#IVE SPOILT MYSELF.

[houseofbreadpakoda]

BITCH.

PLEASE.

BE.

DISCIPLINED.

PERSEVERE.

EVERY.

DAY.

PLEASE.

[vampmcr]

why is it that ive been born into a family that knows how to push my buttons just right and make me feel suicidal just for them to bounce back like nothing ever happened whilst im there trying to pick up the pieces... like ive acc hit breaking point and why does 3 weeks in a psych ward sound like bliss to me right now

[tkbrokkoli]

oh i love oscar (i hope nothing bad happens to him)

[nature-played-a-trick-on-me]

Why is An Echo in the Bone so slow for the first half and then everything happens allll at once!!! I was reading while on a video call w the bf as he was reading for uni lol and I audibly went 'what the fuuuuuu' at the umpteenth major event in the second half.

[gottagetpig]

Im such a fast food addicted fatty and it feels so good. the amount of burgers and fastfood ive been having alongside all the junk ive had again this week, makes me feel like such a lardass and i love it... Each day i always seem to end up stuffing my face like a good piggy at a fastfood joint... Sometimes more than once.... I cant help it if a fatty like me wants to pig out on more and more junk, i deserve to be fed like the flabby pig i am. Im just doing what a greedy gluttonous lardass does best, gorge myself on burgers, fries, pizza and junk as my need for so much more grows like my soft body. And i wont stop anytime soon... I need so much more

I cant keep my hands off my soft fattening frame, feeling it grow softer and squishier with each day i spiral further into gluttony. Its just so good to stuff my lardy belly and feel my body swell with plush grabbable flab as the days go by. Feeling my tight clothes strain more and more as i greedily indulge on any food i can get my hands on, my fat bursting, tearing though them one by one. My mind filled with the desire for more, knowing that no matter how fat i get I'll always need to get fatter. Even as my belly spills outwards, a huge apron of flab reaching the floor, my rear threatens to trap me on couch or the doorframe, thighs so large they constantly rub together as i waddle to my next feast and even as my weight continues to climb ever higher it'll not be enough, never be enough. My fattening body should be worshipped as the temple of hedonistic gluttony it is destined to be. Pampered as im fed more and more fastfood and junk as my decadent gluttony and flab grows ever upwards. A spoilt piggy too addicted to being a flabby icon of laziness and gluttony to ever stop

[midwestemoismid]

Do you ever love a character so much you sorta steal your entire personality from them,,

<autism rant>

Cuz like I'm obsessed with Nicole from class of '09, if sorta stolen my whole humor from her, Which isn't really a good thing because shes kinda a piece of shit, the game revolves around her being a horrible person or trying to kill herself or something like that, I'm not like as mentally ill as her, but my humor has evolved to be similar to Nicole and ive sorta had this not care attitude. I've also been really jokingly mean to one of my best friends (he knows its a joke, thats our humor) but I accidentally did that to my little brother and felt SO bad lmao,, (he said something very obviously and I loudly go "yeah no fucking shit bitch" then started apologizing profusely) This other time I was playing blooket w/ that same friend and I did something that made him eat a fake burger and I went really loud "have this fucking burger you fat ass bitch" and hje just stared at me like wtf,, and the other person on the call (who I just met) was SHOCKED.

i'm not a bad person,, hes okay with me making those jokes btw

well im sorta a bad person but i'm working on that

i sorta hate having obsessions over character because i want to BE THEM. and it sucks even more when theyre a horrible person--and when theyre a girl,, cuz like i want to de-transition and become a terrible person and chane my name to Nicole WHAT THE FUCK WHY I DONT KNOW and like i had an alt acc on tiktok where i used she/her and named myself nicole and it was like a class of 09 fanpage sorta. and like i dont wanna be a bad person nor do i wanna hurt people feelings or be addicted to drugs AT ALL but like NICOLE🙏🙏🙏

this always happens when i have some sort of obsession. i dont typically have favorites but when i do its like an obsession

and like one other problem with being obsessed with nicole is i accidentally obsess over mental illness and (stuff i shouldnt obsess over), wich is really bad and unhealthy.

I gain little obsessions over certain things, like right now im REALLY obsessed with a game called "bad parenting" and it's a really really sad game. I wont spoil it but its genuinelly depressing and made me cry. after i saw it i wanted to hug my dad and tell him i loved him for being a good dad. ive been listening to the backround song on repeat for a bit, i might even draw fanart of it idk,, but i feel like i shouldnt be hyper obsessed with it

as a kid i also was really obsessed with "salad fingers" wich had a sadish theme to it, i kinda forget the plot but i thought it was interesting and how the main charecter was kinda messed up.

I also really like "little miss fortune" wich was also really sad. again i dont remember the plot my childhood is sorta a blur and i dont remember it well

"Sally face" is another sad game i liked. not gonna spoilt it but i loved the supernatural bit and there was a lot of death.

I also really love horror movies, ESPECIALLY horror movies that go into psychology. Like for example, saw is pretty interesting because its cool to see if people would rather cut of an arm or die. I know it's fake but it's still really cool.

Theres a lot i find interesting but i dont wanna sound like im actually insane lol

This ran went in so many placed i forgot what the original post was about😭 took me abt 2 and 1/2 class period to wright

If you read this all, thanks! If you relate reblog or comment (or make a new post and tag me) and tell me what charecter you relate to/obsess over

[s-omething]

hey max hey love i guess youre dating a crafts lesbian? or something. whenever i think about writing to you, quotes from love letters ive read come to my mind and i wish i could smash all of them down into a single thing and just put it in your mouth. i wish i could feed you all of it, all the loving quotes that live in my brain shaped with your face. “Damn you, spoilt creature; I shan’t make you love me any the more by giving myself away like this.” like Vita wrote. I wont lie, ive been terrified since that first day we started our own thread of words in this life. When you sneaked an "i love you", (maybe) thinking I wouldnt run to find out what it meant, I thought "max knows me". Because I feel like that gave me space to process, space to avoid pressure, space to feel all the fear i had of those words. I'm supposed to tell my therapist this, but i'm gonna tell you first. When you said it, i felt a sting. It's not your fault. I felt anxious and scared and all I could think was "fuck, im gonna ruin this". And then I thought of the delivery. The subtle way you did it, the open space for reaction, the way I myself was holding these words back from you, because of how scared I was. I couldnt figure out why the fear. I thought many things. I thought it was too soon, but then id ask myself who's timing was i trying to follow. I thought you didn't know me enough to love me but you proved me wrong right there at it. I thought I couldnt take it. I thought it was too much. It crushed me, I couldn't sleep anymore because i was obsessing over what I should do with it. Then I fell asleep. When I woke up and the fear had passed, I just made peace with the fact that there is nothing i can do but to keep on loving you the way I have been. I can't run away from it, and i dont want to. I can only stay, and give in to everything im feeling. Let you love me, no matter how strange and hard it might be. So i will.

[aamethyst000]

feeling so blue right now, i feel kind of stupid about it lmao - july 2,24 - 7:12pm

Dude, my 3DS fricken broke a couple of days ago and ive been sad about it ever since lmao i was almost done with my master quest on OoT!! how abosultely frusturatingg is THAT?! i was at the last temple, getting to the very last sage before finding out who sheik's other identity is. i didnt even get to start over on majoras mask or kirby. Now im on the look out for a new DS, whether it be a 2DS or a 3DS again i'll decide that when i know i have enough money for it. which will take a long while because i still dont have a goddamn job EVEN THOUGH ive applied to 3!!!! other jobs this year but absolutley no one has answered me. i fucking hate it when they just ghost me like that. i'd rather have them telll me striaght up that im not "fit" for the position i apllied for, or simply just not hired. that's all i want! not this no answer IS an answer bullshit. anyway, hired or not, im still going to be without a handheld concol for a good couple of months. maybe. it depends. i Just started decorating my 3ds with pretty stickers :( i literally wanted to go cry about it, only to be slapped with reality, about how old my 3ds is, that just made me mad lmao because my older brother's dsi is lasting LONGER and it is F I V E years OLDER than my 3ds!!! like, fuck off xD oh well, nothing i can do about it now, considering i dont even have enough money for just the repairs alone. so, im just going to buy a new ds instead. i know that is not any cheaper, but i'm impatient and i really want to finish my file on the master quest!! dammit!!

9;25pm - i just found out i cant play any gamecube games on my laptop :( the emulator is slow and laggy which kind of sucks but i am able to play them on my phone! ive finished twilight princess three times now and im on my way to finish wind waker now, which is taking a bit but only because this is my firdt time finishing on my own with out my older brother lol its okie, im an adult (with a short temper but thats besides the point) i can do this just by looking up the quest part on either youtube or wikihow, ive done it for the heart collections on twilight. i can do it for the wind waker playthrough. which i have about 3 times so far. and i think i am doing pretty well! for my first play through by myself. i can see why i had little to no interest in it when my family actually owned the game. i only remember my older brother playing WW, the others played mario sunshine or smash bros (both are the best btw). so, i dont blame younger me for not having too much interest.

july 5,24 1:11am - SSOOOOOOO UUUUHHHHHH.......shit just got a bit chaotic today! we just found out that my brothers school isnt going to continue high school classes. so they will have to go sign up for another school, IN ANOTHER TOWN BY THE WAY. my mother and i have been mulling it over almost all day today, she says that she doesnt want my younger brother to be staying with any of our family members and i agree with her. lemme explain, one aunty of mine tends to be agressive, some times downright abusive, another aunty, emotions fly like a humming bird who drank nothing but espresso, on of my cousin has a child of her own to look after, same with my cousins sister and she has two kids, all of which my brother does not know very well and will be shy like me and not talk for a long while. make him feel like being comfortable but shy and quiet about it is bad. anyway, my mother is very iffy about sending him into town for his last year of school and i get it. the last time she did that with my older brother and shit hit the roof with him. he moved in with one of our aunty's place, stayed for a few months before finally moving out because said aunty was trying to take advantage of my brother temporarily looking after our spoilt ass nephew who looked and treated his cousins as literal maids. not only that, she tried to start a fight with him and our cousin fucking did nothing but make it worse. so yeah, i get why my mother doesn't want to send my little brother into town. why is my little brother's high school life so chaotic and none of it is even HIS fault?? like DAMN universe!! fucking take a goddamn chill pill when handling my litlle brother THANK YOU!! and for my older brother, FUCKING LEAVE HIM ALONE HE HAS BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH ALREADY OR I IWLL THROW HANDS

anyway, this year has been one fckn crazy year for us, thats for goddamn sure.

july 8,24 6:35pm - i keep trying to play on the family dsi, i cant seem to stay on it long like i did with my 3ds. and i really miss my 3ds, i cant believe i have to buy another one and fucking save up for that. im planning on getting a screen protector, case and a little game case for the handheld consol. be more prepared this time and all. im just so mad the dsi is lasting longer than my fckn 3ds!! lmao just fckn RUDE! anyway, what i have in my little cart on ali express says it costs up to 205 for those things all together, i was going to look on amazon but i have doubt with their electronics and such, and it is more expensive as hell. so no thanks. i think i can wait until i have enough to buy those things for my new 3ds. i just keep onn looking at my old 3ds all sad that i cant play on it for all hours of my day. oh well, i can save up money for myself, so i can save up to get a replacement and possibly other accescories for my new ds kekekeke

i forgot to mention that i went to go hang out with my friends the other day, we had shrooms and edibles for the night, it was fckn fun and kind of upsetting lmao there were certain situations where i was questioning a lot, and other situation i just straight up did not like. other than that it was quite fun tripping pretty hard like that, however sleeping was freaking difficult lmao i was literally arguing with myself in my own head about getting to bed and sleep, i just flopped around and fucking giggled at myselef like, what the hell lmao

11:23pm - good this i double checked the 3ds for anything else that i am missing and now that ive done that, it wont turn on at all, itll just lightly beep at me almost like a whisper and then itll just shut off without the screen turning on. im even more sad lmao i cant wait till i have enough for the 3ds and the cases, i really want to finish my master quest on ocorina of time. this itch wont go away until i do. i should clean my room and start on the towels soon. the house is starting to look like a tornado went into our house and i so can tell that none of us are liking it so i am hoping that one or all of us finall gather our energy to clean up the house again. we need it and the pets really need it too. i know that the messyness is affecting us all to the point we \re getting cranky. so, yeah, we need to clean up. this will help my brain get over the guiltiness of buying myself this new handheld consol and the fact that i am using a little bit of my savings. i already have cashed out a couple moolas from the band office but no more than that. i still do not trust my little brother around my savings still. so ill be keeping some in my bank while slowly cashing them out when he doesnt know that i am going there or why. to which i only go to the band office during school days. speaking of, i still dont think that he wont be able to go and graduate on time unless i move to rupert. and if i do that, that may mean that ill have to talk to my alchoholic "dad" about helping me move to an apartment and then sign my little brother up to the highschool but the thing is, the school education there is way different than the one he is used to and grew up in. which sucks cause i was excited for him to gradutate. he only has one more year to go too! it sucks so much i wish the school is starting to get their shit together during this summer cause MY GOD!! this is ridiculous. almost no teachers in highschool? i stilll cant get over that!!! any way this will be the last journal entry for a bit, good night/day readers!

[theresapartysoonog]

im wondering if i should dedicate to the project or make myself home here.

P RO J E C T .

i havent even started on the damn thing, ok thats unfair to say ive got a google doc with outlines, ideas, notes and the first few sentences but come on i haven't written it all and then i gotta draw it? fuuck. depending on what i decide to do im making a stupid fun music video as well and while doing something like toon boon puppet animations will be easy ive only got the summer to do this in and idk how many pages it'll even be. it'd be worth it though im ngl.

ive only been into sanrio for like a few months but i can tell i need that good story characterisation food or im gonna fucking die. sonic fans are spoilt atp i get all i need through twitter discourse and conversations with friends, i gotta work for this shit now because god forbid i try read anything off of AO3.

also its fun, i like making things and i'm passionate about these characters.

[mrwilliameames]

I want you, i’ve wanted you since i woke up, since i watched you do laps in the pool *I moan* I want you inside me daddy, ive been a spoilt brat, im sorry

*I look at you when you apologize and I get between your legs and get some slick on myself before I gently ease inside you. You moan loudly, your head falling back as I lean down and kiss you passionately.* You don't have to apologize, I love it when you're my spoiled brat... you know I'll give you everything you want, even when you're naughty. *I start to move and you hold onto me, blushing deeply.*

[boonanaghost]

ive got some plans for side order art sketched out but im not gonna be posting ANYTHIGN about the dlc until like a month after its release date arghhhh boiling myself alive

also trying not to scroll down the tag cause ive been playing it so much I DONT WANNA GET SPOILT BY ANYTHING.... its so fun I love this game so much

[potatatt]

idk anymore i feel like im the only one who experienced my life despite all the people around me

ig my anger is for what was done to others

how can i be mad and uncomfortable when youve spoilt me and coddle me now

how can i maintain my distance when my grandma is right by you and i feel like i owe it to my sister to try

its her hurt not mine afterall

but i caused harm in my outburst

i could apologise but im not sure its not deserved

ive distanced myself but i do that whenever i feel embarrassed with my behaviour

i need to stop ghosting people ive developed a fear of me being ghosted i shouldnt be so hypocritical

ill try calling thats what so many people have said why not

i just dont want to be needy

i wish i was that golden retriever type of person but i feel too responsible idk lils still calls me it and i feel extra responsible around them

[sehunniepotwrites]

hi nikki!!! i vanished again for a rly long time cuz its rly busy and crunch season for me in uni rn :/ how have you been!! hope youve gotten better since the last time we talked :")

i had 4 assessments last week like one on wednesday and THREE on friday it rly felt like acads was sucking the life out of me >< i hope you dont mind me ranting a little but this sem has rly been by far the worst semester in my uni life like ive been tryna stay all positive and focus on the good things that happened but fr NOTHING good has been happening :"( its rly a pain going through all these days and its like the skies r tryna play tricks on me even when it comes to small daily stuff.. like id just be minding my own business and walking somewhere and then someone spills water all over my shoes, or after finally managing to find an empty spot to study at, the charging plug at the table just refuses to work, or the chairs r spoilt and like.... IM SO DONE :"( and it sux even more cuz daylight savings have caused the time difference between me and my boyfie to increase and its alm like we can never find the right pocket of time to communicate anymore and its rly taking a toll on me mentally. sigh... like literally all the stress and discomfort has caused me to lose my appetite and ive lost alm 10kgs in the past 2 months..

i hope after going through all these, things would only be better and would make me happier after a long long time.. and id be able to learn how to express myself and speak my emotions properly again cuz im rly rly emotionally constipated rn.

<3, 🍑

hihihi lil peach!!!

it's okay, i totally understand crunch szn for uni--went through it one too many times. i'm sick yet again (thus the woes of being a kindy teacher, the germs!! it's my 6th time getting sick this school year) but i'm writing again! the inspo finally came back to me <333

i complete empathize w you--sometimes it's really hard to stay positive when all is going to shit. and with people telling you to look on the bright side makes it even harder because you could try and try to no avail. i'm so sorry this is happening to you, whatever you're feeling is so valid. i'm glad you see me as a safe space to come and talk about these things. i hope things begin to look up for you soon and that your 2024 is filled with happier days, good health, and prosperity.

when i feel like this, which is quite often, i turn back to journaling or asking myself these questions (they're questions i've learned as an elementary teacher, trying to understand the feelings of my kiddos):

what am i feeling right now? i use the mood meter (you can look it up on google and they'll be some good ones)

why am i feeling this way? (get down to the root of it) "i am feeling _ because _."

what is one immediate thing i can do to get me out of this mood? is there something physical i can do? an immediate fix? or is there a step i can take?

"next time i feel this way, i can _"

[megismorallysunny]

17/09/23

its been quite a while, i told myself in july i would talk about the barbie movie, but well that didnt end up happening. i felt awkward writing and i feel awkward now, school started 3/4 weeks ago and its been going pretty ok, ill talk more about that. so first things first the barbie movie was spectacular, i loved it so much, it was so amazing no words, speechless. i dont know if i mentioned this but i went on holiday again, i went to mallorca in june for a week and alicante in spain for 2 weeks. i grew sick of my brother after that, i hope someday we can be friends but i just cannot stand him. my mom said that i will regret not being friends with him when im older just like she did, but i just cant stand being around him. my mom may regret not being friends with my uncle then but atleast there friends now (not for long unfortunately, hes sick). Spain was pretty boring, yes i know im a lil spoilt but we went to spain cuz its cheap (cheaper than staying down the road). i started playing a lot of total drama then stopped after the start of school. Im glad that im actually able to focus on my school work better because i genuinely cannot focus, i really struggled last year cuz i did it in silence and always put it off. now i started watching qsmp along with doing my homework cuz now i feel better doing my homework, my brain just works better when its hearing something and my brain is doing something else at the same time doing my hw. i think its due to when i was younger there was never silence around me when doing my hw, there was always talking always a programme, always something. im doing higher level english, im scared about doing shit in it like every other higher subject im in. but i think im doing good in english, or atleast mediocre, my teacher said that some of my work wasnt the best, which fair nuff it isnt. but i wrote something and it was kinda cringe but my teacher said it was good, and it wasnt cringe as in furry abo type shit i wrote it was more me saying "chillingly good use of onomatopeia" omg i just felt so stupid reading it out, i figured out why it feels so invasive reading it out and its because it feels like reading a diary and your specifically asked to read out ur feelings and opinions about it, unless i say something hateful about it i dont feel comfortable saying it. im doing bad in higher maths i just cannot understand somethings but i dont want to spend more time on it so i might i might not, im scared that i just wont understand it and theres people dumber than me in there, and it feels like i shit also cuz im dumb, i struggle with comprehending things, and i just go on my phone all the time, because i just get so bored, i wish that i would be able to learn things at my own pace (fast but slow at things i dont understand) and i just wish i could learn what i wanted to, i know i can learn maths i just struggle and i dont know why. did i mention im stupid? did i? because your bound to think so now, last year in higher irish i got 23% on my summer exam, and this year i got a note from my parents to move to lower, and i went to give it to him and he gave such a good speech i said okay yeah sure, like how dumb am i?? all my friends looked aound at me and were like "that was your one chance" "why didnt you leave" it was a little demotivating but if theres one thing i can do its spite people, from an early age ive discovered people insulting me is the best power for my success, its better if it feels like they mean it. e.g i couldnt hit a ball in pe with a bat, someone tried to take it off me (multiple ppl) and they said cmon you cant do it, that was really a good motivator because as soon as they reached for it i hit the ball super high. anyways im now learning irish and im struggling really. but duolingos helping, alot. were back to talking to our french penpals and i wrote the most complicated english because i got excited she said i was a nice girl, shes so sweet i love her. i wrote way too much so im gonna go now, have a good morning, day or night.

[fattyflo]

You really are one of the most Disgusting Pig-Blimps ive ever seen. That painfully distendeded balloon gut is just begging to be topped off with more greasy, creamy slop every single hour until you are ready to Burst.

The only thing that matters is more Calories forced and pumped into you Slob Hog, we need Farts and Slop constantly pouring and exploding out of your overloaded sweaty, sloppy Hog-Ass

You are a true Toilet Filling Blimp-Pig and you need to be Spoiled and enabled to push your limits, you are an embarrassingly and Disgustingly Sloppy and Obese Goddess.

uhhhhh i'm stuffed full of trash and i just let out the nastiest fart while reading this and touching myself.

come shovel more greasy junk into this overstuffed gut and let me turn it into the most toxic stenches, and then worship me for them. i need to be praised and obeyed and enabled so i can get bigger and lazier and more spoilt like i deserve. i want to embarrass and disgust people everywhere. i want everyone to have to make adjustments to accommodate for me and my huge belly.

[meher-sumedha]

I’m in this situation right now and I don’t know what to do. Ive already spoilt myself with all the plot twists and good things. Help.