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jackienautism · 2 years ago

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what if i threw up

I love both my wives but ashley could have survived the quarry and abigail could not have survived until dawn

#IM SAD BC THEYRE SO RIGHT #it’s making me emotional rn i am being so normal about this #bc that’s… what happened at the firepit. that’s literally what happened #the majority of them ganged up on her over something so fucking stupid and undeserved #abis so very clearly on the outside of this group and i think everyone picks up on it #and ofc it’s the most autistic coded girl right? GOD #anyway sorry op i think you’re right. but tbf i’d say the majority of TQ kids wouldn’t survive UD fnjsjf #rbs #text #ashley brown #abigail blyg #TQ #UD

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soukeyed · 1 year ago

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love these outfits a lot

#sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sonadow #my art #SO SAD you can only get them in sa2b. i want to dress up in singleplayer without mods!!!!!!!!!!!!!#anyway i did steal some bits from their sss designs like the headsets bc i think theyre cool #working on my own versions of this idea #+ outfit for rouge+amy as well :D #i feel like im finally getting shadows hair right everyone clap for me!!!!!!!!

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writer-room · 7 months ago

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I've decided the only reason Lloyd, known descendant of dragons, didn't tell this to Egalt, who refuses to train non-dragons, is for the same reason he never mentioned he's the First Spinjitsu Master's grandson. It just never came up. Nobody asked him directly about it. And besides, he's only like, one-fourth dragon, so does it really count? He doesn't look like a dragon, and he has never in his life considered himself a dragon. Mentioning his ancestry to Egalt probably would've just made him look like some hotshot, or make him more annoyed. There's no need to bring up such a silly little fact. He's sure it won't be important later.

#ninjago #ninjago dragons rising #lego ninjago #dragons rising #lloyd garmadon #first spinjitsu master #egalt #text post #talk #dragon lloyd garmadon #the real likelihood is that the writers just quietly brushed that little fact aside (im so sad abt it)#but i think its infinietly funnier that lloyd went down the spinjitsu master route #it just never came up. no one asked. and hes not a COMPLETE dragon so like. why bother telling egalt #the whole time i was waiting for egalt & rontu to b like 'WHO in their SPINJITSUDAMED MIND trained you'#and theyre just like 'oh this guy named sensei wu hes lloyds uncle hes like a master' & egalt is like 'sounds like bs'#then arin as a huge nerd pipes up like 'AND HES THE FSM'S GRANDSON :D'#to which rontu and egalt break their necks whirling around like 'THIS SCRAWNY LITTLE PUNK IS W H A T'#egalt straight up refuses to believe it. rontu is very quickly doing the math & freaking out abt it #wherever these guys are from it might not even be ninjago so like they might not even know the fsm had sons #rontu: im sorry. so youre the grandson. you are aware your grandfather was half dragon half oni. right?#egalt in the background 'THAT BOY IS N O T A DRAOGN I REFUSE TO BELIEVE IT'#lloyd blinking owlishly like 'oh yeah i guess so. im only like 1/4th tho'#'BOY YOU ARE 1/4 OF ONE OF THE MOST POWERFUL DRAGONS IN FCKING EXISTANCE'#'YOU ARE THE GRANDSON OF MY GREAT-GREAT GRANDMASTER'#the midlife crisis these dragons would have. the crisis the kids would have realizing this #lloyd now cannot go 3 minutes without someone asking 'is there any world-shattering fun facts abt yrself you wanna share'#the fun part is that lloyd forgets all of those informations bc its like. a normal day for him #no one tell wyldfyre she'll flip

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ywpd-translations · 1 year ago

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Ride 747: Sugimoto's back

Pag 1

1: His spirit trained them, and now his back sees them off

Pag 2

1: Those who won just look forward.....

Pag 3

1: Danchiku has won this race!!

2: Since they arrived at the same time on the second day, three of their races ended in a draw

3: And the fourth, the last lap with the ban on surpassing....

5: Showing an astounding tenacity, he held Sugimoto down and got the better of the final sprint before the finish line...

Pag 4

1: The second year Danchiku Ryuuhou obtained the jersey of the Inter High members!!

Pag 5

1: Ruaaaa!!

2: Yes!!

3: Let's go to the Inter High together!!

Hahaha, Danchiku!!

4: Danchiku-kun....

5: Ah!

Sugimoto-kun....

Pag 7

4: Sugimoto!!

Sugimoto!!

Imaizumi-kun

Pag 8

1: Nii-chan!!

Sugimoto fell!!

2: What was the crash just now.... huh!?

Huh

3: Sugimoto-san!?

He swayed.... and fell down as if he completely lost his tsrength!!

Is he conscious!?

Is he alright!? Sugimoto-kun

With that fall...

Pag 9

1: Sugimoto!!

6: Are you okay? Do you need ice water? Do you want a towel?

Pag 10

1: Imaizumi-kun....

Hotshot....

2: Did you give everything you had?

4: It....

5: It.... sure... seems like it

6: ….. everything

Pag 11

1: When I saw.... Danchiku from behind.... and I saw him raising his hand.... I don't know why but....suddenly... all my strength.... left me

5: It was a run that made us shake, an all-out sprint that captivated those who were watching you

6: You were cool

7: Could you.... pour some ice water on me

Pag 12

2: It made me shake too....!!

I felt the strength of Sugimoto-kun's wishes!!

It was the best run ever!!

3: So cold... it feels...so nice

4: Imaizumi

5: Yeah

6: Teru

Pag 13

2: Huh!? No... that's... that's

3: Teru?

4: Imaizumi... maybe, if on the fourth day... I go all out

5: If I get to go to the Inter High....

6: Could you call me “Teru”?

Ah? Why- ah, Teru as in... Terufumi?

7: No, no, well, it's just an idea!! I'll ask you again on the fourth day, yes!!

8: It doens't matter how I call you

You- you're right, it doesn't matter

9: But I'll ask you! Imaizumi

Please call me Teru from now on!!

Let's fight together in our last Inter High!

If I win...

Pag 14

2: That was supposed to happen if I had won...

It doesn't matter...

4: Thank you

5: Imaizumi....

6: Imaizumi

7: Please

Pag 15

2: Ride with my feeling of three years too

4: To the Inter High

Pag 16

1: Go there, Imaizumi!!

Pag 17

1: Got it, Teru!!

3: Sugimoto-kun.... you pushed Imaizumi-kun's!!!

4: Back!!

5: Danchiku!!

Pag 18

3: You too!!

Be resolved!!

4: Yessir!!

Pag 19

1: Thank you much for this all-out race!!

Thank you!!

2: Nii-chan!! On

Ah... Sadatoki...

3: I'm sorry, I wanted to show you something cool, but

4: I los....

5: Um... well, how do I say... if I put it into words, then that's it...

I los...

6: Imaizumi, could you give me the towel

Pag 20

1: Uaaaaa, I lost

Pag 21

1: I lost, I lost!

2: Uaaaaa

3: You fought by yourself, and you never gave up, over and over

Sugimoto, today you were the strongest

4: Dammit, I'm so frustrated too

Can't you do something about it, Onoda!?

5: Sugimoto did his best! And without doing anything wrong, too!!

Pag 22

1: On the fourth day of training camp, at 19:10 of the last day, the third year Sugimoto Terufumi.... with 45km out of 1000km left, retired

2: “Retirement race”....

Pag 23

1: Imaizumi, Naruko, and Onoda cleared the laps they had left

2: At 19:50, with plenty of time left, they cleared the whole 1000km

3: The two second years, Danchiku and Kaburagi, cooperated and cleared the whole 1000km, too

The other first and second years decided to retire early and ran errands

Pag 24

1: On the course

2: Remained two people, the first year Kinaka Tsugunao and Rokudai Renta

#yowamushi pedal manga #yowamushi pedal #yowamushi pedal translations #yowapeda #yowapeda manga #yowamushi pedal spoilers #ride 747 #so is yowapeda a shoujo now asdghasdjhsgf #sugimoto may have lost the race but he did win Imaizumi's heart #the real win was the boyfriend we got along the way #NO BUT SERIOSULY THIS CHAP WAS THE MOST TENDER THING EVER WTF #gently stroking your buddy's cheek and calling him a cute nickname is pretty gay imaizumi did you know that #i didnt even know imaizumi could be THIS SWEET #THEYRE SO CUTE ;A;#but also #there's many pages in this chap that really fckin HURT #sugimotooooo ;A;#im SO SAD for him #but also so happy bc yk theyre dating now right #(im saying this as the biggest imanaru shipper eh i want to make it clear lmao)#(watanabe has the talent of making me ship every single possible ship #theyre all a little canon after all)#(yowapeda sure is a multishipper's heaven)#but anyway!! next chap we're going back to my babies!!!!#And the question still stands: what if both of them complete the 1000km what then #why should danchiku go instead of both of them #or what if neither of them finish the 1000km so none of them can go #what then WHAT THEN #i said it already but this whole thing makes no sense when theres 2 spots left on the team saghdjas

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rosylix · 3 months ago

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#im so upset ok literally no one cares but #my bedroom at home was getting kinda redone this summer #we repainted and added shelves above my desk and styff #so i displayed my album collections on the shelves it was so slay ok it was fire #and #today as i was adjusting things #the shelf with my skz collection just fucking rips out of the wall bro #like BROO?? there are holes in my wall now but idec bro MY ALBUMS???? l #it was so high up too im. they fell from a catastrophic height.#literally every single one of my skz albums falling to the floor which is like at least 50 or smth idek #no that sounds too high but you know. A LOT #i have from mixtape to rockstar not every singlr one but yeah #MY LIMITED ALBUMS?? THESR ARE EXPENSIVE HOLY #im taking a deep breath rn #actually looking from through my tears they didnt look Too beat up (except noeasy fuck that packaging) and except my stay in playground pho #photobook case CRACKEDDDD og my god. its judt the outer plastic case but i. am. so. sad #that is like $50 bro #anyway god #now we have to somehow fix it. we used these shelves before in my sisters room and they've held up great but she pretty much puts stuffed an #animals and thats it lol #did not account for my shitload of albums creating a ton of weight but well.#theyre supposed to hold 170 lbs are my albums rly more than that holy shit #ANYWAY #this litrtally happenrd 15 minutes ago thats why im venting rambling idk #now i have to sleep in my moms room AGAINN until these are fixed #like i love her but i like sleeping alone god pls #(i also primarily write at night and. well its not the easiest to write smut and stuff when ur mother is right next to u.)#GOD UGH. idk its fine but im #silver lining is it wasnt my loona collection bc not only are those rare ash i swear they dent from a strong gust of wind bro #I REACHED TAG LIMIT LMAO I DIDNT KNOW THAT WAS A THING BYE

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bunnihearted · 3 months ago

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#kinda really very sick and twisted to be unable to let go #of someone... and have it affect u so bad #that u neglect all other relations and possible connections #not even on purpose just bc u feel so fkn dejected and empty and sad #and that this person made u feel things that u didnt even know u could feel #so it's like a new drug that hits u just right and does the exact thing u need #and then it is gone and u suffer the withdrawls #but then also... every other hit of every other drug just doesnt come close to feeling just right #so it just leaves u feeling more empty and lost. unable to find purchase #but it is so so sad and also bad and not at all what u want #u want to find other things!!! nurture other things!!!#for yourself. but also bc it feels so humiliating that the other person is not at all in the same space #theyre not suffering withdrawls from u. they switched u out. u arent needed. or wanted. or desired. anymore.#they arent obsessed or twisted up inside or crazy about u like u are for them.#theyre busy with someone else who arent u.#so why arent u out there trying to force every last ounce of that amazing... but nonetheless the drug out of your system #u cant give up on everything else to stay in a space of mourning smth u wanted so bad but didnt get #well whatever idek what tf im saying what was i gonna say...

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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months ago

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#my dads back in ohio again so im back on my own. i still feel terrible but at least i have a plan #i have 2 weeks of this semester left. so i have to not fail my genomics exam and work on a group project plus grade a bunch #shouldnt be too hard but everything makes me so tired rn and i just feel this barrier between myself and everything else #even when my dad was here. i just dont kno how to feel happy. just varied levels of stress #but after the semester is over ill have to find a job for the summer. which super stresses me out bc i havent really had a real job outside #academia and im worried about how stressful ill find it bc im sure its gonna suck but at least i wont have to work on my project #i just think if i had a normal job that doesnt dominate every aspect of my life id feel a little less terrible. or at least i wouldnt send #myself spiralling so much. if i stay here i might not survive it #but what if ill just make myself miserable wherever i am? i dunno. but im gonna try to find a non academic job this summer with the epa or #maybe the usgs. i mean ive gota a bachelor's and a masters in environmental topics. that's gotta count for something #just get a government job. pray for a not terrible set of coworkers. and build something from there #it just sucks bc i feel like everythings falling apart and like i kno if i gave it my all i could pull thru and get my phd but im just so #tired of struggling against something everyone else can do. i just cant read at a level appropriate for what im doing #ugh. i dont wanna study for genomics. i just wanna sleep. i just wish i wasn't in this position #and now i a baby about it. i mean my sisters r in similar positions bc the youngest is currently looking for a teaching job. and my middle #sister is looking to move to new york city in the next 6 months and she'd be quitting her job for that. so we're all sorta in flux #i just wanna not be flailing. not watch my hopes and dreams collapse. be excited about anything. im just sad bc i have to make hard choices #even if i know theyre the right ones to make if i want to continue to exist. sometimes u cant have the things u wany.#and that sucks and i hate it. theme of the year: sometimes life sucks and theres nothing u can do abt it #unrelated

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uwooyoungs · 9 months ago

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ok i just watched dff ep 11 and i. am going insane.

#i cannot piece together A Thought right now bc holy fuck SO MUCH happened in the last like 10-20 mins of that ep #my only thought is that it seems the finale is going to be v much based on each character's fears #as ig theyre all currently knocked out on hallucinogenics #im. I STILL NEED TO KNOW WTF FLUKE'S DEAL IS #and it looks like white rly is just sweet bby boy :(((#never thought id feel so fhckin sad for tee #everyone's theories about non were (maybe??? seemed pretty real) proved wrong #new/tan rly is unhinged as all fuck #phee truly stuck himself into a serious moral dilemma #mad kudos to barcode as usual #big fuckin kudos to all of them tbf #also im still a weeee bit confused abt perth lmao #there were all these big theories but like unless he shows up or does smth in the last ep...#idk i felt like he didnt add a lot to the story in this ep??#wow i lied apparently i did have thoughts #dff #dff the series #dead friend forever

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princessmyriad · 16 days ago

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#personal #it feels like im not allowed to complain about my own life on my own blog #or at least that if im allowed to that it seems very firstworld problem very selfish very not appropriate with all thats going on #that people will and do think less of me for expressing my own sadness and frustrations because theres no way it compares #to a lot of peoples very big and very real problems #but im so fucking sick of being poor and small. all ive had to eat today is 2min noodles roughly 10 hours ago #and all ill get tomorrow is a bowl of 2min noodles but ittl be another 15 or so hours until its the most reasonable to eat that #thats the real girlmath and then thats the last of my noodles. that leaves me with one (1) small tin of tuna #which might end up being tonights intermediary food if i really cant wait 15 nore hours for my next noodles but is supposed to be #the one meal of the day after tomorrow. so if i eat it too soon then i have even more time that i just dont fucking eat #im so sick to death of being in this position. like its literally killing me and theres fuck all i can do to make it better #ive tried. and i try and i try and i try but i can never afford anything #my landagent keeps sending me textx asking when theyll see a patment for my $50 water bill #i have to stop myself from texting back every time. youll see payment when im not spending literally 75% of my pay on rent alone #when i can afford to buy food and bills at the same time. whn i dont feel like kms-ing would be better than paying you my rent every frtnite #i crave a burger so bad i cant make myself do any tasks. i cant start or continue any crafts or chores because all im thinking about #is a burger like a blorbo rotating in my mind alongside the background noise that i wont get a burger and will only get noodles but not for #hours. a whole days worth of hours almost #my shitawful roomate is back and i have to play nice but he gives me the same feelings my abusive mother did. im scared to leave my room #in the safeplace house ive spent the last two years building for myself. this feels awful. things were all going so right and now #all of a sudden theyre all going as wrong as possible and im struggling so much. with no one to help. no one cares enough to help #the few people i do have are wrapped up in their own lives. which i get. but it doesnt take away the hurt of dealing with it all alone again #lot of momma trauma coming up with the end of eclipse season and i thought i was handling it. now i just feel fucking awful all the time #like ik healing isnt linear but the roomate triggers so hard things i thought i had processed and was on top of #would a burger fix that? no but itd atleast give me something to emotionally lean on for strength though it. but all ive got is noodles #24 hour apart one meal per day noodles. and tomorrow is my last pack. my only solace lately is that ive been invited to my first ever rave #or my first real rave anyway ive only been to one other 'edm event' that was not really a rave of any scale it was like 25 people #but its a halloween rave so im hoping for spooky fun dancetimes at least theres that. im out of data and spotifyprem so i havent been able #to take my silly little mental health walks bc theres zero chance im doing that without music and so itll be noce to get outside fr the rave #anyway. im doing very poorly i appreciate you few who reached out while i wasnt active but i expect ill continue to do poorly for some time

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nomairuins · 16 days ago

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little man is so cute hes been coming to me for help sounding out words and i taught him a 'trick' so he doesnt forget them on his way back. the trick is just 'repeat the letters while youre walking back so you dont forget' but hes treating me like im the smartest person on the planet for coming up with this

#and it also means i can hear him chanting P O T I O N the entire way back to his room #its sweet im glad he comes 2 me for spelling help... hes honestly rly good its just some tricky ones that get him where its like. the ones #you just have to memorize how theyre spelled bc sounding out doesnt help #like heavy or potion. bc heavy just has an eh sound so he didnt know abt the a and potion has a sh sound so the t was unexpected #but hes rly good at sounding it out and like. it just makes me a bit sad bc my dad gets so snappy when weeman asks for help w spelling #like. he does the sound it out but my dad just has this like. Tone. and he cant just be like. calm #hell be like No thats not right and its like ok this isnt helping #its so easy to just be like Oh i see why you thought that but its actually a bit of a trick one...#like. its not that hard to just sympathize with it and little man responds so well to it like. just saying like Oh yeah i mess up on that #one too. makes him way more likely to keep asking for help and it doesnt make him feel like hes being insulted or anything. IDK #my dads better w that aspect w weeman than he was with tag but im still like. Can we please just treat the kids like ppl worthy of respect #Please itis not that fucking hard .

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phagodyke · 2 months ago

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ah shit only just realised its september now.... lets hope the rest of this month isn't like this.....

#just med shit innit. gonna force myself up at my usual work time even tho i have the day off bc I need to be in my routine or ill lose it #i am. very tired and very sad. and thats ok generally im ok ive been keeping myself so busy for weeks and weeks #and im glad im going out n doing shit often n meeting new ppl n trying to focus more on hobbies n get more on the life balance #but whenever i have a moment to stop i still get so sad. ik exactly why theyre all just old aches n wounds i dont want to wallow in them!!#lately its been well under control i only usually have one actual bad day a week and sometimes its not even a whole day #and the rest im.just busy and i dont know if im just avoiding things and its not satisfying being busy bc im still missing out needs #but i cant fulfil them so might as well stay busy and not think about it!!#and its okay its all okay im just so sad right now :-( but im going to sleep soon and then ill be busy tmr so i dont have to think abt it #i wanna ventpost abt it but also i dont rly want to bc findinf the words to talk abt the things distressing me involves thinking abt it #which will just.make me feel worse. and it wont resolve anything bc its all mostly outside of my control anyway just hurts innit #but im trying hard to make my life bigger than it was before even if its still shallow and not quite enough at least it covers more space #yeah yeah we all want to feel genuine connection and wanted and loved but life doesnt often work out like that so.#hands in your pockets player keep it moving. im goiny to brush my teeth and then rly need to go to bed zzzzz #.diaries #hope everyone else had a nice weekend i had a pretty good saturday at least. and played a lot of videogames today so could be worse #very glad i dont have work tomorrow as well thank u past me for booking it off ahh..

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elfsyellowflowerzart · 3 months ago

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very busy babysitting a duo of kittens (only two months old) the last few days but i shall be drawing when i return home (this includes requests)

and also if anyone wants to see the babies send an ask and i can post them in response hehe i have taken SO many photos

#yew branch #also i just missed a step on the stairs going down and ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow #i am now trapped on the couch until my back stops exploding at least a bit #upside tho is that the kittens are playing together on the couch #sometimes right on my lap!! theyre so so so so cute #i adore them #BUT YEAH i shall be drawing when i return home provided my back allows me to sit upright by that time #bc it sure isnt rn GDJSGJS #im sad ill have to go home tho.. these kittens are some of the cutest beasts alive #life is worth living because every day kittens are playing and having fun #i miiiiiiight be able to indirectly take one #one of my best friends might possibly be able/willing to take one and keep her with her own cat for me #until i move out of my parents house mid next year #so i might get to have... kitten that ive watched grow up from newborns...#the story behind these kittens is that one of my other best friends took in a stray and she turned out to be pregnant #and had these two!!#im also watching the three adult cats in this house but theyre not nearly as much of a handful #as can be imagined this friend is very tired of having 5 cats in the house regardless of how small two of them are GDJSVSN #which is very very understandable #i dont think i would want five cats unless i had a fairly large house. if i had a large house and plenty of free time most of each day #to give them play time and tons of affection #as well as the physical ability to keep up with them all #then id gladly have five cats #who knows maybe someday ill have a nice big house and plenty of spare time and my ddd will be under control #but that doesnt seem likely #aside from ddd being managed! because i have a pain relieving steroid injection tomorrow and then ill be starting physical therapy!!#im excited and i have a lot of hope for at least the physical therapy to help #PLUS THEY HAVE A POOL FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!!!!! AND I LOVE SWIMMING ESPECIALLY AS A GENTLE WORKOUT #and low impact things are very important for my body specifically i cant do high impact exercise or itll hurt me #plus i just love being in water i swear i was meant to be an aquatic elf from dnd

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thestamp3d3 · 1 year ago

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i cant get over how absolutely insane satosugu is...gege was born to write yaoi forced to write shounen

#sorry i remembered hidden inventory arc n im insane about them again :(( SAD LITTLE GAY PEOPLE IN MY PHONE!!!#nah but it just...OUGHHH they make me so upset!!!#its just they way they start out immediately understanding each other bc gojo has been alone on a pedestal basically his entire life+#but then he meets geto who treats him like a normal dude!!! not a weapon!!! and just watching them annoy each other as normal teens +#makes me emotional bc theres so much cruelty and just DEATH in their world but at the least they have each other to get through it!!!#theyre the strongest together after all right!!! then toji happens and gojo starts to perfect his abilities with him automating infinity #and then the gap between the two just gets wider and wider...until the final confrontation where the one who understood gojo all this time #not only leaves him but calls him arrogant at the same time showing gojo the ONLY person who he though understood just..doesnt+#and hes left alone again in the same place he was years ago...AND OUGHHHHH #idk i watched a video analysis of hidden inventory where the guy said geto was just as egotistical as gojo except in having a savior comple #and tbh i never though of that before!! but looking back it makes sense with how he spoke to riko + the way he slaughtered the whole villag #to not just save the girls but also prove to himself that he could make the world he wanted #the guy in the video put it basically that since the gap between gojo and geto was so wide geto would rather be the best villain+#than second best hero and that makes a lot of sense since his ideals/goals as a villain go against his usual rational behavior #he KNOWS its probably impossible (for him at least it wouldnt be for gojo which he admits) but he has to do it for himself #sorry im rambling but AHHHHHH how tf did gege write this??? its such a small part of the story but its arguably the catalyst for everything #aside from plot wise it simply just is impactful emotionally! gege had to go thru a toxic codependent homoerotic friendship to write this+#theres just no other way #jjk #jujustu kaisen #gojo satoru #geto suguru #satosugu

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orcelito · 4 months ago

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Ykno the suckiest thing about being broken up with for someone else is that like. Well I'm doing generally fine, all things considered, but I Am kinda sad thinking about the things I've lost and all the casual affection that I can't have now.

But she's out there having all the affection she wants from her coworker, and it's just like. Damn this feels so skewed and SO unfair.

#speculation nation #and then U add in the fact that the girl she broke up with me for is already dating someone else (poly sort of situation)#and im just like. WHYYYYY did she break up with me instead of trying to negotiate poly???#she was gonna at first but when i expressed concern about poly given her obvious communication problems about it #then she dropped me like a hot coal. like sorry i wasnt about to let myself be stood up and ignored for basically a whole day #just to accept u trying to negotiate poly. like What?????#anyways i may have a bit of a history with being a bit of an asshole and breaking up with them #but at LEAST ive never broken up with anyone to immediately start dating someone else #and at LEAST ive broken up with them in person and not over text!!! the fuck?????#i keep alternating between 'surprisingly okay with it all' and 'maybe a little sad' and 'absolutely fucking LIVID'#and i keep wanting to yell at her more but i already said quite a lot of things. so id just be repeating myself #and at that point id just be a vitriolic piece of shit. which i try not to be.#so im letting her live in peace while i continue to be So Pissed about it and it just sucks man lmfao #why do i gotta be the bigger person fr. i even apologized for the hurtful things i was saying in anger. literally in that same conversation.#and she gets to pull this stunt and walk free and spend so much time with her new 'love' ignoring the world etc etc #honestly i hope it fails miserably for her. bc sure theres a chance it works out but every single part of this is impulsive and So Stupid.#and even tho my ex agreed with me when i told her it was INSANE. she was just like 'i have to' like OKAY????#jesus fucking christmas she's revealed a side to me that i really hadnt seen before.#so i hope it fails and i hope she tells me about it. i hope she owns up to her mistakes. for my own satisfaction.#but i have 0 intention on ever taking her back. because what the fuck????#i may be a flawed individual with plenty of problems. but i still have basic fucking dignity. and i am NOT accepting this back in my life.#and god damn her friend is moving into the unit across from mine for this coming year #and i may have to see my ex sometimes bc of it 😭😭😭#the friend seemed generally level headed tho. idk if i happen across him & he doesnt avoid me maybe i'll ask him what he thinks of this #bc she was treating me with such love and affection showing me off to all her friends. and then she drops me like a fucking coal.#i wouldnt say i made friends with them myself but we were at least friendly. so i doubt theyd have a good opinion of her for this.#so would the friend loyalty take precedence? or would he be willing to chat with me and confirm Yeah what the fuck?#bc if i had a friend who did this same exact thing id be side-eyeing them SO hard.#id support them bc theyre my friend but i would also be like 'hey uh Why did you do that. that was pretty awful of u you know that right'#& itd also make me more cautious of them too. for being Able to drop someone so suddenly lol.

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4giorno · 4 months ago

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i could cry bitch i could cry (positive)

#theyre literally abt to implement cross progression in de4d by daylight right as im thinking abt switching to pc for that game #and i was so sad bc i am a sucker and ive spent a non insignificant amount of money on this game #thank you omg how did sony allow this 😭😭😭💖#its fine that its not here rn bc i need to practice with kb&m #aiming and using camera is obv easier with a mouse but i cant find keys on a keyboard without looking so. i have to learn #when i opened the game for the 1st time in years yesterday i noticed that the changes a long time ago made it so like none of my characters #are leveled anymore so the progression is not so important. its all the dlc and cosmetics 😝

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bunnihearted · 3 months ago

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people leave me but they always have someone else to fill up that space while i keep being all alone bc ppl - who and what they are - and what we shared, really truly mattered to me and i cant just let go and move on and just pick someone new to transfer all of that on... :( and i just wanna talk to them and i miss them but they fill that space talking to the person they actually wanna talk to. it just makes me feel so lonely. and to me, ppl are special. i cant just suddenly stop caring about them and start caring about someone new. im so so so so lonely always in everything i just wanna cry

#i dont blame anyone #im a fucking loser piece of shit. i have nothing to offer. im only a burden and a bother #im stupid im slow i dont know anything abt anything i dont have any skills im not funny.... im not good at anything #im not good FOR anything. so i get it. i get why ppl leave to smth better and toss me to the side #it just makes me so sad bc i cant let go of ppl easily #but nobody ever stays.... :(#and it is so much lonelier when i KNOW they are talking to someone else. someone who isnt me #they dont sit there with no one to talk to no one to be with missing me #lmao.... they have someone that they will start caring about more than they ever cared about me. whi #le im left all alone missing them... wanting to talk to them #but unable to bc they dontwannatalk to me anymore bc theyre talking to the person they actually wanna talk to #why the fuck is my heart so sensitive #i also wanna be able to just fkn leave ppl behind left and right and discard them and jump to the next one without a care #i wanna fucking be like the rest of people like everyone why do i have to suffer sm

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