#Idk. I don't care. He's cute. It'll just take time to get used to
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Honestly, he doesn't look like Akutagawa at all. He's round
#Harukawa's art style has changed so much ever since chapter 88 but whilst for other characters like. Atsushi it was gradually spread–#through all the chapters which made it virtually impossible to notice#We haven't seen Akutagawa in almost four years if not for a single panel (chapter 105).#Which makes seeing him again after all this time such a big whiplash.#I'm not saying the change is a bad thing and I'm not saying it's a good thing it's just. A Thing#The light in his eyes is frightening ashjbasbsoeiufbe like sure I love the character development but also who's that. Where's the void eyes#It's just too big of a whiplash ajhsfbkshfbkeibfleibu#Also when I say he's round now fr. Akutagawa didn't use to look so soft he was all angles and sharp edges#Idk. I don't care. He's cute. It'll just take time to get used to#He looks even younger now#ryūnosuke akutagawa#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd ch 117#mine
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OMG OKAY SO I JUST READ YOUR RECENT HEADCANONS WITH EARTHREALM BOYS AND HOW THEY'D REACT TO READER RIDING THEM AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH AND IT GOT ME THINKING
How would they react to reader pegging them HEHEHE 👁️👁️🙏
mk1 hcs: how the earthrealm guys react to pegging
sorry i took so long to get to this anon! life is on my asssss and kept getting random spurts of writers block but WE HERE
warnings: explicit, smut elements, fluff elements, sub men obviously, sphinx might have favs idk tho😹
Scorpion
When you suggested pegging for the first time, it intrigued him. He'd always been down to try something new, especially if you bring it to him since he does it more
Y'all would be reeallll slow in the beginning. Luckily you knew all about preparation and making sure he was relaxed and okay the whole time. It didn't take long for him to get used to it, and even take a liking
He'd prefer for it to be a regular thing after his looonngggg days after work. There's nothing he needs more than to either be treated with tender, love, and care or just straight filthy coitus with him seeing stars and his hair tangled to all hell
The first few times he was a shy boy, cute lil whimpers here and there. Now? Doesn't give a damn, he will be as vocal as he feels like. You're gonna be the one who wakes up with claw marks and bite marks in the morning
Sub-Zero
Huh? You want to what? Were you inside of his head or something? How'd you know he wanted you to absolutely mix his guts whenever he gives you attitude? Something ain't right
He only acts reluctant because he didn't wanna look eager, but the man was waiting for this moment. The second you suggested it he was like "okay i'll say yes after like the third time i gotta look cool." when whole time he wanted to fall to his knees and hug your thighs in agreement
Don't try to go slow the first few times. His patience is shorter than his temper, this mf is the most power bottom individual in the bedroom. After he's gotten used to it he'll 'allow' you to go the romantic route (he's such a lil bitch for it we love it)
He barks orders at you like you won't grab his face and give him a taste of his own medicine. One good time where you're hovering over him, a thumb on the inside of his cheek while he drools and you fuck him like your life depended on it. Mission success!
Smoke
He's the one who brought it to you. Any objections? I think tf not. He isn't saying it aloud, but his eyes are silently begging you to treat him like the town's whore
He likes both the romance and the pure filth. It's entirely up to you; he will never say no to anything you suggest. Fuck him like you're mad at him or go slow and steady while you kiss his jaw and play with his hair and sing his praises
Any and all positions available. If you can somehow prone this big boy, DO IT. He'd totally ride you too if you really down for the count. We are troopers around this bitch!
Sometimes it would concern you how rarely he tapped out, especially when shit was getting intense and didn't calm down for a while. If you were absolutely demolishing his ass, you'd see a pool of drool escaping his lips, his eyes glossed over, his whines and moans gradually getting louder, and when you asked if he was okay, he would nod and give you a thumbs up like he didn't just bust 3 times in a row
Johnny Cage
Every time I do any sexual hcs of this mf, I will continue to say he's a brat. I do not care. He's a fucking diva and will dare to bark orders at you too like you're not the one who brought it up
Y'all know that Meg the stallion lyric where she's like "no don't fuck me like that fuck me like this"? THATS HIS ASS. He KNOWS it'll piss you off but go one of two ways: you indeed do fuck him like that but added aggression, OR! you stop completely and pretend like you're gonna leave the room. Works every time
He thoroughly enjoys straight up sex over romantic sex, but every once in a while he indulges in popping champagne, throwing down rose petals, and playing sexy music in the back to set the mood. Ol dramatic ass
Remember how I said in my riding hcs that he records everything? Yeah. Even as far as come to you and be like "okay so like what if we sold these? i could cut your face out if you want-" and you're like !1!2? HOWEVER ik some of yall are FREEKIE FUCKS. If you say "fuck that leave my face in it", prepare to never need a job ever again
Kenshi Takahashi
Surprisingly is down with it. That's what #love does to a mf. He's like Kuai, anything you want you shall receive. If you wanna play around in that ass, say no more!
97% of the time wants to go slow and steady. He just loves looking at your face with the power of Sento while making love. Tell him how much you love and appreciate him and how he's doing so good for you and he'll instantly become the butter to your bread (like melting- ok y'all get it cool)
That 3%?? He would be on his knees and begging you to fuck the stress out of him. He's had such a tough week, just shove his head into the pillow and get to work!
If it's missionary just grip his neck, get real close to his face so he can feel your breath, and welcome him to pound town. All aboard the slut-Kenshi-out train
Raiden
Secretly a whore. The first green light into pegging territory, you could see his pearly browns sparkle in excitement and eagerness. He's relatively chill and calm about it at first because he didn't want to scare you away, but that's gone in an instant when you actually do the deed
Walks up to microphone Raiden...enjoys the prepping damn near more than the actual pegging. This pretty boy sure loves to see you break out the lubricant and gloves just so you can get him ready. Bro is on the edge of the bed swinging his feet while you have the most devious look in your eye
He's 50/50 on sensual nights vs getting down and dirty. Literally has zero preference, just spread him!
Back to how I said he's secretly a whore, sometimes he does subtle things that get you riled up throughout the day so you can take it out on him later. It's kinda funny sometimes cause he can be vocal but he's more shy than ever, but he'll break soon, trust
Liu Kang
Out of everyone he'd probably enjoy it the most. Now hear me out, he's not used to something like this, so it may take some convincing, but it's very little. It's good that he was mortal before so this level of intimacy isn't completely out of bounds
Once you get the stamp of approval and you try it for the first time, he's in love. It's like all he wants to do. Like holy fuck, where has this been for all these eons? This is the ultimate relaxation and he gets to forget his worries for a few hours??
He's so fascinated that he'd be the one introducing YOU to different types of straps all the way down to the patterns. "A dragon one... have you heard of this one?" like damn bro we get it you fw dragons (literally 😹)
Given how calm he is he prefers slow and sensual. It's only when he's truly curious that he'd be like hmm...it certainly wouldn't hurt to try (prepare for his godly stamina to have you on the brink of death btw). also, there's no way he wouldn't request for his hair to be pulled 😮💨
Kung Lao
Kung Lao my beloved. Morphs into alpha with huge muscles and impeccable imagination. Kung Lao, the egotistical and prideful man he is would think he has the up on you simply because he brought it up before you did. This fine ass man can and will come prepared on his own, case full of toys and all
And if I said he likes to be tooted up with music in the back and you pulling his hair while being used like a barracks bunny, would you arrest me?? For speaking TRUTH? He's a whore your honor
He don't give a damn about slow and steady but he'll do it if you want to. Just know it will never end in slow and steady, the pace always seems to be picked up and all of a sudden he's strap-warming you as a punishment (he literally wanted this to happen)
Idek what more to say Kung Lao is a slut and I need him in a way that's concerning to women's suffrage. I will make that hat chucking dimple having sexy ass man a fucking mother, just you wait. [he is one of the first I will breed]
#n3ptoonz#mk1#mortal kombat#mortal kombat 1#smut#bi han#kung lao#kuai liang#tomas mk1#bi han sub zero#liu kang#kenshi takashi x reader#kenshi takahashi#raiden mk1#raiden x reader#liu kang x reader#kuai liang x reader#bi han x reader#kung lao x reader#tomas vrbada x reader#johnny cage#johnny cage x reader#mk smut#tomas vrbada#fluff#mk1 kung lao#smoke mk#mk smoke#sub zero
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Dyk Vio? The Smart Part Of Four Well I came To Ask For a Request From Him Specifically And I've Been Thinking About Him Lately And I just Want To Fill Him With So Many Kisses That He gets Dizzy And Dumb
And My Request Is Exactly That, Where Reader Kisses Him So Much That He Gets Drunk With Love Idk I Like The Idea Of Making The Intelligent One A Little Stupid
Hi Anon! Sorry for such a long wait, I'm here to deliver a request that was long overdue.
Enjoy it though and I apologise if he seems out of character.
Content under cut:
Could you really blame yourself for wanting this?
Your boyfriend, Four—or well should you say boyfriends. The colours had split after a little miscommunication, All angry at one another for silly, petty reasons might you say.
Red, Green and Blue had all left the comfort of your house leaving the lonesome yet calm Vio on the couch reading as per usual. "Whatcha all fighting about now?" You questioned which he only hummed. "Nothing important, silly bickers amongst us. It'll pass" Vio flips to the next page of the his book.
"Whatcha reading?" You asked as you sat down beside him, taking a peak at the cover. "Old Hylian history, something you obviously won't be interested in" Vio says, on purpose just to tease you which made you huff. "You're right. That sounds really boring, we could do something much more fun." You suggest with a cheeky smile which caused him to glance your way.
"Oh yeah? How so?" Vio asked, licking his finger before turning the page.
"Well, since you guys have spilt I realise just how much time I spend away from each of you individually. Of course I spend all my time with Four but with you all one by one? I don't recall our last conversation"
"Hm, it's just more rational. So none of us get jealous of the other and we all have our own share." Vio answers simply. "Plus, why are you bringing this up now? You trying to butter me up or something?" Vio teases which made you grin.
"Well, we're alone. House to ourselves and we don't know how long the others would be until they come back" you say in an innocent tone but your suggestive words said otherwise. "They'll probably be back in an hour or so—" "So we have an hour? Better be quick. Stay still" "What? Stay still—"
He's quiets down when he felt your lips against his. He felt hesitant at first, sure he's kissed you before but only when he's Four...This was new, sorta?
However it doesn't take much for him to come to his senses as kiss you back, cupping the side of your face gently. He felt all giddy inside, this makes him feel so alive. You move forward, shifting your body across his lap so that you were now straddling his lap while wrapping your arms around his neck.
The sensation was overwhelming, overpowering but he didn't want it to end. However, pulling away for a quick breather you looked down on him. How adorable he looked, looking up at you and panting slightly, already so heated and you only gave him one kiss! You didn't say anything, however you leaned down and peppered his skin with light kisses, making sure to brush over his lips a few times making him jolt with excitement.
"Just a few kisses and you look a bit flushed" you comment with a knowing grin which made him huff. "Don't tease me." Vio huffs as his pale cheeks were dusted with a pink hue. Capturing his lips in an unexpected move made his heart beat quicken, never have you been this bold before. Kisses he was used to receiving were tender and careful, these kisses now are filled with passion and heat, he craves for more.
It was honestly so cute how quick he went from being 'calm and collected' to a complete flustered mess.
10 minutes have passed.
20 minutes have passed.
30 minutes have passed.
40 minutes have passed.
A long, torturous time for Vio. Being coddled and loved on like never before. He looked drunk...drunk in love. His hands squeeze your hips as if a sign for you to continue on with your delicious kisses he craves but you only giggle. You would teasingly move in close to his lips and move back when he leans in, poor boy. Getting his hopes up~. He would whine and try to pull you in, you were thinking about giving him a few more kisses until you looked at the nearby clock.
Sheesh! 40 minutes gone by already?
"Should we wrap things up? The other boys may come back any second now, wouldn't want them to catch us" you say teasingly. Vio glances at the clock. "Knowing them, they'll be back around in 10-20 minutes..." he informs.
"Not much time, huh? Just when I was having fun too" You smile as you went to get off his lap but instead his strong arms were now wrapped around your waist pulled you in. "Let them see, if anything 10-20 minutes is long enough for me to finish what you’ve started”
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Honestly, this is my first time with such a request like this so I hope it was decent!
Guilty because I’ve had this in my drafts for a while but I wasn’t sure if it was good enough or if it was out of character.
#linked universe x reader#lu x reader#link x reader#x reader#lu four#Vio#lu vio#lu colors#lu red#lu green#lu blue
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see on one hand i wanna take care of carmy but on the other hand i want him to take care of me. like idk i feel like a night of use ranting to each other and crying in each others arms would heal me, ya know?
YES. YES. Taking care of each other isn’t cute unless it’s a two way street! It’s give and take
Carmy comes home late. He thought he'd come home early today, but of course it didn't work out that way. He's pissed and grumpy and tired. You're already in bed, which makes sense. It's really late, after all. When he gets in by your side, he sees that your eyes are swollen.
He's stressed from work, sure. Always is. But when he sees you so upset, he just tucks away the frustration, the leftover anger that's still left simmering for later. You're more important.
You don't mean to start crying. you really don't. but carmy's right there in front of you, sweet and concerned, and you just start bawling. He holds you close, thumbs away your tears. it was one of those days where every single little thing goes wrong, all piling on top of one another. He listens to you talk, gently pries you open when you start clamming up, watches you intently. He cares so much.
After you calm down and ask Carmy about his day, he doesn't think it'll make him cry, but it does. The emotion feels more potent than just frustration from work. He doesn't recognize where it comes from, but maybe it's just grief at work as it always does, coming out of nowhere. He's crying and he hates it, hates crying in front of people, but you reassure him softly and hold him tight.
"Everytime I think I'm doin' okay, something fuckin' awful just comes out of nowhere and it--it just--it just beats the shit out of me." Carmy laughs, the sound a bit hollow. He's not sobbing his eyes out anymore, but he's still a little sniffly. "Y'know?"
"Fuck, all the time. I feel that all the time. I..." You take in a breath that feels just too sensitive, hits you somewhere a little too soft, and tears are spilling all over again. "It's--it's just like, g-gimme a break. Like, life shouldn't be this hard."
"Yeah," he whispers, thumbs chasing the tears on your cheek. "It shouldn't be." And then he starts crying again. It's just one of those nights where it's impossible to stop once it starts. He tells you later that it was something about seeing you cry that made him tear up again.
Yeah...I think there'd be something special about crying in each other's arms. It'd feel much better than crying alone.
#carmy berzatto#carmen berzatto#carmy berzatto x reader#carmen berzatto x reader#the bear#jeremy allen white#carmy berzatto x you#carmen berzatto x you#my asks#my blurbs#i think crying in his arms would fix me.
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<climbs in through your windows and falls fca first onto the floor>
Hey so uh I don't remember if you found a third to Huohua and Hana's team and I just wanted to jump in real quick with a suggestion that I think is around the same age as them-
Nara Ensui
My reasons are thus:
1. While the Ino-Shika-Cho trio is a big thing, clearly not all Yamanakas/Naras/Akimichis can be in one of those cells, and based on the naming convention, it seems to mainly apply to the clan heirs/main family, probably for political relations reasons
2. Ensui (seemingly) wears eyeliner and I feel like that should make him pivotal to the plot
I did actually choose someone to be their third on the team !! They're getting stuck with Kabuto bc I find him fascinating and it'll be a fun way to get Houhua dropped onto Orochimaru's radar
However Ensui is such a fun choice too, I might have to put him in my back pocket for later use. Ur so right, any character w eyeliner immediatley deserves to be elected for plot significance
I will say, I think it'd be so fun if he was added and we did play with like. There weren't enough kids to make an even number of ino-shika-choi teams. Do u think he'd feel left out? How do you think he'd be chosen to be the one excluded that year? So many fun thoughts ,,
Might have to play with that later actually, I like the crumbs of that narrative. Idk if Houhua is gonna pass the chunin exam yet so if he doesn't, maybe his second team can include him? Hana would pass for sure, and Kabuto's whole thing is that he fails it every year.
Actually quick side, note: the fact that this is possibly Kabuto's first chunnin exam (how old is he again ?? I don't fucking remember but not that old) is interesting too, he won't know what he's going into like he does other years
Anyways team (whatever number) my beloveds <3
Does their team number change w the teachers they're given ? Bc like, they were handed to Kakashi first, which would make them team 7 (for like half a day) but after that, are they still team 7? Could be cute if they're called smthn like team 7 and a half
Their team number is constantly shifting w each new teacher they're thrown at, the other teams just start calling them team 7 and a half to make fun of them and it sticks
Team 7 and a half my beloveds <3
Actually. Thinking ab Kabuto now. Having thoughts. Experiencing emotions.
I do think the most interesting result in Houhua being on a team w him would be he recognizes that Kabuto wants to fail the exam on purpose, then somehow, some way, tricks or corners him into passing.
VERY big wrench in Kabuto's plans and Houhua is suddenly on his list of least favorite people. He has BEEF. No idea how we'd get there tho, or if I even wanna fr take it there, I just think it'd be interesting.
ANYWAYS UHH
While I'm here and talking ab the au, take this comment from the vault fic chapter where I posted about the au:
I absoloutley think Jun and Kisame should get to know eachother for sure, itd be so fun !! Idk how exactly, but if nothing else Kisame seems to be great at handling standoffish ice prince bitches (*cough* Itachi *cough*) so he should be surprisingly good w interacting w Jun !
Which also brings up the fact that like. Jun and Itachi interacting would be the funniest thing ever. Because before Itachi hearing that Houhua has some mystery relationship w this guy, they're probably just standing next to eachother in dead silence (it's very peaceful)
But then Jun gets potentially rather violently recruited into Akatsuki, so now he's being very frosty (they are still standing together in dead silence)
And then by the time he melts a little, Itachi has noted the weirdness w Houhua. And now he's being super frosty and incredibly passive aggressive. And also possibly plotting a silent murder.
But Jun has no fucking clue who Houhua even IS so he literally has nothing he can say to explain this shit to calm Itachi down. And also does not care enough to even try to explain. And also Itachi is Itachi and isn't explaining why he himself is mad anyways so Jun has no fucking way of knowing why he's even mad. Or even telling that he is mad bc hes shit at reading people
(They are still standing next to eachother in dead silence)
Kisame comments on how whenever they're w Jun, Itachi is the most animated he's ever seen him. Very impressive work there Jun!
I do not think that Itachi would make a conscious plot to pretend to be in a relationship with Kisame. But I do think it'd be really fucking funny if Itachi, completely without thinking it through, blurts out that he's in a relationship w Kisame w some very vague (and possibly a little manic) only half-thought idea of making Houhua jealous.
Kisame is ???????? but doesn't argue bc Itachi is... probably going somewhere with this? Tho he doesn't understand where.......?
Itachi immediately regrets it (his face is still dead blank and unreadable, but he's screaming internally) but refuses to backtread bc that's embarrassing. He has never admitted to a mistake in his life, and he is not going to start here. (Kisame is going to RUTHLESSLY make fun of him for all of this later, and he will deserve it)
Itachi also blurted this out like. Totally unprompted and probably in the middle of a battle. No one (especially not Houhua) fucking asked. So Houhua, very very confused, goes "????? Good for you ???????? You still murdered our entire clan tho so um ?? I'm gonna keep fighting u? If thats ok?"
(No one in this conversation is leaving with their dignity intact)
I THINK ITD BE SUPER INTERESTING IF HE DID ACTUALLY? Hmm I might have to think ab that one. I wanna make sure all the mangekyou awakenings in this au are as heavy and significant as they really should be, yk? So idk if I'd wanna use Houhua's play dead jutsu for it, it'd feel a bit cheaper to me, just a bit. But then if I played it right ig it could be as heavy as it deserves. Mmmm, choices
Kabuto and Houhua are making direct eye contact going "I smell a rat in here and I KNOW it's not just me"
#this au remains one of my favorites#uchiha houhua#naruto#svsss#shang quinghua#birds asks#itachi uchiha#uchiha itachi#kisame#svsss sqh#yakushi kabuto#kabuto yakushi#birds fic talk#nara ensui#ensui nara#naruto au
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abbott elementary season 3 ep 1 & 2 REVEIWWWWW
idk why but I thought y'all might wanna hear what I thought about the season premierrrrrr!!!! it was so good and so chaotic. so many things going on at once.
when Janine walked out and revealed as district, I HAD A HEART ATTACK. but then the context helped. im just a little confused because didn't the Manny the district guy say Janine could go back into her class 1-2 days out of the week to teach?? or was it just to go around about hearing feedback?? it was so sad to see Janine's kids not caring about her presence and the super mean substitute. But, that one little boy, Alex, made my heart just warm!!!! It just reminded Janine why she's doing what she's doing!!!
omg and Janine and Gregory?? the way Janine HAD THE CONFIDENCE to go talk to Gregory about her feelings at the beginning of the school year??? like where did that bravery come out of, and she handled the rejection so well. like honey. I would have DIED. but also.... the way Gregory just... moved on???? well, I get why. bro has to protect himself, but like come on greggy boy, don't tell me YOU DONT just feel a little of love for Janine???? but I love the way writers handled it at the end. they didn't leave the awkwardness for the season and that is something I APPRECIATE. and at least we know that Gregory and Janine still want to be friends and still miss each other platonically.
am I being paranoid for being scared of Manny the district guy???? Like my boy Jacob had a point. Manny WAS giving me some crush vibes and it doesn't help how nice and genuine he is. LIKE IM LITERALLY FALLING FOR HIM. and his mom was a teacher??? I would love to see him more, but just not as another pawn in Janine and Gregory's relationship. but, I knowwwww better. and my girl QUINTAAAA will make us wait.
I think Janine is getting really confortable and friendly with the district crew and it's kind of scary me because if she gets TOO comfortable, she won't want to leave. I think when the fellowship ends, they'll offer her a permanent spot on the team and she'll want to take it but still teach at abbott.
Barbara was so cute this episode, with her makeup. and with how honest she was to the district. as some who works at a high school and has been dealing with a particularly horrible district and administration, Barbaras words hit too close to home. but she realized that the whole district team is essentially just 4 Janines with the power and position to make things happen. and I think she's really opening up to relying on the district more.
omg my girl Melissa. honey., I was so scared every time Gary made a marriage joke. and when he proposed I HAD A HEART ATTACK AND FOR A SPLIT SECOND I THOUGHT MELISSA WAS GONNA SAY YES and the rest of the season would be wedding planning. but as embarrassing and heartbreaking as it was for Melissa, she stayed true to herself and was mature to end the relationship. and my girl just crying made me cryyyyy omg. she looks so sad even though she was the one to break up with Gary, AND I KNOWWWWWW SHE'LL STILL BE HEALING. I don't think this is the last well see of Gary since he goes to the school every Thursday, but I think it'll be the end of their relationship permanently. but now that Melissa knows fs was wants to date and knows she doesn't wanna get married, I think she's gonna be in her exploration phase. HOEEEEE PHASSEEEE. god please send Melissa a gay awakening PLEASEEEEE. she needs a rebound and no better rebound than a woman. that would be so fun and so true to her.
but yeah thats all I think so far. and it was a great epsidose and a great start to an already unpredictable season!!!
#abbott elementary#janine teagues#gregory eddie#melissa schemmenti#barbara howard#jacob hill#ava coleman#episode review#kalies abbott reviews
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Ok so i’m new here but i was reading your blog n saw that you were giving advice and it seemed really good so i thought i could ask for some? (if that’s ok)
So basically i met this girl through my friend (who is also my ex but we’re super cool now so i don’t think that would be a problem, we dated before i came out as lesbian, and he came out as gay so it worked out) and i thought she was really cute. I told my friend ab it and he asked if i wanted him to tell her and i said no bc what?? i no where near have the confidence to just tell people i like them��😭.
But anyways that was the first week of my freshman college semester (i’m ab to be a sophomore). Since i never told her and we became friends pretty quickly, i thought the feeling had gone away. But she’s a very flirty friend (touching, saying things, etc) and i am very easy to get flustered. She’s also very caring and i think my feelings for her came back, stronger.
So the problem is we’re gonna be roommates this year and i feel like i should tell her but we’re so close now that i don’t want to mess anything up bc in reality (i think) i would be completely fine staying friends but at the same time i really want to be with her, romantically and sexually, basically date her. But not only do i not want to mess things up i also don’t have any experience doing ANYTHING, like not even kissing or anything, and i feel like that would be embarrassing. Soooooo idk what to do. 😀 Any advice at all?
Also can i have this emoji pls🦔
hi there! alright, so this is definitely a very risky situation because there really is no guarantee that if you confess, your feelings would be reciprocated, and that can lead to some amount of awkwardness. however, i do think that the longer you continue to hold those feelings in, the harder it'll be for you, given the fact that she's clearly very flirtatious towards you and you two are so close, not to mention the fact that you guys will soon be roommates.
i know that it's scary, trust me i do, but you miss 100% of the shots you don't take (very cliché i know, but it's true). if you do end up telling her how you feel and she reciprocates those feelings, i don't think your lack of experience would be a problem, so don't worry about that.
i really hope that i've been able to give you some amount of useful advice. good luck, i'm rooting for you!
also, yes, you can have that emoji :)
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Lupe…. I have to know…. Is Love and Deepspace ((I think that’s the name of the Otome??)) Is it worth it. Yap to me about this other Otome… convince me to cheat on the Obey Me demons for a time (not that I’d ever abandon them fully they got my brain in a chokehold)
AHAHQWJEEH hi vic !!
edit: this got LONG LMAOOO so putting it under the cut
ohmygod okay so like JJjwjwnqqj IM SORRY THEY'RE SO HOT !!!! i want to punch sylus in the face so bad but then like make out with him after LMAOO
and zayne holy fuck is his backstory tragic as hell it makes me want to bawl every time i think about it, he is my fave
i think i love them both because they feel very "i choose you. I am choosing you and i am going to keep choosing you, no matter what"
The fact that you can customize your mc (but it's only a fem version) is both cool and overwhelming bc it can get SO detailed if you want, like you can switch the face structure and stuff
And the CARDS !!! there's the interactive one's where it's like a story and cutscenes and it clips away to an outside pov sometimes, and recently the cards have been more suggestive since sylus came out especially
but it's so fucking cool ?? and there's like the one's called "secret times" where you get to just listen to the ml talk. I haven't actually listened to one in a while so I can't remember if mc even has written dialogue. But it's sweet, i think i remember one from the beginning with zayne where you travel to a hot spring together? and one that's talked about a lot is them taking care of the mc when they're dealing with cramps
i will say the story is really cool and interesting and I'm so excited to see where it goes, but a lot of the romance is more so behind the cards. The lore is really sick though. And the battle system is pretty engaging, I'm not used to like ig point and click stuff? But i also don't play a lot of games lmaoo
genuinely i love this game, and i find the 3D models really nice, but my phone hates it akdjwj. Idk what kind of phone you've got but it'll force close on me
ALSO the photo booth !!! you get to take photos with the characters and it's SO CUTE !!! and there's mini games in there too that you earn points to use in the various shops. That claw machine has nothing against me. Here's some photos with my mc and Zayne !! (Basically Paula in another universe LOL)
mammon will always be my one true love, I'd choose him over anyone every time (sorry zayne). But yeah. I love this game and definitely think you should play !!! sylus keeps growing on me rahhh
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coming home after a long vacation - txt beomgyu
a/n: I hope you enjoy. I haven't written in a fat minute so yeah :)
beomgyu x f!reader (idk I don't use pronouns after often but maybe words that imply a certain gender?)
you and beomgyu have been together for about a year now and in that time, you had never once been the one to go far away. he was the one leaving for tours and you'd stay behind in the city to do school work and occasionally watch any pets they left behind (soobin trusts you so much and always prefers to leave his son odi with you. bless him he's so cute). anyways, the point is that you had been talking with some of your cousins and they had coaxed you to come back to your hometown for your week of spring break. once you told beomgyu what you wanted to do, he tried to play it off like it was all okay but inside, he was sad that you were leaving. He knew he couldn't really say no because he knew how much you missed your cousins and you're an adult, you can make your own plans without anyones permission. He told you to have fun and he made sure to send you off with some of his clothes and some gifts for your family. he always tried his best to appeal to your family and create a connection with them and they loved him for all the effort he put in, even if it was from a whole different country. he's so cute, when you packed your luggage, he snuck in his favorite sweater and a little tube of her cologne so you would remember him. he knows you won't be gone for very long but he still has a fear in the back of his mind that you'll forget about him and move on. assure him you're only his and he'll be the happiest little clam.
the day he leave, he has a driver take the both of you to the airport so that he could see you off. he hugs you and holds your hand the whole way to the airport. baby boy wishes he could go but he knew he had a lot of work to do for their upcoming tour. when your gate opens, he frowns and gives you a hug and a kiss. "please go and come back safely, loser." he smiled and tried to mask how sad he felt. you can see through him because you know how he is. he tries to hide his emotions. give him a hug and assure him you'll be right back before he knows it. maybe even leave something behind for him at home like a teddy bear with your perfume sprayed. he finally lets you go and lets you get to your flight. he waits until you're in and then leaves. he gets in the van and a few tears slip while he's getting back home. the boys try their best to support him but they know it'll be hard. They get him playing some video games and he feels a little bit better.
omg he is always texting you. it can be anything from a cute 'I miss you' or a picture of huening kai doing a handstand. he knows you miss him but also the boys so he tries to keep you updated on them as well. he pouts when you ask for odi updates and soobin texts you to tell you that he was acting like a baby with a pout and his arms crossed over his chest. oh my god when he finds your teddy that you left behind, he is gushing and holding it all over the dorm. he brings it to the table when they eat, places it in his lap when he's playing a game at night, etc... it's always with him. the boys find it so endearing that he cares about something you gave him so much. they try to take it from him and he gets mad. taehyun took it from him in the middle of the night and the next morning, beomgyu was worried because thought he lost it. when he sees the bear in taehyuns bed, he finds him and wrestles him. he apologizes and just says it's because he misses you a lot.
when you finally come back home, beomie is at the airport waiting for you with a sign he and the boys decorated and a pretty bouquet of your favorite flowers (or cookies, do they make cookie bouquets because I want one). once he gets a glimpse of you, he's smiling like an idiot and waiting for you to get to him. he hugs you so tight and frowns when the bouquet gets a little crashed because he was too excited. "sorry." he smiles and hands it to you anyways. he shows you the sign and it was 'welcome back' with a bunch of messages written all over it from the boys. when you finally see them again, they beg you to never leave again. they playfully exaggerate how sad and upset beomgyu was and you're there to comfort him and glare at the boys.
safe to say, you don't wanna go anywhere anytime soon.
(hope you liked it ! box is open for suggestions/requests !!)
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For the nightmare hoard (idk what else to call them lol)
How do they feel about humans (also use this ask to add some information that you want to tell us about them if u want)
Hehe I like you calling them the Nightmare Hoard...
Glacial: They don't really care too much about humans? I mean, they're just people that also exist. Glacial doesn't go out of their way to avoid humans, but also won't go out of their way to try to talk to them. They just exist together. Of course they can't be too close to humans for too long because of the fact that they're really cold.
Cuppy: He loves humans! He thinks that they're so fun to hang out with! Course he likes monsters more, but humans are pretty cool to him. He wishes that they wouldn't try to bite him though… or they make puns based off him being based off a cupcake ;n;
Ber: Ze hates humans… mostly. Ze doesn't like them because a lot of the time, they'll mess with Ze by poking fun at being all pink! I bet you're so cute! Yeah, Ze doesn't like it and doesn't think it's funny. Don't take it too personal though, Ze doesn't like pretty much anyone. It takes a lot for Ze to like someone enough to hang out with them.
Toxi: it doesn't really mind humans too much? Sometimes it wishes that they wouldn't treat it like they do, but hey, it can't complain too much! It'll hang out with people, but won't let anyone touch it, because it doesn't want anyone to get hurt. It wants to be friends with a lot of people, but it feels like it doesn't deserve it.
Minty: Eh, she doesn't really care too much about humans… I mean, like, they're sorta just there? She doesn't like it when they make a joke about Christmas with her because haha… yeah, like I don't hear that one every day! Minty loves jokes! Like, really, she really does, but not when she hears the same one every day. She gets along with kids more than adults.
Hots: He doesn't mind humans! Shocking, I know lol. The only thing that he does mind, is that they often act as though he's too dangerous to be around. A lot of people avoid him, and that makes him mad so he heats up and that just proves their point, but he's good at controlling his heat! He's just hot, not burning all the time…
Sticks: Another that doesn't mind humans. He kind of likes them more than monsters, but also doesn't want them to bug him too much with sweets. He gets along well with kids, but sometimes they try to lick him and he finds it really weird! Haha. I think he would get along with a lot of humans, though, and he has fun trying to make friends.
Drippy: He doesn't mind humans all that much :) honestly, sometimes he'll even help them out by giving them water if it's too hot! He normally goes to find people who are working and need water… it's really cute how nice he is to them. Other than that, he doesn't care about them too much.
Ichor: He hates humans! >:( they're dumb, gross, and weird! To tell the truth though, he doesn't want to be around them just because they kind of scare him. He isn't sure if they'll like him, so he normally lashes out before they have a chance to not like him for how he really is. Plus, you know, a lot of people think he's freaky anyway cause he's made out of blood.
#1/14/2024#Glacial#Cuppy#Ber#Toxi#Minty#Hots#Sticks#Drippy#Ichor#Nightmare AU#undertale alternate universe#undertale headcanons#undertale au#undertale imagines
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okay watching my way through the gmmtv 2025, trailers lets gooo!
— dare you to death: this one actually looks like it could be fun! historically i'm not the biggest JoongDunk girl but they suit this sort of action genre well (seems they're escaping the uni bls between this and THK haha and I approve.) Imma keep my eye on it!! Feels like something I'd enjoy. Also side-note but i got all excited when i saw Pahn in the trailer. But is she the one who gets poisoned right off? I hope not, but I didn't notice her pop up again in the trailer after that intro sooo. anyway she was the actual highlight of My Love Mix-Up Th for me and I'd love to see more of her!
— head 2 head: initially i was like oh this looks like it's trying to do bad buddy vibes (less well lol) or smth but then it got a supernatural twist?? it ended up looking quite sweet, but i probably won't check this one out unless I see cute stuff from it all over my dash haha. I feel bad about that bc I LOVED Keen in 'Only Boo!' and he seems like a sweetheart here too. (i'd be interested to see him in a different pair sometime but the chances feel unlikely with the way gmmtv works lol)
—burnout syndrome: no real thoughts on this but that one character's art style is quite pretty? honestly i still have to finish Not Me (I loved it so far but never got past like ep 3 😭) and don't have many opinions regarding OffGun yet. Again, I'll see how my dash influences me or not. I will say there's a distinct underlying vibe to the trailer (which does feel reminiscent of Not Me) so I'll keep an open mind
—Whale Store xoxo: CUTE GL SIGN ME UP!! i hope to love this more than 23.5, MilkLove deserve that from me. Also eyy, not a high school show--nice!! And did you SEE the cute lil shots and the MONTAGE at the end and and and?? teeheehee. Going on the watchlist.
—Only Friends: Dream On: okay so Only Friends take 2 but different actors really did end up a reality, huh? Was feeling kinda meh but then Boston showed up ahah. Not sure how much he'll feature, though. And I have QUESTIONS. Why is he still out here helping ppl with final projects, did he not end up going to the U.S., and what about Mix walking into the end of s1? OH WAIT. sorry this sorted out in my head just now. I bet this takes places at the same time as S1. Boston probably knew both groups while in school, but was less in with these guys. (So like, imagine—when Mix enters the scene in s1, does that lead into a universe where BOTH of these messy groups end up merging into one giant flaming ultra-mess?) Anyway I'm still obsessed with the original OFTS but I don't necessarily expect to check this one out. Side-note: I do miss the more grungy aesthetic ngl, but I guess we owed a lot of that to Sand.
—That Summer: Neo!! sorry he showed up in the first few seconds and it made me happy. Prince Satang washed up on the beach. That shot is giving genderswap little mermaid hahaha. I'm not like super gripped by the trailer overall BUT it'll probably check it out for the actors? Congrats to them for getting main leads!! (Also Fawn if u see this YOU WERE RIGHT. Royalty SatangWinny was on your bingo card, you called it.)
—My Romance Scammer: Probably won't watch this series but heyyy, look at them using weddings as part of the plot! Also. MarkJunior! (They were the best part of Cherry Magic Th for me.)
—Melody of Secrets: Idk could be interesting? I mean there's murder and mysteries, so. Not at the top of my list tho. But: Jan!! She's been amazing in every series. If I check this out she will likely be the reason.
—Love you teacher: boy u don't sign up to be a teacher to follow your boyfriend and then learn to enjoy children along the way. YOU NEED TO CHOOSE THIS JOB BC U LIKE AND CARE ABOUT KIDS OR THAT ISN'T FAIR TO THEM OMG. yeah I work with children, this is personal haha. Okay sorry, paused the trailer to rant i'll be right back.
... okay that was a plot twist uh. i don't think this one is for me lol
—MU-TE-Luv: So like, overall I'm 'eh' on this but it has Jan and Keen and Jamie and Neo in drag?? I feel like there's too many plots to hold together, though. 7 pairs, that is a LOT. Might enjoy some of it through tumblr gifs haha
—Cat for Cash: Cackling at the voiceover "i'm a debt collector" as First rolls around with a pile of kitties LMAO. These silly vibes remind me that, OH YEAH, I love his comedy work. (This Shipper and his scenes in Wake Up Ladies??) Oh my GOD did that woman have special cat-whispering powers and then transferred them to First in death?? This could be fun wait. Comedy First + supernatural element, always good. Oh and here's Khao looking so pretty :) FK vibes are FK-ing... look at them pulling OFF this cute fluff piece! <3 *stamps emphatically* WATCHLIST (ok hits unpause) ... SATANG?? ooo 👀 Also sorry I know he's all sad but... laughing as Khao's character cries and starts his list of reasons for running off with "the cats here hate me" 😂 / first: THE CATS ALWays TELL ME HOW MUCH UR MOM LOVED U lmao this is so unserious i love it. Leave it to me to have the most exciting piece on the list be the FK one. And I also get a dose of Satang! (Good to know that even if I drop That Summer I'll still have him somewhere! <3) Anyway didn't expect to be as hyped for this title as I am but HERE WE ARE
—Girl Rules: pretty pretty pretty. THIS LOOKS FUN, I love the messy love triangle vibes hehe. I hope we actually get to see the mixed-up pairing moments too, like a real shot of the NamtanLove kiss etc 👀 it's giving slightly toned-down fem only friends. Let them kiss everybody pls pls. Regardless, I'm hyped for this one !!
—Boys in Love: oh, side couple has the guy who played Half in MLMU. He was good in that. Probably won't watch it but *shrug*
—My Magic Prophecy: Not many thoughts but this could be good? I'll keep my eye on it
—A Dog and A Plane: Unexpected but I might keep my eye on this too! Looks fun.
—Me and Thee: I mean it's PondPhuwin, of course I'll give this a go. Look like it could be entertaining :)
—Wu: They're really leaning into the fortune-teller aesthetics this year haha, this is like the 4th trailer featuring tarot cards i think?
—Mamoir of Rati: AouBoom leads WHEN?
—Ticket To Heaven: OOH we digging into the religious themes and guilt here huh. GemFourth IN DRAMA ROLES AGAIN, THEY HEARD ME!! YES!! YESSSEUGIHI. ugh Fourth acting his lil heart out. I am SEATED. Darn we ended on a high note here HUH. This might be one of my faves in the bunch actually
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Obviously my dash might pull a couple things to the forefront for me—and I might check out but then ditch some things— but as of now these are my reactions! Gotta say it's a SHAME that there are only two GLs though. Cry. But overall I am HIGH KEY looking forward to some stuff xD
A recap for the benefit of my future self haha:
Dare you to Death - joongdunk Whale Store xoxo - milklove That Summer (?) - satangwinny Cat for Cash - fk Girl Rules - multi gl My Magic Prophecy (?) - jimmysea A Dog and A Plane (?) - taynew Me and Thee - pondphuwin Ticket To Heaven - gemfourth
Anddddd. Now we wait! 😂
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Ok I've been drinking and it's truth telling time.
I've decided to leave my boyfriend of almost 3 years. This pains me because I do love him. But I don't want to be with him anymore.
We fight a lot. And it's always over something stupid. Like me asking what time we were leaving to meet up with his friends. (That was the most recent one)
Also I'm about 97 no 98% sure I'm a lesbian.
I used to think that thinking a guy was cute and getting along with him meant I liked him. I was wrong. I'm pretty sure I'm gay.
So a few days ago I decided to leave him. I've thought about it numerous times in the last year or so but I haven't done it because I do care for him. But caring for someone and wanting to be in a romantic and s%xual relationship with them are two different things. If we didn't live together I probably would have left him a long time ago. But we do.
Since we live together and it will take me some time to safe up enough to move (I can afford rent, I work full time and a decent paying job I just need a security deposit and moving expenses) it'll take me a couple of months to save the money, I have to pretend to stil be happy. I don't like this. It's only been a few days and I already feel like a piece of shit for lying to him. But it's what I have to do. I have no way of getting out right now, and no one i can stay with, as I have no close friends or family.
I told my work bestie about it. Well, about the leaving him part, not about the gay part. I don't really know why. I've said multiple times to multiple people that if things didn't work with him that I'd just date women. Everyone knows I'm bi. It just feels weird, in 2024, to be like, oh i just realized I'm gay.
But anyways
Tonight I went to saphic night at the club he works at. And I felt so awkward. Idk if it was because I had no one to dance with, bc everyone there i knew was working. Or bc it was sapphic night at my boyfriends bar.
I drank, I sang along to Chappell Roan and Renee Rapp. But I felt so weird. When the bridge to Good Luck Babe blared through the speakers I almost lost it. Maybe that's silly, but like I said I'd been drinking.
I talked to no one. One girl said she liked my dress and I almost asked if I could dance with her and her friends but I didn't.
When I was ready to go, my boyfriend walked me most of the way home, holding my hand the whole time. He'll be home in an hour or two, once it's all over and they mop and all that.
I think I've known for a long time that I was gay. Looking back it's obvious. I mean I've known that i was into women for a long time. Men can be attractive, I've just never felt with them what i do with women. Idk why I didn't let myself know.
Anyways. I'm rambling. Ignore me.
Like I said, I've been drinking. More than that. I'm drunk. I suld go to bed. But I'm a little dizzy and a little nauseous. So I don't really wanna lay down just yet.
Despite being drunk I'm still in my right mind. And I guess I'm just feeling like I need to tell someone how not super great I'm feeling right now. And so I'm telling th wonderful people of Tumblr dot com. Because why not.
I'd put this under a read more, but idk how to do that on mobile so too bad
That concludes whatever this is
Thank you for coming to my Ted talk.
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f1 asks 💓
thank u to my most special bby @mariahcarreyyy for the tag!! now lets get to it 🤭
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who is your favourite driver?
lando mf norris!!! don't think it'll ever change tbh
do you have other favourite drivers?
oscar, yuki, lewis and daniel are also drivers i like ;) of the veterans, i like seb and kimi. who can't???
who is your least favourite driver?
uhhhh idk. maybe esteban because i conform to the voices of the masses. but ig i just dont really pay attention to the ones i don't care for so 🤷♀️
acc nvm its george russell🧍♀️
do you pull for drivers or do you like teams as well?
sighhhh i dont know. ill probably support lando where ever he goes, but im a mclaren fan bcoz of him so perhaps even if he left, id still stand by the papaya
if you like teams, what team do you pull for?
mclaren......
how long have you been into F1?
literally only a year. thats why my allegiance is still wavering coz i havent been a fan for long. im a stronger football (⚽️) fan
what got you into F1?
lando norris lol. i just remember seeing him in passing and was like 'oh hes cute, who is he?' and its funny becuz i didn't even like him for a WHILE because i saw some biased opinion on him somewhere, without knowing a thing abt him 😭😭
how do you view new fans?
cannot hate em coz i am one... ish. tho, i was so hesitant to get into f1 becuz at the time, there was sudden surge of new fans who liked charles and it was all they were seen as. and i did not want to be associated with them, dont ask 💀
if you could take over as team principal for any team, who would it be and why?
ferrari because they could use my powerful ass mind. or maybe vcarb so i can have access to yuki pookie's cooking 24/7
are your friends and family into F1 as well?
nope just me. i have one friend whos a ferrari fan tho and we only talk when its race weekend LMAO
are you open to talking to other fans/making friends?
yes yes yes !!! 1000%
tagging anyone who wants to do it !!
#tag game 💓🫧#this has been in my drafts since friday ... answers are prbly lackadaisical since i was sick asf 😭
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Hello i am also a stranger and not involved in the rp you speak of
What's your favorite ships/friendships/dynamics/etc in the rp? And maybe some hcs you wanna share?
Hello random stranger who I don't know
I'm so so obsessed with Spinner/Dabi of course... Four years and they only just now admitted they might be gay for each other that's crazy work. Their wedding will be beautiful. They should like. Start a family or something idk idk. The parallels between their trauma and their responses to it... augh. Also I find it very cute that Dabi's been almost exclusively wearing his hoodies for the last year or so
The StainAngel/DabiRei/Shu dynamic is going to be off the walls they're so funny together. Dabi and Stain bounce off each other so well in scenes they give me horrible brainrot
And Jin and Stain of course <33 I always forget we're the only ones based enough to ship them I think everyone should get on board with it. They're gonna hurt me so bad when we start ruining their relationship (●´□`) /pos In the meantime though they're very cute they deserve an au where they are just happy and chilling methinks
And ofc Dabi and Kurogiri have been going longer than time itself /j I have to mention them. Goths for life
Okie okie headcanons time yaaaay
(Recovery arc) Kurogiri and Dabi are usually up because Kurogiri's making sure Dabi doesn't die and Dabi's bad at taking care of themself. Spinner's also usually awake "playing video games" but A.) he can't stand playing them because they make him think about Tomura and it freaks him out B.) he's too anxious to sleep so he's lowkey watching everybody too
Teehee Stain's literally refused to be around anyone outside of "work" or give anyone any personal information of his since before he killed his parents and he wasn't out before then so he's literally never had anyone use his chosen name for him I've been keeping it in my arsenal for ages it's gonna be so good when he's chill enough I can whip it out Chizome pls pls pls hurry up with your friendship arc /j
Tomura has used his gamer piss bottles for waterboarding purposes and he will do it again. Okay silly intermission over
All for One is extremely jealous that Ujiko gets to fuck his little and he doesn't. He makes Ujiko record their sex tapes and he puts them with the rest of their little collection of patient files. Also he designed their retirement home
Imma be so fr what do I even say for Kurogiri... Kurogiri my darling angel I have said so much about you already. Mwah. Kurogiri has horrible hoarding tendencies if JinJJ makes it anything it is going to make Sako marble it and it'll just have a massive tub full of marbles of shit it's never gonna use ever again
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8/20/24
8:59 a.m
My insomnia was a bitch last night. I had to double up for the first time in 2 days. I'm willing to tonight after putting in much effort but the following day I'm SOL I won't raise my tolerance. It'll come down to weed tomorrow worse case.
I fell asleep by 1 a.m... it's really getting to me.
Let's go over my potential subclinical hyperthyroidism symptoms:
1) Insomnia....
I dont think there are others...
-muscles twitching: seems directly related to metopolol and have seemed to slow down and almost stop since stopping the meds.
-pooping: has went back to 2-3× a day. The 5 times that one day was directly linked to having over 39 grams of fiber in one day.
- Sweating/Heat intolerance: Not suffering from those.
-Heart Rate: Seems to be within normal range.
- Frequent Urination: I mean I drink a lot of fluids. It can easily be the explanation. Before bed I drink a cup of tea with my cigarettes.
-weight loss: my caloric in-take is low. I would be losing weight like a mother fucker if I was hyper.
-Anxiety: well I mean insomnia triggers me so much it's always extreme.. and okay so my thyroid nodules gave me anxiety randomly last night. Maybe we can say my anxiety is worse..... but idk it could also be that I care about myself and my sister had thyroid cancer and I didn't want to process that my thyroid grew another nodule despite it being smaller. And of course, my thyroid is of major interest to me atm bc of being sub clinically hyper..
- Appetite: I've had a slight increase in appetite but it seems normal. Every 4-6 hours. When I was hyper I was hungry every 2 hours... now I just feel hungry when I think a normal human body should.
Okay moving forward from that:
- is xanax losing its effectiveness? I don't think so but it crosses my mind.. yet some nights it works fine.
- or is my anxiety bad right now and it's keeping me from falling asleep quickly..
- is it the game I play before bedtime. It's fun it's call ice age adventure. Elise if you're here idk if your kids are too old to enjoy it but I think it's super fun and cute and they may love it. Nonetheless it's bright. And I play right before solitaire. It could be effecting it.
circadian rhythm: is it being effected by multiple nights of falling asleep later due to insomnia despite all the efforts I make to keep it so I can fall asleep by 11:30 p.m..
- then I think a wild thought what if my body is like if we don't sleep he will give us more? I mean it seems stupid cause it knows damn well that sure 2 days in a row I will but day 3 you're fucked. I'll make you pull an all nighter. I'm keeping my circadian rhythm I'll throw myself in the attic at 2 a.m if you won't sleep.
Gaming isn't a factor I haven't been gaming all my youtube videos are a week or 2 old being posted on a schedule.
Yesterday I had one red bull at 8 a.m. I had my v8 energy drinks too but stopped them at 2 p.m....
I mean I have had more tv time. But I mean of course I have. I'm running through my list of things to do and 90% of it at this rate costs me money I don't have so I can only do so much.
- bo4 hardcore barebones starts today. I have therapy and a physical. And I'm doing laundry so I can't really enjoy it today but starting tomorrow I'm going to be all in, I set up my week so I can enjoy it for as many days as possible. Although I have to go grocery shopping tomorrow.
- I am worried about money. Idk.
I suppose if I struggle tonight and tomorrow I'm going to do Methimazole everyday bc at that point I can't find another cause but it seems weird that it could be related to subclinical hyperthyroidism when I slept when I was hyper.
I don't think xanax is losing its effectiveness
I actually think my circadian rhythm has been thrown off too many nights in a row and maybe my tv is still a little too loud. If I turn it down anymore- the voice is going to be all i hear....
Maybe I can try being scared on YouTube on my tv with a sleep timer. His voice is low. And now my mental pictures are all sorts of normal and weird and I have control of them.
But yea I'm feeling hopeless. I'd rather follow my Dr original advice...but at some point as I take out the potential other causes it might be the only factor.
I think trying a lower TV show might be helpful. American dad has a lot of singing and screaming. It could be disrupting my ability to fall asleep or stay asleep. Technically I could be falling asleep quickly and waking up minutes later bc of a loud sound....
Or maybe it's just my circadian rhythm being thrown off. IDFK but I'm weighting every potential cause.
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Ohhhh Sam, THANK YOU SO MUCHHH I FEEL SO PROUD this term i was very busy with my auntie bwcause she was visting us (she lives in france and its been 4 years since she last visited) so i was busy with my cousins and trying to show them around before their time is over with us :(
SAM you ARE incredible😭 we work in a pharmacy together (she's a pharmacist, but I work with cosmetics), so yeahhh she's been talking about this whitening cleanser that has some great reviews, and she's not taking care of herself enough because our older siblings are troubles, so the house is full of drama all the damn time😭😡 and I might just try and buy that cleanser for her it'll be hard tho as we're in the same place but I may ask my brother who's working the night shift to get it (yes all my siblings are pharmacists I am the exception)😭
You absolutely seem like a birthday person it's obvious that you really love to gift people and see their smiles since you're always very kind💕 I hope you stay that way! But don't get yourself hurt. My mom says the kindest people get the most hurt :(
So you think the photo session would make her happy? Idk I'm always hesitant😭 I'll have to make a big-girl decision
I'm so happy to know that you're doing better. You deserve that girlie. Your hair seems so soft and fluffy and really healthy, which is awesome! I know I said my hair is a little longer than usual but it's not healthy🙈 lmao I'm a hijabi and spend most of my time out so when I get an opportunity to take care of my hair I do but I think I made my mind a few days ago I was combing my hair and I think long hear suits me. ANYWAYS THAT WAS NOT NEEDED BUT EHH
I just love self-care, so I love to talk about it. I'm not over the fact that I'm a junior, tho. Oh, btw I recently discovered that I have ADHD like.. it's not thar common here, but I had my doubts, but then I saw an interview with two kids one has ADHD and the other does not,I found myself acting like the other girl and it just snapped to me, but then again don't we all have ADHD😭😭
IM IN LOVE WITH FLOWER (I think that's it, right?😭 sorry!) I saw the new update I'll read it right after finishing my ranting session. Have you read any book from the Twisted series? I bought it recently and the first book is taking me ages to finish it, it's not boring but the chapters are heavily written.
Do you have any pets??? I love birds and cats, but I had two birds a few years back, but we were traveling constantly and it was hard to leave th so I gave them to my cousin but I think they run away😭 but! I reaaaally want a little kitten, duh.
Sam thank you so much for helping take care pleaaase🩷🩷🎀
Oh btw a question just popped. Do you ever wonder about the anons? Like their names and stuff, I find MYSELF wondering lol😭 yalla byeee🏃🏻♀️➡️
🎀-anon 🙈
OH WAIT I ALWAYS REMEMBER STUFF AFTER SENDING THE MESSAGE, TOOTHPASTE IS SO DEVINE!!!! I love that she's confident, she can't hold her tongue and it's just so cute that he asked her on a date on that note it was so cute you're always writing cute stuff I don't know if I'll melt from it or the weather
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That's so sweet you got to see your family 💕 My family is crazy and I love them but it's never relaxing when they're around. It's nice you got to see them after so long.
That's really cool you work with your family. It's nice! I'm sure your sister will appreciate the cleanser! Especially where it's something you talked about with her. The photo session would be nice too! I think that would be really special as well, so whatever you decide she will love I'm sure 💕
I think unfortunately your mom might be right. I hurt my own feelings more than anything. It's because I want a me in my own life to do what I do for others and it just doesn't happen lol. Shakespeare's got something on how expectation is the root of all heartache. It's very true. But thank you, I'm trying to be better about my self worth and whatnot and lower my expectations hahahahah
My hair is sometimes soft and definitely fluffy. One time I straightened it and my friend couldn't find me in the lunch room. The problem is that like one degree of moisture sets it into a complete frizz. It's looking healthier now but it looked pretty raggedy not too long ago 😂 I really love long hair though so it sounds like you made a good decision!
Idk what I have but I need to be studied 😂 I read a lot about how ADHD and anxiety presents differently in women than in men (naturally) so I probably have one or more diagnoses in my future. It's cool you connected with the person though and recognized similarities in yourself. Even just getting comfortable with the idea of being ADHD or whatever, I think, is an important step in coping and figuring out how to navigate everyday life ��� Hopefully that makes sense!
I have not read Twisted, but I've heard good things. I'm not sure I want something deep right now though. This tbr shelf of mine is out of control lol.
No pets for me. I'm pretty allergic to pet dander. Cats especially. I'm def more a dog person than a cat person as well. I love all baby animals though, kittens are so sweet!
I WONDER ALL THE TIME ABOUT MY ANONS. I think about everyone's name and where they live. It's really fun to imagine but I wish I could have a huge Harry Styles themed party and hug everyone.
I'm starting to really love toothpaste. I'm glad you liked it 💕
stay cool and don't melt! Much love 💕
xoxo
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