#IT RUINS EVERYTHINGGG

[sevicia]

I kinda wanna make a sona of some sort maybe it'd help my horrendous self-esteem n make me feel cute Lol*BURIES HEAD INTO THE EARTH

[solargeist]

i think the only compliments that fluster grian are the ones abt his wings, hes so proud of them

[evansbby]

ik we already changed the subject but i don't get why would anyone complain about a fic being similar to another fic by the same author 😭 personally whenever i finish reading a fic i think "that was so good i need another fic that's exactly like this but sightly different" so i go through all of the author's works for the consistency in tropes and characterization. that's what's fun about fanfiction!!!

No fr like if I finally FINALLY find a fic that scratches all the itches, I was 283829 fics EXACTLY like that, like don’t change what isn’t broken!!!

[keeps-ache]

ooooh this is such a scam [<- looking up references]

[ksneniya]

getting a griller wave during this big run

[alanwake2]

the genuine hatred i have for my sister knows no bounds

[ouroboobos]

i should have done fucking rodeo. its so sexy

[year2000electronics]

Ford is such a fascinately flawed character, If he not keep in check he unintentionally brings ruin to everyone around him.

this is literally how i feel talking about ford. ^

because dont get me wrong at many times i am a ford defender when people slander him for the wrong reasons, but also a lot of the time i will be like "YOUR HONOUR HE DID THAT SHIT AND I THINK HE WAS HOT WHEN HE DID IT" and then at other times i will be like "YOUR HONOUR HE DID THAT SHIT AND ISNT IT AMAZING THAT SUCH A COMPLEX AND FLAWED CHARACTER IS NOT DEMONIZED AND VILLAINIZED BY THE NARRATIVE BUT INSTEAD GIVEN A CHANCE TO GROW". so a lot of the time i just end up walking in circles rotating him a lot because i end up wanting to play devils advocate from like literally every angle of "so how much harm did ford do Really"

but i think when you look at ford in the show, hes a very interesting character, specifically because he's this very "loadbearing" character. he's the author, so he has to be the driving force behind the mystery, but he also has to have met and have ended things badly with mcgucket, so we have their falling-out as a tease to the mystery. we need him to cause conflict in the show thanks to his arrival, so he'll do some unlikable things like punch stan and demand his house back and offer dipper the apprenticeship. but he cant be TOO unlikeable because this is a member of the family stan has fought for 30 years to get back, and he also needs to be integrated as Officially A Pines in the VERY limited time we have with him on screen. not only that, but you have to explain his entire backstory in one episode where he harms and is mean to a character who has had two seasons' worth of love behind him SEVERAL TIMES. but you also need to make us feel for him, and you have to make stan's part of the conflict sting too. and THEN! ON TOP! OF ALL! THAT! YOU ALSO NEED TO PAY-OFF THE SETUP YOU HAD OF BILL CIPHER AND THE AUTHOR'S MYSTERIOUS RELATIONSHIP!

and so a lot of the time what i end up thinking is yes, ford is flawed. yes, he can be really callous and unfeeling at times. but i think because he's constantly needing to carry like 10 different plot elements on his back at once, constantly needing to drive conflict along, he ends up being really divisive to people- especially since he has no time to just goof off like everyone else!

so i circle back to this idea of ford as the "ruin-bringer". i think about that wording most meticulously. because that walks this VERY delicate line between saying something about fords character, his flaws, his backstory, and dipping right into "omg lets blame ford for EVERYTHINGGG!" but you think a lot about ford and his self-isolation and his EGO and the way he lifts himself above others both out of pride and out of shame.

ford is almost doing that to himself, really. making himself this common denominator black hole that people keep getting sucked into. because he is of the opinion that there are Special People who need to rise above, he ends up either isolating himself or isolating others to Join Him on the Path. and obviously that in and of itself is a gesture of companionship, of reaching out, because he says "i see the same greatness in you that i do myself"! but of course there IS no secret hidden greatness! so its all inherently flawed! you cant be rising above simply because youre "special" and you "deserve it"! but "special" is the only thing ford knows how to be!

ford is deeply hurting i guess. he seems deeply hurt the way that stan does to me, where everything he does just BLEEDS his trauma. you can see it staining everything. stan's need for companionship and ford's self-isolation. ford's hurting and he needs a healthy outlet but he has a path of destruction in his wake. and that just makes it so much crazier

[marihdtbhk]

WHAAATT THEEEWJNAJANASNSUWNDHDN

WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT CHAPTER?!?!?!?!?!

THEY MEETINGGG AGAINNNN 😭😭😭

You don't know how much I missed their interaction/relationship together 🥹❤️‍🩹 #bffsforever:3

OH MY GOOOHHHDHDHDDD

She blushing because of "Big Hanako" lol

*Simply no comment for how much I screamed seeing this.*

🫢

DID YOU SEE THIS??!?? DID YOU SEE >>THIS<< ??!?!?!?!? "GIRLFRIEND" OMGGGGSJDHDJSJ

"and I loved Hanako-kun" YASHIRO YOUR DEVELOPMENT HAS FINALLY ARRIVED AGAINNN!! 😭😭❤️

(To tell you the truth, everything she said was touching and emotionally moving...)

I KNEW IT. I KNEEEWW ITTTTT 🤬🤯🤯🤬

I KNEW THIS WAS GOING TO HAPPEN, I KNEW THE MOMENT WAS TOO HAPPY AND AIDAIRO HAD TO RUIN EVERYTHINGGG 😭😭

WHYY AIDAIRO??? WHYY?!?!?!

[moonshynecybin]

dark-ish idea for the forced coming out au: vale is angry and tortured by how he has to pretend he let 2015 go and now is constantly losing to the same kid who denied him his precious tenth championship while also having to act like he's in LOVE with that little bastard... and a small delusional paranoid part of his brain starts wondering whether this was all on purpose, whether marc arranged for photos to be taken, whether marc is playing him just to continue to ruin his legacy. obviously this is ridiculous and he probably knows it's ridiculous but it still... lingers in the back of his mind... sure he's protective of marc in this au, but also maybe a little resentful? after all MARC is still winning

au credit of course to the incomparable @kingofthering.... the only way i see something like this taking off is if uccio goes full iago mode lmao (which to be fair. he has done before).... like vale DOES have to overcome his sepang resentment but i dont think he adds anymore to the situation bc marc is so freaked and he is not. evil. lol

sorry alsoooooo truly one of the things that is so delicious to me about forced coming out au is that it is a mechanism to make vale think about how he fucked up at sepang 2015. essentially. like in this vale IS in love with marc and he DID hurt him and i think some part of him knows all of this!! and feels terrible about it!!! but he's repressing it so hard bc that would mean he NUKED EVERYTHINGGG for NOTHINGGGG. like he can see how it is affecting marc in presscons and with the media and within their relationship when marc refuses to play along with pretending even when its doing stuff that wouldve been so easy for him a few months ago and it makes him feel like SHIT bc deep down he knows its his fault ! and he is avoiding thinking about the fact that it is his fault like its his JOB. its about making vale confront what he could have had, if he hadnt been delusional and blew everything up: that marc couldve been with him for real. that they couldve kissed him in parc ferme and no one would blink an eye. that marc couldve been spending half of his off weekends at the ranch. and now they have to pretend that they have that and that everything is fine but it is. killing them both lol.

like the whole thing is about deflating his ego a bit.... so adding more of that ego based resentment to the middle of the story (even if its not like. necessarily OUT of character) kind of contradicts the mechanism of the story... also vale can see how distressed marc is about being outed VERY OBVIOUSLY here in ways he could avoid more in sepang bc they didnt have to hang out a lot in the aftermath of it all. in this theyre playing tonsil hockey on the podium most weekends and fucking off to take mandatory PR holidays on vale's huge yacht. a much harder situation to repress empathy in imo

[ultr4vjolence]

@givemea-dam-break girl last one oh my FUCKING god i swear LAST ONE I SWEARRRRR (she had a marvelous timeeee ruining everythinggg😔<3) IM NOT DOING TS ON PURPOSE ISTFG 😭 LMFAOOOOO

i was literally sitting in the metro coming home from uni and the song came on the shuffle and i was like hold on😭............ ☹�� lady aoro my baby forever tho, making this made me sad

[nerves-nebula]

Oh thank god, I recently got to a piece of media that is really good but god I can't describe the boiling jealousy I felt at seeing people get cathartis from the ending that I was unable to feel. I just came out of the ending empty and bitter . I'm so happy I'm not weird for this.

haha. catharsis is when a guy gets assaulted and you're like "yoo just like me fr" idk about all that happy ending shit. stay safe out there i guess !! a happy ending could show up and ruin everythinggg

[gyubby99]

@disneyanddisneyships OH MY GOD THIS REALIZATION HIT ME AND MADE ME HATE MAL'S DAD EVEN MORE

Cause ALL her life she thought she was like.. bad luck because her name was "mallory" which has the exact same meaning RIGHT.

Her parents got divorced, her dad's an addict drunk, she got r worded a thousand times thru out her whole life and death.. (Derek counted)

Like I just unintentionally made a metaphor for something and I just realized it now.

Because in her backstory she was supposed to have like.. a japanese name which meant "Firefly" right?

Well, since her mom is very knowledgeable with hidden meanings of things and names, she had that name in mind. "Hotaru" which literally meant firefly.

Carmellia pays attention to every details of everything. And because she lives in Japan fireflies are known as a sign of Hope there. And when she found out she'd been pregnant with Mal she found a sense of hope; something to live for, ya feel me?

LIKE. THAT IS HER WAY OF SAYING THAT MAL IS HER SIGN OF HOPE. MAL IS HER HOPE.

But NOOOOOOO James wanted ANOTHER NAMEEEEEEE AND HE NAMED HER MALLORY WHICH LITERALLY MEANT BAD LUCK

And as we all know Mal never minded her name at all UNTIL she got into a fight with her high ass drunk dad saying that HE named her Mallory because ever since she spawned into her mom's womb.. HE was left by Carmellia. HE is telling her that HE is this way because of HER.

When in reality, that's not the case. And it's hard for Mal to figure out bc there are so many missing puzzle pieces, so she believed James.

The real case was, James has ALWAYS been the problem. He made her believe she was bad luck because when Mal was born into this world EVERYTHING he did came back around to him and he didn't like that! He didn't like that he is suffering the consequences of his actions. He never loved Mal. He just wanted a wife to abuse and when that backfired, Mal was his scapegoat.

When Carmellia left James whilst pregnant she had NEVER felt this better her entire life. It was like she took a breath of fresh air. Just her and her baby together in her home country.

But NOOOOO James had to ruin everythinggg!! And when the consequences came back for him, Mal is the one at fault in his eyes.

He became a drunk and an addict which is on him because he could've bettered himself for his own child. But THAT had to be Mal's fault!

I think the two parents picking a name for Mal is an unintentional metaphor because Carmellia saw Mal as a ray of hope, James saw Mal as a sign of bad luck.

LIKEEEEE???

Also in the apartment AU 🥺

When Mal found Lilly again and decided to be present in her life, what happened? Lilly found HOPE for a new beginning in her life. Lilly got away from Jason THE SAME WAY Carmellia got away from James!!??!?!?!?! It's like whenever Mal's present in someone's life they get out of the shithole they've been in for years. She's Mallory but she's still Hotaru at heart im-

OH DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON VOX

Vox, AKA one of Val's favorite emotional and physical abuse victims. That girl got him away from that mess and gave him a domestic sorta secure relationship and a daughter.

Like??

MAL IS A WALKING LUCKY CHARM BUT SHE REFUSES TO ACCEPT THAT BECAUSE AUAGSSHSHSSHAHSHAHHA I HATE JAMES

SHE DID NOT CHANGE ANYONE'S LIFE FOR THE WORST, HER DAD WAS "SUFFERING" BECAUSE IT'S THE CONSEQUENCES OF HIS ACTIONSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!

[sturnsmadl]

GIRLL OMDS GUESS WHAT

today was so horrible 😕💔 it was almost the end of 5th period and everything was loud and so much was going on since we had a sub. Then my head felt like it was spinning and my stomach hurt so I went to the restroom and felt like I was gonna vomit. So I literally almost cried to campus supervisor, went to the health office and just sat there and they asked me questions like if I had anxiety or if I ever felt this way which I have. So they told me I should take breaks in the office when I feel overwhelmed again

hii! sorry it took me so long to answer my inbox but omggg

are u okay now girl?

trust me anxiety is my biggest enemy it actually ruins everythinggg

i hate when people r loud omg i feel like ending it

hope ur good now :)

[morty-rights]

"Y-YOU GOTTA SEE T-THIS IGUANA I C-CAUGHT."

hahahaha.. I-I remember everything I remember all that happened.. the agonizing pain and rust of the mental pipe I-I remember it all..

PLEASELETOTENDPLEASELETITENDPLEASELETITENDPLEASELETITEND

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA I-I JUST WANT TO DIE YOU KNOW? I-I JUST WANT TO BE ERASED PERMANENTLY FOR GOOD I-I N-NEVER WANT TO BE SEEN AGAIN

IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT IF YOU WEREN'T SO STUPID AND DIDN'T TOOK ACTIONS INTO YOUR OWN HANDS I WOULD BE JUUUUST FINE A-OKAYYY B-BECAUSE OF YOU I SUFFER WHEN I WASN'T T-THE FUCKING MORON TO SELL MY SOUL HAHAHAAH..

I FEEL ASHAMED REALLY I-I FEEL ASHAMED I'M SUFFERING WHILE YOU'RE HAAAAAAH... Y-YOU'RE HAVING THE TIMEEEEE OF YOUR LIFE HAHA Y-YOU'RE LIVING IT UP!

I FEEL ASHAMED THAT YOU "CARED" FOR ME HAHA! I-IF WE NEVER MET I WOULD'VE BEEN JUUUUUUUST DANDY! HAHAHA YOU RUINED IT ALL! Y-YOU RUINED EVERYTHINGGG HAHAHAAHAHAHA..!!

[wheeboo]

4th grade omh. HAVE U ALWAYS BEEN TALENTED??? 😭 in 4th grade i was cutting off my barbies hair and dressisnf them up weird damn 😭😭 i started writing like 4 years ago ish so lretty recent but i aspiree to be a writer like u bro. the way ure so creative w ur descriptions has me just CRUMBLING. most of my fics aren't good bjt there's onee decent onedhsjsb hope u like it <33

CHEESE OMHH i love cheese with all my heart, ill def try jt fr 😭😭 shhd ive never seen anyone who adds the whole packet (the last time i tried i had to throw it away </3) U NEED TO START ONE, I KNWO FOR A FACTTT PPL WILL LISTENNN 🙏 omg horror ??? people who like horror are so brave goodbye i would be passing away 😭😭 the shows i usually watch are more rom-com themed or just pure sadness?? i loved 20th century girl omg. what's ur fav kdrama???

I WOULD RECCOMEND DOUGH AS A SNACKK BUT I feel like that would ruin people's stomach 😭 CAS IS EVERYTHINGGG.

rania this is so random but have u fainted before..

😭😭😭 PLS UR SO SWEET :(( its def the more u write n the more u see how other ppl write, u develop ur own writing style n get better !! just keep doing what ur doing <33 AND NO CUZ THE BARBIES IS A MOOD i used to have that mermaid barbie that can change into like a surfer and poor thing i ruined it so badly sjdksd. when i started writing tho i used to like hide a piece of paper under my desk n just like write down my feelings LMAOO which ig is how it all started <3 and ahh i'll be sure to read ur fic !!!

if u do try it lmk 🫡 NO I SWEAR its a universal experience the first time u eat buldak ramen that u add the entire sauce packet and u like DIE. AHHHH I'LL THINK ABT IT 🤭 dsfjdf i love horror idk i just like getting scared LDKJFKS. omg the rom com and pure sadness is soo real tho cuz same 😭😭 I BAWLED MY EYES OUT WHEN I WATCHED 20TH CENTURY GIRL UGH. again i have tons of my faves pls ,,, so i'll list a few: extraordinary attorney woo, move to heaven (I LOVE THIS DRAMA SM ITS SO SAD), crash landing on you, the uncanny counter, vincenzo, daily dose of sunshine, alchemy of souls, the king's affection sorry i'm listing so many i just love a lot 😭 LMK UR FAVES TOO !!!

omg umm yeah i've fainted before like a few times 😭 there was one time when i was getting water in the kitchen and then i fainted and busted open my lip on the counter 💀🧍‍♀️my dad had to pick me up from the floor dsjlkfjdsk have u fainted before ?? 😭😭