#IVE MET SO MANY NEAT PPL

[lighthouseshepard]

you know. fandom is so fun when you have like. ten or so specific people to participate in it with. even if there's just the one. theres something very cool and special about creating, whether art or music or writing fics, alongside a group of people who are all insane about the same thing you are. its a strange kind of vulnerability and openness and love. id write a novel for my friends if they asked

[faithful-grigori]

“#hello im the, #local comic shop clerk who works with ppl who’ve ran comic con since the 70’s and is entrenched in behind the scenes buying/ selling culture, #new mutants is one where that story would make sense but if you’re comin out with gold heavy hitters, #MINTY??, #no one’s believing a yard sale story and there will be legal suspicion, #say your grandpa collected as a kid and was the type to keep his stuff neat, #say you came across an estate sale, #say you bought a storage unit that had a collection, #we’re constantly talking about all the hidden gems that must be collecting dust in storage units, #ive met so many old dudes who own comics worth hundreds of thousands of dollars, #and just. bought them as kids and kept them, #and none of them care about selling but sometimes they’ll bring them in so we can look”

Seriously, the easiest way for a time-traveler to make present-day money completely untraceably would be comicbooks.

Go buy yourself a US 10c coin from 1935, which will apparently set you back around $8.50; set your time machine for New York, April 18th 1938; walk up to a newsstand and buy a copy of Action Comics #1 with your dime.

Come back to the present, send the comic off to be professionally graded, tell everyone you found it in a yard sale, sell it at auction, and congratulations: your $8.50 is now $3.25 million.

Repeat with Detective Comics #27, Amazing Fantasy #15, etc.

Hell, if you don't wanna draw attention to yourself, just pick less expensive comics! Need $600 quick? Go to February 1991, pick up New Mutants #98 for a dollar, and a Deadpool fan will take that off your hands really quick.

Comics are mass-produced, so history won't miss a copy or two going missing; basically untraceable once sold; and can easily be claimed as something you found in a yard sale or charity shop.

[ethicstownpod]

This has a point - bear with me! I turned twenty-two a non-specified number of days ago. I was at work. My colleagues, upon learning this, got me a card and a cake and threw me a party before our DnD game. They put all this together in the span of my right hour shift; I've only worked there six months. My colleagues are some of my favourite people in the whole world.

My flatmate loves tiktok, an app I despise. But every day she saves rat videos, and then shows them to me when I get home from work/class. My other flatmate once hand-drew me wrapping paper of a hideous little cartoon man because he knew it would make me laugh.

My cousin, who’s eight, always asks everyone else if they want to play with his X-box before he does. There’s a girl in my class who always stops people on the way out to tell them she really liked the points they were making in discussions that day. Every discord server I’ve ever been in has a channel for sharing pictures of your pet. I’ve never met a person who doesn’t want to brag about their friends. I love when you make a baby laugh on the bus, so they try to make you laugh in return.

And now the point! The point is that I think people are so good. So unbelievably, fundamentally good. And I want to write people like that. Even when they’re not being actively good, there’s So Much Good inside of them. There are so many wonderful people in my life, I feel I would be doing them a disservice by not portraying just how amazing people can be.

[betaoctillery]

i dont follow ppl that dont support mspec lesbians btw. not only is it bullshit gender/sexuality policing but its ahistorical as shit when bisexuals & lesbians were almost indisguishable from one another until a very specific point in the 1970s when terfs and political lesbians began dividing the community by excluding anyone who had ANY association to perceived masculinity, which included trans women (bcus terfs thought of them as men), bi women for sleeping with men, butches for expressing masculinity, and women of color for racist reasons which posited that they arent feminine/women bcus many dont look/act/talk exactly like cis/het white women.

at any rate, the current accepted definition for the term lesbian is inherently bisexual! everyone says it means “attraction to women and nonbinary ppl” (which is nb-phobic outright ANYWAYS by lumping ALL nonbinary ppl with women -- this is what ppl are criticizing when they say we’re treated as “women-lite”) so if youre not being a nb-phobic asshat, you then have to acknowledge that woman and nonbinary are different genders, thereby making lesbianism a fundamentally bisexual identity as it includes to attraction to two or more genders. 

like think critically for a moment. what about a bigender lesbian who feels like they are both a man and a woman? do you personally get to decide, do you personally get to have the authority, to choose which identity of theirs to suppress in order to cram them into one specific neat little box? whichever way you try to pigeonhole them, youre promoting gender binarism, which is nb-phobic. trying to cut up and divide ppl’s identities like nations erecting borders is dehumanizing. 

another aspect of this issue ive noticed is that almost every single person ive met who self-identifies as a bi or mspec lesbian is trans or nonbinary. they often have complicated relationships to gender and sexuality that sweeping statements like “lesbians cant like men!!!” end up erasing their experiences. ive seen ppl claim its a term used by cis women to describe sleeping with trans women and i cant stress enough how in all the reading and research ive done on bi lesbianism that ive never once seen that cited as a definition or something having been done in practice. its literally just ignorant teenagers or young adults in their early 20s who know nothing about their community’s culture or history talking straight out of their asses. and if there are ppl who do this, theyre extreme outliers and its disingenous to act like mspec lesbians would defend such a level of transphobia when, again, most mspec lesbians are transgender themselves and are well aware that this division occured bcus of terfs.

read queer history yall. for the love of whatever you consider sacred and holy in this world pls fucking read queer history. dont get all of your information off of social media, random unsourced carrds made by teenagers who obviously dont make an effort to learn about their own community, and bad faith internet debaters who make conclusions drawn off what amounts to nothing more than “vibes” essentially. these people have really big loud mouths, but theyre simply wrong. material history will never agree with them. 

throughout history, bi and lesbian have more or less meant and were treated as the same thing, including both women who exclusively were attracted to other women AS WELL AS women who were attracted to both women and men.

and until a single exclusionist can provide sources that can prove that 70′s lesbian separatism wasn’t a huge, well documented movement that resulted in much of the exclusionary attitudes and its effects we see even today, im just gonna continue to laugh at how childishly they cover their ears and go “la la la la” when presented with verifiable and cited evidence that this happened.

[rouge-the-bat]

uh oh another person whos repeating allll the same bullshit thats totally havent been shouted out to me a million times before ! seriously yall, i havent changed my mind about bi lesbianism even after being attacked and told to die so many fucking times, wtf do yall think ur gonna achieve here lol.

lesbian isnt an exclusive term and never had been, learn some queer history idiot! i literally have sources on my bi-lesbian blog in my #history tag! and plenty of people use it as an umbrella term still bc ~gasp~ people use words different than you 😱

literally explained the nonbinary situation in my last ask but like whup dee doo that doesnt matter bc u clearly talk for all enbies ever huh? what do you think about very man aligned enbies also? are they all inherently excluded or included in your eyes? (rhetorical question, dont actually want an answer obv youre an idiot) again not all enbies are comfortable with lesbianism since people like you think its ~oooh so strict~ and others deem it ~exclusively women loving women~ and a lot of enbies dont want to be possibly perceived as just a woman, even if theyre woman aligned! (while some man aligned enbies are perfectly comfortable with fallin under lesbian attraction bc, identities are complex!) if yall fucks would finally let lesbian be defined fluidly and can sometimes hold exceptions depending on person, like every other gd fucking queer label, then i think this issue would be resolved since more enbies would feel less like theyre just being seen as a women due to exclusionistic lesbians.

yeah bi women or other mspec ppl love women just the same as lesbians, i literally never say otherwise, so idk why ppl always say that to me lol? like it feels YALL have some internal biases yall need to convince urself through, not me. lesbian has simply included bi women for forever before lesbian separatists (aka radfems) deemed them as lesser (and aiding in their own oppression) and tried forcing them out. / but oh yeah me calling myself a bi lesbian is tooootally saying i think bi women are lesser forms to lesbians /s 🙄

people who have exceptions to their sexuality or EXTREMELY extremely rare attraction to certain genders is not just "bi with a preference" unless they feel like that accurately describes them, but a lot dont. me as an example! if ud look at any of my posts i have a really complex/confusing attraction due to being arospec and cupioromantic, and dont see how defining gender-based orientations extremeley rigidly can work well since gender is extremely complex and fluid. along with a ton of other factors that makes me feel best described with bi lesbianism. bc ppl by nature are complex and dont need to and cant always fit into lil neatly defined terms, darling

you probably also deem the split attraction model as an aros and aces only thing too, huh? because sexuality being complex and different than yours is just soo so impossible right?

"invalidates both lesbians an bi women" ah yes becuase thats totally an objective, factual statement! and no lesbians and bi women who are not bi lesbians would ever support bi lesbianism huh? except, oh ive met plenty who do! surprise surprise a lot of queer people support other queer people who are different than them and have complex identities, bc thats what the whole fucking community is for, lol. stop acting like you speak for everyone of a label, queer people are not monoliths ♡

maybe branch out of ur lil exclusionist circle for once and try talking with more queers with complicated orientations and stop trying to fit all of us into rigid boxes 🤪 trying to assimilate the queer community in a neat and tidy and ~respectable~ way isnt gonna win you any brownie points with the homophobes, honey

stop drinking the radfem koolaid, also. all of this literally falls right into their rhetoric. a lot if not all of exclusionism does, actually

[blakelionheart]

Hiii future self

Soooo.. the other day I was listening to the Ace Enders, a band i really like. And they have a song called ´´Bring back love´´ that starts off saying ‘’ by the year 2020 I want to look at what we did, so we can stand up all together ...blablah ‘’. 

This song made me think making a sort of lettertimecapsule  to my future self  could be nice.  i investigated and found out this site allows schedjuling a post so that it gets automatically posted whenever you tell it to even if you actually typed it a week or a month ago (mindblowinglolz). I could just put a bunch of stuff i own in a box and bury it somewhere but...nah 

Im schedjuling this to be posted 10 or so years from now. 2021 ((this will remain as a private text until it does get posted as schedjuled)

<<warning>> this is gonna be long af so grab a can of sodapop if you managed to still not have diabetes ... or coffee if you didnt...

I want to take this seriously, im planning to make an effort to express myself the best i can...

i dont even know where to start. I’ll start by talking about my life at this point

It’s April 2011, I recently turned 20. . I still havent figured out what it is i wanna do with my life. i want so many things and i feel that whatever i end up choosing to do in the next months, or year evenn , will mean i have to give up on other stuff . You cant have it all in life i guess

Im having a hard time watching adulthood approach me bahaha

My life is prretty boring right now. Summarized, I mostly spend my days studying/in class, smoking pot and chatting on msn or fb. I really wish ten years from now i still  stay in contact with the people Im close with right now ... Im not usually good at that. Im too passive when it comes to hitting someone up... Saying hi first to someone gives me anxiety and even if im trying to builld up the courage, people usually end up saying hi first because i took too long lol. it worries me people misinterpret it as me not wanting to talk to them, especially when i like someone  and im dying to. i should work on it  

Lately I  lack motivation and I find myself thinking about death alot. But I have a good feeling. Things miight start  to improve. and im looking forward to visiting a good friend in Arizona.

AND also because i think i might recover the friendship I had with someone whom i feel incredibly attached to ... SO YEAH. I guess sometimes 2 people are just not meant to be, thats what i’ try to make myself believe anyway so that I could understand a little beter why things suck sometimes. Maybe it was just bad tming. Maybe it’ll work ouut in the future idk lol I’m going off topic

I don’t sleep much aeither

The rest of my friends have stayed by my side as always, and i have met some cool people recently too. I constantly meet people, online and in ‘real’ life o_o.. i don’t really make a differece between ‘real’ life and online. I mean, what is REAL anyway? 

It’s been a bittersweet year for now and i think i owe the people i’ve met online who’ve given me support and good memories...I owe them because I haven’t put as much effort as i should have sometimes and i feel guilty for it. i think I should compensate and move my ass and visit some ppl.

When it comes to family, I can’t say much really... I’m only close with my cousin and younger sister. I guess i’ve been a little too problematic to have a good relationship with the rest of them.  I guess I can also count in Bones as my four legged son 

i’m studying psychology at University of Bristol, but haven't been doing great, and I’ve been on a short international program to Spain. In Bristol I live with my housemate Charlie in a small apartment in Cotham Vale. I don’t work and I probably should. I have done some volunteering though. ive been offered money for doing stuff here and there so many times but always feel like im asking for too much, so I end up doing it for free.

I still write and play music. i recorded a song called ‘’Prettiest paint’’ back in March and it’s pretty neat. i also recorded another three but I need to work on some editing still (vaguely know you and flowers)

Speaking of music. i wanted to include this. The music i listen to nowadays I might not listen to in the future, so just to refresh my memory,,,

My favorite bands:songs are 

-Saosin -ADTR: Mr.Highway Thinking about thw End/You had me at hello            -Love is A Story:If we get out, let's make out/hide and seek   -Ace enders: Reaction/Over this -Hellogoodbye:Would it kill you?/Getting old      -ATL:circles  -Mayday Parade:Black Cat   -The Color Fred; Hate to see you go/Empty house      -Spill Canvas: Staplegunned  - Chiodos: Baby you wouldnt last a minute  -Enter Shikari: Sorry you are not a winner -BlessTheFall  -Pierce the veil: I’d rather die than be famous -BMTH -AskingA -Slipknot: Psychosocail .AttackAttack:Smokahontas -EatMeWhileImHot:  -Scary Kids Scaring kids -The Strokes:Under Cover of the Darkness   -The Beatles...and like, a bunch more...that was exhausting, what a regrettable idea but I might appreciate it laters.

I also play a lot of videogames when i have some freetime. COD especially and League of Legends

Moving onnn...

Future self, sup?

Has the world ended yet? Maybe it ends next year and this is completely pointless

Has life changed a lot ? Where do you live now ? Are you still single ? Do you still like the same person or moved on? Is Bones still alive? Do you have a job and wat is it ? Who is president now ? Any new family members? Do I still play guitar ? Are u still terrified of butterflies? do i still have the same friends or friends at all ? do i go out more often ? can cars fly already...? What do I think of my past self? ...I’m out of questions...but whatevrr happens keep on fighting back, whatever will be will be so if any answer to these questions frutstrates you/me, maybe it’s for the best and it’s just how things have to be. deal with it 

I don’t really know what else to say...so, bye. See ya later

-me

ps. If anyone finds this do let me know, i might forget about it

[magical-agatha]

i like sword art online fatal bullet somehow despite it doing so many things wrong and even more things that make me personally annoyed. mainly just like. kirito. and like. the inscrutable unbalanced gameplay. and the terrible menus and general failure at telling you what you need to do and where to do it. but the bits i like i guess i really really like. like, if u can ignore the terrible qualities, its a game that rly wants to let you like, put yourself in the world, it has a lot of escapist qualities and i guess its rly like, an isekai game? it lets u have an isekai adventure without getting hit by a truck. i made a self insert whos an idealised version of myself (tho shes missing the muscles and fat), and im using her to have adventures and flirt with girls and make friends. its not a good game but i guess ive figured out how to make it fun for myself by investing in the characters i like and rewriting context. like, kirito is annoying and sucky but he also just feels like someone ud meet in an mmo. every character feels like that actually. kirito sucks but he's also like, 'that guy i met in an mmo who doesn't realise he's made a polycule and also he adopted an ai and treats his mmo marriage to his mmo wife as tho its a real marriage and she does too and they seem genuinely happy and loving to each other?' like hes annoying but he doesnt seem like a bad person or even an asshole. i havent seen the anime. but he just seems like a str*ight person who loves his wife and wants to be friends with you. i dont want to be his friend but i also dont totally hate him. idk, i think im rewriting him a bit in my head so i like him more but even so.

i think i also like it bc im an mmo playing dweeb who is kinda lonely and met her girlfriend thru an mmo which we play together a lot. so im enjoying this story about reuniting with an old friend in an mmo and spending time with her bc its relateable?? also it helps that im 90% sure u can actually romance her over the course of the game and develop a relationahip. and so far most of the characters have felt rly fleshed out and real. so like. im expecting that to be done well?? im not playing this for the gameplay but for the story i guess? but the gameplay is still cool and fun even if its deeply flawed. its. third person shoot the gun but you have a grappling hook, dark souls roll, and mmo abilities. you explore dungeons and fight robots and other 'players' (pve disguised as pvp') and you do it with your fake mmo friends and your fake mmo child and its like. fun and terrible at the same time. like its so easy to get stuck in a death spiral and run out of ammo but it's also like. pretty fun. the companion ai is pretty solid. not gonna astound or win awards but like. its decent. itll get you through things. they hold their own and feel like team mates. you get annoyed when they make mistakes and excited when they do well and worried when they go down. its a decent simulation of what an mmo actually feels like. i like it.

i think im just good at seeing nuance in game design/quality. a bad game can have rly good qualities that still make it enjoyable. and maybe also its like. something i like bc i went into it expecting a shitfest and was pleasantly surprised to find a game with a relateable story, characters who feel real, and like, innovative gameplay. i try rly hard to approach games as a game designer and examine them and try to understand why the designers made them the way they did. i want to learn from every game i play and i like seeing how different games approach similar things and take inspiration from each other.

the other thing too is. it plays really weird like, its stepped pretty far outside the shooter box. and theres clearly a lot of thought put into making it fun and interesting and finding the balance between like, skill based gameplay and a power fantasy. despite that it still has some rly glaring flaws but you can still see that the ppl who made this were sincerely trying to make a good game and genuinely cared about what they were making. the story is rly unique for a game to. its a game about playing a different kind of game. its a singleplayer rpg about playing an mmorpg. its neat. they rly tried and i appreciate it.

[queencryo]

@silly-go-round is asleep right now.

i guess i should make a journal for the past few days. as good a time as any. as AMY. heh. cuz shes super good and amazing. heh.

uh...... lessee.... for the two days after the last journal i just. hung out at the house while silly worked. i managed to not keep her in bed and make her late the second day. hung out a lot, watched more adventure time, worked on my tumblr filter script (lie. i judt ran it on my main. 200 posts / day is a bitchhhh) , played a good amount of ds3 (to pointof tetris effect at a couple points the nexg few days)

also did some like. helpful tasks. washed some dishes (undone quicklu, but. eh). not enough, mot as much as i shouldve, but... i tried i guess.

alao we've like. said the same thing at the dame time a Lot while ive been here and its like. nice. its really nice. same wavelength! i feel so close go her.

oh! alxo night before last we went grocery shoping. got food for prolly enoygh for the two weeks, but i guess we'll see. also a cheesecake! it was.... echausting. hily fuck it was exhaysting. jesus. the store was big and it took like 3 hours and $200 to get everything but. we did itttt.

we both mentionef that like. it felt nice to like. have a full fridge 2gether. cuz. it feels like were gonna have a futjre togetjer? u know. like that is. i love her a lot and it feels good for this to feel like a home for a little while. we hope that it can be so in tbe future.

so YESTERDAY she finally FINALLY taught me how to play magic the gathering. it was. a long time coming. but she brought me into the store and like. sat me down w some regulars and had me play commander. i played moooostly her snake deck, so like.that was fun!! i kept talki g about how i woulda gotten lorescale Coatl up to 39/39 and flying, had i like. gotten q more turn. but on that game D was running a mill deck that was. extremely long to play (that game took like ~>2 hours ugh), and was very bery annoying, so i didnt get to actually do that.

but it was fun! part of me wants to blog everything, but i dont think i will.

im glad to be able to use silly's decks, bc i dont think i want to make my own. im considering making a cheap angel deck or smth, but we'll see if yhat actually ends up happening.

i also met her girlfriend Iz, who is sweet. i played magic w her fkr a while, which was fun! she was runni g an annoying mono black deck (i kkow all these... these Terms and Words now, its incredible...)

shes sweet and i think i like her. dunno if enough to date yet (which makes me Partially regret flirting w her so much in the groupchat but. hey)

talked w her some, mostly about magic, hung out while silly closed the store, pet her cat, silly discovered that cyddling w TWO girlfriends is very nice (not rhat id know ;;;;;;;), was good times. i dont think im as comfy w izzy physically yet as i may have implied in messages, which hopefully wull be rectified by the message i just sent her (my initial physical comfort with people varies, it depends very much on the person)

skip forward, me and silly make a pizza at home cuz were fuckin tired, she admonishes me for not eating for uh... like 11 hours or smth (that mornings bagel was VERY good tho omg), but adderall, so like... meh.

uh... i dont think anything else on yesterday...

today! we waaamted to go to the store at like. 2. but in actuality got there at like! 330.

i went back to sleep cuz im a losenerd, and she. made this breakfast casserole thing. which hse put into a bagel abd brought to me bc i guess shes the best person on the entire earth oh my GOD. jesus

skip... apparently she knows maximum the hormone and doesnt like them very much... fair fair. (cause for xeath)

came to the store agai. tofay. it was fun and good. iz didnt come in today, do played some more with regulars. played w what is apparently called a blink deck, which revolvea arounf exiling cards then immediately bringing them back, to capitalize on "when this enters battlefield, do smth" cards. neat!

i DID actually manage to win today!!! the victory was. literally handed to me, but like. thats fine! i was playing silly's uhhh... elintor the masked? idr her name :( the mask planewalker! deck, which. i had SO much land, most of wh8ch was enchanfed. meaning it could be tapped then untapped w eljntor's thing, then tapped again for DOUBLE MANA. i mean. i had like 9/turn even b4 that but. BUT. i also had. i think i drew 3 creatures total. bit anyway. i had the white card that gave me a life whenever a creature was put on tge board (and also, w another enchantment, made all non-me creagurss and enchantments enter the board tapped, so. nya). so... rob had a card what dealt one damGe to all other players whenevr he puta. creature on the board. then he played united forces, which lets each player commit X mana to create X 1/1 soldier tokens on all players' boards. so. we made 28 white soldier tokens on everyones board. this killed perry, ans gave me, uh. 56 life (84 - 28). i then attacked ron for 28 w the soldiers, and drew sacred mesa, which lets me sacrifice 2 mana (1 any color, 1 white, but i had so many cards that said "this land can instead be tapped for 2 of any color, so like. ueah) to create a 1/1 flying pegasus token. so i. ended the game w 44 white 1/1 tokens. goblins get fucked.attack w my ssoldiers cuz his were tapped, so brought him down to 7 life. i didng catch what he did w the enchantment, but i think he said he like. put a copy of every creature on my side of the board onto his board, and then. cipying that enchantment 3 times. so. holy FUCK. wow. BUT those all came in tapped and i had 18 flying yokens, so. i still won! yay!!!! i won a game of magic!!!!!

goblin decks scare me. stop running krenko you fucks. exponential goblins goddamn

silly would come by every so often and like. look over my dhoulder and say "oh that was dumb whyd u use fabricate for thay" which is fair. but also god i love her. (i used fabricate for a mana generator insteaf of lightning greaves. whateverrrr) i love her so much dear god. i wish i coukd help w the store more, but. on the same time i also. dont enjoy working. so. maybe part time.

hm. what ekse. oh yeah i kove her so much.

by the end of the night it was just. me and her, rob and the two regulars i started out llaying w yestwrday. theyre sweet, i like them. theyre married. the dude calls me honey smtimes, which is. kinda weird? dunno how i feel about that. i guess fine. its gender-nice, but still a lil uncomfy. otherwise i like em fien, though. but they talked abouy moving into sillys apt. so thats cool!! better than her current (awful, terrible, lazy / horrifically depressed / manchild roomate, who doesnt clean ever) roomate. i was reading the monster of the week gamebook thruout, which i... bought, for some reason. idk. oh also i wanna make a fallen angel divine, because im... predictableeee. also a conspiracy thworist whos just a trans woman w way too much time and really weird hobbies (throwing knices, butterfly knife, net friends, etc). also a spooky. i speny like. 3 hours reading thr7 the monster of the week book while ppl played magic around me. i kinda wish i hadnt bought it, but hey! its neat c:

oh, also i didnt take adderall today. i dont think it went toooo bad, i think i like. was meaner and less thohghtful with what i said, but like. i guess thats better than feared. i took a caffeine pill (200mg) at ariund 10 which is. prolly why im wide awake right now. i regret doing that, sincr from what shes said tmos gonna be big)

she says we gotta be at her moms by 4, for reasons she WONT TELL ME. bit she says its part of one of her plans, i ASSUME the romantic one? im kind of afraid that ill like. no-sell it unwillingly because im abroke and soulless human being, but uh. i guess rhats thw risks we take to be alive :shrug: im excited. were also going to a shop (diff one) tmo, which im Quite excited for, as ive only been in similar shops by accident before. also doing laundry!!! which is important ^_^

oh ysah. so we got white castle on the way home. its. yeah she was r8ght. mediocre-at-best sliders. onions are bad.

we also made a pizza. whifh i ate most of. i overate. sob.

she fell asleep halfway thry an episode of nailed it. cant blame her, she seemed really tired. i hipe i dont disturb her rwst. and i feel so utterly blessed thay i can be around her.

ih!! i also fell down the last few staies ywstersay. bruised my arms, but otherwise fine. it was. idk, it is nice to knoe that others worry fir me and like me. she was very concerned. i love her.

[catboyrobin]

i'll do as many as i can bc i want to ^_^ (sorry op if this is annoying) 1. well, this year i found out! so i'd rather not say my age lol 2. i *believe* i am the only one 3. i have adhd ! aside from that idk 4. yes !!!!!!!! i am queer (trans gay) 5. i wish more people knew that we're not suffering because of our autism, we're suffering because of an ableist society 6. yes! 7. i find it hard to keep those friends 8. music meanings, goatlings dot com, and how i met your mother !!! 9. i wanna say minecraft!!! 10. humming, playing with my hands, twirling my hair 11. i wish i could tell myself that im wasnt and never will be a bad person for simply being who i am 12. YU NARUKAMI FROM P4 oh my god. he is SO autistic. in the p4 anime, he often delivers everything with a deadpan tone and doesnt really know how to say no to others. also because i say so!!! 13. probably my older autistic friends ^_^ they help me feel more comfortable abt it 14. (flops on the floor) unfortunately i am in school 15. nope, i dont get accommodations at school bc i havent been prof dx 16. yeah !!! i have lots of autistic friends online but i dont know anyone irl who is autistic (more like.. idk anyone irl who knows theyre autistic) 17. I OWN STIM TOYS !!!!! i used to use em a lot back in spring but i used a bead keychain a lot and it was super fun but i broke it (pain) 18. YES 100% YES !!!! 19. silence.. its so awful.. i've literally almost had panic attacks at school when its silent.. i also rlly hate not wearing my bra. also mashed potatoes r awful 20. BLANKETS !!!! plushies !!! holding my friends hands !!!!! flan pudding :] ice cream.. theyre so nice.. 21. im open abt it online but irl ive been opening up abt it to my friends. i would love to tell my teachers but .. sigh 22. i try my best !! 23. probably 5-6 years and that was minecraft. 2nd longest has been music and thats been going on for about 4-5 years now 24. no i dont have meltdowns often / i cant rlly identify when i have a meltdown 25. sometimes but not really / i dont rlly know how to identify when i shutdown 26. i avoid eye contact with everyone.. but my friends are an exception ! i like to stare into their eyes and then we have mini staring contests and i always win since im good at them ^_^ 27. OH BOY i vocal stim like crazyyyy (humming, meowing, phrases, etc) and i also have echolalia , but my echolalia isnt very consistent. but when i DO echo someones words, its usually what they said at the end of their sentence (i only say the whole sentence if its just a phrase, and usually these turn into vocal stims) 28. well my special interests last at least a year or so! my how i met your mother special interest has been strong for almost a year now and my goatlings special interests has been going on since april, and at the time of writing this, its september 29. my friends are!!!! my family doesnt know and i dont talk to them abt it. if someone is weird abt me being autistic i just cut them off lol 30. i dont know of any canonical autistic character :[ the closest i have to that is tobio kageyama from haikyuu or futaba sakura from persona 5 31. YES I DO its a tuxedo cat plush named morgana!! i also have a teal octopus rattle plush named miles .. i love them so much theyre my fav comfort items 32. my safe foods r milk, bagel, pancakes, and breakfast sausages 33. i hate mashed potatoes, soup, bacon, and generally lots of foods ppl like i dont 34. I LOVE HUGS !!!!!!!! i love them so much 35. i do!!!!!! i own a weighted blanket 36. routines are weird for me bc i dont need one to function but a routine is nice :] bc of my adhd its hard to upkeep tho. i dont get upset when routine breaks tho! 37. i guess i like holidays ! theyre not sensory hell for me and i think theyre neat. decorations are so cool 38. i would say im pretty good at detecting sarcasm but thats bc i usually only talk to my friends / people who make their sarcasm obvious . i think i have a problem of not making my own sarcasm obvious enough tho 39. my most comfortable outfit is my green sports shorts with my crop top and my

black school hoodie! 40. i dont really collect stuff for my special interests, unless you count playlists as collecting. i collect more things for my hyperfixations actually 41. i would rather date another autistic person or at least someone who can help me with it 42. goatlings dot com has annual events , and the biggest is the monster masquerade! 43. if i could have any item related to my special interest... it would probably be a figurine of the motheriella ad from goatlings!! 44. i dont rlly follow autistic blogs apart from some stim blogs but !!! im gonna shoutout my friend @gay-yosuke!!!!!! go follow him 45. n/a 46. im pretty loud actually 47. i dont happy flap much anymore i kick my feet 48. n/a 49. sometimes its so hard to explain my thoughts to others 50. n/a

Autism ask meme

Here’s an ask meme specifically for autistic people

How old were you when you found out you were autistic?

Do you have any other autistic people in your family? Or are you the only one?

Do you have any comorbidities? Or just autism?

Are you LGBTQIA+?

What do you wish more people knew about autism?

Have you ever been in a relationship?

Do you find it hard to make friends?

If you have any, what are your special interests?

What was your first special interest?

What are your most common stims?

If you could give any advice to your younger self, what would it be?

Do you headcanon any characters as autistic? If you want, tell us why you headcanon them as autistic.

Tell us an autistic person that you really look up to.

Are you currently in school?

Have you ever received any accommodations for your autism in either school or work?

Do you have any autistic friends?

Do you own any stim toys? Which is your favorite?

Do you find it easier to get along with other autistic people?

What kinds of things are sensory hell for you?

What kinds of things are good sensory wise?

How open are you usually when it comes to being autistic?

Would you say you’re proud to be autistic?

What’s the longest you’ve ever has a special interest for?

Do you have meltdowns?

What about shutdowns?

Do you avoid eye contact?

Do you have any vocal stims or echolalia?

How long do your special interests usually last for?

Are your friends and/or family accepting of your autism?

Favorite canon autistic character?

Do you have a comfort item? If you feel comfortable with it, then show it to us.

What are your same foods?

Foods you are sensitive to (maybe because of bad texture for instance)?

Do you enjoy hugs? Or are they sensory hell?

Have you ever used a weighted blanket?

Do you have routines that you have to follow? What’s in your routine?

Do you enjoy holidays or are they sensory hell to you?

How good are you at detecting sarcasm?

What’s the most comfortable/sensory friendly outfit you own?

Do you collect anything related to your special interest?

If you date people then would you prefer to date other autistic people?

Tell us something about your special interest.

If you could have any item related to your special interest what would it be?

Who are your favorite autistic bloggers? Say something nice about them.

Favorite autistic celebrity?

Are you generally a loud or quiet person?

Do you happy flap?

What is your favorite special interest related item you own? Show it to us if you want.

What’s something you find hard to do because of autism?

Free question. Ask anything you want! Any topic at all!

[skywalkersays]

tagged by the Lovely @rnyfh​ 💖💖💖 

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

THE LAST: 1. Drink: water 2. Phone call: clara @loserxvi​ 3. Text message: my sister 4. Song you listened to: uhhh “save a prayer” by duran duran 5. Time you cried: i cried like 2 minutes after getting out of bed this morning im Depressed

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: not technically but like... i never learn so .. i guess 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: yup 8. Been cheated on: not really 9. Lost someone special: yeah 10. Been depressed: yes big Time boys 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: yep

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: red, pink.... yellow? beige...

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: yes 16. Fallen out of love: nah 17. Laughed until you cried: yes constantly 18. Found out someone was talking about you: yea always gotta keep an eye out for Snakes 19. Met someone who changed you: of course 20. Found out who your friends are: lol 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yes... 💀

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: almost all of them i hate it i deactivate my facebook like twice a month 23. Do you have any pets: yea my lil boy lewis 24. Do you want to change your name: nah i always thought my name sucked and now i think it’s great 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: uhhh nothing shattered my phone screen and went to an 8am class 26. What time did you wake up: uhh well my alarm goes off at like 10:30 every day and then goes off every 10 mins until i get up so.... ngl i got out of bed at like 2 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: blowdrying my sister’s hair 28. Name something you can’t wait for: war of the planet of the apes........ 💀 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: this morning... 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my financial situation and like 80% of my relationships 31. What are you listening right now: “Twenty miles” by NBSPLV 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: unfortunately 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: literally All right now 34. Most visited Website: tumblr fml

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. Mole/s: yea 36. Mark/s: yeah a big weird scar space in my right eyebrow...... idk....... 37. Childhood dream: idk i guess i always wanted to write. i used to want to act 38. Haircolor: blond right now but naturally like a dark brown 39. Long or short hair: stupidly long i need to cut it 40. Do you have a crush on someone: not really i can’t remember the last time i genuinely was like “i have a Crush” 41. What do you like about yourself: some ppl think im funny 42. Piercings: 2 on each ear + cartilage + nose piercing 43. Bloodtype: suspicious 44. Nickname: clem. also alex is kind of a nickname i guess 45. Relationship status: single n depressing 46. Zodiac: pisces/aries cusp 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV Shows: broad city, community, xfiles, hannibal... b99.... adventure time.... futurama... i watch a lot of tv

49. Tattoos: two one on each ankle 50. Right or left hand: right 51. Surgery: only dental.... my front teeth r fake 52. Hair dyed in different color: yeah blond rn fml 53. Sport: ive played like all sports and sucked every time 55. Vacation: i just want to be in the sun or like... the woods 56. Pair of trainers: whats this question....

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: i made a meat pie last night it’s ... my masterpiece 58. Drinking: water 59. I’m about to: shower and drink a quadruple espresso i wish i was kidding 61. Waiting for: my life to make sense and Improve 62. Want: to see the big sick and to have a neat bedroom fml 63. Get married: idk perhaps. yes. maybe 64. Career: probably something writing related

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: depends whom.... i prefer a kiss if it’s from someone i want to kiss and i don’t like Love to be hugged 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: idc 68. Older or younger: roughly same age i guess 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: idc 71. Sensitive or loud: both? im loud :/ so i guess sensitive 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a Stranger: yeah :/ 75. Drank hard liquor: yeah :-l 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: yes 77. Turned someone down: yes 78. Sex on the first date: no

79. Broken someone’s heart: maybe 80. Had your heart broken: yeah i guess 81. Been arrested: no 82. Cried when someone died: yeah 83. Fallen for a friend: not really

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: i try my hardest 85. Miracles: idk 86. Love at first sight: nope 87. Santa Claus: no 88. Kiss on the first date: yeah??

OTHER: 90. Current best friend name: idiot savant bot 8000 91. Eyecolor: blue 92. Favorite movie: alien covenant... obvious child..... 

i tag @loserxvi and @galaxygalpals and @noncaf and also anyone who wanna do this

[march17]

@jarfulofglassanimals tagged me to this monster! :D

🌻  rules: once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to tag.

🌻 LAST…

1. Drink: chai latte

2. Phone Call: brother, it was his birthday

3. Text Message: does whatsapp count? my groupchat with some friends

4. Song You Listened To: Everything Black, by Unlike Pluto

5. Time You Cried: yesterday, I was watching Rogue One again

🌻 HAVE YOU EVER…

6. Dated Someone Twice: no, over is over

7. Been Cheated On: yes

8. Kissed someone and regretted it: yes

9. Lost someone special: yes

10. Been depressed: yes

11.Gotten drunk and thrown up: yes

🌻 LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS…

12. dark green

13. dark red

14. dark purple (wow, why so dark hahaha)

🌻 IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

15. Made new friends: yes

16. Fallen out of love: yes

17. Laughed until you cried: yes

18. Found out someone was talking about you: yes

19. Met someone who changed you: many!

20. Found out who your true friends are: yes

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yes

🌻 GENERAL…

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them

23. Do you have any pets: not where i live now, dorm doesnt allow it. I have a dog in Mexico, I had to leave her when I left my boyfriend, and I have a cat at my dads house, tho I dont go there anymore since he threw me out

24. Do you want to change your name: no

25. What did you do for your last birthday: oh boy! My last birthday was a week ago and it was amazing! I had lectures till 2 and then we went to eat vietnamese food, it was amazing how many people showed up and i felt so loved i cried! then we went for cocktails and dancing, i came home 24hours after i woke up that day xD

26. What time did you wake up today: 7 but i went back to sleep until 10

27. What were doing at midnight last night: saying good night to ppl

28. Name something you cannot wait for: this bachelor thesis to write itself

29. When was the last time you saw your mother: christmas, but Ill see her again in april

30. What is one thing that you could change about your life: my life is pretty neat at the moment, even the bad experiences in the past are part of that. I wouldnt be who i am without it being like it is, so .... nothing?

31. What are you listening to right now: nothing right now, which is a first

32. Have you ever talked to someone named Tom: my uncles name is Thomas, does that count? if not, then no

33. Something that gets on your nerves: people who are arrogant and mean, just because they can

34. Most visited website: tumblr....

35. Elementary: first one was nice, lots of friends, second one noone would ever talk to me

36. Secondary: went to the good one after my teachers told my mom i was too stupid for it, she send me in anyways. I redid a year and met my first friends there who, during uni, promptly left me

37. College: studying right now, met a whole lot of crazy people, never met so many genuine and odd and kind people at once

38. Hair colour: brown

39. Long or short hair: short

40. Do you have a crush on someone: oh boy, when do i not? (actually, currently I dont, which is unusual)

41. What do you like about yourself: i know im emotionally very strong and im kind, ive once been told that i am so authentically and unappologetically me that it gives people the courage to be that too, and i find that an amazing trade to have

42. Piercings: yes, a septum and a total of 6 earrings

43. Blood type: A+

44. Nicknames: Jo and Hanna

45. Relationship Status: single

46. Zodiac sign: pisces

47. Pronouns: she/her or they/them

48. fav Tv show: Brooklyn 99 is my favorite right now, an all time loved one is scrubs

49. tattoos: yes, my starsign as a constelation on my left ribcage, i also want the great dipper on my shoulder and a jellyfish and a fish somewhere

50. right or left handed: left

🌻 FIRST…

51. surgery: nosejob, had some issues there since i was 5 and only with 18 was I allowed to get it fixed

52. piercing: earrings, i guess? if not, then the septum which was last year (i freaked the guy out bc i kept staring him straight in the eyes as he rammed the metal rod through my nose, he said that never happened before, bc they usually look away. little did he know i was daydreaming)

53. best friend: her name was Lotte, and she only talked to me when she was alone

54. Sport: bicycle i guess? I went to school with it. If not, Judo

55. Vacation: if i remember correctly, Rekyavik, by ferrie, apparently i was about 2

56. Pair of trainers: they were red, i had a matching red track suit, my mom still has the shoes

🌻 RIGHT NOW…

57. Eating: had a sandwich half an hour ago

58. Drinking: water and chai latte

59. i’m about to: watch assassins creed

60. listening to: nothing rn

61. waiting for: nothing really, going to work this evening, so maybe that?

62. want: cucumber water

63. get married: nah

64. career: i work at an irish pub here, we have about 1000 different kinds of whiskys and such. its just part time tho.

🌻 WHICH IS BETTER…

65. hugs or kisses: depends on the person

66. lips or eyes: both

67. shorter or taller: doesn’t matter

68. older or younger: doesn’t matter

69. romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous

70. nice arms or nice stomach: doesn’t matter

71. sensitive or loud: sensitive

72. hook up or relationship: hook up i guess, i really dont want a relationship rn

73. troublemaker or hesitant: both can be fun

🌻 HAVE YOU EVER…

74. kissed a stranger: yes

75. drank hard liquor: yes

76. lost glasses/contact lenses: yes

77. turned someone down: yes

78. sex on first date: it wasnt a date

79. broken someone’s heart: yes

80. had your own heart broken: yes (it breaks so easy)

81. been arrested: no

82. cried when someone died: yes

83. fallen for a friend: after we stopped being friends, i realized that yes

🌻 DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

84. yourself: sometimes

85. miracles: not really, but sometimes its just funny coincidence

86. love at first sight: no

87. santa claus: lol

88. kiss on the first date: thats up to the person, really

89. angels: no

🌻 OTHER…

90. current best friend’s name: I have quite a bit, but one of them is here so @dmacor

91. eye colour: brown-green

92. favourite movie: oh man, idk