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A Little Surprise
I've had this little part of my au floating around as basically an abstract concept since the start, more or less. Now, finally, I've polished it up and included it properly!
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Life always holds a great many things to be appreciated, least of all being how the lush rainforests maintained their grandeur and warms even in the clutches of the winter months when lands to the far north and south nearly froze over every year. No, the consistency of the environment suited him just fine, and he took great pride in keeping it that way: his rounds were as regular as the forest's rainfall, starting today in the East, he travelled with the sun as far West as the forest would go. Sure, trees were felled in his wake, but there was only so much he could do to prevent that when he's - well - a Behemoth, large enough so that even Godzilla had to look upwards to meet his eye. But, still, those felled trees had purpose yet, to decay and feed their neighbours - new trees would always grow.
So, here he was, on his usual rounds of the rainforest, just coming up to the halfway point of his trek as the sun came to noon. Really, he could have made it to his destination in the West by now, but what was the point in rushing? Unless he were to heed some urgent call from either the lands he cared for or Godzilla himself, then he would take his time, as all things should do as far as he was concerned. Besides, if he maintained a steady pace as he was, it meant that he would have plenty of time to look around and make sure everything was as it should be - he knew this rainforest better than the tusks on his face, so anomalies were easy enough to spot.
That's how he knew that the little ditch under his paw was new.
He stopped and looked down at it, leaning forwards a little to see it better. Sure enough, it was a small ditch, just less than the width of his knuckles and deep enough to curve away from view underground. A tunnel, it seemed. A mound of dirt, shrubs and broken tree roots sat near the entrance to the tunnel, only recently disturbed by the looks of it.
That was odd, hadn't he passed through this area just two days ago? Had something really managed to slip past his notice? He doubted it, and instead reasoned that whatever had made this had done so afterwards.
In that moment he found himself distantly wishing that his sense of smell was even slightly more acute, at least then he might have had a chance of finding some semblance of an answer to what, exactly, had been digging. Alas, that could not be, so he turned his efforts towards working out what it wasn't: the hole was too big to belong to any of the rainforest's native fauna, of that he was certain, and near enough every kaiju that he knew of was simply too big in turn to have dug it out in the first place.
Behemoth kept looking, and quickly noticed a parting in the trees where the underbrush sat half-crumpled, torn and trampled. The disorder of the ground formed a narrow path that may have already seen frequent use, leading due North. He considered this for a moment, before straightening back up and following the little trail.
The sun had hardly had the chance to move any further West when Behemoth spotted a drop-off in the treeline where the great river parted the rainforest, and as he moved closer he could just make out the thin line that made up the opposite shoreline. He stopped with the path on the riverbank, watching as the river's dazzling grey surface sat as tranquil as could be while the water moved steadily on its journey. He looked left and right up and down the river, but he saw nothing out of the ordinary...no, wait! There, a short distance out, a dark shape moved in the water; it drifted against the current one moment and then with it the next, only to repeat the actions like it were a game.
Behemoth wasn't sure how long he stood there watching the shape, but eventually it came to a relative stop, just out of his reach. He didn't know what he expected, but the little head that breached the river's surface was most certainly not on his list. It had a narrow snout adorned with three small ridges over the top and covered in grey scales. Luminous orange-and-yellow eyes peered at him curiously with no hint of surprise, and the creature began to swim towards him. He hesitantly reached out to it, and it made now show of alarm as he dipped his long claws under the water and under the creature's slim body, gently lifting it and bringing it closer to his face so that he could see it better. The creature didn't wait for his paw to come to a halt in the air before it scrambled from where it say in the curve of his claw, up over his knuckles and onto the back of his forelimb; its own little claws were far too small to do anything more than tickle the skin under his fur as it balanced itself.
Now that he could see it better, he noted the single row of green-ish crest-like protrusions that ran along its back from the top of its neck to the end of its tail. Its scales weren't just grey, either, as he had previously guessed - the upper part of its body had dark scales, similar to the colour of the mud that formed the riverbanks, and the rest were a pale grey like the water itself, aside from the beige hue on its underbelly. The little creature chirped at him.
Behemoth scoured his mind for any definitive answer, but he kept coming up short - he had a few theories, though. Still, he wanted to be sure, and he knew just where to go to find out.
He held his forelimb so that the creature might climb onto his back or shoulder - having all four of his paws on the ground just made walking that little bit easier for him - and the creature did just that, perching lightly on his shoulder. He gave a satisfactory hum, turned, and began the trek South.
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Behemoth's role upon this earth was invaluable. He was, essentially, responsible for keeping the planet breathing: without him, or someone else to fill his place, the vast forests of the world would, through one circumstance or another, slowly dwindle into barren wastelands, taking everything good in the air with them. The winds would become stale before they became altogether toxic, so it fell to him and his natural affinity of the subject to keep the forests alive and healthy. He would even argue that his role held just as much importance as Godzilla's; as the alpha, Godzilla protected the structure of the natural balance, but every structure needs its supports, and Behemoth's work was one such support. However, that wasn't his only task, no.
The kaiju reign's origins predated even the memory of the ground beneath Behemoth's paws - even the oldest amongst those alive today were not the first of their kind. Even so, there remained one who - if the stories were to be believed - was birthed from the very first fires of creation on earth itself, one who had lived more lives than could be counted, and would love and live a great many more. This reputation had very quickly marked her as the everlasting Queen of the kaiju, one who would advise and guide each new alpha as they came and went with a wisdom that could not be found even in the memories of the stars. At the end of each life, she became reborn, and each time she needed a place where she could return to her full being in peace and safety.
For this life, she chose Behemoth's lands to begin anew.
The responsibility of such a task at first weighed heavily on his mind, but it wasn't long before he had learned that she needed little more from him than some company with the occasional friendly conversation. Had he not known of her status, he would have called her a friend instead of a queen.
The sun was perhaps an hour from the horizon when he found the yawning entrance to her cave home, and he descended into the darkness carefully.
The cavern ceiling was high enough so that Behemoth didn't have to worry about catching his head on the slick rock, and the space was shallow enough to where he wouldn't need to spend long searching for her. In fact, he spotted her as soon as his eyes had adjusted to the low light, a larva curled up in a nest of silk. She looked up at him as he approached.
"Behemoth," Mothra greeted cheerfully. "You're earlier than usual - is everything alright?"
Behemoth nodded. "Everything's fine, I just have a question or two that I hope you can help me answer."
"Then ask, my friend."
He sat on the damp, moss-covered floor of the cave and raised a forelimb to retrieve the little creature (who had remained entirely at ease and quiet on his shoulder aside from the occasion chirp for the whole journey). He held it out in his upturned paw, where it tucked its thin limbs underneath itself and looked between to two large kaiju. Mothra hardly needed to glance at it before she spoke.
"A gojira infant?" she asked.
"Apparently so."
"Where did you find her?"
Well, that was two of his questions answered.
"Well," he started, "I found a small hole, like a tunnel entrance, and a fresh trail that lead to the river, and that's where I found her."
Mothra leaned in a little closer to the gojira, inspecting her. "She seems a little undernourished, but otherwise fine - go on, you can put her down. I take it there were no adults?"
"No, nothing."
"And...how has she behaved around you?"
"There's not much to say, she hasn't seemed cautious at all - downright friendly, I'd say." Behemoth watched the little gojira as she waddled on slightly wobbly legs to his front paw, snuffling around until she found an angle where she could start gnawing on his claw.
He heard a light chuckle from Mothra.
"Ah, then it seems she's imprinted on you."
His head snapped back up to face Mothra. "Imprinted?" he echoed.
"Gojira are a social species," she said. Then she paused and added: "mostly. Many of them prefer the company of a pack or colony, if there's enough of them, meaning their young aren't fit to make do on their own; not this young, certainly. They need some kind of guardian to look after them, and they usually find it in anything that isn't a direct threat."
"So, you're saying..."
"This little one has picked you to be her new family. You needn't worry too much, most things she'll learn by herself in time, but she will need you to provide for her until then."
Behemoth shook his head. "How do I know she's not just lost?"
"You said there was a tunnel - her kind in particular don't make tunnels unless they plan to stay."
He looked back down at the little gojira infant, where she now lay, idly scraping her miniscule teeth against his claw. He didn't have many memories of family, truth be told, and the few he that he did have were murky at best. He nodded
Then she can stay.
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The moon was high and bright in the starlit sky by the time he bid Mothra goodbye and left the cave; he started heading back North, intending to cover some more ground before he continued the trek of his rounds in the morning. On his shoulder, the gojira shifted, yawned and fidgeted in his fur. Instead, perhaps it would be best if he just found somewhere to rest for the night.
He wandered through the trees that reached no further than his chest until he came across the face a sheer mountain. A thin waterfall tricked down the middle of it and fed a stream at the bottom. This would be as good a place as any, he thought as he settled down in the foliage.
The gojira infant climbed down his forelimb and onto the ground, sniffing and pacing until she pushed herself against the crook of his elbow and curled up with her limbs tucked underneath herself, fast asleep before she even closed her eyes. He realised then that, if he were to become her caretaker, she would need a name.
Life always holds a great many things to be appreciated, Behemoth mused, and watching the stars as he settled on a name was a new one for him. He would call her Nanta.
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Double Indemnity, Veritas Ratio and Aventurine
This was originally a part of my compilation post as a short analysis on the Double Indemnity references, linking to this great thread by Manya on Twitter. However, I've recently watched the movie and found that the parallels run much deeper than just the mission name and the light cone itself, plus as the short synopsis I've read online. Since there isn't really an in-depth attempt at an analysis on the film in relation to the way Aventurine and Ratio present themselves throughout Penacony, I thought I'd take a stab at doing just that. I will also be bringing up things from Manya's thread as well as another thread that has some extra points.
Disclaimer that I... don't do analyses very often. Or write, in general â I'm someone who likes to illustrate their thoughts (in the artistic sense) more than write. There's just something about these two that makes me want to rip into them so badly, so here we are. If there's anything you'd like to add or correct me on, feel free to let me know in the replies or reblogs, or asks. This ended up being a rather extensive deep dive into the movie and its influences on the pairing, so please keep that in mind when pressing Read More.
There are two distinct layers on display in Ratio and Aventurine's relationship throughout Penacony, which are references to the two most important relationships in the movie â where they act like they hate/donât know each other, and where they trust each other.
SPOILER WARNING for the entire movie, by the way. You can watch the film for free here on archive.org, as well as follow along with the screenplay here. I will also be taking dialogue and such from the screenplay, and cite quotes from the original novel in its own dedicated section. SPOILER WARNING for the Cat Among Pigeons Trailblaze mission, as well.
CONTENT WARNING FOR MENTIONS OF SUICIDE. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
To start, Double Indemnity (1944) is a film noir by Billy Wilder (and co-written by Raymond Chandler) based on the novel of the same name by James M. Cain (1927). There are stark differences between the movie adaptation and the original novel which I will get into later on in this post, albeit in a smaller section, as this analysis is mainly focused on the movie adaptation. I will talk about the basics (summaries for the movie and the game, specifically the Penacony mission in tandem with Ratio and Aventurine) before diving into the character and scene parallels, among other things.
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[THE NAME]
The term "double indemnity" is a clause in which if thereâs a case of accidental death of a statistically rare variety, the insurance company has to pay out multiple of the original amount. This excludes deaths by murder, suicide, gross negligence, and natural causes.
The part of the mission in Cat Among Pigeons where Ratio and Aventurine meet with Sunday is named after the movie. And before we get further into things, let's get this part out of the way: The Chinese name used in the mission is the CN title of the movie, so there's no liberties taken with the localization â this makes it clear that itâs a nod to the movie and not localization doing its own thing like with the mission name for Heaven Is A Place On Earth (EN) / This Side of Paradise (äşşé´ĺ¤Šĺ ) (CN).
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[SUMMARY OF THE 1944 MOVIE]
Here I summarised the important parts that will eventually be relevant in the analysis related to the game.
Insurance salesman Walter Neff, wounded from a gunshot, enters his office and confesses his crime on a dictaphone to his boss Barton Keyes, the claims manager. Much earlier, he had met Phyllis Dietrichson, the wife of Mr. Dietrichson and former nurse. Neff had initially wanted to meet Mr. Dietrichson because of car insurance. Phyllis claims her husband is mean to her and that his life insurance goes to his daughter Lola. With Neff seduced by Phyllis, they eventually brew up a scheme to murder Mr. Dietrichson in such a way that they activate the "double indemnity" clause, and the plan goes off almost perfectly. Initially, the death is labeled a suicide by the president of the company, Norton.Â
Keyes finds the whole situation suspicious, and starts to suspect Phyllis may have had an accomplice. The label on the death goes from accidental, to suicide, to then murder. When itâs ruled that the husband had no idea of the accidental policy, the company refuses to pay. Neff befriends Phyllisâ stepdaughter Lola, and after finding out Phyllis may have played a part in the death of her fatherâs previous wife, Neff begins to fear for Lola and himself, as the life insurance would go all towards her, not Phyllis.
After the plan begins to unravel as a witness is found, it comes out that Lolaâs boyfriend Nino Zachette has been visiting Phyllis every night after the murder. Neff goes to confront Phyllis, intending to kill her. Phyllis has her own plans, and ends up shooting him, but is unable to fire any more shots once she realises she did love him. Neff kills her in two shots. Soon after telling Zachette not to go inside the house, Neff drives to his office to record the confession. When Keyes arrives, Neff tells him he will go to Mexico, but he collapses before he could get out of the building.
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[THE PENACONY MISSION TIMELINE]
I wonât be summarising the entirety of Aventurine and Ratioâs endeavours from the beginning of their relationship to their final conversation in Heaven Is A Place On Earth the same way as I summarised the plot of the movie, so I will instead present a timeline. Bolded parts means they are important and have clear parallels, and texts that are in [brackets] and italics stand for the names of either the light cone, or the mission names.
[Final Victor] Their first meeting. Ratioâs ideals are turned on its head as he finally meets his match.
Several missions happen in-between their first encounter and the Penacony project. They come to grow so close and trusting with each other that they can guess, understand each otherâs thoughts, way of thinking and minds even in high stakes missions. Enough to pull off the Prisonerâs Dilemma (Aventurineâs E1) and Stag Hunt Game (Aventurineâs E6) and come out on top.
Aventurine turns towards Ratio for assisting him in the Penacony project. Ratio's involvement in the project is implied to be done without the knowledge of Jade, Topaz, and the IPC in general, as he was only sent to Penacony to represent the Intelligentsia Guild, and the two other Stonehearts never mention Ratio.
Aventurine and Ratio cook up the plan to deceive Sunday before ever setting foot on Penacony. Aventurine does not tell Ratio the entirety of his plan.
Aventurine convinces Topaz and Jade to trust him with their Cornerstones. Aventurine also breaks his own Cornerstone and hides it along with the jade within a bag of gift money.
[The Youth Who Chase Dreams] They enter Penacony in the Reverie Hotel. Aventurine is taken to the side by Sunday and has all his valuables taken, which includes the gift money that contains the broken aventurine stone, the jade, and the case containing the topaz.
Aventurine and Ratio speak in a âprivateâ room about how Aventurine messed up the plan. After faking an argument to the all-seeing eyes of Sunday, Ratio leaves in a huff.
Ratio, wearing his alabaster head, is seen around Golden Hour in the (Dusk) Auction House by March 7th.
[Double Indemnity] Ratio meets up with Sunday and âexposesâ Aventurine to him. Sunday buys his âbetrayalâ, and is now in possession of the topaz and jade. Note that this is in truth Ratio betraying Sunday all along.
Ratio meets up with Aventurine again at the bar. Ratio tells Aventurine Sunday wants to see him again.
They go to Dewlight Pavilion and solve a bunch of puzzles to prove their worth to Sunday.
They meet up with Sunday. Sunday forces Aventurine to tell the truth using his Harmony powers. Ratio cannot watch on. It ends with Aventurine taking the gift money with his Cornerstone.
[Heaven Is A Place On Earth] They are in Golden Hour. Ratio tries to pry Aventurine about his plan, but Aventurine reins him in to stop breaking character. Ratio gives him the Mundaniteâs Insight before leaving. This is their final conversation before Aventurineâs grandest death.
Now how exactly does the word âdouble indemnityâ relate to their mission in-game? What is their payout? For the IPC, this would be Penacony itself â Aventurine, as the IPC ambassador, handing in the Jade Cornerstone as well as orchestrating a huge show for everybody to witness his death, means the IPC have a reason to reclaim the former prison frontier. As for Ratio, his payout would be information on Penaconyâs Stellaron, although whether or not this was actually something he sought out is debatable. And Aventurine? Itâs highly implied that he seeks an audience with Diamond, and breaking the Aventurine Cornerstone is a one way trip to getting into hot water with Diamond. With Aventurineâs self-destructive behaviour, however, it would also make sense to say that death would be his potential payout, had he taken that path in the realm of IX.
Compared to the movie, the timeline happens in reverse and opposite in some aspects. I will get into it later. As for the intended parallels, these are pretty clear and cut:
Veritas Ratio - Walter Neff
Aventurine - Phyllis Dietrichson
Sunday - Mr. Dietrichson
There is one other character who I feel also is represented in Ratio, but I wonât bring them up until later down the line.
For the sake of this analysis, I wonât be exploring Sundayâs parallel to Mr. Dietrichson, as there isnât much on Dietrichsonâs character in the first place in both the movie and the novel. He just kind of exists to be a bastard that is killed off at the halfway point. Plus, the analysis is specifically hyper focused on the other two.
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[SO, WHATâS THE PLAN?]
To make things less confusing in the long run whenever I mention the words âschemeâ and âplanâ, I will be going through the details of Phyllis and Neffâs scheme, and Aventurine and Ratioâs plan respectively. Anything that happens after either pair separate from another isnât going to be included. Written in a way for the plans to have gone perfectly with no outside problems.
Phyllis and Neff â> Mr. Dietrichson
Goal: Activate the double indemnity clause by killing Mr. Dietrichson and making it look like a freak train accident
Payout: Twice or more of the face value of the life insurance ($100,000)
Main Actor: Walter Neff  |  Accomplice: Phyllis Dietrichson
During the entire time until the payout, Phyllis and Neff have to make sure to any outsiders that they look like complete strangers instead of lovers in an affair.
Step-by-step:
Neff convinces Mr. Dietrichson to sign the policy with the clause without him suspecting foul play, preferably with a third party to act as an alibi. This is done discreetly, making Mr. Dietrichson not read the policy closely and being told to just sign.
Neff and Phyllis talk to each other about small details through the phone (specified to be never at Phyllisâ own house and never when Neff was in his office) and in the marketplace only, to make their meetings look accidental. They shouldnât be seen nor tracked together, after all.
Phyllis asks Mr. Dietrichson to take the train. She will be the one driving him to the train station.
On the night of the murder, after making sure his alibi is airtight, Neff sneaks into their residence and hides in their car in the second row seating, behind the front row passenger seat. He wears the same colour of clothes as Mr. Dietrichson.
Phyllis and Mr. Dietrichson get inside the car â Phyllis in the driverâs seat and Mr. Dietrichson in the passenger seat. Phyllis drives. On the way to the train station, she makes a detour into an alley. She honks the horn three times.
After the third honk, Neff breaks Mr. Dietrichsonâs neck. The body is then hidden in the second row seating under a rug.
They drive to the train station. Phyllis helps Neff, now posing as Mr. Dietrichson, onto the train. The train leaves the station.
Neff makes it to the observation platform of the parlour car and drops onto the train tracks when nobody else is there.
Phyllis is at the dump beside the tracks. She makes the car blink twice as a signal.
The two drag Mr. Dietrichsonâs corpse onto the tracks.
They leave.
When Phyllis eventually gets questioned by the insurance company, she pretends she has no idea what they are talking about and eventually storms off.
Phyllis and Neff continue to lay low until the insurance company pays out.
Profit!
Actual Result: The actual murder plan goes almost smoothly, with a bonus of Mr. Dietrichson having broken a leg. But with him not filing a claim for the broken leg, a witness at the observation platform, and Zachette visiting Phyllis every night after the murder, Keyes works out the murder scheme on his own, but pins the blame on Phyllis and Zachette, not Neff.
Now for Aventurine and Ratio. You can skip this section if you understand how deep their act goes, but to those who need a refresher, hereâs a thorough explanation:
Aventurine and Ratio â> Sunday
Goal: Collect the aventurine stone without Sunday knowing, ruin the dream (and create the grandest death)
Payout: Penacony for the IPC, information on the Stellaron for Ratio, a meeting with Diamond / death for Aventurine
Main Actor: Aventurine  |  Accomplice: Veritas Ratio
From the moment they step onto Penacony, they are under Sundayâs ever present and watchful eyes. âPrivacyâ is a foreign word to The Family. They have to act like they donât like each otherâs company the entire time and feed Sunday information through indirect means so that the eventual âbetrayalâ by Ratio seems truthful to Sunday. Despite what it looks like, they are closer than one would ever think, and Ratio would never sell out a person purely for information.
Step-by-step:
After Sunday takes away the bag of gift money and box, Aventurine and Ratio talk in a room in the Reverie Hotel.
Aventurine establishes the Cornerstonesâ importance, and how he lost the gift money and the case containing the Cornerstones to Sunday. Ratio turns to leave, saying âsome idiot ruined everythingâ, meaning the Cornerstones were vital to their plan. (Note that Ratio is not wearing his alabaster head while saying it to said âidiotâ.)
Aventurine then proceeds to downplay the importance of the Cornerstones, stating they are ânothing more than a few rocksâ and âwho cares if they are goneâ. This lets Sunday know that something suspicious may be going on for him to act like itâs nothing, and the mention of multiple stones, and leaves him to look up what a Cornerstone is to the Ten Stonehearts of the IPC.
Ratio points out his absurd choice of outfit, mentioning the Attini Peacock and their song.
Ratio implies that without the aventurine stone, he is useless to the IPC. He also establishes that Aventurine is from Sigonia(-IV), and points out the mark on his neck. To Sunday, this means that Aventurine is shackled to the IPC, and how Aventurine may possibly go through extreme lengths to get the stone back, because a death sentence always looms above him.
Aventurine claims Ratio had done his homework on his background, which can be taken that this is their very first time working together. (It isnât, and it only takes one look to know that Aventurine is an Avgin because of his unique eyes, so this comment does not make sense even in a âsincereâ way, a running theme for the interaction.)
Ratio mentions how the true goal is to reclaim Penacony for the IPC, establishing their ulterior motive for attending the banquet.
Ratio asks if Aventurine went to pre-school in Sigonia after saying trust was reliant on cooperation. Aventurine mentions how he didnât go to school and how he doesnât have any parents. He even brings up how friends are weapons of the Avgins. This tells Sunday that the Avgins supposedly are good at manipulation and potentially sees Ratio possibly betraying Aventurine due to his carelessness with his âfriendsâ. Sunday would also then research about the Avgins in general (and research about Sigonia-IV comes straight from the Intelligentsia Guild.)
Ratio goes to Dewlight Pavilion in Sundayâs Mansion and exposes a part of Aventurineâs âplanâ. When being handed the suitcase, Ratio opens it up due to his apparent high status in the IPC. He tells Sunday that the Cornerstone in the suitcase is a topaz, not an aventurine, and that the real aventurine stone is in the bag of gift money. This is a double betrayal â on Aventurine (who knows) and Sunday (who doesnât). Note that while Ratio is not officially an IPC member in name â the Intelligentsia Guild (which is run by the IPC head of the Technology Department Yabuli) frequently collaborates with the IPC. Either Aventurine had given him access to the box, or Ratioâs status in general is ambiguous enough for Sunday not to question him further. He then explains parts of Aventurineâs gamble to Sunday in order to sell the betrayal. Note that Ratio does not ever mention Aventurineâs race to Sunday.
Ratio brings Aventurine to Sunday. Aventurine offers help in the investigation of Robin's death, requesting the gift money and the box in return.
Sunday objects to the trade offer. Aventurine then asks for just the bag. A classic car insurance sales tactic. Sunday then interrogates Aventurine, and uses everything Ratio and Aventurine brought up in the Reverie Hotel conversation and their interactions in the Mansion, as well as aspects that Ratio had brought up to Sunday himself.
Aventurine feigns defeat and ignorance enough so that Sunday willingly lets him go with the gift bag. After all is said and done, Aventurine leaves with the gift money, where the Aventurine Cornerstone is stored all along.
Ratio and Aventurine continue to pretend they dislike each other until they go their separate ways for their respective goals and plans. Aventurine would go on to orchestrate his own demise at the hands of Acheron, and Ratio⌠lurks in the shadows like the owl he is.
Profit!
Actual Result: The plan goes perfectly, even with minor hiccups like Ratio coming close to breaking character several times and Aventurine being sentenced to execution by Sunday.
This is how Sunday uses the information he gathered against Aventurine:
⢠Sunday going on a tirade about the way Aventurine dresses and how heâs not one to take risks â Ratioâs comment about Aventurineâs outfit being peacock-esque and how heâs âshort of a feather or twoâ. ⢠âDo you own a Cornerstone?â â Ratio talked about the aventurine stone. ⢠âDid you hand over the Cornerstone to The Family when you entered Penacony?â â Aventurine mentioned the box containing the Cornerstones. ⢠âDoes the Cornerstone you handed over to The Family belong to you?â â Aventurine specifically pluralized the word Cornerstone and âa bunch of rocksâ when talking to Ratio. ⢠âIs your Cornerstone in this room right now?â â The box in the room supposedly contained Aventurineâs own cornerstone, when Aventurine mentioned multiple stones. ⢠âAre you an Avgin from Sigonia?â âAventurine mentioned that heâs an Avgin, and Ratio brought up Sigonia. ⢠âDo the Avgins have any ability to read, control, and manipulate oneâs own or anotherâs minds?â â Aventurineâs comment on how friends are weapons, as well as Sundayâs own research on the Avgins, leading him to find out about the negative stereotypes associated with them. ⢠âDo you love your family more than yourself?â â His lost parents. âAll the Avgins were killed in a massacre. Am I right?â â Based on Sundayâs research into his background. ⢠âAre you your clanâs sole survivor?â â Same as the last point. âDo you hate and wish to destroy this world with your own hands?â â Ratio mentioned the IPCâs goal to regain Penacony, and Aventurineâs whole shtick is âall or nothingâ. ⢠âCan you swear that at this very moment, the aventurine stone is safe and sound in this box?â â Repeat.
As seen here, both duos have convoluted plans that involve the deception of one or more parties while also pretending that the relationship between each other isnât as close as in reality. Unless you knew both of them personally and their histories, there was no way you could tell that they have something else going on.Â
On to the next point: Comparing Aventurine and Ratio with Phyllis and Neff.
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[NEFF & PHYLLIS â RATIO & AVENTURINE]
With the short summaries of the movie and the mission out of the way, letâs look at Phyllis and Neff as characters and how Aventurine and Ratio are similar or opposite to them.
Starting off with Aventurine and Phyllis. Here is where they are the most similar:
Phyllis is blonde and described as a provocative woman. Aventurine is also a blond and eyes Ratio provocatively in the Final Victor light cone.
Phyllis was put under surveillance after Keyes starts figuring out that the so-called accidental death/suicide may have been a murder after all. Similarly, Aventurine was watched by Sunday the entire time in Penacony.
Phyllis never tells Neff how she's seeing another man on the side to possibly kill him too (as well as how she was responsible for the death of her husbandâs previous wife). Aventurine also didn't tell Ratio the entirety of his plan of his own death.
Phyllis puts on a somewhat helpless act at first but is incredibly capable of making things go her way, having everything seemingly wrapped around her finger. Aventurine â even when putting on a facade that masks his true motives â always comes out at the top.
Now the differences between Aventurine and Phyllis:
Phyllis does not care about her family and has no issue with killing her husband, his previous wife, and possibly her daughter Lola. Opposite of that, Aventurine is a family man⌠with no family left, as well as feeling an insane level of survivorâs guilt.
Really, Phyllis just⌠does not care at all about anyone but herself and the money. Aventurine, while he uses every trick in the book to get out on top, does care about the way Jade and Topaz had entrusted him with their Cornerstones, in spite of the stones being worth their lives.Â
Phyllis also uses other people to her advantage to get what she wants, often behind other people's backs, with the way she treats Neff and Zachette. Aventurine does as well (what with him making deals with the Trailblazer while also making a deal with Black Swan that involves the Trailblazer). The difference here is Phyllis uses her allure deliberately to seduce men while Aventurine simply uses others as pawns while also allowing others to do the same to himself.
Phyllis makes no attempt at compromising the policy when questioned by Norton. Aventurine ends up compromising by only taking the gift money (which is exactly what he needs).
The wig that Barbara Stanwyck (the actress of Phyllis) wore was chosen to make her look as âsleazyâ as possible, make her look insincere and a fraud, a manipulator. A sort of cheapness. Aventurineâs flashy peacock-esque outfit can be sort of seen as something similar, except the outfit isnât cheap.
Moving on to Ratioâs similarities to Neff⌠There isnât much to extrapolate here as Ratio is more of a side character in the grand scheme of Penacony, however this is what Iâve figured out.
Neff has dark hair. Ratio has dark purple hair.
Neff almost never refers to Phyllis by her name when speaking with her, only as âbabyâ. The few times he refers to her as Phyllis or Mrs. Dietrichson is during their first conversations and when he has to act like he doesnât know her. Ratio never calls Aventurine by his name when heâs around him â only as âgamblerâ, sometimes âdamnedâ or âdearâ (EN-only) gambler. Only in the Aventurine's Keeping Up With Star Rail episode does Ratio repeatedly say his name, and yet he still calls him by monikers like âgamblerâ or, bafflingly, a âsystem of chaos devoid of logicâ.
Both Neff and Ratio committed two betrayals: Neff on Mr. Dietrichson and Keyes, and Ratio on Sunday and Aventurine. With the former cases it was to reach the end of the trolley line, and with the latter it was on a man who had put his trust in him.
As for the differencesâŚ
Neff is described as someone whoâs not smart by his peers. Ratio is someone who is repeatedly idolised and put on a pedestal by other people.
Neff is excellent at pretending to not know nor care for Phyllis whenever he speaks about her with Keyes or when he and she are in a place that could land them in hot water (the office, the mansion when there are witnesses). His acting is on the same level as Phyllis. With Ratio itâs⌠complicated. While he does pull off the hater act well, he straight up isnât great at pretending not to care about Aventurineâs wellbeing.
Instead of getting his gunshot wound treated in the hospital like a normal person, Neff makes the absolutely brilliant decision of driving to his office and talking to a dictaphone for hours. Needless to say, this is something a medical doctor like Ratio would never do.
Now here's the thing. Though it's very easy to just look at Phyllis and Neff in the movie and go "okay, Aventurine is Phyllis and Ratio is Neff â end of story" and leave it at that, I find that they both take from the two leads in different ways. Let me explain. Beginning with Aventurine and NeffâŚ
Neff is the one who hatches the plan and encourages Phyllis to go through and claim the double indemnity clause in the first place. He is also the key player of his own risky plan, having to fake being the husband to enter the train as well as fake the death. Aventurine puts himself at great risk just by being in Sundayâs presence, and hoping that Sunday wouldnât figure out that the green stone he had uncovered wasnât the aventurine stone.
Adding onto the last point, Neff had fantasised about pulling off the perfect murder for a long time â the catalyst was simply him meeting Phyllis. Aventurine presumably sought out Ratio alone for his plan against Sunday.
Neff makes a roulette wheel analogy and talks about a pile of blue and yellow poker chips (the latter in the script only). I donât even have to explain why this is relevant here. (Aventurineâs Ultimate features a roulette wheel and the motif is on his belt, thigh strap, and back, too. And of course, Aventurine is all about his chips.)
Neff has certain ways to hide when heâs nervous, which include hiding his hands in his pockets when they were shaking, putting on glasses so people couldnât see his eyes. Aventurine hides his left hand behind his back when heâs nervous: Future Aventurine says that "they don't know the other hand is below the table, clutching [his] chips for dear life", and in multiple occasions such as the Final Victor LC, his character trailer, and even in his boss form in the overworld you can see that Aventurine hides his left hand behind his back. And he is also seen with his glasses on sometimes.
Neff says a bunch of stuff to make sure that Phyllis acts her part and does not act out of character (i.e. during their interactions at the market), like how Aventurine repeatedly tries to get Ratio back on track from his subpar acting.
Neff is always one step ahead of the game, and the only reason the plan blows up in his face is due to outside forces that he could not have foreseen (a witness, Keyes figuring out the plan, the broken leg). Aventurine meanwhile plays 5D chess and even with the odds against him, he uses everything he can to come out on the top (i. e. getting Acheron to kill him in the dream).
Even after coming home on the night of the murder, Neff still felt that everything could have gone wrong. Aventurine, with his blessed luck, occasionally wavers and fears everything could go wrong whenever he takes a gamble.
Neff was not put under surveillance by Keyes due to him being extensive with his alibi. After witnessing Robinâs death with eyewitnesses at the scene, the Family had accepted Aventurineâs alibi, though he would be under watch from the Bloodhounds according to Ratio.
Neff talks about the entire murder scheme to the dictaphone. Aventurine during Cat Among Pigeons also retells his plan, albeit in a more convoluted manner, what with his future self and all.
Continuing with Ratio and Phyllis, even with their personalities and motivations being quite different, they do have a few commonalities.
Phyllis was a nurse. Ratio is a medical doctor.
Her name is Greek of origin. Veritas Ratio, though his name is Latin, has Greco-Roman influences throughout his entire character.
The very first scene Phyllis appears in has her wearing a bath towel around her torso. Ratio loves to take baths to clear his mind.
Phyllis was instructed by Neff to be at the market every morning at eleven buying things. Ratio is seen in an auction house with his alabaster head on so no one could recognize him.
Phyllis mostly acts as an accomplice to the scheme, being the one to convince her husband to take the train instead. She is also generally seen only when Neff is involved. Ratio plays the same role as well, only really appearing in the story in relation to Aventurine as well as being the accomplice in Aventurineâs own death. Even him standing in the auction house randomly can be explained by the theory that he and Aventurine had attempted to destabilise Penaconyâs economy through a pump and dump scheme.
With these pointers out of the way, letâs take a closer look at select scenes from the film and their relation to the mission and the pair.Â
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[THE PHONE CALL â THE REVERIE HOTEL]
Before the murder, there is a scene with a phone call between Phyllis and Neff discussing the plan while Keyes is in the same room as Neff. Neff has to make sure that Keyes doesnât think of anything of the phone call, so he acts like heâs calling a âMargieâ, and says a bunch of stuff that sounds innocent out of context (âCanât I call you back, âMargieâ?â âWhat color did you pick out?â âNavy blue. I like that fineâ), but are actually hinting at the real plan all along (the suit that Mr. Dietrichson wears.)
In a roundabout way, the conversation between Ratio and Aventurine in the Reverie Hotel can be seen as the opposite of that scene â with the two talking about their supposed plan out loud on Penacony ground, a place where the Family (and in turn, Sunday) has eyes everywhere. Despite being in a âprivateâ room, they still act like they hate each other while airing out details that really do not make sense to air out if they really did meet the first time in Penacony (which they didnât â theyâve been on several missions beforehand). Itâs almost like they want a secret third person to know what they were doing, instead of trying to be hushed up about it. The TVs in the room that Sunday can look through based on Inherently Unjust Destiny â A Moment Among The Stars, the Bloodhound statue that disappears upon being inspected, the owl clock on the left which side eyes Ratio and Aventurine, all point to that Sunday is watching their every move, listening to every word.
Rewinding back to before the phone call, in one of the encounters at the marketplace where they âaccidentallyâ run into each other, Phyllis talks about how the trip was off. How her husband wouldnât get on the train, which was vital for their plan, because of a broken leg. All this, while pretending to be strangers by the passersby. You could say that the part where Ratio almost leaves because Aventurine had âruined the planâ is the opposite of this, as the husband breaking his leg was something they couldnât account for, while Aventurine âbeing short of a few feathersâ was entirely part of the plan.
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[QUESTIONING PHYLLIS â THE INTERROGATION]
This section is going to be a little longer as I will cover two scenes in the movie in a more detailed manner â Mr. Dietrichson signing the policy, and Phyllis being questioned â and how they are represented in the Sunday-Aventurine interrogation and the prior conversation between Ratio and Sunday in multitudes of ways.
Going about their plan, Neff has to make sure that Mr. Dietrichson signs the policy with the double indemnity clause without him knowing the details, all the while having Phyllis (and Lola) in the same room. He and Phyllis have to pretend that they donât know each other, and that this is just the standard accidental insurance process, instead of signing what would be his downfall. To sell it, he gets Mr. Dietrichson to sign two âcopiesâ of the form, except with Mr. Dietrichsonâs second signature, heâs duped into signing the accident insurance policy with the respective clause.
You can tie this to how Ratio goes to Sunday in order to âexposeâ the lie that the suitcase didnât actually contain the Aventurine Cornerstone, as well as there being more than one Cornerstone involved in the scheme. Ratio must make sure that Sunday truly believes that he dislikes Aventurineâs company, while also making sure that Sunday doesnât figure out the actual aventurine stone is broken and hidden in the gift bag. The scheme turns out to be successful, as Sunday retrieves the two Cornerstones, but not the aventurine stone, and truly does think that the green stone he has in his possession is the aventurine.
This whole scene with Sunday is also reminiscent of the interrogation scene in the middle of the movie, where Phyllis was questioned by the boss (Norton) who was deducing that Mr. Dietrichson's death was a suicide, not accidental death. Neff, Phyllis, Keyes and Norton were all in the same room, and Neff and Phyllis had to act like they never knew the other. Phyllis acts like she knows nothing about what Norton insinuates about her husband and eventually, Phyllis explodes in anger and storms out the room, even slamming the door. Her act is very believable to any outsider.
Now back to the Ratio and Sunday conversation. One glaring difference between the movie and here is that his acting isnât great compared to either Phyllis nor Neff. It never was throughout the Penacony mission. He even comes very close to breaking character several times, and is even defending Aventurine in a somewhat aggressive manner during his one-on-one conversation with Sunday, as in he literally tells Sunday to see a shrink. Itâs very different from the way he was acting in Herta Space Station â like Ratio cares about Aventurine too much to keep his hands off.
It's also worth pointing out that Neff doesn't speak a word when Phyllis was being interrogated. Similarly, Ratio is silent throughout the entire scene with Sunday and Aventurine, with his only âlineâ being a âhmâ. When Aventurine calls him a wretch to his face, all he does is look to the side. In fact, he can only look at Aventurine when the other isnât staring back. Almost like him uttering a single word would give them away. Or his acting is terrible when it has to do with Aventurine, as he has no issue doing the same thing in Crown of the Mundane and Divine (Mundane Troubles).
So, Sunday finds out about the Cornerstones and reveals them to Aventurine, and reasons that he cannot give them back to him because Aventurine had lied. Note that in that same scene, Aventurine attempted to use the two murders that had occurred beforehand against Sunday to retrieve his own cornerstone. Similarly, when it was revealed that Mr. Dietrichson did not know about the accident policy and that the so-called âaccidental deathâ was not, in fact, accidental, the insurance company refused to pay out the money.
Unlike the movie, this was all planned, however. The double-crossing by Ratio, the gift money being the only thing required for Aventurineâs real plan. All of it was an act of betrayal against Sunday, in the same manner as the meticulous planning as Mr. Dietrichsonâs murder â To sign the policy, get him to take the train, kill him on the way, and to have Neff pose as the husband on the train until the time is right to get off and lay the body on the tracks. A key difference is that they could not have expected their scheme to be busted wide open due to forces outside of their control, while Ratio and Aventurine went straight down the line for the both of them no matter what.
From here on out, we can conclude that the way Ratio and Aventurine present themselves in Penacony to onlookers is in line with Neff and Phyllis.
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[âGOODBYE, BABYâ â FINAL VICTOR]
And now for the (in)famous light cone, Final Victor. The thing that truly kickstarted the Ratio and Aventurine ship in the fanbase, and the partnership between the two in general. Itâs a direct reference to the final confrontation between Neff and Phyllis in the movie.
Iâll fire through all the similarities between the two scenes.
During the respective scenes, Aventurine and Phyllis both outsmart their partner one way or the other: Aventurine with his one-sided game of Russian Roulette, and Phyllis hiding her gun underneath the cushions until Neff turned away.
The guns are owned by Phyllis and Aventurine, not Neff and Ratio.
Phyllis couldnât bring herself to fire any more shots after she realised she truly did love Neff. Ratio could do nothing but watch as Aventurine did what he did â he couldnât even pull away if the LC animation is anything to go by him struggling as Aventurine firmly keeps the gun to his chest.
Neff says he doesnât buy (believe) that Phyllis loved him. She then goes âIâm not asking you to buy [âŚ]â. The LC description has Aventurine ask Ratio âYou donât believe me?â, while in the LC animation Ratio straight up says âYou expect me to believe you?â and Aventurine answering âWhy not, doctor/professor?â
The visual composition of the LC and the scene are nearly identical, from the lighting to the posing to the way Aventurine looks at Ratio â Aventurine and Ratio are even wearing different outfits to fit the scene better. The background in the LC is also like the blinders in the movie, just horizontal.
In the shot where Phyllisâ face is more visible, the way she looks at Neff is strikingly like the way provocatively looks at Ratio. Even their eyes have a visible shine â Phyllisâ eyes brightly shining the moment she realised she really fell in love with Neff, and Aventurine having just a little light return to his eyes in that specific moment.
And now the differences!
Neff holds the gun in his right hand. Aventurine makes Ratio hold his gun in his left.
Neff is the one who takes the gun from Phyllis�� hand. Aventurine is the one who places the gun in Ratioâs hand and fires it.
Three gunshots are fired. In the movie, Phyllis shoots the first shot and Neff the second and third. Aventurine unloads the gun and leaves only one bullet for this game of Russian Roulette. He pulls the trigger three times, but they all turn out to be blanks.
Phyllis does not break her façade of not smiling until the very last moment where she gets shot. Aventurine is smiling the entire time according to the light cone description, whilst in the animation, itâs only when he guides the gun to his chest that he puts it on.
So, you know how Neff meets Phyllis and it all goes off the rails from there. The way Neff goes from a decent guy to willingly involve himself in a murder scheme, having his morals corrupted by Phyllis. His world having been turned upside down the moment he lays eyes on Phyllis in that first meeting. Doesnât that sound like something that happened with the Final Victor LC? Ratio, a man all about logic and rationality â a scholar with eight PhDs to his name â all of that is flipped on its head the moment Aventurine pulls out his gun in their first meeting and forces Ratio to play a game of Russian roulette with him. Aventurine casually gambles using his own life like itâs nothing and seemingly without fear (barring his hidden left hand). All or nothing â and yet Aventurine comes out alive after three blanks. Poetic, considering thereâs a consumable in the game called âAll or Nothingâ which features a broken chess piece and a poker chip bound together by a tie. The poker chip obviously represents the gambler, but the chess piece specifically stands for Ratio because he plays chess in his character trailer, his Keeping Up With Star Rail episode and his introduction is centred around him playing chess with himself. Plus, the design of the chess piece has golden accents, similar to his own chess set. In the end, Aventurine will always be the final victor.
Furthermore, Neff had deduced that Phyllis wanted to kill her husband and initially wanted no part in it, but in a subsequent visit it was his own idea that they trigger the double indemnity clause for more money. As the movie progresses though, he starts to have his doubts (thanks in part to him befriending Lola) and makes the move to kill Phyllis when everything starts to come to light. Itâs strikingly similar to how Ratio initially wanted no part in whatever Aventurine had in mind when they first met, but in the subsequent missions where they were paired up, he willingly goes along with Aventurine's risky plans, and they come to trust each other. Enough so that Aventurine and Ratio can go to Penacony all on their own and put on an act, knowing that nobody in the IPC other than them can enter the Dreamscape. The mutual respect grew over time, instead of burning passionately before quickly fizzling out like in the movie.
Basically, in one scene, three shots (blanks) start a relationship, and in the other, it ends a relationship. In the anan magazine interview with Aventurine, he says himself that âform[ing] an alliance with just one bulletâ with Ratio was one of his personal achievements. The moment itself was so impactful for both parties that it was immortalised and turned into a light cone.
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[THE ENDING â GOLDEN HOUR]
The ending of Double Indemnity that made it into the final cut has Neff continue his confession on the dictaphone until he realised that he wasnât alone in the room. Keyes had come inside at some point, but none had said a thing, only listening to a dead man speak of his crime. When Neff sees Keyes, they talk for a moment, Neff says he plans on fleeing to Mexico. Keyes does not think he will make it. He tries to leave, only to collapse at the front of the elevator, Keyes following just behind him. Neff attempts to light a cigar but is too weak to do so, so Keyes does it for him.
Parts of the ending can still be attributed to the interrogation scene between Sunday and Aventurine, so Iâll make this quick before moving on to the conversation in Heaven Is A Place On Earth, Ratio and Aventurineâs final conversation together. Once Sunday mentions how quickly Aventurine gave up the suitcase, he inflicts the Harmonyâs consecration on him, which forces Aventurine to confess everything that Sunday asks of. In a way, itâs the opposite of what happens in the movie â where Neff willingly tells the truth about the murder to his coworker. Aventurine does not like Sunday, and Neff is close to Keyes. Ratio also does not speak, similarly to how Keyes didnât speak and stood silently off to the side.
Post-interrogation in Golden Hour, Ratio worriedly prods at Aventurine and asks him about his plan. He then gives him the Mundaniteâs Insight with the Doctorâs Advice inside when Aventurine tells him to leave. Throughout Heaven Is A Place On Earth, Aventurine gets weaker and his head starts to buzz, until he falls to the ground before he can hand in the final gems. Similarly, Neff progressively grows weaker as he records his confession. Keyes says heâs going to call a doctor and Neff says heâs planning to go to Mexico. And when Neff collapses near the elevator, they talk one final time and Keyes lights Neffâs cigar as the other was too weak to do so himself.
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[OPPOSITE TIMELINES AND DEVELOPMENTS]
Remember how I said the way certain events happen in the movie and the game are mostly opposite and reverse of one another?Â
The Final Victor LC is the first meeting of Ratio and Aventurine, and Neff killing Phyllis is their final meeting.
Between that first and last meeting between Phyllis and Neffâs whirlwind romance, their relationship becomes strained which ultimately leads to Neff not trusting whatever Phyllis has to say at the end point of the movie. As for Ratio and Aventurine, the exact opposite had happened, to the point where Ratio trusts Aventurine enough to go along with his plans even if they went against his own ideals. The basis of the mission involved Veritas Ratio, whose full name includes the Latin word for âtruthâ, lying the entire time on Penacony.
Aventurine is sentenced to the gallows by Sunday after his unwilling interrogation. The movie starts and ends with Neff willingly confessing everything to Keyes.
It bears repeating, but I have to make it so clear that the trust between Ratio and Aventurine runs incredibly deep. Being able to predict what your partner says and thinks and plans in a mission as critical as the Penacony project is not something first-time co-workers can pull off flawlessly. All the while having to put on masks that prevent you from speaking sincerely towards one another lest you rat yourselves out. You have no way of contacting outside reinforcements from within Penacony, as the rest of the IPC are barred from entering. To be able to play everybody for fools while said fools believe you yourselves have handed your case on a silver platter requires a lot â trust, knowledge of the other, past experience, and so on. With Phyllis and Neff, the trust they had had been snuffed out when Neff grew closer to Lola and found out what kind of person Phyllis truly was on the inside. Phyllis did not trust nor love Neff enough and was going behind his back to meet with Zachette to possibly take Neff and Lola out. And the whole reason Neff wanted to perpetrate the murder was due to him being initially taken by Phyllis' appearance, which single handedly got the ball rolling on the crime.
Now then, how come trust is one of the defining aspects of Aventurine and Ratioâs relationship, when Phyllis and Neffâs trust eventually lead to both their deaths at the hands of the other? Sure, this can be explained away with the opposite theory, but thereâs one other relationship involving Neff which I havenât brought up in excruciating detail yet. The other side of Ratio and Aventurineâs relationship.
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[NEFF & KEYES â AVENTURINE & RATIO]
Here is where it gets more interesting â while Phyllis and Neff are at the centre point of the movie, there is another character to whom Neff has a close relationship with â Keyes. Itâs also the only relationship with no pretences, at least, until the whole murder thing happened and Neff had to hide his involvement from Keyes. Watching the movie, I couldn't help but feel there was something more to the two than meets the eye. I knew that queer readings of the film existed, but I didn't think too much of them until now. And though Aventurine and Ratio parallel Phyllis and Neff respectively, the fact that they also have traits of their opposite means that it wouldnât be completely out of the question if parts of their relationship were also influenced by Keyes and Neff on a deeper and personal level. Let me explain.
Keyes and Neff were intimate friends for eleven years and have shown mutual respect and trust towards one another. They understood each other on a level not seen with Phyllis and Neff. Even after hearing Neff confess his crimes through the dictaphone (and eventually standing in the same room while Neff confessed), he still cared for the other man, and stayed with him when Neff collapsed at the front door. The only reason Keyes hadnât deduced that it was Neff who was behind the murder was because he had his absolute trust in him. Keyes is also Neffâs boss, and they are always seen exchanging playful banter when they are on screen together. Neff even says the words âI love you, tooâ twice in the movie â first at the beginning and second at the end, as the final line. Thereâs also the persistent theme of Neff lighting Keyesâ cigarettes (which happens in every scene where they are face-to-face), except in the end where itâs Keyes who lights Neffâs.
Doesnât that sound familiar? Mutual respect, caring too much about the other person, the immense amount of trust⌠Ratio says heâs even the manager of the Penacony project (which may or may not be a lie), and despite their banter being laced with them acting as âenemiesâ, you can tell that in Dewlight Pavilion pre-Sunday confrontation that Aventurine genuinely likes Ratioâs company and believes him to be a reliable person. From the way he acts carefree in his words to the thoughts in his head, as seen in the mission descriptions for Double Indemnity. Their interactions in that specific mission are possibly the closest thing to their normal way of speaking that we get to see on Penacony.
Not to mention, this is the way Neff describes Keyes. He even says (not in the script) âyou never fooled me with your song and dance, not for a second.â Apart from the line about the cigar ashes, doesnât this ring a bell to a certain doctor? âJerkâ with a heart of gold?
After solving the puzzle with the statues, Ratio jokingly offers Aventurine to join the Genius Society. Aventurine then goes "Really? I thought youâve given up on that already", and then Ratio says it was, in fact, a joke. Solving the puzzle through brute force has Ratio telling Aventurine that the Council of Mundanites (which Ratio himself is a part of) should consider him a member. In the movie, where the scene with the phone call with Neff and Phyllis reiterating details of their plan happens, Keyes actually offered Neff a better job (specifically a desk job, as Keyesâ assistant). The two pairs saw the other as smart, equals, and were invested in each otherâs careers one way or another.
Because of all this, the character parallels for this side of the relationship are as follows:
Aventurine - Walter Neff
Veritas Ratio - Barton Keyes
With the way Iâve talked about how Aventurine and Ratio take from both leads in terms, it does fit to say that Aventurine is Neff, and Ratio is Keyes in this layer of their relationship. Since weâre on the topic of Keyes, let me also go through some similarities with him and Ratio specifically.
Keyes says the words âdimwitted amateursâ in his first on-screen conversation with Neff. You canât have Dr. Ratio without him talking about idiocy in some way.
Keyes almost only appears in the movie in relation to Neff, and barring a single interaction in Neffâs house, is also only seen in the office. Same with Phyllis, Ratio also only ever appears regarding Aventurine.
Keyes genuinely wanted the best for Neff, even offering to celebrate with him when he thought the case truly had been busted wide open by forces when Zachette entered the picture. You could say the same for Ratio, as he hoped that Aventurine wouldnât dwell on the past according to his response on Aventurineâs Interview, as well as telling him to âstay alive/live on (CN)â and wishing him the best of luck in his Doctorâs Advice note.
Whether or not you believe that there was more going on with Neff and Keyes is up to you, but what matters is that the two were very close. Just like Ratio and Aventurine.
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[THE ORIGINAL FILM ENDING]
Something that I hadnât seen brought up is the original ending of Double Indemnity, where Neff is executed in a gas chamber while Keyes watches on, shocked, and afterwards leaves somberly. The ending was taken out because they were worried about the Hays Code, but I felt it was important to bring it up, because in a way, you can kind of see the Sunday interrogation scene as Sunday sending Aventurine to his death in seventeen system hours. And Ratio doesnât speak at all in that scene, and Keyes doesnât either according to the script.
Another thing thatâs noteworthy is that Wilder himself said âthe story was about the two guysâ in Conversations with Wilder. The two guys in question are Keyes and Neff.
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[THE NOVEL]
With the original film ending covered, now it is time to bring up the novel by James M. Cain. I bought the book just to read about the differences between the adaptation and the original source material, and to list a few more similarities and opposites I could gather. For this section alone, due to the changes in the (last) names of certain characters, I will be referring to Walter Huff (Neff in the movie) as Walter, and Mr. Dietrichson as Nirdlinger. The plot is pretty much the same as the movieâs apart from a couple of changes so there isnât a need to recount everything.
From my two read-throughs of the novel, these are the following passages that stood out to me the most. Starting with Aventurine:
Walter, as a top businessman of the company, knows how to sway a deal and to get what he truly wants with what the other gives him. Aventurine is the same, reliant on his intuition, experience and whatever information he has on the table to claim the win. Him luring out Sparkle in Heaven Is A Place On Earth and his conversation with Acheron in the Nihility is indicative of that.
⢠"But you sell as many people as I do, you don't go by what they say. You feel it, how the deal is going. And after a while I knew this woman didn't care anything about the Automobile Club. Maybe the husband did, but she didn't. There was something else, and this was nothing but a stall. I figured it would be some kind of a proposition to split the commission, maybe so she could get a ten-spot out of it without the husband knowing. There's plenty of that going on. And I was just wondering what I would say to her."Â
Phyllis, like in the movie, had been hiding her true intentions of talking to Walter in their first conversations, always saying things that she didnât actually mean. In a similar vein, Aventurine consistently says stuff but almost never truly means any of it, which is all part of his façade.
⢠"And I could feel it again, that she wasn't saying what she meant. It was the same as it was the first afternoon I met her, that there was something else, besides what she was telling me. And I couldn't shake it off, that I had to call it on her."
When discussing the murder plan with Phyllis, Walter makes this comment, kind of like how Aventurine seems to operate in a way where he has a plan, but is ready to improvise and think fast when needed.
⢠"And then it's one of those things where you've got to watch for your chance, and you can't plan it in advance, and know where you're going to come out to the last decimal point."
Remember the roulette wheel line from the movie? In the novel, the gambling metaphor that Walter makes about the insurance business goes on for two paragraphs, mentioning a gambling wheel, stack of chips, a place with a big casino and the little ivory ball, even about a bet on the table. Walter also talks about how he thinks of tricks at night after being in the business for so long, and how he could game the system. Needless to say, insanely reminiscent of Aventurine.
⢠"You think Iâm nuts? All right, maybe I am. But you spend fifteen years in the business Iâm in, and maybe a little better than that, itâs the friend of the widow, the orphan, and the needy in time of trouble? Itâs not. Itâs the biggest gambling wheel in the world. It donât look like it, but it is, from the way they figure the percentage on the oo to the look on their face when they cash your chips. You bet that your house will burn down, they bet it wonât, thatâs all. What fools you is that you didnât want your house to burn down when you made the bet, and so you forget itâs a bet. To them, a bet is a bet, and a hedge bet donât look any different than any other bet. But there comes a time, maybe, when you do want your house to burn down, when the money is worth more than the house. And right there is where the trouble starts." ⢠"Alright, Iâm an agent. Iâm a croupier in that game. I know all their tricks, I lie awake thinking up tricks, so Iâll be ready for them when they come at me. And then one night I think up a trick, and get to thinking I could crook the wheel myself if I could only put a plant out there to put down my bet." ⢠"I had seen so many houses burned down, so many cars wrecked, so many corpses with blue holes in their temples, so many awful things that people had pulled to crook the wheel, that that stuff didnât seem real to me anymore. If you donât understand that, go to Monte Carlo or some other place where thereâs a big casino, sit at a table, and watch the face of the man that spins the little ivory ball. After youâve watched it a while, ask yourself how much he would care if you went out and plugged yourself in the head. His eyes might drop when he heard the shot, but it wouldnât be from the worry whether you lived or died. It would be to make sure you didnât leave a bet on the table, that he would have to cash for your estate. No, he wouldnât care."
Returning home from the murder, Walter attempted to pray, but was unable to do it. Some time passed and after speaking to Phyllis, he prayed. Aventurine presumably hadnât done the prayer ever since the day of the massacre, and the first time he does it again, he does it with his child self.
⢠"I went to the dining room and took a drink. I took another drink. I started mumbling to myself, trying to get so I could talk. I had to have something to mumble. I thought of the Lord's Prayer. I mumbled that, a couple of times. I tried to mumble it another time, and couldn't remember how it went." ⢠"That night I did something I hadnât done in years. I prayed."
Phyllis in the book is much more inclined towards death than her movie version, even thinking of herself as a personification of death. Sheâs killed ten other people (including infants) prior to the events of the novel. Something to keep in mind as Aventurine had mentioned several times that he attempted to kill himself in the dream, plus his leadup to his âgrandest deathâ. Just like Phyllis, heâs even killed at least a few people before, though the circumstances of that were less on his own volition and more so for the sake of his survival (i.e. the death game in the maze involving the 34 other slaves where he was the winner and another time where he murdered his own master). Instead of Phyllis playing the active role of Death towards everybody else, Aventurine himself dances with Death with every gamble, every time his luck comes into play. Danse Macabre.
⢠"But thereâs something in me, I donât know what. Maybe Iâm crazy. But thereâs something in me that loves Death. I think of myself as Death, sometimes." ⢠"Walter, The time has come. For me to meet my bridegroom [Death]. The only one I ever loved."
Moving on to Ratio:
Walter says several times that itâs hard to get along with Keyes, and how he says nice things after getting you all worked up. A hard-headed man to get along with, but damn good at his job. Sound like someone familiar?
⢠"That would be like Keyes, that even when he wanted to say something nice to you, he had to make you sore first." ⢠"It makes your head ache to be around him, but heâs the best claim man on the Coast, and he was the one I was afraid of."
Keyes sees Walter as smarter than half the fools in the company. Ratio can only stand the company of Aventurine in regards to the IPC.
⢠"Walter, I'm not beefing with you. I know you said he ought to be investigated. I've got your memo right here on my desk. That's what I wanted to tell you. If other departments of this company would show half the sense that you showâ" ⢠"Oh, he confessed. He's taking a plea tomorrow morning, and that ends it. But my point is, that if you, just by looking at that man, could have your suspicions, why couldn't theyâ! Oh well, what's the use? I just wanted you to know it."
After going on a rant about the H.S. Nirdlinger case (Phyllisâ husband) and how Norton is doing a horrible job, he ends it by saying that itâs sheer stupidity. âSupreme idiocyâ, anybody?
⢠"You canât take many body blows like this and last. Holy smoke. Fifty thousand bucks, and all from dumbness. Just sheer, willful, stupidity!"
Phyllisâ former occupation as a nurse is more elaborated on, including her specialization â pulmonary diseases. One of Ratioâs crowning achievements is curing lithogenesis, the âKing of Diseasesâ.
⢠"Sheâs one of the best nurses in the city of Los Angeles. [âŚ] Sheâs a nurse, and she specialized in pulmonary diseases. She would know the time of crisis, almost to a minute, as well as any doctor would."
As for the murder scheme, they talk about it a lot more explicitly in the novel. Specifically, Walter mentions how a single person cannot get away with it and that it requires more people to be involved. How everything is known to the party committing the crime, but not the victim. And most importantly: Audacity.
"Say, this is a beauty, if I do say it myself. I didn't spend all this time in the business for nothing, did I? Listen, he knows all about this policy, and yet he don't know a thing about it. He applies for it, in writing, and yet he don't apply for it. He pays me for it with his own check, and yet he don't pay me. He has an accident happen to him and yet he don't have an accident happen to him. He gets on the train, and yet he don't get on it."
"The first is, help. One person can't get away with it, that is unless they're going to admit it and plead the unwritten law or something. It takes more than one. The second is, the time, the place, the way, all known in advanceâto us, but not him. The third is, audacity. That's the one that all amateur murderers forget. They know the first two, sometimes, but that third, only a professional knows. There comes a time in any murder when the only thing that can see you through is audacity, and I can't tell you why."
"And if we want to get away with it, we've got to do it the way they do it, [âŚ]" "Be bold?" "Be bold. It's the only way."
"I still don't knowâwhat we're going to do." "You'll know. You'll know in plenty of time."
"We were right up with it, the moment of audacity that has to be be part of any successful murder."
It fits the situation that Aventurine and Ratio find themselves in extremely well: For the first pointâ Aventurine would not be able to get away with simply airing out details by himself, as that would immediately cast suspicion on him. Having another person accompany him who not only isnât really a part of the IPC in name (as the IPC and The Family have a strenuous relationship) but would probably be able to get closer to Sunday because of that means they can simply bounce off each other without risking as much suspicion with a one-man army. Which is exactly what Ratio and Aventurine do in the conversations they have on Penacony. Secondly â they knew how Sunday operates: as a control freak, he leaves no stone unturned, which is how he became Head of the Oak Family, so their acting required them to give off the impression that a. they hated each other, b. Ratio would go against Aventurineâs wishes and expose him in return for knowledge, c. there were only the two Cornerstones that were hidden. This would give Sunday the illusion of control, and lead to Sunday to lower his guard long enough for Aventurine to take the gift money in the end. The pair knew this in advance, but not Sunday. And thirdly â the plan hinged on a high-level of risk. From breaking the Aventurine Cornerstone, to hoping that Sunday wouldnât find it in the gift bag, to not telling Ratio what the true plan is (meaning Ratio had to figure it out on his own later on), to Sunday even buying Ratioâs story, it was practically the only way they could go about it. âCharming audacityâ, indeed.
An interesting aspect about the novel is that the ending of the novel is divergent from the movieâs final cut and the original ending: Phyllis and Walter commit suicide during a ferry ride to Mexico. The main reason this was changed for the movie was because of the Hays Code, and they wouldnât allow a double suicide to be screened without reprecussions for criminals. Thereâs also a bunch of other aspects that differentiate the novel from the movie (no narration-confession as the confession happens in a hospital, less characterization for Keyes and instead a bigger focus on Lola and her boyfriend, the focus on the murderous aspect of Walter and Phyllisâ relationship instead of actual romance, Walter falling in love with Lola (with an unfortunately large age gap attached), etc.)
As for the ending, this wouldnât even be the first romance media reference related to Aventurine and Ratio where both the leads die, with the other being The Happy Prince and San Junipero (in relation to the EN-only Heaven Is A Place On Earth reference), which I normally would chalk up as a coincidence, though with the opposite line-of-thought I have going on here (and the fact that itâs three out of four media references where the couple die at the endâŚ), I think itâs reasonable to say that Ratio and Aventurine will get that happy ending. Subverting expectations, hopefully.
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[THE HAYS CODE â LGBT CENSORSHIP IN CHINA]
Iâve brought up the Hays code twice now in the previous two sections, but I havenât actually explained what exactly it entails.
The Hays Code (also known as the Motion Picture Production Code) is a set of rules and guidelines imposed on all American films from around 1934 to 1968, intended to make films less scandalous, morally acceptable and more âsafeâ for the general audiences. Some of the âDonâtsâ and âBe Carefulsâ include but are not limited toâŚ
(Donât) Pointed profanity
(Donât) Inference of sex perversion (which includes homosexuality)
(Donât) Nudity
(Be Careful) Sympathy for criminals
(Be Careful) Use of firearms
(Be Careful) Man and woman in bed together
What does this have to do with a Chinese gacha game released in 2023? If you know a little bit about miHoYoâs past, you would know that pre-censorship laws being upheld to a much stronger and stricter degree, they had no problem showcasing their gay couples in Guns Girl Z (Honkai Gakuen 2/GGZ) and Honkai Impact 3rd, with the main three being Bronya/Seele, Kiana/Mei (admittedly the latter one is a more recent example, from 2023), and Sakura/Kallen. Ever since the Bronya and Seele kiss, censorship in regards to LGBT content ramped up, causing the kiss to be removed on the CN side, and they had to lay low with the way they present two same-sex characters who are meant to be together. They canât explicitly say that two female or male characters are romantically involved, but they can lace their dynamics with references for those âin the knowâ â Subtext. Just enough to imply something more but not too much that they get censored to hell and back.
So what Iâm getting at is this: The trouble that Double Indemnity had to go through in order to be made while also keeping the dialogue of Phyllis and Neff as flirtatious as they could under the Hays Code among other things is quite similar to the way Ratio and Aventurine are presented as of now. We never see them interact outside of Penacony (at least up until 2.2, when this post was drafted), so we can only infer those interactions specifically until they actually talk without the fear of being found out by Sunday. But, thereâs still some small moments scattered here and there, such as when Aventurine goes near Ratio in the Dewlight Pavilion Sandpit, he exclaims that âthe view here is breathtakingâ (he can only see Ratioâs chest from that distance) and that Ratio could âeasily squash [him] with just a pinchâ. Ratio then goes âIf that is your wish, I will do so without a momentâs hesitation.â Not to mention the (in)famous âDoctor, youâre huge!â quote.
Itâs not a coincidence that Ratio and Aventurine have three explicit references to romance media (Double Indemnity, Spellbound, Oscar Wildeâs The Happy Prince), possibly even four if you take the EN-only Heaven Is A Place On Earth as a reference to Black Mirrorâs San Junipero. Itâs not a coincidence that the storylines or characters of said references parallel the pairing, from surface-level to deep cuts. Itâs not a coincidence that the CN voice actors were asked to âtone it downâ by the voice director when it came to their chemistry. Itâs not a coincidence that Aventurine has only flirted with (three) men throughout Penacony, even referring to a Bloodhound NPC as a âhunk of a manâ inside his thoughts, all the while ignoring Himeko and Robin when it came to their looks â women who are known across the cosmos with a myriad of adoring fans. There are so many other so-called âcoincidencesâ related to the two that you could make an iceberg just based on versions 2.0-2.2 as well as content miHoYo themselves have put out on social media. They absolutely knew what they were doing, and were trying to get their point across through subtle means â the extent they went to with the Double Indemnity reference while also keeping it under wraps from a âsurfaceâ level point of view is proof of this â the implications are there if you take the time to look for them, and are simply hard to ignore or deny once you do find them.
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[CONCLUSION]
This was supposed to be short considering the other analyses Iâve seen were also pretty short in comparison, but I couldnât get the movie out of my head and ended up getting carried away in the brainrot. I hope you could follow along with my line of thinking, even with the absurd length of this post, and the thirty-image limit. I tried to supplement context with some links to videos and wiki pages among other sources wherever I can to get around it.
I will end it with this though â the love in the movie turned out to be fake and a farce, going off track from what was a passionate romance in the beginning because of the murder scheme. Meanwhile, the whole reason why Ratio and Aventurine can pull off whatever they want is because of their immense trust in one another. What was initially shown to be distrust in the Final Victor LC grew into something more, for Ratio, someone who would have never put faith into mere chance and probability before this, put his trust in Aventurine, of all people.
TL;DR â (I get it, itâs over ten thousand words.)
Not only is the relationship between Neff and Phyllis represented in the deception and acting side of Ratio and Aventurine, but the real and trusting side is shown in Neff and Keyes. They have a fascinating, multi-layered dynamic that is extremely fun to pick apart once you realise whatâs going on underneath the bickering and âhatredâ they display.
Many thanks to Manya again for making the original thread on the movie. I wouldnât be here comparing the game and movie myself if it werenât for that.
By the way, I really do believe that Shaoji totally watched this movie at least once and really wanted that Double Indemnity AU for his OCs. I know exactly how it feels.
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Other points I'd like to mention that didn't fit anywhere else in the main analysis and/or donât hold much significance, have nothing to do with the Penacony mission, or may even be considered reaching (...if some of the other points werenât). Just some potentially interesting side bits.
Phyllis honks three times to signal Neff to go for the kill. That, and the three gunshots in the confrontation. Aventurine is all about the number three.
The height difference Aventurine and Ratio have going on is close to Phyllis and Neffâs.
Phyllis had killed her husbandâs previous wife and went on to marry Mr. Dietrichson, pretty much taking the wifeâs place. Aventurine killed his previous master, and had taken certain attributes from him like his wristwatch and the rings on his hand and the âall or nothingâ mantra.
When calling Ratio a wretch (bastard), Aventurine smiles for a moment. This is exclusive to the EN, KR and JP voiceovers, as in CN, he does not smile at all. (Most definitely a quirk from the AI they use for lip syncing, but the smile is something thatâs been pointed out quite a few times so I thought Iâd mention it here.)
Sunday specifically says in the CN version that he knew of Aventurine's plans the moment Aventurine left the mansion, meaning that he realized he had been played the fool the moment Ratio and Aventurine talked in Golden Hour
In the description for the "All or Nothing" consumable, teenage Aventurine says this specific line: "Temptation is a virtue for mortals, whereas hesitation proves to be a fatal flaw for gamblers." According to Ratio, this is Aventurine's motto - he says as such in Aventurine's Keeping Up With Star Rail episode. Note that in the anan interview he explicitly says he does not have a motto, and yet Ratio in the video says otherwise. They definitely have to know each other for a while for Ratio to even know this.
A big reason why Neff even pulled off the murder scheme in the first place was because he wanted to see if his good friend Keyes could figure it out, the Mundane Troubles Trailblaze Continuance showcases Ratio attempting to teach the Herta Space Station researches a lesson to not trust the Genius society as much as they did.
In Keyesâ first scene heâs exposing a worker for writing a policy on his truck that he claimed had burnt down on its own, when he was the one who burnt it down. Ratio gets into an Ace Attorney-style argument with the Trailblazer in Mundane Troubles.
Neff talks repeatedly about how it wonât be sloppy. Nothing weak. And how itâll be perfect to Phyllis, and how sheâs going to do it and heâs going to help her. Doing it right â âstraight down the lineâ. Beautifully ironic, considering what happens in the movie, and even more ironic as Ratio and Aventurineâs scheme went exactly the way they wanted to in the end. Straight down the line.
#honkai star rail#double indemnity#veritas ratio#aventurine#golden ratio#ratiorine#an attempt at analysis by one a-u#relationship analysis#you know whatâ i guess i can tag the other names of this ship#aventio#raturine#you could make a fucking tierlist of these names#umâ dynamics (yk what i mean) dont really matter here in the analysis just fyi if youre wondering its general enough#also if you're wondering about the compilation thread - its not done. it'll take a while (a long while.)#this post was so long it was initially just a tumblr draft that i then put into google docs. and it ended up being over 2k+ words long#is this a research paperâ thesisâ or essay? who knows! this just started as just a short analysis after watching the movie on may 5#final word count according to docs (excluding alt text): 13013 - 43 pages with formatting#i wish i could have added more images to thisâ 10k words vs 30 images really is not doing me any favoursâŚ#plusâ i hit the character limit for alt text for one of the images.#if you see me mixing up british and american spellingâ you probably have!#oh yeah. if any of the links happen to break at some point. do tell. i have everything backed up#there also may be multiple links strung togetherâ just so you know.#I link videos using the EN and CN voiceovers. Just keep that in mind if the jump between two languages seems sudden.#I had to copy and paste this thing from the original tumblr draft onto a new post because tumblr wouldn't let me edit the old one anymore.#Feels just like when I was finalising my song comicâŚ#(Note: I had to do this three times.)#I started this at May 5 as a way to pass the time before 2.2. You can probably tell how that turned out.#Did you know there is a limit to the amount of links you can add to a single tumblr post? It's 100. I hit that limit as well.#So if you want context for some of these parts... just ask.#I'm gonna stop here before I hit the tag limit (30) as well LMAOO (never mind I just did.)
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Once again going to participate in NaNoWriMo and once again going to fail spectacularly âď¸
#I did it last year btw#it did not get far and was also very bad but I'm still surprised at how much I wrote#a whole 5k words!! I don't ever write that much!!!!#this year I will try to do a lot more planning#I know I can knock out one scene in 500 words so.. 100 scene ideas prepared in advance?#maybe that's not how this works LOL#I will have to abuse my bad things happen bingo wheel for this one I believe#... I just think it would be very funny if I suddenly drop a 50k word count fic after never posting over 2k before đ I can dream
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bsf!rafe waking up with morning wood
warnings: smut (mdni) maybe somnophilia if you squint i guess? morning wood, me trying something new bc i came up with this random blurb i might try out writing other blurbs like this??? so if you have any ideas or pairings you want me to write for pls lmk because as much as i love writing +2k word fics it's fun to rewind by writing shorter stuff too
wherever rafe went, you followed; and even though it annoyed some of his friends, they didn't dare to say anything about it to rafe, because the one time they did, he got so angry they thought they were getting their asses kicked.
everywhere, also happened to include his bed. it had started after you had accidentally passed out on his bed from how much you drank, and he didn't care if you were there or not, he was sleeping in his own bed. now, it had gotten to the point where you couldn't sleep without him, and vice versa.
but you weren't a couple, of course not. rafe wasn't one for relationships, and you were just his friend since childhood, and even if he fucked you into the mattress a couple of times per week, or the fact that he never allowed any other girl to be in his bed, or that he thought of you whenever he hooked up with someone, it was just friendship.
"come on, wake up pretty girl..." he mumbled into your shoulder as you started stirring awake, rafe holding up one of your thighs up slightly as his hand rubbed his hard cock against your panty-clad pussy.
"come on, rafe..." you mumbled sleepily, and the blonde pressed a small, warm kiss on your shoulder over the fabric of his t-shirt. "why'd you wake me up? can't you see that 'm tired..."
"princess.. i need you..."
"rafe, we already went three rounds yesterday..."
"please, baby..." rafe mumbled, pressing soft kisses to your neck, the action causing shivers to go down your spine, and you could feel your panties starting to get wet, sticking to your puffy folds. "i'll do anything... just need you so much right now..."
you looked at him with half-lidded eyes as he pressed lazy kisses on your neck, "anything?"
"anything for you, princess. including murder."
"will you buy me those vivienne westwood earrings i want?"
"hell, i'll get a matching necklace."
and that's how you ended up with your best friend on top of you, pounding into your already sore pussy from the night before, your face pressed against the sheet as you let out moans that got muffled by the pillow, a handful of your hair around his fist as you closed your eyes in pleasure, your fists gripping the sheets to try and anchor yourself as he spoke in a low tone with every thrust "such a good girl for me... you're mine... this pussy's all mine... no one's gonna fuck this pretty pussy like i do..."
yeah. just friendship.
#rafe cameron blurb#rafe cameron x reader#outer banks fanfiction#outerbanks rafe#rafe cameron#rafe fanfiction#rafe imagine#rafe outer banks#rafe smut#rafe x reader#rafe x you#rafe fic#rafe obx#rafe blurb#rafe cameron fic#rafe cameron fanfiction#rafe cameron x you#rafe cameron smut#bsf!rafe
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older!rafe canât always be mean to his delicate flower, can he?
18+ mdni!
c/w: fluff with a little bit of angst in the beginning, older!rafe feeding sensitive!reader pasta & being v suggestive, slight subspace, smut: oral (f receiving), overstimulation & use of daddy
wc: 2k
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Sock-covered feet pad along the hardwood floors when she finally hears the lock of the front door turning. Rafeâs home later than usualâ a fact sheâs entirely too aware of since sheâs been impatiently waiting for him to return ever since he left her this morning without so much as a goodbye. Â
Usually, sheâd stir awake to him smearing kisses all over her face and mumbling sweetened words about how much heâs going to miss her during his meetingsâ sometimes even wake her up with his cock prodding at her entrance before fucking her all sleepy and sloppy until sheâs a sobbing mess. Â
However, she assumes he was still mad at her because she forgot to let him know she was going out for drinks after her lecture before her battery had died. Therefore, she hadnât received his several calls or the texts filled with concern and only a few hours later, did she remember that sheâd never actually sent the message regarding her whereabouts.Â
When he came to pick her up after sheâd borrowed her friendâs phone in order to reach him, he was clearly displeased; merely muttering out a âask you to do one thing and you canât even do that. You know how fuckinâ worried I was?â and crudely telling her to go sleep in the guest room because âdaddy doesnât feel like dealing with your shit tonightâ, which had resulted in wet droplets surfacing to her waterline while she kept apologizing over and over again, but to no avail. Â
In the morning, sheâd woken up to a tear-stained pillowcase and a headache. And when she tiptoed over to the bathroom, she realized that the entire house was desolate; he hadnât even left a note. Â
Therefore, sheâs not exactly sure how to approach him, hesitant in her movements before she sees him in front of her in all his glory. Â
âHi,â her voice is quiet, but her forlorn face lights up nonetheless.
Rafe is in the process of mindlessly kicking off his shoes when he looks up; a tired smile tugging at his lips when she practically tumbles into his arms in a greeting.Â
âMissed you,â she mumbles against his crisp button up when he rests his big hands on her hips in an attempt to steady her. Â
âMissed you too,â he murmurs into her hair. âGot you something,â he reluctantly pulls away in order to present her with a bouquet of pink lilies; her favorites.Â
âWhatâs this for?â her moony eyes stare up at him in bewilderment.Â
âDrove past a flower shopâŚguess they made me think of you,â he admits, pressing a soft kiss to her cheek; confusing her to no end.Â
âBut I thoughtââ she utters out, hesitant to take the flowers she feels unworthy of. Â
âThat I was mad at you?â Â
She nods, looking up at him with guilt swimming in her eyes.Â
He lets out a sigh.Â
âListen, I was, uh, maybe a little too harsh on you last night, okay? I know how forgetful you can be. Was just worried when you werenât home and didnât answer your phone until hours later. Thought something happened, you know?â he explains with a calmness that placates her racing mind as she accepts his gift. Â
âI know, Iâm sorry. Wonât happen again, promise. Texted you today the second I was home, right?â Â
âYou did,â he confirms as he peels off his suit jacket before sniffing the air. âSmells good, whatâre you making?â Â
âOh, I made you dinner,â she says bashfully, almost as if waiting for his approval.Â
âYou did? All by yourself?â his brows climb his forehead in surprise. Â
She nods, a soft smile on her lips before heâs ushering her towards the kitchen and plucking a glass vase from the top shelf for her.
Usually, heâs the one cooking for them since sheâs not greatest in the kitchen, always so tired after studying the whole day, sheâd probably forget the stove on and cause some sort of a fire due to her absentminded nature. Therefore, he prefers to prepare his girl a nurturing meal whenever he doesnât have to work late. Â
âHow was uni today?â he asks as she sets the now flower-filled vase on their dining table.Â
âA lot. Was kinda stressed the whole day cause I have so much homework and reading to do, donât know how Iâm supposed to have time for all of it. And then have this group project and the deadline for this essay approaching andâŚI donât think my brain works anymore,â she sighs out when she peers down at the steaming bowl of spaghetti Bolognese he places on the counter. Â
âGood thing you donât need to worry that head of yours over anything with me. Let daddy do the thinking for you, yeah?â Rafeâs voice is as smooth as honey, causing her to blink up at himâ something cottony dusting over her mind in response to his sugary cadence. Â
Strong arms lift her up and place her on the marble countertop before he settles right between her thighs, like a puzzle piece sheâs been missing the entire day; tall frame hovering over her even as sheâs practically perched on a pedestal. Â
Then, heâs picking up the plate in the most casual manner and contently shoving a forkful of pasta into his mouth before groaning in satisfaction. Â
âShit, this is amazing,â he praises around the mouthful. Â
She mumbles out a flustered thank you, her thoughts all over the place since she thought heâd still be mad, but then suddenly heâs not. In fact, heâs seemingly in a great mood. Â
âDid you eat yet?âÂ
âNo, was, umâŚwaiting for you. Didnât wanna eat alone,â her volume is nearly inaudible.
He stops chewing. Â
âWaiting for me, huh?â he rasps out before heâs lifting the fork closer to her mouth. Â
She looks up at him, puzzled. Â
âOpen,â he orders and she has no choice but to obeyâ let him feed her because truthfully, whenever sheâs around him she gets a little dumb; canât really focus on anything except his low drawl and gemstone eyes. Â
âGood, right?âÂ
She hums her agreement around the bite, barely registering that some of the tomato sauce stains her chin in the process. Â
âAlways so messy, huh?â he tuts disapprovingly, even if heâs the one holding the fork. Â
However, before her mushy brain has the time to even comprehend what heâs doing, heâs laving the flat of his tongue under her mouth; cleaning it up for her. Â
âThere we go,â he murmurs as he rubs a thumb over the spot for good measure. Â
She swallows. Â
âWant some water?â he asks and she nods, all of a sudden unable to utter out words.
Then, heâs tipping a glass of ice-cold water to her lips, carefully watching her gulp down the liquid before he decides sheâs had enoughâ withdrawing the cup in order to drink some of it himself.  Â
He continues feeding her every other bite and making casual conversation, all the while she feels herself softly slipping into a very specific headspace. And before she realizes, heâs placing the empty dish in the sink with a slight clatter; their bellies full and happy.  Â
She doesnât think she wants to eat by herself ever again.Â
Then, her foggy mind registers him in front of her again as he pulls her closerâ warm palms slipping under her top and his thumbs idly smoothing over her tummy while she quietly stares at him with hearts for eyes.
âYou put this tiny thing on just for me, hm?â he questions as his eyes drop down to her cleavage; the pale pink lace doing a very poor job of concealing whatâs underneath since sheâs forgone a bra (and pants), as she usually does whenever sheâs merely loitering around their home.Â
âLook so pretty in this,â his dreamy voice rumbles as he swipes a thumb over a covered nipple, causing her to let out a faint gasp at the sudden contact.Â
âRayâŚâ she hums out while he keeps rubbing over the squishy part of her body he knows gets her buzzing.
âHm? You feelinâ floaty already?â he asks with a gentle cadence. And sheâs not sure how he always seems to know just the right words to say in order to turn her into clay. Â
âYeah, missed you so much,â her hazy eyes flicker over his face while he simply gazes at her, before heâs smearing his mouth on hers. Â
Thereâs something hungry, primal in the way he groans against her lipsâ causing a whimper to escape her throat in response.Â
Then, all of a sudden, heâs lifting her over his shoulder as if she weighs nothing more than a single paperclip; making her squeak out a sound of surprise when he jokingly smacks her ass while walking out of the room before throwing her on the bed. Â
âLet daddy say hi to his favorite girl, yeah?â he coaxes her before heâs prying her thighs apart and nuzzling his face into her cunt through the material of her panties; nose bumping against her clit, making her shift closer to him.
âMissed my pussy so much, you know? Wanted to fuck you nice ân slow last night but you never came home.â Â
âIâm sorry, daddy,â she canât help but whimper out when his warm tongue licks over the already dampening fabric of her underwear. Â
âYeah? You gonâ make it up to me? Let me eat you âtill I forgive you?âÂ
âYeah, yeah. Whatever you want,â she blabbers, a whine leaving her vocal cords when he plucks the soaked through material to the side and blows on her sensitive cunt. Â
âShit, youâre so wet already,â he says in awe, letting spit drip down his tongue and onto her folds anyway. Then, heâs wrapping his lips around her clit, making her cry out because she can already feel her orgasm lingering underneath the surface.Â
âNeed to come, can I? Please mâgonnaâ â she says, almost in a trance; already so wound up. And the way heâs practically torturing her achy button with his mouth isnât really helping.Â
After heâs hummed his agreement, sheâs not able to hold it in any longerâ his tongue poking at her opening when the knot in her belly unfolds. Sheâs shaking, thighs yearning to close, if not for his strong arms holding them open as he groans around her, seemingly lost in a daze with her taste and smell practically suffocating him.
Since he knows how insatiable she tends to be, he refuses to pull away from between her thighs. And two more orgasms later, sheâs a whimpering muddle; desperately trying to drag her hips away from his unrelenting hold. However, heâs entirely too strong and she doesnât stand a chance.
âRay, sâtoo much, need a breakââ she complains, eyes beginning to turn watery in response to the overwhelming pressure.
However, despite her protests, he doesnât stop. Instead, he begins to mess with her entirely too sensitive clit with his fingers nowâ pressing and pulling and making her whine as tears trickle down her cheeks and she tries to fruitlessly wiggle away from him once more.  Â
âNah, youâre good. You forgot daddy does the thinking for you now, hm? And he wants you to give him a few more, think you can do that?â he mumbles against her sticky folds, stuffing the tip of his tongue into her weepy hole as an effort to persuade her.
âI donât know if I canââÂ
âShh, jusâ wanna make you feel nice, you donât want me to?â he feigns hurt when he lifts up his head, beginning to mouth over the soft skin of her inner thighs to pacify her; his slight stubble tickling her in the process and making her twitch.
âNo, I do, I doâŚâ Â
âThen quit whininâ and let me take care of you, hm? Show you how much I love you,â he coaxes her to give in. And when he puts it like that, she thinks it does sound rather romanticâŚ
#this has been sitting in my drafts since september & finally finished it?#older!rafe#rafe cameron#rafe imagine#rafe obx#rafe outer banks#rafe smut#rafe x reader#outerbanks rafe#rafe cameron imagine#rafe cameron smut#rafe cameron x reader#rafe fanfiction#rafe cameron obx#rafe fic#outer banks fanfiction#rafe cameron outer banks#obx smut#obx fanfiction#obx fic#obx#outer banks#older!rafe cameron#rafe cameron fanfiction#rafe cameron x y/n#rafe cameron x female reader#rafe x y/n#rafe blurb#rafe cameron blurb#rafe cameron au
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Guess who started thinking about this again. I may or may not have written a literal essay last night. I'll start by reblogging these incredible tags, thanks for the inspo you two. See y'all later today with that essay.
@iztarshi:
#yes!#it's not even that he gets anxious *about the others* when he's alone#he is just straight up scared#turtle whose courage depends a lot on having his team behind him#he has so much faith in them!#also Leonardo the Rennaisane Turtle#as another episode where he falls apart immediately on his own#and April is playing turtle emotional support all episode
@snoftshell-snurtle:
#iirc he IMMEDIATELY snaps back to Hero Leader once he acquires one (1) teammate (guy with truck full of hay)#he's like a sheepdog. he needs a flock to look after. even a one-man flock will do.#1987
In the 1987 tv series Leonardo is a good leader and team player but "Unidentified Flying Leonardo" demonstrates that alone he is an on-fire trainwreck of a teenage mutant ninja turtle. In this essay I will
#i'm not even kidding it's over 2k words#how did this happen?#a long time agoâactually never#and also now#nothing is nowhere#when? never#makes sense right?#like I said it didn't happen#leonardo hamato#unidentified flying leonardo#tmnt 1987#tmnt
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â WHAT HAPPENS YOU TAKE CARE OF NANAMI ALL YOUR LIFE -- AND HE DOES THE SAME FOR YOU ? â
⧠pairing: nanami kento x sorcerer!reader
⧠summary: throughout your years of jujutsu tech, you take care of kento, whether its a wound from a curse or a simple cut his finger -- and when he returns he finds you still ready to take care of him -- even after shibuya.
⧠warnings: 18+, nsfw, smut, fluff, hurt / comfort w/ a happy ending, domesticity, jjk canon compliant au (because nanami is alive) reader is the same age as nanami, set during through the events of star plasma vessel to end of jjk, nanami getting hurt and reader taking care of him, reader gets a cold and nanami takes care of her, jealous! nanami, kitchen counter sex, soft dom! nanami, oral (f), fingering (f! receiving), sex (p in v), creampie, swearing
⧠wc: 7,657
⧠for my 2k celebration event: item 3 has been sold to two anons!
âShow me,â Nanami furrows his brow in reply, jaw set as he glares, but he knew no amount of staring would get you to let this go. You stood in the doorway of his dorm room â your room was clear across on the other side where the girls resided, so he wondered for a split second how you knew he returned when it had barely been an hour, but answered his own question without having to utter a word (Haibara).Â
âItâs not bad. Itâll heal by itselfââ and youâre shaking your head, and his lips purse, âit really isnât worth speaking to Ieiri about â itâs not a wound, just a bruiseââÂ
But still you stood, as immovable as ever â and he finally relented, unbuttoning his jacket, as he shrugged it off, unable to hide his wince as he revealed the large bruise that colored his skin in red, his skin peeling and angry, and surely would turn into a lovely mish-mash of purple and blue.Â
You brush past him into the dorm room, as you brought a first aid kit in, setting it on the bed, turning your head before tilting it as if to say, âwell?âÂ
He repents, as he always did with you â he knew a battle of wills with you was as unwinnable as a battle of jujutsu with Gojo â not to mention needlessly frustrating. He sat at the edge of his bed, eyes fixed to the floor, as you grabbed a washcloth from the kit, heading for his bathroom. He hears the sounds of water running, and the squeak of the faucet closing.Â
You return as you lift his arm slightly, rolling up the sleeve of his t-shirt to his shoulder.Â
Your touch is gentle â Nanami was always surprised at how gentle you always were. With the line of work you all did, it was easy to be rough, to find smooth edges corroded and jagged, but no, you remained as smooth and soft as you always were.Â
He flinches when you bring the wet washcloth to raw skin, and youâre careful even as you seemingly pick out pieces of gravel and dirt stuck in his flesh. And you frown at the sight of it, doing your best to clean every bit.Â
âSo what happened?â you ask, and he gives a terse chuckle.Â
âDidnât Haibara tell you?â And you shrug, âI know he told you weâre back,â and your lips curl ever so slightly as your eyes meet him, a small amount of mirth returning.Â
âMaybe Iâm just a stalker,â and he canât bite back the small smile on his lips, âHaibara told me you didnât go to Ieiri, and that you got hurt protecting him on your mission,âÂ
He sighed, rubbing the back of his head, âIeiri was busy dealing with Haibara, he got it worse than I didââ
âEven if your injury is less serious, it doesnât mean you shouldnât look after yourself,â and he sighs, as his eyes slide to you, âyou need to learn to care about yourself, Nanami,âÂ
And he knew you were right on some level â he didnât have a delusion of invincibility and he also didnât have a strong enough desire to strive to be stronger, but â his fingers grasp at his sheets âthat didnât mean he wanted to see his friends die. âYou donât have to do this,â he says again, and you donât meet his gaze when he looks over at you, your brow set in concentration, âitâs not importantââÂ
âNanami, you donât ever seem to value yourself properly,â you finish cleaning his arm, before grabbing bandages and tape from the kit, âyou are important â even if you donât think you are,âÂ
And he opens and shuts his mouth â before a smile pulls at his lips â you were far too kind, especially for a jujutsu sorcerer.Â
And then you add, âand if you donât get your wounds tended to, Iâm going to tell Gojo you want to take a sweets tour of Tokyo,âÂ
âŚmaybe he spoke too soon.Â
~~~~
âHow did you manage to hurt yourself so badly during training?â You offer Nanami a makeshift ice pack, a small cloth wrapped up with ice from his freezer, and his lips pursed in disgust as his reply, âah, Gojo,â the mattress shifted under his weight as he sat,Â
âThat arrogant idiot,â Nanami grumbled, as he pressed the ice pack to the back of his head, âhis excuse was that he didnât know his own strength â heâs lucky that he had infinity or I would haveââÂ
You chuckle, âYou know heâs just messing with you, itâs just because you react,â and he scowls at his floor of his room, as if his carpet was the six eyes sorcerer itself, âheâs not so badââÂ
He raises an eyebrow, his mouth parted in disbelief, âAre you defending him right now?â And you chuckle, as you lean back against the side of his bed, your head leaning back against the soft comforter that you had bought him and guaranteed would help him sleep better (it only guaranteed that you would be asleep underneath it half the time they spent in his dorm relaxing).Â
You wave him off, âLower your blood pressure. Iâm not defending him, Iâm just saying, it canât be easy being the strongest â all those eyes on you, the way people treat you, theââÂ
âThe weight of your overinflated ego that you have to carry aroundââ and you roll your eyes, and the action bites at his last nerve, because he thought if anyone would have his back, it would be you â the next words spit like venom out of his mouth, âI thought you were better than those girls that moon over Gojo,âÂ
And he regrets the words as they leave his lips, as you stare at him wordlessly â not with anger, but frustration â which hurts all the more, âIf I was so in love with Gojo, then why am I with you instead of him?â He doesnât have a reply as you rise to your feet and make your way out the door, the click of the door far too deafening, leaving him with a throbbing in his head â but not just from being hurt.Â
His fingers curled tighter around the ice pack. Because whyâwhy did the thought of you liking Gojo make his chest acheâthe idea of your care and time spent on someone else, not even Gojo, but anyone else, made his stomach churn at the idea.Â
He had told himself when he decided to become a sorcerer, he would do anything to avoid relationships â even friendships if he could do so. When you work a job like this, it can only end in disaster. butâ his eyes slide to the closed door you had just left through.Â
Why did this feel so much worse?âÂ
~~~
âYou canât stay here all night,â your voice cuts through the silence of the morgue â the only life left in the room. Because he too had died along with Haibara.Â
Or rather he should have.Â
He kept the towel over his eyes, unmoving from his chair, head resting back against the cold metal â as if it would protect him â from seeing Haibara sliced half over and over, last words dying on his lips said in pure chaos but somehow Nanami could still hear them ring in his earsâ just as the sick crumple of his torso hitting the ground after being ripped from his body. The words leaving his lips as the last vestiges of life left his body, fingers twitching as his lips movedâ
You got it from here.Â
The hopeful optimism from a person seconds before death did little to comfort him. Not when that person should have been the one who lived. He had the one thing that was so rare in his shit world of jujutsu â kindnessâ
The very thing that left half his body lying against a metal slab.
âI canât leave untilâŚâ he trails off, he didnât wish to leave until his body was inspected and then taken to beâŚdisposed of. He knew it was for the best that his body is turned to ash, but it made it no easier to consider the person that he knew to be his best friend would be nothing but ash in a few hours time, âI wonât leave him alone,âÂ
You nod, and the silence makes him wonder if youâre leaving, but instead he hears footsteps and the slight scraping of a metal chair against the floor. And he feels the slight brush of you beside him as you sit.Â
And you donât say a thing. The only thing is that your fingers brush his tentatively and when he doesnât pull away you intertwine them. And thatâs enoughâfor now.Â
Until they take his body away.Â
A sorcerer glances at the two of you, âDo either of you have contact with next of kin? We need to notifyââÂ
âIâll handle it,â Nanami says, the towel pulled away from his gaze, hoping his dark bags and red tinged eyes arenât noticeable to you, but he sees the purse of your lips and knows they are.Â
The sorcerer shifts, âHave you considered asking his family forââÂ
âThatâs not an option,â Nanami cuts him off with a stare, and the sorcerer parts his mouth before shutting it again with a nod, âokay, please allow us to take his body,âÂ
And they do, pulling the sheet down ever so slightly that Nanami sees a flash of his face â no hint of that smile he always unfailingly had on his lips â it too was gone, just like he was. And they carefully wheel his body away â assumedly to be burned. And the door swings shut behind them â leaving only him and you. Silence hangs over the room, the finality of the moment leaves nothing in its wake but regret.Â
And regret only felt hollow â just as his heart did.Â
You choose to break the silence, a shaky sigh leaving your throat, as you quickly scrub tears away from your face, clearing your throat, âCome on, letâs goââ
âYou can go ahead, Iâm going to stay here for a while,â and your eyes try to find his own, but he still stares at the spot where Haibaraâs body had laid for hours. The essence of cursed energy was almost too easy to understand compared to the concept of death â a person can be living, breathing, and talking one day to be nothing but a husk the next. And now, he knew it would be a lifetime of feeling as if something is missing â as if something was wrong â and moments where it felt fine would be overcome by only guilt and anger.Â
What was the point of all of this? His fingers formed into fists, nails digging into his palms â were they nothing but pawns to be used in an unending game that forced sorcerers to not only to put their lives on the line, but their colleagues as well. A twisted game that only ended in a pile of corpses.Â
âNanami, you canât stay here all nightââÂ
âIâm fine,â he rubs at his temples â and how long would it be until heâs staring at your body on that slab? Or maybe youâd be staring at his ownâcrying over his body just as he had done for Haibara, âyou can goââÂ
âIâm not leaving you, and you shouldnât stay here â you need sleepââÂ
âYou donât have to take care of me,â he snaps, his gaze meets yours, âIâm not injured, I didnât even get hurtâ âÂ
âYes you did,â you say quietly, as you step closer to him, but his eyes refuse to meet your own.Â
âNoââ and your hand finds his chest.Â
âThis pain is worse than any physical pain you could put in â and I wouldn't leave you to deal with a bruise by yourself, so what makes you think Iâd leave you now?â you say softly, and tears burn at his eyes, as your hands gently pull him into your arms, his head buried against your chest, âIâm not leaving you, Nanami,â you murmur quietly, as your fingers slowly run through his hair.Â
And you didnât â he was the one who left you.Â
~~~~
You never get sick. Thatâs what you loved to brag about â especially yesterday when you got home from spending an entire two days in the rain soaking wet and ice cold without a hint of cold symptoms.Â
You supposed your bragging was a curse in and of itself because now you were buried under your comforter. You barely manage to text Shoko that youâre sick and you wonât be able to make it to class today. And now you had to wonder if it was worth the effort to get out of bed to take your medication or to simply sleep it off.
But your body made the choice for you as your eyes fluttered shut and you slipped into a fitful sleep, body burning from the inside out.Â
Consciousness faded in and out, as you felt something brush against your forehead, your eyes heavy as they open ever so slightly, a flash of blue and blond, before you fall back into sleep.Â
Your head aches, muscles heavy, and the smell of spices wafted through the apartment, âAre you finally awake?â a voice said, as your eyes flutter open, still burning at the corners as your head turns.Â
âNanami?â You croak out, throat raw and dry, as if your flesh was raked across coals, âwhat are youââÂ
He turns his head from your kitchenette â a ladle in hand, before he sets it down, wiping his hand with a dishcloth. And he steps over to your bed, pulling the washcloth from your forehead, before placing a cold washcloth, âyour fever went down a little,â he said, âbut I brought cold medicine and I made some soup for you,âÂ
âYou didnâtââÂ
âHave to?â his lips quirked up, âI know I didnât have to, I wanted to,â
âHow did you know I wasââ and his eyes find yours, âShoko,â and he nods, you relax back into your bed, âhow long have you been here?âÂ
He turns back around to finish cooking the soup for you, stirring, the metal of the ladle slightly clinking against the sides of the pot, his eyes flicker to your clock, âAbout an hour and half, hasnât been too long,âÂ
âWhy are you taking care of me?â you mumble, glancing at his back, as he lifted the ladle to pour into a small bowl to taste the seasoning of the soup, âyou donât owe me anythingââ
âI owe you a lot,â he cuts you off, the clatter of the bowl against the counter as he sets it down, the click of the stovetop as he shut it off, âbut thatâs not the reason I did it,â and your brow is furrowing under the washcloth, as he walks over to you, a smile tugging at his lips.Â
âThen why?âÂ
And he raises an eyebrow, âWhy do you think?â And his fingers brush your cheek, âyouâre the only reason Iâve stayed here as long as I have, otherwise I would have left, a long time ago,â and you donât know how itâs possible for your face to grow warmer but it does from his words and his touch that lingers against your cheek.Â
And heâs gone as quickly as he came, going over to the stove to take out a bowl of soup for you to drink, âcan you stay after I finish eating? Until I fall asleep?â You ask, as he brings the bowl over, as you sit up slowly, head spinning as you do still.Â
âOf course,â and he does, staying by your side after you eat and take your medicine, hearing your quiet murmur, âthank you, Kento,âÂ
And he realizes, as his lips curl into a smile, fingers brushing a stray strand of hair from your face, just how much he liked hearing his name on your lips.Â
~~~
âHow did you manage to hurt yourself on our last mission together as students?â you sigh, the worry in your voice making his lips curl â as the two of you had just found yourselves in his dorm room, as you rifle through his bathroom to pull out the first aid kit you had given him (after you had learned he didnât own one).Â
You return to him sitting on the edge of his bed, holding his hand up in such a way that he didnât drip blood all over his sheets. Your fingers brush his own, and heâs still surprised at how soft your hands are. His hands had grown rough from the years of jujutsu, calloused from the grip of his fingers around his blade handle, but somehow, yours were always as soft as he remembered them.Â
Your fingers found his, warmth blooming as your brow wrinkled as you scruntized the cut on his hand, âMaybe we should ask Shoko to look at itââÂ
âThere wasnât any cursed energy that cut me â it was justââÂ
âDebris, I know,â and this seemingly did little to soothe your worries, had gotten when pushing you out of the way of the curse, âI had it handled â you shouldnât have dove inââÂ
âItâs fine, itâs not that badââ but your glare cuts off his sentence, as you begin to clean the wound.Â
You shake your head, âWhat am I going to do with you? Every time you go on a mission, Iâm going to be worrying about what trouble youâre going to get yourself into,â
Heâs silent, his eyes unable to meet yours â he canât keep hiding this from you. He had made the decision months ago â and it was only a matter of time before someone else slipped up and told you (most likely Gojo).Â
âIâm leaving after graduation,â he says the words like ripping off the bandage, but it hurts him all the more when your fingers are still for a moment, your eyes finding his own, as you stare at him.Â
âYouâreââ you cut off, and you donât protest, you donât argue â you only ask one question â âWhy?âÂ
And that one question was more difficult to answer than any other you could have asked, a sigh stuck in his throat, as he shook his head.Â
âI canât do this anymore â I havenât wanted to sinceââ he cuts off, mouth impossibly dry â it was easy to tell Yaga he wasnât going to continue, even easier to take care of half a dozen grade 2 curses at once â but this wasâ âI canât stand by and watch my colleagues die one by one beside me â I donât want to live like this. Iâm sorryââÂ
âYou donât have to be sorry, Kento,â his heart squeezes at the sound of your voice wrapped around his name â what you had taken to calling him recently â âas long itâs what you want. I know itâs been difficultâI was surprised you hadnât left whenââ and your voice falters, neither of you could bear to bring up his name, refusing to even utter it around the other â as if it would summon every horrible memory from that timeâand your voice is soft, âI just want you to be happy,âÂ
And thereâs nothing more than he wanted to be the one to make you happy â nothing more than he wanted to ask you to be by his side, let him be the one to take care of you, and nothing more he wanted than to ask you to leave with himâ
But that was the one thing he could never ask you to do.Â
Just as you would never ask him to stay for you.Â
âI want you to be happy too,â he murmurs, as you continue to clean his cut, before your fingers are moving to grab the bandages, slowly beginning to wrap them around his palm, âmore than even myself,âÂ
âWhatâs new?â he wrinkled his brow, and you chuckle, âI mean, you never put yourself first, and Iâm glad you are now. You deserve to be happy, even if itâs notâŚ.here,â and you finish bandaging his hand, but his fingers curl around yours, âKenââÂ
He squeezes your hand softly and his words are just as soft, âYou would be the only one who could ever make me happy,â and he hears your breath catch, and it only makes him want to steal it from your lips with his own, âbecause I know that being by your side would be only thing that could satisfy me,âÂ
Your fingers brush against his cheek, âToo bad Iâm apparently in love with Gojoââ you tease, all too pretty smile as you do, and his lips draw even closer, âKentoââÂ
âAnd if youâre so in love with Gojo, why are you here with me?â And he waits, waits for you to pull away, to stop him, to show any indication you didnât want thisâ
But you close the gap instead, lips barely brushing his, so chaste, and yet itâs a spark to kindling â a fire neither of you should have lit. And yet, his lips find yours, insistent, his fingers cup your cheek, featherlight touch drawing a shiver down your body that he relishes in.Â
âKentoââÂ
âWhy is it my name on your lips?â And he kisses you again and again, your noses brushing each otherâs, heâs murmuring your name like a prayer, and if it was, he would worship at your altar each day, âWhy it is that youâre kissing me?âÂ
And your lips curl against his, as they find his again, âYou kissed me first,â and he can taste the sweetness of the melon bread you had shared with him that morning, but something even sweeter that only be you, âso why did you do that?âÂ
But you knew why â especially from the smile gracing your features, one that he wished he could have etched in the inside of his mind, âIsnât it obvious?â and your lips part to answer, but he cuts you off with another brush of your lips, âI love you,âÂ
And your eyes widen only slightly, but youâre kissing him again, arms curling around his neck, fingers sliding behind his neck â âFigured that out when you got jealous of Gojo, but Iâm glad you admitted it,â and your forehead finds his, âand that I love you too,âÂ
You loved him â you loved him â he had to tell himself again and again, but he still couldnât fathom it. Was it a dream? You were always a dream to him â something he could nearly grasp with his fingers, but always remained just out of reach.Â
And now he held you in his hands and he never wanted to let go. But he had to â he knew he had to.Â
So he would â even if it would hurt â hurt that no bandage would fix.Â
He kissed you again, unless you were the one to place it.Â
~~
âWhy is it that I always find you like this?â Nanamiâs eyes slowly met yours â he sat in Ieiriâs office, waiting to be seen, only find you there in the doorway instead, âitâs as if youâre asking to be patched up by me, Kento,âÂ
How long had it been? And somehow he knows the answer before even thinking about it â it had been nearly a decade. A decade since the two of you had graduated â you moving to Kyoto to help run the campus there, while he had moved onto a regular college and then a corporate job â one that had nearly sucked his soul dry of any life he had to begin with. And it was only when he had received gratitude for the first time in a long time â that he remembered the reason he had stayed a jujutsu sorcerer after HaibaraâŚ
And now, here was the other.Â
He murmurs your name, nearly sounding foreign on his lips, âHow did youââÂ
âI ran into your student, Nanamin,â and he furrows his brow at the nickname â Itadoriâs little name for him after he had refused to be his sensei. Because he wasnât one â Gojo may have taken up the mantle of teacher for his own personal ego trip â but he wasnât ready to form relationships like that. And yetâŚhis lips curl, there you were, âdidnât think you wanted to be a teacher,âÂ
âI donât, but how can I refuse that white haired idiot?â he half grumbled with a sigh, eyes still slowly grazing over you, âbut I donât want to talk about him right now,âÂ
You draw a step closer, shutting the door behind you, a lilt in your voice as lovely as your grin, âThen what do you want to talk about?â and you stop right in front of him, as your fingers reach out, and heâs nearly leaning into your touch, but heâs wincing, as your fingers press against his bruised body, âbecause I want to talk about how you ended up in such rough shape,â
A sigh stuck in his throat, his next words nearly along with it, âIt could have been much, much worse,â he murmurs, âif Itadori wasnât there, Iââ he breaks off, âthat special grade â he could touch my soul and it had caught me in its domainââ
And your arms are pulling you into a tight hug, your fingers running through his hair, âBut youâre here, youâre okay,â you murmur softly, your palm pressed against his chest, you can feel his heart pump under your fingers, âyou made it,âÂ
âButââÂ
âBut nothing, Kento, youâll make it back every time,â your fingers cup his cheek, pressing your forehead against his, âright?âÂ
Your touch was the only thing that could truly make him feel whole again â as if every crack in his soul had been mended with gold, âhow do you know?â
And your lips curl into a soft smile, your head tilting ever so slightly, âBecause you love me, right?âÂ
The chuckle on his lips is nearly enough to bite back his nerves as the words leave his lips, âIâve loved you for years, sweetheart, thatâs nothing new,âÂ
Youâre shaking your head, âAnd all these years, we always found our way back to the other, right?â your hand finds purchase on his shoulder now, the other against his cheek, âso we just have to keep doing that,âÂ
âYou make it sound so simple,â he murmurs, and your lips find his â and it makes him wonder how he had spent so much time without your touch, because right now it was the only thing keeping him whole â stealing the doubts from his head and the aches from his body â leaving only heat filling the empty gaps left behind.
âIt is simple,â your hand interlaces with his, âif we let be.âÂ
~~~
âIâm starting to think you hurt yourself on purpose around me more now that weâve moved in together,â you examine the small cut on his finger, a nick from the knife that the ratio sorcerer had been using to slice his freshly baked loaf of bread. Scarlet slipped from the small cut, and his soft murmur of âouchâ unfortunately had not gone unheard by you. He swore you must have selective hearing â you wouldnât listen when he told you to go to bed, but youâd hear him hiss in pain under his breath even when half asleep onÂ
âItâs not too deep, I think just a bandage should be fine,â Your brow knit together as you purse your lips, and he bit back his smile, knowing it would only serve for him to get scolded for not being more careful.Â
âItâs nothing, love, I can take care of itââ and his breath catches when your lips find their way around his finger, sucking slightly to ease the bleeding, your tongue flicking over the cut, âsweetheartââ he swears under his breath, a distinct flush burning at the crown of his cheeks, âwhatââÂ
âThey say saliva can help a cut heal faster,â you smile, before pulling a bandage out of the first aid kit you had pulled out, and your lips press a sweet kiss to his cut again, a smirk as you meet his gaze, âKenââÂ
And heâs kissing you, your body tenses a moment only to melt into his touch, your arms wrapping around his neck â he can taste his blood on your lips, raking your fingers through his hair. He can only think about getting closer, closer, closer â he needs you. His hands slide down your back, until they find your hips, squeezing, as he presses himself to you.Â
âBaby,â you murmur breathlessly, as your lips part his, a gasp that turns to a soft moan when his lips press heated kisses down your jaw. His nose brushes against the soft skin of your neck, as he presses you against the counter of his apartment, his hands slide down, large palms grasping your ass, âI needââÂ
âWhat do you need?â his fingers sneaking up and down the sides of your body. His teeth graze your pulse, your head falls back, exposing more of your neck to him, as his tongue soothes the mark he left behind, âbecause you know Iâll give you anything you ask for, sweetheart,âÂ
And his fingers dig into the flesh of your thighs as he lifts you onto the counter, calloused palms pressing your legs apart â but he barely has to, your thighs already spreading for him. And he finds your shorts nearly soaked through â your drenched cunt visible even through the two layers of fabric stuck together from your arousal.Â
But you donât need to ask for him to know what you want â itâs second nature, itâs instinct for his fingers to dip inside the waistband of your shorts and underwear alike, tugging them both down, until you were kicking them off.Â
âIs all this for me?â he murmurs, pressing a sweet kiss to your inner thigh, as two fingers graze down your slit, gathering your pre on his fingertips, before he meets your gaze only to lick his fingers clean, âI was never one for sweets â except when it came to you. Sweetest thing Iâve ever tasted,âÂ
Your head lolls back, as his thick fingers circle your clit with practiced ease, pulling back only to drag his tongue up the length of your needy cunt. And your eyes find his again, heady gaze heavy with need and his pretty lips and chin already glossy with your juices.Â
âKentoâfuck,â your fingers thread through his blonde locks. First, one finger sinks in and then another âÂ
his nose bumping against your clit as his tongue stretches your walls in tandem with your fingers, grinding against his face, âsâgood, I canâtââ
But heâs relentless, the wet squelch of your messy walls and your choked out moans ring in his ears and are nearly enough to make him cum right in his pants â already far too tight, blood rushing downwards far too quick.Â
Another
âSuch a good girl,â Kento murmurs, and you are, so perfect â âjust let me take care of you,âÂ
âKento, please, more, needââ and his lips find your clit, tongue flicking against the hardened bud, before sucking long and hard, while a third finger joins the other two. Your back arches, the coil in your stomach grows tighter and hotter â your slick dripping from your messy hole onto the counter.Â
His fingers squeeze at your flesh, and he could live between your legs forever â it could be his meal morning, noon, and night â he could spend hours lapping at you until you fell apart over and over. His fingers stretch you out far too deliciously, and your walls are giving that telltale flutter.Â
âKentoâgânna cumâIââ and his fingers are fucking you harder and his lips close around your clit, sucking hard, until youâre moaning his name, muscles growing tight as you fall apart. Youâre a mess, your fingers trying to press his head impossibly closer as you grind against him, riding out your orgasm, as your juices gush over his face â and heâs lapping up every drop, as you fall limp against the counter, his arm slipping around your back to support you.Â
Your eyes flutter open to watch him pulling away with a pop, strings spit and cum connecting you to your cunt. His gaze drags over you, watching your juices drip against the counter, as he murmurs quiet praises, licking his lips clean of your release.Â
And your fingers find his cheeks, pulling him into a deep kiss, moaning as you taste yourself on his lips, the filthiness of it all enough for his cock to grow even harder against your thigh. And itâs a matter of moments, before your fingers are tugging at his sweatpants and boxers, freeing his erection, his pretty cock all but ready for you â lovely ruddy head dripping with pearly white beads of precum.Â
âLook at what you do to me, love,â he murmurs, as your eyes meet his, gaze blown out in lust.Â
âKento, please,â and his lips curl, his fingers raking through your hair, as he pulls you even closer, his erection bumping against your sopping pussy, âI wantââÂ
He drags his cock over your slit, watching his pre mix with your release, the two of you groaning when his tip catches on your clit, âwhat do you want sweetheart? Tell me, tell me what you need,â his arms are hooked around your knees, pressing them to your chest.Â
You keen when his tip teases your sopping hole, âI need you to fuck meââ and youâre whining as his cock pressed into you, splitting you open on his length â and god you could never get used to how big he was â you could feel very pretty vein and delicious curveâ
Fuck, he could bust just looking down at you, at the way your lips parted for him as he had sunk into you, the way he could see how your pussy stretched around his dick â like you were made for him. Pleasure ripped up his spine at the sight â his fingernails digging crescents into your hips.Â
And he knew that he was certainly made for you.Â
âSâgood, sâfull â please,â youâre nearly mewling, begging for him to move, âKentoââ and he obliges, unable to hold back any longer, as he begins to slowly rock his hips against you, each stroke getting longer and deeper. His balls slap against your hips, as he picks up the pace â your walls squeezing around him.Â
âFuck, sweetheart, didnât think you could get any tighter,â he grunts, his cock stuffed inside your walls, and heâs gritting his teeth, your soft moans and the noises of your pretty pussy becoming too much for him. White ring of release formed around his base â his balls growing tight as he inches closer and closer to blow his load, âyou always can fâme, canât you?âÂ
And he gives a particularly hard thrust, right as his lips find yours in a messy, sloppy kiss â all tongue and teeth, your head falls back when his tip finds your g-spot again and again. You squirt all over his length, soaking him and the counter with your release, as he fucks you through your orgasm, again and again. Your toes curl when he finally comes, his release painting your walls with his thick, hot release â fucking it deeper and deeper, and heâs notching himself inside.Â
Youâre slumping against him, your eyes shut, as he pulls you closer into his arms, pressing sweet kisses all over your face until he finds your lips again.Â
âI love you,â you mumble, eyes fluttering open as he cups your chin, a soft smile on his lips.Â
âI love you more,â and heâs slowly lifting you, carrying you over to your shared bed, and youâre burying your face in the crook of his neck.Â
âBut what about your cut?â You mumble, and a chuckle on his lips, as he presses a kiss to your forehead, as he sets you down on the bed, grabbing a damp washcloth to clean you up.Â
âDonât worry, sweetheart, youâve done plenty,â he murmurs, as he finishes cleaning you up, only to slip into bed beside you â âlet me take care of you.âÂ
~~~
It was over.Â
Thatâs what Nanami had thought when Mahito had stopped him in his tracks, his hand pressed against his chest, but more importantly, against his soul.Â
âI didnât know you were here,â Nanami said, his eyes unable to tear away from the curseâs.Â
He could barely feel anything anymore â the stinging had dulled somewhere between his trek down the winding tunnels of Shibuya station. Instead, he could only hear the echo of his footsteps, as he had forced himself to take one step forward over and over and over â and thatâs when he had seen them.Â
The congregation of curses or mutated humans â he didnât know which they were, but did it really matter at this point? It didnât. He dispatched them all the same â all while his thoughts were only filled of you â you, you, you and you.Â
And a beach in Malaysia.Â
âYeah, Kuantan would have been nice,â and it would have been â it was only a few months away. The vacation the two of you had meticulously planned out. The days spent out walking the beach, lounging by the water with the books neither of you had never read, and nights falling asleep by each otherâs side to the metronome of the waves crashing.Â
And now, he had found himself, staring death in the face â an echo of his near death from only a few months ago. How had it come to this already? He had always felt he was running out of time â constantly watching the clock, trying to run it out for his retirement, only for it to run out before he could make it to those sandy shores he had dreamed of.Â
âYup. The whole time,â Mahito replies, lips in an easy smile, âWanna chat? We go way back, after all,âÂ
Nanamiâs eyes fall to the floor, the dirtied and bloodied tiles underneath his feet â he didnât feel like spilling his guts to a curse.Â
Haibara, what the hell was I trying to do? He asks in his mind, not even daring to say the words aloud, I ran. Even though I ran away, I came back with the vague reason of finding the work worthwhile.Â
And then he sees Haibara, appearing in front of him, patented smile on his lips, as he points south â points right atâÂ
âItadori,â Mahito says.Â
âNanamin!â his eyes wide as he takes in his state â horror painted on his face, already so helpless â what else had he seen and now he had to see this too? He shouldnât have had to see this. He should have been a normal kid â worrying about normal things â not fighting monsters in some damned subway tunnel.Â
But what could he do about what now? What could he do but stop?Â
Could he finally stop?Â
No, Haibara. Thatâs not right. I canât say that to him. Itâll just end up becoming a curse for him.Â
But itâs a curse every jujutsu sorcerer had to bear â made to bear until there were either no curses or no sorcerers left.Â
But he couldnât regret it now.Â
âItadori,â his lips curl, smiling for the last time, âyouâve got it fromââÂ
And then thereâs a crash â screaming, the sound of blood splattering. It takes him a minute to realize it wasnât him.Â
It was you.Â
You had crashed between the two of them, sending the curse flying with your cursed energy, the impact drawing blood from you and Mahito alike. Your arm was around his body â and Nanami is whispering your name.Â
âI told you, Kento, weâre always going to come home â even if I have to drag you there,â you say, your eyes still flickering between Itadori and Mahito, âItadori, tske NanamiââÂ
âNo, this is my fight,â he shakes his head, his fingers clenched into fists, âI almost let Nanamin die â I have to do thisââÂ
âYujiââ you say, but heâs already barreling towards Mahito, and youâre whispering fuck, as you take Nanami in the opposite direction.Â
âSweetheart, Iâm sorry,â and his eyes are barely able to stay open, as you help carry his weight alone the deserted subway, âIâm sorryââÂ
âWhy are you sorryââ but heâs barely awake along enough to hear your question, until itâs all black.Â
It takes him several months to recover. Cursed energy healing could only do so much, especially since Ieiri was spread thin enough with everything between Shibuya, the Culling Games, and everything else that came after.Â
Most of the brunt of his care had fallen on you â you changed his bandages, tended to his wounds, dealt with any signs of infection with help from Ieiri, and handled everything else around the house.Â
âWhy do you do all of this for me?â He asks quietly, one day while he sits, your back turned while you washed the dishes from lunch â the clinking of plates and the sound of water running that squeaks shut when he asks.Â
You turn, lips in a frown, âwhat do you mean, Kento?âÂ
His fingernails dig into his knee, biting back a sigh, as you walk over after wiping your hands off, âitâs been months of you justâŚtaking care of me. I donât get it â I didnât understand when we were students when you insisted on caring for me, and nowâŚâ he swallows, his throat still impossibly dryâeven after all treatment, nothing still tasted the same, âIâve just become a burdenââÂ
You cup his cheeks, âKento, you are never a burden to meââÂ
âButââÂ
âBut nothing â wouldnât you do the same for me if I was in your position?â But heâs shaking his head.Â
âItâs notââÂ
âKento, do you remember our first mission together?â he blinks, his brow furrowing, but you only smooth it with your fingers, âit was my first mission â I had barely gotten the hang of using cursed energy â I hadnât even exorcised a curse before, but as always, jujutsu society had left children to bear the burden of survival amongst themselves,â and your fingers find his, âbut you never left me alone. I froze in front of the curse. I didnât know what to do with myself â even while you dealt with two others on your own â you still managed to save me, even though you managed to hurt yourself in the process,â your voice was soft, your hand finding his, lacing your fingers with his, squeezing his hand â but heâs not sure whether itâs to remind him youâre here or to remind yourself that heâs still here, âand you donât remember it do you?â his lips purse, as his eyes canât find yours, gaze cast downwards, but he hears you give a soft chuckle.Â
âI look at you and I see all the ways a soul can bruise â because youâve taken hits that werenât yours to take â youâve taken challenges that shouldnât have been yours to bear,â your fingers skim over his cheeks, âeven in what you thought were your last moments,â your voice breaks, swallowing back tears, âyour thoughts were of others â of helping your students, of Itadori, of meââ you shake your head, âand you think Iâm doing too much for you? I think you deserve so much more than meââÂ
âAll I need is you,â his voice is breaking, swallowing thickly, âthatâs all I ever wanted,âÂ
âThen just stay here with me â that would be enough for me,â you lean close and press your lips to his â and even still, the taste of your kiss was never any less sweet, âall I want is to come home to you, you think you can handle that?âÂ
His lips find yours again, as they always would, âIâll show you.âÂ
~~~
âIt doesnât hurt that bad,â and Nanami chuckles, his hands hooked around your knees and thighs, as your arms wrapped around his neck, your head resting on one of his shoulders, âKentoooo, you donât have toââÂ
âI want to, and Iâm not going to risk it getting any worse by letting you walk on the sand â the sunset was painting the water in hues of gold, pinks, and purples â and the beauty of this beach was only made better by your presence, âjust let me do this for you, love,â and you sigh, relenting, as you bury your face in the side of his neck.Â
âMy husband is so doting, just a small cut on sea glass makes you this crazy?â and he shivers slightly, but itâs not from the slight sea breeze tickling his nose, but from your nose brushing against your neck, âare we headed back already?âÂ
âHow else will we treat your foot?â your hands slide over his bare skin â the skin still scarred as it always would be, an eye tucked away under an eyepatch â unable to be saved â but your husband was saved all the same, âunless Ieiri taught you how to used reversed cursed technique before our vacation,âÂ
âItâs really not that badââÂ
âIs this your first time being a patient?â and you pout, as he chuckles, vibration of his sweet laugh against your chest as you press yourself impossibly closer, especially when you see the looks of others as the two of you walk by.Â
âItâs embarrassing to be carried like this,â you murmur, âcome on baby, I can walk the rest of the way,â but he only hums, casting a small glance over his shoulder.Â
âI like carrying you like this,â his lips curled in a smirk, âeveryone knows youâre mine this way,â and your cheeks burn, and you kiss his cheek, pouting as you do, âweâll be back on the beach soon enough â we have all the time in the world sweetheart,âÂ
And you did â you bury your face in the side of his neck again â with himâÂ
Always.Â
⧠a/n: this has been a long time coming!! i feel like with every one of these fics i'm never happy with them, but then they end up being better than i remember. apparently i just don't like my writing very much haha. i hope you guys enjoy <3 it's been so long since i wrote nanamin, so i hope it came out good <3
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pairing: lando norris x fem!reader
word count: 2k+
summary: your relationship with lando through the teenage years
warnings: pda, established relationship, mostly fluff, some angst | i know lando moved to glastonbury later in his life but 𤍠i also wrote this in 2 hours instead of doing because i got excited and had an idea
   You and Lando had first met when you were teenagers. Him being a lanky teenage boy with puffy cheeks and curly hair, and you being a young girl with frizzy hair and a youthful look in your eyes. It wasnât a surprise to anyone when you first started dating, itâs like you both were on the same wavelength.
You still remember the day you met him ââ how could you not? You two went to the same school so you knew who each other was, and you had heard of him from people around the town talking about his karting career. Your parents were family friends with the Norrisâs, and they never failed to talk about how proud they were of their children.
It was the start of school after the 2013 summer break. You had quite a small friend group in school so when you had classes with no one you were friends with, you tended to be quiet and focus on your school work. That resulted in you being forced to sit next to the rowdy kids. Why? You didnât know. Itâs not like it changed them, and it just bothered you. It was one of those times, and it was Lando who was put next to you. Him and his friend group tended to be the disruptive bunch. They werenât bad people or bad at school, just got a little too loud at times and forgot to pay attention.
You were sat in the middle row of your math class. The seat next to you was empty at the start of class, but at the end it wasnât. Lando and his friends got a little too loud and he was âpunishedâ by being put next to you so he couldnât talk with his friends. You looked at him when he made his way over, but that was it. He was cute ââ you could admit it. And it didnât hurt that someone cute was being put next to you, but you shook your feelings off and forced yourself to focus. At them end of class when you were grabbing your things, a hand poked your shoulder. You turned around and came face-to-face with the Norris boy. He looked a little nervous, fidgety and a small smile on his face. You tilted your head. âHey ââ I uh ââ didnât have enough time to finish some of the notes. Do you mind if I borrow some of yours?â
You were a little surprised, you didnât think he cared that much about school. Most kids wouldnât bother getting down a little bit you missed ââ not even you ââ but he did. You smiled and nodded. âSure,â you told him as you grabbed the paper out of your binder and gave it to him, âjust return it once youâre done?â He nodded. The next day in class, he walked over to you and gave the paper pack, and you figured he would go back to his friends because the seat want permanent, but he didnât. He put his bag on the ground and sat in the seat next to you. He did that, every day, for the rest of the year.
You two got to know each other well. You learned more about his competitive karting career and his family, while you told him about your family and friends. Nothing ever happened between you two, you were just friends. You had a crush on him, but you convinced yourself it was your mind tricking you because it was your first friend that was a boy. He thought the same, but he didnât not believe his, he just didnât act on it.
It was summer break, a year after you met him, when you realized you did like him. You were chatting with your grandma at her house as you were helping her sting stuff around the house. She had asked about your school semesters and how it was. You rambled on and on, not realizing that you mostly takes about Lando. It wasnât until you were putting one of the last boxes down for her that it finally hit. âYou must really like that boy, no?â You looked at her weird. âAll you did was talk about him. You must like him.â It was when she said that that you had a moment of realization. After you finished helping her you went home to your mom and talked to her, confused on how to deal with this newfound information. She just laughed and gave you a hug, telling you that almost every teenage girl goes through this with someone in their life. That made you feel a bit better.
Your friendship turned into something more a couple weeks after that. The Norris family had invited your family to come watch one of Landoâs races at Buckmore Park. Your parents agreed as they wanted to catch up . . . You agreed because you wanted to see Lando. He did well, coming 5th place. You could tell he wasnât happy about, but you were. You and your family met up with him at the end of the race. He wasnât looking too happy, but when he saw you his face lit up. When you congratulated him he blushed. Your families talked for a bit ââ mostly about how summer break was going ââ and you were about to leave when Lando called out your name.
Your family continued to leave, saying they would meet up with you at the car with your mom winking at you. You blushed. At first there was some awkward silence, and then he asked âwould you like to go on a date?â You were a bit shocked, not expecting it, and you were nervous. What did people do on dates anyway? You know adults went out to eat and drink but you were fifteen! You completely forgot that you had to answer his question, and he started sputtering out words saying that you didnât have to, and he was sorry before you interrupted him with a âyes.â It was his turn to look surprise.
You went on a date the next week, both of you unknowingly doing the same thing and panicking to your parents beforehand. It went fine, a bit awkward ââ obviously ââ but you thought it was cute. You went out for icecream and walked around Bristol. Halfway through the date he slipped his hand into yours, and you accepted it, but didnât dare to look him in the eye.
After that, you two were inseparable. You two were always together, and practically lived at each others houses. Sometimes ââ for weeks on end ââ your parents never saw you a lot because you were always at Landoâs house. His parents always updated yours on how you were, and they trusted you. During an interview for Drive to Survive, your parents swore during those times they only saw you in the morning and night, the rest of the time you were with Lando. This would switch between you staying at his and him staying at yours.
Though Lando wouldnât admit it when he was a teenager, he would do anything for you. If you asked him to jump off a bridge, he wouldnât even ask why, heâs just do it. There are so many pictures on your phone and Polaroids of him in âembarrassingâ situations ââ like one where he had a face mask on and his nails painted. You keep that one in the back of your phone case. He would let you braid his hair, practice makeup on him, help him with his skincare, and so many other things. This would always be in the secrecy of your room and when your families werenât there because he dreaded the day his family saw him like that.
He had no idea that you had shown his sisters and parents almost every single one. They promised to keep it quiet, and they did. You also know they wonât tell him that they have some of those pictures on their phones. Itâs a secret between you and them, a need to know thing.
Whenever you had sleepovers at his house, you would stay with his sisters because you werenât allowed to be with him ââ for good reason ââ and because you loved his sisters. As you got older, you bonded more with them, helping them out with boy problems and girl problems, because everyone had those girls in high school who made your life a living hell. You broke down crying when you found out they were moving to Glastonbury. How would you survive without not being able to hug your boyfriend? How would you cope without the gossip sessions with his sisters? The talks about your life over helping Cisca with dinner and talking politics with Adam? Laughing at embarrassing moments of Lando with his brother?
Before that, you had put off getting your license. You walked or took buses to most places, and it saved you money. When you found out they were moving though, you made it your lifeâs mission it get your license and a car. You were on moving day, helping the family with setting things up and cleaning up the place. You still remember the dinner you had that night. It wasnât fancy, just Chinese takeout on a table in the half put together living room, but it was one of the moments where you truly felt like family. It wasnât that you hadnât before, but it was the private ness of the situation that really hit your heart. You begged to stay over, not caring that it was a school night, but you couldnât. You hugged everyone goodbye with teary eyes, kissing Lando, and promising to be back soon.
And you were. When you had that car, you spent an unbelievable amount of money on gas. You drove to his house almost every weekend. Sometimes he would come over to your house, but it was mostly you going over there out of convenience. If Lando wanted to go to yours, heâd probably have to pile all of his siblings in the car, while you didnât have to do that. Besides driving to Glastonbury, your car was also used as a pick me up. Whenever something happened with his sisters, youâd be there in a heartbeat, telling them to get in ââ telling Lando he canât come with him grumbling something under his breath ââ and youâd go and grab food. Whatever they needed, you were there ready to do it? Boy problems? Junk food and a sad playlist. School problems? Listening to them vent and giving them advice. Period problems? That depended on that they wanted. You even remember one time on March break Flo had an experience with a boy and you took her to a rage room . . . It was so fun, and you definitely did it again with Cisca.
While you were there for all the important events in Landoâs life, he was the same. He was there when your grandma died, and you swore he was one of the few things that kept you together. He was there when you graduated high school and got accepted into your dream school.
Your relationship stayed the same throughout his whole career, you to where you both were now, living in Monaco. You still acted like teenagers, jokingly fighting over little things and teasing each other. Your love baver wavered, it stayed the same for each other, maybe even became stronger. There were periods in your relationship like when he first started in Formula One and you moved to college that it was tricky, but you go through it. You always would.
As you sat on the sofa in your home and twirled the ring on your finger, you remembered the whole of your relationship and the future of it. You were broken out of your trance by a kiss on your head. You hummed, not turning to look at him. âSheâs gone to bed. Sheâs been changed and given her bottle. You smiled and looked up at him, âthank you.â He kissed you on your lips, âof course. You ready to go to bed, Mrs. Norris?â You chuckled and got up, walking around to the couch to meet him in his arms.
âAlways, Mr. Norris, always.â
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Summary:Â The one where you and Lando have a rather interesting way of resolving an argument.Â
Pairing:Â lando norris x fwb!readerÂ
Word Count:Â 2k
Warnings:Â kinda cute ass fighting so fluff??, sex in a car, fingering, penetration, manhandling, no use of protection (wrap it before you tap it!!), cursing, minords dni!!Â
Request: âokay but what about good old car sex with lando pleaseeeeâÂ
Authorâs Note:Â hi, hey, hello!! first of all, who knew addison rae had the power to make a song that made me write this whole thing under 3 hours?? i certainly did not. secondly, i thought it would be nice to take a little break from the charles-carlos drama, and before i finish the third and final part to that little mini-series, i thought you guys would enjoy a little treat in the meantime! i have to admit writing for lando again was an interesting experience for me, but who knows, maybe i'll do it more often (i have one request that i'm obsessed with so thatâs definitely coming your way as well!) also, i have an oscar fic in the works as well, so maybe the sudden change in mclaren also started to affect me lol. a quick psa, i know many people asked me in my last fic, but i do NOT have a taglist and i wonât be making one any time soon either! anywaaays, i hope you guys enjoy this fic, and feedback is welcome as always! thank you to the anon for their request, and good morning, noon or night wherever you are, xoxobeeÂ
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âI canât believe youâre drinking that in my car.â Lando complains, shooting you a sideway glare as you sip your choice of beverage contently. Â
You tilt the cup slightly in his direction, grinning. âRelax, itâs not like itâs going to explode, nor it is your car.âÂ
âIt might as well,â Lando mutters, eyes back on the road. âKnowing your luck, the second I hit a bump, that thing will be all over the place and Iâll have to explain what happened to Zak. Do you even know how much it costs to clean these seats?âÂ
You laugh, swirling the drink in the cup. âYouâre being dramatic, itâs not like you are the one to detail the cars you use. Itâs fine, Iâve got this under control.âÂ
âFamous last words,â Lando grumbles. His grip tightens on the steering wheel as if heâs preparing for impact.Â
You glance at him, amused. âAre you always this paranoid about your car, or is it just me?âÂ
âItâs you. Definitely you.â He shoots you another look, this one laced with mock suspicion. âYou have a history, you know.âÂ
âOh, puh-lease,â you drawl, rolling your eyes as you turn your upper body to face him. âTell me one time I actually made a mess in your car, and Iâll throw away this can right now.âÂ
Lando doesn't hesitate as he answers quickly. âMonaco. Last year. You remember that smoothie incident, right?âÂ
You blink a couple of times, taken aback. âThat doesnât count! That was your fault for speeding around the corner like a maniac. How was I supposed to hold on to it?âÂ
He smirks, clearly enjoying the memory. âOh, so now itâs my fault, huh? You were the one who insisted on bringing a smoothie into my car five minutes before a race.âÂ
âYou didnât even have to brake so hard,â you mutter, crossing your arms defensively. âI had it under control until you decided to turn it into a F1 race.âÂ
Lando chuckles, shaking his head. âDoesn't matter. I still won, throw it away now.âÂ
âThat doesnât count, it was clearly your fault!â You complain, holding the can protectively. âThereâs no way Iâm tossing this because of your bad driving.âÂ
Lando laughs, shaking his head. âBad driving? I think Iâd take that up with the people who hired me to race professionally.âÂ
âProfessionally doesnât mean youâre not reckless,â you quip, a playful glint in your eyes. âEspecially when thereâs a smoothie involved.â Â
âFine,â he contends, shrugging, âhow about that time I made you come too hard, and you leaked onto the seats?â Â
This manages to shut you down for a moment, with eyes nearly bulging out of your head, you gasp at Landoâs sudden choice of words. âLando!â You exclaim, reaching over the console to hit him on the arm gently, âThatâs vulgar!âÂ
Silently chuckling at your reaction, he reaches over as he places a hand on your upper thigh, his hand tightening as you hold his wrist in warning. âItâs the truth,â he reminds you with a smirk, âdonât go shy on me, now, you were the one to get the seats all messed up because of how wet you were.â If you werenât blushing before, your face most definitely resembles a tomato now as he continues his stream of consciousness, âNot that Iâm complaining, though, Iâm pretty sure I came in my pants when I made you cum just from my fingers.â Â
 âYouâ you did?â The question flies from your mouth before you can stop yourself. Â
The smile that overtakes the smirk on Landoâs face is almost sweet, and he coos at the innocence of your question as he squeezes your thigh again. âOh baby,â he coos, âit was the hottest thing ever.â Â
Your thighs attempt to trap his hand as you inadvertently press them tighter together, your nose scrunching up in confusion. âBut it was messy.â Â
âThat was the best part,â Lando confirms, his thumb caressing your skin. âI loved getting to clean you up afterwards, didnât I? Almost as much as you loved it.âÂ
âSure.â You mumble, shrugging as you do your best to ignore his burning stare. Youâd be worried about the fact that he was supposed to be driving if it was someone else, but considering heâs a F1 driver, you donât comment on Landoâs lack of his surroundings as he pushes your thighs apart. âWhat are you doing?â You ask, confused as he moves his fingers further up your skirt. Â
âYou just focus on finishing that drink, okay?â He mumbles as his fingers pull your underwear to the side. âIâm suddenly in the mood for something sweet myself.â Â
âLando, I donât think we should do thâhat.â Your voice waivers towards the end as his fingertips press on your clit, drawing lax circles on the bundle of nerves. âLando,â you try to warn him, but your voice comes out as a high-pitched whimper. Â
He shushes you gently as his fingers spread your wetness around your skin, causing you to bite down on your lip to silence yourself. Lando lets his dissent known by clicking his tongue against the roof of his mouth, mumbling, âDonât silence yourself, let me hear you, baby.â And when you give him what he wants and let out a loud moan as your hips involuntarily buck against his hand. Grinding the palm of his hand against your puffy clit, Lando uses your wetness to slowly push two of his fingers into you, drawing out another moan as you lean your head against the headrest. âMy God, baby, look at you. Youâre already making a mess on the seats.â Â
âN-no,â you manage to whine, shaking your head as you give him a pleading but stubborn look, âIâm not making a mess.â Â
âNo?â He asks, mocking the pout that has found its way onto your lips. âThen who is so wet against my hand that itâs dripping, huh?â You're not sure if itâs his words or the way his fingers keep moving in and out of your cunt, but in either case, the overwhelming need of just something more causes you to attempt to put the can in your hand down, when Lando tuts again in warning, âYou donât get to put your drink down until you first come on my fingers.âÂ
After his words set in, you finally come to your senses, suddenly opening your eyes as you give him a shocked look. âWhaâwhat?â You ask, âWhat if I spill?âÂ
He shrugs, an innocent smile on his lips as he throws you a glance, âI guess youâll just have to be careful and not spill it.â The smile on his lips grows as you let out a frustrated sound, and he responds by moving his fingers in a come-hither motion to git the spot, which causes your body to arch into his touch. âAre you going to give me what I want?â He asks, his concentration still on the road as he tries to find a secluded spot to park the car. Â
âUh-huh,â you mutter, voice shaky as you focus on not dropping the can in your hand, âI will, Lando, just keep doing that.â Â
âDoing what?â He asks in a faux-innocent tone, as he goes back to simply continuing the pistoning movement of his fingers. âLike this?â He asks, with a shit eating grin on his face as you whine. âOr, like this?â He asks again, but this time, he repeats the movement of his fingers previously as he hits your g-spot again. Â
You canât control the scream that gets released from the back of your throat as your body shakes violently. âThat,â you breathe out, your free hand holding onto the seatbelt so tight that you can feel it starting to cramp your hand a little bit, âdonât you dare stop doing that.âÂ
Lando lets out a low chuckle, clearly satisfied with your desperate plea. His fingers continue their relentless pace, teasing and coaxing you closer to the edge. âOh, I wonât stop,â he murmurs, his tone soft yet commanding. âNot until you give me what I want.âÂ
Your entire body feels like it's on fire, the combination of his skilled fingers and the impossible task of not spilling your drink has you teetering on the edge. The car feels smaller, the world outside irrelevant, as Landoâs attention is focused solely on you. Being so consumed by the way Landoâs fingers move in and out of your cunt, you donât even know that the car you are in at the moment has been abandoned in the side of a deserted road. You grip the can tighter, your hand trembling as the tension builds in your core. âLando,â you gasp, a hint of desperation seeping into your voice. âIâ I can'tââÂ
He smirks, enjoying your struggle. âYou can,â he counters smoothly, leaning slightly closer while keeping one hand on the steering wheel. âYou can do it, just let it go, baby.â His thumb presses harder on your clit, drawing another loud moan from your lips.Â
âLando, please,â you beg, your voice almost cracking under the weight of your impending release. âIâm going toââÂ
âGood,â he cuts you off, his smirk widening. âLet go for me, baby. And don't you dare spill that drink."Â
His words are your undoing. With one final flick of his fingers, you shatter around him, your body convulsing with pleasure as you ride out your high. Your head falls back against the seat, your hand gripping the can so hard youâre not surprised it bursts under the pressure.Â
His words are your undoing. With one final flick of his fingers, you shatter around him, your body convulsing with pleasure as you ride out your high. Your head falls back against the seat, your hand gripping the can so hard youâre not surprised it bursts under the pressure.Â
You hear Landoâs satisfied chuckle as he eases his fingers out of you, giving your thigh one last affectionate squeeze. âGood girl,â he murmurs, glancing over at you with a proud smile. âLook at how good you look.â He shamelessly holds his fingers in front of your face, then without missing a beat, he brings his fingers into his mouth. The way he moans is nothing short of sinful, and you watch him with your lips parted as he mumbles around his fingers, âI think you spilled it a little bit.âÂ
âE-Excuse me?â You stutter, looking at Lando with the horrified look on your face. âNo, I didnât!âÂ
Lando raises an eyebrow, his smirk never faltering as he glances down at the mess on the seat. âOh, but you did,â he teases, licking his lips after savoring the taste of you on his fingers. His eyes gleam with amusement as he points at the spot between your legs. âNot the drink, though⌠you.âÂ
Your face burns with a mix of embarrassment and desire, your breath still uneven as you try to process what just happened. âThatâs not what Iââ you stammer, crossing your arms over your chest, but Lando just laughs softly.Â
âRelax, love. Itâs nothing a little cleaning canât fix.â He leans back in his seat, eyes never leaving you, his hand returning to the steering wheel like what just happened was the most normal thing in the world. âBesides, Iâd much rather clean you up later.âÂ
You feel the heat spread through your body again, and despite yourself, you canât help but feel a wave of arousal wash over you. Landoâs confidence, the way he handles you with such ease, is almost intoxicating. But as much as youâre enjoying the moment, a small part of you knows this is ridiculous.Â
âYouâre insufferable,â you mutter, trying to regain some composure, though your flushed cheeks give you away.Â
Lando just grins, completely unbothered. âYou love it,â he says casually, shooting you another one of those playful sideway glances that makes your heart race. âAdmit it. You like when I make you lose control.âÂ
You bite your lip, fighting the urge to throw a retort his way. But you canât deny it, not after the way your body reacted to his touch. âYouâre lucky youâre good at this,â you finally concede, your voice barely above a whisper.Â
Landoâs smile softens, just for a moment. âGood at a lot of things,â he says, his voice dropping to a more intimate tone. Then he pulls the car to a stop, turning off the engine before leaning toward you, his lips brushing your ear as he whispers, âAnd Iâm just getting started.âÂ
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RAVAGE
pairing: dark!president!coriolanus snow x innocent!wife!reader
summary: heâd won the election, much to your elation. now youâd have to navigate the fame, fortune and status as the first lady of panem. but coriolanus just wanted you all to himself, and heâd do anything to scare you into his arms.
warnings: possessiveness, murder, robbery, bad smut, controlling, tears, babying, kisses, fingering, oral (f receiving), p in v, kinda subby corio/dom, praise, sense of entitlement? breeding kink, tummy bulge, overstimulation, little bit of aftercare
word count: 2k
a/n: iâm such a bitch for making everyone wait so long for a delicate part two đ and i finally have the confidence for smut so heheh - yes iâm using tvd names a lot - corio/coryo use - tried out a new layout đ
part one of delicate
you couldnât believe it.
coriolanus snow, president of panem.
all of his hard work has finally paid off and you couldnât be more happy for him. you wanted to give him a gift but you still had no idea what he would want. it seemed the two of you practically had everything overnight, so a measly gift seemed to be difficult to acquire, one that he liked? even harder.
so youâd decided to go out, the idea of surprising him exciting you so much youâd forgotten to tell coriolanus where you were going to.
so imagine his surprise when his assistant told him youâd left the house, viewing you on the security cameras.
which you had no idea were there.
coriolanus saw it as an act of defiance.
he had to move about this correctly, he couldnât have you injured, but he needed to scare you back into his arms. to remind you of the horrible place that panem was.
over twelve stores, and nothing. so youâd decided to enlist the help of one of your few friends. ânot a single clue of what heâd want?â elena asked as you stabbed at your fries, ânope.â you answered as you placed a fry in your mouth.
âwell if he has absolutely everything then his gorgeous wife should be a nice gift after an extremely long day no?â you looked up at her, confused, âwhat do you mean?â she giggled, âoh god, i forget how you donât know that much. you, y/n.â at your adorable puppy face she leaned in, âyour body.â you jumped back at her words, âi⌠iâve never.â
âyouâve never?!â elena slapped her hand over her mouth at your admission, âhow? i mean youâre absolutely stunning sweetheart, how hasnât he yet?â you played with the table cloth in your hands, âi donât know.â elena twisted her fork around her pasta, âokay has he never made a move, or, have you never noticed the signs?â you took a sip of your wine as you stared back at her, âwhat signs?â elena sighed, rubbing her temple, âthere are signs, moments. the two of you, sitting on the couch and his hand trails higher. his breath quickens at the sight of you in a dress. the little things.â
âand what happens if you notice these signs, act on them?â and this was exactly her expertise, she wiped her face with her napkin before paying the bill. âif iâm going to explain this in detail then we need to go to my house. or a dirtier part of town. my dear girl, iâm taking you to your first ever bar.â
coriolanus has to hold on to his mask of self-restraint, youâd been spotted at a bar, with one of your friends that he despised. but at least his plan could take full effect without a hitch.
your mind had been blown, irrevocably and utterly blown. the way elena had described it all, she made it sound like heaven. but she did tell you about other men, some care for themselves more so than the girl. and you had no clue what type of man corio was in bed.
youâd been so absorbed in your own thoughts you hadnât noticed the man following you, not until he attacked you. heâd been going after your bag of course, but it was a gift from coriolanus. the man was unrelenting as he shoved you against the cold wall, grimy hands pushing and pulling with you as you tried to regain hold of your purse. âlet go!â you cried out before he slammed you into the wall again, loosing grip on the purse coriolanus had just gifted you.
what would he say? it was his gift to you!
you woke up with a throbbing headache and corios hands brushing away strands from your face. âthere you are sweet thing. you feeling okay?â you peered up at him, unable to move due to the millions of blankets on you. noticing your struggle he smiled before shifting them off, âbetter?â you nodded before sitting up with his help.
âcorio, i lost the bag you gave me. the bad guy he- iâm so so sorry. please donât be mad with me i didnât mean to-â he laughed, although it didnât reach his eyes, âyou think i care about the bag y/n/n? i could buy you a million bags, better bags. iâm just glad youâre okay. those guys, they wonât bother you again.â all you could do was sob and hug him, pondering the meaning of his words.
AN HOUR AGO
âhey, what the hell man? you said to attack the girl and take the bag!â the man shouted as coriolanus undid his cuffs, adjusted his sleeve, pushing it back on both arms. âi told you to go for the bag, yes. but i specifically remember drilling it into your head not to hurt her. and now sheâs lying in bed, has been for the past three house with bruises everywhere. and for that?â
shouts and screams of pain echoed through the abandoned building as coriolanus struck the man with a hammer, over and over and over. the job had one guideline. and this idiot couldnât get it right.
donât hurt his delicate girl.
PRESENT
youâd been so absorbed with worrying over the purse and apologising for your tears you hadnât noticed corios hungry eyes. âi really did like that purse.â he murmured, âoh corio, i shouldâve tried harder to keep it. what can i do?â hook, line and sinker. he had you where he wanted and heâd finally get what he deserved.
âlet me fuck you. please.â and who were you to say no? your naivety led to him laying you down on the bed, head between your thighs. youâd heard about it from elena, a man pleasuring a woman, but it was a million times better than you couldâve imagined. coriolanus was messy, and desperate. heâd been waiting for so long and god was it worth it.
his heart raced with both excitement and nervousness as he held your thighs in his own hands, tracing up and downwards, feeling the warmth against his own skin. coriolanus couldn't resist the opportunity to tease you. âyou wanna cum?â corio mumbled as he continued sucking on your swollen clit, âmhm.â you could hear him laughing at your pathetic excuse of agreeing.
coriolanus wholeheartedly believes you belong to him. the second you were married, and even before, you were his. your submission would prove it, and he would do anything for it. you were his and he was yours. his bold blue eyes ravished you, all of you, âwhoâs making you feel this good?â your hips squirmed away from him but he just pulled you back, pushing two fingers into you.
corio reveled in your naivety, the way you responded to his touch, the way you whispered dirty words as if it were a sin. and right now, you still couldnât bring yourself to name what you needed. his pace was brutal as he lapped at your cunt, a third finger curling inside of you as they went in and out. your gasps and cries were music to his ears, heâd been denied this all too long, and he wasnât sure how heâd ever done it. âcmon, say it.â and you did, over and over again. âitâs you! you, coryo.â
âcoryo, ah, your fingers feel so good,â you mewled, tilting your hips more trying to lean into his touch. coryo withdrew his fingers to play with your clit, rubbing circles around your sensitive nub that resulted in you crying out in pleasure.
âsuch a good girl, getting all wet for me,â you nodded along dumbly, âfor you, all you.â you babbled as he kissed you deeply.
coryos hand dragged up and down your folds, âyour pussy is soaked, baby. look at that,â you whined at the feeling of him not touching you, your cheeks flushed at the sight of your arousal. coryo pulled his pants down, throwing them away over his shoulder. you hid your head into the pillow as coryo tutted, âyou have to look pretty girl, look at the mess you made.â coryo taunted as he rubbed your slick juices all over his dick, trying to humiliate you, get a rise out of you. coryos hand holds onto your neck, tightening as you clutched on with both hands, âplease, coryo, iâll be so good.â he rested his forehead on yours, noses touching.
âi love you, i love you, i love you.â he whispered in your ear, âmy beautiful wife, youâd look so good with my baby in you.â the idea of having his baby had you pressing your lips to his as he bit down on your lower lip, making you gasp as your lips part, his tongue pushing inside your mouth, exploring every bit of you heâd ever wished to. his hunger hadnât fallen, only increased.
â i need to fuck you,â he panted, you having stolen his breath. coryo teased your folds with the head of his cock, âneed to fill up this pretty little pussy of yours,â he pushed into you, warm walls coating his cock as he groaned, âyou feel so good.â he moaned into your neck as your hands clutched onto his broad shoulders. he wasnât sure if heâd last long but then again he didnât care, itâs not like you knew it was a short time.
the way you clenched down on him was more than enough proof of your virginity. your cries fueled him on as he pinned your hips down into the mattress, rutting against you wildly. âyou feel that?â he was everywhere, filling you up. his dick making an appearance through the bulge in your tummy. âuh-huh. too much i canât-â he stopped you before you could finish by pressing down on it with his palm, âyes you can baby.â you shook your head, âcoryo i canât, you feel too good.â you begin, crying from how good he was making you feel, from how dumb and desperate he was making you.
âmâ gonna fill you up, gonna give you my baby.â he was driving you crazy, his heavy panting, hands on either side of your head, his voice was deep and filled with fire. âyes, yes please inside me.â coryoâs eyes squeezed shut and his brow furrowed you were too much, fuelled on by the idea of a pregnant wife, pregnant you. swollen belly, heavy breasts, relying on him to help you out of bed. his hips stuttered and faltered as he came inside you with a low groan. he didnât care about pulling out and neither did you as your release came down on you again. âfeels so good coryo, thank you.â
he couldnât help his smile as you continued to thank him for making you feel so good. his ego was sure as hell swelling as he pulled out of you, collapsing on the bed. his hand caressed your face, kissing you all over, praising you.
âyou did so well fâme. proud of you baby.â you grinned up at him as you snuggled into his neck. âonly for you coryo.â all for him. âiâll clean you up okay?â you nodded along as he got out of bed.
coriolanus deemed the night a success, but for some reason he didnât feel complete. he wanted more. but as he looked up at your sleepy eyes and tired out body he wanted to let you rest. but the idea seemed to slip out of his head once he was levelled with your core again, his release spilling out of you and the warm towel forgotten. he didnât stop himself when he began to lick at you, his tongue working his way into your entrance as your head shoved at his face.
âcoryo, iâm sensitive. coryo please stop.â you attempted to crawl away but his hands dragged you to the edge of the bed, legs around his head. your body fell limp against the sheets as pleasure took over. your hands laced with his hair as you cried out.
it was going to be a long night.
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Wrongful Imprisonment
Male Alpha Yandere Prisoner x Omega Male Reader CW: Noncon, imprisonment, prison setting, knotting, mating cycles, a/b/o, rut/heat, knotting, size difference, ass eaten like it's groceries, general yandere behavior Word Count: 2k (Sorry this took so long.)
You never thought you would find yourself in prison. But there you were. Locked away in a minimum security facility.
You were innocent. When your home was raided you had no idea there were drugs there. Your boyfriend at the time had put all the blame on you to escape punishment.
What's worse was that you were an omega sentenced to a mixed facility full of alphas. Since male omegas were so rare no one bothered to make separate facilities for them.
They forcefully drugged away your heats to the best of their ability but the meds had side effects on your mood and gave you dizzy spells. And they weren't perfect. Even without a heat a faint scent of omega peaked through. During heats it was a bit more pronounced.
To some of the alphas who had been there for years it was enough to get their interest. And they were not men whose interest you wanted.
It was terrifying. The cells had no doors so you were in constant fear that you'd wake up with a rapist over you.
The guards were no help. You did your best to avoid all of the alphas of ill intent for as long as you could manage it, but one time you were cornered.
They had followed you in from the yard and crept up behind you. You flailed, scratched, and bit but they didn't take your struggles well and beat you until you stopped fighting.
You could hear them snickering as one slammed his knee into your gut before giving you two brutal punches to the face. You doubled over in pain, your nose bloody and tears cascading down your swollen face.
"Just be a good cock sleeve and stay still"
You felt your pants being yanked down to your knees.
"Look at how tight it's pussy is!"
You prepared for the worst, unable to eek out any pleas over your ragged sobs of hurt and fear.
But the worst never happened. Instead you heard growling followed by hisses and cries of pain.
Your pants were pulled up and you were helped onto your shaky feet.
In front of you stood a sweaty mountain of a man. He was about your age. Tan skin and red hair. All muscle. Probably spent every free moment lifting weights.
Which wasn't really true. Lately he also spent a lot of time watching you from a distance. Trying to get to know the one who's scent called to him so strongly despite the suppressants.
"Th-tha-th-" You tried to mutter a thanks, but your assault and near rate had sent you into a full panic attack.
"Shhh, don't try to talk. It's okay."
His green eyes stared into yours as he inspected your facial injuries. Nothing was broken.
He gently led you back to his doorless cell. The cells had a lot of traffic. You were a bit nervous but you were more scared to be alone and if he had wanted to hurt you he could have.
At least, that's what you had thought. Though you were completely unaware of how badly he wanted to bend you over and fill your body full of his seed. Unlike the brutes from before though he at least wanted you to moan and cling to him while he did it.
He introduced himself and you managed to return the courtesy once your sobs had lessened.
His name was Lance.
And over the months you spent in prison the two of you had become very close.
He kept you within his sight at all times and made sure you were safe. The two of you even managed to have it arranged where you could share the same cell so he could protect you at night and prevent you from getting a bad roommate.
Lance also rubbed all your clothes every morning on him so they had his scent to keep you safe.
The alpha even had the idea to give you a claiming bite just to make sure no one would try anything.
You allowed him to do so, you didn't think it meant anything. In fact, he had reassured you that it hadn't. It was just another measure to protect you.
Of course that wasn't how the alpha saw it at all. Even though he hadn't bed you he considered you his mate. And really, if anything, the fact you were so naĂŻve about it only proved that he was taking the correct course of action.
You were too trusting and soft. That's how you had ended up there in the first place. That's why those vermin tried to get their unworthy hands on you.
You were his mate. Even if you didn't know it yet. You needed him.
And he needed you too. Your scent and personality drove him to keep you safe. So kind. A perfect mate for him. You were the only light in his otherwise miserable existence. To say that you were as essential as oxygen to him would be an understatement.
And after he saved you from those lesser alphas his instincts screamed that he owned you. He had won you in a physical contest.
The alpha just had to calm himself down and be patient. He would get you gradually. He was confident he was almost there.
Until you got the news that you were being released early because new evidence had come to light.
Lance feigned joy at the news.
"I am glad... a place like this really isn't for a person like you..."
"Yeah! And now I won't have to be such a burden to you anymore either! Thanks for helping me so much Lance, you're a great friend. I'll miss you."
Inwardly Lance wanted to go on a rampage. His mate was being taken away from him! He wouldn't be able to protect you. Someone might try to hurt you and touch you with hands unworthy of your skin.
The mere thought filled him with unbridled anger.
Lance knew what he had to do.
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It had been just a couple months since your release and you were adjusting about as well as could be expected for someone in your situation.
You had been money from a settlement for being falsely imprisoned so finances weren't an issue. But you had no friends on the outside anymore. You had nothing to do.
And the ptsd from over a year of living like an animal was immense.
The hardest thing to adjust to, at least physically, was no longer being on industrial strength suppressants. And the very strong heats that accompanied that change.
It was during one such extreme heat that Lance broke out of prison and was making his way up the hill right towards your secluded home. He could smell you from far off.
He was in rut. He had not seen his omega in months. And he could smell your heat.
The alpha was coming for you... and very soon... he would be cumming in you.
When he came upon your home he noticed the window was open. You were so careless! Just letting your damn heat scent drift out and attract any piece of shit alpha right to your open window!! You were really fucking lucky you had such a dedicated mate like him though. So loyal that he broke through prison to take care of you.
He watched you for a minute through your open window. Poor little omega. Writhing in your empty nest. No alpha scent to soothe you. Your nude form hot and sweaty, jerking your cock and bucking your hips fervently, a puddle of slick staining your blankets. And the smell was insane, practically screaming for someone to slide in you.
But fate had provided you with a strong lover that was going to fuck all your frustrations right away.
As he stepped through your window your eyes snapped to him immediately, his musky smell grabbing your attention. âL-lance? B-butâŚâ
âI got out for you. Now I can help you and we can be together.â His voice was low and raspy. Almost animalistic.
You recoiled in fear of him and fell out of your bed.
Lance was hurt that his precious lover was scared of him, but he understood. Past lovrs had hurt you and other alphas had tried to rape you very violently. But thatâs not what he would do. He was going to keep you safe. Take care of your needs.
âYou n-need to leave Lance.â
It was so hard to think clearly. Your body was on fire and his smell was so comforting even though you didnât want his knot in you. He was still an attractive alpha who you had been close to and your body wanted to be closer. And he could smell it.
âNo. I need to breed my husband.â
âLance, y-youâre not my-â
He stood over you and picked you up easily, putting you back into your nest. He knelt beside it so that his head was right by your ass that was hanging off. He positioned your legs on his shoulders and inhaled deeply.
The scent you were giving off was too captivating, especially there, he could no longer even process your words. He tenderly nuzzled his nose beneath your balls, drinking in the scent and kissing each of your nuts gently before focusing his attention on your needy, slick-leaking hole.
He stared at it in awe for a moment, like a dragon appraising his most precious treasure.
Lance slid his tongue right in and began wriggling it to get at every inch he could reach, reveling in the needy sounds you made between your flustered protests. He kissed it and removed his lips, a small string of drool and slick briefly connecting your hole with his lips.
The alpha then flipped you on to your belly and climbed into the nest with you after discarding his pants and underwear, he took off his sweaty shirt and laid it under your head so you could enjoy his scent while he bred you. He put your head down and kept your ass up. You would have protested, but you couldnât stay in your right mind any longer.
Not after the tongue fucking he had given you, not with his scent so concentrated with your face pressed into it.
You gripped his shirt and pressed it closer to you, trying to inhale the musk as much as you possibly could. His heart leapt at the sight of it all. His little omega was presenting so nicely for him all while drowning so willingly in his smell.
He gripped your hips firmly, but still careful not to hurt you as he sank his cock into you deeply.
Lance gasped as the wet heat engulfed his entire length. You fit over him so well. There was not a fraction of a doubt in his mind, you were made just for him.
You moaned and drooled into the shirt your loving mate had provided as his flesh smacked against yours. Faster and faster he slammed into you with your slutty noises driving him on until his knot swelled and his cum was pumped into you.
The alpha renewed that claiming bite he had given you as the two of you became tied together and while licking your fresh wound he lightly humped into you until you came hard as well. He caged your body with his and held you tightly to him as you both panted and waited for the knot to go down.
As your mind temporarily cleared you were aware that this was not something you wanted.
But it wasnât something that you could fight either.
After everything you had been through you were still just a prisoner.
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Simeon's Devotion
Sub!Bottom!FTM!Priest Simeon x Dom!Top!AMAB!Holy Knight Reader
Word Count: 2,410
Reverend Simeon, plagued by sinful thoughts of a certain holy knight, is suddenly struck with a high fever and abandons his God
AFAB Language Used | 2K Anniversary Request: For a Simeon Fic | [Breaking the Thermostat]
CW: Non-Con, Heavy Religious Themes, Dom/Sub, Virginity Loss, Bleeding, Size Difference, Oral Sex, Cum Swallowing, Cunnilingus, Belly Bulge, Womb Fucking, Squirting, Creampie, Kidnapping
You knock loudly against Simeonâs doors, heavily injured. You hear the sound of shuffling and see the lights turn on inside. Moments later, he opens the door for you.
Simeon calls out your name in shock. âWhat happened to you?!â He helps you inside.
âRan into some demons..â You murmur, sitting down on his couch. âCan you heal me?â
âOf course!â Simeon hastily removes your clothes, leaving you in just an undershirt and boxers. You're both already used to this. âHow many this time?â
âI wanna sayâŚ30?â You watch him kneel down and use his divine powers on your wounds.
â30?! Did something attract them?â
âIâm not sure. I was on patrol and everything seemed normal. The monsters looked strange too. They all looked like distorted versions of God and they were muttering things like âsinnerâ and âdirtyâ.âÂ
âThat's strange..â
âYeah, Iâve never seen anything like it before.â You reach to rub your temple but Simeon quickly heals your headache. âCould I have something to eat? I know you're probably tired so something like crackers would be fine.â
âYou need to eat a real meal. I don't mind cooking for you. You can sleep over too, all your clothes are washed.â Simeon finishes your last wound and stands up. It's very common for you to sleep over at Simeonâs due to exhaustion since demons usually show up on the outskirts of town and you live a bit further away. âThink you can take a shower?â
You stand up and groan, the sound making Simeon twitch. âI think so. Thanks, Simeon.â
âGod must be disappointed in you. So much for being a priest.â You say, staring at Simeon. Heâs wearing sexy see through lingerie and an extravagant matching sheer silk robe. His legs are spread and heâs leaning against his bed frame. His tears are glistening against his cheeks, theyâre shining like glitter. âYou're nothing but a dirty sinner.â You move his panties aside.
Simeon looks at you, batting his eyelashes. Another tear falls down his cheek. âYouâre my god now.â
âThatâs right, baby. Youâre mine.â You slowly begin to ease your cock inside him. âAnd Iâm yours.â You press your hand against his pelvis, a pretty marking appearing on it.
Simeon suddenly wakes up moaning your name with his hand stuffed in his underwear. He gasps and yanks it out. He quickly wipes his hand on his clothes and begins to pray. âPlease deliver me from temptation.â He repeats the same phrase over and over but as his body begins to grow hot, his prayer becomes strange.
âPlease give me [Name]âs cockââ Simeon gasps and covers his mouth. âNoâŚForgive meâ I need his coââ He covers his mouth again. He can't talk. He attempts to pray silently but that doesn't work either. It just makes him feel even more horny.
He begins to absentmindedly remove all of his clothes, his hands moving on their own to touch his wet pussy. He leans back, eyes out of focus, and begins to touch himself but he doesn't really know how. He just rubs his folds, which feel extremely sensitive. âIâmâŚIâm a sinner..â He mumbles, still out of it. âAnd a slut.â
âOnly [Name] will accept me now.â Simeon brings his hand up to his tattoo and presses on it, a wave of pleasure flowing through him.Â
He stumbles out of the bed and drunkenly walks to his guest room, where youâre sleeping. Knocking didn't cross his mind as he opened the door.Â
âSi- Simeon?â You ask sleepily, sitting up. âIs something wrong?â You can't tell that he's naked. You move to sit on the side of the bed and squint at him.
âYes..â He says quietly, stepping towards you. He kneels in between your legs. âI need you.â
âWhat?!â You recoil. âAre you okay? Are you drunk?â
âIâm not drunk.â Simeon presses kisses along your legs down to your feet. âIâll do anything you want, [Name]. Anything.â
âI think you need to drink some waterâŚyou're not thinking straight.â You get off of the bed. As you try to head towards the door, Simeon stops you.
âI donât need water, I need you.â He pulls you closer, heâs somehow stronger than before, and forces you into a kiss. It doesn't take long for him to pass on his âfeverâ to you. Heat rushes through your body as your rational thoughts dispel like bubbles. He pulls away and looks at you lovingly.Â
âSimeon...â You hold his chin, speaking with a loving tone. âHow beautiful.â You mumble. He moans your name breathily.
âKneel for me.â You order. Simeon kneels once again. You pull down your shorts and boxers at the same time. His eyes widen, hearts forming in them, when he sees your thick length. The process of becoming a Holy Knight can alter someone's body in major ways but he never knew it could change by this much. âOpen your mouth.â You run your fingers through his hair.
Simeon opens his mouth and lets you slide your cock inside it. His mouth is unbelievably hot. He can feel the corners of his lips stretching to fit you. The thought of you stretching his pussy open next makes him moan. He stares into your eyes as you begin to thrust. You're sure they're glowing.Â
âYour mouth feels amazing.â You moan. Simeon moans as well. ââS perfect for me..â You speed up your thrusts. He happily allows you to fuck his mouth. He closes his eyes and focuses on your voice. Heâs so aroused it's becoming painful.
You tighten your grip on his hair as your thrusts become unruly and desperate. He looks at you again, this time with tears in his eyes. But the tears aren't because heâs upset. âYou look so pretty when you cry.â You groan as you come inside his mouth. You slowly pull away as Simeon swallows your seed without hesitation. You're still hard and you both want more. You pick him up and slam him onto the bed. Somehow, the both of you are able to see perfectly in the dark. Maybe it has something to do with the glow in your eyes.
You spread his legs and smile at how wet he is. The marking on his lower stomach glows faintly as you physically observe his pussy with your fingers. He squirms around cutely. You kneel in between his legs, mirroring what he did earlier, and bury your face into his pussy. Simeon moans. âYesâ oh- yes~!â He sucks in a breath. â[Name]~!â It's like he's ascended to heaven.Â
You drag your tongue up to his clit and gently suck on it. It quickly and unnaturally swells in your mouth. It feels like heâs stuck on the edge of an orgasm, although it feels good nonetheless. You slip a finger into his hole and then another when you realize how easily it entered him, despite his tightness. âOoh- oh, [Name]~â Simeon squeezes your fingers tightly as you attempt to finger him. The constant flexing of his walls make it difficult to move them but you don't mind. Youâre more interested in how thatâll feel when you fuck him.
He can tell he's not going to come from this. He's not sure why, it feels like there's something blocking him from doing so. âPutâŚput your cock inside me, please~â
You smile and move away, standing back up. âOf course, my love.â You lick your lips and line up your cock with his pussy, slowly coating your tip with his slick. He bites down on his lip and uncontrollably twitches as you begin to sink into his sopping warmth. He throws his head back and grips the bed sheets while moaning shamelessly. You're barely inside him. His entire pussy is throbbing so heavily, it's almost like a second heartbeat. Blood soon spills from your penetration.Â
The true representation of his sin.
He moans your name with his enchanting voice. Your cock âknocksâ on his cervix and strangely enough, it seems to be allowing your entrance. Like it wants you to enter his womb. You don't think about how that should be impossible and slide further inside him. âIt feelsâ feels soââ He gasps, squirting. His eyelashes are fluttering rapidly.
âThere you go, baby. Come for me.â You rub his clit with your thumb. He writhes around, no longer squirting but his cuntâs still squeezing you like crazy. He isn't able to think about anything at all, his brain is overloaded. The outline of his tattoo is becoming a bright blue. âGood boyâŚkeep going.â You praise him.
Simeon wants to say your name again but he is completely unable to speak.
âLetâs make up for all your years of abstaining.â You start to thrust. He slowly comes back down to earth with each thrust you make.Â
âAhââ His eyes are sparkling with tears. âYouâre so bigâŚstretching me out~âÂ
âThatâs right, Iâm making your pussy fit the shape of my cock.â You slowly rub the bulge on his stomach, fucking him at a slow pace. âYour bodyâs gonna remember me and only me.â
âThat'sâ thatâs all I want~â Simeon moans. âOnly you~â
âSo prettyâŚâ You brush his hair out of his face. He looks like a painting. You bring your hands to his waist and slowly build up to a faster pace. He reaches for you so you lean in. He wraps his arms around you.
âI love you.â He says in a shaky tone.
âI love you too.â You look into his eyes. For a brief moment, he realizes this isn't the real you, then he brushes it off. He feels strange. âMy sweet Simeon.â You kiss him. The bed starts rocking due to your quickened thrusts. You separate from the kiss, some saliva dripping down his lip.
He looks down and notices the marking on his womb is glowing and the same color as his eyes. His desire has been satisfied. Itâs all over. He looks up at you, suddenly shaking like a scared rabbit. The artificial light flickers out like a used lightbulb. He can't see you clearly anymore. The only lights are the glow in your eyes and the faint moonlight. â[Name]?â He asks.
âHm?â
You're stillâŚyouâre not aware like he is. He suddenly feels disgusting. He forced you into this. Even if he wasn't completely conscious. He should tell you to stop, but he doesn't want to. Is it so wrong to want a little more? âIâŚI-â He stutters. âCome- come inside~â If he can't have you, maybe he can have a part of you.
You kiss his cheek. âOf course.â You come inside of him only moments later. It feels like he forced it out of you. You look at him with an exhausted but happy expression before passing out on top of him. He doesn't try to move you.
You slowly wake up. You look around the room and notice a stain on the floor that you didn't notice before. And your bedsheets seem to be different too. You also feel a little strange. Refreshed, but strange. You get up and leave the guest room. You can smell coffee so you go down to the kitchen. âYou're up pretty early. Don't you usually sleep in on Tuesdays?â
Simeon shrugs, not looking at you. âI felt like getting up early today.â
âWell, Iâm not doing anything today. Maybe Iâll make breakfast this time?â
âIt's okay. Iâll make it.â
âIf you insist.â You know you can't convince him otherwise. âI wanna do something for you though. You deserve a gift.â
âProtecting my town is more than enough.â
âYouâll never change, huh?â You chuckle. âYou know, the bed sheets look different from last night. Am I crazy?â
Simeon breaks the mug in his hand. You shoot up from your chair and rush over to him.
âI- Iâm okay.â Simeon heals himself. âThere wasn't anything in it yet.âÂ
âGood. YouâŚseem weird today.â You notice he's not making eye contact with you.
âI..â He presses his forehead onto your chest and frowns, tears forming in his eyes. âI did something horrible last night.â
âWhat do you mean?â You bring him into a hug and gently rub his back to comfort him.
âPleaseâŚplease don't hate me.â
âHow could I hate you?â
âLast nightâŚsomething strange came over me. I wasn't fully in control of myself and I forced you toâŚto..â He begins to sob.
âSimeon?â You ask, concerned.
âI forced you to have intercourse with me!â He blurts out, pulling away from you. He turns around and doesn't look at you.
You pause. âIt mustâve been the work of a demon. It's okay, it's not your fault. It wasn't my âfirst timeâ butâŚwas it yours?â
Simeonâs eyes widen. âThat wasn't your first?â
âNo.â
He bites down on his nail. âWhen?â
âUmâŚmaybe a decade ago?â
âBefore you became a knight? And you haven't since then?â
â...Yes.â You assume he's uncomfortable due to his beliefs.
Simeon sighs. You were ârebornâ during your ceremony so youâre technically a virgin but you still have the experience. âAre you going to remain celibate?â
âIâŚwell, I hope to find someone in the future. To marry, of course.â
âOh.â He clenches his fist. âDo you have anyone youâre interested in?â
âI suppose Iâve caught a liking to Solomon, heââ
Simeon whips his head around. The look in his eyes is scary. âNo.â He grabs your shirt. âNo. You can't. You can't leave me.â
âSimeon?â You look at him in disbelief.
âIâŚIâm not letting you leave.â
Simeon looks at you sleeping peacefully on his bed. He isn't sure how, but he caused you to pass out and he was able to carry you here. He didn't even break a sweat. Due to a holy knightâs ability to neutralize certain forms of demon magic, Simeon is sure he isn't using that as you would've been fine if he was. But that leaves more questions to be answered.
He slides his hand down to his lower stomach and touches the glowing blue mark on his womb. It hasn't gone away. What is it? If it's not demonic then is it holy? How could this be holy?
He gently caresses your face. âIâm sorry, but I can't allow you to leave.â
Youâll be missed in the order of the holy knights but no one will worry when Simeon tells everyone he has bigger plans for you.
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GIANNA'S KINKTOBER '24 SEASON
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¤â˘ ËËË Kinktober day fifteen.
Good Girl + Wearing His Clothes During Sex (2k words)
summary: The last thing you needed was your boyfriend distracting you from all the work you needed to get done, but he knew just the way to get your attention.
warnings: NSFW, +18, smut, MDNI, established relationship, oral (f receiving), praise, dom!lando, unprotected sex.
The big hotel room felt overwhelming as you sat on the desk with your laptop in front of you. This is what you had to put up with for travelling around the world to support your boyfriend. You wouldnât say it wasnât worth it, but it was the time difference that was really killing you.Â
You hoped to have enough time to enjoy Brazil and its beautiful activities, but sadly, this wasnât the case, since you now found yourself feeling stressed, with a million things to do, and wearing one of Landoâs shirts that rested just above your thigh to put up with the hot weather.
Lando was laying on the bed, staring at you as you typed away; he was growing a little desperate. You promised you would be done in time for lunch, or at least to spend some time together, but it wasnât looking like that would happen for who knows how long.
âHow is it going?â
âUh- not great,â he sighed as you said this. There were many reasons he brought you with him, and watching you work was not one of them. âIâll be over soon, I promise.â
âHow long?â
âBaby, Iâll be done in time for lunch, okay?â You said again, looking at him momentarily.
He looked at the time, assuming he wouldnât have to wait too much since it was almost lunchtime. He decided to stop bothering you and just let you do your thing, knowing that if he distracted you, youâd take longer, and he just needed you to himself as soon as possible.Â
An hour went by, and it didnât look like you would be done any time soon; he hated to admit it, but he was almost at his limit. He realised it wasnât fair to feel that way, but he honestly couldnât help it. He decided to give you 15 more minutes, mentally setting a timer to drag you away from your computer, and when the time was done, thatâs exactly what he did, or at least that was his intention.Â
âOkay, time for lunch. What do you feel like eating?â He said it in a tone that felt like he wasnât giving you an option to reject him.Â
âJust 30 more minutes, baby, I promise.â
âWhat? Thatâs what you said almost two hours ago.â
âI know, and Iâm sorry, but I just need to send this one thing and Iâm all yours.â You looked at him with a soft smile, hoping he would understand.
Instead, he grunted in annoyance. âBaby, please. Is that office falling apart without you?â
âIt is, by the looks of it.â
âCome on. Letâs have lunch and then you can come back to work. Iâm starving.â
âLando,â you stared at him more seriously now, feeling like a mother telling their kid away, going back to your laptop after a few seconds.
Were you being serious? He thought as he stood there, still looking at you and waiting for you to give him some attention. But you didnât, so he would have to come up with a better plan.Â
He stood behind the desk chair, wrapping his arms around you as he planted soft kisses on your jaw. This made you melt instantly, but that feeling quickly went away when a notification popped on your screen. With that, your attention went back to the screen.
But he wouldnât give up so easily. His mouth travelled further down, paying special attention to your neck.
âNot now, Lando. Iâm quite busy.â
He turned the chair around, so now you were facing him. âYou need to take a break, my love, you canât keep going like this.â
âIâm almost done-â
âThatâs what you have been saying, not only today but literally every day.â He was giving you his best puppy eyes, hoping that would make you break.Â
âI know⌠no, donât give me that look.â
âPlease, one hour is all Iâm asking for. Weâll order room service so we donât even have to leave the room. Is a win-win.â
He kneeled in front of you, his hands landing on your thighs as he started kissing your exposed skin. You were considering it; in one hand, stopping for an hour wouldnât hurt anybody, but then again, if you stopped, that means you would eventually have to come back and finish later.
That internal battle was soon forgotten when you felt one of his hands creeping up between your legs, quickly finding your clothed core. You let out an involuntary moan, closing your eyes as you enjoyed his touch.
âSee? You need to relax,â he whispered, his kisses becoming wetter the closer he got to the inside of your thighs. âLift your hips for me.â Lando hooked his fingers in the hem of your panties, sliding them down your body and throwing them somewhere behind him. With all the patience in the world, he used one of his fingers to play with your clit, circling it softly as he looked up at you, a smirk forming on his face when he saw how much you were enjoying it.
âWant me to keep going?â
âY-yes,â you breathed out, swallowing hard as your small hand fell on his hair.
He decided to cut out the teasing now that he could see how desperate you were getting, burying himself completely between your legs and planting a kiss directly on your clit. The moan you let out was glorious, and it only encouraged him to keep going. He then started to properly eat you out, licking and sucking just the way you liked it. He directed his tongue to your dripping hole, collecting all your arousal and then licking up your slit, bringing it to your sensitive clit.
âShit, so good,â you moaned, and you could feel him smiling at the effect he had on you.
God, his tongue was really doing wonders. Repeatedly, he was lapping at your clit and then gently sucking on it for a longer period of time, which he knew was what you enjoyed the most, teasing it with the tip of his tongue from time to time. A few minutes went by as he repeated this process, adding a finger inside you when he felt you clench around nothing.
The added pleasure made you arch your back and push his head closer to you, although that was impossible. You couldnât help it; you could feel your orgasm so close yet so far. It was probably the stress; Lando was right, you were overworking yourself day after day, and this was probably just what you needed.
Another thick finger was added as he picked up the pace, and you began to feel the familiar tightening of your orgasm approach.
âLando- fuck.â Your eyes were squeezed shut as your legs that rested on his shoulder began to shake, gasps and pants escaping your lips as you started to see stars, your orgasm hitting you shortly after.Â
You could hear him moan faintly, the vibrations prolonging your climax as your tiny clit pulsed against his tongue. Your entire body was combulsing so much that you were sure that if Lando wasnât holding you with one of his strong arms, the chair wouldnât be standing anymore.
When it became too much, you pushed his head away, breathing heavily as you came down from your high. But he was starting to get needy himself. He shifted on his feet and carried you in his arms, immediately kissing you, and you could taste yourself in his mouth.Â
He walked towards the bed and softly placed you down, stepping away for a moment to undress himself. You admired his muscles flexing as he pulled his shirt over his head, his eyes never leaving your body. His intense gaze made you feel exposed, reaching down and trying to shove the shirt over your bare bottom half while he stood over you.Â
God, he really had you in the palm of his hand, because the way he chucked had you pathetically leaking down your thighs and onto the bed.Â
âCanât get shy now, sweetheart, Iâve seen all of it,â he reminded you, making your cheeks go red as you recalled the events that took place in the chair across the room just minutes ago.Â
You timidly nodded, paying attention to how his hands moved to undo his belt and pull his pants down, along with his underwear. His smirk grew darker as you pressed your thighs together; the way he affected you never went unnoticed, and he always yearned to give you more.
Once he was finally done, he hovered over you, his lips immediately finding yours. You involuntarily moaned against him, wrapping your legs around him to bring him closer. In a swift movement, he rolled you over so you would be on top, dragging your hips lower to get you to sit on his desperate cock.Â
Your hips started slowly moving, relieving some of the neediness he was feeling; his moans joined yours, and as you got more into it, your hands reached for the hem of the shirt you were still wearing.
âNo, keep that on for me, yeah?â He stopped you, pulling it back down. You nodded and placed your hands on his chest instead, nails digging at his skin.
âMhm, need you,â you moaned, lifting your hips and guiding his cock to your entrance. That action sent a throb through his already aching abdomen, an incredibly deep moan coming from him as you sat back down.Â
âFuck, so perfect for me.â He whimpered, his hands finding your waist to guide your movements. This made his shirt roll up, uncovering your pussy and part of your tummy; he could practically see himself inside you as you bounced on his cock.
You had your lip trapped between your teeth as your hands were now placed on top of his, your eyes shut as you arched your back, allowing him to have a better view of how his huge cock disappeared inside you. He could watch you ride him forever; you were always so good for him.
âGood girl.â You let out a loud moan at his words and clenched his pulsing dick inside you, making you open your eyes and look down at him â a look somewhere between surprised and embarrassed meeting his eyes.
Lando didnât share your feelings of embarrassment at all; in fact, he was going insane at the reaction two simple words got out of you. Oh, he was going to use that to his advantage.
âLike it when I call you a good girl?â Fuck, another loud moan. âYeah, are you being a good girl for me?â
âAh, yes,â you breathed out, your pace picking up at every word he uttered.Â
âKeep going, baby, you are doing so good.â A broken moan vibrated from your chest, only making him more amused.
You did as he said, maintaining a rhythm that felt so good for both of you. However, after a few seconds, he felt like it wasn't fast enough, because the next thing you knew, he had planted his feet on the bed and thursted up into you, his grip on your waist tightening and breaking your rhythm, smirking at the broken moan you let out.Â
âI need- please,â you moaned desperately as you felt him hit your g-spot over and over again. He watched with darkened eyes as you threw your head back and screamed his name.Â
âCome on, wanna keep my cum inside your tummy?â As if he could drive you even crazier, one of his thumbs landed on your clit. His teeth flashed in a grin when you nodded, pressing harder. âCum with me, baby.â
As soon as he said those words, the coil in your stomach tightened before breaking completely, more broken moans and a few curses slipping past your lips. He cried out when his orgasm followed soon after, filling your pussy with his hot cum.Â
You fell forward onto his chest, his hands caressing your back under the sweaty shirt. âGood girl,â he muttered one more time as he pressed a sweet kiss to your head.
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never just a best friend
azriel x reader
summary: your best friends offers a massage after a stressing day, only that his hands end up slipping to dangerous places.
warnings: smut
word count: 2k
Your feet ached, your head throbbed, and your skin itched in places you couldnât reach to scratch. And your backâGod, your back hurt.
You just needed a break. A break longer than the eight hours of sleep you rarely had time to get.
Azrielâs gaze from where he sat at the edge of your bed made the back of your neck burn. So you hurried to pull your shirt over your head, and the feeling disappeared, knowing heâd look anywhere but at you while you changed. You almost sighed in relief, almost rubbed the space between your brows. But instead, you unclasped your bra and slipped into a shirt several sizes larger than what you usually wore.
You hadnât deliberately chosen Azrielâs shirt to breathe in the comforting scent of cedar and mist instead of the tobacco and beer your idiot ex had left lingering everywhere. You really hadnât. But it was a relief you hadnât known you needed.
âWhat happened?â
A simple question, but spoken in that voice, deep yet so soft, like silk brushing against clean skin, it almost made you sob.
What happened wasnât the question; the question was why you felt so easily overwhelmed. You turned to look at him, and the caramel color of his eyes softened as he read how overstimulated you felt. He stood up, and even from the distance between you, you could clearly see how tall he was.
He crossed the space in mere seconds, and his scarred palm found your cheek, cradling it tenderly. Your eyes closed involuntarily. The warmth of his hand melted your mind, sending the hot liquid of it out of your body in the form of a sigh.
âWhat happened?â he repeated again.
You sighed.
âAdrik.â You said the name of your ex, not needing to open your eyes to know that Azrielâs features had hardened.
You spent so much time watching him that youâd almost memorized his micro-expressions.
âI ran into him at the cafĂŠ next door, andâŚâ your best friendâs thumb stroked your cheek, encouraging you to continue. âWell, obviously, it didnât end well.â
âWhat did he do?â Azriel asked, his voice rough. So different from how heâd asked what happened earlier. You could hear the sharp undertone clearly.
Youâd been through this before.
You shook your head and moved his hand away from your cheek, your thumb tracing a small caress on his skin before letting go. You took off your pants, because you slept with little clothes, and you sighed heavily, walking toward your side of the bed.
âHe just stuck to me like the worm he is.â You didnât even want to imagine what would happen to the poor drunk Adrik if you let go of the weakening reins on Azriel. The muscles under your skin tingled pleasantly just thinking about it. Adrik had treated you so poorly, and it would be so easy to let Azriel handle himâŚ
But, no. No. You werenât doing this.
You sat on the bed, feeling your body tense slightly under his gaze. He studied you as if he wanted to squeeze out that feeling he knew existed in you, the one you worked so hard to push down, to extract and stretch it so he could examine it.
âWhat do you mean byâŚâ his brows furrowed, finally processing your words.
You didnât let him finish.
âDamn it, Azriel, he left after two minutes. Please, just lie down, Iâve had the worst day ever,â you pleaded, feeling a cramp run down your back. âAnd to top it all off, my back hurts,â you complained.
You heard Azriel exhale. It took him a fraction of a second to speak.
âI can see the tension in your muscles from here,â he said.
You rolled your shoulders, as if that would bring relief.
âItâs not that bad.â
He didnât pay you the slightest attention.
âWhere did you leave the oil from last time?â The last time heâd worked a wonderful massage on your back, you could swear it could have made you finish faster than Adrik ever had.
The silence in the room grew thicker as Azriel waited for your response. You knew he wouldnât move until you told him. Not because he was pressuring you, but because he wanted to take care of you. As he always did.
âItâs in the nightstand, top drawer,â you replied, trying to sound casual, even though you knew exactly what it meant once he put his hands on you.
Azriel walked over to the nightstand, pulled out the small bottle of oil, and held it in his hand for a moment, assessing your state. His eyes met yours, and something in his gaze made your breath quicken slightly. It wasnât the first time heâd offered you a massage, but this time, there was a tension between you that you couldnât ignore, not when it made anticipation itch in your skin.
âTake off your shirt,â he instructed, his voice soft but firm. Your heart skipped a beat, and you hesitated for a moment, but seeing the calm in his eyes, you made up your mind. Slowly, you removed your shirt, revealing your body covered only by a tiny black thong.
Azriel swallowed, his eyes darkening slightly as they roamed over your figure. You felt a warmth spread across your skin under his intense gaze, but you remained still, waiting for his next move.
He approached, leaned in, and his large, warm hands grabbed your hips, quickly dragging you until you were sitting where he could rest his hands on your shoulders first, beginning with a light pressure. His touch was firm but gentle, and he began working on your tense muscles, gliding down your back with expertise. The oil, warm against your skin, made it easier for his hands to move as he focused on relaxing you.
A sigh escaped your lips as you felt a knot dissolve under his fingers. He leaned in closer, his breath brushing against your ear.
âLet go of all that tension,â he murmured, his voice rough with concentration as his hands traveled down your back to the curve of your waist, his thumbs pressing gently at the base of your spine.
A low moan escaped you, and you closed your eyes, allowing the pleasure of the massage to envelop you completely. Azriel continued, his hands moving confidently, exploring every inch of your lower back, dangerously close to the edge of your thong. His touch was addictive, and though you tried to stay calm, you felt your body reacting to every caress, every calculated pressure.
âYou have no idea how beautiful you look,â Azriel whispered, his voice vibrating against your skin as his hands paused for a moment, just above the line of your thong. The heat in his voice made you shiver.
Opening your eyes, you turned your head slightly to look at him, finding his face close to yours, his eyes locked on yours. The tension in the room became almost palpable, and in that instant, you knew you had crossed a line.
Azriel lowered his hands, sliding them down your hips to the edge of your thong, slowlyâtoo slowly.
He stopped in the curve of your hips, squeezed the flesh, in his hands, feeling and appreciating them. And slowly, he guided one hand toward your abdomen, the other toward your ribs.
You whimpered slightly, needily, your breath heavy.
âBe patient,â he murmured against your ear, your eyes fluttering closed. You felt the warmth of his hand move up to cup one of your breasts, relishing its size. Your brows arched. âAzâŚâ you sighed.
His other hand slid down to slip under the fabric of your black thong, finding there a wetness that made him hum in satisfaction.
âSo wet, all this for me?â You moaned again, struggling to keep your eyes open.
His scarred fingers explored your wetness, tracing a line from your entrance to your clitoris, spreading all your arousal. He drew a circle on your clit, torturously slow, tentative, you might have said if your brain werenât mush.
Your back arched again. âAzriel,â you moaned his name, and he, in turn, growled in your ear.
âDo you like that?â he asked, and you realized he wanted an answer when he stopped his fingers.
âYes, yes!â you pleaded, almost desperately.
Azriel let out a low sound, almost a growl, upon hearing your response, satisfied with the power he had over you in that moment. His hand remained still, his fingers barely brushing your clit, enough to keep you on edge, but not enough to give you the relief you so desperately craved. The tension in the room was palpable, each passing second seemed to stretch time, amplifying the desire that wrapped around you.
âIf you enjoy it so much,â he murmured against your neck, his hot breath sending a shiver down your spine, âthen youâre going to wait a little longer.â
The sweet agony of anticipation spread through your body as Azriel maintained that light, frustrating touch that made every fiber of your being burn with desire. You tried to move, seeking more of him, more of that contact that promised so much, but his hands became firm, holding you in place.
âDonât move,â he ordered gently, and there was an authority in his voice that made you obey without hesitation. There was something about the way Azriel controlled you, how he handled your body with such precision, that made you feel vulnerable and at the same time completely safe. You felt the heat of his body against your back, his hardness pressed against you as his scarred fingers moved again, this time applying more pressure on your clit. The pleasure that blossomed from that simple touch was overwhelming, and you couldn't help but moan, arching your back to get closer to him.
"Good girl," Azriel whispered, his tone laden with satisfaction as he increased the rhythm of his caresses. You felt his other hand slide up your abdomen, moving up to caress your breasts, squeezing them with a possessiveness that made your breath catch in your throat. His lips pressed against your neck, sending waves of pleasure through your body as his fingers continued to play with your wetness.
âI want you to come for me,â he growled against your ear, his voice a comman. And with that, his movements became more intense, more urgent. The sweet torture heâd imposed on you faded into a wave of pleasure so overwhelming that it left you trembling, your moans turning into cries of pleasure as you approached the edge. His fingertips skilfully working on your clit.
Azrielâs fingers worked with expert precision, pushing you closer and closer to the precipice of an orgasm, until you finally exploded in a wave of pure pleasure, your body trembling as you were suddenly blind and deaf from pleasure. You let out a long, satisfied moan as Azrielâs name escaped your lips in a sigh, your whole being consumed by the heat of that moment.
And even as the pleasure began to fade, Azriel didnât stop. His hands continued to explore your body, his lips still pressed against your neck, leaving wet kisses that sent delicious shivers through your spine. The sensation of his touch, so skilled and confident, combined with the residual pleasure of your orgasm, left you breathless, utterly spent in his arms.
When you finally came down from that blissful high, you turned to look at him, finding a possessive gleam in his eyes, as if he couldn't get enough of you.
Well, you had never considered him just your best friend.
"I hope your back doesnât hurt anymore.â
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something in the orange
summary - you are harryâs ex and you happen to rekindle at his sisters wedding
word count - ~2k
pairing - ex-boyfriend!harry x reader
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It wasnât a complete surprise that your ex-boyfriend was at his sisters wedding, but nonetheless you were still shocked to see him.
You had been friends with Gemma, your exes sister, way before you were dating her brother, Harry, which is probably the main and only reason you had been invited to her wedding.
Gemma and her family were still very nice towards you, even though you broke their Harryâs heart.
Well for the most part.
You had been sat on a table at the back of the reception room for the evening meal, with a couple of distant friends of the groom. You had been trying to make small talk as best you could, but your little introverted heart could only try so hard.
âAre you staying in Italy after the wedding?â You asked a man called Gordon who was sat next to you, with his girlfriend.
âNo.â
He then went back to talking to his girlfriend.
You took a sip of your mocktail, glancing around the room to enjoy the happiness of others.
Gemma was happily chatting with Michal, her now husband, whilst Anne, Gemmaâs mum, was arguing with one of the chefs that the cake had to be ready in ten minutes. It was quite funny to watch Anne get angry, considering sheâs the loveliest person on the planet.
You noticed Harry, of course you did.
He hadnât looked your way once, or if he had heâd been so discreet about it that he was making you feel invisible.
You didnât blame him for keeping his distance, after all you had broken his heart. It was a surprise you had even been invited, but friends first and all that.
He looked good.
He looked better than good, he looked ridiculously pretty.
Harry was dressed in a black tuxedo with a bow tie that had now been untucked and was loosely hanging around his neck. He looked tanned and well. He looked happy, you thought.
You turned to a girl next to you and tried to start conversation with her.
âHow are you enjoying the Amalfi Coast?â You smiled.
âItâs nice.â She smiled back before turning to speak to whoever was next you.
It wasnât particularly nice having the people on your table kind of ignore you, but then again they didnât know you and had no reason to get to know you.
You ate your meal in silence as you simple people watched.
It was nice seeing familiar faces, even if yours was one theyâd rather not see.
Once you had finished, people had started to get up to go and dance on the little dance floor on the terrace. It was laden with fairy lights strung high above, along with an abundance of citronella candles that casted a warm orange glow over the area.
You watched as some couples slow danced. A little girl had a dance competition with her dad. Gemma and Michal busted whatever shapes they were doing.
âHave you finished, maâam?â A waiter asked you, breaking you away from watching the evening continue without you.
âOh yes. Thank you, it was really lovely.â
âOur pleasure.â They smiled at you, before cleaning up.
You fiddled with your fingers as you watched more and more people get up on the dance floor to enjoy their evening.
You pushed your chair back then, deciding to go to the toilet before you made the decision whether or not to join people out on the terrace.
The wedding location was gorgeous.
A beautiful historical hotel, overrun with flowers cascading down the stone walls, that was built into the cliffside along the Amalfi Coast.
It was no surprise that the wedding was here, considering Gemma and Harry called Southern Italy their second home. Harry had taken you to his house in Maiori multiple times when you had been together and you completely understood why he loved this area.
You missed going to that house. The crazy adventures youâd get up to.
You missed Harry.
You locked yourself in a cubicle before you could make yourself upset over it.
Youâd just finished up when you heard some people walk in.
âDid you see Y/Ns here?â They said, but you couldnât work out who they were - at least it wasnât someone you recognised.
âYeah. Wonder why.â You didnât recognise the second persons voice either.
âFucking ballsy if you ask me.â They both laughed. âIf Iâd cheated on my best-friends brother and still been invited to her wedding, I wouldnât go.â
âDid Y/N cheat on Harry? I heard that she had a mental breakdown when he stopped buying stuff for her and stopped taking her on expensive holidays.â
You sat down on the toilet lid, not finding the courage to go out there and speak up for yourself.
âNo. Pretty sure she cheated. Doesnât surprise me though, she always was a little bit⌠different.â
âYou mean, not model worthy?!â They both laughed again.
You carefully and silently ripped off some toilet paper before using it to dab the tears that were falling from your eyes and down your cheeks.
It was tough, trying to not take things to heart but you were a sensitive person. This didnât make you a bad person, in fact it just meant that you carried extra love around with you.
It hurt when other people couldnât see that when you tried to live with your heart on your sleeve as much as you could.
âGod⌠Wonder why she came?â
âProbably to prove that sheâs not the bitch everyone thinks she is.â
âYeah.â
âHarry hasnât even spoken to her.â
âWerenât they together for like five years.â
6 years and 3 months, you thought to yourself.
Best 6 years and 3 months of your life.
âSomething like that.â
âPoor Harry.â
âYeah. Mustâve been rough for him.â
âMeans he is single though.â
âWonder whether heâs ready to mingle.â They both laughed again, before leaving the toilets discussing their plan to make Harry see them.
You finished dabbing your eyes free of tears, breathing out a heavy breath before standing up and heading to the sinks to freshen up.
You patted your cheeks with water to cool you down and looked at yourself in the mirror with a smile.
You are okay. You thought to yourself. You know what they said isnât true. You are a good person.
Once youâd collected yourself, you left the bathroom.
If you headed right you would find yourself back in the main room heading towards the terrace, but it you went left it would lead you to some stone steps carved into the cliff wall that lead down to a private beach.
Of course you headed left.
The night sky was burning a deep orange from where the sun was setting. You couldnât wait for the stars. Stargazing had always been yours and Harryâs favourite pastime - it grounded you whilst simultaneously reminding you how grateful that youâd found each other in all of this.
The stairs were easy to walk down, even in wedge sandals.
It took you a good fifteen minutes to climb down, but the second your toes felt the cooling sand you knew it had been worth it. Would it be worth the climb back up? HmmâŚ
You crossed the beach, smiling when you realised you were the only one down here in this small alcove of a beach.
The waves moved in slowly, making that euphoric crashing sound as they folded over and onto the sand.
The water was turning a darker blue under the setting sun, but you knew in the daytime it would be a crystal clear blue - perfect for swimming or snorkelling.
You sat on the beach, toeing off your sandals and resting them beside you.
You pulled your knees up to your chin, hugging your arms around your legs as you sat and watched the waves crash again and again. There was something so therapeutic about it.
As you watched on you couldnât help but think back to the conversation those girls were having in the toilet.
You didnât realise what people thought about you being your back. It stung to think people were thinking such horrible things.
The moment your eyes started watering again you knew that what theyâd been saying about you hadnât really registered until now - in the quiet on your own. It hadnât fully clicked that everyone now perceived you as this horrible, bitch of a woman that broke the heart of a man who is loved by millions.
You sniffled, looking up at the sky to hold back the onrush of any more tears.
âHere.â
âHoly fuckingâŚ.â You scrambled from where you were sitting and jumped up to find Harry standing beside you, âHarry⌠MyâŚâ
You put your hand over your heart, having been scared shitless from him unintentionally creeping up on you.
âSorry, I didnât mean to make you jump.â
You then realised he was still holding out his handkerchief for you - the one you thought had been pretend from his suit pocket.
âItâs okay, thank you.â You took this handkerchief and wiped under your eyes with it, dabbing your nose too. âI didnât realise you were down here, sorry. Iâll leave.â
You bent down to pick up your shoes, but were stopped when Harry gently bent his wrist around yours.
âPlease donât.â
You felt like you had stopped breathing.
Harryâs soft touch against your skin nearly made your heart cave inside your chest. You felt like time had stopped, but you wouldnât care if you only ever got to see Harry in this moment, in this frame, for ever and ever.
The way the setting sun casted a golden hew against his skin made him prettier than anyone Michelangelo could sculpt. His eyes were just as green and perfect as always, if only with a little extra sadness spreading at the corners.
And those lips.
Well you only wished they were still yours to kiss.
âI donâtâŚâ You started, not moving your hand away from his. âYou donât want me here.â You whispered, tucking your head down.
You missed the way he shook his head softly, furrowing his eyebrows with frustration.
Harry stepped closer to you, making you apprehensively look up again. He was so pretty.
âStop.â
âStop what?â
âStop thinking I donât want you around. Stop thinking that I never want to see you again. Stop believing that you have done something wrong. Stop thinking that you arenât still the most important person in my life.â Harryâs eyes were now tearing up.
You shook your head, pulling your hand from his carefully.
âI.. I canât.. sorry.â
âY/NâŚâ
You were about to run across the beach, away from Harry when his call stopped you.
âY/N, no.â
Your feet froze and you turned around slowly to see him standing in place, ever so slightly shaking his head.
âJust no.â He said.
âI⌠I donât understand.â You said.
âThe last time you ran away, I let you.â Harry said, as you tried to refrain from thinking back to the last time it had been like this.
âI know.â
âWell, Iâm not about to make that mistake again.â
Your eyebrows furrowed at that, bottom lip pouting which Harry always used to tease you about.
You stood still, your breath catching when he started moving towards you. You couldnât move. You were frozen to the spot, like some force of nature wasnât allowing you to move.
âThe last time I let you walk out of my life was the biggest mistake I ever made. I shouldâve tried harder - I shouldâve begged you to stay, God knows I wanted you to.â
âHarry, please donât say things you donât meanâŚâ
âWhat donât you get, Y/N/N?â Harry stopped short of you, confused about how you couldnât quite grasp what he was trying to tell you.
âYou donât want me to stay.â
âWhatâ.â
âYou donât need me to stay.â
âY/NâŚâ
âNo, H, listen to me.â You confidently took a step forwards towards him, still leaving a good enough space between you. âI canât put you through another breakup like that again.. I⌠I donât even think either of us have properly gotten over the last one. I meant what I said and did last time and I still mean it now.â
âWell fuck that. You donât get to say things like that.â
âHarryâŚâ
âNo. Fuck!â Harry shouted, combing a hand through his hair like he did when he was stressed. âDo you understand how much you hurt me?â
You werenât expecting him to ask you that, so you took a tiny step back in shock. You bravely answered, âYes.â
âAnd do you know why?â His eyes were watering now.
âYes.â
âSo tell me.â
âHarâ.â
âJust.. humour me and tell me.â
âYou were hurt because I broke up with you. You were hurt because I gave up on over six years. You were hurt because I was cruel.â
Your voice was shaky but you stood strong, not wanting to guilt trip Harry into feeling sorry for you.
âNo.â He replied. âNo. I was hurt because the woman I love, the woman I was only weeks away from getting down on one knee for, broke up with me because she decided she wasnât worth me loving. Not that she didnât love me anymore, no, but because she felt unworthy of my love.â
Your eyes started free flowing with tears then as you stood and listened to him speak. Everything he was saying was true but it didnât make it any more comfortable to hear back.
âI was hurt because I thought we could talk about things like that before the progressed into something we could never come back from. I was hurt because you chose to listen to all the sick and twisted voiced in your head, rather than the one voice that actually mattered; mine. I was hurt because you didnât communicate. I had to find out from my sister that you were being abused online by, not only my fans, but close girl friends of mine over their jealousy. And I had to find out from my mum that yours had passed away a few weeks before you broke up with me.â
You let out a sob then, everything crashing around in your mind. Too many thoughts and too little left of you to put them all back together.
âY/N, love, I was hurt because I was there for you when you didnât believe I could be.â
âIâm sorry.â You sobbed out before your knees gave way and you dropped onto the beach beneath you, crying your what was left of your heart out.
Everything from your breakup, to the hate and losing your mum, the grief had all been collecting inside of your head and it was only now that you felt safe enough to let it all go.
You caved in on yourself, cupping your hands over your face.
It only took a couple of seconds for Harry to collapse onto the floor beside you, scooping your body up in his arms so he could pull you close into his chest. Your chest heaved as you cried, and you could only just hear Harry calming you down with a few âsshhâ and the occasional kiss to your forehead.
You kept repeating âIâm sorryâ over and over again, not really knowing who you were apologising to.
Harry? Your mum? Yourself?
âSshh. Youâre okay. Iâve got you. Youâre safe.â Harry kept repeating in between your apologies.
You let Harry hold you for what felt like hours, but was actually only five minutes, before you had calmed yourself down and you could breathe again.
You emerged from Harryâs hold and gave him a weak smile.
âProbably look like a right state after crying.â You laughed at yourself.
Harry cupped your cheek with his hand and softly ran his thumb there. âStill as pretty as the day I met you.â
âH, you met me when we were less than a year old. You donât remember that.â You stifled a laugh.
âI donât remember much, but I remember you.â
You dipped your head with a blush as he said that, his words still having that charming effect on you.
Harry dropped his hand from your cheek, but you were quick to hold it again with yours. You threaded your fingers through his and gave a tight squeeze. He squeezed back.
âI am really sorry, Harry.â
âI know.â
âI have a lot to be sorry for and Iâll find the strength to write you a list of them all one day.â You promised.
âMaybe we can write them together? Perhaps in a couples therapy?â
Your head shot up to meet his at the hearing of the word âcouplesâ.
âYou wantâŚâ
âI want you to be mine again. I may be selfish but screw it, Iâm taking this chance to ask you whether, with the right help maybe, we could become us again?â
âAre you sure?â You moved closer to him, knees touching knees.
Here on this little beach, tucked away from the crowds of the party and the rest of the world you felt everything was right again. Almost like a haze had been lifted and you could see clearer now more than even what you wanted - who you wanted.
âTrust me.â
âI do. I promise, I do.â
âMaybe itâll take some time, but I promise to be there for you, always, and take care of you like I promised your mum all those years ago.â
âYouâve always taken care of me, H. My mum would be proud of you.â
âLike sheâs proud of you, too.â
âDonât make me cry again.â You whispered, eyes locked on his so you could focus on something else other than the tears that wanted to spill.
âSo was that a yes? Do you want to try again?â
âAsk me properly.â You leaned closer.
âY/N L/N.â He said with a smirk.
âYes.â
âWill you be my girlfriend⌠again?â
You burst out laughing over that, dropping your head onto his shoulder to hide your blushing face from his.
You smiled to yourself before answering.
âYes,â You kissed his neck before sitting back up again, âYes, yes, yes.â
And with the smile on Harryâs face as you gave him your answer you knew that you would be alright this time.
There was just something in the orange of that burning Italian sunset that told you, you and Harry were far from done. In fact, youâd only just started.
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the four times they asked about his sidekick, and the one time he realized why. (pt.1)
worst!logan + d&w!deadpool x suicidal!reader
a/n : okay this is sad and emotion-driven asf, so if you're sensitive to suicide mentions or emotional trumoil and problems of self-worth please do not continue reading this. Also warning for suicide description for the other universes' sidekicks. first part out of five!
wc : 2k
TW FOR SUICIDE , TW FOR DEPRESSION , SOFT!WADE , SOFT!WORST!LOGAN , WADE BEING UNABLE TO LOOK AFTER A KID , HEAVY/MULTIPLE BATMAN AND JASON TODD REFERENCES , DEADPOOL VARIANTS FUSSING OVER READER. soft!worst logan . overprotective!deadpool . only-deadpool-still-with-sidekick!wade wilson
Think of Batman and Robin.
Yup. Now turn and twist it around some more and make it.. more chaotic, more unhinged. More morally questionable.
And then think of Deadpool. The merc with a mouth. The dude that chose a red suit just so he didn't have to bother about the red stains.
And then add up a teenager to the recipe. As chaotic as the man, maybe a bit naĂŻver. And you've got Deadpool and his sidekick.
Because if all cool superheros had sidekicks, then Deadpool âalbeit while not actively being a superhero. Had to have one too, didn't he?
And that's how you had ended up roped into all of his unethical adventures, killing off the bad guys that had the highest price above their head and helping Deadpool run the official Spideypool fanwebsite.
But, despite how many masks you put on, despite how many bad guys you killed, despite how many times you had saved someone. You were still just you.
A teenager. A teenager paired up with an older, unhinged, mercenary that ran his mouth way too much and that got you into way too much trouble.
A teenager paired up with an irresponsible adult without emotional responsability was the fucking equivalent of throwing a trained lab mouse inside the first maze that didn't have an exist.
Wade cared about you. Yeah, you knew that. But the problem was that you were a teenager and teenagers needed a certain amount of care to grow healthyly.
Because physically you were great, with how much running around and being-at-the-verge-of-death you did. But mentally? God, then you were the messiest mess in the planet.
Spending so much time with someone that had so many intrusive thoughts, that spilled his thoughts without filter, had rubbed off on you.
And sometimes you scared yourself when sudden thoughts popped up in your mind. Like the sudden pull in your legs anytime you walked near the edge of a roof, the "jump!" that flashed across your head. Or the way you wondered, asked yourself, what it would feel to be stabbed when you were cleaning Deadpool's katanas. Or the way you started to throw yourself at danger's way just for the thrill of it. And if you died, well, there went nothing.
It was wrong. It was bad. And it was a totally unhealthy and toxic vice. You knew you were self-destructive.
But you didn't know how to do doing anything about it.
You see, if Deadpool wasn't so reckless and careless maybe you would've told him. But since he did it, you grew into your late teens thinking it was okay.
,,
Lately, your thoughts had grew more dangerous. More specific. And you were starting to get scared of yourself. In movies, that was how villians started âwith destructive thoughts. And you didn't want to become a villian.
What would Wade think of you? He'd be disappointed in you, hate your guts, despise you.
So your mind jumped to the quickestâand most self-destructiveâconclussion. Offing yourself before that happened.
And you had nearly 10 pages of your pink diary written with ways of carrying on with that plan. Glitter gel pen words scribbled about the knifes in the houseâtheir lengths and sharpnessâ, about the belts stacked away in Wade's closet, about the height of the fall from the balcony to the ground. You had everything planned.
And Wade hadn't caught onto anything of it, except for the fact you seemed more twitchy and on edge than usual. He tied it to the usual teenage anxiousness that came with your age.
He didn't know this was the last mission he was going to have you in.
,,
He had just brought you along on this 'adventure' just like he had did with all of the ones before, except in this one there was another.. âreluctantâcompanion.
Logan Howlett. The Wolverine.
And not the dead hero that Wade had unburied a few days before. No. This one was the worst variant of Wolverine in the whole multiverse, the one from the timeline where he killed all of the X-Men.
And that Howlett was smelling something coming.
He could smell the irony scent of blood whafting off of you, a bitter scent choking his airways. Your scent was way too bitter for how cheerful you were, except maybe you weren't.
This Logan had only barely known you for two days, but if something were to happen to you he'd kill the responsible, then find a way to kill the mercenary and then find a way to kill himself too.
But, first. Stop, pause, rewind. How this did even start?
,,
You groaned as you helped Wade drag the uncounscious body of the drunk Wolverine you had found in a random timeline âthe only one in which the dude hadn't tried to kill you at first sight. Entering through the door-shaped orange portal to the TVA room.
"one anchor being coming right up!" Wade's voice rang through the air before the merc, fully dressed in his suit, had crossed the portal.
You let out a startled squeak when the antihero pretty much threw the uncounscious body of the Logan on the ground, wincing at the metallic sound of his skull against the floor.
"Wade!" you hissed. "c'mon pumpkin', don't sweat it. He's full metal, remember?" he said as he gave the drunk Logan a kick in the side, the metallic sound echoing his words.
"listen here, babygirl" the merc started, looking at the unimpressed man before him. "this Wolverine has the he-can-do-anything-even-musical-stuff look to him and bonus he's actually wearing the accurate comic costume. So, uh yeah, there, timeline saved"
The silence coming from the dude that had called Wade here in the first place didn't sound too good get it?. And as you sat there, poking the drunk man's face with your index finger while whispering for him to "wake up, Wolvie, rise and shine, wakey wakey?"
"I don't understand"
"You said my, our" he pointed at you "universe is dying because this nutsack died, well, problem solved" he now pointed at Logan.
"oh my god" Paradox breathed out. "you actually think you can replace an Anchor Being with this?"
Oh, great. A rant was comming. Like the ones your mother goes on when you mess up too many times.
"I wouldn't have accepted any other Wolverine BT dubs. But you.. have outdone yourself and brought me the worst Wolverine in the whole multiverse!"
It looked as if the dude's temple vein was going to pop, and you weakly interveened. "what do you mean the worst one..?" you breathed out.
"This Wolverine let down his entire world, he's the stuff of Legend but not in a good way and what he did.. well, some things are just beyond forgiveness"
A beat of silence followed, you knew the Wolverine on the floor had been awake and listening for the whole time. But then, you saw Paradox finally looking at you.
"wait"
"what?"
"is that your little sidekick?"
The incredulous, and cruelly amused, tone of the man in uniform made Wade quirk an eyebrow under his mask.
"yeah, why?"
His words were followed by a booming laugh coming from Paradox. His hand going to his face, pinching the bridge of his nose, as chuckle after chuckle it just confused Wade and you even more.
"I can't believe you've still got her"
That was like a titty-flash for Wade, and not the good kind. He stood there, mouth gaping like a fish as he wildly and overexageredly gestured towards you.
"I gave you a chance at greatness, because my superiors deemed you special. But, I did my duty. I gave you the opportunity and you refused, so there's no more bussiness to do here"
And with that, and a strange remote control in his hand, he pressed a button and zapped you three off to somewhere. Leaving Wade with a strange taste lingering in his mouth.
Well, at least it seemed like your last adventure wasn't going to be boring.
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