#IM STILL SCREAMJNG

[swiftmitsu]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

some whiteboard doodles of bbgorl killer I made with @swiftmitsu !!! xxddd

[bluebellhairpin]

I am preparing for another emotionally and mentally exhausting day, bc today is the day im going to be told my wisdom teeth need to come out.

[iooiu]

i think i just got shadowbanned

[odysseys-blood]

it is so loud everywhere and i dont even have anywhere to go for silence anymore

[rubus-yunnion]

WHATATATAHAHHSHDJDJDJJDJFJCCJ????!!;@;(1(@8#7#7-2-2

"All liars!"

Rest well, Ewan Muir and Terry Innes. May your afterlives be as entwined as your fates always were.

(Loosely inspired by one of my favorite movie posters.)

[fyodior]

So what are your headcanons about the BSD man's dick sizes? I would love to hear your opinion! Oh,maybe throw in if they rather go play safe or go raw? I'm sorry if that's like too much to ask

baby my love are u new here talking abt dick size is basically vanilla jgdsjhf welcome

ANYWAY in fic i love writing them all to have huge dicks personally bc i think its more fun that way but its not actually what i think

fyodor - long and skinny. for sure. like 6.5 inches hard but mf is SKINNY. still can work fucking magic it just doesnt have that. chefs kiss pizzazz girth. STILL SO GOOD THO. totally always raw if you get pregnant he’ll just kill you😭 also mf is so a virgin

dazai - good but nothing insane. 5-6 inches hard, average thickness. like for sure a good time but ur not gonna be screaming to your friends afterwards abt what it looked like. i’m stuck bc half of me wants to say raw bc he’s reckless but also i think he’d rather die than have a kid hgdsjgf um. if theres a condom easily on hand yeah he’ll use it but he doesn’t go OUT of his way

odasaku - oh i just know this man is HUGE. hard probably between 6-8 inches but i just know he’s thick as fuck like ur gonna struggle with that one. DEFFFF a condom guy if ur not in a relationship but also i don’t really see him as a hookup guy. he’s breeding kink but responsible breeding kink like he’s only gonna breed you if you can handle it financially/emotionally hfdjhfhh so id say condom usually

chuuya - the thing about rly short and skinny guys is that even if they have average size dicks they look huge fjshdjsd so id say chuuya is average like 5.5 inches hard and maybe a little thicker but mf is 5’3 and like max 100 lbs that thing looks massive💀 def condom the pm aint a place for a kid

fukuzawa - im in tears this mans cock is huge i cant even talk about it

mori - im iffy about mori ill be honest. if i HAD to guess just bc hes sexy and id bone him in a heartbeat its probably similar to dazai like good def good but not screamjng crying throwing up purely just on size ya get me. id say play it safe mf has got enough on his hands already

[flunkett]

tumblr just wont load for me but i can still post so it feels like im screamjng into nothing..helplessly

[randompajamaalt]

…Esttie.

…….ESTTIE.

I cannot VERBALLY TELL YOU HOW AMAZING THIS IS. I’m currently rolling aroun on the FLOOR and SCREAMING. Marry me omgs

THE LITTLE DETAILS,, GErry’s sharp teeth, the shrek slut shirt, Michael’s HANFS, and.. UGHHHHH MICHAEL’S HAIR IM SCREAMJNG

idk how you do it. AND IDK HOW YIU STILL CONPLIMENT MY ART WHRN YOU DRAW STUFF LIKE THIS??? Insane. You are so cray cray ily

putting you in a SALAD SPINNER ilove this so much

IUUUUUGGGHHHHHHH I CANT GET OOOOOOVER THIS

Marry me. Now

Doorkeay/Gerrymichael coffee shop shenanigans + my silly brainrot with Gerry calling Michael "curls" like some cliche highschool badboy because I find it cute and no one can stop me RAAAAHHH—

Also, HUGE thanks to @distortionenby for helping me with suggestions for this piece AND for correcting my basic yet terrible english mistakes :') GO CHECK IT OUT

Zoomed in versions:

[macbieths]

alya straight up said “no one cares what YOU think chloé” and I just want to appreciate that for a second

[dicksoutformtl]

This kid @ Walmart has air pods,, he was like 7 maybe like 10 years old how,, how did his family afford those like bruh we don’t have many high paying jobs here and ???

[jackkal]

just found out my cousins gay through tinder

[lehaniixd]

IM SORRY PLEASE MÍ AMIGO MÍ AMOR MI VIDA MY FRIEND MY *OTHER ENDEARING TERM* YOJ GOTTA UNDERSTAND I WAS JOKING PLEASE ILL NEVER TAKE ANY CLAIM YOU MAKE SERIOUSLY AGAIN ILL DRAG YOU INTO THE COLD RECCES OF ABNORMALITY KICKING AND SCREAMJNG DONT TURN UR BACK ON ME DONT LEAVE ME WE STILL HAVE SO MUCH STUFF TO DO SO MANY THINGS TO ACHIEVE TO MAKE OUR LIVES COMPLETE DONT BE MAD PLEASE

When your wife teases and pulls you along <<<<<<<<<<

[maraczeks]

newsroom rw thread pt 10

[thisisdefinitelyacreativename]

I'm so mad at my brother rn mannnn

[wonwoonlight]

*there's a part where i mention almost getting cut JSJDJDJ*

currently on break and i have come to be annoying again 😥😥 anyWYAS those muffins went great :D and story time (this is gonna be long im so sorry ><) two people came in like 3 hrs ago and i didn't want to assume but they were probably on a date,,,like those dates where u confess HSJCJDJ so like they ordered their stuff and sat near the counter,,,even if i wasn't listening i still heard them loud and clear HSJXDJ but there were customers so i couldn't put my full attention on them (I WANT TO HEAR IT UNFOLD 😭😭😭) but then,,,there was a cake delivery (my mom makes them at our house bcs it's easier <3) so i switched places with my co-worker: him @ the counter and me @ the dessert section (basically a table where we arrange our take out cakes/slice the cakes and all that) sO i was now directly in front of them JSJDJJDJD and luckily,,the girl (her name is rei) just started speaking so i miraculously didn't miss anything,,,rei asked the boy (his name is joshua [WHAT A COINCIDENCE] asked him his name for his drink too <3) okay so rei asked joshua the usual question: why did u bring me here? i don't rmb what happened next bcs my co-worker (can we call him mingyu </3 i wanna experience what it's like to be delulu 💔💔) ok so mingyu called me bcs he was having trouble with the pay machine thing (til this day, i still don't know what it's called) so i did that and when i came back joshua said "out of all the places, you're probably wondering why i brought you here" rei said "was wondering that too" then she let out the cutest little giggle ever 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 joshua said "would you like to know why?" "why?" "because they make me realize your similarities with each other" "how so?" "the cafe,,,it's sweet, bright, a place of comfort, and i like them. they make me feel like myself" (rmb this happened like??? 3hrs ago so i forgot most of the words they exchanged 😭😭) AT THIS POINT I WAS BASICALLY SCREAMJNG INSIDE (almost cut my finger with the kn1fe too </3) anyways there was this silence that made it so nerve-racking but then rei said "what a coincidence. i was literally thinking that when you said we were going to a cafe" mY HEART 😭😭😭😭 was so 😭😭😭 FULL OF LOVE??? AND JOY???? so they both laughed and hugged each other and got together, i gave them free cookies :D im so sorry this sucked even tho i was sharing an irl story HSJSJDJD this is why i didn't pick english as my major </3 (culinary saved my ass fr) and if it's okay, do you have any other communication platforms other than tumblr? so that we can talk more:00 hehe dw i wont be annoying </3 also in the midst of writing this i suddenly remembered the synopsis of haven cloud HAHSHSJJS don't worry i'll spare u the embarrassment when i find smth wrong 💖💖 (+remember, being a cafe owner/staff is the best vip seat to love <3)

nOOOOOOOOOO OGMJENDNES YOU ARE WITNESSING MY SCENARIOS IRL IM SO JEALOUS 😭😭😭😭 PLEASE DO SHARE MORE WTFFFFFF THESE THINGS ACTUALLY HAPPEN IRL???😭😭😭😭😭

I do have discord if u want to talk there!!! Just dm me and I'll add u🤍🤍

and yES literally the main idea of haven cloud is to just. Witness happenings in everyday life 🥲🤍 find the beauty in them and romanticize little things hehe

[irl]

wow!

yo money problems lol

//vent

okay like. ik im traumatized but like its wild every day i uncover new facets to the trauma

hold on lemme like. pack a bowl and get myself set up for success

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that break was like an hour longer than id anticipated but its given me time to calm down and all.

anyway i was homeless for a while, the hippie manipulated me into it, and financially abused me for like two straight years of hell yadda yadda whatever

like ive always had money problems, i grew up poor and id only ever not been dirt poor for like 6 months (ah. the first half of 2021…………… except the job was killing me tbh) but like. what the hippie put me through was a whole different level that i dont think ive even begun to recover from

listen. living out of a four door hatchback that was filled with Stuff and Shit and Trash and Shit and Who Knows What and Shit and also infested with cockroaches. to the point where even during the middle of the day in the blazing heat with no ac while driving ans they have literally 80% of the vehicle to hide in and they were still crawling up my legs. when i slept i had to wrap my head and face up in my blankets i was twrrified of them crawling into my mouth or nose or ears and there were so many i felt like it was a definite reality.

that does things. being forced to live like that. off of nothing. i had lit cigarettes flicked at my head while i stood at an interstate exit with a sign begging strangers for money with no other option because of the trap the hippie had ensnared me in.

of course her main priority — and thus mine because keeping me high all the time was important for her to keep control — was to get enough each day for more weed. enough for us to get some food from the dollar menu from mcdonalds to “get some good protein in us” and sometimes we even had enough to go to some dollar store and spend ten dollars and leave with fifty dollars worth of food. enough to last us the week and feed all three of us. me, her, and her son.

i learned how to con. i learned how to steal. i learned how to scam. i did it more times than i could count. nothing bad against like. actual people. sometimes id pull a con on someone with a fancier car to get a couple gallons of free gas. this was back in 2019 and 2020 when gas was Cheap Cheap. everything else was always done at big box stores

ofc eventually we got caught. or rather she got caught and dragged me down with her kicking and screamjng and flailing and to more trauma but that was just a few hotel visits at jail it wasnt that bad lol

anyway. im, i think understandably, terrified of that happening again lmao. not just the financial abuse and the situation but like even to the root core being homeless again.

every time i lose track of my spending outside of more than a Five Dollars Definite Range i start freaking out. immediately and fully i am convinced that all of my money is gone and i have Nothing At All and im going to miss rent and im going to be kicked out and im going to have nothing tomorrow and i wont be able to survive it this time (even if rhis outrageous thing were to happen i would survive it but when im in a spiral i cant remember it).

god Forbid that my banks website is down or unresponsive when i try to check to assuage myself. thats when i start immediately and fully panicking. i start crying its hard for me to self regulate. i cant bring myself away from the reality ive convinced myself of and i obsessively check the bank app in any browser or way i can until i find an answer

so its fun