#IMAGINE. IMAGINE BEING IWTH HER

[treviso-nights]

imagine being in love with neve gallus and neve gallus loving you back. imagine bringing her shitty instant coffee every morning just because you know she likes it that way. imagine rubbing her shoulders when she works at her desk for too long. imagine kneading the smooth, taut skin until it relents. imagine leaving her spiced slices of apples and oranges on her desk with the hope that she'll eat something other than grilled fish. imagine watching the aurora borealis of fade magic with her as it dances in the sky when it's dark. imagine slow-dancing with her afterwards, knowing that the fade itself will reflect your own love back to you. imagine a plethora of sparkling, sapphire wisps weaving in and out of neve gallus's hair. imagine her soft laughter, because she's finally given up her suspicion of them and they are so so happy about it. imagine the turquoise glow of your aquarium sinking into her tawny brown skin. imagine tugging on neve gallus's arm, because it is time to sleep and you have to physically yank her into bed. imagine curling up against neve gallus, knowing you would do anything to protect her. imagine knowing that neve gallus has already done so, because her affection feels like the warmest, most unending protection spell you have ever encountered.

[dndfuckhouse]

Session 63 - Tower by The Sea

> 🎵  Coasting / Transistor OST 

We pick up once again the next morning in the city of Bakaldor. After a night of feasting on Finn’s tab and karaoke the party retire back to the caravan (or inn) and wake ready for the journey ahead.

They swing by the various smith’s they’d handed out their items to for improvements and find the various dragon parts now newly inlaid within. They see various sections where the dragon scales were stitched into leather or melted down and applied to the metals shining in the bright sunlight. Their weapons also contain a slight new silvery blue sheen to them they didn’t have beforehand as the enchanted ones thrum with a new latent energy.

Rokka: rokka falling in love iwth this new weapon like oooo shiny +_+ Cimmorro: cimm just chilling as a designated driver at the caravan since he didnt get anything Keva: keva runs her thumb over the leather armor she bought for orin and smiles privately as she imagines his reaction to the dragon scales, but then quickly tucks both the armor and the small smile away and makes her way back into the caravan Han: han oos and aahs at every newly enchanted weapon and asks to try all of them Psalm: "Ask Ghester for permission, not me." Han: "MISTER GHESTER CAN I HOLD YOU PLEASE PLEASE PLEEEEEEEEEEASE" Ghester: "when im back inside, you can give me a swing ^^" Han: she cheers Psalm: "Aw why'd you tell her, thought it would be funny if she thought you were in there." He mock sighs. Ghester:" he laughs a little "im an honest soul at heart… look at her big hopeful eyes…" Han: han smirks at psalm in a manner that clearly says "haha ghester likes meeeeee" Psalm: Psalm just scoffs at the both of them (but in a good natured kind of way)

Rokka: rokka hands her his other scimitar to try out without looking away from his other one Han: she does a poor, slow, one handed imitation of rokkas stances and makes HWA-CHAAA sounds Finn: finn ignores her inquiry and hopes she'll just forget about it once shes distracted by something else

After the pickups the group finally hit the road again. They see one last person thrown out a window in the morning onto the road, followed by angry shouting, as if being given a final send off from the rowdy capital. Cimmorro sits up front with Keva, they're shortly joined by Plum after, seeking to enjoy the breeze.

> 🎵   Chrono Trigger - Secret of the Forest (Orchestral Remix)

The others sit inside, Psalm and Han moving to attune to their weapons again. They make your way out of the city, exiting the northernmost city gates to travel once again down the coastline along the Wetfoot Road. Recognising them now, a few of the guardsmen that saw them drag the dragon head in give them nods of respect. They pass by a few other caravans and travellers along the way, it seems with the slaying of the dragon that was besieging the road, people look eager and free to travel the route once more.

The environment around the road is quite pleasant as it keeps them near the coastal wetlands, not having to travel inland much on the way to Coralwash. As the horses pull the carriage along they gaze at the spread out farm and marshlands, with a view of the ocean directly to their right. The horses also seem in good spirits now that they dont have to pull the bounty of a giant head atop as well.

Cimmorro: cimm just annoying keva and plum with some dumbass daily joke on the magazine this morning or smth rly Mars: mars just looking out at the ocean bcs psalm cant lol Plum: plum just enjoying the saltier air

Taking stock of their supplies as they travel, they note the leftover bit of dragon hide they all still have, as well the other components (eye, tooth, throat fluid vial, meat for cooking). They sit stored safely in the caravan, though they won't keep forever; they're kept safely to be used or sold for the time being.

As they travel Vinny works away inside the caravan with some materials from Bakaldor on their newly obtained broom, he affixes a cushioned seat to its top to allow for more comfort and some adjustable stirrups and belts for the more nervous rider. He finishes the project up quickly, not unused to working with the materials. He moves through the caravan after and sticks his head out the window to the front where the Plum, Keva and Cimmorro sit, and asks Plum if they’d still like him to adjust the enchantment so that only the Vengaboys can activate it with the command word, with a head tilt.

Cimmorro: cimm oohs and aahs but also pauses to think about the enchantment while glancing at plum and keva. "sounds good…? don't want anyone we don't know jetting off with it when we're not looking…" Plum: "yeah, if you don't mind. i figure it's better that way in case some stranger messes with it." they wave a hand. "thanks." Vinny: he nods his head after and pulls his head back out the window while going "on it~" in a slightly sing song voice, happy to be working away on something Plum: plum replies like "thank you~" and goes back to lounging at the front. Han: if han can pause attuning to bother vinny with smalltalk about leatherwork and magic and shit, she will

Inside to kill time, Rokka messes with his bag and digs around, finding one of the potions he purchased from the city again.

Rokka: pulls out the Boron's Eye Potion, "oh! I forgot I had this (real)" and drinks it

Borons's Eyes - An iridescent liquid, contained in a small thin glass orb. When drunk it is said to give the drinker a vague promotion of the future.

you down the potion in two gulps and sit waiting for the effects to take. After a moment you suddenly feel your vision cloud over as you feel yourself standing over a cliff facing the seaside, all of it encompassing your vision… you turn and see nothing but graves… one after another…. they go on and on…. and then you're snapped back into reality as your vision clears

Rokka: rokka starts breathing heavy, stunned. he starts having the shakes… unsure of what just happened? what he saw? why?? ->silent crisis Mars: Mars was kinda just watching the ocean until rokka said something so he just watched rokka smoke the scary weed i guess and then he's suddenly back so he's just. "…. You okay, Rokka?" Rokka: he shifts his eyes towards Mars for a split second, still shaken, "i- uh…" he pauses and shakes his hand "I was teleported..? somewhere just now and saw nothing but graves…." he clutches his head and furrows his brows| Mars: He's so ill equipped for this. "I… uh… don't… worry rokka, you didn't get teleported, you were here the whole time…" He's like half debating patting the poor guy's back right now but ultimately just goes for it bcs omfg. "Considering what you just did, its probably nothing more than a case of potion hogwash. What was this thing supposed to do again…?"

As Mars tries to soothe the man, going to find and read the label of the potion he just downs, Vinny finishes up his work on the broom.

Vinny: Vinny chatters away with Han after he comes back in, making the final adjustments to the broom, discussing the fine points of the leatherworking with her as he messes with the enchanted runes. after ten minutes or so he finishes and gives it a spin before handing it to Han, newly completed "want to test it out?" he says it with a proud smile Han: "HELL YEA!! can it carry us both? you made the thing, you should get to ride it first" Vinny: he snorts a little "i didn't make the broom… but uh…" he scratches his chin as he glances between them considering their combined weight "i don't think it could bear the both of us unfortunately…" Han: "then you go :3 i can spot you from the roof!!" shes already climbing thru a window Vinny: he stares a little flabbergated as she just turns, and climbs out the window "u-uh…" he follows after and stares up as she goes "w-we could just do it from the stoop at the door…." he gives up halfway on the protest though staring at her still holding the broom, his head half out a window watching her Han: she looks at him expectantly from the rooftop "come on!" then sits still for a moment like shes trying to remember something before exclaiming "GIDDY UP!" and looking very proud of remembering that Finn: finn turning in his coffin at the commotion and caravan tilt rn clutching his head

As the two speak out window Mars returns to Rokka's side, assuming the potion did exactly as it stated on the bottle.

Rokka: "I was?? but it felt like i was there…" he mumbles while rubbing hi head. "i didn't really read up on it much, so maybe you're right…..but it was so vivid…" another shiver runs down his spine as he recalls the vision Mars: "The potion's a little vague… really could've just shown you anything, try not to worry about it too much." Seeing nothing but graves is a lil stressful but mars also just thinks everything probably dies eventually so………….. but also that he probably shouldn't say that to rokka rn Rokka: he finally looks at Mars "ya think so? 🥺 " he sighs a little relieved that it might something random "man, i wished it could've been something nicer….i'm going to have nightmares of that now" he shakes his head Mars: "Yeah… yeah I think so." Just pats rokka's back again lol. "Look try to take your mind off of it, I think han's doing something with the broom out there. Might cheer you up to just go watch her??" Rokka: he looks up then back at Mars "euugh.. i think for once i'm gonna stay here and idk relax bit." he sinks in his spot a little "thanks Mars" he gives him a small smile Mars: "Fair enough." And mars goes back to staring at the ocean 👍

Back at the window, Han's clambering up the side to the room tilts the caravan slightly before it rights itself again as she hops onto the top. The three out front find them suddenly have to course correct the horses on their trail slightly.

Vinny: vinny stares up at her incredulously "…giddy up…?" but feels like if he doesn't start climbing out she may grab him by the scruff and pull him out anyway, and so dutifully follows out the window, causing a less marginal commotion than her as he scrambles upwards with an 'oof' Han: helps him up <3 "so, how does it work???" Plum: what was that…" plum stands up to look and sees han and vinny clambering over the top of the caravan. they stare at them blankly like…? Cimmorro: cimm goes like whoah ! then turns to see whats going on behind there and just sees those 2 climbing out the window to the roof and just kinda looks at them incredulously and goes back to staring at the road ahead. "they could've asked us to stop for a moment…" he mutters mostly to keva and plum Keva: "that would make too much sense" Vinny: he thinks to himself 'mandhandled regardless…' as she helps him up before dusting his shirt a little, at plum's eye he gives a little haggard smile and wave Plum: "i'd rather we keep moving…i guess it'll be fine".. they wave at vinny with raised eyebrows, vaguely amused. Cimmorro: cimm can agree with not wanting to stop but he also makes a 😞 face "i also don't want the cart to tip over"

Vinny: he turns to han well.. same as when you tried it the other day, you say the command word to activate it" he thinks to himself for a few more seconds "i'm not even a vengaboy, i cant even turn it on" he places it once again in han's hands wondering why he's up here Han: han holds onto the broom but blinks at him before looking like hes insane "…AAAAAAAAH?? of course you are vengaboy!!!" she looks over to the three driving "hey!! vinny is vengaboy with us, correct???" Vinny: he stands there wincing as she shouts, the sonic blast ringing in his ears as he looks completely confused as her statement. Mars: Han 2 vinny

Cimmorro: "haa?" he looks up from his seat and at her and pauses in thought. "to be fair he's the reason we're even tangled up together so. yes. i would say." he nods, satisfied with his answer Plum: "uhhh? yeah…? if he wants to be?" they yell back at han, before looking at cimm like true the caravan tipping over would be… Keva: keva keeps her eyes on the fucking road Han: "see, everyone agree" ^_^ hands the broom back "so you gotta add yourself to the magic thing to let yourself fly toooooo" Vinny: he glances at the three in front then back at han with a raised eyebrow but smiling like hes about to laugh "everyone.. is that right?" he takes the broom as its handed to him "i dont think i was exactly hired for mercenary work with you all, nor am i going to be here for much longer that it makes much sense to allow me to even use this..?" he's not fighting the allegation too hard, more confused at her insistence but appreciates the friendly sentiment behind it, still smiling Han: she crosses her arms in thought and shrugs, looking juuust a touch pouty about his reluctance to agree with her "so what? we have, like… deep warrior bond" she takes out one hand and clenches it into a fist to signify how deep and warrior-like this bond is, then looks and points to him "so add yourself"

Vinny: he stares at her fist a little deadpan before finally letting a chuckle escape "warrior-like…" he doesn't want to really argue with her so he finally nods and agrees to placate her passion "alright alright, i'll add myself" he moves to sit down on top of the caravan, legs crossed as he pulls a small carving tool from his pocket, bending over the broom and beginning to etch away quickly. Han: since he didnt tell her to shush before in the caravan, she looks out at the scenery and prattles on "we fought together, lived in same space, helped each other…. you said you will leave back to shorewater, but we will always carry those moment with us. to me… even if we dont see each other again, we are still friends." she nods to herself, staying quiet for a moment "my tribe sucked ass but it was family. vengaboys is tribe. i want it to be… kinder. and bigger!" smiles at vinny ^_^ Vinny: he blinks and looks back up at han a little surprised, before furrowing his brows and giving her a warm smile. he glances back down at the broom surprised by how the statement's actually made him a little emotional, continuing to etch the the broom "thank you han, that… means alot" he scrubs a little at his nose before continuing to work away "you're a very good friend, one of the best I've had the pleasure to make" he pauses a beat "i can definitely say so far… you're very much succeeding at that" he smiles down at the broom as he continues. Han: han grins brightly even tho vinny isnt looking at her "then thank you too! you are also good friend, even though i thought you were weird at first" she laughs loudly remembering picking him up by scruff. she slaps his back (way too hard, as per usual) before squeezing his shoulder in a silent thanks. she stretches her legs a bit, still smiling "i dont know about succeeding, but its pretty good"

Vinny: he feels himself thrust forward with the whack as his glasses nearly fling themselves from his face with an oof, he abruptly stops moving his hands to keep them from destroying the enchantment from the sudden shift. he laughs to hide the wince before glancing at her smiling "d-dont worry, most people consider me strange, you're among good company there" he smiles at her contentment though and readjusts himself. after a few more minutes of scratching away he stands up again, twirling the broom around a little "well, all done…!" Han: she sits up, ready to spot him "okay….. giddy up!" she goes again Vinny: he makes a face again as she refers to him like a horse but does as he is told. he settles across the broom so hes riding it side saddle before giving it a curious look "er….vengafly?" after a moment the broom lifts as it begins to float in the air, though vinny easily adjusts himself on the seat as he rises. the caravan continues trotting forward, leaving him behind floating in the air before he figures out how to direct it, bringing it back forward to float alongside han "it's a little, oop- ah…" he adjusts his balance again "well, it's cheap…?" Han: han twitches in anticipation to catch him every time he adjusts. she laughs at the its cheap statement "is it? can brooms be better??" she eases up now that he isnt falling over, studying it. then she hovers her hand over the wood part of the broom "wanna experiment? see how much it can hold?" she grins a bit evilly at vinny Vinny: he makes a nervous face at her hovering her hand and pales "nonono- i know exactly how much it cant hold!" he waves a hand flustered to keep her from messing with it.

The two continue chattering and messing about on the roof while Vinny expounds to Han on what exactly about the components of the broom make it cheap and brittle and if you crash this thing it'll definitely snap in half so dont- his voice continues on.

The day continues on and passes them all by, uneventful as they travel aside from waving as they pass other caravans on the road and the passing of small villages and farms. As they cross one, a couple of farmers' children come dashing up to run alongside their caravan giggling and waving before disappointingly dispersing when called back by an adult in a straw hat.

Night falls and they pause their journey to camp out for the night. They find themselves near the first clearing they’d stopped at when traveling to slay the dragon, though the ominous tension this evening is much less palpable. They split yourselves up into various groups to take watch as they did last time.

Cimmorro and Keva take the first watch, he manages to keep a keen eye on the surroundings while Keva focuses on her handwriting endeavors. Nothing stands out to him for the duration aside from the chirping of nearby crickets.

Psalm and Vinny follow up after, the two uber nerds even joined by a literal third set of eyes spend the entire watch not looking at their surroundings and instead surprisingly get absorbed into raucous literature conversation, they notice nothing else throughout the night.

Plum and Rokka follow the, perhaps boosted paranoia from his earlier potion high visions, Rokka keeps on high alert the entire night, not letting a single thing escape his vision. However because of this he also notices in the sky, a single shooting star go past… like a little wave hello from Celestian traversing the stars himself. Plum in contrast barely notices anything while they sit in the dark

Rokka: rokka just squints at the sky and snorts a little like whatever -_- before keeping his focus on their surroundings

Han, Finn and Mars end the watch cycle, distracted by the vibes or by each other their watch is not all that closely kept on the horizon. They don't notice anything of import as the sun begins to rise on the horizon line, the night passes on peacefully as far as they can surmise.

Morning comes soon after to the rest of the Vengaboys, and following a quick breakfast and horse upkeep, they resume their journey to the town bright and early. They trundle their caravan down the road, now traversing territory unfamiliar to all of them save Cimmorro and Mars.

As noon comes and goes, they crest a hill on the dirt road in the afternoon. Staring off in the distance they finally spot the humble town of Coralwash.

> 🎵  IRISH LULLABY / Folklore OST 

The visage of the town gives off a quaint feeling, sitting nestled right next to a small forest and the coastline that rises up to a cliff face that runs the length of the ocean. Aside from the view of the town something else notable enters their field of vision.

Up the hill on its outskirts, on the top of the clifface facing the ocean they see a tall black tower spiral up to the sky. A faintly visible magical flame flickers in the distance lit at its very top, almost making it look like a lighthouse with its colours inverted. They guess either from experience or from context clues that the tower in the distance is most likely the Jasidan temple Cimmorro is from.

Psalm: psalm just looks at it and goes "cool" Cimmoro: cimm looks like he wants to jump out of the caravan and just start sprinting there Keva: keva turns to look at cimm when she sees the spire just to see his reaction, she just snorts, a little amused Rokka: "so this is where cimmy's from" rokka speaking to the air Han: han just looks delighted by everything since the spire comes up, shes doing an impression of a big labrador in a car rn

They continue their way down the path in the caravan into the town proper, passing by a few idle guardsman doing the rounds and more farmers closer settled together. The further in the taller the buildings and more populated the area gets as people go to and fro about their daily chores and activities.

Though not as bustling as Bakaldor it seems the town is still pretty populated, you note a number of other out of town travellers coming and going, either decked out in various bits of religious garb or those that appear to be smaller groups of traveling scholars. Vinny peers out the window curiously at them as you go by.

Cimmorro: i think at this point the rest of the party is like at the back of cimm's mind and he just skitters out with the broom and takes a good birds eye view of town Psalm: "What's the plan again? Are we finding an inn or heading straight to the temple?" Mars: "Well probably temple, since Cimm just ran off." Psalm: Psalm shrugs, "You'd think he'd at least wait around to introduce us when we get there…" /s Mars: 💀 Vinny: vinny laughs nearby "too excited to be home…" Keva: keva's probably driven as much as she can to avoid being trapped inside the caravan with whatever everyone has going on LMAO so she just directs the horsies to follow cimm as he flies

Cimmorro dashes out and hops onto the broom, shooting up into the air and drawing the eyes of a few people nearby as he does. He takes a few minutes and soar up above the buildings. The view of the place is as close as he can remember it, and what a lovely day for it too he thinks as the wind brushes his face.

Cimmorro: he enjoys the glide for a little longer with jasper probably flying along, before coming down to level w/ the caravan and makes a show of a big grin to everyone and he goes, "welcome to coralwash! tower up ahead s'mine" he points enthusiastically Plum: "i couldn't tell," plum smirks. Mars: "You wanna go there first?" <- amused Han: "the whole thing? can you change colour of that light??" han follow up excitedly after mars Rokka: OOOHS AND AHHHS shout out to tour guide cimm Cimmorro: he nods "yes, puhleaaase~! besides, i can get you guys settled there, no need for taverns so long as you behave " and at han he explains, "well it's magical, so changing hues is possible, but our lady beckons it stay the illustrious ruby red it is." Mars: Mars just looks to psalm like 'there you go' re: where to go. Psalm: Psalm smiles at Mars knowingly. "Any special occasions when it would change colour?" Cimmorro: he shakes his head "nope, it's a fixed thing" Han: han cheers over going to the tower, and doesn't lose her smile as she replies "oh well, its beautiful" Cimmorro: cimm nods to this in a like, isn't she? isn't she? way. cleaned those walls myself. my pride and joy.

Finn: finn who just emerged is uncharacteristically neutral and not right off the bat bitchy for once. he gives the tower a look over and then fixes on cimm "youll still show me around, right?" Cimmorro: his enthusiasm seems to falter for a split second as he considers this. he's been personally aggravated by finn ever since they got to the capital and it's over things he doesn't take lightly too. he gives it a little more thought before he decides for now that his answer is "i'll have to see how well mannered you'll be…" he sticks his tongue out. "so be good." it was half kind of like a threat half a friendly jab somehow Finn: finn snorts faintly, not exactly amused but not offended either. there is an air of … mental absence about him "that wont be a problem… unless youre a man who goes back on his words" he flashes him an artificial small smile and then takes to looking around before retreating back into the caravan Cimmorro: while finn retreats he can hear cimm go "i know you'd cry if i dumped you it's okay i knowww you're being so braaave about it <3" Finn: finn considers just pretending he doesnt hear but he briefly stops and looks over his shoulder, directly into cimms eyes. his gaze is analyzing.. he then makes the heart gesture with his hands and there seems to be a genuine smile forming in the crease of his eyes. he then resumes his retreat. he seems to actually be amused and in better spirits, judging by the way he walks Mars: hes just like this at finn and cimm

Vinny: vinny sighs a little to himself at finn's attitude as always though finds himself curious at how quickly he skitters away, he feels weird about gaining a sixth sense for his strange mood swings. he moves to lean out the window and beckon at cimm "lovely town! i can see why you liked shorewater" he gives him a grin as he eyes the tower in the distance Cimmorro: "right? they're not too unalike, but that's also the reason why it made me miss home more- shorewater was reminiscent, but not the same." he says as he admires the familiar establishments around before turning back to vinny. "wait till you see it on top of the cliff! best view in town!" Psalm: "So while those two go on their date I imagine we'd be free to explore?" Mars: "I don't see why not….?" Vinny: he laughs a little at psalm's comment before responding again still smiling "i'll take your word for it!" Keva: "you don't have to--we're going, right?" keva says wihtout turning around, but her tone does sound like she'll be disappointed if they don't get to see the view fromt he cliff themselves Vinny: he glances at keva a little surprised she took it so seriously that she somewhat misread his intention and smiles "i think it's gonna be our first stop honestly" Cimmorro: cimm is chanting "we're going, we're gooooooooing!! you can explore later !!!!"

They continue on, a few of the townspeople recognise Cimmorro flying out in the open on his broom and give him big waves and shouts of 'welcome back!' as they walk on, sunny smiles.

Cimmorro: him at the townsfolk btw

> 🎵  Prologue / Ah! My Goddess! OST

They travel out of the town hub and up towards the temple over a winding cobbled road, slowly cresting the rising hill before they reach the base of the tall tall circular tower. Reaching it finally they note it’s clearly been built out of clean black stone, and at its base the outside wall has been hand painted with intricate gold and white lined designs, though slightly weathered by the seaside wind.

Large windows are inlaid across what look like the first two floors, and inside they can see a coming and going of clergy, worshippers and what look like medical patients resting in sick beds or walking about. A set of large black wooden double doors sits wide open, allowing them visibility into its stone interior. They stare down a black stone laid and beautifully decorated hallway, finery, carpets and art abound, where they see another set of wide open doors directly on the opposite back wall.

They see similar bustle indoors in the hall, and despite the temple's gothic sensibilities, they feel a welcoming sensation coming from the building most likely due to its first few floors' sense of open-ness. As they glance around, to their right outside they see a few acolytes a ways away tending to a graveyard that sits close to the temple base, a small black sign on a metal fence post reads ‘Coralwash Graveyard’

Rokka gasps to himself… the graveyard…….!

Rokka: rokka just rapidly taps on mars arms like it's that! it's that!! "VISION" Mars: "I… guess it was just showing you ending up here." After a little initial moment of slight disbelief he tries to pivot this so rokka's less freaked tf out. "But nothing bad's happened yet see? Just a normal old cemetery." Rokka: rokka nods "yeah yeah i guess it was! oh man it spooked me!" he lets out a small chuckle "remind me to not drink any potions for the next few days" cured of the terrors now wowza Mars: 😅 "I think you can, just be more careful about the effects." Rokka: nodding adamantly "ur right"

Cimmorro: oblivious to rokka's minor freak out, cimm gets off the broom and rly just makes his presence known at the main entrance like the kuzco gif without the doors since its open

As Cimmorro Make His Presence Known, an acolyte cleaning the hallway turns and notices them, walking over to either greet or guide the group. A moment passes before a smile blooms on their face and they quickly bow towards Cimmorro.

Frederick: “Oh! welcome home, Red Beryl Cimmorro! It’s been an age since you’ve been back, has it not?” you recognise the acolyte as one that worked here before you left on your travel, a little older than you, he smiles wide as he dusts his hands “Should i inform anyone of your return? High Priest Willow is currently away with one of the other Red Beryl’s, but…” Han: han gonna follow cimm in and go oooh and aaaah at this place, checking the architecture Keva: amidst all of this keva keeps herself to the back of the pack so she can be the first out the door Cimmorro: "thank youuuu~ and yup, i'm aware 'bout willowy. we met up before i headed back here. they should start travelling back by now, i believe." he reassures him. "and no need. i'd like to surprise a few people." he puts a hand on his shoulder and flips his hair flamboyantly and gives him a thumbs up. "are my sisters around?" Frederick: he laughs a little at cimm's antics, fully used to him "i see, i see" he glances behind himself towards the stairs "the two are upstairs i think, the last i saw near the archives, mahalia seemed to be trying to pull malaya downstairs since she's currently the highest rank in the tower right now" he turns back to you and glances at your entourage behind you with a polite smile "bringing us guests?" Finn: finn does a little curtsy and regards him with an equally polite smile Han: han waves :D

Cimmorro: he rolls his eyes a little amused and mutters smth along the lines of "i'm sure she's enjoying the spotlight" a lil sarcastically. at the acknowledgement of the party, he nods, "oh. yes, i'm sure you've heard of the little problem on the road recently…" he moves a little theatrically with his arm gesturing towards the crew. "rejoice, the drake-that-was-actually-a-dragon slayers. yippie!" and claps as he hypes them up. "we'll be staying for a little while but must travel again, unfortunately. busy busy-" Mars: Mars just nods at the acolyte as rokka kombucha girls the idea of drinking more potions Rokka: rokka waves and smiles Psalm: Psalm too busy looking around to notice this guy Plum: "hello," plum says with what they hope is a polite enough wave. Frederick: the acolyte laughs a little at the comment about malaya, before he looks surprised, the astonishment is replaced with a smile once more "truly, that was you all?" he turns to fully regard the group, taking in their hello's and bows with a little more vigour, still holding a broom in one hand "thank you all so much! we we're becoming a little worried at its increasing proximity… not that i think it would have gone after the town" he thinks a little worriedly to himself before shaking his head "but… well truly, thank you for keeping the road safe" he eyes cimmorro again "you do the lady good work cimmorro, as always im sure, it is sad we wont be able to keep you for long" he leans back as he steps aside as if to let you all walk past "how many rooms would you like us to make up in the dormitory?"

Cimmorro: as the acolyte thanks everyone else cimm warmly smiles as he gazes at them too. he doesn't add on to it, at least for now, but one can tell he's grateful too. at the question posed to him he inquires the party's feedback, "we do have rooms fit for four, and since we're not staying that long, i suppose 2 of said rooms should suffice?" Psalm: Psalm turns to the group and says quietly so the acolyte doesn't hear "I don't suppose they'd let us bring the coffin inside…" Keva: keva jokingly says to psalm "the graveyard's over that way" Psalm: "An excellent point 😌 " Han: han laughs loudly and then slaps her hand over her mouth Finn: finn wants to say something so badly but if he picks a fight with keva cimm will surely be upset with him…..he does his best to not even look at her. but he does think to himself the graveyard would be better company than the vengaboys right now Rokka: "lead the way!" rokka cheers for new rooming situation Frederick: "it's not a worry, i'll ask a few others to get them made up and let them know we've got some guests" he tips his head and smiles "walk about as you please, i'm sure you dont need a lecture again on all the rules" he laughs heartily as he walks off to do so

Han: han smiles until the guy leaves and then leans next to cimms ear "do we need lecture about rules?" Psalm: @ Ghester in infernal "Id think otherwise but I forget I'm not in the company of people that understand social norms." Ghester: "and this is what always gets you into trouble" Psalm: "Well get into it whether or not we know the rules honestly…" Ghester: he has an extended chuckle at that Cimmorro: "much obliged. thank you freddy~" he waves him off and turns to everyone else. "so, while they prepare your rooms, lets hunt down a few people, hm?" he smiles and begins walking at a leisurely place anyway, eyeing the state of the tower and making comparisons to how he last remembered it. at han's question he hums. "rules… well, for now just stick with me and don't go lolling about- i'll eventually walk you through what you can and can't touch."

The group follow after Cimmorro as he makes his way for the stairs, they walk up, following as they spiral up the length of the tower. After the initial few floors containing what seemed to be the med and treatment bays of the tower, they pass by what looks like both the temple dormitory and its main shrine halls of worship. They glance at more heavily decorated walls with red ruby jewels and cloth finery. The windows become smaller, porthole types letting in less natural light, so red and yellow coloured candles decorate the area much more fully amongst the red of the lavish accoutrements.

They continue upwards, after about 11 stories of climbing they reach what’s considered the beginning of the temple's library and archives, containing any number of books and tomes on a vast list of topics from magic, cooking, religious theory to alchemy (and anything else).

Finn: once finn clocks that theyll be going up for a while, finn waits for a fitting moment of solitude to turn into a bat and settles in psalms cloak as usual Psalm: "Cheater. I thought vampires had strength or whatever… it should be you carrying me." Psalm says jokingly. He's out of breath Finn: finn chirps amusedly (before cimm tells the group to can it) and nudges against psalm as if to motivate him

> 🎵  Hajimete Date / Ah! My Goddess! OST

Cimmorro introduces every important section of the tower as they pass by it, but stops once he hears his sisters nearby chattering in the library. He tells everyone to hush before he pulls out a scroll giddily he'd bought in the city, casting disguise self on himself to change his appearance into that of Willow's.

Cimmorro: he then ominously approaches his sisters from behind, not saying a word (bc the spell doesnt change his voice) which is in character character for willow anyway and just stares at the two judgementally at whatever they're doing, doing some kinda expectant parent shit

As he turns one of the halls he enters into one of the large reading rooms, bracketed wall to wall by tall bookcases and filled with wide long desks. The chandelier lit on the ceiling gives the room a warm glow as he waltz's up. In front of him he sees his two sisters, red and blue engaged in some sort of whining conversation, more audible the closer he gets.

Mahalia: "Malaya come ooooon you gotta dictate some of the death tasks, stop stay cooped up studying in the archives" she half heartedly tugs on the blue tiefling's shoulder who pouts Malaya: "auuugh whyyy, they all know their jobs, and there's no emergencyyyy that needs meeee, i was just looking at this neat sigil-" as you come closer suddenly she notices you and jumps "-ACK!" Malaya quickly stands to attention nearly knocking Mahalaia over "Master W-Willow! You're back already!?" Mahalia: she whips around also righting herself and standing at at attention "erm, e-everything ship shape here!" Cimmorro: cimm is trying not to let out a laugh so he converts the energy to shifting his posture to something more stern and imposing, arms crossed and foot tapping impatiently on the ground for a moment or two before he just starts doing whatever this is

They quaill a little not quite knowing what's angered their mentor so before the dancing causes them to go slack and wide eyed.

Mahalia: she stays in entranced shock Malaya: she bursts out laughing, nearly doubling over. Cimmorro: at that he finally laughs and finishes his stupid dance with a twirl and dispelling his own spell off of him with a flourish accompanied with magic confetti. "ta-da!! missed me?" he smirks but soon opens his arms to both of them Mahalia: as you explode into magic confetti mahalia is broken from her shocked stupour and nearly spits "oh ruby goddess-" Malaya: she starts laughing harder before she has to try and force it back "i s-should have guessed! dammit!" she shouts still laughing as she comes in for the hug Mahalia: she joins after though more reluctantly after the display she just witnessed "can't say hi the normal way?" Cimmorro: "where's the fun in that?" he embraces both of them as much as his arms would allow and soon ruffles the back of their hair. he pulls away after a little while and grins. "how're are you two, hm? even though from the sounds of it, it seems like all is in order." he says, relief evident in his body language. "and ulle?" Mahalia: she pouts a little but you can tell its nothing serious as it soon disspiates. Malaya: she continues smiling, almost sniggering as you go on "peaceful peaceful, only thing was that drake but hear it got lopped so we're right as rain" she throws her hands out as if to say 'nothing to see here' Mahalia: she continues after her "i keep telling her to take care of some of the other duties while everyone's out but…" she rolls her eyes while malaya pokes her Malaya: "this is the best time to study and she wants me downstairs" malaya grins before responding to the last comment "mm, as they usually are. seemed chipper since they knew you were gonna visit though, just like us!" she reaches out to pinch your cheek

After cimm broke his disguise the rest of the group had slowly been spreading out curiously examining the library.

Cimmorro: "ah, yes about the drake… you have these guys to thank." he looks towards wherever the others are about and ushers them over. "say hi to the vengaboys! and vengaboys, my sisters." he steps to their side to let them have an undisturbed view of each other Finn: finn, by virtue of being stuck with psalm, looks around with him but he keeps directing his attention back to cimmorro, watching him interact with his sisters. it came as a surprise to him that cimm was such a good brother, apparently. Cimmorro: he points to the shorter, red head. "mahalia." then his hand gestures to the taller one, green head. "malaya." Psalm: "Nice to meet you," Psalm says politely nodding at both. "I'm Psalm." Rokka: Rokka waves at them both enthusiastically " HI IM ROKKA!!" Han: han's been looking at bookshelves but in a very uncaring way, mostly just standing far behind cimm and getting melancholic about how close he seems with his sisters. at the introduction she grins wildly and points to herself with a thumb "HAN! if you need to prank cimm, i will help" Mars: mars just nods to the two sisters. "Oh Cimm's talked about you two, I'm Mars." Plum: "hi, nice to meet you," plum says. after a moment they add "i'm plum," a bit distracted looking at the shelves. Keva: keva gives them both an acknowledging look and simply says "keva" Finn: finn distances himself from psalm and does a, what he thinks is, cool mid air transformation back to his regular form… he does a little curtsy again "and im finn… like han, id more than love to lend a hand in pranking your brother" <- said in good jest

The two girls eye them all scattered about the room. Vinny, looking more nervous than usual since theyd all entered the tower gives a weirdly formal hello as he bows. Malaya gives everyone a cheery wave while Mahalia gives a more reserved one as they categorise their names.

Malaya:"that was you guys? overachiever cimmorro huuuh…" Mahalia: she gives you all a bow like beloved freddy did "thanks for that, we had a few people come it that escaped the thing, the injuries were nasty…" Malaya: at han she gives a conspiratory wink "friends who have it out for you too…?" they look over as finn transforms, blinking at the surprise Mahalia: she responds "how many more of you are gonna do that?" Malaya: she laughs as she stares at him for a few seconds as if silently thinking to herself before she moves on with a chipper "more helps always appreciated!" Finn: "just me……..probably" finn snorts. he wonders if they have him figured out already, but then again, it doesnt matter

Cimmorro: cimm lightheartedly rolls his eyes at all the conspiring happening in front of him. "told you i'll take care of it. well, not without some help. did you hear, it also turned out to be a whole dragon! explains those nasty injuries you mentioned," he shakes his head a bit disgruntedly not wanting to recall how badly wounded he and the others ended up as well. he eventually notices vinny looking like sheltered dog rizz and [would like to insight check] Vinny: vinnys eyes continue to dart around the room as you get a sense he's thinking a cocktail of strange things to himself. you get a feeling he's nervous about the job he's been brought here to do, and whether he can live up to the expectation, which has probably gotten his thoughts on a runaway express train of internal rambling. he also seems like he might just want to be on best behaviour for your family.

Malaya: the two girls look back at cimm as malaya makes a face and mahalia frowns "euuugh, that would explain it… crazy you actually took it out then…" they both eye you as if to make sure you're perfectly fine, though see nothing out of place and relax easily Han: han riffles around in her bag before pulling out a dragon tooth "ta-daaaaa!! trophy" Cimmorro: before cimm could think anything else of his vinny scan beam, he gets distracted by mahalia's comment. "yes, well at least it's been dealt with now, nothing to worry about. though i do wonder why it was here in the first place…" he trails off in thought before noticing han procure the tooth which reminds him he also got a few scales of it himself. he takes a piece out of his bag to give one to each of his sisters. "a little souvenir. they're nice and blue, like tanzanites. they're not as pretty as mine though!" ojou sama laugh mp3 Malaya: malaya makes big shiny eyes at han's tooth "oooh, and you grabbed stuff from it!" before she can make her way over, the two girls glance over at the presents from cimm, each plucking one from his hand "wow… straight from the source, they're so pretty!" Mahalia: she turns hers over and around in the light "thanks cimmy… maybe i'll make it a necklace" she seems to think idly to herself, despite the contrastedy reserved response she seems quite pleased with it. though she makes a face at your laugh Malaya: she laughs alongside it "yeah the towers really missed its glittering star"

Cimmorro: "ooh, a necklace's a good idea! could accompany you guys downtown to get some tips from our jeweler and get a nice chain for it." he nods approvingly. though at the glittering star comment he winces a little bashfully and shakes his head, deciding to change the topic. "well, we can continue our chat and acquianting you lot with each other but i'd like to check on ulle as we go, so shall you two lead the way?" Malaya: seemingly pleased she needled him well malaya smirks and gestures ahead of herself "yeah sure thing, they'll light up with chatter when you walk in" Mahalia: she nods in full agreement

The girls glance around the room curious to see if the party will follow as they head about descending the staircase once more.

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Notes

👨‍👩‍👦‍👦👨‍👨‍👧‍👦The Party upgraded Their Gear🏹🛡️

👨‍👩‍👦‍👦👨‍👨‍👧‍👦The Party arrived at Coralwash🐚

[imjusthorsinaroundgetit]

I m in the boat of its both but a still pretty aggressive , think her letter was her explaining her major disappointment and def some anger esp with sarah lynn as she was a victim of an overdose heck mybe she ended up blaming him for i in some way it was his resonbility to watch her even if his mom ws responsbile then the whole penny situation already bascially had her disown him by keeping distant/ ghosting him at college she just didnt say it to his face

she was probably feeling spooked and stressed by all his phone calls too, and he is her half brother and famous she probably got a lot of weird looks/questions back at college when shit went down. and he was popilar iwth his students /one of her best friends so that probably caused some grief. its intersting to think about how much this affected her that we dont get to see. not only was he her family but was a teacher to her best friend a very well liked one at that. theres so much anger/betrayal to impact that bojack had a characters we dont think about like his students im prob a sap as i just imagine it being a mix of well wishes but a fuck you at the same time somoene suggested a retraining order but they dont live in the same state so im not sure if that makes sense for her to want to do .. either way its sad . Some people lable diane as the F you to bojack but hollybocks was def the real F you of the season.. or maybe they can share it.

You just KNOW Hollyhock girlbossed so hard in that letter we didn't even see it.

People theorize that she let him down easy, but naaaah dude, she knew the guy for what, a year at most, and saw pretty much his worst behaviors. Guarantee you BJ never saw her again after the show ended.

Damn straight. You know the theory that we never hear anyone drop the season's requisite F bomb because it's in Hollyhock's letter? That.

[k0na-core]

Okay, I have an AU in my head rn. Its Evil Kai centric obviously but I wanted to push his elemental power to the limits since it's very obvious that his limits are way over than what we've been shown. If he defeated a whole ice dragon at his weakest, imagine what he could do at his strongest.

Maybe it'll be in the same vain as Nya merging with the sea but not really. Its more of, Kai's powers goes to the point where anything related with fire can be controlled which doesn't sound like a lot but remember, I'm saying ANYTHING. I was gonna say lava is too but that's also in Cole's reign and I'm not really sure how to flesh that out yet. Maybe something like manipulating him into joining forces out of desperation or like a self sacrifice.

I'm planning this to come after Nya's merging with the sea and a way to delve into his grief better. So here's how his arc is planning to be:

Kai always protected any of his younger siblings, Lloyd or Nya or anyone really. After he failed to protect his own sister, his own blood, he thought himself as powerless. During possession, he knew there was a way to get Lloyd back but after Nya's presumed permanent merging, he knew he couldn't do anything. He doubted himself and his capabilities. Out of this self-loathing, he started training harder either out in the open or in his own room.

Everyone was grieving obviously but failed to see Kai eye-to-eye since he just kept it to himself: not wanting the others to see his weakness out of that obsession with being stronger. He couldn't grieve properly or get help or anything like that, bottling it up inside him and with that bottling up of his emotions he started getting more and more angry. Upset at himself, upset at Nya, upset at everyone because they did nothing.

Kai took a breather and thought on how he can't do his job if he's like this. So, with a heavy heart, he left despite him being an essential part of the team. The team stayed strong, even without them and now had to put in extra effort for the empty space left behind.

In his own life, Kai kept training however. He still wanted to be strong, feeling a need for revenge. Even if he saw Kalmaar being eaten and Wojira destroyed, bringing him with her. Kai essentially disappeared, cutting ties with his friends, family and just didn't talk to anyone. When the team try and look for him, they got reports of him being sighted doing ordinary things, as if he wanted to put the Ninja life behind.

Then, one night on the day of the departed, Kai sat by the sea like usual until he heard a voice, so beautiful and majestic and felt like home. It sounded too much like Nya. He thought he'd finally lost it until the waves responded to his heart. It sounded as if the sea was speaking to him. Be one, be with me, together. And then, silence.

This took too much of a toll on him, it's as if the spirit of his sister was haunting his mind, telling him to be stronger so he could be one iwth his element. He started training more, working harder, getting stronger until one day he decided to give his powers a try one more time. He denied himself of its use, years of associating elemental powers with the loss of his sister. Her powers being the exact reason she left. What came through was huge fires of unimaginable strength, it could've easily decimated an entire acre of greenery. And he didn't even try.

That thirst for power became more sinister, he wanted more, to be more. So he set out to find a way to truly be strong again. Until, he looked up and saw the sun. This glowing ball of hot fire, metal and gas that pulls everything in space around it, being so far away yet it's smothering heat could burn ones skin. Anything that comes close is instantly incinerated, untouched. If only he was as powerful as the sun, pure unfiltered power of fire. He didn't want to be one with it, no, he wanted to get a hold of its power.

And so, the crown for the King of the Sun was placed on his head.

Now, this is just the basic premise, some of it is not completely fleshed out but I wanted to know if any of yall would actually want content of this. Kai being like a fire emperor except the staff is his own mind. He also starts a cult at one point as well as raising an army. Not sure how but there must be some sort of religion in Ninjago that worships the sun, right? His arc is all gonna be about how not everyone can be strong for everyone all the time, not only giving himself a break and understanding that rest is vital but also, an obsession with being better or stronger can push yourself away from others. I wanted to make Lloyd the one to make him accept that not only because he is closest to him, but also because he is like his other younger sibling, making him realize that he pushed away the one he was supposed to protect.

[bitchoftruth]

at sakikos home, her father is dealing with the polaris representative, the only one allowed to talk to outsiders. Also turns out, kururu's father.

in polaris kururu has to take a purification bath, and delivers a report on the kids to her father. i mean comrate canopus.

the report doesnt have anything interesting.

they also seem to have a festival at the same time as watanagashi.

aaand this is also the end of the first volume.

Polaris being the villains would be too straightforward and also it's hard to imagine keitarou will end the series going , huh, i guess making friends iwth people is BAD.

my suspicious are still with cringe fail tomitake. But its also hard to see a hinamizawa and polaris team up against a third group, regardless of whether theyre guilty of everything accused of or not, polaris *is* shady

[popculturebuffet]

Star Vs: Monster Bash Review or “Holy Shit Concentrated Into An Episode”

Hello everybody! I’m Jacob Mattingly and welcome back to my tom lucitor retrospective, where I go through every major apperance of everyone’s faviorite demon boy boy. In case you watch my schedule or reguarlly read this blog, and if so thank you.. especially you Kevin your a peach, you’ll know this one got pushed back two weeks because the day it was scheduled.. was the day AFTER the US Capitol Insurgency. So yeah an episode HEAVILY dealing with racisim, with a downer ending and a lot to dig into on the same day a bunch of racists stormed the captail to try and illegally keep another racist in office due to his bullshit claims the electoin was fraud, when it wasn’t he just can’t admit he lost, and their own idocy, violence and hatred was not something I could handle that day and I did some mickey mouse instead.  But while the effects of said riot are still being felt, and unlike many republicans are saying we shouldn’t just “move on” or “try to heal” because the wound needs to be properly examined so the people who carved our country open with a rusty knife can be prosecuted for it, enough time has passed that I can get back on the horse and eat that horse when it comes to this episode. Also expect new tomtrospective weekly with some exceptions till it’s done. So with the real world reasons for the delay out of the way, on with the show.  Previously on Star Vs: Star had a full subplot dealing with her super powered mewberity form, which was now golden and creating bunches of portals. While she wanted to just let it go loose on Eclipsa’s suggestoin, eventually it caused too much damage and Hekapoo was livid when Marco revealed he’d been covering for her and Star, realizing her friend was running himself ragged and ruined a friendship to help her, went to the source of all magic to fix things, metting the baby unicorns and with thier help gaining control over her form. While she does not use it given she JUST got it before this episode, it’s very relevant and makes her come off very stupid but we’ll get to that

In more directly relevant stuff, and our main event, we need to talk about Ms. Henious. Ms. Henious was introduced all the way back in Season 1 as head of St. Olga’s School for Wayward princsesses. She’s voiced by Jessica Walter, aka Malory Archer, Lucille Bluth and .. Fran Sinclair from dinosaurs?

I’ll process that later. Point is she’s a talented lady and voiced Henious perfectly. Henious ran the school as a nightmarish hellhole that stripped away princsesses indviduality when they became too much for their parents. Granted some did genuinely need to be reigned in, Pony went there and so did princess squishy a princess that tried to reinact the plot of face off despite her and star not even being the same species let alone looking remotely similar.. she also liked to say camera phone a lot despite all phones being camera phones for over a decade. 

But again like most reform schools it’s a hell hole dedicated more to beating and psyihholically tourturing the rebel or asshole out of you than actually helping so Star and Marco broke in to break out. It naturally was difficult and strenious but in the process our heroes freed the other girls and Marco became feminsest icon Princess Marco. And Marco’s possible gender fluidity, or being trans,  was well loved and while he was later said to hate the princess marco idntenity later.. I still dont’ quite buy it and feel Disney just wanted to nip any implications in the bud. Because their stupid and often non-inclusive to the queer community and have to be fought to get inclusivity in there half the time. Could’ve been clumsy writing and the writers not getting people really relating to marco possibly being gender fluid or trans, which given this season’s clumsy writing with marco in general I could buy, but i’m banking more on disney, where one executive can somehow stonewall gay representation because apparnetly one guy was the one who objected to enchanting grom fright.. and he can also go fuck himself with an old rhino’s horn. Which horn is up to you. Also we got two major hints at the future iwth her: a creepy mural star found of monsters and Henious being revealed to have cheek marks she supressed with her very own brainwashing machine. 

Our heroes revolution had uintetional side-effects as St.O’s became a party school, though it’s students actually still came back better for the moast part. Henious was thrown out, reduced to sleeping in her car with her manservant gemini and sending Rasticore, a septarian mercinary afer star.. and then carrying his arm around when he got reduced to that.. not because of star but because of a rogue gift card. We don’t have time to unpack that, so she later tried attacking one more time in season 2, in one of the single worst episodes of the series, as she attacked and Marco’s Parents, instead of being concerned about the strange woman and man and lizard man arm attacking thier children, were more concerned about.. tehir cool neighbors. which could’ve been funny but just got frustrating, especially because Marco defended himself well, pointing out while he trashed her school, and gets merchandising rights from princess marco merch, she you know, brainwashed innocent to semi innocent children and was in general horrible and his parents are only humoring her because they were both out of hte loop, which due to this being shortly before star and marco leaves amounts to nothing, and because of the stupid plot. 

So after that we got one more apperance in season 3 with her trying to expose marco as a boy to turn the princsses against him and get her school back.. but it was clearly a desperate and flimsy plan and they knew that already, and don’t care because their accepting. And again have done better without her so she gets thrown out and swore revenge on Marco, and here we are.  Finally, since returning Star’s been more active in monster rights, replacing their old batshit insane and patronizingly racist expert with Buff Frog and starting a position to get royal signatures. Obviously this dosen’t sound like the most effective way to do things but it’s both teenager accurate and not the worst plan i’ve heard from a teenager this week.. granted that’s also because I covered a teenager trying to win back her good for not a lot 23 year old boyfriend by stabbing his current girlfriend he left her for a bunch, so it’s not exactly a high bar to clear. So outside of the golden form thing, which i’ll get to in the review proper why I brought that up, that’s what’s all built up to this the mid season finale. While Stump Day DID come after this, I chose to cover it before it since it both takes place before that and feels out of place in the very story heavy episodes after it. So with that out of the way we’ll be taking a look at the full episode and Star’s horrible, no good, very bad night under the cut. 

We open at the Monster Temple, that place Ludo and Toffee were headquartered at for season 2 and the battle of mewni mini, where Star is holding a PARTY!

This.. this came up when I typed party. I don’t know why and I don’t WANT to know. I mean party is in the name.. is that a party line? Is this phone sex? No.. just no.. I don’t want dirty sweaty pigs in my phone sex.. I want Rocko like a gentlemen. 

Now THAT’S hot. And honestly with what i’ve admitted about myself at this point, can you genuinely tell if i’m joking or not?  Point is Marco and Rich Pidgeon are pitching in. Oh yeah those of you who didn’t get this far in the series, again hi kevin, might wonder wait whose that... well he’s a rich pidgeon, part of the pidgeon kingdom a kingdom of pidgeons that moved into another family’s castle, presumibly killed them, the book wasn’t specific on that and is now just a large bunch of pidgeons that don’t talk human except rich and get all creepy. They also have an excutioner which is as great a visual as you imagine. 

That and Marco tried faking singing rich singing it by shving a pien in his foot and making him sign it.. he didn’t know he was fully sapient but still. But it’s also season 3 marco. The fact he didn’t accidently burn the castle down trying to impress star and being mad when she wasn’t happy he comitted arson is an achievement. Rich apparently holds a grudge but says just kiddng.. maybe.. i’d be prepared for a pidgeon with a machete if I were Marco. Thankfully i’m not.. I mean I hate myself enough. 

Anyways the party is in full swing, as both monsters and mewmans are there. On the mewman sides are the royals we met at the Silver Bell Ball and on the monster side are a bunch of monster teens who look up to star we previously met during the Ludo arc in season 2. Pony arrives bringing a photo booth. And kelly! 

And also Johnny Blowhole...

That dolphin what showed up a few times, including in the comic and the show, like most of it’s supporting cast, just sorta forgot. Also was going to be my porn name, just in case till it ended up attached to a fictonal teenager. Did.. did not think naming a character “blowhole” through did they? 

Anyways the party is at “middle school dance” levels of awkward with the monsters and humans on other sides. Rock seems to be getting ready for a racist tyrade and singles out a yak like monster.. only to instead compliment the guy’s ripped jeans and the two compliment each other on horns... turns out the ones Rock always wear aren’t decorative but part of him due to a boating accident. Shame we never got more of this kid. that’s a good kid I tell you what.  But honestly and since the moment is right given their all in this episode.. we never get a lot of the other royals outside of tom and star PERIOD. While Penelope would show up one last time and Larry would make a cameo for the most part their just.. background filler. Even this pettitoin arc was two episodes long. Rich is BRAND new and he gets way more focus.. and even he only gets to show up again for the big “Gondor calls for aid moment” in season 4 where star summoned whoever she could get on short notice. And is the ONLY royal to besides Ponyhead. Larry has an intresting enough design but the underwater kingdom only got featured in the deep trouble tie in comic that got cut short, and he wasn’t created yet so he doesen’t even show up for it. Jagg’s is such a footnote to the creators she dosen’t ever show up after this, and finally Rock, despite being star’s COUSIN and despite his kingdom being specifically mentioned as the hardest to make sympathetic to eclipsa during her own entirely ignored arc trying to win over the other kingdoms, and despite it being where River comes from and thus possibly providing some more insight into that awesome, awesome man.. we get nothing. Hell the Cloud Kingdom of the Ponyeheads ONLY gets two visits despite being home of one of the main cast.. god I just realized Ponyhead was part of the main cast. 

So while I grapple with that, Star figures the punch is too warm and while Marco goes to get ice, she tries to remind him she can do magic and accidently puts it in your standard cartoon ice block.. and being star gets her tounge stuck. Thankfully her savior comes in the form of tom who being.. you know.. tom.. can simply melt it down and reminds her he’s been there the whole time. She’s just been a bit distracted with you know, trying to ease centuries of racial tension in a well meaning but ultimately pointless at best and risky at worst, partay. And dosen’t seem to get WHY she dosen’t want to dance.. even if they do have a REALY fucking cute moment where he leans in to kiss her, she catches him on it.. then blows a raspberry into his mouth when he does and smooches him on the cheek a bunch. 

But the whole thing leaves him as a grumpus venting to marco and boiling the punch.. though at least Marco gets to use that ice now so silver linings and all that. And when marco tries to explain he tells him he dosen’t “talk politics”

My baby boy.. i’m so disapointed in you. And Marco points out as he leaves “your a prince everything you do is political. “. Which is.. HALF true. I mean tom going to the bathroom or eating a taco or taking his grandpa fo ra walk on his leash so he dosen’t gouge anyones eyes out isn’t political.. but he’s also not wrong that being the half demon half mewman son of two royals, DOES mean tom can come off political and one previous episode which he made a cameo in even had Tom being profiled, with a shopkeep who shoed out another monster kid tried that on tom.. only to realize who he was dealing with and beg for mercy he probably only got because Tom’s trying to be a better person now. And I don’t think i’ts even malcious on tom’s part, tom isn’t the most empathetic guy. He’s nice, he’s sweet, and once he knows you he can be really thoughtful.. but as we’ve seen throughout this retrospective.. empathy is something he’s struggled with. He stalked star because he didn’t see HER side of him creeply and obessively persuing her until Marco got through to him. He missed the point of his therapy assignment, seeing it as a goal to get passed instead of hwat brian intended: for him to geninely make amends with someone he hurt. He didn’t get that while star didn’t, at the time, want to date him ignoring her would hurt her... though that on’es not on him. He’s not a bad guy at all but he’s not at all great at reading people or being selfless.

 He’s getting there, stump day showed him put stars needs before Marco’s and not out of any selfish dick measuring contest but because he knew what she wanted and what made her happy, but it’s hard to have empathy for a problem you don’t get how bad it is. To tom it’s just getting stopped once in a while and then having to glower or literally roast someone. To these monsters... it’s a life of being denied a decent standard of living, housing and being treated as a crminal and a beast just for existing. Tom has a fancy castle, loyal subjects, tons of money.. his privlage has insulated him from the real dangers of being the minority he is, of getting beaten up by the cops or arrested just for being a monster. And yes i’m using real world paralells.. but so does the end of this episode so shhh. It’s also a moral that hits home since as a white person, the last year has hit me HARD with just how much I didn’t know about the racial situation in america and how complacient i’d become. I wasn’t actively racist.. but like many americans I had the bad tendency to forget the horrible things that happpend on a daily basis to people of color in this country when it got out of the news. Privlage can blind you, and I cannot speak for if it does so for any real life minorties as i’m not touching a subject i’m not qulaified to talk on due to being super white with a ten foot pole, but I can speak for me that sometimes you just.. dont’ notice a problem unless i’ts happening to you. And while it has happened to tom it’s such a minor inconvience he probably just forgets about it and moves on. And these next two episodes with him, though we have some plot stuff to get too before we get back to Tom in feburary, are him getting his bubble popped and realizing just WHAT Star has been fighting against. And Star’s own privlage will be an issue later.. but we’llg et to that in it’s own time.  So while Tom skulks off Rich startles Marco to get him to do his kung fun hand pose “the sword hand dance” and everyone uses it to dance which Marco understandably objects to until kelly asks him to dance. Cue adorable ship tease.. again this is why i’m thrownig in the kelco episode in the next batch: because the trajectory of this relationship eeerily lines up with tom episodes. No sense avoiding the ONE other episode about the ship , especially if i’m going out of my way to cover the Meteora arc on top of it and my other 80 projects. And regular coverage. And comissions. And you get the idea it’s a lot but i’m happy to do it. 

Meanwhile we meet Slime, a friendly slime monster who introduces himself to penelope and her massive spider bite... and then drips a bit giving her the wrong impression. Thankfully.. this does not turn into the PG-Rated versoin of BLue from the heathers musical. 

No he just was offering to aloe up her spiderbite, and she’s all too happy to accept since her family never thought about it.. though as we see next season their not against it suprisingly. They are still dicks though. But not racist, though that’s a very low bar to clear and only gives them credit because mewni as a whole is pretty racist when it comes to Monsters. Point is I hate their parents but love these ship as the two share some ship tease and go downstairs.. only to get attacked.  Meanwhile, Marco’s getting a goblin dog while being watched by Henious.. who despite Gemini’s objections.. no longer cares about her cheeks as she grins sinesterly and has him play her music, some heavy metal. FORESHADOWING!

Back at the party, Star adreses her public and is all proud and blushy.. till Penelope stumbles in, covered in scars, telling the crowd something took Slime.. and both sides start blaming one another, especially since it turns out a LOT of the monsters have gone missing. So with everything she worked towards and had achieved crumbling, Star calms the crowd and says she’ll investigate. Outside Marco is getting a goblin dog with roy, and wondering why he has strawberry, who orders a strawberry.. who wants that? And then decides to get one out of curiosity which I would but i’m also fat and love strawberries so i’m not a beacon of good decisionmaking. 

So Star grabs him before he can roll that metaphorical dice and passes tom who tries to downplay her concerns and get her to go make out, thinking that’s what’s going on despite that.. making no sense, as a ton of them are missing and 6 is a bit much for polyamory.. I mean it works for some people 

But not everyone can be a majestic space grandma whose also a caterpillar. And their too young to orgy so that’s out too. Point is Tom is an idiot this time and Star RIGHTFULLY calls him out for belitting her cause, not really caring about it, or the other teens who are in danger right now from god knows what and tells him to either help or get out of the way. 

So while Tom licks his well earned wounds, Star and Marco journey into the depths and find a campsite with fresh dog eared pages indicating whoevers behind the abudictions is not only sapient, but still here... oh and it somehow gets worse as they find out WHOSE behind it. 

And a second question you might be having: Who dis. Well this is Mina Loveberry, solarian warrior, whose a legend in Mewni and was one of star’s childhood heroes who she found wondering around homeless and clearly not mentally well in the park on earth.. and then tried to conquer it, but the electoral process stopped her... I don’t know why but a half crazed maniac being defeated by due electoral process makes me feel all warm and fuzzy right now, on this specific day this is coming out late on. Hmmmm.. INTERESTING aint it? 

Point is Mina is a super powerful, super not in her right mind super warrior, who is naturlaly the kidnapper, as this episode also reveals she’s violently racist and assuemed something was up and whiel Star, who despite said cou still loves and respects her and gets she’s not well, tries to talk her down it increasingly becomes clear there’s no reasoning with her. And really with most racists.. there isn’t. Racisim isn’t something that’s rational and while some people are just indocrinated at a young age and CAN be turned around on it.. some are just so deeply up their own ass with hatred you can’t reason with them or save them. You just have to stop them. Via impeaching them, making sure they get called out and taken out of office.. or in this case using rainbows on them.  But we’ll have to wait a second as a bunch of debris falls on mina taking her out!

.. Only to reveal Henious and while Marco’s willing to fight her and her posse, Raasticore grabs star and henious hooks him up to the brainwash machine, probably planning to kill him with it while playing the music

But before she can kill or do worse to one of our heroes.. the door behind them opens up.. and reveals a child’s play room. 

And Henious.. gives up on the attack and enters, disturbing Gemini as she looks around in what’s easily one of the best scene sin the entire series: her slow walk, the way the animation follows her as it sinks in just what Metora might be.. and her picking up two dolls, the ones seen above.. her dolls to Gemini’s increasing discomfort. And while the animation is stellar and utterly moving as we slowly put the pieces together... it’s Walter’s delivery that REALLY STUNS.Gone is the harsh, unforgiving nightmarish woman we’ve known.. and instead is someone whose confused.. and remembering. Remembering WHY she has those cheek marks, remembering this was her room, her home.. and those were her parents. She remembers now.. and Mina rises to say of course she did “I knew you’d be back here one day meteora!” And as Gemini tries to refute this.. Meteora agrees with MIna, no longer henious at last freed form her deep and abusive brainwashing we’ll cover soon enough. And deeply confused. And as everyone else is deeply confused... Mina, not realizing this whole thing was covered up, again we’ll get to that soon too, spells it out for them and the audience in case you missed it. When Star asks how Eclipsa plays into any of this? “Don’t you ding dongs know anything? She’s her mamma!”  (Marco and Star stare in shock as it sinks in) Marco: “Wait HENIOUS is a princess?!”  Star: “she’s a butterfly”

Yeah quite obviously this is one of the biggest wham episodes in the entire series. In one moment we not only find out Henious is indeed a butterflfy as fans thought.. but Eclipsa’s daughter, half monster, and her entire existance raises questions of how much her family hid and if not WHO DID. I mean some of you alreayd know the answer but the rest of you can wait a week.. or a few mintues it’s hinted at soon enough. Point is Star has questions.. questions the violent racist whose pretty messed up in the head for a variety of the reasons and spent decades hunting her.. is not willing to hear out and instead prepares to smite her. While Star tries DESPERATLEY to talk her friend out of this it’s very clear Mina’s not going to listen... so Star rainbow fists her.. and prepares to face her former friend and inspiration for Meteora’s saftey and the answers she BADLY needs right now. Oh and just in case you thought “oh well the magical girl who sounds like amy sedaris can’t be that big a threat”... Yeah I didn’t mention broly for nothing. 

Mina bulked up. Meet Solarian Mina. And like the Legendary Super Sayian form from Dragon Ball.. i’ts a beserker of a form that turns the already obessive and insane Mina.. into an unstoppable rage fuled killing machine with horrifying levels of power who can beat down anyone nearbye. And unlike Broly, where he was just a one in a million fluke in both versions... Mina was PLANNED to be this. The solarian program was something Eclipsa’s mom came up with, a series of spells that slowly turn the target into a rampaging super soldier. It’s like if Nuke from marvel comics, a vietnam era version of captain america who dind’t turn out so good, was INTETIONAL; 

As you can see it removes fear.. but also the targets concisce, so Mina is incapable of empathy or being cure dof her racisim. Solaria turned her from a humble volunteer just hoping ot help and improve her station into the crazed monster star now faces.  And as the Broly comparision should make clear... yeah Star dosen’t do so good and neither does Marco. She shrugs off Star’s hits and while botht he kids and meteora escape, both just piss Mina off MORE, and put star in more danger as she’s thrown around like a ragdoll.  She then runs into tom who shows off his growht: While he was a dick up there.. unlike before where he assumed he was always the wronged party.. he realized he crossed a line and while he dosen’t know WHY he did, is still willing to apologize and presumibly talk about it. A bit clueless yes but it’s effort and his tone is sincre so it’s less “I’m apologizing for whatever I guess” bullshit and more “I genuinely don’t know wha ti did wrong please tell me so I can say sorry”.. which given how awkard tom is with people and how I pointed out his trouble relating to them over htis retrospective, is the more beliviable one.  Naturally while Star does appricate it she’s kinda busy.. and when Tom see’s what’s going on he leaps in with NO hesitation. And given how close the luictors once were and are again with the butterflies it’s doubtful he hadn’t heard of mina so he likely KNOWS what he’s going up against..a nd dosen’t care. His girlfriend needs his help and this person’s trying to hurt her. That’s all he needs to kick her ass. Or try.. unlike with the z warriors.. our heroes don’t win this one. Tom tries a really cool move i’m dubbing the onyx coffin, a black coffin with runes and chains.. that does nothing to her. She breaks out and our heroes flee and Mina causes a massive ruckuss above, and the only reasons our heros don’t die.. is that the knights and Rhombulus of the high comission arrive.  And since the high comission are going to be vastly important a refresher: The high comission were created by glossaryck, the little man who lives in stars book who used to be voiced by an asshole and next season is voiced by keith motherfucking david, to police the multiverse and it’s various issues. The four we know are Lekmet: a goat man who died last season and controlled entropy and could heal at the cost of his own life hence the death, Hekapoo, a close assiocate of marcos who controls the scissors beings use to cross dimensions and can do so herslef effortlessly, Omnitraxus Prime, a powerful and giant antler skulled being who watches space time and timelines and is voiced by Karl Weathers so...

And Rhombulus, a diamond headed he-man reject with snakes for hands becaue his dad is a well documented dickhead.. no really that’s the entire explination i the book of spells: Glossaryck turned his hands to snake to teach him the lesson i’ts hard to get through life with snake hands. He’s a gung ho guy who imprisons the wrost of the worst criminals thus his presence here as Mina clearly had a falling out with the comission and thus flees.  So while Star and Tom are given blankets afterwords and some cocoa, Tom comforts her and admits if nothing else.. he gets it now, having been finally faced with the type of horrible shit monsters have had to deal with in the past and sees why his girlfriend tried hard to help it. But Star.. realizes she can’t fix this that easy. That she dosen’t know enough and clearly ther’es even more than she ever could’ve thought possible she has ot know if she’s going to fix this.. and that it’s not an EASY problem to fix. You really CAN’T fix racisim you can just make society better, but you’ll never be rid of people like Mina. Though this arc will.. yeah in one of the more baffling decisions Mina is given this huge reindrocution, with Amy Sedaris showing that while a very funny lady and a very talented actress as bojack had previously shown off for both.. she can be FUCKING TERRIFYING. But nope, she’s just..g one outside of a cameo, gets beatne off screen and dosen’t become big bad for a season. And I get it, the metora arc needed room.. but you had a WHOLE EXTRA EPISODE to have her defeat mina. Inastead you used it for Marco Jr which amounted to almost nothing and could’ve been saved for season 4 wher eit probably woudln’t of been terrible. I”ll get to that one some day. Point is it’s bad storytelling. 

So yeah Star’s feeling lost, her family history is in flux, she got beaten badly, not horribly injrued but still lost handily, her party ruined and  she was hit with the realization her plans were overly idealistic. Well meaning sure but a party was never going to cure this. Oh and Rhombluus naturally isn’t coming clean about why the temple is off limits or what’s going on here so that dosen’t help.  And somehow.. IT STILL GETS WORSE. The Wizard Cops try to take the monsters in , profling them and not having done so and star thankfully talks them out of it but the monster kids turn down any afterparty or anything. They get she means well tbut hte moment’s over. And their not even excesivley sad.. their just.. used to the police treating them like this. Like less than human, like automatic suspects when THEY were the victims. IT’s nothing new... and god does this feel relevant as hell.

And this i where I meant Star’s privlage bites her: While not as bad as tom, it took some very harsh reality for her to see that solving racisim.. is not only nigh imposisble but not that easy. To her it was easy as a party and friendship and what’s worked before in her fairly shelted world. Advetnures or not she’s still a princess whose never experinced prejudice. In both worlds she’s in the majority. It’s probably why Marco conttoned on to monster racism in seconds during “Menipendence Day’ when Star hadn’t her whole life: to Marco, whose latix and thus dealing with all kinds of racist shit his whole life, it was easier to pick it up. He’s firmly part of his culture.. and thus probably firmly aware of the racism he faces. Star is so insulated she just dosen’t get it till it nearly beat her to death. So yeah Star’s at her lowest point, having failed to make things better, the answer to her questions being lost and not sure what’s real. Metora on the other hand as they dodge the cops.. has ascended. As Gemini calls her henious once last time.. she says that’s not her name. 

“My name is meteora”

SHe’s been dreaming the wrong dream.. and it’s long past time she woke up. 

Final Thoughts;  Monster Bash.. is one of the best episodes in the series. Unlike a lot of Seasons 3 and 4 it dosen’t suffer from lack of proper payoff, as the next few episodes deal with how the fuck any of this is happening and why the fuck any of it happened. Mina’s absence nonwithstanding.. this is one of the series best and most gripping arcs. And the swerve is great: you think i’ts Henious doing the kindappings, only for her not to be the threat again just yet. And for her to be something far more. It’s just masterful, starting iwth fun hyjinks and ending in one of the best nad most nightmarish fights in the series if not the best, watching as our heroes slowly but surely LOOSE.. and THEN it gets worse. Out and out a must watch for the series and a sad sign of what it COULD’VE been had it moved past it’s worst insitncts next season and become what i should’ve been.  Next week: We take a tom break as Eclipsa nad Mon investigate all of this and we get the SECOND biggest wham episode in the series. 

Until the next rainbow, be excellent to each other.

[crashdevlin]

Perosonal drunk stuff under the cut

I’m a good person.

I fight the petty feelings and I fight the bitchiness, I am a good person. I could be so mean. To my horrible sister and my terrible gaslighting piece of shit ex-husband, to the people who treat me like their bilboards and their cheerleaders with nothing in return, I could be mean. But I’m not. I’m not negaitve. I’m not...I’m just...I’m a good person.

I’m pretty. I’m good in bed. I’m dirty and wonderful and amazing. Why doesn’t anyone want me?

I’m so sick of feeling like this. I’m so sick of feeling like I’m not good enouh. I’m pretty and I’m so nice and I shouldn’t still be alne with my imagination. I’m so fucking tired of it. I’m so fucking tired of it.

I remember eing 14 and 15 and 16 an 17 and 18 and hating myself and I hate being this. I hate the fact that I’ve lived so many years and I still feel exact as stupid and unworthy and ugly and undesirable as I did when Iwas a teenager. I was supposed to outgrow tihs. I was supposed to feel better. I was supposed to BE ettter. I was supposed to feel mroe liek a person...and I don’t. NOthing chanegs. 

I’m exactly the same person that I was in high school. I’m exatly as stupid and lonelgy and crazy and touch-starved and crazy as I was in high school and the only redeeming factor of my entire life is the little girl in her loft bed upstairs. The only thing that makes my life worth a damn is that little girl, but I need (and I hate to say it) but that’s not enough. She’sall that I’m worth and it’s not enough. I just want someone who wants me. I just want to be loved by someone other than an nine year old who doesn’t know any better than to love me. 

I’m sor tired of being me. I’m so tired of being Nureodivergent, Post traumatic stupid who can’t get anyone to give a fuck. God, I can’t even keep FRIENDS. My friends arely talk to me and my family are horrible. And no one can love me. I’m unlovable. I start a relationship and then I’m...I’m nothing.

I’m nothing.

I try to make things better and nothing takes. I’m so tired of nothing gettign better. I quiet my job to try to more forward and then the world fell apart and now I can’t even work because I’m afraid to leave ny house and the people i care about on ly mesage me when I mesage first and I can’t ckeep  a conversation on tiner going because no one want s to talk to me. I’m not worth talking to. I’m not worth anything.

all these years and the only one intersted in me is myex. wants to heat on his girlfriend with me like he cheated on me with her. and I thought about it. I really did. I would have done it, becuase it’s been months since i was even kissed, but I couldn’t do it...not because I could do better, I obviously can’t, but because I know there would be peopel who are disappointed in me if I let him touch me, myself included. Not that that matters much.

I just can’t see lettimg him touch me aain. he’s an ass. But he’s the only one interested. I’m fucked...but i’m not, ya knwo. 

I’ve spent all this time and efrot controlling myself, fixing myself, bettering myself and the only one who wants me in Mike. I can’t get guys on tinder. Ican’t getguys to pay attention on match or any of the otherstupid dating sites. I’m just...why don’t eople want me?  what the hel is wrong iwth me?

I’m good person. I’m pretty I’m noce I’m good in bed. whyam I so alone? I’m so tired of being alone.

[siyadrunkrecs]

i think i need to put great emphasis on the fact that I DONT READ SFW FICS. AT ALL. they're always nsfw. so imagine rid's surprise when i came back from betaing this and yelled CAU COUPLE MY FAVOURITE COUPLE and routinely threatened her to not add any smut to this? this fic is COMPLETE. it completed me, it completed rid, and it completed the two dummies in love in this <3

it started out with HEAVY second hand embarrassment. yn why are you like this its JSUT A MOVIE BRO like fr but their banter is so well written. but the way tae categorizes every being, wow i was liek how did you even think of that @.@ esp the one line that floored me:

In truth, everything about your virtual presence reminds him of the gloom and mystery that a thundercloud and a storm bring.

wow. truly poetic.

im so glad she used her brain and apologized and THUS BEGAN THEIR SAGA OF LOVE AND TRUST AND UUUGGGHHH IM EATING COTTON CANDY RIGHT NOW IWTH THIS LOVE STORY

tae being a whole cutie patootie and asking yn about her day, their whole conversation is so adorable. i love college aus but something about the working class and their daily struggles just gets to me, and that's why this couple just FITS like A PIECE OF PUZZLE in my heart

In his mind, you resemble Aragorn’s soft personality; a sweet, affectionate girl drowning blissfully in Tolkien’s world.

Tae's POV is so adorably written I swear I love reading every word in it, his vision is so unique sometimes I feel like T_T i dont think like this but WOW i totalyl see your point looll

Dark locks fall into his brown, nearly black, shimmering eyes. Full lips are curved into an endearing, nearly innocent smile. His earlobes are devoid of jewellery, but the piercing holes indicate that they haven’t always been empty. And is that a mole under his eye?

HERE WE HAVE IT RID IN HER NATURAL HABITAT! you've explained tae's face what, 50 times? its always new the next time. i've probably told you this but it awes me everytime i read it, i feel like its a new drawing of the same person T_T you so taelented

AND THEN THEY CALL AND VIDEO CALL AND???? THEIR WHOLE EXHCANGE AHHHH if only i could point out one sentence i liked, but i have to just copy this whole part if i did that LOL there's no bad surprises in this fic as a whole. only amazing ones

lmao also this oc's overthing is ME its very relatable thank u so much

but you know my fav scene T_T

“Are you…” he begins, his sentence hanging in the air when you put your arms around his neck. With gentle movements of your feet, you bring his body into motion and begin your slow, effortless dance; and when he realises your intentions, he smiles and asks, “There’s no music though, is it?”

BLS THEYR'E SOOOOOOO!!!! and tbf i gotta give you kudos because i would find this scene very hard to write! there's so many intricate actions to describe it would have taken me three whole paragraphs to even make my reader realize that they're dancing - but you did it so wellll and its so seamless! beaaauuttyyyy <3

“Where?” He clears his throat as he sits up, fatigue still apparent in his pupils as his hand comes up to massage your aching spot. “Did you fall asleep, too?”

I love how this is jsut an unconscious action - they've met so recently and yet he just starts massaging like its the norm between those two <3 just goes to show how deep their connect is without even meeting in person for so long

“For some reason,” another tiny pause, “I feel like sunrises represented you even before I met you.”

Man tae dont go around saying shit if you dont want to get kissed i cant promise anything >:( you're sunrise, tae sunset, this is all too beautiful to be simply words - you paint a whole piece of art for us

And when he finally kisses you, you leave the ground below and enter a realm above the clouds.

HALLELUJAH WE DID IT FAM MY HEART IS CRUSHING MY RIBS FROM HOW LARGE IT HAS BECOME READING THIS!!! never did i think i would simp so hard for someone else's kiss but we are a new person everyday

start to finish this fic was a dream ride, im so happy you asked me to beta this for you. every year i want a drabble about this couple celebrating his birthday and counting his moles and drinking champagnes and all the fun things they deserve <3 thank you sho much for writing this fic my darlin <3

crowds around us | kth

gorgeous and breathtaking banner by @kimtaehyunq​​​​​ <3

Summary:  No matter how crowded or busy the world around you gets, your thoughts keep drifting back to him until they begin longing for more than just his virtual presence – and when you finally do meet him, he erases all of your thoughts entirely. 

⤞ pairing: Taehyung x reader

⤞ rating: GA

⤞ genre: s2f2l; lots of fluff, some crack

⤞ warnings: (online) banter, lots of teasing / flirting, lots of talk about sunrises and stuff, physical intimacy indicated but not described, movie references (you don’t need to understand them), alcohol consumption, kissing; not much, it’s honestly just tooth-rotting fluff y’all </3

⤞ word count: 12.6k

⤞ a/n: i wish there were words to describe what this man means to me and how much love i hold for him. but since this is an impossible task, i hope that this little love letter suffices too <3 happy birthday to the gentlest, loveliest, prettiest winter bear ever 🥺 a big thank you to @missgeniality​​​​ for beta’ing this !!! this is also my contribution to @dailydaegu​​‘s taehyung birthday event !! hope you guys like it <3

➳ listen to: sweet night X heather mash up & willow by Taylor Swift

MASTERLIST | WIPs

Sometimes, when the sunrise drenches the sky in unknown and colourful hues, it looks like it’s a representation of a familiar stranger. Sure, the natural phenomenon occurs in the same tender way every single dawn, but the intensity of it still feels new each time.

Taehyung knows that if worldly things truly resembled a person, he’d be able to recognise it with a brief, careful glance. Would be able to see a sunrise and a sunset, decipher the night sky or fog or supernova written in their eyes. It’s a strange way to think that he can’t put into words or explain to curious friends who try to pull him down from the seventh cloud he constantly floats on.

Of course he doesn’t think of these things when he soaks in the warmth of the sun in the summer, or when he takes in the scent of wet grass after a pleasant drizzle. And the poetic and optimistic aspect of his philosophy surely does not cross his dreaming mind when he finds himself in front of his computer one October night.

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[ithisatanytime]

To be honest im very glad she loves her boyfriend so much, initially i asked about her relationship status and she said it was open, and was very firm about that fact, emphasizing it to the point that it was the only thing leading me to believe she was at all receptive to my advances, of course thats not enough because i was so forward, and i knew she just likely wasnt that into me. but today when i pressed the issue, as i am a horny man and frankly im in a damn hurry, she changed her tune, now he was her soul mate. and you know what nothing could have made me happier. my last serious girlfriend was in a committed relationship but it was on the rocks, in part do to her going off her birth control (i was high test compared to her boyfriend, he had better musculature but prenatal test exposure was lower in the womb as evident by me being 6′2 and having masculinized bone structure in comparison to his.) and losing all attraction to him, also i kind of fucked their shit up by randomly confessing my feelings for her, we had known each other for close to ten years at that point, but i never made my feelings known because she was so fucking hot to me i just never thought of her as a possibility quite frankly, i was fucking SHOCKED to find out she felt exactly the same. this same exact scenario played out for me when i was a young man and i literally forced my girlfriend to go on hormonal birth control, the hormones in birth control literally trick your body into thinking that your pregnant, and pregnant women have different taste in men, they are looking for a provider obviously, their behavior changes dramatically, in part because they lose interest in higher testosterone but good physical genetics mates as they need someone to be their when they raise their baby, typically (naturally) this only lasts for 9 months than the baby comes, if the man who fathered the child is able to weather the emotional shit storm, he will stick with you through anything, and is thus a good potential provider for your offspring, the opposite is true if they met you while on hormonal birth control, as they value you for your provider traits and when they go off the bc their body thinks they are no longer pregnant, hence her looking for a big strong bull (me) too impregnate her.

    she knew this indian guy since they were children, it was fucking obvious they were meant to be together, i hated being responsible for the heartbreak i caused BOTH of them. dude still wanted to be with her after she kicked him out of her life to fuck some drug addicted retard (me) but  heres the thing i am not talking shit about her, they literally cant fucking help it, we are slaves to our hormones. i was very pleased to find out that she was hesitant to go on birth control as it “makes her crazy” i was so glad she brought it up and felt that way, as imagine going over this shit with a potential girlfriend, imagine how well thats going to go over! i have been familiar with hormonal BC’s effects on womens sexual preferences and ability to pair bond since i watched a documentary on the discovery channel about sex with i was 13, i was trying to masturbate, but i learned a lot instead, despite how crazy this sounds, all of this is accepted science and new papers get released about it every couple of years or so, its fucking insane that women arent made aware of this common side effect of birth control, so imagine how fucking conflicted i felt when she was adamant about getting back on birth control, i was 99 percent sure she would fall out of love with me, and at the time , it was insane to me how much she clearly loved me, she promised shed get off birth control as soon as i asked, i pleaded with her, saying that by the time she was on bc for even a couple weeks shed no longer love me or give a fucking shit what i had to say anymore, which seemed RIDICULOUS at the time, but she promised shed go off it as soon as i asked, i knew that would not be the case. within literal days after getting the hormonal IUD put in, she stopped looking at me the same, we started fighting all the time, it was horrible to see, especially for the second time, all men know what i am talking about, when that lok disappears, and of course she didnt get it taken out when i asked, and of course the fighting got worse and worse, who the fuck could stand living with me without loving me, suddenly all the bad shit about me (no job prospects, bad provider) that she had already been aware of for years became an issue, blah blah blah, it wasnt her fault, imagine being forced to live iwth someone who you didnt love, who loved you and stil wanted to fuck you. and of course as the fighting got worse and she slept on the couch, i could no longer sleep, i became obsessively jealous (mate retention strategy caused by testosterone masculinizing the brain) i knew she wasnt cheating on me, there was literally no way, but my guts were twisting and churning every single day, my behavior became increasingly erratic (men behave irrationally as well, in their own way) it all came to a head, after a solid month of the cold shoulder, i had finally landed a job interview to be a car salesmen (i built up a relationship with the neighbor i smoked iwth, and he landed me the job) but the  day before i was set to be interviewed we had a massive fight which i started, because i tried to reason with her (in love men and women arent governed by reason) that she had been giving me the silent treatment for a month and i had been on my best behavior, which i had been, buying her gifts and flowers with the profit sharing check i got from my old job, but she started grabbing her stuff to leave, she wouldnt tell me where she was going and in my irrational state i was sure she was going to fuck an entire football team, an unbelievably searingly painful thought for a man, women literally cant comprehend this as they dont experience jealousy in the same way men do. so i slammed out of the house first into the streets of new york city, huffing and puffing trying to to cry as i pushed past the crowded streets, it was like 4 pm in the middle of queens. i found a bar and sat at the center of the bar, it was pretty empty when i walked in since it was like four o clock in the afternoon. i had 300 hundred dollars in my pocket and i spent it all that very night on beers and shots and whiskey sours, i had never gone to a bar of my own volition before and can count on one hand the amount of times id set foot in a bar, but i had been drinking more than i ever had in my life. the pain of jealousy and losing someone that i sincerely loved, and intended to marry was so intense that i started drinking and basically didnt stop until we were separated (havent really touched the stuff since, i dont really like alcohol) but i was losing the girl i loved, she was supposed to be my wife. i drank like there was no fucking tomorrow, just waiting for her to call me, which she did, but there was no love in her voice, no news on where she was, or who she was with (her girlfriends, studying for an exam) so i hung up and went back to drinking, my bartender was a young women, who may have been pretty i was not paying attention, so much so that when she finished her shift and left the bar, and a young woman sat next to me at the bar and tried to talk to me, she grew angry with me that i didnt realize it was the same bartender, who had been serving me drinks all night, she left in a huff, soon i felt people pressing up against my back as i finished my 20th drink of the day, i was way past my limit, but i was about to lose the girl i loved and become homeless on the streets of new york in my mind, she would never have done that to me, but my “home” had evaporated as soon as i left to new york, and after i lost my job delivering refrigerators he made it pretty clear he didnt want me around. he was not my real dad after all, just another of my mothers boyfriends, its not the same as a biological dad, for as good as he was and as much as he did for me, i was becoming too much, i cant describe the fear of the streets for someone who spent their lives homeless or near homeless is like, its always there. so i drank that way as the NYC bar grew very crowded and noisey, i had picked the hottest socail spot in the city to drown my sorrows,. i would drink until i couldnt feel the pain anymore, go home, puke my guts out, not remember anything and then regroup in the morning after she got home from her boyfriends house, thats a problem for tomorrow me. i was just waiting for her to call me and maybe show me some sign of warmth, some sign of the person i fell in love with. she did call me in fact, i was too drunk and the bar was too loud for me to hear it, i got up to take a piss and only then realized how crowded the bar actually was, people were dancing behind me the whole time and i didnt even realize it, it was packed from wall to wall, as i got up to take my piss, my last five fell out of my pocket onto the ground and i nearly fell over trying ot pick it up, plus the last shot i took i just spilled down my shirt sleeve, it was time to go home. i drunkenly stumbled towards the door the bar was so packed i literally had to raise my arms into the air (this detail will be important for later) as i made my way towards the exit suddenly she appeared in the doorway, i cannot describe to you my relief in this moment, how did she even find me? it was the last clear memory i have from that night, the only other memory i have is foggy, me drunkenly bragging that i could have beat up every dude in the bar and girls were totally trying to fuck me (see? im valuable) as she drove me home, the rest of that night is completely lost to me, i found myself suddenly in our bed, in the morning, i felt more hungover than i had ever been in my life by a factor of ten, i was shaking uncontrollably still half drunk and frightened (if youve never blacked completely out before you cant know what thats like) she informed me that i had pushed her, i was horrified, how could this have happened, and what more could i have been capable of, i didnt have time to process that however as her dad was on his way over from upstate new york, in my half drunk and frightened mind i knew he was coming to fight me, i went into fight or flgiht mode *if your dead comes here i wil lfuck him up!” even i couldnt believe i said that , her father was an unbelievably kind and gentle man, but i was frightened, i was gonna be homeless on the streets of new york, a forgotten man who fell through the cracks in the safety net, and worse i deserved it, my sense of self was shattered, how could i have pushed her? she made the right decision in having her father turn around, and head back to upsate new york. i cried like a fucking baby, how could i have done this? my father was a drunk who beat the shit out of my mother, and i remembered it vividly. i sobbed and sobbed, i had been doing a lot of that, i loved her from the beginning and worse, she had loved me too. i had no way of contextualizing it either, for me it was as if someone had woken me up to inform me that in my sleep i had punched a child, think about that, how do you process it? i had prided myself in never putting my hands on a woman unless she asked first (thats its own story that i will never fucking tell)  i ddint even remember it, like at all, i ddint even remember us fighting, apparently i was barfing and doing somersaults of the bed and shit, as you do when you are blackout drunk. and she had never drank a drop of alcohol or smoked a single weed in her life, she must have been absolutely terrified. i wanted to die, it was over for good. we had made up in a sense, as the reality of the situation set in, we only ever held each other on the first and last night i was in newyork, and both times, you wont believe this but i have to say it because it was so strange, we cuddled face to face while her two cats cuddled each other inbetween us, only the first and last night.

  part of why it was so hard for me, was because i knew i would miss her bitterly for the rest of my life, literally every day until i died, i knew from experience, and she woudl be really upset for a few months maybe and then never think about me again. my only hope was that she got back together with tha tindian boy she grew up with, he fucking cried outside of their apartment, and stil  asked about her when she left him for me, this tore me up, as id been on the other end of that, he loved her better than i did, they were meant to be married but hormonal fucker and jewish sabotage has a combined effect of just fucking women right up, men too but i feel worse for the women. if you fuck a guy you should just stay with them honestly, you will be much happier long term. this started out as one thing, and then turned into something different, as i had been meaning to tell that story for years now. i know it seems like a lot of self pity and to be fair theres a lot of remorse too even to this day, i barely touched a drop of alcohol in the years since, and occasionally it will hit me like a ton of bricks out of the blue and i will excuse myself into my room to cry into the macaroni and cheese i was eating.

[sheilacwall]

L-FRESH the LION, Tones and I, Tkay Maidza: the best Australian music for September | Music

L-FRESH the LION – Born to Stand Out

For fans of: the Neptunes, Childish Gambino, Missy Elliott

“I’ve never been one to just integrate,” spits L-Fresh the Lion as he kicks off this celebration of individuality. Over a Neptunes-style slinky beat, L-Fresh asks: “Why blend in when you’re born to stand out?”–  a slogan lifted from a hoodie the rapper says he bought five years ago and wore to the point of disintegration. A trippy vaporwave bridge slams this inspiration song to a halt mid-track for a comedic conversation about a Sony Discman. It rings a little like one of those obligatory skits on early hip-hop albums – an odd touch, but perfectly in line with the theme of the song. A solid contender to make the crossover to commercial radio – it would certainly be a welcome addition.

For more: L-FRESH the LION tours the east coast of Australia next month

Even – Mark the Days

For fans of: Ice Cream Hands, Bob Mould, Redd Kross

One of Australian music’s finest and most under-appreciated rock bands are touring this month to celebrate 25 years since they formed. To mark the occasion they have casually pumped out a new single that easily sits among their very best work. Mark the Days sounds as though it was spawned in Minnesota in the 80s and dragged through the Melbourne suburbs throughout the 90s, with plenty of time spent in pubs hammering together the riffs and sanding down the rough edges. The production is warm and rounded, sonically landing somewhere between Big Star and Teenage Fanclub, while the song swings confidently from hook to hook, suggesting that Even have some of their finest work still ahead of them.

For more: Listen to any of their seven albums, or catch their 25-year anniversary tour, which starts in late September and carries through until November

Tones and I – Never Seen the Rain

For fans of: the Jackson 5, Hanson, Macy Gray

Last month Tones and I became the first Australian artist to top the singles chart for more than a year, with the infectious Dance Monkey. The song hit the top spot a few weeks after Toni Watson’s festival-stealing performance at Splendour in the Grass, where a crowd of 20,000 gathered at noon to watch her play the opening slot. Dance Monkey is still sitting at No 1, where it has been for five weeks now. Never Seen the Rain is an even better tune. And, while this is going to sound like a back-handed compliment but it is meant with the utmost respect: this song sounds a hell of a lot like Hanson. Watson’s voice is a dead-ringer for a 15-year-old Taylor, and skips deftly across a sprinkling piano and drum-machine claps like the Motown singers of old. It’s breezy and economically produced, the chorus sounds like a gospel rave-up, and it’s one of the most interesting and infectious songs I’ve heard this year.

For more: Tones and I tours the country in September and October

Tasmanian band Luca Brasi. Photograph: Ian Laidlaw

Luca Brasi – Tangled; Content

For fans of: Jimmy Eat World, the Starting Line, Yellowcard

Tasmania’s finest are back with a slice of mid-tempo emo that sounds as though it belongs on the mix CD in Seth Cohen’s starter pack. Open-hearted punk rock is hard to master without sounding adolescent or cloying, especially after four albums, but Luca Brasi have honed their songwriting to a point where they can channel and command nostalgia without wallowing in it. “It’s not the length of the years / It’s the length of the days,” Tyler Richardson sings, echoing the US author Gretchen Rubin’s self-help edict. It’s a story of living for the moment, if only in order to later pore over every detail. This song is so well-crafted, it asks the question: can Luca Brasi’s forthcoming fifth album be their best yet?

For more: Luca Brasi headlines the Til the Wheels Fall Off festival in Launceston, November 1-3.

Tkay Maidza – Awake

For fans of: Nicki Minaj, Santigold, MIA

Musicians are prone to insomnia. The combination of travel, blurred timezones, hotel pillows and periods of intense boredom, interspersed with rocketing adrenaline and varying states of sobriety lead to less-than-ideal sleeping patterns. “I don’t even know how to be tired,” Maidza claims in Awake, returning for the first time this year with a huge, hypnotic home run. Technology looms large in lethargic lyrics, with a woozy and warped trap beat adding a dystopian drone to the insomnia-riddled lyrics – the aural equivalent of a screen-induced headache. A minute-long barrage from the Baltimore rapper Jpegmafia peppers the listener with violent imagery quite removed from the song’s theme but it still works a treat. A beautiful bridge floats in and threatens slumber at one point, but the dream is stillborn.

For more: Listen to Maidza’s singles Flexin’ and Ghost, and catch Jpegmafia at the Listen Out festival in late September and early October

Alex the Astronaut – I Like to Dance

For fans of: Josh Pyke, Kasey Chambers, Dolly Parton

I Like to Dance will make you sigh, make you angry, make you cry. One of the most heartbreaking and visceral songs released in years, this tale of puppy love slowly soured by violence is told bluntly and steadily, never couched in easy metaphor or reliant upon clever wordplay. The escalation of events is sickening and rings all too true, iwth details unspooling and being related in a casually muted way. “I’m mostly like everyone else,” the protagonist quivers nervously, the use of the qualifier being perhaps the most striking moment of a breathtaking song. Towards the end, she lists reasons not to leave – financial, parental, fear-based – but also allows herself to imagine a life free of domestic abuse, where she could be a doctor, an artist, anything she desires. Tragically, it sounds a lot like like wishful thinking.

For more: Alex the Astronaut is touring nationally from September

Kate Ceberano, Steve Kilbey and Sean Sennett – Monument City Lights, 1973

For fans of: the Church, Pretenders, Nancy and Lee.

This is late-night driving music: wind roaring in where the windows should be, green and red lights reflecting in the rain, a lost highway, a Lynchian mood. The Church’s Steve Kilbey and Kate Ceberano didn’t meet during the recording process, instead they transmitted their voices to each other. Both are much richer vocalists now than they were during the 80s, and here they follow in the tradition of Nancy Sinatra and Lee Hazelwood, lazily harmonising then sliding into unison, and delivering rich, cracked and wonderful textures over a chugging rhythm. This recalls the best elements of Australian rock: chiming guitars, thwacking drums and a dark propulsion that threatens to soar over the cliff into the abyss at any given moment. “It’s tight jeans, bad skin and kissing in dark places,” explained Ceberano of the nostalgic air of this track. “An indelible tattoo on the psyche.”

For more: The trio are now recording their debut album. Maybe they will meet in person. Stay tuned

Julia Why?

Julia Why? – Holden On

For fans of: the Cocteau Twins, My Bloody Valentine, Slowdive

Halfway through this MBV-indebted slice of cloud-skipping shoegaze, a surprising one-liner comes out of nowhere and slaps the listener across the face. It’s a relatively depressing scenario delivered in a dreamy deadpan and repeated ad nauseam for the rest of the song, as if to indelibly print the image on to the inside of your eyelids. I won’t spoil the surprise aside from warning you to expect one, but the shock of it somehow lifts this dreamy dirge closer to heaven. Along with this majestic left turn, there is plenty else to love here: luscious layers of Julia Wylie’s vocals, blasts of infinity guitars, earworm melodies, reverb on reverb on reverb.

For more: The second Julia Why? album Hysteria! is out now

Holy Holy – Maybe You Know

For fans of: Echo and the Bunnymen, Tears for Fears, late-era Death Cab for Cutie

This is perhaps the slowest-burning Holy Holy single to date, which might not bode well for a generation of streamers who demand immediacy, but it will be richly rewarding for those willing to indulge the band with more than a single listen. There is the hypnotic sway of the falsetto vocals, subtle synths and guitars that bleed together into an unholy wave of noise. There are subtle drum pattern shifts that masterfully change the momentum of the song, an urgent vocal crack on the line “and it felt like nothing”, a satisfying sonic build that creeps up like a killer – and the final pull of the rug just as you feel the track is about to engulf you. What a delight.

For more: Holy Holy’s third album My Own Pool of Light is out now; the band tour nationally in September and October

Sui Zhen – Matsudo City Life

For fans of: M83, Spacemen 3, Animal Collective

Matsudo is known as a “bedroom community”, a Japanese city filled with hotels frequented by businessmen who use them only to sleep in between work shifts. It’s a stark and unsettling image: a city of sleep pods. Sui Zhen, who recorded her forthcoming album in one of these Matsudo hotels, manages to perfectly escapulate the ghostly, desolate mood of the city streets while also acknowledging the lonely romance of wandering through an empty metropolis designed for slumber. This song channels and draws together sonic touchstones as diverse as Annie Lennox, Animal Collective and Spacemen 3 to arrive at a glassy, claustrophobic dystopia where men “only come home to dream”.

For more: Sui Zhen’s album Losing, Linda is out on 27 September

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[absolutelybifurious]

yall im almost done iwth persona 5 and i just want t omake a fucking THREAD about all the reasons ryuji sakamoto is the most underrated amazing character in the entire world

-within 30 seconds of meeting protag he risks his life for him -he desperately wants to go back to the metaverse to help a bunch of ppl that weren’t real -he wanted to go back despite having no means of fighting -yet REFUSED to let ann come bc it was too dangerous -brings a ridiculous model gun in some adorable attempt to be helpful and in an incredibly plot twist  ends up being helpful -when he realizes its helpful he offers to take joker to the shop just bch es that fucking nice -literally tells you to be careful not to fall when you’re jumping on things -decides yall are friends and asks joker not to ignore him bc hes so used tob eing treatedl ike shit despite having already RISKED HIS LIFE FOR JOKER -does everything in his power to help ann once she gets captured in the metaverse -trips while running for his lilfe and still his first instinct is to reassure ann and protag that everything is fine -bears all the responsibility of letting the track team down despite being a teenager who REACTED TO ABUSE -never expects or receives an apology about what happened to his leg -is the only person other than the protag who doesnt get his misfit label removed and he NEVER complains about it -loves his mother so much and will do anything for her -has a super relatable temper that flares up but generally is followed by a sincere apology -tells ann that he doesnt want to go on a date with her as a “reward” for helping her,,,YALL -when he was in middle school he spent his subway fare money on a fucking souvenir for his MOTHER so ann had to spot him the way back -never gets even remotely jealous about protag being the leader -says things like WHATDYA THING when he learns a new combat move,,, -is the only person who doesn’t accuse makoto of being useless and reckless and therefore making her guilt worse -in fact steers the group away from blaming her at all by convincing them to move on -he says sorry in a slightly broken voice when he gets healing in combat  -also says ha LOSER when he dodges an attack in combat -apologizes carefully and profusely to futaba when he can’t understand her while she’s mumbling in a closet  -actually handles that terrifying mask she wears pretty well all things considered -never gets resentful when people accuse him of having no charm -getse really irritated when a guy from the tv station starts blatantly hitting on ann and not out of jelaousy’s sake -his first response to what kind of girl you like is “a nice one” -he wants so bad to room with the protag in hawaii -literally everything in hawaii excites him and he is adorable the ENTIRE TIME they’re en route -he kicks at the ground when people compliment him which is like never -he gets the shit kicked out of him during his confidant while the protag does jackshit and he doesnt even seem to hold it against him because he :) thinks :) deserves :) it :) -when he tells yusuke about his past, he leaveso ut ev erything bad that happened to him alnd only included how awful he was and no one corrects him and hes?? fine with it???  -he censors himself by saying effing and not fucking -he tries so hard to contain his temper like in the bat h scene when hes like itll be fine ^___^ and then he just FLIPS and loses it and has to leave, like same buddy -the little side hug he gives joker when he comes back from the Big Plot Twist -don’t even talk to me about the whole ship scene -he gives joker a damn gift after they spend time at the culture festival bc he got him out of looking dumb -HE GETS STAGE FRIGHT -he tells futaba how amazing she is like every time she does anything -in fact hes constantly complimenting everyone, even morgana when he does something to help the team and yet NO ONE RETURNS THE FAVOR -when futaba first joins the group and yulsuke upsets her and shes just sending emojis ryuji is the one who gets it and says yusuke needs to apologize  -the quote “has medjed been taken care of? or more important, is futaba okay?”  -hes honestly so gentle about all the other characters and like... trying to take care of them it hurts me -he calls joker c ute when he gets excited????  -he also offers to protect joker on a roller coaster when he thinks hes scared to go by himself -he says hes gonna be so fast that joker won’t even be able to see him and then gets distressed bc would he be showing joker anything then? -he tells joker theres a place for him too, right next to him, and then even adds, or maybe ahead? because thats how much he respects joker and doesent love himself :))) -he calls himself an idiot when everyone got tricked and then calls you to apologize for getting upset and THEN says he needs to apologize for futaba and haru bc he KNOWS they would react to it -i’m not even there yet and i can’t imagine what im going to,,, think -yall theres so much extra stuff i cant deal with it -im gonna make this longer eventually bc i love ryuji sakamoto more than life itself YALL DONT UDNERSTAND -you -don’t -under -STAND

everyone else (especially ak*chi) can choke ryuji is literally the best friend and the best,,, everything HES THE BEST YOU CAN’T YOU DONT UDNERSTAND MY FELEINGS

[yenneferw]

For the character thing: Oswald (Gotham), Max, Anne, Jack, Thomas, John, James, and Billy (Black Sails), and the Doctor :D (il your blog)

tAww thank you! :-D And thank you for all the characters! Sorry for answering this so late lol

Also I didn’t even realize I wasn’t doing it in order I just saw James’s name and I fuckin went for it lol oops

Aaaalso sorry it’s so long I have a lot of feelings

Oswald Cobblepot:

Why I like them: Oswald’s such a cute little fuck and he’s very devious and the underdog so I latched onto him early on and he’s one of the only things left about Gotham that doesn’t make me sad after all the queerbaiting 

Why I don’t: I really didn’t care for when they always had his teeth dirty that was,,,,,,,,,,, too much. Also some of his hairstyles have been a bit more questionable than others. Also the fact that he was made canonically gay just to queerbait like yay a gay guy but,,,,,,, meh 

Favorite episode (scene if movie): It’s been a bit since I watched it but the episode where he was pining over Ed and trying to tell him he loved him was a good one for him he looked cute and I liked his plight 

Favorite season/movie: I really liked his rise to power in season 1 and if I remember correctly he finally ended up somewhere in the end after all the shit with the gangs so that was really cool 

Favorite line: I can’t think of one right now but I’ll make up for it with my favorite Look ™ which is how he’s always able to look like he’s kind of on the verge of tears

Favorite outfit: Idk anytime he’s wearing a suit is good

OTP: Os and Ed obvs 

Brotp: Mmmmmm idk him and Ivy seem cool as friends even tho I haven’t watched in a while

Head Canon: don’t ask me headcanons,,,,,, i’m so bad at headcanons a lot of the time

Unpopular opinion: I don’t know the fandom well enough lol i’m bad at his

A wish: Nygmobblepot,,,,,, alas,,,,, which isn’t to say it’s bad to hold out hope but i’m so cynical and bitter :-/

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen: Death, heterosexuality

5 words to best describe them: clever, manipulative, ambitious, cowardly (but shh it’s okay he’s not always cowardly), vengeful 

My nickname for them: Os I love when ppl call him Os lol

James Flint:

Why I like them: do you want me to write a book,,,,, I love him so goddamn much it hurts…….. He’s just so smart and he deserves so many hugs, he’s a gay icon, he tries so hard to do right even tho he’s a fuckin murderous pirate, he’s a murderous pirate that likes his books and his tea and gardening with his best friend, his eyes are the prettiest things on god’s green earth….. love him 

Why I don’t: not applicable I refuse to insult my boy lmao

Favorite episode (scene if movie): Probably the one where Miranda died or the one right after bc Toby Stephens is such a good actor and also he fuckin burned the town down for hurting his best friend and??? goals. Or the last couple of episodes bc that shit iwth John………… and then the reuniting with Thomas………… wow

Favorite season/movie: I really liked his rise back to the top from season 2 bc it makes me sad to see him failing and he starts going on a mad and grieving downward spiral after season 2

Favorite line: “This ends when I grant them my forgiveness, not the other way around” I’m sure there are more bc his speeches are all beautiful (like the “there be dragons one”……. kill me) 

Favorite outfit: Everything he wears is perfect 

OTP: flinthamilton is literally the only thing that waters my crops anymore, although silverflint gives them a nice solid rain every once in a while and is hella valid too

Brotp: James and Miranda is so beautiful that I regularly cry about them but I also liked when James and Madi were teaming up

Head Canon: He and Thomas break out of the plantation and become feared pirates again, also he was dating John and Gates lmao

Unpopular opinion: He’s gay and not bi like not for bi erasure or anything but like he just gives me such a gay feel you know what I mean. And also I don’t think what he had with Miranda was really anything 

A wish: for him and Thomas to be happy 

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen: for him and thomas to be sad lmao

5 words to best describe them: Intelligent, vengeful, loving, sad, amazing,,,,

My nickname for them: idk I don’t have nicknames I guess I always call him James and not Flint and it seems like a lot of people just call him Flint lol (also “lvoe of my life” does that count)

Max:

Why I like them: oh my god. oh dear i love her. When will your fave. She’s so brave and smart and loving??? like I called James loving but Max is on another level. She’s so protective of the people and the things she cares abotu and loves, and she’s so fucking smart. And she’s so brave to pursue everything she wants to pursue, like she’s a wlw of color in the 1700s and yet she still rules Nassau without giving any fucks about conventions and shit

Why I don’t: oh man is there a reason. I don’t like that she went to Woodes Rogers’s side for a while and betrayed Anne and Jack but I understand why she did so I’m not angry with her for it

Favorite episode (scene if movie): whenever she walks on screen,,,, but idk I can’t think of anything specifically but I liked it when she took over Nassau from Eleanor 

Favorite season/movie: I liked her arc in season 4 even if I really didn’t like all the decisions she made, and I really liked how she ended up in the end so probably season 4

Favorite line: she’s so smart and wise so like everything she says but also I really like her speech to Anne “I am so sorry for working so hard to protect the wrong things, for failing to see that there is nothing important that does not include you” 

Favorite outfit: that yellow dress oh my god! does anyone else remember that yellow dress! it was so pretty she looked so pretty! She has really good style in general but I love that yellow dress 

OTP: Maxanne

Brotp: Her friendship with Idelle is nice and also I like her friendship with Jack

Head Canon: again I’m so bad at headcanons

Unpopular opinion: I don’t think I do

A wish: For her to rule Nassau and continue dating the love of her life Anne Bonny and support her piracy and have her position in Nassau fully supported by everyone alive 

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen: death? sadness? she deserves literally the best all the time

5 words to best describe them: compassionate, perceptive, brave, honest, wonderfulbeautifulgorgeous i love her

My nickname for them:I don’t have one for her

Anne Bonny:

Why I like them: She’s amazing honestly I love her sailor’s mouth and I love her bravery and her principles and how logical she is. And I love how kickass she is and how she’ll do anything for the people she loves and I love when she stops being guarded around people and her face Softens, I’m gay for how she looks out from under the brim of her hat 

Why I don’t: I honestly can’t think of a reason……. ok I guess I don’t like that she got violent with Max in the beginning when she was having her gay crisis and like killed Idelle’s friend…….. but honestly reblog if you get murderously violent while having a gay crisis

Favorite episode (scene if movie): I can’t think of something specifically but like when she was with Max and they were just soft and dating that is my reason for waking up in the morning, AND when she saved the ship with the glass and all god wow i died

Favorite season/movie: Mmmm season 2 was prime maxanne season wasn’t it…….. good shit

Favorite line: I can’t think of any rn but wow every time she opens her mouth it’s a gift

Favorite outfit: idk generally her pirate outfit? and her hat is amazing

OTP: Maxanneeeee

Brotp: her friendship with Jack is something I would die for they make me so happy

Head Canon: I don’t know that I have any idk maybe that she and Max are still dating after the show ends?

Unpopular opinion: I don’t know that I have one about Anne

A wish: That she’s happy with Max and potentially Mark/Mary too if she wants to be

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen: Being unhappy,,, not being with Max or Jack,,

5 words to best describe them: strong, logical, angry, devoted, the world “fuck” 

My nickname for them: I don’t have one for her

Jack Rackham:

Why I like them: he’s so funny and I really like his goals and his arc like he starts out as this guy who just wants his name remembered and that’s still him in the end and I like that that goal doesn’t change, but he finally gets to be the single pirate captain in Nassau which is really cool for him, and he’s also super smart I love him

Why I don’t: I didn’t like his first reactions to Anne and Max, he was kind of a dick about it, but I’m glad that he eventually accepted them and got closer to Max and all

Favorite episode (scene if movie): I liked his scenes with Blackbeard and I also like his earlier scenes where he’s more comic relief-y and I really like when he gets to be a Pirate Captain Dude, that’s not an episode but I just like these particular moments with him. I really liked when that one girl at the Guthries’ was like “Do you know Captain Jack Rackham????” and he was like…………………….. i’ve made it guys

Favorite season/movie: Mmmmm honestly Jack is really consistently awesome throughout like so is everyone else but he’s really well-characterized and grows a lot throughout and I can’t really pick which season of him I like the best

Favorite line: there are so many “if you’re all going to act like children, then I will be your daddy” it’s not my favorite but it plagues me every waking moment of my life and I can’t ever escape it, to rogers: “you and I were neck and neck in this race til the end. But, jesus, did I make up a lot of ground to catch you,” and I really like his speech to Teach about Vane but I can’t find it for the life of me

Favorite outfit: man all of them, Jack Rackham is the most extra well-dressed man in Nassau

OTP: Jack and happiness…….. 

Brotp: if anyone answers this with anything other than Jack and Anne then I’m not sure they watched the same show like to each their own but I can’t imagine a life where their friendship isn’t my fuel

Head Canon: he had a major crush on Charles Vane. I don’t always love Charles Vane so I think he could’ve done better but he definitely had a crush on him

Unpopular opinion: again I don’t think I have one I”m not good at this

A wish: for him to be the most feared pirate around just like he wants to be i’m so proud of him

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen: for him to be hanged or something especially if it was in front of anne or for him to have to watch anne die

5 words to best describe them: cunning, ambitious, sarcastic, idealist, stubborn

My nickname for them: i don’t have one but like….. another love of my life….. actually everyone that anon asked me about is one of the lvoes of my life anon must know me well

Thomas Hamilton:

Why I like them: oh my heck he’s beautiful. He has such a good heart and such a good vision of the world. He wants things to be so good and the world doesn’t deserve him at all. He’s so caring and loving and gentle and understanding and he just wants to see a world where people aren’t afraid of him and his sexuality and people aren’t afraid of pirates because he understands that a lot of them are just people who society has really hurt like James turned out to be, he’s such a good leader and if England didn’t suck he could’ve done so much

Why I don’t: the wig that’s all that wig killed me like I don’t even like regular wigs but that big ass brown wig haunts me

Favorite episode (scene if movie): the flashback scenes even tho it’s very short they kill me. His smile as he looks at James. I too would go to war with society over that smile 

Favorite season/movie: lol i mean he’s really only in season 2 unfortunately for us all. That little bit in season 4 is revolutionary but season 2

Favorite line: I feel like I’m not gay enough if I don’t say “Know no shame” bc god can you get a better gay line than that I’m in love

Favorite outfit: anything but the fucking brown wig I’m sickened by that wig

OTP: flinthamilton is unbury your gays, straightbait, and overall beautiful so like………. gay icons

Brotp: his and Miranda’s relationship was not as characterized as James and Miranda obviously so I’m not as undyingly in love with them but they were super good and I’m sure they were just as good as James and Miranda but for obvious reasons that wasn’t onscreen as much

Head Canon: he becomes a pirate dude with James after escaping the plantation no one can convicne me otherwise

Unpopular opinion: I don’t think so 

A wish: for him to just live in peace and for him in another universe to actually get everything he wants out of life

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen: what if he had actually died. my heart hurts. why did i type those disgusting words

5 words to best describe them: visionary, optimistic, sympathetic, intelligent, twink extraordinaire. that’s six words you say? how can you counter twink extraordinaire 

My nickname for them: my boy james’s SOULMATE

John Silver:

Why I like them: He’s so…………. like I like his self preservation and I fucking LOVE his characterization and his journey from selfish coward to selfless leader, he might be the best characterized character in this show like the show is really really good at characterization but John Silver obviously had a long way to go to become Long John Silver and He Did That. He’s also so sweet and soft sometimes and I love his curly hair

Why I don’t: I just………. my heart is always with James so when he sort of went the opposite ways I couldn’t help but be on James’s side….. like I still love him and understand his view……. but i’m sad

Favorite episode (scene if movie): I really like the episode where he starts talking shit at dinner to the entire crew and outing that guy for fucking a goat and I also really like the episode where he loses his leg and I really liek the last couple of episodes. I just like a lot of him ok he’s great

Favorite season/movie: I like the beginning of his Long John Silver story when he redeems himself to the crew in season 2 but I also like his coming into Long John Silver in season 4

Favorite line: oh my god he says a lot of good things but I don’t know who I would be if I didn’t say “I will stand here with you, for an hour, a day, a year while you find a way to accept this outcome so we might leave here together” and then the parallel speech to Madi…….. I’m alive and living and this is going to kill me

Favorite outfit: anything but his beginning blue jacket that jacket is the worst lol

OTP: silverflint or him and Madi

Brotp: before Billy…… was cancelled, him and Billy were good buds and I liked it

Head Canon: that he dated that one guy who drowned with the goat Muldoon or something 

Unpopular opinion: do people like his blue jacket? I hate it

A wish: that he can at least be happy with Madi at the end and their relationship is eventually fixed which I think the thing on the cliff alludes to

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen: death…… sadness…….

5 words to best describe them: manipulative, secretive, loving, enduring, perceptive as fuck

My nickname for them: none but what if everybody called him Johnny

Billy Bones:

Why I like them: ok have you seen him. he’s so handsome CHRIST. But also he’s always like the voice of reason which is really nice up until season 4. I think I latched onto him bc I already really liked Tom Hopper because of Merlin but he’s also pretty strong in the face of torture and everything he stands for being turned against on his ship, even if it’s not always what I stand for

Why I don’t: season 4? I don’t know her. Also he doesn’t like James and I. would die for James

Favorite episode (scene if movie): I liked it when he was quartermaster for a bit he was a p good quartermaster in season 1 and I also liked the episodes where he “made” Long John Silver and Captain Flint

Favorite season/movie: Idk probably season 1 bc that is when things are still gentle…… innocent…….. good…..

Favorite line: the fuck tent line is iconic. “perhaps we can all agree to forgo, you know, just this once, a fuck tent” when will your fave

Favorite outfit: shirtless 

OTP: idk he definitely dated Ben Gunn js

Brotp: him and Gates

Head Canon: he is asexual as fuck have you ever met him? asexual biromantic. sorry i make the rules and I stick by them 

Unpopular opinion: this isn’t an unpopular opinion i’m sure but billy after s3 can choke. before s3 he’s fine. after…… don’t talk to me about that 

A wish:for him to come to his fucking senses and stop being a horrible idiot

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen: for him to stay a fuck lik ehe was at the end fo s4

5 words to best describe them: headstrong, loyal, sentimental, ideological, determined

My nickname for them: i dont’ have one but can you imagine if ppl called him bilbo 

The Doctor:

Why I like them: I mean this really depends on which Doctor you know? this one’s probably going to be long bc I’m gonna do a bit about all the new whos. So 9 I like because he’s very brave and determined in the face of everything he just lost and because he has such a good heart when he easily could have been so cold. And when he is faced with how he has hardened some, he always works on getting better and being a better person. also idfk but like christopher eccleston is all of our uncles who brings us the cool like $20 iTunes cards. 10 I like because he’s so loving that it kind of ruins him. Like that kind of is the way of the Doctor but he just keeps on loving and loving and loving until he’s traveling alone desperately looking for some fun and some companionship so he doesn’t have to feel the hurt of Rose and Donna and doesn’t have to feel how badly he misses Martha. He’s like. He’s like the guy that goes and gives you a giant bag full of shit that would suck if you just got it alone but in bulk like deodorant and tissues and socks and shit. 11 I like because he’s very fierce and fiercely protective but also silly and fun like I like how he can be bouncy and stuff and then the next moment he’s been quiet and scary or loud and scary or gentle and wise. 11 forgot to get everyone anything but he’s the main source of laughter so everybody pretends they’re not disappointed bc his gifts are usually cool. 12 I like because. Eyebrows. But also because he’s a lot different than other Doctors like hte Doctor tends to do morally ambiguous things sometimes but it feels like 12 is so much more morally ambiguous than others. He’s angry about everything that’s been done to him and he feels grief from things he hasn’t thought about in a while and it’s an interesting and different twist on him. 12 intentionally got everyone nothing and ate all the vegetables and left. why am i relating them to christmas? i’m materialistic 

Why I don’t: I don’t feel like going that in depth again but I’ll just say I don’t like how Moffat’s Doctors become what the story is about. The story I feel like is supposed to be about not only the Doctor, but the story and the companions, but Moffat’s Doctors are so much the centerpoint of the story that it loses some of the really really cool things from RTD’s era and some of the spirit of the Doctor. moffat is why my farm animals have all run away 

Favorite episode (scene if movie): this is really hard lmao. I’m gonna pick an episode a Doctor. 9- The Empty Child and The Doctor Dances. I like “Everybody lives!” that’s the best. 10- Midnight. That acting tho and really seeing 10 scared and helpless is something different and really cool. Also The End of Time bc it’s literally the best episode of anything in existence. 11- Idk I can’t really decide. Maybe “The Big Bang.” I love 11 but for the life of me I can’t ermember a fave ep. 12- I’ve onyl seen s8 and part of s9 but I like that one episode where the Doctor thinks he’s dying with Missy I can’t remember what it’s called

Favorite season/movie: 9 lol he only has one. 10- 2 or 3 I really can’t decide. 11- 5. 12- I’ve only seen 8 fully lol

Favorite line: that requires…… so much thought and so much work. They say a lot of cool things. The Doctor is all about speeches and one-liners lol

Favorite outfit: 11 has the best outfit ngl but 10′s is a close second

OTP: Rose and 10 obvs who doesn’t love them, I mean River and the Doctor have always been good, idk my otps for Doctor Who usually involve companions and their partners

Brotp: all the companions every single one of them I’m alive. have you ever met amy pond. have you ever met martha jones or donna noble. have you ever MET jack harkness 

Head Canon: I have……….. a lot I feel like i couldn’t type all of them up first of all the doctor is gay so jot that down

Unpopular opinion: mmmmmm I’m sure i have some but I can’tt think of them 

A wish: FOR THE DOCTOR TO BE ANYTHING BUT A STRAIGHT WHITE MAN

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen: for 13 to be a straight white man or for Chibnall to be as bad as Moffat :-/

5 words to best describe them: genius, kind, hopeful, loving, vengeful

My nickname for them: I don’t know that I have any but I might that I’m not remembering

[popculturebuffet]

Daisy’s Family Headcanons Reducks: April, May and June

A sequel to my previous post about my headcannons for daisy’s family, the ones seen in “Donald’s Diary” and one of the only good things in it, I also decided to go with the fan theory that Donna is the niece’s mother, and thus fleshed her out.  But I wanted to make damn sure I had the girls down before I had them. You see when doing daisy’s parents, while I did want to do well, and felt I succeded, and her brothers, there’s not a ton of pressure to making my own versions. Their obscure characters and in the brothers case, clearly just HDL in another context and often thought about, so modernizing them isn’t a huge challenge, though it was fun. Donna was an exception, but I felt I did alright, and that my version is decent, though i’ve seen plnety of neat modernizations of her.  The other triplets though.. that’s a harder one since the reboot did something I felt took disney far too long to let someone do: make the triplets distinct. Each of the boys, along with webby the fourth triplet really, is distinct, fleshed out, and a full character. Plus like Donna i’m probably not the first one to try bringing them into the reboot. So the pressure was on. Thankfully  I did get a bone thrown to me that made things that much easier: in the dutch comics around the 80′s the boys all got distinct designs. While Disney approved them, most other countries, their us apperances in house of mouse and three cablleros included, didn’t change them up. However I find the designs nice, mostly timeless and outside of having to give each distinct outfits not really worth a change. Thus I present my versions of april may and june. I went with the colors in this picture I found on the disney wiki, as while they aren’t the colors they go with always, or evne in three cabs, the fact is unlike the boys, the girls don’t HAVE regular colors. No really, even in one bit of a comic I saw on said wiki page, they chaange outfit colors between scenes! So I went with the ones that fit the three and their parllels to the triplets, though I made sure to not just make them “girl version or inversion of the triplet. “ Like with Daisy, I wanted each to be distinct. 

April , May and June respectivley. As outlined in the previous installment the girls mother was a fun, partying type and while she no longer spends every night out, she is still a fun mom, though the girls were, and still are, often babysat by the rest of her family, their grandparents happy to spend time with them as are uncles. They are also quite close to daisy who tries to see the girls at least once a week with her busy schedule. In contrast to the boys though their mother, unlike the boys uncle donald, never really was overproective.. their grandma sure. They also had the benifit the boys didn’t thanks to donald and scrooge’s rift of being raised by their big family from the getgo and are happy to have it get bigger with Daisys’s probable marriage to donald. Now onto each girl specicfically.  April:  Wears pink and a ponytail, though like Huey being the only one of the boys to wear a hat she’s the only one who still wears a bow, a pink version of the one her aunt wears in the reboot being her standard.   April worships her aunt, both in style and personality, and thus seeks to be just like her when she grows up, and thus tries to change things up daily, though her shirt is always hot pink and longsleeved with an interchangable skirt. She’s also the oldest of the triplets and can be bossy at times as a result, though like with Huey and the nephews her sisters uusally just ignore it. That being said she does genuinly llove them and is the one that does their hair. She’s also very buisness minded and brand concious and thus is constnatly trying to start a fashion empire at age 10, with her aunt and mom trying to remind her she has time to work up to that. She also has a video blog she does style tips and other stuff on, heavily monotired by her mother but fully approved. IN a scrap she’s more than wiling to go and fights using whatever she can get her hands on, and her go to move is to start with hair spray to the eyes as she always has a can handy, before using it to bludgeon her opponent.  May: May, having the headband still, wears the top of a tracksuit and is a fitness nutt. Fiting her outfit she does track and field and dance, and is trying to do both for as long as she can. She gets up early, exercises and works hard , and tries to be just about everyone’s friend, for good or ill. She’s also highly sarcastic around her sisters, with april giving as good as she gets, but means well and will defend both in an instant, and wiling to fistfight. She’s fine iwth her hands getting damaged but dosen’t risk using her legs for more than momentum or movement.  June:  The youngest, she wears pigtalls and the traditional long sleeved shirt. June is studious, knowing lots and lot sof things.. but not great at school being an atypical thinker, having mild autisim and not being able to focus on things that don’t intrest her. As such she knows lots of things but waht she knows tends to vary. She’s also out of synch with things, off in her own imaginative world. That being said she’s the most empathetic of hte three, willing to jump in to help someone with their problems at amoments notice.. even if she has no idea or her own ideas are either over complex or only helpful in her own head. Her hobbies can very wildly depending on what she’s into at the time, though she has a cactus she tends too no matter the hobby named bertram that she also takes with her everywhere possible and even sleeps with at night with him always next to her (though not cuddling ti, her mom had to put a stop tot hat), wherever she sleeps, otherwise she just can’t.  And there you have it. I hope I did okay. and if not eh. Either wya I had fun and intend to use them in the future. 

[morisninethlion]

i live for any AUs that turns this incredibly dark and painful story into a bunch of people in their early 20s being total nerds

also the movie AU, where it’s all a tv show/movie. I love it. Just,,,, just imagine iwth me. its beautifl. i love. getting long and spoilery under cut

so for 999, Ace is actually like the sweetest fucking person ever. He legit terrified everyone the first time he had to act like he’d snapped, and afterwards he kept apologizing but everyone was like ‘oh my god no man it was incredible’

junpei and aoi are the set pranksters, nobody is safe from them. Clover helps too sometimes, together they are unstoppable, with the exception of Light. Hes actually blind in real life too, but any time they try to prank him he just knows.

Aoi and Akane are siblings irl, and Akane and Junpei start dating partway through filming. Aoi’s super protective big bro and is 100% judging Junpei until he’s decided that Junpei is okay enough for Akane

Lotus and Seven are actually already married, and have been for a long time. They actually have identical twin daughters irl as well, and one of them plays the role of Nona in the flashbacks.

the ninth man, cap, and guy X were all kinda bummed that they got so little screen time, but at the same time don’t mind too much because they got some of the easier roles. Nine in particular was actally almost sick when he first saw what ‘his’ body ended up as, and he was legit nervous taking clover as hostage. Even though the knife was fake, after every take he’d apologize and make sure she was okay

once vlr happens, it’s a mostly new cast but everyone’s still super hyped. Imagine tenmyouji is junpei’s irl grandpa, Quark is Junpei’s little brother. Luna and Diana are identical twins, and Dio and Carlos are brothers- Dio’s the new set prankster for this one, along with Phi (and clover helps out obvs). 

they actually get two actors for Sigma, one for old sigma and one for young. They have to do a lot of tricky camera work to hide sigma, but they manage to actually keep the reveal somehow.

ztd, Eric is Sean’s big brother, and he’s dating Mira irl. Eric was really kinda uncomfortable with his character at first, and mira and sean both helped him out with it a lot, growing used to it over time. Mira frickin loved her role, she doesn’t usually get to play the really crazy ones so it was a blast for her. 

Delta is pretty dang old, but he’s got a ton of sass. He’s always making jokes, like someone asks if he wants a burger for lunch and he’ll be like “no, not complex enough for my motives”. 

just,,,,,,, screams i love AUs where they’re all actually happy and okay

[traceofnonpresence]

 when will this Stop. I don’t know. I can’t write. but if I don’t I’m going to slip back into my thoughts, losing even more time and I can’t afford that--- it was 3am mere moments ago but now it’s 7am--- I. can’t be in time. So much panic, but not mine, just a panic that exists alongside me. I’ve got 2500 words to write before midnight tomorrow, but. I. m having so much trouble trying to make my thoughts remain in space long enough to even register a trace in memory, how can I possibly even begin the attempt to translate ---. I. just, ---- here, a list: 

-need to write 2500 words

-slept for maybe one hour within the last two days

-probably took too many stimulants 

-I. can’t stop feeling the urge to emotionally regress(?) --- (I so desperately want to crawl into my closet and just cry and rock myself into oblivion, resurrecting past moments whose existence in the present shouldn’t even be possible. Why did it start and when will it Stop!) . And on top of that, I think The Experience is taking on new textures, new intensities(?). And so of what modality is my being here right now?

-I told the therapist I can’t afford the payment to continue to see her twice a week. To which she replied something like she doesn’t think that’s enough. And. I don’t know. moment of panic (?) I feel so much guilt, so disgusted at myself(???). I think maybe what perplexes is that I can’t understand why -------

--------I keep circulating back, finding in new places, this feeling that there’s a sense in which Reality, as was the experienced world, has Ended, and this(my) current existence is merely a lingering consciousness which has since loosened itself, now taking on the consistency of dreams --- or perhaps those associative fantasised imaginations --- and that soon, as it further disperses  (as I am ), the condition of possibility for forms itself will be irretrievably lost (as this dispersed state does not produce enough material for adequate definition which forming and so forms require for its existence); and so all this will disappear---- ; so I can finally Be Gone. not enough awareness to be considered as existing in any significant sense anyways, and so to loosen, 

------how am i supposed to write an essay to be read when this is apparently the ‘logic’ I’m thinking iwth now.

A 2500 word essay

[finalmisumderstandings-blog]

myshirt is covered in snot. ive been crying for a reallylong time but it  felt really good. its nice to see my actual pain and let it out. but its just scary everything im going to have to do to make it better. i dont know how to be better, im not sure how to change my life or improve. i dont knowthe next step im supposed to make within myself or on the outside of myself. im terrified. my lifeis just in a fucking shitfest and i want to get out of this and never fall back into it again. dear god i would never want anyone to feel this way. i just want to learnfrom it all so i never fall for it again. i know i make important decisions to fast or dont make any at all. the reason why my lfie went the course it did is for that reason alone. stop fuckign iwth your hair. i keep fucking with it and its just made it all the worse. stop imagining theres shit wrong with you health wise, like a hypochondriac. i know im miserable and its due to how i think. i give up before i can form an actual thought, i never think anythin through. i try to shield myself away from the pain. i try to create this wall, or impenderable shell where no emotion can come in or out because if it does i wil unwind. i dont even share about how i feellike my day is going. im very cut off from my own experience and my own emotions. i dont go out of my way to think about the things that i like or get stuff thati do like. i dont try to do anything, i just let life “happen”. is this from my mom? just seeing always be sad in her room all the time. has it made me the same way? i dont want to be like my mom, my mom is too smart for her own good. for her sake its never good to be right all the time. i dont feel like a woman. like the persona of a woman being wise and emotionally caring and thoughtful. i dont feel like i fit any of those archytypes. i feel like i fool to myself. absorbed in my own problems, my own interpertations, my own world. im fixated on the “right thing” always the right thing, theonly right answer, the only way things could be the only best solution. the only the only the only the only the only. the smallest form of chance there could eb i focus on it but not really.i focus on trying to do whatever the fuck and it leads me to being narrow minded and ill thoughout. i think i need jesus,