an unexplainable urge to step into it, and so, you did. the water splashed onto your shoes and the bottom of your jeans.

to yunho, it also looked kind of fun. he felt as if he was supposed to be the more responsible of the two of you, but, man, it was tempting. he stopped abruptly, letting go of your hand and just jumped into the puddle, splashing water all over the place.

you squeaked, jumping back before stepping closer to join him. it was a very questionable sight, two young adults giggling like children as they jumped into a puddle, soaking their clothes even more. but to the both of you, it didn't really matter, it felt so fun.

after a little while, the both of you came to your senses, still giggling. if your socks weren't sopping wet yet, now it was.

wordlessly, the both of you got back onto the sidewalk, shuffling uncomfortably, but still deliriously happy.

"we should do that every time it rains," you suggested. yunho nodded furiously, knowing that mostly likely, this would probably happen again. "but, ew, i hate the feeling of wet socks."

"so do i, and now we've got dirt all over us," yunho also complained. the moment you made eye contact with him, made the both of you start to laugh once again, finding the whole situation just ridiculous.

yunho continued to lead you back to his home, holding onto your hand tightly as you engaged in small talk with him. honestly, you would have liked to talk and do more dumb shit with him, but you were definitely getting drowsy, and so was he.

when you arrived at his doorstep, he stuck his hand into his pocket, trying to find his keys, the wet fabric clinging to his skin tightly. he fished his keys out, before shaking his head almost like a dog trying to dry off, water flicking onto you and the wall.

you flinched, before slapping his arm, a cheeky grin on yunho's lips. of course, he did it on purpose to annoy you.

"make sure to take off your shoes, i'll cry if you get muddy footsteps in my apartment," yunho chided, pushing the key into the keyhole and twisting, the lock unlocking with a satisfying click.

"yeah, yeah, i got it," you brushed his words off, stepping on the heels of your shoes to get your foot out, messily kicking the shoes aside as you went into his home, yunho following after you with a squeak of his socks against the floor.

"fuck, i'm exhausted," yunho grumbled, a few hiccups escaping him as he slumped over, slouching slightly.

"so am i," you replied, feeling a little odd out of the blue, before you sneezed, burying your face into your elbow.

you had a nagging feeling that you would get sick the next day, but that was a problem for you (and yunho) tomorrow.

author's note (part 2) - i kinda hate how i wrote this so i may??? try to edit this in the future but its time for a nap (it's 3 am as of when i'm posting this) i hope u enjoy it although its kinda ass :3

[angelflungoutofspace]

abbott elementary season 3 ep 1 & 2 REVEIWWWWW

idk why but I thought y'all might wanna hear what I thought about the season premierrrrrr!!!! it was so good and so chaotic. so many things going on at once.

when Janine walked out and revealed as district, I HAD A HEART ATTACK. but then the context helped. im just a little confused because didn't the Manny the district guy say Janine could go back into her class 1-2 days out of the week to teach?? or was it just to go around about hearing feedback?? it was so sad to see Janine's kids not caring about her presence and the super mean substitute. But, that one little boy, Alex, made my heart just warm!!!! It just reminded Janine why she's doing what she's doing!!!

omg and Janine and Gregory?? the way Janine HAD THE CONFIDENCE to go talk to Gregory about her feelings at the beginning of the school year??? like where did that bravery come out of, and she handled the rejection so well. like honey. I would have DIED. but also.... the way Gregory just... moved on???? well, I get why. bro has to protect himself, but like come on greggy boy, don't tell me YOU DONT just feel a little of love for Janine???? but I love the way writers handled it at the end. they didn't leave the awkwardness for the season and that is something I APPRECIATE. and at least we know that Gregory and Janine still want to be friends and still miss each other platonically.

am I being paranoid for being scared of Manny the district guy???? Like my boy Jacob had a point. Manny WAS giving me some crush vibes and it doesn't help how nice and genuine he is. LIKE IM LITERALLY FALLING FOR HIM. and his mom was a teacher??? I would love to see him more, but just not as another pawn in Janine and Gregory's relationship. but, I knowwwww better. and my girl QUINTAAAA will make us wait.

I think Janine is getting really confortable and friendly with the district crew and it's kind of scary me because if she gets TOO comfortable, she won't want to leave. I think when the fellowship ends, they'll offer her a permanent spot on the team and she'll want to take it but still teach at abbott.

Barbara was so cute this episode, with her makeup. and with how honest she was to the district. as some who works at a high school and has been dealing with a particularly horrible district and administration, Barbaras words hit too close to home. but she realized that the whole district team is essentially just 4 Janines with the power and position to make things happen. and I think she's really opening up to relying on the district more.

omg my girl Melissa. honey., I was so scared every time Gary made a marriage joke. and when he proposed I HAD A HEART ATTACK AND FOR A SPLIT SECOND I THOUGHT MELISSA WAS GONNA SAY YES and the rest of the season would be wedding planning. but as embarrassing and heartbreaking as it was for Melissa, she stayed true to herself and was mature to end the relationship. and my girl just crying made me cryyyyy omg. she looks so sad even though she was the one to break up with Gary, AND I KNOWWWWWW SHE'LL STILL BE HEALING. I don't think this is the last well see of Gary since he goes to the school every Thursday, but I think it'll be the end of their relationship permanently. but now that Melissa knows fs was wants to date and knows she doesn't wanna get married, I think she's gonna be in her exploration phase. HOEEEEE PHASSEEEE. god please send Melissa a gay awakening PLEASEEEEE. she needs a rebound and no better rebound than a woman. that would be so fun and so true to her.

but yeah thats all I think so far. and it was a great epsidose and a great start to an already unpredictable season!!!

[honeythekidsarealright]

Ok so i’m new here but i was reading your blog n saw that you were giving advice and it seemed really good so i thought i could ask for some? (if that’s ok)

So basically i met this girl through my friend (who is also my ex but we’re super cool now so i don’t think that would be a problem, we dated before i came out as lesbian, and he came out as gay so it worked out) and i thought she was really cute. I told my friend ab it and he asked if i wanted him to tell her and i said no bc what?? i no where near have the confidence to just tell people i like them😭😭.

But anyways that was the first week of my freshman college semester (i’m ab to be a sophomore). Since i never told her and we became friends pretty quickly, i thought the feeling had gone away. But she’s a very flirty friend (touching, saying things, etc) and i am very easy to get flustered. She’s also very caring and i think my feelings for her came back, stronger.

So the problem is we’re gonna be roommates this year and i feel like i should tell her but we’re so close now that i don’t want to mess anything up bc in reality (i think) i would be completely fine staying friends but at the same time i really want to be with her, romantically and sexually, basically date her. But not only do i not want to mess things up i also don’t have any experience doing ANYTHING, like not even kissing or anything, and i feel like that would be embarrassing. Soooooo idk what to do. 😀 Any advice at all?

Also can i have this emoji pls🦔

hi there! alright, so this is definitely a very risky situation because there really is no guarantee that if you confess, your feelings would be reciprocated, and that can lead to some amount of awkwardness. however, i do think that the longer you continue to hold those feelings in, the harder it'll be for you, given the fact that she's clearly very flirtatious towards you and you two are so close, not to mention the fact that you guys will soon be roommates.

i know that it's scary, trust me i do, but you miss 100% of the shots you don't take (very cliché i know, but it's true). if you do end up telling her how you feel and she reciprocates those feelings, i don't think your lack of experience would be a problem, so don't worry about that.

i really hope that i've been able to give you some amount of useful advice. good luck, i'm rooting for you!

also, yes, you can have that emoji :)

[lonely-north-star]

Lupe…. I have to know…. Is Love and Deepspace ((I think that’s the name of the Otome??)) Is it worth it. Yap to me about this other Otome… convince me to cheat on the Obey Me demons for a time (not that I’d ever abandon them fully they got my brain in a chokehold)

AHAHQWJEEH hi vic !!

edit: this got LONG LMAOOO so putting it under the cut

ohmygod okay so like JJjwjwnqqj IM SORRY THEY'RE SO HOT !!!! i want to punch sylus in the face so bad but then like make out with him after LMAOO

and zayne holy fuck is his backstory tragic as hell it makes me want to bawl every time i think about it, he is my fave

i think i love them both because they feel very "i choose you. I am choosing you and i am going to keep choosing you, no matter what"

The fact that you can customize your mc (but it's only a fem version) is both cool and overwhelming bc it can get SO detailed if you want, like you can switch the face structure and stuff

And the CARDS !!! there's the interactive one's where it's like a story and cutscenes and it clips away to an outside pov sometimes, and recently the cards have been more suggestive since sylus came out especially

but it's so fucking cool ?? and there's like the one's called "secret times" where you get to just listen to the ml talk. I haven't actually listened to one in a while so I can't remember if mc even has written dialogue. But it's sweet, i think i remember one from the beginning with zayne where you travel to a hot spring together? and one that's talked about a lot is them taking care of the mc when they're dealing with cramps

i will say the story is really cool and interesting and I'm so excited to see where it goes, but a lot of the romance is more so behind the cards. The lore is really sick though. And the battle system is pretty engaging, I'm not used to like ig point and click stuff? But i also don't play a lot of games lmaoo

genuinely i love this game, and i find the 3D models really nice, but my phone hates it akdjwj. Idk what kind of phone you've got but it'll force close on me

ALSO the photo booth !!! you get to take photos with the characters and it's SO CUTE !!! and there's mini games in there too that you earn points to use in the various shops. That claw machine has nothing against me. Here's some photos with my mc and Zayne !! (Basically Paula in another universe LOL)

mammon will always be my one true love, I'd choose him over anyone every time (sorry zayne). But yeah. I love this game and definitely think you should play !!! sylus keeps growing on me rahhh

[boyfietxts]

coming home after a long vacation - txt beomgyu

a/n: I hope you enjoy. I haven't written in a fat minute so yeah :)

beomgyu x f!reader (idk I don't use pronouns after often but maybe words that imply a certain gender?)

you and beomgyu have been together for about a year now and in that time, you had never once been the one to go far away. he was the one leaving for tours and you'd stay behind in the city to do school work and occasionally watch any pets they left behind (soobin trusts you so much and always prefers to leave his son odi with you. bless him he's so cute). anyways, the point is that you had been talking with some of your cousins and they had coaxed you to come back to your hometown for your week of spring break. once you told beomgyu what you wanted to do, he tried to play it off like it was all okay but inside, he was sad that you were leaving. He knew he couldn't really say no because he knew how much you missed your cousins and you're an adult, you can make your own plans without anyones permission. He told you to have fun and he made sure to send you off with some of his clothes and some gifts for your family. he always tried his best to appeal to your family and create a connection with them and they loved him for all the effort he put in, even if it was from a whole different country. he's so cute, when you packed your luggage, he snuck in his favorite sweater and a little tube of her cologne so you would remember him. he knows you won't be gone for very long but he still has a fear in the back of his mind that you'll forget about him and move on. assure him you're only his and he'll be the happiest little clam.

the day he leave, he has a driver take the both of you to the airport so that he could see you off. he hugs you and holds your hand the whole way to the airport. baby boy wishes he could go but he knew he had a lot of work to do for their upcoming tour. when your gate opens, he frowns and gives you a hug and a kiss. "please go and come back safely, loser." he smiled and tried to mask how sad he felt. you can see through him because you know how he is. he tries to hide his emotions. give him a hug and assure him you'll be right back before he knows it. maybe even leave something behind for him at home like a teddy bear with your perfume sprayed. he finally lets you go and lets you get to your flight. he waits until you're in and then leaves. he gets in the van and a few tears slip while he's getting back home. the boys try their best to support him but they know it'll be hard. They get him playing some video games and he feels a little bit better.

omg he is always texting you. it can be anything from a cute 'I miss you' or a picture of huening kai doing a handstand. he knows you miss him but also the boys so he tries to keep you updated on them as well. he pouts when you ask for odi updates and soobin texts you to tell you that he was acting like a baby with a pout and his arms crossed over his chest. oh my god when he finds your teddy that you left behind, he is gushing and holding it all over the dorm. he brings it to the table when they eat, places it in his lap when he's playing a game at night, etc... it's always with him. the boys find it so endearing that he cares about something you gave him so much. they try to take it from him and he gets mad. taehyun took it from him in the middle of the night and the next morning, beomgyu was worried because thought he lost it. when he sees the bear in taehyuns bed, he finds him and wrestles him. he apologizes and just says it's because he misses you a lot.

when you finally come back home, beomie is at the airport waiting for you with a sign he and the boys decorated and a pretty bouquet of your favorite flowers (or cookies, do they make cookie bouquets because I want one). once he gets a glimpse of you, he's smiling like an idiot and waiting for you to get to him. he hugs you so tight and frowns when the bouquet gets a little crashed because he was too excited. "sorry." he smiles and hands it to you anyways. he shows you the sign and it was 'welcome back' with a bunch of messages written all over it from the boys. when you finally see them again, they beg you to never leave again. they playfully exaggerate how sad and upset beomgyu was and you're there to comfort him and glare at the boys.

safe to say, you don't wanna go anywhere anytime soon.

(hope you liked it ! box is open for suggestions/requests !!)

[katkit14]

First year's if they had an S/O with Type 1 diebtes

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Oof this accautly took me a long time to write. Not cause I had no ideas ( that to though) but because I'm lazy lol. I think I may do dorm leaders next but idk.

Romantic relationship established

Gender Neutral reader

Warnings : Slight cussing

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Ace

He most certainly is gonna tease you, but not in hateful way

Pokes fun about eating sugary snacks and once you explain he's like " oh yeah I knew that"

He doesn't fully understand diebetes but actually tries more if your his s/o

Will get panicked when you have a low and doesn't know how to help and kinda gets mad at himself but will never admit it

Will never tell you but will secretly stock up on candy or juice after

He's somewhat helpful

He'll squeeze your arms when you dose ( if you don't have a pump) and will obviously pull put candy or juice when you need

If you use a cgm and pump ( or just one of those) he'll learn how to change the sites but of you choose to point that out he'll deny ever even helping you

Learned not to mess with you when you're blood sugar is high

Only he is allowed to make fun of you over your diabetes so he will fight someone over bothering you about your diabetes

Overall kinda a tsundere but still cute

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Deuce

Doesn't understand what diabetes is but fully listen when and if you explain

Is somewhat helpful but relies on you to teach him

He takes a bit but will learn

Don't trust him with the snacks. He tries his best to protect them from Grim and Ace but is outsmarted

If this happens he'll feel bad and go buy you new snacks

Is always willing to help and if you teach him

he'll help give doses or help change sites ( if you have a cgm or pump) but is scared of needles so he doesn't help if you have to dose by needle

Is always scared he's gonna hurt you somehow though and needs reasurance he won't and isn't

Can and will go full bad boy mode if someone wants to mess with you

Overall tries his best and is a pretty good boyfriend

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Jack

He doesn't understand at the beginning but if you're his s/o, you best believe he is gonna keep going until he does

Will stop Grim and Ace from eating your snacks

Gets you glucose tablets so you don't have to eat candy cause " candy isn't good for you" ( he's a dick, those taste terrible)

Sams shop really does have everything

Is a bit afraid of needles but gets over it rather quickly and is able to help you with dosing or site changes

Encourages you when you have highs to go on runs with him and throws a water bottle at you

Lectures you about eating right if you don't already ( he'd do that even if you weren't diabetic)

Knows if you have a high and low before you do cause super senses

Is overall a good boy and a good boyfriend

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Epel

I headcanon that his grandma has diabetes probably type 2 ( it's common in elderly people)

He thinks he knows

Gets mad when he realizes he doesn't *angry feral germlin noises*

Takes his time to understand type 1 and will try his best to help

Isn't scared of needles so he his more then willing to help dose you or change cites

Doesn't know what to do when your blood sugars low so kinda just stands there

Will ask later on what he should do

Will not tolerate anyone making fun of you and will probably cause a scene. It'll be worse since you're his s/o so you might have to call Vil

Speaking of Vil, he will still use you as an excuse to get out of stuff with Vil.

Overall not bad but could be more helpful

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Sebek

He fully doesn't understand

I'm not sure he ever will

He doesn't care if you are his s/o he will continue to call humans pathetic

Will pout if you point out he is half human

He does get concerned though and does try to help. He'll even go to Lilia for help or even research on his own

He starts to understand some of it but not all

He doesn't really help much with dosing or site changes but he does help bring out snacks

Will help protect your snacks from Grim and Ace and won't really tolerate people taking your food

Will not tolerate people making fun of you or bothering you * cue yelling lectures*

He will lecture you on eating so many sweets until you explain you need them and now he feels bad

He buys you apple juice

Overall tries but yells a lot

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[goth-dean]

Ok I've been drinking and it's truth telling time.

I've decided to leave my boyfriend of almost 3 years. This pains me because I do love him. But I don't want to be with him anymore.

We fight a lot. And it's always over something stupid. Like me asking what time we were leaving to meet up with his friends. (That was the most recent one)

Also I'm about 97 no 98% sure I'm a lesbian.

I used to think that thinking a guy was cute and getting along with him meant I liked him. I was wrong. I'm pretty sure I'm gay.

So a few days ago I decided to leave him. I've thought about it numerous times in the last year or so but I haven't done it because I do care for him. But caring for someone and wanting to be in a romantic and s%xual relationship with them are two different things. If we didn't live together I probably would have left him a long time ago. But we do.

Since we live together and it will take me some time to safe up enough to move (I can afford rent, I work full time and a decent paying job I just need a security deposit and moving expenses) it'll take me a couple of months to save the money, I have to pretend to stil be happy. I don't like this. It's only been a few days and I already feel like a piece of shit for lying to him. But it's what I have to do. I have no way of getting out right now, and no one i can stay with, as I have no close friends or family.

I told my work bestie about it. Well, about the leaving him part, not about the gay part. I don't really know why. I've said multiple times to multiple people that if things didn't work with him that I'd just date women. Everyone knows I'm bi. It just feels weird, in 2024, to be like, oh i just realized I'm gay.

But anyways

Tonight I went to saphic night at the club he works at. And I felt so awkward. Idk if it was because I had no one to dance with, bc everyone there i knew was working. Or bc it was sapphic night at my boyfriends bar.

I drank, I sang along to Chappell Roan and Renee Rapp. But I felt so weird. When the bridge to Good Luck Babe blared through the speakers I almost lost it. Maybe that's silly, but like I said I'd been drinking.

I talked to no one. One girl said she liked my dress and I almost asked if I could dance with her and her friends but I didn't.

When I was ready to go, my boyfriend walked me most of the way home, holding my hand the whole time. He'll be home in an hour or two, once it's all over and they mop and all that.

I think I've known for a long time that I was gay. Looking back it's obvious. I mean I've known that i was into women for a long time. Men can be attractive, I've just never felt with them what i do with women. Idk why I didn't let myself know.

Anyways. I'm rambling. Ignore me.

Like I said, I've been drinking. More than that. I'm drunk. I suld go to bed. But I'm a little dizzy and a little nauseous. So I don't really wanna lay down just yet.

Despite being drunk I'm still in my right mind. And I guess I'm just feeling like I need to tell someone how not super great I'm feeling right now. And so I'm telling th wonderful people of Tumblr dot com. Because why not.

I'd put this under a read more, but idk how to do that on mobile so too bad

That concludes whatever this is

Thank you for coming to my Ted talk.

[mlmvoreconfessionals]

jason voorhees with wg and disposal? idk big strong muscle man becoming heavy with fat, especially jason, sounds so cute. and also disposal because im a weirdo

You’re right, it is cute. And I have a secret to share—I’m a huge weirdo, too.

J.ason gives his gut a squeeze and it molds around his hand like soft clay. He lets out a soft groan and lets go of it, watching it wobble when he does. There's no doubt about it. He's gotten fat. Really, he should have accepted the idea a while ago. He's noticed the way his sparse collection of clothes seem to hug his frame more and more as the days go by. Today was the day his shirt ripped open trying to fit over his empty gut, though.

It was bound to happen with his diet, really. Humans are walking calorie bombs and it seems like there's two more for every one he eats. The RV he recently tore apart groans as he steps off of it. The lingering smell of shit follows after him, a pile made up of a father and his three adult sons filling at least half of the vehicle after J.ason crashed their family camping trip. They'd been the thing to push his body past the limit and into 'definitely fat now'. He can feel the way his stomach wobbles with every step he takes and he wasn't able to get his pants to come up over his ass again.

He's still strong, of course, but all that muscle is being smothered under plush fat. But this summer has been particularly busy for him. These campers weren't even his first meal of the day. No, that was the van of stoners who thought the woods were a safe place to get as high as they want. Their van is still sitting out there somewhere, the back of it weighed down with a monster of a crap. Stoner always seems to go right through him.

There were also those college guys skinny dipping in the lake. No clothes on those meals, at least, but it was a pretty heavy meal with how many there were. He was lucky that the wooden raft they had out there held his weight. He'd bring it in if he cared enough to shovel that mountain of shit he left on it, but frankly, he wasn't too worried about where he left his shits. This was his territory, he could leave them where he wanted. It didn't do anything to stop these people from coming around.

The meal right before the family were some hunters. Tracking them down one by one was a nice change of pace. Though J.ason is happy he didn't have to deal with being shot. They never even saw him coming. Now they're just a few nasty heaps scattered around the forest like plenty of others. And then, of course, there's his latest meal which finally made his clothes stop fitting entirely.

Though, if J.ason is being honest with himself, he's been getting fatter these last several months. He really noticed if after eating that party bus of graduates. Definitely one of his biggest meals to date and, of course, the biggest shit he ever took--at least half an hour to get it all out, if that. It was the first time he really noticed he was getting fatter, though. And while usually he can work it off, he hasn't had much of a break in terms of food since then, and he's gaining faster than losing.

J.ason lets out a grunt and shakes his gut back and forth slowly, squeezing the fat between his fingers a few times. He's just going to have to get used to the new size. Cutting back on scarfing down every man that walks into his home isn't an option, and if they don't stop coming, he's just going to keep eating. Guess the weight isn't so bad, at least...it'll be nice when winter comes around for sure.

[planete777]

f1 asks 💓

thank u to my most special bby @mariahcarreyyy for the tag!! now lets get to it 🤭

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who is your favourite driver?

lando mf norris!!! don't think it'll ever change tbh

do you have other favourite drivers?

oscar, yuki, lewis and daniel are also drivers i like ;) of the veterans, i like seb and kimi. who can't???

who is your least favourite driver?

uhhhh idk. maybe esteban because i conform to the voices of the masses. but ig i just dont really pay attention to the ones i don't care for so 🤷‍♀️

acc nvm its george russell🧍‍♀️

do you pull for drivers or do you like teams as well?

sighhhh i dont know. ill probably support lando where ever he goes, but im a mclaren fan bcoz of him so perhaps even if he left, id still stand by the papaya

if you like teams, what team do you pull for?

mclaren......

how long have you been into F1?

literally only a year. thats why my allegiance is still wavering coz i havent been a fan for long. im a stronger football (⚽️) fan

what got you into F1?

lando norris lol. i just remember seeing him in passing and was like 'oh hes cute, who is he?' and its funny becuz i didn't even like him for a WHILE because i saw some biased opinion on him somewhere, without knowing a thing abt him 😭😭

how do you view new fans?

cannot hate em coz i am one... ish. tho, i was so hesitant to get into f1 becuz at the time, there was sudden surge of new fans who liked charles and it was all they were seen as. and i did not want to be associated with them, dont ask 💀

if you could take over as team principal for any team, who would it be and why?

ferrari because they could use my powerful ass mind. or maybe vcarb so i can have access to yuki pookie's cooking 24/7

are your friends and family into F1 as well?

nope just me. i have one friend whos a ferrari fan tho and we only talk when its race weekend LMAO

are you open to talking to other fans/making friends?

yes yes yes !!! 1000%

tagging anyone who wants to do it !!

[undertale-writing-times]

For the nightmare hoard (idk what else to call them lol)

How do they feel about humans (also use this ask to add some information that you want to tell us about them if u want)

Hehe I like you calling them the Nightmare Hoard...

Glacial: They don't really care too much about humans? I mean, they're just people that also exist. Glacial doesn't go out of their way to avoid humans, but also won't go out of their way to try to talk to them. They just exist together. Of course they can't be too close to humans for too long because of the fact that they're really cold.

Cuppy: He loves humans! He thinks that they're so fun to hang out with! Course he likes monsters more, but humans are pretty cool to him. He wishes that they wouldn't try to bite him though… or they make puns based off him being based off a cupcake ;n;

Ber: Ze hates humans… mostly. Ze doesn't like them because a lot of the time, they'll mess with Ze by poking fun at being all pink! I bet you're so cute! Yeah, Ze doesn't like it and doesn't think it's funny. Don't take it too personal though, Ze doesn't like pretty much anyone. It takes a lot for Ze to like someone enough to hang out with them.

Toxi: it doesn't really mind humans too much? Sometimes it wishes that they wouldn't treat it like they do, but hey, it can't complain too much! It'll hang out with people, but won't let anyone touch it, because it doesn't want anyone to get hurt. It wants to be friends with a lot of people, but it feels like it doesn't deserve it.

Minty: Eh, she doesn't really care too much about humans… I mean, like, they're sorta just there? She doesn't like it when they make a joke about Christmas with her because haha… yeah, like I don't hear that one every day! Minty loves jokes! Like, really, she really does, but not when she hears the same one every day. She gets along with kids more than adults.

Hots: He doesn't mind humans! Shocking, I know lol. The only thing that he does mind, is that they often act as though he's too dangerous to be around. A lot of people avoid him, and that makes him mad so he heats up and that just proves their point, but he's good at controlling his heat! He's just hot, not burning all the time…

Sticks: Another that doesn't mind humans. He kind of likes them more than monsters, but also doesn't want them to bug him too much with sweets. He gets along well with kids, but sometimes they try to lick him and he finds it really weird! Haha. I think he would get along with a lot of humans, though, and he has fun trying to make friends.

Drippy: He doesn't mind humans all that much :) honestly, sometimes he'll even help them out by giving them water if it's too hot! He normally goes to find people who are working and need water… it's really cute how nice he is to them. Other than that, he doesn't care about them too much.

Ichor: He hates humans! >:( they're dumb, gross, and weird! To tell the truth though, he doesn't want to be around them just because they kind of scare him. He isn't sure if they'll like him, so he normally lashes out before they have a chance to not like him for how he really is. Plus, you know, a lot of people think he's freaky anyway cause he's made out of blood.

[nathank77]

8/20/24

8:59 a.m

My insomnia was a bitch last night. I had to double up for the first time in 2 days. I'm willing to tonight after putting in much effort but the following day I'm SOL I won't raise my tolerance. It'll come down to weed tomorrow worse case.

I fell asleep by 1 a.m... it's really getting to me.

Let's go over my potential subclinical hyperthyroidism symptoms:

1) Insomnia....

I dont think there are others...

-muscles twitching: seems directly related to metopolol and have seemed to slow down and almost stop since stopping the meds.

-pooping: has went back to 2-3× a day. The 5 times that one day was directly linked to having over 39 grams of fiber in one day.

- Sweating/Heat intolerance: Not suffering from those.

-Heart Rate: Seems to be within normal range.

- Frequent Urination: I mean I drink a lot of fluids. It can easily be the explanation. Before bed I drink a cup of tea with my cigarettes.

-weight loss: my caloric in-take is low. I would be losing weight like a mother fucker if I was hyper.

-Anxiety: well I mean insomnia triggers me so much it's always extreme.. and okay so my thyroid nodules gave me anxiety randomly last night. Maybe we can say my anxiety is worse..... but idk it could also be that I care about myself and my sister had thyroid cancer and I didn't want to process that my thyroid grew another nodule despite it being smaller. And of course, my thyroid is of major interest to me atm bc of being sub clinically hyper..

- Appetite: I've had a slight increase in appetite but it seems normal. Every 4-6 hours. When I was hyper I was hungry every 2 hours... now I just feel hungry when I think a normal human body should.

Okay moving forward from that:

- is xanax losing its effectiveness? I don't think so but it crosses my mind.. yet some nights it works fine.

- or is my anxiety bad right now and it's keeping me from falling asleep quickly..

- is it the game I play before bedtime. It's fun it's call ice age adventure. Elise if you're here idk if your kids are too old to enjoy it but I think it's super fun and cute and they may love it. Nonetheless it's bright. And I play right before solitaire. It could be effecting it.

circadian rhythm: is it being effected by multiple nights of falling asleep later due to insomnia despite all the efforts I make to keep it so I can fall asleep by 11:30 p.m..

- then I think a wild thought what if my body is like if we don't sleep he will give us more? I mean it seems stupid cause it knows damn well that sure 2 days in a row I will but day 3 you're fucked. I'll make you pull an all nighter. I'm keeping my circadian rhythm I'll throw myself in the attic at 2 a.m if you won't sleep.

Gaming isn't a factor I haven't been gaming all my youtube videos are a week or 2 old being posted on a schedule.

Yesterday I had one red bull at 8 a.m. I had my v8 energy drinks too but stopped them at 2 p.m....

I mean I have had more tv time. But I mean of course I have. I'm running through my list of things to do and 90% of it at this rate costs me money I don't have so I can only do so much.

- bo4 hardcore barebones starts today. I have therapy and a physical. And I'm doing laundry so I can't really enjoy it today but starting tomorrow I'm going to be all in, I set up my week so I can enjoy it for as many days as possible. Although I have to go grocery shopping tomorrow.

- I am worried about money. Idk.

I suppose if I struggle tonight and tomorrow I'm going to do Methimazole everyday bc at that point I can't find another cause but it seems weird that it could be related to subclinical hyperthyroidism when I slept when I was hyper.

I don't think xanax is losing its effectiveness

I actually think my circadian rhythm has been thrown off too many nights in a row and maybe my tv is still a little too loud. If I turn it down anymore- the voice is going to be all i hear....

Maybe I can try being scared on YouTube on my tv with a sleep timer. His voice is low. And now my mental pictures are all sorts of normal and weird and I have control of them.

But yea I'm feeling hopeless. I'd rather follow my Dr original advice...but at some point as I take out the potential other causes it might be the only factor.

I think trying a lower TV show might be helpful. American dad has a lot of singing and screaming. It could be disrupting my ability to fall asleep or stay asleep. Technically I could be falling asleep quickly and waking up minutes later bc of a loud sound....

Or maybe it's just my circadian rhythm being thrown off. IDFK but I'm weighting every potential cause.

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Ohhhh Sam, THANK YOU SO MUCHHH I FEEL SO PROUD this term i was very busy with my auntie bwcause she was visting us (she lives in france and its been 4 years since she last visited) so i was busy with my cousins and trying to show them around before their time is over with us :(

SAM you ARE incredible😭 we work in a pharmacy together (she's a pharmacist, but I work with cosmetics), so yeahhh she's been talking about this whitening cleanser that has some great reviews, and she's not taking care of herself enough because our older siblings are troubles, so the house is full of drama all the damn time😭😡 and I might just try and buy that cleanser for her it'll be hard tho as we're in the same place but I may ask my brother who's working the night shift to get it (yes all my siblings are pharmacists I am the exception)😭

You absolutely seem like a birthday person it's obvious that you really love to gift people and see their smiles since you're always very kind💕 I hope you stay that way! But don't get yourself hurt. My mom says the kindest people get the most hurt :(

So you think the photo session would make her happy? Idk I'm always hesitant😭 I'll have to make a big-girl decision

I'm so happy to know that you're doing better. You deserve that girlie. Your hair seems so soft and fluffy and really healthy, which is awesome! I know I said my hair is a little longer than usual but it's not healthy🙈 lmao I'm a hijabi and spend most of my time out so when I get an opportunity to take care of my hair I do but I think I made my mind a few days ago I was combing my hair and I think long hear suits me. ANYWAYS THAT WAS NOT NEEDED BUT EHH

I just love self-care, so I love to talk about it. I'm not over the fact that I'm a junior, tho. Oh, btw I recently discovered that I have ADHD like.. it's not thar common here, but I had my doubts, but then I saw an interview with two kids one has ADHD and the other does not,I found myself acting like the other girl and it just snapped to me, but then again don't we all have ADHD😭😭

IM IN LOVE WITH FLOWER (I think that's it, right?😭 sorry!) I saw the new update I'll read it right after finishing my ranting session. Have you read any book from the Twisted series? I bought it recently and the first book is taking me ages to finish it, it's not boring but the chapters are heavily written.

Do you have any pets??? I love birds and cats, but I had two birds a few years back, but we were traveling constantly and it was hard to leave th so I gave them to my cousin but I think they run away😭 but! I reaaaally want a little kitten, duh.

Sam thank you so much for helping take care pleaaase🩷🩷🎀

Oh btw a question just popped. Do you ever wonder about the anons? Like their names and stuff, I find MYSELF wondering lol😭 yalla byeee🏃🏻‍♀️‍➡️

🎀-anon 🙈

OH WAIT I ALWAYS REMEMBER STUFF AFTER SENDING THE MESSAGE, TOOTHPASTE IS SO DEVINE!!!! I love that she's confident, she can't hold her tongue and it's just so cute that he asked her on a date on that note it was so cute you're always writing cute stuff I don't know if I'll melt from it or the weather

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That's so sweet you got to see your family 💕 My family is crazy and I love them but it's never relaxing when they're around. It's nice you got to see them after so long.

That's really cool you work with your family. It's nice! I'm sure your sister will appreciate the cleanser! Especially where it's something you talked about with her. The photo session would be nice too! I think that would be really special as well, so whatever you decide she will love I'm sure 💕

I think unfortunately your mom might be right. I hurt my own feelings more than anything. It's because I want a me in my own life to do what I do for others and it just doesn't happen lol. Shakespeare's got something on how expectation is the root of all heartache. It's very true. But thank you, I'm trying to be better about my self worth and whatnot and lower my expectations hahahahah

My hair is sometimes soft and definitely fluffy. One time I straightened it and my friend couldn't find me in the lunch room. The problem is that like one degree of moisture sets it into a complete frizz. It's looking healthier now but it looked pretty raggedy not too long ago 😂 I really love long hair though so it sounds like you made a good decision!

Idk what I have but I need to be studied 😂 I read a lot about how ADHD and anxiety presents differently in women than in men (naturally) so I probably have one or more diagnoses in my future. It's cool you connected with the person though and recognized similarities in yourself. Even just getting comfortable with the idea of being ADHD or whatever, I think, is an important step in coping and figuring out how to navigate everyday life 😊 Hopefully that makes sense!

I have not read Twisted, but I've heard good things. I'm not sure I want something deep right now though. This tbr shelf of mine is out of control lol.

No pets for me. I'm pretty allergic to pet dander. Cats especially. I'm def more a dog person than a cat person as well. I love all baby animals though, kittens are so sweet!

I WONDER ALL THE TIME ABOUT MY ANONS. I think about everyone's name and where they live. It's really fun to imagine but I wish I could have a huge Harry Styles themed party and hug everyone.

I'm starting to really love toothpaste. I'm glad you liked it 💕

stay cool and don't melt! Much love 💕

xoxo