#IM JUST MUSING TODAY DONT MIND ME

[crescentfool]

literally minding my own business and then i think about how one of my favorite things is how messiah and ryoji share the right hand on the chest pose.

i don’t think this is anything new to anyone who’s been into p3 for awhile but given that reload’s portraits are shoulders up as opposed to half body, it does make me curious how some of the portraits will be adapted... i like the style of reload’s portraits, it’s very fresh, but i will miss the body language that could be conveyed with half body portraits a bunch...! (e.g. bebe, bunkichi, etc.)

i mostly point out ryoji because i’m a Very Biased Guy, but from my own screenshots of FES, i don’t recall ryoji using the... right hand on chest pose in his model, so it’ll be a bit sad to me to see this detail go poof.. only real ones knows!! /s

of course it’s not to say that messiah being such a great representation of ryoji and minato’s bond will be lost on people, as ryoji’s connection to thanatos is made explicitly known but.. i will miss you ryoji hand on chest portrait... but i will look forward to the style update nevertheless 🙏

[kingscyrus]

In the dim shadows of the ancient oak trees, Where the echoes of battles whisper on the breeze, I march with steadfast courage in my heart, My blade gleaming with a warrior's art.

Through the fields of honor, I make my stand, Fighting for kin, for home, for land, For in the end, it is not victory I seek, But the courage to face death with valor unique.

Let the trumpets sound, let the drums beat, As I face my fate, unflinching and complete, In the realm of legends, I'll eternally remain, A warrior of honor, unbridled by pain.

So let the flames of honor burn bright, As I fade into the eternal night, For in death, my spirit will forever soar And in the halls of the brave, I'll be reborn once more.

[jacesvelaryons]

Can I get uh…. A social media au of Tom Blyth x fem!rockstar!reader? Just a tad bit of self indulgence, I guess lmao.

But in all seriousness, I ADORE YOUR WORK AND IT IS STELLAR!! KEEP IT UP AND DONT STOP WRITING 🥰☺️👏

Tom Blyth x Fem!Rockstar!Reader

social media au

sorry this took some time but hope you like it! 🥺i’ll try to post more now that i’m feeling better and have some time. please continue to request, as always, my inbox is open.

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[konfizry]

you can make a compelling argument for alphen being from any of the five realms

Calaglia is where you start the game, where alphen built his first support system and also where he crash landed and slept for 300 years. (remember that naori's promise was to send him back to his home. unlikely that she even knew where he was from exactly but WHAT IF. arise is full of super convenient happenstance whats one more on top of the stack u know)

Cyslodia is where alphen experiences the death of his mentor (with all the psychological rewiring that comes with it) and also gets the armor he wears for a solid chunk of the game. said armor is also explicitly stated to tie him with Dahna's past

Menancia is where he ends up living a manifestly happy and fulfilling life after the end, as implied by the end credits (and pretty much confirmed by btd. if you go there)

Mahag Saar has really cool aesthetics. uhhh that's it. and also as you go through the adan ruins (i think.) alphen muses that it must have one been a bustling city. he doesnt really do that elsewhere?? the writers probably didn't mean for that too be him reminiscing a deeply entrenched memory or anything like that but if you wanted to interpret it that way, no one could stop you

Ganath Haros is Vholran's realm. so that. uh makes it cool? right??? alphen very much got stranded there. lost everything and then regained hope. freed himself, shionne and everyone else from vholran's mental grip (let's all pretend that that whole arc was written that way. it kind of wasnt, but. uh) Also it's the last Dahnan realm you visit. sooo if you choose to see alphen's journey as uh. him finding his way home then it maybe it works? (tho not quite because then go back to other realms and then to lenegis so. idk lol)

also he could be from a place that got caught in the blast of the first wedge's explosion and was vaporized. it solves a lot of problems actually. i mean like. i dont think the writers want us to think too much about where alphen is from. it's more convenient if we just go "it's all gone. nothing's left". that way we don't have to anguish about alphen walking into places he's known 300 years ago. because thats not what that game's about (maybe it should have been (at least in part) but it aint)

naturally im typing all this nonsense while keeping in mind that dahna's continents were not divided up into the 5 realms we know today so at the time of alphen's life and therefore being calaglian or haros ganathian wouldn't have meant anything to him or anyone who lived in that time. unless there was like a huge empire hanging about, and even then. like. yea it wouldnt have been the same you get me.

but ye guessing what alphen's place of birth might be is pretty much not the point. it was always about him being from Dahna. the rest does not really matter.

Doesn't stop me tho.

[jev-urisk]

A Musing Monday 🎐

Today I am musing on too many things! 😵‍💫

My brain feels crowded by little rabbit holes and I keep catching myself fully lost in them to the point where im getting salty or spicy or sad over imaginary scenarios. Ive been having more nightmares than usual lately, too. So I guess what im going to muse on today is processing things (I'll leave musing on innovation and the way its weaponized against the working class ((one of the rabbit holes🐰))for another monday)

WHY am I circle-thinking about stuff like 'what would I do if I was stuck in the past?' 'why didnt the industrial revolution provide more ease and profit for every class' or 'how would I convince strong people to protect me if I was in an apocolypse situation?' 😣💫

Now take this with a grain of salt, I may have a psych degree but im not a researcher or anything (just a nerd with autism 🤓); my brain is using fictional scenarios to practice processing🎭🧮. It feels the need to practice because there's a LOT within my brain thats unprocessed right now (hello trauma, hello issues with finding a better job, hello feeling very vulnerable lately). 👋😩

Our brains are solving machines geared to find the answer🤖, and when that answer is not immidiatly available we may experience things like nighmares and intrusive thoughts and maladaptive daydreams to try to get an angle on The Thing thats not processed.🔬

Thinking about The Trauma directly often puts the body in a stress mode thats not condusive to creative problem solving📉. Like being stressed is literally counterproductive to solving bc we go into 🔥survival mode🔥where fight flight etc are The Options Available. Imagining yourself in a historical fiction situation is not a 1-1 ratio to 'what exactly happened when abuse appeared in MY past' and but ya know what, its close enough for our brains to bring it up as a substitute. 🤷

And the fact that our brains have this reaction to The Bad Thing is interesting in itself. 🤔 Why are some bad memories just things that happened, and some are so triggering your mind would rather process terrifying nightmares every night than just.. face The Memory? 🫠 Like it's over, it can't get you now, the past is dead, right?

The solution? Well obviously it looks a bit different for everyone, particularly depending on where you are on your path. 🧭 Like if you have nightmares/intrusive thoughts/maladaptive daydreaming and dont uh... dont have any trauma coming to mind that aint my place to tell you whats next 🤐. I can only really mind my own gourd here and MY next step is Accelarated Resolution Therapy🗃, which is often used with war veterans with ptsd, to store my truama memories in a better, less triggering way. 📈

Well it turns out that memories like to be filed away by our senses 📂. Like memories sit best and retrieve easier (lets take xmas as an example🎄) if you're remembering the smell of xmas dinner, the sound of wrapping paper, the bite of the cold outside and the taste of hot coco✨️. When memories store poorly, as they usually do with trauma 😔, your body is not just remembering- it is acting as if You Are Still There. 💥📍

Infact to prepare for ART, I have had to purposly bring up all my old memories 😬, which has in turn signalled my brain to circle around pseudo truama thoughts when I'm 'at rest' in attempt to solve whats not really 'solvable' and with that weve gone fuuull circle on my musings here lmao ➿️

I got two weeks until that all important therapy session and until then I figure my brain is gonna keep trying to hampsterwheel 🐹🎡, but perhaps my loop will inspire something within you, or help you out of a loop, or perhaps make you realize you’ve been in a silent loop for awhile now.. 🔄👁👁

In anycase, thank your brain for me! Particularly if its doing these things I described above. It's trying so hard to help and protect you 🧠🫶 My apologies for giving it something so tough to chew on this Monday lmao 😅 Stay safe out there 🫂

(I don't have a taglist for my Monday posts yet, hmu if you want to be tagged on these zanny adventures plz)

[dogslosing]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER WIFE!!!!!!! @heavensorhells

words cannot begin to describe how much you and your friendship means to me. from staying up late, laughing until our stomachs hurt and there are tears in our eyes, ranting, writing, headcannoning, sharing tiktoks, driving each other crazy to our sacred movie nights just for me and you, there is nothing i wouldn't do for you. you are one of a kind and a true ray of sunshine. i absolutely love talking to you like i can literally talk to you about anything and everything. you're always there for me, day and night. you are one of the most talented human beings i have ever gotten the privilege of not only writing against, but getting to know and i will forever cherish you, your mind, and our kids. the worlds we have built together, the ships we have created.. nothing can compare. they really are my roman empire like there isn't a day that goes by where im not thinking about them. my muse is literally tied to yours, think we came out the womb together honestly with how many similarities we have and how easy it is to write and develop with you. its not easy finding someone who just gets you where it just clicks, but its so effortless with you, i dont even know how to thank you other than thanking god for bringing you into my life. thank you for being the person that you are and for dealing with my crazy.... you really are my soulmate :( heres to many more birthdays to come, i hope today is the greatest day ever because you truly deserve it. you are one of my bestest best friends and im eternally grateful for life that i get to call you that. i know no matter what, even long after we leave this hellhole (tbh you're honestly one of the only reasons im still here), i'll still have you and just so you know - you will always have me, too.. love love love you until the end of time, enjoy the day gf i hope you get everything you ever wanted and more!!!!

[starg1rlie]

HII! im quite new here so im unsure if this is right but

💍 with diluc? im very reserved despite that i am quite chaotic with people i'm close to— my only hobby is drawing.. i would've count videogames if it weren't for the fact i get so drained easily and have little time to spare for gaming i tend to come off as rude to new people

i quite adore loving people, i dont really hide it either oh you're close to me? ill hug you everytime i see you. you dont like physical affection? thats ok! i can just tell you how much you mean to me

that'll be all ty!!

(apologies for taking so long, nonnie! here it is! diluc might be a little ooc, and this is not proof-read, so if there are any mistakes/spelling errors, my apologies...nonetheless, enjoy! if you want to send in a 💍 too, that's fine by me! just fyi, it might take a while, depending on my motivation. this is the one thing i will slide for requests. anything else will not be accepted; please read pinned for more.)

going to an art museum

diluc's an art guy, change my mind. he suggested taking you out one night to one of his favorite museums, and he then proceeded to walk you down each art hall and pointing out the most famous paintings, or the ones that he enjoys admiring the most. he'll have his hand linked with yours, fingers laced through your own all the while. after a while of walking and chattering about art, the two of you will walk (or drive) home, diluc still gushing about the artworks he'd witnessed today.

being your model

as much as an art guy he is, he can't seem to sit still enough for your portraits of him. he doesn't mind being your muse, but seriously, why pick the most ridiculous poses to remain still in? he huffed, blowing a strand of his ruby-red hair away from his eyes, limbs struggling to hold themself up in the pose you'd previously suggested him to sit in. that was an hour ago, and even though he knew that art was a delicate process, a cramp was starting to form in his upper left leg and if he didn't readjust his pose soon, he'd probably collapse. for art, he told himself, sucking another breath in and wincing as the cramp got even worse. but please, hurry up.

splashing in rain puddles together

diluc likes rain, truly, he does. but put him outside in the rain when it's pouring? he'll act like a cat who is forced to take a bath. but he'll do it for you, if you insist. he was dragged outside, barely zipped into his raincoat and was immediately met by an onslaught of splashing. you had begun to jump around in the large rain puddles that formed in front of your house, splashing him (and his brand new raincoat) with mud and rain droplets. come, he said, holding his hand out for you. with hands linked together, the two of you splash in the rain puddles for approximately ten minutes before diluc insists you guys head in before the two of you catch pnemonia.

borrowing (stealing) his hoodie

not again, diluc thought to himself when he'd gotten up to get ready for his early morning jog. it was barely 6 o'clock, and he doubted you were awake. even if you were, you would never give up your (his) hoodie. this was the fifth time this week one of his favorite hoodies had gone missing. no one else lived in your apartment, so the only possible thief was, obviously, you. he crept into your shared bedroom and peered down at your sleeping form, all cozy in his sweater and tucked under the covers. i guess i can run without a hoodie, he told himself, shutting the door quietly behind him and settling on wearing a tanktop, even though the outside weather was below freezing in the mornings. the things you do for love.

staying in each other's arms

diluc may not seem as an affectionate man to strangers, but he is, behind closed doors. he doesn't mind PDA, but he's just a much bigger softie at home than he is outside. he snuggled closer against your form, taking in the scent of your freshly-washed T-shirt, laundry detergent filling his nose as he made himself more comfortable. you look so happy, you told him with a laugh, tucking a strand of his hair away. that's because i am happy, he responded simply and lifted hi head so he could peck your cheek.

watching fireworks together

diluc had long made plans to take you out on new years eve, so, now that the day finally came, it was no surprise how excited he was for it. he packed a picnic basket full of snacks and sandwiches, since you insisted to stay for the entire show, and an extra blanket and pillow, should you end up falling asleep (which he had no doubt would happen). the fireworks display only just started, but you gaped and gasped in awe at the beautiful array of colors in front of you. if he could sear this moment permanetely in his brain, he would; the way the fireworks sparkled reflectively in your eyes made his heart practically soar to his throat. it reminded him of all the reasons why he loved you. half-way through the show, he looked down once more, only to find that you had dozed off, head leaning against his shoulder, and mouth slightly agape, chest rising and falling to meet your intake of breaths. he chuckled softly to himself, draping the extra blanket around you and bringing you closer to him.

[mangoisms]

Im just soso obsessed with figuring out tim as a character rn i cant stop thinking abt it (ive always been a jason todd girlie but i read ur fic and that angsty twink latched onto me and refuses to let go)

I think u have a pretty good hold of him, especially bc in present comics writers are so intent on elevating tim in spite of other characters (barbara and her hacking skills for example, or any comparison made btw him and any robin, really) that most portrayals of him are so boring it makes me cry, while you on the other hand took the approach to write about his flaws (which are MANY) while still making him charming and handsome (he is so... !!!!)

To me flaws are also tied to not only the good traits of characters but also their core beliefs and ideals so what can you say abt tim?

I know he can be stupidly arrogant and patronizing at times, that he's always idolized the position and legacy of robin and constantly fights his insecurities with this role and his abilities for the job, that he can also be incredibly selfish or outright mean when it comes to being mindful of other people's feelings for the sake of logic (re when he didnt tell tam abt his dad not being actually dead), but at the same time i cant figure out exactly what he wants to do with his role as robin (or red robin) or why he would want to keep going when his main goals first were just making sure bruce wouldnt go down a dark path, im pretty sure he mentioned not being a vigilante forever but his actual goals remain unclear to me

(Im in the midst of reading his solo robin run but ive read red robin so give me a little room for this, you are definitely free to talk abt more of his comics bc i havent read everything yet and everything im saying should be taken with a grain of salt, video essays and the issues ive read can only get me so far)

He could have gained an inherent desire to help people after all his time as robin and the so fucked up shit that happened to him, maybe as a ways to channel his grief (much like dick and jason and bruce, im thinking abt identity crisis here) after he isnt "needed" as robin anymore, but at the same time that would be so tragic because he was supposed to be different to them, he was supposed to remark the importance of robin's role in helping be "batman's light" and not becoming like batman himself, its just so interesting and im still trying to really understand the extent of his character so id just. Love to get ur thoughts and musings on what fuels tim as a character and how you see him

(I dont have this problem with jason bc his moral conflict is very crystal clear to me and also so freaking juicy, his actions are logical and so understable, granted he also hasnt had as much screentime as tim and i can see when writers just Dont Get Him, misunderstanding the original intent of his character coming back etc etc etc, tim has grown and evolved throughout his tim as robin so this might factor in too)

Anyways sorry for the long post i hope this is alright !!! Loved ur fic to bits and ur writing is a blessing mwah

okay HI i am not exaggerating when i say that i have been thinking about this ask since you sent it HAHA tim is just a parasite in my brain he won't let go...

that's the funny thing about portrayals of him today... i feel like people want to elevate him as a potential batman or a character closest to bruce in terms of intelligence and detective skills, which isn't true at all, i think (because, exactly, you have babs Right There), and of course, narratively, this is all a good thing (this post covers it well, i think). it's in the same vein of people making tim out as the most dangerous person in the batfam, should he ever chose to go down the path, which i can partially blame red robin (2009) for with this panel....

(and i don't think that's true either. he has the potential to be dangerous just like any of the others but i think the ones to really be scared of are babs, dick, and cass but ANYWAY)

in general, red robin 2009 was a bumpy time for tim with bruce's death and his spiraling, but it seemed to really inform what they were going to do with his character. no more time for the civilian life, committing himself much more thoroughly to The Mission like bruce. which is, if you ask me, a negative progression of his character, which isn't bad, exactly, in terms of storytelling, but it feels like all we get are the 'good parts' now -- the intelligence, the status, the resources, and then we don't get to grapple with the consequences.

there were some in red robin 2009 but it was more tim accepting them and making no move to change his actions, which is fine, but now... idk. but i also don't touch modern comics with a ten foot pole so this could just be. Wrong. but that seems like what's going on. so i feel like that's where people get the idea of him being... idk not the Perfect Robin exactly but. you know?

no no yeah i totally agree!

re (because i want to break this down i'm telling you i have Been Thinking About This): at the same time i cant figure out exactly what he wants to do with his role as robin (or red robin) or why he would want to keep going when his main goals first were just making sure bruce wouldnt go down a dark path, im pretty sure he mentioned not being a vigilante forever but his actual goals remain unclear to me

exactly this. he did say that and i've reblogged this at some point i think, showing a panel from robin 1993 where he mentioned he wouldn't be a vigilante forever, then paralleled with that panel i put in earlier from red robin 2009. (there's this post, which touches on another thing about tim trying to set himself apart as having friends and thus not being bruce LOL which is another topic entirely)

i think that was what red robin 2009 was - a negative progression of his character, one that, again, we never really grapple with, especially as dc shoves robin back onto him now.

his motivations are an interesting thing to me, because he did start out coincidentally, saying batman needed a robin but he didn't assume he'd be that robin, it just kind of happened because he was there (well much more went into it but you know?).

but aside from that, i've never gotten the impression tim really does it for people. i mean batman in general has been about the detective work but i think towards the 80s/90s/00s there was a shift to focusing on the people but tim has never really struck me as a hero of the people. he's more about fighting crime than he is about helping people. i think it is partially informed by the genre - re detective comics, etc - but still. he's not like, say, peter parker/spider-man, who is a hero of the people, of the working class. the people are inherent to him as spider-man. tim does it out of duty and responsibility i think, being the light to batman's dark, of course, but he's also very much a teenage boy about being robin - the cool factor, pointedly mentioning he wants to let off steam by knocking around 'criminals' that kind of thing

which doesn't mean he's unfit for it but he operates in an odd grey area as far as his motivation goes, which i think is where we get red robin? he was defined by being robin and he did his job, then he got the boot. so it is very much an identity crisis but we're seeing that negative change as he changes for the worse, for something darker. i mean, yes, red robin 2009 was again bumpy because he was at a very low point in his life but in general, that run was dark for him.

editorial wise, we'd never get to see what they made of it because they did the reboot and started new-52 a few years after. but whether he'd continue being red robin/going down this path, or if he'd shed the identity and go for something lighter... it's hard to say.

i kind of like the thought that he'd change his identity and try to take a lighter approach, try to pull himself from bruce's influence, though with how it's all set it up, it seems fated that he'd end up there. there was red robin 2009, but then there was his sixteenth birthday incident (which sounds bad here and i'd read this before reading it myself but god when i read it it pissed me off so bad... really what turned me off bruce as a 'good' father figure, i can't lie). he ultimately ends up going back and becoming robin and this is the turning point for him where he agrees to enter this mindset that bruce wants him to be in. (this post talks mainly about timsteph but it is also a point to the end about the shift in his character and how that affected his relationships as well)

i mean i know red robin 2009 is marked by the grief of bruce's 'death' and a bunch of other Very Bad Shit but even when we got past that and he had his little 'Let me let in the people who love me because i am Not batman' he then proceeded to go a little surveillance crazy and make a hit list (something like that, it's been a while..) but. yeah.

ultimately, at the core of his character, i think he is good and compassionate and kind, so, even aside from all that (like the birthday incident), i think he would've made his way there eventually. it could maybe be why we see him returning to robin, if we wanted to try and pretend dc making him be robin is a completely normal and logical decision that they actually thought through. like a way to return to the bases and feel it out from there. though i still think they could've just. idk. given him a BREAK from vigilantism to figure it out. i'm a big proponent of civilians and their place amongst vigilantes and superheroes and i feel like tim's due a break, which is why i put that stuff in my fics. i do want to see him step back and try to figure out his life, because at one point, though robin 1993 was arguably defined by the balance between robin and tim drake and had plenty of civilian friends to keep things interesting, we don't see much as far as what he wants to do. which i suppose could be part of his relatability factor that tim drake, the character, was conceived with

but idk at this point they have to give us something 😭 anyway. this got VERY long i am very sorry.. i don't mind long asks either but i might've overshot my response... alas. i also hope i more or less answered your question??? if not feel free to slide back in here and talk to me! i rambled a bit here and it's like. 3am rn i'm scheduling this to post because i wanted to get it all written Now and. yeah.

thank you SO much very happy to hear you're enjoying everything <333 hope you continue to enjoy :**

[127tyong]

ppl can be very weird like im sure every writers has put lots of warning for every fics yet they still read it and give a bad comments(?????????) 😐 like wtf did u expect???

and yea ai update me how have you been recently

and what you are up to? 😻

-🍬

sooo i mentioned this before but my bf and i broke up.

actually, i hung out with him today (as friends) and (very tmi) he got hard when he saw me LMAO. my friends and i like to call this "pavlov's dick" where whenever a guy sees a girl he's fucked in the past (especially true with exes or one night stands), he gets hard.

i never mentioned this before, but i sold my nct collection... for a man. 😭 i was planning on continue writing but maybe once every 2 months. i dont really see my writing as like... nct themselves, (ofc it makes it more fun to write with a muse in mind, but i digress) but i think of them as just muses. but yeah, tbh i dont really "stan" them anymore, just a casual listener.

what did u think about "shalala" tho? tbh it wasnt my cup of tea, but the more tiktoks i see, the more i like it...

[chrimsone]

hey i remembered to post a chapter here for once!

lets see what do i want to rant about today? How about first, funny titles. I picked Ember kind of on a whim. Based off this song because i just really love SiHanatsuka and i'll take any chance to referenced their music. So good. But like well after actually WRITING the chapter i was just kinda zoning out at work and noticed an unintended pattern. Static and Ember. The beginning sparks of their respective elements. I didn't even MEAN to make that kinda connotation but now that i have im all here for it!

There's also the fun Light emote-y stuff. so the thing is kinda like. Im giving Rin my aphantasia. Im a sucker for fantasy manga and isekai r always fun. often times in those stories they give their magic system a visual aspect. after all its pretty easy to just be like 'yeah just imagine the thing and youll be okay'. the problem is -- what about the folk who have issues creating images in their mind (me)? So this is really just a big middle finger to that system. im giving Light the same system, but pointing out how it's really not that 'easy' for everyone. i know its hard to come up with a proper system and usually the fantasy theme is more or less a vector for something else, but it just makes me ANGY how authors dont try to explore these overlooked options.

so its kinda like. a lil bit of a character break for Phoenix to reference a meme but like. I had to. it's a worm in my brain that would cause me psychic damage if i didn't indulge in it. Into the Void had a few of those because i just HAD to. I like doing it because idk, keeps things a lil bit on the more lighthearted side! i do wanna try balancing out humor n serious stuff with this story so i let these worms thrive yknow

oh yeah and the funny shooting scene was what held back this update even longer than it should've been lol. i had something else in mind but i just dont know enough about shooting guns to properly convey it in at least a semi-realistic state. i nearly scrapped the whole scene but from what i DID research, i wanted to include that so there's still a lil bit! lol it made me feel like a real author for a bit cause ik so much stuff gets cut in the final piece.

i think that'll be all of my funny musings for this chapter! im working on the next one slower than expected x-x my dumb ass pattern of writing only during work (hate my job wanna get paid to write lol) but it's been suuuuuuper hectic the last few weeks so i havent had time to write. I really gotta dedicate a specific time to writing

[httpshujii]

WORK SPOUSE !

Nurse!Atsumu x Nurse!reader

ᯓ Did he mention he loves you?

"Well aren't you a sight for sore eyes."

A certain blonde muses as he leans against the reception counter at the entrance of the hospital. A lopsided smirk rests on Atsumu's thin lips, heavy lids casting a spell upon his brown eyes.

This isn't fair. He gets to look like some God despite having very, very limited hours of sleep. Unlike you. With a frown on your face, hair tied messily, dark circles sagging under your eyes, and nothing but a cherry lip balm that hopefully brightens the rest of your pale face.

"Shut up, Miya."

"Awe, I ain't lyin' though."

He doesn't miss the way you scrunch your nose, knowing he hit that sweet spot that ignites all the flames of butterflies that tickle your insides.

And as if he isn't already perfect, he hands you a cup of coffee, knowing that you hate night shifts and desperately need sleep but your dedication to helping others as much as possible is more important.

"How was my lovely wife's day today?"

Almost spitting out your coffee, you ended up choking on it instead, coughing as he cackles.

"Wife?!"

"You're basically my work wife."

With raised brows, you demand an explanation. He just shrugs and tucks a stray strand of your hair behind your ear, as if he's done it a thousand times before.

"Y'know, we talk all the time, have breaks together, work the same shifts, help each other out, we gossip."

He lists, going on and on about every small thing you guys do. He's stupid, you want to just- squish his stupid pretty face and kiss him. But thanks to God, you've been blessed with ultimate awkwardness, so that will never happen.

"That doesn't make me your wife."

You counter and he just smiles. Not a smug smile, not a teasing one either. But rather a genuine, sweet smile that has you melting. The frown on your face wavers, hands loosen their tight grip around your mug, and your heart threatens to burst through your ribs.

"Forgot to mention that I basically love you."

Zero. Zero is the number of seconds given for you to react before he smooches your smooth lips, it's quick but sweet, so sweet, in fact, that you're so sure you're getting cavities. He tastes so good.

But he's Atsumu Miya, a tease. So just as you're about to react, he pulls away. Like the stupid tease he is.

"Miya!"

You exclaim, body stiff again and brows furrowed. And zero plagues your mind again the moment you feel his warm hands massage into your shoulders.

"Oh you poor thing," your stomach does somersaults, he's so evil. How dare he speak in that tone, in that pitch? "so stressed from everything, let me help you darlin'. "

"If you don't stop I'm gonna die."

"And what is it exactly that 'm doin' ?"

"Something," you answer, breathless as you roll your head back onto his shoulder, "I don't know what it is but you're doing something."

"Just helpin' my pretty wife out, nothin' outta the ordinary."

You sigh, as if you've been a married couple of over twenty years and he's being annoying again. But you let him help you, you let him touch you, kiss you, even though anyone could walk through the hospital at this ungodly hour, you still let him. Because for once, the universe is siding with you, and you hope this will last forever.

if you cant tell, i have writer's block :D

ᯓ SPECIAL MESSAGE FOR . . . @natdu

HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY MAMAAAAA!!! Where do i even start, istg i wrote smth for u just yesterday BUT NOW YOU'RE 24 GASP!! i wish you all the luck and love and happiness in the world bcs ur a literal sweetheart, you make me sososo happy and im so grateful to have you, im so grateful for you sticking with me ever since i started on here. i dont think id be where i am today without you and i love you so much for that. im so sorry for being ignorant on ur actual bday and bombarded you with my problems even though i planned a whole happy birthday thing to say in ur inbox, but im stupid :D the point is, you never deserve to have ur birthday forgotten bcs ur wonderful and so amazing and strong and you're a great doctor and online parental figure. i and many others appreciate you for making time in ur schedule to interact with all of us. i love you so much 🫶🫶

[jeoyrv]

1. The concept is rare. No twin chara makes me be the one and only.

2. My squad that suits on me.

3. 8/10

4. Classy and rare.

5. Joy Red Velvet.

6. I wish i did it.

7. instagram/_imyour_joy

8. Here Joy's photo.

9. Joyie

10. Active on Red Velvet, being brand ambassador, shooting variety show as MC.

11. As long as they talk with manners, i think i dont mind.

12. Haha, this is 'jamet' pic.

13. Feel my rhytm challengge.

14. Her voice.

15. With wendy unnie.

16. So annoying.

17. Always think before do something, dont embarrassed Joy.

18. Im done, hehe.

19. Depends their comfort, i think upchar or not as long as they dont harm the muse, i think its fine.

20. Never.

21. Ofcourse Joy.

22. According to the muse.

23. On Twitter, Whatsapp, and LINE.

24. Luhan, 9 months.

25. Confess to my crush.

26. My side accounts.

27. My boyfriend accounts.

28. My crush is my boyfriend, Sean.

29. Cute message i get today.

30. Thanks for coming into my life when i really need someone to talk everyday.

31. I had.

32. Somebody Out There by A Rocket To The Moon.

33. Drink because i love sean. 🍺

34. Taecyeon, 2 years.

35. For now, Just RP.

36. Never.

37. I think when i cant on, i just take a rest from RP.

38. x.com/Webdy

39. @TheVodcaz @Clarionation @Museu @PRKRFAMS

40. Jaehyun.

41. Im on healing now.

42. Sure.

43. 4/10

44. Cuz he ghosted me.

45. Just "Ibe"

46. Kinda annoying, sorry.

47. Someone with show off character.

48. I did.

49. Him.

50. I have.

51. Soon.

52. Drink 🍺

53. Drink 🍺

54. Drink 🍺

55. This meme

56. Drink 🍺

57. Maybe 10.

58. Never.

59. x.com/Haechap

60. 1 year.

61. Im happy, no problem dude.

62. Keychain, Book, Flowers, Tumblr, Earbuds.

63. I forgot actually but maybe around 1 million.

64. Aesthetic account.

65. doesnt have to be like that.

66. x.com/Joyrv

67. I never had.

68. Perhaps 7/10

69. The topic.

70. I want.

71. I did.

72. Like i want to say good bye to world.

73. Maybe stalk with private account.

74. I had.

75. Timeline.

76. Victim of the war.

77. J

78. Bingo

79. I always feel comfortable.

80. Always stay with the concept.

81. Rofen.

82. Ejie; bucin. Kalyn; cutie. Jecline; jamet. Xiano; humble.

83. Degber.

84. Ejie

85. Tejef

86. Jeanne

87. Calvin

88. Abee

89. Moses

90. Grexey

91. Rofen

92. x.com/taehygung, aa kasian aa minta 100 aa.

93. x.com/cenctil, ayo muncul pengen deketan.

94. Nothing yey.

95. Be solid member for the muse.

96. Sexy and cute at the same time.

97. x.com/Jeoyrv, I have done my best today, I must always be happy. I will take care of myself as best as possible so that I don't get sick, because I love myself.

98. So cool, but too much question 😭

99. Please stop on 100 question.

100. NO!

[spacetimeodysseyofjane]

jane and her musings

i was about to go to sleep but felt like writing something. it's 9:13 pm, i'm listening to sweet soul review by pizzicato five. this song just popped out of my mind a while ago. i knew this for so long but i just learned the title today :D suddenly brought back a lot of memories... i miss being a kid and not caring at all.

whenever my relatives see me today, they are surprised because i've changed so much. to them, i was the quiet timid girl who doesnt mind being alone and not talking to people. imagine their shock when i start a convo and engage with them. it's as if they are seeing a different person...

i know im different now... there are times like this when I can't help but think if my young self would recognize me if she ever meets me in the present? Would she like me? or would she ignore me? :D

extra emo because im on my period and im getting older by the day. all i have now are memories, and it makes me sad because i cant and wont experience those moments again.

i'm legit on my own, and it's a proof that im an adult now! so many responsibilities that i need to juggle. though i feel like ive been taking care of myself for the longest time already but living independently is a different thing.

last weekend, i parked the car properly and i did it by myself, i realized that i have always done things on my own. and it's quite exhausting. im trying to remember if there was a moment in my life that people actually offered to help me, cant recall anything hahaha. but yeah it's also my fault coz i dont like being dependent to anyone. labo nu?

whenever im feeling this way, i guilt myself into thinking that im living my best life and i shouldnt complain ahaha!

im super messy these past few days and once i declutter, everything will be better...

lol am i back to posting random long messages?

i'll be adding a new tag: janestrospection hahaha corny kainiz

[elytrafemme]

ok firstly HI. HI HI HI <333 HI :D

REALLLLL RAEL ASF okay my faves would be like: dog years, letter to God (1974), the end, letter to God (1983), lonely is the muse, arsonist, life of a spider (draft), letter to God (1998)

I LUV READING UR THOUGHTS ON ONLY LIVING GIRL IN LA & HOMETOWN ESPEC when i have listened to the album those two have not been my faves but like... I appreciate the opening being a six minute song u are so real for this and also hometown the refrain the way she sings it is like DEVASTATING augh. Ugh. YEAH!

DOG YEARS IS CRAZY when she was dropping the insta promos i was like oh this is going to be devastating to the culture and it WAS. it's kind of unlocked things in me i fear its like soo good.

EXACTLY EXACTLY WITH THE LETTERS TO GOD EXACTLY!!!!!!!! I think 1983 was my OG fave and agree that i dont love 1998 as much but i think like... first of all crazy cool conceptually to have those but the progression going thru it like u said of I wanna be sick I don't wanna be somebody they're tryna get rid of -> I don't wanna be sick I don't wanna be somebody you're wanna get rid of -> You have to be sick I've finally found somebody I don't wanna get rid of . ACTUALLY SEVERELY FUCKED UP OF HER.

the end originally didnt hit as crazy for me and then i relistened to it when the album dropped and i was like what the FUCK man. ending the song on "my treatment starts today" and also making that the first single is genuinely like. halsey u are a fucking genius

Darwinism is such an incredible track when i was first listening to it i was like. the snippet led me in one direction and then i heard the song and was like this is a different direction and iactually love where they took this and i also love them. like musically such an incredible song

LONELY IS THE MUSE IS MY TOP SONG THIS YR IM SO SURE OF IT ive not been listening to it as much since the album dropped (ill explain in a moment) but it is one of the best songs ever written imo. so where do i go in the process when i'm just an apparatus <- this lyric is maybe my fave but even just the refrain being i always knew i was a martyr and that Jesus was one too but i was built from special pieces that i learned how to unscrew so i could always reassemble to fit perfectly for you or anybody that decides that im of use (i might have mistyped some of that srry) like THEY GET IT. THEY FUCKING GET IT!!!! When i first heard it i was like oh halsey just transcribed my life crisis rn ok cool awesome. and then its all i listened to

Shout out to arsonist when i heard a song was going to be fiona apple inspired i was SO EXCITED and like. Fuck. that song is so crazy good i love it so bad. i love the different directions they took all these songs in theyre so unique like fuckkkkk

life of the spider is quite seriously the only thing i have listened to since the album dropped. like occasionally ui'll listen to TGI or like... Two other songs. but i have been looping life of a spider nonstop. u understand me halsey understands me but like this song... again is like oh let's just transcribe mare's current thought process and life crisis and make it a beautiful incredible song and im like okay no for sure. cause i'm the spider in the kitchen weaving webs through every year and i worked real hard on the last one but the last one got me here i'm minding my own business but my presence makes you curse i should be getting better but i'm only getting worse and God how dare i even thinking of choosing here to die cause then i'm just a problem that you have to take outside <- GENUINELY THE MOST INSANE LYRICS EVER WRITTEN. BEST LYRICS EVER WRITTEN. I love this fucking song top 5 songs ever for me like. fuck them seriously for this but also. God. GOD.

NO NO NO TRUE LIKE I FEEL LIKE UGh so much artistry was put into this album they put so much care into every song!!! which is why even though there are some songs that are not as faves for me (only living girl hometown & hurt feelings i am so sorry beautiful beautiful nation) this album is truly a no skip and every single song especially those three have so much love and vision put into them. i'm literally writing a zine article abt this album and im like i have so much shit to say how do i even do this........ also i appreciate what u said about the album order bc i was originally on the fence about whether it was like Purposefully ordered but reading ur thoughts and thinking through it like. yeah! yeah. there's nothing i would change here.

and on the tiktok note genuinely like while halsey obviously does write bops and is a pop artist so they have songs on this album that are like... ego and panic attack where i can see this being like The Hits, it's also so important that this album really ISN'T made to be like a host for a bunch of radio hits. so many of these songs are not palatable for that! they're honest and brutal in a way that can't be easily like commercialized and i dont know thats really meaningful to me too

SORRY THIS IS SUCH A LONG RESPONSE but i love hearing ur thoughts on music always i am a very loyal arowrath post reader and i saw all ur stuff about TGI and im like well i need to be brave and reach out to him its very imperative for me at this time. sorry for my lengthy yap hehe i hope u are doing so well beams at u!!! <3333333

ps i havent heard any of the extra tracks or the vma performance hwich i need to because my friend told me that victoria de angelis from måneskin is bass for that performance and like i gotta be there man. i gotta

i have been deeply appreciating ur TGI posting and was wondering what ur fave songs off of it are !! - mare

HI MARE im free from academia for the day (FINALLY) so i can answer this yayayaayy

as of right now. and this is in album order And im about to list off like a good third of the album sorry in advance but: only girl living in la, dog years, letter to god 1974, letter to god 1983, darwinism, lonely is the muse, and life of the spider

first of all. only girl living in la is an INSANE way to start an album. Like i knew i was absolutely in for it seeing the track list and that we were Starting with a 6 minute long song i was like Oh she loves me specifically she knew id been tormented by songs that are 2 minutes long for too long. i dont think ive ever finished the first song on an album and been, like, scared to listen to the rest of it before (good thing)

dog years. i canteven say anything yet Like theres no words. probably one of my favorites out of my favorites

letter to god 1974 and letter to god 1983 are twins to me. (well triplets shoutout letter to god 1998 no disrespect to my girl its just the first two are my faves personally) Thank u halsey for addressing the "wanting to get really sick so people would pay attention to you" to "getting really sick and it turns out people kinda dont gaf if ur in ur 20s about it" pipeline

hometown- is anyone else trying so hard to escape their hometown or is it just me and halsey and gerard "i know im never getting out of belleville" way. also i love her voice on this one

darwinism- i was reading it as being about physical disability but apparently she said it was about neurodivergence either way is anybody else feeling ostracized from the rest of society or is it just me and halsey out here

lonely is the muse- INSANE FUCKING SONG vocally lyrically musically everything. when i found out there was gonna be a Whole Album and lonely is the muse was on it i realized i was going to die.and then i did. <3

life of the spider- i knew there was a tori amos song on the album and the one tori amos song im really familiar with is me and a gun so of course i was terrified .and i was right to be. love a song i cant listen to without having a panic attack one of my favorite genres. insanely haunting song i cant really listen to this one casually yet or possibly ever i have to like sit down and prepare. this morning i saw a spider in my bathroom and started crying. tomorrow more of the same. "favorite" not in the way where i listen to it a lot favorite in the way where i can barely listen to it at all

also one more thing i feel like in general the album is organized very well does that make sense. like the songs are in a specific order that is good and makes sense. only girl living in la -> ego -> dog years -> letter to god 1974 is an insane run of songs generally let alone first on the album but also it like. makes sense why theyre in that order. also darwinism -> lonely is the muse -> arsonist -> life of the spider i can say the same of. like yeah thats the exact order those songs should go in. this is really not a Shuffling Album to me at ALL theres a specific order they all go in and i really like that Bc half the time These Days it feels like everythings so focused on having 2 minute long songs with 15 second clips that blow up on tiktok that its always nice to have an album thats like. Ok thankgod they actually give a fuck about this and its not optimized for social media analytics

thank u for reading My essay ^___^<3 u sent this 5 hours ago when i was working on my school stuff and i waslike oh thank god i get to talk about music later. A little treat for meeee to rewind and such.And then immediately i wrote A lot of sentences but, like, for fun this time so it counts as Rewinding

[pertinax--loculos]

Where's that post from Undine when you need it re: looking forward to a scene so much that when you get to it you can't bring yourself to write it. Eurgh, I fucking love this scene the way it is (unwritten) and I wanna portray it like that but actually doing it feels so mechanical and it's magic and I don't wanna even though I really do wanna and--

[outfitinspirationetc]

would very much like to stop being in love